ITS BRI TV I cried, too; because I could see that little girl inside her, scared and feeling like there’s nowhere to go, no one to talk to....heartbreaking 😢
What you may not realize is that she is already saved by grace through faith in our Lord and savior, Jesus Christ! She may be backsliding, but our faith alone in his mercy and forgiveness is sufficient for her and all of his people! Jesus paid it all on the cross! I currently am struggling with addiction, depression, and self sabotage. One thing I know 100% without a doubt is that his grace is sufficient to me, and when I do sin against him, he is faithful and just to forgive! Amazing Grace! How sweet the sound! That saved a wretch like me! I once was lost, but know I’m found! Was blind, but now I see!
“Forgiveness” isn’t a panacea. *People need to stop telling the victims what ELSE they have to do and further burden them with any more demands than those they already have to bear.* In fact, Righteous Anger is the appropriate response when holding our abusive parents responsible for their failure to protect us. *A lack of anger is not an indicator of Mental Health.* “Forgiveness” is a twisted form of cheap grace so the bystanders, enablers and perps themselves can feel better about themselves: It’s not about our reality, it’s to make *you* feel better. Does anyone tell someone living in a Domestic Violence Shelter to “forgive” their abuser? Hell NO. Yet the most innocent, powerless, voiceless, the smallest victims of Domestic Violence are compelled by these self-anointed self-appointed “do-gooders” to collude with the perps by “forgiving” them by these same jackasses and thereby retraumatizing the VICTIM yet again. This victim has spoken eloquently to the demands made on her to “love” and “forgive” and now you’re seeing the results. What else would you expect when you heap get more demands on a traumatized human being and thereby denying them their most primary right: The Right to Self-Defense and instead tell them they “have to forgive.” OH NO THEY DON’T. NOR SHOULD THEY.
Had me in tears when she say “I got one boy I didn’t want no more kids in life, I asked him not to send me a girl because of what happened to me” poor mama having to think like this😭
I know her mother is in her 70’s now but as a mother I want 5 minutes alone in a room with her. This woman still needs a mother figure. She need a mother love so bad. I just want to hug her.
I hear you loud and clear. I don't condone violence, but in this case and the other people I've seen bare their souls, I wouldn't have a problem hurting the people who hurt them.
Yes and I can say I feel that exact pain, the pain of not knowing why your mother carries you 9 months and can hate you... I had people who never stopped fighting for and thats what she needs
I never understand it. Every time I meet a guy, I imagine if he would give me beautiful daughters (if they don't look like me, lol). I want my daughter to be 10x more beautiful then me, I could never be jealous, only proud!
Yes, the same as happened to my best friend! Her mother was jealous of her all her life, she got molested by her dad, instead of helping her child she was jealous of her! That is just sick!!!!
It happened to me too. Over and over, by my daughter. It made me feeln all kinda bad things about myself first and then her. It happens and it left me feeling awkward about myself. I can’t help the way I look. My daughter is absolutely stunning too. I hate the ugly energy tbh
I can still see the little girl in her begging to be protected, understood and loved. She needed her mother. The little girl in her is unhealed. This is so sad, how can a mother do this to their child?
Ive watched 20 of these already and this is the only one that made me sob. Molestation is the gate way to addiction...and that shit aint a fucking choice!!!
Her pain is not being curbed after all these years. It hurts my heart to know she has such pain. I’m so glad Mark allows her to just talk. He is allowing some of that pain to escape.
I loved her story , shes different from other addicts , I understood every word she said, she still believes in god , she’s still willing to love, she’s still forgiving, she won’t let a man degrade her , she’s not in denial about her addiction ,she wants the help. she’s so strong 😖 I want to see her in a better space .
alright. i want you to understand that most addicts acknowledge their addiction. most addicts are willing to love. most addicts are forgiving. most addicts are strong. most addicts are resilient. most addicts are a victim of outside factors like sexual abuse, homelessness, neglect, childhood trauma, factors that they CANT control. she’s not “different” from other addicts. she’s a victim of circumstance, just like many others.
baby girl I agree not different, just different story as everyone addict or not everyone has their own story . Her pain is raw and the commenter just felt every word from her .
I can see and hear the DEEP pain that this tiny woman with the spirit the size of Goliath carries within her. I love the fact that this woman still has faith and knowledge (just to name a few positive qualities amongst so many!) despite her harsh circumstances. I would love to be able to contact this woman via telephone since I’m in Washington and be a positive person in her life! How can I reach her by telephone Mark?
Crazy to think she is only 57. This woman has been through it. Yet- she has held on to her beautiful beautiful soul....it shines through her. God bless her.
She said she went and curled up on the floor next to her mother on the couch, she wanted her mother to protect her so bad, even though she was an adult 🥺🥺 mothers PROTECT YOUR BABIES!!! They depend on you.
Who else watches Mark’s interview (September 2023) and came straight to Aleesha’s videos. Praying that she’s doing well. Aleesha wherever you are, I love you.
I can't help but to think that her mother didn't see this as molestation. She saw it as her daughter stealing her man. She was jealous. That sucks! She said she never talk about this. This interview gave her a chance to get some things off her chest. I hope it helps her.
It’s something so different about her...even through her being an addict and high.. God has given her something so special and rare. She has spiritual discernment. I pray that God heals and delivers her! In Jesus’ name.
Lauren L Girl I literally cried my eyes out because I’m a victim of sexual abuse and the last thing I could imagine is feeling like the people that should protect me the most doesn’t care. This really hit home for me...omg sorry to get so personal girl!
She maybe on drugs but this woman has all her sense, she knows what she’s talking about. It makes me look at drug addicts differently, everyone has a story to tell.
I am a survivor of many years of molestation. Those who never experienced this are blessed, it feels like someone robbed you of your spirit....your entire outlook on life changes! I chose to forgive them for doing what they did to me and never looked back! I will NEVER be a prisoner in my own mind and body because of things that occurred I had no control over! I chose my future, and to be able to create a beautiful one free of pain and suffering! It's a daily struggle, but my faith in love and my hopes for the future continue to steer me on the road to peace of mind...My heart is with this beautiful soul, I understand, and I will never judge her life decisions! God bless her!! 🙏❤️
I have been molested as well😔 I cried when she said that she forgave him because I, til this day do not forgive the man who molested me. Maybe one day I will open up my heart and say "I forgive you", but right now I just can't.
