When I decided to post this video on the 5th anniversary of my sobriety, I had no idea that it would reach so many people or that I would receive so many kind messages about it. It would take me the next five years to reply to them all, but please know that I appreciate every single one of you who's taken the time to offer encouragement or relate the encouragement you or a loved one received from my own message. I'm wishing you all the best, and particularly wishing strength, hope, and wisdom to those struggling with addiction or recovery. -JWC
Hey thanks for sharing this. I found your channel today searching for good history channels, but I am also an alcoholic who has been on and off sober since 2014. I relapsed this January and have been struggling to stay on the wagon. It is always good to hear from people who are living their lives well without alcohol.
thank you, hoping this helps a friend who has recently chosen to start the path of sobriety, I hope it helps him & that it helps you to know that you will & have positively impacted peoples lives.
Jackson the courage you demonstrate in sharing this story is admirable. As your Father I can not be prouder nor love you more than I do today, yet in listening my heart swells. Always, Craig Crawford
Obviously was unaware of all this, but now seems like a good time to tell you that I deeply appreciate the stories and joy your channel has brought to my life. I am glad you didn’t give up.
keep it up, mate. I'm a former heroin addict, it's been two years since I had my last shot: never felt this well as today. I'm just twenty and I appreciate what your doing with this clip. lots of love, dude, stay strong.
It's strange to realize that a person that you respect so deeply is human as well. I think in this day and age we struggle to acknowledge that people are allowed to be imperfect. Many of us respect you so strongly and even look up to you, and with this I can only say that my respect has only grown. People aren't perfectly written characters with no problems. We're just human. Though it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things You have my support and admiration. I look forward to seeing more of your work.
Right. As I say, "YOU are the only one *guaranteed* that you'll have to live with the rest of your life. So there's no point in trying to please a bunch of other people who won't be around all the time. If YOU can look at your reflection without shame, that's all that matters."
My mother is a recovering alcoholic as well. She'll be 2 years sober this Christmas. It's so important to share these stories and we thank you for that.
From someone who spent most of his 20's being drunk: You had my respect for the scholarly insight and professional reflections on your channel. Now, you also have it for folding a loosing hand and dealing yourself a better one. Congratulations on the five years and keep going! From very flat and not quite as beautiful Denmark (but at least we had Vikings, so yay!) I'm wishing you * does the hat thing * all the best.
I don't usually leave comments. I just wanted to say that this was especially moving for me. I've never dealt with alcoholism but have certainly struggled with those same thought patterns and other unhealthy coping mechanisms. I value your openness and am thrilled that you were able to make a change. Wishing you all the best, from one imperfect man to another.
Dr Crawford, as someone I already looked up to, this makes me respect you even more. I am a year and almost half sober myself. Your story sounds so similar to mine its astonishing. You give me hope. I will continue to choose not to drink because it is what's best for me, but hearing you share makes it an easier choice to make. Hearing your words makes the guilt and the shame a little less and the stigma fade a little more. I will not drink with you today, friend. Thank you.
I never would have thought. Dr. Crawford is such a success-he inspires so many people with his love of history, culture, and language. He’s remarkable. I have so much respect for this man.
I don’t think I’ve ever listened to more elegant spoken words. There is something very, very unique about you. Your character, your values, your honesty, your immense knowledge and unusual backgound. This Norwegian viking will continue to follow and learn. Wow! My son now lives in AZ, studying. An amazing State, but I can’t wait to visit Colorado and Wyoming. Best regards, Ørjan
Fellow Scandinavian descendant here.. hope you get to travel and see our beautiful countryside. USA has much more to offer than our political division.
Ragnar Dracaena Thanks, yes, the U.S. has such diverse geography, from Alaska to Florida, the mountains, the coasts, the plains, the islands. The people, the cultures and the history. I love it! When it comes to the political division, I must refer to Dr. Jackson Crawford’s own words again: «No man is so good that he has no flaw, and no man is so bad that he’s good for nothing. I choose to believe that about other people. I choose not to choose my friends by religion, philosophy and politics. I choose to choose my friends by their trustworthiness, their reliability, their general honesty and character..»
Good decision by a brave man. Strange to hear you talk about a failed career. That impression is not what you give us here. An extremely knowledgeable man in language and culture from the old norse In any case, you are not a failed human being. The best from Viking Sweden/Rus
Dr Crawford, what an amazing display of courage. Your life and your life's work does mean so much to those you will never meet. Moreover, your teachings outside "the high castle" that you offer will remain the legacy that inspired thousands.
Hey Jackson, I've been sober for over 12 years. I understand the constant struggle and I have great respect for anyone who has been through it and battles on.
This really hit home with me. Compulsive over eating has lead me to a terminal diagnosis. I'm now fighting everyday to try and reverse my numbers, I'm 8 days on diet with calorie restriction and exercise.
Wish you all the best and keep at it, look into keto or carnivore if you haven't already, it's helped a lot of people myself included and may be of use to you.
Gods be with you. Both my father and my sister fought this same thing for their entire lives. My sister used to say that bigotry and discrimination against the obese is the last thing that it's still OK to ridicule and/or exclude, etc. I'm in the middle of that fight, myself, so I pray for your continued progress and success.
Congratulations on the five years. It sounds a bit silly to those who haven't been there but the "I'm not perfect and I'll keep making mistakes, just sober ones" is the crux of a lot of why people get addicted (thinking they're failures) and why they sometimes stumble (I have to be perfect). You're a good man, Dr Crawford, and I thank you for putting yourself forward like this to help reach those who subscribe to your channel and who might be in trouble. As Rocky said - Life's about how hard we get hit and keep getting back up.
I had 2 years yesterday after trying since 2012 to stop. In early sobriety, I started listening to your TH-cam to keep my mind occupied with material that interests me. Recovered alkies tend to be some of my favorite humans. Congratulations 🎉
I had a friend who finished law school with perfect grades and he was a heroin addict the whole time. nobody knew. he went to rehab afterwards. addiction can affect literally anybody. solidarity, doc. we definitely appreciate you.
Nov. 21, 2003. Progress, not perfection. The length of my sobriety is irrelevant to my life. I haven't been sober for almost 17 years, I've been sober for about 9 hours. Which is how long I've been awake today. The length of my sobriety is for you, the one at the precipice, the one who can't imagine life with or without drinking, as evidence that life without drinking can be lived. If you're ready, reach out, don't just stand there and wait for it to come to you. 'Cause it won't........
