Hey man, I don't know if this matters to you and I don't know what your circumstances are, but I feel what you're saying and I hope things start turning out better for you.
@@mlongpre100 Yeah that`s bullshit, hardwork and sheer will force will not pay for inflated prices on rent and food especially when the minimum wage has`nt increased for years to match inflation.
This is how I feel. I pretty much died 3 years ago. Since then I can't keep a job, I haven't worked in 2 years. I can't get myself out of this depression paralysis state. I'm pretty sure I'm so desperate to cling onto something that I've bordered on delusion. I have a document on my phone mapping out how I wished my life could have gone, it's like a hundred pages long, and I've started comforting myself by saying when I finally succeed at ending it, maybe I'll get lucky and get to live the life I feel I was owed. Because none of us deserve the external struggle we're forced through. I didn't do anything to deserve the pains in life I can't control. So it's nice to maladaptively daydream the life I wished I could have and lie to myself that I'll eventually get it despite external forces making it impossible, all while my family berates me calling me a lazy piece of shit, selfish loser. I don't even interact with them. I keep to myself, I stay out of their way and I help when they ask me to. But they only ever call me a lazy loser and make me feel so much worse. They act as it they understand depression but they literally tell me getting a job or just getting up and making my bed will fix it. It won't. I've had a job, I made my bed. Those things didn't suddenly cure my suicidal ideation or make my regrets disappear. They think depression is just short term sadness and an excuse to watch TV. I can't even pay attention to my own life anymore, my own self. Every second I'm living through the same regrets on repeat like an endless looping footage reel in my brain. I dissociate and space out and what feels like 5 minutes of internal suffering, regret and embarrassment ended up being 5 hours straight and it went by like that. They act like they understand and act like they're willing to understand, but any time I try to explain, they just yell at me and talk down to me. I'm just a loser piece of shit, they have all the answers, and the second I get a dead-end job, every bad thing that's ever happened to me will suddenly disappear according to them, even though the last 2 times I had a job, none of that went away. Life for me is torture. I never got a normal childhood, and all the people with great lives just tell you "its in the past just move on" but the past directly effects the now, and whether you realize it consciously, or it's subconscious, the past absolutely positively directs your future as well, even if you directly try to push against that. So how can I not be disappointed in my past? How can I live a normal adult life when I had a peculiar and depressing childhood? Even "successful" people with shitty childhoods still end up somewhat unhappy and it effects the rest of their lives. Look at Charles Dickens- one of the most famous and accomplished authors in world history. He grew up with an abusive, absent alcoholic father, and spent half his childhood in an orphanage. What are basically *all* of his books about? Kids being abused by their guardians and ending up in boarding schools and/or orphanages. How did he treat his children and wife? Supposedly like complete shit. It's not nature vs nurture vs environment. It's all 3. Your environment determines what you seek for, your nurturement determines how you seek it, and your nature determines how you emotionally respond to such events. I'm fucking alone, and hurting, and completely unaware of and lacking answers. And instead of getting attempts for answer, I get bullied by my own family. I've been in such a spiral that I've lost 80lbs, gained 120lbs, and then lost 65lbs all in the last 3.5 years. I don't know what to do. Or at least that's what's easier to say, but whats in my head is that I *do* know what to do, and it's the only genuine answer to all of this, all other answers are DNE, the only real answer is just to end it and pray that there is a God that will give me that rest button without half of the bad things I've been faced with that are uncontrollable. But that's delusion. So the only real answer is just to accept fate, accept oblivion, or hope God forgives me. Either outcome is better than continuing on in "life".
Afraid to survive and be even more fukd up then the last time i tried, i dont know if i should keep on going and try to solve this shit or just end it and pass my pain to others, but i feel like if i were not here would be less of a problem for me and others it just dont feel right i just wish i could give my life to somebody who really want to be here
@@AMexicanTacoMuncherthis why suicide is such a problem bruh, the internet makes a joke out of mfs going thru shit and not only has it perpetuated a huge stigma of getting help but it also does the opposite of bringing awareness to suicide
Worry only about what's under your control. Nothing else. Quit scrolling and be active phisically or mentally. Inactivity generates depression. Wash yourself, bursh your teeth. Smeel good. Put on clothes that you like and accomplish something in your day even if it's the smallest thing. These will boost your self-esteem and confidence. Laugh, eat healthier, go walking or jogging, receive sun and talk to people. Stop overthinking and be shameless. Don't allow yourself to care about what other people will say. Appreciate the things you have and ignore those you don't. Do things that are greater than yourself. The best example is helping other people. Everyone can beat depression. You have the power. I believe in you. In all of you.
By the way, these are things you MUST remember throughout the day, all your days. Write all of these down and keep remembering them frequently. Have no problem sharing your problems. If you'd like to, we could chat, but by all means, don't keep things for yourself
Poetry, this is just empty, vain poetry. You want to do good but it's just puny virtue signaling. You don't want depression? Set yourself a goal and accomplish it. You won't be having no depressive thoughts when you chase that goal let me tell you. Depression surges when you don't have a goal. When you just live the days with no idea of what to do of it, where to head. When you finish high school you end up finishing your basic goal of finishing high school, and then you need to set yourself another goal. Because if you don't, you get depression. Set a goal, and get it the best way possible. And once you got to that goal, make another one and keep going until you die. To not have goals is to play a game with no way of winning. Like playing tetris with no bricks or playing pacman with no ghosts, and no dots either. And you're a human. Do you even know how much every animal on earth envies the privilege you got from just being human?
