I BROKE myself - but repairs are progressing nicely
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Take care of yourself Ben, you have taken a massive step by identifying and accepting the issues in your life. ❤️
Honestly, if I were near you, and you didn’t find it inappropriate, I would basically be giving you a bear hug, and telling you how grateful I am for your work and your honesty. So just… thank you.
Take each challenge as it comes, enjoy the peace in between. Give yourself time much love
I broke myself at 27 years of age as a Carpenter im 50 today and still in the trade as my boss. Our brains are damn near copys, i also have to learn new stuff all the time, im now into building my first bass also planning some furniture in walnut. I have done alot in my years sadly my mindset still wants me to be number one, the best in all my projects. You opened my eyes with the adhd angle❤. I love all of your videos and glad that you lift the mental health issues. Hope you feel better everyday. Sorry if my English spelling sucks i am a Swede.
Ben .,just sending love
@@christianarvidsson7359 hahaha you didn't misspell a single word. I wish most Americans had your spelling and grammar.
Ben, as an amateur luthier with full-time ADHD, I have been consistently inspired by your ability to focus on making world-class instruments whilst also managing business functions at Crimson and Vintage Tool Shop. You're an unspeakably valuable asset to the world of professional and hobbyist luthiers, so making sure you're happy and healthy benefits all of us. And this kind of video helps those of us facing similar struggles more than you know. Thank you for what you do, and I wish you the best!!!
It takes balls to open up like this man
I’m proud of you .
Never mind the bollocks
Thank you for sharing your progress with us. I find it almost sad that you feel you have to justify things to us due to change. I can't speak for everyone, but I'm here because I enjoy what you provide. I don't live in a creators world and can't begin to comprehend what it encompasses. Do what interests you. I'll enjoy whatever ride it is.
I am about to be 56 and have struggled with ADHD all my life but have never given it much thought or ANY priority. Hearing you talk about your struggles and help is, in fact, inspiring to me. I also self medicate with food, nicotine and caffeine. My life revolved around the last two. I believe you have inspired me to seek help. Thank you for your openness and honestly.
You could literally be talking about my life, this kicked me right in the feels. Burnout, relationship collapse, depression, burnout again, undiagnosed ADHD. Glad you’re on the mend ♥️
All of this aside, still no excuse for leather trousers 😂
@@GavinBuchan77 🤣🤣
yeah! me too!
Check!
I can relate. Over 12 years ago I took early retirement, for the first time I was running away from something rather than moving towards a goal. Needless to say, this course happened without much of a plan. I still don't consider myself recovered, and no one seems to notice.
You are not alone, I am sure this community can relate. I certainly know I do. We love you.
This is still a great channel, you're still a Fantastic Artisian and I hope by God's grace everything goes well with you, your family, staff and plans
Ben, you are a total inspiration to everyone who meets you. I was amazed at your approachability when I met you at the Birmingham Guitar Show. Learning how to restart, restore, repair and respond to your own needs is the biggest challenge anyone can make. But you clearly have an amazing team around you. Take your time on every step. Thanks for all you do. The Ginger Drum Tech
Thank you for posting this. I’m currently laying in bed when I should have got up a few hours ago to do something which I used to enjoy.
I hadn’t realised but a lot of the things you mention at the start really hit home. I’m burnt out.
I bought a guitar a few years ago and immediately came to TH-cam for videos on them where I found yours, I now realise that the guitar was another in a line of purchases I’ve made for the initial feeling of joy over the purchase, I’ve not played it for probably 18 months but I have stuck with your videos.
I realise this video isn’t about me but you posting it has made me look within. I hope you can manage to get on top of the distractions and give yourself more fuel for the fire! Thank you again.
This is a huge reminder of the fact that passion and commitment come with a cost. Take your time to fully recharge. You’re a good man Ben.
Thanks for sharing this Ben, not enough people talk about things like this. We'll still be here to watch what you do in the future...
Big share that. Sounds very much like a work in progress. Aren’t we all. Sending lots of support, as a simple audience member. Take your time, do not commit back too soon.