I made a commitment to myself at a young age never to drink, smoke or do drugs and at age 39, I have stuck with it. Thank you for sharing your story. The next 5 years will be even better. I wish you well.
I didn't know this and it takes a lot of courage to be so honest. But I wanted to thank you for all your videos. You are such a gifted guy. I am not even interested in Old Norse and Viking history but I watch all your videos because you're such an amazing storyteller. You explain things in an interested way. You're a good man, Dr. Crawford. Thank you for sharing this and I am happy for these five years sober.
Dr. Crawford, Thank you so much for sharing this, I'm in tears now. I've been suffering with a crippling depression for a long time now which has devastated me during my graduate studies abroad. I was on the verge of suicide and I'm fortunate my professor in Japan sought help for me when he did or I might not be alive right now. I'm currently on a leave of absence from my PhD program in Developmental Biology. I recently returned home and I'm getting the help that I need while trying to relax and better manage my almost daily panic attacks. My brain has felt paralyzed and through a nasty cycle of negativity, thoroughly convinced myself I'm incapable of learning anymore because I'm stupid (and I too was seeing the proof that others were right when they told me I chose the wrong field). I've always had an interest in historical linguistics, (particularly of the Germanic languages), and I really love learning Old Norse. I'm currently on Part 4 of your class series, (diligently taking notes on everything you say so I can form a lexical notebook), and I wanted you to know how special your channel and that series is to me. It brings me so much joy and comfort, slowly breaking that ice of constant fear and doubt that paralyzes me by illustrating to myself that I CAN learn and that I am capable of enjoying it again. I'm starting to remember what it feels like to be happy to be alive. I'm sorry for such a long comment, but I had to share with you just how much your videos have meant in my own recovery. I always look forward to your videos and I will always appreciate what they've done for me. Congratulations on your sobriety, Dr. Crawford. Stay strong! Take care of yourself, -Alex
It look like you've got the long end of the rope, as we say in Danish. So hold on and heave away the best you can. LOTS of luck and Joy of learning again.
You are a stronger man then most. You have shown this with your honesty. There is no greater virtue in life then to be upright and truthfull. This honesty shows the broken figure we all are, yet becuase our virue the more exalted. Gud bevare dig herr Crawford.
The interesting thing about Social Media, is how it fools me into believing everything and everyone is more perfect than they are. Thanks bringing some honesty to the platform.
Thank you for sharing your experience with addiction. You are worth all the hard work you have put into this journey. Freedom from guilt and shame lay in your self-acceptance. Good on you for taking your life to the next level for yourself. Thank you.
Thank you for posting this video. 30 years ago I gave up my dream of Russian and historical linguistics. It was so hard to make a decent living. I watched my college mates buy large houses and have great careers which paid decent money, while I was in the same 1 bd apt, struggling to pay the rent and pursue the interests I loved. When I finally gave up my dreams, I was depressed for many years. I didn't turn to drink, but I felt alone and lost. I finally found my way to a new career and a better life, but I still miss language, history, and culture. I am retired now, and I find I have time once again to pursue some of my earlier interests. I was so happy when I discovered your channel a few months ago. You are knowledgeable, passionate, and yet down-to-earth and level headed. And you have such diverse interests. The Patreon Crowdcasts of you interviewing others who share your interests let me sit in on conversations that I had forgotten exist. Such fun and I learned so much, too. I admire people like you who have stuck to their dreams. You are the real heroes in this modern world. My heart goes out to you.
Betre byrdi du ber 'kje i bakken enn mannavit mykje. Med låkare niste du legg 'kje i veg enn ovdrykkje med øl. This December I will be one year sober. I enjoy your videos! Skål!
@@ulrikschackmeyer848 Word by word translation (to explain the words, so not idiomatic): The (=a) better burden you wont carry uphill than much wisdom. With (a) worse lunch pack you wont set out than too much to drink of ale.
Congrats on 7 years! I'm so glad you decided to talk about this bc it helps show that mental health problems don't discriminate. "As gray as the day I become ashes" is an I credibly poetic line.
Congratulations man! It really is encouraging hearing of others who have had a similar struggle. I've been sober since 09/07/17. I won't say that it's been easy and there have been moments I have felt an overwhelming urge to drink, especially over the course of this year with all of its isolation and apparent uncertainty. I know that will never go away. I still dream about it and it shows up at least half of the time. Since I've stopped drinking and chose to do something different: I've gone back to school, I've had repeated semesters of 4.0s, I'm within a year of graduating, I have promising post grad prospects, and I've got a great job that fulfills me and is helping me grow working as a program admin for the Native American Studies program at my University. I'm Native American and getting in touch with my culture and community has really helped anchor me. The months leading up 09/07/17, I was squatting in my old apartment I had been evicted from 6 months earlier and scraping by for alcohol, food, and water. The closest thing I had to a job was working at my favorite bar to pay off my tab. I was 330 lbs, my urine smelled like sulfur, and I couldn't even hold down a job for a day at a temp agency. But I got here by confronting something I hid from my whole life. To get there I had to first learn that solitude and isolation can be formidable but excellent teachers. It can be a catalyst for deep reflection and sometimes may take us to harrowing places. But it is there in that deep well; if we study the movements of the dark, we may find illusions about ourselves and others shattered, it might burn away things that have remained for too long. I've learned that chaos and upheaval are two forces from which much can be gained if approached accordingly. It can leave us with a deeper sense of self and awareness. What I learned in those dark, lonely months leading up to my sobriety was really quite simple. I had been ashamed for so long of my heritage and culture as a result of societal indoctrination, who I am, and who my people are that it left me feeling like a stranger to my self, alone to confront the strangness of being. But I've come to understand that we are what we do for others. I've learned that I am nothing without my relatives. I've learned that all my relatives, each and every one of them, human and nonhuman, make each of us who we are by supporting us. And that by acknowledging them as relatives and with respect and responsibility, needs are met. I started learning my ancestral language as a way of reconnecting myself to my greater identity. Every Lakȟóta word I learn, each way I learn to say something in Lakȟóta, and most importantly how to listen in Lakȟóta, I get to become more of myself by being who we are. Every value and tradition I learn or new connection I make in our community makes me more comfortable with myself and more resilient against my addiction. Some refer to their sobriety as a rebirth. But I feel that by hiding from my ancestors, by not feeding them because I didn't know how, I was never fully born until I could. Language is a powerful thing and I think what you're doing is medicine in it's own right.
