I am not sure what your chronic illness is, but mine is Fibromyalgia and I'm a graphic designer and creating art is often a challenge for me (my graphic design work I don't consider as 'art' because of the genre of design I am in) Then when I try something new and it doesn't work out the first time, and because most people assume that since I've been a graphic designer for the past 30 years, that I'm good at all things creative, I feel like a failure - I don't consider myself and artist even though other people do. It's just really encouraging when I see an artist like yourself, whose work I admire, going through the struggles that I am and still creating, regardless, so thank you for the inspiration.
In my experience, we have periods like this just before a major breakthrough. Anytime Ive "leveled up" artistically, it was directly after a very difficult art time. It's frustrating, but consider it to be akin to growing pains. We just have to push through, or try something different and not give up. I sincerely hope that your illness gives you a break and that things get better. Streamlining your Patreon is a great idea, and from what I've read there, most, if not all of your Patrons agree. We all greatly appreciate all that you do, here and there. Sending healing vibes and love from Kansas. ♥
I'm glad you allowed yourself to share this video. It's so helpful to see skilled artists make things and not get the intended outcome, even after several attempts. It's honest and it's a true part of the creative process. Technique can be instinctive and unique to the artist. Sometimes it's happenstance, other times it's developed through trial and error. Thank you for the reminder.
An art career with a chronic illness is definitely a struggle. I get super enthusiastic to be able to work again, then I push a little too much or life asks more of me, and I'm stuck for weeks or even months without being able to finish anything. The imposter syndrome creeps in real fast, cause am I really an artist if I can't even make art? And I rarely get to practice just to get better because it takes as much energy to study for skill improvement than to do a full piece...
Thank you so much for your post, like you, I struggle with chronic illness. I use pastelmat with pastels mainly. I was wondering whether the type of coloured pencil makes a difference to how it looks. As it is an abrasive surface, I was wondering whether some of the harder pencils may give you the look you are after. What I love about pastelmat is that inks and watercolour look great, and I use that as an underpainting. It gives a richness and nuance to the image. Thank you, again, for posting, it made my day brighter.
I find myself hating *everything* I do, but that’s mostly because I resent the effort it requires. Whether it’s written or visual, about 1/3 of the way through a project - which is to say, once I’ve passed the sweet spot in which the excitement of the idea has faded and the tedium of its execution has set it - I begin loathing, LOATHING, whatever it is I’m working on. And then the voice of my third high school ex begins banging around in my head, telling me I suck, that nothing I do is worth it, that I’m disgusting, laughing at me, mocking me, and letting me know my efforts will always go unrewarded, that I’ll always get the rug pulled out from under me at the last moment, that some other absolute nobody will breeze in at the last moment and get all the credit and praise and love with no effort, and that I’m just a joke. That’s the point at which I used to medicate myself to oblivion. These days I take long walks and try to clear my head … but really the only solution I’ve found is to power through - despite the knot just behind my sternum, like a choked-back sob, which seems to never disappear. THAT HAVING BEEN WRITTEN: I’m often pleased by the outcome; it’s never quite what I envisioned - sometimes it’s not even close - but I’m lucky in this one respect, in that I enjoy being surprised, and often however my work turns out is a pleasant surprise to me. Thanks for having uploaded, I enjoyed your thoughts on these blocks.
Pastelmat requires many layers to get it to look smooth. It's very good for things like pet portraits where you need to use lots of layers. Something like zest it to blend the pencils helps to smooth the grain, it looks more painterly that way too. Layer up the pencils and blender. It may help if you were to try the paper again 😊
I'm in a meh stage of life at the moment too. Between hormonal mood swings, insomnia and hubby being made redundant and struggling to find a new job, I just don't feel very creative. If anything, I feel overtired and stressed but I'm still pushing on through it though, because I know the only constant in life is change and this season of my life will soon pass. So I seem to be creating limited palettes for specific themes and swatching a lot at the moment. I've made up different art kits to take with me to different places, each with different art supplies in, just so I'm still doing something creative and it is helping lift my mood. I like your experiments with the pastel mat. I've never seen or used it before so the fact that the pages are different colors surprised me. I quite like that though, so I'm thinking I could paint pages in my sketchbook different colors and see what I can create on that. Even the work you don't really like is still inspirational to others so I'm sure it will bring up new ideas and skills for you too. Just hang in there, things will change soon. 🤗
Wow, Natasha! Your new work is fabulous! And it is clearly your recognizable style. Thanks for the honest sharing of your process in making these changes. It helps me to dispel my own myths and misguided ideas as an artist. I think sometimes we don't realize how much others enjoy our art even if we think it is flawed. We see "mistakes" they don't, but we are too hard on ourselves a lot of the time. Thank you for your insights.
Dear Natasha, I often go through these phases, especially when I step out of my comfort zone and try something different from the usual. Now, like you, I know that it will go well and clear up the choice of material, style and color even better... I know a lot of artists who are not self-critical, and I mostly dislike their work. And I know a lot of them who are, and I always admire their work. The view of art is subjective, someone will always like it, and someone will not. What matters is the feeling in us, which gives us confirmation... yes, that's it! Anyway, I totally understand what you're going through. I'm sure that after this there will be many more wonderful paintings from your studio!❤️
Once again you are able to voice quite eloquently how you are feeling which I admire. It shows how strong as a person you really are. I am loving your new experimental work, colour palette is amazing. It seems you are entering into another chapter of your life and finding a new path. Love your work, wishing you well.
Thank you so much for sharing. I too have a chronic illness so I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. Though not a professional artist art is my happy place. Or it was until these past months. I suffered a lot of loss in a very short time (my mom, my dad, a very close friend and my dog - all in 40 days) and I can't seem to even sit at my art table. Totally frozen with fear (which makes no sense I know) and with zero creative ideas. Listening to this video I now realize that I've been way to hard on myself. And I just need to sit and play. So again thank you. And for what it's worth - I have 100% confidence that you will be happy with your work again very soon and that you will be proud you've pushed through.
Gosh - that would take anyone down! I’m so sorry for those huge losses, it would totally upend ‘normal’ life. Do… take it very easy on yourself. Do what ever you feel like. Whenever. And see where your adjusted life takes you ❤ ( and write about your feelings - it helps I find)
I'm so sorry to hear this. That's a huge amount of loss, and I think you may need a very big hug. So I'm sending a virtual one your way, with hopes of brighter days. xxx
I think all of these drawings are so beautifu! I just listened to your most recent podcast on Patreon about feeling as though you’re “wasting supplies” with this paper, but it’s truly not the case. Although you don’t consider them finished pieces (or maybe even “successful” ones) you’re still learning how to use a different medium that you have little experience with! The learning process itself holds so much more value than the paper ever could (though I understand your reservations about it being quite an expensive paper). I hope that you will keep giving yourself more grace with your artwork, and also with your health. As a fellow chronic-illness-haver I also struggle with the summer weather causing complications. Most days for the past few months I’ve been extremely unwell physically but want to make art, which is an unfortunate combination as I often end up pushing myself to be ~productive~ when I know it would be better if I just rested. I easily become frustrated with myself under all of these conditions so the creative process lately is associated with a lot of negative feelings for me, which is not a good place to be! If you need time to rest or do other non-art things to raise your mood or feel focused again, the time spent doing that isn’t wasted or unproductive… this is something I’m still trying to accept and implement too. I really do empathise and I also really admire you for still sharing beautiful content with us and being vulnerable by discussing how you’re feeling. I hope that this ~phase~ passes quickly for you, and until you can find the beauty in this work we’ll be here to see it for you!
