The worst part is that you go through it all alone and no one in your family or friends can help you through it. You can barely stand your family 😅 because they are still in Egypt and can pull you back in. Rev Michael is my spiritual teacher I am so glad to know he also went through this darkness. Strength to everyone ❤
This is exactly what I have been going through for the last 3 years, and it is dark...!! You can't really expect anyone to understand it, unless they've been through it, and it's really difficult to explain as it's not something that one fully understands until you come through it. Thank you Michael for describing this so well. 🙏 ❤
Thank you so much for sharing, i’ve been thruw the same the last three years, it’s very very dark and still it goes like a wave. The explaining from Michael and your words gives me the feeling I’m not alone in this dark but also beautiful proces. 🙏🏻💞
I think I’m going through it now. My emotions are numb but I don’t feel depressed or anxious just numb like I can’t get happy or sad. Really weird feeling. I even stopped meditating so much because I just don’t have much desire. I literally could sit by a river for days and just look around in silence. Definitely a trippy feeling and I hope this is what it is so I’ll have some kind of explanation because I don’t want to feel like this forever. I used to have chronic anxiety attacks but now nothing at all, not even worry, just numb.
Yeah 5 yrs for me now . On and off but not fully out of it. Its lonely, confusing and all encompassing. Want this to end soon. Want to get done and over with.
This is EXACTLY how it is. It is HORRENDOUS and very debilitating. It is like a veil being lifted and I could see the truth about myself in full. It was & is horrifying. It started about 5 months ago and im still going through it. Its very dark. Like a void. Like waking up from a life of being unconscious. Lots of grief. Not sure how much longer this will go on. Doing lots of self care. Behaviours, choices, thoughts changing, as I'm not that person anymore.
Breathe breathe breathe and allow it to flow through.... spend some beautiful time in nature, Barefoot especially! Grounding is key.... you are a conduit between Mother Earth and father sky and you are powerful. you have an amazing Mission ahead of you❤ a very grateful for your experience! Mine was about 5 years ago and I couldn't stop crying for at least 2 weeks, you feel like you're nuts but you didn't realize you've been living in an illusionary world the entire time❤
I'm coming out of it. I feel overwhelmed by gratitude. You just keep dying to THE PATTERN. When you can't lose anything else, you will wake up. Unless a seed falls to the ground. You are gonna see you were never alone. You are gonna make it! I promise!
Dark night of the soul was liberating for me. I let go of the darkness of dichotomy presented in my religious upbringing. It was a simple realization that it wasn't my identity, and I was happy to let that mess go. As I was taking down all religious icons of Jesu, Mary, etc, I knew immediately that I was going to experience suffering. It happened in development of multiple chemical sensitivities and severe allergies. I lost all of belongings multiple times, because I couldn't figure out what was making me sick. I was alone physically but I was able to articulate the experience to myself and my beautiful friends. They believed me. I accepted it as an attack from the energies in my former religion that were angry that I no longer served them with my devotion. All deities get their power from devotees. Now all devotion is directed at the divine within. Being that way retains my power and keeps those looking for energy to deify themselves to piss off. No religious icons, no gods, guru dev, no shrines get my energy. Only I get my energy.
I remember when I went through this for a few years and thought it was depression. After coming through on the other side, God revealed to me it was a process of the old self dying for the new to emerge. Wish I would’ve had this information beforehand, it would have been a lot easier because of understanding the process and reason for the pain. Then afterwards, I realized how blessed I was that Gods was there through the process. I was given the test, then the lesson. My heart goes out to souls who are going through this and there’s no one to explain and help them through the process. Some make it out fine, while others may not.😢❤
@@KayKay-fb1dw I went through the same thing and 2021. I went through it twice. I want you to know that this is a natural process. I believe we don’t know what’s happening to us for a reason. The one thing that I can tell you that I held onto through all of it Was my faith in a higher power. Even in the darkest of the dark when I couldn’t feel anything loving, I did not give up on knowing that God was there somewhere. After six months of going through hell, I kind of gave up, thinking God was going to help me. I started feeling like I should Google my symptoms. I started finding all kinds of things about this. I eventually learned it was called the dark Knight of the soul or also called recalibration. The more I learned about it, the easier it was to finally pull myself out of it. I just wanted to feel peace and enjoy again. Please don’t give up! It is the test of all tests for your faith in everything that is goodness, love and kindness. All these things you are. You’ve never been anything but these things. I hope this helps, much love to you! You will come out on the other side. Keep your faith!
I’m sorry for the typos. I was using Siri, but I hope you understand. That you are going to be OK even when you feel like you have lost yourself and your mind. I even felt like I was getting attacked by the dark. Severe anxiety, I lost 30 pounds and I never slept but an hour or two each night, if that. The worst depression anyone could go through. I don’t tell you these things to make you feel worse. I tell you this so that you will feel like you are not alone. Do not try to go to the doctor and get on anti-depressants or take any kind of medication’s against it. It will only prolong it.feel the feelings. Give yourself so much love and hug yourself and tell yourself that you deserve to be loved. Feel the feelings and love yourself and then tell them they can go now and be transmuted back into light.
I went through this starting in May of 2021. It is the most miserable experience you will ever endure. You literally feel parts of yourself (ego) start to emotionally dissipate, but the end result is you truly becoming the person you were meant to be. This is the most concise and well spoken description of the dark night of the soul I have ever heard. Thank you for sharing this.
Just when you think your dark night is over it hits you again. You can try to fight it, but you won't be successful. I don't know how people survive it without meditation. I found meditation through a dark night of the soul, and it helps tremendously. The dark night seems to be infinite.
@@kathleenhensley5951 I I innerstand you. I was frozen. I didn’t know what was happening. At first it was hard to do anything. It felt like I shipwrecked my life. I discovered meditation through the process. At times I couldn't get through it, but I don’t give up easy. The back pain led me to a chiropractor. I still struggle with my back now. I have a serious injury. I have other health issues that meditation helps me with. Meditation brings out latent health issues to expose them for healing. There’s an old book I have that explains a lot about what you are going through, “Tao & Longevity.” Through everything I still feel it, it still feels like I am there in that dark night. I am sending you love.
I handled it without a day off from work and without any medications. Although I wished so bad to sleep all this time and switch my mind off and my feelings too. It was a spiritual torture, craziness, terrifying fear. F@ck this shit.
I went through this for a couple of years and it was brutal. I couldn’t even meditate after being a daily practitioner for almost a decade and felt so cut off from spirit. I had to hold on to all the faith I had and it was difficult. However, I can now say the life on the other side of the dark night is amazing. You’re a whole new person in the best way possible.
Hey, would you mind sharing more about the life after the dark night? This "being a whole new person in the best way possible"? So I can have some picture of it, some inspiration, something to hold on to and to believe there is a way out of it and it's actually WORTH IT? Cause it's really dark here. Thanks 🙏
@@katarzynarazplewicz4196 Sure! After the dark night I could see the human experience for the hologram it is. Also, when it was ending I started manifesting dreams I'd had for years at lightning speed - moving to another country, finding love, re-building my business in a way that works for me, etc. My old life had to fall apart first. I just started talking about this stuff more on a separate TH-cam since I've gotten so many questions about it. www.youtube.com/@MindfulSuccessPath-gn7gi/featured
Hey.. I feel this. All the practices that worked so well in the past, visualization, inner affirmations, faith! I had faith in life.. I knew I would be ok and I could achieve anything I put in my mind. And I did. Now I feel.. I can not even see any picture in my mind.. I’m just empty. Just endlessly empty and with no inspiration, no faith, not motivation.. no nothing. Just silence and loneliness. No energy. No instinct, no impulse. Just the feeling of : who was that person? I don’t feel familiar to ‘that being’ anymore and I don’t know who I am atm at all.
To those suffering this metaphysical symbolic death, know I FEEL ya. Been there decades ago n’ at 60 here it is again; the slipping away of all joy n angst and the life I had for last five years. Never quit. Lean into the skin shedding and know this too shall pass. Love you. Peace ✌️
Going thru this now. One of my darkest moments just occurred. My young adult children just told me that 'we got this! We don't need your help. We don't need your wisdom and guidance to live our lives. We want to make decisions on our own. Your ideas don't align with ours." This was extremely heartbreaking for the type of mother that I've been in younger years. With the help of videos like this, now I realize that this gives me the freedom to fly even further and without strings of responsibilities attached to me. What an amazing gift they're given me. I must have raised them right to be able to do it on their own! Bravo!!
@@SteadyRock91 I do notice anytime I am away or traveling things tend to be better sometimes. Like I lived in a commune for 4 months and my health was much better there, but im not sure how to make this sustainable long term.
@Mandance 5 years?? Is there no end to it? I'm about 1 year into it and the pain is unbearable! Why no one is saying how long this dark night wil lasts
My dark night has been happening gradually over the past 5 years. My spiritual journey began back in highschool in 2012. Technically, I'm still very much in the thick of it but I'm slowly coming out of it. I'm endlessly searching for my purpose and everything I thought I was and who I was on the inside wasn't me. I was a people pleaser, a push over, a docile girl that always thought everyone knew what was better for me. I've recently cut off three people out of my life - my mom, brother, and so called best friend of 14 years. They were toxic and I didn't need those sort of people in my life. It feels empty, I literally didn't know who I was for a long while. I stuffed my face with food to feel something and to feel nothing at the same time. I doom scrolled, played endless video games, did everything I could to numb myself. But then I got tired so I started feeling my emotions and the sadness set me free because I finally gave space to it all. I started journaling again, watching the old movies I loved as a teen, started listening to meditation and music that I haven't for a decade. I read, go for walks with my daughter, I draw with her. It feels like I'm slowly crawling out of it all because I got tired of being this cloud of doom. I'm still in search of my purpose but at least for now my purpose can be to add meaning to life again ❤ It's been a very rough journey but perhaps this is who I was meant to be all this time.
