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"Why deny your child was abused?"
From personal experience, it proves you failed as a parent or guardian. Or because they find it "embarrassing". Ya know, petty bs.
Agreed, also from experience. Also x2 if they know the abuser and x50 if it's their spouse..
It doesn't prove you failed as a parent. Pedos tend to be very smooth in their abuse, so smooth that most go undetected. You can't truly know what's in a person's heart and short of locking your child up in your house and never letting them interact with people unless you're there with them every second, it can't always be prevented.
@@unicornglitterfart5201
There are definitely preventive measures to prevent continuous abuse. Like... Oh... I don't know... Letting your kid know they can actually trust you and talk to you and you'll listen and believe them when they say stuff like this happens? I'm not saying you fail as a parent if your child is abused by an outsider in a situation that's out of your control, however, you HAVE failed as a parent if your child tells you it's happening and you deny it or call them a liar and allow it to continue.
@@unicornglitterfart5201 I agree with you. I just meant that that's what it probably feels like to the parent (my personal perspective is that of the child and that's what I perceived my mom as feeling/thinking).
Failed as a parent? Stop using your arse for a mouth. How about the sick freaks that prey on kids. I certainly wouldn't want you within a mile of a child
There’s legit nothing new I’m gonna learn about this song, band, or the singer with this video. KoRn was my everything when I was a kid, teenager, and young adult. I knew everything about them reading every interview, watching every documentary, live recorded show, etc. And shortly after someone gave me this copy of their first album, I fell victim to being sexually abused, by a non family member. This song was a huge reason I am still here today, it helped me realize myself and many others who suffer this are not alone, and Jon spoke through his pain to help many going through different hardships to carry on and overcome past and present things many have endured.
I think he did a song about it with Apoclipitica. I wnt forgive, might be name. It's about abuse by church folk, full of kids. I love that song
@@stacymanning2393 I think you mean "I'm not Jesus" and that song was by Corey Taylor who also suffered abuse as a child.
Ditto! I still love Korn!
Same. This album came out when I was in high school and right before someone finally believed me after 9 years of trying to tell anyone who could help what my stepfather was doing to me every day.
@Odin trash?
i cant physically listen to korn's daddy song without wanting to cry because i love jonathan davis
i heard it the first time a few days ago and it hit me in the stomach. the breakdowns made my heart sink because you feel everything being released from him in that moment.
Everything he’s gone through in the past and still goes through breaks my heart. The fact that even after all this hardship he’s struggled through, he lost his wife a couple years ago. It’s heart wrenching. I can’t imagine going through all the things he’s been through throughout his life. I can’t imagine how his kids must feel losing their mother.
Hell, you don't have to know the guy or have any opinion on him whatsoever, just hearing what he went through and how it effected him, hearing the genuine anguish in his voice during this song, if you don't feel sick or wanna cry by the end of it, you're not human.
Exactly
Omg my brother was named Jonathan Davis
Jonathan has gone on record to say that "Daddy" is the only song he can never bring himself to do live ever again. They played it about 7 years ago while celebrating the 20 year anniversary of the debut album, but as soon as it ended, Jonathan went immediately to the back and broke down.
When the lead singer of Korn started to cry and cursing during that song as well as the mother singing in the ending, not only that send me shivers down my spine, it also made me feel sorry for the guy.
I think Eminem's "Kim" and "Frankie Teardrop" are disturbing enough in my opinion, but "Daddy" outranked those songs.
His name is Johnathan Davis BTW
You should listen to Slipknot's Iowa (song) if you want some more disturbing music
Twighly wouldn't like this song
Cattle Decapitation - Forced Gender ReAssignment??
@@SVTOKO fuck yes. Thanks for the info on new song! Hell yes brother/Sista! Yay
Fun fact: My mom and Johnathan were friends in their early years. Has the yearbook with them both in it. Bakersfield was such a small town so it's weird to think, now living in Florida, about this topic. My mom said she always had a weird vibe from him, but nothing bad, just a weird dude.
he is a wired dude nothing wrong with that but we do live in a small world
My parents went to high school with JD as well, said the same thing. Not really a bad dude, just kinda... Off.
Probably thinking he doesn't just want to be another 9-5er in life.
he had a rough childhood poor dude
Everybody's weird in some way
everytime I get this song in a playlist i am left a sobbing mess because it makes me think so heavily about things that have happened to me.
same i skip it as soon as i hear the intro . cannot take it
Don't dwell in the feeling but don't ignore or run from it either or it gets worse and anxiety gets worse, it all gets worse. When the feelings come let them happen then move on. Do not make the mistakes I made and try to run and distract the moment it happens because that makes it happen more and makes it bigger and many eventually turn to alcohol or whatever (I drank a lot) is around to try and stop it and develop anxiety that is bad enough to keep you in a state of dysfunction.
Idk anything about anyone here, only want to pass this message on to whoever needs it. If I had known, so much pain could have been avoided. Might even be a functioning person today.
You’re not alone
I am so sorry and if it's any consolation, you're not alone in that feeling of anger, despair, hatred, and helplessness. There's many people, including myself, that are here to relate and maybe we can help each other through this. You and I don't have to suffer alone; we can all help each other carry the weight. Please, take care and reach out anytime.