The fact that she speaks like this under the circumstances of drugs is profound imagine her totally clean….powerful her strength her heart I hope she’s doing better💜
I have watched a lot of these and this one broke my heart. As a father, a man, and a human I couldn't be anymore disappointed in the way this poor woman has been treated.
This is one of the saddest videos. No amount of drugs numbs her pain. Her heart is still loving, even after all she endured. Thank you for giving her a platform to be heard and for giving her love and comfort. God bless you, your work, your interviewees.
My mother used to act like this but i never understood why, Now I'm older and look back i say wow i lived a horrible life but i turned out great. She died from drugs in 08, father just got back on drugs this year, he's still doing good, his house will be paid off end year, but now he's going in a downward spiral. His wife said shes leaving him once the house is paid off so he has somewhere to live. I'm doing great though, i stay away from everyone, me my wife and 3 kids are doing awesome. i bought a house last year, i have a full time job and own a small business. The key of it all is keep your mind busy and always have something to do
I think I keep watching because it appeals to my heart. Too often I can get caught up in my own life and day to day problems thinking of how hard life is how unfair things are. And then I hear their stories and think of how blessed I am. No matter what I went through and how hard life was, I managed to overcome and some people just can't, their fractured souls and bodies can't take more. In reality it was easier for me to live and move forward than to live the way these people live. They've gone so far down they feel they can't get up. So they live each day in persecution thinking that they don't desreve better or can't get better. That's when humanity kicks in and the people who have made it through need to lend a hand and their heart. 💖🙏
I think we watch because we care to understand something that may be beyond our everyday understanding. When we cry or our heart hurts( people say it's your emotions and not your heart, I don't agree because my heart has a pain and heaviness) it reminds us we are human. And just how inhumane people can be. I think we watch because it's the closest way to walking in their shoes we care to get. 💖🙏
This was so intense, but i appreciate it and her authenticity. I know most if not all drug addicts have a story but sheese..hearing hers makes me want to shout and just pray for her. Wish I could give her a hug.
Gosh. Its too much. This human suffering. While the rest of the world just lives like these people dnt even exist. To the author of these videos thank you for giving these troubled precious souls a platform. Its cathartic for many of them.
Im so sorry that she had to go through such trauma. I swear. Its selfosh but these videos give me a headache and make me hug my one son tighter. I wonder what is gping on with her one precious son? Whats he doing in life??
Literally breaks my heart to see and hear her pain. It’s easy for us to judge others not really knowing the underlying hurt. This humbles me 💔 I pray that one day she finds comfort and peace.
I was SA’d from five to eighteen. Called my mom and told her I was hungry. She hung up. Got on crack. Went to rehab once, never picked it up again. I live a good life and keep making good decisions. These people that are sick, I pray for them. But you can’t stay a victim and thrive.
I really have a soft spot her this lady. This is the first story I watched that actually made me cry. You can hear the pain in her voice all that she went through. Gladly she continues to have God in her life I hope she finally recovers and is able to live her life again.
Alisha.... I'm listening to you. I hear you. You're beautiful and kind and true. What you've been through is awful. No child deserves this. Love your inner child ... the way you should have been loved and protected by your mother. We hear you. You can rise above it. I know you can. 💜 Mark... How do you keep doing this without burnout? My heart breaks with each interview. You're a beautiful soul Mark. Thank you.
I saw a more recent video and Mark mentioned Alisha so I looked for her interview. I've watched many of these interviews but this was the first time I felt compelled to comment. The pain that Alisha exudes while she tells her story is gut wrenching. I am a mental health professional so I've literally heard it all but Alisha's humility and vulnerability is admirable. The ability to forgive (not to condone their behavior but to facilitate her own healing) her violators is indicative of a level of emotional intelligence that many of us will never reach. Despite how much pain her mother has caused, Alisha still manages to be kind and loyal to her mother. Alisha if you ever read this... I want you to know that you are an amazing woman. Thank you for telling your story. You are intelligent. You are resilient. You are beautiful inside and out. I am sorry that you never felt heard. I am sorry that you never felt seen. I am sorry that you never felt Ioved. I am sorry that the person that was supposed to protect you the most, failed you. Continue to trust in God and His will. I pray that He continues to keep you safe amongst the chaos.
I remember her interview from a few months ago. She kept talking about the Lord. I loved her interview because she knew what she needed to do. I thought she was going to get clean. Praying for her deliverance.
It’s hard. She is in a lot of pain. She needs to get in some serious therapy and drug treatment and she has to be strong enough to want it and follow through with it
That hug at the end had me crying my eyes out. Thank you for your work, Mark. Thank you for hearing the people who otherwise feel invisible. Thank you for letting them tell their story and relieve some of their pain.
I love this woman’s strength. My mother was molested by her brother often as a child. My grandmother beat her for telling her about it and continuously abused her physically and emotionally until she passed away at 76 years old with dementia. My mother is still affected by all the abuse she endured from her family. Please continue to make these videos. They’re very insightful. ❤️
This molestation is a real catalyst for mental health and drug abuse. Lord help those in these type of situations. It’s so heart breaking. These individuals are so broken and don’t even know how to reach out for help because of the constant trauma done as a child.
Alisha is one of the strongest women i've ever come across in my life. This world has hurt her too many times for one person to survive through, and yet here she is with faith in the lord and herself still and so much love, strength, and bravery in her heart. She is extremely self aware, wise and intelligent. She's both college educated and street smart. Thank you Mark for sharing this amazing woman with the world.
It’s sad that somebody has to put their life story out there for the world to be understanding of their state. A lot of you wouldn’t give a shit without this story, every addict has a story, drugs takes pain away, they all have pain.
Sheree Franklin I don’t think this is my interview so I’m not really obligated to respond, so I’ll pass. But just know I have a right to an opinion and I have a reason for that specific opinion.
I came here to say this! So many people are like “I’ll never judge an addict again..” I don’t get it. This what it takes for you to not turn your head up on people? How about just genuinely knowing everyone is human and has a story! If you e been going your entire life judging people before this... now I’m judging you he ones that said that!
Despite all of the vitriolic turmoil that’s plagued her life, her spirit is still so pure. Thank you for listening to her and giving her this form of therapy.
I’ve followed SWU for years and this is one of the most heart-wrenching interviews I have seen. Alisha has such a pure, lovable soul - her story breaks my heart. I can’t imagine how tough it must be to try to remain composed during an interview like this.
