No one notice the tears, No one notice the stress, No one notice the depression, But they noticed my mistakes... Hey it has been I few months; I just wanted to thank you all for the likes but this doesn’t make me very happy because every time I get like it means that someone was also watching this video and was felling.. you know depressed & whoever you are I just want to make you feel better... And by the way you dropped this ❤️ here’s your heart, don’t let anyone break it 😊
That's all people can see us for. The mistakes we make. And that's just sad because they don't know the real us that we hide. They just judge us by the mistakes we make. It's a cruel world but we just have to try day by day to change it even tho we feel like giving up. I'm tired of people just seeing my skin and not who I am. 💔
But why cant people see through the lie if they know its commonly used as a lie? Its because they dont care, theres no point in caring for others, theyll just forget who put them up there...
This mask i wear This smile i fake They'll never know Untill i break. Under this mask There's a broken face Not yet to be seen Not yet to be heard. I hear them hate i see them stare I'll carry on with my life One miserable day at a time. My mask hides me Day by day But all i have to say Is "im fine" I lied. I don't want to be heard I don't want to be seen I want to be alone With my silent plea. When im im alone My mask breaks Shattering from the hate My heart aches. So i guess its time to put on my mask, see them stare, hear them hate,laugh when i want to cry, in this mask of mine, im sorry for waisting your time.
Zoey animates I'm sorry to hear that :( but just remember you're fine just the way you are and people who don't like you don't mean anything. The ones who matter are the people who care about you and support you ❤
There's someone close to me that probably feels this way rn. But I can't talk to that person. So I'm saying this to you here, please hold on. It will get brighter, sunnier, better. I love you !!!!! Hold on :)) despite how cliche that sounds. And stop listening to hardcore hip hop music is you do
one day, you will look back at this dark place that you have overcome. you will be proud of yourself that you got through it, you will be okay. pain in temporary, i used to think that i would always be in pain, i felt like pain was for me. but guess what, i overcame that. i’m better now, and you will be too. hold on for me, you will get there. one day you will tell your kids this story
Time heals everything...🖤 🖤 now God is only trying to figure out whether you can accept God's challenge easily or not so you have to be strong and prove God that you are strong enough to accept all the challenges🖤🖤more power to you🖤🖤
I watched this. I started crying. My mom comes in. "Whats wrong?" She asked. "My fav character died in the show..." I answered, still with the tears in my eyes.
Your all stupid idiots ..... Tell her the truth it's the only way threw this.... Sorry for the tough love just turned 15 and havent got my filter yet 😂 But seriously your an idiot, just from a girls prospective.... Lots of love 💖💖💖 Always be honest
Bunny lover .. this is me.. I started cutting for the first time ever on March 11th 2019.. and ever since then I always said my cat scratched me and people believed it, my parents didn’t question... my mom says my depression is an act I put on for people attention, I’m a disappointment.. I’m sorry for typing this even though you probably won’t care... I just want to harm myself and hopefully I cut a vital spot and die
For your mother to say it's for attention.. That's bull shit! Only people who do or have suffered with depression can really understand what it's like i tried to take my life years ago!! Regret it ever since!! Got no one to talk to but bottling it up sure as hell don't help. Trust me the hospital and paramedics that attended to me said i was very lucky to still be alive i thought i was unlucky to be alive at that time.. But now i see it's really not worth it. Trust me things always get better! You're beautiful inside and out but the one's who don't see it are the one's with real problems that's why they try to bring you down.. Rise above it and take no notice!! Don't let any negativity stick in your mind you are worth more than anything to someone you will find them one day.. Stay strong please? 😘
While watching this my little sister came into my room to say bye and as I hugged her I began to cry. She asked me what was wrong with me and told her “nothing” so then she told my mom that I was crying and she asked me what was wrong with me and all I said was “I’m okay”. It’s hard to tell the truth when you have so much on your mind 😔 My little sister is 3 so she didn’t understand why I was crying.
When I go to school I : Smile Laugh Focus But when someone says something about me the way I look or how I act I break and they don't realise they say : Why is she angry Why is she crying What is wrong with her She's just doing it for attention But she's so happy- Or is she What they don't realise is I do all these things but I get home and I'm a completely different person that's why I always say I'm okay
I’m exactly the opposite. My family think I’m doing so well but at school I’m like a ghost. I get to classes and just sit there staring into the distance then at break and lunch I just stand silently next to my friends and they give me a hug and a sad smile and I appreciate it so much but I have no energy to smile back cause I save all my energy to fake it at home...
Then class starts, you are coping notes from the board, it's maths and simultaneously having a mental breakdown; after class THOSE classmates say 'how are you so calm and studious; and happy when all you do is study' 😢
Praying for everyone who struggles with depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, or any problems they are having with their mental health. God is always with you and he loves you more in a second than anyone could in a lifetime. Follow Him and he will get you through this. Talk to Him through your prayers. ❤️✝️
I'm okay... O- On the edge of breaking down K- Know that I'd be a bother if I asked for help A- Another few months of cutting myself Y- Yet nobody understands *I guess you could call this just another cry for help right?*
Every time I start to get happy again I suddenly get sad to the point where I don't even know why I'm sad there is a person who I won't say his name because I don't want to admit it but he has done me wrong to the point where I take shower after shower and still feel dirty
I know this was from a year ago, but listen. I truly get how hard it is, as I am suffering just the same. But if we were put on this earth just to feel broken and sad, we wouldn't have been on the earth. You do have a purpose and everything will eventually get better. Weather it gets better now, tomorrow, in four years, maybe even the day before you die. It will. It sucks, yeah. life really does. But if your situation doesn't get better eventually, then I will legit be shocked. After 20 years of being depressed, it's finally getting better, and it will for you too. Hang in there, bro.