8 months I've been there and it was beyond what a human mind can handle. I was fighting for my sanity every minute. So much fear and panic, confusion. I wasn't here, but somewhere between the realms. Can't even put it into words. The dreams and the feelings...I couldn't even eat, I was throwing up at night in my garden.
Love and light to each and everyone of you that has gone or is going through this life changing, destruction, and reconstructive process. It can be the scariest thing you have ever been through and the most liberating. It can take you from the absence of light, love, and connectedness to pure love, life, and oneness. Remember who you are. It IS the process of remembering. The process will take however long it needs to. Understand you can not rush the process. Find your truth and allow the process to unfold. Blessing to you all. I love you! ❤❤❤
To me it’s like going back home to where you belong but the road is scary, painful, dark. But at those times when you encounter those moments of relief/light it also feels like a re-birth or embracing your inner innocent, pure child you once were before being spoiled by all the conditioning. In my case I’ve been crying a lot, grieving for those “lost years” living in survival mode, being people-pleaser etc. , not listening to my inner voice (my soul) which of course give you the experience but rather painful one. It’s not easy to explain but it definitely reminds me of Kafka’s metamorphosis.
I’ve had many DKOTS’s but the most painful one was the one I became conscious of. The one I had right after my spiritual awakening. It was daunting not to know what was going to happen next and how long I’d be going through this. I am 6 months into it and feeling like the storm is finally passing. It’s left quite a bit of a mess that I just have to clean up and I’m sure it’s smooth sailing from there. Please pray for me as I will pray for all of you. ❤
HERE is a small version of what I wrote before, before it disappeared. Now let's see if this stays up! Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars. - Khalil Gibran Ultimately, the Dark Night of the Soul and the Spiritual Awakening process are inextricably entwined. They are really only two sides of the same coin. It could even be said that the Dark Night is the shadow side of Spiritual Awakening process, but that's not to say that it's negative "wrong" - in fact, the DarkNight is needed! While the Dark Night of the Soul is the process of daeth, the Spiritual Awakening process is the process of rebirth. While the Dark Night is about destruction, the Spiritual Awakening process is about expansion Both processes can typically do arise simultaneously. The reality is you, as Spiritual-Life Wanderers have a powerful path, destiny, and purpose in this World.. YOu are called to awaken. You are called to turn your pain into power. You are called to transform and self actualize ur gifts. You are called to be a light in this World...
My whole grown life has been a series of dark nights of the soul. Its a never ending process of repeating patterns of betrayal and extreme loneliness and anxienty and anger. Thanks God, thank you so fucking much. I just want to fucking die but I'm not even allowed to die if I want to. FUCK this life
I guess it's because you are strong spirit and can handle this crap and because subconsciously you don't want to make the changes, so you are forced to . I'm sure you life has nore meaning compared to mine. I'm so lazy and bored. But from time to time I practice some ashtanga yoga and it makes miracles, but because I'm lazy I'm inconsistent. 😁 Don't give up on yourself, dude. I'm sending you some good prahna. 🍺🤍
A lot of the eastern spirituality and new age belief misses the mark on this. I once followed those teachings, but now I'm of the position that My "dark night" was actually an all out demonic assault on me. I experienced some strange manifestations that crossed from the spiritual realm into the physical plane and it was all the evidence I needed for Jesus. I repented and surrendered to Jesus my Lord and Savior and witnessed the darkness fade away. Life has been beautiful following in Christ
This feeling is empty right now.. I know that I am becoming more enlightened because I’m not in the same plane anymore. I feel like I’m falling into an abyss in extreme slow motion.. I’m reaching out grabbing something that is not even there. No one or no thing makes sense to me internally.
Same same!!! Omg. It helps reading this. I feel I don’t recognize my self anymore. I don’t recognize who I was in the past.. I mean a year ago! Months ago! I’m not that person anymore. I’m no one actually. I just feel empty inside. No information, no map, no impulse to do anything. Just empty. Scary. Im trying to go back to the past and find some reference… I can’t grab anything. It just melts through my fingers. It does not make sense anymore. I can’t reach out to anyone, cause I feel I don’t relate to anyone that I know anymore. I feel so alone and so disconnected and isolated.
The one thing I know for sure is that I know nothing!! Everything I believed I knew makes no sense to me anymore. Every thing Spiritual & Metephysical I held onto is being challenged in so many ways. I used to feel so much Love & now I feel so much anger & depression. It's been 5 years now with no sign of stopping.
Spot on me too, I resonate with evreything you said, especially the spiritual part, mines been 5 years too it's so draining, I've had a lot of suicidal thoughts latley.
@@StevePratt-l4l you know what, I have been too. But then I think, the way everything is going right now, I would probably fail & everything will be so much worse. So I won't even try. I'm so sorry you are also feeling this way, it's most definitely a dark place to be. I think to myself, if this is something I have to go through in this life, in order to NEVER have to reincarnate again, then I better not tap out now, or I'll definitely have to come back to complete it. I swear to you, those 2 thoughts alone will stop me from trying & give me just enough hope to keep trying to get through it. Maybe they will do the same for you.
@@tamantajoHi ,thanks for replying, no I get them suicidal thoughts but I'm not gonna act on them my family would be devastated, but yeah this dark night of the soul is the hardest thing I've ever been through and I always thought I was strong and my spiritual faith would get me through anything , but like you said mines just disintegrated when I need it the most I'm just not sure about anything now, and I get depressed and angry like you, I sincerely hope you come out of it and find the light again, stay strong and keep pushing on.love and light ♥
Without a very profound Spiritual Awakening most people will have know idea what this man is speaking about. You may think you do but without the knowing it is simply information which you are trying to relate. Without the knowing people can never grasp this🙏
At one point after spiritual awakening a disconnect occurs at which point the dark night of the soul enters as one bemoans the loss. Everything gets questioned. Perseverance furthers…
Beautifully described. Been going through a version of this fueled by Kundalini for the past 7 plus years. Both incredibly amazing and absolutely brutal. Not only transmuting my shadow self, but that of my ancestors and the collective. Many many spiritual downloads. Looking forward to popping out the other side.
This was tremendous. I was a special guest for Don Miguel Ruiz when he spoke at Michael's church. Their was such a huge line around his church. His security took me right in & seated me right in front of Don Miguel. It was such an honor. This is not important yet your video today was extremely valuable. Thanks again.
I just came out of a dark night in April not knowing what it was. Been so much more in-tune with my spirituality lately. So many lessons clicking into place like a puzzle.
For anyone who is going through a very difficult time with a lot of mental suffering, you will get out of it if you really want to! I got into the worst phase of my life through a kind of meditation for days where I just lay in bed and did nothing. I couldn't sleep for 3 nights in a row and it was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. But only after that did it really start and I was trapped in a deep emptiness and senselessness. You could say that I went completely "crazy" and the basis of my day for months was deep anxiety, loneliness, severe mental suffering, panic attacks/overload and I was in a depressive mood because of all these emotions. My external environment was still the same (family, friends, girlfriend, work,...) but I said to my family every day that I couldn't take it anymore and that I didn't want to go on living like this(I cried every day). However, suicide was not an option as I had too many people around me who cared about me and I was remembering the good times in my life especially when I was a child. I had no choice but to go on day by day and this time changed everything about me. Now, after about 7 months, I'm feeling much better and I've found things I'm interested in and motivated by again, even if my motivations are no longer the same due to my changed world view. I thought I would stay in this emptiness forever until I understood that it was just a transformation where the old disappears and something new appears. What helped me a lot was: Not taking any drugs, going for walks to confront my thoughts and work on the process, lots of exercise, working/studying normally, being honest about how you are feeling and talking to other people about it, therapy, being kind to yourself. I also took medication in some phases, but the doses were always very low. I stopped taking the medication at every opportunity as I always felt it was best to confront it. Nevertheless, I think that medication can be helpful in some phases. A key for me has always been to confront the pain and anxiety, but not so much that I sink into complete hopelessness. I'm not completely out of it yet but I'm doing much better than when I started. This phase has also freed me from so many things and made me stronger and more loving in a way. No matter what situation you're in right now, you'll get through it!🙏
I had to tell my kids that I was in another universe and God placed them besides me just to ease my pain. I even thought that I was already dead and I was living in a dream and no one could help or hear me out. I was asking God to remove my head out of the water, grasping for air, that's how it feels😢😢 and for the past 2787 days...Yes, I count every day like someone laying motionless on the hospital bed.
That's how I feel. My poor children. I thought I was actually dying or God had abandoned me to lower entities, until I watched this video and read the comments. Now I'm comforted. Thank you. ❤ Prayers and blessings to you all and your children.
@@M-i-k-a-e-l I believe some people are feeling it and other's aren't for some reason. Lately I've noticed people say "something feels off" and I know exactly what they mean, other people just going on as usual.
i'm curious about another aspect, that I'm not hearing mentioned here. When I have gone through this process (multiple times in this lifetime) ... purging became a real thing. I couldn't even do food until the entire process completed itself. (almost a month usually, or several weeks) And it was terrifying on so many levels, because each time, I never knew if I would survive it. Not an exaggeration. I honestly thought I might die. And like you say, reaching the other side changes everything, and you have a undeniable relationship with life again, and all of your previous belief systems, thoughts, fears, etc. went through a transformation because of the brutality of the process. I'm curious about food, digestion, water, etc. chemicals, etc. My nervous system became so hyper-sensitive, i couldn't be around things like cigarette smoke anymore, because a vegetarian ... realizing my body couldn't handle red meat anymore. Lost so many friends, because my spirit started to reject anything that was in-authentic, any place or area of my life that wouldn't let the light in. It changed everything for me. But the biological physical process was insane, and truly tested me to my very core. It felt like being inside a chrysalis, having my entire being regurgitated by Spirit, by the Universe. Never to be quite the same again.