I tried to quit smoking several times. I think the problem was that I told myself "alright as from today I'm never smoking again". then the itch inevitably came, followed by the realization that 'never' was an awfully long time to not be smoking. eventually I'd fall off the wagon and use my relapse as an excuse to keep smoking. then came the day I graduated from high school (I had dropped out before). I told myself I wanted to quit on that day, so that I would remember it forever. new phase of life, new me. it would be 'perfect'. I picked up my diploma and immediately had a celebration cig when someone offered it. goddamnit, my whole plan out the window. what could've been an inspirational story turned out to be a dream. I wanted to be free from addiction yet I failed immediately. it's like setting off on an adventure and breaking your leg as you walk out the door... yet that celebration cig I had 9 years ago would actually turn out to be my last cigarette ever. I guess I realized that that even though I had lost day 1, there was still day 2, day 3, day 100. all I had to do was keep trying one day at a time. I even kept a pack of cigarettes close, in case of emergency. I guess it felt comforting knowing that I could go back to being my old self at any time. I also didn't tell anyone that I was trying to quit smoking. I could fail completely at my goal and no one would know. I still have that pack of cigs, even though I have zero desire to ever smoke again. I keep it as a souvenir.
Wise beyond your years, good Doctor. I knew there was something about your character that I understood. I too have felt that bite, and I appreciate when others have the courage to show the scar it leaves. I stand with you all the same, eager to take in what you so generously share. Thank you kindly, Sir.
Hey we're proud of you. I'm happy you're still here, I love the knowledge, joy, and wonder you spread, and I'm glad you have this outlet to talk about it
I never reached the point of clinical alcoholism myself, however I saw myself going down that path. I wasn't addicted, but I was self medicating. Thankfully as an armed forces member my medical treatment for the Anxiety it turned out that I had helped break the cycle. I cannot imagine how hard it is for someone for whom the bottle of alcohol is the cheaper option. Everyone on earth deserves mental and physical healthcare.
Thank you for sharing this and your reflection on the past five years. :) I have a lot of sober friends and family. My mom is seven years sober and my brother is going through treatment right now. My maternal grandpa was sober for over 20 years before he passed.
Dr. Crawford, I’m 2 years late to this video but this is truly inspiring. I had the same problem and had the same withdrawals(DT’s) at a time. I started learning about the Old Norse language, coincidentally, on your channel after I sobered up and I haven’t turned back. We do recover.
Congratulations! 5 years is a milestone. I know how hard this road is to follow. After many tries I am living my life sober, and some days its hard but well worth it. I'll have 15 years in February 2021. I am happy for you!
Congratulations. I never would have guessed it. I suppose that's the thing about having a problem. There's not a certain type of person, it can be anyone. My mother and a very close friend struggled with alcoholism. It's physically and spiritually draining and a huge accomplishment to beat it.
I'm sure I speak for many of your viewers/subscribers when I say that I've benefited as much or more from your distinctive wit, personality, commitment to candor, and humor, as I have the wealth of knowledge you impart. I'm so glad that you're with us, and I'm so glad that you made that decision five years ago. Thank you for everything you share with us.
I’m glad you shared that Dr Crawford. I’ve been Clean 26 years. Consistently learning and applying spiritual principles is what makes it possible, Just For Today.
Thank you for this video. Few people talk about "this" kind of health issues, I can't stress how much I respect you for it. Hope everything turns out ok, keep up the good work! :)
Absolutely fantastic! Congratulations Professor Crawford. My favorite "drink" is Iced Tea and I'm hoisting a glass to your continued sobriety! Well done sir!
Very big of you to admit to this. And on the contrary, I only respect you more for it. No ones perfect and anyone who appears such should make you very suspicious.
I can't express how much you've done for me life with just your videos. I've lived pueblo for a bit and wish to come back home to the mountains. You're a shining light in darkness to me. One mountain man to another I wish you strength and wisdom in this world.
Awesome Dr. Crawford!! It’s inspirational to others when you achieve a milestone and can share - We all need to help each other, thank you For this 🥰✌🏼
Thank you for posting this! I am a professional and I tend not to speak of my sobriety openly very often outside of meetings. I am 5 YEARS SOBER TODAY!! We are not perfect and our lives still have problems but facing them sober changes everything. Amen! We do recover!
What an odd world! I have never tasted alcohol in my life but here I am, stuck in a very similar situation. Here, in Russia, being a linguist (Russian and English studies), I am afraid of returning quarantine/unemployment/economy breakdown. Under the circumstances, one cannot feel perfect. And, ironically, I'm sitting on about 10 liters of grain alcohol our family uses properly - to sanitize hands, food packaging and door handles. Regardless, your example gives us hope to fight this adversity. Dr. Crawford, stay safe, stay sober, be happy. From the banks of the greatest river in Europe we wish you all the best.
I'm surprised to hear this - you seem so accomplished and sensible that I can always hardly believe that you're only a few years older than me. I guess the path to such maturity leads both over high mountains and through deep valleys. Congratulations on your anniversary!
Good for you, Jackson; you've always been an inspirational figure to me, and as someone extremely passionate about the subject you teach, you have been a bastion of knowledge. I had a similar feeling when I found myself in a hospital after unsuccessfully going after the veins in my neck with an old, rusty box cutter. I had done a poor job, so I wasn't worried for my life, and even if my life was in the balance I wouldn't have cared either way. That said, I think that after years of wading in such deep depths, having something that made me be in the situation to try to change things made all the difference. I still deal with those same problems, but we just have to take it a day at a time, I suppose. I have never touched substances or alcohol as a result of alcoholism in my family, the subsequent abuse that stemmed from it, amongst other factors is what has kept me away from drinking due to the indirect exposure. I appreciate you telling your story, and in everything you do with this chanel. I hope to one day have as positive of an impact on the world as you have; and maybe one day I'll be able to shake your hand and give you thanks in person. Until then, All the best.
WAY TO GO JACKSON! I am an adult child of an alcoholic mom. You have chosen the higher and better path. Well done sir. Well done! Truly drengr, friend. Jeez I hope he sees this. :)
I wrote much the same. But I'm absolutely sure he will read through these particular comments (at some point). A man brave enough to say and do what Jackson did, would not shy back from reading this. I just hope that he is able to find some help and comfort in seing how much he means to all of us. May he lear to see himself with the same honour and vast respect that we, his Followers, do.
