Yo, bro, I understand you. I have been formally diagnosed with cPTSD from growing up in this household. We are a product of our environment, and its true we have control of our actions but rarely the results of them. I'm 15 years into treatment, I'm only now just starting to scratch the surface of my emotional trauma and how it impacted every ounce of my "adult" decision making and has lead me to where I am now. I've been moments from being a statistic in more than one way and already am in so many others that my own memories cause such disassociation because of the amount of chaos. What I have been using to ground myself is reminding myself of those statistics I was able to avoid becoming, even if only narrowly, and the short term goals keeping me moving further and further away from the possibly.
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Yo, bro, I understand you. I have been formally diagnosed with cPTSD from growing up in this household. We are a product of our environment, and its true we have control of our actions but rarely the results of them. I'm 15 years into treatment, I'm only now just starting to scratch the surface of my emotional trauma and how it impacted every ounce of my "adult" decision making and has lead me to where I am now. I've been moments from being a statistic in more than one way and already am in so many others that my own memories cause such disassociation because of the amount of chaos. What I have been using to ground myself is reminding myself of those statistics I was able to avoid becoming, even if only narrowly, and the short term goals keeping me moving further and further away from the possibly.