I'm so proud of men that realize that being feminine doesn't mean you're a Women. Feminine Men are very important to humanity. You have a role and purpose in life as a Feminine Man.
Many men who identify as trans are feminine but many more are not naturally feminine at all. Not in appearance or interests. Just as some gay men are feminine and some are not. The same for heterosexuals. I find it odd that he categorizes himself as "queer". Is it because he sees himself as non sex stereotypically male? The term "Queer", like "lesbian" and "woman" are being used in ways which represent something very different than its traditionally understood meaning.
Only a question, does that hairstyle alone make a man look feminine iyo? I remember, some decades back nearly all male rockstars looked that way and I guess most of them did`t want to be perceived as feminine.
@@miriamlana833No, his hair doesn't make him look feminine.... Its his tone of voice, language used and soft demeanor. 😊 He seems like a very sweet guy.
I tried Hormones for 2 month and felt Exhausted all the time. Now I dress Hippie Androgynous and have Long hair and a Beard. I found the middle way between my Masculine and Feminine self. I need both Aspects of myself because I am a Whole Human who Embraces all of who I am.
@@bend3rbot lets analyse the nonsense /lies many amongst you believe in: lie: schools are of use (fact. schools keep slavery alive and stands for dumbing down the population of mankind) lie: moon and mars landings, (fact: even masons know they cannot leave - earth is closed system, unless you want to drown, there is no other place created for us to live in.) lie: news channels share truth (fact: these are for politic propaganda) lie: money has a value of its own (fact: it is just a tool of this world, which value has been agreed upon world wide) lie: NASA lies (globe and all....) (fact: NASA stands for TO DECEIVE) - you havn´t searched - have you? lie: the lgbtq++++ propaganda (fact: it is a part of masonry depopulation agenda, 500 000 000 souls, thats their goal.) lie: Evolution and the dinosaurs. (fact: mankind is not hybrid kind) to keep stating that there was an evolution, then we ain´t humans, we aint then mankind, we are then hybrids. Are you a hybrid? Lie: holidays (xmas, Halloween, new year eve and so on) (fact: PAGAN HOLIDAYS, to praise BAAL, the god of this world) lie: U.F.Os (fact: they are demons/evil spirits in high places, against whom we fight daily = spiritual warfare) lie: rules and laws rule the world (fact: signs and symbols of masonry do) lie: believe in being educated (fact: found daily living with the lack of knowledge) lie: religions are ways to heaven (fact: JESUS CHRIST is only way to heaven. Religions, no matter its name = masonic garbage) lie: our dead loved ones stay around to “ghost” (fact: hunting and ghosting is job of demons, not of humans. We, humans, come from GOD and return back to HIM and all the stories of having been seen a ghost - terrifying, scary, dark, cold - again no job of analysing been done here by you- right?) Lie: Humans have no immune system and we need vaccines as these save lives (fact: humans HAVE IMMUNE SYSTEM and vaccines are created for one or two purpose: to kill or to cripple) lie: there is no GOD (fact: There is GOD, who redeems sinners and we are directly created by GOD, Psalms 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.) to keep claiming that there is no GOD and we aint created directly from the dust of the earth, we soon run out logic, regardless to we place “evolution” in our claims or not.) 15 lies, should i go on?
I don't know you, but I'm freaking proud of you for being authentically you! It shouldn't be about anyone else but you. If the transition is making you feel worse than any dysphoria then you are 100% making the right choice. Be yourself! You seem like a great person! ❤
I'm a detrans woman from FTM in a very similar situation. But on top of health factors and feeling better physically, stronger, more balanced etc I also experienced a deep and intense internal set of changes. My balance issues and physical pain issues, deep sense of resistance etc all healed March thru May this year. I've only started expressing externally as a woman the last 2.5 months, and I empathize some of your challenges now trying to de-masculinize. I hope that this topic can continue to shift us to a focus on deep truth, health, and nature. Both our own and reconnecting with nature outside of us. I'm glad you had great experiences, I too healed and grew a lot into a responsible, successful, capable man. For a while. But now is the time to embrace my new deeper changes and healing. I'm so grateful to find another detrans person I relate to 🙏❤
Have you watched Buck Angel, he likes to talk to people who’ve de transitioned, maybe you could do that? He’s seriously concerned by people being pushed into the ideological side
@@lilacscentedfushias1852 I'm going to be interviewed by Benjamin Boyce soon and I just interviewed for a detrans documentary. It would be crazy cool if Buck Angel ever talked to me, I admired him so much as a kid!
Very interesting. I’m a woman. Never had the option to don or doff my biology. Would never have even tried to. Had it always been easy to “be my true self”? Of course not. This BS that we’re telling ourselves and our young people is so toxic. Life isn’t meant to be easy. Sometimes you just gotta be comfortable with being uncomfortable. That’s life.
Because you are unhappy; you can make others unhappy. A senator said being transgender is like having ice cream for breakfast, lunch, and dinner as he totally missed the point and natal males who are trans are most likely restricting. And I'll tell you this! Nothing is worse for a young person than to see someone like yourself bemoan their sacrifice and complain. That mindset is what makes households dysfunctional and makes kids not want to grow up to be their parents or perhaps not grow up at all. Who wants to get sit at the adult table and be angry?
Dani, life is not easy. I could write a book, I’m sure so many others could too. Puberty can be the most difficult time for young people. My , then, 14 year old daughter told me2 years ago, ‘you have no idea how I feel, you never had hormones’.
Because your cisgender experience applies to all humans? The issue isn’t with trans people. The problem is with society’s obsession with binary and not having sufficient trans healthcare so the already tiny amount who de transition can be even smaller by having better screening and acceptance of agender and non binary people
@@LeMattiekinz I am not “cisgender”. I take great offence to that terminology, not least because it was popularised by people whose intentions were very shady. And the binary is a biological reality. Not a single person on this planet would exist without it! Feel whatever you want to feel, but your feelings do not change the fact that there are two biological sexes. And this video only helps to prove that!
@@RayAlexWilliamsthanks for your story. Are you biologically male? I'm asking because I'm new to all this lgbtq and I'm not familiar with all the terminology.
I love seeing LGBT people who are chill and operate as individual people, with no loyalty to some dogma or another. Good for you for doing what was right for you then, and what is right for you now!! I transitioned about 10 years ago (FTM) and it has worked out seamlessly for me, but if I ever hit a point where it made sense for me to stop HRT, that’s what I’d do.
I wish you all the best as you embrace your maleness. The expenditure of mental energy you describe is exactly what I imagined it would be for a trans person. Thank you for the honesty.
I'm a nonbinary transfem and I appreciate this testimony! Transition definitely doesn't fix your life, but most of us are happier than we were before--even if we find ourselves with new problems, they tend to be preferable. For Ray, they weren't, and that's fine too. The point is for people to be happier, and I'm glad we live in a society where people can give it a shot rather than never know. I think a lot of the problem isn't the act of transition itself, but the overly rigid ways we think about it on both the cis and trans sides of the fence. The pressure to "pass", internally and externally, is immense, and it ends up reinforcing restrictive, sexist prescriptions for speech and behavior. It takes work to not let it get to you, whether or not passing is even your goal. What's remarkable is how many of us--almost all of us--prefer to take on that work rather than reverse course.
I work as a pharmacy technician. Most the medication isn’t tested long term, meaning they have no clue what being on pharmaceuticals for years actually does to people. I think you are extremely wise to focus on your health and well being over, trying to sustain a lifestyle to please others. I’m proud of you for having the courage to just be the authentic you.
@@picklesbangyourhead3005 so was Zantac (ranitidine) which was recalled a couple years ago because it was found to cause stomach cancer after long term use, so saying something has been on the market for a long doesn’t mean it’s safe.
HRT for male to female is typically a testosterone block and exogenous estrogen. It's pretty well understood what estrogen and estradiol does to the body, even the male body, at the doses we see for male to female HRT. This is not necessarily an unknown area of medicine. If we required 50 years of testing before we approved any new medicine, then nothing would get done. Certain androgen antagonists, sure, those can get more complicated, depending. But as far as I can tell, there are no red flags or alarms coming out from researchers about these drugs.
@@RayAlexWilliams- in Jesus name, I'm so happy you are getting to genuinely love yourself the way you were designed to be- a male in a male's body. Keep growing to be comfortable in your own skin. You're the only who can do that, because that is how you were designed to be even before you were born. Repent and draw closer to Jesus. Obey Acts 2:38 in the Bible. God bless
Love how honest you are about why you have chosen to de transition. Appreciate the fact that you personally are doing it for your health and to support a less stressful life for yourself. Wishing you a happy and healthy future.