It's good to hear an update, for better or worse. My life has been one of getting promoted into jobs I can't cope with, making myself ill, and resigning to start again. I'm going through it at the moment, stepping back from a management role. I'm realising through a group of people where I work it could be ADHD and something I can manage. I need to work out how to get a professional diagnosis though. Hope to see you on the up again.
Quality over quantity - you always provide such high quality content. You cant pour from an empty cup and theres absolutely no shame in needing a break or having to shift focus.
Youre an incredibly talented luthier, seem like a very nice guy and deserve the life youve worked so hard to achieve.
You owe no-one an explanation. Rest up. Take care and come back stronger for it - from a fellow adhder who cannot stand boredom 🤘
Ben, thank you for your honesty and courage in sharing this. I could see it was not easy for you to film. This was difficult for me to watch at times. I was diagnosed with ADHD 2 years ago at the age of 51, and so much of what you shared I could identify with. So many ideas going on my head, so many things I want to do, and yet many days when I am struggling to just keep my head above water, putting in 200% effort, but getting less than 50% out. During the covid lockdowns your channel was a saving grace for me. My dad who is now 95 year old, and his younger brother are both violin makers, and had given me some of their tools and wood as they are sadly unable to make violins anymore. I had all this stuff and didn't know what to do with it, until I discovered Crimson Guitars channel. I have played guitar since age 9, but it never occurred to me to try and make a guitar. From what I have learned from you Ben, I have now built two electric guitars a Telecaster and a 7 string, have just started work on a multilaminate through neck carved top guitar, made 4 cigar box guitars, undertaken numerous headstock repairs and refurbs. I don't think I would have had the confidence to do any of these things without what I have learned from this channel. So I just wanted to say thank you! Take time to heal, give yourself grace, learn to say no and look after yourself. 🙏
Ben, one can not show enough appreciation for the lessons, skills and humble nature you have shared in the past. But this half hour of just you sharing an honest thought process of yourself and how you're working towards a better you is truly commendable.
Many of us have a facet of ADHD, Autism or other disorders that we deal with daily. It is not always diagnosed or recognized personally and when issues arise we do not always have a path out. Introspection and humility are paramount in pursuing freedom from the hidden chains that either hold us back or in some cases drag us along a winding, slippery curve of a road. You seem to have the bull by the horns here and though at times it will be a twisting battle I do believe that you possess the meddle to forge this newly exposed Ben into the 'Happiest MF'ng Grumps' your future grandkids deserve.
I look forward to your adventures in learning new skills because I have learned quite a few tricks from you in the past years from the builds, teardowns and repairs you have shared with us.
Oh, do not at anytime give up on the museum, that's legacy capital there. It's a major 'Pay it forward' move and will not only inform but more importantly it will inspire.
Again, thank you.
Whilst I am heartbroken to learn of your struggles with mental health, I am beyond excited to see you walking positively through the daily battle. I cannot enunciate how sad I am that you have to fight this battle, but you will win and come out stronger on the other side. Much love from me and my family.
I’m 28 years old, just broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years and have been diagnosed with ADHD in the past 2 weeks, this had me absolutely balling crying and filled with hope at the same time. I don’t think I’ve had as much time to grieve as you have Ben but you’re inspiring me to pursue what’s important in my life.
Thanks Ben, long time viewer.
Bro, look after yourself man. You’re not alone mate.
Thank you mate for being so honest. I really thought you were living a dream life that I could only be jealous of, as would love to have your skills and knowledge and be able to do everything you do with your hands and brain to make guitars into a joy to play and admire. However, people - to my surprise - think my life is a joy as I found out in the last year, and that my head is fine and as such I get to hear all their problems and they tell me they wish they could do what I do. It just goes to show a) how good we are at putting up a front to the world and even our best friends at times, and b) how even the apparently happiest people, very often are not that simple to define and have inner turmoils. Glad you're on the road to the "sphincter of light" lol. Keep a sense of humour and hopefully you will find the new, improved you at the end. Love your channel and love Crimson and buy a load of your tools. You are doing brill mate but take care of yourself first and foremost 👍👍👍👍
Hi Ben, hopefully you can feel the outpouring of love and concern for you on here. We’re all routing for you mate. I e said it before on a few messages, your videos are what got me through the covid years, they were the escapism I needed from all the sh1t that was going on at the time. Realising you have a problem is the first step and seeking help, is the second. It’s a long road but you’ll get there and remember, your health comes first, your videos can wait, unless they’re helping get through things. Take care of yourself!
