Crystal Meth Addict interview-Christina
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This one got me. I felt her when she was talking about her dad. And her being the middle child. And the beatings. My biological father use to beat me and my brother never my sister who was the baby. I was the middle child and my brother was the oldest. My bio father also beat my mother everyday. He was a raging alcoholic and drug addict. He never worked. My mom worked 3 jobs a lot of the time. Whe lived in an 8x35 camper trailer on an Indian reservation in NM. We had no electricity or running water. My mom hauled water in 2 55 gallon drums. We got a bath once a week. We we shit in a bucket and I was severely bullied and so was my brother.
I was 14 and came home from school on day and my mom had left. She had to leave or he was going to kill her. So my bio dad had our trailer moved to my families farm. Where my aunts and uncles and cousins all lived. He use to beat my brother so bad. One time I had started my period at school and my biological fathers girlfriend had to bring me some clothes to school. And all my brother did was ask her what she was doing. And omg that night my bio dad made me watch him beat my brother for over an hour in the bathroom slamming his face into the toilet the bathtub and the sink. To the point my brother could not open his eyes or his mouth. I blamed my self and still do because I had started my period at school. He made my brother go to school the next day and tell everyone he was jumped by Indians.
For 2 days wars my life was pure hell. I caught my brother trying to rape my cousin. And I had to run and tell my aunt and my cousins dad who was my cousin but I called my uncle. My brother ran away. Bio dad was not home at the time. When he showed up I was under my aunts table scared out of my mind he was going to kill me. Because I had to tell on my brother. I didn’t want to tell because I knew what that meant for my brother who was 17 at the time. Well bio dad showed up found out what had happened found out I had told. So he was hunting me down with a gun and a belt. I was so scared I was 15 I knew I was about to do e if he got ahold of me. I was still under my aunts kitchen table I had wet and shit my pants shaking I was so scared. I heard him yelling and he got closer a closer to her house. I hear her click a shot gun and hear her say get the fuck of my property or I will blow your brains away. He said give me my daughter. She said over my dead body. He got in his car and left. That was one of the last times. Seen him. My aunt got in contact with my mother and told her she needed to come get me and my sister or we were going to have to go into foster care to get away from my bio father. I remember for 3 days sleeping in the bed with my aunt and the gun waiting for my mom to get to us. We only got to take a grocery bag full of our belongings. It was the first time in 2 years I had seen my mom. We got to the meeting spot for my mom to pick us up. We left the farm and was in the floor board of my aunts truck and a mile down the road we passed my bio father he was headed to the farm. They got the s to my mom we got in the car and drove 28 hours to Nashville TN this was 2 weeks before my 16th birthday.
My life changed for the better we were in hiding for 4 years. I have an amazing step up dad who has been nothing but a perfect dad. He has shown me how a dad is suppose to love a daughter.
My brother stayed behind and continued to live with my bio father. Who was still beating on him until the day my brother died 6/06/1996 by a drunk driver. I really think it was God calling him home to get him out of the abuse. That has been the only time I have seen my bio father since we left in 1992. I was going into my Junior year of high school.
In 2008 my sister was diagnosed at the age of 30 to breast cancer. All the surgeries she had to have she got hooked on pain pills and became a drug addict. I watched her for 5 years just go further and further down hill. And she had 2 beautiful sons. On her oldest sons 16th birthday 3/11/2013 she passed away to a drunk g overdose. So I have lost both my siblings.
My life has not been easy by no means. I have a lot of heart ache and mental illness. But I am happily married celebrating 19 years of marriage this year. We have 2 amazing sons 17 and 13. He is the best husband and daddy in the world. I really got so luck with him. I never knew someone could ever love me the way he does. And it’s not easy for me sometimes with my mental health heartache I go through daily.
I hope this lady finds her happiness. I pray she finds her way out. There is someone that will love her the way she deserves to be loved.
Sorry this is so long but she hit my heart with her story. Ty for doing what you do with these people. Addiction is a disease and I pray for addicts on a daily basis. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
😢 Your story is heartbreaking 💔 I thought I had a poor upbringing. 😢 I am so sorry. Your story is worth telling; should write a book. I'm in awe of your aunt for pointing a gun and telling your dead that over her dead body she could take you. That takes guts. Sorry for all the loses you've endured. 🙏 🤲 ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story. Bless you, dear.
