my story with anxiety

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  • turned off the monetization cause didn't want stupid ads ruining it, I have learned to love myself over a long period of time and I would not be here without all the stuff, good and bad, that has happened in my life. I just wanted to share a part of me that I often keep hidden. I hope this video helps in whatever small way possible because I truly believe that everyone should live the best life they deserve. If you are watching this, and you feel low about anything, just know only you know yourself, and only you can learn to accept yourself. There is no quantity that can be put to your feelings and you shouldn't dismiss any of it thinking that "it's small" or "it's fine I should not make a big deal about it". YOU ARE STRONG and I love you. take care of yourself :)

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  • @siyaaaaaaaaaa
    @siyaaaaaaaaaa 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1033

    "My way of coping is humour"
    I felt that

  • @yogitanarwani54
    @yogitanarwani54 3 ปีที่แล้ว +653

    The fact that he didn't monetized the video for just making sure people watching it don't face any stupid ads just made me look towards him with alot more respect ❤️✨.

    • @yogitanarwani54
      @yogitanarwani54 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @Zamin Khan nope his channel is monetized but he turned off monetization for this specific video.

    • @alchemisticcreator2222
      @alchemisticcreator2222 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@yogitanarwani54 your right that irritates alot

  • @avantinagral
    @avantinagral 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2465

    Dev, so proud of you and inspired by you for putting this out! It takes a lot of vulnerability and strength 💜💗

    • @Triptipandey2721
      @Triptipandey2721 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      You're the best ma'am 🥺💕

    • @sonalimalge3485
      @sonalimalge3485 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      Look avanti is the inly one commented and not his so called other influencers friend ,taneesho, agastya....

    • @ppmenkster3937
      @ppmenkster3937 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      How does it take vulnerability
      I am sorry but do u even know the meaning of vulnerability
      And pls Don't edit after seeing this comment

    • @marvellouscode3866
      @marvellouscode3866 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      How does it take vulnerability?

    • @AR-hf9lq
      @AR-hf9lq 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@sonalimalge3485 yeah you're right

  • @karukakalra8481
    @karukakalra8481 3 ปีที่แล้ว +393

    "Flaky friendships are nothing but a waste of your social energy"
    ~Dev
    learnt this a long time ago and i am happy that i did😊

    • @samyukta4369
      @samyukta4369 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yess! Good for you☺️

    • @YugamBhateja
      @YugamBhateja 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      hey can u tell me what dev is saying..subtitles isn't available bcoz i m deaf.. :)

    • @saumyakala9584
      @saumyakala9584 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@YugamBhateja about how he got out of the anxiety and the low point in life that he once was in

  • @AnitaSharma-gw9kh
    @AnitaSharma-gw9kh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +583

    Can we appreciate this guy for feeling free and telling all his experience

  • @shubhijoshi5483
    @shubhijoshi5483 3 ปีที่แล้ว +85

    bro i started crying after hearing ur voice tremble

  • @sthaetic
    @sthaetic 3 ปีที่แล้ว +708

    Respect that you had the guts to put out your private story. This is appreciated and I love you dev.

    • @monishsingh9189
      @monishsingh9189 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      14 yr old🤣🤣

    • @shaikhaamir1668
      @shaikhaamir1668 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      @@monishsingh9189 thats not a joke he is saying like an adult ...stop this thing dude 🙄🙄

    • @rakhiajaydev7150
      @rakhiajaydev7150 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@shaikhaamir1668 lichrally like i didn't get the point of tht comment. Like it's a serious thing and not a joke.

    • @shaikhaamir1668
      @shaikhaamir1668 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@rakhiajaydev7150 the guys was trying to make fun of the boy by saying 14 yr old thats y I commented that he is saying like an adult .....hope u understand😇

  • @artemiseditz2103
    @artemiseditz2103 3 ปีที่แล้ว +149

    I have never really commented on someone's video but I saw this video when I was feeling really anxious and dude It take guts to talk about all of this on camera.
    I just wanna say Thank you! Because I have this tiny bit of hope now!
    Lots of love and support

  • @sampreethvlogs9308
    @sampreethvlogs9308 3 ปีที่แล้ว +461

    He is the best. He entertains us, he understands us and he helps us

  • @hh442
    @hh442 2 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    actually cried watching this, his quivering voice tells us how much he has been through. More power to you dev! thanks for inspiring the gen-z of india :)

  • @uwuaryaa
    @uwuaryaa 3 ปีที่แล้ว +259

    sending love to everyone who've been through this or is still struggling ❤️

    • @meerakhade149
      @meerakhade149 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      This comment made my day !

  • @reethikaallu2658
    @reethikaallu2658 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    this video made me emotional. I have had social anxiety bcus of childhood trauma. still struggle with it everyday but I have made progress. no one talks abt it as much and how much it effects a person. I'm glad that you did and I'm proud of you❤ it takes courage. also you have such a radiant smile🤍
    lots of love stay strong🫂

  • @sakshiayare7827
    @sakshiayare7827 3 ปีที่แล้ว +79

    ‘My way of coping is humour’
    Felt it for real. Thankyou for talking it out , genuinely needed this ❤️

  • @adrijamandal2900
    @adrijamandal2900 3 ปีที่แล้ว +96

    Ngl this video actually made me feel RELATABLEEE to someone like thanks for making this video . Am rn in 12th grade and with the whole uncertainty thing I get it and plus with covid we can't give any exams or anything and I can't stay with my parents all the time and staying with them for 2 years really sucks but I get them because am their first child , but I really hope I eventually get the confidence to start posting my own videos because ik how much capability as a creative person . All I wanna say is this made me literally cry because how much I felt this video ❤️ . Much love and damn you are goona be super successful than what you are rn .

