Its because theres no one to pretend too when were alone. When were alone you cant just fake being happy cause theres no reason to. The moment youre alone is when everything comes crashing back down.
Pls talk about it and seek help. If some changes need to be made, make them. You are important and your needs are important. You need to feel love and loved. Happiness is always within us but we let the concerns about what others may think overcome our own feelings. And we don't give ourselves a break from worrying. Don't wait and find back the simple joy of being alive.
The part that stood out to me personally as very relatable , was the very end. He’s happy that’s she’s there, but notice his face goes back to the same tired and blank expression. Company helps and is appreciated, but the depression is still there. So grateful to my friends who refuse to give up on me💛
@@DonnaSnyder ahhhhhh I can't even get your comment to open up to read it fully. But you are worthy, dear one. Greatest apologies if your circumstances aren't showing you that. Keep holding on. There is the other side to get to...
Glad you got great people by your side. Wish i had one of those. Even my only gf ignores, she rarely talk... Sometimes telling me she dont wanna talk to me. Its hard to accept this life... I tried my best to cope with this life. Hope i did great... Even if i ended up alone.
"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy. Because they know what it feels like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anybody else to feel like that." Robin Williams
To help others in any way is the only way to get along with people. As long as I'm doing something, but don't have to socialise, I'm okish. Being around peeps without doing something and acting "normal" gives me physical pain
Well sometimes those people suffers from a loss from where there is no point of return. They try their best to not give up and hope that things will get better but the reality is cruel. I'm just tired of being good, strong, hopeful because in real life suffering only gets worse. Getting betrayed by the very people who you trusted and supported each and everytime. In the end, people like me are just born to suffer the pain and that's why I think suicide is the option which I would love to choose. I just can't handle the pain, betrayal or this cruel life. I just... I know it's wrong but maybe it's a solution that is designed for me....
At night I can't sleep and think of things just like in the video for hours And before commenting I kept imagining different scenarios of me commenting and people responding
And the depression gets even worse when u think how the people who care for you will feel when they know what you are going through and they literally cannot help you even if they wanted to!
@@pathania3377 True, this could make you feel guilty. But I think a big problem is that most people don't understand depression as a disease you can't control. They think you are responsible for your depression. That's why they maybe feel themselves guilty and responsible to help you to change your mood. Sometimes that can work out well, don't get me wrong. But sometimes you need them to just accept you as you are and just stick around! I think especially feeling accepted by others can help you heal. That's at least based on my experience. Depression is a disease we still have to destigmatize!!
@@anastasiawill3729 yupp....just accepting the person as he/she is better... But when i keep myself in that person's place.....I think it is pretty difficult to just see the person u love/like just sitting in their rough time. Like we r just trying to enjoy while the other person is killing him/herself from inside at that very moment!!
As a depressed person I thought this was very well-done. It captures the feeling of looking through a dark curtain, separated from others. Also that the idea of suicide can pop into a depressed person's mind without drama and without a triggering event. It's just an idea and not a reaction to something sad or stressful. That's what makes it such a loss when someone succeeds.
You are spot on with that understanding, I have suicidal thoughts every day it’s just normal for me and I’m not in danger I’ve just always felt like killing myself lol 😆 glad I don’t live in america though because if I had a gun I would have used it on myself by now lol just always imagine shooting myself in head just randomly in random situations lol
@@noompsieOG just because u think of suicide doesn’t mean u act upon it … tell your spouse or husband that u are depressed or suicidal they will get it someone you trust
the part where he had like a visual of the girl finding him in his basement is so real and raw to me because as someone who struggles with depression the daydreaming about committing suicide and family members finding you and just imagining their reaction very often is like wow to me and it’s interesting knowing that there’s more out who do the same thing.
Same here… we aren’t wanting to traumatize or hurt that family member or special friend. Then add that on top of the guilt/pain felt in general. I am starting to believe that I intentionally keep a room or an area of my house messy or embarrassingly disorganized (I live alone). That way I wouldn’t want to have a family member seeing or dealing with it if I were to be gone.
The part where he picks up the guitar and tries to play is so relatable, it's been years since I've been trying but I just can't seem to actually play/practice. It's just so hard to really do anything at all.
I understand this. Literally. But since trying to die recently, I scared myself and decided I'm going to try and be creative and document it on my channel. Being creative is literally the only thing that keeps me going. So I've been writing a song about some recent trauma and I hope it's kick starts my playing and creativity once again. Hang in there my friend!
I can relate to you, Elhem. I was pursuing a career in music and luthier, but a lot of stuff has come up which has forced me to pretty much give up on it. Part of that was because of moving to a small town area. It is safe and I can go out on my own, but the music stuff here has been bad enough that I've pretty much given up outside of helping one orchestra. There are things I wish I could do and I know I could, but I can't find any drive or dedication.
tell me about it pal,ive forgon how to draw,so depressed learned how to drum in lockdown,if I coild get my creative mind back,ide be busy & make money,however I find myself all slone nobody to reach out to,hope u stay stonger than me,
It takes me months to finish one piece, visual artist, months on end……been especially hard since the storms…Irma and Maria…..the forced relocation has left me blank.
@@stuartmason3851 you are reaching out here in a sense. Pick up your pencils or charcoals and try remembering how to draw or look at a video here on shading perhaps and try practicing that. I used to draw a long time ago when I was in high school. I sat in my room with the door shut drawing strange looking faeries and trolls from a book put out by Peacock Press. I loved to draw and was quite good at it then but over the past 35 years have really forgotten how to draw. I was good at drawing something I could look at but trying to free hand draw was never a strong point for me. Give it a go again! I love that you started drumming! Make some noise!!! Good for you! 🎈♥️
Same here. I can stare out a window and not really experience what I see. I'm just flatlined. Somehow what's familiar to me feels foreign and empty. I, at moments, feel very slightly nauseated with low grade bouts of remorse or intense anxiety. I've been through this at times and wait with fear and hope to feel myself again. I hate it! It's cruel! Your comments sure help me. I'm so grateful to all of you good people.
Your comment was made a year ago, how you doing today? Hope you’re better. I too have anxiety attacks and can relate the feeling. Were you able to move on?
@@EVNL576 these days i don't really have the time to be(have) like the man in the video bc i have too much homework to do for school, but the situation in my head is actually the same, maybe a lil worse. I'm sorry, this may sound pessimistic and not be the reply you were expecting. How are you doing tho?
As someone with a diagnosed clinical depression This has got to be one of the best portrayal of depression. Especially the part where he just zones out and is physically present in the moment but emotionally disconnected from other people surrounded with people but still lonely
How come he can eat and drive a car? How come he goes to friends for dinner and why is his place so clean, why does he looks sharp and clean, why are people still visiting him
From a family which has suffered from two suicides, I think a reality sometimes unspoken is that the suicide victim feels deep pain for the world and system, social life, injustices, cruelty and takes it on themselves. Yes they struggle personally as a result of this, but the collective imprint sometimes is overlooked.
I think that's probably true but only because they are more acutely aware of the pain of the world because they are in pain. A sensitive non depressed person also sees the joy and beauty of the world. They might sometimes weep at the sorrows of the world but its balanced with the beauty.
@@helenalford2831 Do you really think there is a person in the world who consistently sees only joy and beauty? Joy and beauty in the injustice and suffering?
This was so f'ing relatable. They really nailed the experience of depression. It's not all lying in bed for days on end and being sad all the time. It's the constant feeling of greyness that hangs over everything. You can socialise, you can laugh, you can have a good time, but the greyness is always hanging overhead ready to take over as soon as those moments pass. It's feeling alone in a crowded room surrounded by friends and family. It's like wearing a mask for the rest of the world, but beneath it all you're alone and empty and not motivated to do anything constructive. And the ideas of suicide don't have to be triggered by some sad event or having a bad day, it's just a thought that pops in your head and it happens so often that it just becomes mundane, you stop being scared by your thoughts and just let them happen, and sooner or later circumstances can lead to people taking action on these thoughts. It's the thought of someone finding you and the pain you know you'd cause that keeps them as just thoughts, but all it takes is one time where the will and the means are in front of you and the thoughts of your loved ones are pushed to the side. I've felt this way for about 10 years now, and I wonder how much better life might feel and what I could accomplish if the grey wasn't there. I think I need help.
You describe the feeling of depression in such a good way. I've been there and for me it was the experience of hitting rock bottom that forced me to change my life. With the help of a great psychologist I learned how to express feelings that I had hidden before. I learned how to express anger and sadness and because of that and talking about things I had gone through, I'm not depressed anymore. It took a long tome, and it was tough, but when you learn to express your emotions instead of hiding them, life becomes colourful. I take antidepressants also, but the thing that change my life was learning to express my emotions. There is nothing wrong with seeking help, it's a good step in the right direction. Wish you the best, warm hugs to you. ♥️
Thank you for sharing, Chris. I'm so glad you were able to connect with this film on a deeper level and I hope that it, in some way, has helped you to understand yourself a bit better and seek the help you need. Whether it's opening up to loved ones about your struggles or getting professional help. Your thoughts, feelings and needs matter, my friend!
When he was able to make his nephew laugh and then returned to his absent expression is so real for me. It is easier to muster up happiness for children, I guess I just feel more safe with them. Also, the beginning scenes on the couch... your body is there and you may even make some expressions to show that you're there but in all reality you're off somewhere else. It kinds feels like you're in a glass room, you can see people enjoying themselves and being present but for you the sound is muffled and you cannot truly connect. I am not sure if that made any sense but it makes sense in my mind. Anyways, powerful short film and it was accurate to the daily life of someone battling depression.
I think you have it spot on there. I think in our minds, it's safer to behave that way in front of children because we know they won't judge us. Thank you for your comments and I hope you are doing well and staying strong. Bless you!
