Your mistakes aways get noticed your sadness never, people tell you to put on a smile but it feels like it's fake, blood and cuts make you feel sane like your living, people think your an idiot and don't trust you and blame everything on you Bless the people who lost the people who didn't survive because your so much more you have friends and people who care about you please self harming is not the answer But for me it is
People say that depression is just a bunch of stupid fake emo people who want the attention. I can tell you it's not like that at all. I have depression and anxiety and Schizophrenia. I used to cut everyday. It made me feel like I could control what I felt. One day at school a person accidentally hit me with the edge of a book and it bled. I didn't even know about the blood until I was walking in the hall and my friend had to tell me. I thought because I had cut I was becoming stronger. Then one day a guy told me I was beautiful. Said my boyfriend was lucky to have me. I told him I didn't have a boyfriend and we started talking. He went through some of the same stuff. Now we are happy together. 7 month next month. We both stopped cutting. We are happy together. I hope this story proves there is still hope in this world.
Yeah ... That's the truth. Hum ... Sorry I can't speak english very well so I can't tell you what I feel now. Congratulation for you and your boyfriend. I hope you are happy now. Continue like this ! (sorry again for my bad english :/)
Loyal Darkness I have depression and i’m only 11 i have a constant pain in my chest and instead of using a knife i use a mechanical pencil i scrape myself until i bleed so what is the best way to stop it. I cant have a boyfriend and no boy in my school likes me
It proves that your life was living and that there is something for you. for me on the other hand that is impossible due to the fact that no one loves me. no one wants to spend their life with a dumbass, piece of shit like me.
@@savannahholmes6145 I too had a severe depression, it lasted like five years... And even if I don't know what is the "best" way to stop this, I would like tell you what worked for me : from the moment I became aware of the emotional state I was in and of what I was doing (and I think you are aware of your situation too), I managed to stay as often as possible away from any open window or sharp object. Quitting even using knives during meals because it gave me too many bad ideas. I do not really remember how long I held like that, but over time, I finally get used to it, and no longer touch it ... (Besides today I'm afraid of sharp objects, it is ironical). Today I'm only 16, and even if I'm not "in depression" anymore since two years, I totally understand and remember perfectly what it feels like. So I send you all my support. And if you want to talk about it, you can, because many people (including me) have experienced this kind of thing, and I think it's important to know that you're not alone. (Just, I'm sorry for my very very bad english, I'm french and I used Google translator for some sentences... Hope I made as few errors as possible !) Courage and support to you, I repeat, you're not alone. Bye :)
Thank you for sharing your story I cut but I'm so fat and ugly. So this means i dont have a boyfriend I've always told myself that once i become skinny and pretty then someone will look at me that way.My parents try to avoid the issue and tell me that I'm okay and then they ask why I'm always in my room so I always prau for someone to kill me or to just take me and so I cut myself with one of my friends. I feel great I started now doing drugs so i hope someone can be happy because of me but even if its not that i hope i die
I forgot about this song! This used to be what I listened to all the time when I was trapped in complete darkness. Wow. This brings back some dark memories
She paints a pretty picture, But the story has a twist. Her paint brush is her razor, And her canvas is her wrist. She paints a pretty picture, In a colour that's blood red. While using her sharp paint brush, She ends up finally dead. Her pretty pictures fading, Quite slowly on her arm. The blood is not racing through her, She can no longer do harm. She painted her pretty picture, But her picture had a twist. You see her mind was her razor. And her heart was her wrist.
Okay so since I've seen so many people commenting similar things, I guess I'll join in. I was a cutter. It just gave me a relaxing feeling, like all my worries and fears were trapped under my skin, and when I cut it open, they flowed out. Sure, it hurt, but that wasn't my concern at the time. My mom found out, and shit went down. Since a few of my other friends cut too, she thought it was a trend, and that I needed help. The thing is, I knew I needed help but I refused it, unless it was from my friends. I'm still a self-harmer, But I don't cut as a way of self-harm, and I'm anorexic and bulimic, and I have severe depression, along with a bunch of other disorders. The biggest mistake I made was pushing people away, even though I knew I actually wanted them to support me. I know the pain that depression has, and I'm always open to talk. I'm actually helping my best friend through depression, even though people say she's a lost cause, and it's no use helping her. Just don't give up. You're not alone. And remember, someone will always care.
Ok... Alot of you down in the comments are talking about this cutting. Let me put this in both sides of the story, the one who is watching and the one who is doing. If someone cuts it's because something emotionally drove them to the point to bend and break, Like a plastic spoon. If you keep bending it it will eventually break but the break I am talking about is the emotional soul. When this happenes the person is very vulnerable at this point. They may go into "Society Laws" Meaning if you have difficulties you cut, everyone had seen this. But if you think about it, if you never saw someone cut you wouldn't do it. This is comparing to shave, in "Society Laws" the woman have to shave while the men can be hairy wherever they please.( of course ppl prefer other things then most like men shave their legs or wax their chest) but if you think about it. If these Society Laws were not there then the men would not have a damn problem with hairy woman, going back to the main topic. Many people who cut may or may not think is can solve a problem. Now if you are cutting is indeed the spoon snapped into two, but like a spoon broke you can always fix it, it wont be the same. I only share this because I was once the person who didn't understand why ppl cut until my spoon snapped. I'm not trying to give you my sappy sorry or want you to be sorry for me but I just want you all to know the real reasons of why people cut. It's not a joking matter and is not to be taken lightly. If you did take the time to read this then I appreciate it.
+Derpypies 4205 I answer because this is just so true... I was in a very deep depression, so I search horrible things on google and discover ( I knew that before, but I really realized this a this moment ) some people were cutting themselves to feel better... So I was thinking that maybe if all the people who were like me were doing this, I had to do this too... So I cut myself... What you say is just so true, because even if that made me feel better I thought I was the only one to begin because others were doing this... Thanks :)
I've been listening to this song for months.. And I'm still wondering why there are 272 dislikes.. edit: ayo this was such a weird comment that i made when i was like 9. don't be so judgmental, people can dislike a song if they want to. cheers!
I find this song to have metaphorical meaning. Though everyone can find their own meaning to any song. But personally I take it metaphorically. Words can cut deeper than any blade. I was verbally abused and I have a lot of things that I keep hidden. I can't really make the point I'm trying to make since I'm not even quite sure what my point is XD But anyway, I adore this song and personally don't think it's about cutting
I feel the same way. It's beautiful how you find alternate messages in songs. It is a beautiful gift to truly love musk and see further into a song than just its lyrics
+Tank Elric I don't really agree... In my opinion, everyone has their own parameter of pain. That means they can only comprehend what they have experienced, and there are always something on the top that hurts the most - be it that either your cheated upon, or someone you loved deeply is lost - I think everything hurts "the most". And I'm not saying it's the absolute truth or anything like that - but I just wanted to share it.
I am just flipping through Nightcore songs and I am coming back to the songs that me and my friends should listen to like 3 yrs ago... Brings back good memories... Thank you Nightcore...
there once was a girl with the perfect life then when she went home one day she found a knife her arm said yes but her heart said no if only people would have understood her sorrow see the girl had a mask a mask so beautiful and strong so she wore that mask to hide what was weak and wrong i know this girl because she was my best friend she could not understand what she did wrong so she picked up the knife and thought of doing what felt like home her life was never nice, see the mask took over and did what it was meant to hide all what was wrong because she was told to i know this girl because she was my heart most people did not understand where to find the key everyone thought she was crazy but this was their doing if only she could turn back time and start from the beginning i know this girl she was powerful and strong this girl knew who she was but bullies got the best of her and made her weak and do things wrong i know this girl.. this girl is me
It's insane how many people can actually relate to this. It's so sad what society has done to so many of us. But please guys: don't cut yourself. It doesn't really helps, it cause more problems instead. Just wanted to say that, Keep your heads up guys:)
I'm not a stranger No I am yours With crippled anger And tears that still drip sore A fragile frame aged With misery And when our eyes meet I know you see I do not want to be afraid I do not want to die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb Relief exists I find it when I am cut I may seem crazy Or painfully shy And these scars wouldn't be so hidden If you would just look me in the eye I feel alone here and cold here Though I don't want to die But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside I do not want to be afraid I do not want to die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb Relief exists I find it when I am cut Pain I am not alone I am not alone I'm not a stranger No I am yours With crippled anger And tears that still drip sore But I do not want to be afraid I do not want to die inside just to breathe in I'm tired of feeling so numb Relief exists I found it when I was cut
+Hatsune Miku this song is so beautiful. it really gets to me every time. the meaning behind it is amazing. it makes me cry, though i find it so beautiful and meaningful.
Okay seriously guys. Who are we -people who haven't fallen that deep into depression- to say what a person can and cannot do to their own body? Like shut the hell up! Music says something about ones personality. Since we are all listening to this, this means that the lyrics or the soft melody has something to do with our current situation. We are listening to a song that is titled "Cut" what the hell did you expect to read in the comment-section? Comments about flying ponies?!
The point is, we are all concerned for these users as self harm isn’t a healthy coping mechanism. It’s hard to stop once you start, and we know that, but all we want is the best for other people. Self harm shouldn’t be something someone resorts to because they deserve better. They deserve a pain free life where they can be happy and no longer shackled by the addiction, the need for pain.
not all emos are cutters and not cutters are emo in fact the two subjects don't even have any thing to do with each other self harming has been around a lot longer then the emo style. emo stands for emotional and has became a style as well so...ok then *backs out of room watching my back* '(^.^)
I didn’t exactly search up the real definition of emo but I’d say it’s an emotional person who acts like they don’t give a damn anymore. I heard most emo’s like the color black and wear it most the time. Also, my friend when she was in 4th grade was “emo.” No she wasn’t, she was pretending to be emo.
Please stop saying things like "Cutting doesn't help" or "It's stupid" because whoever is saying that, most likely hasn't. And if you have and you're saying that, you probably just see that now. For some people it's the only thing that helps, as much as it may seem emo or idiotic to you.