I always felt there was a reason why people use. It’s always a story behind their addiction. This one always gets me. She got a story to tell. And I will always listen. Wish I was there.
“I’m never gonna let you go” omg how heart breaking 😭 God bless you Mark. You are truly making a positive impact in these people’s lives. Thank you for everything you do ❤️
I’m 5 min in and I’m about to cry. Parents hurt their children so badly! She’s in her fifties and she isn’t over it! Mark is helping people that need to talk and to cry!
Alisha reminds me why I love being a therapist, just giving individuals the emotional space to tell their story, to feel HEARD, it just fills my heart.
This interview hit me on another level. The work you are doing is profound and provides life changing insight. Alisha is a unique soul and I wholeheartedly wish for her complete recovery . Thanks for all that you do in skid row Mark, you are inspire us all to be more sympathetic to the possible root causes people who are silently struggling with drug abuse.
I remember her last video, and this one makes me feel the exact same way. Alisha, your testimony is so powerful. I’m sorry for the pain that you have experienced in this life. You are worthy of peace, happiness, & love. I remember you talking about all the things you accomplished prior to meeting your son’s father. You can do it all over again. ❤️🙏🏽 Keeping holding on to the Lord. You remain in my prayers.
Mothers please protect your children. I don’t have any children atm but in the future I do and I will do everything in power to protect mine. This is sad 😔 I hope she continues to believe in God.
The end of this interview took me completely out.... straight water works. She def needed that hug! Her appreciation for just an ear. Her respect of her body! Awareness of her mind. She has a beautiful spirit. Its so messed up that she had to experience that stuff during her childhood! She is broken but can be fixed!
And multiply this by how many.... Everyone has a story, unfortunately the majority gets labeled with just one title.. 'Drug addict..' Just imagine if money wasn't our driving force what we could be capable of.. 'One HUMAN family.'
Mark’s interviews helps us understand the addicts and why they are in such dire and almost hopeless circumstances. For most, their childhoods were horrific and they never knew “normal” or “kindness” from those who were supposed to nurture and protect them. It is hard to dismiss someone when you know his/her story. And who are we to judge them? Marks channel is a bridge to understanding and being compassionate to the “least among us”. ❤️🇨🇦🙏
I would love to hear what all the “pro life” people feel about these type of interviews. You fight so hard for a fetus but what happens when those fetuses are born into a life of sexual, physical, mental, emotional, and even spiritual abuse because people who aren’t mentally capable of giving a child a quality life are forced to have them? Does the life stop mattering once the life that they can actually remember starts?
Why don't other people understand that there are CERTAIN TYPES OF PEOPLE WHO SHOULD NOT HAVE CHILDREN, THESE PEOPLE SHOULDN'T HAVE PETS!!! Why can a person keep having children while on drugs, alcohol, abusive homes. I also think Social Services should take a look at a person who has children they can't support. I understand being poor but a person who keeps having kids for other people to support is not ok. I think if the government has to pay than the government should be able to decide when a woman should have her tubes tied. Hopefully It's not seen as a race issue because horrible parents come in all colors, it's a moral issue. There are women having children and children having children who should not be procreating. And if one child gets taken away or the parents are under investigation(because we know how tough it is to get someone to show up and check on the welfare of children) why can they keep having more kids? My job came with a LEGAL OBLIGATION to report child abuse. Maybe more people should be held legally responsible for reporting. Little Gabriel Fernandez will never leave my mind or heart.
Sophia Tisdale his story brought me to tears especially knowing how many children have suffered his same fate. I’m pro choice but I completely agree with what you’re saying. Everybody should not be allowed to keep making babies that they can’t afford to or don’t have the mental well being to. Not even just on an abusive level although it happens more often than not but you also have to think about people who aren’t financially stable constantly having kids putting them in poverty here in America. (Thanks capitalism) Something really needs to change and I understand the workload that social service workers have and that’s why I feel it’s more so the government’s responsibility to not only pay these people more than what they’re payed but also give them more resources. Not making excuses for the negligent social workers tho because at the end of the day when you choose a job like that you need to take these children’s lives more seriously. It’s just an all around sad issue and I don’t view it as a race thing I view it as an economical thing. Children from all races born into a lower class unfortunately have a higher chance of these things happening to them. Sad world.
Nykesia Jones, we're sisters on a different level, one thing comes to mind. Did you see the step CPS took on cases were they were gonna be jailed for not doing their job? . Give them more resources and more pay but, HAVE IT ALSO HANG OVER THEIR HEADS AND ON THEIR SHOULDERS THAT THEY ARE LEGALLY AND MORALLY RESPONSIBLE. IF WE SEE EACH CHILD AS OUR OWN THAN WE AS REAL HUMAN BEINGS WANT THE BEST FOR THEM. But, unfortunately I can come up with ideas but implementing them is a whole other story. I did what I could do when I could emotionally and financially, but love things change so now the only thing I have left is payers
This is an interesting comment on your part. A few years back (on an HBO doc on abortion) a doctor said something that stuck with me. He commented on his days of working in Brazilian hospitals. He said that the cases of severe child abuse, child rape etc, were LEAPS AND BOUNDS worse than areas where abortion is legal. These pro-life fools don't think about the life past the actual fetus. Abortion should be WAY more accessible and definitely cheaper. Not saying these poor people don't deserve their lives - that's only God's place to say, not mine. However, your comment makes you think!
AFTER ALL HER MOM DID TO HER, she still loved her and will respect her, and protect her. My GOD!!!! This lady is the perfect example of PURE LOVE. God bless you x3000 and forever, and he does have his arms around you. God will take care of you, be not dismayed.
Hello this just tore me up the pain is so raw as if it happened yesterday.PLEASE give an update on her. She truly appreciates you and what you're doing is a good thing. BC of you she is getting control of her life she doesn't want to let you down. Bless her heart....ty for all that you do God will continue to bless and cover you Mark!
I have to admit this was hard for me to watch but I'm glad I did. This poor woman is so tortured by her childhood and drug abuse. By the end I was in tears for her pain and loneliness telling Mark "I'll never let him out of her life" and how therapeutic it was to have someone listen to her and care about her! She literally had nobody who cares but still fights the fight! Damn, I'm humbled by her!
"I can't go home..them demons will get me there...i know Aleesha...i know...your mother is a malignant narcissist and demonically posessed. So genuine, so moving.
