Those who haven't had to deal with depression cant even fathom. Truly one of the worse things to go thru in life. And when you have any friends that just makes it so much worse. Myself, I can't even be happy around family members. They tell me to go out and talk to people, but it's just not that easy. One thing about depression is you don't want to talk to people or just don't have it in you to do that.
Thank you for all your comments and your encouragement. Sorry I have not responded to the last few , I did not even realize they were here and its my goal to always respond. I am sorry for your suffereing but I am also inspired by your courage. I will continue to try and put into practice the things you have said and will be as hopeful as I can that I will continue to get more stable. Hope all is well with you these days and sorry again for not responding sooner.
I got my blood work done 3 weeks ago which is why I have started Testosterone Replacement Therapy and I am praying for that to make a noticeable difference for sure. I'd been taking Seroquel and Nortryptaline for about 2 months before starting the T so I still take those for now. Lets be strong and help one another, I like that Frank. I never turn down offering support or receiving it. Noah
I know this post is over 5 years old, but everything you are saying is exactly how I feel. I thought I was the only one, seriously. I am stuck in this thing for at least (not exaggerating) 5 years. I just don’t know how to get out of it. I have been on every kind of medication and they all eventually stop working. It has turned me into a nonfunctional person. I just feel like I am failing at my whole entire life. I started having panic attacks, which are REAL and scary, about 5 years ago, they have lessened the last two years, for reasons unknown, but I am not complaining about that. It’s so hard for me to get out of bed everyday and honestly, a lot of times I don’t..at all. I don’t know. This is getting too long. Thank you for letting me post.
This video is old but honestly It really helped me. Hearing someone who’s been through similar things to me and is coping with it well gives me so much more hope than my therapist or family suggesting things to help my depression. Thank you.
Thank you for your courage to put yourself and your condition so fully 'out there'. Many of us know & understand you completely. God bless & keep all of us who are struggling with this enormous weight in our daily lives - it is so difficult for our friends and families to even begin to know how to deal with it.
I can identify with what you said. I have been battling psychotic depression for about 2 1/2 years. Being a single mom and with all life's necessities, I found myself at a real low. Thank God my mom was there to help. I am currently taking seroquel xr 300 and fluoxetine. I have not been hospitalized, but taking day by day. Thanks again for sharing. It takes a lot to speak up.
I had psychotic depression too and it's really rough. Have you tried going to a therapist? I've been to see the same therapist after trying out a few and gone about 4 times now and found that along with support from my family its helped me to gain some perspective. I hope things get better for you soon.
I think you are so brave and courageous to be able to follow a schedule. I find it difficult to even get up in the morning. Cooking, cleaning and so much more are like trying to climb the biggest mountain. The pain is terrible. It's like nothing matters. The whole thing is quite a fight.
This has been the most helpful, best video I have watched on this topic so far yet. The part where you say "stay alive" (a few times) is totally relateable. Thank you for putting those feelings to words and helping us who are suffering to find relief in knowing that we are not alone in our search for help and management of this affliction.
Hey man, I just watched this video after your more recent (more energized/happy) video. You're a strong good dude for posting this during you're hard time. Who knows if or how many lives you have saved posting these videos. I'm going to try to stick to a schedule like you suggest. Sounds like a solid tip! Thanks man!
Really thankful for this video. So many videos out there are by a person that has had a mild depression fully recovered and think they know it all. Completely agree with your points you make and the most important thing is its realistic. Most videos on youtube about this topic are really annoying to watch and dont address the really low points that no one wants to talk about.
"Your instinct are to stay alive your feelings are you dont want to." That is exactly how I feel, its like a battle in my mind and body. I feel like dying but I want to live. Im so tired of feeling down all the time. No one wants to hear it, no one wants to be around me, and I cant stand what I've become.
Thank you, sir, for being so candid and open with your viewers. I just watched your video and it gave me a little hope to carry on. I too am struggling with major depression and it seems like it will never go away. I really need to work on my health and support network because I basically have none at the moment. I have some health but most days I feel like crap. I have been turning to food to help comfort me through this massively difficult time in my life. Have been struggling with this since 2008.
I want to thank you for this video, I've been struggling with Major Depression for four years now, and have only been seeing a therapist for the last three months. I've tried to see therapists before, but couldn't stay focused on getting better because of my worthlessness and agitation. Thank you so much, now I understand my condition better AND understand that I don't have to feel alone.
Taking a shower can be a monumental task when you are suffering from major depression. Its absolutely a huge deal to make that happen and I commend for making it happen when you feel able. Thx for the comment.
You have a confidence about recovery that I am still trying to work on but I try and draw strength from faithful people like yourself. Everything you said makes sense to me and I appreciate it.
