Dude, I get it. 20 year combat vet myself. Twice divorced. Suicidal, PTSD, alcohol abuse. Part of my recovery has been coin roll hunting and metal detecting, and your channel has been a huge part of that. You were there for me, so let me return the favor. Take all the time you need brother. This recovery process isn't easy, but it is worth it. We will still be here when you come back. Love ya bro.
I’ve been watching your videos silently since the very beginning and I have never commented once. I’ve never missed an episode. Hell, I don’t even metal detect. Watching your videos helped me through some very difficult times and filled me with hope and optimism. Simply put, you, and all the Hoover Boys, kept me going. I am so glad to hear that you are finally getting the help you need. You deserve the very best. I can’t help but think that the treasure you’ve been looking for all these years was there with you all along. You thought you were chasing gold in the ground, but really it was the gold in your heart you were after. I’m so glad you have finally found it. Love and best wishes, Walt from CT.
Look at all the people in this group that love you … I have a detector… have yet to go out and use it … it’s all your fault ;)… get well and come back stronger !
That must have been very tough to film and share with everybody, but it was SO brave of you to do it. Your mental health and your family come first, always. I’m pulling for you, Kurt - hope things continue down a positive path and that you heal a bit more each day. Stay strong when you can, lean on your amazing family when you can’t. ❤
Firstly I apologize for piggybacking off the original poster’s comment. It has the most likes, so it shows up at the top of the list (this first short paragraph is contextual/the set up, and I’m late to the comment part). Therefore, I’m hoping Curt see’s this, and I wanted to add my two cents. As a follower of THB Channel since almost the beginning, one video particularly sticks out in my mind: “Treasure Hunting Surface Finds | Dirty Money (New Orleans)” from 9 years ago. I haven’t watched it in almost that long, but it was a very dark representation of you. One of, if not the only glimpse we’ve gotten to view for that side of you. After watching this video, I encourage folks to go back and watch it, to truly understand what I’m getting on about. It’s an actual, visually-tangible example of how long you’ve been battling your demons (and points out that it goes back even further than that…as you say to the beginnings of your career as a volunteer F.F./First Responder). As a former alcoholic, now sober for 3+ years, and living with/fighting against liver cirrhosis, I know the mental anguish you’re dealing with, it’s just a Zebra with different stripes. Although it doesn’t always help my racing mind (particularly when we’re speaking of going to bed), I always remind myself that whatever happens in our lives, it happens for a reason…it’s God’s plan. His plan isn’t there for us to question. It is a pathway that we must do our best to follow by choosing to make the right decisions in life. It’s a mix of His predetermined existence for us, and our free will. By: sharing your experience with us, opening up to those in your REAL life, mending fences, confronting your personal issues with others, and seeking professional help, you’re choosing the correct directions that will get you back closer to God’s path. As The Mandalorian’s say in Star Wars cannon “This is the way.” God bless you Curt, and yours…you got this Brother From Another Mother!! We BeFAM 💪🏼🙏🏼✝️🫡
I fight the battle every day, good for you for getting help. We have a mutual friend that has helped me immensely just by listening. Very proud of you 👏👏👏👏
Kurt!! Thank you for speaking up and thank you for checking into a center. Huge damn accomplishments for your life story. I have PTSD from a lifetime of bullshit- and during one trip back up from the rabbit hole I found THB channel and @Stefdigs . I wasn’t sure I’d make it out alive. Like you, my family is my life and they wouldn’t let me fall behind. I spent hours alone watching you guys and Stef. I am a loner by nature but watching you all made me feel like I was part of a group of people who liked the random things I do. So, thank you for being there when I needed a “friend”. My sons had me start my channel because they knew it would help. And it totally did. Now I’m starting a nonprofit called Put The Sound Down (PTSD). I want to help people find this hobby and other amazing ones that help quiet the demons. So, again thank you for being a powerful force that you don’t even know you are. If you’re ever in western Ohio you all are welcome to dig with me. No videos, just dirt. Keep f’n going!! ✌🏼❤️😊🍀 Love to you and your family - Nicole
Love you brother. I'm an Ex AEMT here in Georgia. I feel you entirely. I quit because of the evil ongoing in EMS in my town. My supervisor that wanted me to stay in, lost her battle to that dark feeling from all the poor management in our area and the reports of wrong doing going on deaf ears. I struggle from time to time with my own emotions from the 6 years I did that job full time. I can empathize with you in this. I wanted to let you know that you are so much more to so many people. You've been a great help in keeping my spirits alive over the last few years especially when I lost my grandmother. Now my mom who has cancer is weighing heavy on my heart. I don't want that to worry you, or to make you want to do more videos. I've enjoyed so much already, and everything you've given up until now has been a blessing. The light shines through! I don't want to take The Watch for you my friend, I want to be there by your side, and support in whatever way I can. May you take this time now to be with your family, not just be around them. May you see the blessings you have, and may they provide you with all the love and support that you deserve. I'll pray for you and your family, as well as our fallen brothers and sisters. Much love from Augusta, GA.
I am from Augusta, myself.... Lived in Hephzibah and Evans. Sorry to hear about your struggles... I really hope that your mother will beat Cancer. I also hope that you made it through the storm unscathed. I live near Asheville, NC and our area got hammered pretty hard as well. Fortunately, we were spared any damage to our home. Thanks for sharing your situation... Take care of yourself, my friend.
This is all we needed to hear!! Your health is the most important thing right now. I hope it helps your heart to know that you were missed. Take your time coming back and know that we will be here waiting to see you and the guys out there saving history soon. Hugs from Pittsburgh!!
Hey Brother, you're not alone in your struggles. I'm a combat Vet with severe PTSD and can relate I think. You're channel and content has been a relief for me as a distraction from my issues and I want to thank you and the guys for that. I've been treated through the VA and I've come to realize that there is no shame in seeking help, you should feel very proud of that. Hang in there, you will prevail! I'll be here when you return to see your adventures.
You are not alone Dan. I am a vet too. However, I am one lucky SOB because I was only officially deployed one time and we got recalled before we got anywhere. I understand that I had that bullet whiz by my head 6 or 7 more times and only knew of one time. You do not have to go to combat to end up with PTSD. I know this well. I have Army, abuse growing up, and work related PTSD and know how it feels. I have seen some terrible shit. Once again, you are not alone. I would bet that you have also woke up at o dot 30 and said "Well, I guess this fucking night is over." Not getting any more sleep tonight." Then everyone wonders why you are crabby and tired and don't want to deal with BS that day.
I am 83 and was wondering where you have been for the past two Wednesdays. I am so glad you have the courage to take care of yourself. I love your videos and have been a faithful watcher from day one. I think we will all be here when you decide to come back. Just take care of yourself.
Thank you brother! I retired recently after 50 plus years of service. I live in the New Orleans area and after Katrina I realized that something was not working right as much as I loved the fire service. I also checked myself into a behavior modification unit. Best thing I ever done for myself, As first responders we see and do so much stuff that our brains cannot deal with it. I am an advocate of mental health for everyone in the fire service no matter the size of the department, Every member should go CIST before they ever go to an incident. As a trained and certified Fire Service Chaplain, I thank you for going public. You will never know how many lives you have touched. I watch you every week and love you shows. Take care of your self! You have many, many who care about you! Be Blessed in all you do! Butch
Kurt, thank you, brother, for sharing. As an ex first responder myself, I myself know what you are going through. I've been there. It's not easy and yes it hurts. I started watching THB way before I ever started detecting. It was because of you guys that got me into it to help me deal with my mental health. You all helped me in my time of need and kicked started my road to recovery. It's been 10 years of dealing with the dark side and I'm now in a happier place and 99% better. So Kurt you have got this brother. We all have your back. We stand as one but we all fight together. Love Peace Respect
I am 78 and have been down the hole for many years. I take each day as a chance to get better. Life eases into too many ways of losing touch with yourself. So, I am going to say many people love and respect you. You make us happy and you have earned so much respect from your followers. Please keep up with the help you are receiving. ❤
Kurt, You are one of the first TH-camrs I ever followed. I suspect you know that we (your watchers) consider you a friend. I know that’s odd since you don’t know us. But please trust that to be true. I’m in Ohio but so wish I could drive over and give you a big hug. Thank you for taking care of you. Thank you for allowing your loved ones to coax you into the environment you needed. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing these details. I love you man! “We can’t anticipate but we can adapt”. (A quote from a dear friend of mine). Keep taking care of you.
Kurt, that took a lot of courage to share what you have been hauling around in your head. I am sure your wife knew before you did, that you needed help. Nurses are use to the traumas that life throws at them via their patients and families . I am glad that you decided to enter a place that knows what you have held in for years. I thank God you took those steps for your mental health and for the sake of your beautiful family. I pray that this video helps someone else who is living the life of a first responder! Depression I know about first hand, but you have given your life to help others in their worst moments in life. Please know that I will be adding you and your family to my prayer list. There is no shame in a man crying, especially when he is letting out years of repressed emotions! I love my Hoover Boys and have held you all to me like family, because that is how you made each video, sharing the fun of metal detecting but of the friendships made because of a much loved healthy hobby. Come back when you are ready to share your laughter and metal detecting life! Your mental health is more important to me! Hugs to you, your wife and the kids! 🙏❤️g 7:17
X 2 Kurt, you've done the right thing. Explaining it to all of us and the Wellness Group is a good first step. I'm sure you've got all of your fans support too. Rest will help...and if you like crystals and gemstones, you might carry a piece of Black Tourmaline in your pocket and one on your night stand. It works for me to fend off the negativity and calm me down. It helps me sleep and feel safe. You do a lot for us, now it's time to take care of yourself. You're on the mend I feel. Good luck Bud
Kurt, man you are a true role model. So glad to hear that you’re taking care of yourself and getting help when you needed it. I’ll keep you in my prayers every day brother. Stay strong. Just know that every single person on here even though we’re all strangers behind a camera/screen we’re here for you if there is anything one of us can do, do not hesitate to ask or let us know. We love you brother.
Kurt, thanks for the update.. I think it’s fair to say we all have been worried about you. Take your time, I can’t imagine being a first responder and honestly saying thank you for doing that isn’t enough. I can’t imagine the weight it causes but I am glad you are working on you. I am in Florida and we were just hit by two hurricanes so I only have a small picture of a small part of what you do and only have total appreciation for first responders. They are true life savers and risk everything for others. Again thank you for what you do, work on yourself and we will be here when you are ready. No rush just get the help you need.
Praying for you!!! I’m 27 years old and have been suffering through the worst mental health battle I’ve ever had for the past three years. It’s hard to be a man, and hard to be a human. Thank you for being transparent and letting us all know we are in it together. Love you brother. Thank you for saving us all through your videos.
I had a 25 year career as an EMT across the line in York and Lancaster County PA and a lot years as a volunteer. I and my fellow first responders have seen a lot of up close and personal ugliness in that time. I've always hoped those ghosts would stay buried in my mind. Some of those calls have have come back to haunt me. You do what's right for you and may God Bless you on your journey to healing. I've always felt metal detecting was a great therapy for me. I thoroughly enjoy your videos and your finds and I cheer with you when you make your discoveries! I am currently unable to dig courtesy of back issues. But, I look forward to getting back out there and finding history again. You, Brad and the rest of the Hoover Boys keep me going! Please take care and know you are well thought of in this community!
