Yes and for further context for anyone interested: Latin is the traditional language of the Roman Catholic Church (bc it’s Roman and that’s what they spoke in ancient Rome). From the 1500s all the way through the early 1960s (shout out to the Vatican II council) all Roman Catholic masses all over the world were always said in Latin. Many common language (“Novus Ordo” or ‘New Order’) masses now will still mix in Latin just for traditional reasons. “Dona nobis pacem” (give us peace) and “miserere nobis” (have mercy on us) are said (sometimes in Latin) at every Catholic Mass. I, as a ‘cradle Catholic,’ was saying these phrases at church as soon as I could talk. Also “Ave Maria” means “Hail Mary” in Latin. Yes like literally from the “Hail Mary” prayer. I forget sometimes people don’t just know these translations so thanks to the person above for posting a translation. That’s St. Mary being depicted in the statue in the video art. And it’s pretty safe to assume that the “marble and stone, eyes that don’t leave” mentioned in the song belong to statues of saints like this one (with further metaphor implied), which are very common in Catholic spaces. Hopefully I added some interesting info. Also if you are LGBTQ and Catholic (or used to be Catholic or want to be Catholic) hi there :) Queer practicing Catholics exist, and I am one of them. You’re not alone. We’re out here trying to make the Church overall kinder for you. And our pockets of radical Christlike love and acceptance do exist for you.
o h As someone who's songwriting brand is queer catholic guilt, this song shook me to the core "God have mercy on them. God have mercy on me" and "Hold my teeth in your tongue, oh sinner" are some *fantastic* lines, and the emotion not only in your voice but in the instrumentals and the way they cut out at the end This is genuinely such an incredible song, thank you for sharing
obsessed with the use of latin, I learned it in highschool and always loved how it sounded when sung, but there aren't too many people who use it in their music
I adore this song, but if you're interested in more songs with Latin in them, Origa has a one or two. Inner Universe by Origa has Latin, Russian, and a bit of English, I think. (she did a lot of the music for the Ghost In The Shell anime)
Speaking from my own religious trauma and being bisexual and feeling guilty for portraying my family with how they wanted my life to be (being married to a man with kids) which is something that will never happen, and feeling the guilt from that, this song speaks so well to that pain inside and feeling that someone else can understand that feeling that I have. It honestly makes me cry 😢
Don't feel guilty for who you are brother/sister, God mercy is infinite, especially when you give your life to him, god loves you so much, beyond your gender or sexuality❤
@earthboundfan1994 The only reason the Christian faith was a part of my life was because I was raised in the family of it. Now that I am older grown and live in my own space by myself I'm no longer falling the path of Christianity because that was my family's intention It was not what I wanted.
@@alanh.9127 The only reason the Christian faith was a part of my life was because I was raised in the family of it. Now that I am older grown and live in my own space by myself I'm no longer falling the path of Christianity because that was my family's intention It was not what I wanted.
God towards the end there you can hear so many conflicting agonizing emotions that plague so many LGBTQ people raised in Christianity. It felt like I could feel the pain that a lot of people enjoy inflicting on us. It's hauntingly beautiful
@@OfficialShiggySimp there's nothing to be worried about. You are who you are, and that's nothing you really should be scared of... but figuring yourself out in a Christian household or even just more Christian surroundings can be tough. It shows a lot of biases that people around you have, and you need to do some unpacking... but being your authentic self is well worth it. No one deserves to live with a mask over themselves
Our faith calls us to comform ourselves to God, He will see my battle against my sins, and he will be glad that I at least kept trying to be faithful to Him regardless of the world, regardless of myself.
I used to date femboys because they were easier to convince into having s3x then women, then I stopped when I came to terms with the fact that if there is a God, he'd probably want me to be having sex in order to make children with a good christian woman i plan on staying with, rather then to simply relieve my primal urges in people I'd throw away once their twinkness faded, that's just my reasoning, hate me if you want
Take some time to truly reflect on how large the universe is. And how ancient and small the guidelines were having to do with same sex couples. Even what Paul hints at in the New Testament was discussing ex with temple slaves.... and Paul recommended that straight people stay single. And how many Christians in our culture get away with divorce and remarriage!!!!! Which is super duper not allowed.