So sorry you went thru all that. Please don't apologize for telling your story, the video struck a chord with you and you shared your pain with us. Thank you and I'm so glad you found a husband who loves you so much, as you deserve, and your boys. God bless you 🙏❤❤
Olivia, thanks for sharing your heartfelt story. I'm sorry for what you and your brother endured. But you hung in there! So much trauma in this world and here in America alone. Sending love and prayers your way!
praying for you 🙏 ❤️ thanks for sharing. You are a survivor 💪 💪
Christina comes across as a very self aware person that has sadly lost her way due to a life of little love or understanding. Having to push your sexuality aside to fit the norm must have caused so much pain. On top of that to suffer such abuse from your children and the streets is heartbreaking. I so hope she can find a way out to a better life.
ya know
@@RacingFactions Not for sure..just my interpretation of the interview
Christina, I wish I could reach out and give you a huge hug! You are so sweet and deserve the best in life. I hope you find that special person. Your ex husband, by far, did not deserve your love and it breaks my heart how you've been treated. Take care sweet lady.
My dad treated her so badly. I miss my mom so much. And I’m glad she’s wanting to get better. I’m the only one in my family that saw that she actually cared for us the best she could
@@Aliciaxx1400 are you related to Christina?
@@allkindsofstaci yes. I’m her daughter
@@Aliciaxx1400 your pathetic-Enoch Schilthuis
This is my big sister. She deserves the world. When she’s not high, she’s the best sister, mother, daughter, friend…. I’m learning a lot about my OWN SISTER through a TH-cam video, she deserves happiness and will find it when she gets clean
She seems like a total sweetheart and very strong for still having hope after all she’s been through. She is beautiful inside and out, I hope she can get off of the drugs and realize her own self worth, because anyone with a kind heart like that has a lot to offer the world. The part where she said her fear is that she won’t be accepted for who she is, that really hit home for me. She deserves to be loved and accepted for who she is and to live a healthy and happy life.
My brother and I unfortunately had an abusive father, punched and hit since we could walk, he use to make us go to his cupboard , pick out a belt/strap that we were to be flogged with. Our mother did very little to stop it, now I think out it nothing.
When we turned 18 it stopped - we were men. Then he treated us different, 360 deg flip.
He died with me hating him, something I have to live with, I should have let it go. He taught us a lot of lessons, most important one - not to be like him. Glad he taught me that one I guess.
We sit down to watch and realize that abuse of some form has been in all of our lives as children. I have to say again, parents don't know how deeply they mess up kids lives and how it affects them all the way into adulthood. I hope she gets help and finally gets the happiness she deserves 💓
I think they do know
Praying for protection for Christina
I called in sick for work tomorrow cuz I accidently took a shot every time she said “y’know”
" I was born with shaking baby syndrome but I'm ok I guess " really she is so positive she thinks she is ok, skid row is like riding the train to the end of the line in alot of ways, then you realize u have nothing and no money to go anywhere, that's one reason so many towns send people one way to LA so much it's insane. More people show up in one day than leave in a month. There is a literal border around it, designed to keep homeless people in.
Heartbreaking story. It starts from childhood trauma. So sad. I really am grateful that I had a happy childhood with great parents. 👍 All these people struggled as young kids. 💔🙁 All dealing with parents or others with very inappropriate & indecent behaviours. 😠
Christina, you have a beautiful smile. Your whole face lights up. I wish I could give you the use of my shower, some fresh, comfy clothes & a safe place to sleep. You seem so sweet & kind. I truly hope life starts treating you better & gives you many more reasons to smile. Love from the UK Xxx
Christina, if you read this, you are a beautiful woman and person.!I hope you get off the streets you deserve it. I wish I was there and I would give you a huge hug. I know if you just let someone in they will see what we see, a very smart and caring person.
I love you Christina. Thank you for sharing.
Poor girl, there is so much light around you...!
The bloody army wat a nasty place for a child let alone for humanity.
Did they say in this video how old she is? I just love this woman who is just so sweet and caring and honest. Wish she could go for rehab and find a stable room to live in and change her life, where she can really enjoy life and really be happy and feel loved.