23+ plus here in central pa .. 20 min south of state college... I've been watching hoover boys for 2 years and want to so badly get into the hobby but unfortunately finances don't allow it but hope to some day be able to. Stay safe out there
Hi, I'm a fellow back sufferer like you. I had lower back surgery last year to get a metal "structure" built around my spine. Been a really slow process from there. I have had to rely on higher powered pain medication for the last 15 years or so, and from the start have always wanted to get off of those meds. Two weeks ago last Monday I had a "stimulator" with a battery put into my back just below my ribs. Attatched to the stimulator is a longish copper wire, fairly thick. It goes up my spine and is held in place permanently. The stimulator actually tricks blocks the pain signals from going to your brain, and believe me, it works! Since that day I have felt little to no pain in my lower back. I'm weaning myself off of the two pain killers I've been on for so long, and am looking forward to building up my leg and back muscles again. I live close to Harrisburg, so I thought you might be interested in this. In my case, it's been (so far) life changing. I advised a couple of friends to look into it, and I thought I'd throw out this random message to you as you are so close to my area. If it's interesting to you, I advise you to talk to your doctor, and look into it. Cheers!
Hey Kurt, I have followed you for years. I am a pastor and minister to folks who deal with trauma, depression and painful memories. You certainly have the right foundation going by having a loving and supportive family and have now been counseling with a group specific to your traumatic experiences. Know that I am praying for you! You can and will get through this. Your identity is NOT bound up in what has abused you or traumatized you, but your identity is a man of God who has been appointed for this time and has been given a place as a husband and father with friends and family that love you and because of your trials, will now have a voice you did not have before…
Thanks for sharing. As a first responder for the last 24 years I understand the ups and WAY downs. You've spent your entire career taking care of others, now is the time to focus on taking care of yourself.
Kurt, I am SO PROUD of you for recognizing your needs and taking care of the most important thing between your two ears. It sounds like you have a great support system and we all are cheering for more positivity in the coming days. Thank you for being open and transparent. We need more voices, like yours, to share experiences. Your videos (both THB and Mental Health Day) have helped me rediscover my passion of the outdoors (fishing and detecting) and has allowed me to get through some tough years. So, thank YOU! Heal well, brother.
Preaching to the choir! I'm a retired Sheriff's Deputy & went out on early disability retirement because I pushed myself way too hard & thought I could handle it. Sleep deprivation does indeed take a toll on one's mental & physical health & meds don't always work either. Hope that you're able to work through your demons & refresh yourself. I learned the hard way that you have to take care of yourself because no one else will except for your spouse if you're lucky & even then they can't do but so much. Take all the time you need to heal & don't worry about TH-cam until you're ready to return. Take care & stay safe!
Hugs to you. You are absolutely correct that you are not alone. As a mental health provider, I have witnessed so many clients "who had everything" descend into a dark mental dungeon of hopelessness and could not find the ladder out on their own. You are dear to your loved ones and you had the courage to listen and get help finding that ladder. By sharing the difficult choices you made to seek recovery others may identify with your experience and seek help. Saving their lives. Im sure John would welcome a future visit from all the Hoover Boys. May you find joy in being.
Man, this was such a great video. I have to tell you I have been a regular viewer since the beginning, watched every episode at least 2 times, some as much as 10. It's the only show I regularly look forward to, and noticed the unannounced break. I am so sorry you are where you are, but so thankful you made the right decisions! Take as much time as you need man. We will still be here to support you 100%!!
Kurt, You are so loved my friend. The content you have created is therapy for so many of us, for years!! You have helped me get through some tough times. Your consistency has been nothing short of amazing. Thank you for your bravery in what you do every day for others as a first responder. Thank you for your bravery in sharing your therapy sessions with us every week when you take us with you on these adventures. Thank you for your bravery to openly share with us the struggles you are going through. You didnt have to do that. That only makes us love you more! You are such an incredible and unique person to give so much to others. We are with you-wether you're making an incredible discovery in the ground, or within yourself, we are with you. You mean so much to us, it is imperative that you take the time and space you need. We are out here thinking of you and praying for you. We love you Kurt.
This is THE MOST powerful thing I'v seen on here in quite a while! I did ask john on one of the videos where you were and the fact I hadnt seen a video in a few weeks made me worry a little bit. I didnt here/see any rumor's . But lad, I do know a little bit of what you are going through. Though maybe not to the same extent. EVERYTHING you said about how the world is, is exactly how I'm feeling about it also. I really hope this video goes a long way to help you recover and get back to that happy guy I've been watching for the last 5/6 years! I am sending prayers, positive vibes and the very best of Irish luck to you and your family for over here in soggy Ireland! BTW there's an old Irish proverb that came to mind as I was watching your video, (Like many Irish people my grasp of our native language is sketchy at best so I had to google it to get it right.) But here it is.. Ní dhéanfaidh smaoineamh an treabhadh duit. It means roughly: You can't plough a field by turning it over in your mind. I'm not sure this will help you but the fact there's a proverb for it means YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Slainté!
I'm a 44 year old from Ontario Canada and you inspired me to get this guy off his butt and do some hunting. You helped me in a dark spot and thank you. You will over come this. I KNOW YOU WILL
Kurt, I too want to add my voice to the previous commenters: I have enjoyed watching you guys -- your banter and fun with each other is contagious. Your videos also helped me during the dark days of the pandemic. I am so sorry that you have been going through rough times, but I am glad for you that you are identifying the issues causing depression and getting the help you deserve and need. You are a man loved by many (your family, friends, and channel followers). Please know that there are many in your corner rooting for you. That includes me! God bless you brother!
❤ to Kurt and all suffering from depression & anxiety. The world can be a difficult place and we all need help from time to time. Your videos bring a lot of joy to folks... myself included. Thank you for the update even though it was obviously a very emotional message to share.
Kurt- as someone who's been there with depression and anxiety myself- THANK YOU for taking care of yourself. I hope you continue to progress and find your peace with everything. It doesn't happen overnight sadly, but it does get better. We're all here for whenever you return and I'm going to check out your other channel now. You're not alone in this struggle and thank you for sharing- hopefully it'll prompt others to get the help they need too.
Hi Kurt- I am retired LEO, forced to pension a couple years earlier than planned due to mental health issues from the job. I got help and doing better. I know exactly what you’re going through. Thank God you have a great support system in place with your friends and family and through the first responders support system. I admire your courage for coming out and telling everyone what’s been going on. In our line of work, some look at it as weakness, but the real heroes know…. I know. And from reading the comments, a lot of your fans know. Anyone of us would be there for you in a second if you needed to talk or be someone to talk you off the proverbial ledge. Take care of you first, we miss you but we get it and we aren’t going anywhere. We love you…. Stay strong. ❤❤
Hi, Kurt! I know you’ll have a ton of comments so I’ll try to be brief…I’m a 57 year old female and I’ve been battling depression privately for four years now. It hasn’t gotten me anywhere good so I finally went to my local Veteran’s Hospital for help. I am finally sorting things out and trying to manage my chronic pain without Swiss cake rolls and Coke a Cola. YOU have been there for me with your videos for a long time. YOU have been filling my cup for history and doing what I cannot do. I am praying for you and you take care of you for however long you need. Hugs to you and your family!
Hi Kurt, I'm adding you to the prayer list. It never hurts to pray. So glad you got yourself some help. There are many people out there that need to do the same. Hopefully this video will get them in the right direction so thank you very much!. You truly are a blessing with your channel. It's a highlight of my week when we get to see a video of yours! Take care. See you soon
Another combat vet here. Took up the hobby about fifteen years ago to help me unwind and quietly process my experiences. Your channel and a few other detector channels just put me in a calm zone. I love what you do. Thanks from a fan.
Kurt, count me among the many fans who were worried. I had found the videos from Scotland with you missing. I know how corrosive to the soul seeing human tragedy and depravity can be. PTSD is real, and not a character flaw. You are awesome, and I affirm you. All a person can hope to do in this life is contribute in a positive way to make the world around you a better place. You have done this in multiple ways; at the face to face level of a first responder, with your family, and on your youtube channels with us wannabes. Much more than many, you have made an actual positive difference. Just know that you have a wide circle of admirers that will continue to support and pray for you.
Thank you for opening up about your depression and what has been going on with you. So sorry you are dealing with those issues but also remember that your happiness truly starts from within and by recognizing that and acting on it, you are on your way to lifting yourself up and out of the pits. I agree with you about all the b.s. we deal with in today’s world. From smart phones to politics, if you are not depressed, those things will surely get you moving in that direction. Society is all about what you have or have not. “This phone will make you popular or that car will make you happy”. No, it won’t. Family, friends and love will though. Too much emphasis on materialistic things and not enough on goodwill towards others. I truly hope you continue moving forward in your health and I will surely keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I have always enjoyed your content and always look forward to seeing you and the boys. God bless and stay strong!!
Thank you for your honesty and openness. In my Sunday school class I have a friend who is 97. He was in WW2 following General Patton with the 84th Golden Acorns. When he got back to the states he was struggling with anxiety and couldn’t sleep. He told me one night he asked God to give him peace and He did. Obviously a short version of all he told me. There is no shame in struggling. Life is hard when you have seen all you have in your line of work. Prayers for you and your family. May the God of peace give you strength and joy in the days to come.
Kurt, thanks for having the courage to share your story. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! So many of us feel the same way. I’m nearing 20 years in the U.S. military, and I hit an absolute mental wall a few years back. The first time I’ve ever experienced depression - the deepest, darkest time of my life. I couldn’t rationalize my way out of it, my wife couldn’t shake me out of it, my own children’s smiles couldn’t help me out of it. It just take time and help. Love you brother, we’re with you!
Thank you for sharing your journey and I am so proud of you and your family for taking care of you!! I know by sharing your concerns, you will help others. I lost a nephew a year ago due to his battle with demons. I am a RN and worked many years in ICU (through Covid as well) and deal with PTSD myself. Thankfully time and a change of scenery is helping with my healing. Please know that your videos bring so many smiles to so many people. You are truly missed and cared about. We will continue to support you and cheer you on. Just remember that all holes matter and with giving yourself grace all of the holes will be filled in and become more beautiful than ever!
Take all the time you need, brother. Your mental health is more important than putting out video content. I'll be right here waiting for your return. Love your videos and looking forward to more of your awesome finds.
Kurt, I know that was an extremely difficult video for you to make & thank you for giving an update on what you have been going through. Please take your time on coming back to TH-cam and please know your true fans and family will be right here waiting for you and the rest of the Hoover Boys, when you feel that you are ready to return to TH-cam. With great respect for you and honest appreciation for your courage in letting us all know what has been going on with your mental health, good luck and love on your journey to mental wellness.
Thank you for being a first responder and for taking care of yourself. Rushing toward what others run from for a long time definitely requires seeking helpful coping skills. You will be better for it and staying away from the bs that surrounds us is important. I hope making and posting this has lifted some of the heaviness off your mind and heart. Glad to hear you’re on better ground - where you matter
We love you buddy! I've been a first responder for 28 years, and I recently went through a 10 week PTSD course, because of many of the same things you're talking about. I've got your back.
I could never do your job Kurt. I'm grateful for you and the others that put yourselves through so much for other people. On top of that you've created this channel which has helped so many others. I started watching you guys years ago when I moved from Louisiana to New Jersey. I was experiencing seasonal depression during the winters and on top of that we had black mold in our house but we didn't realize what was happening until about 5 years into it. Your channel and your personality specifically put me in a better mood. I really appreciate you Kurt. Sending love from South Carolina brother.