Depression is like the death of your soul; the soul becomes un-inflatable. Depression comes gradually and with stealth. Not a lot of people understand how to deal with it nor help others. However, I believe the first step is awareness. So thank you.. really...A million thanks to you for sharing, for being brave, and for staying strong. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have come upon your video. Much love. = )
I can't sleep cause I lay in bed all day... I feel like a complete tool in the eyes of my son and family. I need some motivation but there is none I used to also have a sex life and a social life and a girl I thought I was gonna marry, i'm lost like you are lost and as I'm writing I don't care anymore if I sound soft for spilling my guts in front of strangers . The anxiety is at no end! even though I am on a benzo to control those severe anxiety attacks an they make me tired which obviously is better than the latter but it all starts with the loneliness I feel I need clarity and its so hard fighting this cause on the outside everyone seems happy and full of life an dreams an I just don't know anymore. Thankyou for sharing. I wish I could see more than just three types of people. All I see is people who have it all and are never satisfied, people who have nothing but anger and resentment and people like us who are like wtf this is fucked.
@ spooninspoon I understand you. You're not a tool. If you had cancer you would be supported to no end. This "disease" is insidious. There are no tests to manage our health like a diabetic can test insulin levels. Please don't let guilt weigh you down further. You did not choose this for your life. And it's so sad that friends and family cannot fully understand the hell of it. We need love and fierce support. We need champions and advocates and resources like everybody else who struggles or simply cannot take care of themselves ( let alone anyone else). We need love and support and help caring for ourselves just like anyone struck by Cancer or HIV or Parkinson's etc... So, Spoon, do what you have to do. Try to release the horrible guilt. You have NO reason to feel guilty.
I appreciate your comment man... really do. I was in a real bad way and needed an outlet. I guess to me I had always resented (like alot of people do) someone being depressed as a weakness or a character flaw. It can be overwhelmingly frustrating when you can't figure out with whats wrong with you, and i'm getting help now and understanding how it can manifest . I think I was also angry at the fact that other people who don't have issues with depression don't understand how much it can eff up every aspect of your life and well its important to get help! So thanks again (even if its 5 months later ) =)
Anytime you need to sound off, I will support you. And I'm sure so many others will too. Depression will not prevail, it's just a bit sad that it's not yet fully understood and therefore, not fully supported as are so many other diseases. Stay strong and know you are paving the way, bit by bit, for all the rest. ;)
Thanks for the video! I had a nervous breakdown in university and also had an allergic reaction to my prescription tablets and was hospitalised for a few weeks. Went on Mirtazapine and lorazepam for 7 months and I've been through the worst. I just wanted to say that things really get better. I'm still struggling but getting better and I just wanted to say that there's so much advice online but none of it has made me feel any better at all but watching an honest video like this showing someone go through something similar- it's so relatable and makes all the difference. I really admire you for having the courage to do it- there should be more videos like this online! :)
Noah you seem like a completely different guy here a year ago from what you are today. You are so much more confident now. I can see how sad you are here and I hurt for you because I have gone through some rough times in my life as well but it's awesome that you are doing much better lately
I think you should be posting some videos as well. You have a very nice way with words and you seem to be a very compassionate person. I will try my best to keep hanging in there no matter what because I know, as you said, it will effect others greatly if I give up. You are so confident, a very good quality. I have to see it to believe it but I have tasted easier days and I will pray for more.
Thats a great suggestion & I have made an apt. with an Endocrinologist but wont be seen till early July and my primary is all I have for now. He does not seem very informed on my condition but he can at least get the ball rolling. I can't even begin to express in words how badly I want the T to help. I still have stretches where I think to myself , I can't wait this out anymore. But I am sure trying and hearing from people like yourself is much appreciated so thx. When do you see yours??
My depression is a crushing sense of absence. Absence of want. Absence of love. Absence of want of food and sleep and socializing and self care (cleanliness) etc...Crushing indeed.
bignoknow Thank you, Big. I've been surviving depression for 12 years. It's not so much about bravery (people give each other too much credit) as it is that my 3 suicide attempts lead me to lose faith in suicide. I know now that we don't have as much power (if any) as we think we do. Oprah's an idiot now, it seems. Anyway. I don't want to go through another failed attempt and I'm not sure why I'm not dead yet. I have another health issue that "should" have killed me. Twice. In 5 days. But it didn't. So, I've resigned myself to the old, "What will be, will be."
Thank you for sharing Noah... I think you are very brave for expressing your experience of depression and I admire you for that. I have been trying to cope with a progressively deteriorating mood for many years now and have finally today been convinced to seek and accept some professional help. I am not convinced that I have suffered as much as you have (although I cannot be sure) but it has been awful and I only hope I can face up to my demons with a percent of the same grace you appear to have displayed. Really Noah... thank you.
thank you so much for this video.Im suffering from depression too and your video was so helpful today after I had such a bad day . I find it difficult to chug along somedays and this video was hopeful .god bless and take care .
Hi Noah, you really do seem like a beautiful, wonderful human. I wish my cousin had a friend like you. I don't know if you have done this already, as this is the first video I am watching of yours, but I wonder if you have done or would consider doing a video on how to help someone with depression, especially a live-in family member who blames you for their troubles. I would learn a lot about how to be there for someone without making things worse. Thank you Noah, stay strong, keep kicking - we all love and appreciate you. B
Be strong. You already make progress being here on youtube, trying to find info. and stories. I also been alone in my researching. Nobody understood.. Most of all, I lost also the people that I thought are friends.. To me nutrition was best long-term medication.