I especially loved when she sang :)
She seems so intelligent. I pray she can find her self worth and know that she’s much better than she been led to believe.
This is so sad I wish her so much love and blessings ❤️🙏
Christina I hope you find your way to sobriety, happiness and peace. Your children miss you. Your daughter has reached here in the comments…..she said you left when she was 12 and now she is 16 years old and misses and needs her Mom. Please find your value and connect with your children.
Christina seems like she is looking for happiness everywhere except within herself. I hope that she makes some great friend that help her on her path. 👍✌
*_I don't know what fentanyl is, but I can clearly see the devastating result ..._*
It's what took heroins place
It's a manmade opioid (opiates come from the poppy plant and examples would be heroin, morphine, codeine etc) it's up to 50x more potent than heroin. Fentynl and it's precursor ingredients are made in factory's in China, Russia and also being manufactured in Mexico from precursors.
@@DetroitFettyghost how is it sold in the streets ?..pills or powder...and whats a standard street deal ? 1 gram, half gram, 0.1 gram ?
@@nickbrennan3389 Sold in both pill & powder form up here where I’m at. I have no idea the street value as I do not affiliate with that lifestyle
@@DetroitFettyghost Homeboy, how have you been!? I haven't seen you in a while!!!
She has the most beautiful soul…
You're gonna find the right one,hang in there and everything is going to be fine
I have given up on trying to love or be loved and Yep I understand her I've stopped trying to find someone to love me
Someone will find you and love you for who you are
When you stop that's when they find you. Hang in there.
Nashville
You still need to learn to love yourself. It's about paying attention to your thoughts and Refusing to let them run your life! You fight them by telling yourself the Kind things you would say to anyone being told those mean things. That's self love. It's not easy and it's a 24/7 battle which will bring happiness into your heart.❤️❤️❤️
@@marylougeorge9890 Honey That is what I was saying I love myself enough to stop trying to be loved by people that Just are not going to love me back because that is my down fall I love when i maybe shouldn't
@@amyjomichaelhtd4life582 I know that disappointment.
I've tried every drug and the only one I've never touched twice was Meth. I never understood why people loved it so much. Especially now where it's everywhere. Even in places that were primarily dope and coke. Never understood why people would willingly want to be up for a week fighting shadow people.
Lol
As someone who has also taken a plethora of drugs I agree.
Some stay up so they're awake to make sure people don't steal their stuff or rape them.
Wish you better times and the love and care you deserve...you really deserve a great life.
God Bless all these beautiful people with love and hope!
Be proud of you, fuck everyone else.
She's not that person.
Tina Tina Tina ! Oh my God you're alive I cried my eyes out when Enoch you remember him your son sent me that video I've been looking for you for damn near 4 years now thinking that you were dead I just didn't know which way to look or how to go about doing it but let me tell you something you are loved and always have been I'll continue to pray for you because that's what mothers do at least now I know that you're not dead that eases my heart I miss my teenie weenie Tina
Love Mom!
She’s long gone Becky.
@@haleyrenee5960 straight up all these fucking people feeling bad for someone who chose to live like that when she had a comfortable home haha what a joke why can't people see that the kids she has walked out on are the ones hurting the most had to see their mom change right in front of their eyes she put our family through a lot and she pushed us away now that's the sad truth
I hope she read all the comments from her children and sister.
One thing that is so obvious with all of the stories is that their parents let them down also humans are so fragile as children it really matters what a parent does and how you raise your child I feel like there needs to be free parenting classes before anybody has a child that needs to be so much social welfare officer that needs to be so much because at the end of the day in this world is not their fault if they are born with parents that caring that they don’t have to be junkies most parents are like junkies to turn into junkies the reason why they’re junkies children they are is the children on the product of abandonment my dad abandoned me I was 14 and 38 now still affects my life
Its hard being a mother
Shout out thrasher
Wish her the best, you know?
Do I?
Definitely!❤️❤️❤️
She did great telling her story, Mark barely asked any questions.
I wish that he would have asked what drugs her mom was using.
