I wonder if Kellin's dad ever hears girls talking about Kellin Quinn, and realizes what a beautiful and amazing person he brought into this world, but didn't have the guts to stick around for.
This song makes me cry every time. It makes me feel as if someone out there knows the same pain as I have. My father left when I was born, and when I saw him, he ignored me. He didn't even look at his own son. I broke down in tears and he said that I'm not his son, he said his son would never cry...
That is sad man i know my dad but fight him alot but love him sorry to hear that if you had a wish to have him be a real dad would you want it to come true??
Yes, I would give up everything just to have my dad. My life would be so much better. If have someone that I can actually talk to. Someone to comfort me and get me back from starring off into empty nothingness.
It's sad to look through these comments seeing people missing their father and their father not caring. That's horrible. I don't understand how someone in their right mind would hate their child. There is utterly horrible people in this world. All i can say is, i'm so sorry for what your going though. I understand this completely. And your gonna get through this. I know your probally tired of hearing this from people. But i hope you get better. I may not know you. But i understand this pain. Keep holding on.
This song makes me cry. I mean my dad still lives with me and everything. And I see him everyday. But at the same times he's not there. I don't even like sitting in the same room with him. I wish the past could erase so i would be close to him.
I have struggled with depression my whole life I have to see a therapist 3 times every week I have to see a doctor every 3 weeks for new medication every time I am currently on 4 medications it's cool to know it helps but it makes me sad that my depression brought me to the point where I have to take medication for it
Reading the comment section makes me sad. I have and love both of my parents and I could never imagine feeling how most of you feel. I just really like this song so I always listen to it. I feel blessed but Im sorry to those who don't have the chance to say they love their mother or father.
+Kimberly Feng My parents were divorced when i was 4...then my father died when i was 14...and then my mother died when i was 15...it sucks so fucking much...
it‘s crazy how many ppl can relate to this song in so many different ways. my dad didnt even left or ever hurt me physically. he just says hurtful things i cant forget and always prefers my sister, because she‘s the kid he always wanted. i can‘t say i love him or anything - it feels wrong. i will never forget what he said.
Emotionally hurting your kid will cut deeper than the physical ones sometimes. Coming from a kid who had both ✌️ its a long rough road to getting better when the ones meant to teach us fail to do their jobs. Means the ones they hurt have to unlearn that behavior and teach themselves a better one. Hope you can find some of that knowledge to learn along the way. Makes things so much easier.
Bro we lived the same childhood 🫡🖤 craziest part is id die to protect my father no matter what happened and i love him more than anything i love my mom even more but it’s crazy it’s like all the yelling all the everything just turned into a shield I use to face the world I walk ten toes down with a graceful heart but a anger that hits different idk I found my peace and I pray you find yours idk how I even found this song or comment but I guess I was meant to find it praying for you
The fact that I'm crying not from the song, but from the backstories of commenters' families makes me wonder why parents do this shit. Yes, I've had disagreements with my family, but nothing compared to what a lot of people go through. If anyone is going through a broken family, know that you have someone to talk to (including me) :)
I was 11 when this song came out, I didn't relate much to it then, but now at 23 i relate to it too much. My father left me and my younger sister in a state with no blood family and ignored us for months while he moved to a new state with a new job. Thankfully the friend we stayed with, her grandma took us in and adopted us. but this song hurts more now, then it did then.
for my daughter, im sorry i couldnt hold us together, and im sorry i couldnt make him love you like i do. - i promise to give you the love hes failed to give you. He has no idea what he missed out on, you're a blessing.
"was it something that I did? did I make a mistake? cause now I'm trying to deal with the pain" this is what I've been thinking since my father left 12 years ago.. I'm 17 now and still thinking what was my fault for being born into this world? my mother didn't care about me much.. she rarely in home and when she does she just play with the phone or watching tv.. practically ignoring me.. Now for anyone with both parents to love you and always be there for you, hug them tightly because you're lucky to have such a loving parents :')
Fuck are we the same person or what? My dad left when I was 5 after cheating on my Mum multiple times and we always wondered if/when he was coming back. I’m 19 now I’m alone most of the time Mum works ALOT and a few weeks ago I tried to reach out to my dad he read and ignored my texts and calls , he’s got a perfect family of his own now and kids that are spoilt and he just ignored me. It’s broken my heart that he just doesn’t care and it’s more real now I’ve accepted it, I always used to push that thought away thinking “ he does care he will come back into my life” but I’ve realised he won’t, and doesn’t care. It hurts so bad but it’s made me appreciate my mum so much more. That’s what you need to do, accept & appreciate what you do have 💜
I’m sure it sucks to feel as if both of your parents do not care. Let me tell you something. I and many others in this world FCKING CARE. Please, if anyone still needs an ear or just wants to talk/vent drop your email.. I’ll send you an email and we can exchange numbers there.
People are all sharing their stories so I'm gonna add mine too just because I can I guess I may or may not have sent this to song my uncle with the caption "you are no longer a part of our family. Please enjoy living the rest of your life without your children, god knows they will enjoy their lives without you" after he left my cousins and aunt . I also had a huge fight with him before he left since my cousins are all younger than me so I'm like their big sister. When he started to walk away I yelled "why are you running away?" and then I pointed to his sobbing daughter and looked him in the eye while I asked him if this is what he called a family. My cousins and aunt are now living with us until they can get a new home since he took all of their money. His oldest (eight years old) asked me if it was her fault, or was it something she said? No child should ever have to feel that, ever, they will have to live without their father and that is something I could never imagine dealing with on my own. To everyone in the comments section with shit parents, I love you, and you are so much stronger than me. Please have a good life.
God, this kinda relates to me a wee bit... For the whole time i grew up knowing what my dad did, i kept blaming myself, saying that im no good because of him... I kept asking my mom if i was supposed to exist because i am his daughter... I'm legit almost 20 and i still question it.
I hated my real dad.. he was never there even when I tried to get in his life... Now here I am 24 years holding my 5 day old son up at 3 a.m.. his beautiful innocent face.. Daddy will always be here no matter what. ❤️❤️🙏 Sometimes things happen so you can give better to someone else.
My dad never has cared for me. My sister was always the favorite. He never gave me a chance. This song explains how i feel perfectly. Correction how ive felt my whole life...
My dad would always make fun of me (my parents were divorced since I was 4 or so. I would go back and forth between my mom and dads house every week and my schedule was complicated and stressful with school.) and every time I went to his house he would make me feel so bad about myself.(eventually it became a little better as I grew up, but I would forever remember the things he said) I became severely depressed to the point I thought that thinking about wanting to die and feeling so bad was normal. I grew up that way. I had depression for about 6 or 7 years. I guess after I realized that it wasn't normal I felt even worse that no one I knew and loved noticed how unhappy I was with life. It kinda hurt. My grades were awful, I almost never went to school because of the anxiety I felt that if I even breathed wrong someone would laugh at me, and it has caused me so much trauma and has made me feel like such a weak person. If I do anything wrong now and someone yells at me for it, no matter if this person means anything to me or not, I am on the verge of tears. I am very shy with people I don't know, and am always afraid to make someone angry. Luckily though last year someone I knew found out how I was feeling and reported me to the school councilor. I got help. It took a long time for them to change my schedule (for when I went to my dads house) but eventually we did it. I still have to go to a therapist though. I only had to go to his house every other weekend. About four weeks into the agreement change, my neighbor from my dads house came to my moms house to tell us some bad news. I found out that my dad had passed away. I was devastated. I thought it was my fault at first. He was getting better at not making fun of me. I still loved him even though he used to be so awful to me. He was my dad. I realized that I should have spent more time with him before he passed. We actually had a few things in common. Just don't take for granted what you have. Try to get to know your parents a little bit. (sorry about the rant :P)
This song was written with so much emotion. You can tell that Kellin takes time and effort .. he pours his heart and soul into these songs.. This is one of my favourites.. God bless everyone. I care... others care.. Broken Family.. does not mean Broken Life... We care.. The SWS fanbase.. we care.
my dad hasnt been around much since i was six, im lucky if i see him twice a year and talk to him more than every two or three months. this song really hits home for me.
