As a nurse I had to “derole”. I would use my walk out of the hospital to stop thinking about the patients & trauma. I compartmentalized that part of my life. It is hard. I can’t imagine doing this as a child actor.
Same! I was thinking about this myself as a therapist working with kids…you truly need a ritual to step out of your work persona and away from the stress/trauma you encounter daily and return to yourself or else burn out happens real quick…we all play roles I guess
This reminded me of police & how you can often tell a police officer even when they’re off. ‘de-role’ is such an interesting concept for jobs that ask a lot of you mentally & to wear/develop a sort of mask
I wasn't even medical staff, I was just the receptionist who helped billing and I had to do the same thing. I compartmentalized to stay sane. But it was also sad because things that should disturb you just don't any more. You become numb. and that's when it was time for me to leave.
Thank you for addressing the betterhelp situation!… I knew all along that your heart was in the right place. I’m actually happy that betterhelp helped you by sponsoring. They just broke my trust long time ago and I won’t be using their services, but I’m glad they are at least paying for this quality content to be created. And for everyone out there, just like Alyson, you could have a good experience. Please read, learn and educate yourself before using them, but if you decide to use them, I wish you the best and I pray for you to get a great experience from it.
i want to agree with you, because i also think alyson’s heart is in the right place and i believe this show deserves support, but idk… one of the strongest messages alyson has imparted to us over the past few weeks is that just because some people have positive experiences with a person or organization doesn’t mean that others haven’t suffered at their hands, and it’s harmful to allow the perpetrator to continue their behaviors through inaction and tacit (or in this case outright) endorsement. partnering with BH goes against that message. there ARE other ways to support the show, it doesn’t absolutely have to be this. and alyson, if you see this: even if you don’t drop BH as a sponsor (though i hope you’ll reconsider), i think it would be good for future episodes to link back to this one so new viewers/listeners can hear your statement, as well as include comprehensive links to information on the company’s history (ftc’s official rulings, customer testimonials, news reports on the other myriad controversies, etc) that can help people at least make informed decisions
I dislike the part where it supports leaning on a device for emotional support. We as humans need each other, we need presence, deeper authentic healing. BH feels like a technocratic tool for a totalitarian regime. Total monitoring through tacit agreement. We are losing our connection to the gifts of being physical. When we return to light, we can swim through the internet all we want. While we are here, alive, we need each other.
@@the1law500 This is a very, VERY privileged outlook. Not many people can afford or have access to traditional therapy. May want to just focus on yourself and your own needs on this one, just saying...
Hey Alyson, I was considering allowing my son (age 1) to do acting/modelling gigs until he was 3 to help pay for his future schooling as I’m a solo parent. This series has really made me sit down and examine whether or not I would be a good enough advocate for my son in these settings. I’ve decided against any type of child working as I don’t believe I would be the absolute best advocate for him. Thank you for these videos, thank you for the work you continue to do. I’m excited to see the action plan and ideas you have to make this industry safer for our kids.
Hi- just wanted to extend my thanks for your diligence to adding captions. As a deaf director I appreciate having access to information on how to make my sets safe 💜
I’m so glad! Shout-out to Mina and Joe for making sure they’re added each time. I’m working on Artist well-being toolkits right now and have a Deaf & hearing ASL team creating a signed version. Excited for more resources to be available!
@@TheRealAlysonStoner that’s amazing, thank you so much! I plan on telling authentic stories working with disabled child actors in the future and appreciate learning to how help them to feel safe and comfort as possible in set 💜🤟
I used to be soo jelous of her when I was a kid… but honestly I’m so thankful for the childhood I had. She’s amazing for bringing up these important points
This is the first time I’ve really reflected on how my acting experiences were inherently traumatic and caused certain emotions and sensations to stay in my body for long periods of time. Thank you so much Alyson for your insight.
I love how promptly and respectfully you addressed the sponsorship situation! ☀️ Over the years I’ve seen many creators ignore and obfuscate the issue, so it was really refreshing to see someone discuss it and move forward in a way that is congruent to how they describe their moral values and responsibilities :) You continue to dismantle my pre-conceived notions of “famous people” being one sort of way. Looking forward to watching more with iced coffee in hand 💁
Thank you for addressing the sponsorship so transparently! You continue to impress me with your thoughtfulness and capacity for calm, nuanced discourse.
Your stories about auditions reminded me of my looking for a regular office job. The numbers are lower bc they say you need to send out just a 100 resumes to get 10 answers - and then go through a few stages of recruitment. I wasn't trying to get a big break so in that sense the pressure was lower too and of course I was an adult! But the feeling of running around town, wasting hours and hours on projects I never heard back on, the emotional toll of being professional but cool but serious but friendly, pretending I'm passionate about whatever the company was doing, dealing with constant rejection and uncertainty about my future - it's all very much there. It did a number on my self esteem. I can't imagine what it does to child.
Your response to the betterhelp situation is what I wish more content creators would do when facing conflict with viewers and posted content. It was transparent, informative, non-judgemental, and owned up to your role in the conflict while soliciting input to help avoid these scenarios going forward as much as possible. You can’t make everyone happy, and this response isn’t an attempt that, but it is showing a respect and value for your audience to create even more impactful content. I really wish this was the norm. Thank you for truly valuing people watching and hearing what you’re saying, and caring about the impact of what you’re saying. Too many creators would ignore it or put out a sound bite statement and move on. The authenticity here is beautiful.
i actually think something like Patreon, Tipeee or some other platform to let the public fund this project would be a better alignment than any sponsor could ever be :) it's your choice in the end and i'm a big believer in the "get that bag" philosophy bc indie artists gotta eat, but hey maybe you could consider crowdfunding, since this series is going so well!
So... you want the debt-drowned general public to fund this instead of companies who can genuinely afford to? Crowdfunding encourages people to spend their money, even if they don't really have any extra. I'd rather see Betterhelp pay for this than Lucy down the street. And before people say "well, they make the choice". Yeah, then you don't understand the human psyche these days when it comes to parasocial relationships, setting a precedent for problematic choice-making and FOMO. There's a reason why streamers and other content creators can make millions while their viewers go into debt. At the end of it all, you either trust Alyson or you don't.
I think Patreon can be great for more established channels, but I think the goal of this podcast is to spread awareness to as wide of an audience as possible
Listening to your stories made me realize that I’m glad I never booked movies or shows as a child. My parents couldn’t afford to fund my dream. So they made me give up. I’m actually grateful this happened. The way the I grew up was already hard plus adding these elements on top of it. I don’t know if I would be here on Earth anymore.
I've had this same thought. I was big into theatre in school and went to a few auditions for things shot locally but couldn't afford to go further than that because my parents wouldn't let me. I'm really glad I didn't get in any deeper.
I feel there's a compromise somewhere between letting your kid do what they're passionate about while also keeping them healthy and safe. That's part of the reason I adore the unsung heroes who pour insane amounts of effort into organizing small, local clubs and camps for kids. Kids can do what they love without demanding too much of them, seeing them as only a product, or signing away the next 5-15 years of their lives.
Idk, she sounds a little angry for no reason. Some of this is just common sense and nobody is forcing a person to act. Yeah its a grueling process but its worth it. Some people just handle situations better than others.
@@RockinLoud360 I mean, if someone says being held at gunpoint and tortured for hours is traumatizing, I don't think you need to say "well some people wouldn't be traumatized from that." The situation and environment these kids are in is traumatizing. It is far beyond what should be expected of children. Just because some people have handled it better doesn't make it any less problematic, and she's given the research and psychology behind why. You don't get to argue with facts.
@@evalynn1863 But like complaining that you had to have your first kiss on camera… like so because of you, we cant let the character go through an event? Like what a crybaby comment
Hey Allison! I personally use Backline, which is a mental health service for industry workers. They are AMAZING, and I would love you see you partner with them! As someone who works on the back end of the industry doing paperwork and logistics, I lean on them tremendously for support. This podcast is also helping me as I can apply a lot of what you’re saying to my own personal experience. Even though I’m not a performer, or someone who started as a child, but having a bird eye view of everything you speak about, as well as receiving my own “feedback” from the same sources that disrespect the talent makes this all so meaningful. Thank you for leading this movement, and being such a huge part of my journey of self growth & love.
I was a chronically ill and disabled kid, I got lucky and made it to adulthood. It's astonishing how similar the impacts of having a Narc/BPD parent duo and a rare illness where you get paraded about for treatments, research, money makes the impact so similar. I didn't expect that when I came here for this. I've been in therapy a long time, but this series has given me a new angle to approach some of my trauma from...even recognizing it AS trauma to start.
I grew up in LA, and was "discovered" at age 5 during a piano recital. My mom started taking me to auditions, and after going to several of them, they started making me feel uncomfortable and I told my mom I didn't want to go to them anymore. I'm so grateful that she listened to me and never forced me to continue on (especially since it wasn't my choice to start acting anyway). I still dabbled in the arts for fun and was encouraged to perform in other ways that were fulfilling and helped me grow as a person (and helped me find my authentic self). The arts are supposed to be fun! I knew a couple of kids who had good experiences and still work in the industry as adults today, and my hats off to them, but I saw it do more harm than good to some of my other friends who started working as actors and models young. Thank you for sharing your experience, Alyson! ♥
I keep thinking while listening to these episodes: is there a way we (consumers of media) can tell if a set is ethical for employees/actors? How can we do the research so we make informed choices when watching media? This has definitely opened my eyes, now when I watch shows I genuinely see actors on set as the people they are, rather than just consuming media so carelessly. Thank you for this important podcast ❤️
Mmm that’s super interesting. 🤔 Similar to how people learn about stuff going on w corporations/brands… or how restaurants are given letter scores.. Hm. I know it’s fairly common for people in the industry to hear what certain sets are like, but I wonder what would happen if there was more transparency for the general public 🤔🤔🤔 great thought starter!
I'm particularly curious about this one. When I watch more mature movies/shows with children in them I always wonder how dealing with this "adult" themes in their acting affects these kids psychologically and if they receive enough emotional support to minimize it. Btw I'm loving this series so far :)
I know Hollywood is boycotting AI, but I feel like using AI to make child characters could be beneficial. That way, they are not having to go through all this trauma.