@@amykru Her mom is my grandma she is no better than her I didn’t know her too well I just know that she was hated by everyone in my dads side of the family one truth in this video is what she said about her mother she was a sick woman that got her hooked on drugs as a kid(at least I heard)
@@xH2Ox. I KNOW that this is not the truth Enoch. Just like she told lies about your dad and even about you kids, she is straight up lying about my mom and her upbringing. Drugs will mess up your head, and she has been telling lies to blame others for her addition for years. So many lies, that she now believes them. She has been doing drugs since before I was born. I’m so sorry honey that she has hurt our family so much to this extent. Please reach out anytime.
@@sierrawoodring289 And that’s why I put so I heard thank you for bringing the truth out it’s much appreciated love you and thank you
i hope she will be ok and maybe her kids do care and will regret their behavior. i wasn't the nicest to my mom and even though she has done alot of bad things i was out of line sometimes and have apologized
Take a shot for every "you know"
Real original.
@@marylougeorge9890 it really is you know
@@RealDJStew724 I know, doll.
I can relate to her story so much..36 black female, mom and I’m laying here trying to find a way out of everybody life… think I’d rather be on skid row than my own house…. I’m about to snap
I need help
Omg 😲 I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope things get better for you!!!
@@Dpurple28 I’m trying my best thank you
anyone with a shirt like that is a friend of mine.
If you prefer the same sex I would suggest you move to Burlington Vermont the pretty socialist up here and they're one of the first places that had civil marriages while civil unions and then marriages. Just a thought it's a long ways from where you are but it would work out I would bet
She should probably focus on getting clean and Learn how to love herself before engaging in any relationship…
She'll take her problems with her.
@@christian5707 Truth.
@@lynnehuff9659 yes, of course. The thing is Burlington Vermont is extremely understanding and much much smaller than any cities she's been in. I don't know I watch these things and I try to figure out a way that maybe I could help in some small way.
@@maryschaefer5691 You are very nice. That was thoughtful of you. I was thinking that when I commented.
Ps. I rennet those batons !!! They were no joke !! I got beat with that thing also and it hurts !’
They were real hard!
Ya know
I’ve seen her in Denver
She’s my mom….
@@Aliciaxx1400 that’s cool I wish you both the best
Кристина желаю поправиться! Желаю обрести гармонию.
I knw this is prob stupid to say but all the stories of gang members gang r@ping ppl on here n then I think of all the gang member interviewed...Im not sayn them but none of them tht I can recall have talked about tht aspect of gangs...the s3xual crimes thy commit...I've never heard a gang member discuss how why or if these things happen...not even talkn shit sayn bad members do tht but they dont...im just sayin its only been s3x offenders on here talkn about it...
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2nd
7th!!! Have a good morning Roc!!!
@@Gram72534 Lucky #7! Thanks Gram!! You have yourself a good morning, too ☀️
Unless I missed something, I didn’t hear her mention Fent. She said she’s into methamphetamine.
I think somewhere (somewhere) it was mislabeled. I checked this title and it said meth.
@@lynnehuff9659 yeah the title was changed. Originally it said Fentanyl addict.
Drugs were always the main problem..as is for many...so sad. Praying for you! We are all rooting for you ❤️
@@tammynichols8928 ❤️
The majority of these interviews are so difficult to watch. These people have suffered so much emotional, physical and sexual abuse in their lives it's unfathomable. But one of the hardest things for me to hear is when people say "I just wanted my parents to love me". They're literally asking for the bare minimum from their parents and their parents can't even do that. Utterly heartbreaking
I know right. It's beyond sad
Yeah sometimes I have to take a break away
I feel some kinship with Christina. Not only do we share the same name, but we have a lot in common too. My parents never really got along either, and they fought constantly when I was a child. My mother is a narcissistic abuser who manipulates and uses people all the time. I grew up never being able to please her or make her proud just for being me. Nothing was ever enough. It hit me hard when Christina said that she regretted trying to please her parents- although my dad was always accepting of me and loved me regardless of the choices I made in life.
But my dad was my best friend, too. Maybe not as cruel as Christina’s at some points, but we were really close and he was always there for me. Tragically I was the one who discovered him last month after he passed from fentanyl poisoning. I never saw it coming and never knew he had a problem. It honestly felt like I lost both parents the day he passed. And my grief is immeasurable.
But I hope that Christina can find healing, peace, and happiness too. Life is fleeting and we never get enough time with the people we love the most.
