Video 2 (oh shitty day)

To be somewhat consistent, I have recorded some ramblings about how I felt today, told some stories and... well, I'm still practicing, alright?
Will re-upload without watermark once I have more practice in editing :D

[@fritziundso]

it's funny how much i felt it when you said: i'm afraid that i enjoy suffering.
on the brighter note: a couple of days ago i managed to get out of a slump, by being inspired by an audio book i listened to about changing habits and watching a video from minnie small about reorganizing yourself.
i know how much it helps me to organize myself, by writing down tasks and distributing them to different days of my week, as i always feel like i'm not productive enough but also being overwhelmed by the goals i'm setting for myself. but it's funny how i know that about myself, but only manage to reorganize myself approximately once a year (when i stumble about an inspiring video like a couple of days ago), and then i fall out of it again after a month or two. i gotto work on that! :>
but as much as i think bullet journaling and planning out your weeks and days is good, i think it's also ok, if on some days you can't do it, and i don't think you should call it a failure (even though i do that myself :D) but our brains sometimes just suck and fight against us, so we just gotta try again the next day. yea, i don't really know what i'm saying, but i think it's good though that you upload videos, even though you are still figuring out the editing, so: looking forward to the next one! :)
and boba is the best!

[@prncss_ultimate9134]

I will defo look into Minnie Small, thank you!
Yeah, practicing kindness towards myself is still something I am working on daily. I get frustrated so easily, for example I thought the daily routine goals I had set for myself were small enough, so it sucks that this didn't work yet. And the idea that after all these years I should know better than giving myself punishing labels puts me into a negative loop. Nothing other to do then to try again until it works. I have been better many times, and I have been worse, so there will be better times again.