What an amazing comment. So kind and compassionate. I really appreciate what you've written, thank you! I hope that you'll find some relief soon too. Hot weather just makes me feel awful, and it's a hard thing for some people to understand when they crave and love the heat of summer!
Hi Natasha! Your video was both lovely and inspiring! I know you said that you weren’t really enjoying your experiments, but I think you have some really lovely and interesting pictures going on here! For example, the one at 1:43 on the salmon-y colored paper would look awesome as a recurring pattern, like on textiles or wallpaper. Also, the one on 4:18 on the purple paper that you had just started, would make an amazing autumnal scene, with the dark and light jewel tones of fall. All this to say, please be encouraged. Even your experiments look cool and interesting! You’re doing a great job! Best of luck!!
Thank you for sharing this,can so relate to the struggles you speak of,I struggled to adapt and change my work after becoming disabled.Creative change takes time,and it is frustrating when something doesn't 'click' but you need to find a way to approach a new direction that works for you,but give yourself the time to make that discovery/change.Natasha you will get there,I know you will because you want to.(Matt)P.s you will have that creative lightbulb moment for your creative future,I totally believe in you
@@NatashaNewtonArt thank you Natasha,I hope you can see also how much the community you've created around your TH-cam and Patreon believe in you too,and that in strengthens your belief in yourself as an amazing artist. I think people forget the people they follow on TH-cam are human,and have lives outside of it.I think a this video is going to really resonate with a lot of people as it did with me. but one consistency we both have (as others do) is our art itself if that makes sense,the fact we create art,and I am so thankful for that consistency (Matt) P.s hope you and Dominic are okay and have a great week
Hello Natasha. I have been following you for a while and I can tell that not only your art is changing, but also there is a gravitas in your last 2 videos that was not so present before . I thoroughly enjoy watching all your videos, but the last 2 will have a special place . I am sure all this will lead to something wholly fulfilling but not too demanding on you. I also suffer from a chronic illness, and even though I do not make art for a living I know how demanding it can be even if it is also a source of joy. Good luck and take care .
Natasha…thank you so much for your video. I am not a professional artist but love drawing and painting…just recently I have felt as if I am going backwards , and thought about giving up….and I am also battling with health issues…so your video was perfect and a great reminder that you are never alone. I hope that you will be able to work through it all….and your art is beautiful ❤
I am sorry that you are struggling. This summer has been hard for me, too. Most days I just can’t get myself to do anything creative. It feels like so much effort and I don’t have any illnesses. I managed to do a little bit of knitting the other day and it felt good to make something. I love your new work. Thank you for the pep talk. Keep your chin up. You are an amazing artist and you are a great inspiration to me.
1:50 I force myself to upload everything I’m doing good or bad. I’m not trying to be a TH-camr or art influencer, (it’s just my hobby) but I want a record to look back on, and also I don’t want to hold anything too closely. That being said, I do like to see influencers and TH-camrs put their best work forward because it’s very inspiring for me and sets a standard for me to strive for in my learning process.
this is why i am glad in part art is not my work. it is horrible to be a machine most of the time but i dont want to turn drawing or anything creative i find inspiring and life supporting into a tedious task i have to do. you inspire me, me and hundreds of people. if you draw something you dont like, it is ok. these hundreds will find it useful on their way anyway. and as for you, i think deep down all of artists know there will be another drawing, which they will like
Hello Natasha! Thank you for this video. It is very relatable. About Pastelmat. Until about 2 years ago I used to work exclusively with coloured pencils. I did try Pastelmat and managed to create two nice drawings but it was a struggle and I didn’t like working on it as I thought it was too “bumpy”. Now I am mostly working with pastels and sometimes I use coloured pencils on top of a base layer of pastels (not a thick one though) to add fine details that I can’t obtain with pastels. It works wonderfully well as the pastel diminishes the “bumps” of the texture and that’s what I didn’t like at all when working with coloured pencils only. I have also tested and the paper takes watercolours and gouache as well. I hope this helps you find a way to achieve the results you are looking for. Once we tame the “beast”, it is a fantastic surface to work on. 🌸
🌸 Thank-you for your honesty. Many of us struggle with chronic illnesses. - Something you said reminded me that, “all things pass.” 🌈 Thankyou Natasha ♥️
Thank you for being honest, I really appreciate your realness. I'm so stuck with my art at the moment, a real art block and nothing I create pleases me either. When I force myself to create even though I don't feel like it, I feel bored and unsatisfied. I thought about changing materials or subjects, maybe it would help to get me out of this.
I think we dear humans with chronic conditions have a different range of artistic struggles, tied to our diseases. I used to draw everyday, but years after years, while my health was worsening, I found myself more often incapacitated and exhausted, my creativity and growth of course are stunned for longer periods of time, but still, the very thing that keeps me going on is art, particularly having fun with it. ❤ it’s going to be better, rest and try to laugh and have fun as much as possible
I really love the horizontal one at the top of the page with the 2 dark clouds? I love the smokey evocative feeling to the darker, subtle colors. Hang in there, incubation time is scary but important.
This is so important for artists to hear. I just started an art channel on TH-cam and my work will take many videos to be completed, my work just doesn’t get done in one video because it’s a process. And the process takes time. And if I’m learning something new… well that could take months! This idea that a masterpiece needs to be completed in one go is unrealistic. So I love that you are learning. I love that you’re sharing the messy middle. Thank you. Also the work on the paynes grey paper is gorgeous. 😊
I have a chronic illness too and it causes terrible arthritis and my organs struggle. I can't go in the sun too much or too long, and the heat kills me. I can get these awful rashes down the pits of my knees or my sides and arms, hands and face. It has floored me for up to 2 years at a time before. I tell myself i dont have anything. I find it makes the flare ups fewer. I literally push it out of my head and tell myself im healthy. I refuse to be in the mindset i was in when I was first diagnosed. It makes it worse ive found. I do need more time to rest and ive put up healthy boundaries to protect my health, but telling myself im healthy, i think, and convincing my head there is nothing wrong has somewhat helped. I love your art. Its very inspiring
I have very bad chronic fatigue and Copd. It’s been rough over the past five years. I used to be able to paint for hours and hours. Now I’m lucky if I can even get to the easel some days….i love your pieces. I’m sure you will find your way again as long as you move forward
thank you Natasha. Re Pastelmat: it can be awesome for coloured pencils, many of us use it for realistic animal portraits and much more, but it definitely needs getting used to it. I still think your tests looked nice! Hope everyone gets to enjoy creating again.
A very honest and thoughtful video that I’m sure most creative people will be able to relate to. Going through a tricky creative phase like this is almost inevitable when one is pushing oneself to discover something different. It is made doubly challenging when not having enough energy is a factor too. I’m loving this new direction, and I’m sure you’ll perfect it to the point where you’re happy with it too! I’m delighted with the piece you gave me which you weren’t so sure about! I think you’re definitely on to something, and what you have in your mind’s eye must be amazing if these aren’t quite there yet! 🙌🎨❤😘 xxx
This paper is mostly for soft pastels. I have used it with Derwent soft pastel pencils and Stabilo pastel pencils. Combine pastel pencils and soft pastels is very nice. The paper take many layers of colors.
Yes, I actually initially bought it to use with soft pastels, but wanted to try coloured pencils after hearing many good things! I think I know what I'm doing wrong, so will try again. :)
I love the bright colours on the dark background, it looks really effective. I’m going through a frustrating time with my art at the moment too but I think it’s like you, down to feeling inconsistent with health issues xx
It is important to talk about this! Thank you for doing it. A lot of ppl need to hear this again and again. To understand that this is normal. All the best.