@@eaterofspiders In my school one of the girls said that the P.E teacher would spy on the girls while in the changing room. It may not seem as serious but who knows what type of person the teacher was outside of the school.
Never knew this, really eye opening. PSA take your child serious and don't treat them like they're stupid when they're young and they'll trust that they can go to you in the future.
This song has helped me SO MUCH since I came into terms with my SA. My mom allowed my former stepfather to do really nasty stuff to me (she even looked and participated in some things), and I used to think I was alone, like I was the only one experiencing this... But when I heard Daddy for the first time, it felt like it was exactly describing how I felt, and after crying like a baby, I didn't feel alone anymore. Although some people may find these types of songs disturbing or even disgusting, there are SA survivors who need them. Just to not feel alone and achieve catharsis.
you deserved so much better, and i am so sorry.
Ugh what they did to you was disgusting and horrible, I'm glad you were able to find yourself in this song. I hope your feeling better
I'm really sorry you went through this. How are you holding up now as an adult?
**hugs**
I hope you don't feel alone now…
Some people do not deserve to have children or to continue living. If only society’s brutality could be reserved for those who harm the innocent.
I swearrr as a survivor of incestual CSA, that song hits home. korn is very comforting for me, as it really resonates with me. i'm happy to see you make a video on this song!
the hardest part of the song is the sheer fact that davis has a real breakdown in the song. the pain that a survivor carries with them is something only we can fully understand... this song gave people a glimpse of how it feels to carry that trauma.
Same. That album came out when I was in high school. Even though I had friends that knew what my stepfather was doing to me, I lived in a smallish town and I was an artist, not a jock, so no one ever believed me. From the age of 8 to 14 I would tell anyone who would listen. The cops threatened to put me in jail for filing a false police report, my guidance counselor told me I was lying to get out of class. I gave up trying to tell after that and went through another 4 years before a complete stranger heard me and my best friend laughing about something that happened in 5th grade ("hey Amy, do you remember when John beat the shit out of you when I was sleeping over, broke your glasses and then made YOU pay for them") pulled me to the side, and made me tell her everything. He was gone within the hour. Since it was a small town the same cops that threatened me were the same ones that had to tell him to get out of the house. And the same ones that had to take my police report in the station (1995 so hand written) I was there for hours, the report ended up being about 4 inches thick. The cops refused to look me in the eye, but you better believe I looked dead in theirs.
As people say, "Dark media should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable."
@@amypanddirtytoo1926 i'm so sorry to hear that happened to you, at the very least you recieved justice and i'm happy for that.
Ive reported my abuser multiple times to the DCFS and police, they never cared to look into the case because it wasnt penetrative. I haven't seen my abuser in almost 10 years, last I heard hes addicted to hard drugs and looks like a skeleton. The police system may not have given me justice, but I know very soon that he will get what he deserves.
Best of luck to you, I hope youve healed and are doing well. its not easy to live with and I know the pain.
agreed even as someone who never went through it this song makes you see and feel the pain of victims of the selfish monsters who do this.
@@cupcake9483 wow, thank you so much, that was so unbelievably sweet of you!😊 Also, if you went through abuse your pain isn't any less valid because someone had it worse. Don't ever feel that way. If you break your leg but there is someone next to you in the hospital with two broken legs, do you say "oh well, guess I better suck it up and walk home"? Of course not. Your pain and your abuse is just as valid as mine. There will always be someone who had it worse than the next person, all the way up until there is only one person in the entire world who had it worse than everyone else who was abused. Does that mean that there is only person out of the trillions who live on this planet that is allowed to think of their abuse as actual abuse? Of course not. I know deep down you believe that, but don't feel bad that others maybe had it "worse" than you. You're worth it too, and you deserve to look at your trauma as abuse so you can start to heal too. Because you deserve to heal too and start leading the best life you can.
I had a very repressed childhood, a lot stuff happened and I remember always chanting to myself, "I'll wait til I'm an adult." Meaning I'll think about it and deal with it then, because I knew shit was bad.
I got into Korn in high school I think, found their albums up to date at the time in my moms CD book, and I popped it in one night. When I got to "daddy" I'll just say I was already in an extremely vulnerable headspace. I had this weird bubbling feeling in my stomach and felt super catatonic. When I first heard the line, "I didn't touch you there." I actually fucking fainted. Then everything came flooding back to me. The assaults, the pain, the endless nights of insomnia and pissing my bed. My aggressive elementary school days. I was in shock for weeks after, and that single line was all I heard. What was really scary is that the way Jon says it, it's an exact echo. Almost like that one line was recorded right out of my memories. After a year or so passed, I kept the song on repeat, trying to desensitize myself to it. Idk why I did it, I couldn't stop.
Told a family member about it, and she said she knew. Everyone knew. It was a whole ordeal and I'm just glad that after I remembered, I was assured it was all handled and it ended when I first had spoken up about it.
I avoided that song all this time til I seen this video-had to listen first before watching this to be caught up-and its still very shocking but when I watched the lyric video and read the comments there I feel so.. Idk comforted.
