Jesus loves u so much, you have a beautiful life ahead of u, I pray that God gives u his joy. When u get a chance listen to the song God only knows by king and country.🙋♀️🙂❤
Had this. Now I'm thinking as much as I'm good to help others so I can feel like I've done sth and then end my life. Peaceful because if it's too painful I might back down.
Abigail A how true that is, sometimes someone looks ok in the outside but they are in pain in the inside. They hide behind the smiles, they go out but wish they never had because regardless of who they are surrounded by they are not happy and wish to leave. Sometimes trying to look ok and fine is soo exhausting, hiding all of it and keeping it in can be poisonous.
I wear a mask everyday and it's exhausting. Nobody knows my real thoughts. I appear to be happy, successful, and to have it all together. I feel hopeless, worthless, and weak. I feel numb and overwhelming sadness at the same time. I question on a daily basis what the point of everything is. I don't feel I've made a positive impact on anyone. My existence serves no purpose.
Abigail A one time i was having a terrible day with my depression, and im naturally a giggly person, so this one kid was like “you’re smiling, are you sure you didn’t diagnose yourself?”
@@kirbypopstar5807 I don't say I'm depressed because I was never diagnosed. But Nobody knows I really feel this way they just know me as happy ole me and I've kept at hiding my sadness so much that it even physically hurts and draining
Really nicely put, depression is a terrible affliction. The body and mind are at odds with one another.. On appearance you probably look perfectly fine but inside you're suffering. Bless us all 🙏
Such a surprisingly common myth is that all people who are suicidal hide it and won't tell anyone. This leads to people assume that those who reach out for help aren't "really suicidal" which is so incredibly damaging.
Even if you believe that presumption, why on earth would that be one's conclusion from it? If I assumed that all suicidal people hid their intentions and someone opened up about it to me, that would be a case of "This person just made themselves extremely vulnerable to me, I should REALLY treat this seriously" for me. I mean even if they were not serious about it, this is a matter of "better safe than sorry" if there ever was one.
I remember outing myself about my particular paraphilia as a way to cause someone to murder me, I've even given out where exactly I live; I pinpointing my exact location just to cause an assisted suicide. Of course it hasn't happened but my paraphilia is no longer a secret in my life, my attractions cause me to be depressed and with scientific research I've studied about tells me paraphilia cannot be cured and is unchangeable no matter how much therapy I'll go through; not even chemical castration can cure a paraphilia.
You don’t have to have had a bad family life, health problems or relationship problems. You can have the perfect, most supportive family and still be depressed.
Ugh I know, but sometimes that just makes you feel guilty af. I hate myself when I get into a dark place cause I have everything in life, and like I don’t get how can I feel like this when there are people with actual problems and I’m just a weak ungrateful mess 💔
maf hernandez i feel you,the same thing is happening with me i am just very unhappy with myself cause i can’t make my family proud or be grateful for the things that they have done for me and thinking about the fact that i have everything and still i don’t do anything makes me depressed
This is totally true but at least you would have someone to talk to if you have "real" freinds or family that loves you, for me it's super hard I have non of those my so called "freinds" make fun of me 24/7 and my family.... let's just say that may parents don't get along much they're on the verge of divorce
@@findev6330 A life in Christ Jesus IS be a "More Peace filled Life". However, according to the Holy Bible, in John 16, verse 33 = Jesus states the following = I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you will have trials, distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]" www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+16%3A33&version=AMPC
I confessed to my cousin that I was having suicidal thoughts, and she said she was going through the same thing, so now we randomly call eachother to prevent eachother from doing it
Honestly. I lost two of my closest friends cuz me and my boyfriend (ex now) were both extremely depressed and suicidal at the same time and my best friend and his girlfriend were always with him instead of me and his gf said cuz "hes more depressed" like....wtf does that even mean? I hate that shit
I hate when people made depression at trend. Like the meme they made. My friend made that joke about depression infront of me. I’m no longer friends with them. Not many people without depression know that it’s hard to seek help. It’s not for attention, it because you want to get out of it.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
I have attempted succide about 2 times and my best friend has tried a lot more than me There’s not want to be friend group who is mentally stable and me and my best friend would often sit on the train track like the edge and the other two would pull us up and tell us we shouldn’t do that we just tell them we’re joking be honest it’s more of a rehearsal
Like you know that trend on tiktok like people being like “I’ve got depression 😋😎” I have real depression I’m on meds for it I go to therapy and it makes me feel awful like I’m just faking it
If the Suicide attempt fails people will take you Too seriously (or not..). They will act like you have a serious problem and they have to be with you 24/7 or they think your a sociopath... the more I think about it I seriously hope that I don't survive to see this fake part of my family....
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
"i didn't want to wake up . i was having a much better time asleep , and that really sad its almost like a reverse nightmare like when you wake up from a nightmare and your so relived . i woke up into an nightmare ." spot on for me🙃🙃
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Xiomara Rivera Not really. The person who appears to be the happiest, or who should be the happiest because of their living conditions, is what I think you actually meant to say.
@@SweeteaDove if you have a friend that needs help sometimes sitting down asking them but they're okay and if they want to talk and let them talk and listen will help also tell your parents so they can contact hers or his.
@@maryhelenharris6149 I do listen to them, but we don't go to school together, and they live in a different state, so I have to text. I promised her I wouldn't tell anyone, and I haven't and I won't unless it becomes VERY bad. Her parents found out and haven't done a thing about it, and they continue to make it worse.
Well to be honest an "attention seeker" is someone who do need help. Someone looking for attention is most likely someone who either didn't receive any as a child and grow up starving for it. Or someone who find it was the only way to get love from other people and think it's how it work. Either way they need the help of a professional.
I just got out of a week coma. One friend one of my only friends said it was a call for help... i didnt leave a note. I just wanted to leave. Im seeking help now. Now insurance is a problem but hearing my loved ones i forgot existed through this depression, made me realize im not alone. To hear my brother who lives an hour away i have not talked to in a year say he had to make end of life decisions for me while i was in my coma, made me realize there are people. Im thomas lowell on Facebook. Anyone can message me anytime. I just went to hell, and heaven, im here. Thomas lowell and im from florida. Message me and ill reply as soon as i get it. I have been out of the hospital now for a week and still dealing with everything
@@thomaslowell2956 hey mate. i wanted to get some talk. because i'm now in the heavy suicidal thoughts. i've search you on facebook but theres so many people who has the same name. so im not sure which one is you
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Omez you are loved by so many people. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. Just hang on life has many plans for you. God has many plans for you. I love you❤️❤️❤️❤️
Not me, I just wanna die, I don't care about being sad, I don't care about being happy....I just don't wanna feel at all. I wish I didn't exist. I wanna isolate myself, I wanna leave..
@@werqaaa4906 Well, if she is trying to "seek attention", then give her the attention and try to *find out why* instead of complaining about it and seeing her as merely an attention-seeker. Ask her questions and then _listen_ to her problems.
@@Vandarera people were hearing her and were helping her for years but now everyone is just totally over it and bored of the same behaviour over and over.
Ugh it makes me mad when someone says “they just want attention” sometimes, for some people they dont really want to die, suicide is like a panic button, they do something extreme to show they NEED help. Not for everyone but it’s not about attention it’s a cry for help
Ya I totally agree, but another thing is that there are people who only do it for attention, I knew this one person who would always pretending to be depressed (and we all knew they were lieing because it was obvious) while I was in background having actually suicidal thoughts, and I still do.
@@rats_on_acid1021 But think to yourself. why did they want that kind of attention? Were they lacking family love? Friends? Have extreme self doubt? Self hate? Why did they feel like that needed that attention? We can't invalidate them because they are doing this just for attention right now. People are only attention seekers usually because they are lacking something very vital to them. That lack of whatever it is, could potentially lead them down that path if the problem is not resolved. Instead of giving them the attention in that sort of way, we should instead try and get them the help that they need. Someone professional to talk to, or someone they trust to ask them. "Why are you really doing this? What can I do to help you feel like a whole and loved person? What do you really need?"
But you have to understand everybody thinks different so those people are thinking that they. for example, I had an ex-boyfriend who felt that his mother didn't care enough about him and that he wasn't good enough for her to want to live and was very mad and hurt. Also, people forget it is a blessing to get to live on Earth and to even be born and live an eternity live it's a gift. Its sad people have forgotten how to love one another and help one another and come together as a union.
Hi. My friends used to say "isn't that just being lazy though" or "but she's your bestfriend" when I explained that I didn't want to go to a party cos of my anxiety. I recommend trying to hang out with kinder people, it helped me :-) also go see a therapist or psychologist if you want. That's what made me "able" to make new friends in the first place. Good luck :)
Jimmy Is Tired my love, look into Neurofeedback therapy for depression and anxiety. Free yourself from the patterns you have learn to live with in your brain. I love you, I know it will change your life for the best! You do not have to suffer. Xx
Exactly. I have extreme extreme anxiety and I hate being around anyone besides my dad and sister so I hate going to school and I hate going to parties but my mom makes me go anyways and she just makes fun of me for not wanting to go
@@kembawalker2926 oh I'm so sorry. I totally get you though my parents are pretty chill. It might help if you find activities that YOU wanna do and do those instead. (I sorta use that as an excuse but in all honesty practicing my hobbies also makes my anxiety less strong.) I wish you the best of luck :-)
Some years ago my question was "how could someone ever want to die or think of taking their life lmao?" And now it is "how do i get happy? How do i stop my suicidal thoughts? What is happyness? How could someone NOT wanting to die? I just wanna die."
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Exactly years back when my mom told me about one of her teachers committing suicide, i thought he was stupid. I was happy and too young then. But now i suffer and i know how it would've felt.
Well, you do reach out to people who are depressed. But being depressed isn't depression. Depression has to be diagnosed but if they are depressed and suicidal or even just sad TALK TO THEM
@@aniyahmarie6653 "A life in Christ is a restful life" (Ellen G White) Go to Jesus Christ, pray to Him, read the word of God, meditate on His name and you will find rest. "The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace" (Psalm 29:11) God bless!😊 I highly recommend this book called "Steps to Christ" it's free online, here's the link m.egwwritings.org/en/book/2017/toc
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
Yah.. Having gone through depression and being close to committing suicide , I can attest to that. Those were exactly my thoughts. The only thing keeping me from committing suicide was my family and not being able to put them through the pain of losing someone close to them. I just couldn't do that to them. Thankfully I'm in a much better place now , but we did lose my mom's sister to suicide nearly 6 years ago , so now I know what it would've been like if it had been me who had done it.
I’m a survivor twice. I always downplayed myself and my experiences and even after two attempts, both times I was very drunk and very high so someone once told me that they didn’t count. From my perspective, it just made me brave enough to kill myself but fail because of how messed up I was. It still makes me sad that you can hurt so much and literally almost die from it, and still no one around you takes you seriously. It’s hard. But I’m here for a reason so I thank God for that.
@@jessicaschroder6978 thank you! I’m doing much better, but sometimes I do think about how people brush these kind of things under the rug, mental health and the toll it takes on some of us. I guess if you’ve never experience it how are you supposed to know what it feels like.
i am gladdd youu aree herre....Do you have any advice for me, how you got out of it, I am trying to help my friend and everything and I don't know anymore, Se don't want to search professional help
@Milica J always say her feelings are valid, and never say to just get over it. Let her know she’s loved and supported. Drugs and alcohol often make things worse, and unstable when they don’t make it worse. When she’s sober, see if there are any possible causes of sadness that can be eradicated or any possible happiness that can be heightened, though usually nothing brings joy anymore. I usually hate promises things will get better, but with the pandemic, something making her sad might actually get better soon if she can just hang on a little more. Also, Facebook friends will occasionally post things. It might be helpful for her to speak w someone else who feels the same so she knows she’s not alone. If all else fails, call a hotline. They have great tips. Good luck! Thank u for sticking by ur friend!
@@jessicaschroder6978 she was depressed for so long and just summers made it better cuz she could hang out more but pandemic made it hard financially for her family..she really have problems like in family so she is too stressed...I constantly telling her it's not forever she just need to wait a little and we will find a job..For some things only I understand her so we became best friends really fast and she don't feel free to talk to anyone else like that..I really hope she will hang on little more I love her more than anything else on this world and I don't know how would I end if she do something to her.....Thank youu for answer 💜💜💜
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
I always say "I wish I could just skip my whole life and be already in the grave." People don't think I'm serious. It's hard for them to understand that that's actually what I want so much. To just skip this whole stress and anxiety filled life full of figuring out your next move, your school, your job, your relationship, everything. It's all just too much.
Me too doesn't matter how many times i say i want to die people either freak out or try to placate me. Been depressed since 16. 30 now if i could talk to my younger self I'd hate to tell her that life only gets sooo much worse. Is it worth the pain... A few moments maybe...