Thank you for this video. I'm struggling with just getting up and going to work. Not eating healthy, exercising or religiously taking my meds. I'm at a low point right now and this video is helping thank you.
Yeah, ive been trapped in this state for like nearly 2 years now. its becoming tedious, and not sure why i waste my time here. and like spencer said i cant imagine being well. im accepting that the world doesnt accept me, but thanks for the aid noah
I hope everyone who watches this and reads this. I feel for you and I will pray for you. I might not know you but I will pray. God makes us all feel better. People who have never had depression. Does not know what it's like. Take care all. May God bless you all.
I confronted my depression and anxiety, around three years ago, now.....I had been suffering, on and off, for around 15 years. I am currently on 30mg of Citalopram, once a day and it has allowed me to level out. However, I have bloated (due to water retention) and have had other side effects, but....I have not stopped the medication, because I need to get better. My IBS has died down significantly, but, I still have days where I begin to question if it's all worth it. On the plus side, I have started cycling again (as I used to be quite fit) and that is helping, also, involving myself heavily in my car and TV/VCR hobbies helps, as it gives me something positive and productive to be getting on with. It's not easy, I sometimes wish life would just end, but......you keep going.
Started Testosterone April 23rd 200mg & got my second injection May 7th 300mg. The Dr. did not mention drawing levels again so ???? on that one. So far no noticeable difference in my condition but I will try and remain patient. I will hit you up about T levels next time my blood is drawn. Thx again for your encouraging words. Noah
You. Are. Awesome. As a survivor of five bouts of MDD, I can identify with everything you said. I completely believe that there can be a very good reason for you in battling this horrible illness. I know that it doesn't really help to hear that when you're in it, but once you get past this (and you will, if you haven't already), you might find that reason. And chances are, that reason (and possibly your life's "purpose") will come about BECAUSE of this struggle. How are you doing now?
sorry I did not respond to this, I just realized it was here. I would agree completely that staying busy is big and I do try as much as possible to do so.
I just had a child 8 days ago, and my girlfriend has lost all interest in me, It's put me through a spiraling depression that's gotten worse and worse. It's about time that someone makes a video that touches your heart.
Thank you for this video. It helps to have support. I have a channel Luna astrum. I had my depression brought on my depo provera the birth control needle. Its a tough road. I just got released from the hospital on Thursday and I'll have a team but when days are bad they suck. I'm hanging in there and im glad you are doing better.
Thank you for your message I am sorry for your suffering. I am trying to have realistic expectations of my Testosterone treatment but I have been praying for some relief. So shitty that your insurance stopped covering Testim. I sincerely hope the appeal goes through and you are able to resume treatment. I was given an injection nearly 2 weeks ago of testosterone and have a second treatment this coming monday. Please feel free to message me about your progress and hang strong.
Thanks for sharing this...I think although I can't in no way prove it but My Higher Power guided me to your channel. I feel and think like you have expressed in your videos about depression, alcohol, and also for me anxiety, believe you me you have helped me as a wounded healer.
I've been depressed ever since I was kid. But there are ways to overcome it. TH-cam is a great place to talk about this topic. I am trying to take one step at a time.
I am going thru so much myself I'm going to call some help this week I'm at the end of my rope I'm pretty much by myself I'm losing everything and my depression has caused so many problems that I hope that I can fix them I need help really bad I feel like I'm lost and a failure no good for nothing like I really want to die I don't want to be here anymore it's very severe and I'm sorry I'm spilling out my heart but I need someone who understands what i am going thru i have a sweet beautiful wife who i need more than anything in the world and I want to be a better man who she can depend on and the daddy my kids can depend on I'm mad at me all the time I hate myself worse everyday and it comes in between so many things in my life that life is meaningless without my family in going to try the counseling and meds I thank you guys for listening
He did test me, 3 times over the course of 10 days and my levels were 200 ng/dL-150nd/dL-and 220 ng/dL. I imagine he will be testing my t levels at my next visit in 2 weeks if you are right. I don't care what they are I just want to feel BETTER!!!!
The testosterone should help. Stay strong you are doing the right things. Keep a positive mental attitude. Know when you feel bad that it is all a temporary moment. That the moment will pass. Always reach out for support when you feel bad. People wantvto care for you. Noah stay determined to never give up. I have been where you are and I know how it feels. Take each day at a time and remember people love you. You love yourself and that life is good and you will enjoy it. Here for you
I am amazed with the support u have I have had major depression since I was 15 I'm 36 had 5 major breakdowns that left my in bed for 5 months at a time. I wight till night to take the bin out so I don't face anyone
Very inspirational. I’m in a dark place right now and I need help. I have a meeting with a counselor in a few days. I hope it’s the beginning of the end.
I'm in the throws of severe depression. I have suffered since I was 5 years old. I have a daughter, she's 7, who wants to run away from home because all I do is sleep. I have done everything you mentioned in this video and it worked until I didn't. I feel hopeless and I'm afraid I'm showing my daughter how to be depressed as my mother showed me. Suicidal thoughts have been apart of my life for at least 20 years. I'm not sure how long I can go on like this. I don't have any friends and I don't communicate with my "family". I'm scared and tired and angry. Thanks for sharing
Mel S - reach out for help. Speak to your doctor should be your first port of call. Books on the subject can help, exercise etc. But please ask for help. Rob.
