This was a SUPER HELPFUL testimony. Your saying that "OCD is never satisfied," was the most helpful of all! It helped me to realize that OCD NEVER wants me to have peace or CLOSURE about ANYTHING, and/or to feel that I have done enough about a matter! OCD is a perfectionistic bully to the brain and soul! It is the most legalistic taskmaster of all! Even if I manage to do something perfectly enough one time, sooner or later I will slip up, and OCD will rush in again and torment me to attempt perfectionism again. Thank you so much! 😊😁😊
oh.. my .. god. this was my sign from god. i was stressing so so bad cause my OCD has all of a sudden decided to attack my religion (i’m a christian) and i was literally crying and praying that he showed me a sign and this was it!!! i literally related to everything you said on every single level possible. i feel so much better . 😭❤️
Ohmygosh! Preach it girl! I have been a Christian my whole life and I have had scrupulously for years! Some pastors said things that only made it worse cause they couldn’t understand! Others were awesome. The amount of times I have had to ask God over and over again if I was saved is so horrible. I am so glad that you found Christ. Keep on living for Him.
Hi. Thank you for sharing your story. I also believe that more people need to hear about scrupulosity and OCD. It has stolen about 20 years of my life. And I believe it is alot more common than we think. My obsession was condemning thoughts that would pop into my head. I tried everything to get rid of them praying, spiritual warfare reading lots of christian books. Because of this I developed depression for a long time. When I finally find out about scrupulosity I got back some hope. I agree totally with you that it works best to just ignore these thoughts that pop into your head. Then what helps even more is to learn the difference between our works and God's grace. And the character of Jesus. Then you realize you can ignore these thoughts because it is not Jesus's character to condemn us. I was just like you. From a young age I felt very responsible for everyone. Anyway my whole story is to long to share, but thanks again for your video because I believe there are alot of people who feel this way. Blessings
Hello and thank you very much. I'm a Christian with OCD and I've been struggling with intrusive thoughts. You're such a blessing. I had read a bit about facing your fears to overcome OCD. And listening to your testimony makes me want to try. The Lord bless you. Trust the Way! Thank you!
I am a Christian, my head is sometimes full of bad language images and blasphemous thoughts . it's terrible . I also have ocd (this purely my opinion, I haven't been diagnosed), sometimes I repeat things over and over and don't think in telling the truth or that I've said something wrong . I haven't been diagnosed with any of this by a psychiatrist, but I am being treated for depression.
Oh i cried so much watching this video. I hope that one day i will be totally cured of my ocd. I identified so much with your history, because my ocd is always confusing me, in a spiritual way. It's so stressful, since i already know that the thought it is not truthful, but my ocd, keeps telling me to keep doing that things. And the worst is that this thoghts are not only of me, i worry about the people i love. I'm getting better, but sometimes i failed. Anyway, i wanted you to know that your story helped me and to tell you it is SO GOOD hearing someone telling me that this thoughts aren't mine and that God will not judge me for them. Thank you.
+minhoca Uhaha Thank you for your comment! I'm so glad to hear that I helped you. When you get a thought like that, try your best not to do what it says! That is how we can beat OCD. :)
Kat, thank you so, so much for discussing and posting this video! I have yet to meet or come across anyone my age dealing with/having dealt with scrupulosity OCD and keeping their faith. Your story and words are very insightful and I feel much better! I'm sorry you had to deal with all of that, but the Lord has used your experiences to lift others, myself, and yourself up in Him. I can't express how blessed I and many others are to have come across this video. Thank you for sharing.
I struggled with scrupilosity for as long as I can remember, childhood was awful. At 43 and having been treated, I STILL struggle, and feel alone. However it is such a blessing to know I'm not alone and That the OCD is just funky brain spam. Peace guys!!
I used to have obsessions and compulsions about my family going to hell. Like, if I wore certain clothes I thought my mom would go to hell. And I had to keep my breath for at least one sentence a page when I read a book. And I constantly tapped my fingers seven or 49 times to ensure we all got to heaven, and hearing any word related to mom, fire, hell or even orange(like fire) would trigger compulsions like crazy. Now my compulsions are more like yours, when random things feel like huge sins, like putting on the "wrong" socks. I think ocd just attacks whatever is most important to us. Thank you for making this video, it really helps hearing others with similar problems. I hope it gets easier for you. :)
Thank you! It helps me to hear your similar problems too. I hope it gets easier for you! My scrupulosity has definitely gotten easier to deal with, but it's still my hardest symptom. OCD definitely attacks what we love the most. I wish we could teach people the principles of cognitive behavioral therapy before their OCD gets bad, but I guess it would be weird to randomly teach all children CBT haha. Certain words trigger me too, by the way! Any word describing a sin or judgement or hell triggers OCD to say I have to choose "right" with whatever I was doing or reread.
+Olivia Saad It's a little organic brain glitch. Hope you can read all you can about and know it is not uncommon, and that you may well grow out of it. Best wishes.
That’s wear it tried me! But thankfully God is greater than any worldly issue or disease, he’s been holding my hand through it all. Just keep trusting him.
wow, parts of your story sounded so similar to mine it was unreal. thank you so much for sharing it, and for talking about mental illness, especially in the Christian community. I'm just so grateful to see someone like me (I mean, other than the doctrinal differences, ie. I'm not hebraic, I believe in my heart that we are not under the law but under grace (romans 6:14)) talk about this sort of thing and help me realize more fully that I'm not alone. you have no idea how inspiring you are, gurl💕
All I can say is thank you for this video. I'm beginning to realize that I'm very likely dealing with scrupulosity ocd. A sudden increase in numbers, words, patterns ocd has led to serious and frightening doubts about my Christian faith and my whole perception of reality. It seemed to be triggered by my resolution for the new year to take my faith more seriously. I too have had obsessions with end times study as well as apologetics research. This too has created obsessive doubts. I broke down when you mentioned the sock/cup hell thing because I experience very similar obsessions along with having to pass certain markers on a road before a part of a song is over on the car radio.
This was unbelievably helpful. Your testimony can (and I'm sure it already has) help so many people. I was raised catholic and started to grow apart from my faith as I got older. But as I'm sure you know, life can take unexpected turns and God works in some awesome ways. Long story short I was led back into the church. I've had OCD pretty much as far back as I can remember, but because of returning to the church so suddenly and without a strong biblical knowledge at that point, I began to obsess over sin. I not only worried about my personal sin, but also about the sin of everyone around me. It sounds crazy but I would actually get really upset if someone ordered something from a menu that was anything other than the cheapest option because I was afraid that they were making the decision out of greed. As you mentioned, I was obsessive seeking God's will to the point that I was paralyzed in even deciding what outfit to wear. This perfectionist way of thinking coupled with intrusive thoughts were obviously exhausting. I've been getting help recently, and am trying to work up the courage to schedule my first counseling appointment. I know that getting help is essential in overcoming this. Thank you for this. Don't give up, and I pray that you will be able to help others fight through this and keep the faith.
Hi! I had to reply because im just thankful and shocked and surprised that im not alone. You, Kat and I have similar stories/events. I have ocd too, scruples unfortunately, but any ocd is unfortunate. As you said 👍: it has and manifest in different ways in my life. Ive been struggling for probably 4 years. Ive been in therapy for 2 and thanks be to God that i have gotten better and im not where i use to be. I'm Catholic too and i just think its cool to find others who are struggling and have love for God and are Catholic too. Its just so nice and i feel you guys would understand..i hope your journeys may go well and that we may all be healed 🙏 thank you for sharing your stories. God bless you both always.
See my struggle right now is like I'm trying to overcome the scrupulosity by avoiding certain things that trigger me; and those things are good things, like praying or reading scripture, etc.. however when I do them, my OCD kicks in and wants to convince me that it wasn't good enough or I should do it more or I'm a bad person because I only read a little bit or basically taunting me for every little thing. So in attempts to avoid that, I'm avoiding my religion altogether ; which in turn makes the OCD worse because it's convincing me that "oh you just want to follow Satan. you just want to ignore God. you don't even have OCD you're just avoiding it because you want to." and then I'm like yeah okay that's Satan trying to push me back... so I try to pray/do the things again and it just is a cycle... and I literally am just realizing all of this now, that I have been struggling with this for so long and never even put a name on it. Until recently when it has become debilitating and I am trying to avoid things, and I do this because it's helping me. I'm almost to the point I am dreading going to church or talking with the missionaries because I just CAN'T deal with it, and that sounds dumb to people who don't understand , and it even sounds dumb to me, I feel like I'm "making excuses" but even just the thought of doing those things stresses me out so bad and I can't figure out why until I'm learning scrupulosity is a thing. I know this is an old video but if you see this comment, I guess I just want to know how you can actually still be a Christian? I know I still have my faith and I am not going to lose it, but it becomes so difficult to deal with. Part of me just wants to step away but my OCD convinces me that I'll be following the devil and it's like what do I do?... I hope maybe I can make more sense of this soon so I can get out of this funk but I'm so torn and all I want to do is just BE ALIVE and not focus so deeply on these things. I let religion COMPLETELY CONSUME my entire life and for once I just want to BE ME. BE A HUMAN. Not lose faith, but just LIVE like everyone else in my church...
I suffered this 2013-2018 i know how you feel. DOnt think Gods mad at You. Read His Word knowing He loves you. He sent HIs son to die for you. Take that to heart.