Dear Dee, I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through, but I’m so thankful that you feel comfortable enough to share it out loud. Just like they said in the video, it really is strength. I don’t know you, I don’t know the way you live… But, if you ever want to talk, I’ll always be here.
@@DeeFightingDreamer i wouldn't prepare her... if i did I'd kill her. Although that would not necessarily be a bad thing I don't want to relive that. That's for sure. Life is cold and unfair. But it has made me stronger.
What really bothers me is when people saying suicide is selfish it's also selfish wanting someone to stay alive even though they don't want to just so you don't have to be sad once they are gone
Thats the situation I'm in...I want nothing more than to doe but I cant do that to my Dad so he is holding on to me so he wont be broken but in the meantime I'm the one who is broken...
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
this was the way how I think before, I thought. No one wanted me in the first place, my biological parents tried to abort me anyway and people who accepted me are better off without me since I'm selfish and useless. to be honest, I still sometimes have that thoughts and just feel like I should just end things but at the same time... I couldn't. Yes my biological parent wanted me to die before but they didn't kill me, yes these people who accepted me hated me but they never left and I should be glad by that. If you ever feel alone, share your thoughts on a paper, express it through art or story writing, find people who relates with you. Because you are not alone, sometimes, we just can't see those people who cares about us, we may not get that response that we want but at least someone cares about us. but you guys can do it. we all can do it
namu world if you don’t believe then don’t comment. Who are you to tell someone what not to post. For some people who are religious, this is something they might need or like to see.
just change your attitude on things you know try thinking better because if your tired of depression then act on it if your continuing to be sad then your just adding on to it
@@ug0053 That's like telling an 800 pound man to just put down the spoon. Technically it's correct, but logically flawed. It's the start that's hard, but the journey is much much harder. So much more complex, and trying to put it into simple words is even more insulting to the people you are speaking to. You are unintentionally belittling how difficult it really is and insulting their efforts. In plain terms, you're making it worse. Don't be a stumbling stone, be a step up.
You know, one time in the middle of when my depression was at its worst, I became completely emotionally numb. I remember watching some video about murder and how absolutely horrible and inhumane it was, and I thought, exactly, “ I could kill someone right now and not feel regret.” I honestly could’ve killed a person right at that moment. I still feel chills when I think of how serious I was. Update: I’m fine! i wrote that as a memory. of course depression never completely goes away, but i’m way over that dark period in my life. remember that getting help really really helps. during that time i was completely alone bc i shut myself off. it only made things worse. going to therapy healed me more than anything else could! be safe!
Ikr it's the same. At those times, i feel so confident and serious. But then when it stops feeling that way, i think i was too bold or i just can't believe myself.
@@shakira7301 ahh same, on my worster times i was just ready to do anything to die. I still remember literally praying that i wanted my life to end. My sister was angry because i wanted to die, she kept saying that i didnt care for anyone in my life since i wanted to end it. The more she kept on the more desperate i was. The time she said to me that if u wanted to die soo bad pray to god then that u want it and so i did. She thought i wouldnt do but i wasnt joking, so after that she got my siblings involed which turned out making me stressed even more. They said i had nothing to be depressed about and that i was being dramatic. Now im to drained to care, im not attempting anymore ( i hope ) but the thoughts are always there, just not as strong now.
@Gulmira Hughes that makes u stronger than u think, in my opinion the fact that ur still here and that ur afraid of death kinda shows that u still hope for a better change and u might still care for ur family ( if ya don't then that's fine and it's normal to dislike people who've hurt u ). And all i can say for myself is that I know how it feel like when ur at ur worse and people u hoped was there for u wasn't. But even so, ur a beautiful person and no matter if they say otherwise because ur life is urs to own not theirs. U have the right to be here as much as everyone else and no crapy people are allowed to walk all over u. U right ur own story and it is only u who will live it. So i hope u find a way to ignore their saying because it's just not worth it. Ur not worth of their lowly and poor judgement because ur worth everything and anything and i hope u see that. Even tho if maybe ur family is a lost cost ur not, but for know until that time comes all u can do is to train ur self to spread ur wings. U don't need to rush it but instead take baby steps and learn at ur own pase. I'll be cheering on here for u and i for the best to come to u,i hope the good karma u get for staying strong for soo long comes to u. I hope u'll continue to stay in this world because its lucky to have someone like u in this world. And if u got someone to talk to then try telling them these things because it might help u in the long run. Hope u stay safe and i pray for ur recovery and happiness. Lots of love from me💚💛💜💙💓💖❤🖤
Same. Back then I was like weighing the Why and the Why Not of me killing myself and I actually thought of murdering my own mother once I "confirm" that she doesn't want to live anymore, otherwise I'll just die before her as the usual. Like wtf I love my mom (I mean she tells me now that I can kill myself if I want it so bad but I know she doesn't mean it). Point is, SUCH A TWISTED THOUGHT. And I got lots of those back then...
@@friedteabags6570 are you okay now? I hope you are. I just hope you'll find something so wonderful that'll make you want to wake up every single morning till you are 100 yrs old (at least)
@@saintindya it makes it seem cool even when it is showing it's not what the characters themselves want --> showing the raw characters? I'm sorry I'm just trying to understand you're POV, I mean no disrespect
People who attempt because they actually wanna die don’t want attention obviously however there are plenty of dumb fucks who will say they attempted even if they didn’t for attention
Hi, I’m a suicide attempt survivor. Since i am from a small country and the way i attempted it was in public almost everyone in my country knew. I felt exposed when i was in public and tried to avoid all forms of social interaction with everyone including my friends and family. I never wanted to die, i just didn’t want to live. At the time i was going through a lot, and felt ashamed to talk about it with anybody. That lead me to feel as if i was all alone. Alone in a crowd. I had a loving family and a close-knit circle of friends. They all knew me as someone who was always fun and smiling. So everyone was quite shocked when they realized that my body, was the body of the news were reporting about. The girl that jumped into the ocean as an escape route, but was fished out by a bunch of concerned fishermen. I felt guilty when i heard that my friends cried. More so when i heard the cries and concerns of my parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, and cousins. There were numerous speculations as to why i did what i did. I was an attention seeker. Perhaps possessed. Maybe i broke up with my boyfriend. Or someone had molested me. Some believed what they heard and others didn’t. News channels reported the incident, articles were written and senseless comments were submitted. What broke me the most post suicide attempt were some of the comments i read under an article about me. I wasn’t supposed to be checking the news but i was curious. In the pretense of texting a friend i got my dad’s phone from him and read the first article that i saw. People were blaming my parents. They said I wasn’t given the proper education, and that had no religious values instilled in me by them. It broke me. Help. Depression was hard and well, depressing. Now everyone knew the extent of it. How far it had taken me. During and after being released from the hospital, i got help. Something i never thought I’d get. For the first time, in a long time i had to talk. Release the weight that had been weighing me down and silently killing me from the inside. I felt free. Even though I wasn’t ready to let it all out, bits and pieces of the puzzle started to come together. I could never bring myself to reveal the full extent of what I endured, but everyone near and dear to me got some sort of an explanation. Especially my mom. My mom is the love of my life. My angel. I didn’t want her to hurt but the damage was already done. The path ahead was hard. However everyday, without fail, my mom was there for me. She gave me strength to move on. Days, weeks and consequently months passed and i began to heal my broken self. Self love was an alien concept. But i was getting better. My bitter self caused people to leave, but I understand. Today, after over an year and a half from that fateful day i am a different person. A better version of myself. Stronger than I could’ve ever imagined. For now I’m not the girl that jumped into the ocean, to die. I’m very much alive. Inside and out.
Aishath Hanaa I want to tell you I’m glad you’re still here. I lost both of my brothers to suicide and I can’t tell you enough how I wish they were here. My life has been turned upside down and some days are very hard to get through but I feel I have no choice. I live and breathe the pain of losing them on a daily basis not to mention what my parents feel. I was always the one behind the scenes while they shined like the brightest stars. We were very close and on more than one occasion talked through their problems. My oldest brother passed away over 5 yrs ago and my baby brother will be gone 2 yrs in May. I found them both and live with that image. I will keep going because it’s all I know and I pray you keep your chin up and face the world knowing you are very important to so many people. Thank you so much for sharing God bless
Stephanie Dasher i feel for you sweetie. I am sorry about what happened. For now you need to be strong for them. The pain you must be going through is something I can’t even imagine but hold yourself together okay. For your brothers
I thought the same thing :D I was also happy because she was smiling there🙈 I don't know her and I never saw her but, you know 😆 She looked so proud 🤘🏼👏🏽🍍
Such an important topic to talk about since suicide attempt is still something we don't want to talk about and like to pretend it can just happen to other people.
"A life in Christ is a restful life" (Ellen G White) Go to Jesus Christ, pray to Him, read the word of God, meditate on His name and you will find rest. "The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace" (Psalm 29:11) God bless!😊 I highly recommend this book called "Steps to Christ" it's free online, here's the link m.egwwritings.org/en/book/2017/toc
@Vincent Lindhorn @Vincent Lindhorn I belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and although we’ have differences in our beliefs, you’re right. Trust in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and follow God’s commandments and you will be eternally happy. Life gets difficult at times, but God and Jesus Christ are always there. Prayer is always an option.
TH-cam Username I don’t agree with using religion to help with some mental health problems. Religion often helps develop those mental problems because they feel pressured by it.
Hearing my parents talk negatively about people they see on the news killing themselves not knowing that I am going through the same thing was really hard
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💙
Ask them if they would talk the same way about you if it hit close to home with your family. Open the dialogue and bring awareness of how they are unknowingly contributing to your distress. Educate them about it.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
I have suicidal thoughts pretty much 24/7. I honestly can't handle life. It's like I am waiting for my last breath and the only thing that comforts me is the thought of dying.
The subject of suicide attempts hits really close to home. My best friend attempted 3 times in 3 months a few years ago. He was unsuccessful, thank god. He got the appropriate help, diagnoses and medication and he's doing really well now. I never thought he'd get better. There is hope. Please reach out to someone .... anyone.
30 confirmed stomach pumps 7 mental wards 4 attempts at hanging 1 successful and 187 open cuts on her arms at time of death my friend was selfish and I don't know why she had help and everything police were helping and I and her boyfriend have everything for her I'm so glad your best friend is better
One of the biggest problems in tv is that the person who attempts is just like "well this happened to me ... better end my life then" while real sucide thoughts happen over time and over many events. We dont just think it and decide it right then and there. We ponder on it and overthink it for a long time before we decide if it's the right thing to do. Most of us try multiple times and no one knows until the one that almost ended us or the one that completed the task.
“If you tell a therapist that you’re suicidal, they will put you in the hospital.” why did only the mental health worker respond to this? I actually think it's true and not a myth. I am a survivor myself and I've seen therapists do this plenty of times to my friends, my brother, and myself. Not everyone in the US has health insurance because it's so expensive to some. Not everyone will feel safe with a therapist if they involuntarily send them to a hospital and expect the person to pay for it too.
@@bootycheeks520 I can totally see where these therapists are coming from. They're technically legally liable for you and can get in trouble if something happened to you when it could've been prevented.. it's just a rough situation for everyone :(
This is a myth. I don't know how many people I've told I have a plan. I've said it to about 5 therapists a social worker, my group trauma therapist. The only person that admitted me to the hospital was me. I drove myself once and the other two times I asked my daughter to take me. So it's not true the therapist or doc will call the ambulance and have you carted off to the mental health facility. And if you dont have insurance you can apply for emergency medical assistance through the government while you're in the hospital. That is what I did the second time I was hospitalized
Hey OP, I really hope whatever bad stuff is happening in your life gets better. I really hope you realise that you're a precious person, idk you irl but this internet stranger is sending you loves. Stay safe beautiful:)
Exactly. Maybe they’re “wrong” for going to extremes to do that. But I feel like people refuse to see the human side of that. They want to view them as someone wrong, but that’s so awful. They still need help.
For those trapped in the wreckage of a suicide attempt, or some other mental derangement that caused a spectacle in the midst of a "cry for attention", the need to demonize is a self preservation mechanic. You're not going to "cure" it. If they don't demonize the person for their "callous" or "selfish" act, then they have to admit somewhere that they screwed up. This is especially true for family... parents... If their child didn't have something inherently wrong or wasn't twisted from the get-go, then the parents have to admit to their shortcomings. It really does take a parent to screw up a kid that bad... BUT you're not going to get most parents to admit it. They have to protect their own delicate sensitivities, too. That doesn't make any of it right. It simply is... People will double down, and squirm and thrash and lash out and offer all kinds of justifications for themselves. They'll go through all manner of mental gymnastics just so they don't have to admit they were wrong, insensitive, or otherwise contributed to their kid doing such a horrible thing. The truth is, those people need help and don't even see it... It's part of the definition of insanity. "Insane people don't believe they're insane. They think the water tastes funny!" ~ Tom Arnold "House Iii" ;o)
when the guy was talking about how everything piled up and he wasn’t thinking things through.. EXACTLY how things work for me and i’m so glad he said that. Every time i’ve attempted suicide it hasn’t been planned, i was in the middle of a panic attack and the pills sitting next to me were the only thing that was going through my mind.