But, cutting isn't a good, healthy way to deal with problems. And cutting is 'stupid', because it doesn't solve anything. However, I don't blame those who does it or call them stupid, because they're desperate for help, care, and love, and has unfortunately turnt to cutting because of that - but cutting itself is wrong, although no one's some 'pathetic emo kid' if one uses it as a way to cope. Hurting yourself shouldn't feel like the last solution to cope with your problems.
I don't mean to be rude but can you all just SHUT UP. I understand what you're trying to say but say it more gently because a lot of people think that cutting is helping. When you say it's stupid or you are an idiot, it's actually going to make them cut more. They might accidentally kill themselves. I am NOT saying that you should ignore a person cutting. I'm just do it in a more gentle tone and give reasons as to why cutting is bad. Just don't give them your opinion or else they will say things like "So? That's your opinion and I don't care about your opinion!" or "Thousands of people would disagree with you, me included."
I havent listened to this song in more than 5 years and honestly this and looking back at all the careless days and gaming with my friends brought me to tears :,)
My brother committed suicide, my parents got divorced and I moved 3 times when I was 12 and I told myself 3 things I can't bring him back I can't change the past crying about it is just going to make me sadder but when things are sad they always can get better it's your choice and because of the things that have happened to me I've become stronger. No matter what you're going through you're not alone.
i found this song three years ago. this exact video. i remember how empty it made me feel, knowing that this was me - this was my life. i felt useless, a burden to my family & ultimately a failure. for years i would constantly come back to this song to trigger myself as a punishment, time after time, cut after cut. i can proudly say that this is the first time in three years i have come to this video not to punish myself, but to say goodbye. goodbye to all the pain and suffering. i finally have meds that work. i have a goal in life, something to be passionate about. my family continue to support me & show me unconditional love. i’m finally letting go of the misery. so i figured i’d say goodbye. i hope i don’t come back here. and too all those who are struggling, it gets better. i know that sounds like bs to you right now, i’ve been in your shoes. i know how it feels to not want to be here anymore. but the pain will end and you will find peace within yourself. i wish everyone all the best. goodbye.
Some time ago I would wonder the same thing... Now that I looked around me better, I found a person that is there for me when others aren't. What I mean is that even if it is hard, and I know it hurts a lot try to find this one person that makes you happy and ignore the ones who hurt you. This is my advice.I know it is hard but try. Good Luck and I hope you find friends that worth your time and attention have a nice day
This song resonates deeply with me. I’m not one who cuts, but I was close to someone who did for years. If I could take all that hurts, and make it go away, I would. You are worth it, you deserve to be happy, and to have someone that holds you tight when you feel bad.
i cut.. people say its better to say it to a close friend, but i find cutting...well it might hurt but it lets out everything..i hate about myself, i cry myself to sleep, a guy broke my heart, i cut cause i'm inseure about myself..people call me fat and ugly..and this song explains alot
+Flowey The Flower I am a cutter an your comment does not make me feel good...or make me want to stop. You came off more as rude and frustrated instead of supportive and constructive or whatever...
Naivety. Have you ever been so depressed that you actually want to harm yourself, to rid of yourself. I am not cutter, I have never been depressed. Yet, am I rude to those who cut? No, I support them. I would assume that most cutters don't want to live on this earth. You know why more and more people are cutting? It's because of our society, and people like you who are making cutters feel even worse about themselves. So please, stop commenting things like that to cutters if you have never been in their position.
+Miya_TheLittleBlueMaiden みやテューバべ at least you have the strength to actually hurt yourself. I'm so pathetic I can't even bring myself to be harmed because I'm so afraid.
+Flowey The Flower you know why we cutters cut..? Cause of the society, have you even felt what i have felt..? Your comment didnt come off as helpful it came off as hurtful, dont you know i get slapped by my so called "friends" at times..? My bestfriend helps me, i am not alone at times, but it helps me to seem stronger, i dont want to be afraid anymore, i cry myself to sleep, its hard being a human being if people judge you
+Flowey The Flower yes some people have commuted suicide, and yet why, depression, and the hurtful words of society, dont u call cutting stupid, it helps some people take out their anger on themselves, i do take pride that i am alive, i slowly lose pride cause suicidal people are angels that wanna go home, its not my fault society takes their anger all out on me, i dont like being hurt by society, do you..? I do not wanna die inside nor outside, but society drives people to cut or commit suicide, those hurtful stuff society says it hurts people who is sensitive, people who is afraid to get hurt by simple things, people who cry themselves to sleep, people who doesnt want their parents to know they are dying inside, people who think of others than themselves, people who are afraid to love, people who are depressed knows how this feels, i was almost anorexic cause people tell me that i'm fat, people hurt people by the most simplest words,
First time I heard this version of the song, my self harming was getting much worse due to school as well more fricking issues. I was just listening to youtube while doing homework. This song had been next, I just began crying for a few hours as the song remained in my head. It reminded me of when it first started to how worse it was getting. Of how some 'friends' told me that if I didn't stop hurting myself they would leave me and hate me. How my family was disappointed in me. I still am struggling with it, as it just is what has been my solution my mind goes to that instantly with anything going on in my head or around me even. I am a few hours clean sadly...I am sorry for writing this;;; buh bai, be safe and have a nice week
Enzo Cambauva Vieira Alot of this depends on how a person was raised. What moral values they learned or didn't learn. Rape is generally seen about control, but it can be about blind or misguided lust. Generally rape happens when a person is in the friendzone so to speak. With someone they like but that person doesn't return the feelings and never will. And then there's incest where its all just lust gone wild. I agree people know its wrong, they just aren't equipped to deal with just how wrong it really is.
I remember listening to this song on repeat, crying quietly in bed from the age of 12 up until 17. Listening to this song now at 21 makes me feel sad for my younger self. If anyone reads this just know things gets better, life won't be the same forever, there's genuinely a light at the end of the tunnel
I think the real reason people make fun of people with suicidal thoughts is because they just don't understand and when someone doesn't understand something usually trhey get frustrated by it,I'm assuming from personal experiences
Depends on where you are. I joke about it to hide that it is no joke for me, but i hate it when others joke about it, because they often/normally have no idea how it is
Ahh this takes me back to my 6th grade year. Everything was blocked on our iPads including TH-cam. But kids told eachother secret sites and this song was on it. I Discovered it on there. Im glad that happened.
Listen to the song.... "I am not alone..." You are not alone, don't cut yourself, I'm sorry for what has happened in your life. Just remember please remember for me.... Your beautiful and your life is a gift not a piece of trash, after suffering for so long you will get happiness so hold on for me please...
I love the vocals in this song but what I love the most is the massage in this song YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Please remember that, if you listen because your loved one has died or are abused anyway-physically, mentally, emotionally- anyway, you are not alone, there is someone else suffering with you. Some times you are lucky to have them close to you but most times you are alone in that time of pain. Please remember to be strong because they are still here. No one can see your scars but you but you have to wear them like a badge of honour saying you got through it, that you are ready to take the world head on. Stand up and put that beautiful smile on you face because you ARE gorgeous in every way possible. If you have a prob please talk to me because I am here. I am not gonna give u shit and say stop when I know you have to choose on your own cuz cutting is sometimes the strongest thing to do.i know because I am not those people who think everyone's life is perfect because theirs is. I have gone through my problems, I think they are big but compared to yours it might be minuscule. If you have suffered, help another please. If you are suffering, tell someone who is with you and you trust. If you are causing suffrage, you are the dirtiest filth in the world, not worth my time cuz you are worse that the worms under OUR feet. I don't consider you as a human. If you are having problems so to get rid of them, you cause pain. JUST THINK!!! What are you doing? They are suffering because of you, what if they already have problems at him, huh? Just stop it and please tell people to stop cuz I know people can just watch it and walk, and I don't think that is humane. I am not saying this to be religious so those of you who go spout under here to do it for god. Go away. Because this is for humanity to survive, to live on and not go on wars and depend rage. PLEASE. I beg of you. Help those in need because although not in blood, they are you sister/bother as a specie. Please...
don't be scared any of you. There is a phrase ' Remember always to be true, as true and honest as the person I KNOW you are. If you do that, you'll shine brighter than any diamond that has been specifically cut and designed to shine because you are not shaped, you are You. And you are beautiful.
So, I know you may not get the chance to respond to this comment but I want to personally thank you. This song, as well as your adaptation of 'Nobodies Home', took me through a very lonely and rough time a few years back during 2015. I was never much of a youtube addicted person, but when that time period came around I had to find something to help vent what was going on. Your videos were one of the few that helped me with that. Thank you so much, it was something I really needed.
Currently not depressed because I have mania. But I know the depression will come back so I relate to the song, sadly. All I want to say is this nightcore is beautiful and I hope everyone in the comments will hold on for a while a longer and hopefully get the chance to enjoy life. ❤😊
This comment is late, but I'm currently 3 years clean. Listening to this song kinda makes me feel good. It makes me think of how far I've come and how I've managed to survive a very dark place. Not that anyone will see this, but just tossing it out here.
Guys I made it, I was here listening to this song for a very long time, suicidal and depressed as I can be But now I'm better, of course life cat be perfect or easy but since I made it I believe in you too I'm writing this comment here because I know what it's like listening to this song and what you feel So please believe in yourself There are so many precious people that just want to die But I don't want to let that happen
Everyone is commenting about depression and suicidal thoughts and their problems.. I want to be able to say my problems.. but my body never let's me.. It always makes me bottle up my feelings. No matter what. So.. I can't. Welp.
Kayla Warriorcat I want to tell my parents, but I know how they'll react, and my best friend for 4 years will leave me.. She's already been through it last year with some other girl.. I just don't think she'll want to deal with me.
If you never take that chance, you'll never know. Clouding your minds with the thoughts of what could happen, is just so easy. The hard part? Taking that much, much tinier step. As time passes by, those clouds only multiply, until a single ray cuts through them. It only takes that one ray to split apart the skies. Take that step. Take that chance. Let light fill the gloom.
This song made me cry. I feel bad for anybody who has to go through that. And sadly for anybody who causes it is the one who wants attention not the victim.