I know this was a long time ago, but I’ve been there friend and I’m still there sometimes. The most effective way is to step out in faith, and do the things that you’re OCD is telling u you shouldn’t do. It takes more faith to trust Jesus than to do ur compulsions. You will learn how much Jesus is NOT a taskmaster. You have to ask God for strength to ignore your compulsions. If you’re going to ask someone for help, first off ask God, but then ask someone who is Godly but also understands what you’re going through, like a Christian counselor. Once you start ignoring these lies from OCD, you will start to see God clearer. I hope this helped. I’ll be praying for you❤️✝️
I have no idea if you’ll see this but this is almost EXACTLY how I feel. I pour out my heart in worship, prayer, or reading but it never “meets the mark.” Would get thoughts like “you don’t really want to read, you’re just trying to get it out of the way, you don’t really love God.” But now that I’m in an AMAZING relationship with my now boyfriend it’s “he doesn’t really love God, these thoughts won’t go away unless you break up with him, you are disobeying God by dating him.” I find myself on my face or knees almost every day crying out to God for help. Sometimes I feel like giving up because I give ALL I have and feel like NOTHING. My twin sister fights with the same thing, and one day she believes she heard the Holy Spirit tell her, “just focus on faith, hope, and love.” As in don’t stress the details of the Bible and what everything means or the spiritual gifts. Just walk in faith, hope, and love. So God gets it. I remember when I once had these terrible intrusive thoughts everytime I went to cry I read Joshua 1:9 aloud just to hold onto my sanity. I felt lead to pick up my bible, started reading it, and suddenly couldn’t even remember why I had been stressed. God is good. But He has never healed me entirely. I’m thankful that He has used it for good as in for me to have this relationship with Him but it is so hard I just want to mute my brain and be with Jesus in Heaven and have my new mind. Hold on and don’t let go. Keep pursuing Jesus. When thoughts of anxiety come tell yourself immediately “this is not of God.” Then distract yourself and do something. It’s easier said then done. I hope you see this. I’m praying for you. One day we will be Home, away from the pain of this world.
@@haleylewis9909 Hi! I'm glad I still use this account. Thank you for your response. I'm sorry you deal with this as well. I will say, as it has been 6 years since I've made this comment, I do still deal with this occasionally - but it has come and gone. I will go some periods where I am engrossed in my religion and feel great about it - and others where I feel the pressures and convince myself I am never good enough. Then, like I said before, I do feel the need to stay away from all religious things as it can be triggering. It's actually quite interesting how this comment is coming back to me right now as I am recently for the first time in a really long time, dealing with this again. The only difference is, I no longer really believe that what I'm doing (by stepping away) is "evil" or that Satan is leading me or anything - but that I'm almost so over feeling like I'll never REALLY be able to know what God wants so doing anything is "useless".. But like what your sister said, faith, hope and love. I've had a lot of realizations that have occured to me during these moments and at the end of the day we can only do the best we can with what we have and what we know... and in the case of God and spirituality we can know very little (it's all faith) but what we DO know is love, so if we can AT LEAST just love others and take care of ourselves and treat others with kindness, then that is good. I hope that helps you too!
i've been going through a rough patch spiritually and mentally. I never would've thought it was OCD until i read up on it and watched this video. thank you very much.
Thank you for sharing your story, I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts from sex to having the terrifying thought that god isn’t real and that I’m not truly a Christian. It’s really hard to decipher what the truth is when you have ocd. It sucks but I’m pushing through this.
@@chimamandachukwudire6020 hey I’m doing much better! I’ve found out that questioning is ok! It’s apart of deepening your understanding and maturity of your faith! Just remember that your thoughts don’t define you, they are just thoughts that’s it! It’s hard when you have ocd to remember this, and while I’m doing good right now sometimes I have harder days but the biggest thing is separating your “ocd thoughts” from your actual thoughts, things you truly believe. Often ocd thoughts have the same pattern you ruminate on them, they are disturbing to you and cause you anxiety. Praying for you friend, it will get better.
Great video! You strike me as a very intelligent and informed individual. You're an excellent speaker. This is the first of your videos I've watched. I'll likely watch more, but my life is quite busy at the moment. However, I felt the need to comment and to let you know that I was very impressed by this video. It helped me see things about myself that I might not have seen otherwise. I'm a 52-year-old man, and I have OCD. it started when I was 15. I was raised as a Catholic, and I became very religious for the first few years of having OCD. My mother had multiple sclerosis, and I was obsessed with finding out the right way to pray so that she would be healed. I read the bible a lot (both new and old testaments). That wasn't as big a part of my OCD as it was for you, but it was a part of things. I won't get into the details of my OCD story now, but I'd like to make a video about it. I'm not sure when that will happen... Presently, I'm agnostic. However, I have had Christian (Catholic, Lutheran, etc.), Jewish, Sikh, Buddist, and Atheist friends. They are all good people. I think people should have the right to believe whatever they want to believe (or to not believe if that is their choice). Anyhow,... that's just my two cents. Keep on making videos! : )
Tim Marrell Romans 3:10 as it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one. No one is good. Only Jesus Christ is Good come to Him He's the only way to heaven
Woo! Testify sister! :-) Love love love hearing your story about coming to faith. So much truth in this video. I can really relate to the harm OCD and some of the scrupulosity. Especially when you talked about thinking that OCD was God speaking. I have so many examples of that! Thanks for sharing your story lovely!
Thank you! :) I'm glad you enjoyed it! I made the video to help people with mental illness, but it's really part of my testimony as well! I hope it helps both Christians and non-Christians!
thank you so much for your videos. it's been more around 13 years since I am struggling with anxiety OCD .. I have been better than before BUT it's not gone completely. you are way younger than me but because you have been through this darkness you know it all. I definitely know your videos are gona help me out. thanks a lot.
oh my goodness....... the thing that i have been struggling with.... you explained it so clearly!! i actually cried alittle because of this video.. i've been struggling for a while now thinking that the intrusive thoughts are all from the Holy Spirit, and later i started thinking that the enemy AND the Holy Spirit were speaking to me.. and it really. drived me. crazy. i also was confused on like which socks i'm supposed to wear today, like, i listened to my thoughts, but my thoughts were saying two different things and i was like what is God's voice and what is the enemy's how am i supposed to know?? what if i chose the wrong thing? then i couldnt be living the life the Lord planned for me.. so i talked about this struggle with my church teacher, and my dad but they didnt know what i was talking about. and i was so confused. why isnt anyone dealing with this like me? and i began to research and i thought i had adhd. never thought i had ocd. i still dont know if i have ocd. i dont have it AS SEVERE as other people. i never even doubted. im just so thankful, and just relieved that iam not the only person who went through this. because i prayed so much, cried so much, i felt alone. man iam so happy right now!!
Gerat video i struggle with this issue a lot as well it took me a very long time to know who god truly was because these problems always got in the way of that , great channel
Thank you so much for making this video! ❤️ Society needs to be more aware of this conditions. Also I love that you’ve explained it from a Christian point of view. That way I can relate much more. Again, thank you for speaking about something we need to learn more about nowadays. God bless you! 😊💕❤️
Quran (5:19) In the name of Allah, the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful. (O People of the Scripture, there has come to you Our Messenger to make clear to you [the religion] after a period [of suspension] of messengers, lest you say, "There came not to us any bringer of good tidings or a warner." But there has come to you a bringer of good tidings and a warner. And Allah is over all things competent.) Allah Almighty is Truthful
Alina I do not know if I have this or mine if it is a reality :( I want to approach God but I am distressed every time I try, sometimes I think about things that make me feel very bad and bad person and when I move away from religion I It gives me more peace of mind although I am very afraid of divine judgment and it makes me anxious. how to know or overcome what happens to me? please help
Can you please do a video elaborating on your blasphemous intrusive thoughts? I've been struggling with that recently and it helps to know I'm not alone.
Please know, that those are not the thoughts *you* choose. The brain is a tool, that is separate from your soul, or your *inward* self, or as some say, the heart. Who you really are, is your *soul*. If you can imagine your brain, as an evil man following you, harrasing you, remember that if you turn around and face him, he will rise up stronger, and it empowers him. That's what *it* wants. But if you ignore him, and treat him as just background noise, his power diminishes he will grow quieter. Your greatest power against the mind, is knowing that there is no credibility to the horrible thoughts you are having. It doesn't come from your soul, which is the essence of you are. It is not you. I speak from experience, and things God allowed us to understand concerning it. Prayers for you.
God bless you.. You have a great testimony to share with the world and use your platform to do so.. yes you are right with medication and secular therapy it works. God is the creator of all creations including medication and therapy.. keep up the good work much love
I was born and raised Catholic as well. I'm actually going to church today, can't wait to hear my message. Thank you for sharing your story, it's so inspirational. Very well said Kat. A lot of things can be learned in this video. About your mental health journey and putting God first and falling in love with Jesus. Great explanation of your experiences with God. So grateful God has worked such miracles in your life, always happy to collab! Lovely job Kat!
+highoffkai You don't need an imaginary friend to get through life. Churches are delusion factories spreading fairy tales of fear to create a herd of brainwashed donating followers.
Yeah I know it can be super super helpful especially those times when you go and then the message just hits hell you know what I'm talking about and it's just like OK I get it
Aww thank you! I really appreciate that. Our videos were different, but I think they both talk about valuable sides of the situation. The body of Christ has hands and feet, right? :D All the best to you as well! I hope we can collab again in the future!
Wow, you are the first person I've heard of who has had similar hyper-religious obsessions! Going through many medications, counselors and pastors over the past 18 years, but only to still fail the OCD strictness, I had given up hope of ever getting better. Every day has been a struggle with constant thoughts of becoming a Satanist, going to hell, cursing Christ, needing to make sure I pray enough or repetitively quote verses to challenge my thoughts. It got so bad that I stopped going to church because of how intensely anxious I became (because of repetitive thoughts). Even a SPECT brain scan proving OCD was enough to convince me. But, I am now at least a bit hopeful that I can find someone who could fully understand what I was talking about (therapists and pastors I've seen don't know what to say). Thank you.
Have you gone through cognitive behavioral therapy with exposure and response prevention (a subtype of CBT) yet? Because OCD is a brain disorder, it should be treated as such. Also, most therapists, pastoral counselors or regular counselors, don't actually know how to treat OCD or what it is! Even though counselors may think they can treat OCD, they don't actually know how to implement the gold standard treatment, which is cognitive behavioral therapy with exposure and response prevention therapy! I really recommend seeing an OCD specialist for this reason!
Also, like you mentioned, many professionals sadly don't know about OCD and it's depth at all. They don't know what to make of you because they're not truly specialized. A good OCD therapist would know exactly what to do. After seeing two therapists who didn't actually know OCD treatment, I found someone who did and it was totally different. My last two therapists have been OCD specialists (and I only left the first one because I moved haha). Honestly it was a life changing experience! I'm in recovery now and doing so much better. (I talk about this therapy more on my channel.)
I was feeling very suicidal... And my intrusive thoughts were bombarding my mind as i laid in bed. I didnt know what to do.... But then i decided to open youtube and watch your video... and it is so calming somehow. God bless you.