Thoughtful, well-articulated, and well-timed. I just finished hosting a circle of professional writers that meets online every two weeks to talk about challenges, and write from prompts from tarot cards that I pull for them in answer to story questions. This week, we talked about the struggle to do new work, to trust our intuition, to do more, write better, write faster, and why it is so hard. But we are meant to write, and our stories are meant to be told. Just as you are meant to create and share those creations, right? Hugs for the rough spots in the journey.
I love your new style. You might not be done developing it yet but many of the works you shared spoke to me, especially the use of the bright warm colours!
your work is absolutely beautiful. Your paintings look vibrant and radiate warmth and happiness. thank you for being honest about the process- it helps me to not feel downhearted at my many failures!
Thanks for posting this video. Social media often presents a false narrative about the creative process. It is sort of the nature of the medium; an artist sketches out the painting, applies the paint, and viola! Here is the finished work in 10-30 minutes. Even if we logically know that the piece would take several days, emotionally we believe that artist has a talent we will never possess. I frequently watch Andrew Tischler videos and alternately want to immediately paint or immediately put up my brush forever. You are an artist - period. Give yourself a break. You may be struggling with this paper, but you are indeed, on to something new in your work. Maybe some distance and then a second look will help you see it too. I feel like what you started on the peachy(?) colored page was going in a really interesting and fresh direction. The bright green on the purplish sheet (on my screen) might be an opportunity to explore a Fauvist palette. Hang in there, you are experiencing the pangs of growth that I think will pay off. 😘
I think that the plants on the salmon-colored paper are beautiful! I love the movement and colors on the page and if it was in my home it would be framed and hung on the wall. 😍 That said, I know how rewarding it is to create art that you enjoy (or at least that you can enjoy while making it), so I hope that you are able to find comfort and ease in your new style sooner than later. Also, thank you for sharing these thoughts. I found them quite relatable...I have a writing task I have been putting off and am about to sit down and do my best to persevere...
This has been so encouraging to hear. Even though I already know that all these things are true, hearing another artist say it in such an articulate way, really helps me give myself grace for my "failure to produce and sell" my art. Society often puts such pressure on artists to make money from their creativity, and I can be rendered creatively mute for weeks, sometimes months at a time, hearing that frustrating little voice in the back of my mind! But I persevere, and am given the gift of creativity despite my self doubt. Thanks for sharing❤
Hey Natasha! Thank you for sharing this video and being vulnerable. I believe this will video with be comforting and helpful to many! I too struggle with chronic illness and health problems as an artist. It’s not easy girl! Praying for you friend! God will work things out! Jesus loves you! ❤ Keep creating!!
I really like these new drawings, especially the tree ones with their beautiful bold colours. They seem more raw and more expressive, while still having that calm and peaceful quality. I have been struggling with my art for a year now, and I am also a chronically ill person, but I don't have to make a living from it. 🙂Through my art making, I have learned sometimes you have to consciously lean into uncomfortable feelings, anxiety, doubt, carry on regardless and overcome. - In any case, I see something strong emerging in your drawings.
Its the perfectionist in us Natasha and our high expectation's that we can do it. These r fab qualities as if a job is worth doing then it should b done the best we can and not half hearted. I love trying new mediums, papers etc and it is all a learning curve. Never throw anything away of your art, keep it, as often we look back on it in several years and quite liked it and want to develop ourselves in that medium again. So when I try any new medium, paints, paper, markers etc, I will use it for a few pieces of art....oh and always do a few swatching sheets before anything else, so as I can get a feel of the medium, including a different sort of paper...... In fact with a new paper I get out a few of every sort of medium I have to see how it works on that paper. After about of week of making a few pieces, I go back to what I know works for me, in my case its watercolours on hot pressed paper.....this builds my confidence back up and make the negative thoughts of not being any good anymore! Just keeping in mind that the week u r experimenting with new mediums, that u r playing and letting yourself have fun and finding out what u like and dislike of the new medium....making notes on the pieces too of how u felt about it on the art u created...even your swatches. I hope this helps Natasha....It looks like u have a lot of comments to read already and many encouraging subscribers words...so hopefully we all will lift your good spirits high again. love Alli XXX
I actually really liked the combination of the artworks you’re showing around 6:00 - the colours complement each other, like a quilt :) Love your honesty, and I hope you feel well ❤️
I’m sorry to hear you are feeling the way you are, but perhaps there is time in your journey now that you need to take pause and go inward. Take a break and see what changes. It’s not a bad thing to stop. You are a wonderful artist and you demonstrate so much love and beauty to the world. I hope you will soon feel better ❤️🩹
Definitely needed this on this morning 💗 I think so many people think that there is no effort on an artist's part to create. It is just like every other job, there are good days and bad days, productive days and day to weeks that just feel stagnate. Thank you for telling the truth like always. It is so refreshing.
I understand you’re not happy with this new work but I think it’s beautiful! You’re very hard on yourself, Ms. Natasha! Also, on another subject perhaps for your next book list I recommend the most beautiful book I’ve seen in years - Beauty in Bloom Floral Portraits by Debi Shapiro. I think you’d love it.
You will overcome! Happy you talk about how all art pieces are not successful. I discard, start over, and am happy when one surprises me making all the failures as simply steps to a goal. Enjoy the struggle as it enhances your work in the end.
Merci beaucoup, dearest Natasha, I think that it takes a good dose of courage and honesty to show us the real thing and struggle that we probably all feel from times to times. My English is not perfect but I am quite sure you understand. Same thing here, fibromyalgia, COPD, IBS and arthroses for me. And of course, this so hot and humid weather all summer, the smoke of the wildfires, everything is so hard when you have to stay inside … with the constant noise of the A/C 😜 But even though it’s hard, I go daily to my drawing desk, play with watercolors, neocolors and watercolors pencils, even if it’s for 20-30 minutes, it’s the best therapy for me ! Thank you so much to show us the way ….. I do hope that you will be feeling better soon, sending you a big huh and good vibes from Quebec 😊
Goodness I really like that picture you did on the peach page early in the video-the one you write didn’t turn out. It’s fun to me how one person dislikes a piece that another really likes.
What I wouldn't give to be able to get Pastelmat here in Canada. Thanks for this video, it's good to know I'm not the only one who sometimes hates everything I create.
Hi Natasha, this video really touched me. As someone whose been struggling with chronic health issues. It's been very hard to plan anything. I feel frustrated when I read and hear people talk about routine as the solution to any success. What if I can't create and repeat the same routine? Is it impossible to be successful? I would love to listen to you talk more about working around your illness. I think it is most relatable.
I think understand how you may feel as I with health problems can only work on my art for short periods of time and some days not at all ..I say "I have no beans today " to my family who ask what have I been doing 😁so maybe I need some magic beans hehe .. seriously tho we have to be kind to ourselves and be as patient with ourselves as we would be with others .. the fact we woke up breathing is God sent ..