This was a particularly insightful conversation that I feel is important for a lot of hopefuls to hear. I’m a youth Talent Manager in Los Angeles and former child actor. I try to never lose sight of the psychological impact of not only the process young people go through to try and achieve their dreams but also the individual emotional complexities that exist for them as they work hard to bring honesty to each scene and character. I am sensitive to the continual “ask” given to these kids on the daily. I don’t think enough awareness is given to the topic of Hollywood and performance and the weight that these brave young minds and hearts have to carry. I applaud your candid commentary of the industry through your well spoken and open hearted lens. ❤🤓👏🏻
This whole podcast has been wild. In this specific episode I kept thinking back to a time where I was in elementary school. I was involved with a school play, and I did so well with my performance that I had multiple adults come up to my mom and I, saying how great a job I did. Later on, my mom had asked me if I wanted to pursue acting. I told her no because the anxiety before stepping on stage was a lot and I didn't like that part. It was never brought up again. This podcast has made me wonder what I would have turned into as a person had I actually wanted to become an actor. Quite frankly, I don't think I would have gotten far. My family was poor to begin with, but more than that, I likely would have been far more emotionally and psychologically damaged than I already was because of my environment. I'm not well off financially, but at least I'm a more stable person who refuses to people please and acts in my own self interests. I don't think I could have become who I am now through a life of being a young actor, so I'm grateful I didn't go down that route.
I've had positive experiences with Betterhelp as well, and was glad they could work with my, at the time, paltry budget. But I understand they have a lot of trust to hopefully repair as well. Can't wait to jump into the episode - as a former child actor myself, this series has been profound. I'm unpacking years that I used to just view as the overall best of my life, and seeing the harms they left behind deeper than ever before. I also began disassociation around 13/14. Quick update: I see how I decided from the parts I booked that I was the quirky nerd, somewhat internally and externally tortured but hey - hes loveable, hyper capable and almost always happy too, and that contradiction certainly became a box I was locked in with daily life too. Almost always supporting recurring roles, guest roles, etc, never the main character, but feeling like the main character in my small town life. Voice acting later on was so freeing as I could see identity much more subjectively though and suddenly I was, at times, booking drastically different characters, and often leads too.
Hi Alyson! I can't tell you enough how much I've been enjoying this podcast. I fell in love with musical theatre as a kid, and I decided in 8th grade that I wanted to pursue it seriously. Unfortunately, years of dance classes, voice lessons, acting classes, a BFA and a year an a half living in New York later, I realized that 1) I was never going to be the right "type" for the kinds of roles that truly inspired me and 2) growing up, I never had access to the quality/kind of training I needed to even be competitive in the industry to begin with. After COVID, I cut my losses and pivoted into a more traditional career and after a period of grieving and processing, I realize I've never been so at peace with myself. I LOVED what you said about Oscar winners saying "don't give up on your dreams no matter what" because I had the same experience watching the Tony's as a kid. When I stepped away from theatre, I experienced an overwhelming sense of loss. Not only was I unsure of who I was if I wasn't an actor, I also felt like a "failure" for having "given up" on my dream. Please, please let's normalize trying something, realizing it doesn't actually align with your values/what you really want out of your life and stepping away from it and that being ok and not a sign of having "given up" or "failed"
Some famous people who advice to keep going no matter what, are those entertainers who have been so bitten down by the industry that they don’t want to be alone in their misery. They are recruiting misery buddies, and are also trying to find a younger generation of entertainers that they can abuse the same way they were abused. Not trying to be pessimistic, but be safe y’all.
My little experience of rejection: I live in a small village in a small country, but this village has one of the best acrobatic gymnastics clubs in the whole world. As a toddler (5yo) I was selected for the pre-competition team, then 1 year later I was brought into the competition team (not to compete: minimum age is 9 yo, but to help train a base, I was just a flyer with decent stability). Another year later I was returned to the pre-comp team and 1 more year later I was kicked out entirely from these selective groups. My world imploded. From one day onto the next I went from confident outgoing person, to extremely self-concious shy person. Yes, I had always been a bit shy, but once in an established group I was a goofy person. Now, not anymore. Just this small experience of rejection imploded my entire self-image, so I cannot imagine what child-stars in the industry go through on a day-to-day basis. I am recovered now, but it took my almost a decade to build back my self-confidence without feeling like my reason for feeling confident could be taken away at any moment. I truly hope everyone who went through something similar can build themselves up again.
Thank you for these insightful videos, Alyson. Children deserve to have a childhood, first and foremost, and shouldn't be subjected to any toxicity from the seedy entertainment industry. I'd never force any future child of mine into that position.
This was just SO fascinating- I could have listened to you talk for hours! Thank you for sharing such personal, vulnerable stories, while also giving a “broad picture” of the process. This process reminds me of a similar process of elite athletes. The auditions, criticism, hours of training, money spent, only to find that a very few “make it.”
The more I speak to my actor friends and watch things like this, the more I relate the acting industry to the animation industry. Breaking into the industry. Being cast for projects, being able to draw in any style, not being able to choose what projects you take, and having a strong portfolio -- and having the right people see your portfolio. Auditioning for shows by taking an art test. Being able to match the style of any show, knowing how to Draw, Paint, animate, Storyboard etc. aka being versatile enough to take on other roles when there is no work in your discipline. Being typecast into working in preschool, television animation v.s. doing feature films. Not being taken seriously by the film industry as a legitimate form of film-making. Working for years waiting, hoping you get a sweet sweet project or that your years of training and work get you a job... Being both technically skilled enough, and having that unique something that gets you noticed. I admire this series a lot and it's super interesting to me seeing the similarities in different fields. Thanks for sharing Alyson!
I love this show and I find it very useful to help parse and describe my experiences. As a performer who was mostly chasing much smaller scale projects than tv, movies, or commercials (think college theater, non-union theater projects, and community theater), I think a lot of this is really really relatable not just in the most intense communities (Hollywood, Broadway), but also in smaller performance communities. I never dyed my hair for fear of appearing too specific for a role in auditions - I always wanted to be a blank slate, I could be anyone, so I never developed what I wanted to look like, I was always depending on other people to hand me an appearance that would work. I am just now, a decade into my adulthood, starting to like my own face and perceiving myself as main character material. Keep doing what you're doing
I think your description of the audition process and its tolls, and especially the observation that most bookings are for short shoots, have helped me dismantle a piece of the "celebrity" construct in my mind. A confirmation that, with regards to a given public figure, I as a member of the public truly DON'T KNOW the person as a person.
I find these videos so fascinating, I don’t think anyone would think child stars have it easy but the deep dive brings up a lot I would never think of. As for finding my authentic self, in my 30s and still trying, it’s a continuous work and I find myself repeatedly checking in with myself and recognising people pleasing behaviours and other triggers. I wish I could go back and speak to my younger self for 20 mins, but then….we are our lessons so it would probably take away from who i am now
As someone who acted for fun, I LOVED the audition process. Same with job interviews. I love them. It’s a challenge intimidating the people who are there judging you. It might be a bit reverse psychology and I might have a backwards mind about it compared to the average person, but it gave me a thrill I loved. I will say, it IS exhausting and after awhile the process can be grating.
This psychology behind the audition process is so valuable as both an amateur filmmaker and an admirer of actors and what they're capable of. When interacting with actors, knowing they're likely reading the room and simultaneously feeling like they're under a microscope AND looking to people please, how can we help make them feel more comfortable and just like any other human and remind them its ok to be themselves? Thank you for sharing.
really looking forward to the next episode. hearing how many times you audition vs book roles had me so curious bout the kids getting pushed into acting for money reasons (which makes no sense to me with how much it costs to even get to the point of actually booking something). which is already a HUGE burden to put on a child. knowing the stage parent for a lot of these kids the was/is abusive and/or forcing this life on their child and then hearing how the audition process goes... i can't imagine the mental anguish a child must feel when failing auditions. it truly breaks my heart. and then thinking of the child being scared of how their abusive parent may react to another failed audition... it's just sooo much for a child to understand and navigate. i'm so glad you have created this series. it's such a good and important look into the effects of this world on a child. i have a feeling this series is going to help save/protect a lot of children in the industry (or kids/families considering it), and help the parents of said kids learn how to protect them properly. keep up the amazing work, alyson! ❤❤❤
Listening to this episode, I was particularly interested in something you touched upon in the last couple of minutes of this episode, about how most actors have zero say in the messaging and the overall creative direction of the project they're working on. I think these days especially viewers/public easily conflate the actors personal sociopolitical views, personalities, sexuality (this is a huge one), etc. with those of the characters they "choose" to portray, which often lead to a barrage of online hate and harassment. Some recent examples of this that come to mind include Elsie Fisher in the newest season of The Summer I Turned Pretty, Joey King in the Kissing Booth franchise, Sofia Carson in Purple Hearts, Kit Connor in Heartstopper, etc. On a completely different note, I'd also like to hear about the potential "mindfuck" (for lack of a better word) of the act of having to really enthusiastically promote a certain project you've worked on after shooting, especially if that experience was not a very happy or fulfilling one. I can only imagine how psychologically messy and exhausting to have to pretend (often months or up to 2 years later) that you're best friends with the cast and crew and you love when in reality you haven't thought about them or the project for a very long time. Tldr; very keen on hearing your general thoughts about internet parasociality and by extension, "stan" culture if that's something you're comfortable sharing :)
i remember when i was really into acting and musical theatre when i was a pre teen i took acting classes from a pretty well connected coach and i was always envious of the other kids talking about the jobs they booked and auditions they were going to all the time. knowing what i know now i’m kinda glad i never got involved in that. you’re doing so much good with this podcast, alyson
Now that youve phrased it like this, my inability to 'role' and 'de-role' were some of the primary reasons i stopped pursuing being a lawyer. At 22, I was volunteering in multiple criminal and domestic violence law jobs. Often I was tasked with the more traumatic cases because other volunteers were younger. There was no training, and although second-hand trauma was a term I was familiar with, there was no assistance to manage playing the role of 'sympathetic but unaffected' to peoples worst moments. It may have been helpful to see being a lawyer as a role or mask to don. For those late formative years, I was bringing all of myself to it and I absolutely couldnt leave cases behind. Thank you for giving words to my experience I'm still understanding ❤
Thank you for addressing the situation!! I think it would be amazing to see sponsorships from mental health apps like Calm and Headspace, personally I’ve had great experiences with them 🥰
I want you to know I genuinely now fully refuse to watch any show with kid actors. The ick factor I got from watching our videos have grown exponentially, and I really can't. I just see children now, being groomed and abused, and it's horrific now. There's no space in my brain now to even be able to justify to myself at all. Your work is profound, thank you for it.