Glad to see this comment,I feel like this is exactly what I’ve been dealing with for the past 2 months now,but I had a dark night of soul happened to me back 2017-2018 and I thought this was over so please suggestions would be appreciated so I know what changes do I need to make or how to better understand and deal with it accordingly please and thank you
@@cegus03ify - Hi! I'm grateful to read your comment, and that you are vulnerable enough to ask. What comes to me in this moment of typing to you ... a little each day can go a long way. Meaning like a practice. Make time for it. For me, nighttime is the hardest. My body never wants to settle down. My mind never wants to stop racing. So the way back into the body, and out of the mind ... is to make space for the deep silence. Find 20 - 30 minutes after the sun goes down. Sit in a dark room, and light a candle. Sit comfortably in front of it, but not too comfortable. If you live with others, request this time to be undisturbed ... which must include silence. (no talking, electronics, etc.) Do this each evening, because the mind will amplify ... the practice will serve as an anchor to what is truly real, which is your true self. The self behind the forced breath. If you are not anywhere near nature, experiment w/ nature sounds. (but very low volume. (ie crickets, frogs, etc.) Something to ground you if the raw silence is too much at first. Nature can be very healing. When I meditate like this, I often remove all of my clothing, and wrap a dhoti around my body. (a sheet will work fine also) It feels more spiritual, and that feeling of spirituality and connection can act as a catalyst for our nervous systems to calm down. Also, you could try doing this practice after soaking in a hot bath w/ epsom salt. But don't spend too much time in the bath. The point is not the bath, it's the meditation. But the bath can help to prepare. (cleanliness is next to godliness) Try to sit up straight during the candle meditation. Don't lie down. You don't have to stare at the candle the entire time, but try to keep it in your awareness, even if your eyes are relaxed or wonder. Believe me, if you do this for several days in a row ... things will naturally start to come up, start to surface. Don't run from them. Don't try to escape. Meet them where they are, and meet them where you are. Don't be too surprised if you breathing starts to become more balanced throughout the day. Drink water during this experiment, try to kick any sugar or caffeine. Reduce any heavy foods during this time. Something bland to begin your first meal. Oatmeal or yogurt. Maybe a few berries. Basically this is a detox for the body, mind, and spirit. It's never about trying to gain something, and always about ridding ourselves of what no longer serves. It can be a painful process, depending on how much you've accumulated. Be patient with yourself, loving and kind. If you do this ... please do let me know what comes up for you, and how you are doing. Bless you friend, and bless your life. This most precious life. PS ... if music helps, then try listening to something like this th-cam.com/video/TRIdzvIKDu8/w-d-xo.htmlsi=71oHSVDHRjDb48Bx
The Dark Night of the Soul is like suddenly being aware of the fullest scope of the universe, understanding time and space in a way that would have prior eluded you, seeing life through an eternal and glorious lens, and then holding in terror the degree of synchronicity and inevitable fate that binds all life together. All done in a fashion so pre-deterministic and fate-driven along God's plan, that it rips billions of neural pathways within your cortex at once. Then God flicks you with his finger 10 billion light years away from the source of all love and creation, into a darkness and abyss of space that is impossible to measure. While you believe at your core that you may have to exist and hold your breath for one hundred billion years, for even the smallest chance to get back to a place of grace and acceptance. All while you are processing and comprehending new and true degrees of size, space and separation, that only serve to compound the nightmare and horrific situation you believe to your core that you have found yourself within. It is the grandest portrayal and recognition of God's love, and the ultimate cost of separation from it, designed to magnify and expand upon the feeling that you completely missed the wedding party, as you weep and gnash your teeth uncontrollably outside of closed gates. It is the mightiest illusion of having a veil lifted that allows you to momentarily grasp the depth and capacity of God's grace and presence, and then bestowing the presence of mind to believe you have been permanently barred and separated from it on an eternal basis. But not before your consciousness has been expanded just enough to discern what this would actually mean in the highest and most damaging capacities possible. It offers a temporary glimpse into the true power of God's creation and might, that triggers degrees of separation strong enough to reset the mind, to the point of grinding and smoothing out the ruts from your neural pathways that reflect your bad habits and programmed identity traits. It is an incredible and unmatched gift that ultimately grants time to practice and walk upon a new journey with a different mind. It ultimately diminishes the ego, resets you with supernatural knowledge and expectations, breaks the conditioning and hardened modes of life, and softens the heart with degrees of compassion and empathy for others that can make you cry for weeks on end. It is like getting a new rule book, that showcases the power of your thoughts, tongue, and words since the day you were born, and then subconsciously allows you to feel and see the thousands upon thousands of ways you harmed and impacted others unknowingly due to your ignorance. With a newfound level of awareness and empathy, that would see you prefer cutting your tongue out and spending the rest of your life alone in a cave, rather than risk harming anyone else in the future from the control and awareness issues that all humanity suffers from. Ultimately it leads to a new journey and pathway, whereby a supernatural expectation for miracles through God's love can overwrite all of the prior mundane assumptions we held about life and its capacities. It restores and builds and unprecedented faith you feel compelled to share with everyone, creates newfound courage and faith, while giving a spiritual and persistent glimpse of the weave and tapestry of all creation, and the glory of the results and God that it serves. It is the movie Christmas Carol on steroids, and can grant new internal awareness as well as recognition of signs and subtleties that were past missed. It represents the restoration of an empathetic soul so extreme and fierce, that you will fight until the magic wears off to remember that all beings are born innocent, and that we should never ever judge anyone in any capacity, as the process for each is unique and blessed from the perspective of an eternal transition and inevitable transformation. If you know you know. If you don't, do everything you can to love one another, and avoid however possible entangling yourselves with the false hatred, division, polarization, and judgment of others that this world actively craves and harvests. We are in a mighty transformative stage now, as our collective consciousness is being attacked at all levels in a desperate act to keep war, division, suffering, and evil relevant. They say night is always the darkest right before the dawn. Believe that you have the capacity to change and transform your environment and world, simply by having the courage to love beyond the illusion that has prior been shown to you. God's grace and special relativity will do the rest. Finally, no matter how far you think you are away, never forget that Jesus Christ can bridge all distances in an instant, regardless of the distance as it may appear.
I wish I could copy and paste this to my notes. Man you perfectly described exactly what it feels like to the last detail. I have fought and wrestled for years. I have almost walked away, thought I’ve lost salvation, cursed God and then cried for him back, all while being in the dark. The separation feels unbearably. The emptiness feels worse than death. I have been recovering from a traumatic brain injury for years. I suffered alone in a dark room with nothing but my thoughts and imagination and prayer. Suffering day in and day out. Hopelessness to anger, anger to sadness, sadness to fear. Then some hope, and then that hope stripped away. I have envisioned myself in the dark with no one around me as the gates are shut. Your descriptive language has described imaginative visions I’ve had in my mind. Thank you for your comment
3 years for me. I fought it hard the first 2 years and it almost killed me. The last year I’ve been letting go and surrendering and have made incremental improvements. Let go, surrender. The only way is through which is by surrender, there is no fight to be had. May God be with you.
I have done this and did not know it was a thing. I came out on the other side a better person. It's been a complete transformation. I am glad to hear it's not just me!!!
Insight! Yes this is what I had when I knew I had suppressed feelings causing all my troubles with my marriage. Next thing was, an insight of spiritual bypass is what I was doing with my belief in God. Now I'm leaning on Pschology on almost everything as I seem to see my religious beliefs insignificant. Here lies my Dark night
I'm in this. I feel so much rage. I'm trying so hard to let it go. My identity as a victim, a child who was hurt so badly, seemed so important; it shaped my whole life. How to let it go when all i ever wanted was for people to hear me, yet i never was able to voice any of it? It seems counter-intuitive to what a therapist would tell me. 😅
You know what I been coming to regarding this topic. The law of karma. What you have caused you will suffer from. During this period this kind of accountability has caused some alchemical fusion
Therapist want you to hold on to your identity so you keep coming back just as a doctors wants to keep you sick. Forgiveness is possible. I forgave my abusive mother recently and it’s relieved a massive weight off my shoulders. You can too. Invite Jesus to show you the way, I looked at my mother as just another lost soul that didn’t know what she was doing. Unconsciously hurting me void of what her natural order as a loving human being is.
Dark Knight - Its where you know 40 days in the desert, God why have you forsaken me? And Father if you are willing, take this cup - You know it in a way the Christ experienced it. It’s awful and beautiful but you’ll never forget the awful. PURIFICATION HAPPENS HERE. Don’t Give Up!
I've been going through the last phase of this I've had this since I was 14 I don't know I'm a very different kid it feels kind of overwhelming even typing this
❤ Ty This is the most painful yet truthful journey one will ever go through...it is tge transformation from min ego to True Self....believe me i spent years on the floor howling lost nearly everything but came out the other side❤❤. Its truly beautiful and all i experience is pure peace and unconditioned love as a frequency of who i Truly Am ...so so Blessed 🙏. It surely is not for those faint hearted 🤍🙏💃🐉🕊 x
You talk about the seed in soil and that is so much how it is, my mind is constantly on birth and giving birth. I keep telling my therapist - I want to bloom. Every time I visit my energy worker she holds out her box of stones and I choose blindly. Over and over I’ve picked the dark green and black one. Like a seed in the earth. She tells me I’m full of anger and grief and depression. Works my energy to help me to be able to emit my own light. When I went to her a few days ago, it was the first time I told her going in that I was doing good. Which surprised both of us. I chose the yellow and brown stone. Then we released so much energy it felt like a purging, like I’m ready to just let go of everything I was holding on to and move forward. Tried to go too fast from there taking on projects and socializing, and I feel worse now than I have through this entire ten months. Definitely purging, and definitely a process that takes so much patience and acceptance.
