At night my conscience leaks Somebody's watching me I need a lot of sleep At least that's what I tell myself to keep from sinking in the deep end quickly
I dont know what to do, all the choices ive made have been wrong, struggling to even survive, wasting my parents hard earned money and hopes and doing nothing, having no motivation and passive suicidal thoughts from past few months for the first time in my life. I dont even see the point of living life anymore. People are just shit, im autistic and socially awkward, afterall whats the point of all this shit? Why should anyone do anything? Why shouldn't i just rest forever? Whats the point stressing out everyday? Why should i continue? Sorry for this unreasonable rant, i have literally noone to talk to and share anything, idk i felt this like a comforting and safe place to share my emotions.
That's life brother, We have all been through that moment but solving it is up to you. Do you feel like you waste your parents' work? Reduce your expenses and look for a job or help with housework. Do you find it difficult to socialize? With practice it will become easier. You don't have to like everyone, And learn to enjoy solitude by looking for a hobby or aspiration. Clearly I'm not a professional but when I was in your situation those were some of the things that helped me move forward. I recommend that you talk to a professional. Don't worry so much about your parents' money, take care of it and respect their effort, but surely for them money is nothing compared to their child's life. And don't get frustrated by what you can't control. Don't ignore it but try to find a way to adapt. I really hope it gets better and you don't need to apologize for venting about what you feel 🖤
As a kid I used to love playing tag. Then I got too big and had to play outside. When tag was too hard or even too easy we would play hide n seek. Tag seemed never ending at times and sometimes you lost motivation and gave up tagging others simply bc they were too fast or tagged you back instantly. Well what about when it got dark out? Did I mention I was a big kid? Yeah well we had to bring the game inside and I couldn't ever hide so I had to sit out or snitch where everyone was hiding eventually by pointing at them bc I got bored. Well I created a new game called hot or cold. In this game whoever is it gets to go hide a specific object around the house and everyone else has to close their eyes and turn around until you're done. As someone gets closer to the item you say warm and if they get further away you say cold and if they get really close you start shouting, you're getting hot 🔥 and you're on fire hinting they are getting super close to finding the object. And same for if they walk away from the item if they turn away from you say oops colder or if they walk far away from it you say you're freezing cold right now. It's no where near there. Well like the yearly seasonal weather changes we also go through seasons of change and growth and maturity and in order to become stronger we must endure these happenings. How long does winter last? Not forever right. But go outside without the proper gear and skills and you'll be unfamiliar and it can make you sick. Check out the trees without leaves and notice no more animals. VS summer it's hot outside and you'd die to have a glass of cold water vs the cold winter where you'd do anything for some warmth. If you focus on the cold during the winter you'll definitely feel it. If you focus on the negatives going on around you, you won't have room to notice your blessings
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At night my conscience leaks
Somebody's watching me
I need a lot of sleep
At least that's what I tell myself to keep from sinking in the deep end quickly
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Don’t don’t u let me go ..I won’t I wont let u go ..I’ve been searching for ways to let u know ..I’m inlove with u girl u glow..
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Don’t don’t let me go ..I won’t I won’t let u go .. I need potent weed to roll up more ..I’m numb drowning deep in my own misery
Baby girl I’m falling for u ..I’m developing these feelings for u ..im not sure if our love is true ..I can’t stop these drugs I do ..x2
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I dont know what to do, all the choices ive made have been wrong, struggling to even survive, wasting my parents hard earned money and hopes and doing nothing, having no motivation and passive suicidal thoughts from past few months for the first time in my life. I dont even see the point of living life anymore. People are just shit, im autistic and socially awkward, afterall whats the point of all this shit? Why should anyone do anything? Why shouldn't i just rest forever? Whats the point stressing out everyday? Why should i continue?
Sorry for this unreasonable rant, i have literally noone to talk to and share anything, idk i felt this like a comforting and safe place to share my emotions.
That's life brother, We have all been through that moment but solving it is up to you.
Do you feel like you waste your parents' work? Reduce your expenses and look for a job or help with housework.
Do you find it difficult to socialize? With practice it will become easier. You don't have to like everyone,
And learn to enjoy solitude by looking for a hobby or aspiration.
Clearly I'm not a professional but when I was in your situation those were some of the things that helped me move forward.
I recommend that you talk to a professional.
Don't worry so much about your parents' money, take care of it and respect their effort, but surely for them money is nothing compared to their child's life.
And don't get frustrated by what you can't control. Don't ignore it but try to find a way to adapt.
I really hope it gets better and you don't need to apologize for venting about what you feel 🖤
As a kid I used to love playing tag. Then I got too big and had to play outside. When tag was too hard or even too easy we would play hide n seek. Tag seemed never ending at times and sometimes you lost motivation and gave up tagging others simply bc they were too fast or tagged you back instantly. Well what about when it got dark out? Did I mention I was a big kid? Yeah well we had to bring the game inside and I couldn't ever hide so I had to sit out or snitch where everyone was hiding eventually by pointing at them bc I got bored. Well I created a new game called hot or cold. In this game whoever is it gets to go hide a specific object around the house and everyone else has to close their eyes and turn around until you're done. As someone gets closer to the item you say warm and if they get further away you say cold and if they get really close you start shouting, you're getting hot 🔥 and you're on fire hinting they are getting super close to finding the object. And same for if they walk away from the item if they turn away from you say oops colder or if they walk far away from it you say you're freezing cold right now. It's no where near there.
Well like the yearly seasonal weather changes we also go through seasons of change and growth and maturity and in order to become stronger we must endure these happenings.
How long does winter last? Not forever right. But go outside without the proper gear and skills and you'll be unfamiliar and it can make you sick.
Check out the trees without leaves and notice no more animals.
VS summer it's hot outside and you'd die to have a glass of cold water vs the cold winter where you'd do anything for some warmth.
If you focus on the cold during the winter you'll definitely feel it. If you focus on the negatives going on around you, you won't have room to notice your blessings
I need to feel viened once agian ..I be taking xans i took 10 .. I don’t wanna do it agian ..baby I’m numb drowning deep in my own misery
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