Im ‘fine’ F-Failed I-In Pain N-Neglected E-Embarresed Im ‘fine’ Just take it slow but my depression will grow The shadows at night make me fight The light of my life is just too bright As i cut it makes it worse When it all comes down Outside i got a smile but inside *i got one sad frown* Hear my poem it will be alright were in this together and lets make it right!
Guys come on, innocent babies die everyday because there parents are idiots, be grateful for the life you have, at least you have a life. 😅❤❤😬 don't be idiots and ruin a blessing Love you guys, just some more tough love from your American 15 year old girl ✌
the words "i am okay" and "i am fine" just cover up the pain. after a while the words do not hurt, the fake smiles stop hurting. you start to play a role in as your self and it becomes real. but your life is not a book do not end it, keep being this charter and change how your story goes. just keep going keep the story, your story going
I always fake being okay so people don’t see that I’m rlly not okay I fake smiles all the time and When I go home I sit in my room by myself and sometimes even cry.
smiling outside, crying inside.. silent outside, screaming inside.. nothing outside, SOMETHING inside... i wrote this last year but now, there's a sun in my heart and a wind in my mind, HOPE YOU TOOO...! remember there WILLL be a rainbow after the rain❤❤
when someone says “How are you” i always respond this: how? everyday you ask me the same question, do i answer something else than “i’m fine”? No. I don’t. But this time i will tell the truth and say that i’m not fine. You know why i’m not fine? Because i’m tired of living. I’m tired of seeing people’s face. I’m tired of looking at myself in the mirror crying. I’m tired of being alone whenever I need someone to talk to. I’m tired of feeling like this. And i’m tired of being me.
You know that feeling when someone asks, "how are you? Are you okay?" Then you'll say, "yes I'm very okay!" But deep down you're not okay. you want to escape the sadness, reality, everything that's making you feel not okay, but hey you'll ended up saying "I'm okay."
The Day rises. The Night Falls. Everyday is the same. The sunset is black, The sky is grey, The colors i used to know... Have all 𝙁𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙙 away. The smile i give, Brings joy to others, They say, “Your Smile makes my day!“, But, What if you told them, Its not 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙨. They notice the mistakes, They notice your retakes, But never notice the person behind the forever smiling mask. And on on, As life 𝙜𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙣, That mask will crumble, That mask will fade, Leaving you without protection. Like they will, One day.
I have this guy bestfriend and he’s like a brother to me, I tell him everything, I tell him if I’m really okay or not but even to him I say that I’m okay when I’m clearly not. I just don’t want to be that person that’s always sad.
Beautiful, literally so beautiful and nice, I have no words how this poem made me feel, It was so emotional and so relatable, every line, and after hearing it I felt at peace, idk just hearing relatable things like these heals me, and I want to thank you for sharing this with world, with me, it helps alot....❤️❤️
"Ill meet your eyes and give a friendly wave ..." I loved the truth and pain in that line. This was an amazing piece and I want to thank you for sharing your truth.,
I love how we all struggle thru this I love how we all lie about this I love how we're all alone in this When we could be together. I was really, actually okay for two days. But it's back.
I'm not going to vent into the comments because ew. But usually I listen to depressed poems while I write some of my own. I've never paused what I was doing and actually listened. But I did this time, and I cried. Your voice is so soothing and it finally feels like someone gets it. This fight that ur addicted to despite knowing your gonna lose.
Does anyone feel so worthless and numb...Like no matter what you do you will never be enough. Sometimes I wish that someone will notice that i'm not okay and try to help. But until then I have to hide who I am and be someone i'm not.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Trust me I’m ok Trust me I’ll be fine Trust me I’m used to this pain inside Won’t go away But I’m ok I have to be I’ll be fine eventually I’m use to this after all -Gracen Boxx @princessgracen
When you get to a point you’re so numb and dead inside you don’t even fake being okay anymore. And blatantly ignore them if you get pressed for a real answer.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
dear future self: right now it’s november 14. your life isn’t going the best. you’re hurting. you feel like you’re drowning, and there’s no escape from this constant pain and feeling of being alone every single second.. i promise it’ll get better. in a few months you’ll be over it. him. you are enough. everything happens for a reason, and it all comes in time. you’ll be okay, i promise.
im okay :) no im not im just scared admit that im that sad depressed person no one wants to be around. i fake my smile because I don’t want others to judge me. i dont want people to worry, but i know they wont, because no one ever worries about the girl who is always smiling, the daughter who is cheerful and the best friend who is caring. tbh i dont even know what love feels like anymore. i used to be such a nice, warm and amazing person, i was happy, but now, i have hit rock bottom, i dont feel like being happy anymore.
I really hope you find happiness one day, ok change that to I KNOW you will find happiness one day. You need to talk to someone, even someone on the internet, doesn’t matter, I’m here for you. Just talk to someone. Let them know how you feel. And sooner or later, you’ll become the same person you were before, or an even better one. Ik things are a little rough rn but just hold on, ok? It’ll be okay. Love you❤️
I'll always smile for others to make them feel better, I will always help everybody, I will always take your problems and make them fade But I will always be the person who: Cries at home Cuts Doesn't eat Takes food with me but never eat it Make you feel better while I am breaking apart
Hi, I just saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this, okay? Whenever you feel alone and you want to talk to someoane who understands, I'm here for you.
Yh I feel the same no one will know that we hurting from inside but all you say is true and I always hide my depression from people and put on a fake smile and by the way love all your poetry
"how are you?" my mind: im dying inside, i wanna cry, im cutting myself because i need control over the pain, im having suicidal thoughts, i need help, i want help, please help me, hug me, tell me things are gonna be ok.... me: Oh me...? I'm Fine!