Other than this one song though, I absolutely loved Korn. They were with me all through highschool, and helped me work through all my anger and fucked up silly emotions. They're still my go-to band when I need to let out all the junk the piles up and they've always given me a cathartic listening experience. Really glad I listened to them, because they just GET it, even if at the time I didn't.
Well There is this band
The story behind this is terrifying. A extreme metal band called "Stalaggh" (later known as "Gulaggh") had a member who worked as a nurse in a psychiatric hospital in the Netherlands and was looking after him, and this became the artwork for one of the band's albums after the man killed himself. Depending on the story they either kidnapped or conned the hospital into giving them access to some of the more insane patients, and they took them away to a remote location to record "the primal screams of the insane". All of their albums, 6 in total were made using the screams of mentally ill patients layered over guitar and noise. One their most controversial album "Projekt Misanthropia" a schizophrenic man who murdered his mother was taken to a farmhouse with the other patients, and at one point in the album you can hear a scuffle break out as the screams take on a primal, almost demonic edge. That is where the schizophrenic man had tackled and had begun strangling one of the band members so severely that he was almost killed. They also gained access to the children's wing and recorded there, which the band believes is their best work because "children don't hold back their screaming". The session was ended when one of the children broke off their nails after collapsing onto the ground and trying to claw through the concrete while screaming. All of the patients used gave their full permission, because according to the band (whose members are all anonymous) "they hate humanity as much as we do."
Despite all this, many of the patients describe it as the best therapy they've had in years.
- a story behind an image drawn by someone related to the band before commiting suicide..
I love there music
Thanks for the recommendation and such a fascinating backstory, even if it's most definetly playing with fire. They took a huge risk to produce such an album, making me all the more glad for the opportunity that comes with experiencing such music.
Damn I just gave them a listen on here and holy shit it sounds horrifying.
I think plagued moth has talked about that before
Primal screams of the insane reminds me of 'finger paintings of the insane' acid bath
When Johnathan Davis started to cry……..I just wanted to hug him, god damn he doesn’t deserve this :(((.
Same…(
I never told anyone about my childhood sexual abuse but it’s something I carry with me every day, especially now I am a mommy myself. Even as an adult I have never told anyone what happened to me.
Tell someone
You need to let that stuff out , even if its anonymously
You need to let your voice be heard. I was also abused and my memories were suppressed for years until one day it all came flooding back and i felt like i was going thru it all again. Your brain wont want to hold onto it anymore. It makes you paranoid as a mom to leave your child anywhere for fear of something happening. BUT it never goes away but with therapy and a good trauma therapist it brings it to an ache and not a debilitating fear and anxiety. When you are ready you will know. But you aren’t alone and no those feelings dont make you damaged or crazy. Its really a sad world we live in but your mental health is more important anything. Try to find the good in life enjoy being a mom knowing that you will do everything in your power to protect your children. I hope some of my words help. But do it at your own speed but the sooner you start than the sooner it will be manageable. Take care of yourself always. You have to be mentally healthy to raise your child also so you can be your best self and the best mom you can.
As someone else who has never admitted their SA out loud to anyone, I know how you feel. I wish I had someone to talk to.
Me too but I opened up to my therapist he gave me my self esteem back
I'm not a fan of Korn since I listen to less heavier music but I respect them and like their performances. That song Daddy is one of the creepiest songs I've heard and it's very emotional to listen to. It would be awesome if you were to make these videos with more creepy songs. That being some by Nine Inch Nails and Manson.
all of this and maybe some metal recs too
I'm not a fan of Korn cos it isn't heavy enough for me.
@@Sub5_77 You have to be a pussy to only care how heavy something is. Not that I think Korn were very good but they werent bad because they werent heavy enough, i just dont think their music was very good regardless imo.
Plagued hates Manson
@@KingQwerty I know that but it wouldn't hurt to touch on one of his tracks, the creepy weird one of just 1 minute.
I am a mental health nurse from the UK.
The people I have nurse have often been through childhood sexual, physical and/or emotional abuse. Experiences from childhood can and do affect a person’s entire life.
Just when I think I can no longer be surprised at an adults capacity to harm a child I meet another person with an even more horrific past.
I have a lot of time for JD and also for anyone that survives this kind of trauma.
You obviously found this difficult Moth and I send you love ❤️
It’s a good thing that they’re getting the help they need instead of repeating everything done to them on others and continuing the cycle
Daddy is a fucked up song and I love how understandably raw it is.
I'm not huge into Korn (but I don't hate it). At the same time, I can respect the artistry of it.
Now as for a possible future song to cover. Prison Sex by Tool. It's about the cycle of abuse.
One of my favorites!
One of my favorite Tool songs.
i love korn and it's one of my favorite songs from them.
“I do unto others what has been done to me”
"I have found a kind of temporary sanity in this shit, blood, and cum on my hands. I have come round full circle"
They indeed had their cringeworthy phases however as mentioned they were one of the pillars to help go through with it through tough years for many children back then and that is why they will always be in a special place in our hearts. This song was like a punch to the throat when it is first listened to if you don't have a clue up to this point.