I am sorry you are having a crisis of confidence Natasha xx They are really draining xx Maybe, think about what you said it right at the beginning of this, you've been trying to use a material that isn't designed to work with this particular media. Yes, you're trying to grow, experience new ways of working...but if you've tried and tried (which clearly you have), could it just be that simple? This paper doesn't work with colour pencils, full stop. Try with a different paper, go back to something tried and tested and expand out from there. It's not a defeat, or resting on your laurels, it's experimenting, and not all experiments work do they xx Sending you love as always, and hope autumn eases your symptoms xx
I really liked what you did, especially the dark browns and orange on the blue background. Lots of great ideas for expanding. I'm in a slump, too, and sympathise with not being well. Hugs 💖
What you consider as not good art is so beautiful to me, and I would buy it! I adore every single thing you do. But I understand, if you aren’t happy with it. This too shall pass.
Thank you for sharing Natasha. Maybe this particular paper is not for you. It was worth a try. Your art is growing and moving in a new direction and is still wonderful and beautiful. Unfortunately, the changes you have made to your patreon, prohibits me continuing because of the monthly cost. Being retired with limited resources it's just too expensive. I'm so sorry I have cancelled my membership. I completely understand and empathise with you regarding chronic illness impacting your life. I've lived with chronic illness all my life and it is definitely a trial. Keep going, lovely. Your art is amazing x
I love a good honest transparent chat about the realties of what being a full time artist is really like! Thank you for sharing ❤ I know I don’t have the most glamorous art career or tons of customers, but I’m doing ok. I’ve had better years and my art business has been in a “drier” season, so to speak, for a time and I had to pivot and try to new things to secure some more finances like Patreon and hopefully getting my YT monetized one of these days. Starting those new things and sinking so much time and energy into them was tough and there was big learning curve. I’m certain it’ll be worth it even though some days it feels like a slog. If we don’t try the new things we may miss out on wonderful opportunities. Sharing your real experiences with others whether it’s a creative slump, the constant interruptions of health challenges or personal life struggles, it’ll help to others see what it’s really like. Those who have assumed your are living your best life, making the best art and all the money, can see it’s not always sunshine and daisies. Although I know for some folks that is their current truth and they’re doing great, but theyre not doing great ALL the time. Finding success, commercial or just being proud of your body of work, is a long and windy road and rarely a straightforward path❤
Do you know Sandi Hesters TH-cam channel? Shes an american artist, also has a chronic disease - and find ways to work regardless, like preparing to paint from the sofa after an operation, and also sometimes talks about how learning new skills requires time to allow ourselves to fail and learn. She is very uplifting and down to earth. i always feel energized and joyful about painting after watching her videos. Cant recommend her enough :) Im pretty sure you will love her too.
I do know Sandi! I've also had to adapt and change the way I work due to my illness, but it forces you to be creative in what you're doing, so even in that there's a positive. Sandi's right about learning new skills and failing/learning etc. :)
thank you I love that you discuss your feelings like this. I think it is something we go through, whether we are as successful as you8 or just want to be's (considering I started later in life, I have to believe that my limited success at this time is due to this, and I can see improvement) In fact going back and doing some of the types of paintings I did early on, really helps me to see that I have improved. Sort of a different subject than yours. Regardless, I love what you have produced and I think it is going to be exciting to see how you develop it further.
I Really REALLY appreciate this video, Natasha, and it’s very encouraging to me to realize all that happens behind the scenes and w/everyday life in your part of the world. I will be lifting you up in prayer over your illness you’ve mentioned and hopefully, you will be back 100%. You are such a Blessing to so many! ❤Your friend Kelli From Washington State USA I Do go through very similar things with creating m art - and it Can be discouraging at times. Thank you again for being “Real” about it all.
I’ve been watching from the beginning, admittedly not every week or even month but I do enjoy your videos and chats. I wasn’t aware you had a chronic illness. Not sure if you’ve mentioned it in a prior video and I simply forgot or I haven’t seen that video? Anyway, well bloody done! I know the struggles myself and want to start a channel but I simply struggle with trying to create my art! It’s hard to find a flow when it’s all stops and starts with flare ups. I live with psoriatic arthritis.
Hi Nstasha, I’m so sorry you are struggling with your art at the moment it will come back even better. I always love your work. You have expanded with your colour palette recently, you have got bolder with colour which is really lovely. Maybe Pastel Mat paper isn’t for you, try your ideas on the paper that you love. I applaud you has you have really been trying new material and you should be proud of yourself for giving it a go. Never forget you’re a brilliant artist and you have your own distinct style which is lovely. You will get your mojo back Natasha I’m sure of that. Thankyou for sharing. Sending you lots of love xxx 🥰💗
Natasha a big Thankyou from me for sharing this. I do indeed periodically have these slumps and huge self doubt. The most recent one though seems to be helping me to take the pressure of and really focus on making the work more for myself and trusting others will come along with me. Seeing these new experiments of yours I feel so excited, your use of deep blue backgrounds and bolder compositions is a delight ❤ Do you know the pastel work of Odilon Redon? I expect you do, some of this new work of yours makes me think of his glowing inner gardens.
Oh, thank you Luna! It's so interesting to hear this, as I always think of you as being so talented and prolific. I never thought that you would have slumps like this!
Same everything I look at in my mind it seems that’s totally easy. I could totally do that then I get in front of the paper with my paints and it all goes wrong. 😂😂😂😂😂 thank you for the encouragement. I needed that today. I also struggle with a chronic illness. I have multiple sclerosis for the last 35 years and the heat is not my friend.
Wow I literally had the same week…..except my ADHD is my stopper…..procrastination and poor executive function….but I worried that I might never paint again. I have started again and I’m pushing my direction…..sigh. Good weeks and not so good weeks.
If you are breathing, you are creating. You are a beautiful light. Surrender, stop thinking for a moment. You can’t help but be an artist.
Thank you for sharing your concerns. It makes me feel blessed that I'm not alone. Thank you so much!
I'm so glad!
I am not sure what your chronic illness is, but mine is Fibromyalgia and I'm a graphic designer and creating art is often a challenge for me (my graphic design work I don't consider as 'art' because of the genre of design I am in) Then when I try something new and it doesn't work out the first time, and because most people assume that since I've been a graphic designer for the past 30 years, that I'm good at all things creative, I feel like a failure - I don't consider myself and artist even though other people do. It's just really encouraging when I see an artist like yourself, whose work I admire, going through the struggles that I am and still creating, regardless, so thank you for the inspiration.
Thank you and I'm so sorry to hear about your Fibromyalgia. I know how hard it is to live with (someone close to me has it).
In my experience, we have periods like this just before a major breakthrough. Anytime Ive "leveled up" artistically, it was directly after a very difficult art time. It's frustrating, but consider it to be akin to growing pains. We just have to push through, or try something different and not give up.
I sincerely hope that your illness gives you a break and that things get better. Streamlining your Patreon is a great idea, and from what I've read there, most, if not all of your Patrons agree. We all greatly appreciate all that you do, here and there. Sending healing vibes and love from Kansas. ♥
great insight, and so encouraging
Thank you, it was comforting to read this. :)
I'm glad you allowed yourself to share this video. It's so helpful to see skilled artists make things and not get the intended outcome, even after several attempts. It's honest and it's a true part of the creative process. Technique can be instinctive and unique to the artist. Sometimes it's happenstance, other times it's developed through trial and error. Thank you for the reminder.
Thank you so much!
These are very pretty. I love the colors. We are always our worst critic. Thanks for sharing.
An art career with a chronic illness is definitely a struggle. I get super enthusiastic to be able to work again, then I push a little too much or life asks more of me, and I'm stuck for weeks or even months without being able to finish anything. The imposter syndrome creeps in real fast, cause am I really an artist if I can't even make art? And I rarely get to practice just to get better because it takes as much energy to study for skill improvement than to do a full piece...
