I was totally having an off day here. It is always hard to share the vulnerable feelings and thoughts through this journey but I hope the honesty can help someone else going through this process. I am feeling so much better and more confident with the process
I did 2 back to back rounds of IVF. The stims and retrieval’s weren’t bad at all for me. You got this!! I got 1 genetically normal embryo from the first round, so opted to do a second round to hopefully bank 1-2 more since I’m 40. I got 5 embryos this time and ended up doing a 5 day fresh transfer on 11/11/21 and I’m currently pregnant! I’ll have my first beta this week and will also find out how many embryos come back normal of the 4 sent off. Wishing you all the best!!!
All feelings are valid! Doesn’t matter where they come from or why you have them so just honor them and yourself :) Lots of women (myself included) don’t enjoy pregnancy/postpartum even though we love our children more than life itself and we feel unjustified or terrible about having those feelings as well but everyone has a unique experience and I think validating and honoring our feelings (especially the negative ones) is what helps us accept and move past them.
There is nothing wrong with having that deep desire for a child. Children are blessings in every way and it’s clear you’re a fantastic mother and you have so much to give. All will be well you’re rounding that corner to start this whole process! I’m praying for your family!
I think part of the way that you’re feeling is the anticipation of it all. Like the unknown. The duality of wanting to be positive and not allow all the “mini” setbacks to like give your hopes up. Ahhh anxiety. Being able to bit by bit process the emotions with the logic intermittently is good for the soul. Being in tune and aware too is a good thing. Taking a step back to recount. Evaluate is not bad - it’s realizing when you’ve gone too far with shutting your normal out. People, healthy habits, etc. You’re not alone. It’s admirable that your sharing with this community I’m sure not only does it help you but others. Take care. Be kind to yourself 💕
Thank you 🥺 you’re totally right. It’s been difficult to understand why I am feeling the way I am but it is all starting to make more sense. Appreciate you 🤍
Keeping you three (four!) in my thoughts! You are so worthy and I feel for you so hard. I believe in you and this journey! Thank you for being so honest and open, it's definitely something that needs to be spoken about more and it's truly a gift that you are setting this example so others dont feel alone. So much love
also an injection tip! Theres a vibrating bee that you can get and keep in the freezer, apparently thats supposed to help so much with pain and bruising at the injection site :)
Although many of us can’t totally understand what you are feeling and going through…we are here and sending so many good wishes and prayers! And you are strong…look at all you have been through In the last several years! Many of us have been with you when you got your own apartment! And of course we are so happy for your family! I also think it’s normal to want to shut down…but you are honest and realize that is what you are doing. Keep working out and doing things that make you feel well. Love you! 😍
From a fellow infertility warrior, whatever you feel is ok. The doubt is ok. Try be realistic with each procedure, ask your doctor for success rates but be optimistic. Your body is ready to carry a healthy baby to full term! And you are not alone. Sending so much love
Praying for you and bring on all the eggs. You have got this Caitlyn. It will happen. You and Ty’s baby is on the way. Talk to us all you want. Let it out girl!😘🙏🏻
It’s completely normal to have doubts or “what if” thoughts. I have had multiple women in my family that have had infertility issues. My sister-in-law went through IVF and they got pregnant after the first round. My niece too went through IVF and it took her two rounds of IVF and my cousin went through IVF. if I remember correctly they went through four failed rounds. They had two embryos left, implanted both and she got pregnant. Just know you are not alone in this journey. We are all cheering for you and thinking of you.
What your feeling is TOTALLY normal because I was the same when going thru my IVF and I felt like as much as I talked to someone .. it did nothing for me because at the end of the day.. I’m still the only one who deals with those feelings so I learned to breath and take it one day at a time and we both got thru it and got our positive pregnancy! Just be positive and put your trust in gods hands🙏❤️💪🏻 you totally got this 👍🏻
Oh the memories and emotions flood back while watching this! Idk if you have heard or you may be taken it already but I took CoQ10 during my retrieval; it’s shown to help the egg quality! You are in my thoughts and prayers daily! All the emotions you are feeling are completely normal! There will be extremely high and extremely lows! One thing I can promise is all of it is 1000% worth it! You GOT this! You are strong, beautiful, and not alone! Thank you for putting yourself out there for the world! Happy injection week! Tons and tons of prayers for healthy eggs! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I'm so sry you guys are going through this infertility and I'm praying for you. I have to say being a nurse watching you organize medication was very enjoyable.
Wow this really puts into perspective how much goes into just a single egg retrieval. It may not be the point that anyone wants to get to, but I’m glad it’s an option for many. Science is pretty incredible.
