@karlee ballard While “Gomenne, Gomenne” (I’m sorry, I’m sorry) is also a song by Kikuo Sorry if you knew this already. Or if you’re talking about a different song
small theory: so we all get the point- this song is about a mom who emotionally abuses her child by saying that he is a useless child, and he is abused up to the point when he is grown up. The writing when he is a kid looks colorful and uses hiragana. But when he grows up, it's less colorful, more neat, and uses kanji. I'm thinking the kid used to write down all the things his mom said to him in a journal or a notebook of some sort, and continued to write them down up until he grows up. The two figures, which is the kid and the mom, I think was also drawn by the kid. Furthermore, the title of the song that shows up in the beginning seems kinda messy, which could mean that he titled this journal of his "You are a useless child". Then, when he disappears, (died, ran away, or something) the mom finds the notebook he's been writing everything in, and as she reads them, she realizes she was the useless and terrible person all along. She reads what the boy wrote as a kid, so the writing is back to hiragana and it's more colorful.
Theory: at the end, when mother (not the child) says "I'm a useless child" might suggest that she was treated like that in her childhood, and now made her own child leave because she treated him the same way. She feels useless again.
this comment almost made me cry because this is exactly how my mom is. she abuses me because her father abused her and now that im leaving shes trying to use guilt to bring me back
@Yunn Myat Nay Lwin all hiragana is considered childish bc it's how kids write (as they haven't learned much kanji yet) so him writing in kanji kinda represents how he grew up
A child should never have to question if their parent loves them. Period. Edit: to all of you who commented, saying things like "my parents never cared" or "my parents don't love me", I'm so sorry. You all are deserving of love and happiness, and I'm so incredibly sorry your parents couldn't provide the love and support they were supposed to. Im adopting all of you right now, and you all will be happy forever. I'll make sure of it.
when i found this song, i was around 8 years old or so. i am now turning 14 in a month, i know i’m young but i’ve always felt a deep pit of guilt in my stomach and i’ve always felt as if i’m not good enough for anything, i’ve never loved myself, like, ever, and i’ve just remembered that this song existed and i’m sitting in the corner of my room bawling my eyes out (ily kikuo)
Youre not useless or anything ı guess ım older than you ı think youre not useless ı belive you will found what you love most just wait for now and try to find what can you do ı belive you will found it have a good future
Parents: Why wont you just talk to us? Also my parents when I try to talk to them about something: Edit: My situation is definitely better now. To the all people sharing stories in the comments or just saying: "Same" or "Relatable", I just wanna say: Y'all stay strong out there. Life sucks and often sucks right from the beginning. The memories and pain will probably never go away, but it's completely alright. It does get better, in my case therapy helped (both for me AND for my mom, and my father is just meh, neutral). Also I can proudly say now that I'm fricking awesome now, and that I grew, and changed, and that's I'm an awesome person, AND I hope more of you can relate. This comment and most replies are now 1 year+ old, so I really-really hope at least some are doing better and even possibly escaped that situation (don't matter if by cutting off certain people or reconciling, everybody is different). And if not, PLEASE do as soon as possible. I do understand that most of the time the only solution is moving out and a lot of people out here can't do that, so I'm not gonna be a big smartie pants by saying: "Lol, if you are unhappy just move out/talk to them/stop doing that and this/etc.". Have a good time of day, remember to eat and drink water properly (unless you are fasting while reading this of course!), go ahead and take care of yourself, you deserve it! I'm proud of you :)
Why does this remind me of kids when they say they're depressed and the parents start saying they have nice clothes or they have a roof over their head, or others have it worse so they have no excuse For anyone who wants like clarification: I mean the parents who do and say all this stuff, and then when you mention you're depressed they act like they never did one bad thing in their entire life to you.
I honestly don’t understand why parents say this all the time like , bro I just want to tell you that I’m not doing well wether it’s me being stressed over homework or me being mentally exhausted due to the lack of friends.
my parents are the same, telling me to just get over it when I don't feel OK, and I hate how if I feel suicidal, or depressed, they just walk over it and pretend that nothing is happening with their child.
When I finally had the guts to tell my dad that the reason completing homework was so difficult for me was because I had no motivation because I knew that the moment I messed up even a little I knew I would just get yelled at and end up crying in my room or have my phone taken away I just felt like there was no point in me even trying anymore if I would just keep messing up and I still struggle with loving myself as a person even though things are going well so far for me but sometimes my dad will try to tell me that I dont have a lack of motivation or that what I went through couldn't have been that bad because he went through worse as a kid and he would keep trying to give me "motivational" talks to make me suddenly gain motivation to do work but that lack of motivation doesnt stem from a lack of thankfulness but it comes from a sense of worthlessness in me that's gonna take a really long time to get rid of but he doesnt seem to get that and when I try explaining how I feel he doesnt get what I'm talking about so he thinks that I just dont trust him because I know that what I'm gonna tell him he wont get anyways so I just dont tell him and I feel like that's just driving a bigger wedge between our relationship.
Listening to this song while reading people's stories feels like being in a large group hug with people that also understands your troubles and worries
Even in this song where the Mom clearly sucks and is treating the kid bad, hearing her sing that she's useless herself and that the child is gone makes me cry
yeah, i have a theory that the reason why she's saying all of this is because of generational trauma. basically, generational trauma is when someone passes down their trauma and releases it onto their own family, making it an endless cycle of trauma. maybe in her childhood, the mother also got called useleess alot, and she was called that by her mother (aka grandmother?)
@@司寧々es justo lo que pensé acerca de la canción, al final del día la madre estaba igual de dañada que su hijo solo que a diferencia de ella el decidió alejarse para romper el ciclo
I have a headcannon that this is when the aishite girl grew up. The generational trauma and all the stuff above, but also add in a dangerous amount of perfectionism for a developing, potentially disabled, kid
this song for me is abt generational trauma. The main chorus is “you are a useless child” which is the mother saying that to her child (obvi) but at the point where the child leaves the chorus changed to “i am a useless child” which is probably them reflecting on their parent/s calling them that and its approaching back to them, and they start to repeat it to themselves since they have realized they have now fit into the mold their parents put them in. but right before the original chorus changed, it stated that “even tho the child was wounded he left my side” which probably means that she has realized only after her child left that she affected her child the way her parent/s affected her which is why she phrases “if only i can turn back time”
I think you're dead-on. That was my impression too. It also sort of reminds me of patterns of abuse most common with the Narcissistic and Histrionic Personality Disorders, which involves a lot of manipulation, mind games, backhanded compliments, flat-out lies, embellished and invented stories, and, of course, a dearth of both empathy and self-awareness. Unfortunately I've had quite a bit of second- *and* first-hand experience with that. The whole song, the mother seems so cartoonishly cruel and her kid sounds like the most dysfunctional burn-out ever, but if you consider that she might be an unreliable narrator to begin with... 🤔
To me it's about how when the child is so traumatised, he commits suicide. The mother is left alone and laments about how she never took better care of him, and wishes she could turn back time. She is useless because she couldn't take care of the child.
Yeah, my thoughts exactly. With the added tidbit that she could have also been treating her kid worse. Using him as a surrogate for her parents and how she wished to treat them.(which in hindsight, is what generational trauma is)
@@crystaliieleanor there are different situations, in my case, my parents are not even interested in how I live, why I laugh and why I cry I hope someday this question will not mean something bad for you, but rather an attempt to understand what happened to you
Only in a Kikuo song can you start out so happy and end so disgusted. I mean this is the most complimenting way ever that Kikuo can portray the worst of the worst without issue. It is genius how accurate these songs are
@@iamcool322 The song is about a narcissistic mother who constantly points out her sons flaws but never accepts her own, saying how great she is and how she'll take care of him because she's so great. Eventually he gets tired of her and runs away, so her insecurities and guilt catch up with her.
My interpretation: a mother is not doing so well and wants to feel wanted and loved so she tells her son that he is useless and noone else other than her wants him. The boy leaves her or commits suicide, depending on what you prefer, and the mother is left alone. Once that happens, she realizes what she has done and understands that she is useless mother. And she commits suicide. n o i c e
I find it scary how listening to the song, the parts where the mother says stuff like "Come here I'll protect you" and "Oh sweet child, good child you belong to me" I actually feel love. A sense of belonging. It makes me question if I'm actually more naive than I realize I am, as someone who suffered emotional abuse from my own mother. I melt too easily to praise. Edit after 6 months: Looking at this comment section and it still feels all too sweet. I'm still so glad to be given this much comfort over the internet 💕 Thank you all so much 💞
I've suffered the same thing as you. I fall in love too easily so my heart literally melts into the smallest acts of kindness no matter how hard I try.