I remember the day I was done with auditioning. I had been without an agent for around 6/7 years, and was finding auditions online. I quit my job and thought I'd give myself a year to make it (I'd seen several success stories of actors who said they made it in a year). I came home from an audition for a play where I ran around doing sports activities and miming for an hour without actually acting, and did not get a callback. That was it for me. My agent told me at 9 years old that the success ration was 100 auditions to 1 booking, however I always felt like a failure for never booking. I felt like I was in the graveyard of unsuccessful castings. After a while your self worth is eroded, and your essence is gone. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for those who are blessed to make it, but I just couldn't take it anymore.
And this is why I say acting and entertainment work are for people who come from wealthy families or families who are financially Well off . The amount of resources needed the average person cannot compete. Time resources .. energy resources and monetary resources. I've always said this
Hi, Alyson! I’m 2 minutes into the video and I’m just so incredibly proud you took the initiative to talk about that certain brand. It really really really bothers me when I see others advertise it, especially when they call it “therapy”
I had a horrible experience with Betterhelp... I was definitely a bit hurt when I saw the sponsorship last week. Thank you for believing us when we spoke out!
That contract with the salary beforehand is a trap. Seen many actors say they get locked in and when the show skyrockets they still get small percentages
I feel so bad for that little kid that experienced that!! This is definitely making me think about child actors mental health more. Also, the statistics of becoming famous are insane!! Thanks so much Alyson for this informative series.
I aspire to be as well spoken, educated, empathetic and just all around a good, kind and intelligent person as you are. You are so inspiring to me in many ways. Thank you for this podcast, and for being you. Sincerely, Elaine aka a longtime fan of yours❤
0:30 Alyson thank you for taking accountability & also being honest that you genuinely didn't know. You are human, so you are not going to know everything❤. I very much understand the business side of things, so feel free to do sponsors & of course do your research on them. xx
Alyson, I wanted to thank you for this series. I watched your first few episodes through the lens of someone aspiring to break into the industry as an actor, and your honesty and enlightenment have given me a lot to think about. I did not grow up in entertainment, but I have struggled with a lot of childhood trauma and have been impacted mentally in some of the ways you address in your videos. I have decided it's not in my best interest to pursue acting out of concern for my own safety, and that decision would have been a lot more difficult (or perhaps impossible) had you not created this series. I cannot thank you enough for your vulnerability and for sharing about your experiences. They are already making a difference...They may have even saved me. Lots of love and encouragement to you. You are doing great things
Great episode! I used to do some low-level modeling and extra-ing, but I've worked with a lot of models in my later career as a photographer. And yes, it's much better to create your own narrative than to work on someone else's vision... Even though as a photographer you sometimes also have to just follow the client's vision, especially when your money is tight and you just have to take any job. What I remember from modeling and from the other models is the amount of weird criticism you get that makes you kinda disembody, because what can you do about "did you know your eyes are slightly uneven?" or "wow your hair gets really sweaty" (in wool dresses on a 35 celcius day with no aircon)... 🤷🏻♀️ When I was a photographer, I sometimes shot children's magazines, and oh my, I saw some parents... Bribing their kids with toys or the promise of McDonalds... Usually those kids were the worst, because you could tell they weren't having fun, or they were too rehearsed. (The best thing for me was just to put a kid on set, let them play, and they'd barely know we were doing a shoot - this was mostly kids from friends.) I understand it can come across as sus to send the parents away from the set, but sometimes you really want those over-directing ("suck in your tummy!") moms out of the room. Sometimes I still feel bad for cooperating with these practices...
Alyson, words can’t explain how much you’re helping people. You’re stories are incredible transparent and relatable. I speak for many when I say how thankful I am that you’re enlightening us with this project!
Your transparency and grace in addressing the sponsorship topic was thoughtful, mature, and loving. I am continually impressed and inspired by Alyson’s elegance.
I’ve been acting for two years (began at 24, now I’m 26), and i’ve always seen the audition process as nothing but fun, but that’s also because I’ve always taken acting as something fun and that is because I had a normal childhood were acting was my extracurricular. It was always something I did for fun. I wanted to do acting full-time professionally at 17, but my mother didn’t let me because of everything you’ve talked about on this podcast, Allison. She thought I was throwing my life away, and while she was well intentioned, it damaged me and I felt like she wasn’t accepting or embracing the true me or my dreams, but what this rejection of my career/then true self did allow me to do was to focus on my academics, graduate from an early college high school with my associates degree two weeks before my high school diploma, and graduate from a university 1 semester earlier than everyone else my age, with a degree in psychology, so that I could have something else to fall back on and to have something else that I love doing that I can attach my self-worth, self-esteem and self concept to.
as many others said, thank you for addressing the sponsorship!!! we know you need and deserve sponsors, so (as beings who look to understand and grow) we are here to keep supporting you and exploring/learning about the heinous BTS of hollywood. keep the episodes coming!! 🖤 much love and support as always!! 🖤
this episode was my favorite yet. thank you for your sacrifice in unearthing all of this for us. I was in shows in high school, just for fun, and I still, 10 years later, have nightmares that I’m onstage with the lights up, and I completely forget my lines in front of 1000 people. So to magnify that over years, up the stakes 100x, with real money and your reputation on the line… I think the saddest part of all of this is that doing what you love and are good at is supposed to mostly bring you joy, with maybe a bit of misery and hard work. Not the other way around. I wish it didn’t have to be this way.
I never doubted you had good intentions with the better help ad, I’m so happy you addressed it. I really hope you get more varied sponsees in the future, you deserve it
Kept seeing these in shorts so I decided to sit a watch. This is so informative and amazing how your story and views have affected me, I’ve now recommended my friends to watch too! I am so glad so many of you are speaking out, change is uncomfortable but good and I hope all these voices and education help implement the changes we so desperately need to do better. It should have never got to this point but it has and for that I’m sorry for anyone suffering. You deserved better x
As an extremely high masking autistic adult, I really relate to this episode as my mask very much feels like a character that I’ve portrayed for my whole life and it’s now almost impossible to distinguish between the two. A very insightful episode as always.
I didn’t watch the last episode because it was sponsored by BetterHelp. I’m glad you had a truly good experience, but as a whole I think their company is bad and only takes advantage of those in mental/emotional crisis. Thank you for addressing them and being so open in all your episodes. Nothing in this series is easy for anyone to talk about or possibly even easy to think about.
You are the epitome of a balanced, rational, flawed, and compassionate work-in-progress and your approach on all your platforms encourages everyone else, similarly imperfect but willing to grow individuals, to do the same with dignity, self-love, and much respect to yourself and the many viewpoints of others. Thank you for your walk and your example! 🌹
As a theatre kid, it was always so discouraging not getting the role you wanted and not allowed to the room to grow. I really had to force myself to my director to get her attention. Reflecting now, it is insane how much stock I put into it all and I wish I could go back and change it. However, without that experience, I would not be who I am today. Currently, I am helping out at my high school theatre and that has given me the chance to reflect a lot. I am still learning and reflecting everyday. As an adult, participating in theatre, it has been somewhat healing. I, personally, enjoy the arts, and I hope to give kids a safe place if they need it.
I cannot speak about acting shaping me, but I know that intense bullying has made me one strong people-pleaser. I grew up trying to do everything to please my bullies so they would leave me alone. I'm now 25 and I still struggle to say no, although I am improving
When I was young, I too wanted to be a childhood actor. After learning all of the work needed (through trial n error) the money needed to invest, while trying to navigate the scams.... I became disgusted with this industry. When I turned 19 I pursued to become a model, seemingly very similar industry. Alyson, thankyou for casting a light on the dark shadows this industry has. I now work for myself, and have my own business and have a consistent income. I cannot imagine, the stress, of just trying to book jobs entails not only children, and their parents but for you as an adult. Bravo my friend, BRAVO!
Alyson, you're such a lovely person. Thank you for putting the effort and time into addressing the sponsorship. That really shows your character. I for one will be sticking around. This has been such an eye opening podcast. Great work!
Everything you’re saying is bringing back so many memories from growing up. I actually remember going to the International Model and Talent Agency week in Los Angelos (IMTA). In fact you were a speaker there. This was about 17 years ago. My parents spent thousands of dollars on it because that was the “norm” to do if you wanted to book an agent and become “discovered.”
I feel like even a well-adjusted adult would struggle during this process. I can't imagine what it might do to a child's sense of self and self-esteem.
Man, I quickly got over the audition process, it's so draining, exhausting, costly and man do you have to drop ev.er.y.thing to make your self available at the last minute for even the smallest of auditions and jobs. On top of that everyone is telling you "don't take it personally." Sure, Jan. I look back and think NO WAY I would every do that again. Great work, Alyson, keep it up. Your honesty about the industry and pulling back the curtain is so refreshing and so needed. Is it really any wonder how nepo babies who have all the time in the world and so much disposable income "make it"? You really do need to have a lot of privalage usually to even get a toehold in.
Thank you so much for sharing this, there are so many parallels between this and the music industry, these days I'm so glad I never got a record deal when I was a teenager, releasing music independently works for me so much better ❤
Alyson, I’m so so sorry you had to go through these horrible experiences at such a young age. I remember you vividly I’ve watched all of your projects I loved you Everytime I saw you on screen. I’m so sorry the world was so cruel to you and the other child stars who are just looking to bring smiles to other children’s faces. Thank you so stepping up and coming out. Thank you for speaking on the behalf of those who feel like they can’t speak or won’t be heard. I love you girl! I hope you are doing well today! :)
I’m really glad you addressed the Betterhelp sponsorship from last week and I figured that you really did have no idea about any of their negative feedback beforehand. It is a really funny coincidence that you and everyone you knew had positive things to say about them lol. I’m glad at least you had a good experience using them but I’m also really glad you did your research since the last video!