Im a survivor of 14 attempts, I never opened up the anyone about it and I never even showed what I was going through still struggle with depression anxiety and two eating disorders but I and 10 days clean of SH and 113 days clean from an attempt I'm trying :)
I hope you are doing much better right now. I have never been depressed or had any suicidal thoughts so I might not completely understand your situation but I wish you find happiness and come out of the positive side and also you are really brave.
work it girl God is watching over you with angels and will your rewards will be triple your suffering he will avenge you his child God and Jesus will fight the battle for you at this point I can tell you dont have the energy to pray so just ask your family to go to the church and pray for your assientce in this fight I will be praying for you too 🙏🙏🙏
I know someone who told me after her attempt that “ it’s not about reasons to live it’s about the will to live” that hit me hard also I was told that she immediately regretted her decision and is grateful she was helped in time. She experienced ptsd as a result of the trauma of her attempt and the emergency treatment she received.
That's true. It's three things we need to continue to live. Will, hope, and purpose. When we lose those things, it's often hard to keep our strength to live. This is even true for people who is dealing with physical illness as well. A cancer patient must never give up the will to fight another day, the hope that they can survive, and a purpose (reasons) to live.
Love your self Bts I really want to say a lot but I feel like I won’t say anything useful 😞 anyways it may not be ok now but remember that so much can change in even just a month, it depends on if YOU want to change and always remember army that a wise man once said “everythinggoes” anyways stream ‘mono’ by rm, he would be proud that you’re still fighting
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
The guy in the red hoodie who talked about being glad he survived and he was just in an impulsively driven state to do it... really hits. He reminds me of a friend I lost in high school to suicide. He was drinking and was very upset that night. I know he had struggles but It's bittersweet to hear someone coming out the other side. I'm almost positive he would say the same thing if someone found him early enough. His brother also took his life years later. I wish everyone peace and the support they need
And sometimes it's really what someone wants. I do a lot of self talk now but I can remember back in 2010 when I went to an abandoned office park on a Friday night and it was pouring rain. This office park had trees grown up around it. U would have no reason to even be near it on a Friday night. But low and behold some sobs stole my Tools out of the back of my suv and left and called 911. I can say with out doubt, it wasn't any kind of rehearsal. Not even a little bit. Even on a good day I would rather not be here. So hard in my head. But you making that comment could actually trigger someone or several people to take their life just to prove to YOU that it wasn't a rehearsal. It was real feelings that they had at that time. Just saying...
Hosp is a crapshoot as to whether you get good care or can even get a bed. It's probably better to try it out. They won't keep you very long. They won't throw you naked into a padded room, or tie you to a bed or give you electroshock. Showering, clean clothes, eating hot meals three times a day, meeting the people on your unit can give you a boost from the time you walk in. You can always kill yourself after you get out if you still want to.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
Honestly, hospitalization saved my life. I wouldn't be here today, had I not been hospitalized. If you trully plan on attempting suicide, and if the health care in your country is at least decent, you shouldn't be afraid of it. It releives the burden of having to keep yourself breathing, the staff does it for you, you get a break from everything and get people you can talk to without having to be scared of their reaction or of them judging you.
it's not how you think it is... plus, they will only "put you somewhere" if you're in serious danger. hope you can get help though. im only a stranger but you can trust me.
I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts for some time. Honestly it's been due to toxic family but I'm hoping it goes when I move out(hopefully this year).
Uk Gamer you matter, just because they’re family doesn’t mean you should listen to them. There are some bad people and it can be your family. They don’t love you like they should
@@noaccount8957 Thanks for your kind comment. My situation is kinda unique my parents are overbearing and have kinda forced life decisions onto me that don't take into account my disability(DCD) and have generally made things more difficult than they need to be which is why university went soo horribly. They're not bad people(I've heard of worse situations) but fail to see that I want to do things in a way that make things easier for me. As a result I feel like soo much time has been wasted so what's the point. I see friends around me excelling in careers and falling in love going on holidays and I just feel stuck and kinda broken. However, I am looking forward to finally getting independence in all its meaning.
I've had suicidal thoughts for about 10 ish years (I'm 17) and it's always been like a fantasy in my mind. I've never had a full-blown suicide attempt but there have been many times where I hurt myself with so much anger that I almost tried to kill myself. I was suicidal before I was depressed, and at first, I took depression as a joke when it got introduced to me at school and I acted stereotypically depressed for fun. Eventually, it just became an actual lifestyle for me and it has only gotten worse and worse since. Depression ain't fun and it certainly isn't for attention. I can vouch that sometimes people will do things like suicide attempts as a cry for help, as I have made cries for help in similar ways a few times. Especially with covid making getting help a lot less available for people, including me, it can be really hard to get help sometimes and it's hard to directly ask somebody that can help you, to help you. If you know anyone who shows signs of major depression and seems suicidal, don't hesitate to ask them if they want some help or, if you're sure that they need it, try to get some help for them because it's really hard to ask for help especially when you feel so bad that you don't want help. And for all the people like me who are struggling to make it through each day, stay strong. There will be an end to it all and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. Think about what you want to do and chase your dreams, don't let anybody tell you that you can't. And, if you wanna talk, leave a reply to this comment and I will try to respond (though probably nobody will read this). Remember that tomorrow is another day and anything can happen, life can always get better. If you read all of this, you're insane and I hope you're having a great day, and that you'll have an even better day tomorrow
Hi just wanted to thank you for writing this and tell you that I actually read all of that... Also I especially changed my device to reply to ur comment as the one I was originally reading this on doesn't allow me to like or comment... Also I love you...( ˘ ³˘)♥( ˘ ³˘)♥ Stay safe Drink a glass of water Keep yourself busy so that u don't Overthink, when u feel overwhelmed just write ur feelings down somewhere or call a person u trust and feel comfortable with. I'm so glad I came across ur comment. And watch a stand up comedy 😉😙 ILY ♥♡♥
eh, i could only wish that somebody would ask me if i was ok even though the answer is probably not anyway. there aren’t much people who take depressed people in a serious way.
my friend didn't show signs. he always smiled and laughed and was incredibly engaged with others. no one knew he was in as much pain as he was. I wish he felt he could reach out. I wish he hadn't felt alone. I wish I or someone closer at the time could've helped him. I feel like he would've shared a lot of light and wisdom if he had survived.
It’s scary because I’m exactly the same. To others I’m happy, funny, get good grades, have a friend group. But I’m covering up cuts and hours of crying and planning things. It’s really hard being on that side of it, needing to say something but being completely unable to.
I'm sorry for your loss. I'm the opposite I'm "weak", stupid...since childhood. I never felt loved by no one, not even by my family. I feel like I make it obvious but yet they don't care. Truth is nobody cares. They don't care about us. I'm not here for anyone I'm here because I'm forcing myself to and I'm here because I always wanted to go/live in Boston.
I told my friend about my thoughts and she just said run away or kill myself. I can't run away bc I can get kidnapped and torcherd. She doesn't understand...
If you think that someone you know is suicidal, make sure that you are ready to hear about it before engaging a conversation. As a person who has struggled and is still struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, I have reached to close friends for help to discover that they just couldn't deal with my distress. They ended up dismissing it with "you should go out more often"s and "oh but it's gonna be okay"s to protect themselves, and I felt all the more isolated after this. They cannot be blamed for it though. Dealing with a friend's mental struggle and the fact that they want to kill themselves is a real challenge, and no one should feel guilty for not being able to cope with it. But you should know your own limits. If you think having the talk is too much for you to handle, take it into account and be ready to help your friend reach for someone who will be able to open a conversation with them (best friend, relatives, or therapist).
Thanks. I realized that eveb people ask you and tell you that you can tell them everything. They aren't ready and in the end just trigger them. Its hurts. But not much are ready to listen and they just get obsessed on advising and making me stop "whining"
Great docu.... There was controversy over the camera being left there...but I don't agree with the controversy. We failed those people before they got to that bridge...watching their final moments is the VERY least we could do...to face this truth head on. I do agree with the need for bridge nets
Andrew Sipos I agree with you, I think it’s a great documentary. But as someone who has fought suicidal impulses and survived an attempt...just watching it sent me into a new downward spiral of obsessing over my own possible suicide, and suicide in general. I kept rewatching it, even though it made me feel horrible. It f*cked with my head, I’ll leave it at that. I think that film is *really* triggering for lots of people-it is for me, and in the comments I saw it had the same effect on a LOT of people. I’m not all about trigger warnings on every little thing, but the Bridge shows multiple deaths by suicide. People need to know that before they watch it! **They may have one now, idk. But when I saw it last year, there was no trigger warning-it didn’t even say it showed people jumping to their deaths! All it said was that it was about people jumping from the GGB. 😕
Nobody actually wants to die. We just want to stop suffering. Or go through a level of suffering that's manageable and won't take over our whole life. And especially, being around other people who can show compassion really tips the scale. It really helps a lot. Also, one thing I wish the media wouldn't do is treat suicide as something people deserve for being "too weak". It's inherently a cruel concept and a concept that doesn't account for reality. It's just a comfort for those who DON'T experience suicidal thoughts. Like "I must not be suicidal because I'm stronger". And that's completely false.
Manubibi the media is trying to get better about it. I know they’ve tried to change it from “committing suicide” to “dying by suicide” instead - which I think is good
Sometimes. When I was extremely suicidal, I had this wrongful belief in my mind that if I went to that extreme, I would somehow be able to start my life over. Erase my mistakes by permanently ending my existence, and starting a new one. I did want to die. I didn’t want to stop the pain, I wanted to fade into obscurity. I couldn’t do it though because I know the impact commuting suicide has on family & children. I have two younger brothers, and wether I wanted to admit it or not, the impact of my death would traumatize them for life. My mom almost attempted twice when my brother and I were kids. I didn’t find out until (accidentally) discovering it when I was 15, and after that I couldn’t stop thinking about how traumatizing snd different my life would be without her. My impact would put people through suffering and trauma, and I couldn’t bring myself to hurt them that way.
I remember I was living in the Netherlands and I called the suicide hotline and told them I was in front of the train rails and was about to jump and they told me to breathe and take a break from work for two days and that everything would be ok Lol. I called a friend to say goodbye and they went to pick me up and then send me to another country to receive proper attention. I would not be alive if I would have followed the hotline tips
@@8BAAS I called my psychiatrist in Mexico and he referred me to a psychologist. They gave me the attention in a matter of hours, while in the NL you have to wait up to three months. Depending on your migratory status and your location in the NL you could go to get help in Germany, or contact a certified psychologist in your country who gives psychotherapy via Zoom or Skype.
i never attempted suicide but i often wish i could just disappear. i remember once running away to a cemetery and praying for sth bad to happen to me so i could just disappear and all the pain could go away
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💙
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Man, this is heavy. Well done, SP. I think we all have had issues and struggles that can lead to this point. Like GHP says, depression is a real thing and it can drown you.
Coming from someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety for years, I think the most dangerous thing about 13 Reasons Why is the way that it depicts the world falling apart after the suicide has happened and the reactions of others. But in reality, the sad truth is that you won't be around to see people's reactions or the way it affects others because you'll be dead. Once you end your life, your life ends forever. There is no tomorrow or wondering what if. And sadly, the world will keep on turning and life will move on and you are gone. I think suicide needs to be shown more as a permanent ending because that's what it is.
People ask - 'are you having suicidal thoughts'. You say 'yes'. They start calling crisis teams. You think 'but what's going on, I have suicidal thoughts every day'.
@@debbielough7754 exactly. like im suicidal but I'm not actively suicidal. I'm not attempting to but I think about it and want to. I'm just at a point where I have something strong enough to keep me going right now. and because of the stigma of this I'm scared to say yes when therapists ask if I'm suicidal. by the time I could say yes id start panicking (cause social anxiety) and not be able to finish explaining "yes I'm suicidal but I do not wish to act on it"
I feel like I’m just existing. I have to stay alive for my siblings because I have to help them finish their studies. They’re the only reason why I stop myself from going. And I think, it’s sad and suffocating.