@@YouHaveAnEffect I'll try to keep it short because TH-cam isn't the best medium to type lol. Between all humans are certain expectations no matter how correct or incorrect. When expectations are violated, humans literally experience cognitive tension. Some basic expectations between gender, and this is context dependent, are that men and women should look and operate in certain ways. When a person who is trans, and not passing, it's expected that wherever he or she goes, they will violate gendered expectations. There are consequences for this, some positive, neutral, or negative. It's really a big ask of the majority of people who don't adhere to mainstream, pop gender ideology to change their behaviour in the face of non-passing trans. I'm not sure if this person was passing or not but for people who aren't passing, they'd be embarking on a lifelong, uphill battle trying to get society to see them as they want to be seen. If you have time, check out expectancy violation theory (EVT).
I fully respect your de-transition and I'm happy that you finally found yourself again. But for allot of us, transitioning DOES fix our lives, and not all of us are thinking too much about passing, how we carry ourselves etc. Just like allot of cis people also don't put that much effort into it. It just comes naturally. I don't necessarily need to be called a woman. Opinions from anti-trans people don't really affect me anymore. I just follow my heart, what sparks joy. And transitioning is hands down the best thing that ever happened to me. I thought I'd be ostracized by Family, friends and potential partners. But the complete opposite happened. Suddenly people approach me instead, which feels weird haha. I thought I was just a lazy, shy and melancholic person, but found out that I'm actually quite driven and outgoing! I just had to be comfortable with myself
Very emotionally mature. You are beautiful, as a male. You are quite androgynous looking, but you do look and sound male, when you state that. I think you are very handsome and manly, a the same time. Congrats on your growth and healing within your gender.
Just one step in your lifelong exploration of who you are to yourself and others. There are so many ways to express your own person these days. Trans. Non-binary. Queer. Straight. And things in between. I have begun following a Japanese woman who met her husband when she was male and they had a relationship and that relationship lasted after she transitioned. Congrats on feeling good about this process.
It’s hard to be human and I am happy you’re figuring out that being you is enough. I hope you do an update in a 3-4-5 years, to see how you feel when you’re a few years past detransitioning.
You are searching for a new form of masculinity. Please keep talking and posting updates. You may be a role model to many and maybe become a famous trendsetter.
*And this is why people shouldn't demonize people for calling themselves non-binary. you can still dress and act like the opposite sex without having to transition. it's a less invasive option*
Based. You're going to make it, bro. Stay strong. Glad you're back on the righteous path. You have a nice jawline, don't waste it trying to be something you're not. Whether you're gay or straight, you're going to have better luck finding the right person for you by simply being who you are.
@@MrBibi86 never try to fit in cause we will never "fit in", always be yourself without claiming labels. Labels only limit us. Those who see you as you won’t make you feel like you have to try. Around them you won’t have to, it’s pretty cool and boost self esteem a lot
Thanks for sharing your experiences. Glad you are back on track and that you worked through whatever it was you needed to work through personally . You did obviously experience quite a lot of physical damage but it is good you didn't go the way of surgery.
Thank you for sharing your story, Ray. It is really tragic how personal discovery and exploration are used as political bludgeons to downplay the experience of those who are genderqueer. Ultimately hormones, passing training, clothes and adopting social conventions are *tools* to help us understand ourselves better. Some people find comfort in gendered codes and conventions, and good for them! The human experience, however, is too complex for that to be what’s right for everybody who expresses their gender differently. Some people might dislike you for detransitioning, others will applaud you, and hold you up as some sort of anti-trans martyr. Both groups of people are missing the point entirely, which is about figuring out who you are, and what works for you, as unique and beautiful of a human being you are. “Despite everything, it is still you”
Glad to hear that the return to physical health motivated you and that your body responded so well. The journey somehow allowed you to integrate your psyche and embrace your masculinity. B est of luck! Do you have any advice for young people considering transition?
This is so well spoken. Non-judgmental, self aware with no regrets, a bunch of gratitude, and lessons for the vault of life's journey. It makes me sad to see others who are having difficulty detransitioning because they are going through more shame and probably feel even more scrutiny. It's just a pathway. Some people have gender journeys, or sexuality journeys, or relationship journeys, weight/appearance, mental health, it goes on. Sometimes all intertwined. It is just difficult when a journey is more physical (like a gender or weight journey) and therefore more public.
I've been in hormonal transition for 22 months, I started at 27, gave up after 7 months, returned at 31 and have been retraining for almost 2 years. I SUPER support you, and I super understand all these issues, I have a video on my channel about my experience. I'm tired of pronouns, of many things, but I'm still taking the hormones, I really love the effects, they won't make me pass, I just want an orchiectomy, and I'm really in doubt about the silicon, because I'm in this non-binary aspect, What matters is your happiness, but I feel great, there are ways to have safe hormonal therapy (orhiectomy) and transdermal estradiol.
This phenomenon will stop trending in a year or so. People will lose interest in becoming part of it just like they lost interest in lip fillers, buccal fat removal and bbls and Qanon last year. Also how can you replicate a biological women's looks or essence, especially that of the most gorgeous biological women in the world (which let's face it ,that's what they are desperate to get)?? It is not realistic or attainable and never will be. Cosmetic surgeons and endocrinologist aren't beauticians or magicians. And makeup doesn't work either. It can only enhance what's there but it can't turn someone into a woman or supermodel. This is all smoke and mirrors.
@@9395gb Sounds like you have issues! You don't let yourself masculinize in youth and become anorexic to stunt male characteristics especially if hormones and blockers aren't coming. Blockers alone will make a male TALLER than he would have been if male puberty played out. I heard teacher in the 90s describe how one fella couldn't handle a summer growth spurt and when he came back people treated him differently and he killed himself. That failure to either stunt or to except the new body was attributed as a developmental issue and not a gender issue like it is today. Everybody of age wants to push the kid toward acceptance and forcing that but that in my eyes is akin to rape and needs to be met with force.
Truth is important. There are all types of men and women. Some more feminine some more masculine, and that's ok. Keep it, don't cut it, because you will NEVER become the opposite sex, it's a delusion, it's impossible, and it won't bring you happiness. Just be you
It's great that you highlighted the fact that human minds can change over time, and how you do not regret your decisions. Also about how mainstream trans activism have issues instead of feeding transphobic views of different cults to use this as a weapon againts common tran people's lives... And definitely about how trans is not black and white being queer cannot be mapped and catergorized it's just trans people are trying to live up to the expectations of society trying to be the perfect "man" or "woman" because getting passed for one of them in the binary world is the only way for most of them to surivive. Cis people are already inside that trap, now trans people too... I think someone idetifying themselves as trans people is the first way to know that humans cannot be catergorized into two strict caterogories.
I think the reason the medical professionals aren't worried about what happens when people stop taking those medications is because it hasn't been widely researched. Thank you for sharing the internal process that occurs within someone like you. More people need to highlight the medical aspects of taking medication for LIFE and its potential impact on the body systems functionality long-term.
What was the impetus for your transition? Now that you’ve gone through a medical process and found it to be incompatible with your health, do you think you were an ideal candidate for medical transition? Do you think other options for people dealing with gender dysphoria should be explored more before presenting medical interventions?
I can only speak about myself, but I was probably not the ideal candidate for medical transition. My reasons for transition are too complicated and personal to explain in a comment. But I didn’t have debilitating gender dysphoria or anything. In retrospect, I probably could have benefited from other explorations but at the time the decision made sense. I try not to think about it in terms of regret.
@@RayAlexWilliams so odd. More and more people are mentioning how they never had dysphoria yet they are put on a medical pathway. Or they mention other mental health conditions that go unaddressed. I’m suspicious of the medical and pharmaceutical industry, especially in the United States. There are too many conflicting interests where these professionals are profiting from their patients’ choice to transition, and yet I don’t think many vulnerable people are presented with the full picture of potential negative outcomes or given alternative therapies to explore.
@@9395gb are you referring to a specific case or state? I’m not sure who sued whom. Either way, the profit incentive was there long before any law suits. In the coming years, I suspect there will be more but from de-transitioners and their families who were told they only had two choices by professionals: a dead child or a trans child.
Glad you're taking care of you! I'm a woman, like Dani below, and I've never even thought about what a gender identity feels like. It must be rough. Best wishes!