My depression started around a year ago. I'm 17 and just a mess. I feel like I'm just so unproductive that I just want to give up. I try to not be sad but it overcomes me and it just feels like there's no hope
Thanks Peggy. No I am not seeing a therapist just regular doc. I see her about every 3 months. Most days are ok others a struggle. If I do feel worse, I may do that.
my depression has a lot to do with my hair loss... I just cant get over it... not trying to be rude but have you been depressed specifically about hairloss??
Hope you still doing well, came across the vid because i have recurrent MDD .im actually going to DBT therapy which is for 12 months plus..thanks and your brave.
Exercise (especially walking) works for me. I try to drive less and walk more- walking w/a backpack to the gym, to do errands, etc. is like an adventure. Any kind of activity by which I think I'm accomplishing something works, esp. creative activities (I paint).
I'm so stressed n depressed n lost but suicide is a cowards way out.I can't move sometimes I vomit cry scream I breath prey I try so desperately to keep going .day by day by day I keep going n ask God to help me .hours minutes omg the clock is my enemy. but I will survive I won't let him to break me .xx
I'm depressed right now and it's a drag man. It's been 7 months since it began. Just can't seem to shake it. I've been on 40mg of citalopram for about 4 weeks now after trying 10mg and 20mg, it's really helped me a lot in terms of relieving the anxiety, but I feel as if there is still a lot of work to be done. I am still engulfed in blackness. I have 0 motivation and my concentration is kinda crappy. I just wanna say your videos help. I am getting real impatient with wanting to be well dude.
Noah. Your Dr will no little on T. I am taking charge of my care. I am seeing I'm on Monday to say I want T injections. Your body will absorb 100 percent. Stay on the meds until the t kicks in. I know how ypu feel as I am exactly the same. Remember that as bad as you feel for those ours it will go away. Now that you will make it through and will be better. I promise you will. You have to take control and find the right Dr and insist on the right care. You are smart and on the right track.
I’ve been using healthy food to get out of my depression and after 3 hard months it’s working. I can’t help think that my depression was caused by a very poor diet
I'm where you are, and I'm at the point where I don't know if I should voluntarily hospitalize myself, but i need to know: does it help? I'm afraid to reach out to my friend who's been helping me, because I feel like it's put too much strain on my friendship. The only thing is that if I hospitalize it will hinder me from my career of becoming a police officer
Noah Mili Getting hospitalized was one of the best things I ever went through in terms of getting me better but it was not my choice. I was forced. Getting help now is more important imo then worrying about the future. Wishing you the very best.
my anxiety and depression can get really bad to the point where I feel like what's happened and then emptiness comes in after that it can last for a day or so depending on how I get over it or overcome it
Wanted to say. i liked your Video. I have depression also and I wonder some days. How am I going to make it through. May I ask what med. you was on. That you had a allergic reaction to.
To me researching was the best thing. Read plenty of books.. watched documentaries.. watched stories on youtube.. and shoot conclusion. These mental-psysical disorders are definitely related to nervous system and hormonal system, also to biochemistry deficiency. How are you feeling now?
Those who haven't had to deal with depression cant even fathom. Truly one of the worse things to go thru in life. And when you have any friends that just makes it so much worse. Myself, I can't even be happy around family members. They tell me to go out and talk to people, but it's just not that easy. One thing about depression is you don't want to talk to people or just don't have it in you to do that.
Thank you for all your comments and your encouragement. Sorry I have not responded to the last few , I did not even realize they were here and its my goal to always respond. I am sorry for your suffereing but I am also inspired by your courage. I will continue to try and put into practice the things you have said and will be as hopeful as I can that I will continue to get more stable. Hope all is well with you these days and sorry again for not responding sooner.
I got my blood work done 3 weeks ago which is why I have started Testosterone Replacement Therapy and I am praying for that to make a noticeable difference for sure. I'd been taking Seroquel and Nortryptaline for about 2 months before starting the T so I still take those for now. Lets be strong and help one another, I like that Frank. I never turn down offering support or receiving it.
Noah
I know this post is over 5 years old, but everything you are saying is exactly how I feel. I thought I was the only one, seriously. I am stuck in this thing for at least (not exaggerating) 5 years. I just don’t know how to get out of it. I have been on every kind of medication and they all eventually stop working. It has turned me into a nonfunctional person. I just feel like I am failing at my whole entire life. I started having panic attacks, which are REAL and scary, about 5 years ago, they have lessened the last two years, for reasons unknown, but I am not complaining about that. It’s so hard for me to get out of bed everyday and honestly, a lot of times I don’t..at all. I don’t know. This is getting too long. Thank you for letting me post.
Cari D I feel the same! I hope your feeling better 🙏🏽💛 any tips would be awesome! Best wishes for you!
i hope you feel better now
This video is old but honestly It really helped me. Hearing someone who’s been through similar things to me and is coping with it well gives me so much more hope than my therapist or family suggesting things to help my depression. Thank you.