U already wrote my thoughts...🙂 I guess we have almost the same problem... Dying, crying, cutting, suicidal thoughts... I actually can't just control my mind...it's like...I think so much....that...sometimes I think...the thoughts will only stop if I die... It's just too hard for me...😫
6years today i said goodbye to my love,,,God has been good to us..today we remembered this with afriend and she said she thanks God i pulled through,,we remembered the events of the day place and how each got the news..she told me she was gland i can take it easy when we talked about it which she thought would never happen,,,little does she know how the journey has been like...all we do is take each day as it comes oiling ourselves well,,packaging ourselves nice for theres no time to remain groomy though its never easy even with years you still feel their absense missg them alot..R.I.P darling...
Can I borrow your Spoken poetry, I have I competition, and the only thing I can think of is your Spoken poetry I promise to claim it not mine and give you all the credits
This is so true. And this is just so sad that Depression is a human emotion that so many people understand that just make u want to die. But u can’t cuz ur “ok” and just fake a smile which is what everyone I know does all the fucking time!
Rose's are red Violets are blue All the restless nights Are because of you (For my dad) A smile I fake Hiding my pain Awake I lay Drowning in my shame (For myself) If I'm not mad I'm hurting If I'm not crying I'm faking If I'm not sleeping I'm thinking And if I'm not sad I'm angry (For me) When you cross my mind I hurt When you said those words I was in pain When you told me to get over it I was mad But now I'm just broken down and sad I am like glass but you cant see through me I'm easy to break All you have to do is drop me I shatter to pieces I dont hate the world I hate myself I dont smile for real I smile to hide it I dont like the pain in my heart And when you say those words it's like you just dropped my heart The world is a cruel place they say Everyone feels pain someday they say But the pain I feel is not normal The pain I feel makes me hate myself its makes me mad for not apparent reason its makes me cry for myself it makes me stay awake at night thinking it makes me put on a mask to cover the bleeding
Innocent, fresh, and ever so pure When we are children we don’t know much more. We are taught while we're young to be kind to others, To use manners when needed, and to not hit your brother. Don’t judge a book by a cover, they say, So I wonder how and why it happens anyway. At the young age of five, or for some right before, We become little humans who like to explore. We grow into a world that’s structured yet free, Where they tell us to be who we want to be. A vet! An astronaut! A teacher! We choose, Not thinking about if we win or we lose. In the blink of an eye we’re seven or eight, Ready for cursive, division, and opinions to create. It may not be realized or noticed per say, But the small details we see affect us each day. The make-up put on and the clothes that are worn, By surrounding people is becoming the norm. Twelve years old and on top of the world, A middle school hero who’s about to be whirled. Things start to matter that shouldn’t be looked at, Like how much you weigh, or some natural body fat. You are given a number for the size on your jeans, Bullies appear and are nothing but mean. People start talking; they notice your face, You’re the girl who barely takes up any space. Although obvious, you have not a clue, That what people are saying turns out to be true. They say you need help, to get food in your system, But you just ignore, and think you have all wisdom. Mental breakdowns make you open your eyes, To finally see your mind's full of lies. Recovery, they say, is the most grueling part, It takes energy, time, and all of your heart. It’s not just your body it’s your mental state too, You must be strong, tough, and find the real you. Behind the disorder lies a beautiful human, Who’s struggling to thrive in the new world they’re viewed in. Progress is made, and weight is put on, A smile starts showing, insecurities gone. Just turned eighteen and ready for college, Still nervous you might not have all the knowledge. Move into the dorms, to make a second home, With unfamiliar places so you start to roam. Discovering life is amazing and brilliant, And also discovering that you are resilient. You are kind, caring, brave, smart, and level headed, Ready to take on whatever might be dreaded. You have been through hell, nothing could be worse, Eating disorders…they have no remorse. So you leave it in the past, never to return, Because you have mastered the lesson to be learned. That life is a gift and there is so much to do, Like walking to the ocean and enjoying the view. Taking pleasure in art, and playing with puppies, Going out on the weekends and looking for hubbies. Running for joy, and the smell of spring flowers, Your comfiest pillow, and endless hot showers. A genuine laugh that makes your belly hurt, And a dance in the rain, who cares about dirt. Find your passion, your push, your desire or love, Whatever you choose it will fit like a glove. You’re your own person, imperfections and all, You’re your own hero when it comes to a flaw. Be happy, be healthy, and be grateful above all, For you’re given this life where you’re ever so small. Don’t be too serious, and learn from mistakes, And always remember: do whatever it takes.
I've gone through a lot in my life. The reason I'm more likely to say "I'm fine." or "I'm okay." is because of the fact that a lot of people don't know how to react. Most will say "You need help." I know I do and I've talked to multiple, professional people about my mental state. However, it makes me feel alone and broken when I can't just talk to someone without feeling like I'm being studied as a patient. I've learned through the years in my experience that my depression never really goes away. Even after medication, there are still subtle thoughts lingering in my mind. I had made an image that at first glance looks like it reads "I'm okay." but when you look closely you see in the center a soft red hue that looks more like "I'nn oT{ay." I feel like people don't really want to listen to how I really feel so I don't usually say what I really want which is "I'm doing horrible. I'm trying to fight these thoughts that keep running through my mind every time I see a knife. I keep myself busy with multiple projects because I believe if I stop thinking of new ideas or I just stop and rest those thoughts will win."
I realised I've been lying to myself when i used to think that I'm really okay........the tears, the heavy feelinv in my stomach, the sleepless nights, loneliness........but I'm still okay cuz I'm alive right?
Hii, Melissa I've been following your poetry peaces for a long time, and I wonder what application you use for writting thouse lyrics in the video? Please ancewer me as soon as you can.
This is very spot on, U sure speak my mind alot We may fake it to people but know that God still cares for us n see's even the single teardrop from our eyes. Its what keeps me waking up each day🥰🥰
Smiling outside broken inside 😔 But yeah I am still smiling with a fake smile everyday I am tired of everything I am okay I just lost my self again .... Thank you for making this video ❤️!..