    • @pathardhruvi3248
      @pathardhruvi3248 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      More strength to you sis! Ik that we don't know each other but then even we're in this together ❤️

  • @riyaaasingh
    @riyaaasingh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +85

    Dev I never thought you have been through all of this because I always thought Dev is kinda chill guy, a guy who make humorous reels on insta , write songs and all that but after this video you completely changed my mind because honestly I can relate alot from this video we all have hard times in our life and we have to deal with it alone, and the part where you said " my way of coping is humour" totally can relate to that, even you had tears and you don't know me and i don't know you but you have alot of power in expressing yourself and you connect to your audience alot and this is great. More power to you Dev and all the people dealing with this, you all are so strong and you all deserve the world xx 🥺🤍

    • @ameysarode6232
      @ameysarode6232 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      for someone the life behind the camera is strange for some its dark for some is as same as in front of camera

  • @ahanaroy2464
    @ahanaroy2464 3 ปีที่แล้ว +124

    Here's my story (a long one though)
    I am a average looking girl and I've been insecure about my looks since forever..I would compare myself with almost every other person I'd see on the streets, on social media. I would randomly gain panic attacks. The worst was when lockdown happened and I was on my room throughout the day scrolling through social medias..those girls with the perfect hair, skin and body seemed so perfect to me and possibly called out ugly to me in every possible language..I was never satisfied with the way I looked..I was overweight..I started starving myself..to the point I collapsed thrice..once I got a bad injury on my lips from falling down..my parents started yelling at me for not eating much..the were concerned..but I still couldn't open up about this to anyone..not even my friends..o felt maybe they won't understand and I didn't want them to yeet my problems away just like that..I'd cry at nights almost everyday..I stopped contacting my friends for weeks...it was a phase I can't explain..it gave me so much mental trouble..but look at me now...I have managed to loose more than 15kgs at home.. eating right and working out..and with the weight loss came a massive wave of strength and confidence in me..I don't compare myself anymore..
    Kids take a note- comparison is the worst form of self sabotage.. you appreciate others and you appreciate yourself along with that..the only validation you want is from YOU and that's all you would need to lead a peaceful life..if you are going through something that's troublesome right now trust me it'll get better..have faith in yourself and move on.. You got this❣️🤗

    • @michinpark5596
      @michinpark5596 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I am so proud of you because you pushed through!!!

    • @kwxvisha
      @kwxvisha 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      proud of you!❤️

    • @dharviandtrupti
      @dharviandtrupti 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      ❤️

    • @hetalvania4086
      @hetalvania4086 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      proud of you girl!!! im some what in the same situation you were in. definetly theres hope for me too. ill to get better.

    • @ahanaroy2464
      @ahanaroy2464 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@hetalvania4086 i believe in you..and so should you.. you got thiss🥺❤️

  • @somyarai2275
    @somyarai2275 3 ปีที่แล้ว +144

    "Nothing major, I'm thankful to that Touchwood"
    *Don't even have wood in my room Wtf*
    Dev😂♥️

  • @just.random69
    @just.random69 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    I have my own quote 💯
    " JUST TAKE LESSONS FROM THE SHITS YOU FACE "
    May God blesses us all

  • @RahulSingh-dk7io
    @RahulSingh-dk7io 3 ปีที่แล้ว +222

    Going through a similar phase as you were in ur 11 & 12 grade, but I still haven't figured out how to cope with it. It just sucks. Zero social life, bad relationship everything is just going down the hill

    • @DevRaiyani
      @DevRaiyani  3 ปีที่แล้ว +208

      rahul brother, i understand that phase and it's the worst. I'm so sorry you're in it right now but i promise you, once you find that coping mechanism you'll learn to love yourself and prioritize yourself over everyone and everything. all the best, rootin for you homie.

    • @Anjali-st4sd
      @Anjali-st4sd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@DevRaiyani soo proud of youu!!❤️

    • @Anjali-st4sd
      @Anjali-st4sd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      It'll get better bro...so much power to you..i am sure you'll figure out a way out of it...🤎😊

    • @anarghyahemanth106
      @anarghyahemanth106 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@DevRaiyani 😇

    • @lavinagoyal5866
      @lavinagoyal5866 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Its ok! U will overcome this, it is just a phase. Just stay strong.

  • @sanjana8955
    @sanjana8955 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    OMG I STARTED CRYING WHILE WATCHING BECAUSE YOUR STORY LITERALLY MINE!!! LIKE THE EXACT SAME!!! I KNOW PEOPLE CONNECT ON GOOD AND POSITIVE THINGS BUT I THINK BONDING EVEN ON THE THINGS YOU GO THROUGH AND PAINS MAKES YOU FEEL SOOO MUCH BETTERRRRR!!!! THANK YOU FOR THISSSSS!!!!

  • @tanisha1d837
    @tanisha1d837 3 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    The fact that i needed to hear this today, it feels like a sign

  • @arwahmohsin
    @arwahmohsin 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    "Touchwood" Don't even have wood In my room wtf- 😭😂 he always try to make us smile whatever the situation is! how cute 😭✨ love you Dev

  • @blahblah6726
    @blahblah6726 3 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    I just wanna give this guy a hug and tell him he deserves the world. We love you.