My heart goes out to anyone who has dealt with black mold in their home. My wife and I had it in our home as you did. It went undiscovered for years, but finally found behind the kitchen sink back panel. The syptoms like coughing, itching, and feeling like you're being bitten by unseen insects and sleep loss were horrendous. I told my wife one day that I wouldn't wish this torment on my worst enemy, and I meant it. It's been 10 years now, and we're both so sensitized by it that we're still dealing with the odd item in the house that we thought was cleaned well, that is still covered in spores, and you find out by handling it. It's the gift that keeps on giving. I'll bet we threw away 15 thousand dollars in items from our home. Some we're very sentimental to my wife especially, because cleaning them would have destroyed the items or our finances. The only thing that kept us going was our faith in Jesus. Otherwise, I don't think we would have made it through. God Bless
@@geraldb8856 Wow Gerald, only mold survivors can appreciate each other. I’m sorry you’ve had to experience it. My wife and I know that sensitivity you’re talking about. She can’t even handle fragrances or any chemicals now. It just completely zaps her brain. I’m not so sensitive to fragrances and stuff but I know when I’ve come into contact with mold. I start feeling drunk and dizzy. Our mold in NJ was so bad that the lady at the test lab called us and wanted to know if we were living in the building that the test came from. She wasn’t supposed to get involved in personal info just report the findings and answer questions but she said it was one of the highest numbers she’d ever seen. One specific mold was over 5 million. And it was a top 5. We also had black mold. I think there were about 30 different varieties. By the end of the 5 years in that house I was hallucinating on the way to work some days. I was paranoid. I had days where I felt like something was wrong and I couldn’t figure out what it was. It almost felt like a bad trip but the visual hallucinations were so vague I could barely catch it. We ordered a large commercial dumpster and threw away pretty much everything we owned. We walked away from that house and chose living in hotels and air BnBs with the help of some family members until we could find another place. Which also had mold. So we ended up being homeless and living in multiple hotels for the next year until we found a place in another state. And after all that, and I’ve left out a ton of the trials and tribulations that we went through, we came to Jesus and the turbulent seas that had become our lives for years suddenly calmed. That was when we finally found a home even though we had no money left, no credit, nothing left. We just prayed constantly and everything fell into place. Since then life has gotten even better and we’ve just gotten closer to God. I’m about to start a new job making more than I’ve ever made and we’re about to check out a church we just found around the corner. We’ve been in SC since May and we absolutely love it. God is good. I’m going to pray for you and your family Gerald. I hope your life improves and only gets better with time. I’ve spent years learning about supplements that help with mold so if that’s something you’re interested in I’d gladly elaborate. God bless you Brother.
I have been watching your channel for a long time and I want to say how courageous it is to speak on a very hard trauma that you are going through. It is tough but you will get through this with the love and support from your family, friends and therapy. I will keep you all in my prayers.
I just want you to know I feel that you are a very valuable person. Your channel has not only brought me much entertainment about a hobby I love, but has also helped me emotionally. Stay bright! We need people like you to make this world a better place. ❤
Best fact: "Smart phones have made the world dumb." TRUTH! From a retired 30 year cop + concurrent 15 years vollie fire-rescue/EMS, wishing you and yours the best!
Mate, get where you're coming from. Been a Volunteer FireFighter for over 30 years here in Australia and am fed up being treated as a 2nd class citizen driving round in trucks which are over 30 years old. Seen a lot of nasty stuff over the years and know there are things I can't do anymore as PTSD kicks in quickly. Thanks for the support from the family I'm doing okay, taking myself away from things I don't have to do especially after doing them for several years and getting no support or encouragement. Stay strong mate, keep taking all the help offered and we'll see you in the fields/rivers soon. Roger
Hey man. I'm glad you got the help and support to do what you need to do to get better. It takes a lot of strength and courage to do that. Thank you for sharing and allowing yourself to be open about your struggles and being vulnerable. It helps others tremendously. You really fanned the flames of metal detecting for me. The energy you and your friends brought to the videos always made me feel good. Thank you for that. You make a difference in the world bro! I'm glad to see you're taking the time to do what's best for you! Much love, brother!
Kurt, we have been missing you. You have brought an army of like minded people into the world of metal detecting. Even though you don’t know us, nor ever met the vast majority of us, we’re still like family through your videos of detecting and fishing. I definitely understand what you’ve been going through, seeing the unimaginable and trying to save lives at every turn. I started out at the age of 17, as a volunteer firefighter with my county fire department, and when I was 21, became a sheriff’s deputy for the same county. After 5 years of seeing people diy or so badly mangled you’d wonder how and why they were still living, I got out of it all and went to work for the world’s largest oil company. I admire every first responder, because I know what you have to deal with. I’m glad you got help! You need you, your family needs you, and buddy, we need you, but only when YOU are ready. We, your TH-cam family, will be here when you are well and ready to make what ever you feel like making, detecting or fishing, or just sitting in front of your camera and letting us know how you’re doing. May God always be with you, your family, friends and all of The Hoover Boys everywhere. I pray that God wraps you in The Holy Spirit, and takes the pain away. Thank you for letting us know what you’ve been through, and know that you’re loved and appreciated. God’s blessings always.
We were worried! I agree with and totally understand what you are saying. I am so sorry for everything you have been going through. Take good care of yourself, please. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️
I can’t imagine the things you’ve seen as a first responder and how that has affected you. Sleep deprivation is no joke. There’s a reason it’s used as a torture tactic. I’m JUST coming out of the haze of postpartum depression, sleep deprivation and getting a grip on ADHD symptoms that have made me basically a zombie for the past 17 months. I didn’t want to do anything I used to love. I was in survival mode. I’ve gotten on the right mix of meds, limited social media, and started seeing a therapist and I’m feeling SO much better. I just wanted to say it gets better, you are clearly very loved by your family and everyone who watches this channel regularly is glad you are here because you’ve brightened our lives just by being here. In 2020 when I had my first son, my husband and I started to detect as a way to get outside and escape the pandemic/stress of being new parents. Watching your channel helped me learn how to detect, provided endless dopamine when it was in short supply and opened a world a childlike wonder that healed my inner child (detecting is something I always wanted to do but didn’t have parents that supported my interests) Anyway, long long long story short: you are an awesome person, thank you for sharing your joys AND struggles on this channel and I hope things get easier for you soon. ❤
Kurt- We’re all here for you. You’re a good guy, a great dad and husband and we also suspect an exceptionally competent first responder. Mental health needs are just as important as any other health concern and have been ignored/shoved into the corner for all too long in our modern world that focuses all too often on surface-level concerns/materialistic BS. For you and your family along with your large group of friends’ sake, hopefully I speak for a strong majority of us when I say *_our needs are unimportant…your family and your personal health are concerns 1 and 1a while ours rank somewhere near the middle to bottom of the page_* Cheers and may your family enjoy a more complete, happier you soon! 🖖😎👍
Take it easy. Totally get where you are coming from. We, your fans and avid followers will be here waiting for your return. Your health and well being must come first, thank you for listening to your family. 7:24
Take Care. PTSD is a B . I'm a 74 year old Vietnam Veteran. I'm one of the ones asking about you. It has been a big void on Wednesdays. Get Well and Take care, Give Your Wife a BIG hug and kiss the Little ones.
I am almost 83 and I wouldn't be here if it weren't for EMT folks. You are in my prayers. This video has prompted me to subscribe. I'm sure that will make you feel better. ;-) You are in the right place. Keep it up. See you when you get back.
This is Bruce from “DiggingTheMitten “. You are a very strong young man! I am proud of this video you made. There are way to many men and women in the same shoes as us. Stay strong brother.
A chap that was teaching when I was in college had exactly the same as you, he was a fireman and he broke down in tears telling us about it one day. Years later I had a very bad case of depression myself ( as bad as you can get ) and it is a very dark place indeed. If you can take any advice off me I would say this, decide to be happy instead of sad everyday and slow your life down. Don’t give yourself unrealistic expectations that you can never make it do, just try and move on until you get a hold if it. I write in a diary everyday and out my thoughts onto the page and then close it and forget about it and that has really helped. Good luck all the best gaz
I know that was extremely hard for you. Shows how strong your heart is. I’ve always looked forward to your shows and was worried when I haven’t seen anything in a while. Your love and passion for this hobby shows in every piece y’all unearth. And it shows how good of a person you are to come forward and share your story. Thank you for all your stories you keep me going every day.
Kurt, I feel your pain. I was a 12+ year first responder (Fire/EMS) before quitting and answering the call for my country as an Army infantry combat vet. My years in the fire service numbed me to what i saw in country and I'm glad it did. Otherwise, it could've been worse. But these are the burdens we carry. Not everyone can do it. So recognize that you are an exception and can handle this type of stress. Vent. Cry. Talk. And love. This is our cross to bear. Like you, I have a good woman to keep me grounded. You have more friends than I to help you so don't gloat! Stay safe and stay strong. I met you guys at a JGD hunt in Virginia are y'all are truly a top notch crew. I'll see ya in the fields.
Kurt you are not alone. I see your strength and you have realized one of the most important truths in this life. Take time to care for yourself. You are not alone and I am cheering for you man! I have enjoyed watching your videos since the first time I saw them. A little Mason-Dixon love coming your way from PA. You hit some really key points about this era that we live in and it can be daunting with all the B.S. and drama that takes us away from our roots and our compassion. Keep fighting the good fight and see a little “shiney “ in all this. You and THB make me smile and dig and look down a whole hell of a lot, and dredge the waterways for cool stuff and look down a whole lot more. Take some time to look up brother.
Thank you, brother, for having the courage to make this video and open up as you have. I am moved by your honesty and I can relate in more ways than one. Two months ago my cousin lost his battle with depression and or effects of his 27 year career as a corrections officer. He was 51 years old and only a year and a half into his retirement. Any way. Looking forward to seeing your return to TH-cam, but in your own time my friend. Thank you for this. I needed it.
I am so glad you are taking care of yourself. I totally understand. While I haven’t seen the horrors you have been exposed to, I myself have lost 7 family members and 8 dear friends in the span of 24 months. Both parents died 5 months apart. In one day I had to call an ambulance for my dad. While in the hospital my cousin called to let me know that they found my dads younger brother dead after a wellness check. While reeling from that, my dad’s younger sister called me to yell at me that I was missing her sons funeral (my cousin who had committed suicide) and she only calmed down when she found out I was in the hospital with my dad. Depression and insomnia are real issues. I now take an anti depressant. I basically took a year off life and cocooned in my house to clear my head. You do whatever you have to do to make you better. We will all understand and will support you anyway we can. You are loved by more people than you know and we all want the best for you. Take care and please know, I will be waiting for the next video should you decide to do them again. I know they helped me tremendously during my 2 year nightmare. ❤❤🙏🏻🙏🏻
Glad you are getting help and happy to help if I can. Next door in Delaware. Retired Trooper and spent most of my career protecting children and combating CSAM. I totally understand what happens when you close your eyes at night and you want to sleep but can’t. I’ve found a positive way to deal with this works for me by helping those that are still in the fight. If it helps you to know this I really enjoy watching your videos as the last thing I do before I go to sleep so I can have my brain think about your adventures instead of the other thoughts and horrors that trickle back in my head when the lights go out so thank you from the bottom of my heart. If there is anything that I can do for you please let me know.