You never understand depression until you have it. It never makes sense that you just feel sad and unmotivated, but then you get it, and it all makes sende
Your so right when you begin to realize it never ends and it's all about money people don't care no really cared not even family then you see it was all a waste of time and bs
the only thing really holding me back is knowing the pain i’ll cause to those around me. thats it. i’m not even alive currently because i want to live, but for the sale of others. it doesn’t feel like i’m living at all if that makes sense. i have no direction in this life. i just stumble my way through it tired and alone
Just remember that there are people doing terrible things out there and you have to try and find them and stop them. Even if you don't think you're capable of really living there are things you can do with the life that you've been given. Keep your eyes up bro 💪
Don't Feel Alone!! I Think a Lot of People Live This Way!! Live One day at a Time!! My Friend likes to Pretend Everyday is her last Day!! She likes to have some fun and she likes to do good things for people or for little animals!! 🤷🙋🌻💜🙏
It’s amazing how we give god credit for the little happiness we get and call his name when death is near. Amazing to me how it makes no difference in the world to have faith, makes one think that god does not have a heart like we do. He’s just an entity that we worship not knowing why even though I do believe that we just need something better us to follow and respect like an omnipotent figure… or just parent.
Esa frase deja de ser bonita si ya caiste demasiado. Pero mantengo la esperanza en mi mismo y poder sentirme feliz conmigo mismo y conseguír más amigos. Total que ya estoy acá, mucho no puedo hacer.
In this cruel world, they have robbed us of our freedom: enslaved by our jobs, robbed of our health, deprived of our chance for love. Sometimes, it feels like the only real choice we have left is our exit 😢 The future appears so bleak and hopeless.
Sometimes we dont realize how much support we have, our depression makes us think they hate us but in reality they love us. But it doesnt matter , nothing but our selves can rid us of this feeling, either overcome or end it all, the ladder looks promising and less painful and agonizing everyday we wake up and I wish it was over. Worked so hard in life only to fall victim to my own mind, for what? For nothing? Fucking hell
My grandmother passed away a few months ago….she was the most amazing women I have ever know. She got real sick during Covid and I thought I was going to loose her then but I was so blessed to have over a year more with her. I feel for you in this time of pain but I hope you have peace in the future ❤️
Most of us here are broken not depressed, depression is a mindset, being broken is a wound that can never be healed. Once ur broken you don't smile, talk, or laugh. U just become silent, u become a whole new man, a broken man.
For everyone on here watching this video This has helped me more then a lot of things to be happy. What I did was listen to jimmy buffet. He is just a happy dude, island themed, and it just gives you happiness. Hoped this helped!
I'd recommend this to someone who is as depressed to the core and being lonely most of the times. Please take a walk for at least one hour before taking any major decision and have a full meal though its hard to have at this time. Though the problem might not get solved immediately yet we should try to ease the pain in some way.
I feel good actually. Since Covid I immensely suffered from panic attacks and heart rhythm issues, which prevented me from nearly all kind of enjoyable activities, however, now since a few months I have this under control and these attacks don’t dictate my life anymore. Although I’m a lot on my own and I still have problems socially connecting to others, but I’m so happy man, it’s unbelievable. When you are truly at the bottom, and you can’t even walk around the block or have s3x without having a bpm of 170 combined with a panic attack, you really appreciate a normal life, even if it’s a lonely normal life. Just be glad that you are alive guys and make the best of it.
covid was a hell of a time for me. I didn’t get vaccinated but it was the sickest I’d ever been and I didn’t feel right for a month. I’m grateful I didn’t have lingering effects. The turnaround for me was when I started taking nattoserra.
@@julianwarren__stopped taking benzodiazepines and all kind of other drugs, started going out as much as possible, being active and meet people. But I still suffer from them time to time with an elevated heart rate for hours. You need good psychotherapy and a stabile social environment to manage the anxiety
The worst part of my "mental health journey" was the realisation that I was made sick by the environment I have to live in, and regardless of what medications I took, what therapies I tried, how much i meditated, my diet, reducing screen time, exercising, everything I did, it was futile because my environment would just make me sick again. What humanity really needs to be happy is actually really simple, all we need really (outside of physical needs, shelter, food, etc) is purpose and connection. Not mindfulness, not stoicism, not this or that drug or treatment or therapy or what have you, if we have no meaning in life and we feel completely and utterly alone, there's nothing you can do except numb yourself or escape to a place that will give you purpose and community. We need to acknowledge that depression doesn't just occur in a vacuum, in isolated individuals whose brains are 'broken' in some. It occurs as a social and societal phenomenon, so if we ever want to meaningfully address depression, we need to change our society
I've never attempted suicide, but sometimes I'll think about what would happen if I did go through with it. And then I think about how my parents would react, and how heartbroken they'd be. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, is that yeah life sucks, but I just gotta soldier through
"Love does not always live up to our expectations, since loneliness can comfort us, making us realize that, in reality, many of us are not truly alone, but just need to." -Anderson
Thank god I got out of that slump... Brothers please dont give up. I know it can be hard at times, and tbvh i still suffer a bit from anxiety and overthinking makes it worse but i am at least doing better than i was doing a few months ago. Please dont give up on yourselves. Not for the world but for your own self. Don't do anything drastic... YOU are needed in this world❤
Every day the voices tell me to end it all, so I can get a bit of peace and quiet. And every day I live my life in hedonistic ways, to get even a bit of enjoyment out of it. But should things get worse, I don't think I could go on.
I can’t believe i thought life was bad when i was younger. If i could talk to my younger self id say enjoy where you are now because it’s about to get worse than you would’ve ever imagined.
Been there too, helped a bit to remind myself really I didn’t do anything wrong there that’s on them. Won’t fix it but it is the truth, don’t go puttin’ someone else’s blame and wrong doing on yourself because you were lied to. You won’t forget how to see through this kinda shit after you know, won’t be a second time.