  • @juveriabanu7743
    @juveriabanu7743 3 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    First, off i am super proud of you because i related so much to this? And I genuinely know what it is like because i struggle with social anxiety too. And I felt so so good hearing such good words from you🥺
    I hope you do well in life, and are able to completely get rid of this issue ❤️❤️
    Stayyy happpyyy dev!!!
    Kudos & cheers to youuu 🥂

  • @diahkhaitan794
    @diahkhaitan794 3 ปีที่แล้ว +162

    hi dev, this is diah here. i’m in tenth grade right now, going to be in eleventh in a couple of months but i genuinely related with every thing you said. i’ve been getting anxiety since the ending of 9th grade and it’s majorly bc of uncertainty about the future, not getting the grades i wanted even after working hard, uncertainty about the school for the next two years, etc. it’s extremely difficult and emotionally and mentally exhausting. thank you for this, made me feel like i want alone. much love to you.

    • @a_beats5529
      @a_beats5529 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hi diah all I can say is stay strong!❤️

    • @JustForFun-il6jg
      @JustForFun-il6jg 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Hey Diah, I am also in 10th just like you and all I want to say is stay strong. I am going through the same thing, uncertainty of my future and the constant reminder of my incapacity from my own parents not to mention the comparison they do with my bro. Yes it hurts when your own parents don't believe in your ability, it makes me lose my own confidence. I studied hard for my boards just to show my parents that I can do well, that I can make them proud too, but luck didn't favour as boards got cancelled. But I love my parents no matter what

    • @OjasKhinvasara
      @OjasKhinvasara 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      lol i m going thru the same thing. And 10th grade is the worst,especially our year

    • @AbhinavKumar-xo5ji
      @AbhinavKumar-xo5ji 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @SARISHA CHUGH yeah i completely agreee with u
      11 and 12 th are worst phase man(especially 11th) So be strong it will pass soon,We all have gone Through the same phase ,i know it's tough but it's not the end And Even i Gurantee u this that after 12 Everything will be fine.
      So just Be confident, Don't lose hope, and be prepared to fight with situation
      Eventually everything will be fine and always focus on good things and just chill🙂

    • @uzumaki_barrage
      @uzumaki_barrage 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Same girl, im a 10th Or i guess 11th grader, and getting difficulty in choosing stream, specifically when u are good at both maths and bio.... And than, out of nowhere a sharma ji ka beta comes and tell u that jee is tough and don't even think about neet,it's hella tough.... These things scares the shit out of me...i know we need to do hardwork in every phase of our life, but this anxiety that is arising inside me currently is indescribable.... Some person says, it's a choice that decides your future and blah blah.... I even sometimes got the suicidal thoughts.... Sometimes I think, I am being stupid, sometimes I think kii kash ye stream choose krne waali cheez kabhi hoti he nahi, like one happens in foreign schools! I know I will end up taking maths,... I hope I won't regret it in future

  • @vaishalibawankar1156
    @vaishalibawankar1156 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    ik, anxiety sucks, but i'm in a stage where i can't tell my parents about it. when u are locked in the house whole day, attending online classes in 11th where u haven't met a single of ur classmates, uncertain how they would turn out, it's soo much for person with low self esteem. with your head swarming with the thoughts is the only good thing in me rn

    • @sanskritiverma940
      @sanskritiverma940 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hey...u know i feel the same. You no I don't know who you are but i just wanna say you are going the right path... literally you are!!
      You have started confiding..you have started letting your feelings out...so you are gonna be completely fine!!. Trust me it works. Always stay true to yourself and others. The fact that you have anxiety will never stop you from doing things. Infact if you at it from a diff way..it actually helps you to confront you and your thoughts. So you are great..you are doing good...and i wish all the best for your future!!

    • @vaishalibawankar1156
      @vaishalibawankar1156 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@sanskritiverma940 omg thank you soo much. Means a lot really. I won't say I've had a big change since I last came to this comments section, but I truly know that I am on that path. I feel soo much better now. Strangers like you keep me going , I think we are great together, people like you and I!!! Thank you so much!

    • @priyanshimishra28
      @priyanshimishra28 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hey Vaishali, can’t do much but I’ll send you a virtual hug!💜💕

  • @kamandhiman3829
    @kamandhiman3829 3 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    "Express yourself, seek acceptance from only yourself and confront yourself."

  • @deeyasings
    @deeyasings 3 ปีที่แล้ว +216

    PCM student, are you? Life becomes difficult in 11th and 12th when there is so much, so much happening. Exams, feelings, entrances. I totally get you. More power to you. kudos to your creativity, you're doing so good. ❤️

  • @poojakarki4050
    @poojakarki4050 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    It's strange how the stranger can connect my thoughts than some of my really close one.