But we are both worthy of love- and while it’s hard to convince ourselves of that fact, it IS true. I’m wishing you the best, Christina. And I’m rooting for us.
She totally and completely gave up on her kids, abandoned them and she clearly stated that she has no plans to make amends with the children she abandoned.
What story did you listen to, did you even listen to her story. She is a pure evil child abandoner, now her poor 6 kids have to live a motherless life. Evil woman, just listen to how many times she says ME I ME I ME ME MEEEEEEE
I’m so sorry for your loss. May you find comfort in the memories you have about him. 🙏😔💔
@@5thdimension625 Thank you. While he was not a perfect man by any means, he left behind an amazing legacy. Every single person who’s ever worked with him or knew him has said nothing but incredible things about him. He was a great person.
I'm sorry for your loss.
May you find peace and healing ❤️🩹
It's evident she just wants to be loved and cherished. Very sweet woman, dealt a bad hand in life. I hope she gets some help
Mark has shown us that the opioid crisis does not discriminate against any walk of life.
That’s been an established fact long before the internet and Mark. For example “A&E: Intervention”. Has society just given up the ability to think and replaced thinking with fleeting, unreliable emotions and feelings???
Mark showed you that? Jeez what a sheltered life. This is common knowledge. Some of you hang way too hard off marks nuts 🍆 🚴
I live right near Kensington. That has shown me why before this podcast unfortunately. If y'all think skid row is bad nope they won't even do any documentaries because you may catch hep just trying. We who care do our best with food and clothes but our govt here does nothing but give needles and narcan. Wound care nurses come when they can but they can lose there job so it's risky. But it's everyone down there. Ages 10-100. All races. All classes. There is a small channel AML that records and helps and put names and time stamps so anyone looking for a family member can at least have someone to ask.
@@quandaharding2977 Love it. Love Mal/AML Films too. He's a doing a TON of good for the ppl of Kensington.
Meth is an opioid?
This is so sad. I grew up with a lot of physical and mental abuse, it’s so stifling and paralyzing. I remember developing all types of phobias and having extreme anxiety. Growing up in pure fear and feeling unloved or like your not enough damages you for life. I have really bad ptsd from the hell I’ve been through but by the grace of god on September 1st I’ll have 8 yrs clean. I’m 48, you can do this girl. Find your happiness, learn how to love yourself and know you are enough!!! Don’t look for happiness in another human being, you will continue to be disappointed, same with the drugs. If no one has told you yet today I love you and keep your head held high, happiness will find you once you find peace within yourself.
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God bless sister 🇮🇪❤️
I can relate
Well done karyn, can relate to everything u say. Sending love to u toox
@@cianoaichir2725 thank you so much my fellow Italian!
Don't let Christina get in your head this was my sister-in-law she was married to my brother she up and left her kids her home her family for choices to do drugs she did not want to get help my brother was married to her for over 20 years and stood by her side every moment through the good and the Bad and the Ugly and she took him for granted he would steal from anybody just to get her fix that includes her kids she claims she tried so hard to be there for the absolutely did not pay attention to her kids at all she didn't have her first two kids for the longest time even before she met my brother she had given them up just as well and then she had four kids with my brother and also left them she does not even know her own grandchild everything this female is saying is the biggest lie I've ever heard in my life if you could put yourself in my family's shoes and see what we went through with her for many years and how much we loved her and cared for her at one point you would be very disappointed that she could even sit up there and lie to everyone! Denying what she chose to do and how she chose going out on my brother and doing drugs around her kids having them see her in such a manner getting brought back to life in front of their eyes getting family addicted to pills at a young age having affairs with other men the list goes on she doesn't mention all of this in her fucked up little interview now what kinda mother is that!? You can give birth to a child but if your not there for them your NOT A MOTHER YOUR A DISGRACE and God will handle your sins nobody can save her unless she's ready to change pray for this female she's very lost and obviously don't care about anyone but her selfish needs
She is delusional. She is as far from a fucking mother, she spins her false truth and anyone that thinks she is telling the truth should have seen how much heroine she was spilling let alone pumping into her veins BEFORE she started crystal meth, or all the times she over dosed in front of her children, stealing money, lying, and making a claim against my dad for assault?? We sure as hell know that she was the one hitting him, everyone thinks the woman is never the abuser but she really proves how bad it can be. Thank you auntie for speaking the truth. I can’t believe how far this has gone she really is a manipulative lying narcissistic piece of shit.