@@drecaine646 thank you, brother! They will one day see how wrong they were to use me, they will one day crawl back only for me to use them as a road tile like they used me.
The worst thing about it is knowing that you don’t really want to end your life..deep down you know the only thing you want, is to end your pain and suffering.
To all those who are depressed pls do not be afraid to reach out to someone and talk about it you guys are not alone for Jesus is with you and if your thinking of doing it don’t it’s not worth it and I know this message will not instantly heal you but I just wanna say to all you guys are who is struggling with depression that everything will get better have a blessed day 🙏🏼🙏🏼 and always keep your head up❤❤
“Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!..” No offends, dude, but why should I worry about some Jewish dude, if he loves me or not. This dude must be cruel if he like to see how millions op people die becomes of wars, hunger and etc, so why should people do not be afraid if Jesus with them
@@user-he5lc8mo6d ah yes, the classic argument of “if God exist why bad thing happen!!!” Wow, what an original perspective! No theologian has ever thought of an answer to this question before! As for what you said earlier, which despite saying “no offense” was completely contrasted with your callous comment, the reason you should care is because he died for you and you owe your life to him. Jesus was flayed down to the bone so YOU could have salvation. He endured unimaginable torment so YOU could reconcile with God. How could you not be grateful? How could you be so insulting to the greatest man in the world? You baffle me.
@@lookwhatyoudidtomyfish4453 I have never asked him to die for me. And why did you say that I offended him? Did he said to you that he was upset by my comment?
Truly losing people you care about who's the hardest thing to go through. but there will always be people that understand and will be there for you. We are never truly alone I say this if you need to hear this you matter.
I still remember my 8th grade in middle school, I was in such a deepressing state, I still recall the dreadfull feeling of drowing in sorrow, it was odd how much I enjoyed the feeling, it was like a drug and I longed for it. Eventually I just sucked it up and realized how close I was to letting go, now im 17 and hitting 18 and honestly sometimes when things dont go well the feeling comes back, not as strong but it makes want to just listen to music and lay in bed for hours. Im hoping that the military will allow me to just forget all of it and turn me into a different person because im still the same kid I was when I was 15 and I dont want to let my mom down again like I did back then.
Don't go into the military dude it's gonna make it so much worse. I'm saying this bc i have my best interest in you. There's a reason why veterans struggle so much post deployment. I wanna ask you though, do you feel like you have any purpose in life? Perhaps this lack of purpose/meaning could be contributing to your feelings
@@sphinx2077 I'm afraid it's a little late for that, but yes I agree that the lack of purpose highly contributed to my depression along side a heavy break up and abuse. I have always liked the idea of joining the armed forces, and now that I really don't have anything else I want to do, the military seems like the perfect option for me, I am not depressed at the moment or at least not as badly as before so I'm thinking clearly, and this is the only option I have and I don't mind it.
Trust me guys, I recently visited my native village and everyone there was so happy and excited about everything, never looked like any kind of pain there. What i learned that all you need is good relationship with your people and all the problems will be faced with a smile❤😊
i come from a hispanic household, majority of the world views my kind as the “hardest workers” but honestly i can’t bare to spend another minute here. believe me, i am grateful for my family and my siblings and what friends i have. but there’s this saying that parents give when you need encouragement or need to work harder which is “echale ganas”. i hated hearing those words because i gave life EVERYTHING that i had. i am clinically depressed and have tried and tried to overlook it and find things that make me happy. but those are only distractions from what’s infront of me. i’m just tired
Crazy man, I’m 16…and I never thought I’d be this alone and suffering in silence…in the night. I don’t like crying. But there is a moment once a year where I breakdown in alone or in silence. Once I do I’m good for another 12 months
my mom showed me a letter from My father, it was an old paper. And he’s still here thankfully I hope better, but it he wrote it like he knew he might do something he’d regret. For all
God is here for all of you guys. Christianity was my last resort about a year ago, and i can’t begin to explain the change it made in my life. Wish you all the best
the greatest tragedies in life is that you will always be loved more than you will ever know. someone in class finds your presence inviting and warm, even if you’ve only ever exchanged a few words with them-maybe none at all. someone on the street loves your smile and it gets them down the next few streets. someone you used to be friends with still wishes to fondly call your name. someone you used to be friends with five years ago would give anything to be in the same room as you today. someone who regularly comes into work is disappointed when you aren’t there to brighten their day. someone missed you today. someone noticed you were gone. someone loves you when you’re there; someone loves you when you’re nowhere to be found at all. you think you have always disappeared when you’re no longer in the picture, but you’ve never left the frame.
I just wanna declare this place an internet checkpoint. Let's all take a minute to heal up and chill together. Talk about our stories and save our progress. Because we made it here together. No matter how lonely we may "think" we are, we're here together.
Wanting to die is just wanting to make your life better and perfect but the truth is no one is ever gonna be perfect and you just have to fix all the issues in your life to have a better one…
I have a duty to my loved ones to live, just live enjoy the things life sends your way cut out the bad. Remember it really isn’t that long you just have to wait a little.
people suffer because of their own mistakes, some mistakes not end with you it will pass on to your generation make decisions carefully you are not alone, your story will not end easily you have see suffering not your own but your family's and relatives or your own child and this is true and absolute hell that you can't imagine 😊
I have no friends at all. None. Zero. When I told my therapist he just looked at me stunned and couldn't believe it. And you know what? It sucks. I mean it really sucks. Constantly i see people on this subreddit talk about being depressed with the SO or hanging out with their friends and i just get so painfully jealous. When I go with my mom somewhere and see other people together just crushes me and I physically feel a pain in my chest. But then who would want to be with me? I have no interests and as an obese blob and I'm not very good at most physical activities. There are far better people to be friends with so naturally I'm left alone. At this point I'm too fucked up personality wise and I don't know how to be around people and am always on edge. Even around my family I'm on edge. And I just suck at being a human so I long for friends but am terrified around people. So is there actually any thing that can really help because the only thing that I can come up with involves rope. I should also add that I of course do not have a girlfriend. People my age are getting married I have not even been on a date. Jesus just typing that makes me want to cry. Damn I wish I was dead.