  • @niyatiaghera4871
    @niyatiaghera4871 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Okay, so here's my story.
    I'm in 11th rn. 4 years back, I dummied my school for further studies in Allen. I was 14 yo and didn't have many friends I missed. So, I was all into studies, day and night. For entertainment, I watched Netflix shows. I had only a handful of nerdy kids in my class who never really talked about anything but the subjects. I didn't know what was happening back then but I was feeling extremely lonely. I used to write these hate notes to myself and cry at night when no one was there. This affected my studies too. I lagged behind and felt demotivated. I snapped at everyone for no reason and blamed myself for everything. At a point, I felt like I didn't deserve anything I got. This all was stretched out till last year. During the lockdown, things got worse cause I didn't have my schedule anymore and literally no one to talk to anymore. I used to cry a lot and soon my parents started noticing it. My mom didn't really understand what I was going through so she didn't comfort me. ( I don't blame her, heck, I didn't know what I was going through back then) There was this one day, I had locked myself in the room and dad was shouting outside. Luckily he had the keys and opened the door.
    That day and the next many days, I spent a lot of time thinking about everything in my life. I was starting to forgive myself. I broke down the walls with one of my friends. It wasn't anything sudden but I was feeling better gradually. I was starting to think straight.
    At last, I'd like to say that facing your feelings is the only way to escape them. It took me 3 years to come out of denial.
    Now, I'm back to my studies and I love it. I have started painting for refreshing myself.
    Opening up to the people you think will listen to you is very important. Please do that.
    Byeh!!!

  • @tejaswiraj7396
    @tejaswiraj7396 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    I can feel the pain in your voice bro...dont worry man ! You’re doing great and remember to embrace life. We all are with you always!

  • @adishyagupta397
    @adishyagupta397 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Thank you DEV for making me feel safe and confident that I'm not alone in this!! Felt so relieved 🙂I've been in a situation 2 years back where i did things I'm not proud of... thanks to this lockdown period which made me introspect about my thoughts and helped me in building self belief... I know its going to be a hell long journey but my hope keeps me going!! Although I feel anxious depressed nowadys too but giving up is not an attitude anymore!! I'll try to live up to my highest potential and make myself proud!! This pain, sufferings all will pay at the end🙂✌🏻 Power and strength to everyone out there!! You all are really doing good in life!! Just keep going🌈

  • @harshita526
    @harshita526 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    This video was actually vvv comforting.
    Good to know there are so many people like us, going through the same things like us. It feels less alone

  • @bahohhblah
    @bahohhblah 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    It's really good when people share such stories ..... I can tell from personal experience when the stigma around such stuff is reduced it helps.

  • @bhawnaamrutha
    @bhawnaamrutha 3 ปีที่แล้ว +177

    I got diagnosed with clinical ocd a little bit before lockdown started and it's so true. things don't just "get better" it's a process. and running away from things NEVER helps. much love everyone! stay stunning, you got this :)

    • @ananyaupadhyay9485
      @ananyaupadhyay9485 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I hope u r doing better now :))

    • @bhawnaamrutha
      @bhawnaamrutha 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@ananyaupadhyay9485 compared to what I used to be, I'm much better now. trusting the process is hard but one day at a time helps. thank you for asking. hope you're doing good too :))

    • @ananyaupadhyay9485
      @ananyaupadhyay9485 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@bhawnaamrutha I can understand...wish the best for u :))

    • @honeykumar5448
      @honeykumar5448 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@bhawnaamrutha i m also sufring from this pls tell me how to recover from it??🙏🙏🙏 I m wating for ur reply 🙏🙏

    • @bhawnaamrutha
      @bhawnaamrutha 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@honeykumar5448 hi, I suggest u get professional help because it's different for everyone and I'm not qualified to give advice on overcoming it

  • @niityaaggarwal
    @niityaaggarwal 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    man the reason i love you more than any other youtuber or influencer is that you are so fucking real. it takes strength to come to terms w your own self, your feelings, and letting yourself be vulnerable like this, on a public platform, it's really really so inspiring. so so fucking proud of you for going through everything. SENDING TONS OF LOVE, take care man.

  • @anikaa01
    @anikaa01 3 ปีที่แล้ว +52

    More strength to Youu Devv!❤..and everyone reading this!💯.."
    Accept yourself as who you are"
    ~ Dev Raiyani(2021)

  • @mimansamehta2745
    @mimansamehta2745 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    i have social anxiety too. all this time i was told i am an introvert so i kept ignoring my social anxiety. i appreciate you for what you have done :)) keep going!

  • @ShivamPatel-bq5nu
    @ShivamPatel-bq5nu 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I dropped for 2 years in my bachelors of chemical engineering, at that time i was going through worst part of my life like every morning i regret on myself im dumb (still doing ) but after 6 year of engineering i decided to change my field and going to abroad for master in management field in which i already intrested. now im healing and proud on myself.
    patience and believe are power !

  • @yaashilyadav4319
    @yaashilyadav4319 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I saw the whole video, i went through so many comments, i am so glad that people like y'all exist. A big warm hug to all of you. I can't say anymore words and ruin the feeling. Just know that you are loved, each and every being in this world deserve to be loved and i will always love you all.

  • @sthaetic
    @sthaetic 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    THIS IS WHERE I AM GONNA COME WHEN I have a mental breakdown . Thanks for the video dev.

  • @saniasshah
    @saniasshah 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    dev, i respect you to a whole another level now. look up to you a lot, you’re STRONG man. much love XX

  • @ritika7665
    @ritika7665 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    This is so relatable. Dev, thank you for being so open and vulnerable and making us feel that we are not the only one dealing with worse things. Stay safe and love your videos. Much appreciation.