I know what you mean about feeling like you’re at a standstill. I felt like that when I was pregnant because I have high risk pregnancies due to my incompetent cervix. I felt like my life/my family’s life revolved around the pregnancy. I felt like I couldn’t be too far from my doctor’s office/hospital, we couldn’t go on vacation, I couldn’t carry anything. My life was consumed by my pregnancy. Quite happy to be done with all that. I really hope IVF works for you on the first try! Baby dust! ❤️
Wow! You are super organised, I divided my boxes of meds into baskets and I was patting myself on the back!! It's so normal I think to have all these feelings starting IVF, I could have written what you said, especially feeling as if your life is on hold watching every one else moving along with theirs.....but hopefully Thanksgiving to positive pregnancy test will be a very short ride!!
I totally get the life being at a standstill thing! That's how I feel right now with struggling to get pregnant. 😭 Like I don't even want to spend money on buying nice jeans because I'm hoping and praying I'll be pregnant soon. Holding onto so much clothes because they'd be great for pregnancy or breastfeeding. If course cluttering our basement with baby stuff because I don't want to have to repurchase everything. It sucks. It's hard. Sending best wishes and lots of baby dust. ❤
Ugh I feel you. I actually just treated myself to nice jeans because I am sick of waiting for what might happen. It felt good!!! But I know exactly what you mean, also been putting off things like that!!!! best of luck
Just wanted to say good luck on your first round of ivf and it goes better then my second round of ivf did. Are second round of ivf failed. I had two embryos but they both didn’t make it to day five. So now we are on round 3 total of ivf and my last round. My period started today and I have my baseline ultrasound tomorrow and if all looks good I will start my medications by the weekend. If this cycle don’t work then we will be moving onto donor egg cycle down in New York which is the cheapest around anywhere. But good luck on your journey and please keep us updated on everything.
Scarlet you done so good. Very proud of you . Sending good vibes.. praying this is it. I'm sure this is very emotional and hard. I'd be worrying about giving myself shots ib the stomach. Good luck and God bless!
I’m so excited for you!! I know when the meds arrive it starts to get real. What is your IVF protocol? I’m starting my 4th IVF cycle in January. I’m gonna start vlogging soon.
I have 2 ivf healthy baby boys. They both worked the first time and in tried conceiving for 5 years before doing ivf. Your feelings and vulnerability are completely normal. Just heads up when starting the shots it may get a little worse before better. Idk if it's the added hormones but the shots were like insulin shots and barely hurt. I use to cry everytime my husband gave me the shots which also made him feel horrible. It's a really tough time, but goes quickly as far as ivf. Also they have a progesterone cream. I did that instead of the shots both times and it worked. It cost slightly more...but you have to continue the progesterone until 11 weeks pregnant I think. So might want to consider.
I hope all works for you ❤️ I hope and pray I can have my rainbow baby sooner than later . Loosing Bailey was and his tha hardest hour t I have ever been through. I feel I need my arms full again.
Caitlin send you some good luck on the baby and this working for you this IVF hope it does also Scarlett won't touch those meds of yous will she hopefully she stays away from them I would put them up a little bit higher from her just to be safe . This is going to work have faith Caitlin . Have a great day 😊💞
Caitlyn, don't shut down with your husband he is a part of this as well perhaps having his own feelings ,but may not be able to express them to you because you are so upset he would not want to upset you. i tried to have a baby years ago went to a fertility Doctor instead a shock when I had to have a total hysterectomy my world shut down everyone on the outside as well I closed out. I am praying for you as well for this to work for you & your family have a lovely day !
I totally feel that stand still vibe and it's frustrating, girl! We were so ready to move and possibly have a second before covid. Then everything was so unsure, we held off and now the housing market is crazy so....still kinda stand still over here. We have a daughter born very close to when Scarlett was born and I don't want the space between to be any bigger than it already is, but we'd really like to move first. It's so frustrating!
Castor oil packs helped me with blocked fallopian tube with I was TTC. They work really well for some people in their journey to increase blood flow to uterus, not sure if this is something you ever looked into, tried, or ruled out.
I’m meaning this is a very cautious way… please don’t trust any child always hide ur medications .. watching u for years.. maybe put those in a front open locked box????
I was totally having an off day here. It is always hard to share the vulnerable feelings and thoughts through this journey but I hope the honesty can help someone else going through this process. I am feeling so much better and more confident with the process
That’s okay everyone has them ❤️❤️❤️
You are doing great!! Serious warrior ♥️♥️
I did 2 back to back rounds of IVF. The stims and retrieval’s weren’t bad at all for me. You got this!! I got 1 genetically normal embryo from the first round, so opted to do a second round to hopefully bank 1-2 more since I’m 40. I got 5 embryos this time and ended up doing a 5 day fresh transfer on 11/11/21 and I’m currently pregnant! I’ll have my first beta this week and will also find out how many embryos come back normal of the 4 sent off. Wishing you all the best!!!