I've suffered from something similar٫ my mom mentaly abused me but instead of feeling happy and cherised by any praise it has the opposite effect٫ it feels like they're lying and makes me sick to my stomach and i think is because my mom used praises as a way to keep me close to her so i wouldnt leave and now i hate praises yet desprately look for them.
I think, in a way, it's because it's genuine and you can tell. The biggest misconception about abuse is that it's an act totally devoid of love. That abuse and love are two opposite ends of a spectrum with no overlap. If you love someone, you would never abuse them. If you abuse them, you must not genuinely love them. It completely ignores that parents that genuinely and earnestly love their children can still be absolutely horrible and damage that child beyond repair. People want clear dividing lines between good and evil, but the fact of the matter is that it's not that simple. Not all abusers are master manipulators where every kind word out of their mouth is an attempt to deceive you The mother in the song loves her child. She degrades him, humiliates him, and openly talks about how useless he is, but she still loves him and wants to take care of him. In fact you can argue that it's not even that the child can't leave, but rather that she doesn't want him to. She genuinely has this twisted, warped love for him where she wants to take care of him even well into adulthood. You respond to that because you can sense the love. You can sense that she's not just saying that, she believes it too. She is a horrible, irredeemable parent, but you see that sliver of love and respond to it. When you're in a frozen tundra, it's only natural to seek out warmth where ever it may crop up
early in 2019, my mother went to another country to spend time with her family. she was to be away for around a month. up until that point, id pretty much caught on that she was..not a good parent to me, and all the things she had done to me were far from normal, despite her constantly telling me it was. id decided that in that month she was gone, id make up my mind about whether or not i was going to finally get away from her. conveniently, my parents had divorced when i was eight, so if i did decide to leave her, i could just go live with my other parent full time, so it was simply a matter of whether or not i had the guts to do it. during that month, i listened to this song on repeat nearly every day. reflecting on my life with my mother had been so overwhelming and sickening, but when i listened to this song it was like i was being given a place for me to put my emotions, so it wasn't just bundled all up inside of me. it really helped me keep a level head that month, and kept me from resorting to anything self destructive to cope. this song gave me the strength to decide i was going to leave her. when she returned, she picked me up from school, and i was silent on the whole drive home. but as soon as we were inside, i told her i had to tell her something. i told her i wanted to live with my dad full time. she was uncharacteristically quiet, before sending me to my room. i was terrified she was going to punish me, so as soon as i got in i locked the door and hid under my bed. it felt like hours i was laying there, but i just put on my headphones, listened to this, and began to cry. my dad came to pick me up not long after that. for a long time, i felt like i had commited a heinous crime, like i was the most disgusting horrible person for leaving my mother. my brain was constantly telling me 'you were just overreacting, she was telling the truth, it was normal, youve ruined her life by leaving her', and so many people around me always told me things in the same vein. they told me she was my mother, so there was no way she could have ever done anything worth me leaving her, which just furthened the guilt. but a few weeks after id left her, i listened to this song again. i just remembered all the reflecting i had done up until i had decided to live with my dad full time, and although i still felt i had done something wrong, it was like it awakened a part of me, spoke to me and told me it wasn't my fault, even if i didnt fully believe that yet. this song helped me with so much, and i don't know if i would've gotten through all of that without it. it sounds silly saying that, that i owe my current life to one little song, but its true. so thankyou, kikuo. thankyou so much.
It's been a year and a half since I left my toxic father (mother was like 7 years ago) and received comments like the ones some people gave you in order to make you feel guilty, please don't ever listen to those comments or feel guilty, your mother was an adult who paid for her decisions, and unfortunately made you pay in the process, you did great and I am sure this experiences turned you into a great person, keep strong and live life for yourself, don't ever get dragged by culpability as I did as the time you spend feeling guilty does not come back. Hope it all gets better for you and live a happy life.
I hope you feel better now, I'm sure it wasn't easy for you to go through all this... And there's no problem to depend on a song, since Vocaloid really helped me too, with a lot of songs, but specially a song called "Iya Iya Iya" from Neru. Some people think it's a really dumb song, but It helped me like, a lot. Really. I'm sure Vocaloid helped a lot of people, that's why I love it so much. And your really brave to tell your story for everyone here
the ending where the mother sings to herself gets me every time. it shows that she was told these things when she was a child, and now history repeats itself. generational trauma
It's also a representation of the mother's guilt for how she mistreated her child. She was 'useless' towards them and now that child is no longer there, making her now the 'lonely child'
This is a good pov for that part, I've always seen it as the child *ffed themselves and the mother felt guilty so she was reliving what she said to the child in her own head
my interpretation is that the mother is now feeling guilt and saying how she herself is now lonely after her son disappeared, either offed himself or moved out without any communication.
@@nessa2226 no need to yell. usually, when you see styled subs on a youtube video (esp. on vids older than 2 years), it was made by a fan using the free softwares aegisub and ytsubconverter.
@@nessa2226 for some reason my last comment got removed by the spam filter? I just came back to fix that it was actually 3 (almost 4 now) years since community captions were removed, but my whole comment is just gone...
@@albedox6428 It may be a misunderstanding, but the lyrics "Issho" on the way sounded like "Issho" and pampered the infant, and I got goose bumps. I love Kikuo's songs, which have a beautiful and cute sound but only sadness.
Honestly, the saddest thing here is how many people can identify and relate. I hope at least some people are finding comfort in knowing they're not alone in these experiences (even though I absolutely don't wish them on anyone, knowing your not the only person to suffer like you can be comforting sometimes imo.) I grew up in that sort of situation too, and I hope y'all know you can get out, you deserve better, and you 100% do not deserve your abuse. Your safety comes before any sort of familial responsibility. (sorry for being so serious in a youtube comment)
This song does an excellent job of portraying the cycle of abuse. Either her son left her to improve his life and the mother is self victimising him leaving her , or a more darker option, the son ended up killing himself. Then it’s revealed at the end of the song the mother also went through similar abuse and was unknowingly repeating the cycle with her own son. The song also gives a accurate portrayal of manipulation and gaslighting. She degrades her child and then jumps to praising him, presenting herself as a saint for taking care of such a ‘ useless child ‘, and that he’d be dead without her and he should should never leave her, clearly to be controlling. Then when he finally leaves, here making the assumption that he left her to find a better life and heal, she self victimises herself about how he left her. But then goes on to degrade herself showing that she may have gone through similar abuse herself and is repeating the cycle. Or, as I’ve already said, he committed suicide, and she have may of came to a realisation of what she’d done to her own child, or even sadder, she may have not even seen what she’d done and then compared this experience to one she had a child ( example: everyone leaves me, even my own son, I’m worthless ).
@@wisteriaaconite1132 yea u right tho there's mistranslating in english, it sound they tone down the meaning-- in English they translated as "ran away from me" "tobitata" means up then down, it can means as jump too (Tobi)-- her child leave her by doing sui/de jump
When I was younger, I would bop to this song carelessly. Now, I see this end up in my mix, listen to it, then realize how much I relate to it. This song _perfectly_ describes my life. Damn.
I'm an 12 year old 8th grader. Its June 29, 2024, 11:47 pm rn. Life sucks so bad, my family is tearing apart, I am trying to finish my assignment and study for tomorrows test which I know I can't remember any answers and just wanna end all this shit because if my body can't be free, at least my soul can be free.
hey. i remember being like you once. i remember stepping on the same shoes you walk on and crying to the same music you do. i remember thinking i would and should never see the light of the day im living today. today i listen to this song and i feel my body becoming younger and more tender, like i was 12 again. but after the music stops, i look around and see the light of the day im living today and notice its different than it was back then, those shoes of back then no longer fit me and the music i cry to is not the same of back then. i also breathe, knowing i like this daylight, the shoes i wear now and the music i listen to nowadays. itll get better, youll change and your life with you will change as well. all i can say is that i hope youll grow old and enjoy every single sunset youll see in your very long life. i will enjoy them with you. stay strong. you are not a useless child.