  • @kunalshah_16
    @kunalshah_16 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I’ve seen you since school, I never knew you were going through this!
    Respect man❤️

  • @ridhimapoddar5615
    @ridhimapoddar5615 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I’m like in 12th and i just get the crying and talking to myself every nightt part . I love you dev for talking about this😭

  • @shivrajsinghpawar7834
    @shivrajsinghpawar7834 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I can literally feel the chill in his voice

  • @anikaa01
    @anikaa01 3 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    While he is talking he is struggling to speak and looks like he will now just cry!🥺.....Anxiety is the worst enemy for sure! Its a process just go on with!..You will heal eventually❤

  • @ruhanikwatra485
    @ruhanikwatra485 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    this video got me in tears and i can relate every thing you've said in this video. much power and love to you.

  • @renukashaha1595
    @renukashaha1595 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    living with anxiety is like being followed by a voice. It knows all your insecurities and uses them against you. It gets to the point when it's the loudest voice in the room.
    The only one you can hear
    SO TODAY
    "go easy with yourself,
    whatever u do today,
    let it be enough,"
    the way u speak to yourself matters
    take a moment now to stop and thank yourself
    for how far you've been trying to make
    changes in your life and all your efforts count.
    love yourself no matter what, do what u love
    and if u don't love ur life change it
    proud of you dev :}

  • @Eliana-uj1nh
    @Eliana-uj1nh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Im in depression for almost a year, and it absolutely sucks. I cant even express about that fuckin feeling but u did and its great. Im facing anxiety nowadays and im having therepy sessions i hope i get better for real this time cus i have been bottling up my emotions which is not good. I faced suicidal thoughts and even tried to attempt twice at the age of 15! it sucks, it sucks so muchh

    • @kaemk
      @kaemk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I had gone through the same experiences but I somehow managed to get over it ...i still get anxious sometimes yaa it suck but please never give up ..if you are stuck on a problem don't think about it just start working on it even you don't know what you're doing but the simple act of working on it will eventually cause the right ideas to show up in your head

  • @ritika7665
    @ritika7665 3 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    Also, this is like a mini movie about anxiety with all the songs in the background and you just talking about your feelings.

  • @aneketburman7773
    @aneketburman7773 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    You can just feel what he was going through by his voice , really appreciate for putting this out 💖

  • @vab5798
    @vab5798 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    to anyone who's suffering from any form of mental illnesses or such :
    *it will get better. believe in yourself*
    hope you have a great day/night

  • @miraejeon6360
    @miraejeon6360 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You said "dont run away" and that pierced into my soul honestly. Thanks Dev, I'm very glad i came across this video. Downloading it for strength.

  • @prithvihangarge3434
    @prithvihangarge3434 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    It's so weird that everything you just talked about makes so much sense to me. As a kid, I was always interested in Dance. Music, Martial Arts, Football, and literally everything that falls on the Creative or Activities Spectrum. I did love school quite a bit only because it gave me platforms to express myself, while people around me always knew and even I knew that I was extremely good at it they never acknowledged it. Mostly because my grades weren't the same as what they expected, I wasn't a bad student I scored pretty good slightly better than average maybe but that wasn't enough for them because of the constant competition they put me at with other kids, they wanted me to top. I still remember 2 years ago back in 10th grade when I took counseling only because my class teacher saw my anxiety no one else did. I was scared to tell my parents so they never knew. A month ago my anxiety started returning and I told my family and they didn't believe me. I don't blame them for it, because they believe If you are privileged you can't have anxiety, which isn't true anxiety has more than just a set number of faces and it can happen to anyone. I never had a problem accepting my flaws or validating my abilities, my problem was always coping. At this point, I have learned how to cope and realized my strengths. Next year I'll be done with school and I'm just waiting to take on the world. 2022 is gonna be the start of my new era and at this point nothing can take that from me.

  • @ashibeniwal01
    @ashibeniwal01 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I would like to recommend everyone to write about your feelings in a diary or something if you don't have anyone to share them with... I am 15 year old and whenever I am going though a rough time or not felling good about anything I write it down with my innerself's perspective and it really helps a lot and after you are done you'll just fell so light that you have confronted about it.
    & ya as Dev said talk to yourself every night.. trust me if you do this you would never give a shit about what other people think or what other people want from you cause you know what you want from yourself.
    More strength to everyone going though this.

  • @sanyapandey2017
    @sanyapandey2017 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I talk to myself and it's completely fine to do that . Idk why some people deny doing that. Because literally everyone does that!! Argo you should acknowledge this and do it more often . You will get to know yourself better . If you don't have a friend remember, you have yourself . It is not narcissism it's just a reminder that you are not alone , you can get through anything as long as you are with yourself. When I was in 7th grade I used to feel so lonely idk what happened with me , I got so socially awkward and didn't like to talk or didn't know how to talk . And now I am in 12th but it's still the same and I have accepted that, this is who I am and also I have a best friend who doesn't require much effort and I know she is there for me. So the point is, just try and get to know yourself better because then only you will start to love yourself and figure about what you really want from this life 🙏

  • @Renebaranwal25
    @Renebaranwal25 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for uploading...love you dev

  • @zoyajamadar1092
    @zoyajamadar1092 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Hey, I have been suffering from anxiety and depression from last 3 months it all started with two sudden demise of my loved ones and hell lot of pressure that I face at my work place simultaneously...the result of it was I lost my job, I had panic attacks, I used to burst out crying, I had night mares, and I had a weird shivering all over my body for days...but now the journey is been more easy as my family and my loved ones understood what it was and even I have accepted the fact that " Sometimes it's Okay to not to be Okay" : )

  • @myrah17
    @myrah17 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    you literally summed up all my feelings in 9 minutes

  • @aarushi1758
    @aarushi1758 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    and so yes, this 18-19 boy is my idol.
    Thank you so much dev.
    i am being through some constant anxiety, like it never goes away, sometimes it gets down and sometimes just..high.
    I won't write some very big comment of how you are helping me but just...You Are and thank you for that and This video.