@@ceIIardoor Well... there are different types of depression as well as there being different types of anxiety. All of which have varying levels of severity for each individual experiencing it/them. I’m sorry you can’t relate to this portrayal of depression tho.. Just know that even if you may not have seen your experience displayed accurately, that doesn’t mean you’re alone in your way of experiencing it. Not sure you needed to hear that or if it will help or not, but... I said it in case you were feeling down and needed to hear it. I know how it feels to think no one else is going through the same thing as you. Depression is frustrating to deal with and sometimes it leads to anger because you’re so tired of dealing with it but don’t know how to make it go away. Being alone doesn’t help and you would think being around other people who want to help would make you feel better, but when they can’t relate to you then being around them can make you feel more alone in your struggles. What’s worse is when people don’t believe you’re struggling with it or think it’s not as bad as you’re making it out to be. Maybe even without saying that directly to you, but through their actions and attitude toward you. Idk if you’ve heard of him but NF has some songs about his struggles that many of us can relate to. His songs “Therapy Session” and “Leave me Alone” are about depression and OCD. Or “Just Like You” is good too.... not sure you like hip-hop but his music is different than most. Idk if this was helpful, but either way I hope that maybe this helps you in some way, even if it’s small. If not, then I hope you feel better somehow soon. You’re not alone
@@HappilyAnonymousGirl Thanks for taking the time to thoughtfully reply. I love hiphop and know of NF but I couldn't get into him due to him doing only "Christian Rap," and that's not really my thing. Yeah people generally don't want to hear about it with depressed people - I get it, we're miserable and nobody wants to be around constant misery. We gotta put on a fake demeanor to make it through the day/week/year/life, and yeah that's pretty isolating. But I'm a pro at it so I'm alright. Thanks again.
I sincerely hope you're doing well. I know I'm 1 month late, but please take a look at this short film I did about depression th-cam.com/video/nSC4ptU79-8/w-d-xo.html
"A human being can survive almost anything, as long as they can see the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that its impossible to ever see the end." - Elizabeth Wurtzel
It's amazing how depression can make you feel worthless helpless. Men especially try to emulate strength and self confidence but this feeling we mask with alcohol
Mate, it is insidious and we don't even realise what we are doing in the moment. We think we are "keeping it together" and "getting on with it" by putting on that mask, but instead we dig a deeper hole because these negative feelings eat away at us. And because men are supposed to be "problem solvers", we don't want to come across as less "masculine" by talking about it with others. Hope you are doing ok.
38 years of depression.. Even as a child i can't recall a time of happiness. Abusive parents, sever trauma, and a lack of real adults and interactions. I'm a kid in a grown mans body.
@@monabale I've found peace within the gym, but besides that I'm just kinda wandering around. I live life the best I can, and being diagnosed with BPD as helped with closure on some things. But life will never be like what most truly want out of life, and I've come to peace with that. Thank you, sometimes I post and forget others can see or even care for that matter. It means a lot.
Inner child healing, our child like state is said to be around the age of 5 permanently. Everyone has an inner child. We have fallen out of touch with ourselves over the centuries. Spirituality, astrology and the understanding of self is what saved me from my misery. I was depressed and suicidal as a child, always feeling alone yet I mastered the art of deception and pretending to be happy.
It's more like feeling disconnected, for me. Like everybody is inside and I'm outside. Nobody sees me, nobody hears me. And when I speak with people is like I'm an alien, I feel awkward, out of place, boring, weird. I don't know what to say or how to act. After a while you lose the desire to be seen and heard. You feel non existent. And everything that used to be important to you, everything you enjoyed, doesn't anymore. You just don't want to do anything because nothing brings you any good feeling. You just lie there, being unable to sleep. Just thinking. You never stop thinking. And the minute comes when you think 'What's the point'. After that it's just a matter of time. In the meantime, you start to clean up your business, to leave everything in order. You end up not caring about anything. You are totally desensitized. And that's not life anymore.
"Sometimes you're only lost until someone else finds you" When a girl offers you a drink and asks to sit with you or when someone calls you back and asks if you still want the job offer after being satisfied with your interview, so people don't realize that their actions saved a life. It cost so little to make someone happy some people can never give themselves a chance until others do first!!!
Everyone here reading this right now listen. I know most of you clicked on this video or similar videos to not feel so alone. But I promise you that you’ll never be alone. These feelings you feel right now there’s people who want to hear you, understand you and help out of the hole you’ve been going deeper into since these emotions began. Even though you don’t know it there’s people there waiting to listen, whether it be a friend a family member or a doctor they want to understand they want sympathise I encourage you to open up, I encourage you to challenge yourself and I challenge you to try and not be so afriad. Life is a bitch life throws obstacles in the way, but sometimes those obstacles are too far of a walk to get around, that’s why we need a vehicle to push its way around that vehicle is your voice, speak ask for guidance let out all your problems and be free. Stop holding it in and sinking deeper, I believe there’s always light at the end of the tunnel, it may take days months years, but don’t give up keep striving keep fighting see it to the end. I guarantee after time you’ll feel stronger and feel rewarded that you fell to the bottom got buried and found your way back up.
I always say to people that this is a marathon, not a sprint. The most important thing in a marathon is the pace; it doesn't matter how fast you go as long as you keep moving. Sometimes you have to slow down to a walk because you're winded, but as long as you put one foot in front of the other. And this can be as simple as getting up in the morning, making a bowl of cereal instead of eating fast food, or doing a little bit of exercise every other day.
I know the feeling - but fear not - there's lots of us in that position so we are many and are now a group joined by a common bond and can support each other. I once read a french news item about a lady who died and in her will she left all her money to people like the bus driver, the postman etc. All those people who had smiled and given her a kind word during her lonely days - she had no one else. I can so empathize with that. Even the smallest contact with others becomes precious.
The clock with the second hand clicking but never moving forward is very symbolic of how depression feels. I felt it bring me back to a very dark time that I never thought I would get out of.
"the suffering gets done by the ones we leave behind". Literally the only thing stopping me from ending it. Everything is pretty bleak right now and I can't see past the dark cloud
I’m sorry that u have to go thru this alone. Although there are loved ones around. Only one person can help u truly and that’s Jesus Himself. Others may find this response typical or forceful but u have everything to lose without Him. He loves u past your darkest days and nights and deepest wounds caused by this trauma. I will pray for u my sister and that God may bring u out of that darkness. I too have been there and talking about it to certain folks whom God has placed on my heart to share it with without judgment or ridicule has helped me a great deal.
For who is still here, or who is new.. Just take it slowly and don't be too harsh on yourself. Things take time and it only gets better. Sending good toughts to all of you!!!! If anyone needs to talk let me know, I'm here anytime all the time!
I developed insomnia,add,severe social anxiety. Fucked up my grades in college and to top it all off I feel worse than before,I might just end it this year.
@@lilkidlover309 open up to people, trust that you can get through this tough time. You're not alone. You just have to find the right people, and you will.
This film has taken a walk through every depressed mind that has ever existed including my own. I felt the staring up at the support beams. For me it is my loft hatch. It is always calling 😔 I pray we all make it through this cancer of the mind.
@@ageautistic6957 Sending love, hugs and prayers to you too. For me it's the cantilever outside my room. But the whole vid is relatable, maybe I'm so generic they managed to make a short movie out of my thought processes. let's get through this, thanks for your comment. Makes me feel better somehow.
If we stopped asking if someone is ok (it's not a default mode), but how they really feel currently, this would probably help spot the ones who are going through a hard time
It is well made.. I am missing one thing, but it is only me. Before medication I used to have such deep depression that even the colours around me seemed dull. Even when the sun was up, it seemed so uninteresting and did not give me the joy at all.. Everything seemed so grey and slow, empty, at times sad.. The mental pain is unbearable. The only peace was when I was sleeping and waking up made me want to kill myself as it felt like an absolute punishment. I am so glad I seeked help, it is helping me get on track. I think about all of you who suffer, I hope you get through it one day and finally feel normal and peacefull.
Getting help does really help? I've been thinking that it's about time for me to get help, but i never knew if It would be enough or If o really could be better, sometimes it's really hard to think with all the bad things in my mind and i'm tired... Of letting this block me from professional help
I explained this to my mom the other day. When you’re depressed everything literally FEELS grey beyond just looking. It’s really a “meh…” type of feeling at least 22 hrs out of the day.
@@pharaohthelegend4598 there are studies pointing to how people with depression have not been able to do well in terms of "contrast perception", meaning yes, everything becomes dull. You're not imagining it, the colours that your eyesight discern become dull essentially
@@thevanitas4041 Idk yet myself, I had been constantly feeling low and having suicidal ideation myself just a few months ago and I still do. But, it got to the point where I made plans and all the pressure and pain of it all really took a toll on me and lead to me having a breakdown, in public, in front of my friends. They eventually helped me calm down, realizing it was a serious matter, and they encouraged and just stuck by me. And I cannot describe how much that means when you are depressed., cuz at that time I just felt really lonely and that no one cared. I eventually did talk to someone and am getting professional help currently, but I am not to the point where I actually feel better yet (I say "yet" since depression will take a while to cope with and for you to get better eventually, so it takes a lot of perseverance and work). But, I can say that it at least helps somewhat, just a little bit, with at least having an outlet to let all your feelings out if you have a therapist and work through coping mechanisms, though it may not seem to have a lot of affect. It also helps to remind yourself about your strengths and how well you have been doing so far and realize that you are not alone, and there are people who care. I know and really relate to how you feel bc all of what you said was constantly on my mind too, and it still sometimes comes up. All I can say is really just try to find something you are looking forward to or love that will keep you going, even just a little bit. Don't pressure yourself to all of a sudden get better either, cuz it will take a while. Just try to recognize when you're feeling down and try to put a "stop" to all the dark and negatives. Because, if you keep doing it, little by little, even if it seems really hard or pointless, eventually you'll get better and have some positivity in your life.
Wow. This was written by someone with depression. It had to be. This accurately portrayed me. It’s only through an understanding husband, daily meds and most importantly a desire to not ruin other lives I fight each day.
Imma be real with you, perhaps the reason why you’re depressed is because you’re there for others and are unknowingly being disrespected by them. It wasn’t until i said f off to the horrible people in my life that at the time I thought were amazing when i got out of my mental hell
to me, the hardest part in this was seeing how you're always avoiding real connections, or even trying to get distant from the ones whom you've already connected to, just as a way to spare them from what you know is going to happen
I am from Russia. But I speak English and I really like,that speaking this amazing language also lets me to watch such a wonderful film. Thanks for your job 💞
@@the.seagull.35 my anxiety got worst, when phone rings it's scares me i get so anxious i sometime want the smash the phone cause of that when it rings, i have trouble doing anything alone in public if I go in public alone to so something I do sooo many stupid things like my driving gets worst it's like i get more stupider and cause trouble for others, i feel like someone's watching always, if I go to shopping alone i cause trouble there too, it's alot dood
@@matrixgaming8637 ah I'm sorry 😔 I know social anxiety too. Its just fear for me, at the root of it... fear that everyone will realize I'm some kind of impostor. It doesn't make sense but that's how it is for me. Have you been able to talk to anyone about it? Like a therapist or dr... or even just someone in your family
@@the.seagull.35 i feel the same, and no i haven't talked to anyone cause here in India nobody takes anxiety and depression seriously they think it's some kind of a joke that we are creating, i hate people, nobody cares they only look for themselves nobody understands me or i should say us it hurts cause they don't understand that someone's suffering and probably wanna leave this world and they don't understand until someone actually leaves this world by taking the step....the situation of me is getting worst i get angry very fast, and i can't explain the situation properly to you cause it's unexplainable I think you understand that too.