Ok wait. I hope you’ll answer me if you can, no specific details necessary. Several here saying negative experiences with betterhelp but no details ie; they didn’t respond to me in a timely fashion, they were kinda one track mind, something along those lines. You’re allowed with me to say ‘no’ response. If so generalizing is ok. Thank you🙏🏻❤️
Dear Alyson, Thank you so much for all your labor and open heart to share all you have been through as a child star. As a child, I was parentified due to a severely mentally ill parent and I can relate my own way to many of the themes you are sharing. It's so hard to process all of it but I've found revisiting and allowing those feelings to be really healing. Sending much care your way. Also, I honestly feel like if you were someone I met randomly in the world we would be friends. I am sure you get that all the time even your history of fame. I just saw that as I felt glimpses of you in these videos.
During college I was in a BFA Acting program, and my mom passed away my sophomore year. It was so much trauma and heightened emotion to process on its own, then add onto that I’m being asked to take on the trauma and emotions of various fictional characters too… it was all too much and I wound up unwell- relying on substances, developing disordered eating, and ultimately quitting the acting world all together. Deroling is so huge and I wish I knew more about it during that time. Maybe I still could’ve pursued my dream in a more healthy way.
4:20 seconds in and my heart is starting to break for 8 yr old Alyson already..how does a family leave for a vacation and leave their 8yr old child/family member behind to work? Smh im sure her family loves her and did what they thought was best at the time but hearing this...smh..just..no im sorry i cant imagine doing that to anyone let alone a young child. 😢
My first thought is that the audition process should be paid! It's completely unfair for all of that handwork and hoop jumling to be unpaid. Hollywood is so sheisty, it doesnt have to be that way.
i’m glad you addressed the betterhelp stuff and i hope that you don’t have any more contractual obligations to fulfill with them and haven’t renewed any sponsorship contract with them bc it’s kinda gross to think that they could just suddenly be doing any better since the recent settlement 🤷🏻♀️
I just needed to say thank you for being your authentic self. This is how I wish people would work to communicate. To realize and own their imperfections, and see the power in that. I. See. You. Thank you for doing the work and you’re an amazing person. I know I don’t actually know you, so idk how much that means. But I hope it gives you a small piece of what you’ve given me. 💚💚
I can’t get enough with this series!! So thankful someone we grew up with is really getting to the nitty gritty of the reality of Hollywood. We love you Alyson ❤️
This was SUCH an interesting episode for me, because I'm currently in drama school studying musical theatre, and even though I've been performing in front of local audiences for over a decade, I'm only just starting to get a taste of the auditioning world as someone who just entered their adulthood and is still building a foundation for any kind of career. I found myself mentally cataloging your "insider info" on auditioning before I thought about the human toll of the routine, which I think is telling of what the entertainment industry demands of its performers. I also replay auditions over and over in my mind, and it's _extremely_ rare I ever walk out of them happy with my performance. I also hyper-catatrophize the consequences of my missteps, and am only just learning from my instructors how to combat that. It makes you constantly wonder if it's all worth it. I also want to add that the audition-to-audition lifestyle is supremely difficult if you have any issues with executive function, especially if you don't have an agent to take on some of the burden. Seeking out jobs from multiple different sources, keeping a orderly calender to reference your availability, memorizing a bunch of different material at breakneck pace, commuting, punctuality, replying to emails, making self-tapes, maintaining professional contacts, etc etc etc. As someone with ADHD, the struggle is real. If I didn't love performing as much as I do, I'd never subject myself to it.
I'm trying to keep my parasocial love for you down because I imagine it's an intense trigger for you, but I truly love how genuine you are. The fact you addressed BetterHelp after ONE sponsorship when thousands of TH-camrs and Podcasters won't address it after hundreds of sponsorships and hundreds of thousands of comments we all KNOW they see just shows how true your heart is. This episode made me cry so much. I remember the fear I felt just watching Hellraiser sneakily from behind a couch as a child, and how I couldn't sleep for MONTHS after that. Now imagine a 5 yr old on that set? That would cause lifelong trauma & PTSD. I don't understand how this is legal. THANK YOU FOR BEING A VOICE FOR THE VOICELESS, and for those who are too afraid to come forward because of the hate they'll receive. I pray your martyrdom and the beauty of your soul will change the world--not just in entertainment.
Now I’ve watched the rest of this episode (and the others also) - I’m learning a lot from you! I hope others are too. Living in the UK, and coming from a lower working class background, the insight into this world is entirely new to me. I’ve watched movies, streaming services, of course I have - but knowing what y’all have to put yourself through to get there? It puts a different spin on things for sure. A question to you (if you’ve time, of course!) - if you did find somehow now yourself on an offer list, and didn’t have to go through the furore of auditioning 20 times, do you think you’d take the role?
Skillshare could be a good sponsor to look at, considering a lot of what we've explored so far has circled back to a fear of failing with no skills to fall back on. Gaining skills and having that be more accessible is always a great thing no matter the stage in life :)
Fascinating. Your comment on ‘de-roleing’ really struck a chord with me. As a neurodiverse person, I have to “mask” my condition to fit in to my corporate workplace all day. I’ve become pretty good at it over the years, though it is extremely tiring. I find the commute home so important for me to reconnect with who I really am, which is a husband, historian, painter and martial artist. Also I had no idea about the tangled web that aspiring pro actors have to navigate just to land an audition, which makes me realise that my decision not to pursue acting beyond university was wise for me. I loved it, but more for the social/escapism/personal development side of things. I salute you for trying, I admire the success you have had in this field, and thank you for giving a unique insider’s perspective in such an eloquent, forthright and courageous manner. Best wishes from 🇬🇧.
Hey there 👋 In my brain damage and recovery class the other day, we were talking about method actors and I plugged your channel for anyone who was curious. Your last two episodes were very topical to our discussion, and I find you so much more relatable and calming than that class is 😂
Im so glad you addressed the betterhelp issue. Im glad you're listening to your listeners. Unlike so many. Betterhelp is of course going to say they havent done it. Theres more issues than sharing peoples info. Theres also the fact theres sooo many people who had bad experiences with the therapists
I do believe them when they say they didn't share that data, the level of data that they said they didn't share would have been a HIPAA violation. That doesn't mean that they didn't share everything they could up to that level, kind of like when you sign up to a rewards card level. I live in Australia and it reminds me of when the government tried to make it so that ISPs had to save all of the meta data and hand it over when requested. As it was said that would mean that they would know that you made a phone call to X for Y length of time but they wouldn't know what you talked about (depending on the number they have a pretty good idea of what you were talking about). Same as they would know what websites etc that you viewed. So without technically breaching confidentiality laws they can still give out quite a bit of information that will get you targeted ads etc.
@@peachxtaehyung 100% they have, they are sharing the kind of stuff that is gathered with a rewards card or you signing up for a email list. It is that they are in the health profession that you expect a higher standard. Then there is the other shady shit which they then will do the we addressed and rectified, like when they didn't verify that the therapists were licenced and it still says in the small print that it is up to you to verify that the therapist they match you with is licenced.
I know that my experience only doing theatre in college is VERY different to yours, but what you said about typecasting really hit home for me. I am a woman on the heavier side, so I was easily spotted into the role of mother, caregiver, and supporter. Very rarely did I get to step out of that, and never with one of the professors who directed shows. I had gone through my four years as a Theatre minor, having been told that majors and minors, especially those who were upperclassmen, basically got primary consideration. Cut to my senior year, when the show was A Doll’s House. Two of the roles had been precast (a first for the program, but not surprising), but there was another meaty dramatic role that I’d been hopeful for. I had been growing out my hair, so I wouldn’t have had to wear a wig for the period appropriate hairstyles I had been told we’d be going for. I’d been working, both on-and offstage, for four whole years. I was offered the role of the nanny, while a student with the same major and minor as me, the only other differences being that she was younger and thinner, got the role I’d been hoping for. When I talked to the director about dropping out of the show because of a whole other issue during rehearsals, I also brought that up, and he said that he just didn’t see me as that role, didn’t think I was that role’s material. I still, to this day, have issues thinking about doing community theatre at least in part because I don’t want to be typecast as the mother again.
Alyson I have always had (and absolutely still have, especially with this situation)a lot of respect for you and you continue to take appropriate responsibility and own your mistakes. Thank you for listening to your audience and doing research to be more informed ❤
Thank you for sharing Alyson. So for those of us who need to be artists to feel like life is worth living, and for whom other types of work have just not been working out - what are we going to do? I understand that this specific video is about acting, but really this applies to all types of art, especially the performing arts. It's a major structural issue and has been involving a broken idea of what authority means, and what has value to be profitable. After what I experienced with people when I was in LA, I'm not buying it that there's nothing we can do about this on our end.
As a nurse I had to “derole”. I would use my walk out of the hospital to stop thinking about the patients & trauma. I compartmentalized that part of my life. It is hard. I can’t imagine doing this as a child actor.
Def derole as a teacher.
Same! I was thinking about this myself as a therapist working with kids…you truly need a ritual to step out of your work persona and away from the stress/trauma you encounter daily and return to yourself or else burn out happens real quick…we all play roles I guess
This reminded me of police & how you can often tell a police officer even when they’re off. ‘de-role’ is such an interesting concept for jobs that ask a lot of you mentally & to wear/develop a sort of mask
Yep, I'm a teacher's aide. I have to force myself to let go of the students' problems after I clock out. @@teacupolous
I wasn't even medical staff, I was just the receptionist who helped billing and I had to do the same thing. I compartmentalized to stay sane. But it was also sad because things that should disturb you just don't any more. You become numb. and that's when it was time for me to leave.
Thank you for addressing the betterhelp situation!… I knew all along that your heart was in the right place. I’m actually happy that betterhelp helped you by sponsoring. They just broke my trust long time ago and I won’t be using their services, but I’m glad they are at least paying for this quality content to be created. And for everyone out there, just like Alyson, you could have a good experience. Please read, learn and educate yourself before using them, but if you decide to use them, I wish you the best and I pray for you to get a great experience from it.