If you hold out a little longer, something will go right, just as so much has gone wrong and will continue to. I'm sorry you feel so trapped. I do too, and searching is hard, and it's so painful that I just want it all to end no matter who I hurt, but I think of those that actually think I matter, not those who control me, and how much more I want to do with them. Then I think of all the things I want to write and drawings I want to finish, and I hold out a bit longer. Then I see the hydrangeas bloom and wither and the hibiscus do the same, and I realize I don't hate life as much, however useless and purposeless I may be... I don't know what will work for you, but if you hang in there and refuse to shut yourself off into despair, something will find you, too
I'm disabled and my mom always makes me feel like I'm useless for not being able to do things. Whenever I'm taking away a cup or a plate she tells my other sibling to do it for me. She showers me, puts clothes on me, etc. Once she told me that i can't do anything myself and that I'll always rely on her. She told me I'll never be able to move out myself or get a significant other, only to rely on her. I just feel like i relate to this song, almost like a comfort and i cry.
It kinda like the mother take all of her negative feelings for example like her anger to her own child to clear her stress but when her child left or k'll himself and when the mother is left alone and realise that what she did was wrong and feel guilty of herself
Kinda reminds me of a narcissist, They can’t save themselves so they expect their child or a friend to save them, Then fall apart when the person is gone 🤷♀️
Parents: you can tell me anything, I won't judge. Kid: *tells everything* Parents: Stop faking, others have it worse it's the phone ungreatful brat I/god gave you a (list a no. of things that are the general necessity for living). You have nothing to be depressed over. It's just a phase You were literally smiling yesterday! Grow up
Parents: express your feelings. Be yourself. Tell us when you have any problems. Child: states that they’ve been feeling down, depressed, and tired of everything. Parents: *its the phone*
And this is why I never wanna tell my parents anything. Their not bad I just don’t wanna be told whenever I tell them something that happened that I’m lying and that I’m just making it up
This song is pretty relatable to me but more on my self-hatred. My parents have never said I'm useless and stuff but due to my ever increasing self-hatred, I call myself mean things.
Plus I mean parts of the lyrics fit me actually, I look dirty/unclean/unkempt and I mostly am dirty. Even my mum would think I didn't take a shower despite taking one a few hours earlier.
I don't even have a purpose in their house, in their own words I acted like I was just visiting. I am a lonely and sensitive prick who doesn't know how to talk to people or even make friends at this point. I don't even know what happened to me. I never thought that was my home, I never felt truly happy there. I just like staying at my grandma's, I don't feel sad there most of the time.
Ikr, sometimes... No, always, we feel like we only deserve to live if we are clean, pretty, good, kind, etc... Gosh, society sucks, I hate them too Btw please stay alive and life well, so I won't be lonely here, cause you know misery loves company? :')
lol- when i was a child (im from japan) i used to write in korean in my diary so my parents couldnt read it so iw rote everything until i had a korean friend come over and well she asked to read my diary and of course i said yes because i forgot she was korean ebcause we lived in japan- and she cried for me because of my abusive parents LOL-
this song hits home really hard, but at the same time i cant stop staring at the colorful captions ive listened to this for years but i didnt know you could do that with the captions
I remember back in primary school, my mom used to hit me evwn harder than she does now (now is more of mentall abuse yk?) and little me had a notebook in wich everytime mom screamed at them, she would just write "Useless child" multiple times :(
I like how the child is the only person who grows up. Through the entire video, the mother never changes (not even to show her getting old). It's a nice detail.
them telling us we dont have anything to be depressed about is why gen z has the highest suicide and depression count in any generation its because the parents dont take it seriously and then regret it when its too late. I'm grateful that this video shows that it can happen at any age.
This song perfectly captures a broken parent and suffering child. The mom manipulating them into thinking they're completely helpless and nothing without her then playing the role of the only person who could possibly love and take care of this 'useless child'. mentally degrading them constantly to make them stay for the cruel comfort she provides. "before I knew it that child was covered in wounds. Even so, just like that, the child departed" leaving her side she feels abandoned, her manipulation no longer working she cant force them by her side any longer. with no one else to project onto she can't run from her self hatred, she has no outlet, she has always been the useless child . "nobody can save me anymore"
UHM CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW THE LYRICS USED HIRAGANA WHEN HE WAS A CHILD BUT IT CHANGED TO KANJI AFTER HE GREW UP ????
Holi shit
Holy*
... Boi, big brain time.
WAIT HOW DID I JUST NOTICE THIS?!?!
o shit that's deep, like his mother isn't there anymore but her harsh words got into him
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Not a lie
@karlee ballard
While “Gomenne, Gomenne” (I’m sorry, I’m sorry) is also a song by Kikuo
Sorry if you knew this already.
Or if you’re talking about a different song
@karlee ballard
It’s ok（◞‿◟）
sorry if I came off rude
oh ok lol
what about maretu??
Pov: kikuo calls you a useless child for 4 mins and 21 secs .
This song beats the 7 page muda
Best.comment.ever.
Chad Sustituido - 😂
HAHAHAHA I LOVE THIS COMMENT
This was actually in my playlist while I was drawing many times and that’s how I felt.
個人的にはできない子のまま死んじゃうより自分の力で巣立った説の方が、できないのはおかあさんだけだったってむなしさを突きつけられる感じがして好み
I believe that too!
"study, exercise, speaking, you can't do anything" it hurts how relatable this is
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Same
are you okay?
yup
Same
small theory: so we all get the point- this song is about a mom who emotionally abuses her child by saying that he is a useless child, and he is abused up to the point when he is grown up. The writing when he is a kid looks colorful and uses hiragana. But when he grows up, it's less colorful, more neat, and uses kanji. I'm thinking the kid used to write down all the things his mom said to him in a journal or a notebook of some sort, and continued to write them down up until he grows up. The two figures, which is the kid and the mom, I think was also drawn by the kid. Furthermore, the title of the song that shows up in the beginning seems kinda messy, which could mean that he titled this journal of his "You are a useless child". Then, when he disappears, (died, ran away, or something) the mom finds the notebook he's been writing everything in, and as she reads them, she realizes she was the useless and terrible person all along. She reads what the boy wrote as a kid, so the writing is back to hiragana and it's more colorful.
Wow.
OH MY GOD THIS IS THE BEST INTERPRETATION IVE SEEN
HELL YEA THAT MAKES SENSE!
love this
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Theory: at the end, when mother (not the child) says "I'm a useless child" might suggest that she was treated like that in her childhood, and now made her own child leave because she treated him the same way. She feels useless again.
yoo thats what I thought aswell-
Still she has no excuse for what she did to her son
@@meowneownewi obviously, but it just shows how the cycle continues
@@femalechild9060 the son can break the cycle but as far as ik in the comments he committed suicide but yup I get ur point
this comment almost made me cry because this is exactly how my mom is. she abuses me because her father abused her and now that im leaving shes trying to use guilt to bring me back
this song feels like when ur mom does not understand you and doesnt even try while also loving you because of the “i will always protect you” line
Fun fact : As the child of the song grew up, the lyrics changed from Hiragana to Katakana to Kanji.
Nice detail, Kikuo.
Thanks for telling! I just realized
I actually didn't realize, even though I can read characters of both hiragana and kanji. Good eye!
@@stephanierachal6320 I can't even read both of them but I can recognise them very well, that's why I keep on captions.
@Yunn Myat Nay Lwin all hiragana is considered childish bc it's how kids write (as they haven't learned much kanji yet) so him writing in kanji kinda represents how he grew up
OMG KIKUO IS A GENIUS
Parents: Why won’t you talk to us with your problems?
Also Parents:
Parent: I go commit kimi wa dekinai.
child in their mind: kimi wa dekinai parent
Hikoshima right?
they lash out on us for telling them our problems because we told them 😆
SAME PLS AND THEY SAY: these online people dont even know you why do u trust them
A child should never have to question if their parent loves them. Period.
Edit: to all of you who commented, saying things like "my parents never cared" or "my parents don't love me", I'm so sorry. You all are deserving of love and happiness, and I'm so incredibly sorry your parents couldn't provide the love and support they were supposed to. Im adopting all of you right now, and you all will be happy forever. I'll make sure of it.
it's bø time Tell that to the kids, then. And their parents.
@Isabella Van Ginkel 'Tis I, the most fabulous boy. Yuga Aoyama ;)
Yeah. I just accept the fact that my parent really just don't like me _that_ much.
I think I don't belong anywhere
@@NeilaNyaa go to the YMCA
they have everything for a young man to enjoy
You can hang out with all the boys.