Lyric!!!! All I know, Is marble and stone, Eyes that don't leave. Watching over me. Whispers in 'Ave Marias' And 'Grand us peace' Dona nobis pacem. Miserere nobis. God have mercy on them. God have mercy on me. All I know, I'm holy alone, With filth-ridden fever dreams Oh, she sings, Prayers without words yet she worships me. Dona nobis pacem. Miserere nobis. God have mercy on them. God have mercy on me. Hold my tongue in your teeth, Oh sinner. Penitence on my knees, Oh deliver me. What am I to believe? When the Wine and the Wheat Stain me this sinner's red, I bleed. All I know, Is paper-thin scripture Holding the weight of my soul, The pages are worn And the lesson are torn. If my heart is his to burn or keep. Dona nobis pacem. Miserere nobis. God have mercy on them. God have mercy on me. Hold my tongue in your teeth, Oh sinner. Penitence on my knees, Oh deliver me. What am I to believe? When the Wine and the Wheat Stain me this sinner's red, I bleed. Give me strength in the sea, Oh sinner. Be the light that I see, When the light has left me. When you hold me I feel holy, When you kiss me I Bleed. All I know, You loves me so, But that still leaves, Something sick in me. ❤
Thankyou for making this song. I myself am struggling with my own sexuality and my faith (Catholicism). My whole life and even still now ive held my faith so high and still do. I still belive in God and ive felt a connection with him. However as I came to term with my sexuality Ive felt completly torn up inside by my own feelings and the institution and beliefs Ive held so dear to me my whole life, telling me Im wrong and immoral. So thankyou for this song. It came at exactly the right time and really hits home.
@@rr_coolgod loves you and always will, don't feel guilty for who you are, God mercy and love is infinite, especially when you give your heart and love to him, god bless you ❤
"I'm wholly alone" and "I'm holy (when I'm) alone" duality!! First is, I'm entirely alone and have no one close who genuinely relates to or likes me . Second is in response to "feeling gay isn't a sin, it's choosing to pursue that livestyle and *be* gay" = I'm holy *only* when I'm wholly alone mindset Clever wording!
Literal chills up my arm and also THE VOCALS HERE? OH MY GOODNESS LIKE THE BELTING AFTRT THE WORD BLEED LIKE I LOST MY MIND BUT ALSO there's something the instrument is doing as if it's bouncing because it's not sure where it wants to go and I don't know if that's deliberate or not but it's SO COOL
Oh this song brought back some heavy memories. I remember being so consumed with my own sinfulness that I found myself in a pit of despair. Just absolutely immolating in guilt and shame. For all the talk of forgiveness and grace the only thing my church focused on was how much we fell short of being worthy of it. I took my faith very seriously, and it almost destroyed me. To save myself I had to give it up. It was a hard road, but one I had to walk. I'm not sure if I'm better for it. I feel a bit hollowed out if I am perfectly honest, but at least I'm still here. Being here is important. Certainly better than the alternative.
the little detail of the shattered background once the note was hit.. I didn't realize til I looked up. I'm so obsessed with this song, it hurts so badly. love it, now and always madds. ❤️🩹
this is such a great way to end my night madds.. I'm so lucky to get to hear this full album! no matter how much it hurts in relatability, ahh I know I won't be able to get enough of all of them! especially this one, as a person growing up surrounded by constant religious figures and mocked with sin, still working my way around it all! I adore your work. 💕
i can't wait to leave, but in all honesty, I can't help but stay. everything I was told, all the paranoia itching at my skin when I try to leave it behind me, oh god.. I love this song. It's been on repeat the most, along with the rest of the album. I feel so sick with pride and so happy at the same time, finding people who feel the same, paired with a masterpiece of a song that stings the wounds. I love this. ❤️🩹
It’s so hard to describe how good this song is. Not just with the story, but the slow melancholy that persists and slowly builds up the tension. All ending with some amazing guitar work. The only way I can truly describe this is amazing
I dnt know if you will read this but your songs have helped so many as someone who almost ended it all over religous trauma and me being born different this really hits close to home I always assumed that i had to be broken otherwise why else would I have been made this way It hurts knowing that the world isnt built for people like me but songs like this is one of the few things that keeps me going so thank you from the bottom of my heart love from canada🇨🇦
I'm not religious but when i first heard this song i was like "that high note was good" but at the second high note i was shocked, i never knew a singer could shock me like that, i even learned how to do that note like a pro
I've been listening to this song throughout the day and I've probably listened at least 20-30 times. I love the way it sounds! All the instrument parts are so good and the singing is fantastic. I didn't quite understand all the lyrics at first, but now I pretty much do after some analyzing without the music. I'll probably be listening to this daily for a while. It's a powerful song and sounds great!
The beginning gave me a vibe of like a lesbian version of take me to church by hozier. Then it gave me some sort of slow evanescence song vibes with the background. Omfg this was so intense wow
i want to acknowledge tat this song is shaking. Madds vocals and the way it plays together shakes me in a way i will never be able to describe properly. this sends chills down each of my vertebrae and dulls all my sense to way of pure and unfiltered bliss, i have no idea how to do the feeling justice but my god. madds voice reminds me of my own and it just rumbles all of my mind and soul. I love this song and all of your songs thank you truly.