I will admit I started watching with judgment but I realize we're not all the same it's okay for you to be who you are not everyone is born the same and you have a good head on your shoulders you don't have to lift weights or watch football to be a man lol I'm sure you can be a great friend to a lot of people I'm glad you're feeling healthier, I would say people are putting way too much priority on gender when it's really a small part of life just be yourself
Jesus loves you so much. I'm eighteen years old and I was depressed and anxious, but then Jesus saved me. Now I have hope in an awesome future with Jesus. I just want to say that He wants to save you too. He died for my sin and your sin in the Cross. Now He is alive and His coming is very near. You just need to believe in the death and ressurection of Jesus. If you have any doubts about giving your life to Jesus, answer this comment. Sending lots of love.
Congratulations ! My child is 23 f2m. It’s been a very challenging, the last 7 years for me to try to address this. Her partner is 28 m2f. I pray that he transitions back, too.
Well done my friend 👍 Here's my thing, I'm biologically female and have breast cancer - my cancer was caused by Estrogen and it worries me the effect that will have in the future on young people who are being given large amounts of these hormones. I see you and you are gorgeous exactly as you are. Bless you 😘
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Be true to you. Being trans shouldn't make your life harder and unhealthier. I wish you much love and happiness.
Good for you! Glad you realized it, and glad you are bravely telling your story. Have a family friend who has decide to transition and I am really worried about his health. I am hoping more start realizing this and perhaps he will do the same. Kudos to you
I find it interesting that you never identified as a woman. Why, if you don’t mind me asking did you embark on this medical journey if you weren’t actually “trans” I ask because I have trans people in my life. They don’t subscribe to “ queer” TQIA+ ideology they NEED to be the gender they feel inside. There’s no if ands or buts when it comes to their gender. No hate , no disrespect. You deserve to live your life however you like. It just seems like a lot of mental, physical and medical gymnastics to end up back where you started .
I did the same. I take estrogen and have done so for 12 years. I got denied cross hormones by 6 psychologists for many, many years. I then told a new psychologist that I wanted to be a woman and got treated within a couple months. It wasn't exactly a lie as I definitely didn't want to be a man. In my youth, I starved myself through restricting protein and calories to preserve my body at that size. I was always trying to remain a boy and few psychologists knew what to do with me but I ran the clock out in youth. I had to stop the Tanner progressions which don't stop even later in life. The blockers, estrogen, and later castration actually lowered cholesterol, blood pressure, and triglycerides, and helped me maintain my youth which is what I wanted. For about a decade, I grew my hair out, put in earrings, and carried a purse. That's as far in the female direction as I could take it. It was a half assed effort but I wasn't going to let the sun permanently set on my youth. I had to do it and was scared that doctors would take me off my regimens if I didn't present as female. I've since shortened my hair, pulled out the earing, and carry a back pack. I shall keep the name "Autumn" and be called "he/him". What prompted the change was seeing 3 people live like I always wanted and it was right at the height of debate this winter over banning transgender medicine for youth. All of this really effected me. Furthermore I now have cover with WPATH which allows for a male to identify with his birth gender, get castrated, and then take estrogen as HRT. Non-binary folks have also done a dance around this as well but they weren't really well known when I transitioned. I guess I have a somewhat non-binary transition but my identity is "adult boy" which is someone who brings all of their physical traits from youth into adulthood and lives an extended adolescence where the sun never sets.
@@DorianPaige00 Sounds like you have Gerascophobia (sometimes called Dorian Gray syndrome) a fear of getting old, probably caused by a childhood trauma? It doesn't sound like you're transgender/transsexual.
@@MiniT-x8q I'll play the non-binary or transwoman card if I have to play it. I did live as a transwoman for over a decade and it was way better than living as a man. So there is some gender issue element to it. If I don't want the masculinization of male puberty then I have gender dysphoria. Once WPATH approved natal males who want to present as male, have an orchiectomy, and take estrogen as HRT, then it was okay to come out. I went almost two decades before I was treated as nobody would sign off but 12 years into transition and I'm happy and keeping with the regimen. It's like a facial surgery would say. Procedure are can be done to make one youthful and feminine at the same time. See, the problem with having a conversation with people like yourself is you'll use "trauma" to take away our medicine as every depressive or maladaptive thought has to be countered and worked through before transition can begin as that was actually was almost codified into law in Missouri. HRT has improved both my mental and physical health and I should be allowed to stay on it. We know what fear is like because we've all had to sit out for years while we waited for hormones. We know what reversal is and we don't want that. If that is taken away, we have nothing holding us back as we once had our rights and now we don't have them. Those are the folks who are at the front of civil wars. Coupled with the fact that you have them going back into natal male puberty, safety should be of huge concern this coming season with transyouth being forced at gun point off of their medicine. This will not go down well! Furthermore who the hell wants to get old. Okay, my ideal age range is maybe 5 years for normal. I looked around and I couldn't find any man I wanted to be like. The holidays were full of men complaining and begrudging and bemoaning their sacrifice and again it wasn't just one person. I had a strained relationship with my father initially but when I told my mother the full extent of what I wanted she boo-hoo-hoo'd it and tried to shame me into masculinization and then it became far worse with her. Luckily I was around 16 when I finally got confronted as I don't think I could have handled my parents behavior at a younger age.
You look good too - your energy and aura are giving strength, health and peace. You're gonna be okay. My ONLY problem with people who go on hormones, puberty blockers, etc. - are the HORMONES !!! Proudly subscribed! One thing though - never be worried or care what others think of you - Be You - cause You seem pretty cool to me - As Is !!
But when I hear eight years estrogen and spironolactone I fear fertility is already gone and doesn`t come back. The testes may produce full testosterone again after so many years being inoperative, but no sperm.
Why can't people just be themselves? Be effeminate, be masculine, whatever. You ain't gotta get the apothecary involved. Drugs are whack. Just say no. Now if you'll excuse me, I just rolled a blunt with my name on it. Where my Doritos at?
U go girl..lol😊 That's good. Our being OK with ourself is where it's at! I'm also mfm No regrets! Just phases of personal development and growth into more and more,what works!....for me! From Post op!❤
You can change your hair, your appearance, your clothes. You can get tattoos, piercings. You can change your partner, your job. You can move to the other side of the earth. And now you can change your gender. But you can't run away from you. At some point you have to come to terms with who you really are, stop hiding yourself, and accept yourself as a worthwhile person. Good luck.
You are are a very reasonable person. We must all unite against those crazy parents who impose to their children this process while they don't have the age to be sure about what they do and the consequences. Wish you the best.
I worry that years from now you’re going to be conflicted about this again. de-transitioning because of the nuances isn’t gonna make the dysphoria go away forever. I can certainly understand that if you’ve had no surgeries no hair, removal, or any other things, then yes, that is brutally hard to live through. I think most would probably give up on it because it’s so complicated. But for those of us who have overcome that, I no longer have facial hair growing I had all the surgeries, face, voice, body. In fact, I could stop hormones, and I’ll still remain female. I am a transsexual. I understand all these challenges you’re referring to. I think the difference is having access to resources and the financial means to be successful and for those that don’t have those resources, they tend to struggle or detransition. I speak from experience as I don’t have all those gymnastics or health issues you’re referring to, so for me, my life is very easy now and I don’t have to worry about my voice or hair or not passing. I’m sorry that you’ve had to go through this and I just hope this doesn’t come back on you later in life and rear its ugly head with dysphoria. I’ve read many stories of people, transitioning, detransitioning, and later re-transitioning.
Mark 1:15 - “The time is fulfilled,” He said, “and the kingdom of God is near. Repent and believe in the gospel!” John 3:3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
Prioritize your physical health and well-being. Ray, given what you experienced with your health that looks like a sensible choice. I hope I never have to face that and my medical experience with transition remains positive. I am not sure I could mentally handle detransitioning even if I started to have negative effects from the HRT. I too wanted to stop having to constantly think about gender and did not transition twenty-five years ago because of that. For me that was the wrong decision since my dysphoria never really went away and resurfaced with a vengeance.. Now that I am living female I am more connected with my authentic self. I find it interesting how you felt the need to transition, but now that you have detransitioned you feel more in touch with your authentic self. Do you think your transition was somehow a mistake? If so what put you on the road to transitioning in the first place.