I hope the people who are saying everyone in the comments are “edgy” “attention seeking” etc. never have to go through depression, anxiety, self harm, etc. it’s not fun...
I've been depressed for 6 years. My parents despise me and wants to put me up for adoption. I get bullied everyday, even by strangers on the streets. I've cried so much. But yet, why would there be a reason to get a permanent scar on yourself for no reason. Hurting yourself may help for a temporary problem. But even I can think logically. I've restrained myself countless times to suicide or cut myself. All I've wanted is for people to accept me or some people who has enough courage to support me. Even now I'm tearing up. My parents abused me when I was younger, they hit me with some stick and discipline me if I talked back at them. Because of this, I've become quiet. I've never told anyone this and I just needed to relieve myself. I'm sorry for being a burden.
You're not a burden for anyone, and if someone thinks so, than he's an idiot. You just have to wait for the right people making the change, but until then, just don't give up. They will come. And then everything is different. I don't know much about your situation and I'm sorry if I interpret this wrong, but maybe it isn't that bad at all to get away from your parents and your old life so you can start over again. Maybe you will find there the things you are needing.
To everyone, not those who just cut, but everyone. Cutting won't give you anything and trust me, it won't only hurt you but the people around you. The thought of cutting itself disgusts me so much. I thought of cutting once but then, once, twice and it becomes your addiction. If it wasn't for my senses to come back, I would've been addicted. You cut because you're alone, bullied, abused, anything the reason might be, but you're hurting yourself more and more. There are people who care for you, I bet that even if you don't know, you have someone whose behind you. I don't know how many of you noticed, but there's always a light in your heart that'll glow for the one. EVERYONE has a happy ending, who cares if someone is with you or not during that moment? I don't. At least, I had a happy ending. I'm sick and bored of my life, like any other normal schooler but I respect the fact that I get to live. I've thought of killing myself and reincarnating and all the shit, NOPE, you don't know what will happen. You need to believe in yourself and the people around you, trust, love, care. If you aren't able to fit in, the fault isn't anybody else's, it's YOURS. Involve yourself and make friends. Keep smiling because one smile is the reason of thousands. Stand up for yourself at all times, put yourself first. Even if we're told to care for others, first look at yourself and then the others. It should be "I" and then "YOU". "When you self harm, here are the things you can NEVER do like you used to: 1. Feel pretty inside. 2. Feel normal. 3. Have confidence. 4. Smile. 5. Can't feel the same ever again." (Quote taken from Pinterest) Why? Because you wasted that one chance of enjoying, smiling, running, falling, being broken, crying, getting up, hugging, kissing, laughing, making friends, LIVING.
This is not all too helpful. For someone who is depressed and hates themselves so much they even cut, this comment will just sound like another "It's your fault". I don't care if that was your intention or not, it comes off like that and that's the point.
Since everybody is sharing their story: Hi , im Barbara. Im 11 , most likely have social anxiety Im suicidal 2 failed overdoses I cut too But im not giving up , and i can feel myself get better day by day My father and i dont get along most of the time ,he gets angry alot over little things like someone forgetting just a single thing. Im a bit too fat for my age , and that really makes me feel worse still. I find comfort in music and 'bad' weather. Bands understand me. My classmates make me feel horrible , they dont intend to , but they do. Their humor is insulting eachother My mother knows about my cutting and my teacher about me being depressed. Each day i smile when i feel hell and just want to break down on the spot. Ive gone trough two types of therapy -For me being antisocial (as in too much , my social skills are okay now) -for a horror movie , which we had to stop eventually due to a lack of communication. So i live in fear of anything everyone is just like: why would you be scared of that?!?!?!? There are alot of people who accept this. But a girl in my tent with scouting camp , put her teddybear to my face when i was sleeping , and when i woke up i basically screamed and such. People tend to tell me alot of horror stories too , and that makes me cry out of fear. My life is sh*t but i keep holding on And i want you guys to hold on with me Suicde does not end the possibillities of it getting worse , it eliminates the possibillity of it getting better ~ Vic Fuentes
Barbara Wesseling I'm glad your seeing the positive instead of other kids your age just posting pictures of their cuts on Tumblr. I wish you the best and hope things get better :)
Barbara, I am the shyest person you'll ever meet. I don't have much confidence in myself. But I can try to help you... Try smiling as you leave for school, try at least to make your way to the groups of students, react, ignore them. I believe you can do it, that's how I got friends. -Mackenzie
Eva Sonntag hey my name is diana i always go through pain from my parents and i wait for that day im tired of waiting i want the pain of is cutters to end
Some people just don’t like Nightcore. Personally, I have as close to a perfect life as one could imagine, but I attempted suicide a few weeks back because the concept of death and how we never know when it will happen, and the anxiety as we wait for it is scary, and I couldn’t take it. I’ve had these thoughts since I was young, but never acted on them until recently. I’ve met people with perfect lives who understand and are willing to be there for you. They aren’t in their own world.
The picture that goes with the song look like me about every other day. Crying while covered in paint from working in my mother's studio. The song makes me shed a few tears tho....
Think Life is hard? Cutting won't make it any better. I know you hate hearing things like this, but people only say it because they care. -I love my life, but I hate what others choose to do with theirs- Let me tell you a story, a story of a girl. She started off normal. Her family, they all looked after each other. Her mom and dad had gotten married, but she hadn't remembered much of it. Just things like dancing with her mother, she was about four years old at that point. Time went by, a few years. Her parents weren't getting a long. One of the only memories left of them together, fighting. Her dad was trying to reason things out, but she didn't understand why they couldn't get a long, why they weren't happy anymore. Another year or so went by, and they moved. They thought it would get them on a clean line again, but the fighting only got worse. One day, her mom and dad had a huge fight, and their dad left, promising to come back. Later on, the girls' mom ended up moving, her dad moved back into the house. She didn't understand anything. "Why don't they get a long? Why can't my mommy and daddy just be happy and live together again?" constantly ran through her head. Her dad and mom went their separate ways. Mom, got a new boyfriend. Dad, he got another girlfrind. The little girls' dad, still loved her mother, she knew that, but when she asked her mom if she still loved her dad "I'll always love him, just not in the same way" was her mothers reply. "Not in the same way" Isn't love just love? She thought. Many of her mom's boyfriends were agressive. But, the little girl wasn't alone, I guess I forgot to mention, she had one friend, a cat, his name was midnight. Whenever she had spare time, she would spend it with her bestfriend, midnight. Well, the girl's mom had a boyfriend, he was pretty agressive. When they moved out, she couldn't take Midnight. Her mom told the little girl that they would return, but they never did. The little girl went to school, one day at school, her mom's ex boyfriends kid told her that they had hit her cat on the road.. She was heart broken, all those years. She had already lost her dog, from heart attack. After some time, the little girl decoded the only one she would allow to be her true best friend, was her mom. Did she have friends at school? Of coarse, but they were all a bit, well lets just say back stabbing. Her dad had been through plenty of girlfriends. Her mom had been through plenty of boyfriends. The girls' mom finally was in a stable relationship. He had three sons, that would still be a part of the girls' life to this day. Did the girl have siblings? Yes, at this point in time she would have two blood brothers and one sister. Only one of her blood brothers lived with her at the time. They moved together in a big house out in the country. The girl loved it there, she thought that her mom would finally be happy. Every other weekend, the girl would go to her dad's house. It was fathers day, so the girl gladly went to stay with her dad for the weekend. A few days had past, the girl wondered why she hadn't went back to her mom's house yet, or even to school. The girls' dad had her sit in the living room, he said he needed to tell her something. She did what she was told. Her dad sat infront of her, and spoke. "I know this world is unfair, and sometimes things happen, that we can't control.." the girls' dad had a sorrow quiver in his voice. "What's wrong?" the girl asked her father. "Your mom is really sick, she's in the hospital and they don't think she's going to get better." Instantly, the girl started to sob, she started to scream even. Her dad started to cry. He left the room, giving the girl some time. She continued to sob throughout the day. "What about my brothers?" she wondered. They ended up going to the hospital to see her, but the little girl didn't know it would be her last time with her mom. Her mother was in some sort of coma, so she couldn't talk. The doctor said that her mom had a stroke, and could only hear us, but not feel much or even open her eyes to see. Not even being christian at the time, she even prayed to a god, that she didn't even believe in. About three days had past, she got the news that her mom had died. The funeral, it was painful to even show up. She wasn't sure what to do with her life anymore. She didn't get to see her mom's boyfriend's kids very much anymore. Her life was torn. She became depressed for a while, but it faded away once she had a computer and internet. It basicly became her life. Sad, right? But I guess we all have a moment in life when we can't take it anymore. The only one she really had anymore was her oldest blood brother. She was drug into things that no other kid her age should've had to deal with. But for that reason, she understands a lot, more then people twice her age would understand. Her dad finally got another girlfriend, but they ended up losing their house. Her and her sister both had to move in with their grandparents. At the time, she was always getting bullied at school, they didn't understand how much she was already going through. Her family started blaming her dad, acusing her of being.. well not normal. They got angry at him, and started to tell him not to let me watch anime, take the internet away and the music she likes to listen too. They just didn't understand. She was always getting yelled at for everything, which only made the cutting worse. Once, she was even thought about overdosing. After a while, she had another brother, who she loves dearly. She also ended up having another brother, well, he hasn't been born yet.. Life started to look up a bit. She got to see her brothers at school. Although she doesn't get to see her blood brothers very often, she still stayed in life's game. She is even going to move soon, going to another school and getting to start fresh. She doesn't cut anymore, how you ask? She just had to start letting the little things make her happy. Always telling herself, "someone always has it worse" and that's the truth. If you couldn't already tell, that little girl is me. I had to leave out a lot for personal reasons. There is still so much that I won't share. But anyone could be reading this, so.. you should understand at least that much. So just remember, you're not the only one going through things you shouldn't have to. Life is hell's playground. It is, indeed unfair, but you shouldn't give up! Follow your heart, I promise things will get better. You just have to try your best to stay positive and ignore those who won't accept you for who you are. And, it's okay to cry. I still cry about my mom. She was my bestfriend. I know it sounds stupid.. but unlike anyone else, I could say anything to her, she would not only listen, but understand and care, keep it a secret. I guess the only thing there is left to say, is thank *you* for listening! Yes, you just listened to my life's story. I hope this helped, even the slightest. If I can't help anyone in this sick place, then my life would have been wasted. I finally know what I want to do with my life, I'm going to change the world, and help those who need helped. Even if things might seem impossible, just do what you want to with your life. It's your life, and if people won't accept you, like I said, just ignore them. -Thank You.-
Daniel Ciernioch I'm fine. Like I said, there is always someone who has it worse! Trying to stay positive. Something I can also add in, I lost a close friend today. She didn't even tell me why she didn't want to be friends anymore. "If someone won't accept you, they aren't your trouble" I'm not sure what I did.. But you can only learn from other's mistakes. If she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, it's her loss.