When she said her mom played like she was asleep. I knew this was all facts, smh. Molestation is around and even harder than in the 80s , i never thought that could be possible.
Such a sweet, beautiful woman. Thank you Mark for demonstrating love and understanding to her. Even if it was for a brief period of time while she was here. The fact you're willing to put aside the judgements from society, and your preconceived notions, shows how open you are and willing to learn. I can't imagine the impact it has on you, personally. She was so hurt and had such a terrible life. It proves how much parenting has such a profound impact on our kids and our society. I remember watching this when you first posted it. I came back to revisit after you mentioned it in your interview today. I appreicate your channel Mark, I really do. There is so much to learn. More than some people can probably comprehend. Psychology is a fascinating thing. I myself have learned SO MUCH. You are a lot like me in that aspect. I love finding different things to learn about and be introduced to.
Omg. I have watch ever single interview you have posted on TH-cam while they are all unfortunate and I sympathize with everyone. This was the only one that made me cry and pray and pray and cry. 4 yrs later and I am still posting under this interview trying to get someone to put me in touch with this lady. I never forgot about her.
The pain in her voice and her convictions are so strong. How could someone not be messed up in the head after all she's beem through. Definite pain and PTSD. I really hope she finds her version of happiness and it's made out for her in the world. She's suffered enough and is trying to help herself. Part 2 will be another rollercoaster. My girlfriend asked me why I watch your videos and I said because each is a documentary in my mind as I hear each story. Each life could be a chapter in a book. This here has changed some people's opinions on addiction and passing judgement on others. I really commend you, Mark. You're doing a great thing here.
This makes my soul hurt so much. There are people that have so much money they couldn’t spend it in ten lifetimes. This child of god needs help. How do we live in a world like this? How have we fallen this far? Please god forgive us.
“Don’t ask why the addiction, ask why the pain”. Gabor Maté. My heart breaks for her.
Me also
HER ADDICTION COMES FROM TRYING TO HIDE HER PAIN AND WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO HER.
You can hear her pain especially when she said “a mother is supposed to protect her child”. 😩
ITS BRI TV I cried the moment she said that 😪
ITS BRI TV I cried, too; because I could see that little girl inside her, scared and feeling like there’s nowhere to go, no one to talk to....heartbreaking 😢
Yes
Girl she was BREAKING my heart...
God i felt that... I can't even go on after that. It just broke me down. I am so sorry. Healing and light to her
The fact that’s she’s on drugs but she knows her truth . She’s still aware , she’s not in denial . She can be saved and i pray that she will be
In Jesus's name, Amen🙏🏾
U got that right
Amen!
What you may not realize is that she is already saved by grace through faith in our Lord and savior, Jesus Christ! She may be backsliding, but our faith alone in his mercy and forgiveness is sufficient for her and all of his people! Jesus paid it all on the cross! I currently am struggling with addiction, depression, and self sabotage. One thing I know 100% without a doubt is that his grace is sufficient to me, and when I do sin against him, he is faithful and just to forgive! Amazing Grace! How sweet the sound! That saved a wretch like me! I once was lost, but know I’m found! Was blind, but now I see!
@@Crazyjn Preach! Word!😇🥰
Alisha is more lucid than many people not on drugs. Her wisdom is just unbelievable.
She forgave her abuser.. bless this woman.
She's better than me.. fk this abusers!!! May they burn in hell
“Forgiveness” isn’t a panacea. *People need to stop telling the victims what ELSE they have to do and further burden them with any more demands than those they already have to bear.* In fact, Righteous Anger is the appropriate response when holding our abusive parents responsible for their failure to protect us.
*A lack of anger is not an indicator of Mental Health.* “Forgiveness” is a twisted form of cheap grace so the bystanders, enablers and perps themselves can feel better about themselves: It’s not about our reality, it’s to make *you* feel better. Does anyone tell someone living in a Domestic Violence Shelter to “forgive” their abuser? Hell NO. Yet the most innocent, powerless, voiceless, the smallest victims of Domestic Violence are compelled by these self-anointed self-appointed “do-gooders” to collude with the perps by “forgiving” them by these same jackasses and thereby retraumatizing the VICTIM yet again. This victim has spoken eloquently to the demands made on her to “love” and “forgive” and now you’re seeing the results. What else would you expect when you heap get more demands on a traumatized human being and thereby denying them their most primary right: The Right to Self-Defense and instead tell them they “have to forgive.” OH NO THEY DON’T. NOR SHOULD THEY.
I can’t even forgive mine and I see him . It infuriates me that my dad said he didn’t believe me
@@tundrawomansays5067Thank you!!!
OMG the pain this lady has went through!! My heart breaks hearing her story!! Lord ease her pain!!!!😢😢😢😢😢
Had me in tears when she say “I got one boy I didn’t want no more kids in life, I asked him not to send me a girl because of what happened to me” poor mama having to think like this😭
Von Von I felt her when she said this...
I didn't have any kids cause of my past and I'll be 47 may 1st!!!!!!
@@ChitownhomesteadSAME I'm 37! Grew up with too much dysfunction and abuse ;(
"I don't know what it was about me that my mom allowed a lot of things to happen to me" is heart wrenching. She still feels like it's her fault.
I know her mother is in her 70’s now but as a mother I want 5 minutes alone in a room with her. This woman still needs a mother figure. She need a mother love so bad. I just want to hug her.
I hear you loud and clear. I don't condone violence, but in this case and the other people I've seen bare their souls, I wouldn't have a problem hurting the people who hurt them.
Her mother totally failed her!! Shes a pos and just as bad as the abusers!!!!
@@Chitownhomestead I think someone failed her mother as well. There is usually generational abuse happening in these situations.
Amen!
Yes and I can say I feel that exact pain, the pain of not knowing why your mother carries you 9 months and can hate you... I had people who never stopped fighting for and thats what she needs
Jealous mothers exist. It’s a shame but some mothers can’t handle a younger beautiful daughter. Praying for you lovely lady ❤️
Ro sie it’s like movie Precious
I never understand it. Every time I meet a guy, I imagine if he would give me beautiful daughters (if they don't look like me, lol). I want my daughter to be 10x more beautiful then me, I could never be jealous, only proud!
Yes, the same as happened to my best friend! Her mother was jealous of her all her life, she got molested by her dad, instead of helping her child she was jealous of her! That is just sick!!!!
It happened to me too. Over and over, by my daughter.
