I was a British Soldier with the UN in Gornji Vakuf only 5 years after video was shot.. I never saw the place look so pretty and doubt it still does now. I was based in the blue factory in the muslim side of town. Over the bridge, where the memorial to Wayne Edwards is. Left and up the hill and keep going left..
@@garrierichards8649 I'm happy if my words struck a chord, so to speak. You risked your life being there, and I just thought that it was important to say that your presence over there mattered. I actually left in December 1992, as an 11 year old, but I was of course very much affected by what happened in January 1993 and onward. And I remember members of my family, when I visited in 1997, being friends with a couple of BRITBAT soldiers; they came over for lunch one day, so I got to meet them. And in general, what people have said is that we might not have made it if it weren't for the Scotts, the BRITBAT. And the testimonies at the Hague were also important, not just for justice, but for me personally, to put pieces together and try to understand what my people, my family and friends had gone through. Being a refugee that never came back home (too many bad things happened, so it was impossible to return; my real life exists on another timeline, in another dimension), I'm still to this day looking for some sort of connection, as a way to cope with the loss of home. Now I digress... Just... Thank you!
I am sorry too. I was 11 years old, turned 12 in December 1992, and just a couple of weeks prior, we had left Bosnia, but my father stayed behind (and I'm happy about us leaving, even though I wish we hadn't left my father... But I didn't experience the worst times of the seige, so at least I'm not as traumatized as I would have been, and besides, who knows if I or some other members of my family would have survived at all?). Watching this video, I feel like I am trying to turn back time, to jump right in and just walk home. Home to our happy place, our safety. This video was shot in July 1990, and perhaps my family and me would have been on our Summer vacation on the Croatian coast close to Dubrovnik. When I see videos, pictures, think back... I feel like a part of me dies every time, but it cannot die completely. Or, a part of me has died a long time ago, but I'm still alive and I'm just trying to construct something, anything solid of my life that existed back then. Even though I have a fairly good life now, there is this big part of me that feels hollow. The life that was mine, that was supposed to be, is lost on a different timeline. There's no going back, not back in time, and not onto that "correct" timeline in the present. I try to grasp, but I manage to grab nothing but air. I am sorry that you feel that your soul is haunted, but it's not your fault that we weren't helped. I am sorry for the pain and trauma that also you went through. I am sorry for dear Wayne Edwards who didn't deserve to lose his life in a God forsaken little town, in a God forsaken little country, while he had his whole life ahead of him. ... I am sorry for this long message. I think I have a need to speak, and to speak to others. I simply cannot seem to heal...
I was a British Soldier with the UN in Gornji Vakuf only 5 years after video was shot.. I never saw the place look so pretty and doubt it still does now. I was based in the blue factory in the muslim side of town. Over the bridge, where the memorial to Wayne Edwards is. Left and up the hill and keep going left..
Thank you for being there, i was a child and i can remember everything. British soldiers was very kind with us.
Thank you for being there. Whatever little help you were able to give was the difference between life and death.
@@nedim_guitar Thats the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me.
@@CosmodromeNostalgia I'm getting emotional.. I didn't see your message before and I'm so sorry we didn't do more.,
@@garrierichards8649 I'm happy if my words struck a chord, so to speak. You risked your life being there, and I just thought that it was important to say that your presence over there mattered. I actually left in December 1992, as an 11 year old, but I was of course very much affected by what happened in January 1993 and onward. And I remember members of my family, when I visited in 1997, being friends with a couple of BRITBAT soldiers; they came over for lunch one day, so I got to meet them. And in general, what people have said is that we might not have made it if it weren't for the Scotts, the BRITBAT. And the testimonies at the Hague were also important, not just for justice, but for me personally, to put pieces together and try to understand what my people, my family and friends had gone through. Being a refugee that never came back home (too many bad things happened, so it was impossible to return; my real life exists on another timeline, in another dimension), I'm still to this day looking for some sort of connection, as a way to cope with the loss of home. Now I digress... Just... Thank you!
I really need to go back and visit i was there in 94 as a British Soldier x
That we stood back and never helped haunts my soul..
I am sorry too. I was 11 years old, turned 12 in December 1992, and just a couple of weeks prior, we had left Bosnia, but my father stayed behind (and I'm happy about us leaving, even though I wish we hadn't left my father... But I didn't experience the worst times of the seige, so at least I'm not as traumatized as I would have been, and besides, who knows if I or some other members of my family would have survived at all?). Watching this video, I feel like I am trying to turn back time, to jump right in and just walk home. Home to our happy place, our safety. This video was shot in July 1990, and perhaps my family and me would have been on our Summer vacation on the Croatian coast close to Dubrovnik. When I see videos, pictures, think back... I feel like a part of me dies every time, but it cannot die completely. Or, a part of me has died a long time ago, but I'm still alive and I'm just trying to construct something, anything solid of my life that existed back then. Even though I have a fairly good life now, there is this big part of me that feels hollow. The life that was mine, that was supposed to be, is lost on a different timeline. There's no going back, not back in time, and not onto that "correct" timeline in the present. I try to grasp, but I manage to grab nothing but air. I am sorry that you feel that your soul is haunted, but it's not your fault that we weren't helped. I am sorry for the pain and trauma that also you went through. I am sorry for dear Wayne Edwards who didn't deserve to lose his life in a God forsaken little town, in a God forsaken little country, while he had his whole life ahead of him. ... I am sorry for this long message. I think I have a need to speak, and to speak to others. I simply cannot seem to heal...
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