A Cute Skittle well thats sad, in my opinion if she just quits being freinds with you it cant be real freindship i mean: good freinds hold together ps: you can learn fom your own mistakes real freinds are rare
I used to cut my self but i have stoped and it it so hard for me not to cut and harm myself those poeple who do cut there self i feel there pain it hard to stop.....
Everything will b- ok you know what? I'm going to give you a little slice of reality right now sweetheart. If hard. Its so fucking hard to stop. But if you cave in and let it take you over. I promise you, you will regret it. The way I stop is remembering my mothers fave when she found out...damn you teacher. But I caved once. I went 3 1/2 months without cutting, bit then...I was home alone, with a pencil sharpener and a screwdriver, and I started to hyperventilate...then, all those months, waisted because I was to week. Its not worth it. I promise you. It's not
So I could tell you "oh everything will be ok" or " it will get better" no. That's all a bundle of lies and we know it. And I know you don't want to hear lies do you? Sometimes you want to feel like a piece of shit. So when your happy again you can say "wow. I got through that by myself" We all fall down, and that's ok
Yeah, it's really hard to stop. But! it's possible. I've cut myself since I was 11, I was 2 years in therapy and now (I'm 15 now btw xd) I'm clean for over 8 months and I don't even think about cutting myself anymore. I don't need to cut myself anymore, I'm fully recovered. It may seems useless to try because it's hell to try to stop but it's totally worth it. And at some point you will realize that you don't deserve this shit, nobody deserves to know how it feels like to cut themselves! I really hope that you will feel better soon and recover. It's a long way, but I'm pretty sure that you will make it. Believe in yourself and keep your head up, always remember that you don't deserve this shit. Try to love yourself, even if it's hard. Just try it, that's more than enough. And if you relapse: It's not a shame. It's normal. That can happen but don't let that pull you down! Just try it again and belive that you will make it! Stay Strong
You guys ate so sweet. This girl is my bestfriend and i really hope she get your message... I saw her crying a lot at school but shes more positive now that weve gotten rid of some negative things (aka frienemy problems) thanks for trying to help her
Do not waste your time reading this,this are only my thoughts Comments here are inspirational and long that i did'nt have the time to read them,these comments are too good for me too read,others talk about there experience with depression,it helps others but it adds more pain to me my mask is so strong its glued into my face,my tears won't come out,am i really that weak?,i can't even let my tear out *im fine*
I was bullied for 13years of my life and I started cutting when I was 9 and no one knew and they always say im worthless I couldn't fight back I just sat there letting them hit me punch me and abuse me I couldn't stand up for my self I just wanted to die last year I tried to hang myself but my sister found me before I could even do it and she said that she couldn't live without me but I asked her why are you and my other sister so spoiled and all I am is invisible I told her I dont want to live anymore but she said that she could help and she took the rope away and told me im worth something and to never give up
Alexa 143 you know youre lucky my older sister beaten me up when I was young and made me so upset I almost ran away but she still didn't like anyone else beating me up still I almost wanted to pretend it was a nightmare and I wold wake up with her being nice.
Reagaar Umm, excuse me? I'm trying to help people. And you might think so, but making a sarcastic remark telling people to "do something productive in their lives" is not helpful at all.Believe it or not, some people actually would take offense to that.Seriously
Reagaar It takes a really long time to recover from depression. Not cutting is just one step. I'm sorry if you see my way of helping not helpful or useless, but that's no reason for a sarcastic comment
Medications help they don't make it go away or people wouldn't be required to go through therapy, you have change how you think, it's not just balancing brain chemicals
Reagaar Nope. You can't just develope one. And it's not genetic. Usually disorders like self harming, bulimia,anorexia, depression ect. Start when you have something sad on your mind. For example bullying, death of a relative ect. You now are one of those "bullies"
I love the song..... hate what it's about. The concept of "Cutting" is painful. Not for the doer only but the people who do care. The people who have even the bit of light in their heart. Those cuts don't scar the cutter only, but the people around them. My heart has slashes from top to bottom and drenched in tears of bloody souls. Please stop. Look deep down and you'll find something. Something called "Hope" And live off of that until it fades from the world. That's what I choose, and I'm smiling. People, to everyone, smile to someone in need. All this crap might seem useless and I expect a lot of hate. After all, I use to believe that, but one smile and I pulled my friend out of a dark pit that she was drowning of blood in. Nina, if u see this, know I love u and u will forever be my twin. 8
i was sad and depressed and then go to youtube to cheer up but then this was on my suggestion and i cried listening to thish Q.Q
I hope u r doing alright now
Q.Q
Tbh we all need a good cry when depressed. I did the same thing tbh.
Your mistakes aways get noticed your sadness never, people tell you to put on a smile but it feels like it's fake, blood and cuts make you feel sane like your living, people think your an idiot and don't trust you and blame everything on you
Bless the people who lost the people who didn't survive because your so much more you have friends and people who care about you please self harming is not the answer
But for me it is
People say that depression is just a bunch of stupid fake emo people who want the attention. I can tell you it's not like that at all. I have depression and anxiety and Schizophrenia. I used to cut everyday. It made me feel like I could control what I felt. One day at school a person accidentally hit me with the edge of a book and it bled. I didn't even know about the blood until I was walking in the hall and my friend had to tell me. I thought because I had cut I was becoming stronger. Then one day a guy told me I was beautiful. Said my boyfriend was lucky to have me. I told him I didn't have a boyfriend and we started talking. He went through some of the same stuff. Now we are happy together. 7 month next month. We both stopped cutting. We are happy together. I hope this story proves there is still hope in this world.
Yeah ... That's the truth. Hum ... Sorry I can't speak english very well so I can't tell you what I feel now. Congratulation for you and your boyfriend. I hope you are happy now.
Continue like this !
(sorry again for my bad english :/)
Loyal Darkness I have depression and i’m only 11 i have a constant pain in my chest and instead of using a knife i use a mechanical pencil i scrape myself until i bleed so what is the best way to stop it. I cant have a boyfriend and no boy in my school likes me
It proves that your life was living and that there is something for you. for me on the other hand that is impossible due to the fact that no one loves me. no one wants to spend their life with a dumbass, piece of shit like me.
@@savannahholmes6145 I too had a severe depression, it lasted like five years... And even if I don't know what is the "best" way to stop this, I would like tell you what worked for me : from the moment I became aware of the emotional state I was in and of what I was doing (and I think you are aware of your situation too), I managed to stay as often as possible away from any open window or sharp object. Quitting even using knives during meals because it gave me too many bad ideas. I do not really remember how long I held like that, but over time, I finally get used to it, and no longer touch it ... (Besides today I'm afraid of sharp objects, it is ironical).
Today I'm only 16, and even if I'm not "in depression" anymore since two years, I totally understand and remember perfectly what it feels like. So I send you all my support. And if you want to talk about it, you can, because many people (including me) have experienced this kind of thing, and I think it's important to know that you're not alone.
(Just, I'm sorry for my very very bad english, I'm french and I used Google translator for some sentences... Hope I made as few errors as possible !)
Courage and support to you, I repeat, you're not alone.
Bye :)
Thank you for sharing your story I cut but I'm so fat and ugly. So this means i dont have a boyfriend I've always told myself that once i become skinny and pretty then someone will look at me that way.My parents try to avoid the issue and tell me that I'm okay and then they ask why I'm always in my room so I always prau for someone to kill me or to just take me and so I cut myself with one of my friends. I feel great I started now doing drugs so i hope someone can be happy because of me but even if its not that i hope i die
This nightcore version is amazing!! This song is one of my all time favorites!!
Same!
I forgot about this song! This used to be what I listened to all the time when I was trapped in complete darkness. Wow. This brings back some dark memories
Man I used to listen to this when I was on some sort of Minecraft livestream
She paints a pretty picture, But the story has a twist.
Her paint brush is her razor, And her canvas is her wrist.
She paints a pretty picture,
In a colour that's blood red.
While using her sharp paint brush,
She ends up finally dead.
Her pretty pictures fading, Quite slowly on her arm.
The blood is not racing through her,
She can no longer do harm.
She painted her pretty picture,
But her picture had a twist.
You see her mind was her razor.
And her heart was her wrist.
That Dere dammmnnn
That was on fucking point
wow, Im impressed. Im gonna save that. Not bad, son.
That Dere
Wow did you make this?
YouAnA-hole piss off
Okay so since I've seen so many people commenting similar things, I guess I'll join in.
I was a cutter. It just gave me a relaxing feeling, like all my worries and fears were trapped under my skin, and when I cut it open, they flowed out. Sure, it hurt, but that wasn't my concern at the time.
My mom found out, and shit went down. Since a few of my other friends cut too, she thought it was a trend, and that I needed help.
The thing is, I knew I needed help but I refused it, unless it was from my friends.
I'm still a self-harmer, But I don't cut as a way of self-harm, and I'm anorexic and bulimic, and I have severe depression, along with a bunch of other disorders.
The biggest mistake I made was pushing people away, even though I knew I actually wanted them to support me.
I know the pain that depression has, and I'm always open to talk.
I'm actually helping my best friend through depression, even though people say she's a lost cause, and it's no use helping her.
Just don't give up.
You're not alone.
And remember, someone will always care.