Hey Kat, what a great video! :) Really, such a great video - you did a fantastic job of explaining your experience, as well as OCD and mental illness in the context of religion which I think there could be certainly more resources on. A fabulous video, and will be definitely directing people to this video. :)
Thank you! :) I appreciate that! I definitely want to talk about OCD and religion more, but it's hard because it can be triggering! But, hey, just another excuse for an exposure! ;)
That’s amazing! Christianity and islam is very alike, media makes us hate eachother. I personally love christianity as it is an Abrahamic religion aswell. We have the same God and prophets ❤️
I can totally relate to so many things you said! Have u ever talked to people one-on-one? I’d love to talk to someone who has experienced the same thing I have been experiencing! I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, but I definitely deal with at least symptoms of Scrupulosity OCD. Thank you so much for sharing. :)
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Thanks for your video I truly believe your advice is right, I'm in a place where religion is no longer a comfort I used to do everything because I believed Jesus is with me now I really think he tells me I blasphemed against the Holy Spirit gonna keep trying though because I've had a diagnosis of OCD and I still hope the truth is Jesus is with me
Don't hope just know he always is. God never leaves you.. Don't let your anxiety take that away from you becuse that truth is the truth.. You always safe within him and he in you.. I go though the same thing. Let his words guide you; don't be afraid nor be dismayed for the Lord God is with you wherever you go.. He Loves you and you were made to know that. You can get though anything. God will fix your mind be patient. Never base your salvation in the hands of a feeling of circumstance. Jesus is the way the truth and the life.. Go to him for rest he will give it to you..
Love u fam God loves you more. Nothing will separate you from Jesus and God they are within.. That's why u know they are truth and they always will be, God knows where u are, pray to him and trust in him, I know sometimes anxiety gets the best of us but stay strong, don't upses about it.. Let the thoughts pass build new ones, write verses or notes down that help you, you are not alone and God has never left you and never will and you can count on that. He is real and He loves you so much. Also relax your mind. Train your brain to not react to those thoughts.. Your reaction is powerful. Just say I trust God.. Remember this is temporary
The thing that is happening to help me , and seems like the best way is thru erp exposure. In other words try writing down the things that bother you and let the anxiety build then subside to about half of your anxiety.oh and very important get some help with drs and counselers they must help you build a heiarchy of triggers that will raise your anxiety-but that is what you want-because the anxiety will start going down. keep doing the exposers till you habituate to the anxiety and soon you will see that those items that once bothered you have lost their power
the more you can habituate the more you will feel better. I struggle hard also but it is getting easier, and don't worry because God knows everything and since Christ died for your sins he will not condemn you its just your ocd mind
I struggled with this in disorder my adulthood until this day. What keeps me comfort is this scripture " For Yahweh did not give us the sprit of fear, but Power , Love and a Sound mind. " Your a blessing thanks for this video.Peace n much love Shalom sista
I’m a Christian I’ve struggled with OCD since 2nd grade and it didn’t get serious until I let Jesus into my heart my depression stopped but OCD didn’t either I have the same problem as you and it’s painful it made me doubt and question my salvation as well and it’s very hard to there would be someone thoughts saying bad things about Jesus and the Father and it’s my OCD is similar to yours God bless you I hope you are ok now. My OCD made me afraid to drink anything and eat meat and so much more.
Hey Kat very nice video! Thanks for being open and courageous enough to talk about these issues. I noticed some pretty rude comments on this video - don't pay them any mind. After all you're on the internet so you're bound to see some of them. Anyways I think it'd be great if you spoke more on the false beliefs that lead to scrupulosity. Have a great day Kat! Neil
Thanks Neil! And thanks for the suggestion! Comments like the one on this video don't usually bother me. They're basically what I expect on a TH-cam video about religion! You may have noticed I responded with the "kill them with kindness" method. I feel that's better than getting in a heated debate with someone who obviously doesn't want to hear my side.
+ShalomAleichem Haha no problem, and yes you seldom ever get anywhere with someone during an internet debate, especially on TH-cam ;D. I think I've only had one time where the other person and I actually got somewhere in our conversation. Anyways, have a great day!
wow thanks... iv been fighting the same thoughts for many years. i never went to the doctor only untill recently did i realize that it wasnt God talking and that its a thing... that helped me out allot... but i still have a ways to go... but this helps... you rock :)
I'm not sure I understand what you mean. I'm not saying that I'm learning anything new. I'm saying that it's nice to not feel alone in the struggle of harm ocd. and I'm great full for People like her that tell her story.
Wow you are really right... My OCD too compel me to do this and that... Condemning me... I will go to hell if I don't do the right thing what my OCD told me. OCD equal to small devil.
I believe I also have Scrupulosity OCD. I'm of the christian faith and can remember since I was a kid having these obsessive thoughts about going to hell and not being saved. I'm a big boy, but this gets so bad it will make me just want to cry. It usually comes around every night. I feel like I'm so burnt out on it that I just want to stop thinking about Christianity all together, but I can't do that, because despite my OCD I really do believe! Thanks for your video.
+Theyownyou Mine usually kicks in at night as well. As she mentioned, getting help through counseling, medication, or education makes things a lot easier to deal with. There are so many good books about scrupulosity out there. I could point you to a few if you're interested :) God bless man, stay strong, I know this is challenging.
Aleah B Thanks for replying to my comment Aleah. I've found that a combination of lithium and daily klonopin is extremely helpful. I would love to hear about those books that you mentioned before.
+Theyownyou The one I am reading now is called "Scrupulosity and the Saints." It is written by a Catholic writer who went through the disease himself. He sites a lot of writings from saints who struggled with and overcame scrupulosity. There is another titled "the doubting disease" I don't know much about it, but that will probably be my next read.
+Theyownyou The one I am reading now is called "Scrupulosity and the Saints." It is written by a Catholic writer who went through the disease himself. He sites a lot of writings from saints who struggled with and overcame scrupulosity. There is another titled "the doubting disease" I don't know much about it, but that will probably be my next read.
i have this i go from one faith to another over and over to find the one that is the true faith , i also have harm ocd i am waiting for therapy but am in the uk on the nhs i have meds etc but they dont help my husband and my friends try to help me but i cant stop doing it i need help so i started watching your video after i serched r ocd am unsure what i can do to help myself its making my life hell
Although not officially diagnosed, I just saw a church concealer who said this might be what I have but to check it out with a specialist to be sure. From the little I read and this video it makes sense, i feel like I may be going through some of the same specific things you did too. Going further, of course I want tread carefully and try to listen Jesus better vs my head voice, but am not against treatment. Something else I wonder is if this condition could also put the thought in our heads that we don’t have the condition, when we do 🙂. God bless.
when i was eighteen i was attacked in the street by some one who was drunk and was trying to sexually harass me (i am a heterosexual male) thankfully people came and i only got punched in the face! this incident really crushed my self esteem at that point to the point that i couldn't go out at night out of fear! three month after the incident one night i had these exremely intrusive thoughts about killing my sister! i can still remember the horror i was in and how paralyzing those thoughts were. i couldn't even come out of my room or i wouldn't let myself to hold a knife! at that point i started to become religious as a way to ease my intrusive thoughts and since i am iranian and i was born in muslim family i started to follow the muslim faith, where as before that i wasn't realy interested in religion and my family were pretty secular, so in a matter of just one week i started to do what all the other muslim do like praying five time a day or going to mosque .... in my case whenever i was with other people the thoughts went away, so lonelyness was a very big factor in worsening my situation. anyway after about two years these thoughts became less frequent and they realy vanished after about 4 years in those years mostly i would just try to be with other people to put ease to my situation. and i guess since my condition was due to an incident, it bacame better with time. i never went to psychologist or shrink and didn't talk about my situation to my family. now i am 28 and an i consider myself atheist ( i guess because the same mind with those thoughts also asks too many quastions that faith can't answer!) but i want to let you know that it is only now that i know about pure 'o' OCD and it is through your channel and some other channels in youtube! i know this pure 'o' or any simillar OCD is literally the worst mental state that someone can have and if faith can put ease on the situation then be it! also i would recommend meditation, because it will help you not to judge yourself by your thoughts( try John Kobat Zinn mindfulness meditation) سلام علیکم!
I am happy you survived. Get to know Christ please, he is the only way to life after death, he is our hope and righteousness and he loves us very much, peace be with you ❤️.
I have suffered this since I was 12 and I'm in my twenties now, and it's still going strong. I'm at my wit's end honestly. I've prayed, others have prayed, I'm in counseling, I've seen a psychiatrist, I've been on multiple medications, because of a weird trait that seems to be passed on from one of my parents, I react horribly to every medication I've been on, and I'm now having to switch to another psychiatrist because of billing issues. I feel like my life is a nightmare, and I'm NEVER happy. Even my counselor I think is a bit lost on what to do with me. It's nightmarish enough to fear death, but to fear HELL? That's an entirely different thing. Despite reassurances from my counselor who's a christian, and other christians around me, nothing brings me peace. I can't even read my bible, every time I do i feel condemned. The one thing that always stands out to me is that one bible verse that never lets me have any peace, and it's "not loving god is the only sin that can cost you your salvation" (i'm paraphrasing a bit obviously) thing is I don't love God...I want to, I have accepted him as my lord and savior, and recently renewed that, i'm trying to pray every day (it's hard because of other mental factors that cause a lot of attention span issues), but I was religiously abused, and both of my parents are abusive, and my OCD can't stop telling me God is constantly irritated and let down by me, i'm always cowering from him and feeling like the worst daughter he could have. How can I love him when I'm terrified? Does me wanting to, TRYING to, count for nothing? (I think even my counselor doesn't believe me when I tell her I don't love God despite not hating him, and wanting to, she thinks my OCD is tricking me but I know that i simply don't feel it, thing is because of other mental stuff I also struggle to feel empathy or strong emotions for others, so I rarely love at all despite wishing i did, I still try to act loving, to care for people and listen when they need things, but as an emotion i rarely experience it)
I suffered this 2013-2018 i know how you feel. DOnt think Gods mad at You. Read His Word knowing He loves you. He sent HIs son to die for you. Take that to heart.