  • @ishitachawla6421
    @ishitachawla6421 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I had tears when this video ended...I have suffered from anxiety n depression,still am suffering but I feel so alone even when there are so many people around. It just hurts. Never been on smartass side,I have always been a hard-working person and due to my hardwork I have always achieved perfect grades but shit happens in life...death trauma, assholes of best friends, failed relationship and the fun part is all that crap happened on the same timelines and now I am in 12th and that ishita who loved to gain knowledge is gone,I no longer feel like studying and I hate disappointing mom n dad🙁

    • @rakhiajaydev7150
      @rakhiajaydev7150 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am going thru same shit girl!! Just have hope. And their is an end to the tunnel. We will get thru this too!! I promise ill come here after a year when we will be college and trust me!! It's all gonna be good. Have faith. And study well we still have time left!! Coz boards are postponed!!! Love u and truckloads of love and support 🥺😌

  • @vxdee
    @vxdee 3 ปีที่แล้ว +139

    Dude this is the first time i felt like I'm not the only one working hard and not getting these freaking marks . At one I felt like I'm the dumbest boy in the world
    I have lost everything . I'm empty I'm hopeless to be more accurate

    • @manasparanjpe942
      @manasparanjpe942 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Bud let me tell you one thing. Your grades dont matter! What matters is what you know! What matters is what you do! Give your best! You'll succeed. Compete with yourself not with others! ☺

  • @simranrawat836
    @simranrawat836 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I didn't felt like I was watching a video . It was like you are legit talking to me. I mean the vibe was matching. All things that you told . I tell this to me. And honestly anxiety is no joke. I still have it. So what I do is write all shit in a book rather than crying and blaming shits. And music saved my life . So yea . All the very best DEV❤️. YOU GOT THIS

  • @priz9530
    @priz9530 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I think I'm going through anxiety, in India specifically, there are many like us who don't even realize that this is a problem or a tough phase, that's pity .....but thanks to you , to let us all know that behind such beauty, smartness, impressive personality there's a dark side who framed all you !!

    • @dubstepmob8660
      @dubstepmob8660 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hey sorry this is totally unrelated but i think i know u, u studied in SSSV Jamnagar right?

  • @aasthaxdhiman
    @aasthaxdhiman 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    love and relate to every single word bro said.....made me feel so good

  • @sasamikshamishra2424
    @sasamikshamishra2424 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    i always thought i was only one losing myself while trying to be someone i wasnt...11th grade or 7th grade evryone has been through this and this is something really not talked about in detail...it would be nice if everyone shared their story like this so that whenever another teenager is going through it he/she wouldnt be as scared as we were..THANKS DEV FOR SHARING UR STORY

  • @swarnimsharma2887
    @swarnimsharma2887 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I am literally crying this is what I have felt in my past 5 years. and I still struggle with it and trying to fight it every day , but people are still here to remind me everything and now I have lost my self completely.

  • @oleciadsilva4453
    @oleciadsilva4453 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This just made my day so better. Here's to everyone going through anxiety! We strong 😚🦋

  • @anudeepkaur4259
    @anudeepkaur4259 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Reading the comments knowing others also go through the same thing as me makes me less alone in the journey. Everyone one of y’all can get past it, believe in yourself, believe in everything you wanna be, and don’t compare yourself to others ever, you are your own kind and that’s what makes you special

  • @hiteshisukhija4652
    @hiteshisukhija4652 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    i myself am dealing with anxiety from past 2 years and really it sucks. proud of you to share this and i am happy for you that you are in a better place now

  • @aastha7316
    @aastha7316 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thankyou so much Dev! I came here today after I received my mid year results. I am in 10th grade and i am trying to work hard to do well. I didnt do so well and its so heartbreaking when u work so hard and dont do well. U start comparing urself with others and there are so many other issues. I was literally crying the whole day today and didnt eat anything. I had anxiety till last year but slowly things started getting better. I think time is the only thing that can help when u have no one. But now i feel this year i am starting to get those sad feelings again. And let me tell u it actually is the worst things a 16 year old girl can feel. But seeing u in this video has helped me feel better today.❤️ Its not easy everyone has shit in their life and people have different problems and it’s important to talk to someone who actually understands ur problems. U might have heard the song “until it happens to you” it really shows that u need someone in ur life who understands not just u but ur problems as well. Its very easy for people to say “u can do it” “ stay happy” blah blah but its not as easy. I hope i can find the solution to my problems❤️

  • @tishaparmar6088
    @tishaparmar6088 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I loved the way he disclose his all feeling ...... being a teen there are some shit in my life but hearing u gave me a good inspiration ...❤️💫

  • @saimakhatri4863
    @saimakhatri4863 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    self pep talk can make a huge difference .
    thanks dev for sharing

  • @tiyasaxena
    @tiyasaxena 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I'm the only inspiration and motivation of MYSELF No one else! but most importantly when ever I've been something which offends me Or it's any sort of anxiety the best way to share it with MUSIC and GOD! I believe it! ❤💫

  • @boredgemini6550
    @boredgemini6550 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I RELATE TO YOU 100% . It’s same story as mine ditto . I’m happy right now but I have come so far . Anxitey has been my downfall but then again it has made me who I am . And I accepted . I’m ready for challenge or obstacles god has for me . I will cry be sad in pain but I’ll rise from dust again and again .