Oh this song. This fucking song. Coming to terms with my identity as both a trans woman and a lesbian while still believing in God was one of the most difficult times in my life. I’m thankful that I made it through, but I’ve never regained my trust in the church. I still believe in God, but my connection to my faith is so strained and I’m still finding my way when it comes to feeling comfortable engaging
I just realized why i have hyper fixated on this one song so much more than any of the other ones in the album. The emotion and depth to it and meanings behind lines. I relate to this on a different level. My family is no where near religious but the relationship between the religious explains my experiences so well and im 99% sure this is the first song i have ever found that does that. And im like i dont know how my brain maid that connection but this is now my favorite song from this album.
I had to use translate but if anyone is wondering what the parts she sings *"Miserere Nobis"* It means "Have mercy upon us." Dona Nobis Pacem *"Grant Us peace."* I thought it was lovely but has a sad meaning through all this.
The thing with the drum beats in the beginning reminds me of Sinners by Barns Courtney, which has a very different vibe but also has a message about something painful (in its case even presented as hopeless) and it's a strange synergy.
I don’t even have a religious trauma but the song still manages to speak to me 👍 Wishing all the best for people in the comments who struggle through their trauma. Stay strong, you deserve the world
*Prayer to St. Kateri Tekakwitha* _Oh most humble Kateri ,_ _we seek your love and prayers ._ _We turn to you for your inspiration ._ _May we know the power of humility ,_ _the strength of most important priorities ,_ _meeting God•s will in everything we do this day ._ _The compassion to care this way for those who are weak and in need of help ,_ _and the faith to forgive those who walk a hurtful violent path ._ _Pray with me , Kateri , that through us ,_ _God our creator_ _will comfort the abandoned child_ _and wait with the youth who go astray ._ _You lost your parents along the way and found others to care for you and guide you ._ _May all parents stay healthy ,_ _seek the selfless love of Jesu ,_ _and give where giving is most needed ._ _May they make wise decisions and heed daily the wisdom of the Great Spirit ._ _Your spirit is strong and your love for Jesu is deep ._ _May i trust that Christ will turn my weakness into his strength and meekness ,_ _so that whatever comes to me this day_ _i may choose to do God•s work and faithful will i stay ._ _Fa La ._
I personally hate it when people force religions on other people. It’s a terrible thing to do on people. I’m a Christian, and since I was little, I was taught that god is someone who loves everyone, and you have a choice to love him back. Instead of thinking it as a religion, I believe it’s a relationship, like a friendship. It should be a choice that you make and no one else’s
As a Catholic who’s struggling with this. I truly love God and the person I’m with. It brings me a lot of pain. However, I know that I will always choose God even though it hurts to not be with her. I choose God because I know everything will be alright. I need help from God to put the plan into action. I never wish the worst for anyone. There’s pain in my heart
So many people participated in the making of this ;o; I've been aspiring for a while... dreaming that I could gather a group of my own with whom I could attempt to write something >_< Yet... perhaps my journey is to be walked alone 😔 Have a wonderful day everyone! ^o^
As a devout, very traditional Christian, this song was beautiful. Thank you. As Christians we follow Christ, not the people who fill up the pews. I apologize on the behalf of all of you who have been hurt by those in the Church. You are all welcomed and wanted as children of God, regardless of what many supposed "christians" say. The message of Christ was repent and be saved.
This song is so haunting, both because of its beauty and because of the way it twists and warps the meaning of religious symbols and phrases to the point where they are nearly unrecognizable. So creepy! And it's difficult to tell how much of that warping was done by the church the songwriter grew up in, how much of it is simply the songwriter misunderstanding the gospel, or how much is just intentional by the songwriter to make things more creepy.
My favorite song of the album, I don’t have any religious trauma but this song somehow gives that feeling? Idk how to explain it but THE SONG IS A BANGER
As someone who is playing a fallen angel (Downcast) in Dnd trying to see if he's still worthy of being called a good father, husband, and acolyte. This song slaps in the feels so hard.
I've never been a very religious person. I've never found identity in faith, and it has never been to much of a problem for me till people found out. I wouldn't even say I'm an atheist. I've been pressured into praying, celebrating traditions that made me uncomfortable. I love the idea of faith, and religion has always been interesting to me. But the harassment for my life choices, hurts most when they try to dam me for it.