It's amazing to me how similar people are to me. I knew other people suffered from intrusive thoughts but didnt think that so many did similar things to me. Like anytime I saw an attractive female I felt like oh no I might be lusting so I prayed right there. I don't know how many times in my life I rededicated my life to Christ. I have that "special number" that I have to do things (7) cause 777 is Gods number. And every time I see three 6s I get worried. And I'll hold my breath till I'm away from it plus I feel like I cant touch anything with three consecutive 6s with my right hand cause I worry that is the mark of the beast. And if I do touch it I have to wash my hands. And so many more things I dont have time or space to type. I feel for anyone who goes through this and dont wish it on my worst enemy. Jesus bless
13:04 waitt what can you helpp mee to know if i have sinned or not..my intrussive thoughts triess to convictss mee of a sinn and i do not knoww if the conviction is from the holy spirit or not
To be as young as you are. You are very wise. You have helped me. I just wonder when I was young like 3 or 4 i had seizures then when i was in my late 40s i had a couple of them. Nothing Sense then. I just wonder if that might have something to do with intrusive thought.
Don't EVER listen to anyone who tells you that this is some "spiritual" condition! Those people are dangerous and avoid them at all costs! My OCD manifested itself as an eating disorder and then "guys" and then death and hell and everything in between. OCD is the only mental illness that can't be treated with drugs. A lot of this comes from our family's. My parents were perfectionists and that really did a number on my head.
+kimberly johnson I agree with you!! Until the part where you said it can't be treated with drugs, it can! Although not everyone is helped by them because people react to drugs differently, and it can take a while to find a medication or medication combination that works. The treatment the works best, however, and is known to be more effective and last longer than drugs, is cognitive behavioral therapy with exposure and response prevention therapy! Glad you didn't listen to those people! :)
Shalom Aleichem: Really? Are you on drugs for this? Has it helped? Your a beautiful young women with your whole life a head of you! You are young enough to be able to change your thinking patterns. Just do it! Cease the day! The OCD and the many other mental diagnosis's I have just ruined my life. My family was horribly abusive to me. They physically and mentally abused me. They screwed with my head since I was a very little baby girl. I morn for that little girl. I didn't deserve that. However, your young and trust me, when you get to be my age. It goes by so fast! Develop a good support system. Thank you so much for sharing your story, I related to almost everything you said. May God bless you girl! You deserve that!
I have suffered with scrupulosity for two years and now I should be over it pretty soon but can I say how amazing you are and what a truly brilliant follower of God you are ☺️ also if it any help whenever Jesus speaks of thoughts He always is talking about thoughts that stem from the 'heart'; that is to say thoughts in line with our values. By definition intrusive thoughts are not in line with our values or desires so He does not ever speak about those thoughts. For example when he says about it being things that stem from the heart that ruin humans, and one of them is 'evil thoughts', the fact that He says stem from the heart means that ONLY thoughts in line with what people value could ever be sinful therefore intrusive thoughts that everyone gets by definition are not sinful because they are in no way in line with peoples' values nor is anything OCD causes in line with our true values. That verse in Corinthians is talking about the same type of thoughts that Jesus refers to (ones that stem from our heart) to make sure we change our thoughts that are in line with our values to be ones that reflect Christian values, and a Christian value may even in itself be not to pay attention to thoughts that are not in line with our values because they are so meaningless and should not get in our way with our relationship with God! That isn't to say it is sinful at all to become disturbed by them because that is just a simple mistake; it is just to say God would want us to not be bothered by such meaningless thoughts and only focus on ones that are in line with our values (and ones that are in line with our values as Christians/good people who by having morals are actually closer to God than they realise are ones that God likes!)
Great video, Kat! Just a correction: the verse you said in corinthians is actually 2 Corinthians 10:5, (you mentioned it was in 1 Corinthians 10:5). Thank you for the help! I'll divulgate for people who may suffer from this, so you could help them! God bless you.
I have ocd intrusive thoughts and I usually pray to god/Jesus to help me through these thoughts.but today I had an intrusive thought questioning my faith and it scares me so much becos I believe in Jesus and god but my ocd is now attacking my faith, can you please help me or give me some advice I don’t know what to do!!!!!
Personally I'm more of an atheist/agnostic person, but I did used to believe when I was younger and did have obsessions and compulsions relating to faith and truthfulness/ being literal - one in particular being crossing my fingers whenever I spoke, because I was worried I would accidentally swear to do something I couldn't do, and didn't want to betray God / sin etc.
Thanks for sharing your experience! I used to have compulsions around the fear of lying too. I couldn't say "never" or "can't" because it could happen. And I couldn't say "my" or "mine" because nothing is mine, it's God's. Which is a good theological thought, but I don't think most theologians would take it that far. ;) That led to a lot of awkward conversations, too. "Where's the phone?" "Who's phone?" "The one I use mostly but not all the time because sometimes I use yours and rarely, well.. not rarely, but occasionally use the house phone..." Yeah, making sentences is tiring when you have to be literal about everything!
I do not know if I have this or mine if it is a reality :( I want to approach God but I am distressed every time I try, sometimes I think about things that make me feel very bad and bad person and when I move away from religion I It gives me more peace of mind although I am very afraid of divine judgment and it makes me anxi ous. how to know or overcome what happens to me? please help
I have ocfd i am scared I commited the unforgivable sin I have really bad intrusive thoughts and depression and axious but I think I said something horrible pray I didn'tr say or do it please.I need Jesus to stop my tounge in the past and not let me have done the blasphemy thats unforgivable
Ignoring the modern-day Pharisees who spam, "If you {insert random thing here}, it means you're not really saved," can go a long way in healing such OCD.
I might have to take medication since my scrupulosity is getting worse but the thing that scares me is that the me that surfaces from taking the medication might be sinful or I might pay enough attention to Jesus or the Bible or causes me to go to Hell.
+Antonio Valdes Hey Antonio. I want to let you know that taking medication is never sinful. Would you consider someone taking medication for diabetes a sin? Or chemo for cancer? Physical illness is the same thing as mental illness. Except in mental illness, the symptoms appear in the mind. But really, mental illness originates in the brain. A physical organ. So we should treat illness in the brain the same way we treat illness in any other organ. If you need medication, I think God would want you to take it. He wants you to be well and he will make you well, through His means. What people often don't understand is, His means could be spiritual, but it could also be medical, or psychological. He brings us to what we need. Isn't He great? :) I would also really recommend that you try therapy if you haven't already. Exposure and response prevention, a type of cognitive behavioral therapy, is the best therapy proven to treat OCD. If you need help to find a therapist, you can try iocdf.org/find-help. Blessings! I'll be praying for you!
have faith cause hijab is there in every religion. not only in Islam . even i.was confused for a while cause i was thinking her to be a Muslim untill i came across this video. i hope she converts some day . inshaAllah
I'm a headcovering Christian too. I based it on 1Corinthians 11:1-15. There are many people from various religious (and non-religious) backgrounds who cover their head/hair. You can research on the Amish or the Orthodox Jews or the Russian orthodox for a start :)
Wa aleikum alsalam(and peace be upon you) Love your spirit and your hijab- looks like the one I ware :). We believe in God and Moses and Jesus and Mohammad and love all dearly. You have really worked hard to reach the place you are now, never stop seeking the truth and remember that God’s mercy encompasses all.
Can I ask a question.. Why do you guys love Muhammad more than Jesus? You say you love both but you talk about Muhammad a lot more. Is it just because he's the last prophet? Didn't Jesus perform miracles and his mother was a virgin? Then why prophet Muhammad is more important?
This was a SUPER HELPFUL testimony. Your saying that "OCD is never satisfied," was the most helpful of all! It helped me to realize that OCD NEVER wants me to have peace or CLOSURE about ANYTHING, and/or to feel that I have done enough about a matter! OCD is a perfectionistic bully to the brain and soul! It is the most legalistic taskmaster of all! Even if I manage to do something perfectly enough one time, sooner or later I will slip up, and OCD will rush in again and torment me to attempt perfectionism again. Thank you so much! 😊😁😊
oh.. my .. god. this was my sign from god. i was stressing so so bad cause my OCD has all of a sudden decided to attack my religion (i’m a christian) and i was literally crying and praying that he showed me a sign and this was it!!! i literally related to everything you said on every single level possible. i feel so much better . 😭❤️
Ohmygosh! Preach it girl! I have been a Christian my whole life and I have had scrupulously for years! Some pastors said things that only made it worse cause they couldn’t understand! Others were awesome. The amount of times I have had to ask God over and over again if I was saved is so horrible. I am so glad that you found Christ. Keep on living for Him.
Hi. Thank you for sharing your story. I also believe that more people need to hear about scrupulosity and OCD. It has stolen about 20 years of my life. And I believe it is alot more common than we think. My obsession was condemning thoughts that would pop into my head. I tried everything to get rid of them praying, spiritual warfare reading lots of christian books. Because of this I developed depression for a long time. When I finally find out about scrupulosity I got back some hope. I agree totally with you that it works best to just ignore these thoughts that pop into your head. Then what helps even more is to learn the difference between our works and God's grace. And the character of Jesus. Then you realize you can ignore these thoughts because it is not Jesus's character to condemn us. I was just like you. From a young age I felt very responsible for everyone. Anyway my whole story is to long to share, but thanks again for your video because I believe there are alot of people who feel this way. Blessings
Hello and thank you very much. I'm a Christian with OCD and I've been struggling with intrusive thoughts. You're such a blessing. I had read a bit about facing your fears to overcome OCD. And listening to your testimony makes me want to try. The Lord bless you. Trust the Way! Thank you!
I am a Christian, my head is sometimes full of bad language images and blasphemous thoughts . it's terrible . I also have ocd (this purely my opinion, I haven't been diagnosed), sometimes I repeat things over and over and don't think in telling the truth or that I've said something wrong . I haven't been diagnosed with any of this by a psychiatrist, but I am being treated for depression.
Same
This is so relevant to me. OCD led me to believe that I wanted the intrusive thoughts and feelings I had.
Heard that 😔 Hope you're doing better today 🙏
Oh i cried so much watching this video. I hope that one day i will be totally cured of my ocd. I identified so much with your history, because my ocd is always confusing me, in a spiritual way. It's so stressful, since i already know that the thought it is not truthful, but my ocd, keeps telling me to keep doing that things. And the worst is that this thoghts are not only of me, i worry about the people i love. I'm getting better, but sometimes i failed. Anyway, i wanted you to know that your story helped me and to tell you it is SO GOOD hearing someone telling me that this thoughts aren't mine and that God will not judge me for them. Thank you.