It made me feeln all kinda bad things about myself first and then her. It happens and it left me feeling awkward about myself. I can’t help the way I look. My daughter is absolutely stunning too.
I hate the ugly energy tbh
I can still see the little girl in her begging to be protected, understood and loved. She needed her mother. The little girl in her is unhealed. This is so sad, how can a mother do this to their child?
It’s a cycle love. This must’ve happened to her mom too
J.Modelesque Not necessarily at all. What a trite, simplistic fallacy.
TundraWoman Says because you would know right ? Okay 😂
Right! I said the same thing 😞
Intergenerational trauma.
The pain in her voice has me in tears😭😭 how can some parents be so evil???
Me too. I’m sitting here balling.
When mom and dad were molested too. I found out after they died. Just let it go forger and move on. I won't be a victim.
Ive watched 20 of these already and this is the only one that made me sob.
Molestation is the gate way to addiction...and that shit aint a fucking choice!!!
I would love to just give her a hug and tell her that I love her. She has me in tears with her story,God love her.
Her pain is not being curbed after all these years. It hurts my heart to know she has such pain. I’m so glad Mark allows her to just talk. He is allowing some of that pain to escape.
I loved her story , shes different from other addicts , I understood every word she said, she still believes in god , she’s still willing to love, she’s still forgiving, she won’t let a man degrade her , she’s not in denial about her addiction ,she wants the help. she’s so strong 😖 I want to see her in a better space .
alright. i want you to understand that most addicts acknowledge their addiction. most addicts are willing to love. most addicts are forgiving. most addicts are strong. most addicts are resilient. most addicts are a victim of outside factors like sexual abuse, homelessness, neglect, childhood trauma, factors that they CANT control. she’s not “different” from other addicts. she’s a victim of circumstance, just like many others.
baby girl I agree not different, just different story as everyone addict or not everyone has their own story . Her pain is raw and the commenter just felt every word from her .
baby girl she’s not different just batshit crazy 😜
Leanda D_g batshit crazy stems from somewhere you nitwit lmao. people aren’t BORN crazy
I can see and hear the DEEP pain that this tiny woman with the spirit the size of Goliath carries within her. I love the fact that this woman still has faith and knowledge (just to name a few positive qualities amongst so many!) despite her harsh circumstances. I would love to be able to contact this woman via telephone since I’m in Washington and be a positive person in her life! How can I reach her by telephone Mark?
Crazy to think she is only 57. This woman has been through it. Yet- she has held on to her beautiful beautiful soul....it shines through her.
God bless her.
sammirolo She looks much older wow
She said she went and curled up on the floor next to her mother on the couch, she wanted her mother to protect her so bad, even though she was an adult 🥺🥺 mothers PROTECT YOUR BABIES!!! They depend on you.
Aesha Alberts Too late. They still abuse and neglect us.
Who else watches Mark’s interview (September 2023) and came straight to Aleesha’s videos. Praying that she’s doing well.
Aleesha wherever you are, I love you.
Here!! Me😢
@@Mimlou is this u
I can't help but to think that her mother didn't see this as molestation. She saw it as her daughter stealing her man. She was jealous. That sucks! She said she never talk about this. This interview gave her a chance to get some things off her chest. I hope it helps her.
Yes I see it like that too
I pray she finds her path to peace
I agree
That’s some precious vibes
The curse of having a narcissist as a mother
I was raped and molested as a child. I would never forgive my abuser. What a strong woman. Her spirit shines like the sun.
No one has made me feel their pain the way she did. My heart is on the floor.
It’s something so different about her...even through her being an addict and high.. God has given her something so special and rare. She has spiritual discernment. I pray that God heals and delivers her! In Jesus’ name.
Amen.
AMEN.🗣🗣
Amen!!🗣
Amen
Part 2 shows how she stayed clean 14 years and had great success from building her relationship with God 🙏🙏
All she needed was someone to listen and hear her hurt 💔
Omg. Yes. That ending 😞. She said it was therapeutic to her. 😞
Lauren L Girl I literally cried my eyes out because I’m a victim of sexual abuse and the last thing I could imagine is feeling like the people that should protect me the most doesn’t care. This really hit home for me...omg sorry to get so personal girl!
@@IAmHazelKior girl you are just fine!! These videos will definitely do that to you! Much love to you ❤
Yoo the pain
Thandi King Right just to hear the distress in her voice breaks my heart!
She maybe on drugs but this woman has all her sense, she knows what she’s talking about. It makes me look at drug addicts differently, everyone has a story to tell.
I am a survivor of many years of molestation. Those who never experienced this are blessed, it feels like someone robbed you of your spirit....your entire outlook on life changes! I chose to forgive them for doing what they did to me and never looked back! I will NEVER be a prisoner in my own mind and body because of things that occurred I had no control over! I chose my future, and to be able to create a beautiful one free of pain and suffering! It's a daily struggle, but my faith in love and my hopes for the future continue to steer me on the road to peace of mind...My heart is with this beautiful soul, I understand, and I will never judge her life decisions! God bless her!! 🙏❤️
I have been molested as well😔 I cried when she said that she forgave him because I, til this day do not forgive the man who molested me. Maybe one day I will open up my heart and say "I forgive you", but right now I just can't.
Baby Girl Amen🥺
The strength you have to share your story is incredible!! God bless you
May God bless you! 🙏
@@TiannaMarie. It feels like we are forced to "forgive" if we want a key to the gates...
The fact that she is crying , with every memory is TRUTH 😔😔 , YOU CAN tell she is hurting
The fact that she speaks like this under the circumstances of drugs is profound imagine her totally clean….powerful her strength her heart I hope she’s doing better💜
I have watched a lot of these and this one broke my heart. As a father, a man, and a human I couldn't be anymore disappointed in the way this poor woman has been treated.
I know, right?! 😭😪😭
This is one of the saddest videos. No amount of drugs numbs her pain. Her heart is still loving, even after all she endured. Thank you for giving her a platform to be heard and for giving her love and comfort. God bless you, your work, your interviewees.
Thank you for letting her speak her story without questions but to LISTEN her speak her truth and hurt she has gone through. 😢😢
i agree with you. I feel like 99.9% of the world doesn't even acknowledge these people as human anymore. These interviews help them feel human again.