💙🙏🏽
You are horrible. And you have the nerve to talk about God while you carry all that hate in your heart? He will judge you too. Don't forget that.
This woman is absolutely AMAZING. Throughout her perseverance, she has kept her head up, and shrugged off the bullshut. I am amazed at the strength and CONVICTION! I pray for you!!
She’s my mom…
@@Aliciaxx1400like literally???
@@icemaiden6000 yes. Actually
@@Aliciaxx1400 can you contact her? Are you okay?
Your mom’s interview is pretty amazing.
Hope Christina can seek help and find joy again. She deserves so much more. Sending love from Miami.
Sending love from Oregon too
What a beautiful soul. In the end we all just want the same to be happy and loved unconditional ❤. She didn't even seem at all like an addict to me. Praying 4 her.
What a sweet , articulate woman… I hope she gets the help that she desperately needs.
Mentally.
I agree that she’s a seemingly sweet women but she is hardly articulate. She says you know or you know um every other word. That is not articulate.
@@vickiegray690 She was able to express her thoughts and ideas well.. I had no problem understanding her thoughts and where she was going with them …. Were you referring to her grammar ???
@@bthny7955 I agree, she knows her feelings and gets them across very well. I don't mind a few, 'ya knows.' She just wants and needs acceptance and love, like we all want. She is very likeable.
@@bthny7955 I agree. Well said.👍❤️
Bless her heart. She is beautiful on the inside and the outside and I hope she knows that!
Wishing the best for her.
I get the feeling that Christina walked out if this interview feeling heard and cared about. Validated. This is a testament to Mark’s ability to empathize with no judgement. He knows what we all know--Christina deserved better.
I’m her daughter. I definitely heard her. I want to get in touch with her. I cannot wrap my head around the fact I came across this video. I’m not like my dad. I’m like my mother. And I definitely heard her I just want her to hear me. She left when I was 12. I’m 16 now
@@Aliciaxx1400 You are definitely like your mother
Her children and siblings tell a different story that bottomline she chose drugs over family...drug addicts have a very good way to manipulate being the victim...Her son says her dad never hit her idk
Who on earth would she have 6 kids? Something doesn't add up, she's taken zero responsibility.
You're absolutely right and as a family member I can tell you she's up there lying to you people to make her make everybody feel sorry for she walked out on her family and her kids she chose to be a meth addict and now she needs a story to make people feel sorry for that's terrible and that's not the Tina that's not my daughter that's not the Tina I know I don't know what happened to her but that's not my daughter
I agree. All commentators are
ignoring that fact, she contradicted herself;her dad’s her best friend but he beat them. Addicts are very opportunistic
Beautiful soul
Mark...you never cease to amaze me ...I envy your journey down these dark roads.
Hugs to every soul lost along their way xo
Like an onion, generational trauma has multiple layers of neglect, abuse and dysfunction. Healthy love becomes a foreign concept for so many as a result.
Couldn't have put it better if i tried 💯
SMOKING METH LEADS TO DEATH, DON'T DO DRUG'S,love and respect from Dublin IRELAND 🇮🇪🍀hopefully this lady lives to get a happily ever after,
Sweet Christina.. I wish you the best in life, you are a wonderful kind lady! Im sorry for everything you ve been through..
It resonated with me, What Christina said about having to make your own decisions and the trouble it can cause, whene you weren't making decisions for your self for so long.
Life doesn't discriminate. We all get called names. At home. In the workplace. Every. Single day. The relentlessness gets to a person. I hope you find peace darling 💜
I know how you feel except for me it was my sister, my older sister it is really devastating when your own sister hates your guts. She mentally and physically abuse me for years and years and all I wanted was hear love and I tried so hard to please her, I never could be enough, (I took her out of my life because her lpresence is doing more harm than good). I know today it was jealousy, mental illness, her self hatred. I hope that your heart is healing. Love and light - K
@@MosaicMama12 wow, I’m so sorry to hear that. That was very hard for me. When you do everything you can and I was you want is the love of your sibling or your father or whomever and they physically and mentally abuse you, it’s devastating. I’m sorry that you had to deal with that as well and thank you for commenting, I don’t like that that’s what we have in common, lol but it is nice to know that somebody understands where I’m coming from. It’s a weird situation that’s not common as the other subject matter we usually discuss.