Hey man, I’m glad to hear that you are taking care of YOU. I’m not a first responder but I’ve grown up with severe depression since I was 10, I’m now 51. The good news is that I too have been getting help for myself. I stopped self medicating, went to rehab and got clean, and I’ve been seeing a great therapist once a week for a couple of years now and I’m doing much better. Thank you for opening up to your fans. Yes, you have fans and we are all cheering you on. Keep your head up and keep placing one foot in front of the other. Your friends and family, and fans, love you.
Oh Kurt..... I was worried about you! Right now I could give you a huge hug and tell you you're not alone! WELL DONE for getting help, and what a brilliant family you have! I won't say you'll "get over it" like it doesn't matter, but you can learn to live with your past as part of who you are. THANK YOU for you service as a first responder, THANK YOU for making this video, and remember that if you ever cross the pond to the UK again, you'd be more than welcome to come back to Shropshire! (I live in a 1790s house - just sayin'😊)
You are deeply loved and respected by the community that you have built. Thank you for the courage to share your strength in taking care of yourself and letting others help you. You have a huge impact on thousands of people you will never know and this video is like hammered gold. Completely unexpected and of huge value. Thank you again.
First responder here AEMT from TN. I get it brother. It’s hard. There aren’t debriefings for what we see. We joke, laugh and develop a dark sense of humor. As of Oct 2024 my National registration has ran out. I left ems because I decided to stop breaking my body mentally and physically to save others. It’s time to save me. I’m so glad you are pushing and trying to right the ship. Ppl who aren’t first responders will never get what we see. Plz plz hang in there brother. Most don’t want to exit they just want the pain to stop. Keep reaching out, keep pushing because it does get better. No it doesn’t go away but in time you will regain you. Heart love and respect go out to you. ❤
I knew I liked you. Thank you for speaking out. I’m glad that you didn’t lose your family and friends through this. The ones we count on seems to be the first to bail when life gets hard. Social media has helped me see I’m not the only one facing the same feelings you are. However, that also hurts my heart to know others go through that pain. Brother, please take care of yourself and your family first. Your fans appreciate your honesty! You mean so much to us and you mean so much more to your loved ones. The world is a better place with you in it!! Take whatever time you need. We will patiently wait for you. I took a course on rescue training because of a job I had for a number of years. One thing that really stuck with me they said was: “you have to rescue yourself before you can rescue someone else”. Please take care of YOU
Been watching you since your first video. Don't comment often but I'm watching. I'm one of the guys who sent you a Firefights ball cap from the town I live in. Praying for a full recovery 🙏. Take all the time you need Kurt.
I am so sorry you’re struggling with depression. I’ve been there and understand. You’re blessed with a good support system and I’m looking forward to seeing the next video when you’re back at it.
Kurt, you are not alone. We lost our 30 yr old son to depression and then suicide 3 years ago. We just completed our annual fundraiser for the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention, and I am always amazed by the emails from subscribers and members that are impacted by depression and negative thought. I think we are making a difference. Your videos are must watch, your personality is the driving force. But your health and well being are more important than anything, take whatever time you need for you. As I well know, filming, editing and posting videos is a grind. when you are ready we will be here.
I’ve watched for years with my hubby and son (who adore to metal detector together). However, I’ve never commented before. So glad you’re taking care of yourself and setting an example to your family about being vulnerable and seeking and accepting support. That’s huge! Hope this work brings you joy and peace and that contentment is around the corner. All the best to you and your family. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Take care of you. Kurt! Your followers appreciate your candidness and support your healing! That was not easy, we know, which makes it more powerful to watch and relate to. Thanks for what you do for others. Its time to take care of you
Brother, I feel your pain. 20 years of EMS/Fire and 11 years of corrections have sometimes made me numb. I joined the Tennessee Public Safety Network a group of 1st responders taking care of our own and have to just let you know you are not alone. Many others have felt and are feeling what you are feeling right now. I am super proud of you for reaching out and getting help. Please know that there is nothing wrong with you, you are just responding internally to all the traumatic events in your career. Keep pushing forward and keep the faith. You will come out of this with a new found outlook and be able to help others going through the same thing. Stay strong brother!!!
We are with you my friend. I have always respected your character, and this is a great example of the strength and bravery you have. All of us, and the treasure will always be here. Thank you for sharing with much love.
So glad you had people around to help you see the need for help. Feel no shame for crying when you mentioned first responders' funerals. I lost a friend who was a firefighter, it was a motorcycle accident that took him, and he was very young. That alone made the funeral tough, but I have never cried like I did when they did the last call. I had never been to a first responder funeral and did not know about this ritual. It was the most haunting and devastating call out, it broke me. So I completely understood your emotion there. Not to make this about me but you actually helped me with this video. For a couple of years now I have felt so all alone. Like I was the only one on the planet who was awake when everyone else was living in some nightmare land. To hear you call out the politicians ON BOTH SIDES, to hear you call out the news for every word they say being a lie, and probably the worst of all, parents who can't look away from their phones for one second to interact with their children. It is going to be up to people like us to set this shit right, please get well, America needs you on her side. Will keep you in my thoughts brother.
You got this I have been dealing with almost the same depression for past few years. Family and friends def help but you did the right thing and helped yourself before it got to dark. Just lost a buddy to suicide 3 days ago. Never saw that loss coming is a big deal for my community. But like you said being a first responder is tough. I am a correctional officer for the past 17 years in upstate new york you see things no one should ever see or have to deal with. Keep your mind strong and see you on the next video. Thanks again for all you do kurt it was a pleasure again meeting you guys again a few years ago at digstock.much respect C.Kelly
So glad to hear that you are getting some help. I, as well as many others, love your channel and content. Please take time to get into a better place and spend time with your friends and family. We, your online family, are pulling for you. Thank you for taking the time to explain your absence. Look forward to hearing you laugh again and pulling shiny from the soil. Best wishes from a fan in Maine.
Kurt, Your genuine personality comes through even when you are spilling your guts to all of your loyal watchers and fans. Dude I have so much respect for you for being brave enough to post this and I hope it helped you in some sort of way. You said many true things about what life is like lately and many of us can relate to having those same thoughts and feelings inside and to know how much it can wear a person down. You take the time for you, and your loved ones that gets you feeling right again and we will all be here happy to see another HB video when it's right for you. Life is so unpredictable and can be much shorter or more challenging at any minute, the best thing said is you know it needs to be enjoyed and spent with those you love doing things you love. You are going to be in my prayers. Take care Kurt
I hear you. You are not alone in the struggle with depression. I've been a full-time member of the Invisible Illness Club since 1994. I'm so glad you were able to find help with people who can relate to your life experiences. Anxiety and PTSD are my constant companions. It's taken me 30 years to stop bottling up my feelings and to put me first. Keep up the good fight. Big hugs.
I am grateful to hear you open up with such heart and honesty. I’m sure that wasn’t easy but you handled it very well. Im sure I will be just one more of you loyal listeners who can tell you with all the honesty in the world that you are not alone in feeling this “sense of change” engulfing our lives in every conceivable way at this time. I too find myself tossing all night. I find myself dreading another attempt at sleep. Thinking and worrying about everything that matters to you. Keep in mind. It’s always darkest before the light. Those of us who feel this change are feeling it with you and we know there’s more darkness to come before the rays of that beautiful light shines through again. So stay strong My Brother. Because your family needs you, your community needs you. We need you help us escape, if only for a few minutes a week, these trial and tribulations that also haunt us in our minds during our everyday lives. I’ll close with this. I usually only have the opportunity to listen to your show. Seldom do I get to watch a full show. But you guys absolutely crack me up with your little gaffs and the potshots you jab at each other at every possible moment. I will watch when something out of the ordinary is found and always watch to see what everyone found at the wrap up of the show. It was because of me watching you guys that when I did find a 1733 8-Reales. I knew exactly what I had in my hand. You are the first person I thought of as I brushed the dried powder mud off to reveal an unmistakable Code-of-Arms facing me. It was the most unforgettable experience and you were a part of it in my mind. Thank you.
Brother, glad you are safe. And you do not walk alone in this. As a Combat Medic, I had to leave medicine because of the drain on my psyche, and develop a different calling. But every now and again I find my self back as a first responder, more than I would like, and it brings things back. PTSD sucks, but we can get through with the right support from those around us, and even complete strangers who walk in that darkness. I feel after all these years like I know you and the guys, and I am thankful for you sharing this. Again you are not alone brother!
I will be alright is not a statement those of us that are suffering truely mean. I hope and pray your family is behind you and helping you get through this rough time. There are so many of us going through this and I for one look forward to all of your videos as they make me happy. Take the time to heal yourself and I for one and I know many here will be here to support you. I hope you make it through these dark times because you seem to be a real good man and I know being a first responder is hard and the things we see people can not imagine how bad they really are. I am not a really religious person because of all the things I have seen in my lifetime because I am much older, but I hope you can find something to comfort you in theses times as we all at some point need someone to lean on because this world has become so hard to survive in. Good luck my friend and know that that you have helped me through some hard times because of your positive attitude and great videos.
Dear Kurt! I stumbled upon one of your videos in 2018, just after my first breakdown. Later on, I believe I ended up watching every piece of content you’ve made. Your videos helped me through the toughest times of my life and, much later, they guided me onto the path and career that I’m currently pursuing. Thankfully, I’m now in much better health too. Your work has significantly shaped my life, and I am deeply grateful for it. I wish you all the best and many happy years of hunting ahead!
Love your videos man - been watching since the beginning, even if I didn’t know you were Kamikaze Kurt. We shared a class, homeroom, and, especially, an art room. Your videos have brought me a lot of joy and inspiration to pick up a machine. -Ryan Kiesel P.S. No one knows the internal pain until you tell people about it; a hardship shared is a hardship lessened. I, too, have been battling with depression for many years and have been trying to fix it with drinking, which turned into alcoholism that has brought more pain and problems. Best of luck, man.
Thanks for coming clean about your where abouts. That takes intestinal fortitude to let the world know and to let us know because we care about you. Sorry this has been so long building up but I understand. My son who is 59 started as a volunteer firefighter in this, at that time, community. He walked into a very traumatic situation. He has never commented on it except to tell me he was there first, I have wondered a lot but this year he joined the Fire Chaplain Assoc, here in Tennessee. I think I understand his motive. This is a volunteer organization but active throughout the state. Thanks again because I think your video will help someone else. Go Hoover Boys.
Dude, I get it. 20 year combat vet myself. Twice divorced. Suicidal, PTSD, alcohol abuse. Part of my recovery has been coin roll hunting and metal detecting, and your channel has been a huge part of that. You were there for me, so let me return the favor. Take all the time you need brother. This recovery process isn't easy, but it is worth it. We will still be here when you come back. Love ya bro.
Be strong, brother.
You stay strong as well my Veteran Brother.
Thanks for serving my friend. I owe you BIG time.
24 years I don’t know why my wife is still here. Talking to other vets helped me.
Take care of yourself. Thanks for the message, big time.
I’ve been watching your videos silently since the very beginning and I have never commented once. I’ve never missed an episode. Hell, I don’t even metal detect. Watching your videos helped me through some very difficult times and filled me with hope and optimism. Simply put, you, and all the Hoover Boys, kept me going. I am so glad to hear that you are finally getting the help you need. You deserve the very best. I can’t help but think that the treasure you’ve been looking for all these years was there with you all along. You thought you were chasing gold in the ground, but really it was the gold in your heart you were after. I’m so glad you have finally found it. Love and best wishes, Walt from CT.