It starts in my stomach, butterflies , anxiety. Like im letting something go, No motivation to live. Not even my children can bring something.. You see Authenticity, if it isnt you cant handle it
Mine was triggered 8 years ago the day I decided do a paradigm shift in my life. It resulted in divorce, abandonment, job lost,...I lost everything. It's been a journey in Hell. But now I see light and I am stronger than ever and ready for my purpose.
wise man. There is no replacement for Gnosis, the true wisdom of deep inner self-knowledge - I've known for years where my soul's weaknesses lie. I know my soul's history pretty well... I know how I must change to grow.. but that knowledge means nothing because I could not change myself, with will, alone, to heal the problems. Book knowledge is great. I'm a natural student, but I realized that book knowledge isn't enough. It's just the beginning. Right now, I am like ouroboros - I'm in a closed loop, but, I'm not the child I once was, if I gave up now, it would be cowardice of the worse kind. I had to experience dark nights, as awful as they are, to effect the transformations that I needed to grow mature as a soul. God, they hurt, though! I'm going through something right now.. I totally recognize the 'I don't want to be this spiritual' - entirely. I just want to sink into despair and never rise again, but I can't, I know better. I'm an old warrior. I don't want the next step, but I know it is the right thing to do. I know where the fault lines are and I know what I need to change but it isn't up to me, entirely. It's what he said. Only love has kept me on this path for decades. I'm 73 and I"m still in the process of change I started at 28-29. I want to point out, I'm not on this path for myself, alone, I want to serve mankind. That is another thing that must be understood. Only great desire will keep me - or anyone - on the path, through, all the trials. I want to help mankind survive and mature. I don't know how I will do this, but I want to serve... perhaps in future lives? I don't care if it is washing dishes and mopping floors. I want our species to survive and prosper.
I feel like my whole life has been a dark night. It is never ending and a total waste of life. I always wanted to have a normal life that everyone has but no I have been alone my whole life. I am just about 64 and this life was definately not worth it, it has been a horrible painful life. If God exists when ai die I am going to kick his ass.
God's a dick. Jesus, on the other hand, has been my Gentle Shepherd. He has led me where I need to go and comforted me. He says I have to figure this part out by myself. I haven't been alone my whole life, but I've felt like it. I never felt safe as a child, not in my home, at my church, at school, or even at church camp. There was ALWAYS some creepy dude trying to touch me. 😭
Thanks for this clip! Puts it so succinctly. I’m just coming out of my own dark night of the soul and I’m still in sort of a transitional period of my life. I’m still figuring out where I go from here but I have faith
ive experienced this dark night of the soul.. it was painful.. it feels like somebody has stabbed me in my heart.. it feels like i was dying... and there were no cushions to the pain. i felt the pain to the core.. it feels like there is no ground and im in limbo.. but it was beautiful in a way. every feeling is extremely intensified..
I broke down sobbing today, but it was so intense that I wasn't breathing and no sound was coming out. It was like I was frozen in time experiencing the most painful hurt; I was afraid I'd never breath again. 😱
Ive been going through this for six months. I’ve contemplated suicide many times in the past few weeks. Trying to find the strength to get through this. The fact people have been going through this for years is scary. I just cant imagine.
I suddenly was was well. A genius. Everything I thought I wasn't and didn't want to be. I was the black sheep. Now I'm the one my family turns to. And this time not for money. Friends dieing all around me. One in my arms. A cousin 3 days ago. I couldn't cry. I thought I was calus. I thought I was jaded. My children are mad because of how I feel out of love with their mother 20 years ago. Five years after a breast cancer diagnosis. That was 2002 we divorced in 2005. She passed in 2019. Now they are in their 20's they resent me. I've not met my twin grandbabies. (9 months old) As they live 2 miles down the road. My daughters husband is a "I'm the hard working man around here guy". God I hope I can use this understanding and heal. I'm floored at how I didn't know this.
Having a conversation with someone and then in the middle your speech slows and you stare off into the distance for a minute or two before you finish the line of conversation you originally began.
I had no idea this was what happened to me until I watched a video. But it was horrible and lonely. I was pregnant while it happened. I look back at everything that took place before it, and I am glad it happened how it did.
In the sacred cube, our soul's design, Each axis, edge, a path divine, Through spatial realms and mystic light, We journey forth, from dark to bright. From earthly bounds to heights untold, Our spirit's quest, both brave and bold, With every step, a truth we face, Unveiling love, through time and space. In symbols deep, we find our guide, As wisdom's light shines from inside, Through ancient texts, the journey's grace, We find our home, within the space. So let us walk, both near and far, Guided by love, our guiding star, For in this cube, the truth we trace, Our soul's ascent, through time and space.
I had a dark YEAR of the Soul... it was 2023 2024 is MY year. Look out world... A Brilliant Light is descending upon this planet that has never been seen befoe.
I've been experiencing this for almost 15 years. I've had dreams of simply me crying. Not in a room or some setting, just me crying. This dark night doesn't seem to have an end and it has created in me a small desire for death. I'm not suicidal but I don't fear death like most so maybe that's why I would prefer death over this soul pain. It's like no other pain. I have persevered for almost 2 decades and at 50, Im not sure I can continue to for much longer. What if I don't come out of this?
I feel like someone did a buck up and deleated every bit of information form my mind. There’s just no one inside. I’m empty. No ideas, no clarity where to go, what to do.. seeing my own shadow, my insecurities! My childhood wounds omg.. Everything falling apart! Like litteraly I don’t know anymore who I am.. and I’m like discovering the truth of who I’ve been being all this time. Not nice.. it’s very scary.
I felt like I was Alice in Wonderland going deeper into the rabbit hole. I also had feelings of being in a tunnel with no light, couldn't go forward and couldn't go backwards. I knew that it was a part of my awakening and that I was being quided but it still felt awful. It lasted for at least five years.
Only love of God, is enough to really decide to enter it. I'm convinced of it. It was love that put me on the path, it was love that kept me on the path, and it love that will cause me to stay on the path for all the centuries my soul will live. I'd love to leave the path, live only on one level, but I can't. I fell in love with God, with the Light, and I can't stop loving the Light, where ever it leads me.
Read: Dark Night of the Soul: A Masterpiece in the Literature of Mysticism by St. John of the Cross. These are old ideas repackaged in new age mysticism
I think, I believe, I know. I can live with the ups and downs of I know it's the other two that bring me sorrow therefor if I confront my fears, face reality, hope for a different outcome that could, will manifest itself through a different outlook on life?
My first one I’m not sure was even truly one. Basically a full mental breakdown because I identified as my trauma and as a person who deserved all of it. Now I’m going through a thing where…I can see it…I can see the parts of me I “put on” and cling to because they make me feel safe. The thought of dropping them scares the shit out of me.
I can relate. I feel confused mostly. I've been in various therapies trying to sort it all out. I have had a habit of assuming new identities or personalities to comfort myself. Like changing clothes. Each day is a different one. I'm kinda tired of it actually. And it's a terrible habit. Which one of these is really me? Well, your comment made me think: None. I look in the mirror and see a woman I do not recognize. I do not know her. Who is she? It's very exhausting. I think I'm crazy.
@@lakotaforeverbeauty3328 I wish you peace and I hope that you can feel whole and true in who you are 💕 we both find and create who we really are, it isn’t just about uncovering. But masks can make us think we’re creating and it just feels…not very good 😅😅
I thought I heard that St John of the Cross had experiences for a few decades so it might be worth looking into his story. It's one of the more well known historical cases of a Dark Night of the Soul and he wrote a book about his experiences....
The worst part is that you go through it all alone and no one in your family or friends can help you through it. You can barely stand your family 😅 because they are still in Egypt and can pull you back in. Rev Michael is my spiritual teacher I am so glad to know he also went through this darkness. Strength to everyone ❤
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Going through it all alone right now, barely making it every day
@@Adyy0001 same ! We got this ! 🙏🏼
@@Adyy0001 same here
This is exactly what I have been going through for the last 3 years, and it is dark...!! You can't really expect anyone to understand it, unless they've been through it, and it's really difficult to explain as it's not something that one fully understands until you come through it. Thank you Michael for describing this so well. 🙏 ❤
Thank you so much for sharing, i’ve been thruw the same the last three years, it’s very very dark and still it goes like a wave. The explaining from Michael and your words gives me the feeling I’m not alone in this dark but also beautiful proces. 🙏🏻💞
Same here, was very dark and i could see everything. Was dark and very frightening
I think I’m going through it now. My emotions are numb but I don’t feel depressed or anxious just numb like I can’t get happy or sad. Really weird feeling. I even stopped meditating so much because I just don’t have much desire. I literally could sit by a river for days and just look around in silence. Definitely a trippy feeling and I hope this is what it is so I’ll have some kind of explanation because I don’t want to feel like this forever. I used to have chronic anxiety attacks but now nothing at all, not even worry, just numb.
Same here. Peaks and Valleys.
Yeah 5 yrs for me now . On and off but not fully out of it. Its lonely, confusing and all encompassing. Want this to end soon. Want to get done and over with.
What dies is the personality, that is given by society, and individuality is yours - Osho.
It’s last until your ego completely dies
This is EXACTLY how it is. It is HORRENDOUS and very debilitating. It is like a veil being lifted and I could see the truth about myself in full. It was & is horrifying. It started about 5 months ago and im still going through it. Its very dark. Like a void. Like waking up from a life of being unconscious. Lots of grief. Not sure how much longer this will go on. Doing lots of self care. Behaviours, choices, thoughts changing, as I'm not that person anymore.
Breathe breathe breathe and allow it to flow through.... spend some beautiful time in nature, Barefoot especially! Grounding is key.... you are a conduit between Mother Earth and father sky and you are powerful. you have an amazing Mission ahead of you❤ a very grateful for your experience! Mine was about 5 years ago and I couldn't stop crying for at least 2 weeks, you feel like you're nuts but you didn't realize you've been living in an illusionary world the entire time❤
I'm coming out of it. I feel overwhelmed by gratitude. You just keep dying to THE PATTERN. When you can't lose anything else, you will wake up. Unless a seed falls to the ground. You are gonna see you were never alone. You are gonna make it! I promise!