+minhoca Uhaha Thank you for your comment! I'm so glad to hear that I helped you. When you get a thought like that, try your best not to do what it says! That is how we can beat OCD. :)
Kat, thank you so, so much for discussing and posting this video! I have yet to meet or come across anyone my age dealing with/having dealt with scrupulosity OCD and keeping their faith. Your story and words are very insightful and I feel much better! I'm sorry you had to deal with all of that, but the Lord has used your experiences to lift others, myself, and yourself up in Him. I can't express how blessed I and many others are to have come across this video. Thank you for sharing.
I struggled with scrupilosity for as long as I can remember, childhood was awful. At 43 and having been treated, I STILL struggle, and feel alone. However it is such a blessing to know I'm not alone and That the OCD is just funky brain spam. Peace guys!!
I used to have obsessions and compulsions about my family going to hell. Like, if I wore certain clothes I thought my mom would go to hell. And I had to keep my breath for at least one sentence a page when I read a book. And I constantly tapped my fingers seven or 49 times to ensure we all got to heaven, and hearing any word related to mom, fire, hell or even orange(like fire) would trigger compulsions like crazy. Now my compulsions are more like yours, when random things feel like huge sins, like putting on the "wrong" socks. I think ocd just attacks whatever is most important to us.
Thank you for making this video, it really helps hearing others with similar problems. I hope it gets easier for you. :)
Thank you! It helps me to hear your similar problems too. I hope it gets easier for you! My scrupulosity has definitely gotten easier to deal with, but it's still my hardest symptom. OCD definitely attacks what we love the most. I wish we could teach people the principles of cognitive behavioral therapy before their OCD gets bad, but I guess it would be weird to randomly teach all children CBT haha.
Certain words trigger me too, by the way! Any word describing a sin or judgement or hell triggers OCD to say I have to choose "right" with whatever I was doing or reread.
+Olivia Saad It's a little organic brain glitch. Hope you can read all you can about and know it is not uncommon, and that you may well grow out of it. Best wishes.
Doriesep6622 Thank you so much :)
OCD attacks what you love. It wants to ruin your love. We must stay stong and love even more. Remember God's love and forgiveness.
That’s wear it tried me! But thankfully God is greater than any worldly issue or disease, he’s been holding my hand through it all. Just keep trusting him.
wow, parts of your story sounded so similar to mine it was unreal. thank you so much for sharing it, and for talking about mental illness, especially in the Christian community. I'm just so grateful to see someone like me (I mean, other than the doctrinal differences, ie. I'm not hebraic, I believe in my heart that we are not under the law but under grace (romans 6:14)) talk about this sort of thing and help me realize more fully that I'm not alone. you have no idea how inspiring you are, gurl💕
All I can say is thank you for this video. I'm beginning to realize that I'm very likely dealing with scrupulosity ocd. A sudden increase in numbers, words, patterns ocd has led to serious and frightening doubts about my Christian faith and my whole perception of reality. It seemed to be triggered by my resolution for the new year to take my faith more seriously. I too have had obsessions with end times study as well as apologetics research. This too has created obsessive doubts. I broke down when you mentioned the sock/cup hell thing because I experience very similar obsessions along with having to pass certain markers on a road before a part of a song is over on the car radio.
This was unbelievably helpful. Your testimony can (and I'm sure it already has) help so many people. I was raised catholic and started to grow apart from my faith as I got older. But as I'm sure you know, life can take unexpected turns and God works in some awesome ways. Long story short I was led back into the church. I've had OCD pretty much as far back as I can remember, but because of returning to the church so suddenly and without a strong biblical knowledge at that point, I began to obsess over sin. I not only worried about my personal sin, but also about the sin of everyone around me. It sounds crazy but I would actually get really upset if someone ordered something from a menu that was anything other than the cheapest option because I was afraid that they were making the decision out of greed. As you mentioned, I was obsessive seeking God's will to the point that I was paralyzed in even deciding what outfit to wear. This perfectionist way of thinking coupled with intrusive thoughts were obviously exhausting. I've been getting help recently, and am trying to work up the courage to schedule my first counseling appointment. I know that getting help is essential in overcoming this. Thank you for this. Don't give up, and I pray that you will be able to help others fight through this and keep the faith.
Hi! I had to reply because im just thankful and shocked and surprised that im not alone. You, Kat and I have similar stories/events. I have ocd too, scruples unfortunately, but any ocd is unfortunate. As you said 👍: it has and manifest in different ways in my life. Ive been struggling for probably 4 years. Ive been in therapy for 2 and thanks be to God that i have gotten better and im not where i use to be. I'm Catholic too and i just think its cool to find others who are struggling and have love for God and are Catholic too. Its just so nice and i feel you guys would understand..i hope your journeys may go well and that we may all be healed 🙏 thank you for sharing your stories. God bless you both always.
See my struggle right now is like I'm trying to overcome the scrupulosity by avoiding certain things that trigger me; and those things are good things, like praying or reading scripture, etc.. however when I do them, my OCD kicks in and wants to convince me that it wasn't good enough or I should do it more or I'm a bad person because I only read a little bit or basically taunting me for every little thing. So in attempts to avoid that, I'm avoiding my religion altogether ; which in turn makes the OCD worse because it's convincing me that "oh you just want to follow Satan. you just want to ignore God. you don't even have OCD you're just avoiding it because you want to." and then I'm like yeah okay that's Satan trying to push me back... so I try to pray/do the things again and it just is a cycle... and I literally am just realizing all of this now, that I have been struggling with this for so long and never even put a name on it. Until recently when it has become debilitating and I am trying to avoid things, and I do this because it's helping me. I'm almost to the point I am dreading going to church or talking with the missionaries because I just CAN'T deal with it, and that sounds dumb to people who don't understand , and it even sounds dumb to me, I feel like I'm "making excuses" but even just the thought of doing those things stresses me out so bad and I can't figure out why until I'm learning scrupulosity is a thing.
I know this is an old video but if you see this comment, I guess I just want to know how you can actually still be a Christian? I know I still have my faith and I am not going to lose it, but it becomes so difficult to deal with. Part of me just wants to step away but my OCD convinces me that I'll be following the devil and it's like what do I do?... I hope maybe I can make more sense of this soon so I can get out of this funk but I'm so torn and all I want to do is just BE ALIVE and not focus so deeply on these things. I let religion COMPLETELY CONSUME my entire life and for once I just want to BE ME. BE A HUMAN. Not lose faith, but just LIVE like everyone else in my church...
I suffered this 2013-2018 i know how you feel. DOnt think Gods mad at You. Read His Word knowing He loves you. He sent HIs son to die for you. Take that to heart.
I know this was a long time ago, but I’ve been there friend and I’m still there sometimes. The most effective way is to step out in faith, and do the things that you’re OCD is telling u you shouldn’t do. It takes more faith to trust Jesus than to do ur compulsions. You will learn how much Jesus is NOT a taskmaster. You have to ask God for strength to ignore your compulsions. If you’re going to ask someone for help, first off ask God, but then ask someone who is Godly but also understands what you’re going through, like a Christian counselor. Once you start ignoring these lies from OCD, you will start to see God clearer. I hope this helped. I’ll be praying for you❤️✝️
I have no idea if you’ll see this but this is almost EXACTLY how I feel. I pour out my heart in worship, prayer, or reading but it never “meets the mark.” Would get thoughts like “you don’t really want to read, you’re just trying to get it out of the way, you don’t really love God.” But now that I’m in an AMAZING relationship with my now boyfriend it’s “he doesn’t really love God, these thoughts won’t go away unless you break up with him, you are disobeying God by dating him.” I find myself on my face or knees almost every day crying out to God for help. Sometimes I feel like giving up because I give ALL I have and feel like NOTHING. My twin sister fights with the same thing, and one day she believes she heard the Holy Spirit tell her, “just focus on faith, hope, and love.” As in don’t stress the details of the Bible and what everything means or the spiritual gifts. Just walk in faith, hope, and love. So God gets it. I remember when I once had these terrible intrusive thoughts everytime I went to cry I read Joshua 1:9 aloud just to hold onto my sanity. I felt lead to pick up my bible, started reading it, and suddenly couldn’t even remember why I had been stressed. God is good. But He has never healed me entirely. I’m thankful that He has used it for good as in for me to have this relationship with Him but it is so hard I just want to mute my brain and be with Jesus in Heaven and have my new mind. Hold on and don’t let go. Keep pursuing Jesus. When thoughts of anxiety come tell yourself immediately “this is not of God.” Then distract yourself and do something. It’s easier said then done. I hope you see this. I’m praying for you. One day we will be Home, away from the pain of this world.
@@haleylewis9909 Hi! I'm glad I still use this account. Thank you for your response. I'm sorry you deal with this as well. I will say, as it has been 6 years since I've made this comment, I do still deal with this occasionally - but it has come and gone.
I will go some periods where I am engrossed in my religion and feel great about it - and others where I feel the pressures and convince myself I am never good enough.
Then, like I said before, I do feel the need to stay away from all religious things as it can be triggering. It's actually quite interesting how this comment is coming back to me right now as I am recently for the first time in a really long time, dealing with this again. The only difference is, I no longer really believe that what I'm doing (by stepping away) is "evil" or that Satan is leading me or anything - but that I'm almost so over feeling like I'll never REALLY be able to know what God wants so doing anything is "useless"..
But like what your sister said, faith, hope and love.
I've had a lot of realizations that have occured to me during these moments and at the end of the day we can only do the best we can with what we have and what we know... and in the case of God and spirituality we can know very little (it's all faith) but what we DO know is love, so if we can AT LEAST just love others and take care of ourselves and treat others with kindness, then that is good.
I hope that helps you too!
i've been going through a rough patch spiritually and mentally. I never would've thought it was OCD until i read up on it and watched this video. thank you very much.
Thank you for sharing your story, I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts from sex to having the terrifying thought that god isn’t real and that I’m not truly a Christian. It’s really hard to decipher what the truth is when you have ocd. It sucks but I’m pushing through this.
Hello, I understand it was happening to me too, if I may know are you today?? (Regarding the ocd)
@@chimamandachukwudire6020 hey I’m doing much better! I’ve found out that questioning is ok! It’s apart of deepening your understanding and maturity of your faith! Just remember that your thoughts don’t define you, they are just thoughts that’s it! It’s hard when you have ocd to remember this, and while I’m doing good right now sometimes I have harder days but the biggest thing is separating your “ocd thoughts” from your actual thoughts, things you truly believe. Often ocd thoughts have the same pattern you ruminate on them, they are disturbing to you and cause you anxiety. Praying for you friend, it will get better.