Whenever anyone mentions cringe and Korn I always think of that ballsville music video for their song "Hold On."
At least a lot of their cringe is funny to look back on. lol
First time I heard the ending bit of Korn’s “Daddy”, something in my chest started hurting.
As a survivor of childhood sexual assault, I never wanted to reach out and give a warm hug to a rockstar more. Unless you’ve experienced it yourself, there is no way you can truly understand the amount of agony the trauma from being victimized by rape gives you.
I listened to the song for the first time over this weekend and that completely broke me. I always like Korn because of Head's and Munky's guitar riffs. However, this song devastated me and made me want to hug Johnathan Davis through the screen. I give him my upmost respect for having the bravery to record it. That is one of the most important things about the creative arts, it captures human experience from all forms the good, the bad, and the ugly. People who have experienced trauma can take it and transform that negative energy into something positive. It can find people going through the darkest times. To me this song is not just a song, its a therapy session. My heart goes out to anyone who has survived child abuse.
Korn was always the band that used to be looked down on during my youth, they simply weren't true enough to the spirit of metal in the eyes of many. Seeing the full picture and knowing that the experience behind the band was genuine makes me appreciate them all the more, especially since not many shared this mindset. I may not enjoy the band as much anymore but I will never forget all the joy their music brought me, hence why I have a lot of gratitude towards the band for keeping my mind open.
I could never get into lamb of god or five finger death punch and bands like that because it felt like they were trying way to hard to be edgy. When you listen to Korn rob zombie and marylin Manson it feels legitimately angry at the world.
I don’t care if a band isn’t considered metal enough if I like it I like it plus those metal gatekeepers are losers
@@gloomyvibrations That is indeed the case most of the time, which is a good reason not to worry about their gatekeeping. Sadly it is also unavoidable and very prevalent, seeing how many metalheads are ready to dismiss Your takes on the genre if You enjoy anything but the oldschool "canon" bands. Good thing there are also many who enjoy music freely, without the need to prove themselves as the true fans every single minute of their lifes.
@@gloomyvibrations I concur!!!
@@keshia4456 nice to know people agree with me
Yeah, this was one of the few albums that actually got me into trouble with parents/friend's parents when I was growing up. Looking back on it, it probably wasn't the brightest idea asking for GWAR's "America Must Be Destroyed" as a birthday gift with a Vietnam vet as a stepdad, either.
Jesus Christ.
Just reading that made me kinda recoil a little.. 😅
I would've still asked.
Yeah that wasn't the brightest idea in the Chandelier
You should've seen the look's on my parents face back in 2000 when I asked for the KITTIE cd but none the less I was surprised they actually bought it for me hahaha💿😆 It wasn't til much later on when my mom listen to the lyrics and was like welp too late now🤣 Don't get me started on her reaction to the music videos of KITTIE that I would watch on MTV when it was still cool LOL!!!
By the way I am 33 now with a January birthday so you figure out how old I was in 2000 and KITTIE still holds a strong special spot in my heart aside from Marilyn Manson & Motley Crue I would have to admit it was KITTIE that was my door way into much heavier music...
I live in the town KoRn was founded in and I can see where the inspiration came from as I shared in the mental downward spiral. Bakersfield has Oilfields and Farmland. very bleak and depressing. lots of family issues and abuse and druggies. it's so unfortunate how some of us are just born to suffer and must endure it.
very true. im not from there but i live close, but i went to visit for about a week and you can really see a lot of what you described. i got one look at that place and i was, like yea korn is definitely from here.
i relate to korns shit a lot
Daddy is one of those songs and you can tell all the emotion is real because it was the same emotion i felt since i was raped in the first place
that shit never goes away
I started listening to Korn when I was 10. I remember seeing an older kid wearing their shirt so I bought Take A Look In The Mirror. This was when Make Me Bad was always on TRL. Korn will always be a life saving band.
I got into them when I was about 8 yrs old. Follow the Leader had just dropped and freak on a leash was all over mtv.
I remember the first time I listened to this song, it felt disgusting to know its a true story. "Mommy" by Mushroomhead is equally as disturbing.
Mushroom head is a willd name. Never heard of em. Imma check it out
@@jdoteasy They are a great band
@@jdoteasy Savior Sorrow is a badass album, definitely a good jumping off point.
Mommy is very disturbing . Mandy Lascko's vocal performance is so sad but innocent at the same time. When she asks mommy to go outside... It's heart wrenching when you know the back story
@@jdoteasy sounds like something from the Mario games
You should make this a series! I've always had a fascination with songs with scary/disturbing backstories
Or bands, Mayhem and Per Ohlin's and the story behind it all is twisted!!
@@paulinekedro7327 that one is pretty wild though it's been covered a ton, if there's a fresh way to link that story to maybe a similar but more obscure one though that would make for a really interesting video
You should also do a video on 515 by Slipknot. The entire song is consist of Sid screaming into the mic having a legit mental breakdown as Jonathan did in Daddy. Both are equally creepy and horrifying to listen to
isnt that cause his grandpa died while sid wasnt with him?