When I was 2 my dad left and I remember asking my mom "Mommy why doesn't daddy love you anymore" and she was so shocked I said that and this song hits home for me
My dad left when I was 3 ,then came back when I was 6 and emotionally, physically and sexually abused me till I was 8 and he got 25 to life for murdering my mother...
Yeah. We just have to live through it and do something with our lives. We can be something and when it comes time to have a family, our children will say, "My parents are the coolest" So they'll know what it's like to have loving and caring parents :)
I am on the other end of this song, I dont get to see my daughter because my babys mother has disappeared, and i cant help to wonder if shes being fed lies of how i dont want to see her. I miss you sammy girl. I am your father and I wish i could have you by my side, I think of you everyday, not a single second goes by that I dont think of you.
www.familylives.org.uk/advice/divorce-and-separation/shared-parenting-and-contact/renewing-contact-with-your-children/ Maybe look in to things like this it may help You find her.
+Angel Escobar this is really sad but ik your not alone ever god is right by your side so even if thing aren't great right now then continue to give him praise...praise him in the storm and out of the storm and you will be rewarded far greater than you are going to even if you don't god will help you
music: _soft, smooth voice_ father father, tell me where have you.. me: *loud, screaming at the top of my lungs* bEEn ITS BEEN HELL NOIT AHVSIJGN YAoiU EHERERERRRE IVE BEEN MISSING yoauYH SO BAVADADDD AND YOU DONT SEME TO ACFREREREEB
My father passed away of cancer about a year ago.. song gets me every time. He was my best friend and my only parent. I've struggled a lot since then. My heart goes out to all of you who have struggled because of a parental situation. I'm sure none of you deserve the plate you've been handed and I hope all of you are strong enough to see that ❤
I can relate to this a lot, my dad is never home and my mum left when i was 7.(not really part of this) my dad is either drunk or working and only comes home to sleep. i also feel like im a disappointment to both of my parents.my parents don't know anything about me anymore,
DigEwolf i also can relate my dad was never there for me he cause me and my mom alot of pain especially my mum, i was 4 days old when i was in a crash caused by my dad ill post a video on my channel later this week but yea this song relates
Sounds shitty, he’s letting you down doing that to you, you oughta find confidence in yourself and make sure if you have kids or anyone else in your life, they never feel that way
DigEwolf fuck that brother\sister you stay strong till the end and kill these Demond’s your heart will over come all only with hope and courage brethren !
I'm lucky to still have both my mother and father. This song really connects to me and i don't know why. i feel like i lost someone but i don't know who.
@J Watson that is so amazing! i’m so happy to hear that, and you will be an amazing father with that mindset! ☺️ since i commented on this video, i started my own family and am happy that we can provide our daughter with 2 loving parents who are 100% involved 💛 i’m so glad we can give her everything i didn’t have growing up 🥰
7:03pm on a Monday night. not the best to start of the week like this but everyone here I promise we’ll get through it all together. “Is this what you call a family?!”
There's so many dead beat dads in this world. I feel so happy to have a father, who does what ever he can to provide for his family. Yes he gets angry a lot, but I can constantly see the stress in his eyes. When he gets and yells at me, or someone else I know he's just pissed and doesn't mean any of it. I'm lucky to have a good family, which makes me feel even more bad for having bad mental health.
As a child of an absent father, this song hits me so hard that I can't ever get through it without crying... much love to everyone else with these feels. You're not alone. ❤
Um I'm not sure if you realize that this song is about a father abandoning his children and there's more to it than just that it's so emotional and sad I'm wondering if you truly understood the lyrics
I would have showed my dad this for fathers day too... i get what shes saying, she is stating that her dad probably was a crap one too. and she was showing him how good of a dad she thought he was...
this song is loud not to convey anger, but to help out scream the negative thoughts that consume the listeners mind and bring reality to the fact that not one persons problem is unique and specific to them, there will always be someone out there to relate to.
you know sometimes you can have a father who loves you but doesn't show at all cause he just cannot show emotions and it huts a lot. Because you have him with you all day but all he could say it's "you're not enough,you should have done it better" or whatever,you know he does it for you but he never told you "you did well" even though you try to be the best so yeah,people who have father can suffer too,I guess.
was crying silently alone with this song 5 years ago when my father and mother had a new family of their own but now im just happy for them and myself and my siblings. years before this (2023) is such a painful lesson. but i just can't be more grateful for the family i have right now.
i really feel for everybody who can unfortunately deeply relate to this song, no man who would willingly walk out on their kids without remorse deserves to be called a father.
Relate so much, I did love and live with my mom for a while. Until I was assaulted by her boyfriend and did nothing about it. Now I live my father and she has a new boyfriend and a kid with him. I feel as though she is trying to restart cause she knows she fucked up. The most she does in a year is buy clothes and most of the time they are shit ones. It has gotten to the point where I barely talk to her. She is constantly shoving her opinions down my throat and trying to fuck up my life even more. I have come to the realization is that I don't need her. And in one way I am thankful for her being a shit parent. Cause now I can raise my future kids knowing that I am not making the mistakes she has.
My dad was murdered a few years ago and we used to listen to this song together when I was obsessed with this band. I took shrooms and this was a suggestion. I miss you dad and I know you are listening to this with me right now ♥️
I hate how my parents just gave me away. I never got the chance to meet them, but I grew up without them, I learned to ride a bike without them, I had fifteen great birthday parties and they never once showed up they knew where I was but did they bother? No. To hell with them! so like...Relatable...
For all of you who don't have one or both parents, or have both parents but no connection; if you are listening to this song, you are apart of this family. All of you, all of us.
"Father, Father Where have you been?" Dear Biological Father, Ever since I've learned about you, you have been nothing but a roller coaster in my life. I don't know why I'm crying every night for a man who never been there! You ruined me, now I don't want to trust anyone God sends my way. I dont want the heartache you've put me through it's been years and I still can't be release from the pain you put me through. "Was it something I did?" Besides being born? You should have been there for me! But thanks to you, I have a wonderful stepdad whose been there since day 1!!! "Is this what you call a family?!" When you have other kids that you are clearly happy with?! God I hate the feelings you put me through! I dont want to be here because of you!!! But I'll always have a part of me that'll forever love you ....and I hate it.... Sincerely, A broken child
You made me cry hard. i hope i can have such a positive influence on my step daughter. it breaks my heart every time she calls her dad and he continually makes excuses to when he'll see her. Like seriously man, can you see you have a wonderful little girl whose just wants a hug from her daddy nothing more? is that too much to ask man? smh.