Dark night of the soul was liberating for me. I let go of the darkness of dichotomy presented in my religious upbringing. It was a simple realization that it wasn't my identity, and I was happy to let that mess go. As I was taking down all religious icons of Jesu, Mary, etc, I knew immediately that I was going to experience suffering. It happened in development of multiple chemical sensitivities and severe allergies. I lost all of belongings multiple times, because I couldn't figure out what was making me sick. I was alone physically but I was able to articulate the experience to myself and my beautiful friends. They believed me. I accepted it as an attack from the energies in my former religion that were angry that I no longer served them with my devotion. All deities get their power from devotees. Now all devotion is directed at the divine within. Being that way retains my power and keeps those looking for energy to deify themselves to piss off. No religious icons, no gods, guru dev, no shrines get my energy. Only I get my energy.
I have been there for past 8 years. I just found the reason a couple of days. I feel so relieved and hope it's the end.
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The sense of separation is so real which makes it extremely difficult to let go. Belief is the mind whereas knowing is the heart.
I remember when I went through this for a few years and thought it was depression. After coming through on the other side, God revealed to me it was a process of the old self dying for the new to emerge. Wish I would’ve had this information beforehand, it would have been a lot easier because of understanding the process and reason for the pain.
Then afterwards, I realized how blessed I was that Gods was there through the process. I was given the test, then the lesson.
My heart goes out to souls who are going through this and there’s no one to explain and help them through the process. Some make it out fine, while others may not.😢❤
I’m going through this and I don’t know myself. I feel so beat up and defeat. I’m just crying hysterically.
I’m here to say 3 months later I’m feeling much better
@@KayKay-fb1dw I went through the same thing and 2021. I went through it twice. I want you to know that this is a natural process. I believe we don’t know what’s happening to us for a reason. The one thing that I can tell you that I held onto through all of it Was my faith in a higher power. Even in the darkest of the dark when I couldn’t feel anything loving, I did not give up on knowing that God was there somewhere. After six months of going through hell, I kind of gave up, thinking God was going to help me. I started feeling like I should Google my symptoms. I started finding all kinds of things about this. I eventually learned it was called the dark Knight of the soul or also called recalibration. The more I learned about it, the easier it was to finally pull myself out of it. I just wanted to feel peace and enjoy again. Please don’t give up! It is the test of all tests for your faith in everything that is goodness, love and kindness. All these things you are. You’ve never been anything but these things. I hope this helps, much love to you! You will come out on the other side. Keep your faith!
I’m sorry for the typos. I was using Siri, but I hope you understand. That you are going to be OK even when you feel like you have lost yourself and your mind. I even felt like I was getting attacked by the dark. Severe anxiety, I lost 30 pounds and I never slept but an hour or two each night, if that. The worst depression anyone could go through. I don’t tell you these things to make you feel worse. I tell you this so that you will feel like you are not alone. Do not try to go to the doctor and get on anti-depressants or take any kind of medication’s against it. It will only prolong it.feel the feelings. Give yourself so much love and hug yourself and tell yourself that you deserve to be loved. Feel the feelings and love yourself and then tell them they can go now and be transmuted back into light.
The key is to feel understand and surrender @KayKay-fb1dw let it go
I went through this starting in May of 2021. It is the most miserable experience you will ever endure. You literally feel parts of yourself (ego) start to emotionally dissipate, but the end result is you truly becoming the person you were meant to be. This is the most concise and well spoken description of the dark night of the soul I have ever heard. Thank you for sharing this.
Just when you think your dark night is over it hits you again. You can try to fight it, but you won't be successful. I don't know how people survive it without meditation. I found meditation through a dark night of the soul, and it helps tremendously. The dark night seems to be infinite.
Through the worse of it I couldn't even read or meditate ... I still have pain when I meditate... my lower back hurts so bad, I can barely walk.
@@kathleenhensley5951 I
I innerstand you. I was frozen. I didn’t know what was happening. At first it was hard to do anything. It felt like I shipwrecked my life. I discovered meditation through the process. At times I couldn't get through it, but I don’t give up easy. The back pain led me to a chiropractor. I still struggle with my back now. I have a serious injury. I have other health issues that meditation helps me with. Meditation brings out latent health issues to expose them for healing. There’s an old book I have that explains a lot about what you are going through, “Tao & Longevity.”
Through everything I still feel it, it still feels like I am there in that dark night. I am sending you love.
I handled it without a day off from work and without any medications. Although I wished so bad to sleep all this time and switch my mind off and my feelings too. It was a spiritual torture, craziness, terrifying fear. F@ck this shit.
I went through this for a couple of years and it was brutal. I couldn’t even meditate after being a daily practitioner for almost a decade and felt so cut off from spirit. I had to hold on to all the faith I had and it was difficult. However, I can now say the life on the other side of the dark night is amazing. You’re a whole new person in the best way possible.
Hey, would you mind sharing more about the life after the dark night? This "being a whole new person in the best way possible"? So I can have some picture of it, some inspiration, something to hold on to and to believe there is a way out of it and it's actually WORTH IT?
Cause it's really dark here.
Thanks 🙏
@@katarzynarazplewicz4196 Sure! After the dark night I could see the human experience for the hologram it is. Also, when it was ending I started manifesting dreams I'd had for years at lightning speed - moving to another country, finding love, re-building my business in a way that works for me, etc. My old life had to fall apart first. I just started talking about this stuff more on a separate TH-cam since I've gotten so many questions about it. www.youtube.com/@MindfulSuccessPath-gn7gi/featured
Hey.. I feel this. All the practices that worked so well in the past, visualization, inner affirmations, faith! I had faith in life.. I knew I would be ok and I could achieve anything I put in my mind. And I did. Now I feel.. I can not even see any picture in my mind.. I’m just empty. Just endlessly empty and with no inspiration, no faith, not motivation.. no nothing. Just silence and loneliness. No energy. No instinct, no impulse. Just the feeling of : who was that person? I don’t feel familiar to ‘that being’ anymore and I don’t know who I am atm at all.
To those suffering this metaphysical symbolic death, know I FEEL ya. Been there decades ago n’ at 60 here it is again; the slipping away of all joy n angst and the life I had for last five years. Never quit. Lean into the skin shedding and know this too shall pass. Love you. Peace ✌️
Going thru this now. One of my darkest moments just occurred. My young adult children just told me that 'we got this! We don't need your help. We don't need your wisdom and guidance to live our lives. We want to make decisions on our own. Your ideas don't align with ours." This was extremely heartbreaking for the type of mother that I've been in younger years. With the help of videos like this, now I realize that this gives me the freedom to fly even further and without strings of responsibilities attached to me. What an amazing gift they're given me. I must have raised them right to be able to do it on their own! Bravo!!
5 years now of hopeless depressed feelings and intense feelings, frequent anxiety in the middle of the night, loss of meaning in everything.
same here
Have you tried to do anything to change where you are? This is a genuine question, because I’m also stuck in these feelings
@@SteadyRock91 I do notice anytime I am away or traveling things tend to be better sometimes. Like I lived in a commune for 4 months and my health was much better there, but im not sure how to make this sustainable long term.
@Mandance 5 years?? Is there no end to it? I'm about 1 year into it and the pain is unbearable! Why no one is saying how long this dark night wil lasts
@@searah683 no end yet
My dark night has been happening gradually over the past 5 years. My spiritual journey began back in highschool in 2012. Technically, I'm still very much in the thick of it but I'm slowly coming out of it. I'm endlessly searching for my purpose and everything I thought I was and who I was on the inside wasn't me.
I was a people pleaser, a push over, a docile girl that always thought everyone knew what was better for me. I've recently cut off three people out of my life - my mom, brother, and so called best friend of 14 years. They were toxic and I didn't need those sort of people in my life.
It feels empty, I literally didn't know who I was for a long while. I stuffed my face with food to feel something and to feel nothing at the same time. I doom scrolled, played endless video games, did everything I could to numb myself. But then I got tired so I started feeling my emotions and the sadness set me free because I finally gave space to it all.
I started journaling again, watching the old movies I loved as a teen, started listening to meditation and music that I haven't for a decade. I read, go for walks with my daughter, I draw with her. It feels like I'm slowly crawling out of it all because I got tired of being this cloud of doom.
I'm still in search of my purpose but at least for now my purpose can be to add meaning to life again ❤ It's been a very rough journey but perhaps this is who I was meant to be all this time.
8 months I've been there and it was beyond what a human mind can handle. I was fighting for my sanity every minute. So much fear and panic, confusion. I wasn't here, but somewhere between the realms.
Can't even put it into words. The dreams and the feelings...I couldn't even eat, I was throwing up at night in my garden.
Thank you for sharing it means a lot to me. May I ask if you had insomnia at the top of that ? How are you feeling now after those 8 months ? 💜🙏
I know this
The dread and panic is something beyond normal human nature , I get you! How are you doing?
Brutal, is all I say about this. It’s been going on for years. On and off. Thanks for speaking this truth . It’s not nice
Love and light to each and everyone of you that has gone or is going through this life changing, destruction, and reconstructive process. It can be the scariest thing you have ever been through and the most liberating. It can take you from the absence of light, love, and connectedness to pure love, life, and oneness. Remember who you are. It IS the process of remembering. The process will take however long it needs to. Understand you can not rush the process. Find your truth and allow the process to unfold. Blessing to you all. I love you! ❤❤❤
Once it starts their is no going back ,ride the the storm and surrender to the universe ❤
To me it’s like going back home to where you belong but the road is scary, painful, dark. But at those times when you encounter those moments of relief/light it also feels like a re-birth or embracing your inner innocent, pure child you once were before being spoiled by all the conditioning. In my case I’ve been crying a lot, grieving for those “lost years” living in survival mode, being people-pleaser etc. , not listening to my inner voice (my soul) which of course give you the experience but rather painful one. It’s not easy to explain but it definitely reminds me of Kafka’s metamorphosis.