@@sanirolvrr Yup. He couldn’t make it to say his goodbyes to his grandpa
Song is too short for that tho....iowa and scissors on the other hand...
Iowa the song would make a good video, maybe including Skin Ticket
@@Le-Monade Ah, that's why he was screaming "death" repeatedly?
The song “DOA” by Bloodrock is a disturbing and heavy song from the seventies that a guy in the band wrote about his pilot friend dying in a crash. Very eerie indeed.
It's a song that it's like a two time listen for me
I have that album. The band deserved more recognition.
i’m a victim of child sexual abuse, similarly from an older man when i was a very young person myself, and this song puts the raw pain into something i feel really communicates it that anything music can’t - while it makes me incredibly upset to listen to knowing how someone has suffered the way i have ( and still do ) it’s also weirdly comforting knowing i’m not an outlier. i’m really grateful for it in a way.
Lol
Moth on my phone, Wendigoon paused on my laptop 😂😂
goddess I love your intro song too much
I haven't stopped crying all week. Literally is taking a miracle every day for me not to blow my head off. Thank you
Do you have trusted people you can reach out to? I'm just a concerned stranger. Please stay safe. :(
hope you're doing okay
Lol ur like Ariana grande
I hope things get better for you!! :(
I hope things have gotten better and you've been able to cope properly:( There's apps that are free like Being and Woebot which provide types of therapy as needed. Hope youre able to heal to your best ability, friend
I'm here! my hubby and I listen to korn on a daily. it's like something we bond on. this is going to be fun! thank you moth!❤
The entirety of KoRn’s self titled album is fucking incredible and is an album *everyone* should listen to at least once. Jonathan Davis CREATED nu metal, and I thank him for it every day.
They’re still going hard. Requiem is a solid album and 2019’s The Nothing is damn near a perfect KoRn album.
I’m still upset that Neidermayer’s Mind is so rare though. Blind’s demo with the extended riff is literally so nasty and dirty. So fucking good.
i luv ur k-on pfp
Best KoRn album!
@@LivvyUwU thank you :))) ritsu is my favorite
My mother turned into an abusive piece of shit to me when I was an adult, but I'm thankful for the fact that when I went to her as a 4YO and told her my stepfather was sexually abusing me that she believed me. I can't imagine how hard it must be for kids who go through that to not be believed.
Daddy used to be such a comfort song for me (it helped me make sense of my own sexual trauma and know that I wasn’t alone in it), I’m glad it’s getting the recognition it deserves as a disturbing, yet important piece of art
When I was SA as a small kid my mum didn’t believe me and thought I was being rude and over dramatic when I refused to leave my room when that family friend would come over and would scream and shout when left alone with him
It made me believe that it was my fault and something that was supposed to happen to me
When I got a bit older and found out what sex was I then realised what happened to me and told my parents, my dad believed me and cried and apologised profusely, my mum told me I was lying and making it up because she wouldn’t let him near me if he was a p*do
I then as a experiment asked my sister to say he did something minor to her and my mum believed her straight away and promised to keep him out of the house
That trauma has never left me not only the SA but not being believed or comforted by my own mother has made me unable to trust easily if at all even to today
Have you called your mother out on it yet? Most people I know have told their parents off about how horrible they were to them as a child once they become adults.
Korn was also my gateway into heavier music and metal. They were my first live show and they have a special place in my heart! I’m glad you made this video and I really resonated with your part about an abusive childhood. I’m so grateful we live in a generation where therapy or counselling is normalized. It has saved me and I am constantly working on my issues. It’s so nice to have a community, regardless of its size, that you can just feel understood or accepted. Even if it’s just a moment it is an immeasurable sense of peace. Thank you for creating a place for like minded people to just be who they are. No shame or guilt.
I was a massive Korn fan in middle and high school. Their first album and _Untouchables_ (and their others to an extent) got me through a lot of shit. And the song "Daddy" was very cathartic, even though I did not go through what Jonathan Davis did. I guess it was a reminder that things could always be worse.
This reminds me of Prison Sex by Tool. I think the subject matter is similar to what happened to Jonathan Davis by the lead singer Maynard. It's heartbreaking, and the MV for the song was removed from MTV not too long after being aired because the stop-animation of it is not graphic but paired with the song really encompasses the horrors of CSA.
I would LOVE if you could cover some of OTEP's songs. She talks about abuse, religious trauma...etc.
I should, met her twice used to be a huge fan tbh
omg thank you i just looked her up she’s awesome
@@waiting4u2saveme27 She also used to write and preform spoken word poetry. I actually own her poetry book. It's called Caught Screaming.
@HeyThatsAlex658 I would LOVE that. Or March Of The Martyrs.
When I first heard the song ' back in the day', I was like, holy fuck! Someone else knows this pain, I'm not alone. I didn't know how widespread child sexual abuse was at that point, I felt alone and like I couldn't tell anyone. I was deeply depressed, confused and troubled but I think, having that small slice of validation helped me through. Thank you, for covering this topic.
This is actually one of my favorite korn songs because of the emotion and meaning behind it. Thanks for covering it
Saved my life, helped me realize that I wasn't alone and that the effects of that particular trauma can truly ruin you, an invisible enemy that's always with you.