I'm proud of you! You have a ton of people who care about you and want only the best for you. Don't worry about the rest. We like ya just the way you are!
Congrats Doc, I'll be sober 2 years myself on November 2. I love the work you do, on here and your translations. I'm reading your translation of the Poetic Edda currently.
Congratulations. My son sent this to me. I celebrated 12 years in Feb. I still work through each day like it’s the 1st day of my sobriety. Sometimes one moment at a time letting go of the ideas of being perfect.
you sir are a good example of a drengr. I hope all of us have the strength and courage to see our flaws and take steps to correct them. Your honesty in sharing this will help many lives. Well done sir.
I didn't see that coming. Thanks for your transparency, Dr. Crawford, and know that on that grey day when you become ashes and return to dust, you can take some solace in that your life has made its mark on the lives of many. I always look forward to your videos; they're fascinating and enlightening. And I hope to watch your 10 year video in the future.
Ode to Jackson Crawford: How fast our fortunes change! How quickly strong winds die. Stillness stirs to madness wherever genius lies; From maelstroms to stillness, and from windless to wise; How fast our fortunes change! How sudden be our skies! Thank you for all your hard work, perseverance, and dedication to your craft and to your self throughout the years. Your videos have been a huge boon and inspiration for my current work of epic poetry, and I have credited many dozens of your videos and books (which I would love to get signed someday) in my works referenced.
Sometimes the best thing we can acknowledge is that we shouldnt strive for perfection, but for the best form of ourselves that we can be. Many times you have to fall a long way before you can see that. Congrats on sobriety, reaching to be the best you, and feeling comfortable enough to share your flaws with your peers. You are a uniquely beautiful character, stay you. ❤
Congrats Doc! I'm not a fan of TH-cam itself but I appreciate the opportunity to share experiences and learn from folks I otherwise never would've even met. Thanks for sharing and it's a pleasure to learn from you. I think you mean a lot to a lot of people.
I deeply respect Dr. Crawford for his sincerity. I am glad he shared this trail and tribulation with us, and I wish him many more years sober. I have seen what that particular dark road can do to people, and I am glad he was able not to walk it.
This is the most encouraging thing I have heard in years, from someone I actually respect. I am going through withdrawal right now, and have been for the last 2+ weeks. I keep feeling wild mood swings between deep depression and anxiety, and dealing with the insomnia. This is my third major time trying to quit. I feel like I get more sensitive each time, (kindling), so this better be my last time, or I might be done for. Wish me luck!
@@saiyamoru I'm 7 months in, and almost 8. I can tell you, it does get better. It takes some time for your body to adjust, esp. if older. Same for you!
@@OhhhhhhhBugger Do you mind if I ask how old you are? I'm 32 and I've been an alcoholic since I was about 25 - something happened that I badly wanted to forget about. This past month is the first time I've managed more than a few days sober, but I can tell my 'performance' is better and my mind is clearer when I can go for a week without.
I respect you for being open and honest. That should be something expected from one another but in this world it seems especially the personal battles are always hidden away. Good luck and peace with you 🙏
As a recovering opiate addict & norse follower, *You are my hero, Mr.Crawford* and you make my day to day life, a better life. ❤ May all the gods and their blessings, be upon you.
i would never have guessed. i’m sorry for your sorrows, but i’m glad they’re behind you, with hope alongside you and joys to come. a quote i love from tolkien: “For if joyful is the fountain that rises in the sun, its springs are in the wells of sorrow unfathomable at the foundations of the Earth.” The Silmarillion
When I decided to post this video on the 5th anniversary of my sobriety, I had no idea that it would reach so many people or that I would receive so many kind messages about it. It would take me the next five years to reply to them all, but please know that I appreciate every single one of you who's taken the time to offer encouragement or relate the encouragement you or a loved one received from my own message. I'm wishing you all the best, and particularly wishing strength, hope, and wisdom to those struggling with addiction or recovery. -JWC
This makes me like you even more.
🌞💙🌞You're all the better for it Love🌞💙🌞Looking forward to more amazing stories with You🌲💙🌲
My sobriety date is just a few months before yours. Amazed at how humble and insightful you are, for sharing this.
Hey thanks for sharing this. I found your channel today searching for good history channels, but I am also an alcoholic who has been on and off sober since 2014. I relapsed this January and have been struggling to stay on the wagon. It is always good to hear from people who are living their lives well without alcohol.
thank you, hoping this helps a friend who has recently chosen to start the path of sobriety, I hope it helps him & that it helps you to know that you will & have positively impacted peoples lives.
Jackson the courage you demonstrate in sharing this story is admirable. As your Father I can not be prouder nor love you more than I do today, yet in listening my heart swells. Always, Craig Crawford
Just when you thought this channel couldn't get more wholesome
Obviously was unaware of all this, but now seems like a good time to tell you that I deeply appreciate the stories and joy your channel has brought to my life. I am glad you didn’t give up.
Agreed!
Ditto!
Same here!
Agreed 🙏
Congratulations, sir!
You're an example to follow
When you think you can't respect the man an inch further. Best regards. And deepest thanks for the courage in sharing.
keep it up, mate. I'm a former heroin addict, it's been two years since I had my last shot: never felt this well as today. I'm just twenty and I appreciate what your doing with this clip. lots of love, dude, stay strong.
Congrats on your sobriety, man. Keep up the good work!
Well done Davide! Keep it up and stay strong! Many of us are pulling for you! Way to go!
Keep on keeping on!
Great share!
You are amazingly brave ! Enjoy your youth and future!
Just when you thought that the Norse Cowboy couldn't become any more of a Legend...
he knows the wisdom of showing authentic vulnerability
It's strange to realize that a person that you respect so deeply is human as well. I think in this day and age we struggle to acknowledge that people are allowed to be imperfect. Many of us respect you so strongly and even look up to you, and with this I can only say that my respect has only grown. People aren't perfectly written characters with no problems. We're just human. Though it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things You have my support and admiration. I look forward to seeing more of your work.
Walter I agree too, Walter.
I've been sober 56 days. Thank you for this.
Congrats. One day at a time. Ignore all of the critics.
Right. As I say, "YOU are the only one *guaranteed* that you'll have to live with the rest of your life. So there's no point in trying to please a bunch of other people who won't be around all the time. If YOU can look at your reflection without shame, that's all that matters."