Thank you so much for your post, like you, I struggle with chronic illness. I use pastelmat with pastels mainly. I was wondering whether the type of coloured pencil makes a difference to how it looks. As it is an abrasive surface, I was wondering whether some of the harder pencils may give you the look you are after. What I love about pastelmat is that inks and watercolour look great, and I use that as an underpainting. It gives a richness and nuance to the image. Thank you, again, for posting, it made my day brighter.
I find myself hating *everything* I do, but that’s mostly because I resent the effort it requires. Whether it’s written or visual, about 1/3 of the way through a project - which is to say, once I’ve passed the sweet spot in which the excitement of the idea has faded and the tedium of its execution has set it - I begin loathing, LOATHING, whatever it is I’m working on. And then the voice of my third high school ex begins banging around in my head, telling me I suck, that nothing I do is worth it, that I’m disgusting, laughing at me, mocking me, and letting me know my efforts will always go unrewarded, that I’ll always get the rug pulled out from under me at the last moment, that some other absolute nobody will breeze in at the last moment and get all the credit and praise and love with no effort, and that I’m just a joke. That’s the point at which I used to medicate myself to oblivion. These days I take long walks and try to clear my head … but really the only solution I’ve found is to power through - despite the knot just behind my sternum, like a choked-back sob, which seems to never disappear. THAT HAVING BEEN WRITTEN: I’m often pleased by the outcome; it’s never quite what I envisioned - sometimes it’s not even close - but I’m lucky in this one respect, in that I enjoy being surprised, and often however my work turns out is a pleasant surprise to me. Thanks for having uploaded, I enjoyed your thoughts on these blocks.
That green definitely goes great with that purple. Finish it and you will certainly sell it.
Pastelmat requires many layers to get it to look smooth. It's very good for things like pet portraits where you need to use lots of layers.
Something like zest it to blend the pencils helps to smooth the grain, it looks more painterly that way too. Layer up the pencils and blender.
It may help if you were to try the paper again 😊
Thanks for the tips!
I'm in a meh stage of life at the moment too. Between hormonal mood swings, insomnia and hubby being made redundant and struggling to find a new job, I just don't feel very creative. If anything, I feel overtired and stressed but I'm still pushing on through it though, because I know the only constant in life is change and this season of my life will soon pass. So I seem to be creating limited palettes for specific themes and swatching a lot at the moment. I've made up different art kits to take with me to different places, each with different art supplies in, just so I'm still doing something creative and it is helping lift my mood.
I like your experiments with the pastel mat. I've never seen or used it before so the fact that the pages are different colors surprised me. I quite like that though, so I'm thinking I could paint pages in my sketchbook different colors and see what I can create on that. Even the work you don't really like is still inspirational to others so I'm sure it will bring up new ideas and skills for you too. Just hang in there, things will change soon. 🤗
I'm wishing and hoping that things get better for you soon!
Wow, Natasha! Your new work is fabulous! And it is clearly your recognizable style. Thanks for the honest sharing of your process in making these changes. It helps me to dispel my own myths and misguided ideas as an artist. I think sometimes we don't realize how much others enjoy our art even if we think it is flawed. We see "mistakes" they don't, but we are too hard on ourselves a lot of the time. Thank you for your insights.
Dear Natasha, I often go through these phases, especially when I step out of my comfort zone and try something different from the usual. Now, like you, I know that it will go well and clear up the choice of material, style and color even better...
I know a lot of artists who are not self-critical, and I mostly dislike their work. And I know a lot of them who are, and I always admire their work. The view of art is subjective, someone will always like it, and someone will not. What matters is the feeling in us, which gives us confirmation... yes, that's it!
Anyway, I totally understand what you're going through. I'm sure that after this there will be many more wonderful paintings from your studio!❤️
I find that struggle precedes growth, so frustration is just a symptom of struggle. Thanks for posting this video.
Once again you are able to voice quite eloquently how you are feeling which I admire. It shows how strong as a person you really are. I am loving your new experimental work, colour palette is amazing. It seems you are entering into another chapter of your life and finding a new path. Love your work, wishing you well.
Thank you for these words of encouragement, Margaret. :)
Thank you so much for sharing. I too have a chronic illness so I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. Though not a professional artist art is my happy place. Or it was until these past months. I suffered a lot of loss in a very short time (my mom, my dad, a very close friend and my dog - all in 40 days) and I can't seem to even sit at my art table. Totally frozen with fear (which makes no sense I know) and with zero creative ideas. Listening to this video I now realize that I've been way to hard on myself. And I just need to sit and play. So again thank you. And for what it's worth - I have 100% confidence that you will be happy with your work again very soon and that you will be proud you've pushed through.
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Gosh - that would take anyone down! I’m so sorry for those huge losses, it would totally upend ‘normal’ life. Do… take it very easy on yourself. Do what ever you feel like. Whenever. And see where your adjusted life takes you ❤
( and write about your feelings - it helps I find)
@@joliethanssen Thank you. One day at at time ...one foot in front of the other is my motto :)
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I'm so sorry to hear this. That's a huge amount of loss, and I think you may need a very big hug. So I'm sending a virtual one your way, with hopes of brighter days. xxx
I think all of these drawings are so beautifu! I just listened to your most recent podcast on Patreon about feeling as though you’re “wasting supplies” with this paper, but it’s truly not the case. Although you don’t consider them finished pieces (or maybe even “successful” ones) you’re still learning how to use a different medium that you have little experience with! The learning process itself holds so much more value than the paper ever could (though I understand your reservations about it being quite an expensive paper).
I hope that you will keep giving yourself more grace with your artwork, and also with your health. As a fellow chronic-illness-haver I also struggle with the summer weather causing complications. Most days for the past few months I’ve been extremely unwell physically but want to make art, which is an unfortunate combination as I often end up pushing myself to be ~productive~ when I know it would be better if I just rested. I easily become frustrated with myself under all of these conditions so the creative process lately is associated with a lot of negative feelings for me, which is not a good place to be! If you need time to rest or do other non-art things to raise your mood or feel focused again, the time spent doing that isn’t wasted or unproductive… this is something I’m still trying to accept and implement too.
I really do empathise and I also really admire you for still sharing beautiful content with us and being vulnerable by discussing how you’re feeling. I hope that this ~phase~ passes quickly for you, and until you can find the beauty in this work we’ll be here to see it for you!
What an amazing comment. So kind and compassionate. I really appreciate what you've written, thank you! I hope that you'll find some relief soon too. Hot weather just makes me feel awful, and it's a hard thing for some people to understand when they crave and love the heat of summer!
Hi Natasha! Your video was both lovely and inspiring! I know you said that you weren’t really enjoying your experiments, but I think you have some really lovely and interesting pictures going on here! For example, the one at 1:43 on the salmon-y colored paper would look awesome as a recurring pattern, like on textiles or wallpaper. Also, the one on 4:18 on the purple paper that you had just started, would make an amazing autumnal scene, with the dark and light jewel tones of fall. All this to say, please be encouraged. Even your experiments look cool and interesting! You’re doing a great job! Best of luck!!
Thank you so much, I really appreciate your encouraging words!
Thank you for sharing this,can so relate to the struggles you speak of,I struggled to adapt and change my work after becoming disabled.Creative change takes time,and it is frustrating when something doesn't 'click' but you need to find a way to approach a new direction that works for you,but give yourself the time to make that discovery/change.Natasha you will get there,I know you will because you want to.(Matt)P.s you will have that creative lightbulb moment for your creative future,I totally believe in you
Ah, thanks for the support and encouragement, Matt! I can only imagine the struggles you've gone through. I believe in you too!