It's been 7 years... I hope things got better
Ok... Alot of you down in the comments are talking about this cutting. Let me put this in both sides of the story, the one who is watching and the one who is doing.
If someone cuts it's because something emotionally drove them to the point to bend and break, Like a plastic spoon. If you keep bending it it will eventually break but the break I am talking about is the emotional soul. When this happenes the person is very vulnerable at this point. They may go into "Society Laws" Meaning if you have difficulties you cut, everyone had seen this. But if you think about it, if you never saw someone cut you wouldn't do it.
This is comparing to shave, in "Society Laws" the woman have to shave while the men can be hairy wherever they please.( of course ppl prefer other things then most like men shave their legs or wax their chest) but if you think about it. If these Society Laws were not there then the men would not have a damn problem with hairy woman, going back to the main topic. Many people who cut may or may not think is can solve a problem.
Now if you are cutting is indeed the spoon snapped into two, but like a spoon broke you can always fix it, it wont be the same.
I only share this because I was once the person who didn't understand why ppl cut until my spoon snapped. I'm not trying to give you my sappy sorry or want you to be sorry for me but I just want you all to know the real reasons of why people cut. It's not a joking matter and is not to be taken lightly. If you did take the time to read this then I appreciate it.
+Derpypies 4205 yawn
So true
*claps* very good.......so true ;~;
+Derpypies 4205 I answer because this is just so true... I was in a very deep depression, so I search horrible things on google and discover ( I knew that before, but I really realized this a this moment ) some people were cutting themselves to feel better... So I was thinking that maybe if all the people who were like me were doing this, I had to do this too... So I cut myself... What you say is just so true, because even if that made me feel better I thought I was the only one to begin because others were doing this... Thanks :)
+Derpypies 4205 I must have you as a friend on Animal Jam... Please...
My life in one song
same
Same bud
Same
Same
Same I also "draw" even if it's difficult (not enough blood)
I get emotional when she says I am cut. I love that part
Yes same
I've been listening to this song for months.. And I'm still wondering why there are 272 dislikes..
edit: ayo this was such a weird comment that i made when i was like 9. don't be so judgmental, people can dislike a song if they want to. cheers!
294 now
298...
300
Oh no what have I done....
Right the song is too good for people just to hate!
I saw her in concert. she is absolutely amazing, literally was sobbing by the end of the show.
I find this song to have metaphorical meaning. Though everyone can find their own meaning to any song. But personally I take it metaphorically. Words can cut deeper than any blade. I was verbally abused and I have a lot of things that I keep hidden. I can't really make the point I'm trying to make since I'm not even quite sure what my point is XD But anyway, I adore this song and personally don't think it's about cutting
Art is subjective, after all.
I feel the same way. It's beautiful how you find alternate messages in songs. It is a beautiful gift to truly love musk and see further into a song than just its lyrics
+Rehono Tharp "oh my gaw i was verbally abused!" No one cares. Nothing is in comparison to actually getting beaten up
*****
Woah since when can you change it to where it's a Year vs a Day?
+Tank Elric I don't really agree... In my opinion, everyone has their own parameter of pain. That means they can only comprehend what they have experienced, and there are always something on the top that hurts the most - be it that either your cheated upon, or someone you loved deeply is lost - I think everything hurts "the most". And I'm not saying it's the absolute truth or anything like that - but I just wanted to share it.
I am just flipping through Nightcore songs and I am coming back to the songs that me and my friends should listen to like 3 yrs ago...
Brings back good memories...
Thank you Nightcore...
Same rn but it's been like 7 yrs for me the nostalgia hits DIFFERENT
THIS IS MY FAV SONG OF NightcoreReality :D
there once was a girl with the perfect life
then when she went home one day she found a knife
her arm said yes but her heart said no
if only people would have understood her sorrow
see the girl had a mask a mask so beautiful and strong
so she wore that mask to hide what was weak and wrong
i know this girl because she was my best friend
she could not understand what she did wrong
so she picked up the knife and thought of doing what felt like home
her life was never nice, see the mask took over and did what it was meant to
hide all what was wrong because she was told to
i know this girl because she was my heart
most people did not understand where to find the key
everyone thought she was crazy but this was their doing
if only she could turn back time and start from the beginning
i know this girl she was powerful and strong
this girl knew who she was but bullies got the best of her and made her weak and do things wrong
i know this girl.. this girl is me
Hey, if you ever need someone to talk to I am here for you
Imma pray for you and This probably doesn't help but...imma send you virtual hug🤗
I'm sorry, if that helps.
You cut yourself because of bullies come on
I got bullies too. I feel really angry with those stupid bitches.
It's insane how many people can actually relate to this. It's so sad what society has done to so many of us. But please guys: don't cut yourself. It doesn't really helps, it cause more problems instead. Just wanted to say that, Keep your heads up guys:)
People don't get the songs meaning. They go deep but the wrong way.
It isn't society, it's just me to think they're cool and pick a target. Funny thing is, it works. All of it works.
Sorry, text to speech isn't really reliable and trying to pick up my words
This is so beatiful...
I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you see
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone
I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut
+Hatsune Miku this song is so beautiful. it really gets to me every time. the meaning behind it is amazing. it makes me cry, though i find it so beautiful and meaningful.
Thx
Not to be rude but can I just say one thing... The lyrics are ok the screen 🙃
This song is like the window to my soul.
One of the first songs I heard from +NightcoreReality
Keep making awesomeness, this gives me a lot of nostalgia
Okay seriously guys. Who are we -people who haven't fallen that deep into depression- to say what a person can and cannot do to their own body? Like shut the hell up!
Music says something about ones personality. Since we are all listening to this, this means that the lyrics or the soft melody has something to do with our current situation.
We are listening to a song that is titled "Cut" what the hell did you expect to read in the comment-section? Comments about flying ponies?!
Ally 123 I was kinda hoping for something about flying ponies...
@@anonymouswritingonthewall8249 love your profile name
thanks, justb reading some of these makes me wanna die rn. Imma go cut rn.
The point is, we are all concerned for these users as self harm isn’t a healthy coping mechanism. It’s hard to stop once you start, and we know that, but all we want is the best for other people. Self harm shouldn’t be something someone resorts to because they deserve better. They deserve a pain free life where they can be happy and no longer shackled by the addiction, the need for pain.
Shut your feminist mouth up
not all emos are cutters and not cutters are emo in fact the two subjects don't even have any thing to do with each other self harming has been around a lot longer then the emo style. emo stands for emotional and has became a style as well so...ok then *backs out of room watching my back* '(^.^)
Emotional? I thought it was emotionless
@@haruko8526 no its emotive which means emotional lol
I didn’t exactly search up the real definition of emo but I’d say it’s an emotional person who acts like they don’t give a damn anymore. I heard most emo’s like the color black and wear it most the time. Also, my friend when she was in 4th grade was “emo.” No she wasn’t, she was pretending to be emo.
@@sharlivee actually emos and goths have nothing or to w eachother
Please stop saying things like "Cutting doesn't help" or "It's stupid" because whoever is saying that, most likely hasn't. And if you have and you're saying that, you probably just see that now. For some people it's the only thing that helps, as much as it may seem emo or idiotic to you.
But, cutting isn't a good, healthy way to deal with problems. And cutting is 'stupid', because it doesn't solve anything. However, I don't blame those who does it or call them stupid, because they're desperate for help, care, and love, and has unfortunately turnt to cutting because of that - but cutting itself is wrong, although no one's some 'pathetic emo kid' if one uses it as a way to cope. Hurting yourself shouldn't feel like the last solution to cope with your problems.
Sorry, my comment was for the original comment, not yours. I actually agree with your comment. Sorry it came off as if it was for you.
not alexa well, they're not wrong. Cutting is fucking pointless and that's coming from a former cutter. Don't be stupid.
i desperately hope for you that you're just a troll
I don't mean to be rude but can you all just SHUT UP. I understand what you're trying to say but say it more gently because a lot of people think that cutting is helping. When you say it's stupid or you are an idiot, it's actually going to make them cut more. They might accidentally kill themselves. I am NOT saying that you should ignore a person cutting. I'm just do it in a more gentle tone and give reasons as to why cutting is bad. Just don't give them your opinion or else they will say things like "So? That's your opinion and I don't care about your opinion!" or "Thousands of people would disagree with you, me included."
This exact song saved my life many many times.
This sent chills down my spine. The lyrics are just so amazing... "I am cut."
I havent listened to this song in more than 5 years and honestly this and looking back at all the careless days and gaming with my friends brought me to tears :,)
My brother committed suicide, my parents got divorced and I moved 3 times when I was 12 and I told myself 3 things I can't bring him back I can't change the past crying about it is just going to make me sadder but when things are sad they always can get better it's your choice and because of the things that have happened to me I've become stronger. No matter what you're going through you're not alone.
That must be hard on you good job on staying strong if it were me I would cry all day long
Im so sorry ;(
I feal only sorry for what happend ...
9 months clean 👆🏽💪🏼😊😌
Rosella Knight keep it that way
This is the first nightcore song to make me cry... I..I have no words.. amazing..
i found this song three years ago. this exact video. i remember how empty it made me feel, knowing that this was me - this was my life. i felt useless, a burden to my family & ultimately a failure. for years i would constantly come back to this song to trigger myself as a punishment, time after time, cut after cut.
i can proudly say that this is the first time in three years i have come to this video not to punish myself, but to say goodbye. goodbye to all the pain and suffering. i finally have meds that work. i have a goal in life, something to be passionate about. my family continue to support me & show me unconditional love. i’m finally letting go of the misery. so i figured i’d say goodbye. i hope i don’t come back here. and too all those who are struggling, it gets better. i know that sounds like bs to you right now, i’ve been in your shoes. i know how it feels to not want to be here anymore. but the pain will end and you will find peace within yourself. i wish everyone all the best.
goodbye.
Maybe you will come back, since it's a pretty decent song. And, this is the 1st comment that I feel like I shouldn't be an asshole about. Thank you
Happy for you! Congrats.
I wonder what it would be like to have friends.
That's a really really good question...........
Want one?
