I feel you. It's totally normal. True spirituality is only for the brave and the ones ready to finally be dis-illusioned. And then we are left kind hanging between the worlds. But continue on, brave soul! It's not all butterflies for sure. In Hindu tradition it's actually called anartha-nivrtti, it's the stage on your spiritual path where you go through your toughest purification from unwanted habits and belief sets. But there is a valley of joy once you make it over that mountain... I am still climbing and sliding backwards on my bum so often but I know there is more waiting.
Happened to me too. And it kinda keeps happening. But now i find I’m able to balance it better. Maybe it keeps happening in certain degrees till you’re finally able to find the perfect balance
This is exactly how I feel all the time with my spirituality. It used to be a happy learning process now it's more of a "accepting" no matter the situation and that I have no control over most things in this life. Then this feeling gets worse when everybody you try explaining this doesn't understand a single word you're talking about.
Exactly, not having anyone to talk to abt these things has actually ruined me a bit I feel, being aware of things and not being able to pull urself out is a weird funk to be in I’ll tell you that!
Very simple... breathe..let everything go! Embrace this Moment. (Trust The Now) live in it. Don't let that part of the Brain Manipulate you. You can Manipulate it. It is a struggle. Refocus into center. You're Water, Air.. just let go.. go and feel the flow. You think Bruce Lee was BS-ing? Nah, He knew a secret. It's not that hard to get it.
1MILLION PERCENT!!! I’m like well things are just arising. And people are like you gotta go create the life you want. Then gods like “no need to do any of that, I’ll take it from here”!
Those who spend their life trying to find answers and truth sometimes end up feeling lost in the end. Completely understand what you are saying, much love to you brother.
Because there is no end, that means what you’re doing now is insignificant compared to the rest of it all, so when you finally feel like you got it all figured out you’re wrong lol but it’s okay because it’s actually better than you thought
Especially when most others around us don't get it or understand why we are into certain things or we come across as odd...like if we are into psychedelics for example. Many ppl who aren't into it don't get why it's so important to us. Sometimes we can come across as weirdos to others but we should not care about that. I love that we are all on our own paths of discovery about life. Don't let it deppress you Dakota. It's a beautiful thing. Just surround yourself with other like minded individuals brother.💗🙏
I definitely understand your perspective. it's like ignorance was truly bliss, and now that you see this existence for what it is, it's like wow.. now what? it's like was clarity really what I wanted? You're not alone. I'm not in the same walk of life but I walk life also, it's heavy. Sometimes there aren't answers for how we feel. We're human and we feel... just remember we're all just scratching the surface. Sidenote: lol to the ending not careless whispers meets X-Files.
I think the feeling you are speaking of is "Yugen", which is translated from Japanese and roughly translates to "the overwhelming awe one feels when considering ones place within the scope of the universe"
To me, the sad side of spirituality is being constantly misunderstood, and knowing that you will never get recognition for the battles that you've won...
@@TheMadArtripper While I do agree with you, how much more fulfilling would it be to have the good news well received? I cant expect it, but it sure would be nice lol
Whoa! Thank you for this video. I've been on my awakening journey for about 3 years now and maybe I'm not far enough in yet to feel so much the sadness. I feel a lot of numbness though. I think it might have come from going to a Vipassana retreat and learning that "good, bad, who cares? Have no preference, etc". So I started to read the comments to better understand and whoa, it almost makes me want to stop this journey! What came up to me when reading is that you might be feeling like that from the plant medicines? They are a window on what is possible and coming down to reality can be depressing. I've chosen instead to explore getting there without the medicines. I don't know if it will make a difference.. Another thing is that I love new experiences. So for me, the fact that nothing is permanent feels like something positive, so I can keep trying new things all the time. Yesterday was nice, but I have confidence that tomorrow can be even greater. Again, maybe taking the short cut of the plant medicines make you feel that you went already to the higher state possible.. For sure, it's not all love and light, but what helped me was to: - seek pleasure, not only spiritually but also through the senses - see the beauty in the present moment and everywhere around - create. Focus on being at service to the greater good - also for everyone who felt in the trap of shadow work, I highly recommend looking into IFS (internal family system) which is a much more loving and positive framework to deal with the parts of us that are not serving us anymore. I send you all much love
I feel the exact same man. 7 years of seminary and theology, 3 years as a chaplain, 3 years of plant ceremonies of all kinds and releasing from all organized religion. And yet still, when I sit down and feel into the core of things - there’s the sadness you’re talking about. Compassion, humility, and being with each other helps at a deep level.
I really relate to what you are saying, the underlying sadness does not go away despite having moments of spiritual clarity. Thank you for keeping it real as always Dakota, unlike so many spiritual "teachers" online who only portray love and light to sell their brand
It is depressing because the higher your consciousness is, the more out of sink you become with this unconscious world we live in. Enlightenment is a very lonely state of being. Peace!!
@Raider Friday the fact that you notice the overall unconscious environment shows you have begun the journey to enlightenment, but the fact you are still finding identity through support of professional sports, esp. the Raiders, shows you have your work cut out for you. The world is depending on it. Peace!
@Raider Friday I did not accuse you of any egotism. It is "not" in our nature to attach our identity to and external materialistic entity, that is socially conditioned into us. You absolutely can get rid of your ego. Have you actually spent time trying to achieve that? If so, what method did you use? Why do you think that I only "feel" as if I'm enlightened. What do you know about enlightenment and how did you come to know it. Enlightenment is only obtained by those who seek it and put in the times and work required. I, whether you want to believe it or not, have been through a step by step, day by day, three year process of obtaining a fully conscious state of enlightened being. No ego involved in sharing this fact. Who else can share this knowledge, it becomes a responsibility to do so. I didn't realize at the time that I was obtaining enlightenment thru the process. Enlightenment is a self realization that came after, I really had no concept of what that even meant until I did. It is not easy and can be very frustrating at times and obtaining it does not make everything great in life, it creates it's own difficulties and sense of isolation amongst the masses. If you are interested in obtaining knowledge that you didn't know existed, let me know. I will gladly share source. Peace!!!
“The more one knows the more lonely one gets” I feel this 10000% . There’s days I’m grateful for each moment and where I remember everything I have ever learned and there’s moments that I feel no motivation for my ego. But just know the point is just to be HERE NOW. For each moment, plain and simple.
I feel like a key aspect to spiritually is learning to let go. We are always letting go and cultivating the loss of the next big thing. Finding comfort in the transient nature of life is my goal. Holding onto the things I've lost is the struggle. Gotta let it go...
I think you might be right. But I feel like you cant just tell the mind to let something go of something it never works, at least for me. The only think that works is to stop thinking but then I still dont think the past is gone its echoing in my body
@@itsjaboy2553 it takes discipline to get there. Not easy…by discipline I mean daily meditation, self care, self improvement, gratitude, wonder at life, connecting with your soul and loving each moment deeply. The rewards are worth it, but it can take time. Wishing you the best .
@@itsjaboy2553 The growth is in the process. Intellectualization of letting go and embodiment of letting go are very different. This is where meditation, psychedelic experiences, and other spiritual practices are here to help us; it is where we turn our intentions into action. Letting go is very difficult indeed, sometimes it takes but an instant, and sometimes it takes a lifetime.
Yes Dakota, I often cry about this. Thank you for making this video! I feel like there is an unspoken guilt or shame about sadness on a spiritual path which is quite silly. I feel as though it’s a part of the human experience to experience great bliss and equally great sadness and melancholy. It helps me to have gratitude that I have moments so amazing and wonderful that I feel sad at the thought of losing the memories.
I'm a spiritual person as well. What I've learned from practicing spirituality from time to time is the deeper you go into your mind and meditate however you do so, the more knowledge you receive about dark truths on life. It's scary and I understand why people prefer organized religion and structure over spirituality in and of itself because it's a surface-level way of being. The more you know, the more you don't know and that scares most people. Some can't handle it even though spirituality is natural and should be practiced for our growth.
If it has some kind of happy end then it kind is good, but it seems to me that it's very bad knowing and seeing truths of existential nature. I can't deal with it , I think I am out of spirituality, I came to this to find hope and I find depression
Buddha said one of the greatest truths that permeate all existence is suffering. There is a little bit of it in every moment. This comes from having to constantly keep up our ego's illusion of the individual self, the pain of maintaining an 'identity', while knowing deep down that it's all temporary, an illusion, wanting to merge with oneness. It's really difficult to carry this dense physical body and its emotions, and wanting to know what it feels like to be boundless.
I'm really impressed with all the comments. We are truly in innerstandment of the lonliness, yet we do have this community. Blessings everyone, just do one day, or hour at a time. Especially since we are knowing of the NOW, and division has ripped the vale from the perceived reality. This is why cannabis is a fabulous aide, when coping with awakening from your brainwash, then living amongst those still under the program. The worse is when you lose friends because they can't see or refuse to see, and even stand opposition to your vices for spirituality growth. This journey really tests your inner strength, for we are truly the only ones here. Hence , we don't rush to cell phones in the morning, we rather look at the sun. We cherish those lone moments now. The others don't understand this. Be well.
@@paulbraunstein2290 I'm in the West now, but from the east. But now, I'm from the One and still trying to find my way to a vibration that reminds me of purity and love. The stresses of this matrix is truly acidic. Be well.
I did a bunch of mushrooms and when I was peaking I saw the essence of this reality. I saw my face on everyone else's, I felt like I was creating this whole experience out of confusion of who, what and where I am. I felt the pain and suffering of humanity and its beauty and wonder all at once. I remember thinking to myself... "Great... Now I've opened pandoras box and I will never see the world the same way again..." It was a very depressing feeling, I felt like I was stuck in a giant echo chamber for all eternity. Like the Genie in the lamp trapped for ever with only I to keep myself company. The further down the spiritual rabbit hole you go the more you realize that there really isn't going to be a huge ah ha moment the makes you totally whole and complete. The sooner you stop trying to feed the hungry ghost within and come to the realization that there was no hole to fill in the first place, the more at peace you will be with your self and this amazing reality.