Yes I’m sure it freed her up some
My mother used to act like this but i never understood why, Now I'm older and look back i say wow i lived a horrible life but i turned out great. She died from drugs in 08, father just got back on drugs this year, he's still doing good, his house will be paid off end year, but now he's going in a downward spiral. His wife said shes leaving him once the house is paid off so he has somewhere to live. I'm doing great though, i stay away from everyone, me my wife and 3 kids are doing awesome. i bought a house last year, i have a full time job and own a small business. The key of it all is keep your mind busy and always have something to do
Many blessings and much happiness to you & your wife/kids always.
I'm so proud of you and your accomplishments. It's rough living in a home with such turmoil. God bless you and your family💖
Live Live Love You Amen God Bless You!👏🏽👏🏽
Blessings in abundance ✊🏽
💕💕
I don’t know why I keep watching these. My soul cries every time seeing emotions so profound.
Cette Yayo I keep watching them too🥺😳
Cette Yayo I watch them because it’s good to see how dark the world truly is and it’s a fat piece of humble
Pie when I become ungrateful
I think I keep watching because it appeals to my heart. Too often I can get caught up in my own life and day to day problems thinking of how hard life is how unfair things are. And then I hear their stories and think of how blessed I am. No matter what I went through and how hard life was, I managed to overcome and some people just can't, their fractured souls and bodies can't take more. In reality it was easier for me to live and move forward than to live the way these people live. They've gone so far down they feel they can't get up. So they live each day in persecution thinking that they don't desreve better or can't get better. That's when humanity kicks in and the people who have made it through need to lend a hand and their heart. 💖🙏
Be cause some I can relate to. Other stories help me to better understand and not be quick to judge. The stories keep me humble and grateful.
I think we watch because we care to understand something that may be beyond our everyday understanding. When we cry or our heart hurts( people say it's your emotions and not your heart, I don't agree because my heart has a pain and heaviness) it reminds us we are human. And just how inhumane people can be. I think we watch because it's the closest way to walking in their shoes we care to get. 💖🙏
This was so intense, but i appreciate it and her authenticity. I know most if not all drug addicts have a story but sheese..hearing hers makes me want to shout and just pray for her. Wish I could give her a hug.
Lord the tears 😔😢🙏🏽
Gosh. Its too much. This human suffering. While the rest of the world just lives like these people dnt even exist. To the author of these videos thank you for giving these troubled precious souls a platform. Its cathartic for many of them.
Im so sorry that she had to go through such trauma. I swear. Its selfosh but these videos give me a headache and make me hug my one son tighter. I wonder what is gping on with her one precious son? Whats he doing in life??
Literally breaks my heart to see and hear her pain. It’s easy for us to judge others not really knowing the underlying hurt. This humbles me 💔 I pray that one day she finds comfort and peace.
I love how she was so prideful in her seamtress/fashion work.
She has me sobbing 😢 she's stuck in childhood, in her trauma... she deserved love and protection then and deserves it still.
I was SA’d from five to eighteen. Called my mom and told her I was hungry. She hung up. Got on crack. Went to rehab once, never picked it up again. I live a good life and keep making good decisions. These people that are sick, I pray for them. But you can’t stay a victim and thrive.
I really have a soft spot her this lady. This is the first story I watched that actually made me cry. You can hear the pain in her voice all that she went through. Gladly she continues to have God in her life I hope she finally recovers and is able to live her life again.
She needed her mother to comfort and believe her.
Yes. I can still see the little girl in her begging to be protected and loved and understood
All of us do and did. And those bitches *FAILED.*
Alisha....
I'm listening to you. I hear you. You're beautiful and kind and true. What you've been through is awful. No child deserves this. Love your inner child ... the way you should have been loved and protected by your mother.
We hear you.
You can rise above it.
I know you can. 💜
Mark... How do you keep doing this without burnout? My heart breaks with each interview.
You're a beautiful soul Mark. Thank you.
I saw a more recent video and Mark mentioned Alisha so I looked for her interview. I've watched many of these interviews but this was the first time I felt compelled to comment. The pain that Alisha exudes while she tells her story is gut wrenching. I am a mental health professional so I've literally heard it all but Alisha's humility and vulnerability is admirable. The ability to forgive (not to condone their behavior but to facilitate her own healing) her violators is indicative of a level of emotional intelligence that many of us will never reach. Despite how much pain her mother has caused, Alisha still manages to be kind and loyal to her mother.
Alisha if you ever read this... I want you to know that you are an amazing woman. Thank you for telling your story. You are intelligent. You are resilient. You are beautiful inside and out. I am sorry that you never felt heard. I am sorry that you never felt seen. I am sorry that you never felt Ioved. I am sorry that the person that was supposed to protect you the most, failed you. Continue to trust in God and His will. I pray that He continues to keep you safe amongst the chaos.
I wasn't crying until I read yoir comment. I too have hear it all working in mental health and your words are beautiful ❤
She's the one that needed and deserved that go fund me.
Red Rum definitely agree!!! Not saying I’ve deserved it more than the next but she MOST DEFINITELY needs one!!
Red Rum start one
@@misslucky85 how would I give her the funds??? Its not that easy to start one up and send funds to someone in a different state.
I completely agree. How do we start a fund for her?
Yes God 💜
oh my... this is brutal, I am so, so sorry for this poor woman.
This is what abuse does to people.
I remember her interview from a few months ago. She kept talking about the Lord. I loved her interview because she knew what she needed to do. I thought she was going to get clean. Praying for her deliverance.
Cree Cornelius me too it seems she's gotten worse but sometimes right before a breakthrough things get worse.!!
It’s hard. She is in a lot of pain. She needs to get in some serious therapy and drug treatment and she has to be strong enough to want it and follow through with it
It's not that easy.
That hug at the end had me crying my eyes out. Thank you for your work, Mark. Thank you for hearing the people who otherwise feel invisible. Thank you for letting them tell their story and relieve some of their pain.
I had to pause this video a few times. The pain in this Queen’s voice is devastating. I just want to hug her 😢
Wow Mark you're taking loads of pressure off of these peoples minds. You're a Blessing. Thank you
Poor Angel, Lord please protect her and heal her🥺
I love this woman’s strength. My mother was molested by her brother often as a child. My grandmother beat her for telling her about it and continuously abused her physically and emotionally until she passed away at 76 years old with dementia. My mother is still affected by all the abuse she endured from her family. Please continue to make these videos. They’re very insightful. ❤️
This is my Mother’s Story As Well
This is mothers story as well .. sending love
This molestation is a real catalyst for mental health and drug abuse. Lord help those in these type of situations. It’s so heart breaking. These individuals are so broken and don’t even know how to reach out for help because of the constant trauma done as a child.
this broke my heart. made me cry, God bless her beautiful soul.