I’ve had many DKOTS’s but the most painful one was the one I became conscious of. The one I had right after my spiritual awakening. It was daunting not to know what was going to happen next and how long I’d be going through this. I am 6 months into it and feeling like the storm is finally passing. It’s left quite a bit of a mess that I just have to clean up and I’m sure it’s smooth sailing from there. Please pray for me as I will pray for all of you. ❤
HERE is a small version of what I wrote before, before it disappeared. Now let's see if this stays up!
Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.
- Khalil Gibran
Ultimately, the Dark Night of the Soul and the Spiritual Awakening process are inextricably entwined.
They are really only two sides of the same coin.
It could even be said that the Dark Night is the shadow side of Spiritual Awakening process, but that's not to say that it's negative "wrong" - in fact, the DarkNight is needed!
While the Dark Night of the Soul is the process of daeth, the Spiritual Awakening process is the process of rebirth.
While the Dark Night is about destruction, the Spiritual Awakening process is about expansion
Both processes can typically do arise simultaneously.
The reality is you, as Spiritual-Life Wanderers have a powerful path, destiny, and purpose in this World..
YOu are called to awaken.
You are called to turn your pain into power.
You are called to transform and self actualize ur gifts.
You are called to be a light in this World...
It’s a Spiritual Warfare with Oneself… and an epiphany at the same time; Soul Real!!❤
My whole grown life has been a series of dark nights of the soul. Its a never ending process of repeating patterns of betrayal and extreme loneliness and anxienty and anger. Thanks God, thank you so fucking much. I just want to fucking die but I'm not even allowed to die if I want to. FUCK this life
Why you thanking God bruh literally put here
I guess it's because you are strong spirit and can handle this crap and because subconsciously you don't want to make the changes, so you are forced to . I'm sure you life has nore meaning compared to mine. I'm so lazy and bored. But from time to time I practice some ashtanga yoga and it makes miracles, but because I'm lazy I'm inconsistent. 😁
Don't give up on yourself, dude. I'm sending you some good prahna. 🍺🤍
@@shushimushi Thanks brother
Jesus pulled me out of the darkness
A lot of the eastern spirituality and new age belief misses the mark on this. I once followed those teachings, but now I'm of the position that My "dark night" was actually an all out demonic assault on me. I experienced some strange manifestations that crossed from the spiritual realm into the physical plane and it was all the evidence I needed for Jesus. I repented and surrendered to Jesus my Lord and Savior and witnessed the darkness fade away. Life has been beautiful following in Christ
Without Him, I think I would have given up. It wasn't worth the horror of it all.
This feeling is empty right now.. I know that I am becoming more enlightened because I’m not in the same plane anymore. I feel like I’m falling into an abyss in extreme slow motion.. I’m reaching out grabbing something that is not even there. No one or no thing makes sense to me internally.
Same same!!! Omg. It helps reading this.
I feel I don’t recognize my self anymore. I don’t recognize who I was in the past.. I mean a year ago! Months ago! I’m not that person anymore. I’m no one actually. I just feel empty inside. No information, no map, no impulse to do anything. Just empty. Scary. Im trying to go back to the past and find some reference… I can’t grab anything. It just melts through my fingers. It does not make sense anymore. I can’t reach out to anyone, cause I feel I don’t relate to anyone that I know anymore. I feel so alone and so disconnected and isolated.
The one thing I know for sure is that I know nothing!! Everything I believed I knew makes no sense to me anymore. Every thing Spiritual & Metephysical I held onto is being challenged in so many ways. I used to feel so much Love & now I feel so much anger & depression. It's been 5 years now with no sign of stopping.
Spot on me too, I resonate with evreything you said, especially the spiritual part, mines been 5 years too it's so draining, I've had a lot of suicidal thoughts latley.
@@StevePratt-l4l you know what, I have been too. But then I think, the way everything is going right now, I would probably fail & everything will be so much worse. So I won't even try. I'm so sorry you are also feeling this way, it's most definitely a dark place to be. I think to myself, if this is something I have to go through in this life, in order to NEVER have to reincarnate again, then I better not tap out now, or I'll definitely have to come back to complete it. I swear to you, those 2 thoughts alone will stop me from trying & give me just enough hope to keep trying to get through it. Maybe they will do the same for you.
@@tamantajoHi ,thanks for replying, no I get them suicidal thoughts but I'm not gonna act on them my family would be devastated, but yeah this dark night of the soul is the hardest thing I've ever been through and I always thought I was strong and my spiritual faith would get me through anything , but like you said mines just disintegrated when I need it the most I'm just not sure about anything now, and I get depressed and angry like you, I sincerely hope you come out of it and find the light again, stay strong and keep pushing on.love and light ♥
Feels like severe depression and anxiety that never ends.
@@sharminiserasinghe3293 it sure does & counseling does not help because the counselor doesn't get it.
Without a very profound Spiritual Awakening most people will have know idea what this man is speaking about. You may think you do but without the knowing it is simply information which you are trying to relate. Without the knowing people can never grasp this🙏
At one point after spiritual awakening a disconnect occurs at which point the dark night of the soul enters as one bemoans the loss. Everything gets questioned. Perseverance furthers…
Beautifully described. Been going through a version of this fueled by Kundalini for the past 7 plus years. Both incredibly amazing and absolutely brutal. Not only transmuting my shadow self, but that of my ancestors and the collective. Many many spiritual downloads. Looking forward to popping out the other side.
Well said...Life will humble us all 😊
This was tremendous. I was a special guest for Don Miguel Ruiz when he spoke at Michael's church. Their was such a huge line around his church. His security took me right in & seated me right in front of Don Miguel. It was such an honor. This is not important yet your video today was extremely valuable. Thanks again.
Ya I love the Ruiz Family. They have a ton of wisdom and have definitely have taught me a ton as well. One Love ✌🏾💙🩵🏁
@@godsway8501 indeed.
I also love them.
This is exactly what I'm experiencing right now and it's explained in such amazing detail. Thank you so much for this confirmation.
keep going! ❤️🔥✨🌟
I just came out of a dark night in April not knowing what it was. Been so much more in-tune with my spirituality lately. So many lessons clicking into place like a puzzle.
For anyone who is going through a very difficult time with a lot of mental suffering, you will get out of it if you really want to!
I got into the worst phase of my life through a kind of meditation for days where I just lay in bed and did nothing. I couldn't sleep for 3 nights in a row and it was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. But only after that did it really start and I was trapped in a deep emptiness and senselessness. You could say that I went completely "crazy" and the basis of my day for months was deep anxiety, loneliness, severe mental suffering, panic attacks/overload and I was in a depressive mood because of all these emotions. My external environment was still the same (family, friends, girlfriend, work,...) but I said to my family every day that I couldn't take it anymore and that I didn't want to go on living like this(I cried every day). However, suicide was not an option as I had too many people around me who cared about me and I was remembering the good times in my life especially when I was a child. I had no choice but to go on day by day and this time changed everything about me.
Now, after about 7 months, I'm feeling much better and I've found things I'm interested in and motivated by again, even if my motivations are no longer the same due to my changed world view. I thought I would stay in this emptiness forever until I understood that it was just a transformation where the old disappears and something new appears.
What helped me a lot was:
Not taking any drugs, going for walks to confront my thoughts and work on the process, lots of exercise, working/studying normally, being honest about how you are feeling and talking to other people about it, therapy, being kind to yourself.
I also took medication in some phases, but the doses were always very low. I stopped taking the medication at every opportunity as I always felt it was best to confront it. Nevertheless, I think that medication can be helpful in some phases. A key for me has always been to confront the pain and anxiety, but not so much that I sink into complete hopelessness.
I'm not completely out of it yet but I'm doing much better than when I started. This phase has also freed me from so many things and made me stronger and more loving in a way.
No matter what situation you're in right now, you'll get through it!🙏
Definitely there now. Shedding the snake skin ❤
I had to tell my kids that I was in another universe and God placed them besides me just to ease my pain. I even thought that I was already dead and I was living in a dream and no one could help or hear me out. I was asking God to remove my head out of the water, grasping for air, that's how it feels😢😢 and for the past 2787 days...Yes, I count every day like someone laying motionless on the hospital bed.
I can feel am going through the same.I wish you strength and healing❤
That's how I feel. My poor children. I thought I was actually dying or God had abandoned me to lower entities, until I watched this video and read the comments.
Now I'm comforted. Thank you. ❤ Prayers and blessings to you all and your children.
the world is going through this on a global level as all the antiquated systems are dying.
Good point.
Could it be that some humans feels this very acutely in their own soul?
@@M-i-k-a-e-l I believe some people are feeling it and other's aren't for some reason. Lately I've noticed people say "something feels off" and I know exactly what they mean, other people just going on as usual.
i'm curious about another aspect, that I'm not hearing mentioned here. When I have gone through this process (multiple times in this lifetime) ... purging became a real thing. I couldn't even do food until the entire process completed itself. (almost a month usually, or several weeks) And it was terrifying on so many levels, because each time, I never knew if I would survive it. Not an exaggeration. I honestly thought I might die. And like you say, reaching the other side changes everything, and you have a undeniable relationship with life again, and all of your previous belief systems, thoughts, fears, etc. went through a transformation because of the brutality of the process. I'm curious about food, digestion, water, etc. chemicals, etc. My nervous system became so hyper-sensitive, i couldn't be around things like cigarette smoke anymore, because a vegetarian ... realizing my body couldn't handle red meat anymore. Lost so many friends, because my spirit started to reject anything that was in-authentic, any place or area of my life that wouldn't let the light in. It changed everything for me. But the biological physical process was insane, and truly tested me to my very core. It felt like being inside a chrysalis, having my entire being regurgitated by Spirit, by the Universe. Never to be quite the same again.