Great video! You strike me as a very intelligent and informed individual. You're an excellent speaker. This is the first of your videos I've watched. I'll likely watch more, but my life is quite busy at the moment. However, I felt the need to comment and to let you know that I was very impressed by this video. It helped me see things about myself that I might not have seen otherwise.
I'm a 52-year-old man, and I have OCD. it started when I was 15. I was raised as a Catholic, and I became very religious for the first few years of having OCD. My mother had multiple sclerosis, and I was obsessed with finding out the right way to pray so that she would be healed. I read the bible a lot (both new and old testaments). That wasn't as big a part of my OCD as it was for you, but it was a part of things. I won't get into the details of my OCD story now, but I'd like to make a video about it. I'm not sure when that will happen...
Presently, I'm agnostic. However, I have had Christian (Catholic, Lutheran, etc.), Jewish, Sikh, Buddist, and Atheist friends. They are all good people. I think people should have the right to believe whatever they want to believe (or to not believe if that is their choice). Anyhow,... that's just my two cents.
Keep on making videos! : )
Tim Marrell Romans 3:10 as it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one. No one is good. Only Jesus Christ is Good come to Him He's the only way to heaven
Woo! Testify sister! :-) Love love love hearing your story about coming to faith. So much truth in this video. I can really relate to the harm OCD and some of the scrupulosity. Especially when you talked about thinking that OCD was God speaking. I have so many examples of that! Thanks for sharing your story lovely!
Thank you! :) I'm glad you enjoyed it! I made the video to help people with mental illness, but it's really part of my testimony as well! I hope it helps both Christians and non-Christians!
+ShalomAleichem god bless you
EXCELLENT video!!! You so get it and have so much insight. God bless you sister!
I support you in all that you do. I too have OCD.
thank you so much for your videos. it's been more around 13 years since I am struggling with anxiety OCD .. I have been better than before BUT it's not gone completely. you are way younger than me but because you have been through this darkness you know it all. I definitely know your videos are gona help me out. thanks a lot.
How are you now?
Thank you so much for your story . I don't feel alone anymore .
oh my goodness....... the thing that i have been struggling with.... you explained it so clearly!! i actually cried alittle because of this video.. i've been struggling for a while now thinking that the intrusive thoughts are all from the Holy Spirit, and later i started thinking that the enemy AND the Holy Spirit were speaking to me.. and it really. drived me. crazy. i also was confused on like which socks i'm supposed to wear today, like, i listened to my thoughts, but my thoughts were saying two different things and i was like what is God's voice and what is the enemy's how am i supposed to know?? what if i chose the wrong thing? then i couldnt be living the life the Lord planned for me.. so i talked about this struggle with my church teacher, and my dad but they didnt know what i was talking about. and i was so confused. why isnt anyone dealing with this like me? and i began to research and i thought i had adhd. never thought i had ocd. i still dont know if i have ocd. i dont have it AS SEVERE as other people. i never even doubted. im just so thankful, and just relieved that iam not the only person who went through this. because i prayed so much, cried so much, i felt alone. man iam so happy right now!!
Gerat video i struggle with this issue a lot as well it took me a very long time to know who god truly was because these problems always got in the way of that , great channel
Thank you so much for making this video! ❤️ Society needs to be more aware of this conditions. Also I love that you’ve explained it from a Christian point of view. That way I can relate much more. Again, thank you for speaking about something we need to learn more about nowadays. God bless you! 😊💕❤️
Thank you for this. It was encouraging.
Quran (5:19)
In the name of Allah, the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.
(O People of the Scripture, there has come to you Our Messenger to make clear to you [the religion] after a period [of suspension] of messengers, lest you say, "There came not to us any bringer of good tidings or a warner." But there has come to you a bringer of good tidings and a warner. And Allah is over all things competent.)
Allah Almighty is Truthful
My story is very similar to yours, you are not alone and you'll never walk alone. God bless you❤️❤️🙏🏼
Alina I do not know if I have this or mine if it is a reality :( I want to approach God but I am distressed every time I try, sometimes I think about things that make me feel very bad and bad person and when I move away from religion I It gives me more peace of mind although I am very afraid of divine judgment and it makes me anxious. how to know or overcome what happens to me? please help
Can you please do a video elaborating on your blasphemous intrusive thoughts? I've been struggling with that recently and it helps to know I'm not alone.
Please know, that those are not the thoughts *you* choose. The brain is a tool, that is separate from your soul, or your *inward* self, or as some say, the heart. Who you really are, is your *soul*. If you can imagine your brain, as an evil man following you, harrasing you, remember that if you turn around and face him, he will rise up stronger, and it empowers him. That's what *it* wants. But if you ignore him, and treat him as just background noise, his power diminishes he will grow quieter. Your greatest power against the mind, is knowing that there is no credibility to the horrible thoughts you are having. It doesn't come from your soul, which is the essence of you are. It is not you. I speak from experience, and things God allowed us to understand concerning it. Prayers for you.
God bless you.. You have a great testimony to share with the world and use your platform to do so.. yes you are right with medication and secular therapy it works. God is the creator of all creations including medication and therapy.. keep up the good work much love
Thanks i really liked your video im a christian and also have ocd depression and anxiety it really help to know more about it thank you so much
I just discovered your channel and I love it! Thank you for sharing your story!!!
Shalom, Amanda
I was born and raised Catholic as well. I'm actually going to church today, can't wait to hear my message. Thank you for sharing your story, it's so inspirational. Very well said Kat. A lot of things can be learned in this video. About your mental health journey and putting God first and falling in love with Jesus. Great explanation of your experiences with God. So grateful God has worked such miracles in your life, always happy to collab! Lovely job Kat!
+highoffkai You don't need an imaginary friend to get through life. Churches are delusion factories spreading fairy tales of fear to create a herd of brainwashed donating followers.
Yeah I know it can be super super helpful especially those times when you go and then the message just hits hell you know what I'm talking about and it's just like OK I get it
Aww thank you! I really appreciate that. Our videos were different, but I think they both talk about valuable sides of the situation. The body of Christ has hands and feet, right? :D All the best to you as well! I hope we can collab again in the future!
Wow, you are the first person I've heard of who has had similar hyper-religious obsessions! Going through many medications, counselors and pastors over the past 18 years, but only to still fail the OCD strictness, I had given up hope of ever getting better.
Every day has been a struggle with constant thoughts of becoming a Satanist, going to hell, cursing Christ, needing to make sure I pray enough or repetitively quote verses to challenge my thoughts. It got so bad that I stopped going to church because of how intensely anxious I became (because of repetitive thoughts). Even a SPECT brain scan proving OCD was enough to convince me.
But, I am now at least a bit hopeful that I can find someone who could fully understand what I was talking about (therapists and pastors I've seen don't know what to say). Thank you.
Have you gone through cognitive behavioral therapy with exposure and response prevention (a subtype of CBT) yet? Because OCD is a brain disorder, it should be treated as such. Also, most therapists, pastoral counselors or regular counselors, don't actually know how to treat OCD or what it is! Even though counselors may think they can treat OCD, they don't actually know how to implement the gold standard treatment, which is cognitive behavioral therapy with exposure and response prevention therapy! I really recommend seeing an OCD specialist for this reason!
Also, like you mentioned, many professionals sadly don't know about OCD and it's depth at all. They don't know what to make of you because they're not truly specialized. A good OCD therapist would know exactly what to do. After seeing two therapists who didn't actually know OCD treatment, I found someone who did and it was totally different. My last two therapists have been OCD specialists (and I only left the first one because I moved haha). Honestly it was a life changing experience! I'm in recovery now and doing so much better. (I talk about this therapy more on my channel.)
Thanks for sharing your story so boldy! Congratulations to you. I am inspired.
I was feeling very suicidal... And my intrusive thoughts were bombarding my mind as i laid in bed. I didnt know what to do.... But then i decided to open youtube and watch your video... and it is so calming somehow. God bless you.
You are exactly like me. I wish I had the reassurance that you do
It took a long time to get there!!! Keep surrounding yourself with people who "get it," seek therapy or guidance from experts, and you'll get there.
Hey Kat, what a great video! :)
Really, such a great video - you did a fantastic job of explaining your experience, as well as OCD and mental illness in the context of religion which I think there could be certainly more resources on. A fabulous video, and will be definitely directing people to this video. :)
Thank you! :) I appreciate that! I definitely want to talk about OCD and religion more, but it's hard because it can be triggering! But, hey, just another excuse for an exposure! ;)
Wow so good! Thank you so much for sharing.
I can relate so much with what you had to say. Thank you!
I'm a Christian hijabi too ❤️
EthnicEve
May the Creator protect you, bless you, and save you ♥
Me too!
Me also :)
That’s amazing! Christianity and islam is very alike, media makes us hate eachother. I personally love christianity as it is an Abrahamic religion aswell. We have the same God and prophets ❤️
Wow, thanks for sharing. I have allot of these types of OCD but I never knew what it was.
I can totally relate to so many things you said! Have u ever talked to people one-on-one? I’d love to talk to someone who has experienced the same thing I have been experiencing! I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD, but I definitely deal with at least symptoms of Scrupulosity OCD. Thank you so much for sharing. :)
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by Ruth Whalen (Author), A. Hoffer (Foreword) A century overdue! At last, a book on caffeine toxicity - diagnosed as ADHD, OCD, anxiety, panic, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, TMJD, PMS, and more.
Yesterday, I wrote to Ruth Whalen regarding her article called "Caffeine Allergy: Past Disorder or Present Epidemic" that appeared on Doctor Yourself.com . I asked specifically if I might quote several of her passages regarding caffeine in the diet of depressed patients, and this was her response:
"Feel free to copy the entire article... Thanks for asking." I'll select the most relevant parts for you later and post them for your information.
She went on to say, "By the way, bipolar disorder doesn't exist. The symptoms of so-called bipolar disorder are all from brain poisoning, and this was known in 1894. A neurologist speaks about how governments are injuring brains with chemicals..." She lists a url sight that I'll look into later for you. She went on, "The chemicals poison the brain first. The patients don't know because they can't think straight--due to the brain making hallucinogens. " She gives a link to that which I'll check into for the bipolar folks.