Alisha is one of the strongest women i've ever come across in my life. This world has hurt her too many times for one person to survive through, and yet here she is with faith in the lord and herself still and so much love, strength, and bravery in her heart. She is extremely self aware, wise and intelligent. She's both college educated and street smart. Thank you Mark for sharing this amazing woman with the world.
It’s sad that somebody has to put their life story out there for the world to be understanding of their state. A lot of you wouldn’t give a shit without this story, every addict has a story, drugs takes pain away, they all have pain.
Have you ever been on drugs?
Sheree Franklin I don’t think this is my interview so I’m not really obligated to respond, so I’ll pass. But just know I have a right to an opinion and I have a reason for that specific opinion.
I came here to say this! So many people are like “I’ll never judge an addict again..” I don’t get it. This what it takes for you to not turn your head up on people? How about just genuinely knowing everyone is human and has a story! If you e been going your entire life judging people before this... now I’m judging you he ones that said that!
this is truly a angel in disguise Lord bless her
Despite all of the vitriolic turmoil that’s plagued her life, her spirit is still so pure. Thank you for listening to her and giving her this form of therapy.
I’ve followed SWU for years and this is one of the most heart-wrenching interviews I have seen.
Alisha has such a pure, lovable soul - her story breaks my heart. I can’t imagine how tough it must be to try to remain composed during an interview like this.
I always felt there was a reason why people use. It’s always a story behind their addiction. This one always gets me. She got a story to tell. And I will always listen. Wish I was there.
She’s been through hell, but she still has her beautiful soul. Bless you sister 💜
"My mother, it's all because of her"
That HURT.
Yes, Lord. My goodness!
*THAT’S TRUTH.* And still most of you turn away.
“I’m never gonna let you go” omg how heart breaking 😭 God bless you Mark. You are truly making a positive impact in these people’s lives. Thank you for everything you do ❤️
Poor thing you can see the pain and trauma all over i hope she overcomes this struggle.
I hope and pray she finds healing and comfort🍃
Soooo many parents failed these kids which turn out to be adults w unresolved issues... sooo sad😡☹😡
I’m 5 min in and I’m about to cry. Parents hurt their children so badly! She’s in her fifties and she isn’t over it! Mark is helping people that need to talk and to cry!
What an incredible man you are. Thank you for hugging her. And showing her love.
She will forever hold a place in my heart, my mind. I hope she has let go, and realizes how truly special she is, and with her story can help so many.
Awww, Can we get an update on her if possible, since you put these shorts out, now we can see what these interviews are about ! 👍
😭😭 this was so heartbreaking, prayers to her, thanks for giving her that hug,she definitely needed it
Alisha reminds me why I love being a therapist, just giving individuals the emotional space to tell their story, to feel HEARD, it just fills my heart.
This totally and completely touched my heart. I just want to hug her and never let her go.
This interview hit me on another level. The work you are doing is profound and provides life changing insight. Alisha is a unique soul and I wholeheartedly wish for her complete recovery . Thanks for all that you do in skid row Mark, you are inspire us all to be more sympathetic to the possible root causes people who are silently struggling with drug abuse.
I remember her last video, and this one makes me feel the exact same way. Alisha, your testimony is so powerful. I’m sorry for the pain that you have experienced in this life. You are worthy of peace, happiness, & love. I remember you talking about all the things you accomplished prior to meeting your son’s father. You can do it all over again. ❤️🙏🏽 Keeping holding on to the Lord. You remain in my prayers.
Mothers please protect your children. I don’t have any children atm but in the future I do and I will do everything in power to protect mine. This is sad 😔 I hope she continues to believe in God.
The end of this interview took me completely out.... straight water works. She def needed that hug! Her appreciation for just an ear. Her respect of her body! Awareness of her mind. She has a beautiful spirit. Its so messed up that she had to experience that stuff during her childhood! She is broken but can be fixed!
And multiply this by how many.... Everyone has a story, unfortunately the majority gets labeled with just one title.. 'Drug addict..' Just imagine if money wasn't our driving force what we could be capable of.. 'One HUMAN family.'
Mark’s interviews helps us understand the addicts and why they are in such dire and almost hopeless circumstances. For most, their childhoods were horrific and they never knew “normal” or “kindness” from those who were supposed to nurture and protect them. It is hard to dismiss someone when you know his/her story. And who are we to judge them? Marks channel is a bridge to understanding and being compassionate to the “least among us”. ❤️🇨🇦🙏
The Lord will welcome her into the next life. No pain.
Ya definitely. He must of been on his lunchbreak when and whilst she was being molested.
@@jessicajennifer9827 No, he was there. Will ALWAYS be there.
@@jessicajennifer9827 stupid comment. This life is a test for all.
@@aimancheikhali1707 The only STUPID one is you mouth breathers with an imaginary friend past the age of five
Its no wonder the lot of you need a shepherd. Sheep and inherently know to be a dumb beast. It suits the lot of you so perfectly
I would love to hear what all the “pro life” people feel about these type of interviews. You fight so hard for a fetus but what happens when those fetuses are born into a life of sexual, physical, mental, emotional, and even spiritual abuse because people who aren’t mentally capable of giving a child a quality life are forced to have them? Does the life stop mattering once the life that they can actually remember starts?
nykesia Jones facts!
Why don't other people understand that there are CERTAIN TYPES OF PEOPLE WHO SHOULD NOT HAVE CHILDREN, THESE PEOPLE SHOULDN'T HAVE PETS!!! Why can a person keep having children while on drugs, alcohol, abusive homes. I also think Social Services should take a look at a person who has children they can't support. I understand being poor but a person who keeps having kids for other people to support is not ok. I think if the government has to pay than the government should be able to decide when a woman should have her tubes tied. Hopefully It's not seen as a race issue because horrible parents come in all colors, it's a moral issue. There are women having children and children having children who should not be procreating. And if one child gets taken away or the parents are under investigation(because we know how tough it is to get someone to show up and check on the welfare of children) why can they keep having more kids? My job came with a LEGAL OBLIGATION to report child abuse. Maybe more people should be held legally responsible for reporting. Little Gabriel Fernandez will never leave my mind or heart.