Glad to see this comment,I feel like this is exactly what I’ve been dealing with for the past 2 months now,but I had a dark night of soul happened to me back 2017-2018 and I thought this was over so please suggestions would be appreciated so I know what changes do I need to make or how to better understand and deal with it accordingly please and thank you
Yes , this, thank you ❤
@@cegus03ify - Hi! I'm grateful to read your comment, and that you are vulnerable enough to ask. What comes to me in this moment of typing to you ... a little each day can go a long way. Meaning like a practice. Make time for it. For me, nighttime is the hardest. My body never wants to settle down. My mind never wants to stop racing. So the way back into the body, and out of the mind ... is to make space for the deep silence. Find 20 - 30 minutes after the sun goes down. Sit in a dark room, and light a candle. Sit comfortably in front of it, but not too comfortable. If you live with others, request this time to be undisturbed ... which must include silence. (no talking, electronics, etc.) Do this each evening, because the mind will amplify ... the practice will serve as an anchor to what is truly real, which is your true self. The self behind the forced breath. If you are not anywhere near nature, experiment w/ nature sounds. (but very low volume. (ie crickets, frogs, etc.) Something to ground you if the raw silence is too much at first. Nature can be very healing. When I meditate like this, I often remove all of my clothing, and wrap a dhoti around my body. (a sheet will work fine also) It feels more spiritual, and that feeling of spirituality and connection can act as a catalyst for our nervous systems to calm down. Also, you could try doing this practice after soaking in a hot bath w/ epsom salt. But don't spend too much time in the bath. The point is not the bath, it's the meditation. But the bath can help to prepare. (cleanliness is next to godliness) Try to sit up straight during the candle meditation. Don't lie down. You don't have to stare at the candle the entire time, but try to keep it in your awareness, even if your eyes are relaxed or wonder.
Believe me, if you do this for several days in a row ... things will naturally start to come up, start to surface. Don't run from them. Don't try to escape. Meet them where they are, and meet them where you are. Don't be too surprised if you breathing starts to become more balanced throughout the day. Drink water during this experiment, try to kick any sugar or caffeine. Reduce any heavy foods during this time. Something bland to begin your first meal. Oatmeal or yogurt. Maybe a few berries.
Basically this is a detox for the body, mind, and spirit.
It's never about trying to gain something, and always about ridding ourselves of what no longer serves.
It can be a painful process, depending on how much you've accumulated. Be patient with yourself, loving and kind.
If you do this ... please do let me know what comes up for you, and how you are doing.
Bless you friend, and bless your life. This most precious life.
PS ... if music helps, then try listening to something like this
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@@colmitch4754 - you're welcome, and thank you!
The Dark Night of the Soul is like suddenly being aware of the fullest scope of the universe, understanding time and space in a way that would have prior eluded you, seeing life through an eternal and glorious lens, and then holding in terror the degree of synchronicity and inevitable fate that binds all life together. All done in a fashion so pre-deterministic and fate-driven along God's plan, that it rips billions of neural pathways within your cortex at once.
Then God flicks you with his finger 10 billion light years away from the source of all love and creation, into a darkness and abyss of space that is impossible to measure. While you believe at your core that you may have to exist and hold your breath for one hundred billion years, for even the smallest chance to get back to a place of grace and acceptance. All while you are processing and comprehending new and true degrees of size, space and separation, that only serve to compound the nightmare and horrific situation you believe to your core that you have found yourself within.
It is the grandest portrayal and recognition of God's love, and the ultimate cost of separation from it, designed to magnify and expand upon the feeling that you completely missed the wedding party, as you weep and gnash your teeth uncontrollably outside of closed gates. It is the mightiest illusion of having a veil lifted that allows you to momentarily grasp the depth and capacity of God's grace and presence, and then bestowing the presence of mind to believe you have been permanently barred and separated from it on an eternal basis. But not before your consciousness has been expanded just enough to discern what this would actually mean in the highest and most damaging capacities possible.
It offers a temporary glimpse into the true power of God's creation and might, that triggers degrees of separation strong enough to reset the mind, to the point of grinding and smoothing out the ruts from your neural pathways that reflect your bad habits and programmed identity traits. It is an incredible and unmatched gift that ultimately grants time to practice and walk upon a new journey with a different mind. It ultimately diminishes the ego, resets you with supernatural knowledge and expectations, breaks the conditioning and hardened modes of life, and softens the heart with degrees of compassion and empathy for others that can make you cry for weeks on end.
It is like getting a new rule book, that showcases the power of your thoughts, tongue, and words since the day you were born, and then subconsciously allows you to feel and see the thousands upon thousands of ways you harmed and impacted others unknowingly due to your ignorance. With a newfound level of awareness and empathy, that would see you prefer cutting your tongue out and spending the rest of your life alone in a cave, rather than risk harming anyone else in the future from the control and awareness issues that all humanity suffers from.
Ultimately it leads to a new journey and pathway, whereby a supernatural expectation for miracles through God's love can overwrite all of the prior mundane assumptions we held about life and its capacities. It restores and builds and unprecedented faith you feel compelled to share with everyone, creates newfound courage and faith, while giving a spiritual and persistent glimpse of the weave and tapestry of all creation, and the glory of the results and God that it serves. It is the movie Christmas Carol on steroids, and can grant new internal awareness as well as recognition of signs and subtleties that were past missed. It represents the restoration of an empathetic soul so extreme and fierce, that you will fight until the magic wears off to remember that all beings are born innocent, and that we should never ever judge anyone in any capacity, as the process for each is unique and blessed from the perspective of an eternal transition and inevitable transformation.
If you know you know. If you don't, do everything you can to love one another, and avoid however possible entangling yourselves with the false hatred, division, polarization, and judgment of others that this world actively craves and harvests. We are in a mighty transformative stage now, as our collective consciousness is being attacked at all levels in a desperate act to keep war, division, suffering, and evil relevant. They say night is always the darkest right before the dawn. Believe that you have the capacity to change and transform your environment and world, simply by having the courage to love beyond the illusion that has prior been shown to you. God's grace and special relativity will do the rest.
Finally, no matter how far you think you are away, never forget that Jesus Christ can bridge all distances in an instant, regardless of the distance as it may appear.
I wish I could copy and paste this to my notes. Man you perfectly described exactly what it feels like to the last detail. I have fought and wrestled for years. I have almost walked away, thought I’ve lost salvation, cursed God and then cried for him back, all while being in the dark. The separation feels unbearably. The emptiness feels worse than death. I have been recovering from a traumatic brain injury for years. I suffered alone in a dark room with nothing but my thoughts and imagination and prayer. Suffering day in and day out. Hopelessness to anger, anger to sadness, sadness to fear. Then some hope, and then that hope stripped away. I have envisioned myself in the dark with no one around me as the gates are shut. Your descriptive language has described imaginative visions I’ve had in my mind. Thank you for your comment
I just came out of it 8 months ago. It’s an incredible journey. The knowing.
10 years. Still fighting it
3 years for me. I fought it hard the first 2 years and it almost killed me. The last year I’ve been letting go and surrendering and have made incremental improvements. Let go, surrender.
The only way is through which is by surrender, there is no fight to be had.
May God be with you.
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I have done this and did not know it was a thing. I came out on the other side a better person. It's been a complete transformation. I am glad to hear it's not just me!!!
Thank you Andre for all these amazing guests. Bless you.
Insight! Yes this is what I had when I knew I had suppressed feelings causing all my troubles with my marriage.
Next thing was, an insight of spiritual bypass is what I was doing with my belief in God.
Now I'm leaning on Pschology on almost everything as I seem to see my religious beliefs insignificant.
Here lies my Dark night
I never looked into this but after this weekend and seeing a few truths the fact this video appeared was well timed.
What he speaks is truth.
I'm in this. I feel so much rage. I'm trying so hard to let it go. My identity as a victim, a child who was hurt so badly, seemed so important; it shaped my whole life. How to let it go when all i ever wanted was for people to hear me, yet i never was able to voice any of it? It seems counter-intuitive to what a therapist would tell me. 😅
Dont try just let it happen
You know what I been coming to regarding this topic. The law of karma. What you have caused you will suffer from. During this period this kind of accountability has caused some alchemical fusion
Therapist want you to hold on to your identity so you keep coming back just as a doctors wants to keep you sick.
Forgiveness is possible.
I forgave my abusive mother recently and it’s relieved a massive weight off my shoulders. You can too.
Invite Jesus to show you the way, I looked at my mother as just another lost soul that didn’t know what she was doing. Unconsciously hurting me void of what her natural order as a loving human being is.
Thank you for this hope ❤ been through the darkest but still in the emptiness without the light, this is exaclty what i needed now. Thankyou
Dark Knight - Its where you know 40 days in the desert, God why have you forsaken me? And Father if you are willing, take this cup - You know it in a way the Christ experienced it. It’s awful and beautiful but you’ll never forget the awful. PURIFICATION HAPPENS HERE. Don’t Give Up!
Absolutely yes, even Yeshua experienced this and I believe his was just as painful.
I've been going through the last phase of this I've had this since I was 14 I don't know I'm a very different kid it feels kind of overwhelming even typing this
Thank you for sharing. That is exactly right, it is UNSHAKABLE.
Michael is the real deal. Bless him.
❤ Ty This is the most painful yet truthful journey one will ever go through...it is tge transformation from min ego to True Self....believe me i spent years on the floor howling lost nearly everything but came out the other side❤❤. Its truly beautiful and all i experience is pure peace and unconditioned love as a frequency of who i Truly Am ...so so Blessed 🙏. It surely is not for those faint hearted 🤍🙏💃🐉🕊 x
You talk about the seed in soil and that is so much how it is, my mind is constantly on birth and giving birth. I keep telling my therapist - I want to bloom. Every time I visit my energy worker she holds out her box of stones and I choose blindly. Over and over I’ve picked the dark green and black one. Like a seed in the earth. She tells me I’m full of anger and grief and depression. Works my energy to help me to be able to emit my own light. When I went to her a few days ago, it was the first time I told her going in that I was doing good. Which surprised both of us. I chose the yellow and brown stone. Then we released so much energy it felt like a purging, like I’m ready to just let go of everything I was holding on to and move forward. Tried to go too fast from there taking on projects and socializing, and I feel worse now than I have through this entire ten months. Definitely purging, and definitely a process that takes so much patience and acceptance.