Have you ever read or watched the stories of Hanuman and Rama? That taught me that we really do this again and again. When I check in with my higher self, she absolutely loves this wild shit. It’s still hard for me to conceive that we asked for this and all our lifetimes. But psychedelics remind me again and again that I did
I had that experience of feeling like the genie in the lamp on aya. Good way to describe the feeling. Have mostly integrated the experience now but every now and then it pops its head up to say hello. Keep an eye on your thoughts and beliefs. I find when I start straying too far off the path and going into the labrinth of the mind whilst holding onto a bunch if new age cliches like "We are all God experiencing itself", that i quickly wind up in solipsism and it isnt fun. From my perspective, we are not God. We are divine creations. God lives within us but in this plane of existence we are seperate from the whole. Ultimately everything will be reconciled with the true creator in wholeness. But in the 3D realm of duality, life is a mystery. Sometimes all we can do is let go of all the stories including what we have seen on our psychedelic journeys and simply try and be here now in this moment with faith hope and love in our hearts.
When I was peaking on a heavy dose of blue meanies, it showed me that my life is simply a joke and that I will keep reliving this same life over and over again, same experiences over and over. Born, I am me, dead. Born, I am me, dead. Born, I am me, dead. The mushroom seemed almost amused and clown like, while showing this to me. It showed me that everything I do and have done I will do again and again and again. No escape. This really made me strong on the idea that I am everything. Without me there is nothing, literally. That once I run my course, I will run it once more because I am ‘God’. In the sense that I am the creator of the reality I am experiencing around me. Without me there is no reality. This probably sounds ‘narcissistic’ and ‘main character’ like to those that haven’t experienced this but I think what mushrooms do is give you extremely heightened awareness of baseline awareness. You become a ‘god’. I am not totally invested in these ideas and agree that no one will ever find the ‘ah ha’ moment as you said
really resonating with those last two sentences. been on a "self improvement" journey for the past few years but only recently realized that i had started it on a foundation of thinking that there were holes to fill/heal to become whole. turns out i was just falsely identifying with lack. what a trip!
I feel you, Dakota. The advice I’ve been getting to deal with similar confusion, feeling lost and adrift is to work on grounding. The spiritual life raises us up but many of us don’t keep ourselves rooted to the earth. Take walks, journal, garden if you can, etc. This will help you stay calmer during the purge. Love you, bro. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
Nila is my mentor and although the video isn’t slick, she’s amazing. Grounding gives you the foundation you need to manage the high vibes. Try some of these techniques for feeling more grounded during your awakening. th-cam.com/video/1Hy4kiYVu80/w-d-xo.html
You're the light at the end of the tunnel. Recharge and evolve. Time for growth. It never stops. It's never easy. But it's up to you. Whatever you do, don't stop healing, don't stop giving. It's a cycle. And you're awesome 😎
Pain is a part of being. At first, we start becoming conscious of our grief towards or own mortality. Life is about valuing every moment because it WILL end, that's the lesson. Acceptance isn't the same as enjoyment. Ps: you're glowing, any skin routines? XD
I’m so glad you made this video because it’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I’ve been on the spiritual journey for a few years now and I’ve done it all but right now, I feel so overwhelmed. It’s a inner battle between who I was and who I’m becoming.
Yeah man, no matter how spiritual we are...we can't escape what it is to be human... The pain, the suffering the cycle ... This is our journey... longing for somewhere, something that the human self can't comprehend .. longing for home. And in a society that doesn't always connect on that level, it's isolating, it's painful... Not to mention the collective unconscious is hurting right now. Feel it all, try not to make sense of it, ride the wave and remember... It's all temporary. If your going to feel it, feel it fully... One piece of advice ? Get up and move, shake, dance breathe cry.. get into your body and let the emotion move through you physically... Sending love 💞 you are so so not alone. x
I was having a conversation with an acquaintance not too long ago about Solipsism. They were entertaining the idea of being the only consciousness that currently exists (like how do they know what others experience is actually real or if it's just something they created with their consciousness) and how lonely that made them feel....and they would dwell on this subject... which caused me to ponder the workings of existential crises and it's spiritual implications. We talked about samskaras, past life karmas, what happens when you actually achieve this blissful state that the gurus always speak of...like... what comes after that? Having gathered experiential knowledge and questioning things that cannot be answered to satisfaction is something I think is a part of the "awakening" process...which also makes it paradoxical because the human mind simply doesn't have the capacity to process something so GRAND...
I used to entertain this thought until I had several telepathic with other people during psychedelic trips. It was unmistakable. We thought and felt the same thing without verbal communication.
If i slide into solipsism then usually that is a good indicator my thoughts are getting a bit out there and semi delusional. A good tree bears good fruit. If solipsism is the fruit of your thoughts you may want to look at what those thoughts are and if they are worth holding onto.
I’ve been feeling this way all my life. But I found some kind of beauty in the intensity of it all and the best I can do is to radiate love & compassion to all beings I come across ✨ thank you for the reminder we’re never alone with our feelings ✨
Melancholy, Man , it's good you shared with us like you did today Also we all needed that energetic lead out you're a blessing Dakota,🙌🏽 thank you. 🙏🏽🧝🏽♀️🌻☘Yosemite California I'm 52.
Yeah, Truth is a bittersweet thing. I also feel this nostalgia sometimes. I wouldn't define it as sad or depressing for me but.... Yeah bittersweet. I don't know if there if it's possible to get to ultimate liberation for us in this life or if we should just try to enjoy the full spectrum of everything to the best of our ability ❤️🌺🕉️
I know exactly what your talking about man I’ve felt it , I think it’s well talked about, confronted and dealt with in Buddhism with the four noble truths and the eightfold path, it’s dukkha , the dukkha of samsara, the innate imperfection of this worldly life, the suffering that is a part of the human condition, I try not to let it define me , it’s a teacher of truth , but it’s a bitter pill to swallow, that being said it dosent take away from the beauty and divinity of this existence and this universe, bittersweet is the right word brother and the spiritual path isn’t easy either but it is rewarding as we all know, peace be with you , all my love from Scotland
I keep coming back to this channel because I can relate to what you are saying. You speak of things that I think but cannot always express & it helps me get through them. I feel the sadness or depression as I try to figure out & understand my purpose & the "bigger purpose". I believe the closer to oneness we become, the collective energy will flow & allow us to find what we are supposed to. Thank you for making me feel not so far from others.
Grounding practices can really help, like when a small child hugs their parent and allows their problems to melt away into the parents arms. The Earth can do that for us, but we have to do the work by simply noticing and allowing it. Shanti, Shanti, Shanti my friends 🙏 🕊 🌎
Hey I feel you Dakota, for few days I've been feeling those things you've said about the good times, and after psychedelics or integration always come these times of purging or feeling sad. As artist, when I feel it's time, this goes to the canvas and reminds me everything is ok and we chose this. Big love brother, thanks for existing!
I'm just finishing up with my own "Dark night of the Soul" ...it led me down a path of material addiction ... temporarily however. Much love brother. WE ARE ONE
Man you are me saying to myself what I been saying to myself, in every kind of ways, all this time If this is not synchronization, I don't know what it is I love you so much You give me goosebumps
Yes I would agree it's depressing but even in times of just "what the hell am I even doing, being aware all the time" what's it for? The "self" always shows its the only thing worth living for. Life it self.
I feel something like this from time to time as well. It's just the realisation that no matter how many epiphanies I have, no matter how many spiritual experiences I have, where I feel at one with existence and see and feel it's perfection, those moments will pass and I still have to wake up the next day and keep on going and just try to be present. And to try to work with what life throws at me. The balance of managing my inner life vs outer life is challenging to me.
In one of my most intense trips, i experienced complete amnesia of my identity while being fully pressent, i forgot country's, date of birth everything, and it was wierd because i didn't feel good at all, just very depressed in a way, because everything was simply consciousness and nothing more... Then on another trip i experienced my heart opening up, and i feely amazing... It's also strange that it's way easier to recreate the experience of nothingness than love... But what i want is that heart opening feeling.
you probs homesick bro. you've awakened within a physical trip and have reached back to your soul. this life is a kind of separation from self, but a way to view things from a new perspective :)
I feel ya, I isolated myself years ago from all " friends" really just people I grew up parting with. The norm for weirdo in his 20's, until. You see how empty a weekend warrior or just drinking and going to the same dive hole bars and no one gives a shit about anything of substance. I woke up one morning past our in a front yard in a random neighborhood Northside OKC and it was 15° or something. It was effing cold. That sealed it for me. I haven't talked to a single friend from my past in years. But I found some really interesting aspect of the mind, my mind of course. I'm happier now than all the sex, drugs, scenes,music, travel. But the journey can be really lonely. Especially when no one thinks at all about anything anymore. I maybe I'm just crazy
Hey, Dakota! I want you to know that no, you are definitely not alone.. I have been going through a period of depression myself and it has been painful, but eye openingly beautiful at the same time. Like you said everything in life is a teacher, depression included. From my changed perspective the depression that you, I, and so many others are feeling at this point in time may be a call from our souls to take our spiritual practices in a different direction. To stop ourselves from going in circles, constantly "seeking" the meaning of life and instead "become" the meaning of life. To let our minds relax and live more through our senses. To surrender to the experience rather than trying to define it. Maybe living a life without meaning is the true key to spiritual bliss.