@@matrixgaming8637 I understand man. I also have had problems with anger and I know it comes from my own low self image. I've had to work on that in my life and I've hurt other people because of it too. So I know how you feel... you're not alone ❤
The ending explains how the reason he’s not going through with it is because of the fear that a loved one will suffer.. that’s the only thing keeping him alive.
That was certainly one aspect of it. We also wanted to end the film with a message of hope; that suicidal thoughts are just thoughts at the end of the day, and if we can get on top of our mental health through which ever means necessary, then hopefully we can dig our way out of it.
I tried explaining to a Dr that I imagine [scenarios like this] every. Single. Day. It doesn't mean I'll act on them, or that anything dramatic had just happened for me to feel this way. I could literally be at a theme park with friends and suddenly I'd get the thought, "what if I just died, instead?" And then I'd imagine a roller coaster crashing, or me un-buckling from the high up swing. I imagine my car getting T-boned constantly, or driving onto train tracks. It could be a GREAT DAY with friends or family and these thoughts creep in. I had always thought something was terribly wrong with me besides depression. What has been hard to learn the past 2yrs is that just because a Dr, or other people, aren't experienced with something doesn't mean it's weird or YOU'RE weird.
I also do this all the time. I have 2 young sons, 3 and 4 and I'm full of dread when these thoughts come by me but they don't go away, as much as I try. Thanks for sharing
You're definitely not alone. These thoughts are not uncommon, I believe, but we don't have to act on them. We're all in this together. Sending out love ❤
I think that’s a common misconception. I too have these thoughts regularly. But it’s not like I want to die.. it’s not like I’ll act on them. It’s a hard feeling to convey. Depression is very real. It is different in so many people. It’s just something I can’t explain. I have a loving family, who supports me (even though I’ve pretty much failed at every aspect and given up on myself more times than I can count) I have a gf, I live in a nice home. And that overlying feeling of despair and just.. idk I don’t know how to explain it. There are people who have it worse. Homeless, no family absolutely no money. Notbing. I get that. I’ve made so many mistakes, and I know people who made worse mistakes then me. But it’s just something. I wish I could accurately explain this feeling. But again. With these thoughts, I truly believe I’d never act on them. Idk how that works. But it just does.
The stuck clock, the broken guitar string, and the used-up lighter were excellent details. Those tiny little things can feel enormous when you are severely depressed. The din in the opening scene where everything was muffled and some of the other sounds used were particularly well-done. I also really appreciated the dinner scene with the older parental figure offering the wine. Showing the main character drinking water challenges sterotypes and myths about depression. Although they did show drug use later, I am so tired of people equating mental illness with drug use. This was a step in the right direction.
When you have breakdowns, Call upon the name of Jesus! Tell him, Lord Jesus please take away this depression out of me, I'm tired and take off this load off my shoulders and let your peace settle right now in my heart. Be my lord in Jesus name amen.
They're like soulless puppet that need to be filled, we can fill their hollow self, we can help them. Fill their heart with love cause that's what they need
This is brilliantly done. As someone who deals with depression, this is a very accurate depiction. I personally would never harm myself because I can't bare the thought of hurting my family and friends. I also can't leave my cat.
When you’ve been depressed long enough you can sometimes become comfortable being alone in my experience. And you say enough to be cordial to people at work but keep them away for the most part…
Depression is something unique. There aren't words to explain how you feel, what goes through your mind. It isn't sadness, it's so much worse, it's a feel of deep emptyness, isolation from everything and everyone. I just hope that people who is depression free could really understand what is. I really wish to see that depression is treated as what really is, and all who suffer from depression don't need to hide their feelings and emotions just to look ok when you are really struggling and suffering as nobody else could imagine. Best wishes and hugs for all you who go through to such as torture, keep strong 👊
The worst part is when Im alone and my mind goes to dark places but then Its so hard for me to be around people sometimes. I just want to be alone and cry.
I'm depressed too, what hurts me the most is knowing that one day people will forget about me, even my girlfriend will find another guy better than me. We will only be a passing memory in the people's minds... A memory that everyone will forget...
It's really sad how once you start getting use to depression you become very good at hiding it. Not like you really crave that attention from people to know that you have it, just the fact that by becoming so good at hiding it. It feels like it ensures that it will never leave. And that, is one quality that's really really hurting.
This is so strong. Such a good film. Also: we need more male representation in the media for psychological struggles, so thanks for doing that. Love goes out to everyone here who struggles. I hope you'll always find a reason to carry on, and I hope you'll have a better episode soon ♡♡♡
It’s the imaginings of his friend finding him that has kept me around for much longer than I thought. I hope those imaginings are always stronger than my depression. It’s my lifeline to never want that to be the pain my loved ones feel.
Sick of depression advice that involves talking to or being with friends and family, it’s everywhere!! Maybe the reason I’m depressed is because I have none of that?
- Feeling like you are not there - Avoiding help from people close to you (because you think you don't deserve it) - Feeling that the day never passes (or it passes too quickly) - Not enjoying doing the things you used to like - Lacking motivation to do things (and living in autopilot because of it) - Having suicidal thoughts (but not necessarily making attempts) Yeah, it feels that way. This film represents depression perfectly.
@@the.seagull.35 Thanks for asking. I've been fine for some years, got a decent job and tried to stay motivated towards personal goals. I hope you too can be fine
I like how they created this very relatable. It’s so true that I can be at a party and pretending… but what goes on inside my head is completely the opposite of the party mood everyone else is in. And as someone else mentioned the suicidal thoughts is not coming in a special time or for a special reason. It is just casually there with you and can pop up any time. It can even come to you after rolling a cigarette
Indeed, Joviaa. We created it in a way that could resonate with anyone and everyone; not only for those suffering, but also for those that are unaware of the mental health issues present in others. It's so common, yet so many are oblivious to it.
The thing that hurts the deepest is when my face is blank from the overwhelming state of depression that I’ve forced myself to shut off my emotions and people notice me like that they tend to ask me if I’m upset or mad. Why perceive that I’m angry? Now that I’m actually saying this I’m realizing it that it actually hurts me that it’s my reality. I wish my reality is that a random person could do so much as easily sit down next to me and talk to me to distract my mind and keep me company. Dilute my mind of the endless depth of loneliness suffering that makes us begin to question our own reality… I’m at that state right now yet again another time.. questioning my own reality because it feels fake due to the constant damage the depression tolls on our brains… when we get pushed to this point more often than not most tend to take the easy but really actually hard and difficult way out of this living hell on earth… take our own life… but for me, I’ve already been there and done that 3 times… the only difference now is that I’ve seen the pain and damage it’s caused to others. When I was brought back to life my last attempt it only made my mental health substantially worse. Now that I sometimes have an unexplainable desire to go home early, I’m always left with the memories of the pain I’ve caused my loved ones by trying to leave this life here… because of that I’m left feeling trapped. Feeling trapped is worse than the depression itself… as time goes on it’s forced my brain to have episodes of psychosis. Psychotic episodes but not the bat shit episodes… the ones where you become disconnected due to the disassociation and depersonalization with reality and sense of self. Zero self awareness. The brain plays tricks (or could be communicating what’s really going on maybe) that this here, this now, this everything… is all an illusion. But how could it be an illusion when it just feels so vivid and permanent at other moments of awareness? I don’t know anymore… wtf? Maybe I am going bat shit crazy 😂 fuck this mental health stuff guys… Look, I opened up to a crises peer support line tonight and I was told about Deep TMS therapy for us who have MDD and bipolar disorder and anxiety and all the works that make us so broken… those like me who have no help from medication or any other line of therapy would benefit from TMS. Literally everyone would benefit from deep TMS. It’s a non invasive magnetic therapy that stimulates the parts of the brain that triggers happy emotions. Look it up. I promise you that you will cry when you see their videos just the same as I did. Crying tears of legitimately pure and raw happiness! Anyone and everyone who has made it this far in my comment, I love you and I pray for the best for you❤️ God Bless you and the best of luck in your journey here.
I have certain ways how to go through depression, through burnout syndrome, it is difficult but I always find the ways. You just don't listen to that part of the brain that is depressed. You push every day through the mud and you self-affirm yourself. You take as many naps as you need. You do one task a day if you can't do anymore, you speak nicely to yourself. Life is beautiful and mysterious even it doesn't go the way we wanted to and we feel unbearable pain every day. I keep pushing already about 10 years and it is ok. I wish you the same strength that I have within myself. (I don't take antidepressants)
It’s crazy how I would have these exact fantasies of suicide multiple times a day. Sheer torture. It felt like I would struggle with it all my life. I sought out help, and these thoughts just about disappeared. Don’t be afraid to seek help and take medication if needed. Stay faithful
Medication made me an emotionless automaton. Never again. I’ve come to accept I will live with this nonsense for the rest of my life. And, like others, will simply continue living for others
@@RickyBlaze2008 Sorry to hear, for what its worth it took me almost a year to adapt and feel changes while taking medication. While changes were also being made to the doses and different types.
My friend, the youngest, and the only girl in a family with five brothers, loved her oldest brother the best. She absolutely basked in his attention. He came home from college one weekend and killed himself. In the saddest words I ever heard from anyone, she asked: "Wasn't I a good enough reason to live for?"
My brother took his life. I wish he felt he was good enough to love for himself. We can’t guilt trip suicidal ppl into living for others. We have to find a way to help them live for themselves.
Lucky...that's so sad. Only Christ gives us true happiness and joy, for he is the true light of the world. I wish people could learn how to pray and read their bibles.