I don't think you as a human need to take on political discourse. I believe you have the right to make choices for yourself. I believe that your success comes from being true to yourself at every point of your life. Thank you for sharing your experiences with others! I'm proud of you ❤
I really appreciate the way you talk about this. Unlike some detransitioners, you aren't portraying bigoted ideology or fear mongering people into believeing transitioning is bad all together. Many of the people following your story will want you to say negative things about trans people and trans care to validate their own views. I actually relate quite heavily with your reasoning for detransitioning, except I'm still in the phase of considering if medical transition is right for me. I have no desire to come out to people unless I want to be close with them so most people misgender me. In my case it's easier for people to think a female being more masculine than average is fine, but there is a lot more pressure on males to never be feminine or even "less masculine" so while I understand, I can't experience it quite the way you do. I genuinely hope you experience that sweet gender euphoria and never let anyone tell you how masculine or feminine you're allowed to be.
Transition regret is very rare among those who transition. It's stories like this why doctors are very careful & selective about recommending & prespribing gender transititioning in general.
We did reasearch you just want to say we didn't because ur trying to defend your significant other, u did this on my channel as well. Please stop spreading miss information about detrans people we know what we did and it was premeditated, I spent years thinking about transition and reasearching it problem is reasearch is biased and not the best, I also wanted to obviously be trans women my inter life u got no idea😢 So sad more of us will be fooled I could of been harmed like ur significant other was by doctors, that's what keeps me up at night.
Thanks for sharing your story. I'm looking forward to watching more of your videos. Question: Did you ever have Gender Dysphoria? It doesn't sound like it from the video.
From a Christian man to you: you are a child of God. A son. God bless you. Read the Book of Mormon if you fell prompted to do so. A second witness of Jesus Christ alongside the Bible. Good luck.
No offense, but there is no way you were passing. You look and act like a normal, average-looking male. Nothing wrong with that, though. Transwomen are very detectable and noticeable as they do not look, act or sound like biological women. People are just not saying otherwise because they either don't care, they want to avoid confrontation, or they are just being nice. But everyone can tell the difference between a biological woman and transwoman especially in person. Also beautiful, gorgeous, and feminine biological women are Halle Berry, Jessica Alba, Naomi Campbell, Monica Belucci, Zendaya, Megan Goode, Adriana Lima, Heidi Klum, Aishwarya Rai, Kate Upton, Elizabeth Taylor, Dorothy Dandridge, Lena Horne, Marilyn Monroe etc. Extraordinary female beauty like that is rare...like 10% of the female population. Transwomen cannot attain that. Long hair and makeup does not make you gorgeous or more feminine. For example, Halle Berry and Elizabeth Taylor are considered amongst the most beautiful women in the world and they both have short hair. In fact, a pixie cut has been a part of Halle Berry's signature beauty look for decades. And look at her...she is flawless, feminine, classic female beauty. Transwomen are not passing as biological women let alone attaining that level of female beauty. No offense, but it is not possible through puberty blockers, hrt, cosmetic surgery or makeup. Cosmetic surgeons even say this. Transwomen can look "put together" in their own right, but they stil look like feminine men who like to wear dresses, heels, and makeup.
@miriamlana833 Yes, they look like transwomen in person, which looks distinctly different (and sound and act) from biological women. You have to see these people in person. You are seeing altered photos and filtered videos, severe cosmetic surgery and injectables (ie botox, fillers), makeup, corsets, and shape wear. Cosmetic surgeons cannot make them look like women and most surgeons will admit this. Majority of plastic surgery looks very bad and severe in person. Kim and Jazz's face structure, nose, jawline, neck thickness, skin texture, hand and feet size, hairline, shoulders, narrow hips, muscle structure, and body shape, size and structure are dead giveaways that they are biological men. Having long hair, makeup, and "stunted puberty" does not make a biological man look like a woman at all. You literally can tell the difference in person. I know this because I worked as a model for years in major cities like LA and NYC and worked in the entertainment industry also. People can easily tell in person who transwomen are and biological women are. Also Kim Petras and Jazz Jennings are average-looking for a transwomen and biological men. They aren't part of the 10% of beautiful biological men and biological women. People are just humoring them. But that really isn't the point. Transwomen look distinctly different from biological women. And they cannot compare to the top 10% of beautiful biological women. Drugs and surgery can't replicate the type of beauty that beautiful biological women like Elizabeth Taylor, Naomi Campbell, Halle Berry or Jessica Alba has. It is not possible and never will be. Finally, this individual in this video did not and does not in any way pass as a woman. His colleagues, family, and friends knew he did not, but likely tried to remain sensitive to his feelings.
@@9395gb what you said also applies to some cis women. Haven't you heard the discussion about the Williams sisters, "they eventually may be trans"? There is no way to tell 100% shure if a woman is cis or trans by the looks.
@@mjones8170 what has this to do with racism? And I weren't the one who claimed that. Ok, if you want a white example, let's take Martina Navratilova.😁 And there is no sharp line to decide "feminine man" and "masculine woman" by the looks.
Thank you for this! With all the things to be stressed about why add to it with this gender stuff. Cut your hair get some different specs and eat more meat. Continued success in life.
I'm so proud of men that realize that being feminine doesn't mean you're a Women. Feminine Men are very important to humanity. You have a role and purpose in life as a Feminine Man.
I totally agree. I was just talking to someone about that the other day.
Many men who identify as trans are feminine but many more are not naturally feminine at all. Not in appearance or interests.
Just as some gay men are feminine and some are not. The same for heterosexuals.
I find it odd that he categorizes himself as "queer". Is it because he sees himself as non sex stereotypically male?
The term "Queer", like "lesbian" and "woman" are being used in ways which represent something very different than its traditionally understood meaning.
100%
how are feminine men important to society what? lol
Chemical castration has life long effects.
You can be a feminine man, nothing wrong with that
Only a question, does that hairstyle alone make a man look feminine iyo? I remember, some decades back nearly all male rockstars looked that way and I guess most of them did`t want to be perceived as feminine.
I’m actually starting to lean more into the masculine side of things!
@@miriamlana833No, his hair doesn't make him look feminine.... Its his tone of voice, language used and soft demeanor. 😊 He seems like a very sweet guy.
@@RayAlexWilliamsthat’s awesome.. you can be proud of your masculine and feminine traits :)
Bring you is who you were born to be. 👍😊
I tried Hormones for 2 month and felt Exhausted all the time. Now I dress Hippie Androgynous and have Long hair and a Beard. I found the middle way between my Masculine and Feminine self. I need both Aspects of myself because I am a Whole Human who Embraces all of who I am.
Interesting wardrobe choice! ❤
@@bend3rbot
lets analyse the nonsense /lies many amongst you believe in:
lie: schools are of use (fact. schools keep slavery alive and stands for dumbing down the population of mankind)
lie: moon and mars landings, (fact: even masons know they cannot leave - earth is closed system, unless you want to drown, there is no other place created for us to live in.)
lie: news channels share truth (fact: these are for politic propaganda)
lie: money has a value of its own (fact: it is just a tool of this world, which value has been agreed upon world wide)
lie: NASA lies (globe and all....) (fact: NASA stands for TO DECEIVE) - you havn´t searched - have you?
lie: the lgbtq++++ propaganda (fact: it is a part of masonry depopulation agenda, 500 000 000 souls, thats their goal.)
lie: Evolution and the dinosaurs. (fact: mankind is not hybrid kind)
to keep stating that there was an evolution, then we ain´t humans, we aint then mankind, we are then hybrids. Are you a hybrid?
Lie: holidays (xmas, Halloween, new year eve and so on) (fact: PAGAN HOLIDAYS, to praise BAAL, the god of this world)
lie: U.F.Os (fact: they are demons/evil spirits in high places, against whom we fight daily = spiritual warfare)
lie: rules and laws rule the world (fact: signs and symbols of masonry do)
lie: believe in being educated (fact: found daily living with the lack of knowledge)
lie: religions are ways to heaven (fact: JESUS CHRIST is only way to heaven. Religions, no matter its name = masonic garbage)
lie: our dead loved ones stay around to “ghost” (fact: hunting and ghosting is job of demons, not of humans. We, humans, come from GOD and return back to HIM and all the stories of having been seen a ghost - terrifying, scary, dark, cold - again no job of analysing been done here by you- right?)
Lie: Humans have no immune system and we need vaccines as these save lives (fact: humans HAVE IMMUNE SYSTEM and vaccines are created for one or two purpose: to kill or to cripple)
lie: there is no GOD (fact: There is GOD, who redeems sinners and we are directly created by GOD, Psalms 139:14
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.)
to keep claiming that there is no GOD and we aint created directly from the dust of the earth, we soon run out logic, regardless to we place “evolution” in our claims or not.)