When you say your depressed out to people they think that you’re not really depressed, that you’re just exaggerating. Or they think that you’re joking. I never joke when I say I am. For a few months in 2018 I overcame my depression and it got better but everything came rushing back soon. I’ve thought of killing myself but I thought about how much the people in my life would hurt from me killing myself and I always push away the thought. Honestly I’ve found only one way to cope with my depression and that’s through BTS. Everyone has their own ways to cope and it doesn’t matter what it is, it just matters that it’s helping you take away that pain for a little bit. I’m so happy that they could over come that and are able to be here today to share their opinions on depression. I hope that anyone else with depression can overcome it or can be a little happier each day.
similar with me. im the average teen at an average school, I make jokes about being depressed but I always mean them. I've physically hurt myself and contemplated suicide and the people that found out called me attention-seeking and psycho which made me feel scared to reach out for help at all. i started getting better and was a year clean from everything before it all came rushing back last year. im still struggling but im finally reaching out for help a few ways for me to cope is to drown out the thoughts by talking to friends or watching youtube or twitch. another is collecting stuffed toys to hug when I get depressed (currently at 72) these things often help me to calm down and feel a bit better. im so happy that im starting to overcome this and I know its going to be a rough journey but I know I can make it out and be okay. also I wish you the best with your life :)
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Honestly this was really nice to read. I just recently started watching BTS videos on TH-cam of them just being themselves and it really helped me not feel depressed as much. I only heard one of their songs which was dynamite which is obviously very famous, but they still helped me the past few weeks. I don't know if this was totally relevant to your comment I just wanted to share. And I hope you're doing well
That was probably one of the best trigger warnings I have ever seen. Instead of just saying, "trigger warning" they explained what the video contains so people can actually decide whether they can watch it or not.
"what would you tell your younger self" apologies without change is emotional manipulation its okay to forgive but dont forget and last but not least *it was never your fault*
new_ wave99 for me what has helped is having a playlist and listening to positive videos. Even if the message is repeated over and over again it can help shift your mind 💜
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
Nothing makes me angrier with regard to this topic than when people say those who attempt or complete suicide are selfish. I find this to be due to stigma and based in extreme ignorance. There are still people in this world who deny that depression is a real thing, even though major depression is recognized as a disability. Anyone calling suicide a selfish act has little understanding of what the nightmare of mental illness is really like. You would never, EVER say that about someone with a physically painful disability who wanted to end their suffering, because you have an easier time imagining that level of agony and can empathize. It's no different for the mentally ill, just a different type of pain. Just because you can't imagine it or relate to it, doesn't mean it's not real and life-destroying for others. No one can decide for another human being that their suffering is tolerable, nor should anyone be forced to stay alive for others. Not to mention, you don't know everyone's circumstances. Not everyone who attempts or completes suicide is in their right mind, and could have been having a psychotic episode at the time. Also, like they mentioned in this video, many people who consider suicide genuinely feel as though everyone in their lives, even the world, would be better off without them. We often feel like a burden when we've been that low. Have compassion, educate yourself on mental illness, and please stop making assumptions.
@Nattie bubbles I'm so sorry about that, but I'm glad you found your way to a more compassionate mindset, and hopefully have much better friends now. There is so much ignorance surrounding mental illness in general, and suicide is even more taboo. I try to remind myself that most people don't have malicious intent when they make those remarks, it's mostly as simple as a lack of understanding (which doesn't make it less hurtful).
I hate when selfish comes up too. I've attempted suicide many times and now I have a paralyzed hand where i stabbed my wrist, and my organs are failing from overdoses. No one knows the pain a depressed person feels and for us, wanting us to stick around for a life long battle of severe emotional pain so they don't hurt is self is in its own. I've opened my skin and played with my tendons so to take away my mental pain, but the mental pain felt worse. Sometimes being alive feels like an eternal torture but I'm still here so I don't get labeled selfish by my family.
My boyfriend who took antidepressants and struggled with depression himself found out my uncle killed himself in front of me and his son and his wife and my boyfriend called him selfish!! I was so offended. After that death i started learning more about suicide and decided to stop saying committed suicide and start saying died by suicide to reduce the stigma and judgment toward people who are struggling with suicidal thoughts. I started dating a new nonbinary partner who struggles a lot with being chronically suicidal. They say they PREFER committed suicide language and think suicide being stigmatized helps prevent them going through with it... It's all so complicated and messy...
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Too tired to live
Too scared to die
-suicidal thoughts
Same
Yo igual
Jesus loves u so much, you have a beautiful life ahead of u, I pray that God gives u his joy. When u get a chance listen to the song God only knows by king and country.🙋♀️🙂❤
@@user-up7pw7be7m Dios te ama mucho, todos pasamos por dificultades pero Dios nos ayuda. Dios tiene planes con tu vida, busca de Dios el te ama❤
Had this. Now I'm thinking as much as I'm good to help others so I can feel like I've done sth and then end my life. Peaceful because if it's too painful I might back down.
"You can smile and still be depressed, you can smile and still want to die"...
Abigail A how true that is, sometimes someone looks ok in the outside but they are in pain in the inside. They hide behind the smiles, they go out but wish they never had because regardless of who they are surrounded by they are not happy and wish to leave. Sometimes trying to look ok and fine is soo exhausting, hiding all of it and keeping it in can be poisonous.
I wear a mask everyday and it's exhausting. Nobody knows my real thoughts. I appear to be happy, successful, and to have it all together. I feel hopeless, worthless, and weak. I feel numb and overwhelming sadness at the same time. I question on a daily basis what the point of everything is. I don't feel I've made a positive impact on anyone. My existence serves no purpose.
This is the most relatable thing I've seen
Abigail A one time i was having a terrible day with my depression, and im naturally a giggly person, so this one kid was like “you’re smiling, are you sure you didn’t diagnose yourself?”
@@kirbypopstar5807 I don't say I'm depressed because I was never diagnosed. But Nobody knows I really feel this way they just know me as happy ole me and I've kept at hiding my sadness so much that it even physically hurts and draining
"Depression is like living with a body that wants to survive, but with a mind that wants to die"
This describes me so well. Never thought of it this way, but it’s the perfect way to describe how I feel.
"a fish swims because a fish has fins"
SO RELATABLE :CRYING: :CRYING: :CRYIN
Really nicely put, depression is a terrible affliction. The body and mind are at odds with one another.. On appearance you probably look perfectly fine but inside you're suffering. Bless us all 🙏
Fighting your own demons.😢
Such a surprisingly common myth is that all people who are suicidal hide it and won't tell anyone. This leads to people assume that those who reach out for help aren't "really suicidal" which is so incredibly damaging.
Even if you believe that presumption, why on earth would that be one's conclusion from it?
If I assumed that all suicidal people hid their intentions and someone opened up about it to me, that would be a case of "This person just made themselves extremely vulnerable to me, I should REALLY treat this seriously" for me.
I mean even if they were not serious about it, this is a matter of "better safe than sorry" if there ever was one.
and it feeds into people hiding and bottling up their feelings because of the stigma.
@@rockyblacksmith people suck ig
I remember outing myself about my particular paraphilia as a way to cause someone to murder me, I've even given out where exactly I live; I pinpointing my exact location just to cause an assisted suicide.
Of course it hasn't happened but my paraphilia is no longer a secret in my life, my attractions cause me to be depressed and with scientific research I've studied about tells me paraphilia cannot be cured and is unchangeable no matter how much therapy I'll go through; not even chemical castration can cure a paraphilia.
I'm suicidal and I always share it online but people never took me seriously
You don’t have to have had a bad family life, health problems or relationship problems. You can have the perfect, most supportive family and still be depressed.
Ugh I know, but sometimes that just makes you feel guilty af. I hate myself when I get into a dark place cause I have everything in life, and like I don’t get how can I feel like this when there are people with actual problems and I’m just a weak ungrateful mess 💔
maf hernandez i feel you,the same thing is happening with me i am just very unhappy with myself cause i can’t make my family proud or be grateful for the things that they have done for me and thinking about the fact that i have everything and still i don’t do anything makes me depressed
maf hernandez same with me
This is so true.
This is totally true but at least you would have someone to talk to if you have "real" freinds or family that loves you, for me it's super hard I have non of those my so called "freinds" make fun of me 24/7 and my family.... let's just say that may parents don't get along much they're on the verge of divorce
"sometimes a successful suicide is a rehearsal that went too far" that was so real
That blew my mind, instantly made me cry
That touched me so hard.
The only thing that made me tear up and think of all the people who done it.
@@findev6330 A life in Christ Jesus IS be a "More Peace filled Life". However, according to the Holy Bible, in John 16, verse 33 = Jesus states the following = I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you will have trials, distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]" www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+16%3A33&version=AMPC
I felt that through my soul
😟
i don’t want to die, i just want to sleep without waking up
fr i just wanna go into a coma and wake up not feeling like this
I relate to this way too much.
I am so sorry for what you’re going through. I am growing through a rough patch in my life too. Hope we both turn out okay and happy at the end ❤️
me too daddy we can fall asleep together
Hi Callie, we can invoke a divine Goddess, we can call her and feel !
I confessed to my cousin that I was having suicidal thoughts, and she said she was going through the same thing, so now we randomly call eachother to prevent eachother from doing it
Aw that's so sweet stay strong both of you
Having a partner, a companion, I think rly is nice at times like that, given that it's genuine... I never had one at my worst times tho.
That's wholesome
That is so beautiful. God bless you both
Ooh the same thing happened with me :) I'm so glad for you and I'm glad to have someone to talk to
my suicidal thoughts were more passive like “well if I got hit by that car and died I wouldn’t care.”
still valid! hope you're doing good
me too
It's the same for me right now... sort of thinking that if I died, other people would miss me but I wouldn't miss myself.
Me too sometimes I even tell myself that I wish I'd sleep and never wake up or now even setting a date that I'll die..
Same.... I don't want to kill my self I just wanna die. I want someone else to kill me so that people don't think that I was "weak". Everyone happy.
I never wanted to die, I just wanted to stop feeling depressed.
I don't want to die too
I just don't want to feel the way I do..
Exactly
True
Good for you. Like actually
Kilobaxi i didn’t want to die I just wished I was never born.
Some people are out here making their pain a competition. Like “oh but you’re not depressed”
The a n t s not related but your profile pic ahhh
Honestly. I lost two of my closest friends cuz me and my boyfriend (ex now) were both extremely depressed and suicidal at the same time and my best friend and his girlfriend were always with him instead of me and his gf said cuz "hes more depressed" like....wtf does that even mean? I hate that shit
Marki Hastings huh
Marki Hastings oh lol Richie
exactly. you dont need depression to be suicidal.
edit: realised my mistake, I meant the other way around.
I hate when people made depression at trend. Like the meme they made. My friend made that joke about depression infront of me. I’m no longer friends with them. Not many people without depression know that it’s hard to seek help. It’s not for attention, it because you want to get out of it.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
I have attempted succide about 2 times and my best friend has tried a lot more than me There’s not want to be friend group who is mentally stable and me and my best friend would often sit on the train track like the edge and the other two would pull us up and tell us we shouldn’t do that we just tell them we’re joking be honest it’s more of a rehearsal
Like you know that trend on tiktok like people being like “I’ve got depression 😋😎” I have real depression I’m on meds for it I go to therapy and it makes me feel awful like I’m just faking it
@@_Https.maddie I’m sorry what
@@_Https.maddie u take med?
what confuses me is how people can say that it’s for attention, when more realistically it’s so that you don’t have the attention.
exactly.. it's a feeling of wanting to disappear
And the thing is why risk your life for attention that you never will
They say that to feel better about themselves by belittling people.
If the Suicide attempt fails people will take you Too seriously (or not..). They will act like you have a serious problem and they have to be with you 24/7 or they think your a sociopath... the more I think about it I seriously hope that I don't survive to see this fake part of my family....
And if that's the only attention I could get then I'd take it...(yes, this is how unloved I am... being the middle child SUCKS)
"I'm existing. Not living."
- unknown
I want to start living so bad but don’t know how to
@@ashleyhenna6201 Ouch... I feel the same way
Jesus Loves you, don't give up. He makes all things new.
"I'm not living. I'm surviving... And surviving is no way to live."
Same
"I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live like this"- Bea Miller
a beautiful song and a powerful meaning
"I don't want to live like this, but I don't wanna die"
- Ezra Koenig
Jesus Loves you, don't give up. He makes all things new.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
@@userm180 that was the bible verse I am using for my cle classes
"i didn't want to wake up . i was having a much better time asleep , and that really sad its almost like a reverse nightmare like when you wake up from a nightmare and your so relived . i woke up into an nightmare ." spot on for me🙃🙃
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Wow relating to this one
depression doesnt have a certain look
Exactly. Thanks for pointing it out. People have weird stereotypes about this because of so many reasons.
Truth! Yes, every one at some time has felt sad, "down," but its the depression that comes on when the person used to feel good.
the happiest person in the world can be the most depressed.
THANK YOU
Xiomara Rivera
Not really. The person who appears to be the happiest, or who should be the happiest because of their living conditions, is what I think you actually meant to say.
"I didn't want to die but I wanted help."
Honestly that is so much more true then people will ever realize.
Exactly and you feel that you can’t admit it because you can’t understand it. It’s scary
The moment she said that I read this
I want to help, but I don't know how :(
@@SweeteaDove if you have a friend that needs help sometimes sitting down asking them but they're okay and if they want to talk and let them talk and listen will help also tell your parents so they can contact hers or his.