@@NatashaNewtonArt thank you Natasha,I hope you can see also how much the community you've created around your TH-cam and Patreon believe in you too,and that in strengthens your belief in yourself as an amazing artist. I think people forget the people they follow on TH-cam are human,and have lives outside of it.I think a this video is going to really resonate with a lot of people as it did with me. but one consistency we both have (as others do) is our art itself if that makes sense,the fact we create art,and I am so thankful for that consistency (Matt) P.s hope you and Dominic are okay and have a great week
Hello Natasha. I have been following you for a while and I can tell that not only your art is changing, but also there is a gravitas in your last 2 videos that was not so present before . I thoroughly enjoy watching all your videos, but the last 2 will have a special place . I am sure all this will lead to something wholly fulfilling but not too demanding on you. I also suffer from a chronic illness, and even though I do not make art for a living I know how demanding it can be even if it is also a source of joy. Good luck and take care .
Natasha…thank you so much for your video. I am not a professional artist but love drawing and painting…just recently I have felt as if I am going backwards , and thought about giving up….and I am also battling with health issues…so your video was perfect and a great reminder that you are never alone. I hope that you will be able to work through it all….and your art is beautiful ❤
Please keep going, slumps like this are only temporary! Don't give up!
You are not alone at all, I’ve definitely been there. Thank you for sharing. x
Thanks Sarah! x
Thank you for this, it's so helpful to see that we are not alone in our struggles.
I am sorry that you are struggling. This summer has been hard for me, too. Most days I just can’t get myself to do anything creative. It feels like so much effort and I don’t have any illnesses. I managed to do a little bit of knitting the other day and it felt good to make something. I love your new work. Thank you for the pep talk. Keep your chin up. You are an amazing artist and you are a great inspiration to me.
Thank you so much, and I hope that you have easier days soon.
1:50 I force myself to upload everything I’m doing good or bad. I’m not trying to be a TH-camr or art influencer, (it’s just my hobby) but I want a record to look back on, and also I don’t want to hold anything too closely. That being said, I do like to see influencers and TH-camrs put their best work forward because it’s very inspiring for me and sets a standard for me to strive for in my learning process.
this is why i am glad in part art is not my work. it is horrible to be a machine most of the time but i dont want to turn drawing or anything creative i find inspiring and life supporting into a tedious task i have to do.
you inspire me, me and hundreds of people. if you draw something you dont like, it is ok. these hundreds will find it useful on their way anyway. and as for you, i think deep down all of artists know there will be another drawing, which they will like
Hello Natasha! Thank you for this video. It is very relatable.
About Pastelmat. Until about 2 years ago I used to work exclusively with coloured pencils. I did try Pastelmat and managed to create two nice drawings but it was a struggle and I didn’t like working on it as I thought it was too “bumpy”. Now I am mostly working with pastels and sometimes I use coloured pencils on top of a base layer of pastels (not a thick one though) to add fine details that I can’t obtain with pastels. It works wonderfully well as the pastel diminishes the “bumps” of the texture and that’s what I didn’t like at all when working with coloured pencils only. I have also tested and the paper takes watercolours and gouache as well. I hope this helps you find a way to achieve the results you are looking for. Once we tame the “beast”, it is a fantastic surface to work on. 🌸
🌸 Thank-you for your honesty.
Many of us struggle with chronic illnesses.
- Something you said reminded me that, “all things pass.”
🌈 Thankyou Natasha ♥️
I know that many artists like to use Pasrelmat paper to create watercolor underpainting and then work with pastels on top
Thank you for being honest, I really appreciate your realness. I'm so stuck with my art at the moment, a real art block and nothing I create pleases me either. When I force myself to create even though I don't feel like it, I feel bored and unsatisfied. I thought about changing materials or subjects, maybe it would help to get me out of this.
I think we dear humans with chronic conditions have a different range of artistic struggles, tied to our diseases. I used to draw everyday, but years after years, while my health was worsening, I found myself more often incapacitated and exhausted, my creativity and growth of course are stunned for longer periods of time, but still, the very thing that keeps me going on is art, particularly having fun with it. ❤ it’s going to be better, rest and try to laugh and have fun as much as possible
Please allow yourself Grace. We all go thru those days of feeling like we have lost our mojo but it does come back. Just know that you’re not alone.
Wow I love those colors! From the beggining of video
I really love the horizontal one at the top of the page with the 2 dark clouds? I love the smokey evocative feeling to the darker, subtle colors. Hang in there, incubation time is scary but important.
Thank you, Danielle!
This is so important for artists to hear. I just started an art channel on TH-cam and my work will take many videos to be completed, my work just doesn’t get done in one video because it’s a process. And the process takes time. And if I’m learning something new… well that could take months! This idea that a masterpiece needs to be completed in one go is unrealistic. So I love that you are learning. I love that you’re sharing the messy middle. Thank you.
Also the work on the paynes grey paper is gorgeous. 😊
I have a chronic illness too and it causes terrible arthritis and my organs struggle. I can't go in the sun too much or too long, and the heat kills me. I can get these awful rashes down the pits of my knees or my sides and arms, hands and face. It has floored me for up to 2 years at a time before.
I tell myself i dont have anything. I find it makes the flare ups fewer. I literally push it out of my head and tell myself im healthy. I refuse to be in the mindset i was in when I was first diagnosed. It makes it worse ive found.
I do need more time to rest and ive put up healthy boundaries to protect my health, but telling myself im healthy, i think, and convincing my head there is nothing wrong has somewhat helped.
I love your art. Its very inspiring
I have very bad chronic fatigue and Copd. It’s been rough over the past five years. I used to be able to paint for hours and hours. Now I’m lucky if I can even get to the easel some days….i love your pieces. I’m sure you will find your way again as long as you move forward
thank you Natasha. Re Pastelmat: it can be awesome for coloured pencils, many of us use it for realistic animal portraits and much more, but it definitely needs getting used to it. I still think your tests looked nice!
Hope everyone gets to enjoy creating again.
I'm not giving up on the Pastelmat! I'm giving it another go today with a slightly different approach. :)
A very honest and thoughtful video that I’m sure most creative people will be able to relate to.
Going through a tricky creative phase like this is almost inevitable when one is pushing oneself to discover something different. It is made doubly challenging when not having enough energy is a factor too.
I’m loving this new direction, and I’m sure you’ll perfect it to the point where you’re happy with it too! I’m delighted with the piece you gave me which you weren’t so sure about! I think you’re definitely on to something, and what you have in your mind’s eye must be amazing if these aren’t quite there yet! 🙌🎨❤😘 xxx
I'm so lucky to have you as my partner! Thank you for all of your encouragement and for believing in me. ❤😘 xxx
This paper is mostly for soft pastels. I have used it with Derwent soft pastel pencils and Stabilo pastel pencils. Combine pastel pencils and soft pastels is very nice. The paper take many layers of colors.
Yes, I actually initially bought it to use with soft pastels, but wanted to try coloured pencils after hearing many good things! I think I know what I'm doing wrong, so will try again. :)
I love the bright colours on the dark background, it looks really effective. I’m going through a frustrating time with my art at the moment too but I think it’s like you, down to feeling inconsistent with health issues xx
It is important to talk about this! Thank you for doing it. A lot of ppl need to hear this again and again. To understand that this is normal. All the best.
Thank you so much!