15 lies, should i go on?
That's só great. You should see Orland my politique biography by Paul b preciado
For me hormone theraphy just make me soo happy and do good.❤
I don't know you, but I'm freaking proud of you for being authentically you! It shouldn't be about anyone else but you. If the transition is making you feel worse than any dysphoria then you are 100% making the right choice. Be yourself! You seem like a great person! ❤
I'm a detrans woman from FTM in a very similar situation. But on top of health factors and feeling better physically, stronger, more balanced etc I also experienced a deep and intense internal set of changes. My balance issues and physical pain issues, deep sense of resistance etc all healed March thru May this year. I've only started expressing externally as a woman the last 2.5 months, and I empathize some of your challenges now trying to de-masculinize.
I hope that this topic can continue to shift us to a focus on deep truth, health, and nature. Both our own and reconnecting with nature outside of us. I'm glad you had great experiences, I too healed and grew a lot into a responsible, successful, capable man. For a while. But now is the time to embrace my new deeper changes and healing. I'm so grateful to find another detrans person I relate to 🙏❤
Outside of your imagination, you we’re never actually a man.
“Deep truth, health, and nature”-well said and totally resonate with that. Wishing you well on your journey
Have you watched Buck Angel, he likes to talk to people who’ve de transitioned, maybe you could do that? He’s seriously concerned by people being pushed into the ideological side
@@lilacscentedfushias1852 I'm going to be interviewed by Benjamin Boyce soon and I just interviewed for a detrans documentary. It would be crazy cool if Buck Angel ever talked to me, I admired him so much as a kid!
Very interesting. I’m a woman. Never had the option to don or doff my biology. Would never have even tried to. Had it always been easy to “be my true self”? Of course not. This BS that we’re telling ourselves and our young people is so toxic. Life isn’t meant to be easy. Sometimes you just gotta be comfortable with being uncomfortable. That’s life.
Because you are unhappy; you can make others unhappy. A senator said being transgender is like having ice cream for breakfast, lunch, and dinner as he totally missed the point and natal males who are trans are most likely restricting. And I'll tell you this! Nothing is worse for a young person than to see someone like yourself bemoan their sacrifice and complain. That mindset is what makes households dysfunctional and makes kids not want to grow up to be their parents or perhaps not grow up at all. Who wants to get sit at the adult table and be angry?
Dani, life is not easy. I could write a book, I’m sure so many others could too. Puberty can be the most difficult time for young people. My , then, 14 year old daughter told me2 years ago, ‘you have no idea how I feel, you never had hormones’.
Because your cisgender experience applies to all humans? The issue isn’t with trans people. The problem is with society’s obsession with binary and not having sufficient trans healthcare so the already tiny amount who de transition can be even smaller by having better screening and acceptance of agender and non binary people
@@LeMattiekinz I am not “cisgender”. I take great offence to that terminology, not least because it was popularised by people whose intentions were very shady. And the binary is a biological reality. Not a single person on this planet would exist without it! Feel whatever you want to feel, but your feelings do not change the fact that there are two biological sexes. And this video only helps to prove that!
@@LeMattiekinz But non-binary people sometimes need/want hormones.
You seem like a very cool and authentic person! Being healthy and natural is so important! Much love to you!
Thank you 🙏
@@RayAlexWilliamsthanks for your story. Are you biologically male? I'm asking because I'm new to all this lgbtq and I'm not familiar with all the terminology.
Yes, born male
I love seeing LGBT people who are chill and operate as individual people, with no loyalty to some dogma or another. Good for you for doing what was right for you then, and what is right for you now!! I transitioned about 10 years ago (FTM) and it has worked out seamlessly for me, but if I ever hit a point where it made sense for me to stop HRT, that’s what I’d do.
So glad you didn't do any surgeries. All the best in the future and thanks for sharing.
I wish you all the best as you embrace your maleness. The expenditure of mental energy you describe is exactly what I imagined it would be for a trans person. Thank you for the honesty.
I'm a nonbinary transfem and I appreciate this testimony! Transition definitely doesn't fix your life, but most of us are happier than we were before--even if we find ourselves with new problems, they tend to be preferable. For Ray, they weren't, and that's fine too. The point is for people to be happier, and I'm glad we live in a society where people can give it a shot rather than never know. I think a lot of the problem isn't the act of transition itself, but the overly rigid ways we think about it on both the cis and trans sides of the fence. The pressure to "pass", internally and externally, is immense, and it ends up reinforcing restrictive, sexist prescriptions for speech and behavior. It takes work to not let it get to you, whether or not passing is even your goal. What's remarkable is how many of us--almost all of us--prefer to take on that work rather than reverse course.
Transitioning takes too much mental energy. All of the mental gymnastics must be exhausting. It's good for you to share those feelings with others.
meaning he was not trans at all.
@@monicacarolina6480But the doctors who treated him said he was. Do you believe in "Science"?
@@monicacarolina6480 no one is.
Congratulations! This is the bravest thing I've heard anyone say in a LONG time. I'm sorry your health was negatively affected.
I’m glad that you’re learning to be comfortable with yourself. You are always enough.
This.
I love your words here.👍
I work as a pharmacy technician. Most the medication isn’t tested long term, meaning they have no clue what being on pharmaceuticals for years actually does to people. I think you are extremely wise to focus on your health and well being over, trying to sustain a lifestyle to please others. I’m proud of you for having the courage to just be the authentic you.
Lupron has been around for awhile
@@picklesbangyourhead3005 so was Zantac (ranitidine) which was recalled a couple years ago because it was found to cause stomach cancer after long term use, so saying something has been on the market for a long doesn’t mean it’s safe.
HRT for male to female is typically a testosterone block and exogenous estrogen. It's pretty well understood what estrogen and estradiol does to the body, even the male body, at the doses we see for male to female HRT. This is not necessarily an unknown area of medicine. If we required 50 years of testing before we approved any new medicine, then nothing would get done. Certain androgen antagonists, sure, those can get more complicated, depending. But as far as I can tell, there are no red flags or alarms coming out from researchers about these drugs.
Many medications are not tested long term as they are new. That's not the same for hormones.
Congratulations 🎉- I hope you will continue to love yourself and embrace life.
Thank you! And that’s the plan
@@RayAlexWilliams- in Jesus name, I'm so happy you are getting to genuinely love yourself the way you were designed to be- a male in a male's body. Keep growing to be comfortable in your own skin. You're the only who can do that, because that is how you were designed to be even before you were born.
Repent and draw closer to Jesus. Obey Acts 2:38 in the Bible. God bless
Love how honest you are about why you have chosen to de transition. Appreciate the fact that you personally are doing it for your health and to support a less stressful life for yourself. Wishing you a happy and healthy future.
Thank you 🙏
Sounds like you matured. I especially took note of how considerate you are on violating expectations (I'm a social psychologist). More power to you.
That’s a really interesting comment! Good topic to discuss and think about. I would like to hear more of your thoughts or explain further
@@YouHaveAnEffect I'll try to keep it short because TH-cam isn't the best medium to type lol. Between all humans are certain expectations no matter how correct or incorrect. When expectations are violated, humans literally experience cognitive tension. Some basic expectations between gender, and this is context dependent, are that men and women should look and operate in certain ways. When a person who is trans, and not passing, it's expected that wherever he or she goes, they will violate gendered expectations. There are consequences for this, some positive, neutral, or negative.
It's really a big ask of the majority of people who don't adhere to mainstream, pop gender ideology to change their behaviour in the face of non-passing trans. I'm not sure if this person was passing or not but for people who aren't passing, they'd be embarking on a lifelong, uphill battle trying to get society to see them as they want to be seen. If you have time, check out expectancy violation theory (EVT).
@@DubG9 thanks! That helps and I will look up EVT!
@@DubG9btw he has a new video out today with an update!
@@YouHaveAnEffect thanks. I'll check it out. These de-transition stories are incredibly interesting to me.
Thanks for sharing. It sounds as if you did some deep soul searching and realized that you can be happy just bring you!
I’m glad you’re feeling better and hope your message reaches people going through the same process hopefully before they start transitioning
You are soooo Fortunate You didn’t have any Surgeries!! You dodged a bullet my friend!!