I've been holding off listening to this song about catholic guilt because of my catholic guilt... and guess what I'm asexual going to catholic school yay so God have mercy on me indeed
Literally just saw this on my reccomended. so before listening I wanna take a guess that this is about someone who grew up catholic discovering they are trans, mainly based on that one image that i found on pinterest but is probably from tumblr. let's see how i did
As a trans lesbian, there have been so many times religious figures have failed me. But I always tell myself that, no matter what the humans in the clergy or my brothers and sisters in faith think, God has given me a good family and a wonderful wife, and so he loves me unconditionally.
I am a Christian and probably always will but I'm scared for a while I've been thinking I am bisexual (haven't come out) Also I have a very religious and homophobic family. So i think I'll just never come out even if I'm miserable at least my family would be happy.
Jesus loves you unconditionally. Homophobia is going against their own religion as you’re supposed to love everyone. Talk to Jesus about your problems. Pray and worship. God doesn’t want you to be miserable, and your families happiness is just as important as yours.
You are an adored and beloved child of God. These comments shatter my heart. Please let me pray for you, I truly want your happiness and for you to be unified with God.
Is it still religious trauma if you weren't religious but we're bullied in school activities because you didn't believe in anything? Like, at grade three I got hit by some boys who found it funny I wasn't christian and some girls pulled my hair because I don't pray. In first grade we had activities and we were put in groups and we stayed in these groups until like, I think the end of fourth grade. Is that still religious trauma? Because for the most time I always thought that something was wrong with me not being religious...
If you want to follow Him, you will have to die to self daily, and by dying, you actually live. Jesus said, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live” (John 11:25).
I get that religious trauma can hurt, but please for your own sakes. Do not abandon God. Come back to curtch, come back to Jesus christ who loves you. We are all sinners in need of salvation. The soulution is not to give upp salvation, but to cling to the cross. Its not always easy, jesus did not promise a easy life. But he did promise to never forsake or leave us. Please come back home.
If you're curious, the Latin part translates roughly to "give us peace and have mercy on us".
Yes and for further context for anyone interested: Latin is the traditional language of the Roman Catholic Church (bc it’s Roman and that’s what they spoke in ancient Rome). From the 1500s all the way through the early 1960s (shout out to the Vatican II council) all Roman Catholic masses all over the world were always said in Latin. Many common language (“Novus Ordo” or ‘New Order’) masses now will still mix in Latin just for traditional reasons. “Dona nobis pacem” (give us peace) and “miserere nobis” (have mercy on us) are said (sometimes in Latin) at every Catholic Mass. I, as a ‘cradle Catholic,’ was saying these phrases at church as soon as I could talk.
Also “Ave Maria” means “Hail Mary” in Latin. Yes like literally from the “Hail Mary” prayer. I forget sometimes people don’t just know these translations so thanks to the person above for posting a translation. That’s St. Mary being depicted in the statue in the video art. And it’s pretty safe to assume that the “marble and stone, eyes that don’t leave” mentioned in the song belong to statues of saints like this one (with further metaphor implied), which are very common in Catholic spaces. Hopefully I added some interesting info.
Also if you are LGBTQ and Catholic (or used to be Catholic or want to be Catholic) hi there :) Queer practicing Catholics exist, and I am one of them. You’re not alone. We’re out here trying to make the Church overall kinder for you. And our pockets of radical Christlike love and acceptance do exist for you.
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@@defygravityXD HOW DO YOU WRITE LIKE YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME
@@_Unoffical_Norahhh_ theatre kid spotted
@@Arctic_and_The_F0X Yep. Ya caught me I’m watching Crosswalk Musical Mary Poppins rn
"We are wholly/holy alone" is great and the latin phrases bring me chills
the fact that the intro of this song sounds SO similar to the intro of the workship songs my church used to play HITS DIFFERENT
o h
As someone who's songwriting brand is queer catholic guilt, this song shook me to the core
"God have mercy on them. God have mercy on me" and "Hold my teeth in your tongue, oh sinner" are some *fantastic* lines, and the emotion not only in your voice but in the instrumentals and the way they cut out at the end
This is genuinely such an incredible song, thank you for sharing
This comment lead me to your channel and I'm glad
@@arandomqueerfanpeep7655 ahh thank you!
obsessed with the use of latin, I learned it in highschool and always loved how it sounded when sung, but there aren't too many people who use it in their music
I adore this song, but if you're interested in more songs with Latin in them, Origa has a one or two. Inner Universe by Origa has Latin, Russian, and a bit of English, I think. (she did a lot of the music for the Ghost In The Shell anime)
There's also Collared by Vane Lily which uses it a couple of times. It's similar to this in themes, just on the more upbeat/liberating side
Such a dark turn on your album, your singing is elevated to a new level.