Good on her for taking responsibility ❤
i want to agree with you, because i also think alyson’s heart is in the right place and i believe this show deserves support, but idk… one of the strongest messages alyson has imparted to us over the past few weeks is that just because some people have positive experiences with a person or organization doesn’t mean that others haven’t suffered at their hands, and it’s harmful to allow the perpetrator to continue their behaviors through inaction and tacit (or in this case outright) endorsement. partnering with BH goes against that message. there ARE other ways to support the show, it doesn’t absolutely have to be this.
and alyson, if you see this: even if you don’t drop BH as a sponsor (though i hope you’ll reconsider), i think it would be good for future episodes to link back to this one so new viewers/listeners can hear your statement, as well as include comprehensive links to information on the company’s history (ftc’s official rulings, customer testimonials, news reports on the other myriad controversies, etc) that can help people at least make informed decisions
I dislike the part where it supports leaning on a device for emotional support. We as humans need each other, we need presence, deeper authentic healing. BH feels like a technocratic tool for a totalitarian regime. Total monitoring through tacit agreement. We are losing our connection to the gifts of being physical. When we return to light, we can swim through the internet all we want. While we are here, alive, we need each other.
Well said and agreed
@@the1law500 This is a very, VERY privileged outlook. Not many people can afford or have access to traditional therapy. May want to just focus on yourself and your own needs on this one, just saying...
Hey Alyson, I was considering allowing my son (age 1) to do acting/modelling gigs until he was 3 to help pay for his future schooling as I’m a solo parent. This series has really made me sit down and examine whether or not I would be a good enough advocate for my son in these settings. I’ve decided against any type of child working as I don’t believe I would be the absolute best advocate for him. Thank you for these videos, thank you for the work you continue to do. I’m excited to see the action plan and ideas you have to make this industry safer for our kids.
Hi- just wanted to extend my thanks for your diligence to adding captions. As a deaf director I appreciate having access to information on how to make my sets safe 💜
I’m so glad! Shout-out to Mina and Joe for making sure they’re added each time. I’m working on Artist well-being toolkits right now and have a Deaf & hearing ASL team creating a signed version. Excited for more resources to be available!
@@TheRealAlysonStoner that’s amazing, thank you so much! I plan on telling authentic stories working with disabled child actors in the future and appreciate learning to how help them to feel safe and comfort as possible in set 💜🤟
@@TheRealAlysonStoner Thanks Mina and Joe! 👏🙏🫶
I used to be soo jelous of her when I was a kid… but honestly I’m so thankful for the childhood I had. She’s amazing for bringing up these important points
This is the first time I’ve really reflected on how my acting experiences were inherently traumatic and caused certain emotions and sensations to stay in my body for long periods of time. Thank you so much Alyson for your insight.
I love how promptly and respectfully you addressed the sponsorship situation! ☀️ Over the years I’ve seen many creators ignore and obfuscate the issue, so it was really refreshing to see someone discuss it and move forward in a way that is congruent to how they describe their moral values and responsibilities :) You continue to dismantle my pre-conceived notions of “famous people” being one sort of way. Looking forward to watching more with iced coffee in hand 💁
Thank you for addressing the sponsorship so transparently! You continue to impress me with your thoughtfulness and capacity for calm, nuanced discourse.
Your stories about auditions reminded me of my looking for a regular office job. The numbers are lower bc they say you need to send out just a 100 resumes to get 10 answers - and then go through a few stages of recruitment. I wasn't trying to get a big break so in that sense the pressure was lower too and of course I was an adult! But the feeling of running around town, wasting hours and hours on projects I never heard back on, the emotional toll of being professional but cool but serious but friendly, pretending I'm passionate about whatever the company was doing, dealing with constant rejection and uncertainty about my future - it's all very much there. It did a number on my self esteem. I can't imagine what it does to child.
Yess 💯💯💯 I thought the same thing. Interviewing feels like acting and even being in the job itself. Being alive in this society is exhausting.
Your response to the betterhelp situation is what I wish more content creators would do when facing conflict with viewers and posted content. It was transparent, informative, non-judgemental, and owned up to your role in the conflict while soliciting input to help avoid these scenarios going forward as much as possible. You can’t make everyone happy, and this response isn’t an attempt that, but it is showing a respect and value for your audience to create even more impactful content. I really wish this was the norm. Thank you for truly valuing people watching and hearing what you’re saying, and caring about the impact of what you’re saying. Too many creators would ignore it or put out a sound bite statement and move on. The authenticity here is beautiful.
i actually think something like Patreon, Tipeee or some other platform to let the public fund this project would be a better alignment than any sponsor could ever be :) it's your choice in the end and i'm a big believer in the "get that bag" philosophy bc indie artists gotta eat, but hey maybe you could consider crowdfunding, since this series is going so well!
So... you want the debt-drowned general public to fund this instead of companies who can genuinely afford to? Crowdfunding encourages people to spend their money, even if they don't really have any extra. I'd rather see Betterhelp pay for this than Lucy down the street. And before people say "well, they make the choice". Yeah, then you don't understand the human psyche these days when it comes to parasocial relationships, setting a precedent for problematic choice-making and FOMO. There's a reason why streamers and other content creators can make millions while their viewers go into debt. At the end of it all, you either trust Alyson or you don't.
I think Patreon can be great for more established channels, but I think the goal of this podcast is to spread awareness to as wide of an audience as possible
Listening to your stories made me realize that I’m glad I never booked movies or shows as a child. My parents couldn’t afford to fund my dream. So they made me give up. I’m actually grateful this happened. The way the I grew up was already hard plus adding these elements on top of it. I don’t know if I would be here on Earth anymore.
I've had this same thought. I was big into theatre in school and went to a few auditions for things shot locally but couldn't afford to go further than that because my parents wouldn't let me. I'm really glad I didn't get in any deeper.
I feel there's a compromise somewhere between letting your kid do what they're passionate about while also keeping them healthy and safe. That's part of the reason I adore the unsung heroes who pour insane amounts of effort into organizing small, local clubs and camps for kids. Kids can do what they love without demanding too much of them, seeing them as only a product, or signing away the next 5-15 years of their lives.
Idk, she sounds a little angry for no reason. Some of this is just common sense and nobody is forcing a person to act.
Yeah its a grueling process but its worth it. Some people just handle situations better than others.
@@RockinLoud360 I mean, if someone says being held at gunpoint and tortured for hours is traumatizing, I don't think you need to say "well some people wouldn't be traumatized from that." The situation and environment these kids are in is traumatizing. It is far beyond what should be expected of children. Just because some people have handled it better doesn't make it any less problematic, and she's given the research and psychology behind why. You don't get to argue with facts.
@@evalynn1863 But like complaining that you had to have your first kiss on camera… like so because of you, we cant let the character go through an event? Like what a crybaby comment
Hey Allison! I personally use Backline, which is a mental health service for industry workers. They are AMAZING, and I would love you see you partner with them! As someone who works on the back end of the industry doing paperwork and logistics, I lean on them tremendously for support. This podcast is also helping me as I can apply a lot of what you’re saying to my own personal experience. Even though I’m not a performer, or someone who started as a child, but having a bird eye view of everything you speak about, as well as receiving my own “feedback” from the same sources that disrespect the talent makes this all so meaningful. Thank you for leading this movement, and being such a huge part of my journey of self growth & love.
I was a chronically ill and disabled kid, I got lucky and made it to adulthood. It's astonishing how similar the impacts of having a Narc/BPD parent duo and a rare illness where you get paraded about for treatments, research, money makes the impact so similar. I didn't expect that when I came here for this. I've been in therapy a long time, but this series has given me a new angle to approach some of my trauma from...even recognizing it AS trauma to start.
I grew up in LA, and was "discovered" at age 5 during a piano recital. My mom started taking me to auditions, and after going to several of them, they started making me feel uncomfortable and I told my mom I didn't want to go to them anymore. I'm so grateful that she listened to me and never forced me to continue on (especially since it wasn't my choice to start acting anyway). I still dabbled in the arts for fun and was encouraged to perform in other ways that were fulfilling and helped me grow as a person (and helped me find my authentic self). The arts are supposed to be fun! I knew a couple of kids who had good experiences and still work in the industry as adults today, and my hats off to them, but I saw it do more harm than good to some of my other friends who started working as actors and models young. Thank you for sharing your experience, Alyson! ♥
I keep thinking while listening to these episodes: is there a way we (consumers of media) can tell if a set is ethical for employees/actors? How can we do the research so we make informed choices when watching media? This has definitely opened my eyes, now when I watch shows I genuinely see actors on set as the people they are, rather than just consuming media so carelessly. Thank you for this important podcast ❤️
Mmm that’s super interesting. 🤔 Similar to how people learn about stuff going on w corporations/brands… or how restaurants are given letter scores.. Hm. I know it’s fairly common for people in the industry to hear what certain sets are like, but I wonder what would happen if there was more transparency for the general public 🤔🤔🤔 great thought starter!
I'm particularly curious about this one. When I watch more mature movies/shows with children in them I always wonder how dealing with this "adult" themes in their acting affects these kids psychologically and if they receive enough emotional support to minimize it. Btw I'm loving this series so far :)
I always think about this too! Was just thinking about this as an ad for that new exorcist movie popped up 😬
I know Hollywood is boycotting AI, but I feel like using AI to make child characters could be beneficial. That way, they are not having to go through all this trauma.
@@c471 wow that's a great point! I never thought about that.