Thank you for sharing so honestly about such a personal topic. 💕🙏
You are so welcome!
I fully respect your de-transition and I'm happy that you finally found yourself again. But for allot of us, transitioning DOES fix our lives, and not all of us are thinking too much about passing, how we carry ourselves etc. Just like allot of cis people also don't put that much effort into it. It just comes naturally. I don't necessarily need to be called a woman. Opinions from anti-trans people don't really affect me anymore. I just follow my heart, what sparks joy. And transitioning is hands down the best thing that ever happened to me. I thought I'd be ostracized by Family, friends and potential partners. But the complete opposite happened. Suddenly people approach me instead, which feels weird haha. I thought I was just a lazy, shy and melancholic person, but found out that I'm actually quite driven and outgoing! I just had to be comfortable with myself
Very emotionally mature. You are beautiful, as a male. You are quite androgynous looking, but you do look and sound male, when you state that. I think you are very handsome and manly, a the same time. Congrats on your growth and healing within your gender.
Very brave and honest of you. Nice job
Thank you!
Just one step in your lifelong exploration of who you are to yourself and others. There are so many ways to express your own person these days. Trans. Non-binary. Queer. Straight. And things in between. I have begun following a Japanese woman who met her husband when she was male and they had a relationship and that relationship lasted after she transitioned. Congrats on feeling good about this process.
It’s hard to be human and I am happy you’re figuring out that being you is enough. I hope you do an update in a 3-4-5 years, to see how you feel when you’re a few years past detransitioning.
Happy to hear your taking a healthy approach to life. Wishing you all the good things.
You are searching for a new form of masculinity. Please keep talking and posting updates. You may be a role model to many and maybe become a famous trendsetter.
*And this is why people shouldn't demonize people for calling themselves non-binary. you can still dress and act like the opposite sex without having to transition. it's a less invasive option*
Underrated comment.
I would call you androgynous not non-binary
Based. You're going to make it, bro. Stay strong. Glad you're back on the righteous path. You have a nice jawline, don't waste it trying to be something you're not. Whether you're gay or straight, you're going to have better luck finding the right person for you by simply being who you are.
and what is the righteous path?
@@MrBibi86 Not mutilating your privates, pumping your body with estrogen, and wearing dresses.
@@MrBibi86 never try to fit in cause we will never "fit in", always be yourself without claiming labels. Labels only limit us. Those who see you as you won’t make you feel like you have to try. Around them you won’t have to, it’s pretty cool and boost self esteem a lot
>you have a nice jawline
lmaooo go the fuck outside
You explained things very well, Ray. Glad you're concentrating on your health.
Thanks for sharing your experiences. Glad you are back on track and that you worked through whatever it was you needed to work through personally . You did obviously experience quite a lot of physical damage but it is good you didn't go the way of surgery.
"Back on line" is a great way of putting it.
Thank you for sharing your story, Ray. It is really tragic how personal discovery and exploration are used as political bludgeons to downplay the experience of those who are genderqueer. Ultimately hormones, passing training, clothes and adopting social conventions are *tools* to help us understand ourselves better. Some people find comfort in gendered codes and conventions, and good for them! The human experience, however, is too complex for that to be what’s right for everybody who expresses their gender differently. Some people might dislike you for detransitioning, others will applaud you, and hold you up as some sort of anti-trans martyr. Both groups of people are missing the point entirely, which is about figuring out who you are, and what works for you, as unique and beautiful of a human being you are. “Despite everything, it is still you”
Glad to hear that the return to physical health motivated you and that your body responded so well. The journey somehow allowed you to integrate your psyche and embrace your masculinity. B est of luck!
Do you have any advice for young people considering transition?
Welcome back to simplicity❤️ appreciate your honesty
Must be exhausting to focus so much on oneselfe.
There's a discomfort and it prevents folks from doing things.
If you don’t focus on your self then who will.
Narcissism?
Good for you! Glad to see you're feeling good. You actually sound freed up 😊 Blessings
This is so well spoken. Non-judgmental, self aware with no regrets, a bunch of gratitude, and lessons for the vault of life's journey. It makes me sad to see others who are having difficulty detransitioning because they are going through more shame and probably feel even more scrutiny. It's just a pathway. Some people have gender journeys, or sexuality journeys, or relationship journeys, weight/appearance, mental health, it goes on. Sometimes all intertwined. It is just difficult when a journey is more physical (like a gender or weight journey) and therefore more public.
Wishing all the best blessings
Thank you 🙏
I've been in hormonal transition for 22 months, I started at 27, gave up after 7 months, returned at 31 and have been retraining for almost 2 years. I SUPER support you, and I super understand all these issues, I have a video on my channel about my experience. I'm tired of pronouns, of many things, but I'm still taking the hormones, I really love the effects, they won't make me pass, I just want an orchiectomy, and I'm really in doubt about the silicon, because I'm in this non-binary aspect, What matters is your happiness, but I feel great, there are ways to have safe hormonal therapy (orhiectomy) and transdermal estradiol.
I pray this will be my son sometime soon.
This phenomenon will stop trending in a year or so. People will lose interest in becoming part of it just like they lost interest in lip fillers, buccal fat removal and bbls and Qanon last year.
Also how can you replicate a biological women's looks or essence, especially that of the most gorgeous biological women in the world (which let's face it ,that's what they are desperate to get)?? It is not realistic or attainable and never will be.
Cosmetic surgeons and endocrinologist aren't beauticians or magicians. And makeup doesn't work either. It can only enhance what's there but it can't turn someone into a woman or supermodel. This is all smoke and mirrors.
@@9395gb Sounds like you have issues! You don't let yourself masculinize in youth and become anorexic to stunt male characteristics especially if hormones and blockers aren't coming. Blockers alone will make a male TALLER than he would have been if male puberty played out. I heard teacher in the 90s describe how one fella couldn't handle a summer growth spurt and when he came back people treated him differently and he killed himself. That failure to either stunt or to except the new body was attributed as a developmental issue and not a gender issue like it is today. Everybody of age wants to push the kid toward acceptance and forcing that but that in my eyes is akin to rape and needs to be met with force.
Love your child … as long as they are thriving happy and having their needs met be grateful
Thank you for your honesty. Wishing you everything good in life ! You are very brave !
Truth is important. There are all types of men and women. Some more feminine some more masculine, and that's ok. Keep it, don't cut it, because you will NEVER become the opposite sex, it's a delusion, it's impossible, and it won't bring you happiness. Just be you
It's great that you highlighted the fact that human minds can change over time, and how you do not regret your decisions. Also about how mainstream trans activism have issues instead of feeding transphobic views of different cults to use this as a weapon againts common tran people's lives... And definitely about how trans is not black and white being queer cannot be mapped and catergorized it's just trans people are trying to live up to the expectations of society trying to be the perfect "man" or "woman" because getting passed for one of them in the binary world is the only way for most of them to surivive. Cis people are already inside that trap, now trans people too... I think someone idetifying themselves as trans people is the first way to know that humans cannot be catergorized into two strict caterogories.
I think the reason the medical professionals aren't worried about what happens when people stop taking those medications is because it hasn't been widely researched. Thank you for sharing the internal process that occurs within someone like you. More people need to highlight the medical aspects of taking medication for LIFE and its potential impact on the body systems functionality long-term.
No. It's because suing them for medical malpractice will be difficult. This is why they aren't worried.
Thank you for being authentic.
Honestly good on you for realizing that it's a times a scam. I'm a tomboy female who occasionally dresses well girly. I never wanted to transition
What was the impetus for your transition? Now that you’ve gone through a medical process and found it to be incompatible with your health, do you think you were an ideal candidate for medical transition? Do you think other options for people dealing with gender dysphoria should be explored more before presenting medical interventions?
I can only speak about myself, but I was probably not the ideal candidate for medical transition. My reasons for transition are too complicated and personal to explain in a comment. But I didn’t have debilitating gender dysphoria or anything. In retrospect, I probably could have benefited from other explorations but at the time the decision made sense. I try not to think about it in terms of regret.
@@RayAlexWilliams so odd. More and more people are mentioning how they never had dysphoria yet they are put on a medical pathway. Or they mention other mental health conditions that go unaddressed. I’m suspicious of the medical and pharmaceutical industry, especially in the United States. There are too many conflicting interests where these professionals are profiting from their patients’ choice to transition, and yet I don’t think many vulnerable people are presented with the full picture of potential negative outcomes or given alternative therapies to explore.