Thank you for your courage to put yourself and your condition so fully 'out there'. Many of us know & understand you completely. God bless & keep all of us who are struggling with this enormous weight in our daily lives - it is so difficult for our friends and families to even begin to know how to deal with it.
I'm sorry for your suffering, gotta keep fighting indeed, as hard as it may be. It helps knowing other people are out there. Be well.
I can identify with what you said. I have been battling psychotic depression for about 2 1/2 years. Being a single mom and with all life's necessities, I found myself at a real low. Thank God my mom was there to help. I am currently taking seroquel xr 300 and fluoxetine. I have not been hospitalized, but taking day by day. Thanks again for sharing. It takes a lot to speak up.
I had psychotic depression too and it's really rough. Have you tried going to a therapist? I've been to see the same therapist after trying out a few and gone about 4 times now and found that along with support from my family its helped me to gain some perspective. I hope things get better for you soon.
I think you are so brave and courageous to be able to follow a schedule. I find it difficult to even get up in the morning. Cooking, cleaning and so much more are like trying to climb the biggest mountain. The pain is terrible. It's like nothing matters. The whole thing is quite a fight.
This has been the most helpful, best video I have watched on this topic so far yet. The part where you say "stay alive" (a few times) is totally relateable. Thank you for putting those feelings to words and helping us who are suffering to find relief in knowing that we are not alone in our search for help and management of this affliction.
Amanda Garcia You are welcome Amanda, we are all in this together. No matter how lonely it may feel.
Hey man, I just watched this video after your more recent (more energized/happy) video. You're a strong good dude for posting this during you're hard time. Who knows if or how many lives you have saved posting these videos. I'm going to try to stick to a schedule like you suggest. Sounds like a solid tip! Thanks man!
Really thankful for this video. So many videos out there are by a person that has had a mild depression fully recovered and think they know it all. Completely agree with your points you make and the most important thing is its realistic. Most videos on youtube about this topic are really annoying to watch and dont address the really low points that no one wants to talk about.
"Your instinct are to stay alive your feelings are you dont want to." That is exactly how I feel, its like a battle in my mind and body. I feel like dying but I want to live. Im so tired of feeling down all the time. No one wants to hear it, no one wants to be around me, and I cant stand what I've become.
Thank you for being brave. Thank you for sharing. This is needed.
Laura Martin I appreciate the kind words.
Thank you, sir, for being so candid and open with your viewers. I just watched your video and it gave me a little hope to carry on. I too am struggling with major depression and it seems like it will never go away. I really need to work on my health and support network because I basically have none at the moment. I have some health but most days I feel like crap. I have been turning to food to help comfort me through this massively difficult time in my life. Have been struggling with this since 2008.
I want to thank you for this video, I've been struggling with Major Depression for four years now, and have only been seeing a therapist for the last three months. I've tried to see therapists before, but couldn't stay focused on getting better because of my worthlessness and agitation. Thank you so much, now I understand my condition better AND understand that I don't have to feel alone.
Taking a shower can be a monumental task when you are suffering from major depression. Its absolutely a huge deal to make that happen and I commend for making it happen when you feel able. Thx for the comment.
You have a confidence about recovery that I am still trying to work on but I try and draw strength from faithful people like yourself. Everything you said makes sense to me and I appreciate it.
Depression is like the death of your soul; the soul becomes un-inflatable. Depression comes gradually and with stealth. Not a lot of people understand how to deal with it nor help others. However, I believe the first step is awareness. So thank you.. really...A million thanks to you for sharing, for being brave, and for staying strong. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have come upon your video. Much love. = )
I can't sleep cause I lay in bed all day... I feel like a complete tool in the eyes of my son and family. I need some motivation but there is none I used to also have a sex life and a social life and a girl I thought I was gonna marry, i'm lost like you are lost and as I'm writing I don't care anymore if I sound soft for spilling my guts in front of strangers . The anxiety is at no end! even though I am on a benzo to control those severe anxiety attacks an they make me tired which obviously is better than the latter but it all starts with the loneliness I feel I need clarity and its so hard fighting this cause on the outside everyone seems happy and full of life an dreams an I just don't know anymore. Thankyou for sharing. I wish I could see more than just three types of people. All I see is people who have it all and are never satisfied, people who have nothing but anger and resentment and people like us who are like wtf this is fucked.
@ spooninspoon
I understand you. You're not a tool.
If you had cancer you would be supported to no end.
This "disease" is insidious. There are no tests to manage our health like a diabetic can test insulin levels.
Please don't let guilt weigh you down further. You did not choose this for your life. And it's so sad that friends and family cannot fully understand the hell of it. We need love and fierce support. We need champions and advocates and resources like everybody else who struggles or simply cannot take care of themselves ( let alone anyone else).
We need love and support and help caring for ourselves just like anyone struck by Cancer or HIV or Parkinson's etc...
So, Spoon, do what you have to do. Try to release the horrible guilt. You have NO reason to feel guilty.
