Commenting on an old video I know but thank you so much for this, my experience as male for my life so far is exactly what you describe, this sudden overwhelming distraction sometimes for no reason at all. It's actually about 75% of why I want to start taking estrogen, like... I'd love to be a bit more femme overall, but the changes to sex drive sound like heaven. My male drive feels like some kind of destructive addiction where I don't even want it but then sometimes it starts to feel really good whether I want it or not and I can't resist. For my whole life I thought that's just how it had to be, only found out the effect with estrogen is this profound, and my feelings about transitioning went from a lifetime of "maybe, maybe not, I want to do it, but it seems really scary" to "please let me start as soon as possible".
Your vids are very helpful. I'm 6 months into HRT n alot has changed mentally and physically. I been feeling like a little girl trying to figure out her body. You sharing your experience helps a ton.
@@l.genevievealcorn-business5755 it's hard to explain but it's both stressful but enjoyable. It's definitely worth it though. I learn my preferences, how to identify when I'm on PMS and a quite a few other nifty pricks. But if you all have any advice or heads up I'd love to hear them.
HRT definitely changes ' horniness ' images no longer do it for me. I need closeness and the heat of a body next to mine. I want to get ' stuffed ' too but I only have those feelings when my partner is with me. I love your honesty! Please, never stop being you ☺️❤️
Very much similar to this too. I stopped thinking about sex, like. it's not on my brain, almost never (which is like, so much space for everything else. I do think sometimes of intimacy with my guy tho). Having said that, I do still enjoy sex a lot with my man, we could do it over and over and id not get tired of it. but I find it it's a way for me to connect to him, rather than a purely physical need. hope this makes sense..
I'm nearly 2 years on HRT and this is what I've found when it comes to horniness. Before HRT, Masturbation was like drinking water in the Desert. Feels good for a little bit, but you get that feeling of needing more shortly after, an unquenchable thirst if you will. On HRT occasionally I get the itch, and the water is FAR more satisfying now, if not a little more difficult to achieve. It's great! Instead of being a have to, it's a want to. As for the beginning I am on the asexual spectrum, and I do feel horniness. That point always threw me off until finding out that there is aesthetic attraction. It also made me understand why I didn't see being a virgin as a bad thing.
After a year and a half on hrt, my orientation has been l flipping. It’s so interesting how attraction as a woman feels so different. You’d expect to feel it the same way, only towards something different but it’s a fully different type of sensation
Honestly arousal before hrt was a huge nuisance for me. Thoughts felt so intrusive and I couldn’t focus on anything except getting off. Its a different kind of arousal with hrt and I personally wouldnt have it any other way. Im so happy to be able to somewhat control it, now that im on hormones.
10 months on hormones and I definitely relate to sexuality being more mental than physical. I too have such a craving to be stuffed lol. I woke up the other morning with the incredible need for a man to treat me like a woman. Something I haven’t done much of because I don’t relate to the hookup culture. I also find mental stimulation more arousing than I used to. Things beyond the physical are what I’m finding very attractive these days. However when I still see a very attractive girl I get mixed emotions of jealousy and horniness;) As always thank you for your honesty and all the juicy insights Ashley!
last night my boyfriend whispered " I am falling in love with you"I was so happy to hear those words I have been waiting for him to tell me. I am a happy girl tonight!
If it helps anyone being diagnosed with gender dysphoria in my opinion having lost 2 wives to it is like being diagnosed with cancer. It hits you hard. Let's say breast cancer You get 3 choices 1. start chemo immediately 2. have your boobs lopped off (you will still need 1.) 3. don't take A or B they will give you 6 months to a year to live. With my dysphoria, I got 3 choices too. 1. take anti-depressants for the rest of my life (as explained they will never take away the underlying causes of my depression) 2. Transgender 3. Die earlier sad and depressed or even take my own life. 80% of people with gender dysphoria have or get suicidal thoughts. I chose B been on E for 9 months now -never been happier in my life. My libido is kinda 0 it never was high, but due to the T blockers nothing downstairs works anymore so pointless having a high libido but I do get horny feelings if you like and I want and need to be loved and touched and cuddled now far more than wanting to penetrate or be penetrated if that makes sense. I am going through if you like female pubescence boobs are growing fat is redistributing to my but and hips and it's just lovely.