Spirituality is a battle some days, eventhough it's meant for healing and transformation. I remember in the early stages, it was way tougher having the realizations and ephihanies you're talking about. Something's are harder to face/get over depending on our personal path & what we precieve as right/wrong.... Until we are more evolved in our perceptions and just taking everything "as it is", although WAY easier said than done. I think sadness is part of the journey. As well as all the other emotions. As for your feelings related to that everything is temporary... Ive been there. And it is very bittersweet and gut wrenching. What keeps me going is knowing all the beautiful people in my life and I are all a part of the soul family, and reincarnate with each other. I've read a couple books to understand life after death, bcause I've always been really curious about it. Like Many Lives Many Masters by Brian Weiss, Journey of Souls by Michael Newton, and Your Souls Plan by Robert Schwartz. They have a reoccurring theme of what ppl experience after death... Such as unconditional love, only judgment by the self, and reincarnation with the soul family to balance out karmic roles. Which is just a small summaries of the books in my opinion. Anyway. I think your attachment to your experiences makes you feel sad but I think you know it's definitely worth it to experience such happiness and beauty in exchange for sadness and depression because you are so grateful for the moments you've experienced. And that's beautiful. I'm terrified of loosing the people I love in my life. I'm so grateful for here and now when everyone is healthy and alive. I get lost and down thinking of death. But I also forget that there's also life that I'll create someday and maybe it'll just be my loved one given back to me. I'll share something personal, related to the books. Hoping that I'll help you in someway. As I said in the books there is a reoccurring theme of being reincarnated with your soul family. Before my grandfather's death, he told us he'd be back. He was a really spiritual and awakened person. But he said he'd come back as my aunt's son because he has reincarnated with her many times, sometimes my aunt is his mother or his daughter, or he is her father or her son. It still gives me goosebumps thinking about it. But I guess that's where my belief in reincarnation with the people I love solidified. His experience and then later coming across these books. It's definitely a belief that you know... Makes me believe everything will be okay. Pain is inevitable. But the opportunity to love, is worth it. Okay sorry for the long rant. Much love and sending you healing 🙏💗
Dakota, you voiced exactly how I wrestle with my spirituality. The temporary nature and how do I get back to the nature or reason why I am here. We love you, you have taken us so many places some of us haven’t had the opportunity to do. We feel and resonate with your soul. And thank you for putting this out there ! Much love and respect !
Thanks for uploading this dakota c: I feel a little less lonely ^_^ I been feeling this way, like the ocean waves it comes and it goes. I just surrender when I feel a bit anxious or a lil blue I surrender it all to God and always have faith and trust the universe 🙏♡
Thank you for sharing!! So important for us all to hear. We all feel this way! No sugar coating necessary, we all need to be more honest and open about what we are feeling. That’s the whole point! Wish society was different but that’s why you’re here to change things up! Thank you so much for all you do!
You are travelling, a life many would love to have, enjoy it and live for the moment. Enjoy every little thing from the sun to what you eat, hearing music, laughing to the bigger picture of what you are able to do as a job.
@@dakotawint It’s so funny how true that last statement is. I’ve travelled to feel something different and get away, but then you realize how similar and fundamental everything thing is from human nature to culture to life itself. Thanks for being so open Dakota. You’ve taught me a lot through expressing yourself.
This is honestly the most powerful thing I have watched all day. Just having someone else emote into the same feelings has made me feel so much less hopeless. So thank you, blessings fellow traveller. I guess we are all just doing our best not to make the world suck for our grandkids one day 🙏❤
I keep clinging to all kinds of things all the time because being nothing keeps terrifying me. The best part is that the I who is terrified doesn't exist yet I keep imagining it😂
My spiritual journey has been very depressing and very enlightening.Trauma comes up and I deal with it, and I change. I keep changing and the trauma seems to never end :( The further I reach the worse the trauma and it keeps getting harder, its like the dark night never ends. I guess I cant wait for the end because I know Ill be returning to the great oneness of the universe... its comforting yet so hard to go through..
Dude I related a lot with what you said. Many times, when I get depressed it’s because I’m living with too many assumptions & conclusions. It brings immediate relief when I remind myself that actually, I don’t know shit! Also, I think it’s completely normal & human to miss the good old times like you said. Another thing I remind myself of is that I’m (physically) only 25 years old. And you’re young too! We still practically have another life time to live in this life time alone! So more good old days await us in the future. I love spirituality & it’s basically what my whole life is centered around but sometimes I have to just set it aside, let go of all the definitions & concepts in my mind & ‘do the dishes!’ Hope that helps man & I hope it didn’t sound too preachy! I love your videos by the way! We just gotta keep on keeping on because who knows what’s coming our way in the future!
I'm on this vibe lately aswell, I'm very melancholic but always try and look for a silver lining/light at the end of the tunnel...writing poetry can help express/release this infinite sadness.
Very well said and thank you, I know I'm not alone. Its like the peak of a San Padre Ceremony where I've just hiked 2 miles up into the high Arizona desert mountains to realize everything is everything. 😘🧡💫💥💞
The path from LIFE to DEATH is always SAD. The path from DEATH to LIFE is amazing. To die means - samadhi. For beginners - samadhi is NDE & from there on the journey is amazing because of its opportunity & value.
This was entirely relatable, and also laughed so fkn hard at “I’m a professional flute player when I’m not having panic attacks on TH-cam” Keepin it real.
i always feel like you’re speaking directly to me. i also experience what you’re feeling. sometimes i wish i didn’t know some things but at the end of the day i am still grateful that i know what i know. much love friend 💓
I feel you 100 percent bro. The more we learn the less we know. One way I combat this bitter sweetness is for every bitter thought I have I try to think of the sweet eventually you build muscle memory and stick to the sweet side at the end of the day thoughts are energy if you have good thought its tranfered after you have it creating 'good karma' and vice versa for negative thoughts energy cannot be created or destroyed only transferred, working on yourself spiritually is much like working out you build over time. started this journey around 17 18 years old im gonna be 24 this year. CHEERS from your southern neighbor in indiana! hope this helped a little
Namaste, The sadness you are talking about is due to the identification with the body-mind phenomena. As long as we believe that we are an individual ego, suffering is inevitable. The great sages and saints points us towards the right direction. They also teach us that suffering is a blessing in disguise. Our spiritual practice must be continuous. One cannot expect results by sitting for sadhana for 1 hour and then for 16 to 18 hours being completley involved in the body-mind/world. There has to be willpower and effort in the beginning to later realize that no effort was ever needed because you are and was always that. God bless
@@JensVanDeAarde Which is one thing I believe everybody should be taught, research into and become aware of before they take on any psychedelic journey.
@@dejavugodssonxrp6624 no one can or should be "taught" because for everyone something similar but also different will happen humans just have to step into their own shit otherwise we’re not learning
@@JensVanDeAarde That is true. As soon as I wrote it I thought, but nobody can be 'aware' until they are actually aware lol. It cannot be taught, only explained the best we can. None of us were taught. We learned ourselves. We can still help them make the bed though, there's nothing wrong with that.
I feel you. My spiritual journey started shortly after my sister passed but I can see how I was already headed down the path long before she left me. I saw the god in everything once she died and it was a very overwhelming and beautiful time. I cried nearly everyday bc I could see so clearly how life and death bleed in the same vein. Now I’ve past that “spark” of sheer joy for being alive in a world where being alive is the most rare thing (and also the most common thing) of all. Now I feel very burdened by having a body and a life and an existence and to be occupying this small moment of time when I know I should be grateful. Sometimes I feel very unworthy of having a human form and I used to wish all the time that I could just be a breeze or a leaf or something LOL. Idk, I know life is a gift but one cannot help but to still feel so burdened with the fact that we are all born with our own curses (mindset, physical/mental health, traumas from our past and also the traumas that will occur in our future or are presently occurring). Kind of a rant but I understand your nostalgia. I am happy to be alive but I am also melancholy and looking forward to a peace away from all of this. And who knows if that is coming. Life is hard.
I love your psychedelic videos, I love the travel videos and I especially love the sacred medicine videos too!! But these videos, these videos are just something else! I resonate so much with how you’re feeling about spirituality and everything that comes with it but there is so much teachings & wisdom in this video. The authenticity you embody surpasses through any course that a modern age guru can teach right now, so thank you! I think that the heaviness we feel is also part of the journey. How we honor the happy feels, we could honor these two & view them as our little children just asking for some attention & honoring, that’s what helps me. I love you Dakota a million times ♥️🍃🙏🏼
I feel the same man, this video is a great representation of my current contemplation. It seems that this month, there is a lot of emotional change/purging for myself and many that I know on this path. Bitter-sweet is a great way to describe it, the yin-yang for me is a great symbol of grounding myself in "reality". There is a lot of truth and meaning in this symbol. Keep on going brother, we need these moments of darkness to experience the light ☯💫
Hey man, I'm 77 years old and feeling the same thing after practicing for half a century , also done many psyedelics but it's actually okay just don't get attached to being depressed, let that come and go too. As long as we have a body and mind we will fluctuate between yin and yang. Keep the balance and harmony.. Are you familiar with the Sanskrit tern NETI NETI , WHICH MEANS NOT this.. not this. Let it all go, the ultimate in non attachment . But the next step is the new incoming moment. And the joy to be found within it now. Om Shanti The eternal present and our light of consciousness is always happening NOW . Go with FLOW OF TRUTH AS IS..... Daily yoga really helps!!
It’s really nice coming along with you on your journey to some extent. You’ve always been a nice comfort to me, since I watched your first live stream on acid and both growing since. I don’t know any answers if anything I have more questions but anyways, here we are doing our best. Peace and love from the west coast of canada ♾🤍☮️ 💜♊️ 🤍♾
You have such a Beautiful Soul Dakota and I thank you for this insightful video and also your sweet flute song! I have watched you for ages but never commented but this topic is close to my heart :) I am a Reiki Master and have been doing this "peeling back the layers of the Onion of my soul" for many years. It isn't easy to keep addressing our shadow and to de - programme ourselves, and you touch upon a really great subject! I myself have been contemplating on this subject lately and I appreciate hearing your thoughts on this subject Dakota! Stay Blessed
The only thing I could take out of this video is how real you are and how you aren’t afraid to put yourself out there as it is. Given the kind of content you have put, it is extremely difficult for someone to accept “I’m confused idk where this is heading to and i miss the times which were simpler when i did not have this knowledge” and I think that proves your humility. Thank you for being this!❤
You are not on your own brother 🙏 We are all going through this. We are all purging. I’ve done a lot of it lately. We are all going through it. Please don’t feel alone. Done ever feel alone. We are all in this together. Thanks for sharing this with us 🙏 I think at the moment, the most spiritually aware people are having the hardest time. The people that are the most blissfully ignorant are having an easier time. This is what bothers me. This is what I can’t understand 🙆🏻♀️ We have to stay strong in our minds and hearts and pray to our lord Jesus 🙏 💜 xxxxxx
Love your videos Dakota. Thanks for sharing and being so open. I really relate to the feeling that "all the good times have passed." Or that strange feeling of looking back. I think part of this is due to the bizarre times we're in. I too am trying to stay centered, accept my feelings but not get lost in them, and trust that things will work out as long as I keep moving forward. 💪🙏
This is really cool youre discussing this. I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and it shifts from accepting to realization that this reality really is only temporary and there is always something else coming, we hold on to things or people for a while and dont even realize that its not even that long.