Lucas.norberg2
I would be your friend.
Same...
same. everyone hates me
Some time ago I would wonder the same thing... Now that I looked around me better, I found a person that is there for me when others aren't. What I mean is that even if it is hard, and I know it hurts a lot try to find this one person that makes you happy and ignore the ones who hurt you.
This is my advice.I know it is hard but try.
Good Luck and I hope you find friends that worth your time and attention
have a nice day
This song resonates deeply with me. I’m not one who cuts, but I was close to someone who did for years. If I could take all that hurts, and make it go away, I would. You are worth it, you deserve to be happy, and to have someone that holds you tight when you feel bad.
i cut.. people say its better to say it to a close friend, but i find cutting...well it might hurt but it lets out everything..i hate about myself, i cry myself to sleep, a guy broke my heart, i cut cause i'm inseure about myself..people call me fat and ugly..and this song explains alot
+Flowey The Flower I am a cutter an your comment does not make me feel good...or make me want to stop. You came off more as rude and frustrated instead of supportive and constructive or whatever...
Naivety. Have you ever been so depressed that you actually want to harm yourself, to rid of yourself. I am not cutter, I have never been depressed. Yet, am I rude to those who cut? No, I support them. I would assume that most cutters don't want to live on this earth. You know why more and more people are cutting? It's because of our society, and people like you who are making cutters feel even worse about themselves. So please, stop commenting things like that to cutters if you have never been in their position.
+Miya_TheLittleBlueMaiden みやテューバべ at least you have the strength to actually hurt yourself. I'm so pathetic I can't even bring myself to be harmed because I'm so afraid.
+Flowey The Flower you know why we cutters cut..? Cause of the society, have you even felt what i have felt..? Your comment didnt come off as helpful it came off as hurtful, dont you know i get slapped by my so called "friends" at times..? My bestfriend helps me, i am not alone at times, but it helps me to seem stronger, i dont want to be afraid anymore, i cry myself to sleep, its hard being a human being if people judge you
+Flowey The Flower yes some people have commuted suicide, and yet why, depression, and the hurtful words of society, dont u call cutting stupid, it helps some people take out their anger on themselves, i do take pride that i am alive, i slowly lose pride cause suicidal people are angels that wanna go home, its not my fault society takes their anger all out on me, i dont like being hurt by society, do you..? I do not wanna die inside nor outside, but society drives people to cut or commit suicide, those hurtful stuff society says it hurts people who is sensitive, people who is afraid to get hurt by simple things, people who cry themselves to sleep, people who doesnt want their parents to know they are dying inside, people who think of others than themselves, people who are afraid to love, people who are depressed knows how this feels, i was almost anorexic cause people tell me that i'm fat, people hurt people by the most simplest words,
really, 2014 is the best years of your beautiful nightcore
First time I heard this version of the song, my self harming was getting much worse due to school as well more fricking issues. I was just listening to youtube while doing homework. This song had been next, I just began crying for a few hours as the song remained in my head. It reminded me of when it first started to how worse it was getting. Of how some 'friends' told me that if I didn't stop hurting myself they would leave me and hate me. How my family was disappointed in me. I still am struggling with it, as it just is what has been my solution my mind goes to that instantly with anything going on in my head or around me even. I am a few hours clean sadly...I am sorry for writing this;;; buh bai, be safe and have a nice week
I don't know if I should thank the person who made this song or be worried because I'm sure some people have ended up cutting because of it.
r/no
Society screams 'Don't get raped' not dont rape
+S. Holmes is that ciel and sebatian
lol yeah
+S. Holmes people who rape know that what they are doing is wrong, they just dont care
Enzo Cambauva Vieira Alot of this depends on how a person was raised. What moral values they learned or didn't learn. Rape is generally seen about control, but it can be about blind or misguided lust. Generally rape happens when a person is in the friendzone so to speak. With someone they like but that person doesn't return the feelings and never will. And then there's incest where its all just lust gone wild. I agree people know its wrong, they just aren't equipped to deal with just how wrong it really is.
+Enzo Cambauva Vieira I don't think he means 'rape' literally
I remember listening to this song on repeat, crying quietly in bed from the age of 12 up until 17. Listening to this song now at 21 makes me feel sad for my younger self. If anyone reads this just know things gets better, life won't be the same forever, there's genuinely a light at the end of the tunnel
I think the real reason people make fun of people with suicidal thoughts is because they just don't understand and when someone doesn't understand something usually trhey get frustrated by it,I'm assuming from personal experiences
creepypasta fan_girl I was suicidal once upon a time and I joke about it constantly. Grow a pair and get over it
I joke about it now,but I posted that 5 months ago
Depends on where you are. I joke about it to hide that it is no joke for me, but i hate it when others joke about it, because they often/normally have no idea how it is
this song is my own personal National anthem
samez here
same
Emortall_ Tsundere_Neko_ I feel you on that
Same.......
It wouldn't be national since you're just a person and not a country
Ahh this takes me back to my 6th grade year. Everything was blocked on our iPads including TH-cam. But kids told eachother secret sites and this song was on it. I Discovered it on there. Im glad that happened.
*This song, describes me very much... ♥*
So you (used to maybe) cut yourself
Listen to the song.... "I am not alone..." You are not alone, don't cut yourself, I'm sorry for what has happened in your life. Just remember please remember for me.... Your beautiful and your life is a gift not a piece of trash, after suffering for so long you will get happiness so hold on for me please...
This song just speaks volumes to me thank you
NightcoreReality PLEASE get this on SoundCloud ASAP
Love all your work, btw. Keep it up!
It's scary how much this song suits me 😨
I know what you mean its the same for me
+sam dunn yay im not alone!
+Noel Williams it's nice to know someone else is in the same place as me emotionally
+Noel Williams Trust a lot of people probably can.... Like us.......
+Fluffee Kittah
I can't trust anyone anymore..... after what happened.... I just can't
I love the vocals in this song but what I love the most is the massage in this song YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Please remember that, if you listen because your loved one has died or are abused anyway-physically, mentally, emotionally- anyway, you are not alone, there is someone else suffering with you. Some times you are lucky to have them close to you but most times you are alone in that time of pain. Please remember to be strong because they are still here. No one can see your scars but you but you have to wear them like a badge of honour saying you got through it, that you are ready to take the world head on. Stand up and put that beautiful smile on you face because you ARE gorgeous in every way possible. If you have a prob please talk to me because I am here. I am not gonna give u shit and say stop when I know you have to choose on your own cuz cutting is sometimes the strongest thing to do.i know because I am not those people who think everyone's life is perfect because theirs is. I have gone through my problems, I think they are big but compared to yours it might be minuscule. If you have suffered, help another please. If you are suffering, tell someone who is with you and you trust. If you are causing suffrage, you are the dirtiest filth in the world, not worth my time cuz you are worse that the worms under OUR feet. I don't consider you as a human. If you are having problems so to get rid of them, you cause pain. JUST THINK!!! What are you doing? They are suffering because of you, what if they already have problems at him, huh? Just stop it and please tell people to stop cuz I know people can just watch it and walk, and I don't think that is humane. I am not saying this to be religious so those of you who go spout under here to do it for god. Go away. Because this is for humanity to survive, to live on and not go on wars and depend rage. PLEASE. I beg of you. Help those in need because although not in blood, they are you sister/bother as a specie. Please...
es completely i hope there are more people like you who share this opinion ;D
ur welcome if you ever want to talk, do NOT be scared, kay?
rachana lama i love the qoute in this song, this song connects to me so much..
don't be scared any of you. There is a phrase ' Remember always to be true, as true and honest as the person I KNOW you are. If you do that, you'll shine brighter than any diamond that has been specifically cut and designed to shine because you are not shaped, you are You. And you are beautiful.
oh don't, do not be nervous, just face the world head on!
It's sad that I can relate to this song so much
you have no clue
Same
+Meow I'm depressed and I'm literally at the point where I'm starting to cut myself :((((
+LeGit BoBby I here you that's me every day
I'm trying to stop but idk I have scars on my arm rn trying hard to hide them from my parents
It's amazing! I can watch this again and again!
i know this is a very serious song, but it's so well done. :) and beautiful
Pancake recipe
Legendary comment
Odd comment for this kind of video, but very well meet had
Needed*
Ok
True
So, I know you may not get the chance to respond to this comment but I want to personally thank you.
This song, as well as your adaptation of 'Nobodies Home', took me through a very lonely and rough time a few years back during 2015. I was never much of a youtube addicted person, but when that time period came around I had to find something to help vent what was going on. Your videos were one of the few that helped me with that.
Thank you so much, it was something I really needed.
....this song is just
Yup
bad???
why 300 people dislike this 😟 il love this music 😊😊
Nhe, who gives a shit :P
Laura otaku they were like dis I like
Natalie Reid why would they be jealous of some shitty nightcore video?
Called a opinion bruh
people have to have different ones
Laura otaku they dislike it because they refuse to except themselves or other's pain and emotions and the thing's they are dealing with .........
Currently not depressed because I have mania. But I know the depression will come back so I relate to the song, sadly. All I want to say is this nightcore is beautiful and I hope everyone in the comments will hold on for a while a longer and hopefully get the chance to enjoy life. ❤😊
“These scars wouldn’t be so hidden if you would just look me in the eye.”
This comment is late, but I'm currently 3 years clean. Listening to this song kinda makes me feel good. It makes me think of how far I've come and how I've managed to survive a very dark place.
Not that anyone will see this, but just tossing it out here.
Very relatable, I can be sobbing my eyes out but if I pull a knife out and roll my sleeve up, I stop and just watch my blood fall down.
I almost cried this is a wonderful song
What's really sad but also ironic, is that I got an ad for depression medicine before this video...