I'm literally dissociating my life away.. whenever I'm with people, it's like I'm not real even though I'm talking to them.. it's like my body is on autopilot while I'm somewhere else..it feels like the world is moving without me, like I'm in parallel space.. people catch me 'daydreaming' A LOT ,when they shout at me and even poke at me i wouldn't respond until at the very last moment, everything is blurry and foggy so i just laughed it off.. I could barely ground myself
It’s Proof even though I know he’s an actor, that no matter how good-looking you are, depression holds no prejudice. Even though he had what appears to be a good family, that loved him, depression has a mind of its own.
To anyone who feels at all similar to Johnny, to any of those who feel the need to pretend for one reason or another, be it because your partner thinks you're a burden or you just have a feeling others won't understand, and so you bottle it all up inside somewhat.... but then when you're alone you Become... you become The Truth and everything spills out, well I feel you and you're not alone.
In a world run from behind the scenes by psychos , I personally am not surprised. I suffered depression all my life . Alot of it I feel comes from environment. How we cope growing up. The deck of cards we are handed in a world run by psychos.
@@petermautner7052 This is completely true. I feel like you need to be insane, uncaring and selfish to prosper, not always but a lot of the time. The cares we're dealt controls the entire game.... How do you cope with your depression? Just followed you, if you ever post anything with regards to your life and story, I'll be sure to have a watch. Keep on going, and maybe sharing how you see the world through your eyes might help others to open theirs a little wider...
@@dolorosaenigmakil how do I see I myself. The worst way would be through a mirror or cameras, film. Anything that resemble s truth I exist. Because I honestly believe I don't exist any more. I died deaths before this exact time. So I think I will continue dying . However sometimes a wake up and I'm like no I m dead , right.......
Depression feels like a black hole in your chest and it starts to consume you and your everything in it.. it will make you forget you single moment that ever brought you joy.. you will start to forget good times and you will lose the track of time.. you will feel endless nothingness
It’s crazy how the people that have known you your whole life can never tell when their kid has changed mentally they should know the kid inside and out but they only see what they want too
I don't know what the symptoms of depression are but i feel most of what the guy portrayed and it's been back and forth since im 18. At 15 my life changed after losing my sister, I've never been the same since then.
Have you ever been able to properly process/express the loss of your sister? I can't imagine that kind of pain, but she would want you to go and be strong. Thank you for opening up :)
Well, been there. His viewpoint - how he saw it going down - at the end was one of the things that kept me alive. The lead actor playing Johnny is a beautiful man.
I do this all the time. I tell therapists I am not "stupid" enough to do it. The thing is my mind always wanderd there, who would find me and how and what would they think? It's those people who would be traumatized that keep me alive. That is how I perceive this video and maybe the only reason Johnny is still alive.
I want to imagine that he replays that scenario in his head to keep himself alive. It's a last resort for people who can no longer express how bad they suffer. I can attest to that. Someone will find your body and someone you know will be affected.
You are all stronger than you know, And you are so worth all of it. Please, don't give up. I believe in you. Everyday you're still alive, you are winning the fight!! I'm proud of you 💗✨♾
Life feels like an automated algorithm without any emotions, thoughts or memories. But there‘s those little oases when I feel truly filled with pure happiness. It‘s these little moments that keep me here, fighting against my inner self.
To everyone that is going through depression; I wish to us all the best. I didnt expect to read so many comments from people that have it, like me.. The scene where his suicide was just an imagination reminds me of myself planning my quit from life. What made me to go on was the fact that I would let down all of my familiy and friends; my girlfriend, my daughter, my mum, everyone. This gave the courage to go on. Am I better now, 4 years after that? a little bit, I can handle it better. Hold on, sisters and brothers. Much love and appreciation
This is exactly how I feel, it’s crazy they made a film. I suffer from deep depression and trauma. But when I’m around people they would never know. Once I’m alone that’s when the deep depression comes and even when im with people I have deep depression and anxiety.
I was there once upon a time, 3 years down the line I feel like one of the most peaceful and happy person alive. It will pass stop fighting ,let loose, let go, love yourself.
Yes! I worked on my lifestyle, *I run everyday(calms me + makes me comfortable in my own skin) * I have a fixed sleep and wake cycle (that is I wake up and go to sleep at the same time give or take 15-30 mins no more than that) *Meditate 10 or 20 mins * Eating clean *Stand in the sun *Stop listening to depressing/sad songs. *Avoid nihilism (nothing good comes of it), give yourself a 3-5 year plan as North Star to keep you going. And hey try the future authoring program from Dr. Jordan Peterson as well, It may cost you couple a dollars or something, If you search I think you'll find those course questions for free as well. All the best! Godspeed to you my friend.
@@achujayan7366 Thank you for sharing. One of my best friends, and he won't mind me sharing this, battled with bipolar for years in silence. It has only been in the past two years that he has begun opening up about his struggles. This small step has had a profound effect on his confidence and mental state. I am very proud of him!
What's the worst is when everyone even forgets you're there or don't bother to ask if you're okay. When they know fully well you're not but don't care.
Jake shear, only Christ truly loves you and cares! Only only, try him and you will experience overwhelming peace...forget about the world's love, it's so artificial.
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It’s weird how how you can pretend your fine but then the second you’re alone it feels like everything falls apart.
Smiling, laughing, talking, it all takes too much energy.
i felt this
Its because theres no one to pretend too when were alone. When were alone you cant just fake being happy cause theres no reason to. The moment youre alone is when everything comes crashing back down.
So grateful my film was selected alongside this film!!! th-cam.com/video/nSC4ptU79-8/w-d-xo.html
Pls talk about it and seek help. If some changes need to be made, make them. You are important and your needs are important. You need to feel love and loved. Happiness is always within us but we let the concerns about what others may think overcome our own feelings. And we don't give ourselves a break from worrying. Don't wait and find back the simple joy of being alive.
Depression is like being dead, pretending to be alive. And that becomes unbearable...
Or being alive but wanting to be dead
Well said.
V good analogy
This is how i feel sadly ):
The days are never ending 😪
The part that stood out to me personally as very relatable , was the very end. He’s happy that’s she’s there, but notice his face goes back to the same tired and blank expression. Company helps and is appreciated, but the depression is still there. So grateful to my friends who refuse to give up on me💛
I noticed that too. Well said & yes, thank on you for the people who don’t give up on us. Much Love ❤️
Yes thats the same on me. I often feel the urge to withdraw from every human interaction, but I dont let it happen.
@@DonnaSnyder ahhhhhh I can't even get your comment to open up to read it fully. But you are worthy, dear one. Greatest apologies if your circumstances aren't showing you that. Keep holding on. There is the other side to get to...
Glad you got great people by your side. Wish i had one of those.
Even my only gf ignores, she rarely talk... Sometimes telling me she dont wanna talk to me. Its hard to accept this life... I tried my best to cope with this life. Hope i did great... Even if i ended up alone.
True thatnk s to all the people that have help me to stay present to wake up myself and reenjoy my life day by day
"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy. Because they know what it feels like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anybody else to feel like that." Robin Williams
That’s me.
How he said this 7 months ago if he is already dead?
To help others in any way is the only way to get along with people. As long as I'm doing something, but don't have to socialise, I'm okish.
Being around peeps without doing something and acting "normal" gives me physical pain
There’s a big
difference between feeling worthless and being worthless
Well sometimes those people suffers from a loss from where there is no point of return.
They try their best to not give up and hope that things will get better but the reality is cruel.
I'm just tired of being good, strong, hopeful because in real life suffering only gets worse.
Getting betrayed by the very people who you trusted and supported each and everytime.
In the end, people like me are just born to suffer the pain and that's why I think suicide is the option which I would love to choose.
I just can't handle the pain, betrayal or this cruel life.
I just... I know it's wrong but maybe it's a solution that is designed for me....
That clock was a nice touch because when you're depressed it feels like time has almost stopped or has become so slow
Thanks Juul. This was one of the earlier ideas we had during the scripting process. We thought it was a nice symbolic moment for the film.
I am always depressed and for me time flies faster than a rocket
At night I can't sleep and think of things just like in the video for hours
And before commenting I kept imagining different scenarios of me commenting and people responding
@@happyman3367 Have you got any coping mechanisms? The fact that you have shared this is a beautiful thing!
And you just feel stuck
This movie especially shows that depression is something everyboy can face even if there are caring people around you
100% Anastasia. This was a key idea we wanted to convey in our film.
And the depression gets even worse when u think how the people who care for you will feel when they know what you are going through and they literally cannot help you even if they wanted to!
@@pathania3377 True, this could make you feel guilty.
But I think a big problem is that most people don't understand depression as a disease you can't control. They think you are responsible for your depression. That's why they maybe feel themselves guilty and responsible to help you to change your mood. Sometimes that can work out well, don't get me wrong. But sometimes you need them to just accept you as you are and just stick around! I think especially feeling accepted by others can help you heal. That's at least based on my experience. Depression is a disease we still have to destigmatize!!
@@anastasiawill3729 yupp....just accepting the person as he/she is better...
But when i keep myself in that person's place.....I think it is pretty difficult to just see the person u love/like just sitting in their rough time.
Like we r just trying to enjoy while the other person is killing him/herself from inside at that very moment!!
Yes
The worst is when you don't even feel sad anymore, when you just exist and the world simply is.
You’re alive, but not living.
How you doing today? Did you move on? If so how? I too need this anxiety to go away.
@@EVNL576 it has gotten even worse now, but the anxiety is not social anymore but rather the classic one where you keep living in the past and future.
I’m currently in this phase
@@sebastiano2508 Going out with friends, visiting family and going to the gym has help, try it.
As a depressed person I thought this was very well-done. It captures the feeling of looking through a dark curtain, separated from others. Also that the idea of suicide can pop into a depressed person's mind without drama and without a triggering event. It's just an idea and not a reaction to something sad or stressful. That's what makes it such a loss when someone succeeds.
You can have thoughts of death and not be suicidal. It's a symptom of depression.
Random suicidal thoughts
I hope , you're what u used to be when u were not depressed
You are spot on with that understanding, I have suicidal thoughts every day it’s just normal for me and I’m not in danger I’ve just always felt like killing myself lol 😆 glad I don’t live in america though because if I had a gun I would have used it on myself by now lol just always imagine shooting myself in head just randomly in random situations lol
@@noompsieOG just because u think of suicide doesn’t mean u act upon it … tell your spouse or husband that u are depressed or suicidal they will get it someone you trust
the part where he had like a visual of the girl finding him in his basement is so real and raw to me because as someone who struggles with depression the daydreaming about committing suicide and family members finding you and just imagining their reaction very often is like wow to me and it’s interesting knowing that there’s more out who do the same thing.