This is different than just being called names
@@Dpurple28 until it's you
Did Dope 4 28 years just no it does get better just keep fighting the good Fight prayers from Toronto 🇨🇦🙂 ppl places n things if nothing changes nothing changes 💯💚💜🖤🤍🙂
🇨🇦 stay clean ! 🇨🇦
Bless you. So soft spoken and hopeful. I'm sorry you've never felt loved and have been treated badly. I can't understand why, from watching this, anybody wouldn't want to love you.
Sending prayers and love your way Christina.
Poor girl. I do feel for her situation . Such a sweet soul. I hope she can heal and move on into a healthy lifestyle. She does say “you know?” like most people say “umm”.
I think I get it, she’s not the main character in her own story so she keeps starting new ones but due to low self esteem keeps allowing herself to be sidelined and put upon and drugs make her feel less taken advantage of?
That's a profound statement.
My mom hated me from infancy. I pray she finds peace in her life. She has a beautiful soul! I also hope she's able to gain back a good relationship with her kids! 🙏🏻❤️
Great interview but I'm confused by the title since she never mentioned being a fentanyl addict , she did say meth but I didn't hear any other drugs, not that it matters but just curious if it's one or the other or both ?
I heard meth too.
I hope she finds happiness inside herself and learns self love. All that love and respect she gives to others she should be giving to herself. I know how you feel Christina, my mother was a horrible example and still is. The chaos we grew up in does not have to be our lives. 🙏🏼🫀🧠💪🏼
Facts
Praying for her 🙏🏽🙏🏾🙏🏽🙏🏼
Gosh so many things she said I relate to… trying too hard to be loved by your parents and just getting abuse back .. it never goes away and taints relationships … and yourself. I wish you well and yes love yourself you are so worth it
I learn many things from her than teachers l
Heartbreaking!! She seems like such a lovely person. It's horrible being lonely. I hope she finds the love she's longing for and doesn't settle for the first person who comes into her life. She's worth so much more. Please be careful out there. You're worth so much more than you know. Hugs from Canada. 🇨🇦 🍁 💖
When she says "you know" im like no i def dont.. I just try to empathize
More America .. more fentanyl .. it’s eye watering how many were seeing
I can't seem to enjoy these interviews like I used to. Her name was Amanda Rabb.
Please elaborate.
@@tallentstravels5727 a woman that Mark had interviewed a few times. With the support of her father, they (mark and a sketchy woman named Lima) executed a conservatorship to put her into rehab. Amanda died in her rehab. Lima comes on Mark's channel to read the autopsy results but she lied through her teeth. She is hiding something.
Check out "BJ investigates", a TH-cam channel that shines a light on her story.
I really wanted to believe Mark was a hero but I'm starting to think he's simply exploiting these people for his own gain.
@@tallentstravels5727 Just trolling.
@@marylougeorge9890 uh?
@@tallentstravels5727 They're in here to try and cause trouble.
From watching all your videos I notice all the fentanyl users hands are always very swollen it looks painful
She said she uses crystal meth.
I find it strange that she wants love but left 6 kids behind to start a brand new happy life of fentynal addiction. Generational curses are the worst because you don't even realize you're sick.
I wonder if her kids feel loved by her.
@@yvonnesylten1788 Her kids Abused her!!!
Her addiction is with crystal meth
Great comment!!!