ループ再生して聞いてるから、「もしも時間を戻せたら…」って言ってるけど結局戻せても同じ結末を辿る感じがして虚しい
カゲロウと君はできない子が混じった感じに捉えた
ちょっと悲しい
IT'S MY DEPRESSIVE EPISODE, AND I GET TO CHOOSE MY MUSIC.
I feel you on a whole other level
Do you need someone to talk to?
THIS IS MY MENTAL BREAK DOWN, AND I GET TO CHOOSE MY MUSIC
@@BangGanger69 do you need someone to talk to?
@@jasmeien yes
よく親に言われて
親は何日かしたら言ったことも忘れるけど
子供からしたら何年立っても
忘れる事が出来ないくらい
辛くて悲しい言葉でした
アミノさん それ、
親は死ねとか言っておきながら当の本人は完全に忘れてる。私は何年経っても覚えてる。
みたいな？(え)
@@織鈴-n3r 僕と同じ…
子供に落ちこぼれとかできない奴とかひどいこと言った親、大抵覚えてない説
言われた方には一生傷が残るのにね
友達となら平気で言えるかな？
だって友達だって殴られて蹴られ
論破したらご飯が貰えない
良かった……仲間が居た……♪( ^ω^ و(و
(´･ω･｀)寂しかったな……
You know your life’s falling apart when you relate to a Kikou song.
Yeah :)
Yea
tbh just bcse someone relate to a depressing song, doesn't exactly mean their life will fall apart unless they know it is happening and do nothing
@@mightypurplelicious3209 that was funny
@@mightypurplelicious3209 i bet all my 10 cents you are 12
when i found this song, i was around 8 years old or so. i am now turning 14 in a month, i know i’m young but i’ve always felt a deep pit of guilt in my stomach and i’ve always felt as if i’m not good enough for anything, i’ve never loved myself, like, ever, and i’ve just remembered that this song existed and i’m sitting in the corner of my room bawling my eyes out (ily kikuo)
Youre not useless or anything ı guess ım older than you ı think youre not useless ı belive you will found what you love most just wait for now and try to find what can you do ı belive you will found it have a good future
Girl i feel u so much i was sobbing to this song the other day and im not much older than u
kikuo songs is literally the defenition of taking a pic with kissy lips and peace sign while having a breakdown
Is it weird that that this comment made me laugh?
Oof
@@CSriepinkdawg no im laughing now too
lol true
Yep
きくおさんの曲は元気な時に聞いたら不安になるけど、不安な時に聞いたら安心する
Her songs just give that uneasy vibe
まじでそれな
うん 私も.怖い
The only translation is to Afrikaans.
HELP
What happens if you listen to one 2 times in a row?
therapist: gives therapy
card: declines
therapist:
When this isn’t top comment
👁💧👄💧👁🔫
NOOOO PLSVDISHDKDBDOSBDKD
Jungkook's piss?... un chile...
PLEASEJSBSKSGBSSK
YOO HEIJI PFP
きくおさんは肯定する曲っていうより共感される曲が多くて聞いててほんとに安心する
This hits different when actually feel like you are a useless child and you only matter when you accomplish something.
waittt... is this meee
@@pootypootytangtang2 omg trauma twin!!! I shouldn’t be happy about that 🫠
Your so quirky and different omg'1111111¡ please tech me
@@fujotoya idk if you were saying this as a joke or to make fun of me
@@fujotoya 😐youre not funny. idk why youd even listen to this song if youre gonna do that...
Parents: Why wont you just talk to us?
Also my parents when I try to talk to them about something:
Edit: My situation is definitely better now. To the all people sharing stories in the comments or just saying: "Same" or "Relatable", I just wanna say: Y'all stay strong out there. Life sucks and often sucks right from the beginning. The memories and pain will probably never go away, but it's completely alright. It does get better, in my case therapy helped (both for me AND for my mom, and my father is just meh, neutral). Also I can proudly say now that I'm fricking awesome now, and that I grew, and changed, and that's I'm an awesome person, AND I hope more of you can relate. This comment and most replies are now 1 year+ old, so I really-really hope at least some are doing better and even possibly escaped that situation (don't matter if by cutting off certain people or reconciling, everybody is different). And if not, PLEASE do as soon as possible. I do understand that most of the time the only solution is moving out and a lot of people out here can't do that, so I'm not gonna be a big smartie pants by saying: "Lol, if you are unhappy just move out/talk to them/stop doing that and this/etc.". Have a good time of day, remember to eat and drink water properly (unless you are fasting while reading this of course!), go ahead and take care of yourself, you deserve it! I'm proud of you :)
this is true af
ESPECIALLY when they tell you to ask questions but when you do they call you and the question stupid.
Omfg ikr!!
fr though, "you can tell me anything" then why do you ignore our problems when we try to talk to you about our mental health?
@@untrustfulsoldchannel9238 exactly
Song: you are a useless, useless, useless child
Me: 🕺🕺🕺
when i put it in translate it translates to "i cant do it" why?? 😭😓
@@valeria-jh5db just literally Use the subtitles man.
@@valeria-jh5db because that's a more literal translation
@@untrustfulsoldchannel9238 ohh,,thank u!
right like its putting negative manifestations into my head but i cant stop listening 😭😭
2:55 飛びたったは○殺したのか自立したのかどっちか分からないの色々考察出来て好き
It is said that he is covered in wunds no? If not please correct me 🙏
どっちの説もいいよね！
it’s scary the amount of people who relate to this
was it just a universal thing to get abused by your parents?
Sadly, Yes.
I guess so.
Yep. I’m for the most part out now, but not without an attempt to KMS just like he did. I’m okay now.
Lol ig , mentally for me , they don’t know their hurting me though which sucks
Verbal and more abuse from immigrant parents to strict it hurts
Why does this remind me of kids when they say they're depressed and the parents start saying they have nice clothes or they have a roof over their head, or others have it worse so they have no excuse
For anyone who wants like clarification: I mean the parents who do and say all this stuff, and then when you mention you're depressed they act like they never did one bad thing in their entire life to you.
I honestly don’t understand why parents say this all the time like , bro I just want to tell you that I’m not doing well wether it’s me being stressed over homework or me being mentally exhausted due to the lack of friends.
Yeah
my parents are the same, telling me to just get over it when I don't feel OK, and I hate how if I feel suicidal, or depressed, they just walk over it and pretend that nothing is happening with their child.
When I finally had the guts to tell my dad that the reason completing homework was so difficult for me was because I had no motivation because I knew that the moment I messed up even a little I knew I would just get yelled at and end up crying in my room or have my phone taken away I just felt like there was no point in me even trying anymore if I would just keep messing up and I still struggle with loving myself as a person even though things are going well so far for me but sometimes my dad will try to tell me that I dont have a lack of motivation or that what I went through couldn't have been that bad because he went through worse as a kid and he would keep trying to give me "motivational" talks to make me suddenly gain motivation to do work but that lack of motivation doesnt stem from a lack of thankfulness but it comes from a sense of worthlessness in me that's gonna take a really long time to get rid of but he doesnt seem to get that and when I try explaining how I feel he doesnt get what I'm talking about so he thinks that I just dont trust him because I know that what I'm gonna tell him he wont get anyways so I just dont tell him and I feel like that's just driving a bigger wedge between our relationship.
The sad truth of EVERY 12 YEAR OLD IN 2021 (I know cause most of my class are mostly like this)
*"Vocaloid is for children"*
Yes totally..
Why would someone say vocaloid is for chiden that crazy🙄😔😳
Vocoloid is is happy and is fun for all ages!
*seems legit*
literally nobody has ever said that
@@svalerie.001 I have heard people say that about anime. Kinda funny
1:33 ここの「できない でき『な』い できない子」の『な』が好きすぎる
半音違うの良いですよね！明るい曲調なのに確実に傷を残していく感じがして。
i put this on my speaker while i cleaned up and my japanese roommate asked if i was okay...
oh my god
i would do the same
Good for me I know basic Japanese and search up the meaning for every song I listen to now I know that I was right to do so😂
Did he tap your shoulder while he asked you
Oh damn-
Oh- but are u?
Listening to this song while reading people's stories feels like being in a large group hug with people that also understands your troubles and worries
Yes, I got what you meant...
Yes:)
@@taenimin ikr!
*Fr i feel the same*
I can always go to vocaloid songs and their comments just feel so heartwarming
Even in this song where the Mom clearly sucks and is treating the kid bad, hearing her sing that she's useless herself and that the child is gone makes me cry
yeah, i have a theory that the reason why she's saying all of this is because of generational trauma. basically, generational trauma is when someone passes down their trauma and releases it onto their own family, making it an endless cycle of trauma.
maybe in her childhood, the mother also got called useleess alot, and she was called that by her mother (aka grandmother?)