Oh, this is exactly what I needed tonight xxx
Thoughtful, well-articulated, and well-timed. I just finished hosting a circle of professional writers that meets online every two weeks to talk about challenges, and write from prompts from tarot cards that I pull for them in answer to story questions. This week, we talked about the struggle to do new work, to trust our intuition, to do more, write better, write faster, and why it is so hard. But we are meant to write, and our stories are meant to be told. Just as you are meant to create and share those creations, right? Hugs for the rough spots in the journey.
For what it's worth I thought every single piece you showed on this video were stunning!! I love the style and the colourways 😍
I love your new style. You might not be done developing it yet but many of the works you shared spoke to me, especially the use of the bright warm colours!
Thank you, that's lovely to hear!
your work is absolutely beautiful. Your paintings look vibrant and radiate warmth and happiness. thank you for being honest about the process- it helps me to not feel downhearted at my many failures!
your art really suits the coloured pages! I hope you feel better soon 🥰
Thank you so much!
Thanks for posting this video. Social media often presents a false narrative about the creative process. It is sort of the nature of the medium; an artist sketches out the painting, applies the paint, and viola! Here is the finished work in 10-30 minutes. Even if we logically know that the piece would take several days, emotionally we believe that artist has a talent we will never possess. I frequently watch Andrew Tischler videos and alternately want to immediately paint or immediately put up my brush forever. You are an artist - period. Give yourself a break. You may be struggling with this paper, but you are indeed, on to something new in your work. Maybe some distance and then a second look will help you see it too. I feel like what you started on the peachy(?) colored page was going in a really interesting and fresh direction. The bright green on the purplish sheet (on my screen) might be an opportunity to explore a Fauvist palette. Hang in there, you are experiencing the pangs of growth that I think will pay off. 😘
Thank you!
Totally understand! Keep trying, we must have failures before our successes.
I think that the plants on the salmon-colored paper are beautiful! I love the movement and colors on the page and if it was in my home it would be framed and hung on the wall. 😍
That said, I know how rewarding it is to create art that you enjoy (or at least that you can enjoy while making it), so I hope that you are able to find comfort and ease in your new style sooner than later.
Also, thank you for sharing these thoughts. I found them quite relatable...I have a writing task I have been putting off and am about to sit down and do my best to persevere...
Thank you, Natasha! Blessings to you! ❤
This has been so encouraging to hear. Even though I already know that all these things are true, hearing another artist say it in such an articulate way, really helps me give myself grace for my "failure to produce and sell" my art. Society often puts such pressure on artists to make money from their creativity, and I can be rendered creatively mute for weeks, sometimes months at a time, hearing that frustrating little voice in the back of my mind! But I persevere, and am given the gift of creativity despite my self doubt. Thanks for sharing❤
Hey Natasha! Thank you for sharing this video and being vulnerable. I believe this will video with be comforting and helpful to many!
I too struggle with chronic illness and health problems as an artist. It’s not easy girl! Praying for you friend! God will work things out! Jesus loves you! ❤
Keep creating!!
I really like these new drawings, especially the tree ones with their beautiful bold colours. They seem more raw and more expressive, while still having that calm and peaceful quality. I have been struggling with my art for a year now, and I am also a chronically ill person, but I don't have to make a living from it. 🙂Through my art making, I have learned sometimes you have to consciously lean into uncomfortable feelings, anxiety, doubt, carry on regardless and overcome. - In any case, I see something strong emerging in your drawings.
Thank you for your openness and honesty. These are phases every artist has to go through from time to time. I love your art and your videos.
Thank you so much! I really appreciate that.
Its the perfectionist in us Natasha and our high expectation's that we can do it. These r fab qualities as if a job is worth doing then it should b done the best we can and not half hearted.
I love trying new mediums, papers etc and it is all a learning curve.
Never throw anything away of your art, keep it, as often we look back on it in several years and quite liked it and want to develop ourselves in that medium again.
So when I try any new medium, paints, paper, markers etc, I will use it for a few pieces of art....oh and always do a few swatching sheets before anything else, so as I can get a feel of the medium, including a different sort of paper...... In fact with a new paper I get out a few of every sort of medium I have to see how it works on that paper.
After about of week of making a few pieces, I go back to what I know works for me, in my case its watercolours on hot pressed paper.....this builds my confidence back up and make the negative thoughts of not being any good anymore! Just keeping in mind that the week u r experimenting with new mediums, that u r playing and letting yourself have fun and finding out what u like and dislike of the new medium....making notes on the pieces too of how u felt about it on the art u created...even your swatches.
I hope this helps Natasha....It looks like u have a lot of comments to read already and many encouraging subscribers words...so hopefully we all will lift your good spirits high again.
love Alli XXX
Such wise words and good advice. Thank you, Alli! x
I actually really liked the combination of the artworks you’re showing around 6:00 - the colours complement each other, like a quilt :) Love your honesty, and I hope you feel well ❤️
Thank you so much!
I’m sorry to hear you are feeling the way you are, but perhaps there is time in your journey now that you need to take pause and go inward. Take a break and see what changes. It’s not a bad thing to stop. You are a wonderful artist and you demonstrate so much love and beauty to the world. I hope you will soon feel better ❤️🩹
Definitely needed this on this morning 💗 I think so many people think that there is no effort on an artist's part to create. It is just like every other job, there are good days and bad days, productive days and day to weeks that just feel stagnate. Thank you for telling the truth like always. It is so refreshing.
So true! Thank you. :)
It is so true. Because of social media, we all want to be good immediately, forgetting about the process of learning and trying.
I understand you’re not happy with this new work but I think it’s beautiful! You’re very hard on yourself, Ms. Natasha! Also, on another subject perhaps for your next book list I recommend the most beautiful book I’ve seen in years - Beauty in Bloom Floral Portraits by Debi Shapiro. I think you’d love it.
You're such an open and inspiring woman, and you are not allone! 💕
Thank you so much!
You will overcome! Happy you talk about how all art pieces are not successful. I discard, start over, and am happy when one surprises me making all the failures as simply steps to a goal. Enjoy the struggle as it enhances your work in the end.
you are so honest and open as an artist and it is so refreshing. xo
Thank you, Carol!
Merci beaucoup, dearest Natasha, I think that it takes a good dose of courage and honesty to show us the real thing and struggle that we probably all feel from times to times. My English is not perfect but I am quite sure you understand. Same thing here, fibromyalgia, COPD, IBS and arthroses for me. And of course, this so hot and humid weather all summer, the smoke of the wildfires, everything is so hard when you have to stay inside … with the constant noise of the A/C 😜 But even though it’s hard, I go daily to my drawing desk, play with watercolors, neocolors and watercolors pencils, even if it’s for 20-30 minutes, it’s the best therapy for me ! Thank you so much to show us the way ….. I do hope that you will be feeling better soon, sending you a big huh and good vibes from Quebec 😊
I'm so sorry for your health struggles. Sending a hug!
Goodness I really like that picture you did on the peach page early in the video-the one you write didn’t turn out. It’s fun to me how one person dislikes a piece that another really likes.
What I wouldn't give to be able to get Pastelmat here in Canada. Thanks for this video, it's good to know I'm not the only one who sometimes hates everything I create.
it will pass and you will be fine hang in there - it is tough at times, but be kind to yourself
Hi Natasha, this video really touched me. As someone whose been struggling with chronic health issues. It's been very hard to plan anything. I feel frustrated when I read and hear people talk about routine as the solution to any success. What if I can't create and repeat the same routine? Is it impossible to be successful? I would love to listen to you talk more about working around your illness. I think it is most relatable.