Utmost respect for a man who has gone into the darkness and returned from it bearing a torch.
My mother is a recovering alcoholic as well. She'll be 2 years sober this Christmas. It's so important to share these stories and we thank you for that.
Love to you and your mother!
Congratulate her for this Heathen over here!
@@ragnarblobarr9567 Thank you! I'm grateful to continue to have her on this Earthly plain.
@@DananWhiddon Thank you! I'm grateful she made the choice to live.
God bless your mother.
“Im as gray as the day I’ll become ashes.”
Hot damn I love that quote
We're happy you're here Jackson
From someone who spent most of his 20's being drunk:
You had my respect for the scholarly insight and professional reflections on your channel.
Now, you also have it for folding a loosing hand and dealing yourself a better one.
Congratulations on the five years and keep going!
From very flat and not quite as beautiful Denmark (but at least we had Vikings, so yay!)
I'm wishing you * does the hat thing * all the best.
Skol!
Skål!
3 years sober. I was a real bad alcoholic and addicted to meth and cocain on top of that. Feels great to be clean and sober
Kudos David. Kudos!
Well done David!
thanks :)
I don't usually leave comments. I just wanted to say that this was especially moving for me. I've never dealt with alcoholism but have certainly struggled with those same thought patterns and other unhealthy coping mechanisms. I value your openness and am thrilled that you were able to make a change. Wishing you all the best, from one imperfect man to another.
Dr Crawford, as someone I already looked up to, this makes me respect you even more. I am a year and almost half sober myself. Your story sounds so similar to mine its astonishing.
You give me hope. I will continue to choose not to drink because it is what's best for me, but hearing you share makes it an easier choice to make. Hearing your words makes the guilt and the shame a little less and the stigma fade a little more.
I will not drink with you today, friend. Thank you.
You could drink iced tea!
@@tracieh215 Oh, I am a tea fanatic for sure.
I never would have thought. Dr. Crawford is such a success-he inspires so many people with his love of history, culture, and language. He’s remarkable. I have so much respect for this man.
I don’t think I’ve ever listened to more elegant spoken words. There is something very, very unique about you. Your character, your values, your honesty, your immense knowledge and unusual backgound. This Norwegian viking will continue to follow and learn. Wow!
My son now lives in AZ, studying. An amazing State, but I can’t wait to visit Colorado and Wyoming.
Best regards,
Ørjan
Fellow Scandinavian descendant here.. hope you get to travel and see our beautiful countryside. USA has much more to offer than our political division.
Ragnar Dracaena Thanks, yes, the U.S. has such diverse geography, from Alaska to Florida, the mountains, the coasts, the plains, the islands. The people, the cultures and the history. I love it!
When it comes to the political division, I must refer to Dr. Jackson Crawford’s own words again:
«No man is so good that he has no flaw, and no man is so bad that he’s good for nothing. I choose to believe that about other people.
I choose not to choose my friends by religion, philosophy and politics.
I choose to choose my friends by their trustworthiness, their reliability, their general honesty and character..»
They say Norwegians should go to southeast Alaska to see what was the heartbreaking beauty of their land before there were any hearts to break.
"Things won't be perfect but they will be better"
Fantastic words. Congratulations on your milestone and your continued sobriety
I'm a recovering alcoholic 6 months sober, thank you so much for coming out and talking about it here.
Congratulations to you on 6 months!
Good decision by a brave man. Strange to hear you talk about a failed career. That impression is not what you give us here. An extremely knowledgeable man in language and culture from the old norse
In any case, you are not a failed human being.
The best from Viking Sweden/Rus
Dr Crawford, what an amazing display of courage. Your life and your life's work does mean so much to those you will never meet. Moreover, your teachings outside "the high castle" that you offer will remain the legacy that inspired thousands.
Hey Jackson, I've been sober for over 12 years. I understand the constant struggle and I have great respect for anyone who has been through it and battles on.
Congratulations!
This really hit home with me. Compulsive over eating has lead me to a terminal diagnosis. I'm now fighting everyday to try and reverse my numbers, I'm 8 days on diet with calorie restriction and exercise.
Keep fighting! I stand with you in the Shieldwall in the battle we call life.
Keep going! Much love!
You can do it!
Wish you all the best and keep at it, look into keto or carnivore if you haven't already, it's helped a lot of people myself included and may be of use to you.
Gods be with you. Both my father and my sister fought this same thing for their entire lives. My sister used to say that bigotry and discrimination against the obese is the last thing that it's still OK to ridicule and/or exclude, etc. I'm in the middle of that fight, myself, so I pray for your continued progress and success.
You’re an inspiration to us all, Dr. Crawford! In myriad ways.
Congratulations on the five years. It sounds a bit silly to those who haven't been there but the "I'm not perfect and I'll keep making mistakes, just sober ones" is the crux of a lot of why people get addicted (thinking they're failures) and why they sometimes stumble (I have to be perfect).
You're a good man, Dr Crawford, and I thank you for putting yourself forward like this to help reach those who subscribe to your channel and who might be in trouble.
As Rocky said - Life's about how hard we get hit and keep getting back up.
Well said!
I had 2 years yesterday after trying since 2012 to stop. In early sobriety, I started listening to your TH-cam to keep my mind occupied with material that interests me. Recovered alkies tend to be some of my favorite humans. Congratulations 🎉
@@hannahakio8395 people in recovery really are the best!! I’ve always thought this. Probably because they’re my kind of people, heehee
Congratulations, Jackson. One day at a time.
Guess I found another reason to be a patron. Strength to you.
Can't wait for the day I can afford to become a patron, as well.
@@kevinritter3742 Tiers are pretty low, you don't need to do any of the cool ones. Hope you reach that place soon.
I had a friend who finished law school with perfect grades and he was a heroin addict the whole time. nobody knew. he went to rehab afterwards.
addiction can affect literally anybody.
solidarity, doc. we definitely appreciate you.
Nov. 21, 2003. Progress, not perfection. The length of my sobriety is irrelevant to my life. I haven't been sober for almost 17 years, I've been sober for about 9 hours. Which is how long I've been awake today. The length of my sobriety is for you, the one at the precipice, the one who can't imagine life with or without drinking, as evidence that life without drinking can be lived. If you're ready, reach out, don't just stand there and wait for it to come to you. 'Cause it won't........
I made a commitment to myself at a young age never to drink, smoke or do drugs and at age 39, I have stuck with it. Thank you for sharing your story. The next 5 years will be even better. I wish you well.