  • @nikethariyani773
    @nikethariyani773 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Bro first of all I never knew anyone of you like Archit/taneesha/adit/avanti, like it was just archit’s one video on my recommendations, and through that i discovered so many good people online, people who really wanna grow and are trying to entertain and not just trying to make content.
    I got to know about u through their videos but I never knew that u also had a channel of your own, thanks to taneesha’s one video’s description that took me to your channel and I just fricking loved it, also your songs, they have the depth, u have been through all the shit, and ur songs have the feel and are ig only understood by the person who have been through same shit in life.
    Talking about anxiety now, I’m not doing good since last year, the grades, bad relationships, discovered friends’ true sides, don’t have any friends as of now.
    I’m just lonely and Idk what I’m supposed to do in future like I’m good at almost everything but idk what’s my ikigai, and rn I don’t have anyone, my gf cheated on me, like it’s a lot of shit all together, and yes I could relate to this video to the highest level.
    It’s hard to open up with people u don’t trust, but i have understood that it’s necessary to do so, and ig I have kinda did that on TH-cam comments(in front of entire world)and not irl with anyone lmao, but honestly I actually feel good and I’m smiling rn.
    And the reason I’m still okay rn is you guys, like you are really goalss!! I’m just addicted to you guys and Dev your music is just so so amazing and breathtaking.
    Thank you, lots of love ❤️

  • @vritikayadav1857
    @vritikayadav1857 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    i love you for opening up!!! i am going through it right now and u probably know that it somehow feels soothing that "i am not alone" thing. u make us laugh, u understand us, u get us, u help us, u are great dudee!!!!!!!!!! love you.

  • @rainbowsofash
    @rainbowsofash 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Dev I really want to say that I find your content so different yet relatable compared to the other content creators. You are not afraid to put out your real self in front of the audience and show your unfiltered self. I have come across really few genuine, nice , and passionate content creators like you in this field and I really appreciate you for being yourself. I am really happy to hear how you have fought anxiety and be where you are today. We support you and love you. Thank you for sharing and enlightening us about your experience I hope it will help a lot of people. Take love ❤️

  • @vedashreek105
    @vedashreek105 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    More power to you
    Needs courage to share this
    Thankyou for sharing your story
    Much helpful talk
    THANKYOU!!!!!

  • @diptiapage9967
    @diptiapage9967 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Yes Dev it’s so true guyss plsss whenever anxiety, depression hits u plss plsss talk to your parents I kn it’s difficult it’s scary too but consulting a counsellor is the most basic and beneficial thing . My dad is a psychologist and he always says mental health is as important as physical health.

  • @Navnidhii
    @Navnidhii 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    And then music happened, this is what I felt , because I kind of went from the same situation and music was & is something which helped me get through that, and then I started vibiing on my own because I had no one to talk with. And I learnt three things after what I went through those were: be only with those people who you are comfortable with , seek discomfort, do what excites you. Thanks Dev for making this video,

  • @xesaxee
    @xesaxee 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    dev being consistent is like my whole life's complete, GOD.

  • @nanditasingh5119
    @nanditasingh5119 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I feel you bro .. Grades always been my worst enemy fr ..
    You literally said my story..
    It's same for me .. infact i was feeling so low today and this video came to my feed.. and Now i feel better because i can relate to what I've went through..

  • @michinpark5596
    @michinpark5596 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Its 12:30..midnight..and I am in my sentimental mode and I happened to come across this video. I have seen many youtubers talk about these kind of mental health issues and those videos get millions of views but for the first time when I watched this video, it felt like someone was talking to my soul. I am sure every person at some point of time has these issues and it is completely okay. I myself am that friend who gives advice and consoles my friends when they are going through a dark patch of their lives but I find myself unable to make sense with my own demons. Being an indian girl, I have been raised in a family that believes that girls need to be perfection itself- studies, looks. physical features, modesty. behavior and everything else. And at some point all those comments just became demons inside me and when everyone else stopped taunting me, I ended up becoming my biggest bully. I have said stuff to mysef that no one else ever does or would think about and I am constantly worrying about not having done enough or not being that "perfect" person people expect me to be. I spoke to my friends about this recently and they told me to fight my demons but its so much easier to look at it from their perspective and deal with it rather than my own. Every time I walk out on the streets, i developed a tendency of comparing my everything with others. I was never satisfied by myself which made me lose confidence in myself completely. I am definitely trying to get over this phase and I know that I am supposed to not let others' validations define who I am but I always come back to square one. The post that got me into you dev was your IGTV video where you spoke about mental health. This sounds crazy but you are the only person who makes me feel like it is okay to not care about anyone else. Everything you say is just so right. I really felt a variety of emotions as I watched this and I really wish you post more of these kinds of real talk videos because they really soothe me a lot. Thank you so much for existing and coming out on this platform. I will always be rooting for you!