I've been getting this feeling more and more. I see a cis woman & i feel jealousy. I feel a kind of anger. Why am i not one of them? I feel i was cheated in the womb. I should have been born a girl. I know its not rational but I feel it. I also know its a bit deterministic. Not my thing otherwise but i just cant help it. HRT sounds like a great idea. Thank you for your help. ❤ Made a cup of tea, realised i was out of sugar. Took off my skirt, top & bra - with falsies - & went to the shop. Aware that my nails were still done but totally forgetting I was still wearing lipstick. The world didnt end. I felt really good when I realised what I'd done. Just about to go back to the shop after doing a bit of eye makeup. You inspire me and I'm so grateful. I'm getting closer & closer to coming out - to transitioning. You have helped enormously. I dont want to live this lie of being a man anymore. It hurts. Ps. I love your laugh, and yes i get that pulsing sensation thing you mention.
Today is my 1 year anniversary on E. I've been resisting fetishizing my transition for a while now... I didn't want to "invalidate" myself by making my transition into something that turned me on. And then I guess you could say that during my 6 hours of Lucy dancing on my synapses Sunday morning, that facade crumbled... But now I struggle with wanting to connect with men that aren't explicitly that stereotype of masc4masc... How do I approach get connected with people that are open with connecting with someone transfem? I'm not a fan of Grindr since it's such a shallow means of connection based on looks and a blurb. My best assets are mental and emotional.
This was also a need when I was male. (didn't realize it) As a woman I defiantly feel the need for a shared sexual experience. (receiving sex ) . I also found aligning to how a female would masturbate increases that need. Still waiting for HRT
Ashley ... oh, my. This subject tends to get me depressed, having been years on Lupron and Zytiga, and there's no testosterone left to create any horniness. I still deeply ache for some sort of physical connection, but it's vague and unfocused. The biggest problem is that the emotions still run rampant, but the primary feeling is of being rejected by the universe (or at least all the myriad sub-sets thereof). This leaves me with nothing but "my kink", which further isolates me from most people. Sometimes I think that dying from the cancer would be less bad than it's "cure".
You! Hey You! Stop that!.... My friend, you are more than physical interaction! You are a bright mind, I see it in the way you've written this post. You and me are alike. The idea of rejection is real and valid but it doesn't rule us. Your 'kink' that you say alienates you so much, why? Not that you need to answer me but one you should ask yourself. Be true to yourself and just let life evolve around you. Stay strong, stay patient and be safe. Listen to Big Sis. ❤️
I’m 9 months in and I know exactly what your saying when you said it goes from the belly to the back area. It’s weird I see an attractive girl and a say I don’t want to sleep with this person I’d rather be stuffed.😂 That said I also really don’t get the hook up culture. I mean I want to hook up but I want to like the person I’m hooking up with. I want to be in charge in a way. I just don’t want the other person to be a total douch. I’m dying to get stuffed but scared at the same time.
The liver is not where testosterone is produced. Apparently, in AFAB people, it's produced in the ovaries (25-50%), adrenal glands as well as other conversion sites.
Would love to hear more about applying T to genital area and the changes you notice from that, including if it "takes away" sensation from the backside - and concentrates it more up front again.
Not to be weird but I've had those thoughts about being stuffed recently and that's something new for me. I kind of wanna be dominated yet treated sweetly does that make sense?
When this do you question the effectiveness of your t blockers..I do..but really is I think because sex and desire is carnal.. could be a culmination of alot of things..
Why did you have to bring this up? lol! My libido has been up and down since I started HRT over 1.5 years ago. Testosterone definitely plays a role and I and my endo agreed to cut my CPA to 0.25 the full dosage which has helped. Should I get a orchie or have full vaginoplasty it'll be interesting to see how that affects things. Exogenous testosterone perhaps? I have a potential girlfriend, but I also have a couple of guys that I date on occasion. While the girlfriend understands that I'm ENM the desire to "get stuffed" is a real thing, albeit much stronger than when I was presenting male, and I will to continue meeting up with these men for now. The potential girlfriend does have a strap on though....