9 years this month for me
good job bro!
@@The_Lord_Of_Confusion thank you
I didn't know this and it takes a lot of courage to be so honest. But I wanted to thank you for all your videos. You are such a gifted guy. I am not even interested in Old Norse and Viking history but I watch all your videos because you're such an amazing storyteller. You explain things in an interested way. You're a good man, Dr. Crawford. Thank you for sharing this and I am happy for these five years sober.
Congratulations! 14 months sober here,best decision ever!
good job bro!
Dr. Crawford,
Thank you so much for sharing this, I'm in tears now. I've been suffering with a crippling depression for a long time now which has devastated me during my graduate studies abroad. I was on the verge of suicide and I'm fortunate my professor in Japan sought help for me when he did or I might not be alive right now. I'm currently on a leave of absence from my PhD program in Developmental Biology. I recently returned home and I'm getting the help that I need while trying to relax and better manage my almost daily panic attacks. My brain has felt paralyzed and through a nasty cycle of negativity, thoroughly convinced myself I'm incapable of learning anymore because I'm stupid (and I too was seeing the proof that others were right when they told me I chose the wrong field). I've always had an interest in historical linguistics, (particularly of the Germanic languages), and I really love learning Old Norse. I'm currently on Part 4 of your class series, (diligently taking notes on everything you say so I can form a lexical notebook), and I wanted you to know how special your channel and that series is to me. It brings me so much joy and comfort, slowly breaking that ice of constant fear and doubt that paralyzes me by illustrating to myself that I CAN learn and that I am capable of enjoying it again. I'm starting to remember what it feels like to be happy to be alive.
I'm sorry for such a long comment, but I had to share with you just how much your videos have meant in my own recovery. I always look forward to your videos and I will always appreciate what they've done for me.
Congratulations on your sobriety, Dr. Crawford. Stay strong!
Take care of yourself,
-Alex
It look like you've got the long end of the rope, as we say in Danish. So hold on and heave away the best you can. LOTS of luck and Joy of learning again.
Good for you, coming up on 40 years myself. Not instant Utopia but well worth the effort. Keep it up.
Congratulations! Well done. I pray for your continued success.
You are a stronger man then most. You have shown this with your honesty. There is no greater virtue in life then to be upright and truthfull. This honesty shows the broken figure we all are, yet becuase our virue the more exalted. Gud bevare dig herr Crawford.
Never would have expected a video like this from you, great content
The interesting thing about Social Media, is how it fools me into believing everything and everyone is more perfect than they are. Thanks bringing some honesty to the platform.
Well the universe is telling me something, seeing this the day after I had to reset my counter last night. Congrats on 5 years!
You got this! And if you don't, you still got this!
Restarting can be even more difficult than starting in the first place. May the Gods give you strength.
Just a stumble on a long road, carry on.
My husband has been sober for 25 years. One day at a time.
Thank you for sharing your experience with addiction. You are worth all the hard work you have put into this journey. Freedom from guilt and shame lay in your self-acceptance. Good on you for taking your life to the next level for yourself. Thank you.
Having a major existential crisis is the best learning process in life.
We're glad to have you here and you have been an inspiration to so many. Thank you for having the bravery to show a vulnerable side of your story.
Thank you for posting this video. 30 years ago I gave up my dream of Russian and historical linguistics. It was so hard to make a decent living. I watched my college mates buy large houses and have great careers which paid decent money, while I was in the same 1 bd apt, struggling to pay the rent and pursue the interests I loved. When I finally gave up my dreams, I was depressed for many years. I didn't turn to drink, but I felt alone and lost. I finally found my way to a new career and a better life, but I still miss language, history, and culture. I am retired now, and I find I have time once again to pursue some of my earlier interests. I was so happy when I discovered your channel a few months ago. You are knowledgeable, passionate, and yet down-to-earth and level headed. And you have such diverse interests. The Patreon Crowdcasts of you interviewing others who share your interests let me sit in on conversations that I had forgotten exist. Such fun and I learned so much, too. I admire people like you who have stuck to their dreams. You are the real heroes in this modern world. My heart goes out to you.
Well done. Alcohol is so damn insidious, accepted by all and yet so incredibly destructive for many.
Betre byrdi
du ber 'kje i bakken
enn mannavit mykje.
Med låkare niste
du legg 'kje i veg
enn ovdrykkje med øl.
This December I will be one year sober. I enjoy your videos! Skål!
As a Dane I can handle ordinary bokmål, but this is above my level. Any chance of a translation? Page
@@ulrikschackmeyer848 The finest load you can carry is much wisdom. The worst you can carry is an abundance of beer.
@@tord9707 Takk. Ha det
@@ulrikschackmeyer848 Word by word translation (to explain the words, so not idiomatic):
The (=a) better burden
you wont carry uphill
than much wisdom.
With (a) worse lunch pack
you wont set out
than too much to drink of ale.
@@ulrikschackmeyer848 Märkligt men som svensk förstod jag det i stort sett.
Thank you for sharing this. It must have taken courage, but it is words that someone out there may need to hear.
Congrats on 7 years! I'm so glad you decided to talk about this bc it helps show that mental health problems don't discriminate.
"As gray as the day I become ashes" is an I credibly poetic line.
Congratulations man! It really is encouraging hearing of others who have had a similar struggle. I've been sober since 09/07/17. I won't say that it's been easy and there have been moments I have felt an overwhelming urge to drink, especially over the course of this year with all of its isolation and apparent uncertainty. I know that will never go away. I still dream about it and it shows up at least half of the time. Since I've stopped drinking and chose to do something different: I've gone back to school, I've had repeated semesters of 4.0s, I'm within a year of graduating, I have promising post grad prospects, and I've got a great job that fulfills me and is helping me grow working as a program admin for the Native American Studies program at my University. I'm Native American and getting in touch with my culture and community has really helped anchor me.
The months leading up 09/07/17, I was squatting in my old apartment I had been evicted from 6 months earlier and scraping by for alcohol, food, and water. The closest thing I had to a job was working at my favorite bar to pay off my tab. I was 330 lbs, my urine smelled like sulfur, and I couldn't even hold down a job for a day at a temp agency.
But I got here by confronting something I hid from my whole life.