Wouldn't recommend listening to it now if you have suffered, it is pure trigger fuel, unless you are mentally ready to face your own suffering.
Didn't know this one - would love to know more "songs with disturbing backstories" Thanks for the info Moth
Korn was one of my first metal bands back to 2005, I remember how terrifing it was to me as 7 yo kid find out the truth about this song. Now even more scary is fact that Davis still can't find peace in his mind after this shit, he deserves better for sure
When one of my favorite TH-camrs makes a video about a song from your favorite band you know it’s a good day. I literally screamed from excitement.
Trigger warning: CSA
The most disturbing song I’ve heard is called Amy in the White Coat by the band Bright Eyes. The melody is calm and soft but the subject matter is soo depressing I cry thinking about a child experiencing that. The lyrics and the way they’re sung really gives me a deep pit of despair in my gut.
Hearing John break down at the end and screaming hurts so bad I’m glad after the recording they all hugged him and I’m glad his abusers dead as well and anyones going thru anything know you’re not alone people will always have your back
Thanks for sharing this, I didn't really get into Korn, I'm more a Goth than anything. This makes me think of the Cures song, Lullaby, where Robert Smith sings about the sexual abuse from his dad! When you listen to the lyrics knowing what happened to Robert Smith, it gives me the chills every time I listen to it...Quietly he laughs and shaking his head/ Creeps closer now, closer to the foot of the bed/ And softer than shadow and quicker than flies/ His arms are all around me and his tongue in my eyes/ Be still be calm be quiet now my precious boy/ Don't struggle like that or I will only love you more/ For it's much too late to get away or turn on the light/ The Spiderman is having you for dinner tonight...........thought I would share this since we are on the topic...
The Cure is fucking awesome. Disintegration really is one of the best albums ever!
@@mistertagomago7974 Disintegration is my favorite album since I was 15 and I'm in my late 40's now. LOL I still have the CD, which I have replaced over and over so old school...Love Song is my favourite song in the whole world and even after all these years it still gives me chills, he wrote that one for his wife Mary, for when he is away on tour...I got to see them live in concert in Auckland. It was the best concert that I've too, they played for 3 and half hours, one ticked off my bucket list that's for sure!!!
The melody of that song is beautiful and haunting, but the real meaning really is creepy. Same as a goth I absolutely love The Cure and nonetheless Robert is a genius, but it's a shame that these artists we live always have a tragic past.
Holy shit. I always thought "Lullaby" was about sleep paralysis.
@@melloncollie3321 fr I’ve never known It was about SA😳
korn is genuinely my favorite band of all time. Sometimes i still just lock my door and sob while listening to this song. This band has literally helped me through the worst times in my life. Ive dealt with so much trauma and addiction that listening to korn at this point isnt even really for the sound but just for therapeutic purposes. Ive been to 3 of their shows and have met ray and fieldy. I will always be grateful for jonathan and this band
This song still makes me feel really sad. As a victim of CSA by another family member (my uncle). I love Korn, but this is the one song I can't stomach. It's just too real and it makes me think back to that time. It's even worse when you learn that this song also comes from a very real place and isn't just for the sake of being edgy. (Looking at you, Disturbed. Although, they don't add the little abuse skit in the song anymore, at least not at concerts, from my experience.)
The pain of having your own mother call you a liar after telling her your uncle groomed and abused you, it's a song that I can relate to very well. Too well.
@@whatabeautifulduwang9603 might help to know that genesis 1 god is elohymn and not the lord god.. which would mean the flesh/ male and female host body system is the no no and sex is the forbidden fruit.. and the lord god in genesis 2.. the creator and father of all formed man from the dust creating his race.. that had sex with the serpents race from genesis 1.. what im trying to say here is that this world and the flesh "male and female" is in the image of satan/elohymn and its no suprise why the fucked up things people go through happen.. this world is a garbage can.. theres nothing new under the sun.. all things are new in the upper room tho.. just something to ponder on.. ur not alone in this fucked up world.. the enmity within is at work.. and to the children of the lord god.. they will be made 1 new being back to christ out of this duplistic cannabalistic system..
abuse skit????????? im gonna need more info chief ghh
@@FiSH-iSH Listen to the original recording of Disturbed's Down With The Sickness.
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Korn's self-titled album was a gateway for me into heavier music as well. I was about 16 at the time and was a survivor of CSA, so when I heard Daddy it threw me for a fucking loop. I listened to that album non-stop for MONTHS because I felt a connection that I had never felt before. My taste in music has evolved a lot since then, but I will always have a fondness for that album and especially the song Daddy.
Ouch, this one hit hard. I too was a big fan of Korn in the early days. This helps to explain why. It wasn't my "daddy" either, but a female family member.
My dad introduced me to Korn by giving me a copy of their first album on cassette. I was around 12 or 13 or so. While I never experienced sexual abuse, there was a lot of emotional abuse and some physical abuse directed at me in the family home that was one of the reasons I connected with Korn's music. They helped me get through a lot of shit and while I don't listen to them as much these days, I'll always appreciate them for that.