I appreciate your comment man... really do. I was in a real bad way and needed an outlet. I guess to me I had always resented (like alot of people do) someone being depressed as a weakness or a character flaw. It can be overwhelmingly frustrating when you can't figure out with whats wrong with you, and i'm getting help now and understanding how it can manifest . I think I was also angry at the fact that other people who don't have issues with depression don't understand how much it can eff up every aspect of your life and well its important to get help! So thanks again (even if its 5 months later ) =)
Anytime you need to sound off, I will support you. And I'm sure so many others will too. Depression will not prevail, it's just a bit sad that it's not yet fully understood and therefore, not fully supported as are so many other diseases. Stay strong and know you are paving the way, bit by bit, for all the rest. ;)
spooninspoon hey man, how are you? Have things gotten better? I hope your doing good.
Man!
That's how I felt when I was deep in depression!!
Exactly what happened to you...
Continued thanks for your encouragement and personal testimony!!
Very kind and wise of you. I am night and day better since making this video but it has been a slow climb out of the darkness. Hope all is well.
Thanks for the video! I had a nervous breakdown in university and also had an allergic reaction to my prescription tablets and was hospitalised for a few weeks. Went on Mirtazapine and lorazepam for 7 months and I've been through the worst. I just wanted to say that things really get better. I'm still struggling but getting better and I just wanted to say that there's so much advice online but none of it has made me feel any better at all but watching an honest video like this showing someone go through something similar- it's so relatable and makes all the difference. I really admire you for having the courage to do it- there should be more videos like this online! :)
+Peggy Owen :) Thanks for sharing some of your story and for the kindness.
Noah you seem like a completely different guy here a year ago from what you are today. You are so much more confident now. I can see how sad you are here and I hurt for you because I have gone through some rough times in my life as well but it's awesome that you are doing much better lately
I think you should be posting some videos as well. You have a very nice way with words and you seem to be a very compassionate person. I will try my best to keep hanging in there no matter what because I know, as you said, it will effect others greatly if I give up. You are so confident, a very good quality. I have to see it to believe it but I have tasted easier days and I will pray for more.
Depression and anxiety fucking suck. It's hard to get out of it.
Ugh yes, I relate. I've been having a really hard spell this month. I get afraid of myseld. I get so low...like, feeling like I can't get out of it.
Thats a great suggestion & I have made an apt. with an Endocrinologist but wont be seen till early July and my primary is all I have for now. He does not seem very informed on my condition but he can at least get the ball rolling. I can't even begin to express in words how badly I want the T to help. I still have stretches where I think to myself , I can't wait this out anymore. But I am sure trying and hearing from people like yourself is much appreciated so thx. When do you see yours??
My depression is a crushing sense of absence. Absence of want. Absence of love. Absence of want of food and sleep and socializing and self care (cleanliness) etc...Crushing indeed.
Core Lore Stay brave
bignoknow Thank you, Big.
I've been surviving depression for 12 years. It's not so much about bravery (people give each other too much credit) as it is that my 3 suicide attempts lead me to lose faith in suicide.
I know now that we don't have as much power (if any) as we think we do. Oprah's an idiot now, it seems.
Anyway. I don't want to go through another failed attempt and I'm not sure why I'm not dead yet.
I have another health issue that "should" have killed me. Twice. In 5 days. But it didn't.
So, I've resigned myself to the old, "What will be, will be."
Thank you for having the courage to make this video. I am sure there were many times when you couldn't see being able to do this.
Thank you for sharing. You are helping a lot of people. Do you ever get flu like symptoms during your major depression?
Thank you for sharing Noah... I think you are very brave for expressing your experience of depression and I admire you for that. I have been trying to cope with a progressively deteriorating mood for many years now and have finally today been convinced to seek and accept some professional help. I am not convinced that I have suffered as much as you have (although I cannot be sure) but it has been awful and I only hope I can face up to my demons with a percent of the same grace you appear to have displayed. Really Noah... thank you.
Your extremely brave and courageous for doing this video, thank you
thank you so much for this video.Im suffering from depression too and your video was so helpful today after I had such a bad day . I find it difficult to chug along somedays and this video was hopeful .god bless and take care .
Hi Noah, you really do seem like a beautiful, wonderful human. I wish my cousin had a friend like you. I don't know if you have done this already, as this is the first video I am watching of yours, but I wonder if you have done or would consider doing a video on how to help someone with depression, especially a live-in family member who blames you for their troubles. I would learn a lot about how to be there for someone without making things worse. Thank you Noah, stay strong, keep kicking - we all love and appreciate you. B
Deep in the pit with Major Depression. Waiting for the Wellbutrin to fully absorb into my brain. Thanks for the video. I needed it.
Be strong. You already make progress being here on youtube, trying to find info. and stories. I also been alone in my researching. Nobody understood.. Most of all, I lost also the people that I thought are friends.. To me nutrition was best long-term medication.
I just want to hug this dude. He seems awesome. Thanks for the video.
Thank you for this video. I'm struggling with just getting up and going to work. Not eating healthy, exercising or religiously taking my meds. I'm at a low point right now and this video is helping thank you.
Yeah, ive been trapped in this state for like nearly 2 years now. its becoming tedious, and not sure why i waste my time here. and like spencer said i cant imagine being well. im accepting that the world doesnt accept me, but thanks for the aid noah
im in a dark place thank you for being a light your amazing god bless you bro
anna williams God bless you too
This is a good channel man, keep it up. I find myself bottling it all up because its like everybody just lives in a plastic world nowadays.