(Slowly claps) Well done ad makers... well done
*longggggg sigh*
Such a beautiful song... Speaks on so many levels. I've battled with self harm for 2 yrs and am currently 3 weeks clean
Hey that Image is so beautiful🌃😍👌
Guys I made it,
I was here listening to this song for a very long time, suicidal and depressed as I can be
But now I'm better, of course life cat be perfect or easy but since I made it I believe in you too
I'm writing this comment here because I know what it's like listening to this song and what you feel
So please believe in yourself
There are so many precious people that just want to die
But I don't want to let that happen
Would love this song in any version
I played this when I cut I get depressed and when I can't take it I'll play this and cry myself to sleep
Everyone is commenting about depression and suicidal thoughts and their problems.. I want to be able to say my problems.. but my body never let's me.. It always makes me bottle up my feelings. No matter what.
So.. I can't.
Welp.
SomeoneWhoWasntNoticed SWWN I noticed you... And you are not the only only one with that problem... stay strong... I know what you are going through
SomeoneWhoWasntNoticed SWWN what are your problems?
glad to know I'm not the only one, I've tried telling one of my friends but she didn't listen to me...
Kayla Warriorcat I want to tell my parents, but I know how they'll react, and my best friend for 4 years will leave me.. She's already been through it last year with some other girl.. I just don't think she'll want to deal with me.
If you never take that chance, you'll never know. Clouding your minds with the thoughts of what could happen, is just so easy. The hard part? Taking that much, much tinier step. As time passes by, those clouds only multiply, until a single ray cuts through them. It only takes that one ray to split apart the skies. Take that step. Take that chance. Let light fill the gloom.
if your reading this then you are beautiful. Everybody is beautiful in their own way and you should except that
1:56 - 2:23
Omg I have repeated this part at least 40 times in a row. It's so pure, I love it!
And the tears are falling again....... I can't even think probably anymore.....
This song made me cry. I feel bad for anybody who has to go through that. And sadly for anybody who causes it is the one who wants attention not the victim.
Nowadays people tried to hide depression because some think they deserve it and some just wanted to be free but couldn't
If chaos is a work of art, then my heart is a masterpiece.
oof
I hope the people who are saying everyone in the comments are “edgy” “attention seeking” etc. never have to go through depression, anxiety, self harm, etc. it’s not fun...
I've been depressed for 6 years.
My parents despise me and wants to put me up for adoption. I get bullied everyday, even by strangers on the streets. I've cried so much. But yet, why would there be a reason to get a permanent scar on yourself for no reason. Hurting yourself may help for a temporary problem. But even I can think logically. I've restrained myself countless times to suicide or cut myself. All I've wanted is for people to accept me or some people who has enough courage to support me. Even now I'm tearing up. My parents abused me when I was younger, they hit me with some stick and discipline me if I talked back at them. Because of this, I've become quiet.
I've never told anyone this and I just needed to relieve myself.
I'm sorry for being a burden.
You're not a burden for anyone, and if someone thinks so, than he's an idiot. You just have to wait for the right people making the change, but until then, just don't give up. They will come. And then everything is different. I don't know much about your situation and I'm sorry if I interpret this wrong, but maybe it isn't that bad at all to get away from your parents and your old life so you can start over again. Maybe you will find there the things you are needing.
everyone who doesn't care, tell them to go to hell, because you are amazing, don't be the way they want you to be, be yourself
Ur not a burden, ur just hurt. I know u don't know,me but if u need someone who knows what its like to talk with, I'm always available
Your parents hate you yet you have a phone, internet and a computer.
Yeah your life must suck
Maybe you're the problem if so many people hate you
Im so happy you put this on iTunes
Good song. Deep Meanibg and powerful raw emototional Vocals
2021. I got close. But I haven't listen to this song in 3 years. I wish I didn't have to break that record.
Are you feeling better already? I hope you are
@@rafaeldias1781 hey, yeah getting there. thank you for asking
the girl in the pic is literally the anime version of me lol, only my eyes are hazel
To everyone, not those who just cut, but everyone. Cutting won't give you anything and trust me, it won't only hurt you but the people around you. The thought of cutting itself disgusts me so much. I thought of cutting once but then, once, twice and it becomes your addiction. If it wasn't for my senses to come back, I would've been addicted. You cut because you're alone, bullied, abused, anything the reason might be, but you're hurting yourself more and more. There are people who care for you, I bet that even if you don't know, you have someone whose behind you. I don't know how many of you noticed, but there's always a light in your heart that'll glow for the one. EVERYONE has a happy ending, who cares if someone is with you or not during that moment? I don't. At least, I had a happy ending.
I'm sick and bored of my life, like any other normal schooler but I respect the fact that I get to live. I've thought of killing myself and reincarnating and all the shit, NOPE, you don't know what will happen. You need to believe in yourself and the people around you, trust, love, care. If you aren't able to fit in, the fault isn't anybody else's, it's YOURS. Involve yourself and make friends. Keep smiling because one smile is the reason of thousands. Stand up for yourself at all times, put yourself first. Even if we're told to care for others, first look at yourself and then the others. It should be "I" and then "YOU".
"When you self harm, here are the things you can NEVER do like you used to:
1. Feel pretty inside.
2. Feel normal.
3. Have confidence.
4. Smile.
5. Can't feel the same ever again." (Quote taken from Pinterest)
Why? Because you wasted that one chance of enjoying, smiling, running, falling, being broken, crying, getting up, hugging, kissing, laughing, making friends, LIVING.
This is not all too helpful. For someone who is depressed and hates themselves so much they even cut, this comment will just sound like another "It's your fault". I don't care if that was your intention or not, it comes off like that and that's the point.
Love the music
I like this 1
Since everybody is sharing their story:
Hi , im Barbara.
Im 11 , most likely have social anxiety
Im suicidal
2 failed overdoses
I cut too
But im not giving up , and i can feel myself get better day by day
My father and i dont get along most of the time ,he gets angry alot over little things like someone forgetting just a single thing. Im a bit too fat for my age , and that really makes me feel worse still. I find comfort in music and 'bad' weather. Bands understand me.
My classmates make me feel horrible , they dont intend to , but they do. Their humor is insulting eachother
My mother knows about my cutting and my teacher about me being depressed.
Each day i smile when i feel hell and just want to break down on the spot.
Ive gone trough two types of therapy
-For me being antisocial (as in too much , my social skills are okay now)
-for a horror movie , which we had to stop eventually due to a lack of communication.
So i live in fear of anything everyone is just like: why would you be scared of that?!?!?!?
There are alot of people who accept this. But a girl in my tent with scouting camp , put her teddybear to my face when i was sleeping , and when i woke up i basically screamed and such.
People tend to tell me alot of horror stories too , and that makes me cry out of fear.
My life is sh*t but i keep holding on
And i want you guys to hold on with me
Suicde does not end the possibillities of it getting worse , it eliminates the possibillity of it getting better ~ Vic Fuentes
Barbara Wesseling I'm glad your seeing the positive instead of other kids your age just posting pictures of their cuts on Tumblr. I wish you the best and hope things get better :)
Never give up. It will comes a day when anything is ok , wait for this day.
Barbara, I am the shyest person you'll ever meet. I don't have much confidence in myself. But I can try to help you... Try smiling as you leave for school, try at least to make your way to the groups of students, react, ignore them. I believe you can do it, that's how I got friends.
-Mackenzie
Eva Sonntag hey my name is diana i always go through pain from my parents and i wait for that day im tired of waiting i want the pain of is cutters to end
lol
we are Cut but we are good enough to wear a smile everyday :(
The 428 people who disliked are the people who have perfect lives. I wish everyone had a life that's perfect... but sadly, no one can be happy forever
Some people just don’t like Nightcore. Personally, I have as close to a perfect life as one could imagine, but I attempted suicide a few weeks back because the concept of death and how we never know when it will happen, and the anxiety as we wait for it is scary, and I couldn’t take it. I’ve had these thoughts since I was young, but never acted on them until recently. I’ve met people with perfect lives who understand and are willing to be there for you. They aren’t in their own world.
The picture that goes with the song look like me about every other day. Crying while covered in paint from working in my mother's studio. The song makes me shed a few tears tho....
Years ago i am here with this kind of song and now here i am again because i feels like this kind of song is the only one who can understand me.
clean since 31 days now, im so proud of me that i do not did it in so a long time
@O E X O X dont you ever give up.. You can do it
Has anyone cut onions because I'm crying here :(
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE UPLOAD SHIT ALL TIME!!!
so i'm happy you diden't
Honestly it’s really nice to have a Christian artist who gets on this level
This song just got a like this song is amazing.
Think Life is hard? Cutting won't make it any better. I know you hate hearing things like this, but people only say it because they care.
-I love my life, but I hate what others choose to do with theirs-
Let me tell you a story, a story of a girl.
She started off normal. Her family, they all looked after each other. Her mom and dad had gotten married, but she hadn't remembered much of it. Just things like dancing with her mother, she was about four years old at that point.
Time went by, a few years.
Her parents weren't getting a long.
One of the only memories left of them together, fighting.
Her dad was trying to reason things out, but she didn't understand why they couldn't get a long, why they weren't happy anymore.
Another year or so went by, and they moved. They thought it would get them on a clean line again, but the fighting only got worse.
One day, her mom and dad had a huge fight, and their dad left, promising to come back.
Later on, the girls' mom ended up moving, her dad moved back into the house.
She didn't understand anything. "Why don't they get a long? Why can't my mommy and daddy just be happy and live together again?" constantly ran through her head.
Her dad and mom went their separate ways. Mom, got a new boyfriend. Dad, he got another girlfrind.
The little girls' dad, still loved her mother, she knew that, but when she asked her mom if she still loved her dad "I'll always love him, just not in the same way" was her mothers reply.
"Not in the same way" Isn't love just love? She thought.
Many of her mom's boyfriends were agressive.
But, the little girl wasn't alone, I guess I forgot to mention, she had one friend, a cat, his name was midnight. Whenever she had spare time, she would spend it with her bestfriend, midnight.
Well, the girl's mom had a boyfriend, he was pretty agressive.
When they moved out, she couldn't take Midnight. Her mom told the little girl that they would return, but they never did.
The little girl went to school, one day at school, her mom's ex boyfriends kid told her that they had hit her cat on the road..
She was heart broken, all those years. She had already lost her dog, from heart attack.