@DantePizzaLover understand. For me it's better not to live with family or roommates. And if then only with people that are free like me. No rules. Everyone can do everything together. I 😊
I never expected it would be like this when i grew up. I was promised so much as a kid, none of it mattered.
create the reality you want through hard work and force of will
I agree. It was all a lie.
Hey man, I don't know if this matters to you and I don't know what your circumstances are, but I feel what you're saying and I hope things start turning out better for you.
@@mlongpre100 Yeah that`s bullshit, hardwork and sheer will force will not pay for inflated prices on rent and food especially when the minimum wage has`nt increased for years to match inflation.
14 and deep
"Surviving ain't living, brother."
yes it is
@@mlongpre100nah it isn’t
@@StuffedBearSus What about dem australians i've heard so much about
In this economy the only choice you have is survival.
@@mlongpre100 you dont get it. Look into this more deep.
“I don’t want to die, not really. I just want a restart button”
😢
I want my second chance too
yea sometimes it just feels like u messed up and u just want to make things better
Yeah agreed, but unfortunately that's how we learn and adapt
This is how I feel. I pretty much died 3 years ago. Since then I can't keep a job, I haven't worked in 2 years. I can't get myself out of this depression paralysis state. I'm pretty sure I'm so desperate to cling onto something that I've bordered on delusion. I have a document on my phone mapping out how I wished my life could have gone, it's like a hundred pages long, and I've started comforting myself by saying when I finally succeed at ending it, maybe I'll get lucky and get to live the life I feel I was owed. Because none of us deserve the external struggle we're forced through. I didn't do anything to deserve the pains in life I can't control. So it's nice to maladaptively daydream the life I wished I could have and lie to myself that I'll eventually get it despite external forces making it impossible, all while my family berates me calling me a lazy piece of shit, selfish loser. I don't even interact with them. I keep to myself, I stay out of their way and I help when they ask me to. But they only ever call me a lazy loser and make me feel so much worse. They act as it they understand depression but they literally tell me getting a job or just getting up and making my bed will fix it. It won't. I've had a job, I made my bed. Those things didn't suddenly cure my suicidal ideation or make my regrets disappear. They think depression is just short term sadness and an excuse to watch TV. I can't even pay attention to my own life anymore, my own self. Every second I'm living through the same regrets on repeat like an endless looping footage reel in my brain. I dissociate and space out and what feels like 5 minutes of internal suffering, regret and embarrassment ended up being 5 hours straight and it went by like that. They act like they understand and act like they're willing to understand, but any time I try to explain, they just yell at me and talk down to me. I'm just a loser piece of shit, they have all the answers, and the second I get a dead-end job, every bad thing that's ever happened to me will suddenly disappear according to them, even though the last 2 times I had a job, none of that went away. Life for me is torture. I never got a normal childhood, and all the people with great lives just tell you "its in the past just move on" but the past directly effects the now, and whether you realize it consciously, or it's subconscious, the past absolutely positively directs your future as well, even if you directly try to push against that. So how can I not be disappointed in my past? How can I live a normal adult life when I had a peculiar and depressing childhood? Even "successful" people with shitty childhoods still end up somewhat unhappy and it effects the rest of their lives. Look at Charles Dickens- one of the most famous and accomplished authors in world history. He grew up with an abusive, absent alcoholic father, and spent half his childhood in an orphanage. What are basically *all* of his books about? Kids being abused by their guardians and ending up in boarding schools and/or orphanages. How did he treat his children and wife? Supposedly like complete shit. It's not nature vs nurture vs environment. It's all 3. Your environment determines what you seek for, your nurturement determines how you seek it, and your nature determines how you emotionally respond to such events. I'm fucking alone, and hurting, and completely unaware of and lacking answers. And instead of getting attempts for answer, I get bullied by my own family. I've been in such a spiral that I've lost 80lbs, gained 120lbs, and then lost 65lbs all in the last 3.5 years. I don't know what to do. Or at least that's what's easier to say, but whats in my head is that I *do* know what to do, and it's the only genuine answer to all of this, all other answers are DNE, the only real answer is just to end it and pray that there is a God that will give me that rest button without half of the bad things I've been faced with that are uncontrollable. But that's delusion. So the only real answer is just to accept fate, accept oblivion, or hope God forgives me. Either outcome is better than continuing on in "life".
"Too afraid to die but too tired to live."
Slide 8
too legit to quit !
@@mlongpre100 True.
Afraid to survive and be even more fukd up then the last time i tried, i dont know if i should keep on going and try to solve this shit or just end it and pass my pain to others, but i feel like if i were not here would be less of a problem for me and others it just dont feel right i just wish i could give my life to somebody who really want to be here
@@AMexicanTacoMuncherthis why suicide is such a problem bruh, the internet makes a joke out of mfs going thru shit and not only has it perpetuated a huge stigma of getting help but it also does the opposite of bringing awareness to suicide
You know your cooked when it’s on your recommends list
It was, what does this mean…
@@EdrichLovesT80UK the content you consume it means something you watched it means your depressed
Yea and everytime i express my feeling my parents beat my ass lol
@@360_epic7based parents as you gen z say. Get off the phone and you wouldn't be a sad sack of shi7
@@360_epic7that isnt normal, i wish you the best. We are all human and this is apart of it
Sometimes we all want to let go
But we won't give up
That’s right
Let go of things that you can't actually control and you'll be happy.
tyler durden
@@user-hm5ko7tt5i yes we will
Worry only about what's under your control. Nothing else.