My friend has panic attacks I'm worried about her she's not the girl I became friends with she's skipping classes and she's always lying to me she replaces me every chance she gets and when that person leaves I'm her backup she comes to 4th period every day crying and I never know what to do to help her....... I just can't make it through life without her she helped me through so much in sixth grade, it was near the middle of the year and I was deep into depression and I told myself that I was gonna go home and end it all and on that day in 5th period gym everyone was coming inside from the field and next thing I know she runs up next to me and talks to me like she's been my best friend my whole life and I got home and I had a reason to live again I had someone I could talk to about anything someone who I could call a friend, but now she's just drifting away and I can't seem to get her back I know I don't deserve her but to be honest no one in that school deserves her friendship she's the most amazing person I've ever met and I know that soon she'll be out of my life forever..... What do I do she's my best friend I don't want to lose her I don't want your likes I want your help.
She is probably going through some things right now in my opinion you should give her some space but let her know your there for her no matter what and for you I have wanted to just end my life too and I admit I have problems with self harm and its just not worth it it really isn't and if I could go back and stop myself I would cause next thing you know you have an addiction and I don't want that to happen to you and I'm not going through the same things you are but I know how it fells to have someone be your best friend one day and the next it doesn't mean nothing and you should talk to her about it and if she just comes to you when she needs help that using really a good friend and there are many other people who would stick by your side no matter what but any ways this is really long sorry but I hope everything gets better
I will leave this comment here so that when someone like this I will still get a notification
Good job 👍
Nice
No one notice the tears,
No one notice the stress,
No one notice the depression,
But they noticed my mistakes...
Hey it has been I few months; I just wanted to thank you all for the likes but this doesn’t make me very happy because every time I get like it means that someone was also watching this video and was felling.. you know depressed & whoever you are I just want to make you feel better...
And by the way you dropped this ❤️ here’s your heart, don’t let anyone break it 😊
Sad but tru
BI SY 🤘😔
That's all people can see us for. The mistakes we make. And that's just sad because they don't know the real us that we hide. They just judge us by the mistakes we make. It's a cruel world but we just have to try day by day to change it even tho we feel like giving up. I'm tired of people just seeing my skin and not who I am. 💔
*-* me
😔😔😢
"I'm fine/ I'm Okay"
-Is the biggest lie everyone has told
And it's the most used lie.....
But why cant people see through the lie if they know its commonly used as a lie? Its because they dont care, theres no point in caring for others, theyll just forget who put them up there...
whenever i say im fine or im okay its true but it makes me wonder/worry does the person im talking to think im actually depressed
Thats the lie ive said my whole life
Fr
This mask i wear
This smile i fake
They'll never know
Untill i break.
Under this mask
There's a broken face
Not yet to be seen
Not yet to be heard.
I hear them hate
i see them stare
I'll carry on with my life
One miserable day at a time.
My mask hides me
Day by day
But all i have to say
Is "im fine"
I lied.
I don't want to be heard
I don't want to be seen
I want to be alone
With my silent plea.
When im im alone
My mask breaks
Shattering from the hate
My heart aches.
So i guess its time to put on my mask, see them stare, hear them hate,laugh when i want to cry, in this mask of mine, im sorry for waisting your time.
😍😘
You’re not wasting anybody’s time
This is me
I relate to this and I think this should've gotten more likes.this was awesome
@@kawaiipotato4681 really no one cares I just care that this made me cry for 20 mins
I always say to everyone"I'm okay" but inside I'll never be...
I completely understand the feeling. It's hard, but stay strong!
but...I'm only 11 and no one is there ....I'm going through so much and I'm trans and bi and people just hate me bc of that...
Zoey animates I'm sorry to hear that :( but just remember you're fine just the way you are and people who don't like you don't mean anything. The ones who matter are the people who care about you and support you ❤
Alex The Edge Lord Alex is that you????
U will one day be ok chin up 👌🏽
Roses are dead
Violets are broken
Outside I'm smiling
Inside I'm dying!!
I've been sad for about 11 years now, am I the problem in my life?
a quote from your lie in April
I’m a simple girl
Who *hides* a *thousand* feelings
Under the most beautiful *smile*
-Kaori Mizayon
I’m my own bully
Violets are dying*😊
Violets are dying*😊
I feel like this everyday and I'm done with life
There's someone close to me that probably feels this way rn. But I can't talk to that person. So I'm saying this to you here, please hold on. It will get brighter, sunnier, better. I love you !!!!! Hold on :)) despite how cliche that sounds. And stop listening to hardcore hip hop music is you do
one day, you will look back at this dark place that you have overcome. you will be proud of yourself that you got through it, you will be okay. pain in temporary, i used to think that i would always be in pain, i felt like pain was for me. but guess what, i overcame that. i’m better now, and you will be too. hold on for me, you will get there. one day you will tell your kids this story
Me to
Me to
Time heals everything...🖤 🖤 now God is only trying to figure out whether you can accept God's challenge easily or not so you have to be strong and prove God that you are strong enough to accept all the challenges🖤🖤more power to you🖤🖤
I watched this.
I started crying.
My mom comes in.
"Whats wrong?" She asked.
"My fav character died in the show..." I answered, still with the tears in my eyes.
And then she laughs it off and you wish you had the courage to tell the truth 😞
my answer everytime someone walks into my room and im crying
Your all stupid idiots .....
Tell her the truth it's the only way threw this....
Sorry for the tough love just turned 15 and havent got my filter yet 😂
But seriously your an idiot, just from a girls prospective....
Lots of love 💖💖💖
Always be honest
I’m so sorry.