After some time, the little girl decoded the only one she would allow to be her true best friend, was her mom. Did she have friends at school? Of coarse, but they were all a bit, well lets just say back stabbing.
Her dad had been through plenty of girlfriends.
Her mom had been through plenty of boyfriends.
The girls' mom finally was in a stable relationship.
He had three sons, that would still be a part of the girls' life to this day.
Did the girl have siblings? Yes, at this point in time she would have two blood brothers and one sister.
Only one of her blood brothers lived with her at the time.
They moved together in a big house out in the country.
The girl loved it there, she thought that her mom would finally be happy.
Every other weekend, the girl would go to her dad's house.
It was fathers day, so the girl gladly went to stay with her dad for the weekend.
A few days had past, the girl wondered why she hadn't went back to her mom's house yet, or even to school.
The girls' dad had her sit in the living room, he said he needed to tell her something.
She did what she was told.
Her dad sat infront of her, and spoke.
"I know this world is unfair, and sometimes things happen, that we can't control.." the girls' dad had a sorrow quiver in his voice.
"What's wrong?" the girl asked her father.
"Your mom is really sick, she's in the hospital and they don't think she's going to get better."
Instantly, the girl started to sob, she started to scream even.
Her dad started to cry. He left the room, giving the girl some time.
She continued to sob throughout the day.
"What about my brothers?" she wondered.
They ended up going to the hospital to see her, but the little girl didn't know it would be her last time with her mom.
Her mother was in some sort of coma, so she couldn't talk. The doctor said that her mom had a stroke, and could only hear us, but not feel much or even open her eyes to see.
Not even being christian at the time, she even prayed to a god, that she didn't even believe in.
About three days had past, she got the news that her mom had died.
The funeral, it was painful to even show up.
She wasn't sure what to do with her life anymore.
She didn't get to see her mom's boyfriend's kids very much anymore.
Her life was torn.
She became depressed for a while, but it faded away once she had a computer and internet. It basicly became her life. Sad, right? But I guess we all have a moment in life when we can't take it anymore. The only one she really had anymore was her oldest blood brother. She was drug into things that no other kid her age should've had to deal with. But for that reason, she understands a lot, more then people twice her age would understand.
Her dad finally got another girlfriend, but they ended up losing their house.
Her and her sister both had to move in with their grandparents.
At the time, she was always getting bullied at school, they didn't understand how much she was already going through.
Her family started blaming her dad, acusing her of being.. well not normal.
They got angry at him, and started to tell him not to let me watch anime, take the internet away and the music she likes to listen too.
They just didn't understand.
She was always getting yelled at for everything, which only made the cutting worse.
Once, she was even thought about overdosing.
After a while, she had another brother, who she loves dearly.
She also ended up having another brother, well, he hasn't been born yet..
Life started to look up a bit.
She got to see her brothers at school.
Although she doesn't get to see her blood brothers very often, she still stayed in life's game.
She is even going to move soon, going to another school and getting to start fresh.
She doesn't cut anymore, how you ask?
She just had to start letting the little things make her happy.
Always telling herself, "someone always has it worse" and that's the truth.
If you couldn't already tell, that little girl is me.
I had to leave out a lot for personal reasons. There is still so much that I won't share.
But anyone could be reading this, so.. you should understand at least that much.
So just remember, you're not the only one going through things you shouldn't have to.
Life is hell's playground.
It is, indeed unfair, but you shouldn't give up!
Follow your heart, I promise things will get better.
You just have to try your best to stay positive and ignore those who won't accept you for who you are.
And, it's okay to cry.
I still cry about my mom. She was my bestfriend. I know it sounds stupid.. but unlike anyone else, I could say anything to her, she would not only listen, but understand and care, keep it a secret.
I guess the only thing there is left to say, is thank *you* for listening! Yes, you just listened to my life's story.
I hope this helped, even the slightest.
If I can't help anyone in this sick place, then my life would have been wasted.
I finally know what I want to do with my life,
I'm going to change the world, and help those who need helped.
Even if things might seem impossible, just do what you want to with your life.
It's your life, and if people won't accept you, like I said, just ignore them.
-Thank You.-
im so sorry ;( are you ok now?
Daniel Ciernioch I'm fine. Like I said, there is always someone who has it worse! Trying to stay positive. Something I can also add in, I lost a close friend today. She didn't even tell me why she didn't want to be friends anymore. "If someone won't accept you, they aren't your trouble"
I'm not sure what I did..
But you can only learn from other's mistakes.
If she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, it's her loss.
A Cute Skittle
well thats sad, in my opinion if she just quits being freinds with you it cant be real freindship i mean: good freinds hold together
ps: you can learn fom your own mistakes
real freinds are rare
DANG THATS ALOT
You literally made me cry.
I used to cut my self but i have stoped and it it so hard for me not to cut and harm myself those poeple who do cut there self i feel there pain it hard to stop.....
Everything will b- ok you know what? I'm going to give you a little slice of reality right now sweetheart. If hard. Its so fucking hard to stop. But if you cave in and let it take you over. I promise you, you will regret it. The way I stop is remembering my mothers fave when she found out...damn you teacher. But I caved once. I went 3 1/2 months without cutting, bit then...I was home alone, with a pencil sharpener and a screwdriver, and I started to hyperventilate...then, all those months, waisted because I was to week. Its not worth it. I promise you. It's not
So I could tell you "oh everything will be ok" or " it will get better" no. That's all a bundle of lies and we know it. And I know you don't want to hear lies do you? Sometimes you want to feel like a piece of shit. So when your happy again you can say "wow. I got through that by myself" We all fall down, and that's ok
Yeah, it's really hard to stop. But! it's possible. I've cut myself since I was 11, I was 2 years in therapy and now (I'm 15 now btw xd) I'm clean for over 8 months and I don't even think about cutting myself anymore. I don't need to cut myself anymore, I'm fully recovered. It may seems useless to try because it's hell to try to stop but it's totally worth it. And at some point you will realize that you don't deserve this shit, nobody deserves to know how it feels like to cut themselves! I really hope that you will feel better soon and recover. It's a long way, but I'm pretty sure that you will make it. Believe in yourself and keep your head up, always remember that you don't deserve this shit. Try to love yourself, even if it's hard. Just try it, that's more than enough. And if you relapse: It's not a shame. It's normal. That can happen but don't let that pull you down! Just try it again and belive that you will make it! Stay Strong
You guys ate so sweet. This girl is my bestfriend and i really hope she get your message... I saw her crying a lot at school but shes more positive now that weve gotten rid of some negative things (aka frienemy problems) thanks for trying to help her
Christy Tran you guys are so sweet thanks i have no idea wut to say
i love this song!! reminds me of myself * hides face* it's just...a good song •-•
Aaaa going through a playlist And i found this, i havent cut in like 3-4 months because last time i did my girlfriend cried T^T
Me when I get a papercut.... O^O
ur comment cx it was published on my birthday :D
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You copied someone's comment... *fucking hilarious*
Really? Well, I don't really pay much mind to comments. My friend gave me the idea.
same girl xD
Do not waste your time reading this,this are only my thoughts
Comments here are inspirational and long that i did'nt have the time to read them,these comments are too good for me too read,others talk about there experience with depression,it helps others but it adds more pain to me my mask is so strong its glued into my face,my tears won't come out,am i really that weak?,i can't even let my tear out *im fine*
I was bullied for 13years of my life and I started cutting when I was 9 and no one knew and they always say im worthless I couldn't fight back I just sat there letting them hit me punch me and abuse me I couldn't stand up for my self I just wanted to die last year I tried to hang myself but my sister found me before I could even do it and she said that she couldn't live without me but I asked her why are you and my other sister so spoiled and all I am is invisible I told her I dont want to live anymore but she said that she could help and she took the rope away and told me im worth something and to never give up
dude thats deep a little too deep
Alexa 143 you know youre lucky my older sister beaten me up when I was young and made me so upset I almost ran away but she still didn't like anyone else beating me up still I almost wanted to pretend it was a nightmare and I wold wake up with her being nice.
Alexa 143 Awww so cute c: I hope u feel better now, bullies are just some dumb potatoes!
You both have pics of a wolf. LOL. It's ok you are never alone. Stay alive so you can meet someone just like you. ;)
Scorpio117 thanks
CUTTING ALTERNATIVE: Clenching ice in you hand for 1 min. No blood. No scars.
Reagaar Umm, excuse me? I'm trying to help people. And you might think so, but making a sarcastic remark telling people to "do something productive in their lives" is not helpful at all.Believe it or not, some people actually would take offense to that.Seriously
Reagaar It takes a really long time to recover from depression. Not cutting is just one step. I'm sorry if you see my way of helping not helpful or useless, but that's no reason for a sarcastic comment
Medications help they don't make it go away or people wouldn't be required to go through therapy, you have change how you think, it's not just balancing brain chemicals
it helps it doesn't prevent everything, I still have a therapist, the job exists for a reason
Reagaar Nope. You can't just develope one. And it's not genetic. Usually disorders like self harming, bulimia,anorexia, depression ect. Start when you have something sad on your mind. For example bullying, death of a relative ect. You now are one of those "bullies"
One of my favorites nightcores :)
I love the song..... hate what it's about. The concept of "Cutting" is painful. Not for the doer only but the people who do care. The people who have even the bit of light in their heart. Those cuts don't scar the cutter only, but the people around them. My heart has slashes from top to bottom and drenched in tears of bloody souls. Please stop. Look deep down and you'll find something. Something called "Hope" And live off of that until it fades from the world. That's what I choose, and I'm smiling. People, to everyone, smile to someone in need. All this crap might seem useless and I expect a lot of hate. After all, I use to believe that, but one smile and I pulled my friend out of a dark pit that she was drowning of blood in. Nina, if u see this, know I love u and u will forever be my twin. 8
I wish I had a friend like you.😭
if you could just "pull yourself" out of depression, people wouldn't be medicated for it.
Well it worked. At least for me.
+Beth Frotton Neltner Aww ty. I'm here for anyone if they need it so dw ^^
Seeing the comments makes my heart bleed, I know so many people who have gone through this and I just want to talk to people to help