@@司寧々es justo lo que pensé acerca de la canción, al final del día la madre estaba igual de dañada que su hijo solo que a diferencia de ella el decidió alejarse para romper el ciclo
I have a headcannon that this is when the aishite girl grew up. The generational trauma and all the stuff above, but also add in a dangerous amount of perfectionism for a developing, potentially disabled, kid
@@jjaa_joyjoyartistthat makes so much sense
@@jjaa_joyjoyartistoh my gosh I never thought of that
これ聞いてると、あなたはできない子だよって認めてくれるみたいで安心する。
ここからは自分語り。
不快になったら言ってください。
親は頭が本当に良いのに、私は全然だめで、先生に諦められるくらい馬鹿。でも親が「私の子どもなのに頭が悪いはずがない！あんたはやればできる子なんだ！」って馬鹿ってことを認めてくれない。
なんで期末で3点取るようなやつが公立大に行けると思うんだ。勉強しても身につかないし、最近親の顔を見るのが怖い。
ごめん。文章が支離滅裂で落ちも思いつかない。ホントにごめんなさい。
高校受験のときにこの曲に出会ってずっと聴いてる。いつ聴いても安心する。ありがとうきくおさん。
追記
まさか100いいねもつくと思いませんでした。それほど同じ悩みを抱えた方がいらっしゃるということでしょうか…。
できなくて当然だって、できなくていいんだって思えたら、安心できたらどれほど楽なんだろう。
めちゃくちゃわかる！
本当に残念です！ しかし実際には、あなたがしていることはあなたのためではないかもしれませんが、文字通り、世界には役に立たない人はいません。 この曲は、誰かが子供に悪いことを言うので、自分自身にそんなことを言ってはいけません！ 私を信じてください、あなたにはまだ未来があり、あなたが何をしようと関係ありません、あなたは少なくとも何かのために役に立たないでしょう
大丈夫だよ
@@陽-s3w
ありがとう
逃げてもいい
最悪死んでもいい
もちろん頑張ってもいい
決めるのは自分だよ
できたしこだと私は思うな
The best part of listening to these types of songs your parents will never understand them
Unless they take japanese classes or they are from japan ;)
I 100% agree lol
Just like they don't understand us
YES
YESSIR
this song for me is abt generational trauma.
The main chorus is “you are a useless child” which is the mother saying that to her child (obvi) but at the point where the child leaves the chorus changed to “i am a useless child” which is probably them reflecting on their parent/s calling them that and its approaching back to them, and they start to repeat it to themselves since they have realized they have now fit into the mold their parents put them in. but right before the original chorus changed, it stated that “even tho the child was wounded he left my side” which probably means that she has realized only after her child left that she affected her child the way her parent/s affected her which is why she phrases “if only i can turn back time”
I think you're dead-on. That was my impression too. It also sort of reminds me of patterns of abuse most common with the Narcissistic and Histrionic Personality Disorders, which involves a lot of manipulation, mind games, backhanded compliments, flat-out lies, embellished and invented stories, and, of course, a dearth of both empathy and self-awareness. Unfortunately I've had quite a bit of second- *and* first-hand experience with that. The whole song, the mother seems so cartoonishly cruel and her kid sounds like the most dysfunctional burn-out ever, but if you consider that she might be an unreliable narrator to begin with... 🤔
To me it's about how when the child is so traumatised, he commits suicide. The mother is left alone and laments about how she never took better care of him, and wishes she could turn back time. She is useless because she couldn't take care of the child.
Yeah, my thoughts exactly. With the added tidbit that she could have also been treating her kid worse. Using him as a surrogate for her parents and how she wished to treat them.(which in hindsight, is what generational trauma is)
off topic but you're so real for rui pfp
exactly, exept (i don't know why) i saw them as sibblings- (short older sis lol)
Kikuo songs are literally
The melody: 😄
The lyrics: 👁
The music be banging, but the lyrics will stab your heart with pain
fr lol
Nah it's more like
The melody: 🤩😍
The lyrics(translated): 💀😰👿👺
@@poizinarrow5846FR THO
@@klee_likesmasterjeanFR THO LIKE WHAT
これはこれまでの人生で聞いた中で最高の歌詞だ この曲には魂の暗い意味を表す生命力が満ち溢れている
Parents : „why are u always on ur phone and never talk to us“
also my parents whenever I try to say something :
at least they ask you that question
@@yoona6294 I don't know if that's something good to tell you. They usually say it in an angry manner for me idk
@@crystaliieleanor there are different situations, in my case, my parents are not even interested in how I live, why I laugh and why I cry
I hope someday this question will not mean something bad for you, but rather an attempt to understand what happened to you
ify
yea-
Only in a Kikuo song can you start out so happy and end so disgusted. I mean this is the most complimenting way ever that Kikuo can portray the worst of the worst without issue. It is genius how accurate these songs are
Most of them are good but I like when my mom yells this to me
por eso no leo las lyrics y no se q mrd dice pero esta bueno el ritmo asi que me gusta xD
The song:
You’re cringe as hell
Cope harder
I used to go through this kind of abuse, listening to this song now, I find it conforting..
@@iamcool322 The song is about a narcissistic mother who constantly points out her sons flaws but never accepts her own, saying how great she is and how she'll take care of him because she's so great. Eventually he gets tired of her and runs away, so her insecurities and guilt catch up with her.
子供が旅立った後も影だけずっと残ってる…
Ginkogintoki 今更でごめんなさい。
影はお母さんの幻覚じゃないかなと思いました。
首吊ったからだと思います
お空に昇って行ったので空中にいる子どもの影だと思います（今更）
@@おちん坊くん 違うよ
@@おちん坊くん さんが言ってるのって右の影ですか？
自分に対して思っている事を優しい声で歌ってくれるの安心する……………
My interpretation: a mother is not doing so well and wants to feel wanted and loved so she tells her son that he is useless and noone else other than her wants him. The boy leaves her or commits suicide, depending on what you prefer, and the mother is left alone. Once that happens, she realizes what she has done and understands that she is useless mother. And she commits suicide.
n o i c e
Mrs Bitch hahahaha nice explaination
Literally foreshadows herself
Based on your comment, they both probably committed suicide since they both disappeared the same way?
Mother: *wants to be loved*
Also mother: *tells her child she is useless like that is gonna work*
@@randomcommenterheredontmin4390 a lot of people do this
絵を見るとお母さんは寂しいのに強がってる感じがする
nani
こんなにも、たくさんの人が歌詞に共感してしまうのは悲しいな……
同じ意見です。
社会病理を感じる
世界から自殺者が無くならないわけだよ…
@@misosiru-s8o9l6 それは非常に真実です
同意します :(
なんか気持ちすごい暗くなるのにどこか安心するの訳分からんくてずっと聞いてる
3:50からの「ララララララ……」ってところが「うううううう」にしか見えんくて、なんか凄い苦しそうで胸がｷｭｯってなる……。
えっ、その考え好きだわ…。
小さい子の描く『う』に見えなくもない…
とあ。 本当にそう見える、、、
同じこと考えてる人いたw
Tf
「私ってこんなにできない子だから」って言い訳したい気持ちと「あなたはこんなにできない子だから」って優越感に浸りたい気持ちが混在してるみたいで好き
それは正直なところ、これに関する素晴らしい視点です😭
je t'avais prévenu toi je reviendrais THE ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
デスサイド
😊😊
como é amigo?
I find it scary how listening to the song, the parts where the mother says stuff like "Come here I'll protect you" and "Oh sweet child, good child you belong to me" I actually feel love. A sense of belonging. It makes me question if I'm actually more naive than I realize I am, as someone who suffered emotional abuse from my own mother. I melt too easily to praise.
Edit after 6 months: Looking at this comment section and it still feels all too sweet. I'm still so glad to be given this much comfort over the internet 💕
Thank you all so much 💞
I know how it feels. I’m not good at comforting people, but just know you’re not alone and people are here for you.
I've suffered the same thing as you. I fall in love too easily so my heart literally melts into the smallest acts of kindness no matter how hard I try.
I've suffered from something similar٫ my mom mentaly abused me but instead of feeling happy and cherised by any praise it has the opposite effect٫ it feels like they're lying and makes me sick to my stomach and i think is because my mom used praises as a way to keep me close to her so i wouldnt leave and now i hate praises yet desprately look for them.