This was a particularly insightful conversation that I feel is important for a lot of hopefuls to hear. I’m a youth Talent Manager in Los Angeles and former child actor. I try to never lose sight of the psychological impact of not only the process young people go through to try and achieve their dreams but also the individual emotional complexities that exist for them as they work hard to bring honesty to each scene and character. I am sensitive to the continual “ask” given to these kids on the daily. I don’t think enough awareness is given to the topic of Hollywood and performance and the weight that these brave young minds and hearts have to carry. I applaud your candid commentary of the industry through your well spoken and open hearted lens. ❤🤓👏🏻
This whole podcast has been wild. In this specific episode I kept thinking back to a time where I was in elementary school. I was involved with a school play, and I did so well with my performance that I had multiple adults come up to my mom and I, saying how great a job I did. Later on, my mom had asked me if I wanted to pursue acting. I told her no because the anxiety before stepping on stage was a lot and I didn't like that part. It was never brought up again. This podcast has made me wonder what I would have turned into as a person had I actually wanted to become an actor. Quite frankly, I don't think I would have gotten far. My family was poor to begin with, but more than that, I likely would have been far more emotionally and psychologically damaged than I already was because of my environment. I'm not well off financially, but at least I'm a more stable person who refuses to people please and acts in my own self interests. I don't think I could have become who I am now through a life of being a young actor, so I'm grateful I didn't go down that route.
I've had positive experiences with Betterhelp as well, and was glad they could work with my, at the time, paltry budget. But I understand they have a lot of trust to hopefully repair as well. Can't wait to jump into the episode - as a former child actor myself, this series has been profound. I'm unpacking years that I used to just view as the overall best of my life, and seeing the harms they left behind deeper than ever before. I also began disassociation around 13/14.
Quick update: I see how I decided from the parts I booked that I was the quirky nerd, somewhat internally and externally tortured but hey - hes loveable, hyper capable and almost always happy too, and that contradiction certainly became a box I was locked in with daily life too. Almost always supporting recurring roles, guest roles, etc, never the main character, but feeling like the main character in my small town life. Voice acting later on was so freeing as I could see identity much more subjectively though and suddenly I was, at times, booking drastically different characters, and often leads too.
Hi Alyson! I can't tell you enough how much I've been enjoying this podcast. I fell in love with musical theatre as a kid, and I decided in 8th grade that I wanted to pursue it seriously. Unfortunately, years of dance classes, voice lessons, acting classes, a BFA and a year an a half living in New York later, I realized that 1) I was never going to be the right "type" for the kinds of roles that truly inspired me and 2) growing up, I never had access to the quality/kind of training I needed to even be competitive in the industry to begin with. After COVID, I cut my losses and pivoted into a more traditional career and after a period of grieving and processing, I realize I've never been so at peace with myself. I LOVED what you said about Oscar winners saying "don't give up on your dreams no matter what" because I had the same experience watching the Tony's as a kid. When I stepped away from theatre, I experienced an overwhelming sense of loss. Not only was I unsure of who I was if I wasn't an actor, I also felt like a "failure" for having "given up" on my dream. Please, please let's normalize trying something, realizing it doesn't actually align with your values/what you really want out of your life and stepping away from it and that being ok and not a sign of having "given up" or "failed"
Some famous people who advice to keep going no matter what, are those entertainers who have been so bitten down by the industry that they don’t want to be alone in their misery. They are recruiting misery buddies, and are also trying to find a younger generation of entertainers that they can abuse the same way they were abused. Not trying to be pessimistic, but be safe y’all.
My little experience of rejection: I live in a small village in a small country, but this village has one of the best acrobatic gymnastics clubs in the whole world. As a toddler (5yo) I was selected for the pre-competition team, then 1 year later I was brought into the competition team (not to compete: minimum age is 9 yo, but to help train a base, I was just a flyer with decent stability). Another year later I was returned to the pre-comp team and 1 more year later I was kicked out entirely from these selective groups. My world imploded. From one day onto the next I went from confident outgoing person, to extremely self-concious shy person. Yes, I had always been a bit shy, but once in an established group I was a goofy person. Now, not anymore. Just this small experience of rejection imploded my entire self-image, so I cannot imagine what child-stars in the industry go through on a day-to-day basis.
I am recovered now, but it took my almost a decade to build back my self-confidence without feeling like my reason for feeling confident could be taken away at any moment. I truly hope everyone who went through something similar can build themselves up again.
I am always so proud of you.
Thank you for these insightful videos, Alyson. Children deserve to have a childhood, first and foremost, and shouldn't be subjected to any toxicity from the seedy entertainment industry. I'd never force any future child of mine into that position.
Yep totally agree I feel bad that child actors loose a big chunk of their childhood
This was just SO fascinating- I could have listened to you talk for hours! Thank you for sharing such personal, vulnerable stories, while also giving a “broad picture” of the process. This process reminds me of a similar process of elite athletes. The auditions, criticism, hours of training, money spent, only to find that a very few “make it.”
The more I speak to my actor friends and watch things like this, the more I relate the acting industry to the animation industry. Breaking into the industry. Being cast for projects, being able to draw in any style, not being able to choose what projects you take, and having a strong portfolio -- and having the right people see your portfolio. Auditioning for shows by taking an art test. Being able to match the style of any show, knowing how to Draw, Paint, animate, Storyboard etc. aka being versatile enough to take on other roles when there is no work in your discipline. Being typecast into working in preschool, television animation v.s. doing feature films. Not being taken seriously by the film industry as a legitimate form of film-making. Working for years waiting, hoping you get a sweet sweet project or that your years of training and work get you a job... Being both technically skilled enough, and having that unique something that gets you noticed. I admire this series a lot and it's super interesting to me seeing the similarities in different fields. Thanks for sharing Alyson!
I love this show and I find it very useful to help parse and describe my experiences. As a performer who was mostly chasing much smaller scale projects than tv, movies, or commercials (think college theater, non-union theater projects, and community theater), I think a lot of this is really really relatable not just in the most intense communities (Hollywood, Broadway), but also in smaller performance communities. I never dyed my hair for fear of appearing too specific for a role in auditions - I always wanted to be a blank slate, I could be anyone, so I never developed what I wanted to look like, I was always depending on other people to hand me an appearance that would work. I am just now, a decade into my adulthood, starting to like my own face and perceiving myself as main character material. Keep doing what you're doing
I had a very similar experience. Especially when acting on a smaller scale, there is no room to express your individuality.
I think your description of the audition process and its tolls, and especially the observation that most bookings are for short shoots, have helped me dismantle a piece of the "celebrity" construct in my mind. A confirmation that, with regards to a given public figure, I as a member of the public truly DON'T KNOW the person as a person.
I find these videos so fascinating, I don’t think anyone would think child stars have it easy but the deep dive brings up a lot I would never think of. As for finding my authentic self, in my 30s and still trying, it’s a continuous work and I find myself repeatedly checking in with myself and recognising people pleasing behaviours and other triggers. I wish I could go back and speak to my younger self for 20 mins, but then….we are our lessons so it would probably take away from who i am now
As someone who acted for fun, I LOVED the audition process. Same with job interviews. I love them. It’s a challenge intimidating the people who are there judging you. It might be a bit reverse psychology and I might have a backwards mind about it compared to the average person, but it gave me a thrill I loved. I will say, it IS exhausting and after awhile the process can be grating.
Sounds like bipolar disorder 😂❤
I love Friday mornings now because I know another episode is coming! Keep up the amazing work Alyson 💖
This psychology behind the audition process is so valuable as both an amateur filmmaker and an admirer of actors and what they're capable of.
When interacting with actors, knowing they're likely reading the room and simultaneously feeling like they're under a microscope AND looking to people please, how can we help make them feel more comfortable and just like any other human and remind them its ok to be themselves?
Thank you for sharing.
really looking forward to the next episode. hearing how many times you audition vs book roles had me so curious bout the kids getting pushed into acting for money reasons (which makes no sense to me with how much it costs to even get to the point of actually booking something). which is already a HUGE burden to put on a child. knowing the stage parent for a lot of these kids the was/is abusive and/or forcing this life on their child and then hearing how the audition process goes... i can't imagine the mental anguish a child must feel when failing auditions. it truly breaks my heart. and then thinking of the child being scared of how their abusive parent may react to another failed audition... it's just sooo much for a child to understand and navigate. i'm so glad you have created this series. it's such a good and important look into the effects of this world on a child. i have a feeling this series is going to help save/protect a lot of children in the industry (or kids/families considering it), and help the parents of said kids learn how to protect them properly. keep up the amazing work, alyson! ❤❤❤
Listening to this episode, I was particularly interested in something you touched upon in the last couple of minutes of this episode, about how most actors have zero say in the messaging and the overall creative direction of the project they're working on. I think these days especially viewers/public easily conflate the actors personal sociopolitical views, personalities, sexuality (this is a huge one), etc. with those of the characters they "choose" to portray, which often lead to a barrage of online hate and harassment. Some recent examples of this that come to mind include Elsie Fisher in the newest season of The Summer I Turned Pretty, Joey King in the Kissing Booth franchise, Sofia Carson in Purple Hearts, Kit Connor in Heartstopper, etc.
On a completely different note, I'd also like to hear about the potential "mindfuck" (for lack of a better word) of the act of having to really enthusiastically promote a certain project you've worked on after shooting, especially if that experience was not a very happy or fulfilling one. I can only imagine how psychologically messy and exhausting to have to pretend (often months or up to 2 years later) that you're best friends with the cast and crew and you love when in reality you haven't thought about them or the project for a very long time.
Tldr; very keen on hearing your general thoughts about internet parasociality and by extension, "stan" culture if that's something you're comfortable sharing :)
i remember when i was really into acting and musical theatre when i was a pre teen i took acting classes from a pretty well connected coach and i was always envious of the other kids talking about the jobs they booked and auditions they were going to all the time. knowing what i know now i’m kinda glad i never got involved in that. you’re doing so much good with this podcast, alyson
"Auditioning is actually the job, booking a role is the vacation"
Wow! What a great way to put it!
Now that youve phrased it like this, my inability to 'role' and 'de-role' were some of the primary reasons i stopped pursuing being a lawyer. At 22, I was volunteering in multiple criminal and domestic violence law jobs. Often I was tasked with the more traumatic cases because other volunteers were younger. There was no training, and although second-hand trauma was a term I was familiar with, there was no assistance to manage playing the role of 'sympathetic but unaffected' to peoples worst moments. It may have been helpful to see being a lawyer as a role or mask to don. For those late formative years, I was bringing all of myself to it and I absolutely couldnt leave cases behind. Thank you for giving words to my experience I'm still understanding ❤
as an actress who’s trying to transition from theater to film and have been taking audition classes this is video triggering and soul crushing almost
Thank you for addressing the situation!! I think it would be amazing to see sponsorships from mental health apps like Calm and Headspace, personally I’ve had great experiences with them 🥰
Yesss
I want you to know I genuinely now fully refuse to watch any show with kid actors. The ick factor I got from watching our videos have grown exponentially, and I really can't. I just see children now, being groomed and abused, and it's horrific now. There's no space in my brain now to even be able to justify to myself at all. Your work is profound, thank you for it.