To get there I had to first learn that solitude and isolation can be formidable but excellent teachers. It can be a catalyst for deep reflection and sometimes may take us to harrowing places. But it is there in that deep well; if we study the movements of the dark, we may find illusions about ourselves and others shattered, it might burn away things that have remained for too long. I've learned that chaos and upheaval are two forces from which much can be gained if approached accordingly. It can leave us with a deeper sense of self and awareness.
What I learned in those dark, lonely months leading up to my sobriety was really quite simple. I had been ashamed for so long of my heritage and culture as a result of societal indoctrination, who I am, and who my people are that it left me feeling like a stranger to my self, alone to confront the strangness of being. But I've come to understand that we are what we do for others. I've learned that I am nothing without my relatives. I've learned that all my relatives, each and every one of them, human and nonhuman, make each of us who we are by supporting us. And that by acknowledging them as relatives and with respect and responsibility, needs are met.
I started learning my ancestral language as a way of reconnecting myself to my greater identity. Every Lakȟóta word I learn, each way I learn to say something in Lakȟóta, and most importantly how to listen in Lakȟóta, I get to become more of myself by being who we are. Every value and tradition I learn or new connection I make in our community makes me more comfortable with myself and more resilient against my addiction. Some refer to their sobriety as a rebirth. But I feel that by hiding from my ancestors, by not feeding them because I didn't know how, I was never fully born until I could.
Language is a powerful thing and I think what you're doing is medicine in it's own right.
Well said! Thank you for your courage, too. I pray for your continued success!
Thanks for sharing this. Tókhi wániphika ní!
I’ve been struggling trying to keep away from my addiction, and I got recommended this at a perfect time. Thank you Jackson, I love you’re work.
Ima pretend like I didn’t just use the absolute wrong spelling of yore.
I tried to quit smoking several times. I think the problem was that I told myself "alright as from today I'm never smoking again".
then the itch inevitably came, followed by the realization that 'never' was an awfully long time to not be smoking. eventually I'd fall off the wagon and use my relapse as an excuse to keep smoking.
then came the day I graduated from high school (I had dropped out before). I told myself I wanted to quit on that day, so that I would remember it forever. new phase of life, new me. it would be 'perfect'.
I picked up my diploma and immediately had a celebration cig when someone offered it. goddamnit, my whole plan out the window. what could've been an inspirational story turned out to be a dream. I wanted to be free from addiction yet I failed immediately. it's like setting off on an adventure and breaking your leg as you walk out the door...
yet that celebration cig I had 9 years ago would actually turn out to be my last cigarette ever. I guess I realized that that even though I had lost day 1, there was still day 2, day 3, day 100.
all I had to do was keep trying one day at a time.
I even kept a pack of cigarettes close, in case of emergency. I guess it felt comforting knowing that I could go back to being my old self at any time. I also didn't tell anyone that I was trying to quit smoking. I could fail completely at my goal and no one would know.
I still have that pack of cigs, even though I have zero desire to ever smoke again. I keep it as a souvenir.
Wise beyond your years, good Doctor. I knew there was something about your character that I understood. I too have felt that bite, and I appreciate when others have the courage to show the scar it leaves. I stand with you all the same, eager to take in what you so generously share. Thank you kindly, Sir.
Hey we're proud of you. I'm happy you're still here, I love the knowledge, joy, and wonder you spread, and I'm glad you have this outlet to talk about it
I never reached the point of clinical alcoholism myself, however I saw myself going down that path. I wasn't addicted, but I was self medicating. Thankfully as an armed forces member my medical treatment for the Anxiety it turned out that I had helped break the cycle. I cannot imagine how hard it is for someone for whom the bottle of alcohol is the cheaper option.
Everyone on earth deserves mental and physical healthcare.
Thank you for sharing this and your reflection on the past five years. :)
I have a lot of sober friends and family.
My mom is seven years sober and my brother is going through treatment right now. My maternal grandpa was sober for over 20 years before he passed.
Dr. Crawford, I’m 2 years late to this video but this is truly inspiring. I had the same problem and had the same withdrawals(DT’s) at a time. I started learning about the Old Norse language, coincidentally, on your channel after I sobered up and I haven’t turned back. We do recover.
Congratulations! 5 years is a milestone. I know how hard this road is to follow. After many tries I am living my life sober, and some days its hard but well worth it. I'll have 15 years in February 2021. I am happy for you!
Way to function Cowboy !!!
When you Saddle Up, stay there. If you get Bucked Off.....GET BACK ON !!!
_You're Awesome Crawford !!!!_
Congratulations. I never would have guessed it. I suppose that's the thing about having a problem. There's not a certain type of person, it can be anyone. My mother and a very close friend struggled with alcoholism. It's physically and spiritually draining and a huge accomplishment to beat it.
I'm sure I speak for many of your viewers/subscribers when I say that I've benefited as much or more from your distinctive wit, personality, commitment to candor, and humor, as I have the wealth of knowledge you impart. I'm so glad that you're with us, and I'm so glad that you made that decision five years ago. Thank you for everything you share with us.
I’m glad you shared that Dr Crawford. I’ve been Clean 26 years. Consistently learning and applying spiritual principles is what makes it possible, Just For Today.
Thank you for this video. Few people talk about "this" kind of health issues, I can't stress how much I respect you for it. Hope everything turns out ok, keep up the good work! :)
Absolutely fantastic! Congratulations Professor Crawford. My favorite "drink" is Iced Tea and I'm hoisting a glass to your continued sobriety! Well done sir!
Thank you so much for sharing this! I've been sober for 54 days now. Hearing your story and knowing I'm not alone in this, I can't thank you enough!
Very big of you to admit to this. And on the contrary, I only respect you more for it. No ones perfect and anyone who appears such should make you very suspicious.
I can't express how much you've done for me life with just your videos. I've lived pueblo for a bit and wish to come back home to the mountains. You're a shining light in darkness to me. One mountain man to another I wish you strength and wisdom in this world.
Awesome Dr. Crawford!!
It’s inspirational to others when you achieve a milestone and can share -
We all need to help each other, thank you
For this 🥰✌🏼
Thank you for posting this! I am a professional and I tend not to speak of my sobriety openly very often outside of meetings. I am 5 YEARS SOBER TODAY!! We are not perfect and our lives still have problems but facing them sober changes everything. Amen! We do recover!