I think understand how you may feel as I with health problems can only work on my art for short periods of time and some days not at all ..I say "I have no beans today " to my family who ask what have I been doing 😁so maybe I need some magic beans hehe .. seriously tho we have to be kind to ourselves and be as patient with ourselves as we would be with others .. the fact we woke up breathing is God sent ..
Thanks for being honest and sharing the struggle. Most artists don’t. 🖤
All so true and I totally feel the same. Thank you for being so honest it really helps others x
I'm so glad you could relate! x
I am sorry you are having a crisis of confidence Natasha xx They are really draining xx Maybe, think about what you said it right at the beginning of this, you've been trying to use a material that isn't designed to work with this particular media. Yes, you're trying to grow, experience new ways of working...but if you've tried and tried (which clearly you have), could it just be that simple? This paper doesn't work with colour pencils, full stop. Try with a different paper, go back to something tried and tested and expand out from there. It's not a defeat, or resting on your laurels, it's experimenting, and not all experiments work do they xx Sending you love as always, and hope autumn eases your symptoms xx
I really liked what you did, especially the dark browns and orange on the blue background. Lots of great ideas for expanding. I'm in a slump, too, and sympathise with not being well. Hugs 💖
Thanks Julie! Hugs to you too. :)
Thank you for sharing your struggles.
What you consider as not good art is so beautiful to me, and I would buy it! I adore every single thing you do. But I understand, if you aren’t happy with it. This too shall pass.
Oh, thank you!
Thank you for sharing Natasha. Maybe this particular paper is not for you. It was worth a try. Your art is growing and moving in a new direction and is still wonderful and beautiful.
Unfortunately, the changes you have made to your patreon, prohibits me continuing because of the monthly cost. Being retired with limited resources it's just too expensive. I'm so sorry I have cancelled my membership.
I completely understand and empathise with you regarding chronic illness impacting your life. I've lived with chronic illness all my life and it is definitely a trial. Keep going, lovely. Your art is amazing x
I love a good honest transparent chat about the realties of what being a full time artist is really like! Thank you for sharing ❤ I know I don’t have the most glamorous art career or tons of customers, but I’m doing ok. I’ve had better years and my art business has been in a “drier” season, so to speak, for a time and I had to pivot and try to new things to secure some more finances like Patreon and hopefully getting my YT monetized one of these days. Starting those new things and sinking so much time and energy into them was tough and there was big learning curve. I’m certain it’ll be worth it even though some days it feels like a slog. If we don’t try the new things we may miss out on wonderful opportunities. Sharing your real experiences with others whether it’s a creative slump, the constant interruptions of health challenges or personal life struggles, it’ll help to others see what it’s really like. Those who have assumed your are living your best life, making the best art and all the money, can see it’s not always sunshine and daisies. Although I know for some folks that is their current truth and they’re doing great, but theyre not doing great ALL the time. Finding success, commercial or just being proud of your body of work, is a long and windy road and rarely a straightforward path❤
Brilliant comment! Wishing you all the best of luck with your endeavours. :)
Do you know Sandi Hesters TH-cam channel? Shes an american artist, also has a chronic disease - and find ways to work regardless, like preparing to paint from the sofa after an operation, and also sometimes talks about how learning new skills requires time to allow ourselves to fail and learn. She is very uplifting and down to earth. i always feel energized and joyful about painting after watching her videos. Cant recommend her enough :) Im pretty sure you will love her too.
I do know Sandi! I've also had to adapt and change the way I work due to my illness, but it forces you to be creative in what you're doing, so even in that there's a positive. Sandi's right about learning new skills and failing/learning etc. :)
Your journey, and sharing it, has been inspiring as well as the reminder of not being alone. Thank you! I'm signing up for your Patreon!
Thank you so much!
thank you I love that you discuss your feelings like this. I think it is something we go through, whether we are as successful as you8 or just want to be's (considering I started later in life, I have to believe that my limited success at this time is due to this, and I can see improvement) In fact going back and doing some of the types of paintings I did early on, really helps me to see that I have improved. Sort of a different subject than yours. Regardless, I love what you have produced and I think it is going to be exciting to see how you develop it further.
Great video, love candid insights into the lives of other artists 😊
I use pastelmat paper for oil pastels it takes a couple of layers before I can blend colours together. Or I do a first layer of gouache.
many sensitive insights, greatly appreciated & timely....ty.
Thank you. :)
Oh contrare …. the green on the purple is lovely. I won’t go into why I think so because we all love art and want to make something….. everyone likes.
I Really REALLY appreciate this video, Natasha, and it’s very encouraging to me to realize all that happens behind the scenes and w/everyday life in your part of the world. I will be lifting you up in prayer over your illness you’ve mentioned and hopefully, you will be back 100%. You are such a Blessing to so many! ❤Your friend Kelli
From Washington State USA
I Do go through very similar things with creating m art - and it Can be discouraging at times. Thank you again for being “Real” about it all.
They look fantastic!
Love your new work. Thank you for sharing your struggles.
Thank you so much!
I’ve been watching from the beginning, admittedly not every week or even month but I do enjoy your videos and chats. I wasn’t aware you had a chronic illness. Not sure if you’ve mentioned it in a prior video and I simply forgot or I haven’t seen that video? Anyway, well bloody done! I know the struggles myself and want to start a channel but I simply struggle with trying to create my art! It’s hard to find a flow when it’s all stops and starts with flare ups. I live with psoriatic arthritis.
Hi Nstasha, I’m so sorry you are struggling with your art at the moment it will come back even better. I always love your work. You have expanded with your colour palette recently, you have got bolder with colour which is really lovely. Maybe Pastel Mat paper isn’t for you, try your ideas on the paper that you love. I applaud you has you have really been trying new material and you should be proud of yourself for giving it a go. Never forget you’re a brilliant artist and you have your own distinct style which is lovely. You will get your mojo back Natasha I’m sure of that. Thankyou for sharing. Sending you lots of love xxx 🥰💗
I love your channel. Thank you for sharing
Natasha a big Thankyou from me for sharing this. I do indeed periodically have these slumps and huge self doubt. The most recent one though seems to be helping me to take the pressure of and really focus on making the work more for myself and trusting others will come along with me. Seeing these new experiments of yours I feel so excited, your use of deep blue backgrounds and bolder compositions is a delight ❤ Do you know the pastel work of Odilon Redon? I expect you do, some of this new work of yours makes me think of his glowing inner gardens.
Oh, thank you Luna! It's so interesting to hear this, as I always think of you as being so talented and prolific. I never thought that you would have slumps like this!
Same everything I look at in my mind it seems that’s totally easy. I could totally do that then I get in front of the paper with my paints and it all goes wrong. 😂😂😂😂😂 thank you for the encouragement. I needed that today. I also struggle with a chronic illness. I have multiple sclerosis for the last 35 years and the heat is not my friend.
Just found you for the 1st time . I love your style and use of colour! Appreciate your honesty and hope you are soon feeling better!
Thank you so much, Kathy!
I love the one you said you overworked! May I have it?😊
Ha ha, thanks Patricia!
Very helpful and honest So nice to hear the reality of art life.
Perfect timing! I feel quite annoyed at the moment.
Wow I literally had the same week…..except my ADHD is my stopper…..procrastination and poor executive function….but I worried that I might never paint again. I have started again and I’m pushing my direction…..sigh. Good weeks and not so good weeks.
BE WELL KEP GOING.
Thanks Jackie!