@@maryhelenharris6149 I do listen to them, but we don't go to school together, and they live in a different state, so I have to text. I promised her I wouldn't tell anyone, and I haven't and I won't unless it becomes VERY bad. Her parents found out and haven't done a thing about it, and they continue to make it worse.
finally someone mentioned the “attention vs. needing help”
Well to be honest an "attention seeker" is someone who do need help. Someone looking for attention is most likely someone who either didn't receive any as a child and grow up starving for it.
Or someone who find it was the only way to get love from other people and think it's how it work.
Either way they need the help of a professional.
Keerya exactly what i think they were saying. that nobody looks at why someone would want to get peoples attention, they obviously need something.
Agreed
I just got out of a week coma. One friend one of my only friends said it was a call for help... i didnt leave a note. I just wanted to leave. Im seeking help now. Now insurance is a problem but hearing my loved ones i forgot existed through this depression, made me realize im not alone. To hear my brother who lives an hour away i have not talked to in a year say he had to make end of life decisions for me while i was in my coma, made me realize there are people. Im thomas lowell on Facebook. Anyone can message me anytime. I just went to hell, and heaven, im here. Thomas lowell and im from florida. Message me and ill reply as soon as i get it. I have been out of the hospital now for a week and still dealing with everything
@@thomaslowell2956 hey mate. i wanted to get some talk. because i'm now in the heavy suicidal thoughts. i've search you on facebook but theres so many people who has the same name. so im not sure which one is you
I'm so proud of these people🤧 they're strong n made it out alive
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
@@userm180 :/
This make me cry, yeah im strong
@Neil Salmen you obviously haven't lost anyone to suicide.
So what tou are saying is the people who didn't survive and is dead, isn't strong.
"You can smile and still want to die"
... I feel attacked
😂
Your Majesty honestly me 2 lol
True
let me know If you need someone to talk to!!
But like, the smile is a mask, but someday, that mask cracks and you can't fake it anymore
I don't want to die, i just don't want to be here, i want to disappear...and i wish i never existed to begin with!!
Yep
Omez you are loved by so many people. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. Just hang on life has many plans for you. God has many plans for you. I love you❤️❤️❤️❤️
Okay
Felt this
I love you , God bless you
I know I’m late on this, but
Depressed people don’t want to die, they want to start living
-Unknown
Why did this comment change me.....im not joking. I feel like ive been underwater and this comment gave me some air...... Wow
Bernadette Caron I hope everything is ok ? And I understand what you mean
@@emmawhycantmyuserjustbeemm8278 thankyou. Same goes for you too
I want to die because I'm tired of waiting to live
Not me, I just wanna die, I don't care about being sad, I don't care about being happy....I just don't wanna feel at all. I wish I didn't exist. I wanna isolate myself, I wanna leave..
"I don't wanna die, i just wanna get relief"
-NF
"Don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful. What is success? When hope has left you."
😭
No NOT NF that triggers the f*ck out if me
"She killed herself for attention"
Yes Susan. Now that she's dead she gets all the attention she wanted
@@werqaaa4906 sounds like she has more problems than just attention seeking...
Imaflytoday xx attention seeking is a sign of mental illness or emotional problems too. I don’t understand why people don’t realize that.
@@werqaaa4906 Well, if she is trying to "seek attention", then give her the attention and try to *find out why* instead of complaining about it and seeing her as merely an attention-seeker. Ask her questions and then _listen_ to her problems.
@@Vandarera people were hearing her and were helping her for years but now everyone is just totally over it and bored of the same behaviour over and over.
*karen*
Ugh it makes me mad when someone says “they just want attention” sometimes, for some people they dont really want to die, suicide is like a panic button, they do something extreme to show they NEED help. Not for everyone but it’s not about attention it’s a cry for help
Ya I totally agree, but another thing is that there are people who only do it for attention, I knew this one person who would always pretending to be depressed (and we all knew they were lieing because it was obvious) while I was in background having actually suicidal thoughts, and I still do.
@@rats_on_acid1021 But think to yourself. why did they want that kind of attention? Were they lacking family love? Friends? Have extreme self doubt? Self hate? Why did they feel like that needed that attention? We can't invalidate them because they are doing this just for attention right now. People are only attention seekers usually because they are lacking something very vital to them. That lack of whatever it is, could potentially lead them down that path if the problem is not resolved. Instead of giving them the attention in that sort of way, we should instead try and get them the help that they need. Someone professional to talk to, or someone they trust to ask them. "Why are you really doing this? What can I do to help you feel like a whole and loved person? What do you really need?"
Sojourner Rose yeah😭
Sojourner Rose I think I’ve done the ‘cry for help’ when I tried cutting before.
But you have to understand everybody thinks different so those people are thinking that they. for example, I had an ex-boyfriend who felt that his mother didn't care enough about him and that he wasn't good enough for her to want to live and was very mad and hurt. Also, people forget it is a blessing to get to live on Earth and to even be born and live an eternity live it's a gift. Its sad people have forgotten how to love one another and help one another and come together as a union.
Depression and anxiety makes living almost impossible, it’s unbearable. Then if you come out and say it, people just start making fun of you.
Hi. My friends used to say "isn't that just being lazy though" or "but she's your bestfriend" when I explained that I didn't want to go to a party cos of my anxiety. I recommend trying to hang out with kinder people, it helped me :-) also go see a therapist or psychologist if you want. That's what made me "able" to make new friends in the first place. Good luck :)
Jimmy Is Tired my love, look into Neurofeedback therapy for depression and anxiety. Free yourself from the patterns you have learn to live with in your brain. I love you, I know it will change your life for the best! You do not have to suffer. Xx
Exactly. I have extreme extreme anxiety and I hate being around anyone besides my dad and sister so I hate going to school and I hate going to parties but my mom makes me go anyways and she just makes fun of me for not wanting to go
Arcadia Ardana thanks, I’ve been meditating now i feel so much better.
@@kembawalker2926 oh I'm so sorry. I totally get you though my parents are pretty chill. It might help if you find activities that YOU wanna do and do those instead. (I sorta use that as an excuse but in all honesty practicing my hobbies also makes my anxiety less strong.) I wish you the best of luck :-)
Some years ago my question was "how could someone ever want to die or think of taking their life lmao?"
And now it is "how do i get happy? How do i stop my suicidal thoughts? What is happyness? How could someone NOT wanting to die? I just wanna die."
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Was the lmao necessary?
@@altenberg-greifenstein read the comment one more time and maybe you will understand what i meant
Exactly years back when my mom told me about one of her teachers committing suicide, i thought he was stupid. I was happy and too young then. But now i suffer and i know how it would've felt.
Depression is real , reach out to people when they tell you they are feeling depressed! 😢
Well, you do reach out to people who are depressed. But being depressed isn't depression. Depression has to be diagnosed but if they are depressed and suicidal or even just sad TALK TO THEM
@@aniyahmarie6653 "A life in Christ is a restful life" (Ellen G White) Go to Jesus Christ, pray to Him, read the word of God, meditate on His name and you will find rest. "The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace" (Psalm 29:11) God bless!😊
I highly recommend this book called "Steps to Christ" it's free online, here's the link m.egwwritings.org/en/book/2017/toc
pauli v jesus christ you cannot compare those two
Feeling depressed doesnt mean they have depression tho. And some ppl romanticize mental health and was using these terms as tho it's cool/on trend.
Some of them just do it for attention 🙄.
“perfection can kill you” this hits too close to home.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
I am 63 and read for the first time, "Great is the enemy of good." I could have used this when I was nine.
Same
LITERALLY
That's why there's light and dark both.
Balance is the key to life.
i once heard someone say they dont want to die they just want the pain to stop
Yeah, I've seen the same quote 100+ times in a Facebook group before😂😂
Yah.. Having gone through depression and being close to committing suicide , I can attest to that. Those were exactly my thoughts. The only thing keeping me from committing suicide was my family and not being able to put them through the pain of losing someone close to them. I just couldn't do that to them. Thankfully I'm in a much better place now , but we did lose my mom's sister to suicide nearly 6 years ago , so now I know what it would've been like if it had been me who had done it.
@@andriasperils1832 glad ur doing better
@@kathrynsue1986 Thank you!
true
I’m a survivor twice. I always downplayed myself and my experiences and even after two attempts, both times I was very drunk and very high so someone once told me that they didn’t count. From my perspective, it just made me brave enough to kill myself but fail because of how messed up I was. It still makes me sad that you can hurt so much and literally almost die from it, and still no one around you takes you seriously. It’s hard. But I’m here for a reason so I thank God for that.
I am so sorry
@@jessicaschroder6978 thank you! I’m doing much better, but sometimes I do think about how people brush these kind of things under the rug, mental health and the toll it takes on some of us. I guess if you’ve never experience it how are you supposed to know what it feels like.
i am gladdd youu aree herre....Do you have any advice for me, how you got out of it, I am trying to help my friend and everything and I don't know anymore, Se don't want to search professional help
@Milica J always say her feelings are valid, and never say to just get over it. Let her know she’s loved and supported. Drugs and alcohol often make things worse, and unstable when they don’t make it worse. When she’s sober, see if there are any possible causes of sadness that can be eradicated or any possible happiness that can be heightened, though usually nothing brings joy anymore. I usually hate promises things will get better, but with the pandemic, something making her sad might actually get better soon if she can just hang on a little more. Also, Facebook friends will occasionally post things. It might be helpful for her to speak w someone else who feels the same so she knows she’s not alone. If all else fails, call a hotline. They have great tips. Good luck! Thank u for sticking by ur friend!
@@jessicaschroder6978 she was depressed for so long and just summers made it better cuz she could hang out more but pandemic made it hard financially for her family..she really have problems like in family so she is too stressed...I constantly telling her it's not forever she just need to wait a little and we will find a job..For some things only I understand her so we became best friends really fast and she don't feel free to talk to anyone else like that..I really hope she will hang on little more I love her more than anything else on this world and I don't know how would I end if she do something to her.....Thank youu for answer 💜💜💜
this video shows that not only teenagers can get depressed.
Completely unrelated but i love your pfp! Haikyu fan over here, and you have Kenma there as ur pfp! Nice 😁 👍
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
@@userm180 how about you go somewhere else with that
@@userm180 🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️
I know I’m glad they had a wide range of people like a teen male a teen woman a man in his 60s
I always say "I wish I could just skip my whole life and be already in the grave."
People don't think I'm serious. It's hard for them to understand that that's actually what I want so much. To just skip this whole stress and anxiety filled life full of figuring out your next move, your school, your job, your relationship, everything. It's all just too much.
Me too doesn't matter how many times i say i want to die people either freak out or try to placate me. Been depressed since 16. 30 now if i could talk to my younger self I'd hate to tell her that life only gets sooo much worse. Is it worth the pain... A few moments maybe...
Dear Dee,
I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through, but I’m so thankful that you feel comfortable enough to share it out loud. Just like they said in the video, it really is strength. I don’t know you, I don’t know the way you live… But, if you ever want to talk, I’ll always be here.
@@aliciamorganbrown6294 Thank you so much for your kind words, they really do make a person feel better. You're amazing.
@@hollymartin1780 I'm younger than you and yet I think the same way. If only I could go to my younger self and prepare her.
@@DeeFightingDreamer i wouldn't prepare her... if i did I'd kill her. Although that would not necessarily be a bad thing I don't want to relive that. That's for sure. Life is cold and unfair. But it has made me stronger.
What really bothers me is when people saying suicide is selfish
it's also selfish wanting someone to stay alive even though they don't want to just so you don't have to be sad once they are gone
Lora Orz amen
I feel like I understand people who say suicide is selfish but at the same time it’s clearly not selfish unless your doing it for attention
Thats the situation I'm in...I want nothing more than to doe but I cant do that to my Dad so he is holding on to me so he wont be broken but in the meantime I'm the one who is broken...
you would never realize how many peoples lives in this world are hanging by a thread
“i dont wanna die, but sometimes i wish i’d never been born at all. carry on, carry on, as if nothing even matters.”
Yasssss
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
:))
Yes Bohemian Rhapsody
this was the way how I think before, I thought. No one wanted me in the first place, my biological parents tried to abort me anyway and people who accepted me are better off without me since I'm selfish and useless. to be honest, I still sometimes have that thoughts and just feel like I should just end things but at the same time... I couldn't. Yes my biological parent wanted me to die before but they didn't kill me, yes these people who accepted me hated me but they never left and I should be glad by that. If you ever feel alone, share your thoughts on a paper, express it through art or story writing, find people who relates with you. Because you are not alone, sometimes, we just can't see those people who cares about us, we may not get that response that we want but at least someone cares about us. but you guys can do it. we all can do it
Wow an actual effectual trigger warning. 13 reasons why could never
13 reasons why was literally a show advertised about suicide i think yall are just trying to creat drama lol
@@findev6330 not everyone's Christian here Vincent... Go comment somewhere else it's annoying that you reply to every comment here.
namu world if you don’t believe then don’t comment. Who are you to tell someone what not to post. For some people who are religious, this is something they might need or like to see.