Quit scrolling and be active phisically or mentally. Inactivity generates depression.
Wash yourself, bursh your teeth. Smeel good. Put on clothes that you like and accomplish something in your day even if it's the smallest thing. These will boost your self-esteem and confidence.
Laugh, eat healthier, go walking or jogging, receive sun and talk to people.
Stop overthinking and be shameless. Don't allow yourself to care about what other people will say.
Appreciate the things you have and ignore those you don't.
Do things that are greater than yourself. The best example is helping other people.
Everyone can beat depression. You have the power.
I believe in you. In all of you.
By the way, these are things you MUST remember throughout the day, all your days.
Write all of these down and keep remembering them frequently.
Have no problem sharing your problems.
If you'd like to, we could chat, but by all means, don't keep things for yourself
@@gasparm2195none of the advice you gave helped me through depression. The only person that helped me was God.
And I only trust him to believe in me.
Poetry, this is just empty, vain poetry. You want to do good but it's just puny virtue signaling.
You don't want depression? Set yourself a goal and accomplish it. You won't be having no depressive thoughts when you chase that goal let me tell you.
Depression surges when you don't have a goal. When you just live the days with no idea of what to do of it, where to head. When you finish high school you end up finishing your basic goal of finishing high school, and then you need to set yourself another goal.
Because if you don't, you get depression.
Set a goal, and get it the best way possible. And once you got to that goal, make another one and keep going until you die.
To not have goals is to play a game with no way of winning. Like playing tetris with no bricks or playing pacman with no ghosts, and no dots either.
And you're a human. Do you even know how much every animal on earth envies the privilege you got from just being human?
U right man , We all can achieve greatness
@@gasparm2195your a real one i wish nothing but the best for you bud 💯💜
When I was younger I used to smile
Your so right now it's like f ne
What's the matter bro
@@Jan-lq1ki I f up my life I'm 32 in debt working. Shity job going no wher e
I dont even have a job
So shity job is better then jobless.stay humble brother
@@John-ls1mnany family help or something?? If you got some cash the gym will help you a lot man
You never understand depression until you have it. It never makes sense that you just feel sad and unmotivated, but then you get it, and it all makes sende
makes even more sense if you cure it
People get depressed when they realise that it doesn’t get better. It Never Gets Better.
you have seen reality ! congratulations !
Your so right when you begin to realize it never ends and it's all about money people don't care no really cared not even family then you see it was all a waste of time and bs
doesn't make you depressed if you accept things the way they are
It does get better. You just need patience and trust the process. Based on my own (am others') experience.
@@ShiverMeTimbers_NVS what process
the only thing really holding me back is knowing the pain i’ll cause to those around me. thats it. i’m not even alive currently because i want to live, but for the sale of others. it doesn’t feel like i’m living at all if that makes sense. i have no direction in this life. i just stumble my way through it tired and alone
So...like out of spite?
💯
Same here... I don't even know why.
Just remember that there are people doing terrible things out there and you have to try and find them and stop them. Even if you don't think you're capable of really living there are things you can do with the life that you've been given. Keep your eyes up bro 💪
Don't Feel Alone!! I Think a Lot of People Live This Way!! Live One day at a Time!! My Friend likes to Pretend Everyday is her last Day!! She likes to have some fun and she likes to do good things for people or for little animals!! 🤷🙋🌻💜🙏
That movie really hit home. If anyone ever asks how depression looks just show them this movie. If they went through it they will understand.
Whats the movie called?
Ye, whats the name of this film?
Film: Manchester by the sea
@@rsm389ofc hes british
@@rsm389thanks
Man time really flies but god is still with me
Fucking based
Christ is the only one who never lets you down
It’s amazing how we give god credit for the little happiness we get and call his name when death is near. Amazing to me how it makes no difference in the world to have faith, makes one think that god does not have a heart like we do. He’s just an entity that we worship not knowing why even though I do believe that we just need something better us to follow and respect like an omnipotent figure… or just parent.
I have an imaginary friend too, his name is harvey, he's a 6 foot tall white rabbit
@@mlongpre100vah
A man’s own mind can be his worst enemy
your mind lies to you constantly
For anyone who wants the song it’s called Molchat doma - sudna
I don’t want to die, I want to try again.
you already did infinite times, just have no memory of it
"Caer esta permitido, levantarse es una obligación"
Esa frase deja de ser bonita si ya caiste demasiado.
Pero mantengo la esperanza en mi mismo y poder sentirme feliz conmigo mismo y conseguír más amigos. Total que ya estoy acá, mucho no puedo hacer.
You can't make me do anything
@@nightcrawler5409 Keep your head up, my friend, finish watching the movie before leaving the theater.
@@nightcrawler5409then you are weak
Quien sos vs para decir o obligar a hacer? O solo copiaste xq te parecía una frase "piola"?
In this cruel world, they have robbed us of our freedom: enslaved by our jobs, robbed of our health, deprived of our chance for love.
Sometimes, it feels like the only real choice we have left is our exit 😢
The future appears so bleak and hopeless.
With that attitude "THEY" sure have
I Know Exactly What You Mean!! That Why We Feel like 💩 Sometimes!! I Understand!! I Get it!!
mhm, bc life outside of civilization is so free and clear of obligation and work… womp womp
@@U-PN-BI-IBW YOU Know Exactly What He Means!! 😠😠😠
@@LeticiaSarabia-yb8dm yeah and he’s being a silly billy
Manchester By The Sea. Great film.
Nah it's not great
It's the best film about a man
what living in manchester does to a mf
@@spyguy6933 You have to watch it to understand.