Hi, Ashley, just celebrating 1 year on HRT and I’m rediscovering my horniness and what gets me aroused. The horniness is there but it’s a whole new system inside me I get to discover, opposed to high testosterone that externally drove me.
My good friend Cammy just had bottom surgery in June, she went from being almost hyper sexual to have 0 interest in sex at all. It’s only been 2 months, but all my other friends who had the same procedure said they didn’t have the same exp. Does anyone know if this is a normal thing or if it’s something she needs to worry about?
That’s interesting that you’d attribute horniness to meat inclusive diet. I guess it would be possible to figure that out, like if you check your hormone levels regularly, you could find out how much testosterone you have currently and then switch to a more vegetarian diet for a while and then check again for comparison. Or at the very least, would you feel less horny if you went vegetarian.
I have never thought about or heard this (not saying it can't be true, interesting theory for sure) but would this mean too with more people turning vegan to less horny people lol.
I definitely noticed this being a thing after 4-5 months of HRT... unfortunately though, it seems to have disappeared for me and I'm back to having pretty much no sex drive. Wish I knew how to get it back!
your t may be blocked to much or you may need to try a different delivery way when taking your hormomones (injection ,pills ,gel). trying progesterone can also restore arousel/sex drive.
@@SuperJonathanmatthew T being too low is one of my theories as well, yeah. I've reduced my injection dosage a few weeks ago so hopefully that will help. I've also been taking progesterone but that doesn't seem to have done anything for me just yet.
I have been on hrt for about 1 year. I don't have testicle any more so I don't need blockers. I thought I was a sexual but now I think my sensuality is changing and want men. I have not had botom surgery yet but am going to asap.
Hi Ashley, I totally agree with your stance on horniness and currently feeling this powerful pulse within me. May I ask how do you really with that feeling?
I haven't started HRT yet, but I have felt the "Daddy stuff me" sensation, which is curious bc I don't like men, at least I don't feel attracted to them, I could be with one but it's not what I want for a relationship, I've always liked and felt attracted to women.
I lived in South Africa and had a girl friend I lived with weird relationship but having said that I used to take her estrogen, she was a whack job without it.
Now I am a little bit scared of HRT, the last thing I need is to get any hornier! I am horny enough already, I can’t imagine getting hornier. I consider myself straight/lesbian, but even in my male form, I already go through cycles where all I want is to get “stuffed”.
We are attracted to transsexual men to woman but I wouldn’t be if they removed the male organ . It ruins the mystery and imagination active aspect . I Donno . To each their own .
Commenting on an old video I know but thank you so much for this, my experience as male for my life so far is exactly what you describe, this sudden overwhelming distraction sometimes for no reason at all. It's actually about 75% of why I want to start taking estrogen, like... I'd love to be a bit more femme overall, but the changes to sex drive sound like heaven. My male drive feels like some kind of destructive addiction where I don't even want it but then sometimes it starts to feel really good whether I want it or not and I can't resist. For my whole life I thought that's just how it had to be, only found out the effect with estrogen is this profound, and my feelings about transitioning went from a lifetime of "maybe, maybe not, I want to do it, but it seems really scary" to "please let me start as soon as possible".
Your vids are very helpful. I'm 6 months into HRT n alot has changed mentally and physically. I been feeling like a little girl trying to figure out her body. You sharing your experience helps a ton.
You are just starting you second (female) puberty.
@@l.genevievealcorn-business5755 it's hard to explain but it's both stressful but enjoyable. It's definitely worth it though. I learn my preferences, how to identify when I'm on PMS and a quite a few other nifty pricks. But if you all have any advice or heads up I'd love to hear them.
Hello @@tsukiyami7101
HRT definitely changes ' horniness ' images no longer do it for me. I need closeness and the heat of a body next to mine. I want to get ' stuffed ' too but I only have those feelings when my partner is with me. I love your honesty!