This song really hits home for me. My father passed away when I was 9 I really want to say that I am so sorry for anyone and everyone who has had to and is growing up in a broken home. And please know it will eventually get better. Hang in there and keep waiting for the best outcome:)
Every time I hear this song I automatically change it out with "Mother." My mom abandoned me when I was five, gave me up to my dad without any real explanation - left her five year old daughter with an abusive father who was never home 4 pm(school ending time) to 12 (I'd be asleep) I had to grow up alone, care for myself, feed myself, brush my own hair. I would go to sleep, and she wasn't there. Left no note as to where she was. I ignored it up until I was 12, I really didn't understand that I was supposed to have a mother because she was never there. She came back into my life at 12, because it rang back to her that I had become depressed and had cut myself and attempted suicide, alas, she only came to abandon me again. I remember when she found out all she said was "You're not depressed. You're just emo."- I had disclosed to her previously that word seriously triggered me because it was one of my schools go to words for bullying me which is what lead to my suicide. Always, "Tess is so fucking emo, that's the emo chick!" I remember at a couple points people would RUN up to me GRAB my arm and a newcomer and force me to show my cuts, "look at her, so gross! what the fuck is wrong with her!" "she's emo." I remember walking through the halls with the sneers and "that's the emo chick" among MUCH other things, but this was a personal word that seriously brought back memories. I let her in and told her this. She said it anyway. That was her first time actually in my life. It was my birthday. (13 now) I remember all she said before that was, you smell weird, you look weird, your eyebrows are off, you're gaining weight. you need to lose weight. you're wearing too much makeup. all these things I was SO insecure about and already severely bullied for - and she knew I was - she made solid. My own "mother." Maybe I'd be good intention and I could take it if I knew she loved me, if this wasn't ALL she said to me, if she hadn't of already walked out on me for 9 years and DIDN'T KNOW ME AT ALL. It seems she came back into my life just to rub it into my face that she was gone, try a bit, and then reprimand me, hurt me deeply, and disappear again once things got to hard. She couldn't deal with MY depression, yeah, she can't deal with it? How does she think I feel actually being the one GOING THROUGH IT. The worst part is that she was NEVER there for me as a child, NEVER knew me and had NO right to call herself my mom. She only even came to me throughout those years so I could babysit the children she actually cared about. I remember I think at about 13, It got out that my father was abusive so I lost my home to sleep, and she took me in. Nice right? No. She took me in for a week and then kicked me out because I was too depressed, complained that all I did was "sleep on the couch." and I was a failure and "wasn't helping out with the kids" That's not why I was supposed to be there. I was there because I didn't have a home, I thought, well no, she just needed me for a maid and then she then kicked me out when she realized I couldn't be one, cause I seriously thought she did it because she loved me. She then forced me to go live with my sister who also kicked me out when I had an episode. Back to an abusive father. I remember that same year of being 12, when I orginally attempted, I landed myself in the hospital and she, this BITCH that didn't know me, didn't even know my favorite colour - thought it was purple - her favorite colour (I fucking HATE purple) had no clue who I was or what I'd been through, left me 9 years, this lady who wasn't my mom, but a biological mother had the nerve when I was depressed and suicidal to tell the hospital staff I was "lying" and she "knew me" and I "wasn't depressed" and she "never left me." She even had the nerve to blame her leaving on me, "you should've called" I WAS 5-9 when I still remembered you existed, I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO USE A PHONE. Maybe I would have if you would've left a number. Either way, being my biological birth parent and lying about our past the doctors believed her and it made it VERY hard for me to receive ANY help. my diagnoses didn't come till 10 suicide attempts and a year later. As time progressed, I forgave her, because, "she's your mom! she cares" Each time I let her in, she walked out again. At one point I was in treatment and became aggressively suicidal, she was there and staff asked her to take me to the hospital because I needed to be there and needed to be on suicide watch. Her response? She got up and walked out the door. She left. I sit crying and withering in pain, in my time of hour, when my LIFE and SAFTEY was on the line, needing her to help me. and she just walked away. Quite literally. I'll never forget the image of being 13 and having her so literally get up and walk out the door. I had trusted her. I did this a couple more times. I remember while back I showered her a piece of PERSONAL poetry of mine about a lost love, cutting, and despair, that a stranger liked so much she used it in a poetry slam competition, I knew it was good, I had received so much recognition, I was VERY proud of it. These were my innermost thoughts, too. She had been complaining I "never let her in" (wonder why?) so I took it upon myself at 14 to show her this poem and try to help our relationship. Bare my soul, because she had asked. Her response, under her breath, *nod* "yeah. it's good." and she threw it on the table. I vowed never to let her in again. Don't even get me started on the time she hit me, or when I overdosed and nearly LOST MY LIFE and as I lay dying in a hospital bed and gown profusely vomiting, hallucinating, heart nearing dangerous levels, hooked up to a IV as they just pray I survive, she had the INDECENCY to say nothing but, "Maybe she deserves it." I forgave her. I went over to her house, I drank a bit. (ok a lot) I was an alcoholic by definition and rate. I couldn't fucking control myself. She smelled it on my breath, she hit me. I hit back. She slammed me into a glass table and pinned me to a chair, grasping and pressing against me me so tightly and it hurt so much it would leave bruises. This was in front of my nine year old sister. I speak of them simply as "the ones she cared about" but I cared about them too. When I was young she would invite me over, not for her, I never spoke to her once- but to babysits them. I was there for them at 6-8 years old when she went out drinking or decided she didnt want to be a mom anymore. I sang them lullabies and changed their diapers and took them out. I love them, really, and truly dearly in my heart. The boy is now 6. I seriously did love them, I don't like anyone, but these children were like my kids to me. She banned me from ever stepping into the house again. I was 14. I still haven't spoken to her; and I still haven't seen them. Now all I can do is finally let go of the notion that I will ever have the mother I wanted and needed so bad a child. Just, a mom. I know now I won't and I must live without one. I cannot change her. I want to, but I can't. I tried. All that's left is to deal with that I will never have my mother for a mom. All that's left is living with the grief of the thing I never had and will never have but wanted so bad. All that's left is to let go of the idea that I will ever have a mom. It's a weird loss, losing something you never had. Is this what you call a family?
Okay. 1, where are these kids so I can beat the living fucking crap out of them. I'm not joking, tell me where you are or where you go to school so I can hurt them so badly that they will never hurt you again. I was literally diagnosed as sadistic, I'll make them bleed, scream, cry and hurt they so fucking badly that they will so scared to call the cops. 2. Nice ending with 'is this what you call a family?' #. Im pretty sure your probably fucking beautiful and I'm serious when I say I think their jealous.
I was actually disgusted by this so much. to think that your own mother could treat you that why. im so proud of you for staying alive this long. just remeber when youre older you can move ffar away and meet people who love and take care of you. stay strong💓
you're mother might have walked out of your life, but I promise there's people out there who aren't even blood related that care for you.. I hope life works in your favor. you deserve it
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Its not just a comment section down here, its a community. Your so brave and you sound pretty strong. This music is like a bond to us all ,and we have to stick together. Im TOTALLY here for you, I don't know you very well but I WILL listen to every word you have to say. Stay strong hun, it gets better :)
sometimes I feel like im just not the daughter my parents wanted, just that feeling like my dad hates me sometimes. like, im such a disappointment to them the least favorite child, none of them know all the things i've been through yet they're my parents, I can't talk to them..
If you want to talk to him or get answers why hes not there with you try as much as you can. My dad left me when i was very little and i just founf he died from cancer and i wish i just had asked him why he never contacted me
I used to listen to this song on repeat when I was younger. My dad was absent in my life, he left when I was five. In that time I had really went through some abusive family situations. Listening to this years later, I’m happy that I can say my dad has contacted me, we’ve built a relationship and I’ve grown and healed from the trauma I experienced. It’s really crazy to think that people don’t really realize how it can affect kids when they are young and as they go into adulthood. I’m sorry to anyone who’s had to deal with this type of pain. Keep your head up ❤️
ya same here but more like why would you do this and why r u running away is it something I did is it something I said did I make a mistake part for my mom... what happened? if you don't mind me asking...
No its fine. She basically left us for drug and for years I blame it on myself that I was the reason she left because she was disappointed in me and my grandmother now had to raise me and my 3 siblings...
This song is for my mother. I love you but I don't miss you :'( you treated me, my sister, and my 5 brothers like shit. You ruined everything now. You lost me forever now
I love sleeping with sirens because of the way they perform, kellin shows his emotions so well, through his facial expressions and his voice. This is what I call a fucking good band
I’m 26 and a man now and this still hits me the way it did when I was a younger kid I miss you dad I wish you were around. sucks hurting without you wish you could’ve stayed but to my future kid I’m gonna give you all the love he never could’ve given me 🙏sincerely my younger teenage self who needed his dad
My mom and dad had me and my brother when she was around 19. They weren't married and my dad left a couple days after that. He loves my brother more and it feels like he doesn't care at all. This song makes me cry so fucking hard.