@@yakiralovesall OMG omg yeah cause who wants therapy when there's religion to help, right ?
@@findev6330
Newsflesh. Tons of christian have mental health issues and god cant heal them. Lmao.
This is why i hate reliturd sheeples.
“right now i don’t wanna be this person... and this seems like the only way out of it.” i felt that
Same
Same
just change your attitude on things you know try thinking better because if your tired of depression then act on it if your continuing to be sad then your just adding on to it
@@ug0053 Easier said than done, like most things in life.
@@ug0053 That's like telling an 800 pound man to just put down the spoon. Technically it's correct, but logically flawed. It's the start that's hard, but the journey is much much harder. So much more complex, and trying to put it into simple words is even more insulting to the people you are speaking to. You are unintentionally belittling how difficult it really is and insulting their efforts. In plain terms, you're making it worse. Don't be a stumbling stone, be a step up.
You know, one time in the middle of when my depression was at its worst, I became completely emotionally numb. I remember watching some video about murder and how absolutely horrible and inhumane it was, and I thought, exactly, “ I could kill someone right now and not feel regret.” I honestly could’ve killed a person right at that moment. I still feel chills when I think of how serious I was.
Update: I’m fine! i wrote that as a memory. of course depression never completely goes away, but i’m way over that dark period in my life. remember that getting help really really helps. during that time i was completely alone bc i shut myself off. it only made things worse. going to therapy healed me more than anything else could! be safe!
Ikr it's the same. At those times, i feel so confident and serious. But then when it stops feeling that way, i think i was too bold or i just can't believe myself.
@@shakira7301 ahh same, on my worster times i was just ready to do anything to die. I still remember literally praying that i wanted my life to end. My sister was angry because i wanted to die, she kept saying that i didnt care for anyone in my life since i wanted to end it. The more she kept on the more desperate i was. The time she said to me that if u wanted to die soo bad pray to god then that u want it and so i did. She thought i wouldnt do but i wasnt joking, so after that she got my siblings involed which turned out making me stressed even more. They said i had nothing to be depressed about and that i was being dramatic. Now im to drained to care, im not attempting anymore ( i hope ) but the thoughts are always there, just not as strong now.
@Gulmira Hughes that makes u stronger than u think, in my opinion the fact that ur still here and that ur afraid of death kinda shows that u still hope for a better change and u might still care for ur family ( if ya don't then that's fine and it's normal to dislike people who've hurt u ). And all i can say for myself is that I know how it feel like when ur at ur worse and people u hoped was there for u wasn't. But even so, ur a beautiful person and no matter if they say otherwise because ur life is urs to own not theirs. U have the right to be here as much as everyone else and no crapy people are allowed to walk all over u. U right ur own story and it is only u who will live it. So i hope u find a way to ignore their saying because it's just not worth it. Ur not worth of their lowly and poor judgement because ur worth everything and anything and i hope u see that. Even tho if maybe ur family is a lost cost ur not, but for know until that time comes all u can do is to train ur self to spread ur wings. U don't need to rush it but instead take baby steps and learn at ur own pase. I'll be cheering on here for u and i for the best to come to u,i hope the good karma u get for staying strong for soo long comes to u. I hope u'll continue to stay in this world because its lucky to have someone like u in this world. And if u got someone to talk to then try telling them these things because it might help u in the long run. Hope u stay safe and i pray for ur recovery and happiness. Lots of love from me💚💛💜💙💓💖❤🖤
Same. Back then I was like weighing the Why and the Why Not of me killing myself and I actually thought of murdering my own mother once I "confirm" that she doesn't want to live anymore, otherwise I'll just die before her as the usual. Like wtf I love my mom (I mean she tells me now that I can kill myself if I want it so bad but I know she doesn't mean it). Point is, SUCH A TWISTED THOUGHT. And I got lots of those back then...
@@friedteabags6570 are you okay now? I hope you are.
I just hope you'll find something so wonderful that'll make you want to wake up every single morning till you are 100 yrs old (at least)
Yes i needed thi- wait, this was on my recommended. Is my fbi agent worrying about me
At least someone cares abt you
I have searched for this wonder wats gonna b recommended to me
My recommends too
I opened the app and it was the first video. To be fair I was binging Pysch2go before this so.
Jesus Loves you, don't give up. He makes all things new.
Euphoria is more realistic about mental health issues
Facts
Kassandre Fenty exactly
@@saintindya I mean no hate towards you, but i am curious. Why do you feel euphoria romanticizes?
@@saintindya it makes it seem cool even when it is showing it's not what the characters themselves want --> showing the raw characters? I'm sorry I'm just trying to understand you're POV, I mean no disrespect
Kassandre Fenty it honestly is
damn, when the guy said “when the suicide is successful the rehearsal just went to far” I felt that.
Just as you “feel” all of Billie Eyelash super deep lyrics
DadBaby broooo😂😂
@@lildordor197 Do you guys like get off from being assholes about peoples music taste?
DadBaby hahahahaha.
Sure “DadBaby”
"'You can smile and still want to die" so true
Is this a real quote?😭😭
jw
“Wow I’m dead and I got soooo muchhhhh attentionnnn” the fact that people actually think that someone would commit suicide for attention is stupid
People who attempt because they actually wanna die don’t want attention obviously however there are plenty of dumb fucks who will say they attempted even if they didn’t for attention
Jesus Loves you, don't give up. He makes all things new.
unrelated but the denim jacket girl was so pretty omg
Yass 😍
alex i guess no
@ewfishy yes
alex i guess nope
@ewfishy yep
Hi, I’m a suicide attempt survivor.
Since i am from a small country and the way i attempted it was in public almost everyone in my country knew. I felt exposed when i was in public and tried to avoid all forms of social interaction with everyone including my friends and family.
I never wanted to die, i just didn’t want to live.
At the time i was going through a lot, and felt ashamed to talk about it with anybody. That lead me to feel as if i was all alone.
Alone in a crowd.
I had a loving family and a close-knit circle of friends. They all knew me as someone who was always fun and smiling. So everyone was quite shocked when they realized that my body, was the body of the news were reporting about. The girl that jumped into the ocean as an escape route, but was fished out by a bunch of concerned fishermen.
I felt guilty when i heard that my friends cried. More so when i heard the cries and concerns of my parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, and cousins.
There were numerous speculations as to why i did what i did. I was an attention seeker. Perhaps possessed. Maybe i broke up with my boyfriend. Or someone had molested me. Some believed what they heard and others didn’t.
News channels reported the incident, articles were written and senseless comments were submitted. What broke me the most post suicide attempt were some of the comments i read under an article about me. I wasn’t supposed to be checking the news but i was curious. In the pretense of texting a friend i got my dad’s phone from him and read the first article that i saw. People were blaming my parents. They said I wasn’t given the proper education, and that had no religious values instilled in me by them. It broke me.
Help. Depression was hard and well, depressing. Now everyone knew the extent of it. How far it had taken me.
During and after being released from the hospital, i got help. Something i never thought I’d get. For the first time, in a long time i had to talk. Release the weight that had been weighing me down and silently killing me from the inside. I felt free. Even though I wasn’t ready to let it all out, bits and pieces of the puzzle started to come together.
I could never bring myself to reveal the full extent of what I endured, but everyone near and dear to me got some sort of an explanation. Especially my mom. My mom is the love of my life. My angel. I didn’t want her to hurt but the damage was already done. The path ahead was hard. However everyday, without fail, my mom was there for me. She gave me strength to move on.
Days, weeks and consequently months passed and i began to heal my broken self. Self love was an alien concept. But i was getting better. My bitter self caused people to leave, but I understand.
Today, after over an year and a half from that fateful day i am a different person. A better version of myself. Stronger than I could’ve ever imagined.
For now I’m not the girl that jumped into the ocean, to die. I’m very much alive. Inside and out.
Aishath Hanaa wow. This was powerful
kai elyse thank you ❤️❤️❤️
I wanted to share my story hoping it may help someone else in the same situation as me
Aishath Hanaa I want to tell you I’m glad you’re still here. I lost both of my brothers to suicide and I can’t tell you enough how I wish they were here. My life has been turned upside down and some days are very hard to get through but I feel I have no choice. I live and breathe the pain of losing them on a daily basis not to mention what my parents feel. I was always the one behind the scenes while they shined like the brightest stars. We were very close and on more than one occasion talked through their problems. My oldest brother passed away over 5 yrs ago and my baby brother will be gone 2 yrs in May. I found them both and live with that image. I will keep going because it’s all I know and I pray you keep your chin up and face the world knowing you are very important to so many people. Thank you so much for sharing God bless
Stephanie Dasher i feel for you sweetie. I am sorry about what happened. For now you need to be strong for them. The pain you must be going through is something I can’t even imagine but hold yourself together okay. For your brothers
Made me tear up. I'm so happy for you.. I hope to overcome as you did.
Just cause you’re alive, doesn’t mean you’re living.
Just because you exist, doesn't mean you're _alive._
You are so right
damn
5:56 her smile... she seems so proud of herself for getting better and being in a better headspace. You go girl, we’re all proud :)
Alex Hornewer omfg ikr. She’s so beautiful
I thought the same thing :D I was also happy because she was smiling there🙈 I don't know her and I never saw her but, you know 😆 She looked so proud 🤘🏼👏🏽🍍
Such an important topic to talk about since suicide attempt is still something we don't want to talk about and like to pretend it can just happen to other people.
"A life in Christ is a restful life" (Ellen G White) Go to Jesus Christ, pray to Him, read the word of God, meditate on His name and you will find rest. "The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace" (Psalm 29:11) God bless!😊
I highly recommend this book called "Steps to Christ" it's free online, here's the link m.egwwritings.org/en/book/2017/toc
@@findev6330 ! Wow thank you so much for that you'll never you know how much you've helped me and I just want to say thank you.
Vincent Lindhorn Maybe you should also find some resources for people with different beliefs.
@Vincent Lindhorn @Vincent Lindhorn I belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and although we’ have differences in our beliefs, you’re right. Trust in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and follow God’s commandments and you will be eternally happy. Life gets difficult at times, but God and Jesus Christ are always there. Prayer is always an option.
TH-cam Username I don’t agree with using religion to help with some mental health problems. Religion often helps develop those mental problems because they feel pressured by it.
You know its getting bad again when you watch these...
Yep
okay literally stop thats rude
Nope. Here for the sake of looking back on how I was. I'm proud of my mindset right now. 😊
Shikaze Official how is that rude?
oops 😬
you didnt need to out me lol
I’ve already been dead for years, I’m just still breathing
underrated comment..... i'm so sorry and even sorrier that almost everyone in this comment section (including myself) has probably left the same..
❤️
Hearing my parents talk negatively about people they see on the news killing themselves not knowing that I am going through the same thing was really hard
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💙
Comments like "why'd they choose to kill themselves? Killing yourself isn't the solution to your problems🙄😭"
@@userm180 Why are y'all trynna get into my ex? Leave her alone.
(In case you didn't get it her name is literally Heaven )
@@AmericaSucksBalls :))
Ask them if they would talk the same way about you if it hit close to home with your family. Open the dialogue and bring awareness of how they are unknowingly contributing to your distress. Educate them about it.
Does anyone else have that feeling... zero motivation to live but zero motivation to die??
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
@@userm180 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
I've come to the conclusion that that level of apathy stems from a lot of pain, I seeked help when I felt that way and it saved my life.
@@userm180 I appreciate the attempt, but I feel obligated to tell you that won't really help someone who feels this way.
Do you feel better?
"You're too young to feel so sad." 😒
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
@@userm180 Hey, look it's the bible bot.
@@userm180 I've been Christian my whole life but I've seen you comment so much that I'm thinking about converting solely out of spite.
i hate when ppl say that
Yes me too being young not only give what u want
I have suicidal thoughts pretty much 24/7. I honestly can't handle life. It's like I am waiting for my last breath and the only thing that comforts me is the thought of dying.
I see what you mean, I really do... but hey how are you feeling now? 💛
I can relate
🧡 i feel the same
I feel the same every freaking day. Have since I can remember.
@@robinparker1914 🧡
The subject of suicide attempts hits really close to home. My best friend attempted 3 times in 3 months a few years ago. He was unsuccessful, thank god. He got the appropriate help, diagnoses and medication and he's doing really well now. I never thought he'd get better. There is hope. Please reach out to someone .... anyone.
Marie Warne my friend almost committed sucide
Thanks, it's coñforting and inspiring
Onya Marie keep being beautiful and I hope your friends progress continues.