@@leadbyjesuschrist2124 shed laugh and tell me I’m too young to be depressed.
Im just tired
(I'm depressed)
The cat scratched me
(I started cutting)
I'm not hungry
(Im starving)
I'm fine
(Help me)
Bunny lover
.. this is me.. I started cutting for the first time ever on March 11th 2019.. and ever since then I always said my cat scratched me and people believed it, my parents didn’t question... my mom says my depression is an act I put on for people attention, I’m a disappointment.. I’m sorry for typing this even though you probably won’t care... I just want to harm myself and hopefully I cut a vital spot and die
that's really true
Anime lover. Don't do it!
@@nathanbailey88
I wish I could:) the medication I am on don't even work anyways
For your mother to say it's for attention.. That's bull shit! Only people who do or have suffered with depression can really understand what it's like i tried to take my life years ago!! Regret it ever since!! Got no one to talk to but bottling it up sure as hell don't help. Trust me the hospital and paramedics that attended to me said i was very lucky to still be alive i thought i was unlucky to be alive at that time.. But now i see it's really not worth it. Trust me things always get better! You're beautiful inside and out but the one's who don't see it are the one's with real problems that's why they try to bring you down.. Rise above it and take no notice!! Don't let any negativity stick in your mind you are worth more than anything to someone you will find them one day.. Stay strong please? 😘
While watching this my little sister came into my room to say bye and as I hugged her I began to cry. She asked me what was wrong with me and told her “nothing” so then she told my mom that I was crying and she asked me what was wrong with me and all I said was “I’m okay”. It’s hard to tell the truth when you have so much on your mind 😔
My little sister is 3 so she didn’t understand why I was crying.
Aww :( I'm sorry to hear that. It is hard to tell the truth when you have so much on your mind. Stay strong
Right 💔............
Its hard to tell the truth when you have always lied
I hope you’re feeling better after these couple of years! Be strong and know you’re cared for! ♥️
When I go to school I :
Smile
Laugh
Focus
But when someone says something about me the way I look or how I act I break and they don't realise they say :
Why is she angry
Why is she crying
What is wrong with her
She's just doing it for attention
But she's so happy-
Or is she
What they don't realise is I do all these things but I get home and I'm a completely different person that's why I always say
I'm okay
I’m exactly the opposite. My family think I’m doing so well but at school I’m like a ghost. I get to classes and just sit there staring into the distance then at break and lunch I just stand silently next to my friends and they give me a hug and a sad smile and I appreciate it so much but I have no energy to smile back cause I save all my energy to fake it at home...
At school I have the reputation for laughing at everything and just being really happy but at home I am really quite,sad lonely
Then class starts, you are coping notes from the board, it's maths and simultaneously having a mental breakdown; after class THOSE classmates say 'how are you so calm and studious; and happy when all you do is study' 😢
Praying for everyone who struggles with depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, or any problems they are having with their mental health. God is always with you and he loves you more in a second than anyone could in a lifetime. Follow Him and he will get you through this. Talk to Him through your prayers. ❤️✝️
I can't sleep
I don't hungry
I can't do everything
I can't stop love you
I can't stop miss you
(I'm fine)
I'm okay...
O- On the edge of breaking down
K- Know that I'd be a bother if I asked for help
A- Another few months of cutting myself
Y- Yet nobody understands
*I guess you could call this just another cry for help right?*
iiAm Imperfect please.. don’t ever give up. I know what you’re going through..
Samee
Every time I start to get happy again I suddenly get sad to the point where I don't even know why I'm sad there is a person who I won't say his name because I don't want to admit it but he has done me wrong to the point where I take shower after shower and still feel dirty
I know this was from a year ago, but listen. I truly get how hard it is, as I am suffering just the same. But if we were put on this earth just to feel broken and sad, we wouldn't have been on the earth. You do have a purpose and everything will eventually get better. Weather it gets better now, tomorrow, in four years, maybe even the day before you die. It will. It sucks, yeah. life really does. But if your situation doesn't get better eventually, then I will legit be shocked. After 20 years of being depressed, it's finally getting better, and it will for you too. Hang in there, bro.
You are imperfectly perfect~✨
This is what was keeping me alive till now..I'm a sad and depressed person..who else in 2019……?
RoB iN 2020
actually 2021-
I hope you are ok.
2024 😩
" i'll fake a smile" I have faking a smile for over 3 years. I wish someone would say "your not okay" but no one cares enough.
Your not OK... Stop lying what's wrong...
Sometimes it is difficult to see... Maybe the other person is faking, too. Try to say how you are feeling..
Maybe it's not that they don't care....its that they don't know, they don't know the signs.
No1 cares about really anything is what I have learn..-AbbyCav Braydens gf
Faking it until it feels real huh.. me for 3 years straight and I'm still not done
I know what you mean, it really sucks when you realize it
@@MelsThoughts Yup
It began when i was 10, I'm still not okay, I'm 18 right know. I'm believing i'm okay, but I'm not.
Faking is easy for me now
@@sichienelien same
Wet Eye's 😭
Totally Broken 💔
The feeling
A Deep Breath
But I'm okay 😢😢😭
Im ‘fine’
F-Failed
I-In Pain
N-Neglected
E-Embarresed
Im ‘fine’
Just take it slow but my depression will grow
The shadows at night make me fight
The light of my life is just too bright
As i cut it makes it worse
When it all comes down
Outside i got a smile but inside *i got one sad frown*
Hear my poem it will be alright were in this together and lets make it right!