It starts in my stomach, butterflies , anxiety. Like im letting something go,
No motivation to live. Not even my children can bring something..
You see Authenticity, if it isnt you cant handle it
Mine was triggered 8 years ago the day I decided do a paradigm shift in my life. It resulted in divorce, abandonment, job lost,...I lost everything. It's been a journey in Hell. But now I see light and I am stronger than ever and ready for my purpose.
wise man.
There is no replacement for Gnosis, the true wisdom of deep inner self-knowledge - I've known for years where my soul's weaknesses lie. I know my soul's history pretty well... I know how I must change to grow.. but that knowledge means nothing because I could not change myself, with will, alone, to heal the problems. Book knowledge is great. I'm a natural student, but I realized that book knowledge isn't enough. It's just the beginning.
Right now, I am like ouroboros - I'm in a closed loop, but, I'm not the child I once was, if I gave up now, it would be cowardice of the worse kind. I had to experience dark nights, as awful as they are, to effect the transformations that I needed to grow mature as a soul. God, they hurt, though! I'm going through something right now.. I totally recognize the 'I don't want to be this spiritual' - entirely. I just want to sink into despair and never rise again, but I can't, I know better. I'm an old warrior. I don't want the next step, but I know it is the right thing to do. I know where the fault lines are and I know what I need to change but it isn't up to me, entirely. It's what he said.
Only love has kept me on this path for decades. I'm 73 and I"m still in the process of change I started at 28-29. I want to point out, I'm not on this path for myself, alone, I want to serve mankind. That is another thing that must be understood. Only great desire will keep me - or anyone - on the path, through, all the trials.
I want to help mankind survive and mature. I don't know how I will do this, but I want to serve... perhaps in future lives? I don't care if it is washing dishes and mopping floors. I want our species to survive and prosper.
Most moving comment. Thank you.
I feel like my whole life has been a dark night. It is never ending and a total waste of life. I always wanted to have a normal life that everyone has but no I have been alone my whole life. I am just about 64 and this life was definately not worth it, it has been a horrible painful life. If God exists when ai die I am going to kick his ass.
God's a dick. Jesus, on the other hand, has been my Gentle Shepherd. He has led me where I need to go and comforted me. He says I have to figure this part out by myself. I haven't been alone my whole life, but I've felt like it. I never felt safe as a child, not in my home, at my church, at school, or even at church camp. There was ALWAYS some creepy dude trying to touch me. 😭
Thanks for this clip! Puts it so succinctly. I’m just coming out of my own dark night of the soul and I’m still in sort of a transitional period of my life. I’m still figuring out where I go from here but I have faith
ive experienced this dark night of the soul.. it was painful.. it feels like somebody has stabbed me in my heart.. it feels like i was dying... and there were no cushions to the pain. i felt the pain to the core.. it feels like there is no ground and im in limbo.. but it was beautiful in a way. every feeling is extremely intensified..
I broke down sobbing today, but it was so intense that I wasn't breathing and no sound was coming out. It was like I was frozen in time experiencing the most painful hurt; I was afraid I'd never breath again. 😱
@@theurbanthirdhomestead breathe through the pain brother. one moment at a time.. sending you love...
@@theurbanthirdhomesteadsame, the gasping without sound, the pain is so so deep the whole system is in shock, no sound just pain in its purest form
6 yrs in 🎉
Ive been going through this for six months. I’ve contemplated suicide many times in the past few weeks. Trying to find the strength to get through this. The fact people have been going through this for years is scary. I just cant imagine.
I Actually Celebrated when i Was able to Discard My Excess Baggage and The Old Me....
I Never Grief On Something That Wasnt The Real Me !!!
Talk 👄 about being reborn, the pain 😢 is well worth it 👌 ❤!
I suddenly was was well.
A genius. Everything I thought I wasn't and didn't want to be.
I was the black sheep. Now I'm the one my family turns to. And this time not for money.
Friends dieing all around me.
One in my arms. A cousin 3 days ago. I couldn't cry. I thought I was calus. I thought I was jaded. My children are mad because of how I feel out of love with their mother 20 years ago. Five years after a breast cancer diagnosis. That was 2002 we divorced in 2005. She passed in 2019. Now they are in their 20's they resent me. I've not met my twin grandbabies. (9 months old) As they live 2 miles down the road. My daughters husband is a "I'm the hard working man around here guy". God I hope I can use this understanding and heal.
I'm floored at how I didn't know this.
Having a conversation with someone and then in the middle your speech slows and you stare off into the distance for a minute or two before you finish the line of conversation you originally began.
But why!?, why do some of us go through this?
This was very helpful. Thank you Michael.
That was me 2019 - 2020.❤❤❤
All better now but my god that was rough
I had no idea this was what happened to me until I watched a video. But it was horrible and lonely. I was pregnant while it happened. I look back at everything that took place before it, and I am glad it happened how it did.
Thank you so much for sharing this awesome video 🥰🧡
this is a wonderful conversation
Its quite the process! Thanks for this.
Exactly what I went through last year! Perfectly explained! Thank you!
In the sacred cube, our soul's design,
Each axis, edge, a path divine,
Through spatial realms and mystic light,
We journey forth, from dark to bright.
From earthly bounds to heights untold,
Our spirit's quest, both brave and bold,
With every step, a truth we face,
Unveiling love, through time and space.
In symbols deep, we find our guide,
As wisdom's light shines from inside,
Through ancient texts, the journey's grace,
We find our home, within the space.
So let us walk, both near and far,
Guided by love, our guiding star,
For in this cube, the truth we trace,
Our soul's ascent, through time and space.
Extremely helpful.
I had a dark YEAR of the Soul... it was 2023 2024 is MY year. Look out world... A Brilliant Light is descending upon this planet that has never been seen befoe.
I've been experiencing this for almost 15 years. I've had dreams of simply me crying. Not in a room or some setting, just me crying. This dark night doesn't seem to have an end and it has created in me a small desire for death. I'm not suicidal but I don't fear death like most so maybe that's why I would prefer death over this soul pain. It's like no other pain. I have persevered for almost 2 decades and at 50, Im not sure I can continue to for much longer. What if I don't come out of this?
I’m in the dark night of the soul right now. I have nothing left to give or believe and I’ve given up on God and I believe he’s forsaken me
Wow! So freaking profound! Thank you!
going through it now and have been for years - i feel i'm
finally coming out of it -but i also know it's going to take time and be a see saw
Can you have more than one? I had one in 2019 and I feel it’s happening again.
I feel like someone did a buck up and deleated every bit of information form my mind. There’s just no one inside. I’m empty. No ideas, no clarity where to go, what to do.. seeing my own shadow, my insecurities! My childhood wounds omg..
Everything falling apart!
Like litteraly I don’t know anymore who I am.. and I’m like discovering the truth of who I’ve been being all this time.
Not nice.. it’s very scary.
Amazing. This resonates. I will like and subscribe. Thank you. 💚
People make things up and act so serious about it.
Wow. Powerful description. ❤
I get that. I don't want this much pain. 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
This has been my experience as well...
I felt like I was Alice in Wonderland going deeper into the rabbit hole. I also had feelings of being in a tunnel with no light, couldn't go forward and couldn't go backwards. I knew that it was a part of my awakening and that I was being quided but it still felt awful. It lasted for at least five years.
Many of Us are resisting this…🤔
Only love of God, is enough to really decide to enter it. I'm convinced of it. It was love that put me on the path, it was love that kept me on the path, and it love that will cause me to stay on the path for all the centuries my soul will live. I'd love to leave the path, live only on one level, but I can't. I fell in love with God, with the Light, and I can't stop loving the Light, where ever it leads me.
This has been really hard. My legs and mind feel like concrete.
Read: Dark Night of the Soul: A Masterpiece in the Literature of Mysticism by St. John of the Cross. These are old ideas repackaged in new age mysticism
1:28 dark night is not lose job, mate die, etc
I think, I believe, I know. I can live with the ups and downs of I know it's the other two that bring me sorrow therefor if I confront my fears, face reality, hope for a different outcome that could, will manifest itself through a different outlook on life?
My first one I’m not sure was even truly one. Basically a full mental breakdown because I identified as my trauma and as a person who deserved all of it.
Now I’m going through a thing where…I can see it…I can see the parts of me I “put on” and cling to because they make me feel safe. The thought of dropping them scares the shit out of me.
I can relate. I feel confused mostly. I've been in various therapies trying to sort it all out. I have had a habit of assuming new identities or personalities to comfort myself. Like changing clothes. Each day is a different one. I'm kinda tired of it actually. And it's a terrible habit. Which one of these is really me? Well, your comment made me think: None. I look in the mirror and see a woman I do not recognize. I do not know her. Who is she? It's very exhausting. I think I'm crazy.
@@lakotaforeverbeauty3328 I wish you peace and I hope that you can feel whole and true in who you are 💕 we both find and create who we really are, it isn’t just about uncovering. But masks can make us think we’re creating and it just feels…not very good 😅😅
My ego death coincided with the beginning of peri-menopause. Have other women experienced this too? I'd be interested to hear your comments.
Thank you Floxws ✅💡🌊
I'm finding it difficult to meditate and focus on breath work ,i try not to use the attention disorder as an excuse but I'm honestly struggling.
Now I understand thank you
Loss of meaning in everything, torture. Its not depression. Nights are worse.
Metanoia and isolation.
Interesting word Metanoia. Very well descriptive of my 3 year journey so far.
Can this go on for decade or more?
I thought I heard that St John of the Cross had experiences for a few decades so it might be worth looking into his story. It's one of the more well known historical cases of a Dark Night of the Soul and he wrote a book about his experiences....
Been in mine about 15 years. Have heard of longer though.
@@AaronoskiThanks, friend.
Blessings 🕊
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Thanks for commenting.
Something similar here.
Blessings on your path ❤️🔥
@Mika-El- you're welcome my friend :)