Speaking from my own religious trauma and being bisexual and feeling guilty for portraying my family with how they wanted my life to be (being married to a man with kids) which is something that will never happen, and feeling the guilt from that, this song speaks so well to that pain inside and feeling that someone else can understand that feeling that I have. It honestly makes me cry 😢
Ikr like the few songs that depict religous trauma dont seem to fully capture the guilt of just being born different
Don't feel guilty for who you are brother/sister, God mercy is infinite, especially when you give your life to him, god loves you so much, beyond your gender or sexuality❤
I hope you still choose to stay with Jesus Christ. He never intended that to happen. God loves you and he would never try to give you trauma.
@earthboundfan1994 The only reason the Christian faith was a part of my life was because I was raised in the family of it. Now that I am older grown and live in my own space by myself I'm no longer falling the path of Christianity because that was my family's intention It was not what I wanted.
@@alanh.9127 The only reason the Christian faith was a part of my life was because I was raised in the family of it. Now that I am older grown and live in my own space by myself I'm no longer falling the path of Christianity because that was my family's intention It was not what I wanted.
God towards the end there you can hear so many conflicting agonizing emotions that plague so many LGBTQ people raised in Christianity. It felt like I could feel the pain that a lot of people enjoy inflicting on us. It's hauntingly beautiful
…Shit…I’m at that age where I’m questioning my sexuality and now this makes me incredibly worried for the end result of my questioning.
@@OfficialShiggySimp there's nothing to be worried about. You are who you are, and that's nothing you really should be scared of... but figuring yourself out in a Christian household or even just more Christian surroundings can be tough. It shows a lot of biases that people around you have, and you need to do some unpacking... but being your authentic self is well worth it. No one deserves to live with a mask over themselves
Our faith calls us to comform ourselves to God, He will see my battle against my sins, and he will be glad that I at least kept trying to be faithful to Him regardless of the world, regardless of myself.
I used to date femboys because they were easier to convince into having s3x then women, then I stopped when I came to terms with the fact that if there is a God, he'd probably want me to be having sex in order to make children with a good christian woman i plan on staying with, rather then to simply relieve my primal urges in people I'd throw away once their twinkness faded, that's just my reasoning, hate me if you want
Take some time to truly reflect on how large the universe is. And how ancient and small the guidelines were having to do with same sex couples. Even what Paul hints at in the New Testament was discussing ex with temple slaves.... and Paul recommended that straight people stay single. And how many Christians in our culture get away with divorce and remarriage!!!!! Which is super duper not allowed.
Lyric!!!!
All I know,
Is marble and stone,
Eyes that don't leave.
Watching over me.
Whispers in 'Ave Marias'
And 'Grand us peace'
Dona nobis pacem.
Miserere nobis.
God have mercy on them.
God have mercy on me.
All I know,
I'm holy alone,
With filth-ridden fever dreams
Oh, she sings,
Prayers without words yet she worships me.
Dona nobis pacem.
Miserere nobis.
God have mercy on them.
God have mercy on me.
Hold my tongue in your teeth,
Oh sinner.
Penitence on my knees,
Oh deliver me.
What am I to believe?
When the Wine and the Wheat
Stain me this sinner's red,
I bleed.
All I know,
Is paper-thin scripture
Holding the weight of my soul,
The pages are worn
And the lesson are torn.
If my heart is his to burn or keep.
Dona nobis pacem.
Miserere nobis.
God have mercy on them.
God have mercy on me.
Hold my tongue in your teeth,
Oh sinner.
Penitence on my knees,
Oh deliver me.
What am I to believe?
When the Wine and the Wheat
Stain me this sinner's red,
I bleed.
Give me strength in the sea,
Oh sinner.
Be the light that I see,
When the light has left me.
When you hold me I feel holy,
When you kiss me I
Bleed.
All I know,
You loves me so,
But that still leaves,
Something sick in me.
❤
You forgot to add "WOAH OH AH AH AHHHHHHHH" for the riffs lol
Thank you! I know this is a lyric video but for some reason my brain computes it better when it's in chunks like this
@@donotgotthis im not capping, i sing in my sleep
Thankyou for making this song. I myself am struggling with my own sexuality and my faith (Catholicism). My whole life and even still now ive held my faith so high and still do. I still belive in God and ive felt a connection with him. However as I came to term with my sexuality Ive felt completly torn up inside by my own feelings and the institution and beliefs Ive held so dear to me my whole life, telling me Im wrong and immoral. So thankyou for this song. It came at exactly the right time and really hits home.