Please, never stop being you ☺️❤️
Very much similar to this too. I stopped thinking about sex, like. it's not on my brain, almost never (which is like, so much space for everything else. I do think sometimes of intimacy with my guy tho). Having said that, I do still enjoy sex a lot with my man, we could do it over and over and id not get tired of it. but I find it it's a way for me to connect to him, rather than a purely physical need. hope this makes sense..
I'm nearly 2 years on HRT and this is what I've found when it comes to horniness. Before HRT, Masturbation was like drinking water in the Desert. Feels good for a little bit, but you get that feeling of needing more shortly after, an unquenchable thirst if you will. On HRT occasionally I get the itch, and the water is FAR more satisfying now, if not a little more difficult to achieve. It's great! Instead of being a have to, it's a want to. As for the beginning I am on the asexual spectrum, and I do feel horniness. That point always threw me off until finding out that there is aesthetic attraction. It also made me understand why I didn't see being a virgin as a bad thing.
After a year and a half on hrt, my orientation has been l flipping. It’s so interesting how attraction as a woman feels so different. You’d expect to feel it the same way, only towards something different but it’s a fully different type of sensation
I have always had that attraction for men
I’m a pre everything trans woman
and I’m basically asexual, and I’m a bit afraid of my sex drive changing whenever I start to take HRT.
Same. That's one of the scariest things regarding to HRT changes apart from social issues
I’m also pre everything 😍🤩
Hiii
Also I hope it doesn’t make you uncomfortable when you take the HRT 😘
Honestly arousal before hrt was a huge nuisance for me. Thoughts felt so intrusive and I couldn’t focus on anything except getting off.
Its a different kind of arousal with hrt and I personally wouldnt have it any other way. Im so happy to be able to somewhat control it, now that im on hormones.
10 months on hormones and I definitely relate to sexuality being more mental than physical. I too have such a craving to be stuffed lol. I woke up the other morning with the incredible need for a man to treat me like a woman. Something I haven’t done much of because I don’t relate to the hookup culture. I also find mental stimulation more arousing than I used to. Things beyond the physical are what I’m finding very attractive these days. However when I still see a very attractive girl I get mixed emotions of jealousy and horniness;) As always thank you for your honesty and all the juicy insights Ashley!
Why inject something you don't have by birth. This is why you suffer and blame it on society...
last night my boyfriend whispered " I am falling in love with you"I was so happy to hear those words I have been waiting for him to tell me. I am a happy girl tonight!
If it helps anyone being diagnosed with gender dysphoria in my opinion having lost 2 wives to it is like being diagnosed with cancer. It hits you hard. Let's say breast cancer You get 3 choices 1. start chemo immediately 2. have your boobs lopped off (you will still need 1.) 3. don't take A or B they will give you 6 months to a year to live. With my dysphoria, I got 3 choices too. 1. take anti-depressants for the rest of my life (as explained they will never take away the underlying causes of my depression) 2. Transgender 3. Die earlier sad and depressed or even take my own life. 80% of people with gender dysphoria have or get suicidal thoughts. I chose B been on E for 9 months now -never been happier in my life. My libido is kinda 0 it never was high, but due to the T blockers nothing downstairs works anymore so pointless having a high libido but I do get horny feelings if you like and I want and need to be loved and touched and cuddled now far more than wanting to penetrate or be penetrated if that makes sense. I am going through if you like female pubescence boobs are growing fat is redistributing to my but and hips and it's just lovely.
I've been getting this feeling more and more. I see a cis woman & i feel jealousy. I feel a kind of anger. Why am i not one of them? I feel i was cheated in the womb. I should have been born a girl. I know its not rational but I feel it. I also know its a bit deterministic. Not my thing otherwise but i just cant help it.
HRT sounds like a great idea.
Thank you for your help. ❤
Made a cup of tea, realised i was out of sugar. Took off my skirt, top & bra - with falsies - & went to the shop. Aware that my nails were still done but totally forgetting I was still wearing lipstick.
The world didnt end. I felt really good when I realised what I'd done.
Just about to go back to the shop after doing a bit of eye makeup.
You inspire me and I'm so grateful. I'm getting closer & closer to coming out - to transitioning. You have helped enormously. I dont want to live this lie of being a man anymore. It hurts.
Ps. I love your laugh, and yes i get that pulsing sensation thing you mention.