Either way, I hope the path you’re on now makes you healthy and happy.
@@Amanda-xx7sjthe activists sued for gender affirming care though. So I'm not sure if the medical industry can be fully blamed.
@@9395gb are you referring to a specific case or state? I’m not sure who sued whom. Either way, the profit incentive was there long before any law suits. In the coming years, I suspect there will be more but from de-transitioners and their families who were told they only had two choices by professionals: a dead child or a trans child.
Glad you're taking care of you! I'm a woman, like Dani below, and I've never even thought about what a gender identity feels like. It must be rough. Best wishes!
I will admit I started watching with judgment but I realize we're not all the same it's okay for you to be who you are not everyone is born the same and you have a good head on your shoulders you don't have to lift weights or watch football to be a man lol I'm sure you can be a great friend to a lot of people I'm glad you're feeling healthier, I would say people are putting way too much priority on gender when it's really a small part of life just be yourself
I actually do lift weights 😎
@@RayAlexWilliams good it's healthy lol I was just generalizing one doesn't have to be super masculine to be manly I wish you luck stranger
I can assure you you didn’t pass. A lot of trans women think they pass when they don’t. Glad you are doing what’s best for you.
Jesus loves you so much. I'm eighteen years old and I was depressed and anxious, but then Jesus saved me. Now I have hope in an awesome future with Jesus. I just want to say that He wants to save you too. He died for my sin and your sin in the Cross. Now He is alive and His coming is very near. You just need to believe in the death and ressurection of Jesus. If you have any doubts about giving your life to Jesus, answer this comment. Sending lots of love.
Love, love this story! One of the lucky ones!❤
Very good video! You cover both the medical and psychological issues.
Word from the wise, anything synthetic is bad for your health. Facts
You just grew up! Proud of you! I am very conservative I think your life will be much more important and fun! than your past!
that’s not the point of the video
Hey Ray… thanks for sharing your story. Great job!
Thanks for sharing your point of view.
Congratulations !
My child is 23 f2m. It’s been a very challenging, the last 7 years for me to try to address this.
Her partner is 28 m2f. I pray that he transitions back, too.
Im sorry, truely am
nightmare fuel
Well done my friend 👍 Here's my thing, I'm biologically female and have breast cancer - my cancer was caused by Estrogen and it worries me the effect that will have in the future on young people who are being given large amounts of these hormones. I see you and you are gorgeous exactly as you are. Bless you 😘
Good for you. Embrace your uniqueness and enjoy your new found health.
Thank you 🙏
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Be true to you. Being trans shouldn't make your life harder and unhealthier. I wish you much love and happiness.
Good for you! Glad you realized it, and glad you are bravely telling your story. Have a family friend who has decide to transition and I am really worried about his health. I am hoping more start realizing this and perhaps he will do the same. Kudos to you
Prayers for you That you accept and continue to love yourself as you are.
Ray, I’d really like to hear your thoughts of the commonality (overlap) of AGP and tech jobs/careers.
I think the correlation is likely explained by another correlation: that of autism and AGP.
The social norms and expectations of being a female is soooo much. Idk why ppl want to transition. Thank you for sharing.
I find it interesting that you never identified as a woman. Why, if you don’t mind me asking did you embark on this medical journey if you weren’t actually “trans”
I ask because I have trans people in my life. They don’t subscribe to “ queer” TQIA+ ideology they NEED to be the gender they feel inside. There’s no if ands or buts when it comes to their gender.
No hate , no disrespect. You deserve to live your life however you like.
It just seems like a lot of mental, physical and medical gymnastics to end up back where you started .
Hell if I know. The mind is a weird thing.
Did you marry a woman or a man?
I did the same. I take estrogen and have done so for 12 years. I got denied cross hormones by 6 psychologists for many, many years. I then told a new psychologist that I wanted to be a woman and got treated within a couple months. It wasn't exactly a lie as I definitely didn't want to be a man. In my youth, I starved myself through restricting protein and calories to preserve my body at that size. I was always trying to remain a boy and few psychologists knew what to do with me but I ran the clock out in youth. I had to stop the Tanner progressions which don't stop even later in life. The blockers, estrogen, and later castration actually lowered cholesterol, blood pressure, and triglycerides, and helped me maintain my youth which is what I wanted. For about a decade, I grew my hair out, put in earrings, and carried a purse. That's as far in the female direction as I could take it. It was a half assed effort but I wasn't going to let the sun permanently set on my youth. I had to do it and was scared that doctors would take me off my regimens if I didn't present as female. I've since shortened my hair, pulled out the earing, and carry a back pack. I shall keep the name "Autumn" and be called "he/him".
What prompted the change was seeing 3 people live like I always wanted and it was right at the height of debate this winter over banning transgender medicine for youth. All of this really effected me. Furthermore I now have cover with WPATH which allows for a male to identify with his birth gender, get castrated, and then take estrogen as HRT. Non-binary folks have also done a dance around this as well but they weren't really well known when I transitioned. I guess I have a somewhat non-binary transition but my identity is "adult boy" which is someone who brings all of their physical traits from youth into adulthood and lives an extended adolescence where the sun never sets.
@@DorianPaige00 Sounds like you have Gerascophobia (sometimes called Dorian Gray syndrome) a fear of getting old, probably caused by a childhood trauma? It doesn't sound like you're transgender/transsexual.
@@MiniT-x8q I'll play the non-binary or transwoman card if I have to play it. I did live as a transwoman for over a decade and it was way better than living as a man. So there is some gender issue element to it. If I don't want the masculinization of male puberty then I have gender dysphoria. Once WPATH approved natal males who want to present as male, have an orchiectomy, and take estrogen as HRT, then it was okay to come out. I went almost two decades before I was treated as nobody would sign off but 12 years into transition and I'm happy and keeping with the regimen. It's like a facial surgery would say. Procedure are can be done to make one youthful and feminine at the same time.
See, the problem with having a conversation with people like yourself is you'll use "trauma" to take away our medicine as every depressive or maladaptive thought has to be countered and worked through before transition can begin as that was actually was almost codified into law in Missouri. HRT has improved both my mental and physical health and I should be allowed to stay on it. We know what fear is like because we've all had to sit out for years while we waited for hormones. We know what reversal is and we don't want that. If that is taken away, we have nothing holding us back as we once had our rights and now we don't have them. Those are the folks who are at the front of civil wars. Coupled with the fact that you have them going back into natal male puberty, safety should be of huge concern this coming season with transyouth being forced at gun point off of their medicine. This will not go down well!
Furthermore who the hell wants to get old. Okay, my ideal age range is maybe 5 years for normal. I looked around and I couldn't find any man I wanted to be like. The holidays were full of men complaining and begrudging and bemoaning their sacrifice and again it wasn't just one person. I had a strained relationship with my father initially but when I told my mother the full extent of what I wanted she boo-hoo-hoo'd it and tried to shame me into masculinization and then it became far worse with her. Luckily I was around 16 when I finally got confronted as I don't think I could have handled my parents behavior at a younger age.
You look good too - your energy and aura are giving strength, health and peace. You're gonna be okay. My ONLY problem with people who go on hormones, puberty blockers, etc. - are the HORMONES !!! Proudly subscribed! One thing though - never be worried or care what others think of you - Be You - cause You seem pretty cool to me - As Is !!
NO SURGERIES my goodness gracious that's good, now you gotta stand up and be a man
But when I hear eight years estrogen and spironolactone I fear fertility is already gone and doesn`t come back. The testes may produce full testosterone again after so many years being inoperative, but no sperm.
@@miriamlana833 better get that checked man. see the thing is they're doing this as an act of gen-0-cide
It’s ok. My wife and I don’t want kids.
@@RayAlexWilliams i have no respect for such a foolish statement
@@jmadventures9830 why do you want someone else to have children against their will?
Why can't people just be themselves? Be effeminate, be masculine, whatever. You ain't gotta get the apothecary involved. Drugs are whack. Just say no. Now if you'll excuse me, I just rolled a blunt with my name on it. Where my Doritos at?
U go girl..lol😊
That's good.
Our being OK with ourself is where it's at!
I'm also mfm
No regrets!
Just phases of personal development and growth into more and more,what works!....for me!
From Post op!❤
You can change your hair, your appearance, your clothes. You can get tattoos, piercings. You can change your partner, your job. You can move to the other side of the earth. And now you can change your gender. But you can't run away from you. At some point you have to come to terms with who you really are, stop hiding yourself, and accept yourself as a worthwhile person. Good luck.