@@spyguy6933 not funny 💀
I wish I even had supportive people in my life. Dude's lucky.
Sometimes we dont realize how much support we have, our depression makes us think they hate us but in reality they love us. But it doesnt matter , nothing but our selves can rid us of this feeling, either overcome or end it all, the ladder looks promising and less painful and agonizing everyday we wake up and I wish it was over. Worked so hard in life only to fall victim to my own mind, for what? For nothing? Fucking hell
@@UncannyLiving I believe in you, homedawg. You aren't alone! ❤️❤️
@@UncannyLiving i feel the same way brother
Hold this L buddy
Come on bro man. Be your own Supporter
When i was younger i never expected this loneliness .
Molchat doma really taking off
In the darkest times light can appear at any moment so don’t cut your life short just wait and let the road take you. A wise man.
The thing is depression isn’t just a phase or a feeling, it’s a situation, it’s not all in the head.
I miss it when l living with my grand parents
Happy days ❤️ R.I.P granny😔💔
I know how it feels
My grandmother passed away a few months ago….she was the most amazing women I have ever know. She got real sick during Covid and I thought I was going to loose her then but I was so blessed to have over a year more with her. I feel for you in this time of pain but I hope you have peace in the future ❤️
@@predwards8941 danm MHSRIP bro 🙏
We gotta stay strong g
Grandparents are the best people on this world ❤️
Most of us here are broken not depressed, depression is a mindset, being broken is a wound that can never be healed. Once ur broken you don't smile, talk, or laugh. U just become silent, u become a whole new man, a broken man.
you just made that up on the spot
@@ataaronomost likely.
0:04 it was never fixed in the first place
I do want to die, to disappear, to be nothing, to feel no pain, no joy either, I want not to be
you are half way there
"Sleep is good, death is better, but, of course, the best thing would have never been born at all" - Heinrich Heine
just despawn
Shiv is the answer.!
Believe me
@@user-mw5jh6se8w You mean worst answer
When I was younger, I'd always being depressed and lonely was cool. Until I found its not and it hurts..
Edit: I'm not lonely anymore :D
Congrats
The good ending
pam and her five sister treating you right i hope🤞
You will be soon.
Glorified through social media as being different and “quirky” 🤷♂️ ironic seeing as a vast majority suffer from it
For everyone on here watching this video
This has helped me more then a lot of things to be happy. What I did was listen to jimmy buffet. He is just a happy dude, island themed, and it just gives you happiness. Hoped this helped!
I'd recommend this to someone who is as depressed to the core and being lonely most of the times. Please take a walk for at least one hour before taking any major decision and have a full meal though its hard to have at this time. Though the problem might not get solved immediately yet we should try to ease the pain in some way.
You, you , yes, you , hang in there bud , it'll be alright💖
me ?
@@mlongpre100yes 🫵🫶🤝
@@mlongpre100 You Too!! Let's See What 2025 brings!! 😎
I really hope so.
thank you i legitimately cried. Thank you so much
I feel good actually. Since Covid I immensely suffered from panic attacks and heart rhythm issues, which prevented me from nearly all kind of enjoyable activities, however, now since a few months I have this under control and these attacks don’t dictate my life anymore. Although I’m a lot on my own and I still have problems socially connecting to others, but I’m so happy man, it’s unbelievable.
When you are truly at the bottom, and you can’t even walk around the block or have s3x without having a bpm of 170 combined with a panic attack, you really appreciate a normal life, even if it’s a lonely normal life. Just be glad that you are alive guys and make the best of it.
I'm happy for you. May I ask how you got your panic attacks under control?
I hope you didn't get the jab.
covid was a hell of a time for me. I didn’t get vaccinated but it was the sickest I’d ever been and I didn’t feel right for a month. I’m grateful I didn’t have lingering effects. The turnaround for me was when I started taking nattoserra.
@@julianwarren__stopped taking benzodiazepines and all kind of other drugs, started going out as much as possible, being active and meet people. But I still suffer from them time to time with an elevated heart rate for hours. You need good psychotherapy and a stabile social environment to manage the anxiety
@@YoungStoic45no, thanks to my trainer back then who said it wouldn’t be mandatory for my job
Great edit! 👏 🥲
The worst part of my "mental health journey" was the realisation that I was made sick by the environment I have to live in, and regardless of what medications I took, what therapies I tried, how much i meditated, my diet, reducing screen time, exercising, everything I did, it was futile because my environment would just make me sick again. What humanity really needs to be happy is actually really simple, all we need really (outside of physical needs, shelter, food, etc) is purpose and connection. Not mindfulness, not stoicism, not this or that drug or treatment or therapy or what have you, if we have no meaning in life and we feel completely and utterly alone, there's nothing you can do except numb yourself or escape to a place that will give you purpose and community. We need to acknowledge that depression doesn't just occur in a vacuum, in isolated individuals whose brains are 'broken' in some. It occurs as a social and societal phenomenon, so if we ever want to meaningfully address depression, we need to change our society
I've never attempted suicide, but sometimes I'll think about what would happen if I did go through with it. And then I think about how my parents would react, and how heartbroken they'd be. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, is that yeah life sucks, but I just gotta soldier through
This gave me a choice of "why living when you can lose it all"
This is life, constantly being balanced between too alive and too dead inside
"Love does not always live up to our expectations, since loneliness can comfort us, making us realize that, in reality, many of us are not truly alone, but just need to."