Thanks for sharing! 🤍 and congrats to you that’s awesome!!!!
All feelings are valid! Doesn’t matter where they come from or why you have them so just honor them and yourself :) Lots of women (myself included) don’t enjoy pregnancy/postpartum even though we love our children more than life itself and we feel unjustified or terrible about having those feelings as well but everyone has a unique experience and I think validating and honoring our feelings (especially the negative ones) is what helps us accept and move past them.
Thank you so much for this reminder. You are totally right. Appreciate this comment 🤍
There is nothing wrong with having that deep desire for a child. Children are blessings in every way and it’s clear you’re a fantastic mother and you have so much to give. All will be well you’re rounding that corner to start this whole process! I’m praying for your family!
Thank you so much 🤍🤍🤍
Indy snuggling with you was so cute! It's like he heard your worries and is telling you it'll be okay 💕
He is the best thank you 🥺
You’ve got this, your such a strong woman, it’s ok to feel the way you do it’s a very emotional experience. Sending hugs 🤗 🥰
Thank you so much 🤍🤍
I think part of the way that you’re feeling is the anticipation of it all. Like the unknown. The duality of wanting to be positive and not allow all the “mini” setbacks to like give your hopes up. Ahhh anxiety. Being able to bit by bit process the emotions with the logic intermittently is good for the soul. Being in tune and aware too is a good thing. Taking a step back to recount. Evaluate is not bad - it’s realizing when you’ve gone too far with shutting your normal out. People, healthy habits, etc. You’re not alone. It’s admirable that your sharing with this community I’m sure not only does it help you but others. Take care. Be kind to yourself 💕
Thank you 🥺 you’re totally right. It’s been difficult to understand why I am feeling the way I am but it is all starting to make more sense. Appreciate you 🤍
@@CaitlynNeier 🤗
Keeping you three (four!) in my thoughts! You are so worthy and I feel for you so hard. I believe in you and this journey! Thank you for being so honest and open, it's definitely something that needs to be spoken about more and it's truly a gift that you are setting this example so others dont feel alone. So much love
also an injection tip! Theres a vibrating bee that you can get and keep in the freezer, apparently thats supposed to help so much with pain and bruising at the injection site :)
Thank you so much. Appreciate you following along 🤍
Although many of us can’t totally understand what you are feeling and going through…we are here and sending so many good wishes and prayers! And you are strong…look at all you have been through In the last several years! Many of us have been with you when you got your own apartment! And of course we are so happy for your family! I also think it’s normal to want to shut down…but you are honest and realize that is what you are doing. Keep working out and doing things that make you feel well. Love you! 😍
Thank you so much 😩 it has been quite a journey but so many good things have come from it all. Appreciate you following along for so long.
From a fellow infertility warrior, whatever you feel is ok. The doubt is ok. Try be realistic with each procedure, ask your doctor for success rates but be optimistic. Your body is ready to carry a healthy baby to full term! And you are not alone. Sending so much love
Thank you so much. You are so right!
You are so strong and beautiful and worthy. Your feelings are valid.. Take time for you. I’m rooting for you guys. Keep pushing ♥️♥️
Thank you so much!!
Praying for you and bring on all the eggs. You have got this Caitlyn. It will happen. You and Ty’s baby is on the way. Talk to us all you want. Let it out girl!😘🙏🏻
Thank you! Appreciate it 🤍
It’s completely normal to have doubts or “what if” thoughts. I have had multiple women in my family that have had infertility issues. My sister-in-law went through IVF and they got pregnant after the first round. My niece too went through IVF and it took her two rounds of IVF and my cousin went through IVF. if I remember correctly they went through four failed rounds. They had two embryos left, implanted both and she got pregnant. Just know you are not alone in this journey. We are all cheering for you and thinking of you.
Thank you so much.
🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 Praying for you Caitlyn don’t give up.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 I can’t wait to hear we “Pregnant” 2022✨
Thank you. Can’t wait for that day and to be done with all of this TTC stuff 😩
Your a warrior girl, we are here for you to lean on and talk to. We love you and will back by you up. #StayStrong #Warrior
Thank you 🤍🤍🤍
What your feeling is TOTALLY normal because I was the same when going thru my IVF and I felt like as much as I talked to someone .. it did nothing for me because at the end of the day.. I’m still the only one who deals with those feelings so I learned to breath and take it one day at a time and we both got thru it and got our positive pregnancy! Just be positive and put your trust in gods hands🙏❤️💪🏻 you totally got this 👍🏻
I love this. You’re totally right. Thank you 😩🤍🙏🏻
Oh the memories and emotions flood back while watching this! Idk if you have heard or you may be taken it already but I took CoQ10 during my retrieval; it’s shown to help the egg quality! You are in my thoughts and prayers daily! All the emotions you are feeling are completely normal! There will be extremely high and extremely lows! One thing I can promise is all of it is 1000% worth it! You GOT this! You are strong, beautiful, and not alone! Thank you for putting yourself out there for the world! Happy injection week! Tons and tons of prayers for healthy eggs! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Thank you! I appreciate all the kind words! 🥺🤍
And YES been party of my vitamin routine for quite some time! 👍🏼 hope it helps!
You got this! Don't be scared! Trust the processes lil lady♡ sending baby dust your way!
Thank you!
I'm so sry you guys are going through this infertility and I'm praying for you. I have to say being a nurse watching you organize medication was very enjoyable.
Ahhhh thank you! It was very satisfying organizing them 🤣
Wow this really puts into perspective how much goes into just a single egg retrieval. It may not be the point that anyone wants to get to, but I’m glad it’s an option for many. Science is pretty incredible.
Science is incredible! As much as infertility sucks this entire process has been so interesting!
I know what you mean about feeling like you’re at a standstill. I felt like that when I was pregnant because I have high risk pregnancies due to my incompetent cervix. I felt like my life/my family’s life revolved around the pregnancy. I felt like I couldn’t be too far from my doctor’s office/hospital, we couldn’t go on vacation, I couldn’t carry anything. My life was consumed by my pregnancy. Quite happy to be done with all that.
I really hope IVF works for you on the first try! Baby dust! ❤️
Oh man I’m sure! It can all become very consuming I agree. Thank you 🤍
The earliest I’ve ever been to a video 👀 you’ve got this!! 💕
I posted at the most random time today hahah! thanks for watching!
All the prayers!!!
thank you!
Super excited for you'll. I went through IVF in San Francisco, and have two healthy boys. Sending you all the baby dust and luck.
That’s amazing. Thanks for sharing! 🤍🤍🤍
Seeing this video made me so happy!!! Love it when you upload
Glad you liked it!! Thank you!
You are strong and also I am praying for you and your family and it will be worth it all the end be positive and wish you best of luck of IVF
Thank you so much 🤍
Wow! You are super organised, I divided my boxes of meds into baskets and I was patting myself on the back!!
It's so normal I think to have all these feelings starting IVF, I could have written what you said, especially feeling as if your life is on hold watching every one else moving along with theirs.....but hopefully Thanksgiving to positive pregnancy test will be a very short ride!!
Thank you so much 😩🤍🙏🏻
Caitlyn, im so excited for you and Ty. I know it must be so hard to put yourself out there. You got this. Have a wonderful and blessed safe day.❤🤶
Thank you so much 🤍
Your feelings are valid, remember all those hormones/medications can make you more anxious also.
Edit: Scarlett is so beautiful 🥺
Thank you so much!
I surely do hope this works on the first go round for you, Caitlyn and Ty. I have a good feeling about it.😊❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🐾🎈
Thank you!
Wow had no idea how much goes into IVF. Praying u guys r successful the first go around ! ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you! 🙏🏻🤍
Enjoyed. Keep the faith❣️ Thanks for sharing.
Thank you!
I totally get the life being at a standstill thing! That's how I feel right now with struggling to get pregnant. 😭 Like I don't even want to spend money on buying nice jeans because I'm hoping and praying I'll be pregnant soon. Holding onto so much clothes because they'd be great for pregnancy or breastfeeding. If course cluttering our basement with baby stuff because I don't want to have to repurchase everything. It sucks. It's hard.
Sending best wishes and lots of baby dust. ❤
Ugh I feel you. I actually just treated myself to nice jeans because I am sick of waiting for what might happen. It felt good!!! But I know exactly what you mean, also been putting off things like that!!!! best of luck
Just wanted to say good luck on your first round of ivf and it goes better then my second round of ivf did. Are second round of ivf failed. I had two embryos but they both didn’t make it to day five. So now we are on round 3 total of ivf and my last round. My period started today and I have my baseline ultrasound tomorrow and if all looks good I will start my medications by the weekend. If this cycle don’t work then we will be moving onto donor egg cycle down in New York which is the cheapest around anywhere. But good luck on your journey and please keep us updated on everything.