Literally exactly this- it’s hard and it’s so confusing
Reading these comments have really helped the feeling of being all alone in this shitty world I hope you guys are doing better
Thankyou@@BeatriceClarke-dh5mc
god wouldn't have made you queer if it was wrong ♥♥♥
@@rr_coolgod loves you and always will, don't feel guilty for who you are, God mercy and love is infinite, especially when you give your heart and love to him, god bless you ❤
"I'm wholly alone" and "I'm holy (when I'm) alone" duality!! First is, I'm entirely alone and have no one close who genuinely relates to or likes me . Second is in response to "feeling gay isn't a sin, it's choosing to pursue that livestyle and *be* gay" = I'm holy *only* when I'm wholly alone mindset
Clever wording!
Literal chills up my arm and also THE VOCALS HERE? OH MY GOODNESS LIKE THE BELTING AFTRT THE WORD BLEED LIKE I LOST MY MIND BUT ALSO there's something the instrument is doing as if it's bouncing because it's not sure where it wants to go and I don't know if that's deliberate or not but it's SO COOL
Oh this song brought back some heavy memories. I remember being so consumed with my own sinfulness that I found myself in a pit of despair. Just absolutely immolating in guilt and shame. For all the talk of forgiveness and grace the only thing my church focused on was how much we fell short of being worthy of it. I took my faith very seriously, and it almost destroyed me. To save myself I had to give it up. It was a hard road, but one I had to walk. I'm not sure if I'm better for it. I feel a bit hollowed out if I am perfectly honest, but at least I'm still here. Being here is important. Certainly better than the alternative.
This is my roman empire AND this has changed the trajectory of my life thank you Madds Buckley
the little detail of the shattered background once the note was hit.. I didn't realize til I looked up. I'm so obsessed with this song, it hurts so badly. love it, now and always madds. ❤️🩹
this is such a great way to end my night madds.. I'm so lucky to get to hear this full album! no matter how much it hurts in relatability, ahh I know I won't be able to get enough of all of them! especially this one, as a person growing up surrounded by constant religious figures and mocked with sin, still working my way around it all! I adore your work. 💕
i can't wait to leave, but in all honesty, I can't help but stay. everything I was told, all the paranoia itching at my skin when I try to leave it behind me, oh god.. I love this song. It's been on repeat the most, along with the rest of the album. I feel so sick with pride and so happy at the same time, finding people who feel the same, paired with a masterpiece of a song that stings the wounds. I love this. ❤️🩹
It’s so hard to describe how good this song is. Not just with the story, but the slow melancholy that persists and slowly builds up the tension. All ending with some amazing guitar work. The only way I can truly describe this is amazing
I dnt know if you will read this but your songs have helped so many as someone who almost ended it all over religous trauma and me being born different this really hits close to home I always assumed that i had to be broken otherwise why else would I have been made this way It hurts knowing that the world isnt built for people like me but songs like this is one of the few things that keeps me going so thank you from the bottom of my heart love from canada🇨🇦
I’m so proud of you for still being here💛
please stay, you are important and valid just as you are💛💛💛
Thx
I'm not religious but when i first heard this song i was like "that high note was good" but at the second high note i was shocked, i never knew a singer could shock me like that, i even learned how to do that note like a pro
This whole album speaks to me 😭 it came out just when I needed it, just what I needed to hear. Thank you Madds
so much trauma so many feels.....how can you capture stuff like this so well in a song
I can finally put my four years of Latin in use (I was literally raised catholic)
Thank goodness for u
I've been listening to this song throughout the day and I've probably listened at least 20-30 times. I love the way it sounds! All the instrument parts are so good and the singing is fantastic. I didn't quite understand all the lyrics at first, but now I pretty much do after some analyzing without the music. I'll probably be listening to this daily for a while. It's a powerful song and sounds great!
LETS GO MADDS WE LOVE YOU❤❤❤
The beginning gave me a vibe of like a lesbian version of take me to church by hozier. Then it gave me some sort of slow evanescence song vibes with the background. Omfg this was so intense wow
Each time I hear the chorus, I get literal chills.
i want to acknowledge tat this song is shaking. Madds vocals and the way it plays together shakes me in a way i will never be able to describe properly. this sends chills down each of my vertebrae and dulls all my sense to way of pure and unfiltered bliss, i have no idea how to do the feeling justice but my god. madds voice reminds me of my own and it just rumbles all of my mind and soul. I love this song and all of your songs thank you truly.
Oh this song. This fucking song. Coming to terms with my identity as both a trans woman and a lesbian while still believing in God was one of the most difficult times in my life. I’m thankful that I made it through, but I’ve never regained my trust in the church. I still believe in God, but my connection to my faith is so strained and I’m still finding my way when it comes to feeling comfortable engaging
I just realized why i have hyper fixated on this one song so much more than any of the other ones in the album. The emotion and depth to it and meanings behind lines. I relate to this on a different level. My family is no where near religious but the relationship between the religious explains my experiences so well and im 99% sure this is the first song i have ever found that does that. And im like i dont know how my brain maid that connection but this is now my favorite song from this album.