Thank you for seeing what the older kids see I’m her son Enoch Schilthuis she did all this to her self it kills me to see anyone feeling bad for her in the end she got what she always wanted the attention my dad never laid a hand on her she would hit him and saying she was devastated to see her dad try to kill her self is baffling to me she did the same exact thing to 4 kids her husband that repeatedly took her back in to try to help her she chose this path God bless you mother I hope you find your true self
I’m so sorry for the hurt and struggle in your life !! I pray things get better for you !❤️ thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it wasn’t easy to tell. 🙏
Oh my god. This is my sister, well “half sister” as she describes me, we share the same mother but not father. I am both shocked and confused. I haven’t seen her in years because she left and never came back. As shitty as it is to see her like this, I’m glad to hear her voice and see her alive and breathing. I love my sister from the bottom of my heart, I cried the whole time I watched this video. My heart breaks to see her like this, the Tina I remember followed god and took care of herself and never would have imagined herself like this. I fucking miss my sister THIS is not her, not who she TRULY is. I’ve always looked up to her when I was a child. I wanted to grow up to be just like my big sister. We have matching tattoos for Christs sake. That heart she has on her wrist I HAVE TOO. The last time I saw her was actually when we got these tattoos damn near 3 years ago. I am incredibly hurt by her leaving and never trying to reach out when she needed help the most. She knows how much I love and care for her. My heart aches for my sister, it’s so hard to hear what she has gone through while in California. Unfortunately, I can say that some of the things she was saying about her family and upbringing is untrue. Of course everyone has their own perspective on life, but our mother loves her and has been searching for her ever since she walked out the door… we all have. It pains me to know that she feels like she’ll never get out of the struggles of addiction. I just pray to GOD that she finds strength in her to find help before it’s too late.
Tina- if you ever come across this please know but I have been looking for you ever since you left. I just wanted to hear your voice and know that you were okay. I thought that you were a Jane Doe somewhere where I didn’t check. Im so hurt. I don’t have the right words to describe how I’m feeling, all I can do is cry for you sister I wish that you could’ve found the strength in your heart to at least tell me that you were leaving, so I didn’t have to worry about getting a call that you were dead some day. I’ve always loved you and I will never stop loving you. I will always accept you for you are and how you want YOUR life to go. Your baby sister misses so much and I just wish you would get better.
🙏🏽💙
Help her go and find her and offer her your unconditional love ❤️
Already know this will be interesting…
The more I hear these stories the more I sadly accept that life seems to simply be a roll of the dice, mixed in with a random amount of resilience.
Good morning Mark and SWU Family & Christine have a GREAT DAY EVERYONE GBY ALL 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Good Morning from Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener Hi from Youngstown Ohio 🤗
11:30 PM Good night from Michigan.🌜🥱
Opioid addiction is so sad man 😔
She started with opioids and this is where she is now, I’m so sad to see my sister like this
@@sierrawoodring289 sorry to hear hope all is good for you and her 🙏
Get Well soon, Christina! Love, Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸
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@Heroinsniffer4life 🤦
You had a young couple on a while ago. They lost their baby and seemed very down in their addiction at the time. The guy seemed a bit controlliing and also he had face tats. Kept scrolling but couldn't find them. I wonder what happened to them..
The video's still there when you search the channel - 'Homeless Couple-Roman and Jessie'
Ironic how her best memories are from the man that caused her so much pain. I can see her in a brighter future. Learning to love herself without feeling to find someone to be happy, at least while she gets her life together. She has a kind soul.
Looking at these feel so bad for them I’m 8 years sober. This could have been me. Why does this country ignore these people yet give billions of dollars to other countries I just really do not understand. Or is it that just can’t look in the mirror
Well my mom did not like me but loved me ther's a big difference. She identrified prominent deficienceis and correted them forcefully. I have mixed feelings towrard her approach bu know that inspte of her mental problems was a good person.
When we find out what our parents went through a lot of things make sense. Still I had to maintain a safe distance from my mom because she was toxic.
She was on here once before as Christine. th-cam.com/video/qGGmbUy-mW8/w-d-xo.html She looks and sounds like a completely different person. I always wondered what happened to her. She seems like such a gentle person. It´s nice to see her more talkative and comfortable and happier.I wish her all the best.
Yes! I recognized her, too. She looks alot different now, and not in a good way. I wonder why Mark didn't talk about interviewing her before
I'm really sick and tired of seeing these drug addicts that run out on their children when you have children you make a choice and substances are not a part of that selfish is what it is
What a brilliant statement
"If you dreams of getting married and having a happy life, it doesn't stay that way."
We are all looking for love I’ve learned that the love we are looking for is already in front of me when I look in the mirror. I have to be the love. I have to love myself even if I never receive it from another person. I love me! We all deserve that love!