I feel like that EVERY DAY
Guys come on, innocent babies die everyday because there parents are idiots, be grateful for the life you have, at least you have a life. 😅❤❤😬 don't be idiots and ruin a blessing
Love you guys, just some more tough love from your American 15 year old girl ✌
@@leadbyjesuschrist2124 life still a paim but thx for the advice for other people who could also be looking inside replies
the words "i am okay" and "i am fine" just cover up the pain. after a while the words do not hurt, the fake smiles stop hurting.
you start to play a role in as your self and it becomes real. but your life is not a book do not end it, keep being this charter and change how your story goes. just keep going keep the story, your story going
I always fake being okay so people don’t see that I’m rlly not okay I fake smiles all the time and When I go home I sit in my room by myself and sometimes even cry.
Hannah Anglin HH me all the time... I feel you
“Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light to my path.”-psalm 119:105
smiling outside, crying inside..
silent outside, screaming inside..
nothing outside, SOMETHING inside...
i wrote this last year but now, there's a sun in my heart and a wind in my mind, HOPE YOU TOOO...! remember there WILLL be a rainbow after the rain❤❤
"Maybe if I pretend on those really bad days, I'll start feel like I'm actually okay." This hit hard
when someone says “How are you”
i always respond this:
how? everyday you ask me the same question, do i answer something else than “i’m fine”? No. I don’t. But this time i will tell the truth and say that i’m not fine. You know why i’m not fine? Because i’m tired of living. I’m tired of seeing people’s face. I’m tired of looking at myself in the mirror crying. I’m tired of being alone whenever I need someone to talk to. I’m tired of feeling like this. And i’m tired of being me.
Same
You know that feeling when someone asks, "how are you? Are you okay?" Then you'll say, "yes I'm very okay!" But deep down you're not okay. you want to escape the sadness, reality, everything that's making you feel not okay, but hey you'll ended up saying "I'm okay."
The Day rises.
The Night Falls.
Everyday is the same.
The sunset is black,
The sky is grey,
The colors i used to know...
Have all 𝙁𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙙 away.
The smile i give,
Brings joy to others,
They say, “Your Smile makes my day!“,
But,
What if you told them,
Its not 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙨.
They notice the mistakes,
They notice your retakes,
But never notice the person behind the forever smiling mask.
And on on,
As life 𝙜𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙣,
That mask will crumble,
That mask will fade,
Leaving you without protection.
Like they will,
One day.
I have this guy bestfriend and he’s like a brother to me, I tell him everything, I tell him if I’m really okay or not but even to him I say that I’m okay when I’m clearly not. I just don’t want to be that person that’s always sad.
My story is the same😔😔😔
I can relate it with myself
Yeah I'm fine the cat " scratched" me I'm just "tired" my stomach "hurts" I want to die NO YOU ARE JUST ACTING she says
They just refuse to accept the truth or do they even care?
@@MAc_hn i think it's more , the fact it's a very scary situation yaknow but that's not how you should handle it
@@MAc_hn our relationship has grown quite a bit and continues to grow
I could never really express my true feelings but you've done it better than I ever could. So glad I found you, Thank you🤗
I have never heard the way I think about things and I’m speechless to hear it from another voice thank you
Beautiful, literally so beautiful and nice, I have no words how this poem made me feel, It was so emotional and so relatable, every line, and after hearing it I felt at peace, idk just hearing relatable things like these heals me, and I want to thank you for sharing this with world, with me, it helps alot....❤️❤️
people ask if you're okay and when you say NO they have no words. They EXPECT you to say yes but are never ready when you say NO.
S O C I E T Y
I really like your poems!! Its so beautiful and touching. You are doing great, I hope you do more.
Its another level of peace to be able to put what you feel into words.
I completely agree
"Ill meet your eyes and give a friendly wave ..." I loved the truth and pain in that line. This was an amazing piece and I want to thank you for sharing your truth.,
Thank you! I enjoy writing what comes to my mind even if it's raw truth :) I appreciate the listen!
Them: ya okay?*ask like silly person*
Me: mhm.
Them: OKEY!😁
In my mind: i'm faking you wouldn't know how i feel
This feels so raw. Livid. It's beautiful.
You’ve inspired me like no one has
It literally made me have tears in my eyes
Thank you for listening!
I love how we all struggle thru this
I love how we all lie about this
I love how we're all alone in this
When we could be together.
I was really, actually okay for two days.
But it's back.
I definitely agree
Man! This poem hits me really hard. I'm all tears😔. You are really something 😌
Thank you!!
I felt every word!!! I'm so heartbroken but also in awe
I'm not going to vent into the comments because ew. But usually I listen to depressed poems while I write some of my own. I've never paused what I was doing and actually listened. But I did this time, and I cried. Your voice is so soothing and it finally feels like someone gets it. This fight that ur addicted to despite knowing your gonna lose.
Does anyone feel so worthless and numb...Like no matter what you do you will never be enough. Sometimes I wish that someone will notice that i'm not okay and try to help. But until then I have to hide who I am and be someone i'm not.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
thank you for this wonderful words... it feels like i've been given a voice, it's exactly that what i can't express myself
Why is this so relatable , everything hurts but faking it makes it feel real and i feel that if i let them theough that becomes a reality
Trust me
I’m ok
Trust me
I’ll be fine
Trust me
I’m used to this
pain inside
Won’t go away
But I’m ok
I have to be
I’ll be fine
eventually
I’m use to this after all
-Gracen Boxx @princessgracen
When you get to a point you’re so numb and dead inside you don’t even fake being okay anymore. And blatantly ignore them if you get pressed for a real answer.
I love this! I was okay, I'm great now! Things are finally getting better, I'm looking forward to the better things!
this is just making me crying so much inside.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I relate to this on so many levels..
This brought back memories of last year at this time when I was planning to end it all... I'm still here, I regret it a lot but I'm still here! 😖😔
Wow, this is the best spoken poetry because this is what I always think
... I can't express my feelings ...it's wonderful...
dear future self: right now it’s november 14. your life isn’t going the best. you’re hurting. you feel like you’re drowning, and there’s no escape from this constant pain and feeling of being alone every single second.. i promise it’ll get better. in a few months you’ll be over it. him. you are enough. everything happens for a reason, and it all comes in time. you’ll be okay, i promise.