I remember the day I was done with auditioning. I had been without an agent for around 6/7 years, and was finding auditions online. I quit my job and thought I'd give myself a year to make it (I'd seen several success stories of actors who said they made it in a year). I came home from an audition for a play where I ran around doing sports activities and miming for an hour without actually acting, and did not get a callback. That was it for me. My agent told me at 9 years old that the success ration was 100 auditions to 1 booking, however I always felt like a failure for never booking. I felt like I was in the graveyard of unsuccessful castings. After a while your self worth is eroded, and your essence is gone. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for those who are blessed to make it, but I just couldn't take it anymore.
And this is why I say acting and entertainment work are for people who come from wealthy families or families who are financially Well off . The amount of resources needed the average person cannot compete. Time resources .. energy resources and monetary resources. I've always said this
Hi, Alyson! I’m 2 minutes into the video and I’m just so incredibly proud you took the initiative to talk about that certain brand. It really really really bothers me when I see others advertise it, especially when they call it “therapy”
I had a horrible experience with Betterhelp... I was definitely a bit hurt when I saw the sponsorship last week. Thank you for believing us when we spoke out!
What happened? I've had a great experience
That contract with the salary beforehand is a trap. Seen many actors say they get locked in and when the show skyrockets they still get small percentages
I feel so bad for that little kid that experienced that!! This is definitely making me think about child actors mental health more. Also, the statistics of becoming famous are insane!! Thanks so much Alyson for this informative series.
I aspire to be as well spoken, educated, empathetic and just all around a good, kind and intelligent person as you are. You are so inspiring to me in many ways. Thank you for this podcast, and for being you. Sincerely, Elaine aka a longtime fan of yours❤
0:30 Alyson thank you for taking accountability & also being honest that you genuinely didn't know. You are human, so you are not going to know everything❤. I very much understand the business side of things, so feel free to do sponsors & of course do your research on them. xx
Alyson, I wanted to thank you for this series. I watched your first few episodes through the lens of someone aspiring to break into the industry as an actor, and your honesty and enlightenment have given me a lot to think about. I did not grow up in entertainment, but I have struggled with a lot of childhood trauma and have been impacted mentally in some of the ways you address in your videos. I have decided it's not in my best interest to pursue acting out of concern for my own safety, and that decision would have been a lot more difficult (or perhaps impossible) had you not created this series. I cannot thank you enough for your vulnerability and for sharing about your experiences. They are already making a difference...They may have even saved me. Lots of love and encouragement to you. You are doing great things
Your honesty and transparency is refreshing!
Great episode! I used to do some low-level modeling and extra-ing, but I've worked with a lot of models in my later career as a photographer. And yes, it's much better to create your own narrative than to work on someone else's vision... Even though as a photographer you sometimes also have to just follow the client's vision, especially when your money is tight and you just have to take any job.
What I remember from modeling and from the other models is the amount of weird criticism you get that makes you kinda disembody, because what can you do about "did you know your eyes are slightly uneven?" or "wow your hair gets really sweaty" (in wool dresses on a 35 celcius day with no aircon)... 🤷🏻♀️
When I was a photographer, I sometimes shot children's magazines, and oh my, I saw some parents... Bribing their kids with toys or the promise of McDonalds... Usually those kids were the worst, because you could tell they weren't having fun, or they were too rehearsed. (The best thing for me was just to put a kid on set, let them play, and they'd barely know we were doing a shoot - this was mostly kids from friends.) I understand it can come across as sus to send the parents away from the set, but sometimes you really want those over-directing ("suck in your tummy!") moms out of the room. Sometimes I still feel bad for cooperating with these practices...
This episode was such an eye opener! Loving the series Alyson!
I’m so glad Alyson is the one to speak out about this. I used to look up to her so much when I was younger
Me too❤❤
Alyson, words can’t explain how much you’re helping people. You’re stories are incredible transparent and relatable. I speak for many when I say how thankful I am that you’re enlightening us with this project!
Your transparency and grace in addressing the sponsorship topic was thoughtful, mature, and loving. I am continually impressed and inspired by Alyson’s elegance.
I’ve been acting for two years (began at 24, now I’m 26), and i’ve always seen the audition process as nothing but fun, but that’s also because I’ve always taken acting as something fun and that is because I had a normal childhood were acting was my extracurricular. It was always something I did for fun. I wanted to do acting full-time professionally at 17, but my mother didn’t let me because of everything you’ve talked about on this podcast, Allison. She thought I was throwing my life away, and while she was well intentioned, it damaged me and I felt like she wasn’t accepting or embracing the true me or my dreams, but what this rejection of my career/then true self did allow me to do was to focus on my academics, graduate from an early college high school with my associates degree two weeks before my high school diploma, and graduate from a university 1 semester earlier than everyone else my age, with a degree in psychology, so that I could have something else to fall back on and to have something else that I love doing that I can attach my self-worth, self-esteem and self concept to.
as many others said, thank you for addressing the sponsorship!!!
we know you need and deserve sponsors, so (as beings who look to understand and grow) we are here to keep supporting you and exploring/learning about the heinous BTS of hollywood.
keep the episodes coming!! 🖤
much love and support as always!! 🖤
this episode was my favorite yet. thank you for your sacrifice in unearthing all of this for us.
I was in shows in high school, just for fun, and I still, 10 years later, have nightmares that I’m onstage with the lights up, and I completely forget my lines in front of 1000 people. So to magnify that over years, up the stakes 100x, with real money and your reputation on the line… I think the saddest part of all of this is that doing what you love and are good at is supposed to mostly bring you joy, with maybe a bit of misery and hard work. Not the other way around. I wish it didn’t have to be this way.
Thank you! BetterHelp led me to a covert conversion therapist. And GRACE TO YOU. Your sincerity shines through. Your work is so meaningful.
I never doubted you had good intentions with the better help ad, I’m so happy you addressed it. I really hope you get more varied sponsees in the future, you deserve it
Kept seeing these in shorts so I decided to sit a watch. This is so informative and amazing how your story and views have affected me, I’ve now recommended my friends to watch too! I am so glad so many of you are speaking out, change is uncomfortable but good and I hope all these voices and education help implement the changes we so desperately need to do better. It should have never got to this point but it has and for that I’m sorry for anyone suffering. You deserved better x
As an extremely high masking autistic adult, I really relate to this episode as my mask very much feels like a character that I’ve portrayed for my whole life and it’s now almost impossible to distinguish between the two. A very insightful episode as always.
I didn’t watch the last episode because it was sponsored by BetterHelp. I’m glad you had a truly good experience, but as a whole I think their company is bad and only takes advantage of those in mental/emotional crisis.
Thank you for addressing them and being so open in all your episodes. Nothing in this series is easy for anyone to talk about or possibly even easy to think about.
You are the epitome of a balanced, rational, flawed, and compassionate work-in-progress and your approach on all your platforms encourages everyone else, similarly imperfect but willing to grow individuals, to do the same with dignity, self-love, and much respect to yourself and the many viewpoints of others. Thank you for your walk and your example! 🌹
As a theatre kid, it was always so discouraging not getting the role you wanted and not allowed to the room to grow. I really had to force myself to my director to get her attention. Reflecting now, it is insane how much stock I put into it all and I wish I could go back and change it. However, without that experience, I would not be who I am today.
Currently, I am helping out at my high school theatre and that has given me the chance to reflect a lot. I am still learning and reflecting everyday. As an adult, participating in theatre, it has been somewhat healing. I, personally, enjoy the arts, and I hope to give kids a safe place if they need it.
I cannot speak about acting shaping me, but I know that intense bullying has made me one strong people-pleaser. I grew up trying to do everything to please my bullies so they would leave me alone. I'm now 25 and I still struggle to say no, although I am improving
When I was young, I too wanted to be a childhood actor. After learning all of the work needed (through trial n error) the money needed to invest, while trying to navigate the scams.... I became disgusted with this industry. When I turned 19 I pursued to become a model, seemingly very similar industry. Alyson, thankyou for casting a light on the dark shadows this industry has. I now work for myself, and have my own business and have a consistent income. I cannot imagine, the stress, of just trying to book jobs entails not only children, and their parents but for you as an adult. Bravo my friend, BRAVO!
Alyson, you're such a lovely person. Thank you for putting the effort and time into addressing the sponsorship. That really shows your character. I for one will be sticking around. This has been such an eye opening podcast. Great work!
Everything you’re saying is bringing back so many memories from growing up. I actually remember going to the International Model and Talent Agency week in Los Angelos (IMTA). In fact you were a speaker there. This was about 17 years ago. My parents spent thousands of dollars on it because that was the “norm” to do if you wanted to book an agent and become “discovered.”
I feel like even a well-adjusted adult would struggle during this process. I can't imagine what it might do to a child's sense of self and self-esteem.
Man, I quickly got over the audition process, it's so draining, exhausting, costly and man do you have to drop ev.er.y.thing to make your self available at the last minute for even the smallest of auditions and jobs. On top of that everyone is telling you "don't take it personally." Sure, Jan. I look back and think NO WAY I would every do that again. Great work, Alyson, keep it up. Your honesty about the industry and pulling back the curtain is so refreshing and so needed. Is it really any wonder how nepo babies who have all the time in the world and so much disposable income "make it"? You really do need to have a lot of privalage usually to even get a toehold in.
Thank you so much for sharing this, there are so many parallels between this and the music industry, these days I'm so glad I never got a record deal when I was a teenager, releasing music independently works for me so much better ❤
Alyson, I’m so so sorry you had to go through these horrible experiences at such a young age. I remember you vividly I’ve watched all of your projects I loved you Everytime I saw you on screen. I’m so sorry the world was so cruel to you and the other child stars who are just looking to bring smiles to other children’s faces. Thank you so stepping up and coming out. Thank you for speaking on the behalf of those who feel like they can’t speak or won’t be heard. I love you girl! I hope you are doing well today! :)
thank u for addressing the betterhelp situation, most creators refuse to acknowledge viewer & user concerns on them.