I didn’t see any of your videos before but you seem happy and that’s the main thing👍
You are are a very reasonable person. We must all unite against those crazy parents who impose to their children this process while they don't have the age to be sure about what they do and the consequences. Wish you the best.
Congratulations on accepting yourself for who you are!
Thank you 🙏
I worry that years from now you’re going to be conflicted about this again. de-transitioning because of the nuances isn’t gonna make the dysphoria go away forever. I can certainly understand that if you’ve had no surgeries no hair, removal, or any other things, then yes, that is brutally hard to live through. I think most would probably give up on it because it’s so complicated. But for those of us who have overcome that, I no longer have facial hair growing I had all the surgeries, face, voice, body. In fact, I could stop hormones, and I’ll still remain female. I am a transsexual. I understand all these challenges you’re referring to. I think the difference is having access to resources and the financial means to be successful and for those that don’t have those resources, they tend to struggle or detransition. I speak from experience as I don’t have all those gymnastics or health issues you’re referring to, so for me, my life is very easy now and I don’t have to worry about my voice or hair or not passing. I’m sorry that you’ve had to go through this and I just hope this doesn’t come back on you later in life and rear its ugly head with dysphoria. I’ve read many stories of people, transitioning, detransitioning, and later re-transitioning.
I KNEW IT!!!! Rachel has beautiful curly hair!! But it looks good on Ray, too!!
Mark 1:15 - “The time is fulfilled,” He said, “and the kingdom of God is near. Repent and believe in the gospel!”
John 3:3
Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
Prioritize your physical health and well-being. Ray, given what you experienced with your health that looks like a sensible choice. I hope I never have to face that and my medical experience with transition remains positive. I am not sure I could mentally handle detransitioning even if I started to have negative effects from the HRT. I too wanted to stop having to constantly think about gender and did not transition twenty-five years ago because of that. For me that was the wrong decision since my dysphoria never really went away and resurfaced with a vengeance.. Now that I am living female I am more connected with my authentic self. I find it interesting how you felt the need to transition, but now that you have detransitioned you feel more in touch with your authentic self. Do you think your transition was somehow a mistake? If so what put you on the road to transitioning in the first place.
I don't think you as a human need to take on political discourse. I believe you have the right to make choices for yourself. I believe that your success comes from being true to yourself at every point of your life. Thank you for sharing your experiences with others! I'm proud of you ❤
Congratulations! God bless you. Love you self. You can not be a real woman no matter how hard you try. God created us.
Your very handsome ... glad you did that and you feel positive!
If people think that you are male they don't misgender you!
8 years on a t blocker that would have killed me spiro is so nasty feel for anyone on that pill.
Thank goodness you haven't cut anything ❤so happy for you 👌
I really appreciate the way you talk about this. Unlike some detransitioners, you aren't portraying bigoted ideology or fear mongering people into believeing transitioning is bad all together. Many of the people following your story will want you to say negative things about trans people and trans care to validate their own views. I actually relate quite heavily with your reasoning for detransitioning, except I'm still in the phase of considering if medical transition is right for me. I have no desire to come out to people unless I want to be close with them so most people misgender me. In my case it's easier for people to think a female being more masculine than average is fine, but there is a lot more pressure on males to never be feminine or even "less masculine" so while I understand, I can't experience it quite the way you do. I genuinely hope you experience that sweet gender euphoria and never let anyone tell you how masculine or feminine you're allowed to be.
Transition regret is very rare among those who transition. It's stories like this why doctors are very careful & selective about recommending & prespribing gender transititioning in general.
Nice job, I am glad you are on the path to health.
My fiancee has no regrets. In fact shes post op and regrets nothing. People who detransition did not research it or didnt kniw what they wanted
We did reasearch you just want to say we didn't because ur trying to defend your significant other, u did this on my channel as well. Please stop spreading miss information about detrans people we know what we did and it was premeditated, I spent years thinking about transition and reasearching it problem is reasearch is biased and not the best, I also wanted to obviously be trans women my inter life u got no idea😢 So sad more of us will be fooled I could of been harmed like ur significant other was by doctors, that's what keeps me up at night.
Wow!!!! I had no idea it effects your health so much!!!!! I hope Your Health improves!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
Thanks for sharing your story. I'm looking forward to watching more of your videos. Question: Did you ever have Gender Dysphoria? It doesn't sound like it from the video.
I was diagnosed with gender dysphoria by multiple doctors.
Yep.
Good not to be poisoning yaself 🕊
From a Christian man to you: you are a child of God. A son. God bless you. Read the Book of Mormon if you fell prompted to do so. A second witness of Jesus Christ alongside the Bible. Good luck.
Huge step forward. Cool!
Thank God. You are a beautiful man!!!!!
you are very brave ❤ best wishes for you!
Being a natural born man or a natural born woman is wonderful.
It’s exhausting to not be you!
No offense, but there is no way you were passing. You look and act like a normal, average-looking male. Nothing wrong with that, though. Transwomen are very detectable and noticeable as they do not look, act or sound like biological women.
People are just not saying otherwise because they either don't care, they want to avoid confrontation, or they are just being nice. But everyone can tell the difference between a biological woman and transwoman especially in person.
Also beautiful, gorgeous, and feminine biological women are Halle Berry, Jessica Alba, Naomi Campbell, Monica Belucci, Zendaya, Megan Goode, Adriana Lima, Heidi Klum, Aishwarya Rai, Kate Upton, Elizabeth Taylor, Dorothy Dandridge, Lena Horne, Marilyn Monroe etc. Extraordinary female beauty like that is rare...like 10% of the female population. Transwomen cannot attain that.
Long hair and makeup does not make you gorgeous or more feminine. For example, Halle Berry and Elizabeth Taylor are considered amongst the most beautiful women in the world and they both have short hair. In fact, a pixie cut has been a part of Halle Berry's signature beauty look for decades. And look at her...she is flawless, feminine, classic female beauty.
Transwomen are not passing as biological women let alone attaining that level of female beauty. No offense, but it is not possible through puberty blockers, hrt, cosmetic surgery or makeup. Cosmetic surgeons even say this. Transwomen can look "put together" in their own right, but they stil look like feminine men who like to wear dresses, heels, and makeup.
Kim Petras and Jazz Jennings look like feminine men? Sorry, if I wouldn`t know they are trans, I would take them for cis women.
@miriamlana833 Yes, they look like transwomen in person, which looks distinctly different (and sound and act) from biological women. You have to see these people in person. You are seeing altered photos and filtered videos, severe cosmetic surgery and injectables (ie botox, fillers), makeup, corsets, and shape wear. Cosmetic surgeons cannot make them look like women and most surgeons will admit this. Majority of plastic surgery looks very bad and severe in person.
Kim and Jazz's face structure, nose, jawline, neck thickness, skin texture, hand and feet size, hairline, shoulders, narrow hips, muscle structure, and body shape, size and structure are dead giveaways that they are biological men. Having long hair, makeup, and "stunted puberty" does not make a biological man look like a woman at all. You literally can tell the difference in person.
I know this because I worked as a model for years in major cities like LA and NYC and worked in the entertainment industry also. People can easily tell in person who transwomen are and biological women are. Also Kim Petras and Jazz Jennings are average-looking for a transwomen and biological men. They aren't part of the 10% of beautiful biological men and biological women. People are just humoring them.
But that really isn't the point. Transwomen look distinctly different from biological women. And they cannot compare to the top 10% of beautiful biological women. Drugs and surgery can't replicate the type of beauty that beautiful biological women like Elizabeth Taylor, Naomi Campbell, Halle Berry or Jessica Alba has. It is not possible and never will be.
Finally, this individual in this video did not and does not in any way pass as a woman. His colleagues, family, and friends knew he did not, but likely tried to remain sensitive to his feelings.
@@9395gb what you said also applies to some cis women. Haven't you heard the discussion about the Williams sisters, "they eventually may be trans"? There is no way to tell 100% shure if a woman is cis or trans by the looks.
@@miriamlana833what? Are you racist? The William sisters look like masculine women not feminine men. There is a definite difference.
@@mjones8170 what has this to do with racism? And I weren't the one who claimed that. Ok, if you want a white example, let's take Martina Navratilova.😁
And there is no sharp line to decide "feminine man" and "masculine woman" by the looks.
Thank you for this! With all the things to be stressed about why add to it with this gender stuff. Cut your hair get some different specs and eat more meat. Continued success in life.