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What a comment, thank you ❤
Look at all the people in this group that love you … I have a detector… have yet to go out and use it … it’s all your fault ;)… get well and come back stronger !
Love you Kurt!
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That must have been very tough to film and share with everybody, but it was SO brave of you to do it. Your mental health and your family come first, always. I’m pulling for you, Kurt - hope things continue down a positive path and that you heal a bit more each day. Stay strong when you can, lean on your amazing family when you can’t. ❤
Well said Stef. Luv ya young lady.
Firstly I apologize for piggybacking off the original poster’s comment. It has the most likes, so it shows up at the top of the list (this first short paragraph is contextual/the set up, and I’m late to the comment part). Therefore, I’m hoping Curt see’s this, and I wanted to add my two cents.
As a follower of THB Channel since almost the beginning, one video particularly sticks out in my mind: “Treasure Hunting Surface Finds | Dirty
Money (New Orleans)” from 9 years ago. I haven’t watched it in almost that long, but it was a very dark representation of you. One of, if not the only glimpse we’ve gotten to view for that side of you. After watching this video, I encourage folks to go back and watch it, to truly understand what I’m getting on about. It’s an actual, visually-tangible example of how long you’ve been battling your demons (and points out that it goes back even further than that…as you say to the beginnings of your career as a volunteer F.F./First Responder).
As a former alcoholic, now sober for 3+ years, and living with/fighting against liver cirrhosis, I know the mental anguish you’re dealing with, it’s just a Zebra with different stripes. Although it doesn’t always help my racing mind (particularly when we’re speaking of going to bed), I always remind myself that whatever happens in our lives, it happens for a reason…it’s God’s plan. His plan isn’t there for us to question. It is a pathway that we must do our best to follow by choosing to make the right decisions in life. It’s a mix of His predetermined existence for us, and our free will.
By: sharing your experience with us, opening up to those in your REAL life, mending fences, confronting your personal issues with others, and seeking professional help, you’re choosing the correct directions that will get you back closer to God’s path. As The Mandalorian’s say in Star Wars cannon “This is the way.” God bless you Curt, and yours…you got this Brother From Another Mother!! We BeFAM 💪🏼🙏🏼✝️🫡
I fight the battle every day, good for you for getting help. We have a mutual friend that has helped me immensely just by listening. Very proud of you 👏👏👏👏
Stef your amazing Take Care
You da man!
Kurt!! Thank you for speaking up and thank you for checking into a center. Huge damn accomplishments for your life story. I have PTSD from a lifetime of bullshit- and during one trip back up from the rabbit hole I found THB channel and @Stefdigs . I wasn’t sure I’d make it out alive. Like you, my family is my life and they wouldn’t let me fall behind. I spent hours alone watching you guys and Stef. I am a loner by nature but watching you all made me feel like I was part of a group of people who liked the random things I do. So, thank you for being there when I needed a “friend”. My sons had me start my channel because they knew it would help. And it totally did. Now I’m starting a nonprofit called Put The Sound Down (PTSD). I want to help people find this hobby and other amazing ones that help quiet the demons. So, again thank you for being a powerful force that you don’t even know you are. If you’re ever in western Ohio you all are welcome to dig with me. No videos, just dirt. Keep f’n going!! ✌🏼❤️😊🍀 Love to you and your family - Nicole
Love you brother. I'm an Ex AEMT here in Georgia. I feel you entirely. I quit because of the evil ongoing in EMS in my town. My supervisor that wanted me to stay in, lost her battle to that dark feeling from all the poor management in our area and the reports of wrong doing going on deaf ears. I struggle from time to time with my own emotions from the 6 years I did that job full time. I can empathize with you in this. I wanted to let you know that you are so much more to so many people. You've been a great help in keeping my spirits alive over the last few years especially when I lost my grandmother. Now my mom who has cancer is weighing heavy on my heart. I don't want that to worry you, or to make you want to do more videos. I've enjoyed so much already, and everything you've given up until now has been a blessing. The light shines through! I don't want to take The Watch for you my friend, I want to be there by your side, and support in whatever way I can. May you take this time now to be with your family, not just be around them. May you see the blessings you have, and may they provide you with all the love and support that you deserve. I'll pray for you and your family, as well as our fallen brothers and sisters. Much love from Augusta, GA.
I am from Augusta, myself.... Lived in Hephzibah and Evans. Sorry to hear about your struggles... I really hope that your mother will beat Cancer.
I also hope that you made it through the storm unscathed. I live near Asheville, NC and our area got hammered pretty hard as well. Fortunately, we were spared any damage to our home.
Thanks for sharing your situation... Take care of yourself, my friend.
This is all we needed to hear!! Your health is the most important thing right now. I hope it helps your heart to know that you were missed. Take your time coming back and know that we will be here waiting to see you and the guys out there saving history soon. Hugs from Pittsburgh!!
You Sir are stronger than you know. We are all here to support you. Stay Strong, Brother!
Hey Brother, you're not alone in your struggles. I'm a combat Vet with severe PTSD and can relate I think. You're channel and content has been a relief for me as a distraction from my issues and I want to thank you and the guys for that. I've been treated through the VA and I've come to realize that there is no shame in seeking help, you should feel very proud of that. Hang in there, you will prevail! I'll be here when you return to see your adventures.
You are not alone Dan. I am a vet too. However, I am one lucky SOB because I was only officially deployed one time and we got recalled before we got anywhere. I understand that I had that bullet whiz by my head 6 or 7 more times and only knew of one time. You do not have to go to combat to end up with PTSD. I know this well. I have Army, abuse growing up, and work related PTSD and know how it feels. I have seen some terrible shit. Once again, you are not alone. I would bet that you have also woke up at o dot 30 and said "Well, I guess this fucking night is over." Not getting any more sleep tonight." Then everyone wonders why you are crabby and tired and don't want to deal with BS that day.
I am 83 and was wondering where you have been for the past two Wednesdays. I am so glad you have the courage to take care of yourself. I love your videos and have been a faithful watcher from day one. I think we will all be here when you decide to come back. Just take care of yourself.
Thank you brother! I retired recently after 50 plus years of service. I live in the New Orleans area and after Katrina I realized that something was not working right as much as I loved the fire service. I also checked myself into a behavior modification unit. Best thing I ever done for myself, As first responders we see and do so much stuff that our brains cannot deal with it. I am an advocate of mental health for everyone in the fire service no matter the size of the department, Every member should go CIST before they ever go to an incident. As a trained and certified Fire Service Chaplain, I thank you for going public. You will never know how many lives you have touched.
I watch you every week and love you shows. Take care of your self! You have many, many who care about you!
Be Blessed in all you do!
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Kurt, thank you, brother, for sharing. As an ex first responder myself, I myself know what you are going through. I've been there. It's not easy and yes it hurts. I started watching THB way before I ever started detecting. It was because of you guys that got me into it to help me deal with my mental health. You all helped me in my time of need and kicked started my road to recovery. It's been 10 years of dealing with the dark side and I'm now in a happier place and 99% better. So Kurt you have got this brother. We all have your back. We stand as one but we all fight together. Love Peace Respect
They got me hooked on the hobby as well. Id end a tour of duty and hit the dirt just to clear my mind of the noise.
I am 78 and have been down the hole for many years. I take each day as a chance to get better. Life eases into too many ways of losing touch with yourself.
So, I am going to say many people love and respect you. You make us happy and you have earned so much respect from your followers. Please keep up with the help you are receiving. ❤
Kurt, You are one of the first TH-camrs I ever followed. I suspect you know that we (your watchers) consider you a friend. I know that’s odd since you don’t know us. But please trust that to be true. I’m in Ohio but so wish I could drive over and give you a big hug. Thank you for taking care of you. Thank you for allowing your loved ones to coax you into the environment you needed. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing these details. I love you man! “We can’t anticipate but we can adapt”. (A quote from a dear friend of mine). Keep taking care of you.
Kurt, that took a lot of courage to share what you have been hauling around in your head. I am sure your wife knew before you did, that you needed help. Nurses are use to the traumas that life throws at them via their patients and families . I am glad that you decided to enter a place that knows what you have held in for years. I thank God you took those steps for your mental health and for the sake of your beautiful family. I pray that this video helps someone else who is living the life of a first responder! Depression I know about first hand, but you have given your life to help others in their worst moments in life. Please know that I will be adding you and your family to my prayer list. There is no shame in a man crying, especially when he is letting out years of repressed emotions! I love my Hoover Boys and have held you all to me like family, because that is how you made each video, sharing the fun of metal detecting but of the friendships made because of a much loved healthy hobby. Come back when you are ready to share your laughter and metal detecting life! Your mental health is more important to me! Hugs to you, your wife and the kids! 🙏❤️g 7:17
X 2 Kurt, you've done the right thing. Explaining it to all of us and the Wellness Group is a good first step. I'm sure you've got all of your fans support too. Rest will help...and if you like crystals and gemstones, you might carry a piece of Black Tourmaline in your pocket and one on your night stand. It works for me to fend off the negativity and calm me down. It helps me sleep and feel safe. You do a lot for us, now it's time to take care of yourself. You're on the mend I feel. Good luck Bud
Kurt, man you are a true role model. So glad to hear that you’re taking care of yourself and getting help when you needed it. I’ll keep you in my prayers every day brother. Stay strong. Just know that every single person on here even though we’re all strangers behind a camera/screen we’re here for you if there is anything one of us can do, do not hesitate to ask or let us know. We love you brother.
Kurt, thanks for the update.. I think it’s fair to say we all have been worried about you. Take your time, I can’t imagine being a first responder and honestly saying thank you for doing that isn’t enough. I can’t imagine the weight it causes but I am glad you are working on you. I am in Florida and we were just hit by two hurricanes so I only have a small picture of a small part of what you do and only have total appreciation for first responders. They are true life savers and risk everything for others. Again thank you for what you do, work on yourself and we will be here when you are ready. No rush just get the help you need.
Praying for you dude!!!
Praying for you!!! I’m 27 years old and have been suffering through the worst mental health battle I’ve ever had for the past three years. It’s hard to be a man, and hard to be a human. Thank you for being transparent and letting us all know we are in it together. Love you brother. Thank you for saving us all through your videos.
I had a 25 year career as an EMT across the line in York and Lancaster County PA and a lot years as a volunteer. I and my fellow first responders have seen a lot of up close and personal ugliness in that time. I've always hoped those ghosts would stay buried in my mind. Some of those calls have have come back to haunt me. You do what's right for you and may God Bless you on your journey to healing. I've always felt metal detecting was a great therapy for me. I thoroughly enjoy your videos and your finds and I cheer with you when you make your discoveries! I am currently unable to dig courtesy of back issues. But, I look forward to getting back out there and finding history again. You, Brad and the rest of the Hoover Boys keep me going! Please take care and know you are well thought of in this community!