Ahhhh best of luck on this cycle. 🙏🏻🙏🏻 seriously hope this is it for you!
Thank you 🤍
Scarlet you done so good. Very proud of you . Sending good vibes.. praying this is it. I'm sure this is very emotional and hard. I'd be worrying about giving myself shots ib the stomach. Good luck and God bless!
Thank you!
I’m so excited for you!! I know when the meds arrive it starts to get real. What is your IVF protocol? I’m starting my 4th IVF cycle in January. I’m gonna start vlogging soon.
Thank you! And good luck! Talking more about protocol in the next video!
Be positive keep saying it’s gonna work🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Thank you!
All the baby dust organization!! You got this
Thank you!
Starting my first IVF stims cycle tomorrow, this video was v. well timed! The IVF anxiety is unreal though, and the crazy dreams 😊
Ahhhh! Best of luck!!! We are on the same schedule it sounds like! that is so exciting!!
Sending prayers and asking for prayers for all the families effected by the senseless tragedy in Wisconsin.
I second this. So sad!
I have 2 ivf healthy baby boys. They both worked the first time and in tried conceiving for 5 years before doing ivf. Your feelings and vulnerability are completely normal. Just heads up when starting the shots it may get a little worse before better. Idk if it's the added hormones but the shots were like insulin shots and barely hurt. I use to cry everytime my husband gave me the shots which also made him feel horrible. It's a really tough time, but goes quickly as far as ivf.
Also they have a progesterone cream. I did that instead of the shots both times and it worked. It cost slightly more...but you have to continue the progesterone until 11 weeks pregnant I think. So might want to consider.
Thank you for the info!!!! Eager to begin in the morning. Also so happy it worked for you!
I hope all works for you ❤️ I hope and pray I can have my rainbow baby sooner than later . Loosing Bailey was and his tha hardest hour t I have ever been through. I feel I need my arms full again.
Thank you. Hugs to you Allison
You win the prize for BEST intros!💫💥🎊
Ahhh thank you!
Caitlin send you some good luck on the baby and this working for you this IVF hope it does also Scarlett won't touch those meds of yous will she hopefully she stays away from them I would put them up a little bit higher from her just to be safe . This is going to work have faith Caitlin . Have a great day 😊💞
Thank you! And oh we are good! Appreciate your concern. I am not concerned with Scarlett. 🤍
Thinking of you and your family sending prayers ❤️
Thank you Brittany!
@@CaitlynNeier of course I love your content
Loads of baby dust xxx you are strong xxx 😘
Thank you!
Oh man!! I hate when I forget to set my watch during a workout! I feel that pain haha like it never happened. 🤣
Right? It’s honestly the worst 🤣🤣
praying for you
Thank you!
First ! Let’s go eggs !!!
woot woot!
What’s your melatonin dose? If you’re not used to it you should start really low like 1mg.
I’ll have to check but good to know 👍🏼
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Do you still talk and hangout with 'The peachy mama' I forget her name
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Caitlyn, don't shut down with your husband he is a part of this as well perhaps having his own feelings ,but may not be able to express them to you because you are so upset he would not want to upset you. i tried to have a baby years ago went to a fertility Doctor instead a shock when I had to have a total hysterectomy my world shut down everyone on the outside as well I closed out. I am praying for you as well for this to work for you & your family have a lovely day !
Oh I’m so sorry!!
Thank you so much 🤍🤍
I totally feel that stand still vibe and it's frustrating, girl! We were so ready to move and possibly have a second before covid. Then everything was so unsure, we held off and now the housing market is crazy so....still kinda stand still over here. We have a daughter born very close to when Scarlett was born and I don't want the space between to be any bigger than it already is, but we'd really like to move first. It's so frustrating!
Ugh I’m sorry! I hope things work out for you soon!
Not sure if you watch Ellie and Jared but they've gone through infertility and still are. Oh dear, not sure if I said that right.
Thank you for sharing! I will have to check them out, I am not familiar!
melatonin gives me night terrors! It's pretty common, sadly.
Castor oil packs helped me with blocked fallopian tube with I was TTC. They work really well for some people in their journey to increase blood flow to uterus, not sure if this is something you ever looked into, tried, or ruled out.
Thanks for sharing!
Talk to myself all the time and I'm only a wanna be TH-camr haha!!
lol!
Melatonin gives me the weirdest dreams.
YESSS
I’m meaning this is a very cautious way… please don’t trust any child always hide ur medications .. watching u for years.. maybe put those in a front open locked box????
Thank you for your concern! 🤍