Same here… we aren’t wanting to traumatize or hurt that family member or special friend. Then add that on top of the guilt/pain felt in general.
I am starting to believe that I intentionally keep a room or an area of my house messy or embarrassingly disorganized (I live alone). That way I wouldn’t want to have a family member seeing or dealing with it if I were to be gone.
You said it!
you’re not alone
Thats the only reason im still here
I have those daydreams almost everyday
The part where he picks up the guitar and tries to play is so relatable, it's been years since I've been trying but I just can't seem to actually play/practice. It's just so hard to really do anything at all.
I understand this. Literally. But since trying to die recently, I scared myself and decided I'm going to try and be creative and document it on my channel. Being creative is literally the only thing that keeps me going. So I've been writing a song about some recent trauma and I hope it's kick starts my playing and creativity once again. Hang in there my friend!
I can relate to you, Elhem. I was pursuing a career in music and luthier, but a lot of stuff has come up which has forced me to pretty much give up on it. Part of that was because of moving to a small town area. It is safe and I can go out on my own, but the music stuff here has been bad enough that I've pretty much given up outside of helping one orchestra. There are things I wish I could do and I know I could, but I can't find any drive or dedication.
tell me about it pal,ive forgon how to draw,so depressed learned how to drum in lockdown,if I coild get my creative mind back,ide be busy & make money,however I find myself all slone nobody to reach out to,hope u stay stonger than me,
It takes me months to finish one piece, visual artist, months on end……been especially hard since the storms…Irma and Maria…..the forced relocation has left me blank.
@@stuartmason3851 you are reaching out here in a sense. Pick up your pencils or charcoals and try remembering how to draw or look at a video here on shading perhaps and try practicing that. I used to draw a long time ago when I was in high school. I sat in my room with the door shut drawing strange looking faeries and trolls from a book put out by Peacock Press. I loved to draw and was quite good at it then but over the past 35 years have really forgotten how to draw. I was good at drawing something I could look at but trying to free hand draw was never a strong point for me. Give it a go again! I love that you started drumming! Make some noise!!! Good for you! 🎈♥️
The part where he goes home and just stares at the wall is literally me every single day.
Same here
Same here. I can stare out a window and not really experience what I see. I'm just flatlined. Somehow what's familiar to me feels foreign and empty. I, at moments, feel very slightly nauseated with low grade bouts of remorse or intense anxiety. I've been through this at times and wait with fear and hope to feel myself again. I hate it! It's cruel!
Your comments sure help me. I'm so grateful to all of you good people.
@@johnsherman6718 I'm sorry for all that. Really
Your comment was made a year ago, how you doing today? Hope you’re better. I too have anxiety attacks and can relate the feeling. Were you able to move on?
@@EVNL576 these days i don't really have the time to be(have) like the man in the video bc i have too much homework to do for school, but the situation in my head is actually the same, maybe a lil worse. I'm sorry, this may sound pessimistic and not be the reply you were expecting. How are you doing tho?
As someone with a diagnosed clinical depression This has got to be one of the best portrayal of depression. Especially the part where he just zones out and is physically present in the moment but emotionally disconnected from other people surrounded with people but still lonely
Thank you for sharing. I'm so glad you were able to connect with this film on a deeper level. Has it helped you in any way?
How come he can eat and drive a car? How come he goes to friends for dinner and why is his place so clean, why does he looks sharp and clean, why are people still visiting him
A lot of people don't know that... I'm fine, its all good, I'm ok, and it is what it is....are often someone's last words.
You are right about that sadly 😥
And also I'm just tired
@SnowrabianلبنانLebanon Yassmeene Al-Laheeb true to the core. But things can be made better by pursuing better.
@@sharontuck9426 wishing you all love if it is you feeling this way lately🙁
@@destinationunderground6006 you are too kind but I am grateful for your good heart 💜
From a family which has suffered from two suicides, I think a reality sometimes unspoken is that the suicide victim feels deep pain for the world and system, social life, injustices, cruelty and takes it on themselves. Yes they struggle personally as a result of this, but the collective imprint sometimes is overlooked.
I think that's probably true but only because they are more acutely aware of the pain of the world because they are in pain. A sensitive non depressed person also sees the joy and beauty of the world. They might sometimes weep at the sorrows of the world but its balanced with the beauty.
@@helenalford2831 Do you really think there is a person in the world who consistently sees only joy and beauty? Joy and beauty in the injustice and suffering?
@@bw4025 I think you need to reread again. Helen wasn't stating that.
@@boyaaah1 i agree
So VERY sorry for your loss.
This was so f'ing relatable. They really nailed the experience of depression. It's not all lying in bed for days on end and being sad all the time. It's the constant feeling of greyness that hangs over everything. You can socialise, you can laugh, you can have a good time, but the greyness is always hanging overhead ready to take over as soon as those moments pass. It's feeling alone in a crowded room surrounded by friends and family. It's like wearing a mask for the rest of the world, but beneath it all you're alone and empty and not motivated to do anything constructive. And the ideas of suicide don't have to be triggered by some sad event or having a bad day, it's just a thought that pops in your head and it happens so often that it just becomes mundane, you stop being scared by your thoughts and just let them happen, and sooner or later circumstances can lead to people taking action on these thoughts. It's the thought of someone finding you and the pain you know you'd cause that keeps them as just thoughts, but all it takes is one time where the will and the means are in front of you and the thoughts of your loved ones are pushed to the side. I've felt this way for about 10 years now, and I wonder how much better life might feel and what I could accomplish if the grey wasn't there. I think I need help.
You describe the feeling of depression in such a good way. I've been there and for me it was the experience of hitting rock bottom that forced me to change my life. With the help of a great psychologist I learned how to express feelings that I had hidden before. I learned how to express anger and sadness and because of that and talking about things I had gone through, I'm not depressed anymore. It took a long tome, and it was tough, but when you learn to express your emotions instead of hiding them, life becomes colourful. I take antidepressants also, but the thing that change my life was learning to express my emotions. There is nothing wrong with seeking help, it's a good step in the right direction. Wish you the best, warm hugs to you. ♥️
Hey Chris. You described it perfectly. I know just what you mean. How are you doing these days?
Thank you for sharing, Chris. I'm so glad you were able to connect with this film on a deeper level and I hope that it, in some way, has helped you to understand yourself a bit better and seek the help you need. Whether it's opening up to loved ones about your struggles or getting professional help. Your thoughts, feelings and needs matter, my friend!
@@the.seagull.35 bless you, friend! How are you faring?
Its the dark days that scare me i just don't want to hurt anymore 😢
Do you ever feel lonely even though you're surrounded by a lot of people?
I do
Yes often, your not alone
Yes all the time.
Yup i had depression and kind of still have it, and i feel like that a lot. I even got adhd and anxiety from it.
U are the only one feel depression others are happy.thats why u feel lonely
@@indian4470 remember that not all happy people are true happy sometimes they are just hiding it. believe me 😊
When he was able to make his nephew laugh and then returned to his absent expression is so real for me. It is easier to muster up happiness for children, I guess I just feel more safe with them.
Also, the beginning scenes on the couch... your body is there and you may even make some expressions to show that you're there but in all reality you're off somewhere else. It kinds feels like you're in a glass room, you can see people enjoying themselves and being present but for you the sound is muffled and you cannot truly connect. I am not sure if that made any sense but it makes sense in my mind.
Anyways, powerful short film and it was accurate to the daily life of someone battling depression.
I think you have it spot on there. I think in our minds, it's safer to behave that way in front of children because we know they won't judge us. Thank you for your comments and I hope you are doing well and staying strong. Bless you!
I’ve never seen depression portrayed so accurately
Weird. I've been morbidly depressed my entire life and I thought this was a failed attempt at displaying depression.
@@ceIIardoor Well... there are different types of depression as well as there being different types of anxiety.
All of which have varying levels of severity for each individual experiencing it/them.
I’m sorry you can’t relate to this portrayal of depression tho..
Just know that even if you may not have seen your experience displayed accurately, that doesn’t mean you’re alone in your way of experiencing it.
Not sure you needed to hear that or if it will help or not, but... I said it in case you were feeling down and needed to hear it. I know how it feels to think no one else is going through the same thing as you.
Depression is frustrating to deal with and sometimes it leads to anger because you’re so tired of dealing with it but don’t know how to make it go away.
Being alone doesn’t help and you would think being around other people who want to help would make you feel better, but when they can’t relate to you then being around them can make you feel more alone in your struggles.
What’s worse is when people don’t believe you’re struggling with it or think it’s not as bad as you’re making it out to be. Maybe even without saying that directly to you, but through their actions and attitude toward you.
Idk if you’ve heard of him but NF has some songs about his struggles that many of us can relate to.
His songs “Therapy Session” and “Leave me Alone” are about depression and OCD. Or “Just Like You” is good too.... not sure you like hip-hop but his music is different than most.
Idk if this was helpful, but either way I hope that maybe this helps you in some way, even if it’s small.
If not, then I hope you feel better somehow soon.
You’re not alone
@@HappilyAnonymousGirl Thanks for taking the time to thoughtfully reply. I love hiphop and know of NF but I couldn't get into him due to him doing only "Christian Rap," and that's not really my thing.
Yeah people generally don't want to hear about it with depressed people - I get it, we're miserable and nobody wants to be around constant misery. We gotta put on a fake demeanor to make it through the day/week/year/life, and yeah that's pretty isolating. But I'm a pro at it so I'm alright. Thanks again.
🖤⚘
You should watch Joker. Now that's a film on Depression
You know things are getting bad when you start watching stuffs like that... :/
I hope you are okay?
Are you?
I sincerely hope you're doing well. I know I'm 1 month late, but please take a look at this short film I did about depression th-cam.com/video/nSC4ptU79-8/w-d-xo.html
hii....I saw your vid. right now!!...
It's pretty good!!😇
Exactly
A fact
"A human being can survive almost anything, as long as they can see the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that its impossible to ever see the end."