23+ plus here in central pa .. 20 min south of state college... I've been watching hoover boys for 2 years and want to so badly get into the hobby but unfortunately finances don't allow it but hope to some day be able to. Stay safe out there
Hi, I'm a fellow back sufferer like you. I had lower back surgery last year to get a metal "structure" built around my spine. Been a really slow process from there. I have had to rely on higher powered pain medication for the last 15 years or so, and from the start have always wanted to get off of those meds. Two weeks ago last Monday I had a "stimulator" with a battery put into my back just below my ribs. Attatched to the stimulator is a longish copper wire, fairly thick. It goes up my spine and is held in place permanently. The stimulator actually tricks blocks the pain signals from going to your brain, and believe me, it works! Since that day I have felt little to no pain in my lower back. I'm weaning myself off of the two pain killers I've been on for so long, and am looking forward to building up my leg and back muscles again. I live close to Harrisburg, so I thought you might be interested in this. In my case, it's been (so far) life changing. I advised a couple of friends to look into it, and I thought I'd throw out this random message to you as you are so close to my area. If it's interesting to you, I advise you to talk to your doctor, and look into it. Cheers!
Hey Kurt, I have followed you for years. I am a pastor and minister to folks who deal with trauma, depression and painful memories. You certainly have the right foundation going by having a loving and supportive family and have now been counseling with a group specific to your traumatic experiences. Know that I am praying for you! You can and will get through this. Your identity is NOT bound up in what has abused you or traumatized you, but your identity is a man of God who has been appointed for this time and has been given a place as a husband and father with friends and family that love you and because of your trials, will now have a voice you did not have before…
Thanks for sharing. As a first responder for the last 24 years I understand the ups and WAY downs. You've spent your entire career taking care of others, now is the time to focus on taking care of yourself.
Kurt, I am SO PROUD of you for recognizing your needs and taking care of the most important thing between your two ears. It sounds like you have a great support system and we all are cheering for more positivity in the coming days. Thank you for being open and transparent.
We need more voices, like yours, to share experiences.
Your videos (both THB and Mental Health Day) have helped me rediscover my passion of the outdoors (fishing and detecting) and has allowed me to get through some tough years. So, thank YOU!
Heal well, brother.
Preaching to the choir! I'm a retired Sheriff's Deputy & went out on early disability retirement because I pushed myself way too hard & thought I could handle it. Sleep deprivation does indeed take a toll on one's mental & physical health & meds don't always work either. Hope that you're able to work through your demons & refresh yourself. I learned the hard way that you have to take care of yourself because no one else will except for your spouse if you're lucky & even then they can't do but so much. Take all the time you need to heal & don't worry about TH-cam until you're ready to return. Take care & stay safe!
Exactly n well said!
Hugs to you. You are absolutely correct that you are not alone. As a mental health provider, I have witnessed so many clients "who had everything" descend into a dark mental dungeon of hopelessness and could not find the ladder out on their own. You are dear to your loved ones and you had the courage to listen and get help finding that ladder. By sharing the difficult choices you made to seek recovery others may identify with your experience and seek help. Saving their lives. Im sure John would welcome a future visit from all the Hoover Boys. May you find joy in being.
Man, this was such a great video. I have to tell you I have been a regular viewer since the beginning, watched every episode at least 2 times, some as much as 10. It's the only show I regularly look forward to, and noticed the unannounced break. I am so sorry you are where you are, but so thankful you made the right decisions! Take as much time as you need man. We will still be here to support you 100%!!
Kurt, You are so loved my friend. The content you have created is therapy for so many of us, for years!! You have helped me get through some tough times. Your consistency has been nothing short of amazing. Thank you for your bravery in what you do every day for others as a first responder. Thank you for your bravery in sharing your therapy sessions with us every week when you take us with you on these adventures. Thank you for your bravery to openly share with us the struggles you are going through. You didnt have to do that. That only makes us love you more! You are such an incredible and unique person to give so much to others. We are with you-wether you're making an incredible discovery in the ground, or within yourself, we are with you. You mean so much to us, it is imperative that you take the time and space you need. We are out here thinking of you and praying for you. We love you Kurt.
This is THE MOST powerful thing I'v seen on here in quite a while! I did ask john on one of the videos where you were and the fact I hadnt seen a video in a few weeks made me worry a little bit. I didnt here/see any rumor's . But lad, I do know a little bit of what you are going through. Though maybe not to the same extent. EVERYTHING you said about how the world is, is exactly how I'm feeling about it also. I really hope this video goes a long way to help you recover and get back to that happy guy I've been watching for the last 5/6 years!
I am sending prayers, positive vibes and the very best of Irish luck to you and your family for over here in soggy Ireland!
BTW there's an old Irish proverb that came to mind as I was watching your video, (Like many Irish people my grasp of our native language is sketchy at best so I had to google it to get it right.) But here it is..
Ní dhéanfaidh smaoineamh an treabhadh duit.
It means roughly: You can't plough a field by turning it over in your mind.
I'm not sure this will help you but the fact there's a proverb for it means YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Slainté!
You hit the nail on the head on so many topics. Godspeed my friend.
I'm a 44 year old from Ontario Canada and you inspired me to get this guy off his butt and do some hunting. You helped me in a dark spot and thank you. You will over come this. I KNOW YOU WILL
Kurt, I too want to add my voice to the previous commenters: I have enjoyed watching you guys -- your banter and fun with each other is contagious. Your videos also helped me during the dark days of the pandemic. I am so sorry that you have been going through rough times, but I am glad for you that you are identifying the issues causing depression and getting the help you deserve and need. You are a man loved by many (your family, friends, and channel followers). Please know that there are many in your corner rooting for you. That includes me! God bless you brother!
❤ to Kurt and all suffering from depression & anxiety. The world can be a difficult place and we all need help from time to time. Your videos bring a lot of joy to folks... myself included. Thank you for the update even though it was obviously a very emotional message to share.
Kurt- as someone who's been there with depression and anxiety myself- THANK YOU for taking care of yourself. I hope you continue to progress and find your peace with everything. It doesn't happen overnight sadly, but it does get better. We're all here for whenever you return and I'm going to check out your other channel now. You're not alone in this struggle and thank you for sharing- hopefully it'll prompt others to get the help they need too.
Hi Kurt- I am retired LEO, forced to pension a couple years earlier than planned due to mental health issues from the job. I got help and doing better. I know exactly what you’re going through. Thank God you have a great support system in place with your friends and family and through the first responders support system.
I admire your courage for coming out and telling everyone what’s been going on. In our line of work, some look at it as weakness, but the real heroes know…. I know. And from reading the comments, a lot of your fans know. Anyone of us would be there for you in a second if you needed to talk or be someone to talk you off the proverbial ledge.
Take care of you first, we miss you but we get it and we aren’t going anywhere.
We love you…. Stay strong. ❤❤
Hi, Kurt! I know you’ll have a ton of comments so I’ll try to be brief…I’m a 57 year old female and I’ve been battling depression privately for four years now. It hasn’t gotten me anywhere good so I finally went to my local Veteran’s Hospital for help. I am finally sorting things out and trying to manage my chronic pain without Swiss cake rolls and Coke a Cola. YOU have been there for me with your videos for a long time. YOU have been filling my cup for history and doing what I cannot do. I am praying for you and you take care of you for however long you need. Hugs to you and your family!
Hi Kurt, I'm adding you to the prayer list. It never hurts to pray. So glad you got yourself some help. There are many people out there that need to do the same. Hopefully this video will get them in the right direction so thank you very much!. You truly are a blessing with your channel. It's a highlight of my week when we get to see a video of yours! Take care. See you soon
Kurt, It’s huge relief seeing a new post from you , thank you for checking in and sharing.
Keep up the fight.
Another combat vet here. Took up the hobby about fifteen years ago to help me unwind and quietly process my experiences. Your channel and a few other detector channels just put me in a calm zone. I love what you do. Thanks from a fan.
Kurt, count me among the many fans who were worried. I had found the videos from Scotland with you missing. I know how corrosive to the soul seeing human tragedy and depravity can be. PTSD is real, and not a character flaw. You are awesome, and I affirm you. All a person can hope to do in this life is contribute in a positive way to make the world around you a better place. You have done this in multiple ways; at the face to face level of a first responder, with your family, and on your youtube channels with us wannabes. Much more than many, you have made an actual positive difference. Just know that you have a wide circle of admirers that will continue to support and pray for you.
Thank you for opening up about your depression and what has been going on with you. So sorry you are dealing with those issues but also remember that your happiness truly starts from within and by recognizing that and acting on it, you are on your way to lifting yourself up and out of the pits. I agree with you about all the b.s. we deal with in today’s world. From smart phones to politics, if you are not depressed, those things will surely get you moving in that direction. Society is all about what you have or have not. “This phone will make you popular or that car will make you happy”. No, it won’t. Family, friends and love will though. Too much emphasis on materialistic things and not enough on goodwill towards others. I truly hope you continue moving forward in your health and I will surely keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I have always enjoyed your content and always look forward to seeing you and the boys. God bless and stay strong!!
Thank you for your honesty and openness. In my Sunday school class I have a friend who is 97. He was in WW2 following General Patton with the 84th Golden Acorns. When he got back to the states he was struggling with anxiety and couldn’t sleep. He told me one night he asked God to give him peace and He did. Obviously a short version of all he told me. There is no shame in struggling. Life is hard when you have seen all you have in your line of work. Prayers for you and your family. May the God of peace give you strength and joy in the days to come.
Kurt, thanks for having the courage to share your story. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! So many of us feel the same way. I’m nearing 20 years in the U.S. military, and I hit an absolute mental wall a few years back. The first time I’ve ever experienced depression - the deepest, darkest time of my life. I couldn’t rationalize my way out of it, my wife couldn’t shake me out of it, my own children’s smiles couldn’t help me out of it. It just take time and help. Love you brother, we’re with you!
Thank you for sharing your journey and I am so proud of you and your family for taking care of you!! I know by sharing your concerns, you will help others. I lost a nephew a year ago due to his battle with demons. I am a RN and worked many years in ICU (through Covid as well) and deal with PTSD myself. Thankfully time and a change of scenery is helping with my healing. Please know that your videos bring so many smiles to so many people. You are truly missed and cared about. We will continue to support you and cheer you on. Just remember that all holes matter and with giving yourself grace all of the holes will be filled in and become more beautiful than ever!
Take all the time you need, brother. Your mental health is more important than putting out video content. I'll be right here waiting for your return. Love your videos and looking forward to more of your awesome finds.
Missed seeing you. Happy to hear you are focusing on your needs. You'll get through this! Sending virtual hugs...
Kurt, I know that was an extremely difficult video for you to make & thank you for giving an update on what you have been going through. Please take your time on coming back to TH-cam and please know your true fans and family will be right here waiting for you and the rest of the Hoover Boys, when you feel that you are ready to return to TH-cam.
With great respect for you and honest appreciation for your courage in letting us all know what has been going on with your mental health, good luck and love on your journey to mental wellness.
Thank you for being a first responder and for taking care of yourself. Rushing toward what others run from for a long time definitely requires seeking helpful coping skills. You will be better for it and staying away from the bs that surrounds us is important. I hope making and posting this has lifted some of the heaviness off your mind and heart. Glad to hear you’re on better ground - where you matter
We love you buddy! I've been a first responder for 28 years, and I recently went through a 10 week PTSD course, because of many of the same things you're talking about. I've got your back.
I could never do your job Kurt. I'm grateful for you and the others that put yourselves through so much for other people. On top of that you've created this channel which has helped so many others.
I started watching you guys years ago when I moved from Louisiana to New Jersey. I was experiencing seasonal depression during the winters and on top of that we had black mold in our house but we didn't realize what was happening until about 5 years into it.
Your channel and your personality specifically put me in a better mood. I really appreciate you Kurt.