Again, she says, "Also, please tell people that bipolar patients have abnormal lab tests--but doctors ignore them. If they actually told the patients that they have brain poisoning--then they wouldn't have any more patients, because their patients would recover. No patients. No money. So the doctors keep prescribing drugs--more poisons--more brain poisoning."
"Same thing with autism, Parkinson's....We live in an inhumane world."
"May God Bless."
"Sincerely,
Ruth"
i loved the way you explained yourself in this video
wow she is just like me makes me feel better I am not only.
You are beautiful! Your videos are so helpful! Thank you for taking the time to make these videos! ❤️❤️❤️
not a lot of people talk about this, and yet so many of our brothers and sisters though the ages suffered from it!
LOVE! Great way to bring awareness!
Thank you! :)
Thank you a lot for this vid! God bless you!
You are awesome Kat!
Thanks for your video I truly believe your advice is right, I'm in a place where religion is no longer a comfort I used to do everything because I believed Jesus is with me now I really think he tells me I blasphemed against the Holy Spirit gonna keep trying though because I've had a diagnosis of OCD and I still hope the truth is Jesus is with me
Don't hope just know he always is. God never leaves you.. Don't let your anxiety take that away from you becuse that truth is the truth.. You always safe within him and he in you.. I go though the same thing. Let his words guide you; don't be afraid nor be dismayed for the Lord God is with you wherever you go.. He Loves you and you were made to know that. You can get though anything. God will fix your mind be patient. Never base your salvation in the hands of a feeling of circumstance. Jesus is the way the truth and the life.. Go to him for rest he will give it to you..
Love u fam God loves you more. Nothing will separate you from Jesus and God they are within.. That's why u know they are truth and they always will be, God knows where u are, pray to him and trust in him, I know sometimes anxiety gets the best of us but stay strong, don't upses about it.. Let the thoughts pass build new ones, write verses or notes down that help you, you are not alone and God has never left you and never will and you can count on that. He is real and He loves you so much. Also relax your mind. Train your brain to not react to those thoughts.. Your reaction is powerful. Just say I trust God.. Remember this is temporary
The thing that is happening to help me , and seems like the best way is thru erp exposure. In other words try writing down the things that bother you and let the anxiety build then subside to about half of your anxiety.oh and very important get some help with drs and counselers
they must help you build a heiarchy of triggers that will raise your anxiety-but that is what you want-because the anxiety will start going down. keep doing the exposers till you habituate to the anxiety and soon you will see that those items that once bothered you have lost their power
the more you can habituate the more you will feel better. I struggle hard also but it is getting easier, and don't worry because God knows everything and since Christ died for your sins he will not condemn you its just your ocd mind
MEOH M ? I m not understanding you, please elaborate
I struggled with this in disorder my adulthood until this day. What keeps me comfort is this scripture " For Yahweh did not give us the sprit of fear, but Power , Love and a Sound mind. " Your a blessing thanks for this video.Peace n much love Shalom sista
I'm only a minute in but ty for the video!!
I’m a Christian I’ve struggled with OCD since 2nd grade and it didn’t get serious until I let Jesus into my heart my depression stopped but OCD didn’t either I have the same problem as you and it’s painful it made me doubt and question my salvation as well and it’s very hard to there would be someone thoughts saying bad things about Jesus and the Father and it’s my OCD is similar to yours God bless you I hope you are ok now. My OCD made me afraid to drink anything and eat meat and so much more.
Hey Kat very nice video! Thanks for being open and courageous enough to talk about these issues. I noticed some pretty rude comments on this video - don't pay them any mind. After all you're on the internet so you're bound to see some of them. Anyways I think it'd be great if you spoke more on the false beliefs that lead to scrupulosity.
Have a great day Kat!
Neil
Thanks Neil! And thanks for the suggestion!
Comments like the one on this video don't usually bother me. They're basically what I expect on a TH-cam video about religion! You may have noticed I responded with the "kill them with kindness" method. I feel that's better than getting in a heated debate with someone who obviously doesn't want to hear my side.
+ShalomAleichem Haha no problem, and yes you seldom ever get anywhere with someone during an internet debate, especially on TH-cam ;D. I think I've only had one time where the other person and I actually got somewhere in our conversation. Anyways, have a great day!
+ShalomAleichem convert to unitarian christian trinity is false man can never be equal to a most high GOD
wow thanks... iv been fighting the same thoughts for many years. i never went to the doctor only untill recently did i realize that it wasnt God talking and that its a thing... that helped me out allot... but i still have a ways to go... but this helps... you rock :)
I dont get it. what does that mean?
hmmm i don't know Mabey brain damage or something chemical like drugs. but how does that relate to the comment?
thanks for the offer i just need to know that these thougts are not of God and not listen to them
thank you so much for this!! i have the same issues with my harm OCD.
I'm not sure I understand what you mean. I'm not saying that I'm learning anything new. I'm saying that it's nice to not feel alone in the struggle of harm ocd. and I'm great full for People like her that tell her story.
Wow you are really right... My OCD too compel me to do this and that... Condemning me... I will go to hell if I don't do the right thing what my OCD told me. OCD equal to small devil.
I believe I also have Scrupulosity OCD. I'm of the christian faith and can remember since I was a kid having these obsessive thoughts about going to hell and not being saved. I'm a big boy, but this gets so bad it will make me just want to cry. It usually comes around every night. I feel like I'm so burnt out on it that I just want to stop thinking about Christianity all together, but I can't do that, because despite my OCD I really do believe! Thanks for your video.
+Theyownyou Mine usually kicks in at night as well. As she mentioned, getting help through counseling, medication, or education makes things a lot easier to deal with. There are so many good books about scrupulosity out there. I could point you to a few if you're interested :) God bless man, stay strong, I know this is challenging.
Aleah B
Thanks for replying to my comment Aleah. I've found that a combination of lithium and daily klonopin is extremely helpful. I would love to hear about those books that you mentioned before.
+Theyownyou The one I am reading now is called "Scrupulosity and the Saints." It is written by a Catholic writer who went through the disease himself. He sites a lot of writings from saints who struggled with and overcame scrupulosity. There is another titled "the doubting disease" I don't know much about it, but that will probably be my next read.
+Theyownyou The one I am reading now is called "Scrupulosity and the Saints." It is written by a Catholic writer who went through the disease himself. He sites a lot of writings from saints who struggled with and overcame scrupulosity. There is another titled "the doubting disease" I don't know much about it, but that will probably be my next read.
Sweet! Thank you for being so helpful. I really appreciate good people! I'll check these books out for sure.
Thank you for this video.
Thank you...... Please stay in prayer sister
i have this i go from one faith to another over and over to find the one that is the true faith , i also have harm ocd i am waiting for therapy but am in the uk on the nhs i have meds etc but they dont help my husband and my friends try to help me but i cant stop doing it i need help so i started watching your video after i serched r ocd am unsure what i can do to help myself its making my life hell
Although not officially diagnosed, I just saw a church concealer who said this might be what I have but to check it out with a specialist to be sure. From the little I read and this video it makes sense, i feel like I may be going through some of the same specific things you did too. Going further, of course I want tread carefully and try to listen Jesus better vs my head voice, but am not against treatment. Something else I wonder is if this condition could also put the thought in our heads that we don’t have the condition, when we do 🙂. God bless.
Salvation through repentance and obedience.
Thank you for sharing
when i was eighteen i was attacked in the street by some one who was drunk and was trying to sexually harass me (i am a heterosexual male) thankfully people came and i only got punched in the face! this incident really crushed my self esteem at that point to the point that i couldn't go out at night out of fear! three month after the incident one night i had these exremely intrusive thoughts about killing my sister! i can still remember the horror i was in and how paralyzing those thoughts were. i couldn't even come out of my room or i wouldn't let myself to hold a knife! at that point i started to become religious as a way to ease my intrusive thoughts and since i am iranian and i was born in muslim family i started to follow the muslim faith, where as before that i wasn't realy interested in religion and my family were pretty secular, so in a matter of just one week i started to do what all the other muslim do like praying five time a day or going to mosque .... in my case whenever i was with other people the thoughts went away, so lonelyness was a very big factor in worsening my situation. anyway after about two years these thoughts became less frequent and they realy vanished after about 4 years in those years mostly i would just try to be with other people to put ease to my situation. and i guess since my condition was due to an incident, it bacame better with time. i never went to psychologist or shrink and didn't talk about my situation to my family. now i am 28 and an i consider myself atheist ( i guess because the same mind with those thoughts also asks too many quastions that faith can't answer!) but i want to let you know that it is only now that i know about pure 'o' OCD and it is through your channel and some other channels in youtube! i know this pure 'o' or any simillar OCD is literally the worst mental state that someone can have and if faith can put ease on the situation then be it!
also i would recommend meditation, because it will help you not to judge yourself by your thoughts( try John Kobat Zinn mindfulness meditation)
سلام علیکم!
Hey, how are you. I just wanted to know if you still an atheist?
I am happy you survived. Get to know Christ please, he is the only way to life after death, he is our hope and righteousness and he loves us very much, peace be with you ❤️.
This woman is so beautiful.
I have suffered this since I was 12 and I'm in my twenties now, and it's still going strong. I'm at my wit's end honestly. I've prayed, others have prayed, I'm in counseling, I've seen a psychiatrist, I've been on multiple medications, because of a weird trait that seems to be passed on from one of my parents, I react horribly to every medication I've been on, and I'm now having to switch to another psychiatrist because of billing issues. I feel like my life is a nightmare, and I'm NEVER happy. Even my counselor I think is a bit lost on what to do with me. It's nightmarish enough to fear death, but to fear HELL? That's an entirely different thing. Despite reassurances from my counselor who's a christian, and other christians around me, nothing brings me peace. I can't even read my bible, every time I do i feel condemned. The one thing that always stands out to me is that one bible verse that never lets me have any peace, and it's "not loving god is the only sin that can cost you your salvation" (i'm paraphrasing a bit obviously) thing is I don't love God...I want to, I have accepted him as my lord and savior, and recently renewed that, i'm trying to pray every day (it's hard because of other mental factors that cause a lot of attention span issues), but I was religiously abused, and both of my parents are abusive, and my OCD can't stop telling me God is constantly irritated and let down by me, i'm always cowering from him and feeling like the worst daughter he could have. How can I love him when I'm terrified? Does me wanting to, TRYING to, count for nothing? (I think even my counselor doesn't believe me when I tell her I don't love God despite not hating him, and wanting to, she thinks my OCD is tricking me but I know that i simply don't feel it, thing is because of other mental stuff I also struggle to feel empathy or strong emotions for others, so I rarely love at all despite wishing i did, I still try to act loving, to care for people and listen when they need things, but as an emotion i rarely experience it)
I suffered this 2013-2018 i know how you feel. DOnt think Gods mad at You. Read His Word knowing He loves you. He sent HIs son to die for you. Take that to heart.
remember not all thoughts are you. This is for you Atticus and anyone else reading it. Take heart Jesus overcame the world.