Your music has always been one of my favourite, and this new album is no exception its brilliant
I had to use translate but if anyone is wondering what the parts she sings
*"Miserere Nobis"*
It means
"Have mercy upon us."
Dona Nobis Pacem
*"Grant Us peace."*
I thought it was lovely but has a sad meaning through all this.
The thing with the drum beats in the beginning reminds me of Sinners by Barns Courtney, which has a very different vibe but also has a message about something painful (in its case even presented as hopeless) and it's a strange synergy.
I don't struggle with any religious trauma, but DAMN this song is an anthem for those who do!
OMG I'M IN LOVE ❤❤❤❤ Thank you for releasing!
THE SONG IS SO GOOD OML
*Growing up and being raised in a Catholic school/religious house, all the while you were aroace*
I don’t even have a religious trauma but the song still manages to speak to me 👍
Wishing all the best for people in the comments who struggle through their trauma. Stay strong, you deserve the world
THE WAY THIS SONG HITS
i've never felt so heard from a song before, i genuinely cant stop sobbing NDKJFBKDJ
Songs with Latin in them >>>>
Madds Buckley, you are an underrated treasure.
Ok but I would ABSOLUTELY love a karaoke version of this. I feel like in the right setting this would get such a bomb reception
YOOOOO (watching it on twitch rn just letting the yt video run with volume off so i can listen on twitch and ad extra view)
That song is amazing, love the voice and rythme !!!
I´ve been listening to your work for some time now, and I LOVE how it's evolving and changing! Thank you for making these ❤
This has Hozier vibes and I'm here for it
This is seriously amazing, absolutely beautiful
We need hozier to do a cover of this song.... omg
WHEN YOU HOLD ME I FEEL HOLY WHEN YOU KISS ME IIIIIIII BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED
CRYING SOBBING SCREAMING
Bro just give madds a Oscar NOW 🧡💙
beautiful. just beautiful.
Thanks for this.
Amazing song.
*Prayer to St. Kateri Tekakwitha*
_Oh most humble Kateri ,_
_we seek your love and prayers ._
_We turn to you for your inspiration ._
_May we know the power of humility ,_
_the strength of most important priorities ,_
_meeting God•s will in everything we do this day ._
_The compassion to care this way for those who are weak and in need of help ,_
_and the faith to forgive those who walk a hurtful violent path ._
_Pray with me , Kateri , that through us ,_
_God our creator_
_will comfort the abandoned child_
_and wait with the youth who go astray ._
_You lost your parents along the way and found others to care for you and guide you ._
_May all parents stay healthy ,_
_seek the selfless love of Jesu ,_
_and give where giving is most needed ._
_May they make wise decisions and heed daily the wisdom of the Great Spirit ._
_Your spirit is strong and your love for Jesu is deep ._
_May i trust that Christ will turn my weakness into his strength and meekness ,_
_so that whatever comes to me this day_
_i may choose to do God•s work and faithful will i stay ._
_Fa La ._
Amen
Hell yeah🎉🎉🎉🎉
Here before this song blows up
Well that hit me in a way I didn’t know I needed
I personally hate it when people force religions on other people. It’s a terrible thing to do on people. I’m a Christian, and since I was little, I was taught that god is someone who loves everyone, and you have a choice to love him back. Instead of thinking it as a religion, I believe it’s a relationship, like a friendship. It should be a choice that you make and no one else’s
It is both a religion and a relationship.
@@dokidelta1175 very true
this was awesome. now I'm sad it took me this long to stumble across it.
As a Catholic who’s struggling with this. I truly love God and the person I’m with. It brings me a lot of pain. However, I know that I will always choose God even though it hurts to not be with her. I choose God because I know everything will be alright. I need help from God to put the plan into action. I never wish the worst for anyone. There’s pain in my heart
So many people participated in the making of this ;o; I've been aspiring for a while... dreaming that I could gather a group of my own with whom I could attempt to write something >_< Yet... perhaps my journey is to be walked alone 😔 Have a wonderful day everyone! ^o^
3:53 CHILLS. I love this song
You may take this the hard way, but believe me I’ll be praying for you 🤍✨
THIS IS SOOOO GOOD i love this
Amazing. 100/10
I’ve been playing this album at work and I’m always so scared to put this one on cuz I love it but it can definitely raise some eyebrows
this HITS. this is so good, i know i'm gonna be playing it for a long time. stirs up a lot of familiar emotions
As a devout, very traditional Christian, this song was beautiful. Thank you. As Christians we follow Christ, not the people who fill up the pews. I apologize on the behalf of all of you who have been hurt by those in the Church. You are all welcomed and wanted as children of God, regardless of what many supposed "christians" say. The message of Christ was repent and be saved.
this is gorgeous, your voice is so powerful and the lyrics and melody help accentuate that so well
Wow!