ThoughtsAllowed true that. Thanks
I hope everyone who watches this and reads this. I feel for you and I will pray for you. I might not know you but I will pray. God makes us all feel better. People who have never had depression. Does not know what it's like. Take care all. May God bless you all.
I confronted my depression and anxiety, around three years ago, now.....I had been suffering, on and off, for around 15 years. I am currently on 30mg of Citalopram, once a day and it has allowed me to level out. However, I have bloated (due to water retention) and have had other side effects, but....I have not stopped the medication, because I need to get better. My IBS has died down significantly, but, I still have days where I begin to question if it's all worth it. On the plus side, I have started cycling again (as I used to be quite fit) and that is helping, also, involving myself heavily in my car and TV/VCR hobbies helps, as it gives me something positive and productive to be getting on with. It's not easy, I sometimes wish life would just end, but......you keep going.
You are welcome and I wish that for you as well. Hang in there.
Thank you for this and hope you are better soon x
Started Testosterone April 23rd 200mg & got my second injection May 7th 300mg. The Dr. did not mention drawing levels again so ???? on that one. So far no noticeable difference in my condition but I will try and remain patient. I will hit you up about T levels next time my blood is drawn. Thx again for your encouraging words.
Noah
Anyone who suffers from depression is a brother of mine. I know the hell you go through.
You're a good guy. Great vid, keep going, I kno exactly how hard it is
You. Are. Awesome. As a survivor of five bouts of MDD, I can identify with everything you said. I completely believe that there can be a very good reason for you in battling this horrible illness. I know that it doesn't really help to hear that when you're in it, but once you get past this (and you will, if you haven't already), you might find that reason. And chances are, that reason (and possibly your life's "purpose") will come about BECAUSE of this struggle. How are you doing now?
sorry I did not respond to this, I just realized it was here. I would agree completely that staying busy is big and I do try as much as possible to do so.
Great video thanks brother, I will use your words to help fight issues I have.
I just had a child 8 days ago, and my girlfriend has lost all interest in me, It's put me through a spiraling depression that's gotten worse and worse. It's about time that someone makes a video that touches your heart.
This video helped me a lot. Thank you for sharing ❤️
I am depressed and feel so alone. The emotional pain is overwhelming. Now I am finally trying my best to deal with it and try to get closer to God
Thank you for this video. It helps to have support. I have a channel Luna astrum. I had my depression brought on my depo provera the birth control needle. Its a tough road. I just got released from the hospital on Thursday and I'll have a team but when days are bad they suck. I'm hanging in there and im glad you are doing better.
Thank you for your message I am sorry for your suffering. I am trying to have realistic expectations of my Testosterone treatment but I have been praying for some relief. So shitty that your insurance stopped covering Testim. I sincerely hope the appeal goes through and you are able to resume treatment. I was given an injection nearly 2 weeks ago of testosterone and have a second treatment this coming monday. Please feel free to message me about your progress and hang strong.
Thanks for sharing this...I think although I can't in no way prove it but My Higher Power guided me to your channel. I feel and think like you have expressed in your videos about depression, alcohol, and also for me anxiety, believe you me you have helped me as a wounded healer.
I've been depressed ever since I was kid. But there are ways to overcome it. TH-cam is a great place to talk about this topic. I am trying to take one step at a time.
Thats all we can do my friend. One step at a time.
Your videos are the best, I feel less alone watching this 🙏🏻🙃
I am going thru so much myself I'm going to call some help this week I'm at the end of my rope I'm pretty much by myself I'm losing everything and my depression has caused so many problems that I hope that I can fix them I need help really bad I feel like I'm lost and a failure no good for nothing like I really want to die I don't want to be here anymore it's very severe and I'm sorry I'm spilling out my heart but I need someone who understands what i am going thru i have a sweet beautiful wife who i need more than anything in the world and I want to be a better man who she can depend on and the daddy my kids can depend on I'm mad at me all the time I hate myself worse everyday and it comes in between so many things in my life that life is meaningless without my family in going to try the counseling and meds I thank you guys for listening
Your voice is so comforting and soothing. :)
He did test me, 3 times over the course of 10 days and my levels were 200 ng/dL-150nd/dL-and 220 ng/dL. I imagine he will be testing my t levels at my next visit in 2 weeks if you are right. I don't care what they are I just want to feel BETTER!!!!
The testosterone should help. Stay strong you are doing the right things. Keep a positive mental attitude. Know when you feel bad that it is all a temporary moment. That the moment will pass. Always reach out for support when you feel bad. People wantvto care for you. Noah stay determined to never give up. I have been where you are and I know how it feels. Take each day at a time and remember people love you. You love yourself and that life is good and you will enjoy it. Here for you
I am amazed with the support u have I have had major depression since I was 15 I'm 36 had 5 major breakdowns that left my in bed for 5 months at a time. I wight till night to take the bin out so I don't face anyone
how u holdin up now?
Very inspirational. I’m in a dark place right now and I need help. I have a meeting with a counselor in a few days. I hope it’s the beginning of the end.