I feel like disappointment to my family a lot...and I always feel worthless and lonely..especially since my dad isn't a home a lot and my mom is going off to work for like 2/3 years and I literally disappoint them every day somehow....so I just wonder if I'm really such a disappointment to them
my mom doesn't care for me anymore now that I'm 19 and a grown ass man. I don't care. But my dad is at work all the time. All we ever talked about is my grades. And I feel like shit every time I look at him and realize I couldn't deliver the one single thing he asked of me. I don't know why everybody talks like black fathers are crap. I think if you know where you're going and you eventually reach your goal, your parents will learn to appreciate your wins instead of your losses.
This was one of my favorite songs in high school. I never meet my father. One day I hope to see him and tell him my mother feel into a depression then passed away.
My dad was struggling with addictions and anger when I was growing up. We never got to get close until now. 8 years or so, I've never been closer with him, and I can not imagine life without him. I used to relate to this song, but not anymore. im severely happy about it, too. But for those who fathers walked away from their Familys. Be strong, and prove to yourself you can be a better man or woman than he ever was. 🤘
This makes me so sad but happy that my dad didn't leave. My half brother (pretty much my brother) well I don't think he ever met his father and that just makes me sad. I can't imagine what he felt like. My mum had me when he was 10 (got married to dad like 3 years later) but he's never come to call him dad because he understood everything by the time my dad came into the picture. I just
***** because you know everything right... You don't know peoples situations. I don't know why it concerns you so much. If she made it up then let it go?
My dad walked away 11 years ago and I haven't heard from him since. I pretty much lost it when I came across this song. I just sat there on my bed and sobbed. For years I blamed myself for him leaving which made me hate myself and him. I often wonder if he does think of of me at all or why has he made no effort to even try to contact me.....
my parents are divorced and i'm an only child, and my dad is really starting to not like me and i have no idea why. we used to be so close, i don't get it
three years ago i would cry my eyes out listening to this. now, i've became a stronger person, i think my mental health is still fucked up, but at least i got over my dad's absense.
Thanks mom, thanks dad, for abandoning me when i needed you the most. Thank you for no birthdays, no christmas's, for hours spent in front of a mirror wondering why i was never good enough for your love. All i wanted was to be a son you could be proud of. Instead, i got tangled into a foster system that never gave a fuck about me. I thank you both, for teaching me what true pain feels like.
my father forgot my birthday, and dissapeared a few months agos. He is still on social medias so im assuming he just dont care about me. so here i am, crying at the top of my lungs while im listening to that. Thanks for this song, i love it. take care everyone
My father was there as a child but,he wasn’t at the same time and never cared and always felt like he had just ditched us emotionally,when my stepfather came it was like the world made sense and color was brought to my life,this song just helps me understand I’m not alone in the world no matter who leaves me,thank you so much -angsty 17 yr old lol
"is this what you call a family?"
fucnfun I ask my dad that all the time in my head
I like your pp... sorry... I just had to.
Me @ my step mom
ryuzaki senpai if he abuses you abuse him back its self defense
Me at my dad..
I wonder if Kellin's dad ever hears girls talking about Kellin Quinn, and realizes what a beautiful and amazing person he brought into this world, but didn't have the guts to stick around for.
He made this song for his step sons, I admire him a lot
But his dad is getting so upset when he is realizing how cool person is his son who he have left..
Fuck.
@@aaliyah6451 the comment didnt age well :/
@@augustlove8579 wym?
happy father’s day everyone. nice to see you again this year
still cry to this song till this day, bad father's suck.
felt that
Mood
I cry for a different reason. I watched my dad die when I was 11(he had a heart attack in front of me.)
@@picklejosh3587 I watched this as well. It sucks but we'll be good. Praying for you 💝
This song makes me cry every time. It makes me feel as if someone out there knows the same pain as I have. My father left when I was born, and when I saw him, he ignored me. He didn't even look at his own son. I broke down in tears and he said that I'm not his son, he said his son would never cry...
That is sad man i know my dad but fight him alot but love him sorry to hear that if you had a wish to have him be a real dad would you want it to come true??
Or not
Yes, I would give up everything just to have my dad. My life would be so much better. If have someone that I can actually talk to. Someone to comfort me and get me back from starring off into empty nothingness.
Nemesis Jeff Mhm..
What Do You Want? I'm sorry but, this only because of what others have done but, is that a sarcastic "Mhm"? Sorry about the question.
It's sad to look through these comments seeing people missing their father and their father not caring. That's horrible. I don't understand how someone in their right mind would hate their child. There is utterly horrible people in this world. All i can say is, i'm so sorry for what your going though. I understand this completely. And your gonna get through this. I know your probally tired of hearing this from people. But i hope you get better. I may not know you. But i understand this pain. Keep holding on.
You're a great person
Thank you that means a lot
thank you
that really hurts me😢
*”father father tell me where have you been”*
That hurt my heart
This song makes me cry.
I mean my dad still lives with me and everything. And I see him everyday. But at the same times he's not there. I don't even like sitting in the same room with him.
I wish the past could erase so i would be close to him.
I feel you it's the same way with my father
+Nafisa Ahmed never met my dad my dad never met me and its unfortnelly gona stay that way....
+Nafisa Ahmed same here man i wish i could do that wth my mom
I have the same problem
I have struggled with depression my whole life I have to see a therapist 3 times every week I have to see a doctor every 3 weeks for new medication every time I am currently on 4 medications it's cool to know it helps but it makes me sad that my depression brought me to the point where I have to take medication for it
This song never fails to make me cry my eyes out
Melinda Irwin it makes you cry more when the lyrics are true
It’s just realatible I’m
@@scarlettperez3205 to get a thrift
Litterally
same
at 12 this song hit me in the feels
at 21 im still crying
Wtf your sad 😂😂🖕🏼💩
That's 1 long cry
this is too real
😢 I’m sorry
happy 25th my friend!!!
Reading the comment section makes me sad. I have and love both of my parents and I could never imagine feeling how most of you feel. I just really like this song so I always listen to it. I feel blessed but Im sorry to those who don't have the chance to say they love their mother or father.
I love it too. Its just that me and my mom have problems.
+Anthony Almodovar I'm not the only person who has a "Normal-Classed" family on here then!
+Kimberly Feng My parents were divorced when i was 4...then my father died when i was 14...and then my mother died when i was 15...it sucks so fucking much...
thanks..suicide doesnt make anything better....i know that well...too many of my old friends have committed suicide...
its fine
it‘s crazy how many ppl can relate to this song in so many different ways.
my dad didnt even left or ever hurt me physically. he just says hurtful things i cant forget and always prefers my sister, because she‘s the kid he always wanted. i can‘t say i love him or anything - it feels wrong.
i will never forget what he said.
You deserve so much better. Sending good vibes your way. I wish you healing
Emotionally hurting your kid will cut deeper than the physical ones sometimes. Coming from a kid who had both ✌️ its a long rough road to getting better when the ones meant to teach us fail to do their jobs. Means the ones they hurt have to unlearn that behavior and teach themselves a better one. Hope you can find some of that knowledge to learn along the way. Makes things so much easier.
Same.. 😭
I’m sorry beebee
Bro we lived the same childhood 🫡🖤 craziest part is id die to protect my father no matter what happened and i love him more than anything i love my mom even more but it’s crazy it’s like all the yelling all the everything just turned into a shield I use to face the world I walk ten toes down with a graceful heart but a anger that hits different idk I found my peace and I pray you find yours idk how I even found this song or comment but I guess I was meant to find it praying for you
The fact that I'm crying not from the song, but from the backstories of commenters' families makes me wonder why parents do this shit. Yes, I've had disagreements with my family, but nothing compared to what a lot of people go through. If anyone is going through a broken family, know that you have someone to talk to (including me) :)
Twenty-Øne Sirens! At the Chemical Discø thank you so much now ima cry :)
Hey thanks for your comment:)
I'm here as well for those who have been through a family thing
Misery loves it's company is why
I was 11 when this song came out, I didn't relate much to it then, but now at 23 i relate to it too much. My father left me and my younger sister in a state with no blood family and ignored us for months while he moved to a new state with a new job. Thankfully the friend we stayed with, her grandma took us in and adopted us. but this song hurts more now, then it did then.