Today is my 1 year anniversary on E. I've been resisting fetishizing my transition for a while now... I didn't want to "invalidate" myself by making my transition into something that turned me on. And then I guess you could say that during my 6 hours of Lucy dancing on my synapses Sunday morning, that facade crumbled... But now I struggle with wanting to connect with men that aren't explicitly that stereotype of masc4masc... How do I approach get connected with people that are open with connecting with someone transfem? I'm not a fan of Grindr since it's such a shallow means of connection based on looks and a blurb. My best assets are mental and emotional.
This was also a need when I was male. (didn't realize it) As a woman I defiantly feel the need for a shared sexual experience. (receiving sex ) . I also found aligning to how a female would masturbate increases that need. Still waiting for HRT
Ashley ... oh, my. This subject tends to get me depressed, having been years on Lupron and Zytiga, and there's no testosterone left to create any horniness. I still deeply ache for some sort of physical connection, but it's vague and unfocused. The biggest problem is that the emotions still run rampant, but the primary feeling is of being rejected by the universe (or at least all the myriad sub-sets thereof). This leaves me with nothing but "my kink", which further isolates me from most people.
Sometimes I think that dying from the cancer would be less bad than it's "cure".
You! Hey You! Stop that!.... My friend, you are more than physical interaction! You are a bright mind, I see it in the way you've written this post. You and me are alike. The idea of rejection is real and valid but it doesn't rule us. Your 'kink' that you say alienates you so much, why? Not that you need to answer me but one you should ask yourself. Be true to yourself and just let life evolve around you. Stay strong, stay patient and be safe. Listen to Big Sis. ❤️
I totally understand the physical connection / emotional connection it's such a big part of life
I’m 9 months in and I know exactly what your saying when you said it goes from the belly to the back area. It’s weird I see an attractive girl and a say I don’t want to sleep with this person I’d rather be stuffed.😂
That said I also really don’t get the hook up culture. I mean I want to hook up but I want to like the person I’m hooking up with. I want to be in charge in a way. I just don’t want the other person to be a total douch. I’m dying to get stuffed but scared at the same time.
The liver is not where testosterone is produced. Apparently, in AFAB people, it's produced in the ovaries (25-50%), adrenal glands as well as other conversion sites.
Yes from time to time. Definitely when I'm not eating whole plant based foods. Considering my asexuality.
i had a female libido even before any hrt, and since hrt it has only become even more whole and intense i loove it
Would love to hear more about applying T to genital area and the changes you notice from that, including if it "takes away" sensation from the backside - and concentrates it more up front again.
So interesting having perspective from both sides.
Not to be weird but I've had those thoughts about being stuffed recently and that's something new for me. I kind of wanna be dominated yet treated sweetly does that make sense?
Two words, gentle domination. You can thank me later :)
I absolutely love I when you laugh spontaneously after making a certain comment. ❤❤❤❤
When this do you question the effectiveness of your t blockers..I do..but really is I think because sex and desire is carnal.. could be a culmination of alot of things..
My t is well blocked because I've been on the same dose I think but meat has added fuel to the fire!
Why did you have to bring this up? lol! My libido has been up and down since I started HRT over 1.5 years ago. Testosterone definitely plays a role and I and my endo agreed to cut my CPA to 0.25 the full dosage which has helped. Should I get a orchie or have full vaginoplasty it'll be interesting to see how that affects things. Exogenous testosterone perhaps? I have a potential girlfriend, but I also have a couple of guys that I date on occasion. While the girlfriend understands that I'm ENM the desire to "get stuffed" is a real thing, albeit much stronger than when I was presenting male, and I will to continue meeting up with these men for now. The potential girlfriend does have a strap on though....
Hi, Ashley, just celebrating 1 year on HRT and I’m rediscovering my horniness and what gets me aroused. The horniness is there but it’s a whole new system inside me I get to discover, opposed to high testosterone that externally drove me.
Love your demeanour! Awesome approach to honesty. Thanks for sharing these videos.