Thanks for doing the video keep your chin up 💪
I'm in the throws of severe depression. I have suffered since I was 5 years old. I have a daughter, she's 7, who wants to run away from home because all I do is sleep. I have done everything you mentioned in this video and it worked until I didn't. I feel hopeless and I'm afraid I'm showing my daughter how to be depressed as my mother showed me. Suicidal thoughts have been apart of my life for at least 20 years. I'm not sure how long I can go on like this. I don't have any friends and I don't communicate with my "family". I'm scared and tired and angry. Thanks for sharing
Mel S - reach out for help. Speak to your doctor should be your first port of call. Books on the subject can help, exercise etc. But please ask for help. Rob.
My depression started around a year ago. I'm 17 and just a mess. I feel like I'm just so unproductive that I just want to give up. I try to not be sad but it overcomes me and it just feels like there's no hope
Hello thankyou this really helped. I will watch your films when I am spiraliing out of control again - cheers from England
staying busy is the key to depression .. take your mind off shit .. exercise .. working out .. work .. etc.
this video has truly helped me alot...
thank you so much
I needed this. I've tried a few of these tips and I see somethings that I needed.
Thanks Peggy. No I am not seeing a therapist just regular doc. I see her about every 3 months. Most days are ok others a struggle. If I do feel worse, I may do that.
my depression has a lot to do with my hair loss... I just cant get over it... not trying to be rude but have you been depressed specifically about hairloss??
Hope you still doing well, came across the vid because i have recurrent MDD .im actually going to DBT therapy which is for 12 months plus..thanks and your brave.
Nice to have insurance or money for treatment! I can't even leave the house anymore!
You are a life saver. Thanks for doing this
you're doing an outstanding service, dude. as for music, i highly recommend 'hide in your shell' by supertramp.
give it a listen. seriously.
just answering the phone seems like climbing mountain Everest.
you are an amazing person. thankyou for your help in reaching out. by telling your story.I really appreciate that. you totally understand. me.
Exercise (especially walking) works for me. I try to drive less and walk more- walking w/a backpack to the gym, to do errands, etc. is like an adventure. Any kind of activity by which I think I'm accomplishing something works, esp. creative activities (I paint).
Am sorry you went through this , hugs ❤️
I'm so stressed n depressed n lost but suicide is a cowards way out.I can't move sometimes I vomit cry scream I breath prey I try so desperately to keep going .day by day by day I keep going n ask God to help me .hours minutes omg the clock is my enemy. but I will survive I won't let him to break me .xx
12-07-15. Hope that you are having a better day. I can connect! Your a wonderful person.
I have Depression and Anxiety less just say.. Your not alone no one is alone.
I'm depressed right now and it's a drag man. It's been 7 months since it began. Just can't seem to shake it. I've been on 40mg of citalopram for about 4 weeks now after trying 10mg and 20mg, it's really helped me a lot in terms of relieving the anxiety, but I feel as if there is still a lot of work to be done. I am still engulfed in blackness. I have 0 motivation and my concentration is kinda crappy. I just wanna say your videos help. I am getting real impatient with wanting to be well dude.
Thanks for your advice Noah.
I have also experienced similar illness, hope you are better now
Noah. Your Dr will no little on T. I am taking charge of my care. I am seeing I'm on Monday to say I want T injections. Your body will absorb 100 percent. Stay on the meds until the t kicks in. I know how ypu feel as I am exactly the same. Remember that as bad as you feel for those ours it will go away. Now that you will make it through and will be better. I promise you will. You have to take control and find the right Dr and insist on the right care. You are smart and on the right track.
I’ve been using healthy food to get out of my depression and after 3 hard months it’s working. I can’t help think that my depression was caused by a very poor diet
I'm where you are, and I'm at the point where I don't know if I should voluntarily hospitalize myself, but i need to know: does it help? I'm afraid to reach out to my friend who's been helping me, because I feel like it's put too much strain on my friendship. The only thing is that if I hospitalize it will hinder me from my career of becoming a police officer
Noah Mili Getting hospitalized was one of the best things I ever went through in terms of getting me better but it was not my choice. I was forced. Getting help now is more important imo then worrying about the future. Wishing you the very best.
We who have battled this know your pain, I am 57, sometimes months symptom free other times well. :) :) :)
Great advice man. Thanks.
Youhave to think happy thoughts.Godmadeu forareason.your important!People need you also.
Damn bro long time ago :)
Did your hair loss stop? It stayed like this for 3 years.
thanks for this video man!
VARGZIN You are so welcome.
my anxiety and depression can get really bad to the point where I feel like what's happened and then emptiness comes in after that it can last for a day or so depending on how I get over it or overcome it
i am in the same frame of mind and the voices are bad too, ringing samaritans helped alot X
Wanted to say. i liked your Video. I have depression also and I wonder some days. How am I going to make it through. May I ask what med. you was on. That you had a allergic reaction to.
To me researching was the best thing. Read plenty of books.. watched documentaries.. watched stories on youtube.. and shoot conclusion. These mental-psysical disorders are definitely related to nervous system and hormonal system, also to biochemistry deficiency. How are you feeling now?