Kellin made this song for his step son....he told us at warped at the TEI workshop
I didn't know Kellin had a step son
HancockTheDank Katelynn was married before she married Kellin
I heard that kellins step sibilings wrote the song
one of his stepsons have mi age ... is Liam
Marlayna Garcia I thought he wrote this for his own dad
I love this comment section, it's not a spam like who watches this in 2020 etc. it's stories of real people
Omg true
+Aamel Shs you watching this in 2016?
Holy shit your pfp is great
who’s watching in 2018
Who’s watching this in 2019?
for my daughter, im sorry i couldnt hold us together, and im sorry i couldnt make him love you like i do. - i promise to give you the love hes failed to give you. He has no idea what he missed out on, you're a blessing.
You’re a good mom
Probably Some Alpha Psycho Gone Fycking Other Witches
Thank you for what you do, from a single mom kid it seriously means so much to me to see people genuinely care about their kids
W mother! 🔥🔥
"was it something that I did? did I make a mistake? cause now I'm trying to deal with the pain"
this is what I've been thinking since my father left 12 years ago.. I'm 17 now and still thinking what was my fault for being born into this world? my mother didn't care about me much.. she rarely in home and when she does she just play with the phone or watching tv.. practically ignoring me..
Now for anyone with both parents to love you and always be there for you, hug them tightly because you're lucky to have such a loving parents :')
I can relate so much
Fuck are we the same person or what? My dad left when I was 5 after cheating on my Mum multiple times and we always wondered if/when he was coming back. I’m 19 now I’m alone most of the time Mum works ALOT and a few weeks ago I tried to reach out to my dad he read and ignored my texts and calls , he’s got a perfect family of his own now and kids that are spoilt and he just ignored me. It’s broken my heart that he just doesn’t care and it’s more real now I’ve accepted it, I always used to push that thought away thinking “ he does care he will come back into my life” but I’ve realised he won’t, and doesn’t care. It hurts so bad but it’s made me appreciate my mum so much more. That’s what you need to do, accept & appreciate what you do have 💜
I’m sure it sucks to feel as if both of your parents do not care. Let me tell you something. I and many others in this world FCKING CARE. Please, if anyone still needs an ear or just wants to talk/vent drop your email.. I’ll send you an email and we can exchange numbers there.
My dad has been gone for almost 2 years now. Not physically, but mentally. You used to be such a great guy..
Charlie Pearce ;-;
Dang that's short but yet soo fucking deep
Meagan I'm sorry ;-;
Charlie Pearce im sorry for your lose. :( I stopped seeing my dad around 8-9. because hes gone mental in the head.
Hayley Willis D: I'm really sorry about that. My dad decided he didn't want me and left when I was really little. I don't even know his name ;p
People are all sharing their stories so I'm gonna add mine too just because I can I guess
I may or may not have sent this to song my uncle with the caption "you are no longer a part of our family. Please enjoy living the rest of your life without your children, god knows they will enjoy their lives without you" after he left my cousins and aunt . I also had a huge fight with him before he left since my cousins are all younger than me so I'm like their big sister. When he started to walk away I yelled "why are you running away?" and then I pointed to his sobbing daughter and looked him in the eye while I asked him if this is what he called a family. My cousins and aunt are now living with us until they can get a new home since he took all of their money. His oldest (eight years old) asked me if it was her fault, or was it something she said? No child should ever have to feel that, ever, they will have to live without their father and that is something I could never imagine dealing with on my own. To everyone in the comments section with shit parents, I love you, and you are so much stronger than me. Please have a good life.
Anna Emily “is this what you call a family?”
God, this kinda relates to me a wee bit... For the whole time i grew up knowing what my dad did, i kept blaming myself, saying that im no good because of him... I kept asking my mom if i was supposed to exist because i am his daughter... I'm legit almost 20 and i still question it.
@@TheFoxtabulousVixie felt that
I hated my real dad.. he was never there even when I tried to get in his life... Now here I am 24 years holding my 5 day old son up at 3 a.m.. his beautiful innocent face.. Daddy will always be here no matter what. ❤️❤️🙏 Sometimes things happen so you can give better to someone else.
Everyone thinks that Kellin wrote this song about himself
WRONG
Kellin wrote this song for his step-kids whose fathers not in the picture.
AratekeFIRE either way it's a great message.
Awww
Kellin had his dad growing up he talks about in "Free Now" he talks about both his parents
At least he didn't think about it in his head, he actually had inspiration for it, I'm glad he loves his step kids that much 😊
KiwiKitten he came from a broken family
My dad never has cared for me. My sister was always the favorite. He never gave me a chance. This song explains how i feel perfectly. Correction how ive felt my whole life...
+Lilli Star same here....
I feel you. That's why I stopped to give a damn about my family. Now my father is doing what he can just to let me notice him.
Same here I have a step sister and a brother and they come first before anything else even his own daughter his own blood
+Toxic Emos I understand all of my siblings come before me and I am forgotten about most times
My dad would always make fun of me (my parents were divorced since I was 4 or so. I would go back and forth between my mom and dads house every week and my schedule was complicated and stressful with school.) and every time I went to his house he would make me feel so bad about myself.(eventually it became a little better as I grew up, but I would forever remember the things he said) I became severely depressed to the point I thought that thinking about wanting to die and feeling so bad was normal. I grew up that way. I had depression for about 6 or 7 years. I guess after I realized that it wasn't normal I felt even worse that no one I knew and loved noticed how unhappy I was with life. It kinda hurt. My grades were awful, I almost never went to school because of the anxiety I felt that if I even breathed wrong someone would laugh at me, and it has caused me so much trauma and has made me feel like such a weak person. If I do anything wrong now and someone yells at me for it, no matter if this person means anything to me or not, I am on the verge of tears. I am very shy with people I don't know, and am always afraid to make someone angry. Luckily though last year someone I knew found out how I was feeling and reported me to the school councilor. I got help. It took a long time for them to change my schedule (for when I went to my dads house) but eventually we did it. I still have to go to a therapist though. I only had to go to his house every other weekend. About four weeks into the agreement change, my neighbor from my dads house came to my moms house to tell us some bad news. I found out that my dad had passed away. I was devastated. I thought it was my fault at first. He was getting better at not making fun of me. I still loved him even though he used to be so awful to me. He was my dad. I realized that I should have spent more time with him before he passed. We actually had a few things in common. Just don't take for granted what you have. Try to get to know your parents a little bit. (sorry about the rant :P)
My parents never had problems but reading all of these comments, all of you are strong for making it through. 💖
This song was written with so much emotion. You can tell that Kellin takes time and effort .. he pours his heart and soul into these songs.. This is one of my favourites.. God bless everyone. I care... others care..
Broken Family.. does not mean Broken Life...
We care..
The SWS fanbase.. we care.
my dad hasnt been around much since i was six, im lucky if i see him twice a year and talk to him more than every two or three months. this song really hits home for me.
my dad left me at six as well his drugs and all his prostitutes have always been more important then me.
When I was 2 my dad left and I remember asking my mom "Mommy why doesn't daddy love you anymore" and she was so shocked I said that and this song hits home for me
+WaitAMinuteHere WhyInDaFuqWouldYouBeReadingDisSir
my dad did too its okay
My dad left when I was 3 ,then came back when I was 6 and emotionally, physically and sexually abused me till I was 8 and he got 25 to life for murdering my mother...
Robert Lopez *hugs* at least he can't get to you now, love. are you okay?
I wish my father cared. This song made me cry.
it breaks my heart not hear amazing music like this on the radio.. songs with meaning and a story. seems a bit harder to find in other genres
me too,. all in my story of my life in this song,.
where are now.??
they saved me from that :)
best cod montage song ever created
This reminds me so much of my father. Even though I have contact with him, I still grew up without a father figure in my life..
awe, thats always soo sad.. im sorry bout that.... :(
It's fine x3 hailey pickett
I know how you feel.....