As cliche as it may seem, you are the sole reason that I am nearing the finish of my first ever guitar, a scratch build in the ggbo and I’ve loved every second of it! I first saw you at Makers Central in 2018, I’m not a player or even a skilled woodworker, but since then I was hooked, I think I must have watched most of your builds numerous times (mostly the silky oak 🤤) and have learned from every single video! We all love you Ben! ❤
Huge respect for sharing. I can't imagine the stress of trying to keep so many people happy... Take your time, we'll be back when you are
Mental health is important, and sadly still quite a taboo for a lot of people to talk about - or even express.
Living with a mental health issue isn't easy. Depression suck the life out of you.
I wish you all the best.
Ah yes, my old acquaintance, the black dog, who sucks the life and confidence out of you…
Could it perhaps be the attention deficit disorder be a significant part of this burn out? Of course it could be a positive thing for your creativity but I don't think so(BTW thanks TH-cam for putting commercials in a very personal and emotional video yes I'm being sarcastic) put this comment in before the end of the video so...
Massive respect. It takes an immense amount of strength to put this video out. You are on point about burnout and how it comes in many different forms. All the best in your self-healing 👍
Take the best care, Ben. You are very influential. Living in a small city in New Zealand I walked into my local guitar shop and asked to talk to their luthier about fret leveling and I referred to you, Ben, and he immediately said "I watch Crimson Guitars too". My very best wishes, Mark
(And I shall try to stop sourcing dopamine from a carb rich diet! Thank you!)
Love you, Ben. This self reflection and honesty with yourself is refreshing to see. Inspiring.
Last year I came to your workshop for 2 weeks course after having a burn-out myself and found relief in working with you and your team (Josh, Sean, Mat, Ricky, Sophia...) In that great environment you created. Probably also in inhaling large amount of wood dust. Every situation is different, take care and take the time you need to get better. Cheers from France
I'm no expert but I thought you seemed to be happiest during the lockdown- building your home workshop and building outlandish but amazing guitars. Going back to the factory (which in itself is a great achievement, going from a bloke in a shed to a factory, school and tool supplier, something you deserve to be proud of) seemed to take some of the sparkle out of things. All the other problems couldn't have helped either.
I'm glad you now know the direction you want to go in and what you have planned for the museum, which I will visit one day.
Though I've been slightly obsessed with guitars for nearly fifty years now, yours is the only guitar channel I've subscribed to- it's always interesting, always informative, and sometimes crazily innovative.
I wish you all the best for the future
Taking the time to examine one's life is something few people do. It can be frightening and the conclusions can be distressing. Twenty five years ago I came to a terrifying realisation about my own life; every aspect of my life was turned on its head and the next 18 months were incredibly hard. Since the time i have been so much happier compared to the years before. I hope your journey brings you peace and joy xx
I'll take 18 months of pain if the end result is the same improvement that you saw.. thank you so much!
Long time follower here… Thanks for sharing, man!! Iv been recently diagnosed with ADHD (38yo) and hearing your “testimonial” helped me to understand a bit more a out the process. Cheers!
Hey man. I just saw this. I’m all these things: T2d, ADD, guitar builder, dad, divorced, anxiety, depression.
It’s brave to be this open and honest.
We’re out here. Lots of us. Creativity and all these things you’re beating yourself up for are connected.
Be kind to yourself.
I learned so much from you Ben. Thank you! Sending you good vibes
Ben Crowe the person is who matters, not Ben Crowe the face of Crimson. I have told my children one thing over and over and that is to LET LOVE RULE. I don't just mean love for another person and certainly not love of self but love of life. I absolutely love making. You led me here brother and I can't tell you what that means to me.