Thank you, gives me hope for my best friend
30 confirmed stomach pumps 7 mental wards 4 attempts at hanging 1 successful and 187 open cuts on her arms at time of death my friend was selfish and I don't know why she had help and everything police were helping and I and her boyfriend have everything for her I'm so glad your best friend is better
One of the biggest problems in tv is that the person who attempts is just like "well this happened to me ... better end my life then" while real sucide thoughts happen over time and over many events. We dont just think it and decide it right then and there. We ponder on it and overthink it for a long time before we decide if it's the right thing to do. Most of us try multiple times and no one knows until the one that almost ended us or the one that completed the task.
Truth!!
my thing with it is tv shows how easy it is I’ve tried killing my self since 15 and one time I freaked the f out and kept saying this is it this is it
Most suicides are actually attempted on impulse, so the assertion that it happens over time isn't true in most cases.
@@antipsychotic451 That part is actually the point I was trying to make. I absolutely agree, I just explained it weird
@@antipsychotic451 for me, it was a little thing that pushed me over the edge.
“If you tell a therapist that you’re suicidal, they will put you in the hospital.” why did only the mental health worker respond to this? I actually think it's true and not a myth. I am a survivor myself and I've seen therapists do this plenty of times to my friends, my brother, and myself. Not everyone in the US has health insurance because it's so expensive to some. Not everyone will feel safe with a therapist if they involuntarily send them to a hospital and expect the person to pay for it too.
Exactlyyy disease is just a business in western society. No one is being healed
@@bootycheeks520 I can totally see where these therapists are coming from. They're technically legally liable for you and can get in trouble if something happened to you when it could've been prevented.. it's just a rough situation for everyone :(
Then they drug you and worse never pay attention to the side effects of the medications.
This is a myth. I don't know how many people I've told I have a plan. I've said it to about 5 therapists a social worker, my group trauma therapist. The only person that admitted me to the hospital was me. I drove myself once and the other two times I asked my daughter to take me. So it's not true the therapist or doc will call the ambulance and have you carted off to the mental health facility. And if you dont have insurance you can apply for emergency medical assistance through the government while you're in the hospital. That is what I did the second time I was hospitalized
they only will if you voice that you have a plan or intent
I don't want to kill myself.. Sometimes, I just want to conveniently die.
Hey OP, I really hope whatever bad stuff is happening in your life gets better. I really hope you realise that you're a precious person, idk you irl but this internet stranger is sending you loves.
Stay safe beautiful:)
That's would be considered "passively suicidal" not an active plan just kinda an indifference to living
I sometimes feel that we have this weird need to demonize anyone who is suspected of "needing attention."
For real. We all need attention to thrive.
We are social animals, we need attention, nothing wrong with that smh
Exactly. Maybe they’re “wrong” for going to extremes to do that. But I feel like people refuse to see the human side of that. They want to view them as someone wrong, but that’s so awful. They still need help.
Not Your Grandma’s Tea Party Yep I think you are right!
For those trapped in the wreckage of a suicide attempt, or some other mental derangement that caused a spectacle in the midst of a "cry for attention", the need to demonize is a self preservation mechanic. You're not going to "cure" it.
If they don't demonize the person for their "callous" or "selfish" act, then they have to admit somewhere that they screwed up. This is especially true for family... parents... If their child didn't have something inherently wrong or wasn't twisted from the get-go, then the parents have to admit to their shortcomings. It really does take a parent to screw up a kid that bad... BUT you're not going to get most parents to admit it. They have to protect their own delicate sensitivities, too.
That doesn't make any of it right. It simply is... People will double down, and squirm and thrash and lash out and offer all kinds of justifications for themselves. They'll go through all manner of mental gymnastics just so they don't have to admit they were wrong, insensitive, or otherwise contributed to their kid doing such a horrible thing. The truth is, those people need help and don't even see it... It's part of the definition of insanity.
"Insane people don't believe they're insane. They think the water tastes funny!"
~ Tom Arnold "House Iii" ;o)
Shout out to all of my veterans that are suffering in silence wherever you are. You're definitely not alone.
Just lost one. 🖤
I respect them so much!!
Djmia keep going
T B why you that 😳✌️💯
when the guy was talking about how everything piled up and he wasn’t thinking things through.. EXACTLY how things work for me and i’m so glad he said that. Every time i’ve attempted suicide it hasn’t been planned, i was in the middle of a panic attack and the pills sitting next to me were the only thing that was going through my mind.
Sending you love and strength and support
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You should definitely check out Tiffany Jenkins "juggling the Jenkins" she struggled with addiction but also anxiety and depression.
Panic attacks are somthing else. I feel you..
aw I hope you're doing better now..let me know if you want to talk to someone, i know how it feels. also this is unrelated, but you are so pretty.
Im a survivor of 14 attempts, I never opened up the anyone about it and I never even showed what I was going through still struggle with depression anxiety and two eating disorders but I and 10 days clean of SH and 113 days clean from an attempt I'm trying :)
I hope you are doing much better right now. I have never been depressed or had any suicidal thoughts so I might not completely understand your situation but I wish you find happiness and come out of the positive side and also you are really brave.
@@sakshitiwari7987 im doing a lot better now im about a month clean now :)
@@AvaD-hr2oo how r u ?
@@artifysini im okay! im still working though a lot of stuff but id say im considerably betterr thank you for checking in i hope youre doing well
work it girl God is watching over you with angels and will your rewards will be triple your suffering he will avenge you his child God and Jesus will fight the battle for you at this point I can tell you dont have the energy to pray so just ask your family to go to the church and pray for your assientce in this fight I will be praying for you too 🙏🙏🙏
I know someone who told me after her attempt that “ it’s not about reasons to live it’s about the will to live” that hit me hard also I was told that she immediately regretted her decision and is grateful she was helped in time. She experienced ptsd as a result of the trauma of her attempt and the emergency treatment she received.
That's true. It's three things we need to continue to live. Will, hope, and purpose. When we lose those things, it's often hard to keep our strength to live. This is even true for people who is dealing with physical illness as well. A cancer patient must never give up the will to fight another day, the hope that they can survive, and a purpose (reasons) to live.
I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live with pain
Love your self Bts I really want to say a lot but I feel like I won’t say anything useful 😞 anyways it may not be ok now but remember that so much can change in even just a month, it depends on if YOU want to change and always remember army that a wise man once said “everythinggoes” anyways stream ‘mono’ by rm, he would be proud that you’re still fighting
Come up with sumin new bruh
@Love your self Bts Same. :/
@Spencer Plays Gamez Is everything okay at home? You're throwing shade at people in the comments here smh.
@@atinyzenstay they're literally repeating all comments
“Vulnerability is strength, crying is strength” that hit me in the gut, man.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
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Asking for help is one of the strongest things you can do. Dare to be vulnerable.
@@devlandiablo I asked my mother for help and she kept blaming me that you were a little baby and I took care of you etc
@@rme1383 sometimes our parents don’t know how to help us so it might help to find someone else you trust who will at least listen 💟
The guy in the red hoodie who talked about being glad he survived and he was just in an impulsively driven state to do it... really hits. He reminds me of a friend I lost in high school to suicide. He was drinking and was very upset that night. I know he had struggles but It's bittersweet to hear someone coming out the other side. I'm almost positive he would say the same thing if someone found him early enough. His brother also took his life years later. I wish everyone peace and the support they need
hope you’re doing well as well!
“Sometimes a successful suicide is just a rehearsal that went to far.” That one hurt!
And sometimes it's really what someone wants. I do a lot of self talk now but I can remember back in 2010 when I went to an abandoned office park on a Friday night and it was pouring rain. This office park had trees grown up around it. U would have no reason to even be near it on a Friday night. But low and behold some sobs stole my
Tools out of the back of my suv and left and called 911. I can say with out doubt, it wasn't any kind of rehearsal. Not even a little bit. Even on a good day I would rather not be here. So hard in my head. But you making that comment could actually trigger someone or several people to take their life just to prove to YOU that it wasn't a rehearsal. It was real feelings that they had at that time. Just saying...
"you hospitalize when they can't keep themselves safe"
That's why I never tell anyone. No one is putting me anywhere.
i hope you can still talk about things with people even if you don’t go all the way. that’s the best thing you can do, seriously.
Hosp is a crapshoot as to whether you get good care or can even get a bed. It's probably better to try it out. They won't keep you very long. They won't throw you naked into a padded room, or tie you to a bed or give you electroshock. Showering, clean clothes, eating hot meals three times a day, meeting the people on your unit can give you a boost from the time you walk in. You can always kill yourself after you get out if you still want to.
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
Honestly, hospitalization saved my life. I wouldn't be here today, had I not been hospitalized. If you trully plan on attempting suicide, and if the health care in your country is at least decent, you shouldn't be afraid of it. It releives the burden of having to keep yourself breathing, the staff does it for you, you get a break from everything and get people you can talk to without having to be scared of their reaction or of them judging you.
it's not how you think it is... plus, they will only "put you somewhere" if you're in serious danger. hope you can get help though. im only a stranger but you can trust me.
I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts for some time. Honestly it's been due to toxic family but I'm hoping it goes when I move out(hopefully this year).
Uk Gamer you matter, just because they’re family doesn’t mean you should listen to them. There are some bad people and it can be your family. They don’t love you like they should
It's gonna be okay. You're stronger
Wishing you all the best, I believe in you.
@@noaccount8957 Thanks for your kind comment. My situation is kinda unique my parents are overbearing and have kinda forced life decisions onto me that don't take into account my disability(DCD) and have generally made things more difficult than they need to be which is why university went soo horribly. They're not bad people(I've heard of worse situations) but fail to see that I want to do things in a way that make things easier for me. As a result I feel like soo much time has been wasted so what's the point. I see friends around me excelling in careers and falling in love going on holidays and I just feel stuck and kinda broken. However, I am looking forward to finally getting independence in all its meaning.
@@alexxolo Thank you :)
I've had suicidal thoughts for about 10 ish years (I'm 17) and it's always been like a fantasy in my mind. I've never had a full-blown suicide attempt but there have been many times where I hurt myself with so much anger that I almost tried to kill myself. I was suicidal before I was depressed, and at first, I took depression as a joke when it got introduced to me at school and I acted stereotypically depressed for fun. Eventually, it just became an actual lifestyle for me and it has only gotten worse and worse since. Depression ain't fun and it certainly isn't for attention. I can vouch that sometimes people will do things like suicide attempts as a cry for help, as I have made cries for help in similar ways a few times. Especially with covid making getting help a lot less available for people, including me, it can be really hard to get help sometimes and it's hard to directly ask somebody that can help you, to help you. If you know anyone who shows signs of major depression and seems suicidal, don't hesitate to ask them if they want some help or, if you're sure that they need it, try to get some help for them because it's really hard to ask for help especially when you feel so bad that you don't want help. And for all the people like me who are struggling to make it through each day, stay strong. There will be an end to it all and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. Think about what you want to do and chase your dreams, don't let anybody tell you that you can't. And, if you wanna talk, leave a reply to this comment and I will try to respond (though probably nobody will read this). Remember that tomorrow is another day and anything can happen, life can always get better. If you read all of this, you're insane and I hope you're having a great day, and that you'll have an even better day tomorrow
Hi just wanted to thank you for writing this and tell you that I actually read all of that... Also I especially changed my device to reply to ur comment as the one I was originally reading this on doesn't allow me to like or comment...
Also I love you...( ˘ ³˘)♥( ˘ ³˘)♥
Stay safe
Drink a glass of water
Keep yourself busy so that u don't Overthink, when u feel overwhelmed just write ur feelings down somewhere or call a person u trust and feel comfortable with.
I'm so glad I came across ur comment.
And watch a stand up comedy 😉😙
ILY ♥♡♥
eh, i could only wish that somebody would ask me if i was ok even though the answer is probably not anyway. there aren’t much people who take depressed people in a serious way.
This is all great advice! I bet you’re an amazing person!! Hope you’re having an easy day :)
i just wanted to say i'm rooting for you too and i truly hope things get better for you. ❤
I've been like this since 6-8 years old (I'm 15)
my friend didn't show signs. he always smiled and laughed and was incredibly engaged with others. no one knew he was in as much pain as he was. I wish he felt he could reach out. I wish he hadn't felt alone. I wish I or someone closer at the time could've helped him. I feel like he would've shared a lot of light and wisdom if he had survived.
REVEL Official thanks for sharing
It’s scary because I’m exactly the same. To others I’m happy, funny, get good grades, have a friend group. But I’m covering up cuts and hours of crying and planning things. It’s really hard being on that side of it, needing to say something but being completely unable to.
@@de4830 💜💜💜*internet hug*
I'm sorry for your loss. I'm the opposite I'm "weak", stupid...since childhood. I never felt loved by no one, not even by my family. I feel like I make it obvious but yet they don't care. Truth is nobody cares. They don't care about us. I'm not here for anyone I'm here because I'm forcing myself to and I'm here because I always wanted to go/live in Boston.
I told my friend about my thoughts and she just said run away or kill myself. I can't run away bc I can get kidnapped and torcherd.
She doesn't understand...