Its always soo sad when peoples dads leave them.. Or mom..
Yeah. We just have to live through it and do something with our lives. We can be something and when it comes time to have a family, our children will say, "My parents are the coolest" So they'll know what it's like to have loving and caring parents :)
I am on the other end of this song, I dont get to see my daughter because my babys mother has disappeared, and i cant help to wonder if shes being fed lies of how i dont want to see her. I miss you sammy girl. I am your father and I wish i could have you by my side, I think of you everyday, not a single second goes by that I dont think of you.
+Angel Escobar I feel so sorry for you. Genuinely hope you find her
damn
+Angel Escobar I wish I could help you find her but I don't know what use I could be
www.familylives.org.uk/advice/divorce-and-separation/shared-parenting-and-contact/renewing-contact-with-your-children/
Maybe look in to things like this it may help You find her.
+Angel Escobar this is really sad but ik your not alone ever god is right by your side so even if thing aren't great right now then continue to give him praise...praise him in the storm and out of the storm and you will be rewarded far greater than you are going to even if you don't god will help you
This song makes me cry. And my family are fine. It's the emotion in this song D;
same c:
Back at this song again. Now I'm having a child and won't abandon him like how mine did.
the beginning gives me chills
i relate to the beggining
same
same
I have listened to this song almost 50 times now and I still feel chills.
raise your hand if your in a broken home *raises both hands*
🙌🏻🙌🏻
raises three hands
Raises all of the hands😢💙
👋👋👋
me.🙌
music: _soft, smooth voice_ father father, tell me where have you..
me: *loud, screaming at the top of my lungs* bEEn ITS BEEN HELL NOIT AHVSIJGN YAoiU EHERERERRRE IVE BEEN MISSING yoauYH SO BAVADADDD AND YOU DONT SEME TO ACFREREREEB
Omg yessssssssssssss
Haley DiTrapani all I see is the word yaoi
Haley DiTrapani I love it when people steal other peoples coments
People like you are the reason I wanna kill my self
+vicky vamp And 'seme'.
This band needs more credit.. they're so amazing
My father passed away of cancer about a year ago.. song gets me every time. He was my best friend and my only parent. I've struggled a lot since then. My heart goes out to all of you who have struggled because of a parental situation. I'm sure none of you deserve the plate you've been handed and I hope all of you are strong enough to see that ❤
This song defines the band for me. It has meaningful lyrics and the vocals are full of emotion. This IS Sleeping With Sirens.
when I go to sleep at night, youre not there
got me tearing up there kellin
Gordon Ramsey: "IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL A CREME BRULEE"?
At least this one lightened the mood a bit
i cant unhear it now
This made me cringe 😂😂😂 thank you
UNDERRATED
Fkn lol
I can relate to this a lot, my dad is never home and my mum left when i was 7.(not really part of this) my dad is either drunk or working and only comes home to sleep. i also feel like im a disappointment to both of my parents.my parents don't know anything about me anymore,
DigEwolf i also can relate my dad was never there for me he cause me and my mom alot of pain especially my mum, i was 4 days old when i was in a crash caused by my dad ill post a video on my channel later this week but yea this song relates
at least u have a dad
DigEwolf your not a disappointment no one is ever a disappointment
Sounds shitty, he’s letting you down doing that to you, you oughta find confidence in yourself and make sure if you have kids or anyone else in your life, they never feel that way
DigEwolf fuck that brother\sister you stay strong till the end and kill these Demond’s your heart will over come all only with hope and courage brethren !
and a tear falls..
I don't think I've ever heard a song that I can relate to as much as this one…
+Minuscule Monster same. ;-;
EMO ARMY'S and YESS I CAN RELATE!
+Minyoongigenius Jjangjjangman bboongbboong omg I love how the army just shows up wherever I am lol
SAME...
so true same
Happy Father’s Day..
I'm lucky to still have both my mother and father. This song really connects to me and i don't know why. i feel like i lost someone but i don't know who.
+Katie AndDesDes same here (:
+Katie AndDesDes same
same
Right. Same here
+Katie AndDesDes some of us dont have ether one os our parents
I really wish my father cared about me. This song gets to me so bad, I'm balling my eyes out right now.
@J Watson that is so amazing! i’m so happy to hear that, and you will be an amazing father with that mindset! ☺️ since i commented on this video, i started my own family and am happy that we can provide our daughter with 2 loving parents who are 100% involved 💛 i’m so glad we can give her everything i didn’t have growing up 🥰
R.I.P 10.31.16
I'll miss you forever and ever stay low dad I'll meet you there.
My dad introduced my to this song and we always sang it to me
Sageythemonster MSP I'm sorry :((
Annebelle Mahendra thank you hun
7:03pm on a Monday night. not the best to start of the week like this but everyone here I promise we’ll get through it all together. “Is this what you call a family?!”
My heart goes out to those without a true father figure, it sucks that things like this happen
There's so many dead beat dads in this world. I feel so happy to have a father, who does what ever he can to provide for his family. Yes he gets angry a lot, but I can constantly see the stress in his eyes. When he gets and yells at me, or someone else I know he's just pissed and doesn't mean any of it. I'm lucky to have a good family, which makes me feel even more bad for having bad mental health.
This song represents every father that has failed to care/look after or loge their kids. Stay strong.
As a child of an absent father, this song hits me so hard that I can't ever get through it without crying... much love to everyone else with these feels. You're not alone. ❤
God,,,this song 😔
happy fathers day daddy i showed him this song
scarlett redd karkate vantas Uhhhhhh, okay?
Did you listen to the song??
Um I'm not sure if you realize that this song is about a father abandoning his children and there's more to it than just that it's so emotional and sad I'm wondering if you truly understood the lyrics
I'm genuinely confused.
Your aware of what this is about right?
I would have showed my dad this for fathers day too... i get what shes saying, she is stating that her dad probably was a crap one too. and she was showing him how good of a dad she thought he was...
Every now and then, this song will play in my head. When i actually listen to it, i get teary-eyed.
this song is loud not to convey anger, but to help out scream the negative thoughts that consume the listeners mind and bring reality to the fact that not one persons problem is unique and specific to them, there will always be someone out there to relate to.
this song entered my ears, and hit the feels real hard...love Kellin
you know sometimes you can have a father who loves you but doesn't show at all cause he just cannot show emotions and it huts a lot. Because you have him with you all day but all he could say it's "you're not enough,you should have done it better" or whatever,you know he does it for you but he never told you "you did well" even though you try to be the best so yeah,people who have father can suffer too,I guess.
I get you. I feel like that too. I agree, you can have a father right next to you and yet you still feel alone.
yeah,that's just sucks :A:
Luke Watson Agreed...
One of my favorite songs by SWS!!
I can't blame this on my father, he did the best he could for me
Love it brother! Hope life is treating you well!
was crying silently alone with this song 5 years ago when my father and mother had a new family of their own but now im just happy for them and myself and my siblings. years before this (2023) is such a painful lesson. but i just can't be more grateful for the family i have right now.
i really feel for everybody who can unfortunately deeply relate to this song, no man who would willingly walk out on their kids without remorse deserves to be called a father.
I guess your man was more important than me, mom.
So fucking relatable
So true.
relatable af
Relatable :/
Relate so much, I did love and live with my mom for a while. Until I was assaulted by her boyfriend and did nothing about it. Now I live my father and she has a new boyfriend and a kid with him. I feel as though she is trying to restart cause she knows she fucked up. The most she does in a year is buy clothes and most of the time they are shit ones. It has gotten to the point where I barely talk to her. She is constantly shoving her opinions down my throat and trying to fuck up my life even more. I have come to the realization is that I don't need her. And in one way I am thankful for her being a shit parent. Cause now I can raise my future kids knowing that I am not making the mistakes she has.
My dad was murdered a few years ago and we used to listen to this song together when I was obsessed with this band. I took shrooms and this was a suggestion. I miss you dad and I know you are listening to this with me right now ♥️
rest in peace your dad
your story gives a whole new meaning to the song and it’s so tragic..