I think, in a way, it's because it's genuine and you can tell. The biggest misconception about abuse is that it's an act totally devoid of love. That abuse and love are two opposite ends of a spectrum with no overlap. If you love someone, you would never abuse them. If you abuse them, you must not genuinely love them. It completely ignores that parents that genuinely and earnestly love their children can still be absolutely horrible and damage that child beyond repair. People want clear dividing lines between good and evil, but the fact of the matter is that it's not that simple. Not all abusers are master manipulators where every kind word out of their mouth is an attempt to deceive you
The mother in the song loves her child. She degrades him, humiliates him, and openly talks about how useless he is, but she still loves him and wants to take care of him. In fact you can argue that it's not even that the child can't leave, but rather that she doesn't want him to. She genuinely has this twisted, warped love for him where she wants to take care of him even well into adulthood. You respond to that because you can sense the love. You can sense that she's not just saying that, she believes it too. She is a horrible, irredeemable parent, but you see that sliver of love and respond to it. When you're in a frozen tundra, it's only natural to seek out warmth where ever it may crop up
I relate to all of these holy f😭
いつも精神安定剤になってます
きくおさんの音楽で救われる自分がいます。特にこの曲は養育番組で流れるような、懐かしい感覚に浸れる明るいメロディーと自分を突き刺しながらも肯定してくれる曲調とは相反したような歌詞が、曲の1部としてではなく、まるで実際に人が自分に語りかけてくるような、そんな言葉の紡ぎ方でじわじわと心の傷を埋めてくれるような、そんな不思議な感覚がします。本当にきくおさんに出会えてよかったです。
長文失礼しました。
early in 2019, my mother went to another country to spend time with her family. she was to be away for around a month. up until that point, id pretty much caught on that she was..not a good parent to me, and all the things she had done to me were far from normal, despite her constantly telling me it was. id decided that in that month she was gone, id make up my mind about whether or not i was going to finally get away from her. conveniently, my parents had divorced when i was eight, so if i did decide to leave her, i could just go live with my other parent full time, so it was simply a matter of whether or not i had the guts to do it. during that month, i listened to this song on repeat nearly every day. reflecting on my life with my mother had been so overwhelming and sickening, but when i listened to this song it was like i was being given a place for me to put my emotions, so it wasn't just bundled all up inside of me. it really helped me keep a level head that month, and kept me from resorting to anything self destructive to cope. this song gave me the strength to decide i was going to leave her. when she returned, she picked me up from school, and i was silent on the whole drive home. but as soon as we were inside, i told her i had to tell her something. i told her i wanted to live with my dad full time. she was uncharacteristically quiet, before sending me to my room. i was terrified she was going to punish me, so as soon as i got in i locked the door and hid under my bed. it felt like hours i was laying there, but i just put on my headphones, listened to this, and began to cry. my dad came to pick me up not long after that. for a long time, i felt like i had commited a heinous crime, like i was the most disgusting horrible person for leaving my mother. my brain was constantly telling me 'you were just overreacting, she was telling the truth, it was normal, youve ruined her life by leaving her', and so many people around me always told me things in the same vein. they told me she was my mother, so there was no way she could have ever done anything worth me leaving her, which just furthened the guilt. but a few weeks after id left her, i listened to this song again. i just remembered all the reflecting i had done up until i had decided to live with my dad full time, and although i still felt i had done something wrong, it was like it awakened a part of me, spoke to me and told me it wasn't my fault, even if i didnt fully believe that yet. this song helped me with so much, and i don't know if i would've gotten through all of that without it. it sounds silly saying that, that i owe my current life to one little song, but its true. so thankyou, kikuo. thankyou so much.
cat in a tree I hope you’re okay now and that your dad is treating you much better than she did!
omg that’s so sad,, i really hope you’re doing better and i’m happy you have the courage to tell everyone your life story🥺💖💖💖
It's been a year and a half since I left my toxic father (mother was like 7 years ago) and received comments like the ones some people gave you in order to make you feel guilty, please don't ever listen to those comments or feel guilty, your mother was an adult who paid for her decisions, and unfortunately made you pay in the process, you did great and I am sure this experiences turned you into a great person, keep strong and live life for yourself, don't ever get dragged by culpability as I did as the time you spend feeling guilty does not come back. Hope it all gets better for you and live a happy life.
I hope you feel better now, I'm sure it wasn't easy for you to go through all this... And there's no problem to depend on a song, since Vocaloid really helped me too, with a lot of songs, but specially a song called "Iya Iya Iya" from Neru. Some people think it's a really dumb song, but It helped me like, a lot. Really. I'm sure Vocaloid helped a lot of people, that's why I love it so much. And your really brave to tell your story for everyone here
I hope you doing better now bud
the ending where the mother sings to herself gets me every time. it shows that she was told these things when she was a child, and now history repeats itself. generational trauma
It's also a representation of the mother's guilt for how she mistreated her child. She was 'useless' towards them and now that child is no longer there, making her now the 'lonely child'
@@YourLocalTrashPandaXOXO57 seconds ago whatt
This is a good pov for that part, I've always seen it as the child *ffed themselves and the mother felt guilty so she was reliving what she said to the child in her own head
my interpretation is that the mother is now feeling guilt and saying how she herself is now lonely after her son disappeared, either offed himself or moved out without any communication.
歌詞は悲しいけど曲調すごい好きだ
すんごい分かります( ˇωˇ )
わかりすぎて怖い
分かります！中毒性がありますよね！
アイコンかわいいですね笑
子守唄みたいですよね
gg five yrs wtf lodicake
なんかこの曲聞くとすごく落ち着くんだよね。代わりに自分を詰ってくれるから心の中で自分を責める必要がなくなって、何も考えなくてよくなるというか
When you realize she said:
"if i can only go back in time"
But when you restart the song the same thing happened.
underrated lmao
Your pfp fits
OH MY GOD YOURE RIGHT-
OH MY-
Damn
自分の子に過干渉な親の歌だと思っている。最終的に子供は自力で成長し、親の元から旅立つ。そして親が、子離れ「できない」、子供がいなくなって「寂しい」んだと思う。自分の存在意義を子供で保っていた。
子供は自殺したんだと思った
その解釈が一番救われる
あー！それだったら、なんで左の子が大きくなったのか納得がいく！！凄い！
なんか…腑に落ちた。
発達に問題のある子の歌というより、私もその解釈です。
I love how the text appears on the subtitles and the colors of it
Same honestly
Its so cool
I REALLY NEED TO KNOW HOW DO THEY DO IT
@@nessa2226 no need to yell. usually, when you see styled subs on a youtube video (esp. on vids older than 2 years), it was made by a fan using the free softwares aegisub and ytsubconverter.
@@nessa2226 aegisub & ytsubconverter
@@nessa2226 for some reason my last comment got removed by the spam filter? I just came back to fix that it was actually 3 (almost 4 now) years since community captions were removed, but my whole comment is just gone...
11 years old, and I'm still amazed by the craftsmanship of this video. So hauntingly sad and beautiful.
勘違いかもしれませんが、途中の「いっしょ」という歌詞が「いっちょ」と幼児を甘やかすような声に聞こえ、鳥肌が立ちました。
綺麗で可愛らしい音なのに、悲しさばかりがあるきくおさんの曲がとても大好きです。
Is this happy or sad comment :((
@xGleaming_seemingx ohhh how can you tell
@@albedox6428 It may be a misunderstanding, but the lyrics "Issho" on the way sounded like "Issho" and pampered the infant, and I got goose bumps.
I love Kikuo's songs, which have a beautiful and cute sound but only sadness.
@@albedox6428 oops sorry i didnt mean to reply to u
:]
歌詞は寂しいけどメロディーが割と明るいから精神が不安定なときに聞いたらなんか安心する
それな
きくおさんの曲は変な精神安定効果あって抜け出せなくなるw
新発売の精神安定剤!!その名も＂きくおさんの曲"!!!
俺は何がしたかったんだ…
親から酷いこと言われて言い返せないで涙こらえた後にこれ聞いてつむぎ*.さんの言ったとうり安心して泣く
Que dise hay nose japones?