If you think that someone you know is suicidal, make sure that you are ready to hear about it before engaging a conversation.
As a person who has struggled and is still struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, I have reached to close friends for help to discover that they just couldn't deal with my distress. They ended up dismissing it with "you should go out more often"s and "oh but it's gonna be okay"s to protect themselves, and I felt all the more isolated after this.
They cannot be blamed for it though. Dealing with a friend's mental struggle and the fact that they want to kill themselves is a real challenge, and no one should feel guilty for not being able to cope with it. But you should know your own limits. If you think having the talk is too much for you to handle, take it into account and be ready to help your friend reach for someone who will be able to open a conversation with them (best friend, relatives, or therapist).
Emma Hollen wow this is making me tear up because I feel the exact same way that people are dismissive of my issues and just tell me to get over it
Same here, I've been keeping everything in lately
If you want to talk, I'm here. We don't know each other, but that doesn't mean we can't help each other. You don't have to be alone
@@annederepentigny7988 That's so kind... thanks
Thanks. I realized that eveb people ask you and tell you that you can tell them everything. They aren't ready and in the end just trigger them. Its hurts. But not much are ready to listen and they just get obsessed on advising and making me stop "whining"
Tv is always dramatized. The best anything on suicide is an older documentary called The Bridge.
Great docu.... There was controversy over the camera being left there...but I don't agree with the controversy. We failed those people before they got to that bridge...watching their final moments is the VERY least we could do...to face this truth head on. I do agree with the need for bridge nets
thanks sheriff woody
@@mutilatedcalf You're my favourite deputy. :P
Yup. Seen it. Scared me. I am glad I viewed it. I do have suicidal thoughts.
Andrew Sipos I agree with you, I think it’s a great documentary. But as someone who has fought suicidal impulses and survived an attempt...just watching it sent me into a new downward spiral of obsessing over my own possible suicide, and suicide in general. I kept rewatching it, even though it made me feel horrible. It f*cked with my head, I’ll leave it at that. I think that film is *really* triggering for lots of people-it is for me, and in the comments I saw it had the same effect on a LOT of people. I’m not all about trigger warnings on every little thing, but the Bridge shows multiple deaths by suicide. People need to know that before they watch it! **They may have one now, idk. But when I saw it last year, there was no trigger warning-it didn’t even say it showed people jumping to their deaths! All it said was that it was about people jumping from the GGB. 😕
me: knows I'm gonna get triggered
also me: continues waching
U ok?💓
@@xxs4667 is anyone really? 🙃
@@ErrorNotFound-nl1sh We should be..
@@xxs4667 you're right... I think we deserve it *sigh*
@@ErrorNotFound-nl1sh Yeah, we deserve happiness..
Nobody actually wants to die. We just want to stop suffering. Or go through a level of suffering that's manageable and won't take over our whole life. And especially, being around other people who can show compassion really tips the scale. It really helps a lot.
Also, one thing I wish the media wouldn't do is treat suicide as something people deserve for being "too weak". It's inherently a cruel concept and a concept that doesn't account for reality. It's just a comfort for those who DON'T experience suicidal thoughts. Like "I must not be suicidal because I'm stronger". And that's completely false.
Manubibi the media is trying to get better about it. I know they’ve tried to change it from “committing suicide” to “dying by suicide” instead - which I think is good
Sometimes. When I was extremely suicidal, I had this wrongful belief in my mind that if I went to that extreme, I would somehow be able to start my life over. Erase my mistakes by permanently ending my existence, and starting a new one. I did want to die. I didn’t want to stop the pain, I wanted to fade into obscurity. I couldn’t do it though because I know the impact commuting suicide has on family & children. I have two younger brothers, and wether I wanted to admit it or not, the impact of my death would traumatize them for life. My mom almost attempted twice when my brother and I were kids. I didn’t find out until (accidentally) discovering it when I was 15, and after that I couldn’t stop thinking about how traumatizing snd different my life would be without her. My impact would put people through suffering and trauma, and I couldn’t bring myself to hurt them that way.
Not Your Grandma’s Tea Party keep fighting ❤️
I dont agree with you. I do want to die. I want to end my life, my existence
@@ladybuglove61201 same
I remember I was living in the Netherlands and I called the suicide hotline and told them I was in front of the train rails and was about to jump and they told me to breathe and take a break from work for two days and that everything would be ok Lol. I called a friend to say goodbye and they went to pick me up and then send me to another country to receive proper attention. I would not be alive if I would have followed the hotline tips
Cl none i'm glad you're still here. :)
I'm also in the Netherlands, going through the same thing. Could you share with me where you got help please 🙏
@@8BAAS I called my psychiatrist in Mexico and he referred me to a psychologist. They gave me the attention in a matter of hours, while in the NL you have to wait up to three months. Depending on your migratory status and your location in the NL you could go to get help in Germany, or contact a certified psychologist in your country who gives psychotherapy via Zoom or Skype.
@@ollux8571 thanks 💖
@@8BAAS 113 is the suicide helpline in Netherlands. You can call or chat with them for free also in English.
i never attempted suicide but i often wish i could just disappear. i remember once running away to a cemetery and praying for sth bad to happen to me so i could just disappear and all the pain could go away
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
“these fake smiles will last for miles.”
- anonymous
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💙
“ you can smile and still feel like you want to die”
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
“It is like breathing again” ... wow I would love to get to that point ❤️
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
I dont want to die, I just want a different life as a different person
Everyday that I’m still here is by chance. I’m so exhausted
Man, this is heavy. Well done, SP. I think we all have had issues and struggles that can lead to this point. Like GHP says, depression is a real thing and it can drown you.
Survivor. Grateful other survivors have the courage to speak. Thank you.
And we're grateful you're here today. Sending you much love!
Coming from someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety for years, I think the most dangerous thing about 13 Reasons Why is the way that it depicts the world falling apart after the suicide has happened and the reactions of others. But in reality, the sad truth is that you won't be around to see people's reactions or the way it affects others because you'll be dead. Once you end your life, your life ends forever. There is no tomorrow or wondering what if. And sadly, the world will keep on turning and life will move on and you are gone. I think suicide needs to be shown more as a permanent ending because that's what it is.
Sounds fine for me
Sounds good to me
me, who is a suicide survivor, watching this even though i know the answers
The trigger warning is the best Ive seen ever! Thank you for considering us with the warning.
"and im not suicidal anymore" when she said that i legit said YAAAAAAYYY out loud and clapped of happiness
Kind of sad even here there's such a focus on active suicidal ideology, when passive suicidal ideology also exists...
People ask - 'are you having suicidal thoughts'. You say 'yes'. They start calling crisis teams. You think 'but what's going on, I have suicidal thoughts every day'.
@@debbielough7754 exactly. like im suicidal but I'm not actively suicidal. I'm not attempting to but I think about it and want to. I'm just at a point where I have something strong enough to keep me going right now.
and because of the stigma of this I'm scared to say yes when therapists ask if I'm suicidal. by the time I could say yes id start panicking (cause social anxiety) and not be able to finish explaining "yes I'm suicidal but I do not wish to act on it"
they talk about it 5:50
I feel like I’m just existing. I have to stay alive for my siblings because I have to help them finish their studies. They’re the only reason why I stop myself from going. And I think, it’s sad and suffocating.
Do you want somone to talk to? I have 3 siblings and I would love to encourage and talk with you
When you say your depressed out to people they think that you’re not really depressed, that you’re just exaggerating. Or they think that you’re joking. I never joke when I say I am. For a few months in 2018 I overcame my depression and it got better but everything came rushing back soon. I’ve thought of killing myself but I thought about how much the people in my life would hurt from me killing myself and I always push away the thought. Honestly I’ve found only one way to cope with my depression and that’s through BTS. Everyone has their own ways to cope and it doesn’t matter what it is, it just matters that it’s helping you take away that pain for a little bit.
I’m so happy that they could over come that and are able to be here today to share their opinions on depression. I hope that anyone else with depression can overcome it or can be a little happier each day.
similar with me. im the average teen at an average school, I make jokes about being depressed but I always mean them. I've physically hurt myself and contemplated suicide and the people that found out called me attention-seeking and psycho which made me feel scared to reach out for help at all. i started getting better and was a year clean from everything before it all came rushing back last year. im still struggling but im finally reaching out for help
a few ways for me to cope is to drown out the thoughts by talking to friends or watching youtube or twitch. another is collecting stuffed toys to hug when I get depressed (currently at 72) these things often help me to calm down and feel a bit better.
im so happy that im starting to overcome this and I know its going to be a rough journey but I know I can make it out and be okay.
also I wish you the best with your life :)
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven🤍
Honestly this was really nice to read. I just recently started watching BTS videos on TH-cam of them just being themselves and it really helped me not feel depressed as much. I only heard one of their songs which was dynamite which is obviously very famous, but they still helped me the past few weeks.
I don't know if this was totally relevant to your comment I just wanted to share. And I hope you're doing well
BTS for me too, but lately they just seem to not be enough nothing does I rlly think I will do it soon
That was probably one of the best trigger warnings I have ever seen. Instead of just saying, "trigger warning" they explained what the video contains so people can actually decide whether they can watch it or not.
Yeah, that was pretty amazing to me.
i really appreciate this being spoken about - people love to ignore suicide attempts, just accepting a sick note and never speaking of it again
"what would you tell your younger self"
apologies without change is emotional manipulation
its okay to forgive but dont forget
and last but not least
*it was never your fault*
I just had a break up 2 days ago, he ended things with me, for the second time. I needed to read this, thank u 💖
Thank you
I still think about it every day but I'm not gonna act on it 😔....
new_ wave99 for me what has helped is having a playlist and listening to positive videos. Even if the message is repeated over and over again it can help shift your mind 💜
Plus I found out I'm having a baby I'm trying to set my life straight for him ....
@@new_wave9982 i hope things work out for u, sending love 💌💌
Have some friends
It helps
i don’t want to die i just don’t want to exist anymore.
Me to.
Also I just want to say that I relate to azula. My mom favors my brother. My dad is abusive. I have crazy high standards
@@lillilly8453 you kin Azula? That probably isn't a good thing
@@btcxwxy :p
Me too
for GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON that whoever believeth in HIM should not perish but have eternal life"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 3:16."But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:"-the Gospel of JESUS written by john 1:12. hi! JESUS loves you and died for you if you accept HIM! HE rose from the dead to show us that death cant hold HIM! repent and start living your life for HIM and when the time is right HE will get you to Heaven💛
Nothing makes me angrier with regard to this topic than when people say those who attempt or complete suicide are selfish. I find this to be due to stigma and based in extreme ignorance. There are still people in this world who deny that depression is a real thing, even though major depression is recognized as a disability.
Anyone calling suicide a selfish act has little understanding of what the nightmare of mental illness is really like. You would never, EVER say that about someone with a physically painful disability who wanted to end their suffering, because you have an easier time imagining that level of agony and can empathize. It's no different for the mentally ill, just a different type of pain. Just because you can't imagine it or relate to it, doesn't mean it's not real and life-destroying for others. No one can decide for another human being that their suffering is tolerable, nor should anyone be forced to stay alive for others. Not to mention, you don't know everyone's circumstances. Not everyone who attempts or completes suicide is in their right mind, and could have been having a psychotic episode at the time.
Also, like they mentioned in this video, many people who consider suicide genuinely feel as though everyone in their lives, even the world, would be better off without them. We often feel like a burden when we've been that low. Have compassion, educate yourself on mental illness, and please stop making assumptions.
@Nattie bubbles I'm so sorry about that, but I'm glad you found your way to a more compassionate mindset, and hopefully have much better friends now. There is so much ignorance surrounding mental illness in general, and suicide is even more taboo. I try to remind myself that most people don't have malicious intent when they make those remarks, it's mostly as simple as a lack of understanding (which doesn't make it less hurtful).
I hate when selfish comes up too. I've attempted suicide many times and now I have a paralyzed hand where i stabbed my wrist, and my organs are failing from overdoses. No one knows the pain a depressed person feels and for us, wanting us to stick around for a life long battle of severe emotional pain so they don't hurt is self is in its own. I've opened my skin and played with my tendons so to take away my mental pain, but the mental pain felt worse. Sometimes being alive feels like an eternal torture but I'm still here so I don't get labeled selfish by my family.
"Have compassion, educate yourself on mental illness, and please stop making assumptions." People can never do that.
My boyfriend who took antidepressants and struggled with depression himself found out my uncle killed himself in front of me and his son and his wife and my boyfriend called him selfish!! I was so offended. After that death i started learning more about suicide and decided to stop saying committed suicide and start saying died by suicide to reduce the stigma and judgment toward people who are struggling with suicidal thoughts. I started dating a new nonbinary partner who struggles a lot with being chronically suicidal. They say they PREFER committed suicide language and think suicide being stigmatized helps prevent them going through with it... It's all so complicated and messy...
“I’m 18” it’s the fact that she’s so young that makes me sad