I hate how my parents just gave me away. I never got the chance to meet them, but I grew up without them, I learned to ride a bike without them, I had fifteen great birthday parties and they never once showed up they knew where I was but did they bother? No. To hell with them!
so like...Relatable...
For all of you who don't have one or both parents, or have both parents but no connection; if you are listening to this song, you are apart of this family. All of you, all of us.
"Father, Father
Where have you been?"
Dear Biological Father,
Ever since I've learned about you, you have been nothing but a roller coaster in my life. I don't know why I'm crying every night for a man who never been there! You ruined me, now I don't want to trust anyone God sends my way. I dont want the heartache you've put me through it's been years and I still can't be release from the pain you put me through.
"Was it something I did?" Besides being born? You should have been there for me!
But thanks to you, I have a wonderful stepdad whose been there since day 1!!!
"Is this what you call a family?!" When you have other kids that you are clearly happy with?! God I hate the feelings you put me through! I dont want to be here because of you!!! But I'll always have a part of me that'll forever love you ....and I hate it....
Sincerely,
A broken child
You made me cry hard. i hope i can have such a positive influence on my step daughter. it breaks my heart every time she calls her dad and he continually makes excuses to when he'll see her. Like seriously man, can you see you have a wonderful little girl whose just wants a hug from her daddy nothing more? is that too much to ask man? smh.
Great Song To People That Did Don't Grow Up Without A Dad
Like Me
This song really hits home for me. My father passed away when I was 9 I really want to say that I am so sorry for anyone and everyone who has had to and is growing up in a broken home. And please know it will eventually get better. Hang in there and keep waiting for the best outcome:)
I agree with you,and I know how you feel,mine passed away last year..
im so sorry
Every time I hear this song I automatically change it out with "Mother." My mom abandoned me when I was five, gave me up to my dad without any real explanation - left her five year old daughter with an abusive father who was never home 4 pm(school ending time) to 12 (I'd be asleep) I had to grow up alone, care for myself, feed myself, brush my own hair. I would go to sleep, and she wasn't there. Left no note as to where she was. I ignored it up until I was 12, I really didn't understand that I was supposed to have a mother because she was never there. She came back into my life at 12, because it rang back to her that I had become depressed and had cut myself and attempted suicide, alas, she only came to abandon me again. I remember when she found out all she said was "You're not depressed. You're just emo."- I had disclosed to her previously that word seriously triggered me because it was one of my schools go to words for bullying me which is what lead to my suicide. Always, "Tess is so fucking emo, that's the emo chick!" I remember at a couple points people would RUN up to me GRAB my arm and a newcomer and force me to show my cuts, "look at her, so gross! what the fuck is wrong with her!" "she's emo." I remember walking through the halls with the sneers and "that's the emo chick" among MUCH other things, but this was a personal word that seriously brought back memories. I let her in and told her this. She said it anyway. That was her first time actually in my life.
It was my birthday. (13 now)
I remember all she said before that was, you smell weird, you look weird, your eyebrows are off, you're gaining weight. you need to lose weight. you're wearing too much makeup. all these things I was SO insecure about and already severely bullied for - and she knew I was - she made solid. My own "mother." Maybe I'd be good intention and I could take it if I knew she loved me, if this wasn't ALL she said to me, if she hadn't of already walked out on me for 9 years and DIDN'T KNOW ME AT ALL.
It seems she came back into my life just to rub it into my face that she was gone, try a bit, and then reprimand me, hurt me deeply, and disappear again once things got to hard. She couldn't deal with MY depression, yeah, she can't deal with it? How does she think I feel actually being the one GOING THROUGH IT.
The worst part is that she was NEVER there for me as a child, NEVER knew me and had NO right to call herself my mom. She only even came to me throughout those years so I could babysit the children she actually cared about. I remember I think at about 13, It got out that my father was abusive so I lost my home to sleep, and she took me in. Nice right? No. She took me in for a week and then kicked me out because I was too depressed, complained that all I did was "sleep on the couch." and I was a failure and "wasn't helping out with the kids" That's not why I was supposed to be there. I was there because I didn't have a home, I thought, well no, she just needed me for a maid and then she then kicked me out when she realized I couldn't be one, cause I seriously thought she did it because she loved me. She then forced me to go live with my sister who also kicked me out when I had an episode. Back to an abusive father.
I remember that same year of being 12, when I orginally attempted, I landed myself in the hospital and she, this BITCH that didn't know me, didn't even know my favorite colour - thought it was purple - her favorite colour (I fucking HATE purple) had no clue who I was or what I'd been through, left me 9 years, this lady who wasn't my mom, but a biological mother had the nerve when I was depressed and suicidal to tell the hospital staff I was "lying" and she "knew me" and I "wasn't depressed" and she "never left me." She even had the nerve to blame her leaving on me, "you should've called" I WAS 5-9 when I still remembered you existed, I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO USE A PHONE. Maybe I would have if you would've left a number. Either way, being my biological birth parent and lying about our past the doctors believed her and it made it VERY hard for me to receive ANY help. my diagnoses didn't come till 10 suicide attempts and a year later. As time progressed, I forgave her, because,
"she's your mom! she cares" Each time I let her in, she walked out again. At one point I was in treatment and became aggressively suicidal, she was there and staff asked her to take me to the hospital because I needed to be there and needed to be on suicide watch. Her response?
She got up and walked out the door. She left. I sit crying and withering in pain, in my time of hour, when my LIFE and SAFTEY was on the line, needing her to help me. and she just walked away. Quite literally. I'll never forget the image of being 13 and having her so literally get up and walk out the door. I had trusted her.
I did this a couple more times.
I remember while back I showered her a piece of PERSONAL poetry of mine about a lost love, cutting, and despair, that a stranger liked so much she used it in a poetry slam competition, I knew it was good, I had received so much recognition, I was VERY proud of it. These were my innermost thoughts, too. She had been complaining I "never let her in" (wonder why?) so I took it upon myself at 14 to show her this poem and try to help our relationship. Bare my soul, because she had asked. Her response, under her breath, *nod* "yeah. it's good." and she threw it on the table.
I vowed never to let her in again.
Don't even get me started on the time she hit me, or when I overdosed and nearly LOST MY LIFE and as I lay dying in a hospital bed and gown profusely vomiting, hallucinating, heart nearing dangerous levels, hooked up to a IV as they just pray I survive, she had the INDECENCY to say nothing but,
"Maybe she deserves it."
I forgave her. I went over to her house, I drank a bit. (ok a lot) I was an alcoholic by definition and rate. I couldn't fucking control myself. She smelled it on my breath, she hit me. I hit back. She slammed me into a glass table and pinned me to a chair, grasping and pressing against me me so tightly and it hurt so much it would leave bruises. This was in front of my nine year old sister. I speak of them simply as "the ones she cared about" but I cared about them too. When I was young she would invite me over, not for her, I never spoke to her once- but to babysits them. I was there for them at 6-8 years old when she went out drinking or decided she didnt want to be a mom anymore. I sang them lullabies and changed their diapers and took them out. I love them, really, and truly dearly in my heart. The boy is now 6. I seriously did love them, I don't like anyone, but these children were like my kids to me.
She banned me from ever stepping into the house again. I was 14. I still haven't spoken to her; and I still haven't seen them.
Now all I can do is finally let go of the notion that I will ever have the mother I wanted and needed so bad a child. Just, a mom. I know now I won't and I must live without one. I cannot change her. I want to, but I can't. I tried. All that's left is to deal with that I will never have my mother for a mom. All that's left is living with the grief of the thing I never had and will never have but wanted so bad. All that's left is to let go of the idea that I will ever have a mom. It's a weird loss, losing something you never had.
Is this what you call a family?