Well said, Plagued. As someone from Bakersfield who went through my own share of unfortunate events, Korn has always had a special place in my heart, and your video on them is an unexpected treat. Saw them live in Oakland not too long ago. They still leave it all on the stage.
I still fucking love this song despite how disturbing it is. KoRn fan 4 life
You should talk about Iowa by Slipknot next.
That’s a good one, although I would recommend Snuff
Never listened to Korn but I remember Acid Bath having deeply disturbing lyrics in a similar vein.
I saw korn on the 20th anniversary of this album coming out, and they preformed the entire album for the occasion. And seeing this song played live for the first time in forever, was absolutely surreal
on a dark night, me and my cousin were driving around in my jeep. i met him pick a song and he played daddy by korn, i was so terrified but intrigued. never before has a song captivated me like that, and i was obsessed. truly one of the greatest songs ever
What a great video. I’d love to see this be the start of a series on disturbing songs/albums/artists seeing as some of my other favorites of yours involve music (the silencer video).
Acid bath’s “when the kite string pops”, the dark side of the mommas and the papas, As I Lay dying’s Tim Lambiesis, Lost Prohpets’s Ian Watkins, the deaths of Sam Cooke and Marvin Gaye and experimental metal band Portal, would all be really interesting video ideas aside from common music/true crime stories like mayhem/Norwegian black metal and the 27 club/Robert Johnson.
Keep up the great work!
Ooh, can't ever get of enough of acid bath. That would be sick. And yeah, I'm actually surprised moth hasn't covered lost prophets. Holy shit.
Can you explain more of the dark side of the mommas and papas?
@@artg6700 drug abuse, the death of Cass Elliot and the rumors spread about it, the alleged child abuse and incest allegations against John Philips
Omg as I lay dying so good yeah I would love a vid like that
I'd like to see you cover "Pretty" as well. Imo, the story behind it is just as disturbing as Daddy.
Can I ask why the cover is disturbing?
@@zldeks it was about a autopsy of an abused baby that was left in a restroom
The song F××got always made me sad
As an abuse victim, this song hit me SO HARD
It still does to this day
this song is absolutely my everything. i’ve been through sa multiple times by family and non family members. it’s all i knew for a time. bullying, abuse, and sa abuse. i was 5. 5 years old. i was so young. i was a baby. i just got into kindergarten. i.was.so.young. but, when my aunt told me about a funky dude she met at the hospital she worked at. she said he asked all the nurses to call him jon, and he told them about a band he was starting. he said it was “corn. but with a k.” and talked about it a lot during his stay. you could tell he was proud. she said he was nice. weird, but not a bad weird. like an outcast weird. but she said he was sweet. she found me a cd of the first album after telling me this story, that “it seems like your music.” and it’s truly helped me so much. thank you for making this video, moth. i truly love your videos.
Yo this was a great one. I'm going to see Korn in a few months and I'm hype. Happy Father's day moth🤘
i find this song (along with kill you + dead bodies everywhere) to be incredibly comforting during meltdowns. excellent video
i’m glad you did a video on this! been a fan for a while and this song makes me cry everytime i listen to it.
i’ve seen your shit on tiktok for a long time and only figured out you do youtube recently.
This song is pretty disturbing, tho I think “Dance With The Devil” by Immortal Technique takes it for me.
Yeah, that song is pretty haunting.
The lyrics of that song feels like a cautionary tale.
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Can you do Slipknot's Iowa? I think that track is yet another disturbing song as well. I know the lyrics aren't that disturbing, more creepy, but it's the instruments and samples that deliver a darker tone to it. Along with the screaming near the end of the song.(Correct me about the lyrics if I'm wrong)
Doesn't the lead singer injure himself to produce said vocals in that song?
@@kaos5633 Oh yeah, he does that too. Sorry, it's been awhile since I read the history behind it.
I love this song, but for me it's more abt psycho love than creppy lol
@@adanbalbuena3104 oh no need to be sorry. If anything I just wanted to bring that up because it amplifies the the songs experience 10-fold
This would be an awesome vid
The video was unexpected, but I am glad you made it. While I don't listen to Korn as much nowadays, it still brings me lots of nostalgia and good feelings. I never listened to "Daddy" as one would usually listen to a song though, 'cause I found it too emotionally heavy and disturbing. Still do.
(eng isn't my first language, forgive me if there are any mistakes)
as many say here, KoRn helped me deal with the shit I went through growing up, I wasn't allowed to talk about it, family was in a cult, and us kids were threatened if we ever told our parents, we would disappear... wasn't empty threats either. Thing is I know my parents still have no idea what went on. KoRn and Nine Inch Nails rarely left my CD Player in my teens and 20s... hell they are huge staples even today and I'm... well... old. :P
This is such an amazing way to end such an amazing first album. it's such a gut-wrenching song but the way the album starts and the way the album ends is perfect. it starts incredibly harsh and ends even harsher. it also has a sick baseline, just real gnarly sounding.
Yet another great video, I'm happy to see how far you've gotten. Keep doing what you're doing!
Korn were also a gateway band for me to heavier music and I always come back to them. I identify with a lot of the subjects their songs tackle especially on their earlier albums. I personally feel their last several albums are incredible and I've always held onto them even through their experimental phases even if I didn't enjoy some of the music as much if at all.