You have a knack for getting people into what you're into. I seem to have that as well. I don't know that I would have ever discovered that about myself if not for you. I just want to say thank you for that! Peace & Love my brother
It's great to hear that you are on the way back up and you are taking control of your physical and mental health. I'm looking forward to following along as you take the channel in a new direction. Above all else, please take care of yourself and those closest to you.
Just caught this video Ben and wanted to let you know I’m always a phone call away if you ever want a listening ear mate! Hope you’re doing better and so happy to hear you’re on the path to happiness once more, can totally empathise with that overwhelming feeling you were talking about here! Stay safe, take care of yourself and reach out if you need anything mate 👍
Very brave video to have posted & you deserve a great deal of respect for this.
Hopefully it will help yourself & others & wish all the best with making progress.
Man now I feel guilty for ribbing you in the comments about finishing the hand tool build... It's good to hear that you're trimming out the distractions in your life and focusing, so now you can get back to finishing the hand tool build! Haha I'm taking the piss. Love you Ben! Oddly enough, you're the second youtube person I watch who recently realized they have ADHD and have talked about their symptoms and how much the medication has been helping them. It really makes me think I should talk to a doctor about it, because so much of it lines up with issues I've had for a looooong time. If I really do have ADHD, and the meds can help as much as I hear that they can, it could make a huge difference in my life. The fact that I struggle to even go to the doctor to look into it also reinforces my thought that it I could have it...
I recently visited the Workshop/Factory in Dorchester and I was blown away by the fact that you have built all that in the short time that you have - and I think anyone would be - it's an unbelievable achievement . I can only imagine the amount of stress, blood, sweat and tears involved in the day to day. Take a bow man you're an incredible human. Not very many people could do what you've done.
Hang in there, life has become difficult and it's not your fault. COVID, inflation, corporate greed, apathy and unaffordability have taken a toll on many of us. Homes, food, clothing and other necessities have become overpriced and it's easy to feel like you're a slave to a system that only benefits the rich. I've become bitter and I've lost a lot of friends because of it... it's only more recently that I'm learning to let things go, mostly because of loneliness and a desire to make friends. I'm not alone in this boat, I know I probably hit the nail on the head for many of us. I'm trying my hardest to focus on kindness towards others... a smile, a compliment and being less hard on myself. Love yourself. Take care Ben.
So sorry to hear you’ve been enduring such troubled times Ben, hope the green shuts of rebalance grow swiftly and equilibrium is restored
I'll be honest - your mental health is paramount to anything. While GGBO and your earlier build series's (is that a word?!) Inspired me to become a luthier and delve into the world of content creation, it isn't worth doing continuously and aggressively if it guts your bank account and kills your desire. Many of us have "picked up the torch" as it were of build video series content due to your inspiration. Many of us will carry on, and I for one will be forever grateful for what you did to inspire me to take that leap.
Take care of yourself man. I love you brother.
Big Unit
Hey Ben, I just found your videos a couple of weeks ago. I've been a woodworker for a long time, but recently got into playing bass and am in the process making my own. Your videos have been invaluable. I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate all the work you've put in. I've also got ADHD, and wasn't diagnosed until I was in my late 20s, a little over a decade ago. Figuring that out and addressing it was one of the most important things I've done in my life. You've got this, and you'll come out the other side better than ever.
take comfort in knowing you ar5e able to make a living out of your passion , you get to do something you love every day , thats big and many many people don't get to do that , so focus on the positives in your life , your passions both work and family
It's wonderful to hear that you are finding your coping mechanisms. I am extremely happy to see that you have taken the steps to seek help. This will be an exciting time for you, Ben, but not all excitement is what you would expect. One day at a time, my friend!