- Elizabeth Wurtzel
Yes.. i have to fake it.. i have to smile, so that all the people around me will not feel uncomfortable..
that's the point
True when your depressed especially we mask our feelings not feel sad
It's amazing how depression can make you feel worthless helpless. Men especially try to emulate strength and self confidence but this feeling we mask with alcohol
@@Ecuacolom that’s is so true
Thank you for sharing, Carlos. This is why we were inspired to make this film.
Mate, it is insidious and we don't even realise what we are doing in the moment. We think we are "keeping it together" and "getting on with it" by putting on that mask, but instead we dig a deeper hole because these negative feelings eat away at us. And because men are supposed to be "problem solvers", we don't want to come across as less "masculine" by talking about it with others.
Hope you are doing ok.
I think everyone feels different things
This man is beautiful. This movie is important.
Thank you for your lovely comments and we are glad that you were moved by our film!
38 years of depression.. Even as a child i can't recall a time of happiness. Abusive parents, sever trauma, and a lack of real adults and interactions.
I'm a kid in a grown mans body.
I’m so sorry John. I hope you find peace within. I understand how everything can seem awful.
@@monabale I've found peace within the gym, but besides that I'm just kinda wandering around. I live life the best I can, and being diagnosed with BPD as helped with closure on some things. But life will never be like what most truly want out of life, and I've come to peace with that.
Thank you, sometimes I post and forget others can see or even care for that matter. It means a lot.
:( bless you man
Inner child healing, our child like state is said to be around the age of 5 permanently. Everyone has an inner child. We have fallen out of touch with ourselves over the centuries. Spirituality, astrology and the understanding of self is what saved me from my misery. I was depressed and suicidal as a child, always feeling alone yet I mastered the art of deception and pretending to be happy.
I'll pray for you. Hoping we'll make it
Depression is like being a dog on the leash, even if you're no longer tied. You can still feel it choking your neck.
It's more like feeling disconnected, for me. Like everybody is inside and I'm outside. Nobody sees me, nobody hears me. And when I speak with people is like I'm an alien, I feel awkward, out of place, boring, weird. I don't know what to say or how to act.
After a while you lose the desire to be seen and heard. You feel non existent. And everything that used to be important to you, everything you enjoyed, doesn't anymore. You just don't want to do anything because nothing brings you any good feeling. You just lie there, being unable to sleep. Just thinking. You never stop thinking. And the minute comes when you think 'What's the point'.
After that it's just a matter of time. In the meantime, you start to clean up your business, to leave everything in order.
You end up not caring about anything. You are totally desensitized. And that's not life anymore.
Beautifully written Perfectly said …..,, thank you
"Sometimes you're only lost until someone else finds you"
When a girl offers you a drink and asks to sit with you or when someone calls you back and asks if you still want the job offer after being satisfied with your interview, so people don't realize that their actions saved a life.
It cost so little to make someone happy some people can never give themselves a chance until others do first!!!
Everyone here reading this right now listen. I know most of you clicked on this video or similar videos to not feel so alone. But I promise you that you’ll never be alone. These feelings you feel right now there’s people who want to hear you, understand you and help out of the hole you’ve been going deeper into since these emotions began. Even though you don’t know it there’s people there waiting to listen, whether it be a friend a family member or a doctor they want to understand they want sympathise I encourage you to open up, I encourage you to challenge yourself and I challenge you to try and not be so afriad. Life is a bitch life throws obstacles in the way, but sometimes those obstacles are too far of a walk to get around, that’s why we need a vehicle to push its way around that vehicle is your voice, speak ask for guidance let out all your problems and be free. Stop holding it in and sinking deeper, I believe there’s always light at the end of the tunnel, it may take days months years, but don’t give up keep striving keep fighting see it to the end. I guarantee after time you’ll feel stronger and feel rewarded that you fell to the bottom got buried and found your way back up.
Thank you for sharing, Forddy. An important message for everyone out there struggling in difficult times.
I always say to people that this is a marathon, not a sprint. The most important thing in a marathon is the pace; it doesn't matter how fast you go as long as you keep moving. Sometimes you have to slow down to a walk because you're winded, but as long as you put one foot in front of the other. And this can be as simple as getting up in the morning, making a bowl of cereal instead of eating fast food, or doing a little bit of exercise every other day.
@@almightynassar thanks for sharing, Nassar.
I hate that you're right but thank you ❤️
🖤 comments like these saves lives. Thank you 😇
I envy him. He has a family. He is loved. When I go, the world wouldn't even know.
Do ask myself the same question, who I'll be there when I'm gone.. He's so lucky
Stay strong and hang in there. Do you have any friends?
Now I know you are here... Sending you a big hug! 💖
I know the feeling - but fear not - there's lots of us in that position so we are many and are now a group joined by a common bond and can support each other. I once read a french news item about a lady who died and in her will she left all her money to people like the bus driver, the postman etc. All those people who had smiled and given her a kind word during her lonely days - she had no one else. I can so empathize with that. Even the smallest contact with others becomes precious.
I feel that. I could be gone for weeks.... My clients(I landscape) would notice before anybody else...
The clock with the second hand clicking but never moving forward is very symbolic of how depression feels. I felt it bring me back to a very dark time that I never thought I would get out of.
"the suffering gets done by the ones we leave behind". Literally the only thing stopping me from ending it. Everything is pretty bleak right now and I can't see past the dark cloud
This too shall pass everything lifts
Sending you my love
I’m sorry that u have to go thru this alone. Although there are loved ones around. Only one person can help u truly and that’s Jesus Himself. Others may find this response typical or forceful but u have everything to lose without Him. He loves u past your darkest days and nights and deepest wounds caused by this trauma. I will pray for u my sister and that God may bring u out of that darkness. I too have been there and talking about it to certain folks whom God has placed on my heart to share it with without judgment or ridicule has helped me a great deal.
Are you better now?
@@billibluu3796 unfortunatelly he does not care that much to turn the invisibility mode off.
For who is still here, or who is new.. Just take it slowly and don't be too harsh on yourself. Things take time and it only gets better. Sending good toughts to all of you!!!! If anyone needs to talk let me know, I'm here anytime all the time!
Save the world
Thank you soo much for your beautiful soul..~!✨
Hey can we talk?
@@debbieremmi7196 Hey Debbie ( :
Just read this....I'm here if you want to talk. Hope your doing okay and having an okay day
💚☘️🕊️
Thank you, I needed that.
Nobody talks about how after depression you have to deal with life again … it’s like a whole other thing it’s a step by step thing
Yeah i actaully got anxiety and even adhd from it.
I developed insomnia,add,severe social anxiety. Fucked up my grades in college and to top it all off I feel worse than before,I might just end it this year.
@@lilkidlover309 hey, I hope you’re feeling better soon
@@lilkidlover309 open up to people, trust that you can get through this tough time. You're not alone. You just have to find the right people, and you will.
This film has taken a walk through every depressed mind that has ever existed including my own. I felt the staring up at the support beams. For me it is my loft hatch. It is always calling 😔
I pray we all make it through this cancer of the mind.
Sending you love💛
Sending you the same wishes that we all make it through. One day at a time, okay!
Sending caring thoughts.
Thank you 😊
@@ageautistic6957 Sending love, hugs and prayers to you too. For me it's the cantilever outside my room. But the whole vid is relatable, maybe I'm so generic they managed to make a short movie out of my thought processes. let's get through this, thanks for your comment. Makes me feel better somehow.
If we stopped asking if someone is ok (it's not a default mode), but how they really feel currently, this would probably help spot the ones who are going through a hard time
I'd just say, "I'm fine, thanks."
It is well made.. I am missing one thing, but it is only me. Before medication I used to have such deep depression that even the colours around me seemed dull. Even when the sun was up, it seemed so uninteresting and did not give me the joy at all.. Everything seemed so grey and slow, empty, at times sad.. The mental pain is unbearable. The only peace was when I was sleeping and waking up made me want to kill myself as it felt like an absolute punishment. I am so glad I seeked help, it is helping me get on track. I think about all of you who suffer, I hope you get through it one day and finally feel normal and peacefull.
Getting help does really help? I've been thinking that it's about time for me to get help, but i never knew if It would be enough or If o really could be better, sometimes it's really hard to think with all the bad things in my mind and i'm tired... Of letting this block me from professional help
I explained this to my mom the other day. When you’re depressed everything literally FEELS grey beyond just looking. It’s really a “meh…” type of feeling at least 22 hrs out of the day.
@@pharaohthelegend4598 there are studies pointing to how people with depression have not been able to do well in terms of "contrast perception", meaning yes, everything becomes dull. You're not imagining it, the colours that your eyesight discern become dull essentially
@@thevanitas4041 Idk yet myself, I had been constantly feeling low and having suicidal ideation myself just a few months ago and I still do. But, it got to the point where I made plans and all the pressure and pain of it all really took a toll on me and lead to me having a breakdown, in public, in front of my friends. They eventually helped me calm down, realizing it was a serious matter, and they encouraged and just stuck by me. And I cannot describe how much that means when you are depressed., cuz at that time I just felt really lonely and that no one cared.
I eventually did talk to someone and am getting professional help currently, but I am not to the point where I actually feel better yet (I say "yet" since depression will take a while to cope with and for you to get better eventually, so it takes a lot of perseverance and work). But, I can say that it at least helps somewhat, just a little bit, with at least having an outlet to let all your feelings out if you have a therapist and work through coping mechanisms, though it may not seem to have a lot of affect. It also helps to remind yourself about your strengths and how well you have been doing so far and realize that you are not alone, and there are people who care.
I know and really relate to how you feel bc all of what you said was constantly on my mind too, and it still sometimes comes up. All I can say is really just try to find something you are looking forward to or love that will keep you going, even just a little bit. Don't pressure yourself to all of a sudden get better either, cuz it will take a while. Just try to recognize when you're feeling down and try to put a "stop" to all the dark and negatives. Because, if you keep doing it, little by little, even if it seems really hard or pointless, eventually you'll get better and have some positivity in your life.
Do meds really helped you with depression?
Wow. This was written by someone with depression. It had to be. This accurately portrayed me. It’s only through an understanding husband, daily meds and most importantly a desire to not ruin other lives I fight each day.
Ikr... I was thinking the same thing.