I’m really glad you addressed the Betterhelp sponsorship from last week and I figured that you really did have no idea about any of their negative feedback beforehand. It is a really funny coincidence that you and everyone you knew had positive things to say about them lol. I’m glad at least you had a good experience using them but I’m also really glad you did your research since the last video!
Ok wait. I hope you’ll answer me if you can, no specific details necessary. Several here saying negative experiences with betterhelp but no details ie; they didn’t respond to me in a timely fashion, they were kinda one track mind, something along those lines. You’re allowed with me to say ‘no’ response. If so generalizing is ok. Thank you🙏🏻❤️
Dear Alyson,
Thank you so much for all your labor and open heart to share all you have been through as a child star. As a child, I was parentified due to a severely mentally ill parent and I can relate my own way to many of the themes you are sharing. It's so hard to process all of it but I've found revisiting and allowing those feelings to be really healing. Sending much care your way. Also, I honestly feel like if you were someone I met randomly in the world we would be friends. I am sure you get that all the time even your history of fame. I just saw that as I felt glimpses of you in these videos.
During college I was in a BFA Acting program, and my mom passed away my sophomore year. It was so much trauma and heightened emotion to process on its own, then add onto that I’m being asked to take on the trauma and emotions of various fictional characters too… it was all too much and I wound up unwell- relying on substances, developing disordered eating, and ultimately quitting the acting world all together.
Deroling is so huge and I wish I knew more about it during that time. Maybe I still could’ve pursued my dream in a more healthy way.
4:20 seconds in and my heart is starting to break for 8 yr old Alyson already..how does a family leave for a vacation and leave their 8yr old child/family member behind to work? Smh im sure her family loves her and did what they thought was best at the time but hearing this...smh..just..no im sorry i cant imagine doing that to anyone let alone a young child. 😢
You're providing such a good example for others. Good on you for being honest about a mistake and being willing to own it and course correct!
My first thought is that the audition process should be paid! It's completely unfair for all of that handwork and hoop jumling to be unpaid. Hollywood is so sheisty, it doesnt have to be that way.
Thanks Alyson, these are so fascinating. You have a lovely speaking voice.
I appreciate the way you dealt with the issue at the front. Well done. ❤❤
i’m glad you addressed the betterhelp stuff and i hope that you don’t have any more contractual obligations to fulfill with them and haven’t renewed any sponsorship contract with them bc it’s kinda gross to think that they could just suddenly be doing any better since the recent settlement 🤷🏻♀️
I just needed to say thank you for being your authentic self. This is how I wish people would work to communicate. To realize and own their imperfections, and see the power in that.
I. See. You.
Thank you for doing the work and you’re an amazing person. I know I don’t actually know you, so idk how much that means. But I hope it gives you a small piece of what you’ve given me.
💚💚
I played Squeaky Fromme in college. I had my hair up for the role. When I put my hair down at the end that was my deroling.
I can’t get enough with this series!! So thankful someone we grew up with is really getting to the nitty gritty of the reality of Hollywood. We love you Alyson ❤️
Thank You for addressing the Better Help sponsorship.❤
You are doing a great job. Life isn’t about being perfect. Partnerships are always needed to keep things going. ❤
this is something i've always been curious about but there's so little public information about this hyperspecific trauma, thank you so much
This was SUCH an interesting episode for me, because I'm currently in drama school studying musical theatre, and even though I've been performing in front of local audiences for over a decade, I'm only just starting to get a taste of the auditioning world as someone who just entered their adulthood and is still building a foundation for any kind of career. I found myself mentally cataloging your "insider info" on auditioning before I thought about the human toll of the routine, which I think is telling of what the entertainment industry demands of its performers. I also replay auditions over and over in my mind, and it's _extremely_ rare I ever walk out of them happy with my performance. I also hyper-catatrophize the consequences of my missteps, and am only just learning from my instructors how to combat that. It makes you constantly wonder if it's all worth it.
I also want to add that the audition-to-audition lifestyle is supremely difficult if you have any issues with executive function, especially if you don't have an agent to take on some of the burden. Seeking out jobs from multiple different sources, keeping a orderly calender to reference your availability, memorizing a bunch of different material at breakneck pace, commuting, punctuality, replying to emails, making self-tapes, maintaining professional contacts, etc etc etc. As someone with ADHD, the struggle is real. If I didn't love performing as much as I do, I'd never subject myself to it.
I'm trying to keep my parasocial love for you down because I imagine it's an intense trigger for you, but I truly love how genuine you are. The fact you addressed BetterHelp after ONE sponsorship when thousands of TH-camrs and Podcasters won't address it after hundreds of sponsorships and hundreds of thousands of comments we all KNOW they see just shows how true your heart is.
This episode made me cry so much. I remember the fear I felt just watching Hellraiser sneakily from behind a couch as a child, and how I couldn't sleep for MONTHS after that. Now imagine a 5 yr old on that set? That would cause lifelong trauma & PTSD. I don't understand how this is legal. THANK YOU FOR BEING A VOICE FOR THE VOICELESS, and for those who are too afraid to come forward because of the hate they'll receive. I pray your martyrdom and the beauty of your soul will change the world--not just in entertainment.
The first few minutes of this episode (before even watching the main event!) are why you’re ruler of this universe.
Now I’ve watched the rest of this episode (and the others also) - I’m learning a lot from you! I hope others are too.
Living in the UK, and coming from a lower working class background, the insight into this world is entirely new to me. I’ve watched movies, streaming services, of course I have - but knowing what y’all have to put yourself through to get there? It puts a different spin on things for sure.
A question to you (if you’ve time, of course!) - if you did find somehow now yourself on an offer list, and didn’t have to go through the furore of auditioning 20 times, do you think you’d take the role?
Career life is NOT easy, but I am super proud of you for everything that you have done so far for the episodes. I love sharing your stories from you.
Skillshare could be a good sponsor to look at, considering a lot of what we've explored so far has circled back to a fear of failing with no skills to fall back on. Gaining skills and having that be more accessible is always a great thing no matter the stage in life :)
Fascinating. Your comment on ‘de-roleing’ really struck a chord with me. As a neurodiverse person, I have to “mask” my condition to fit in to my corporate workplace all day. I’ve become pretty good at it over the years, though it is extremely tiring. I find the commute home so important for me to reconnect with who I really am, which is a husband, historian, painter and martial artist.
Also I had no idea about the tangled web that aspiring pro actors have to navigate just to land an audition, which makes me realise that my decision not to pursue acting beyond university was wise for me. I loved it, but more for the social/escapism/personal development side of things.
I salute you for trying, I admire the success you have had in this field, and thank you for giving a unique insider’s perspective in such an eloquent, forthright and courageous manner. Best wishes from 🇬🇧.
Hey there 👋
In my brain damage and recovery class the other day, we were talking about method actors and I plugged your channel for anyone who was curious. Your last two episodes were very topical to our discussion, and I find you so much more relatable and calming than that class is 😂
Im so glad you addressed the betterhelp issue. Im glad you're listening to your listeners. Unlike so many. Betterhelp is of course going to say they havent done it. Theres more issues than sharing peoples info. Theres also the fact theres sooo many people who had bad experiences with the therapists
I do believe them when they say they didn't share that data, the level of data that they said they didn't share would have been a HIPAA violation. That doesn't mean that they didn't share everything they could up to that level, kind of like when you sign up to a rewards card level.
I live in Australia and it reminds me of when the government tried to make it so that ISPs had to save all of the meta data and hand it over when requested. As it was said that would mean that they would know that you made a phone call to X for Y length of time but they wouldn't know what you talked about (depending on the number they have a pretty good idea of what you were talking about). Same as they would know what websites etc that you viewed. So without technically breaching confidentiality laws they can still give out quite a bit of information that will get you targeted ads etc.
@@amandamandamands yeah could be... I know they've been caught sharing stuff for ads etc though
@@peachxtaehyung 100% they have, they are sharing the kind of stuff that is gathered with a rewards card or you signing up for a email list. It is that they are in the health profession that you expect a higher standard.
Then there is the other shady shit which they then will do the we addressed and rectified, like when they didn't verify that the therapists were licenced and it still says in the small print that it is up to you to verify that the therapist they match you with is licenced.
I know that my experience only doing theatre in college is VERY different to yours, but what you said about typecasting really hit home for me. I am a woman on the heavier side, so I was easily spotted into the role of mother, caregiver, and supporter. Very rarely did I get to step out of that, and never with one of the professors who directed shows. I had gone through my four years as a Theatre minor, having been told that majors and minors, especially those who were upperclassmen, basically got primary consideration. Cut to my senior year, when the show was A Doll’s House. Two of the roles had been precast (a first for the program, but not surprising), but there was another meaty dramatic role that I’d been hopeful for. I had been growing out my hair, so I wouldn’t have had to wear a wig for the period appropriate hairstyles I had been told we’d be going for. I’d been working, both on-and offstage, for four whole years. I was offered the role of the nanny, while a student with the same major and minor as me, the only other differences being that she was younger and thinner, got the role I’d been hoping for. When I talked to the director about dropping out of the show because of a whole other issue during rehearsals, I also brought that up, and he said that he just didn’t see me as that role, didn’t think I was that role’s material. I still, to this day, have issues thinking about doing community theatre at least in part because I don’t want to be typecast as the mother again.
Alyson I have always had (and absolutely still have, especially with this situation)a lot of respect for you and you continue to take appropriate responsibility and own your mistakes. Thank you for listening to your audience and doing research to be more informed ❤
Thank you for sharing Alyson. So for those of us who need to be artists to feel like life is worth living, and for whom other types of work have just not been working out - what are we going to do?
I understand that this specific video is about acting, but really this applies to all types of art, especially the performing arts. It's a major structural issue and has been involving a broken idea of what authority means, and what has value to be profitable.
After what I experienced with people when I was in LA, I'm not buying it that there's nothing we can do about this on our end.