Health and family first Ben 🙏 Humbuckers second. 🤟 You have already done a massive body of first class work over a long period of time. You don't have to prove anything to anyone. It's now Ben time. God bless 💪
I've lived with ADHD my entire life, only learned I had it at the age of 37. I congratulate you on your self discovery, it's not easy to learn something about yourself yet at the same time it's also validating. It explains why you do what you do, and that the solutions are within reach. Welcome to a whole new world, and welcome to the family. You got this!
I heavily suspect that i have adhd. I however hate the idea of being bound to meds for the rest of my life. Would you advise me to still try and get diagnosed?
@@grischad20 IMHO, getting diagnosed was half the battle for me. It confirmed what I suspected and validated so much. I now had a reason for why I did what I did. It removed a ton of the shame I had been carrying around. As far as meds go, I can only speak for myself and I am in no position to make any suggestions for you. It is well worth the effort to discuss your situation with a professional and to explore all your options. Having a diagnosis for ADHD isn't a negative in any way, it's the first step in a new and positive direction.
I'm in recovery so, like you, I didn't like the idea of taking meds for the rest of my life, however, I am not "bound" to these meds, I take them as needed, and have no ill effects if I don't. Although my distraction level is back to where it was and I have learned how recognize it and adjust. My apologies for rambling a bit, but I know the joy and happiness that can happen when ADHD has been put under control and how much better life is and I strongly feel that we all deserve the happiness and freedom we lived to long without.
Refreshing video, love that you posted it, good on you sir.
I'm sure many elements relatable for us.
I'd so love to hang out with this chap
I'm 58 and found out a few years ago that I have ADHD also, although I'm really ADD. Fortunately for me the coping strategies I had developed were not harmful. I'm sure things will improve for you once you work out what you can and can not do. Sending kind wishes to you and your family.
I'm 65 and just this past year recognized my ADHD. I'm very grateful times have changed with respect to mental health. My Dr. and I have worked together and things are much better now.
I've followed you for a long while now and didn't realise this was why you had gone quiet. You are very brave for sharing this but I'm sure your inspiration working through this will help many others. I will eagerly wait for your next guitar building/repairing video. Stay strong and sincere love to you.
Hi Ben, I want to say how much you have inspired me over the years and the huge amount I respect you for all the work you've done through your business and now to share something so personal in your life with us. I was, that 15 year old watching your videos. You gave me the feeling that I could make it my career, and 13 years later I have my own business. I wish you nothing but the best and am excited to see what's coming around the corner ! big love, Matt
Wow, thank you! That means a lot to me.
Best video I've seen in a long time. Thanks for sharing more of your story.
Wishing you the best Ben. This sounds like a great way forward, and I'm looking forward to see that new Sh!t you are super excited about, when the time is right. Take care
Respect for you sharing this Ben. I myself am going through some issues, I cannot focus on things, lack of genuine enjoyment and irritability. It is good to step back and review what's going on.
Read the book of Ecclesiastes ........
Ben you touched my soul with this video. I became a carer for my wife 6 years ago following (admitted) medical malpractice, resulting in her losing the use of limbs and the ability to speak. Throughout this time I too have been fast approaching burnout. Your words and insight have offered me so much hope. Bless you, please keep well, and thank you. x
Thank you Ben. I suffered a breakdown earlier this year and I appreciate your being so open about the topic. I'm so glad you're seeing a way forward and I wish you all the best for the future.
Being following you for several years. I've always admired your craft and content, it's a good thing you could put a finger on the issue and started the recovery process. Sometimes we just need a nice refret and setup.
Thank you Ben, I'm glad the end of the tunnel is in sight. I'm going through a similar crisis myself and this video made me think about changes i can also make. All the best!
Sending love from the US, Ben. You've inspired more people from across the world than you know. Happy to hear that you're on the mend and getting back into everything that you love! Take care, Sir!
I still remember how excited you seemed to be on your very first live video: how small the channel was, and that was before a whoooole lotta things.
Godspeed mon ami, and when the online school go live, rest assured you got one pupil here.
Take your time, and take care of yourself.
Dude, sending a ton of love. I've also been diagnosed with ADHD and food has been the route I'd taken to self medicate.