Also... We're in this together🤝🙏
Imma be real with you, perhaps the reason why you’re depressed is because you’re there for others and are unknowingly being disrespected by them. It wasn’t until i said f off to the horrible people in my life that at the time I thought were amazing when i got out of my mental hell
Stay strong and thank you for your support of the film. I'm glad you were able to connect with it.
to me, the hardest part in this was seeing how you're always avoiding real connections, or even trying to get distant from the ones whom you've already connected to, just as a way to spare them from what you know is going to happen
Or MIGHT happen. There is a constant threat, yes, but it is not a certainty. Nothing is.
I am from Russia. But I speak English and I really like,that speaking this amazing language also lets me to watch such a wonderful film. Thanks for your job 💞
Thank you for your support of the film. I hope you're doing well in Russia :)
Suicide doesn't end the pain. It just passes it on to someone else.
So I’m to just live with the pain then?
You sound stupid
I highly relate to this, people won't understand what depression is unless they have dealt with it themselves.
Absolutely true... How are you doing these days?
@@the.seagull.35 my anxiety got worst, when phone rings it's scares me i get so anxious i sometime want the smash the phone cause of that when it rings, i have trouble doing anything alone in public if I go in public alone to so something I do sooo many stupid things like my driving gets worst it's like i get more stupider and cause trouble for others, i feel like someone's watching always, if I go to shopping alone i cause trouble there too, it's alot dood
@@matrixgaming8637 ah I'm sorry 😔 I know social anxiety too. Its just fear for me, at the root of it... fear that everyone will realize I'm some kind of impostor. It doesn't make sense but that's how it is for me. Have you been able to talk to anyone about it? Like a therapist or dr... or even just someone in your family
@@the.seagull.35 i feel the same, and no i haven't talked to anyone cause here in India nobody takes anxiety and depression seriously they think it's some kind of a joke that we are creating, i hate people, nobody cares they only look for themselves nobody understands me or i should say us it hurts cause they don't understand that someone's suffering and probably wanna leave this world and they don't understand until someone actually leaves this world by taking the step....the situation of me is getting worst i get angry very fast, and i can't explain the situation properly to you cause it's unexplainable I think you understand that too.
@@matrixgaming8637 I understand man. I also have had problems with anger and I know it comes from my own low self image. I've had to work on that in my life and I've hurt other people because of it too. So I know how you feel... you're not alone ❤
The ending explains how the reason he’s not going through with it is because of the fear that a loved one will suffer.. that’s the only thing keeping him alive.
Not just him. It's something many people can relate to, I think.
That was certainly one aspect of it. We also wanted to end the film with a message of hope; that suicidal thoughts are just thoughts at the end of the day, and if we can get on top of our mental health through which ever means necessary, then hopefully we can dig our way out of it.
So true
Depression is hard.
I tried explaining to a Dr that I imagine [scenarios like this] every. Single. Day. It doesn't mean I'll act on them, or that anything dramatic had just happened for me to feel this way. I could literally be at a theme park with friends and suddenly I'd get the thought, "what if I just died, instead?" And then I'd imagine a roller coaster crashing, or me un-buckling from the high up swing. I imagine my car getting T-boned constantly, or driving onto train tracks. It could be a GREAT DAY with friends or family and these thoughts creep in. I had always thought something was terribly wrong with me besides depression. What has been hard to learn the past 2yrs is that just because a Dr, or other people, aren't experienced with something doesn't mean it's weird or YOU'RE weird.
Wow! I’ve always experienced the same exact thing. You’re not alone!
I also do this all the time. I have 2 young sons, 3 and 4 and I'm full of dread when these thoughts come by me but they don't go away, as much as I try. Thanks for sharing
You're definitely not alone. These thoughts are not uncommon, I believe, but we don't have to act on them. We're all in this together. Sending out love ❤
I think that’s a common misconception. I too have these thoughts regularly. But it’s not like I want to die.. it’s not like I’ll act on them. It’s a hard feeling to convey. Depression is very real. It is different in so many people. It’s just something I can’t explain. I have a loving family, who supports me (even though I’ve pretty much failed at every aspect and given up on myself more times than I can count) I have a gf, I live in a nice home. And that overlying feeling of despair and just.. idk I don’t know how to explain it. There are people who have it worse. Homeless, no family absolutely no money. Notbing. I get that. I’ve made so many mistakes, and I know people who made worse mistakes then me. But it’s just something. I wish I could accurately explain this feeling. But again. With these thoughts, I truly believe I’d never act on them. Idk how that works. But it just does.
The stuck clock, the broken guitar string, and the used-up lighter were excellent details. Those tiny little things can feel enormous when you are severely depressed.
The din in the opening scene where everything was muffled and some of the other sounds used were particularly well-done.
I also really appreciated the dinner scene with the older parental figure offering the wine. Showing the main character drinking water challenges sterotypes and myths about depression. Although they did show drug use later, I am so tired of people equating mental illness with drug use. This was a step in the right direction.
That was regular tobacco with a filter.
In fairness mental illness and drug use is a self fulfilling prophecy in that it's a common coping mechanism
thank you, i was having a breakdown and watching this made me feel a little less alone ❤️
It’s been 2 months how are you now
When you have breakdowns, Call upon the name of Jesus! Tell him, Lord Jesus please take away this depression out of me, I'm tired and take off this load off my shoulders and let your peace settle right now in my heart. Be my lord in Jesus name amen.
Thank you for sharing. I'm glad you were able to connect with the film. You are never alone.
They're like soulless puppet that need to be filled, we can fill their hollow self, we can help them. Fill their heart with love cause that's what they need
Some people say that those who commit suicide are selfish. They're not, they're desperate, they just want the pain to stop.
A lot of depressed people have a very deep understanding of the world.
This is brilliantly done. As someone who deals with depression, this is a very accurate depiction. I personally would never harm myself because I can't bare the thought of hurting my family and friends. I also can't leave my cat.
Animals help through so much dont they. take good care
Cat 🐈 is life
When you’ve been depressed long enough you can sometimes become comfortable being alone in my experience. And you say enough to be cordial to people at work but keep them away for the most part…
I hate to put this out on the internet but I'm battling to stay true to myself and depression
The mere fact that you have the courage to share this is a beautiful thing. Be proud and don't be afraid to show people your true colours!
You can do this! Go out for a walk.
So grateful my film was selected alongside this film!!! th-cam.com/video/nSC4ptU79-8/w-d-xo.html
I’m sorry.
@@markneedham8437 nah bro it is not your fault no need to apologize
double is the sting of wounds others cannot see
Depression is something unique. There aren't words to explain how you feel, what goes through your mind. It isn't sadness, it's so much worse, it's a feel of deep emptyness, isolation from everything and everyone.
I just hope that people who is depression free could really understand what is.
I really wish to see that depression is treated as what really is, and all who suffer from depression don't need to hide their feelings and emotions just to look ok when you are really struggling and suffering as nobody else could imagine.
Best wishes and hugs for all you who go through to such as torture, keep strong 👊
Hahaha right it's like being a dog on a leash, even if your owner free you, you still can feel it choking your neck
I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy, it's robs you of everything great in this world.
The worst part is when Im alone and my mind goes to dark places but then Its so hard for me to be around people sometimes. I just want to be alone and cry.
*hug* 💜
I'm depressed too, what hurts me the most is knowing that one day people will forget about me, even my girlfriend will find another guy better than me. We will only be a passing memory in the people's minds... A memory that everyone will forget...
the kids laugh cured my depression 😂
it’s hilarious 😂
🤣you're right about that!
@@sarahdania44 hyeee
@@sarahdania44 orang malaysia?
@@mohdabbad1449 yepp
It's really sad how once you start getting use to depression you become very good at hiding it. Not like you really crave that attention from people to know that you have it, just the fact that by becoming so good at hiding it. It feels like it ensures that it will never leave. And that, is one quality that's really really hurting.
Those of us who have been here, this film resonates a great deal with us.
This is me.
I hate to put it online.
Sending you my love
At least your not alone with this.😭
This is so strong. Such a good film. Also: we need more male representation in the media for psychological struggles, so thanks for doing that. Love goes out to everyone here who struggles. I hope you'll always find a reason to carry on, and I hope you'll have a better episode soon ♡♡♡
your thoughtfulness towards others is what makes the world a better place.
Best expression of the experience of depression I've ever come across. And I know depression...
It’s the imaginings of his friend finding him that has kept me around for much longer than I thought. I hope those imaginings are always stronger than my depression. It’s my lifeline to never want that to be the pain my loved ones feel.
This is the most relatable thing I've seen in a very VERY long time. Thanks for producing this
Thank you for your kind comments. It's humbling to know that our film can have such a lasting impact on our audience :)
Sick of depression advice that involves talking to or being with friends and family, it’s everywhere!! Maybe the reason I’m depressed is because I have none of that?
Wow crazy this was my whole life...only until i started running and being away from people for a while did i start to feel alive
- Feeling like you are not there
- Avoiding help from people close to you (because you think you don't deserve it)
- Feeling that the day never passes (or it passes too quickly)
- Not enjoying doing the things you used to like
- Lacking motivation to do things (and living in autopilot because of it)
- Having suicidal thoughts (but not necessarily making attempts)
Yeah, it feels that way. This film represents depression perfectly.
I know the feeling ❤ how are you doing today?
@@the.seagull.35 Thanks for asking. I've been fine for some years, got a decent job and tried to stay motivated towards personal goals. I hope you too can be fine
I feel like this guy everyday
Why do I want to search and see stuff like this again & again. And it makes me not okay
I like how they created this very relatable. It’s so true that I can be at a party and pretending… but what goes on inside my head is completely the opposite of the party mood everyone else is in. And as someone else mentioned the suicidal thoughts is not coming in a special time or for a special reason. It is just casually there with you and can pop up any time. It can even come to you after rolling a cigarette
IT CAN EVEN COME TO YOU AFTER ROLLING OR HAVING A CIGARETTE. FACTS
Indeed, Joviaa. We created it in a way that could resonate with anyone and everyone; not only for those suffering, but also for those that are unaware of the mental health issues present in others. It's so common, yet so many are oblivious to it.