I hear you brother. I've come to think that I'll only be truly free when I have lost all attachments to outcomes, situations, concepts... sounds like bs but it still seems to me it's true. Enjoyed the pipe playing. You're a lovable soul. ☮️
Thanks for being 100% open about your feelings and your struggles; specially when it comes to spiritual life. A lot of people try to seem like they've "got it". Specially when it comes to spiritual matters and it's great to see someone expressing these things in a type of community where genuineness is easily lost. These are the approaches that truly matter and I thank you for that. For being so genuine and for being openly vulnerable. It's the main reason I believe you have the audience that you have and it certainly is the reason I have stayed for all these years watching your content. Because through your content, it feels like you're actually expressing the essence of your being. It's like your own form or art really. And we get to the see the essence of who is Dakota. For me, your content means a lot because I started watching you when I was a teenager and now I'm 23. You being you was a huge part of who I am today. It all started with watching your videos on TH-cam and I'm currently a monk/Brahmachari and it all started for me when I watched your videos. And I've been riding this huge wave of finding who I am ever since. Please, don't stop doing you Dakota. Your content pretty much changed my life and even though you're not aware of it, I'm telling you now. We don't know each other, and we've only met once in the past (Vans Warped Tour 2018, Cincinnati), but I'm really glad to have found you in this life. That's what your content means to me and I thank you. For sharing your art and who you are.
Dakotaaaa! I agree and feel EVERYTHING you said ! Thank you for sharing your mind and heart! hahaha the end !! Also that flute transition put me in a trance 🙌🏽🙌🏽 so good! Love
i needed to hear this. your words make so much sense to me, and you are not alone on your journey (even when in isolation). thank you for reminding all of us the same.
I resonate, the beginning of my journey was full of "WOW the world was not what I thought it was and I can't wait to go deeper and understand more" and the deeper I get it's more like, I feel this responsibility to create every experience I have, and I have to keep finding these new and interesting ways to make life interesting and blissful. I found bliss for 6 months and then felt like suffering forced its way back into my reality... if I am to create my experiences, whilst being unattached enough to let go of anything at a moment's notice, then why create experiences when they can disappear at any point? I sound like I'm mirroring the non-permanence you're talking about. It is sad. It's beautiful when it's beautiful and it's sad when it's sad. And we have to practice acceptance of all parts of existence
Thank you for thinking out loud. There can be an urge to have all the answers so to do a video with this vulnerability and with questions is inspiring for me.
So glad you made this video Dakota. After my ayahuasca experience I felt true bliss being surrounded by mother earth, in tune with spirit, the love of the people, and letting go of shit I didn't even know I had (or what exactly I needed to let go in that moment) and then a week and a half later got immediately so sad. Like I was going thru an immense heartbreak bc I could see how every word affected the heart, I could feel the pain and joy of everything, and yet even with that awareness I couldn't feel more enlightened to feel bliss and instead was bawling my eyes out for days wondering what was wrong with me or if I broke something. It occurred to me that there was more purging and perhaps living in normal society makes it even more important to keep up with practices that remind us of the bliss and onesss we felt and know to be true. It's like we can see both worlds and it's the confusion that almost makes us melancholy. Still figuring it out myself but thank you for your honest share. 🙏🏻
You have no idea how much I needed to hear this. Been abusing psyches and last night "I" was told to stopped running away from myself. Yes we have this ego. But we're in this human experience. So let's be humans. Ego is neither good or bad. Just having clarity between the ego and the oneness
This really fucking resonated ♡ ive found that replacing the sadness of the constant change with gratitude, deep deep gratitude for each moment - Thank you for sharing this vulnerable beautiful truth,, bless up brother, hope this full moon helped guide you through this. So much love for you bravery to share your journey with the world, its inspiring and appreciated beyond words. You are supported and loved beyond worlds - incredible tunes, keep hitting those pipes ☆
Love you bro!✨ " keep on OMing in the free world"💜💜💜/? I'm creating a joy filled understanding of this universe where I'm respected, loved, honored, learning and sharing energy with kindred souls while giving this all back and more! 💫
Thanks for your honesty Dakota. I feel the exact same way. We get through it, we always do. It's sort of a test, isn't it? Your content has made a big difference in my day to day life. Appreciate all you do. Much love 🙏
I shiver when I have such moments of realisation and I haven't been able to let myself just be complete because maybe I'm not yet ready. And as much as I would love to experience my own existence and purpose in life, at the same time it feels equally daunting. I have huge respect for people who choose to follow the path of spirituality because it's not only about being brave but also seeing this world and universe just as it is after carrying so many filters of your own perception of the world. It's insanely beautiful to me. I have been in the depressive zone for quite a while now and it just feels like I'm stuck but I'm just allowing myself to feel this way and not try to get rid of all the negative emotions but instead look for the root cause. It's been tough and feeling lonely does not help at all. It just distracts me more from reaching where I want to. All I want to say is Dakota, you're an amazing person and have a beautiful soul. Spiritual depression is a process for most of us in our path to self-realisation. And to keep growing from that, it's very important to see what is holding us back. We're in this together! Much love to you ♥️🌻
It’s ever lasting - that’s what keeps me going. Even when it feels like an end, it’s ever lasting. What you are saying are so in line to my daily feelings. You are well!
@dakota of earth I often find myself drifting easily between spirituality and nihilism. When I am experiencing those deep, heavy, intense epiphanies through spiritual practices/rituals they are usually always "negative" or hard to process and understand. This ultimately leads to the nihilistic stance and my depressive episodes of "what's the point" in which I am led back spiritually to "that IS the point" and am finally able to process through these heavy spiritual periods. It it so incredibly hard during those moments to find the motivation to keep going. And I think the spirituality is not only the teacher but the strength to keep us moving forward, even if we are in and out of those bittersweet cycles. I just had a spiritual experience the other day that, on that day, I perceived as extremely negative. I had a horrible and frightening experience that was so heavy I couldn't fully process it and was left in silence for almost 24 hours. I had no words to express and definitely nothing positive to take from it. The day after I started to put things together and the "negative" things started to make sense. I was shown things I was not prepared to see. I learned things about myself that I didn't want to face. And in the end, I finally had answers to why I had been living life a certain way for so long. I finally understood why I had been feeling the way I'd been feeling for so damn long. So in the end, was it really a negative experience? It was a harsh reality I was not willing to face at the time, but spiritually was thrown right into the middle of it. Did it hurt? My god yes. Did it make me want to give up? Undoubtedly. But I sat there in it for a day or two. I gave it some time. I was cranky. I stayed away from most people. And then the answers came. I felt like I was in time-out. Like the universe told me to go pick a corner and sit in it and think about what I've done. Hahaha!! Gotta bring some humor into it, right? Basically what I'm saying is that you're most definitely not alone in feeling what you're feeling. Being spiritual is not all rainbows and sunshine and unicorns and innocence. Most of the time it is dark and heavy, but so damn necessary for our growth and evolution. I heard something today from another video and she said, "Pain is always going to happen, it's part of this experience. The suffering is the rejection of that pain. So when we actually embrace our pain and the difficult parts of our story, then we can actually find bliss there." When she said this, I wanted to cry out. She also said this in the same video, "I really want to remind you that where your pain is and where your difficult moments, your insecurities, your fears, your shadows if you want to call it that, is often where your medicine lies; where your gifts are." Again, catch me sobbing here. TLDR: You are not alone!!
Thank you Dakota I enjoyed this video my depression comes and goes that's for sure and I am a spiritual person. One foot in front of the other everyday. The song at the end of the video uplifted my spirits I needed that. Much love and blessed be
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I feel you. It's totally normal. True spirituality is only for the brave and the ones ready to finally be dis-illusioned. And then we are left kind hanging between the worlds. But continue on, brave soul! It's not all butterflies for sure. In Hindu tradition it's actually called anartha-nivrtti, it's the stage on your spiritual path where you go through your toughest purification from unwanted habits and belief sets. But there is a valley of joy once you make it over that mountain... I am still climbing and sliding backwards on my bum so often but I know there is more waiting.
What a beautiful way to explain the journey. I wish I could explain it as well as you have. Thank-you
Beautifully wrote text. There might be something for you to pursue?!
This answer.
I have not met any who have made it here... Is it real? I have traveled the world and met many spiritual people
This explains my entire mindset right now .
When I first got into spirituality I saw the beauty in everything, now I see the pain in everything, it’s heavy.
Happened to me too. And it kinda keeps happening. But now i find I’m able to balance it better. Maybe it keeps happening in certain degrees till you’re finally able to find the perfect balance
Omg same!! Currently feeling that pain
This is exactly how I feel all the time with my spirituality. It used to be a happy learning process now it's more of a "accepting" no matter the situation and that I have no control over most things in this life. Then this feeling gets worse when everybody you try explaining this doesn't understand a single word you're talking about.
Exactly, not having anyone to talk to abt these things has actually ruined me a bit I feel, being aware of things and not being able to pull urself out is a weird funk to be in I’ll tell you that!
I hear u
Very simple... breathe..let everything go! Embrace this Moment. (Trust The Now) live in it. Don't let that part of the Brain Manipulate you. You can Manipulate it. It is a struggle. Refocus into center. You're Water, Air.. just let go.. go and feel the flow. You think Bruce Lee was BS-ing? Nah, He knew a secret. It's not that hard to get it.
1MILLION PERCENT!!! I’m like well things are just arising. And people are like you gotta go create the life you want. Then gods like “no need to do any of that, I’ll take it from here”!