Are you better now?
how are you
Real shit I want to hug him . And I hope his friends and family check up because that is so accurate it hurts
This describes totally my life . And I always remind myself that one day I will be free from all this fakeness in my life .
im okay :)
no im not
im just scared admit that im that sad depressed person no one wants to be around. i fake my smile because I don’t want others to judge me. i dont want people to worry, but i know they wont, because no one ever worries about the girl who is always smiling, the daughter who is cheerful and the best friend who is caring. tbh i dont even know what love feels like anymore. i used to be such a nice, warm and amazing person, i was happy, but now, i have hit rock bottom, i dont feel like being happy anymore.
I used to be that likable girl that everyone can turn to but now? People change. I forgot how to love or feel love, or did i ever know how to love...?
I really hope you find happiness one day, ok change that to I KNOW you will find happiness one day. You need to talk to someone, even someone on the internet, doesn’t matter, I’m here for you. Just talk to someone. Let them know how you feel. And sooner or later, you’ll become the same person you were before, or an even better one. Ik things are a little rough rn but just hold on, ok? It’ll be okay. Love you❤️
Peopole think that it's fun to laught at my mistakes, but they don't get it that they're just making it worse😔
When they treat you like a joke leave them like it's funny
Or just punch them in the face
I love your poems! ALWAYS!❤
This poem really describes who I am today and it really hurts so much that in the end there's gonna be only you who can save you.
I'll always smile for others to make them feel better, I will always help everybody, I will always take your problems and make them fade
But I will always be the person who:
Cries at home
Cuts
Doesn't eat
Takes food with me but never eat it
Make you feel better while I am breaking apart
Hi, I just saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this, okay? Whenever you feel alone and you want to talk to someoane who understands, I'm here for you.
"Dear God, Please make my days useful, my nights restful, my home peaceful and my efforts fruitful, in the Mighty name of Jesus, Amen."
Thisss is the most relatable thing i heard today,honestly!
Yh I feel the same no one will know that we hurting from inside but all you say is true and I always hide my depression from people and put on a fake smile and by the way love all your poetry
The story of my life....
"how are you?"
my mind: im dying inside, i wanna cry, im cutting myself because i need control over the pain, im having suicidal thoughts, i need help, i want help, please help me, hug me, tell me things are gonna be ok....
me: Oh me...? I'm Fine!
U r not fine.......... What happened???
U already wrote my thoughts...🙂
I guess we have almost the same problem...
Dying, crying, cutting, suicidal thoughts...
I actually can't just control my mind...it's like...I think so much....that...sometimes I think...the thoughts will only stop if I die...
It's just too hard for me...😫
This speaks for me it’s how I feel this is really speaking everything that I am afraid to say
This poem had a very deep meaning.
I too love writing poems and now i will make u my inspiration.
6years today i said goodbye to my love,,,God has been good to us..today we remembered this with afriend and she said she thanks God i pulled through,,we remembered the events of the day place and how each got the news..she told me she was gland i can take it easy when we talked about it which she thought would never happen,,,little does she know how the journey has been like...all we do is take each day as it comes oiling ourselves well,,packaging ourselves nice for theres no time to remain groomy though its never easy even with years you still feel their absense missg them alot..R.I.P darling...
Can I borrow your Spoken poetry, I have I competition, and the only thing I can think of is your Spoken poetry I promise to claim it not mine and give you all the credits
Yes you can use it :)
Absolutely brilliant! It’s so real and on point!
This is so true. And this is just so sad that Depression is a human emotion that so many people understand that just make u want to die. But u can’t cuz ur “ok” and just fake a smile which is what everyone I know does all the fucking time!
Rose's are red
Violets are blue
All the restless nights
Are because of you
(For my dad)
A smile I fake
Hiding my pain
Awake I lay
Drowning in my shame
(For myself)
If I'm not mad I'm hurting
If I'm not crying I'm faking
If I'm not sleeping I'm thinking
And if I'm not sad I'm angry
(For me)
When you cross my mind I hurt
When you said those words I was in pain
When you told me to get over it I was mad
But now I'm just broken down and sad
I am like glass but you cant see through me
I'm easy to break
All you have to do is drop me
I shatter to pieces
I dont hate the world I hate myself
I dont smile for real I smile to hide it
I dont like the pain in my heart
And when you say those words it's like you just dropped my heart
The world is a cruel place they say
Everyone feels pain someday they say
But the pain I feel is not normal
The pain I feel makes me hate myself its makes me mad for not apparent reason its makes me cry for myself it makes me stay awake at night thinking it makes me put on a mask to cover the bleeding
Innocent, fresh, and ever so pure
When we are children we don’t know much more.
We are taught while we're young to be kind to others,
To use manners when needed, and to not hit your brother.
Don’t judge a book by a cover, they say,
So I wonder how and why it happens anyway.
At the young age of five, or for some right before,
We become little humans who like to explore.
We grow into a world that’s structured yet free,
Where they tell us to be who we want to be.
A vet! An astronaut! A teacher! We choose,
Not thinking about if we win or we lose.
In the blink of an eye we’re seven or eight,
Ready for cursive, division, and opinions to create.
It may not be realized or noticed per say,
But the small details we see affect us each day.
The make-up put on and the clothes that are worn,
By surrounding people is becoming the norm.
Twelve years old and on top of the world,
A middle school hero who’s about to be whirled.
Things start to matter that shouldn’t be looked at,
Like how much you weigh, or some natural body fat.
You are given a number for the size on your jeans,
Bullies appear and are nothing but mean.
People start talking; they notice your face,
You’re the girl who barely takes up any space.