Sophia Tisdale his story brought me to tears especially knowing how many children have suffered his same fate. I’m pro choice but I completely agree with what you’re saying. Everybody should not be allowed to keep making babies that they can’t afford to or don’t have the mental well being to. Not even just on an abusive level although it happens more often than not but you also have to think about people who aren’t financially stable constantly having kids putting them in poverty here in America. (Thanks capitalism) Something really needs to change and I understand the workload that social service workers have and that’s why I feel it’s more so the government’s responsibility to not only pay these people more than what they’re payed but also give them more resources. Not making excuses for the negligent social workers tho because at the end of the day when you choose a job like that you need to take these children’s lives more seriously. It’s just an all around sad issue and I don’t view it as a race thing I view it as an economical thing. Children from all races born into a lower class unfortunately have a higher chance of these things happening to them. Sad world.
Nykesia Jones, we're sisters on a different level, one thing comes to mind. Did you see the step CPS took on cases were they were gonna be jailed for not doing their job? . Give them more resources and more pay but, HAVE IT ALSO HANG OVER THEIR HEADS AND ON THEIR SHOULDERS THAT THEY ARE LEGALLY AND MORALLY RESPONSIBLE. IF WE SEE EACH CHILD AS OUR OWN THAN WE AS REAL HUMAN BEINGS WANT THE BEST FOR THEM. But, unfortunately I can come up with ideas but implementing them is a whole other story. I did what I could do when I could emotionally and financially, but love things change so now the only thing I have left is payers
This is an interesting comment on your part. A few years back (on an HBO doc on abortion) a doctor said something that stuck with me. He commented on his days of working in Brazilian hospitals. He said that the cases of severe child abuse, child rape etc, were LEAPS AND BOUNDS worse than areas where abortion is legal. These pro-life fools don't think about the life past the actual fetus. Abortion should be WAY more accessible and definitely cheaper. Not saying these poor people don't deserve their lives - that's only God's place to say, not mine. However, your comment makes you think!
This clip made me cry, I Love how you gave her a hug. Sometimes people just need to be loved and she is in so much pain, it broke my heart.
AFTER ALL HER MOM DID TO HER, she still loved her and will respect her, and protect her. My GOD!!!! This lady is the perfect example of PURE LOVE. God bless you x3000 and forever, and he does have his arms around you. God will take care of you, be not dismayed.
I'm speechless. I held back tears ....... all the way until that ending. Gut wrenching and truly beautiful, all at the same time. ❤
Hello this just tore me up the pain is so raw as if it happened yesterday.PLEASE give an update on her. She truly appreciates you and what you're doing is a good thing. BC of you she is getting control of her life she doesn't want to let you down. Bless her heart....ty for all that you do God will continue to bless and cover you Mark!
I LOVE THIS WOMAN AND I'M EARNESTLY PRAYING FOR HER SINCE HER 1ST VIDEO
I’m gonna hold my daughters a little closer because of her 😭
I love her 💔💔
I have to admit this was hard for me to watch but I'm glad I did. This poor woman is so tortured by her childhood and drug abuse. By the end I was in tears for her pain and loneliness telling Mark "I'll never let him out of her life" and how therapeutic it was to have someone listen to her and care about her! She literally had nobody who cares but still fights the fight! Damn, I'm humbled by her!
"I can't go home..them demons will get me there...i know Aleesha...i know...your mother is a malignant narcissist and demonically posessed.
So genuine, so moving.
I hope she writes a book! Survivor.
Salute, Miss Lady.
Her mother reminds me of mine. I was abused and neglected and even to this day, she denies it so much, she doesn't even acknowledge my suffering.
My mother was and still is the same way you are not alone
her story never changed and i will always root for her to get better and be better ❤️🗣❗️
Oh man the knowledge pouring out of her is crazy ! I can hear her pain.
When she said her mom played like she was asleep. I knew this was all facts, smh. Molestation is around and even harder than in the 80s , i never thought that could be possible.
This is soo powerful like ... You can feel the HURT guys .. i'm crying listening to this women story . God bless her !!!
Her Mother sounds a lot like my mother. She’s always asking me why do I think I became an addict?
This woman here out of all these stories I've watched it's just something about her story that shook something in me God bless her!!!!
Such a sweet, beautiful woman. Thank you Mark for demonstrating love and understanding to her. Even if it was for a brief period of time while she was here.
The fact you're willing to put aside the judgements from society, and your preconceived notions, shows how open you are and willing to learn. I can't imagine the impact it has on you, personally.
She was so hurt and had such a terrible life. It proves how much parenting has such a profound impact on our kids and our society.
I remember watching this when you first posted it. I came back to revisit after you mentioned it in your interview today.
I appreicate your channel Mark, I really do. There is so much to learn. More than some people can probably comprehend. Psychology is a fascinating thing.
I myself have learned SO MUCH. You are a lot like me in that aspect. I love finding different things to learn about and be introduced to.
😢😢😢😢 I don’t even have any words😩😩 I cried thru this whole story😢😢 keep ur crown high black queen 👑
Omg. I have watch ever single interview you have posted on TH-cam while they are all unfortunate and I sympathize with everyone. This was the only one that made me cry and pray and pray and cry. 4 yrs later and I am still posting under this interview trying to get someone to put me in touch with this lady. I never forgot about her.
this is just sad. i pray she finds her healing
Yes 🙏🏾
The pain in her voice and her convictions are so strong. How could someone not be messed up in the head after all she's beem through. Definite pain and PTSD. I really hope she finds her version of happiness and it's made out for her in the world. She's suffered enough and is trying to help herself. Part 2 will be another rollercoaster. My girlfriend asked me why I watch your videos and I said because each is a documentary in my mind as I hear each story. Each life could be a chapter in a book. This here has changed some people's opinions on addiction and passing judgement on others. I really commend you, Mark. You're doing a great thing here.
I wish I could hug her ..this story touched me the most I can hear and feel her pain 😣 stay blessed stay strong 💪🏽
Everybody in her life who did bad to her going to hell
From you lips to Gods ears...
Believe me, they're going to see & experience some of their fate on THIS side. They won't escape God.
This makes my soul hurt so much. There are people that have so much money they couldn’t spend it in ten lifetimes. This child of god needs help. How do we live in a world like this? How have we fallen this far? Please god forgive us.
I watched her first interview and in this one she seems more restless as though she's on something. I love her spirit. She's broken but strong