What an odd world! I have never tasted alcohol in my life but here I am, stuck in a very similar situation. Here, in Russia, being a linguist (Russian and English studies), I am afraid of returning quarantine/unemployment/economy breakdown. Under the circumstances, one cannot feel perfect. And, ironically, I'm sitting on about 10 liters of grain alcohol our family uses properly - to sanitize hands, food packaging and door handles. Regardless, your example gives us hope to fight this adversity. Dr. Crawford, stay safe, stay sober, be happy. From the banks of the greatest river in Europe we wish you all the best.
I'm surprised to hear this - you seem so accomplished and sensible that I can always hardly believe that you're only a few years older than me. I guess the path to such maturity leads both over high mountains and through deep valleys. Congratulations on your anniversary!
I'm so proud of you. It cannot be easy to post something like this nor to make that call. Congrats, Doc! Here's to 5, 10, and 50 more!
Good for you, Jackson; you've always been an inspirational figure to me, and as someone extremely passionate about the subject you teach, you have been a bastion of knowledge.
I had a similar feeling when I found myself in a hospital after unsuccessfully going after the veins in my neck with an old, rusty box cutter. I had done a poor job, so I wasn't worried for my life, and even if my life was in the balance I wouldn't have cared either way. That said, I think that after years of wading in such deep depths, having something that made me be in the situation to try to change things made all the difference.
I still deal with those same problems, but we just have to take it a day at a time, I suppose. I have never touched substances or alcohol as a result of alcoholism in my family, the subsequent abuse that stemmed from it, amongst other factors is what has kept me away from drinking due to the indirect exposure. I appreciate you telling your story, and in everything you do with this chanel. I hope to one day have as positive of an impact on the world as you have; and maybe one day I'll be able to shake your hand and give you thanks in person. Until then,
All the best.
I thought you were a top bloke before this but now, you’re just class.
WAY TO GO JACKSON!
I am an adult child of an alcoholic mom. You have chosen the higher and better path. Well done sir. Well done!
Truly drengr, friend.
Jeez I hope he sees this. :)
I wrote much the same. But I'm absolutely sure he will read through these particular comments (at some point). A man brave enough to say and do what Jackson did, would not shy back from reading this. I just hope that he is able to find some help and comfort in seing how much he means to all of us. May he lear to see himself with the same honour and vast respect that we, his Followers, do.
I'm proud of you! You have a ton of people who care about you and want only the best for you. Don't worry about the rest.
We like ya just the way you are!
Well done sir! You are trully strong to stand up, and trully selfless in your effort to encourage others to sobriety.
Congrats Doc, I'll be sober 2 years myself on November 2. I love the work you do, on here and your translations. I'm reading your translation of the Poetic Edda currently.
Congratulations. My son sent this to me. I celebrated 12 years in Feb. I still work through each day like it’s the 1st day of my sobriety. Sometimes one moment at a time letting go of the ideas of being perfect.
incredible! addiction is a disease, not a moral failing.
you sir are a good example of a drengr. I hope all of us have the strength and courage to see our flaws and take steps to correct them. Your honesty in sharing this will help many lives. Well done sir.
I didn't see that coming. Thanks for your transparency, Dr. Crawford, and know that on that grey day when you become ashes and return to dust, you can take some solace in that your life has made its mark on the lives of many. I always look forward to your videos; they're fascinating and enlightening. And I hope to watch your 10 year video in the future.
Ode to Jackson Crawford:
How fast our fortunes change! How quickly strong winds die.
Stillness stirs to madness wherever genius lies;
From maelstroms to stillness, and from windless to wise;
How fast our fortunes change! How sudden be our skies!
Thank you for all your hard work, perseverance, and dedication to your craft and to your self throughout the years. Your videos have been a huge boon and inspiration for my current work of epic poetry, and I have credited many dozens of your videos and books (which I would love to get signed someday) in my works referenced.
Sometimes the best thing we can acknowledge is that we shouldnt strive for perfection, but for the best form of ourselves that we can be. Many times you have to fall a long way before you can see that. Congrats on sobriety, reaching to be the best you, and feeling comfortable enough to share your flaws with your peers. You are a uniquely beautiful character, stay you. ❤
I never counted the days. I'll be 17 years sober next month, but I don't know the date. Congratulations.
Thank you for sharing your story with us! You should be proud of yourself! I'm proud of YOU!
I needed to hear this. You inspire me to do better. Thank you for sharing your commitment.
I’m very happy for you Dr. Crawford
I thought it was great! Thank you!
Congrats Doc! I'm not a fan of TH-cam itself but I appreciate the opportunity to share experiences and learn from folks I otherwise never would've even met. Thanks for sharing and it's a pleasure to learn from you. I think you mean a lot to a lot of people.
I deeply respect Dr. Crawford for his sincerity. I am glad he shared this trail and tribulation with us, and I wish him many more years sober. I have seen what that particular dark road can do to people, and I am glad he was able not to walk it.
So true problems are always there.
Its what you do that matters
This is the most encouraging thing I have heard in years, from someone I actually respect. I am going through withdrawal right now, and have been for the last 2+ weeks. I keep feeling wild mood swings between deep depression and anxiety, and dealing with the insomnia. This is my third major time trying to quit. I feel like I get more sensitive each time, (kindling), so this better be my last time, or I might be done for. Wish me luck!
I'm trying to quit now, too. Good luck! I'm rooting for you.
@@saiyamoru I'm 7 months in, and almost 8. I can tell you, it does get better. It takes some time for your body to adjust, esp. if older.
Same for you!
@@OhhhhhhhBugger Do you mind if I ask how old you are? I'm 32 and I've been an alcoholic since I was about 25 - something happened that I badly wanted to forget about. This past month is the first time I've managed more than a few days sober, but I can tell my 'performance' is better and my mind is clearer when I can go for a week without.
I respect you for being open and honest. That should be something expected from one another but in this world it seems especially the personal battles are always hidden away. Good luck and peace with you 🙏
"There's no black and white, I'm as grey as the day that I'll become ashes".
Damn well spoken!
Congratulations, stay strong!
As a recovering opiate addict & norse follower, *You are my hero, Mr.Crawford* and you make my day to day life, a better life. ❤
May all the gods and their blessings, be upon you.
You contribute so much to my life. It’s so hard to believe that you had doubts about your life choices! Im glad you do what you do!
i would never have guessed. i’m sorry for your sorrows, but i’m glad they’re behind you, with hope alongside you and joys to come. a quote i love from tolkien:
“For if joyful is the fountain that rises in the sun, its springs are in the wells of sorrow unfathomable at the foundations of the Earth.”
The Silmarillion