The thing that hurts the deepest is when my face is blank from the overwhelming state of depression that I’ve forced myself to shut off my emotions and people notice me like that they tend to ask me if I’m upset or mad. Why perceive that I’m angry? Now that I’m actually saying this I’m realizing it that it actually hurts me that it’s my reality. I wish my reality is that a random person could do so much as easily sit down next to me and talk to me to distract my mind and keep me company. Dilute my mind of the endless depth of loneliness suffering that makes us begin to question our own reality… I’m at that state right now yet again another time.. questioning my own reality because it feels fake due to the constant damage the depression tolls on our brains… when we get pushed to this point more often than not most tend to take the easy but really actually hard and difficult way out of this living hell on earth… take our own life… but for me, I’ve already been there and done that 3 times… the only difference now is that I’ve seen the pain and damage it’s caused to others. When I was brought back to life my last attempt it only made my mental health substantially worse. Now that I sometimes have an unexplainable desire to go home early, I’m always left with the memories of the pain I’ve caused my loved ones by trying to leave this life here… because of that I’m left feeling trapped. Feeling trapped is worse than the depression itself… as time goes on it’s forced my brain to have episodes of psychosis. Psychotic episodes but not the bat shit episodes… the ones where you become disconnected due to the disassociation and depersonalization with reality and sense of self. Zero self awareness. The brain plays tricks (or could be communicating what’s really going on maybe) that this here, this now, this everything… is all an illusion. But how could it be an illusion when it just feels so vivid and permanent at other moments of awareness? I don’t know anymore… wtf? Maybe I am going bat shit crazy 😂 fuck this mental health stuff guys… Look, I opened up to a crises peer support line tonight and I was told about Deep TMS therapy for us who have MDD and bipolar disorder and anxiety and all the works that make us so broken… those like me who have no help from medication or any other line of therapy would benefit from TMS. Literally everyone would benefit from deep TMS. It’s a non invasive magnetic therapy that stimulates the parts of the brain that triggers happy emotions. Look it up. I promise you that you will cry when you see their videos just the same as I did. Crying tears of legitimately pure and raw happiness!
Anyone and everyone who has made it this far in my comment, I love you and I pray for the best for you❤️ God Bless you and the best of luck in your journey here.
I have certain ways how to go through depression, through burnout syndrome, it is difficult but I always find the ways. You just don't listen to that part of the brain that is depressed. You push every day through the mud and you self-affirm yourself. You take as many naps as you need. You do one task a day if you can't do anymore, you speak nicely to yourself. Life is beautiful and mysterious even it doesn't go the way we wanted to and we feel unbearable pain every day. I keep pushing already about 10 years and it is ok. I wish you the same strength that I have within myself. (I don't take antidepressants)
Keep pushing through. I am glad you haven't stopped. Hugs!!
But how to taken naps if you have a job?
Depression is so real. Hard to shake for some people. A constant struggle. Being alone was such a powerful part of this movie. Wow.
It’s crazy how I would have these exact fantasies of suicide multiple times a day. Sheer torture. It felt like I would struggle with it all my life. I sought out help, and these thoughts just about disappeared. Don’t be afraid to seek help and take medication if needed. Stay faithful
Help? 😂 sorry but the help made me worse
Medication made me an emotionless automaton. Never again. I’ve come to accept I will live with this nonsense for the rest of my life. And, like others, will simply continue living for others
@@D0vin00 what did you do to seek help? if I may ask
@@RickyBlaze2008 Sorry to hear, for what its worth it took me almost a year to adapt and feel changes while taking medication. While changes were also being made to the doses and different types.
Depression hits when I see myself in reflection, tears just drop by silently.
My friend, the youngest, and the only girl in a family with five brothers, loved her oldest brother the best. She absolutely basked in his attention. He came home from college one weekend and killed himself. In the saddest words I ever heard from anyone, she asked: "Wasn't I a good enough reason to live for?"
My brother took his life. I wish he felt he was good enough to love for himself. We can’t guilt trip suicidal ppl into living for others. We have to find a way to help them live for themselves.
Lucky...that's so sad. Only Christ gives us true happiness and joy, for he is the true light of the world. I wish people could learn how to pray and read their bibles.
@@tabitharutland5562 agreed
I truly hope everyone with mental illnesses gets help that they need. Therapy and medications helped me a lot. Stay strong everyone.
I'm literally dissociating my life away.. whenever I'm with people, it's like I'm not real even though I'm talking to them.. it's like my body is on autopilot while I'm somewhere else..it feels like the world is moving without me, like I'm in parallel space.. people catch me 'daydreaming' A LOT ,when they shout at me and even poke at me i wouldn't respond until at the very last moment, everything is blurry and foggy so i just laughed it off.. I could barely ground myself
Be kind to the next person in your life because you might not know how hard they trying to break free of pain... depression is causes pain too.🕊
It’s Proof even though I know he’s an actor, that no matter how good-looking you are, depression holds no prejudice. Even though he had what appears to be a good family, that loved him, depression has a mind of its own.
To anyone who feels at all similar to Johnny, to any of those who feel the need to pretend for one reason or another, be it because your partner thinks you're a burden or you just have a feeling others won't understand, and so you bottle it all up inside somewhat.... but then when you're alone you Become... you become The Truth and everything spills out, well I feel you and you're not alone.
i feel you too
@@danitae9704 Big love to you. Hope you're coping okay?
In a world run from behind the scenes by psychos , I personally am not surprised. I suffered depression all my life . Alot of it I feel comes from environment. How we cope growing up. The deck of cards we are handed in a world run by psychos.
@@petermautner7052 This is completely true. I feel like you need to be insane, uncaring and selfish to prosper, not always but a lot of the time. The cares we're dealt controls the entire game.... How do you cope with your depression?
Just followed you, if you ever post anything with regards to your life and story, I'll be sure to have a watch. Keep on going, and maybe sharing how you see the world through your eyes might help others to open theirs a little wider...
@@dolorosaenigmakil how do I see I myself. The worst way would be through a mirror or cameras, film. Anything that resemble s truth I exist. Because I honestly believe I don't exist any more. I died deaths before this exact time. So I think I will continue dying . However sometimes a wake up and I'm like no I m dead , right.......
Depression feels like a black hole in your chest and it starts to consume you and your everything in it.. it will make you forget you single moment that ever brought you joy.. you will start to forget good times and you will lose the track of time.. you will feel endless nothingness
Imagine there's a beach party and everyone's distracted by the music while your drowning. Thats how I feel everyday
It’s crazy how the people that have known you your whole life can never tell when their kid has changed mentally they should know the kid inside and out but they only see what they want too
When I feel depressed I mostly notice nothing but as the ticking of a clock that happen to anyone
Knowing that I matter to another person.. Matters. It matters to me
Some people aren’t lucky enough to have someone to comfort them.
I don't know what the symptoms of depression are but i feel most of what the guy portrayed and it's been back and forth since im 18. At 15 my life changed after losing my sister, I've never been the same since then.
Have you ever been able to properly process/express the loss of your sister? I can't imagine that kind of pain, but she would want you to go and be strong. Thank you for opening up :)
Well, been there. His viewpoint - how he saw it going down - at the end was one of the things that kept me alive. The lead actor playing Johnny is a beautiful man.
I do this all the time. I tell therapists I am not "stupid" enough to do it. The thing is my mind always wanderd there, who would find me and how and what would they think? It's those people who would be traumatized that keep me alive. That is how I perceive this video and maybe the only reason Johnny is still alive.
I want to imagine that he replays that scenario in his head to keep himself alive. It's a last resort for people who can no longer express how bad they suffer. I can attest to that. Someone will find your body and someone you know will be affected.
You are all stronger than you know,
And you are so worth all of it.
Please, don't give up.
I believe in you.
Everyday you're still alive, you are winning the fight!!
I'm proud of you 💗✨♾
That was so recognizable. Those tangents in my mind about suicide. Without reason.
see a knife in the shed > slash my nek maybe? Intrusive thoughts.
Life feels like an automated algorithm without any emotions, thoughts or memories. But there‘s those little oases when I feel truly filled with pure happiness. It‘s these little moments that keep me here, fighting against my inner self.
To everyone that is going through depression; I wish to us all the best. I didnt expect to read so many comments from people that have it, like me.. The scene where his suicide was just an imagination reminds me of myself planning my quit from life. What made me to go on was the fact that I would let down all of my familiy and friends; my girlfriend, my daughter, my mum, everyone. This gave the courage to go on. Am I better now, 4 years after that? a little bit, I can handle it better. Hold on, sisters and brothers. Much love and appreciation
Thank you for sharing this with us. Stay strong, you are a fighter! You're never alone.
Not letting people down helped me for a bit. Now I'm not so sure who I am anymore because I've been trying to please everyone else that is my problem
Most important thing for me is my pillow 😔
CPTSD.. I am always depressed and people think I am extroverted 😁. My fake confidence is one of the many ways I try to hide the fact that I am a mess.
This is exactly how I feel, it’s crazy they made a film. I suffer from deep depression and trauma. But when I’m around people they would never know. Once I’m alone that’s when the deep depression comes and even when im with people I have deep depression and anxiety.
Same... its like burningggg, and Its goes worse and worse.. I am scares to do smth bad toward me
I have bipolar I drink and hurt myself to a point where I feel sick every night I don't like asking for helping.
I was there once upon a time, 3 years down the line I feel like one of the most peaceful and happy person alive. It will pass stop fighting ,let loose, let go, love yourself.
@@achujayan7366 Do you have Bipolar too?
Yes! I worked on my lifestyle,
*I run everyday(calms me + makes me comfortable in my own skin)
* I have a fixed sleep and wake cycle (that is I wake up and go to sleep at the same time give or take 15-30 mins no more than that)
*Meditate 10 or 20 mins
* Eating clean
*Stand in the sun
*Stop listening to depressing/sad songs.
*Avoid nihilism (nothing good comes of it), give yourself a 3-5 year plan as North Star to keep you going.
And hey try the future authoring program from Dr. Jordan Peterson as well,
It may cost you couple a dollars or something,
If you search I think you'll find those course questions for free as well.
All the best! Godspeed to you my friend.
@@LJONeill1997 👆
@@achujayan7366 Thank you for sharing. One of my best friends, and he won't mind me sharing this, battled with bipolar for years in silence. It has only been in the past two years that he has begun opening up about his struggles. This small step has had a profound effect on his confidence and mental state. I am very proud of him!
What's the worst is when everyone even forgets you're there or don't bother to ask if you're okay. When they know fully well you're not but don't care.
Jake shear, only Christ truly loves you and cares! Only only, try him and you will experience overwhelming peace...forget about the world's love, it's so artificial.
@@irenemukisa6909 Probably the most shit advice I've ever heard in my life.