  • @aaratrikaghosh9905
    @aaratrikaghosh9905 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Huge respect for you man. This is so inspiring and "my way of coping is humor" that line hits home. As a person who has been through anxiety, I appreciate you a lot for putting this out. Sending you lots of love and hugs.

  • @prashansasaxena5025
    @prashansasaxena5025 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    In one of your video "My first time Q/A" you said you don't consider yourself an influencer because you don't influence yourself either, but after seeing the comment section of this video I can asure you that you have truly become an influencer ☺️☺️💯

  • @vasviagarwal3251
    @vasviagarwal3251 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I can feel what u had to go through . Even I hv been through such things but I accepted the way I am and that acceptance made me fight anxiety and I stopped thinking about what people said to me cuz that use to effect me a lot . Dev, just accept the way u r . People r their to spread negativity . They just wanna hurt everyone . But don’t get effected by them .

  • @aayusinaik2347
    @aayusinaik2347 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    We are so proud of you dev.. You literally influence so many people out there. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH DEVV... And the fact that you do not for money but for you yourself makes us so proud.. You are literally the bestt.. I wish you all the luck in the world devv.. RISE AND SHINE.. And noone NOONE can bring you down..

  • @OI-ip2rz
    @OI-ip2rz 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Dev I just discovered you...and your anxiety story I'm so relatable to it...I'm still going through social anxiety and I literally can't talk to other people.. proudly I'm an introvert, I was preparing for an exam last year and I couldn't make it and people used to say shits about me at my back...and I'm trying it again hoping for good times ahead.....
    And as you can see from my prof:pic. I started to listen to Billie last year , same things I used to do at my room on my bed , crying & feeling vulnerable....Same music has changed my life too, I started to enjoy music lyrically rather than just listening to big sound effects....it was so nice to see you.☮️

  • @deetyajobanputra6498
    @deetyajobanputra6498 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    dev is so amazing!❤️

  • @ishitab1426
    @ishitab1426 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    TH-cam is somewhere i am unknown and honestly its my safe space
    To dev i see you, love your content :)
    I wanna say that your a very honest person i vibe with that
    I also go through have been through anxiety most of my childhood im 17 now
    Anxiety has taken away so much from me the very little small important unseen things and i know people don't understand that
    But for anyone who sees this i do see you i understand . And much love

  • @mahinanjum6949
    @mahinanjum6949 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Can we appreciate this guy liked everyone's comment 🖤✨

  • @poorvamehta1121
    @poorvamehta1121 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    "Thoughts are the best conversation/communication you can have on your own". 🙌😊
    Respect man👏

  • @dhruvpoddar6707
    @dhruvpoddar6707 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    All your anxiety would make sense once you hit a million or 10 million or 100 million subscribers. Stay strong budd. You are too good

  • @nidasayed1933
    @nidasayed1933 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This is relatable to a GREAT EXTENT. I don't socialize either, I don't know how to, I keep things to myself and I dont trust people with friendships. I dont know how to cope up with it. I'm remain quiet most of the time. I wasn't this person before. Everything is just SO WEIRD. Dev man! Appreciate how you spoke everything, kuddos to you boy!

  • @simarwahan1659
    @simarwahan1659 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Omg it takes courage to share personal things at a platform like TH-cam and I'm glad you did this. This might help so many people and this is so motivating and so helpful. This is a video which is actually spreading awareness in so many ways. Im so proud of you! Lots of love and power to you! ❤❤❤❤
    So learning from this video we all should understand that we should respect ourselves and our interests and not look for validation of others. If you're happy (and if it's not physically or mentally hurting anyone) you can do whatever you want! So live your life and do what makes you happy! You're different for a reason so don't try to be like others and follow your heart❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ lots of love to everyone out there🥰🥰🥰

  • @Navnidhii
    @Navnidhii 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    this video has become my constant free therapy session(video) watching this at 2 in the morning and that too for the 11th time probably.This videos heals me. Dev in my words this is how i will describe this video: this video has a similar vibe to the video (study with me videos on TH-cam) in my opinion and if you would have seen them those videos are so calming and peaceful so this Video iss!! the only difference is just that this video has some motivational or for me i will say (therapeutical) words and music and voice tone. idk even if that’s a word or not. But thankyou Dev. ♥️

  • @nandini8507
    @nandini8507 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    each word, each statement is something that i've been wanting to hear for so long. 💗
    thank you, dev.

  • @gayatrichavan3147
    @gayatrichavan3147 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    The fact that I had a really bad mental breakdown yesterday after quite a while when I thought that it was all in the past and then I saw this today. The thing is at some point we all feel that you know there are more people going through this and even worse so I shouldn't be so dramatic and some of us just shove it in the back of our head which I have now come to realize is what we shouldn't do...John Green once said....Pain demands to be felt. Shoving our emotions or switching them off so you won't have to deal with it, only makes it worse. Thanks Dev! Watching this kind of made me feel better!! Like it's okay to feel what you feel and that you don't always have to be strong that you can let go sometimes...Idk who wants to hear this but know that you're strong and that you can get through this!! Everything happens for a reason and there's something to be learnt from everything we go through....Feel the pain, deal with it, don't shove it in the back, love yourself and I promise that it gets a bit better when you start focusing your energy towards yourself and surround yourself with the right type of people! This is what I say to myself: It always get worse before it gets' better. I'm proud of you Dev to be bold and put this out there! I've got mad respect for you!!! Love you all!!