-Anderson
“Life isn’t worth living because of the things you’ve accomplished but because of the things you’ve survived”
listen to the voice that wants to die, you can make excuses to shut it up but it will come back if you don't listen
Thank god I got out of that slump... Brothers please dont give up. I know it can be hard at times, and tbvh i still suffer a bit from anxiety and overthinking makes it worse but i am at least doing better than i was doing a few months ago. Please dont give up on yourselves. Not for the world but for your own self. Don't do anything drastic... YOU are needed in this world❤
Cap
Every day the voices tell me to end it all, so I can get a bit of peace and quiet. And every day I live my life in hedonistic ways, to get even a bit of enjoyment out of it. But should things get worse, I don't think I could go on.
Movie:- Manchester by the sea !!!
Songs name?
@@marlinboesak674Molchat Doma - Cyдно (Sudno)
@@marlinboesak674Sudno by Molchat Doma
feel this every single day
I can’t believe i thought life was bad when i was younger. If i could talk to my younger self id say enjoy where you are now because it’s about to get worse than you would’ve ever imagined.
I have been so kind, so supportive so ready to be there when they needed it, i was a tool to them
Been there too, helped a bit to remind myself really I didn’t do anything wrong there that’s on them. Won’t fix it but it is the truth, don’t go puttin’ someone else’s blame and wrong doing on yourself because you were lied to. You won’t forget how to see through this kinda shit after you know, won’t be a second time.
@@drecaine646 thank you, brother!
They will one day see how wrong they were to use me, they will one day crawl back only for me to use them as a road tile like they used me.
“ Although you might be going through something, the bravest thing that you can do is love yourself.” - A Wise Man
The worst thing about it is knowing that you don’t really want to end your life..deep down you know the only thing you want, is to end your pain and suffering.
To all those who are depressed pls do not be afraid to reach out to someone and talk about it you guys are not alone for Jesus is with you and if your thinking of doing it don’t it’s not worth it and I know this message will not instantly heal you but I just wanna say to all you guys are who is struggling with depression that everything will get better have a blessed day 🙏🏼🙏🏼 and always keep your head up❤❤
I’d never do it, cause I know exactly where I’d go if I did
“Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!..” No offends, dude, but why should I worry about some Jewish dude, if he loves me or not. This dude must be cruel if he like to see how millions op people die becomes of wars, hunger and etc, so why should people do not be afraid if Jesus with them
Nice to see a genuine, heartfelt support comment that wasn’t riddled with “just don’t let things depress you” and the like.
@@user-he5lc8mo6d ah yes, the classic argument of “if God exist why bad thing happen!!!” Wow, what an original perspective! No theologian has ever thought of an answer to this question before! As for what you said earlier, which despite saying “no offense” was completely contrasted with your callous comment, the reason you should care is because he died for you and you owe your life to him. Jesus was flayed down to the bone so YOU could have salvation. He endured unimaginable torment so YOU could reconcile with God. How could you not be grateful? How could you be so insulting to the greatest man in the world? You baffle me.
@@lookwhatyoudidtomyfish4453 I have never asked him to die for me. And why did you say that I offended him? Did he said to you that he was upset by my comment?
if u get this in ur recommended just know that ur cooked
"The more you try to get away from your past, the more clinging you will feel to it."
Truly losing people you care about who's the hardest thing to go through. but there will always be people that understand and will be there for you. We are never truly alone I say this if you need to hear this you matter.
Thank you so much
@@Jakepearl13 you don't need to thank me but everything will be okay I know it will
I still remember my 8th grade in middle school, I was in such a deepressing state, I still recall the dreadfull feeling of drowing in sorrow, it was odd how much I enjoyed the feeling, it was like a drug and I longed for it.
Eventually I just sucked it up and realized how close I was to letting go, now im 17 and hitting 18 and honestly sometimes when things dont go well the feeling comes back, not as strong but it makes want to just listen to music and lay in bed for hours. Im hoping that the military will allow me to just forget all of it and turn me into a different person because im still the same kid I was when I was 15 and I dont want to let my mom down again like I did back then.
Don't go into the military dude it's gonna make it so much worse. I'm saying this bc i have my best interest in you. There's a reason why veterans struggle so much post deployment. I wanna ask you though, do you feel like you have any purpose in life? Perhaps this lack of purpose/meaning could be contributing to your feelings
@@sphinx2077 I'm afraid it's a little late for that, but yes I agree that the lack of purpose highly contributed to my depression along side a heavy break up and abuse.
I have always liked the idea of joining the armed forces, and now that I really don't have anything else I want to do, the military seems like the perfect option for me, I am not depressed at the moment or at least not as badly as before so I'm thinking clearly, and this is the only option I have and I don't mind it.
Trust me guys, I recently visited my native village and everyone there was so happy and excited about everything, never looked like any kind of pain there. What i learned that all you need is good relationship with your people and all the problems will be faced with a smile❤😊
Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun... shine on you crazy diamond.
*"Я никогда не хочу умирать."*
one of the worst things in the world is poverty and loneliness
Manchester by the sea is such a great movie
Not everyone gets happiness.......
Hits hard
We all don't wanna die we just want our problem to go away
Talk for yourself
@@squidwardfromua ok☠️
@@squidwardfromuaI’m gonna tickle u
wishing it away won't cut it .
@@mlongpre100 real
One of the best lead performances in film in the past 24 years it’s a shame the actor is a real life c word.
C Word?
@@tofoo1 you can’t deduce what I mean?
@@DrAllDoRespect no cause idk what the guy did in real life
@@tofoo1 some allegations about misconduct against women
fascinating
I feel this everyday.