Although obvious, you have not a clue,
That what people are saying turns out to be true.
They say you need help, to get food in your system,
But you just ignore, and think you have all wisdom.
Mental breakdowns make you open your eyes,
To finally see your mind's full of lies.
Recovery, they say, is the most grueling part,
It takes energy, time, and all of your heart.
It’s not just your body it’s your mental state too,
You must be strong, tough, and find the real you.
Behind the disorder lies a beautiful human,
Who’s struggling to thrive in the new world they’re viewed in.
Progress is made, and weight is put on,
A smile starts showing, insecurities gone.
Just turned eighteen and ready for college,
Still nervous you might not have all the knowledge.
Move into the dorms, to make a second home,
With unfamiliar places so you start to roam.
Discovering life is amazing and brilliant,
And also discovering that you are resilient.
You are kind, caring, brave, smart, and level headed,
Ready to take on whatever might be dreaded.
You have been through hell, nothing could be worse,
Eating disorders…they have no remorse.
So you leave it in the past, never to return,
Because you have mastered the lesson to be learned.
That life is a gift and there is so much to do,
Like walking to the ocean and enjoying the view.
Taking pleasure in art, and playing with puppies,
Going out on the weekends and looking for hubbies.
Running for joy, and the smell of spring flowers,
Your comfiest pillow, and endless hot showers.
A genuine laugh that makes your belly hurt,
And a dance in the rain, who cares about dirt.
Find your passion, your push, your desire or love,
Whatever you choose it will fit like a glove.
You’re your own person, imperfections and all,
You’re your own hero when it comes to a flaw.
Be happy, be healthy, and be grateful above all,
For you’re given this life where you’re ever so small.
Don’t be too serious, and learn from mistakes,
And always remember: do whatever it takes.
I love poem so much and this one was so deep and relatable
Totally broken inside and smiling like u were never been hurt!!
I’m fine or I’m okay, the lie that everyone believes.
i thought i was free,but they come again ,its like they don't want to leave they just want me to give up.
I can't stop listening to this.
I've gone through a lot in my life. The reason I'm more likely to say "I'm fine." or "I'm okay." is because of the fact that a lot of people don't know how to react. Most will say "You need help." I know I do and I've talked to multiple, professional people about my mental state. However, it makes me feel alone and broken when I can't just talk to someone without feeling like I'm being studied as a patient. I've learned through the years in my experience that my depression never really goes away. Even after medication, there are still subtle thoughts lingering in my mind. I had made an image that at first glance looks like it reads "I'm okay." but when you look closely you see in the center a soft red hue that looks more like "I'nn oT{ay." I feel like people don't really want to listen to how I really feel so I don't usually say what I really want which is "I'm doing horrible. I'm trying to fight these thoughts that keep running through my mind every time I see a knife. I keep myself busy with multiple projects because I believe if I stop thinking of new ideas or I just stop and rest those thoughts will win."
They Only notice my mistakes.😔
We have no choice to be okay😢
This is one of the dopest poems.
That is beautiful eplained it exactly how i feel and live ♥️♥️
I realised I've been lying to myself when i used to think that I'm really okay........the tears, the heavy feelinv in my stomach, the sleepless nights, loneliness........but I'm still okay cuz I'm alive right?
Hii, Melissa I've been following your poetry peaces for a long time, and I wonder what application you use for writting thouse lyrics in the video? Please ancewer me as soon as you can.
This is very spot on,
U sure speak my mind alot
We may fake it to people but know that God still cares for us n see's even the single teardrop from our eyes.
Its what keeps me waking up each day🥰🥰
Still looking back at this in 2020. When somethings get better something always hits back to make it become bad.
I had my first suicidal thought when I was 3, because i was getting bullied in preschool.
🥺 bruh I always lie and say I’m fine when I’m not
Smiling outside broken inside
😔
But yeah I am still smiling with a fake smile everyday
I am tired of everything
I am okay I just lost my self again ....
Thank you for making this video ❤️!..
I'll start to feel like I'm actually ok, u know ,fake it until it feels like real.
Really hits me nothing is so relatable than this😔
My friend has panic attacks I'm worried about her she's not the girl I became friends with she's skipping classes and she's always lying to me she replaces me every chance she gets and when that person leaves I'm her backup she comes to 4th period every day crying and I never know what to do to help her.......
I just can't make it through life without her she helped me through so much in sixth grade, it was near the middle of the year and I was deep into depression and I told myself that I was gonna go home and end it all and on that day in 5th period gym everyone was coming inside from the field and next thing I know she runs up next to me and talks to me like she's been my best friend my whole life and I got home and I had a reason to live again I had someone I could talk to about anything someone who I could call a friend, but now she's just drifting away and I can't seem to get her back I know I don't deserve her but to be honest no one in that school deserves her friendship she's the most amazing person I've ever met and I know that soon she'll be out of my life forever..... What do I do she's my best friend I don't want to lose her I don't want your likes I want your help.
She helped me through so much, I need to help her to
She is probably going through some things right now in my opinion you should give her some space but let her know your there for her no matter what and for you I have wanted to just end my life too and I admit I have problems with self harm and its just not worth it it really isn't and if I could go back and stop myself I would cause next thing you know you have an addiction and I don't want that to happen to you and I'm not going through the same things you are but I know how it fells to have someone be your best friend one day and the next it doesn't mean nothing and you should talk to her about it and if she just comes to you when she needs help that using really a good friend and there are many other people who would stick by your side no matter what but any ways this is really long sorry but I hope everything gets better
Hey girl, is everything okay at the moment, or are things still like this
""I'm okay""(my to the world)xx 😀xx""I'm really ok""xx😕🤔
Best free audio clip ever heard!!!👍
You are speaking my heart out. My emotions got words..really!! Yeah, i am okay (?)