I'm now also type 2 diabetic but taking steps to undo it all. Nearly 3 stone down and going.
This is such a hard part of the journey. Especially with a food addiction. If you're shooting up drugs, people raise an alarm.
Smashing a large meat feast pizza? Totally ignored.
Got nothing but love for you man. Been following your videos for an age now and loved them all.
Be kind to yourself. Learn to love yourself. Know we're here, routing for you.
You can't make the world fit your needs but you can make your world fit you.
Go kick some ass dude!! 🤟
So glad to hear you are on the mend. We love seeing you and learning from you Ben. Best to you and good luck moving forward.
I’ve always appreciated you and the channel. There’s details and builds l like better than others but YOU as a person l have kept coming back to watch. Blessings to you and your family.
And…which is more…you’ll be a man my son! Truly brave, truly inspiring Ben. Thank you for sharing.
No questions...I am a mental health professional with 30 years experience...I simply want to recognize the bravery of baring your soul like this. I like to say we are only as sick as our secrets...you have aired your secrets, your demons, and it is a wonderful thing to watch you get better. I only know you from this channel, but I have grown fond of the person on camera. I wish you nothing but love, success and happiness.
......... ....... ........ Another divorce....... I follow like 4 or 5 youtube channels. 3 of them are getting divorced... Hoovie's, Tavarish and now Ben Crowe.... It's an epidemic. So saddening... I hope you'll be allright, Ben. Be well.
Thank you for your openness and honesty. It is rather unfortunate that ONLY after many years, with many problems and struggles, that the root cause is explained...but AFTER your life almost comes to an end, as a consequence of such 'problems'. Only last year was I diagnosed with both ADHD and ASD, and potentially a few others as well. I have also been living with a condition of Hyperinsulineamia for 15 years, which in a lot of ways is harder to handle than diabetes proper...especially when nobody seems to wish to accept it either!
Combining 'all of the above', life really does at times seem hardly worth living! Resilience to stress for me has become increasingly more difficult to handle, with each negative event that arises...and I have had almost 10 years of consistent conflicts! Is it any wonder I finally broke after the last 'event' 18 months ago! I have only started to climb of out of the 'hole' this past few months, and Ritalin was the key factor.
Keep on keeping on, everyone! 🙂
Sad to hear the things you've been struggling with but glad to hear you're turning them around and finding the direction that works best for you. As one of the many you've inspired into luthiery I'm always excited to see what you come up with next, here for it 👍
Ben - how brutally honest. I salute you, sir. I've lurked but never commented before, but have forever been in awe of your ideas and craftsmanship. Look forward to yet more mad instruments in future.
I appreciate that, thank you.
Ben, this 28 minutes of video really helped me identify issues I’ve been going through as an owner of a business. I have watched your vids for years. I’m not a builder of instruments but I started learning from you to be creative and don’t get stuck in a hole. Wood working is a release for me but I still have issues within me. Your vid today was earth shattering to me. I have been in such a hole of despair. I don’t feel I’m not the only business owner going through this, especially after covid. Anyways… thank you. Your bud helped at least one viewer
Dear Ben. So happy for you finding out your Health problems and slow Down and Smelling the Roses. You are right we live in a very Fast pace World. Ben good luck and keep your Dream alive. Ben I miss the Work Bench for Did because you shared so much Love and ideas with the Students, but only you know what you Need. Take Care be Safe and Peace be With You and family
First, I'd like to say "Happy 1st Anniversary" of The Daily Guitar Draw. When I was diagnosed with depression many years ago thanks to my great GP, it felt as though a massive weight had been taken off me. It's still there and can be bloody awful, but thanks to medication and a very supportive wife and now adult kids I have a lot more good days than I do have bad days. It's great to see you again and how you plan to move forward. While it's highly likely I will never build a guitar, I have got so much enjoyment and pleasure from watching Crimson Guitars videos and for that I have to say a huge, huge thank you. Men and mental health has been kept in the dark for far too long and to hear you being so honest is so refreshing. I know how difficult it can be to tell someone how you feel and be taken seriously having gone through the process with a former employer who never really too me seriously when I was going through some really black times.