つむぎ*
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Kikou is really good at painting a dark and depressing picture with their songs it's amazing
Real
1.2K likes with 1 comment? Something's fishy 🤨
Kikuo* true tbh
きくおだよ
@@YOURDEMONLUNA 7.5k likes now
辛い時は希望に満ちてる曲より辛いのが共感できる曲が好き
病んでる時とか病んでるのかよくわかんない時とかに聞くとすごく落ち着く曲だなぁ
わかる
どこか、子守唄っぽいですよね
@@たたた-u1w 我知道，對吧
理学療法士
？饿么？…
小学生の時にこの歌聞いた時は「旅立った」って歌詞を自立したんだなって解釈してたけど、大学生になってから聴いて自殺したっていう考察見て鳥肌たった
そっか自立って言う解釈もできるのか
この曲はどれくらいリリースされていますか？
@@fadeyka9879 7年前です！7 years ago
@@momo-hw4fp ありがとう！私の日本語が苦手な方はごめんなさい ‘’;v;
親はダメな自分しか見てくれない、クラスメイトからはハブられイジメられ……だから旅立ったってことか…なるほど鳥肌。
叱責→後悔→自己否定
この流れが悲惨だけどクセになる
it's crazy that they regret it in the first place
they were knew its but they still making its
わかる
どうしても自分が悪いと考えてしまう
でも過去は消えない
死んでも永久に忘れずに苦しみ続けて欲しい
ガチで病んでた時この曲聞くとすごい落ち着いた気持ちになってたなぁ。不気味さとか鬱感も感じるけど「できない子」って言われてるからか安心感がある。あと自分の子を「できない子」だから側において愛していたのに子供が離れて自分も「できない子」と気づく切なすぎる歌詞が好き
ホントに分かる…
自分も、その言葉で凄い癒されてる…
周りの人と共感したかったけど、きくおさんの事で話せそうな人がいなかったから今、凄いホントに嬉しい…
子供離れができない私が1番できない子。
あなたのこと知らないからハッキリ言えないけど,そんなことないよ,きっと｡
@@user-su7ml8lw1r 歌詞の事を言ったんじゃないでしょうか?
（間違ってたらすいません）
@@カステラ鈴-y9j 割り込んで申し訳ないけど断定できないのかも…
うさぎのモフ介
すごい優しい人ですね
what
Honestly, the saddest thing here is how many people can identify and relate. I hope at least some people are finding comfort in knowing they're not alone in these experiences (even though I absolutely don't wish them on anyone, knowing your not the only person to suffer like you can be comforting sometimes imo.) I grew up in that sort of situation too, and I hope y'all know you can get out, you deserve better, and you 100% do not deserve your abuse. Your safety comes before any sort of familial responsibility.
(sorry for being so serious in a youtube comment)
hugs
It’s okay. We needed this comment
No no. Please do not apologize for commenting this. You are 100% in the right.
I kinda needed this, kind of showed the similarities between this song and the relationship between my mother and I.
It’s fine to be serious sometimes
This song does an excellent job of portraying the cycle of abuse. Either her son left her to improve his life and the mother is self victimising him leaving her , or a more darker option, the son ended up killing himself. Then it’s revealed at the end of the song the mother also went through similar abuse and was unknowingly repeating the cycle with her own son.
The song also gives a accurate portrayal of manipulation and gaslighting. She degrades her child and then jumps to praising him, presenting herself as a saint for taking care of such a ‘ useless child ‘, and that he’d be dead without her and he should should never leave her, clearly to be controlling.
Then when he finally leaves, here making the assumption that he left her to find a better life and heal, she self victimises herself about how he left her. But then goes on to degrade herself showing that she may have gone through similar abuse herself and is repeating the cycle.
Or, as I’ve already said, he committed suicide, and she have may of came to a realisation of what she’d done to her own child, or even sadder, she may have not even seen what she’d done and then compared this experience to one she had a child ( example: everyone leaves me, even my own son, I’m worthless ).
Tysm for this text, I didn't undertood some things in the video, this made it clear!
i heard somewhere that the word jump they used was for the suicide jump but i cant confirm that dsajhkjhkdsajh
Speaking like a English teacher
@@wisteriaaconite1132 yea u right tho there's mistranslating in english, it sound they tone down the meaning-- in English they translated as "ran away from me"
"tobitata" means up then down, it can means as jump too (Tobi)-- her child leave her by doing sui/de jump
Exactly! You expressed everything I wanted to say about the song
あーーーー病んだ時にまじで沁みる
なんもできねぇ、邪魔くさい自分が嫌になってこのままだと死にに行ってしまいそうだったのでちょっと救われました。ありがとう。
Kid: -tells anything about their mental health-
Parents: Haha so funny now go do the dishes you lazy princess, then your depression will go away haha
I felt that somewhere in my bloodline, brain and health.
@@volkylolly yes, i understand you fully
Rip lmao i am a boy but its still relatable lol
My parents were gangsta until I tried self harm 💀
@@soobtonin_ Asian?
i love this song sm but “pissed in my flower vase, skips school” will never fail to crack me up
i dont look away from the lyrics because it's depressing, i look away from the lyrics because of that line lmao
I swear it mwans smthin deeper in japanese.. j
@@pluviocore Lmao same
Or the covered in drool snot like that parts fine until the "dandruff piss shit
@@Zinnxx lmao
When I was younger, I would bop to this song carelessly.
Now, I see this end up in my mix, listen to it, then realize how much I relate to it. This song _perfectly_ describes my life. Damn.
I feel you bro
Mine too :(
...same
Same
Same I love. It
I'm an 12 year old 8th grader. Its June 29, 2024, 11:47 pm rn. Life sucks so bad, my family is tearing apart, I am trying to finish my assignment and study for tomorrows test which I know I can't remember any answers and just wanna end all this shit because if my body can't be free, at least my soul can be free.
Don’t give up
hey. i remember being like you once. i remember stepping on the same shoes you walk on and crying to the same music you do. i remember thinking i would and should never see the light of the day im living today. today i listen to this song and i feel my body becoming younger and more tender, like i was 12 again. but after the music stops, i look around and see the light of the day im living today and notice its different than it was back then, those shoes of back then no longer fit me and the music i cry to is not the same of back then. i also breathe, knowing i like this daylight, the shoes i wear now and the music i listen to nowadays. itll get better, youll change and your life with you will change as well. all i can say is that i hope youll grow old and enjoy every single sunset youll see in your very long life. i will enjoy them with you. stay strong. you are not a useless child.
Hey, same. Im all of those things. And i have the same experience. Dont end it. Please dont. Im so sorry
dont give up im sure you can find something to live for even if its little try to hold on to it
If you hold out a little longer, something will go right, just as so much has gone wrong and will continue to. I'm sorry you feel so trapped. I do too, and searching is hard, and it's so painful that I just want it all to end no matter who I hurt, but I think of those that actually think I matter, not those who control me, and how much more I want to do with them. Then I think of all the things I want to write and drawings I want to finish, and I hold out a bit longer. Then I see the hydrangeas bloom and wither and the hibiscus do the same, and I realize I don't hate life as much, however useless and purposeless I may be... I don't know what will work for you, but if you hang in there and refuse to shut yourself off into despair, something will find you, too
I'm disabled and my mom always makes me feel like I'm useless for not being able to do things. Whenever I'm taking away a cup or a plate she tells my other sibling to do it for me. She showers me, puts clothes on me, etc. Once she told me that i can't do anything myself and that I'll always rely on her. She told me I'll never be able to move out myself or get a significant other, only to rely on her. I just feel like i relate to this song, almost like a comfort and i cry.
sheesh
Don't worry about it bro, you can definitely find a job if you're able to write this, and you won't be forever dependent on her. You got this.
This song Is LITERALLY what’s happening to you. Literally
Man it would be wrong to say I understand you but I still hope that things get better for you
I support you ♥
well thats a shit mom ngl and ur sibling is a legend for sure
Sounds like some sad sack needs you more than you need them. Ironic.
個人的には発達障害の子を授かった母親がずっと手をかけてたけど大人になって子供が独り立ちして母親が何もすることが無くなって寂しいのは自分だけっていうまだ助けのある歌だと思っていたい
この解釈1番好き
これが1番平和な終わり方よね。
ああ、それについては申し訳ありません
@@gonfreecss3417 GON????
yeah i think this is a good way to describe it
I’m still able to play this around my parents since they don’t know Japanese, and this also taught me more Japanese.
Kikuo = Education
It is Chinese
Erika Kimi wa is Japanese. It means you are.