Okay. 1, where are these kids so I can beat the living fucking crap out of them. I'm not joking, tell me where you are or where you go to school so I can hurt them so badly that they will never hurt you again. I was literally diagnosed as sadistic, I'll make them bleed, scream, cry and hurt they so fucking badly that they will so scared to call the cops. 2. Nice ending with 'is this what you call a family?' #. Im pretty sure your probably fucking beautiful and I'm serious when I say I think their jealous.
I was actually disgusted by this so much. to think that your own mother could treat you that why. im so proud of you for staying alive this long. just remeber when youre older you can move ffar away and meet people who love and take care of you. stay strong💓
MY. GOD. You dear need a hug. I wish I was beside you to give you a hug. But here's an Internet one. *Hugs you*
you're mother might have walked out of your life, but I promise there's people out there who aren't even blood related that care for you.. I hope life works in your favor. you deserve it
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Its not just a comment section down here, its a community. Your so brave and you sound pretty strong. This music is like a bond to us all ,and we have to stick together. Im TOTALLY here for you, I don't know you very well but I WILL listen to every word you have to say. Stay strong hun, it gets better :)
sometimes I feel like im just not the daughter my parents wanted, just that feeling like my dad hates me sometimes. like, im such a disappointment to them the least favorite child, none of them know all the things i've been through yet they're my parents, I can't talk to them..
ik how it feels my mom turned her back on me and my family for stupid reasons
Same...
+um wtf vanessa same but music helps and hopefully if we hold on (till May) we'll all be ok. Sorry about the reference I'm PTV trash😅
honestly i can realte alot
same..
This song was like someone giving me a hug telling everything going to get better in my situation
Shout out to my dad where ever the hell you are🙃
Makaelah M. Lol😝
If you want to talk to him or get answers why hes not there with you try as much as you can. My dad left me when i was very little and i just founf he died from cancer and i wish i just had asked him why he never contacted me
my dad left yesterday. if he comes back it'll be a fucking miracle
Did he?
no he never did and now my moms gone
+Storm Lowry Sorry to hear that. Hope things get well for you.
+blackheart1200 yeah me too... thank you
@@karleenicole9690 I'm not sure if you still use this account but how is life going after that. Did it get better?
Awesome song!!!! this reminds me of the father I don't have: (
I used to listen to this song on repeat when I was younger. My dad was absent in my life, he left when I was five. In that time I had really went through some abusive family situations.
Listening to this years later, I’m happy that I can say my dad has contacted me, we’ve built a relationship and I’ve grown and healed from the trauma I experienced.
It’s really crazy to think that people don’t really realize how it can affect kids when they are young and as they go into adulthood. I’m sorry to anyone who’s had to deal with this type of pain. Keep your head up ❤️
This song is dedicated to my mother........were have you been?
ya same here but more like why would you do this and why r u running away is it something I did is it something I said did I make a mistake part for my mom... what happened? if you don't mind me asking...
No its fine. She basically left us for drug and for years I blame it on myself that I was the reason she left because she was disappointed in me and my grandmother now had to raise me and my 3 siblings...
I'm sorry about that :(
Im sorry. My dad did the same thing to my sisters and I
This song is for my mother. I love you but I don't miss you :'( you treated me, my sister, and my 5 brothers like shit. You ruined everything now. You lost me forever now
“Why are you walkin away…. Was it something I did.. did I make a mistake?”
Hits hard…
I love sleeping with sirens because of the way they perform, kellin shows his emotions so well, through his facial expressions and his voice.
This is what I call a fucking good band
I’m 26 and a man now and this still hits me the way it did when I was a younger kid I miss you dad I wish you were around. sucks hurting without you wish you could’ve stayed but to my future kid I’m gonna give you all the love he never could’ve given me 🙏sincerely my younger teenage self who needed his dad
My mom and dad had me and my brother when she was around 19. They weren't married and my dad left a couple days after that. He loves my brother more and it feels like he doesn't care at all. This song makes me cry so fucking hard.
I feel like disappointment to my family a lot...and I always feel worthless and lonely..especially since my dad isn't a home a lot and my mom is going off to work for like 2/3 years and I literally disappoint them every day somehow....so I just wonder if I'm really such a disappointment to them
my mom doesn't care for me anymore now that I'm 19 and a grown ass man. I don't care. But my dad is at work all the time. All we ever talked about is my grades. And I feel like shit every time I look at him and realize I couldn't deliver the one single thing he asked of me. I don't know why everybody talks like black fathers are crap. I think if you know where you're going and you eventually reach your goal, your parents will learn to appreciate your wins instead of your losses.
Just remember, there are kids worse than you and me. We're not the best but also not the worst.
The Truth im sorry that u go thru this tho. I know theyre are ppl worse then me and u, and i shouldn't be complaining.
+Kali Clemmings dont have to feel sorry for anything. what we do is in our control.
The Truth ya you're right
This was one of my favorite songs in high school. I never meet my father. One day I hope to see him and tell him my mother feel into a depression then passed away.
My dad was struggling with addictions and anger when I was growing up. We never got to get close until now. 8 years or so, I've never been closer with him, and I can not imagine life without him. I used to relate to this song, but not anymore. im severely happy about it, too.
But for those who fathers walked away from their Familys. Be strong, and prove to yourself you can be a better man or woman than he ever was. 🤘
This song reopens my childhood wounds and I just let it lol
This makes me so sad but happy that my dad didn't leave. My half brother (pretty much my brother) well I don't think he ever met his father and that just makes me sad. I can't imagine what he felt like. My mum had me when he was 10 (got married to dad like 3 years later) but he's never come to call him dad because he understood everything by the time my dad came into the picture. I just
Let's talk o;
who cares
***** rude ass bitch.
***** because you know everything right... You don't know peoples situations. I don't know why it concerns you so much. If she made it up then let it go?
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it's the internet
emotions = 0
my dad was an alcholic growing up he still is feels like hes not there when he was but wasnt really there u feel me
i’ve listened to this song since i was 11 and i’m 17 still missing and wising my dad would come back
Turning 31 this year, my dad walked out when I was 10. Every now and again I get in my head and blame myself. This song for sure makes me cry still.
I feel like this song doesn't just relate to being abandoned by a father, but by anyone you cared about
My dad walked away 11 years ago and I haven't heard from him since. I pretty much lost it when I came across this song. I just sat there on my bed and sobbed. For years I blamed myself for him leaving which made me hate myself and him. I often wonder if he does think of of me at all or why has he made no effort to even try to contact me.....
I have a loving father that’s been there every day even 26 years later and this song still hits hard. Just a great song
my parents are divorced and i'm an only child, and my dad is really starting to not like me and i have no idea why. we used to be so close, i don't get it
+phrerard have u asked him why he is being so distant? Tried to go to therapy for it.
idk, if i did he'd be even more moody and distant with me. thanks though
It would be good talk to him about it.
same, except he still loves me I think but my stepmom just drove a wedge between him and me
+Grace Jacobsen me too but my parents weren't married...
This song used to be one of my favorites, but it didn't mean a lot to me. And then my mom kicked me out.
Mallory Fraser same
Love you dad. RIP
*Aggressively headbangs with tears in eyes*
three years ago i would cry my eyes out listening to this. now, i've became a stronger person, i think my mental health is still fucked up, but at least i got over my dad's absense.
Thanks mom, thanks dad, for abandoning me when i needed you the most. Thank you for no birthdays, no christmas's, for hours spent in front of a mirror wondering why i was never good enough for your love. All i wanted was to be a son you could be proud of. Instead, i got tangled into a foster system that never gave a fuck about me. I thank you both, for teaching me what true pain feels like.
my father forgot my birthday, and dissapeared a few months agos. He is still on social medias so im assuming he just dont care about me. so here i am, crying at the top of my lungs while im listening to that. Thanks for this song, i love it.
take care everyone
My father was there as a child but,he wasn’t at the same time and never cared and always felt like he had just ditched us emotionally,when my stepfather came it was like the world made sense and color was brought to my life,this song just helps me understand I’m not alone in the world no matter who leaves me,thank you so much
-angsty 17 yr old lol