It's amazing to me how similar people are to me. I knew other people suffered from intrusive thoughts but didnt think that so many did similar things to me. Like anytime I saw an attractive female I felt like oh no I might be lusting so I prayed right there. I don't know how many times in my life I rededicated my life to Christ. I have that "special number" that I have to do things (7) cause 777 is Gods number. And every time I see three 6s I get worried. And I'll hold my breath till I'm away from it plus I feel like I cant touch anything with three consecutive 6s with my right hand cause I worry that is the mark of the beast. And if I do touch it I have to wash my hands. And so many more things I dont have time or space to type. I feel for anyone who goes through this and dont wish it on my worst enemy. Jesus bless
13:04 waitt what can you helpp mee to know if i have sinned or not..my intrussive thoughts triess to convictss mee of a sinn and i do not knoww if the conviction is from the holy spirit or not
To be as young as you are. You are very wise. You have helped me. I just wonder when I was young like 3 or 4 i had seizures then when i was in my late 40s i had a couple of them. Nothing Sense then. I just wonder if that might have something to do with intrusive thought.
Don't EVER listen to anyone who tells you that this is some "spiritual" condition! Those people are dangerous and avoid them at all costs! My OCD manifested itself as an eating disorder and then "guys" and then death and hell and everything in between. OCD is the only mental illness that can't be treated with drugs. A lot of this comes from our family's. My parents were perfectionists and that really did a number on my head.
+kimberly johnson I agree with you!! Until the part where you said it can't be treated with drugs, it can! Although not everyone is helped by them because people react to drugs differently, and it can take a while to find a medication or medication combination that works. The treatment the works best, however, and is known to be more effective and last longer than drugs, is cognitive behavioral therapy with exposure and response prevention therapy! Glad you didn't listen to those people! :)
Shalom Aleichem: Really? Are you on drugs for this? Has it helped? Your a beautiful young women with your whole life a head of you! You are young enough to be able to change your thinking patterns. Just do it! Cease the day! The OCD and the many other mental diagnosis's I have just ruined my life. My family was horribly abusive to me. They physically and mentally abused me. They screwed with my head since I was a very little baby girl. I morn for that little girl. I didn't deserve that. However, your young and trust me, when you get to be my age. It goes by so fast! Develop a good support system. Thank you so much for sharing your story, I related to almost everything you said. May God bless you girl! You deserve that!
kimberly johnson yes i think she stated that somewhere and yes it has helped her in the video.
I have suffered with scrupulosity for two years and now I should be over it pretty soon but can I say how amazing you are and what a truly brilliant follower of God you are ☺️ also if it any help whenever Jesus speaks of thoughts He always is talking about thoughts that stem from the 'heart'; that is to say thoughts in line with our values. By definition intrusive thoughts are not in line with our values or desires so He does not ever speak about those thoughts. For example when he says about it being things that stem from the heart that ruin humans, and one of them is 'evil thoughts', the fact that He says stem from the heart means that ONLY thoughts in line with what people value could ever be sinful therefore intrusive thoughts that everyone gets by definition are not sinful because they are in no way in line with peoples' values nor is anything OCD causes in line with our true values. That verse in Corinthians is talking about the same type of thoughts that Jesus refers to (ones that stem from our heart) to make sure we change our thoughts that are in line with our values to be ones that reflect Christian values, and a Christian value may even in itself be not to pay attention to thoughts that are not in line with our values because they are so meaningless and should not get in our way with our relationship with God! That isn't to say it is sinful at all to become disturbed by them because that is just a simple mistake; it is just to say God would want us to not be bothered by such meaningless thoughts and only focus on ones that are in line with our values (and ones that are in line with our values as Christians/good people who by having morals are actually closer to God than they realise are ones that God likes!)
Happy Guy Thank you very much for this. God bless.
Are you still ok? Because I need help if you can share an advice thanks
Happy Guy Thank you for explaining this!! Reading what you wrote has given me a huge paradigm shift towards freedom! Wow.
Thank you so so much. God bless you.
Great video, Kat! Just a correction: the verse you said in corinthians is actually 2 Corinthians 10:5, (you mentioned it was in 1 Corinthians 10:5). Thank you for the help! I'll divulgate for people who may suffer from this, so you could help them! God bless you.
Check out assurance of salvation by R. C. Sproul!!
God loves you and can heal you of OCD, He completely set me free, try to give it all to Him, He can change anything
Do Christians women cover their hair too ?
That’s what im thinking lol
yes,
I have ocd intrusive thoughts and I usually pray to god/Jesus to help me through these thoughts.but today I had an intrusive thought questioning my faith and it scares me so much becos I believe in Jesus and god but my ocd is now attacking my faith, can you please help me or give me some advice I don’t know what to do!!!!!
Hello, I understand it was happening to me too, if I may know are you today?? (Regarding the ocd)
For me its worst when I'm praying and then my intrusive thoughts come in and I'm there like 😳
Hi great video! Can you talk about blasphemous thoughts?
+Andrea Martinez Thank you! I definitely will at some point! :)
Thank You so much.
Help!!!! Mine urges to commit them not just random thoughts. I can't fix it...if I let my head relax I might give in
Hello, i understand it was the same for me. If I may ask how are you today??
Personally I'm more of an atheist/agnostic person, but I did used to believe when I was younger and did have obsessions and compulsions relating to faith and truthfulness/ being literal - one in particular being crossing my fingers whenever I spoke, because I was worried I would accidentally swear to do something I couldn't do, and didn't want to betray God / sin etc.
Thanks for sharing your experience! I used to have compulsions around the fear of lying too. I couldn't say "never" or "can't" because it could happen. And I couldn't say "my" or "mine" because nothing is mine, it's God's. Which is a good theological thought, but I don't think most theologians would take it that far. ;) That led to a lot of awkward conversations, too. "Where's the phone?" "Who's phone?" "The one I use mostly but not all the time because sometimes I use yours and rarely, well.. not rarely, but occasionally use the house phone..." Yeah, making sentences is tiring when you have to be literal about everything!
Im not being mean but im confused why does she wear a head scarf if shes catholic? Someone explain please
+bean bag I wear a headscarf based off of a passage in 1 Corinthians 11. Also, later in the video I explain that I'm no longer Catholic. :)
ohhhhhh okay thankyou for explaining, also I love your videos
No problem. :)
a good preacher that helped me with mine, Dr.Gene kim he clearified alot
aslo the KJV Bible is really good! because some modern versions change or removed scripture.
I do not know if I have this or mine if it is a reality :( I want to approach God but I am distressed every time I try, sometimes I think about things that make me feel very bad and bad person and when I move away from religion I It gives me more peace of mind although I am very afraid of divine judgment and it makes me anxi
ous. how to know or overcome what happens to me? please help
I have ocfd i am scared I commited the unforgivable sin I have really bad intrusive thoughts and depression and axious but I think I said something horrible pray I didn'tr say or do it please.I need Jesus to stop my tounge in the past and not let me have done the blasphemy thats unforgivable
Thank you.
Ignoring the modern-day Pharisees who spam, "If you {insert random thing here}, it means you're not really saved," can go a long way in healing such OCD.
Your video is very informative and helpful. I have an off-topic question: Why the hijab? I'm really curious, that's all. Blessings. :)
I might have to take medication since my scrupulosity is getting worse but the thing that scares me is that the me that surfaces from taking the medication might be sinful or I might pay enough attention to Jesus or the Bible or causes me to go to Hell.
+Antonio Valdes Hey Antonio. I want to let you know that taking medication is never sinful. Would you consider someone taking medication for diabetes a sin? Or chemo for cancer? Physical illness is the same thing as mental illness. Except in mental illness, the symptoms appear in the mind. But really, mental illness originates in the brain. A physical organ. So we should treat illness in the brain the same way we treat illness in any other organ. If you need medication, I think God would want you to take it. He wants you to be well and he will make you well, through His means. What people often don't understand is, His means could be spiritual, but it could also be medical, or psychological. He brings us to what we need. Isn't He great? :)
I would also really recommend that you try therapy if you haven't already. Exposure and response prevention, a type of cognitive behavioral therapy, is the best therapy proven to treat OCD. If you need help to find a therapist, you can try iocdf.org/find-help.
Blessings! I'll be praying for you!
Thanks
Thanks for the concern
why you cover your hair ? i cover it too because i am muslim is it because religon too?
why does it bother you
have faith cause hijab is there in every religion. not only in Islam . even i.was confused for a while cause i was thinking her to be a Muslim untill i came across this video. i hope she converts some day . inshaAllah
I'm a headcovering Christian too. I based it on 1Corinthians 11:1-15. There are many people from various religious (and non-religious) backgrounds who cover their head/hair. You can research on the Amish or the Orthodox Jews or the Russian orthodox for a start :)
Wa aleikum alsalam(and peace be upon you)
Love your spirit and your hijab- looks like the one I ware :).
We believe in God and Moses and Jesus and Mohammad and love all dearly. You have really worked hard to reach the place you are now, never stop seeking the truth and remember that God’s mercy encompasses all.
Can I ask a question.. Why do you guys love Muhammad more than Jesus? You say you love both but you talk about Muhammad a lot more. Is it just because he's the last prophet? Didn't Jesus perform miracles and his mother was a virgin? Then why prophet Muhammad is more important?
How could someone connect with you outside TH-cam?
Do you have a facebook?
I know I shouldn't be talking like this but God has so much power and he don't heal people
Good video
I'm suffering this horribly!
How are you doing now?