Sending love from South Carolina brother.
My heart goes out to anyone who has dealt with black mold in their home. My wife and I had it in our home as you did. It went undiscovered for years, but finally found behind the kitchen sink back panel. The syptoms like coughing, itching, and feeling like you're being bitten by unseen insects and sleep loss were horrendous. I told my wife one day that I wouldn't wish this torment on my worst enemy, and I meant it. It's been 10 years now, and we're both so sensitized by it that we're still dealing with the odd item in the house that we thought was cleaned well, that is still covered in spores, and you find out by handling it. It's the gift that keeps on giving. I'll bet we threw away 15 thousand dollars in items from our home. Some we're very sentimental to my wife especially, because cleaning them would have destroyed the items or our finances. The only thing that kept us going was our faith in Jesus. Otherwise, I don't think we would have made it through. God Bless
I forgot to mention that my wife and I have a place in Conway, Sc.
I plan on hoovering the beach this winter, maybe find some bling.
@@geraldb8856 Wow Gerald, only mold survivors can appreciate each other. I’m sorry you’ve had to experience it. My wife and I know that sensitivity you’re talking about. She can’t even handle fragrances or any chemicals now. It just completely zaps her brain. I’m not so sensitive to fragrances and stuff but I know when I’ve come into contact with mold. I start feeling drunk and dizzy. Our mold in NJ was so bad that the lady at the test lab called us and wanted to know if we were living in the building that the test came from. She wasn’t supposed to get involved in personal info just report the findings and answer questions but she said it was one of the highest numbers she’d ever seen. One specific mold was over 5 million. And it was a top 5. We also had black mold. I think there were about 30 different varieties. By the end of the 5 years in that house I was hallucinating on the way to work some days. I was paranoid. I had days where I felt like something was wrong and I couldn’t figure out what it was. It almost felt like a bad trip but the visual hallucinations were so vague I could barely catch it. We ordered a large commercial dumpster and threw away pretty much everything we owned. We walked away from that house and chose living in hotels and air BnBs with the help of some family members until we could find another place. Which also had mold. So we ended up being homeless and living in multiple hotels for the next year until we found a place in another state. And after all that, and I’ve left out a ton of the trials and tribulations that we went through, we came to Jesus and the turbulent seas that had become our lives for years suddenly calmed. That was when we finally found a home even though we had no money left, no credit, nothing left. We just prayed constantly and everything fell into place. Since then life has gotten even better and we’ve just gotten closer to God. I’m about to start a new job making more than I’ve ever made and we’re about to check out a church we just found around the corner. We’ve been in SC since May and we absolutely love it. God is good. I’m going to pray for you and your family Gerald. I hope your life improves and only gets better with time. I’ve spent years learning about supplements that help with mold so if that’s something you’re interested in I’d gladly elaborate. God bless you Brother.
I feel your pain… hang in there it will get better bro.
Hey love man thanks for opening up. I hit the depression hard after finding out I have cancer
I have been watching your channel for a long time and I want to say how courageous it is to speak on a very hard trauma that you are going through. It is tough but you will get through this with the love and support from your family, friends and therapy. I will keep you all in my prayers.
I just want you to know I feel that you are a very valuable person. Your channel has not only brought me much entertainment about a hobby I love, but has also helped me emotionally. Stay bright! We need people like you to make this world a better place. ❤
Prayers and hugs to you Kurt.
Best fact: "Smart phones have made the world dumb." TRUTH! From a retired 30 year cop + concurrent 15 years vollie fire-rescue/EMS, wishing you and yours the best!
Mate, get where you're coming from. Been a Volunteer FireFighter for over 30 years here in Australia and am fed up being treated as a 2nd class citizen driving round in trucks which are over 30 years old. Seen a lot of nasty stuff over the years and know there are things I can't do anymore as PTSD kicks in quickly. Thanks for the support from the family I'm doing okay, taking myself away from things I don't have to do especially after doing them for several years and getting no support or encouragement. Stay strong mate, keep taking all the help offered and we'll see you in the fields/rivers soon. Roger
Hey man. I'm glad you got the help and support to do what you need to do to get better. It takes a lot of strength and courage to do that. Thank you for sharing and allowing yourself to be open about your struggles and being vulnerable. It helps others tremendously. You really fanned the flames of metal detecting for me. The energy you and your friends brought to the videos always made me feel good. Thank you for that. You make a difference in the world bro! I'm glad to see you're taking the time to do what's best for you! Much love, brother!
Kurt, we have been missing you. You have brought an army of like minded people into the world of metal detecting. Even though you don’t know us, nor ever met the vast majority of us, we’re still like family through your videos of detecting and fishing. I definitely understand what you’ve been going through, seeing the unimaginable and trying to save lives at every turn. I started out at the age of 17, as a volunteer firefighter with my county fire department, and when I was 21, became a sheriff’s deputy for the same county. After 5 years of seeing people diy or so badly mangled you’d wonder how and why they were still living, I got out of it all and went to work for the world’s largest oil company. I admire every first responder, because I know what you have to deal with.
I’m glad you got help! You need you, your family needs you, and buddy, we need you, but only when YOU are ready. We, your TH-cam family, will be here when you are well and ready to make what ever you feel like making, detecting or fishing, or just sitting in front of your camera and letting us know how you’re doing. May God always be with you, your family, friends and all of The Hoover Boys everywhere. I pray that God wraps you in The Holy Spirit, and takes the pain away. Thank you for letting us know what you’ve been through, and know that you’re loved and appreciated. God’s blessings always.
We were worried! I agree with and totally understand what you are saying. I am so sorry for everything you have been going through. Take good care of yourself, please. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️
Work on your self man we will be here when your ready, much love from Wisconsin
Kurt, we all love you so much. Take all the time you need to help yourself. You have so many people rooting you on. So much love ❤
I can’t imagine the things you’ve seen as a first responder and how that has affected you.
Sleep deprivation is no joke. There’s a reason it’s used as a torture tactic. I’m JUST coming out of the haze of postpartum depression, sleep deprivation and getting a grip on ADHD symptoms that have made me basically a zombie for the past 17 months.
I didn’t want to do anything I used to love. I was in survival mode. I’ve gotten on the right mix of meds, limited social media, and started seeing a therapist and I’m feeling SO much better.
I just wanted to say it gets better, you are clearly very loved by your family and everyone who watches this channel regularly is glad you are here because you’ve brightened our lives just by being here.
In 2020 when I had my first son, my husband and I started to detect as a way to get outside and escape the pandemic/stress of being new parents. Watching your channel helped me learn how to detect, provided endless dopamine when it was in short supply and opened a world a childlike wonder that healed my inner child (detecting is something I always wanted to do but didn’t have parents that supported my interests)
Anyway, long long long story short: you are an awesome person, thank you for sharing your joys AND struggles on this channel and I hope things get easier for you soon. ❤
Kurt-
We’re all here for you. You’re a good guy, a great dad and husband and we also suspect an exceptionally competent first responder. Mental health needs are just as important as any other health concern and have been ignored/shoved into the corner for all too long in our modern world that focuses all too often on surface-level concerns/materialistic BS. For you and your family along with your large group of friends’ sake, hopefully I speak for a strong majority of us when I say *_our needs are unimportant…your family and your personal health are concerns 1 and 1a while ours rank somewhere near the middle to bottom of the page_*
Cheers and may your family enjoy a more complete, happier you soon!
🖖😎👍
Take it easy. Totally get where you are coming from. We, your fans and avid followers will be here waiting for your return. Your health and well being must come first, thank you for listening to your family. 7:24
God be with you brother
Take Care. PTSD is a B . I'm a 74 year old Vietnam Veteran. I'm one of the ones asking about you. It has been a big void on Wednesdays. Get Well and Take care, Give Your Wife a BIG hug and kiss the Little ones.
God bless you and your family. Depression is a tough battle. Keep fighting, the best is yet to come!
I am almost 83 and I wouldn't be here if it weren't for EMT folks. You are in my prayers. This video has prompted me to subscribe. I'm sure that will make you feel better. ;-) You are in the right place. Keep it up. See you when you get back.
This is Bruce from “DiggingTheMitten “. You are a very strong young man! I am proud of this video you made. There are way to many men and women in the same shoes as us. Stay strong brother.
A chap that was teaching when I was in college had exactly the same as you, he was a fireman and he broke down in tears telling us about it one day. Years later I had a very bad case of depression myself ( as bad as you can get ) and it is a very dark place indeed.
If you can take any advice off me I would say this, decide to be happy instead of sad everyday and slow your life down. Don’t give yourself unrealistic expectations that you can never make it do, just try and move on until you get a hold if it.
I write in a diary everyday and out my thoughts onto the page and then close it and forget about it and that has really helped.
Good luck all the best gaz
I know that was extremely hard for you. Shows how strong your heart is. I’ve always looked forward to your shows and was worried when I haven’t seen anything in a while. Your love and passion for this hobby shows in every piece y’all unearth. And it shows how good of a person you are to come forward and share your story. Thank you for all your stories you keep me going every day.
Kurt, I feel your pain. I was a 12+ year first responder (Fire/EMS) before quitting and answering the call for my country as an Army infantry combat vet. My years in the fire service numbed me to what i saw in country and I'm glad it did. Otherwise, it could've been worse. But these are the burdens we carry. Not everyone can do it. So recognize that you are an exception and can handle this type of stress. Vent. Cry. Talk. And love. This is our cross to bear. Like you, I have a good woman to keep me grounded. You have more friends than I to help you so don't gloat! Stay safe and stay strong. I met you guys at a JGD hunt in Virginia are y'all are truly a top notch crew. I'll see ya in the fields.
Kurt you are not alone. I see your strength and you have realized one of the most important truths in this life. Take time to care for yourself. You are not alone and I am cheering for you man! I have enjoyed watching your videos since the first time I saw them. A little Mason-Dixon love coming your way from PA. You hit some really key points about this era that we live in and it can be daunting with all the B.S. and drama that takes us away from our roots and our compassion. Keep fighting the good fight and see a little “shiney “ in all this. You and THB make me smile and dig and look down a whole hell of a lot, and dredge the waterways for cool stuff and look down a whole lot more. Take some time to look up brother.
Thank you, brother, for having the courage to make this video and open up as you have. I am moved by your honesty and I can relate in more ways than one. Two months ago my cousin lost his battle with depression and or effects of his 27 year career as a corrections officer. He was 51 years old and only a year and a half into his retirement. Any way. Looking forward to seeing your return to TH-cam, but in your own time my friend. Thank you for this. I needed it.
I am so glad you are taking care of yourself. I totally understand. While I haven’t seen the horrors you have been exposed to, I myself have lost 7 family members and 8 dear friends in the span of 24 months. Both parents died 5 months apart. In one day I had to call an ambulance for my dad. While in the hospital my cousin called to let me know that they found my dads younger brother dead after a wellness check. While reeling from that, my dad’s younger sister called me to yell at me that I was missing her sons funeral (my cousin who had committed suicide) and she only calmed down when she found out I was in the hospital with my dad.
Depression and insomnia are real issues. I now take an anti depressant. I basically took a year off life and cocooned in my house to clear my head. You do whatever you have to do to make you better. We will all understand and will support you anyway we can. You are loved by more people than you know and we all want the best for you.