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Those who spend their life trying to find answers and truth sometimes end up feeling lost in the end. Completely understand what you are saying, much love to you brother.
Because there is no end, that means what you’re doing now is insignificant compared to the rest of it all, so when you finally feel like you got it all figured out you’re wrong lol but it’s okay because it’s actually better than you thought
That's better than feeling hollow
This is maya.
Especially when most others around us don't get it or understand why we are into certain things or we come across as odd...like if we are into psychedelics for example. Many ppl who aren't into it don't get why it's so important to us. Sometimes we can come across as weirdos to others but we should not care about that. I love that we are all on our own paths of discovery about life. Don't let it deppress you Dakota. It's a beautiful thing. Just surround yourself with other like minded individuals brother.💗🙏
Replace now with always... thank you Dakota of Earth. Spiritual work doesn't have a worldly gain it had a goal of bliss, I feel.
I definitely understand your perspective. it's like ignorance was truly bliss, and now that you see this existence for what it is, it's like wow.. now what? it's like was clarity really what I wanted?
You're not alone. I'm not in the same walk of life but I walk life also, it's heavy. Sometimes there aren't answers for how we feel. We're human and we feel... just remember we're all just scratching the surface.
Sidenote: lol to the ending not careless whispers meets X-Files.
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It seems.... The deeper I dive into spiritually the deeper I dive into madness
Understanding the bigger picture doesn’t free us from having to deal with this life. We are still stuck here until…
It does get old at times.
“Until…” I think is such an accurate way of putting it.
@@LexusFox tug water we must
I think the feeling you are speaking of is "Yugen", which is translated from Japanese and roughly translates to "the overwhelming awe one feels when considering ones place within the scope of the universe"
a profound, mysterious sense of the beauty of the universe… and the sad beauty of human suffering
To me, the sad side of spirituality is being constantly misunderstood, and knowing that you will never get recognition for the battles that you've won...
I feel that but i always tell myself My recognition is the only recognition i ever need.
@@TheMadArtripper While I do agree with you, how much more fulfilling would it be to have the good news well received? I cant expect it, but it sure would be nice lol
@@EternalAntinothing haha i knowww, I desire it too but i have to turn to myself when that doesn’t happen 😂
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Whoa! Thank you for this video.
I've been on my awakening journey for about 3 years now and maybe I'm not far enough in yet to feel so much the sadness.
I feel a lot of numbness though. I think it might have come from going to a Vipassana retreat and learning that "good, bad, who cares? Have no preference, etc".
So I started to read the comments to better understand and whoa, it almost makes me want to stop this journey!
What came up to me when reading is that you might be feeling like that from the plant medicines?
They are a window on what is possible and coming down to reality can be depressing.
I've chosen instead to explore getting there without the medicines. I don't know if it will make a difference..
Another thing is that I love new experiences. So for me, the fact that nothing is permanent feels like something positive, so I can keep trying new things all the time. Yesterday was nice, but I have confidence that tomorrow can be even greater.
Again, maybe taking the short cut of the plant medicines make you feel that you went already to the higher state possible..
For sure, it's not all love and light, but what helped me was to:
- seek pleasure, not only spiritually but also through the senses
- see the beauty in the present moment and everywhere around
- create. Focus on being at service to the greater good
- also for everyone who felt in the trap of shadow work, I highly recommend looking into IFS (internal family system) which is a much more loving and positive framework to deal with the parts of us that are not serving us anymore.
I send you all much love
I feel the exact same man. 7 years of seminary and theology, 3 years as a chaplain, 3 years of plant ceremonies of all kinds and releasing from all organized religion. And yet still, when I sit down and feel into the core of things - there’s the sadness you’re talking about. Compassion, humility, and being with each other helps at a deep level.
What are your views on God and the afterlife now. Do you still believe in a higher power or creator?
I really relate to what you are saying, the underlying sadness does not go away despite having moments of spiritual clarity. Thank you for keeping it real as always Dakota, unlike so many spiritual "teachers" online who only portray love and light to sell their brand
I agree! It’s so nice to know other ppl feel this way , today I am having one of those days . It’s comforting to know I’m not alone .
Real shi
It is depressing because the higher your consciousness is, the more out of sink you become with this unconscious world we live in. Enlightenment is a very lonely state of being. Peace!!
A square peg in a round hole.
Yeah it can feel very lonely
@Raider Friday the fact that you notice the overall unconscious environment shows you have begun the journey to enlightenment, but the fact you are still finding identity through support of professional sports, esp. the Raiders, shows you have your work cut out for you. The world is depending on it. Peace!
@Raider Friday I did not accuse you of any egotism. It is "not" in our nature to attach our identity to and external materialistic entity, that is socially conditioned into us. You absolutely can get rid of your ego. Have you actually spent time trying to achieve that? If so, what method did you use? Why do you think that I only "feel" as if I'm enlightened. What do you know about enlightenment and how did you come to know it. Enlightenment is only obtained by those who seek it and put in the times and work required. I, whether you want to believe it or not, have been through a step by step, day by day, three year process of obtaining a fully conscious state of enlightened being. No ego involved in sharing this fact. Who else can share this knowledge, it becomes a responsibility to do so. I didn't realize at the time that I was obtaining enlightenment thru the process. Enlightenment is a self realization that came after, I really had no concept of what that even meant until I did. It is not easy and can be very frustrating at times and obtaining it does not make everything great in life, it creates it's own difficulties and sense of isolation amongst the masses. If you are interested in obtaining knowledge that you didn't know existed, let me know. I will gladly share source. Peace!!!
@Raider Friday You win, thanks for helping me. Go Raiders!!
“The more one knows the more lonely one gets” I feel this 10000% . There’s days I’m grateful for each moment and where I remember everything I have ever learned and there’s moments that I feel no motivation for my ego. But just know the point is just to be HERE NOW. For each moment, plain and simple.
I feel like a key aspect to spiritually is learning to let go. We are always letting go and cultivating the loss of the next big thing. Finding comfort in the transient nature of life is my goal. Holding onto the things I've lost is the struggle. Gotta let it go...
I think you might be right. But I feel like you cant just tell the mind to let something go of something it never works, at least for me. The only think that works is to stop thinking but then I still dont think the past is gone its echoing in my body
@@itsjaboy2553 it takes discipline to get there. Not easy…by discipline I mean daily meditation, self care, self improvement, gratitude, wonder at life, connecting with your soul and loving each moment deeply. The rewards are worth it, but it can take time. Wishing you the best .
@@itsjaboy2553 The growth is in the process. Intellectualization of letting go and embodiment of letting go are very different. This is where meditation, psychedelic experiences, and other spiritual practices are here to help us; it is where we turn our intentions into action. Letting go is very difficult indeed, sometimes it takes but an instant, and sometimes it takes a lifetime.
Yes Dakota, I often cry about this. Thank you for making this video! I feel like there is an unspoken guilt or shame about sadness on a spiritual path which is quite silly. I feel as though it’s a part of the human experience to experience great bliss and equally great sadness and melancholy. It helps me to have gratitude that I have moments so amazing and wonderful that I feel sad at the thought of losing the memories.
I'm a spiritual person as well. What I've learned from practicing spirituality from time to time is the deeper you go into your mind and meditate however you do so, the more knowledge you receive about dark truths on life. It's scary and I understand why people prefer organized religion and structure over spirituality in and of itself because it's a surface-level way of being. The more you know, the more you don't know and that scares most people. Some can't handle it even though spirituality is natural and should be practiced for our growth.
If it has some kind of happy end then it kind is good, but it seems to me that it's very bad knowing and seeing truths of existential nature. I can't deal with it , I think I am out of spirituality, I came to this to find hope and I find depression
Buddha said one of the greatest truths that permeate all existence is suffering. There is a little bit of it in every moment. This comes from having to constantly keep up our ego's illusion of the individual self, the pain of maintaining an 'identity', while knowing deep down that it's all temporary, an illusion, wanting to merge with oneness. It's really difficult to carry this dense physical body and its emotions, and wanting to know what it feels like to be boundless.
I'm really impressed with all the comments. We are truly in innerstandment of the lonliness, yet we do have this community. Blessings everyone, just do one day, or hour at a time. Especially since we are knowing of the NOW, and division has ripped the vale from the perceived reality. This is why cannabis is a fabulous aide, when coping with awakening from your brainwash, then living amongst those still under the program. The worse is when you lose friends because they can't see or refuse to see, and even stand opposition to your vices for spirituality growth. This journey really tests your inner strength, for we are truly the only ones here. Hence , we don't rush to cell phones in the morning, we rather look at the sun. We cherish those lone moments now. The others don't understand this. Be well.
I’d love to find some people in NJ who understand all this stuff. Where are you from, seeker?
@@paulbraunstein2290 I'm in the West now, but from the east. But now, I'm from the One and still trying to find my way to a vibration that reminds me of purity and love. The stresses of this matrix is truly acidic. Be well.
I did a bunch of mushrooms and when I was peaking I saw the essence of this reality. I saw my face on everyone else's, I felt like I was creating this whole experience out of confusion of who, what and where I am. I felt the pain and suffering of humanity and its beauty and wonder all at once. I remember thinking to myself... "Great... Now I've opened pandoras box and I will never see the world the same way again..." It was a very depressing feeling, I felt like I was stuck in a giant echo chamber for all eternity. Like the Genie in the lamp trapped for ever with only I to keep myself company. The further down the spiritual rabbit hole you go the more you realize that there really isn't going to be a huge ah ha moment the makes you totally whole and complete. The sooner you stop trying to feed the hungry ghost within and come to the realization that there was no hole to fill in the first place, the more at peace you will be with your self and this amazing reality.
Have you ever read or watched the stories of Hanuman and Rama? That taught me that we really do this again and again. When I check in with my higher self, she absolutely loves this wild shit. It’s still hard for me to conceive that we asked for this and all our lifetimes. But psychedelics remind me again and again that I did
Cool comment bro, its helpful. Stay well dude!