So, I came into your channel while recuperating from an injury (I broke my left wrist/ankle)) during the Covid lockdowns of 2020, and I'm entirely grateful for the work you've put into the channel and your candidness as you go through this. As someone who was diagnosed as having ADHD, PTSD & OCD, it was something of a shock to me to have all that thrust into my awareness as well. After having to explain it to all of my family (SOO much fun there) and having my ex-fiancee of 5 years do the "I told you so" when they found out through shared acquaintances, it's definitely been a bit of a struggle, but one that has helped me get to a much better place. Much love Ben & I'll keep you in my prayers my friend...
80 hour week is insane. You need to take one step back and look at how to cut that down. Take it down to a 6h/5d work week and work your way from there. Seriously start to value your free time. You have half your life left. You don't want to spend your days waking up with 30% battery.
As someone who completely overworked myself and burned myself out several times since 2015, while also dealing with depression and ADHD (both unfortunately properly undiagnosed and unmedicated), I feel you. 100%.
I got better at giving myself time to recharge, but man did GGBO22 burn me out completely all over again. Since then, while social media shows that I have done... well, close to nothing apparently. Having had the freedom of not having to pump out "CONTENT!" has yes, taken a hit to that side of things, but I have been happier and relaxed just... working at my own pace.
Anyway, tangents aside. Ben, it has been a very long time since we have talked, but I have to admit that I was worried from glimpses I have seen in videos. Now with you openly talking about this, is a huge step and I am, truly, happy for you. Self-reflection and realization is HARD as F***, but it is an ENORMOUS step in the right direction. I do, in every way, wish you all the best toward getting on the mend.
Much love❤ -Tommi
Ben, hearing you, I recognize myself. Thank you for sharing this. You brought many things up that I need to rethink for myself now. You're a fantastic person, and you inspire so many people. Sending you a friendly, solid hug. Looking forward to seeing your new projects.
Glad you are on the mend. I am a Paramedic that works the night watch an your videos help me get through the night!! I’m an old folkie and my guitars are older than most of my coworkers!!! Never give up… never surrender!!!
Been there done that Ben , took me 3 1/2 years off work to get my shit together again from running my own business doing same as you 80 hr a week 7 days a week .
But trust me it does get better if you have support and the right people around you , when your at rock bottom there is only place left to go mate ? Back up 😁😁🤘🤘🤘
Hey Ben, Crismon has been a constant in my life for a number of years and equipped me to do all my own repairs and setups. It is inspiring to see how you have responded to adversity and adjusted your life course in a way that will allow you to fully be yourself in a more sustainable way. It is great to see you applying your creativity and passion to your most important creation.. Yourself!
You're a great artist and a brave person as well, sharing with us you're life's joy and sadness. We are humans bro, and you're one of the best. May God bless you and you family. Keep fighting! //From a brazilian fan.
Thanks Ben for your honesty and vulnerability. Much appreciated. Sending warm regards.
Cheers, Ben. This meant a lot to me. It's extremely generous for you to share this with your fans, myself included. In the final analysis, you are a gifted artist and luthier. I don't know what the hell drove you to become that, what effort or desire. But that's what you are now. And history is absolutely full of magnificent artists who did not have the chance or social conditions or courage - whatever - to attempt what you are attempting now. So keep fighting, please, and keep trying to construct a life that allows you to continue what you've already accomplished! We've got way too many stories of this or that truly great artist flaming out, way too early, because "such is the life of an artist." Bull! You can have both, and it's super encouraging and instructive for aspirants like me to see you working through issues like this! Your work is astonishingly beautiful and accomplished. Find your spot and keep doing that! I don't care if it means scaling back, or course-correcting the path of your enterprise. Do it for yourself first, because in that respect you're also doing it for people like me!
Thanks for making this video. This sounds so much like what I'm going through now. I'm getting help, but I still feel like I'm in the thick of it. I've been thinking that I'm undiagnosed ADHD as well. Best wishes on your journey.