My good friend Cammy just had bottom surgery in June, she went from being almost hyper sexual to have 0 interest in sex at all. It’s only been 2 months, but all my other friends who had the same procedure said they didn’t have the same exp. Does anyone know if this is a normal thing or if it’s something she needs to worry about?
That’s interesting that you’d attribute horniness to meat inclusive diet. I guess it would be possible to figure that out, like if you check your hormone levels regularly, you could find out how much testosterone you have currently and then switch to a more vegetarian diet for a while and then check again for comparison. Or at the very least, would you feel less horny if you went vegetarian.
Definitely personal experience
I have never thought about or heard this (not saying it can't be true, interesting theory for sure) but would this mean too with more people turning vegan to less horny people lol.
I definitely noticed this being a thing after 4-5 months of HRT... unfortunately though, it seems to have disappeared for me and I'm back to having pretty much no sex drive. Wish I knew how to get it back!
your t may be blocked to much or you may need to try a different delivery way when taking your hormomones (injection ,pills ,gel). trying progesterone can also restore arousel/sex drive.
@@SuperJonathanmatthew T being too low is one of my theories as well, yeah. I've reduced my injection dosage a few weeks ago so hopefully that will help. I've also been taking progesterone but that doesn't seem to have done anything for me just yet.
@@bingoboingoe good luck.
Geez Girl! You really don't hold back! 😜
Love it ❤️
I have been on hrt for about 1 year. I don't have testicle any more so I don't need blockers. I thought I was a sexual but now I think my sensuality is changing and want men. I have not had botom surgery yet but am going to asap.
You are hysterical. Great video.
Hi Ashley,
I totally agree with your stance on horniness and currently feeling this powerful pulse within me. May I ask how do you really with that feeling?
I haven't started HRT yet, but I have felt the "Daddy stuff me" sensation, which is curious bc I don't like men, at least I don't feel attracted to them, I could be with one but it's not what I want for a relationship, I've always liked and felt attracted to women.
omg this girl is on fire !
Yes and I believe I was asexual before HRT and been on HRT 1YEAR 6 MONTHS Almost. I've noticed evening when eating red meats.
Before I went on T, I had very little sex drive. Being on T, my sex drive is so high.
Can I ask you. Do you take progesterone? Or just oestrogen and blockers. And how many mg of oestrogen do you to take ? What are your e2 levels ?
51 years on several different variations of estrogen, estradiol, etc.
I lived in South Africa and had a girl friend I lived with weird relationship but having said that I used to take her estrogen, she was a whack job without it.
so glad i found you. thank you!
I start HRT next week.
You are always beautiful person Ashley iam asexual and i never really think about sex much love you ashley always love your laugh
Thanks!
You bet! Thank you!
I just came out as trans woman
I've said it before I'll say it again I love you and what you are doing your awesome
Hi Ashley! I was just thinking, maybe I could bring over some steak and eggs for breakfast. Lol 😆
Thanksgiving will never be the same!!!! "Who's gonna STUFF the turkey???" 🤣😂🤣
Now I am a little bit scared of HRT, the last thing I need is to get any hornier! I am horny enough already, I can’t imagine getting hornier. I consider myself straight/lesbian, but even in my male form, I already go through cycles where all I want is to get “stuffed”.
Beautiful woman 💞💞💞💞💞
🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺
Beautiful woman 🌷🌷🌷🌷
Changed the thumbnail huh xD
I love transgender woman
Look nice Just wonderful wonderful personality
I just love you.
What is HRT?
Hormone replacement therapy (HRT) in case of male to female, estrogens and testosterone blockers. and in case of female to male the other way around.
@@SuperJonathanmatthew Thank you!
Hi
Love you girl
Thank you!! ❤️❤️
It's doesn't matter to me! I get pounded on every morning for about an hour wether I like it or not!
Cheer up
Her: it's getting hot in here
Me as an asexual feeling like I'ma vomit after that 🤣
Anyway thank you for the video
Be happy who you where originally.
hi bretty eyes you have 🤗
Hows ur voice so feminine
Very beuatafil like you
A full body massage take your time with a lady
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We are attracted to transsexual men to woman but I wouldn’t be if they removed the male organ .
It ruins the mystery and imagination active aspect .
I Donno . To each their own .