I had that experience of feeling like the genie in the lamp on aya. Good way to describe the feeling. Have mostly integrated the experience now but every now and then it pops its head up to say hello. Keep an eye on your thoughts and beliefs. I find when I start straying too far off the path and going into the labrinth of the mind whilst holding onto a bunch if new age cliches like "We are all God experiencing itself", that i quickly wind up in solipsism and it isnt fun. From my perspective, we are not God. We are divine creations. God lives within us but in this plane of existence we are seperate from the whole. Ultimately everything will be reconciled with the true creator in wholeness. But in the 3D realm of duality, life is a mystery. Sometimes all we can do is let go of all the stories including what we have seen on our psychedelic journeys and simply try and be here now in this moment with faith hope and love in our hearts.
When I was peaking on a heavy dose of blue meanies, it showed me that my life is simply a joke and that I will keep reliving this same life over and over again, same experiences over and over. Born, I am me, dead. Born, I am me, dead. Born, I am me, dead. The mushroom seemed almost amused and clown like, while showing this to me. It showed me that everything I do and have done I will do again and again and again. No escape. This really made me strong on the idea that I am everything. Without me there is nothing, literally. That once I run my course, I will run it once more because I am ‘God’. In the sense that I am the creator of the reality I am experiencing around me. Without me there is no reality. This probably sounds ‘narcissistic’ and ‘main character’ like to those that haven’t experienced this but I think what mushrooms do is give you extremely heightened awareness of baseline awareness. You become a ‘god’.
I am not totally invested in these ideas and agree that no one will ever find the ‘ah ha’ moment as you said
really resonating with those last two sentences. been on a "self improvement" journey for the past few years but only recently realized that i had started it on a foundation of thinking that there were holes to fill/heal to become whole. turns out i was just falsely identifying with lack. what a trip!
I feel you, Dakota. The advice I’ve been getting to deal with similar confusion, feeling lost and adrift is to work on grounding. The spiritual life raises us up but many of us don’t keep ourselves rooted to the earth. Take walks, journal, garden if you can, etc. This will help you stay calmer during the purge. Love you, bro. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
Nila is my mentor and although the video isn’t slick, she’s amazing. Grounding gives you the foundation you need to manage the high vibes. Try some of these techniques for feeling more grounded during your awakening.
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You're the light at the end of the tunnel.
Recharge and evolve. Time for growth. It never stops. It's never easy. But it's up to you. Whatever you do, don't stop healing, don't stop giving. It's a cycle.
And you're awesome 😎
Pain is a part of being.
At first, we start becoming conscious of our grief towards or own mortality. Life is about valuing every moment because it WILL end, that's the lesson. Acceptance isn't the same as enjoyment.
Ps: you're glowing, any skin routines? XD
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I’m so glad you made this video because it’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I’ve been on the spiritual journey for a few years now and I’ve done it all but right now, I feel so overwhelmed. It’s a inner battle between who I was and who I’m becoming.
Yeah man, no matter how spiritual we are...we can't escape what it is to be human... The pain, the suffering the cycle ... This is our journey... longing for somewhere, something that the human self can't comprehend .. longing for home. And in a society that doesn't always connect on that level, it's isolating, it's painful... Not to mention the collective unconscious is hurting right now. Feel it all, try not to make sense of it, ride the wave and remember... It's all temporary. If your going to feel it, feel it fully... One piece of advice ? Get up and move, shake, dance breathe cry.. get into your body and let the emotion move through you physically... Sending love 💞 you are so so not alone. x
I was having a conversation with an acquaintance not too long ago about Solipsism. They were entertaining the idea of being the only consciousness that currently exists (like how do they know what others experience is actually real or if it's just something they created with their consciousness) and how lonely that made them feel....and they would dwell on this subject... which caused me to ponder the workings of existential crises and it's spiritual implications. We talked about samskaras, past life karmas, what happens when you actually achieve this blissful state that the gurus always speak of...like... what comes after that? Having gathered experiential knowledge and questioning things that cannot be answered to satisfaction is something I think is a part of the "awakening" process...which also makes it paradoxical because the human mind simply doesn't have the capacity to process something so GRAND...
I used to entertain this thought until I had several telepathic with other people during psychedelic trips. It was unmistakable. We thought and felt the same thing without verbal communication.
@@gianni.santi. I feel that and definitely know that 💜
@@gianni.santi. I felt that, I can say I’ve experienced it in Ayahuasca ceremonies.
If i slide into solipsism then usually that is a good indicator my thoughts are getting a bit out there and semi delusional. A good tree bears good fruit. If solipsism is the fruit of your thoughts you may want to look at what those thoughts are and if they are worth holding onto.
I’ve been feeling this way all my life. But I found some kind of beauty in the intensity of it all and the best I can do is to radiate love & compassion to all beings I come across ✨ thank you for the reminder we’re never alone with our feelings ✨
Melancholy, Man , it's good you shared with us like you did today Also we all needed that energetic lead out you're a blessing Dakota,🙌🏽 thank you. 🙏🏽🧝🏽♀️🌻☘Yosemite California
I'm 52.
100% agree with everything you said . Gets really tiring when you want a break but it's to late, and when you think the way we do, life is exhausting
Yeah, Truth is a bittersweet thing. I also feel this nostalgia sometimes. I wouldn't define it as sad or depressing for me but.... Yeah bittersweet. I don't know if there if it's possible to get to ultimate liberation for us in this life or if we should just try to enjoy the full spectrum of everything to the best of our ability ❤️🌺🕉️
I know exactly what your talking about man I’ve felt it , I think it’s well talked about, confronted and dealt with in Buddhism with the four noble truths and the eightfold path, it’s dukkha , the dukkha of samsara, the innate imperfection of this worldly life, the suffering that is a part of the human condition, I try not to let it define me , it’s a teacher of truth , but it’s a bitter pill to swallow, that being said it dosent take away from the beauty and divinity of this existence and this universe, bittersweet is the right word brother and the spiritual path isn’t easy either but it is rewarding as we all know, peace be with you , all my love from Scotland
I keep coming back to this channel because I can relate to what you are saying. You speak of things that I think but cannot always express & it helps me get through them. I feel the sadness or depression as I try to figure out & understand my purpose & the "bigger purpose". I believe the closer to oneness we become, the collective energy will flow & allow us to find what we are supposed to. Thank you for making me feel not so far from others.
Grounding practices can really help, like when a small child hugs their parent and allows their problems to melt away into the parents arms. The Earth can do that for us, but we have to do the work by simply noticing and allowing it. Shanti, Shanti, Shanti my friends 🙏 🕊 🌎
Hey I feel you Dakota, for few days I've been feeling those things you've said about the good times, and after psychedelics or integration always come these times of purging or feeling sad. As artist, when I feel it's time, this goes to the canvas and reminds me everything is ok and we chose this. Big love brother, thanks for existing!
I'm just finishing up with my own "Dark night of the Soul" ...it led me down a path of material addiction ... temporarily however. Much love brother.
WE ARE ONE
Man you are me saying to myself what I been saying to myself, in every kind of ways, all this time
If this is not synchronization, I don't know what it is
I love you so much
You give me goosebumps
Yes I would agree it's depressing but even in times of just "what the hell am I even doing, being aware all the time" what's it for? The "self" always shows its the only thing worth living for. Life it self.
I feel something like this from time to time as well. It's just the realisation that no matter how many epiphanies I have, no matter how many spiritual experiences I have, where I feel at one with existence and see and feel it's perfection, those moments will pass and I still have to wake up the next day and keep on going and just try to be present. And to try to work with what life throws at me. The balance of managing my inner life vs outer life is challenging to me.
Really appreciate you posting this.
In one of my most intense trips, i experienced complete amnesia of my identity while being fully pressent, i forgot country's, date of birth everything, and it was wierd because i didn't feel good at all, just very depressed in a way, because everything was simply consciousness and nothing more... Then on another trip i experienced my heart opening up, and i feely amazing... It's also strange that it's way easier to recreate the experience of nothingness than love... But what i want is that heart opening feeling.
you probs homesick bro. you've awakened within a physical trip and have reached back to your soul. this life is a kind of separation from self, but a way to view things from a new perspective :)
I feel ya, I isolated myself years ago from all " friends" really just people I grew up parting with. The norm for weirdo in his 20's, until. You see how empty a weekend warrior or just drinking and going to the same dive hole bars and no one gives a shit about anything of substance.
I woke up one morning past our in a front yard in a random neighborhood Northside OKC and it was 15° or something. It was effing cold. That sealed it for me. I haven't talked to a single friend from my past in years. But I found some really interesting aspect of the mind, my mind of course. I'm happier now than all the sex, drugs, scenes,music, travel. But the journey can be really lonely. Especially when no one thinks at all about anything anymore. I maybe I'm just crazy
Hey, Dakota! I want you to know that no, you are definitely not alone.. I have been going through a period of depression myself and it has been painful, but eye openingly beautiful at the same time. Like you said everything in life is a teacher, depression included. From my changed perspective the depression that you, I, and so many others are feeling at this point in time may be a call from our souls to take our spiritual practices in a different direction. To stop ourselves from going in circles, constantly "seeking" the meaning of life and instead "become" the meaning of life. To let our minds relax and live more through our senses. To surrender to the experience rather than trying to define it. Maybe living a life without meaning is the true key to spiritual bliss.
Spirituality is a battle some days, eventhough it's meant for healing and transformation. I remember in the early stages, it was way tougher having the realizations and ephihanies you're talking about.
Something's are harder to face/get over depending on our personal path & what we precieve as right/wrong.... Until we are more evolved in our perceptions and just taking everything "as it is", although WAY easier said than done.
I think sadness is part of the journey. As well as all the other emotions. As for your feelings related to that everything is temporary... Ive been there. And it is very bittersweet and gut wrenching. What keeps me going is knowing all the beautiful people in my life and I are all a part of the soul family, and reincarnate with each other. I've read a couple books to understand life after death, bcause I've always been really curious about it. Like Many Lives Many Masters by Brian Weiss, Journey of Souls by Michael Newton, and Your Souls Plan by Robert Schwartz. They have a reoccurring theme of what ppl experience after death...