I like this. Thank you
1:50 something about this part is so 😭😭😭 yknow
THAT ‘BLEED’ OH MY GOODNESS
This song is so haunting, both because of its beauty and because of the way it twists and warps the meaning of religious symbols and phrases to the point where they are nearly unrecognizable. So creepy!
And it's difficult to tell how much of that warping was done by the church the songwriter grew up in, how much of it is simply the songwriter misunderstanding the gospel, or how much is just intentional by the songwriter to make things more creepy.
this needs to be on spotify.
My favorite song of the album, I don’t have any religious trauma but this song somehow gives that feeling? Idk how to explain it but THE SONG IS A BANGER
I love this so much
This hurts so much.
As someone who is playing a fallen angel (Downcast) in Dnd trying to see if he's still worthy of being called a good father, husband, and acolyte. This song slaps in the feels so hard.
IS THIS ON SPOTIFY
I love your art and music, make me fell better again, afater a bad day
Congrats you made my gay little religious tramua filled heart break with the amazing song
I've never been a very religious person. I've never found identity in faith, and it has never been to much of a problem for me till people found out. I wouldn't even say I'm an atheist. I've been pressured into praying, celebrating traditions that made me uncomfortable. I love the idea of faith, and religion has always been interesting to me. But the harassment for my life choices, hurts most when they try to dam me for it.
This song is spectacular, I'll be adding it to my Playlist 100%
Don’t let others force you into faith, let your heart curry your own faith. Jesus will guide you into the path that was specially made for you.
this song is breaking me 😭😭😭
damb this hit like the fires of hell
🔥
oh, this song is gonna ruin me............
I've been holding off listening to this song about catholic guilt because of my catholic guilt... and guess what I'm asexual going to catholic school yay so God have mercy on me indeed
God has mercy on everyone. He loves you unconditionally.
Celibacy is celebrated by Paul and the Catholic Church.
nice.
ave maria
if this century had an opening theme song, this would be it.
Esta canción tiene potencial
Literally just saw this on my reccomended. so before listening I wanna take a guess that this is about someone who grew up catholic discovering they are trans, mainly based on that one image that i found on pinterest but is probably from tumblr. let's see how i did
ok like obviously you can tell instantly it's about catholic guilt of queer people, but I need to figure out if it's specifically trans
So I think I rode the religious trauma train from Roe Kapara to this.... Not complaining.
As a trans lesbian, there have been so many times religious figures have failed me. But I always tell myself that, no matter what the humans in the clergy or my brothers and sisters in faith think, God has given me a good family and a wonderful wife, and so he loves me unconditionally.
I am a Christian and probably always will but I'm scared for a while I've been thinking I am bisexual (haven't come out) Also I have a very religious and homophobic family. So i think I'll just never come out even if I'm miserable at least my family would be happy.
Jesus loves you unconditionally. Homophobia is going against their own religion as you’re supposed to love everyone. Talk to Jesus about your problems. Pray and worship. God doesn’t want you to be miserable, and your families happiness is just as important as yours.
You are an adored and beloved child of God. These comments shatter my heart. Please let me pray for you, I truly want your happiness and for you to be unified with God.
Leslie Summit
:,)
Is it still religious trauma if you weren't religious but we're bullied in school activities because you didn't believe in anything? Like, at grade three I got hit by some boys who found it funny I wasn't christian and some girls pulled my hair because I don't pray.
In first grade we had activities and we were put in groups and we stayed in these groups until like, I think the end of fourth grade.
Is that still religious trauma? Because for the most time I always thought that something was wrong with me not being religious...
I don't really know but I would say it is cause it's still based around religion but I'm not religious either
That's still religious trauma, i think
If you want to follow Him, you will have to die to self daily, and by dying, you actually live. Jesus said, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live” (John 11:25).
I get that religious trauma can hurt, but please for your own sakes. Do not abandon God.
Come back to curtch, come back to Jesus christ who loves you.
We are all sinners in need of salvation. The soulution is not to give upp salvation, but to cling to the cross.
Its not always easy, jesus did not promise a easy life. But he did promise to never forsake or leave us.
Please come back home.
No it’s not god that’s the problem it’s his followers.