This song is just so raw it's so hard for me to listen to. I lived through this exact thing when I was in foster care and then the guy died with everybody praising all of his good deeds and calling him a hero and I'm left to deal with that. Nobody believed me because, "he's such a good guy, he'd never do something like that! Stop lying!" Yeah, because at 4 years old I know how to lie about something like that... Jonathan Davis putting his whole heart and soul into this track really hit me like a freight train the first time I heard this song. I cried so hard and I hit every wall around me.
No other song has this impact on me, but it did feel good, in some way, that I finally realized I wasn't alone. Being called a liar for so long made me bottle it up inside and I had to pretend it didn't happen for so long. It still hurts so much and it hurts worse to know this happens all the time to so many kids.
So if you're reading this and this happened to you, don't give up. You are a strong individual and your life is worth more than they think. Show them how strong you are by surviving. And maybe even try to help others out of it, as well. You are loved.
Gotta love how this was posted on fathers day
Daddy helped me a lot when i was trying to move on from my abuse, its my favorite song because of that, it reminds me that im not alone, im not the only who feels that pain
Definitely opens your eyes about the struggles of some people, sad.
It's a song I could resonate with when I was a child. Unlike JD tho I was taken into foster care but it wasn't much easier. Foster parents can be 10x worse than the ones you were originally "saved" from.
I listened to this song sometimes when I felt lost.
Great video man. Like you Korn was my favorite band in my early teens.
this song makes me cry because of how raw it is. you can hear each time he sings the chorus his voice gets more angry and it gets more choked up. i can feel his pain and a song has never made me feel that way before.
Cheers from West Tennessee! I just wanted to say, you have the greatest intro I've seen on this platform across the 10+ years I've been on this site.
From the music, to the editing, your intros are so iconic and scream Moth!
Daddy as well as Iowa from slipknot gotta be the most darkest songs I’ve heard by far, I love when artists break themselves down to build something great (but not the point of mental breakdowns, of course lmao)
Exactly why I love moth: Talking about things people don't
I’ve been watching you for about a year now and haven’t left any comments until now (I think) but I just wanted to say that this was great! I’m a huge music nerd and it was super cool to see one of my favorite creators on this site make some content about something very near and dear to me. I don’t even listen to Korn lol. Huge respect tho my guy, keep it up!
I’ve stayed away from this video because I know knew what it would deal with…I grew up in an abusive household, and hearing you say that my experiences are valid made me cry…a lot of my family says that I’m making shit up when I know I’m not. Thank you Moth. Thank you so much.
I used to think the lyrics said “you raped, I fear daddy”, I’m sure I was not the only one. I remember there was a lot of confusion about what the lyrics were referring too. I think the song title may have added to the confusion, it being called Daddy.
I do wonder if Kill You from the Life is Peachy album was about the actual culprit who hurt him? Or about his mother? That’s seems to be another song that touched upon Jon’s real past. Wishing a particular person was dead and fantasising about killing them.
I heard Kill You was bout his step mom who was abusive but I don’t know for sure
@@jessieo7953 It is about his stepmother
I’m surprised In this comment section mentioning disturbing songs that hit different. That nobody mentions nirvana’s polly.
Poor Polly!
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Jonathan Davis had the best track suits, I always wanted one of those sparkly Adidas pants/ jacket combo…
I love Korn and this song is underrated by far. I love the channel Moth! I found you from Tuv and have been following since. and today you put out a video on a band I love!
i love korn and i've been listening to them for awhile now, but Daddy always fucked me up. the first time i heard this song, it left me on my knees, sobbing. it hits so close to home.
Daddy by Korn is the only song that break me down to tears HORRIBLY.
I relate to the song badly, and I feel bad for the lead singer.
I still remember the part where he has a break down during the recording 🙁
This song was my first introduction to Korn by an old friend, I did not listen to them for years after that. It took me so long to power through the song
Like that you had the demo version of the song playing in the background, this song was a real head spinner for me. You wanna bop your head up and down to it but understanding the lyrics you feel like you shouldn't. My dad and I are such big fans of their music, appreciate you reviewing this song which brings awareness to SA against boys, which isn't talked about much.
The thumbnail of the video I first heard this song on was a literal warning. “How bad could it be” I said.
God, I wish I knew what I was in for. Mind you, I’ve got thick skin and can handle quite a bit. The first time I listened to this song, I could not get all the way through it. I listened to it later on all the way through, but it was hard. I felt so many different feelings at once: sympathy, anger, sadness, hate.
This song, as upsetting as it is: 10/10. It isn’t a song I think I’ll ever listen to again, but still; I have to give it a 10.
this song gives me shivers down my spine, no matter how many times i listen to it.
i love korn so much and i have not seen someone make an actual video about this song!! its one of their only songs that really get to me
Korn were my first metal band back in the early 2000`s and I relate a lot to Jonathan when it came to being the shy kid who got bullied. They really helped me a lot during those tough times and even though nowadays, I listen to they`re records to reminisce, I will always consider them one of my favorite bands of all time.