Such as unconditional love, only judgment by the self, and reincarnation with the soul family to balance out karmic roles. Which is just a small summaries of the books in my opinion.
Anyway. I think your attachment to your experiences makes you feel sad but I think you know it's definitely worth it to experience such happiness and beauty in exchange for sadness and depression because you are so grateful for the moments you've experienced. And that's beautiful.
I'm terrified of loosing the people I love in my life. I'm so grateful for here and now when everyone is healthy and alive. I get lost and down thinking of death. But I also forget that there's also life that I'll create someday and maybe it'll just be my loved one given back to me.
I'll share something personal, related to the books. Hoping that I'll help you in someway. As I said in the books there is a reoccurring theme of being reincarnated with your soul family. Before my grandfather's death, he told us he'd be back. He was a really spiritual and awakened person. But he said he'd come back as my aunt's son because he has reincarnated with her many times, sometimes my aunt is his mother or his daughter, or he is her father or her son. It still gives me goosebumps thinking about it. But I guess that's where my belief in reincarnation with the people I love solidified. His experience and then later coming across these books. It's definitely a belief that you know... Makes me believe everything will be okay.
Pain is inevitable. But the opportunity to love, is worth it.
Okay sorry for the long rant. Much love and sending you healing 🙏💗
Dakota, you voiced exactly how I wrestle with my spirituality. The temporary nature and how do I get back to the nature or reason why I am here. We love you, you have taken us so many places some of us haven’t had the opportunity to do. We feel and resonate with your soul. And thank you for putting this out there ! Much love and respect !
Thanks for uploading this dakota c: I feel a little less lonely ^_^ I been feeling this way, like the ocean waves it comes and it goes. I just surrender when I feel a bit anxious or a lil blue I surrender it all to God and always have faith and trust the universe 🙏♡
Thank you for sharing!! So important for us all to hear. We all feel this way! No sugar coating necessary, we all need to be more honest and open about what we are feeling. That’s the whole point! Wish society was different but that’s why you’re here to change things up! Thank you so much for all you do!
totally feel you. I’ve always thought about this a lot.
Facts💯
You are travelling, a life many would love to have, enjoy it and live for the moment. Enjoy every little thing from the sun to what you eat, hearing music, laughing to the bigger picture of what you are able to do as a job.
Or i'm proof that your material desires are equally as worthless at the end of the day. Travelling isn't the answer to your problems.
@@dakotawint is it possible you feel this way with greater intensity when you’re back at home away from the distractions of traveling?
@@dakotawint It’s so funny how true that last statement is. I’ve travelled to feel something different and get away, but then you realize how similar and fundamental everything thing is from human nature to culture to life itself. Thanks for being so open Dakota. You’ve taught me a lot through expressing yourself.
This is honestly the most powerful thing I have watched all day. Just having someone else emote into the same feelings has made me feel so much less hopeless. So thank you, blessings fellow traveller. I guess we are all just doing our best not to make the world suck for our grandkids one day 🙏❤
I keep clinging to all kinds of things all the time because being nothing keeps terrifying me.
The best part is that the I who is terrified doesn't exist yet I keep imagining it😂
Thank you, for giving voice and sounds when words and music fail to explain. 💗
My spiritual journey has been very depressing and very enlightening.Trauma comes up and I deal with it, and I change. I keep changing and the trauma seems to never end :( The further I reach the worse the trauma and it keeps getting harder, its like the dark night never ends.
I guess I cant wait for the end because I know Ill be returning to the great oneness of the universe... its comforting yet so hard to go through..
Dude I related a lot with what you said. Many times, when I get depressed it’s because I’m living with too many assumptions & conclusions. It brings immediate relief when I remind myself that actually, I don’t know shit! Also, I think it’s completely normal & human to miss the good old times like you said. Another thing I remind myself of is that I’m (physically) only 25 years old. And you’re young too! We still practically have another life time to live in this life time alone! So more good old days await us in the future. I love spirituality & it’s basically what my whole life is centered around but sometimes I have to just set it aside, let go of all the definitions & concepts in my mind & ‘do the dishes!’ Hope that helps man & I hope it didn’t sound too preachy! I love your videos by the way! We just gotta keep on keeping on because who knows what’s coming our way in the future!
Spirituality is growing, so it's hard, I feel a lot of pain often but I think is like a test to grow
Nostalgic sadness. Yeah man. I feel you. Lately I have been feeling sadness that doesnt seem to add up or come from anywhere.
I'm on this vibe lately aswell, I'm very melancholic but always try and look for a silver lining/light at the end of the tunnel...writing poetry can help express/release this infinite sadness.
Amen to that! And music saves me
Very well said and thank you, I know I'm not alone. Its like the peak of a San Padre Ceremony where I've just hiked 2 miles up into the high Arizona desert mountains to realize everything is everything. 😘🧡💫💥💞
The path from LIFE to DEATH is always SAD. The path from DEATH to LIFE is amazing. To die means - samadhi. For beginners - samadhi is NDE & from there on the journey is amazing because of its opportunity & value.
This was entirely relatable, and also laughed so fkn hard at “I’m a professional flute player when I’m not having panic attacks on TH-cam” Keepin it real.
Depressing and terrifying and even a relief... 🤷❤🌿
i always feel like you’re speaking directly to me. i also experience what you’re feeling. sometimes i wish i didn’t know some things but at the end of the day i am still grateful that i know what i know. much love friend 💓
I feel you 100 percent bro. The more we learn the less we know. One way I combat this bitter sweetness is for every bitter thought I have I try to think of the sweet eventually you build muscle memory and stick to the sweet side at the end of the day thoughts are energy if you have good thought its tranfered after you have it creating 'good karma' and vice versa for negative thoughts energy cannot be created or destroyed only transferred, working on yourself spiritually is much like working out you build over time. started this journey around 17 18 years old im gonna be 24 this year. CHEERS from your southern neighbor in indiana! hope this helped a little
Namaste,
The sadness you are talking about is due to the identification with the body-mind phenomena. As long as we believe that we are an individual ego, suffering is inevitable. The great sages and saints points us towards the right direction. They also teach us that suffering is a blessing in disguise. Our spiritual practice must be continuous. One cannot expect results by sitting for sadhana for 1 hour and then for 16 to 18 hours being completley involved in the body-mind/world. There has to be willpower and effort in the beginning to later realize that no effort was ever needed because you are and was always that. God bless
Om tat sat
Every day I feel like us who are 'spritual' and are basically empaths, have got it so much worse than your average person in this world.
once you’re "awake" or conscious
you can‘t go fully back to sleep again
@@JensVanDeAarde Which is one thing I believe everybody should be taught, research into and become aware of before they take on any psychedelic journey.
@@dejavugodssonxrp6624
no one can or should be "taught"
because for everyone something similar but also different will happen
humans just have to step into their own shit
otherwise we’re not learning
@@JensVanDeAarde That is true. As soon as I wrote it I thought, but nobody can be 'aware' until they are actually aware lol. It cannot be taught, only explained the best we can. None of us were taught. We learned ourselves.
We can still help them make the bed though, there's nothing wrong with that.
@@dejavugodssonxrp6624
exactly
the only way to experience it
is… hold on!…
through direct experience haha
This hit me very hard. You are not alone in feeling this way. I have been working through this as well. Thanks for sharing Dakota.
I feel you. My spiritual journey started shortly after my sister passed but I can see how I was already headed down the path long before she left me. I saw the god in everything once she died and it was a very overwhelming and beautiful time. I cried nearly everyday bc I could see so clearly how life and death bleed in the same vein. Now I’ve past that “spark” of sheer joy for being alive in a world where being alive is the most rare thing (and also the most common thing) of all. Now I feel very burdened by having a body and a life and an existence and to be occupying this small moment of time when I know I should be grateful. Sometimes I feel very unworthy of having a human form and I used to wish all the time that I could just be a breeze or a leaf or something LOL. Idk, I know life is a gift but one cannot help but to still feel so burdened with the fact that we are all born with our own curses (mindset, physical/mental health, traumas from our past and also the traumas that will occur in our future or are presently occurring). Kind of a rant but I understand your nostalgia. I am happy to be alive but I am also melancholy and looking forward to a peace away from all of this. And who knows if that is coming. Life is hard.
I love your psychedelic videos, I love the travel videos and I especially love the sacred medicine videos too!! But these videos, these videos are just something else! I resonate so much with how you’re feeling about spirituality and everything that comes with it but there is so much teachings & wisdom in this video. The authenticity you embody surpasses through any course that a modern age guru can teach right now, so thank you! I think that the heaviness we feel is also part of the journey. How we honor the happy feels, we could honor these two & view them as our little children just asking for some attention & honoring, that’s what helps me. I love you Dakota a million times ♥️🍃🙏🏼
I feel the same man, this video is a great representation of my current contemplation. It seems that this month, there is a lot of emotional change/purging for myself and many that I know on this path. Bitter-sweet is a great way to describe it, the yin-yang for me is a great symbol of grounding myself in "reality". There is a lot of truth and meaning in this symbol. Keep on going brother, we need these moments of darkness to experience the light ☯💫
That impromptu Terrance McKenna impression was EVERYTHING! I was cackling..I needed that today. Thanks Brother.
Hey man, I'm 77 years old and feeling the same thing after practicing for half a century , also done many psyedelics but it's actually okay just don't get attached to being depressed, let that come and go too.
As long as we have a body and mind we will fluctuate between yin and yang. Keep the balance and harmony..
Are you familiar with the Sanskrit tern NETI NETI , WHICH MEANS NOT this.. not this.
Let it all go, the ultimate in non attachment . But the next step is the new incoming moment. And the joy to be found within it now.
Om Shanti
The eternal present and our light of consciousness is always happening NOW . Go with FLOW OF TRUTH AS IS.....
Daily yoga really helps!!