"There's Nothing There."😔
This movie really said 🗣️:-Let go
What is it
@@tower-eu6wn let go bro😂🤝
i come from a hispanic household, majority of the world views my kind as the “hardest workers” but honestly i can’t bare to spend another minute here. believe me, i am grateful for my family and my siblings and what friends i have. but there’s this saying that parents give when you need encouragement or need to work harder which is “echale ganas”. i hated hearing those words because i gave life EVERYTHING that i had. i am clinically depressed and have tried and tried to overlook it and find things that make me happy. but those are only distractions from what’s infront of me. i’m just tired
Crazy man, I’m 16…and I never thought I’d be this alone and suffering in silence…in the night. I don’t like crying. But there is a moment once a year where I breakdown in alone or in silence. Once I do I’m good for another 12 months
Cant take it anymore
Hang in there brother
I say this every morning , then laugh cause I said it all before
This is literally my life. Everyone I knew is dead.
you wont let me live, you wont let me die - Superman
Some people want to untderstand your pain but you dont let them cause you know the only thing you will gain trough that is more pain.
my mom showed me a letter from
My father, it was an old paper. And he’s still here thankfully I hope better, but it he wrote it like he knew he might do something he’d regret. For all
Mama, ooh~~
I don't wanna die~~
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all~~
First slide lil bro
I’m 12 and sometimes I have times like these, what really calms me down is music like 90s hits or 50s.
Not to be rude kid, but you dont know shit
me 5 year old and me like itsy bitsy spider it calms me down
To anyone out there I hope you will find happiness. I care about you and the world is better with you in it.
The most unrealistic thing here is that the cops actually tried to help him when he grabbed the gun and didn't just load him up with ammunition
This is a sick vid what movie
God is here for all of you guys. Christianity was my last resort about a year ago, and i can’t begin to explain the change it made in my life. Wish you all the best
‘I don’t wanna die I just wanna get relief’ -NF
I'm so done with my life......
Is what it is, just.. Keep going..
the greatest tragedies in life is that you will always be loved more than you will ever know. someone in class finds your presence inviting and warm, even if you’ve only ever exchanged a few words with them-maybe none at all. someone on the street loves your smile and it gets them down the next few streets. someone you used to be friends with still wishes to fondly call your name. someone you used to be friends with five years ago would give anything to be in the same room as you today. someone who regularly comes into work is disappointed when you aren’t there to brighten their day. someone missed you today. someone noticed you were gone. someone loves you when you’re there; someone loves you when you’re nowhere to be found at all. you think you have always disappeared when you’re no longer in the picture, but you’ve never left the frame.
I just wanna declare this place an internet checkpoint. Let's all take a minute to heal up and chill together. Talk about our stories and save our progress. Because we made it here together. No matter how lonely we may "think" we are, we're here together.
Omg he’s literally me…
wait hold up
Im dating someone for two years and im more lonely than ever
tell her to toss your salad, it will put a smile on your face
Wanting to die is just wanting to make your life better and perfect but the truth is no one is ever gonna be perfect and you just have to fix all the issues in your life to have a better one…
I have a duty to my loved ones to live, just live enjoy the things life sends your way cut out the bad. Remember it really isn’t that long you just have to wait a little.
Not me looking at my hunting guns while watching this in my garage
what are you hunting?
@ataarono i shoot down birds and go deer hunting in my locas woods out here In Connecticut
one of the greatest movies I've ever watched
Movie name?
@@chubbs2783 Manchester by the sea
@@chubbs2783Manchester by the sea
people suffer because of their own mistakes, some mistakes not end with you it will pass on to your generation make decisions carefully you are not alone, your story will not end easily you have see suffering not your own but your family's and relatives or your own child and this is true and absolute hell that you can't imagine 😊
E This film is so beautiful and so tragic, how the characters deal with grief is so real
What's the movie
@@tower-eu6wn Manchester by The Sea
I definitely recommend watching it, but it's a Drama film... if you're sensitive, think before watching it then
"Come to me all weary and heavy laden , l will give you rest" JESUS
and make sure my priests have a lot of kids to diddle
I want to feel jesus inside me ! come into me jesus fill me with your love !
@@mlongpre100 Pause
Mens mental health month ♥️
@@Carl_Johnson75 🙏
Life is a game you play it to the end no matter the cards you are dealt 🔥
I never asked to play
You sure play to the end. The point is you can choose when to end.
you gotta know when to hold 'em and when to fold 'em
Dam this is real deep bro
Said like a true normGOD
Don't give up please. Life can be better, just give it a chance.
Fuck it.
Nah
I have no friends at all. None. Zero. When I told my therapist he just looked at me stunned and couldn't believe it. And you know what? It sucks. I mean it really sucks. Constantly i see people on this subreddit talk about being depressed with the SO or hanging out with their friends and i just get so painfully jealous. When I go with my mom somewhere and see other people together just crushes me and I physically feel a pain in my chest. But then who would want to be with me? I have no interests and as an obese blob and I'm not very good at most physical activities. There are far better people to be friends with so naturally I'm left alone. At this point I'm too fucked up personality wise and I don't know how to be around people and am always on edge. Even around my family I'm on edge. And I just suck at being a human so I long for friends but am terrified around people. So is there actually any thing that can really help because the only thing that I can come up with involves rope.
I should also add that I of course do not have a girlfriend. People my age are getting married I have not even been on a date. Jesus just typing that makes me want to cry. Damn I wish I was dead.
Are you on Instagram?
@DantePizzaLover understand. For me it's better not to live with family or roommates. And if then only with people that are free like me. No rules. Everyone can do everything together. I 😊
“Dying is easy soldier, living is harder”
Guys,be strong mentally, cause this is the key
guys be strong physically cause this is the key
@@mlongpre100 you know the quote healthy mind in a healthy body,this is the reason I am saying this
0:18 Skill issue
Lil bro forgot the safety was on ☠️☠️ L+Skill issue
But actually that scene was misery 😢
I think it’s a glock too which doesn’t even have a safety switch 😂. They pretty much have a double trigger you have to pull for a round to come out