Just seen the bit on GGBO 👍 I joined the initial build along to be part of the community, that’s what is really important. Well done Ben. Cheers Dave
Best wishes to you Ben. Your definition of ADHD is the best I have ever heard. That alone was helpful to me. Because it just nailed what I do often struggle with. Thanks for bravely sharing.
That's amazing news Ben. I can relate on the ADHD part , it can be difficult to manage but you got this broski. Keep on rocking and I cant wait to see new content and please mind yourself , we love ya ♥
Thank you Ben! Thank you for you expertise, passion and your honesty. Look after yourself and I have no doubt the rest will fall into place. ❤
hey Ben! i can absolutely understand what you are going through now. i'm been having a clinical depression for 8 years. i'm hugging you! you are an amazing human being! and you are much more than that! you'll be fine! i'm sending you my positive energies!!
Glad to hear you're mending yourself.
While I've not actually started building a guitar myself yet, I can certainly say that watching the videos you've put out has inspired me to take that on after 30-ish years of thinking I might not be able to. I'm in the planning stages at this point.
But more than that, I've learned amazing amounts of things that i can apply in many areas watching you.
So in short, Thank you!
You are inspiring to many people. Having met your fabulous team during my class, I can echo your endorsement of their talent and capabilities. You are examining all the facets, that's healthy. Know this is a journey, and choosing each day to be what you can be is wise. Be well, my friend.
"Burning out is when you stop caring about things you once cared about" (camera loses focus and blurs then returns to ideal state, creating accidental cinema)
😂 I noticed that too! in fact, it focused on the guitars at the back, in an even more poetic manner.
@@diegofloor oh, I didn't even pick up on where the focus went! Solid observation.
I hope everything gets back on track. Just take care of yourself and remember you have a lot to be proud of. You inspire a ton of people. Thanks for everything! We will be here with you!
bro... i know your going through a ton.. i mean a ton!!! I have been there my friend. no joke. Divorced in 2010 and not seen my son or daughter since 2009. thats only part of what i am saying in relation to what your experiencing bro!!!! your being to fookin ambitious with the direction you wanna go!! Slow your roll man. IMO you need to focus on what you!!! YOU!!!!! YOU!!!! do best brother!!! that is building high quality guitars and Basses!!!!! Please Focus on that and how to Build those things!!! Ben....Not one person gives a shit about you asking for that knowledge from another builder even if it is from Gibson/Fender/PRS/Jackson/Kiesel/Esp or LTD/ BC Rich/Schecter/Martin/ Gretch/ Ibanzez/Mayones/Hapas etc... do you understand what i am saying? we only care about what BEN CROWE is doing With CRIMSON as a Luthier. bro please control your ambitions, Your mental illness will be your demise. its ok man. DO WHAT YOUR GOOD AT AND SHOW US THAT KNOWLEDGE BRO!!! Thats Building High end SUPER Quality Instruments your way!!! fook anyone else
Hi Ben,
we say in german 'Krass' which means hard/unbelievable/ touching/ in some way extreme => since your telling my story🤷🏻♂️
I am at the nearly exact same point as you, except not having a medication.
Krass❗️ I am musician and luthier too (all HOFNER classical guitars from 1987 on had the construction which Karl Sandvoss, (my Master), and I had developed at the ISIGL in Düsseldorf. Except the hand builded ones).
Yes it is hard for me to get up in the morning, having ADHD too and so on and so on . . .
Had my 1st 'burnout' in 2016.
Now with 59years being on this planet I am recreating myself and find peace in ACIM.
Just a big heartful hug and thank you for your being 🙏🏼
Best wishes from Wuppertal / Germany >Lutz
Dude, thanks for sharing this. Feeling it a bit myself atm. Too many things! I don't suffer from mental health issues but people in my family have for years. All the best! Tie a knot and hang on until you're strong enough to start climbing again!
Welcome to the ADHD club. Now that you’re properly diagnosed, things will improve.
Thank you for being you as well as prioritizing you and your health❤️