Thanks Ken 🙏
It’s really nice coming along with you on your journey to some extent. You’ve always been a nice comfort to me, since I watched your first live stream on acid and both growing since. I don’t know any answers if anything I have more questions but anyways, here we are doing our best. Peace and love from the west coast of canada ♾🤍☮️ 💜♊️ 🤍♾
You have such a Beautiful Soul Dakota and I thank you for this insightful video and also your sweet flute song! I have watched you for ages but never commented but this topic is close to my heart :) I am a Reiki Master and have been doing this "peeling back the layers of the Onion of my soul" for many years. It isn't easy to keep addressing our shadow and to de - programme ourselves, and you touch upon a really great subject! I myself have been contemplating on this subject lately and I appreciate hearing your thoughts on this subject Dakota! Stay Blessed
Man this is exactly how I feel all the time. Glad to know you think about this stuff too
The only thing I could take out of this video is how real you are and how you aren’t afraid to put yourself out there as it is. Given the kind of content you have put, it is extremely difficult for someone to accept “I’m confused idk where this is heading to and i miss the times which were simpler when i did not have this knowledge” and I think that proves your humility. Thank you for being this!❤
It blows my mind how it seems everyone is going thru these exact same thoughts and feelings your speaking of. Love you brother.We R all 1
You are not on your own brother 🙏
We are all going through this.
We are all purging. I’ve done a lot of it lately. We are all going through it.
Please don’t feel alone. Done ever feel alone. We are all in this together.
Thanks for sharing this with us 🙏
I think at the moment, the most spiritually aware people are having the hardest time.
The people that are the most blissfully ignorant are having an easier time.
This is what bothers me. This is what I can’t understand 🙆🏻♀️
We have to stay strong in our minds and hearts and pray to our lord Jesus 🙏 💜 xxxxxx
I’m really stoked to find this today 🙏🏽🤸🏽♀️✨🤸🏽♀️👌🏽 well put
I hope our spirits meet someday
Love your videos Dakota. Thanks for sharing and being so open. I really relate to the feeling that "all the good times have passed." Or that strange feeling of looking back. I think part of this is due to the bizarre times we're in. I too am trying to stay centered, accept my feelings but not get lost in them, and trust that things will work out as long as I keep moving forward. 💪🙏
"All the simple things, the simple times" looking out the window on a long road trip
This is really cool youre discussing this. I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and it shifts from accepting to realization that this reality really is only temporary and there is always something else coming, we hold on to things or people for a while and dont even realize that its not even that long.
I hear you brother. I've come to think that I'll only be truly free when I have lost all attachments to outcomes, situations, concepts... sounds like bs but it still seems to me it's true. Enjoyed the pipe playing. You're a lovable soul. ☮️
Thanks for being 100% open about your feelings and your struggles; specially when it comes to spiritual life. A lot of people try to seem like they've "got it". Specially when it comes to spiritual matters and it's great to see someone expressing these things in a type of community where genuineness is easily lost. These are the approaches that truly matter and I thank you for that. For being so genuine and for being openly vulnerable. It's the main reason I believe you have the audience that you have and it certainly is the reason I have stayed for all these years watching your content. Because through your content, it feels like you're actually expressing the essence of your being. It's like your own form or art really. And we get to the see the essence of who is Dakota. For me, your content means a lot because I started watching you when I was a teenager and now I'm 23. You being you was a huge part of who I am today. It all started with watching your videos on TH-cam and I'm currently a monk/Brahmachari and it all started for me when I watched your videos. And I've been riding this huge wave of finding who I am ever since. Please, don't stop doing you Dakota. Your content pretty much changed my life and even though you're not aware of it, I'm telling you now. We don't know each other, and we've only met once in the past (Vans Warped Tour 2018, Cincinnati), but I'm really glad to have found you in this life. That's what your content means to me and I thank you. For sharing your art and who you are.
I get that bitter sweet feeling/realisation 100%
Dakotaaaa! I agree and feel EVERYTHING you said ! Thank you for sharing your mind and heart! hahaha the end !! Also that flute transition put me in a trance 🙌🏽🙌🏽 so good! Love
Would love to have a conversation bout this 222
Misery comes for me and that’s when I try to remember to rest in the Ground of Being. Blessings to you my man ☀️🙏🌸
i needed to hear this. your words make so much sense to me, and you are not alone on your journey (even when in isolation). thank you for reminding all of us the same.
I resonate, the beginning of my journey was full of "WOW the world was not what I thought it was and I can't wait to go deeper and understand more" and the deeper I get it's more like, I feel this responsibility to create every experience I have, and I have to keep finding these new and interesting ways to make life interesting and blissful. I found bliss for 6 months and then felt like suffering forced its way back into my reality... if I am to create my experiences, whilst being unattached enough to let go of anything at a moment's notice, then why create experiences when they can disappear at any point? I sound like I'm mirroring the non-permanence you're talking about. It is sad. It's beautiful when it's beautiful and it's sad when it's sad. And we have to practice acceptance of all parts of existence
'I don't know why I'm talking about this' - and thank God you did. Love your work 🙏🕉
Thank you for thinking out loud. There can be an urge to have all the answers so to do a video with this vulnerability and with questions is inspiring for me.
So glad you made this video Dakota. After my ayahuasca experience I felt true bliss being surrounded by mother earth, in tune with spirit, the love of the people, and letting go of shit I didn't even know I had (or what exactly I needed to let go in that moment) and then a week and a half later got immediately so sad. Like I was going thru an immense heartbreak bc I could see how every word affected the heart, I could feel the pain and joy of everything, and yet even with that awareness I couldn't feel more enlightened to feel bliss and instead was bawling my eyes out for days wondering what was wrong with me or if I broke something. It occurred to me that there was more purging and perhaps living in normal society makes it even more important to keep up with practices that remind us of the bliss and onesss we felt and know to be true. It's like we can see both worlds and it's the confusion that almost makes us melancholy. Still figuring it out myself but thank you for your honest share. 🙏🏻
thank you dakota, never stop these vids fr your the only spiritual person on these platforms i feel like i genuinely relate to
You have no idea how much I needed to hear this. Been abusing psyches and last night "I" was told to stopped running away from myself. Yes we have this ego. But we're in this human experience. So let's be humans. Ego is neither good or bad. Just having clarity between the ego and the oneness
This really fucking resonated ♡ ive found that replacing the sadness of the constant change with gratitude, deep deep gratitude for each moment - Thank you for sharing this vulnerable beautiful truth,, bless up brother, hope this full moon helped guide you through this. So much love for you bravery to share your journey with the world, its inspiring and appreciated beyond words. You are supported and loved beyond worlds - incredible tunes, keep hitting those pipes ☆
Love you bro!✨ " keep on OMing in the free world"💜💜💜/?
I'm creating a joy filled understanding of this universe where I'm respected, loved, honored, learning and sharing energy with kindred souls while giving this all back and more! 💫
Thanks for your honesty Dakota. I feel the exact same way. We get through it, we always do. It's sort of a test, isn't it? Your content has made a big difference in my day to day life. Appreciate all you do. Much love 🙏
I shiver when I have such moments of realisation and I haven't been able to let myself just be complete because maybe I'm not yet ready. And as much as I would love to experience my own existence and purpose in life, at the same time it feels equally daunting. I have huge respect for people who choose to follow the path of spirituality because it's not only about being brave but also seeing this world and universe just as it is after carrying so many filters of your own perception of the world. It's insanely beautiful to me. I have been in the depressive zone for quite a while now and it just feels like I'm stuck but I'm just allowing myself to feel this way and not try to get rid of all the negative emotions but instead look for the root cause. It's been tough and feeling lonely does not help at all. It just distracts me more from reaching where I want to. All I want to say is Dakota, you're an amazing person and have a beautiful soul. Spiritual depression is a process for most of us in our path to self-realisation. And to keep growing from that, it's very important to see what is holding us back. We're in this together! Much love to you ♥️🌻
It’s ever lasting - that’s what keeps me going. Even when it feels like an end, it’s ever lasting. What you are saying are so in line to my daily feelings. You are well!
@dakota of earth I often find myself drifting easily between spirituality and nihilism. When I am experiencing those deep, heavy, intense epiphanies through spiritual practices/rituals they are usually always "negative" or hard to process and understand. This ultimately leads to the nihilistic stance and my depressive episodes of "what's the point" in which I am led back spiritually to "that IS the point" and am finally able to process through these heavy spiritual periods. It it so incredibly hard during those moments to find the motivation to keep going. And I think the spirituality is not only the teacher but the strength to keep us moving forward, even if we are in and out of those bittersweet cycles. I just had a spiritual experience the other day that, on that day, I perceived as extremely negative. I had a horrible and frightening experience that was so heavy I couldn't fully process it and was left in silence for almost 24 hours. I had no words to express and definitely nothing positive to take from it. The day after I started to put things together and the "negative" things started to make sense. I was shown things I was not prepared to see. I learned things about myself that I didn't want to face. And in the end, I finally had answers to why I had been living life a certain way for so long. I finally understood why I had been feeling the way I'd been feeling for so damn long. So in the end, was it really a negative experience? It was a harsh reality I was not willing to face at the time, but spiritually was thrown right into the middle of it. Did it hurt? My god yes. Did it make me want to give up? Undoubtedly. But I sat there in it for a day or two. I gave it some time. I was cranky. I stayed away from most people. And then the answers came. I felt like I was in time-out. Like the universe told me to go pick a corner and sit in it and think about what I've done. Hahaha!! Gotta bring some humor into it, right? Basically what I'm saying is that you're most definitely not alone in feeling what you're feeling. Being spiritual is not all rainbows and sunshine and unicorns and innocence. Most of the time it is dark and heavy, but so damn necessary for our growth and evolution. I heard something today from another video and she said, "Pain is always going to happen, it's part of this experience. The suffering is the rejection of that pain. So when we actually embrace our pain and the difficult parts of our story, then we can actually find bliss there." When she said this, I wanted to cry out. She also said this in the same video, "I really want to remind you that where your pain is and where your difficult moments, your insecurities, your fears, your shadows if you want to call it that, is often where your medicine lies; where your gifts are." Again, catch me sobbing here.
TLDR: You are not alone!!
Thank you Dakota I enjoyed this video my depression comes and goes that's for sure and I am a spiritual person. One foot in front of the other everyday. The song at the end of the video uplifted my spirits I needed that. Much love and blessed be