Take care and please know, I will be waiting for the next video should you decide to do them again. I know they helped me tremendously during my 2 year nightmare. ❤❤🙏🏻🙏🏻
Glad you are getting help and happy to help if I can. Next door in Delaware. Retired Trooper and spent most of my career protecting children and combating CSAM. I totally understand what happens when you close your eyes at night and you want to sleep but can’t. I’ve found a positive way to deal with this works for me by helping those that are still in the fight. If it helps you to know this I really enjoy watching your videos as the last thing I do before I go to sleep so I can have my brain think about your adventures instead of the other thoughts and horrors that trickle back in my head when the lights go out so thank you from the bottom of my heart. If there is anything that I can do for you please let me know.
Hey man, I’m glad to hear that you are taking care of YOU. I’m not a first responder but I’ve grown up with severe depression since I was 10, I’m now 51. The good news is that I too have been getting help for myself. I stopped self medicating, went to rehab and got clean, and I’ve been seeing a great therapist once a week for a couple of years now and I’m doing much better. Thank you for opening up to your fans. Yes, you have fans and we are all cheering you on. Keep your head up and keep placing one foot in front of the other. Your friends and family, and fans, love you.
Oh Kurt..... I was worried about you! Right now I could give you a huge hug and tell you you're not alone! WELL DONE for getting help, and what a brilliant family you have! I won't say you'll "get over it" like it doesn't matter, but you can learn to live with your past as part of who you are. THANK YOU for you service as a first responder, THANK YOU for making this video, and remember that if you ever cross the pond to the UK again, you'd be more than welcome to come back to Shropshire! (I live in a 1790s house - just sayin'😊)
Glad you got help! Thanks for sharing. I'll be here watching when you are ready, until then take care.
You are deeply loved and respected by the community that you have built. Thank you for the courage to share your strength in taking care of yourself and letting others help you. You have a huge impact on thousands of people you will never know and this video is like hammered gold. Completely unexpected and of huge value.
Thank you again.
First responder here AEMT from TN. I get it brother. It’s hard. There aren’t debriefings for what we see. We joke, laugh and develop a dark sense of humor. As of Oct 2024 my National registration has ran out. I left ems because I decided to stop breaking my body mentally and physically to save others. It’s time to save me. I’m so glad you are pushing and trying to right the ship. Ppl who aren’t first responders will never get what we see. Plz plz hang in there brother. Most don’t want to exit they just want the pain to stop. Keep reaching out, keep pushing because it does get better. No it doesn’t go away but in time you will regain you. Heart love and respect go out to you. ❤
I knew I liked you. Thank you for speaking out. I’m glad that you didn’t lose your family and friends through this. The ones we count on seems to be the first to bail when life gets hard. Social media has helped me see I’m not the only one facing the same feelings you are. However, that also hurts my heart to know others go through that pain. Brother, please take care of yourself and your family first. Your fans appreciate your honesty! You mean so much to us and you mean so much more to your loved ones. The world is a better place with you in it!! Take whatever time you need. We will patiently wait for you.
I took a course on rescue training because of a job I had for a number of years. One thing that really stuck with me they said was: “you have to rescue yourself before you can rescue someone else”. Please take care of YOU
Been watching you since your first video. Don't comment often but I'm watching. I'm one of the guys who sent you a Firefights ball cap from the town I live in. Praying for a full recovery 🙏. Take all the time you need Kurt.
I am so sorry you’re struggling with depression. I’ve been there and understand. You’re blessed with a good support system and I’m looking forward to seeing the next video when you’re back at it.
Kurt, you are not alone. We lost our 30 yr old son to depression and then suicide 3 years ago. We just completed our annual fundraiser for the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention, and I am always amazed by the emails from subscribers and members that are impacted by depression and negative thought. I think we are making a difference.
Your videos are must watch, your personality is the driving force. But your health and well being are more important than anything, take whatever time you need for you. As I well know, filming, editing and posting videos is a grind. when you are ready we will be here.
I’ve watched for years with my hubby and son (who adore to metal detector together). However, I’ve never commented before. So glad you’re taking care of yourself and setting an example to your family about being vulnerable and seeking and accepting support. That’s huge! Hope this work brings you joy and peace and that contentment is around the corner. All the best to you and your family. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Take care of you. Kurt! Your followers appreciate your candidness and support your healing! That was not easy, we know, which makes it more powerful to watch and relate to. Thanks for what you do for others. Its time to take care of you
Brother, I feel your pain. 20 years of EMS/Fire and 11 years of corrections have sometimes made me numb. I joined the Tennessee Public Safety Network a group of 1st responders taking care of our own and have to just let you know you are not alone. Many others have felt and are feeling what you are feeling right now. I am super proud of you for reaching out and getting help. Please know that there is nothing wrong with you, you are just responding internally to all the traumatic events in your career. Keep pushing forward and keep the faith. You will come out of this with a new found outlook and be able to help others going through the same thing. Stay strong brother!!!
We are with you my friend. I have always respected your character, and this is a great example of the strength and bravery you have. All of us, and the treasure will always be here. Thank you for sharing with much love.
So glad you had people around to help you see the need for help. Feel no shame for crying when you mentioned first responders' funerals. I lost a friend who was a firefighter, it was a motorcycle accident that took him, and he was very young. That alone made the funeral tough, but I have never cried like I did when they did the last call. I had never been to a first responder funeral and did not know about this ritual. It was the most haunting and devastating call out, it broke me. So I completely understood your emotion there. Not to make this about me but you actually helped me with this video. For a couple of years now I have felt so all alone. Like I was the only one on the planet who was awake when everyone else was living in some nightmare land. To hear you call out the politicians ON BOTH SIDES, to hear you call out the news for every word they say being a lie, and probably the worst of all, parents who can't look away from their phones for one second to interact with their children. It is going to be up to people like us to set this shit right, please get well, America needs you on her side. Will keep you in my thoughts brother.
You got this I have been dealing with almost the same depression for past few years. Family and friends def help but you did the right thing and helped yourself before it got to dark. Just lost a buddy to suicide 3 days ago. Never saw that loss coming is a big deal for my community. But like you said being a first responder is tough. I am a correctional officer for the past 17 years in upstate new york you see things no one should ever see or have to deal with. Keep your mind strong and see you on the next video. Thanks again for all you do kurt it was a pleasure again meeting you guys again a few years ago at digstock.much respect C.Kelly
Thank you for your honesty. I have been through clinical depression too. Work on you, life will improve. Your people out here care about you. ❤
So glad to hear that you are getting some help. I, as well as many others, love your channel and content. Please take time to get into a better place and spend time with your friends and family. We, your online family, are pulling for you. Thank you for taking the time to explain your absence. Look forward to hearing you laugh again and pulling shiny from the soil. Best wishes from a fan in Maine.
I love that you are telling us what's going on and I will still be here when you return. ❤ you take care of yourself first!
Kurt,
Your genuine personality comes through even when you are spilling your guts to all of your loyal watchers and fans. Dude I have so much respect for you for being brave enough to post this and I hope it helped you in some sort of way. You said many true things about what life is like lately and many of us can relate to having those same thoughts and feelings inside and to know how much it can wear a person down. You take the time for you, and your loved ones that gets you feeling right again and we will all be here happy to see another HB video when it's right for you. Life is so unpredictable and can be much shorter or more challenging at any minute, the best thing said is you know it needs to be enjoyed and spent with those you love doing things you love. You are going to be in my prayers. Take care Kurt
I hear you. You are not alone in the struggle with depression. I've been a full-time member of the Invisible Illness Club since 1994. I'm so glad you were able to find help with people who can relate to your life experiences. Anxiety and PTSD are my constant companions. It's taken me 30 years to stop bottling up my feelings and to put me first. Keep up the good fight. Big hugs.
Been watching you since I was 14, I’m 21 now and still watch your videos from time to time. Much love and thank you for everything.
I am grateful to hear you open up with such heart and honesty. I’m sure that wasn’t easy but you handled it very well.
Im sure I will be just one more of you loyal listeners who can tell you with all the honesty in the world that you are not alone in feeling this “sense of change” engulfing our lives in every conceivable way at this time.
I too find myself tossing all night. I find myself dreading another attempt at sleep. Thinking and worrying about everything that matters to you.
Keep in mind. It’s always darkest before the light. Those of us who feel this change are feeling it with you and we know there’s more darkness to come before the rays of that beautiful light shines through again.
So stay strong My Brother. Because your family needs you, your community needs you. We need you help us escape, if only for a few minutes a week, these trial and tribulations that also haunt us in our minds during our everyday lives.
I’ll close with this. I usually only have the opportunity to listen to your show. Seldom do I get to watch a full show. But you guys absolutely crack me up with your little gaffs and the potshots you jab at each other at every possible moment. I will watch when something out of the ordinary is found and always watch to see what everyone found at the wrap up of the show. It was because of me watching you guys that when I did find a 1733 8-Reales. I knew exactly what I had in my hand. You are the first person I thought of as I brushed the dried powder mud off to reveal an unmistakable Code-of-Arms facing me. It was the most unforgettable experience and you were a part of it in my mind.
Thank you.
Brother, glad you are safe. And you do not walk alone in this. As a Combat Medic, I had to leave medicine because of the drain on my psyche, and develop a different calling. But every now and again I find my self back as a first responder, more than I would like, and it brings things back. PTSD sucks, but we can get through with the right support from those around us, and even complete strangers who walk in that darkness. I feel after all these years like I know you and the guys, and I am thankful for you sharing this. Again you are not alone brother!
I will be alright is not a statement those of us that are suffering truely mean. I hope and pray your family is behind you and helping you get through this rough time. There are so many of us going through this and I for one look forward to all of your videos as they make me happy. Take the time to heal yourself and I for one and I know many here will be here to support you. I hope you make it through these dark times because you seem to be a real good man and I know being a first responder is hard and the things we see people can not imagine how bad they really are. I am not a really religious person because of all the things I have seen in my lifetime because I am much older, but I hope you can find something to comfort you in theses times as we all at some point need someone to lean on because this world has become so hard to survive in. Good luck my friend and know that that you have helped me through some hard times because of your positive attitude and great videos.
Dear Kurt! I stumbled upon one of your videos in 2018, just after my first breakdown. Later on, I believe I ended up watching every piece of content you’ve made. Your videos helped me through the toughest times of my life and, much later, they guided me onto the path and career that I’m currently pursuing. Thankfully, I’m now in much better health too.
Your work has significantly shaped my life, and I am deeply grateful for it. I wish you all the best and many happy years of hunting ahead!
@@DavidPajtas Thank you. This made my day. All the best!
Love your videos man - been watching since the beginning, even if I didn’t know you were Kamikaze Kurt. We shared a class, homeroom, and, especially, an art room. Your videos have brought me a lot of joy and inspiration to pick up a machine. -Ryan Kiesel
P.S. No one knows the internal pain until you tell people about it; a hardship shared is a hardship lessened. I, too, have been battling with depression for many years and have been trying to fix it with drinking, which turned into alcoholism that has brought more pain and problems. Best of luck, man.
Thanks for coming clean about your where abouts. That takes intestinal fortitude to let the world know and to let us know because we care about you. Sorry this has been so long building up but I understand. My son who is 59 started as a volunteer firefighter in this, at that time, community. He walked into a very traumatic situation. He has never commented on it except to tell me he was there first, I have wondered a lot but this year he joined the Fire Chaplain Assoc, here in Tennessee. I think I understand his motive. This is a volunteer organization but active throughout the state. Thanks again because I think your video will help someone else. Go Hoover Boys.