Erika it’s Japanese
Education + Sadness (Sometimes)
@@rozcos wooooaaaa did you learn Kanji too??! I had learned a couple hundred about a year ago but gave up because theyres just so many
安心もするし、不安にもなるこの曲
kikuo
bro
you okay?
he'd be not okay if he one day makes a happy song lol
Baiti Husna he did make a happy wholesome song once and it was terrifying
XD
@@turtlebab8781 when was this
@@turtlebab8781
I am SCARED.
*I will protect you forever* So that’s was a fucking lie
bahaahahah nooo
Sad... but true
*”I only want to protect you”* that was Also a lie
my dad said that and im in foster care now best dad✨
@@Virypicky me and your dad are about to fight
Ｙ やっても
Ｄ 出来ない
K これが現実
誰が上手いこと言えと
Ｙ やって
Ｄ できたら
Ｋ 苦労しない
@@編集済み-m2s 話が変わるけどそのアイコンはイソペか......？かわいいな
Y やれば
D できると
K 決めつけるな(((
うまいこと言ってるww
なぜだか安心する曲調になってて好き
この曲、凄く中毒性があって定期的に聴きに来るけど、特に病んだ時に聴きたくなる。
勝手に自分に言われてるような気分になって、メンタル地の底まで落ちるから一気に泣いてすっきりする。
I can't speak Japanese but I only understand this on Google translation so
Same somehow,and I agree on that too
同意します
つまりメンタルのデスベホマってコト......！？
正直すぎる
わかり過ぎて病む笑
3:18 "that child is no longer here" and "nobody can save me anymore" is so sad
It kinda like the mother take all of her negative feelings for example like her anger to her own child to clear her stress but when her child left or k'll himself and when the mother is left alone and realise that what she did was wrong and feel guilty of herself
@@kathycar-xf4xt I think you're right. she probably went through the same thing
her referring to herself as child kinda makes me think she went through the same thing yeah
Kinda reminds me of a narcissist, They can’t save themselves so they expect their child or a friend to save them, Then fall apart when the person is gone 🤷♀️
@@Aghoulwithinternetaccess they definitely are one! narcs tend to ignore logic and go w their own bc it pleases them
Parents: you can tell me anything, I won't judge.
Kid: *tells everything*
Parents: Stop faking, others have it worse
it's the phone
ungreatful brat
I/god gave you a (list a no. of things that are the general necessity for living).
You have nothing to be depressed over.
It's just a phase
You were literally smiling yesterday!
Grow up
Bruh true af
Parents: express your feelings. Be yourself. Tell us when you have any problems.
Child: states that they’ve been feeling down, depressed, and tired of everything.
Parents: *its the phone*
And this is why I never wanna tell my parents anything. Their not bad I just don’t wanna be told whenever I tell them something that happened that I’m lying and that I’m just making it up
That's why I never open up anymore, i just lie, then it gets to the point where even If I have the courage to open up my parents think I'm lying.
@@iwillpegyou247 That's basically my parents,
When I tell my parents my problems,
they say it's because of my device,
I USED TO LISTEN TO THIS ALL THE TIME IN LIKE 5TH GRADE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
OMG SAME??
This song is pretty relatable to me but more on my self-hatred. My parents have never said I'm useless and stuff but due to my ever increasing self-hatred, I call myself mean things.
Plus I mean parts of the lyrics fit me actually, I look dirty/unclean/unkempt and I mostly am dirty. Even my mum would think I didn't take a shower despite taking one a few hours earlier.
I don't even have a purpose in their house, in their own words I acted like I was just visiting. I am a lonely and sensitive prick who doesn't know how to talk to people or even make friends at this point. I don't even know what happened to me.
I never thought that was my home, I never felt truly happy there. I just like staying at my grandma's, I don't feel sad there most of the time.
Ikr, sometimes... No, always, we feel like we only deserve to live if we are clean, pretty, good, kind, etc... Gosh, society sucks, I hate them too
Btw please stay alive and life well, so I won't be lonely here, cause you know misery loves company? :')
Same here.
Same
ずっと寝てたい、もう何も見たくない。
Oyasumi
O
Oooo
永遠に眠ったら、明るい明日は決して見えないよ Google翻訳を使いました 何か間違っていたらごめんなさい
@@Icannothink合ってるし、すごくいいこと言ってる！
君はできない子の小説を読み終わったので聴きにきました。読み進めるにつれ歌詞の意味が分かっていくのは気持ちよく、スッキリしました。この曲がもっと好きになりました。
lol- when i was a child (im from japan) i used to write in korean in my diary so my parents couldnt read it so iw rote everything until i had a korean friend come over and well she asked to read my diary and of course i said yes because i forgot she was korean ebcause we lived in japan- and she cried for me because of my abusive parents LOL-
sending love to you! 😔❤️
Noooooo i feel bad for you are you alright right now?
how did you learn korean? are you self taught? thats kind of amazing tbh
i hope you're okay now
I hope you're okay now!
結構オタクの中で美化された悲しい歌のように思えるが、できない子にお前はできない人間だって呪いをかけ続けた偏った愛情を持った人間が、最終的に孤独を思い知らされるなんとも救われない歌で実に人間らしくて魅力的で素敵。
Not only about otaku.
日本語でこの歌詞を理解できることを心から幸せに思う。
this song hits home really hard, but at the same time i cant stop staring at the colorful captions
ive listened to this for years
but
i didnt know you could do that with the captions
この歪んだ愛情のリアルさ、好きだなぁ… 単に音楽としても大好き。子守唄のような不安定さと優しさ、和声の気持ちよさが大好きですわ。でも聞いてるとメンタルやられちゃうんよな…
そうなんですよね…、音や声的には優しくて安心できるので聴きたいんですけど本当に歌詞が刺さるので聴けない。聴きたくても聴けない曲😢
😐
@@Fishiiion what
@@Fishiiion ?
lol I'd love to know what they're saying ;-;
Kikuo: Makes a super upbeat and happy song
The lyrics: Death, despair, abuse, hopelessness, self doubt, self esteem issues, self hate
Did you say despair- and hope- 😖
@@Kittycakesprinkle:0
“No! That’s wrong!”
He said, hopelessness ✨✨
"HOPE, DESPAIR, HOPE, DESPAIR, HOPE, DESPAIR, HOPE VS DESPAIR!"
@@wisteria8155 In the end, HOPE WILL ALWAYS WIN
@@OKYAH oh my goodness please, everywhere i go i see danganronpa i can’t get away
It breaks my heart that so many people can relate to this song...
(Plz stop venting in the replies stfu)
same...
Same here...
LMAOOO ME 🤪🔫
Yep
I remember back in primary school, my mom used to hit me evwn harder than she does now (now is more of mentall abuse yk?) and little me had a notebook in wich everytime mom screamed at them, she would just write "Useless child" multiple times :(
いまさっき見つけた神曲。すごく、なんか、心に刺さりました。もう何もしたくないし何も見たくない気持ちを曲にしている感じが共感出来すぎて最高です、！！
I like how the child is the only person who grows up. Through the entire video, the mother never changes (not even to show her getting old). It's a nice detail.
I think the mother is immortal shjsshj
@@chaoticrin I think the mother is forever 17 💀💀💀💀💀💀
@@memorymimic forever 21
@@lasagnabed1277 LMAOOO
@@memorymimic this reminds me of something else... forever 17...
them telling us we dont have anything to be depressed about is why gen z has the highest suicide and depression count in any generation its because the parents dont take it seriously and then regret it when its too late. I'm grateful that this video shows that it can happen at any age.
EXACTLY!!!!!!
SAY IT AGAIN FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK 👏🏻
SAY IT EVEN LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE VERY BACK
@@notmitsukiyolol sorry
Yell it loud to the point the deaf regain hearing
This song perfectly captures a broken parent and suffering child. The mom manipulating them into thinking they're completely helpless and nothing without her then playing the role of the only person who could possibly love and take care of this 'useless child'. mentally degrading them constantly to make them stay for the cruel comfort she provides. "before I knew it that child was covered in wounds. Even so, just like that, the child departed" leaving her side she feels abandoned, her manipulation no longer working she cant force them by her side any longer. with no one else to project onto she can't run from her self hatred, she has no outlet, she has always been the useless child . "nobody can save me anymore"
My mother and me right now, sadly she has another target right now
なんかあったかいなあ、、自分を無理に肯定しない歌詞でほんと好きだわ語彙力がないですねはい。
自分が嫌いで嫌いでしょうがないときに聴くと何故か落ち着く
不思議な中毒性があるよね…
WHY IS THIS SO REAL
本当だとも