I'm just starting on this journey. Two surgeries down; 8 lymph nodes gone. Chemo/radiation are next. Your videos have given me so much courage and SOOO much information. I had no idea about anything until watching these. (Over and over). This one; though sad...tells it like it is. Exactly how it is. I can't get over this tired feeling no matter if I do a lot...or nothing. It really weighs on me. Also, the guilt, the wondering if it's going to come back, the pain, the physical changes. All of it...bless you; and thank you so much for sharing your journey through this. (I know it's been awhile since you posted, but I only found you a few days ago).
I have breast cancer Thank you so much for this video I thought I was alone about my feelings everything you said in this video I feel the same way I just couldn't put into words myself.
I’m currently going through treatment and I just need to say your videos have helped me be more of an advocate regarding my treatment. I’m from Alberta Canada and here they offer free meditation classes for cancer victims. These classes have allowed me reduce my anxieties over cancer and to be ok when I have bad days. The class has given me tools on how to handle pain while undergoing chemo. The class also allowed me to accept how the world keeps moving on while I am battling cancer. I still get angry about being sick but that intense feeling no longer ruins my entire day.
Thank you so much for honestly sharing. I am about 5 months behind you. I just started chemo. Your videos have helped me immensely and I’m sure they are helping others as well. Praying you will get answers soon and will continue to heal physically and mentally. Thank you for allowing us to go on this journey with you.
Thank you for keeping it real. My husband is going for his 2nd round of chemo this afternoon and your videos help me to understand how he might be feeling. Hope you are doing well!
Dee YOU are normal....i pray for you always...Dont ever second guess your self, you know you better than anyone else..keep positivity " your first class" you'll get through this phase I know u will....my mom went through the same feelings as you .and it all worked out ...much love to you Dee Robin
Oh Dee, I’m feeling EXACTLY the same way right now as you are...totally fed up of living my life around appointments, and injections and not being able to make plans because you don’t know where your going to be at. People keep saying to me ‘ah, but your at the end of it now’ and I know that and appreciate that, but it’s been a long long few months with so many changes within our family life. We have had to cancel our family holiday, I can’t go to my future sister in laws hen wknd, missed family days out, get together, and to top it off, we had 1 night away(1 night was all I wanted!) booked on the day of my birthday next week, (I’ll be 40!! 😱)I had to cancel that yesterday as my radiation is starting the following morning at 11 and I’m having it in Waterford city so need to drive for 2 hrs. So what I’m saying is, I’m ready for it to be over too. Sick of cancer getting in the way of my and my family’s life. I can relate to the lack of concentration, and I’m forgetting words...simple words that just won’t come when I need them to! I just feel old these days...that’s it...just old. But I firmly believe I’m looking at 2019 being a fresh start, and I’m going to put 2018 behind me. Keep making these videos Dee pease, people relate to them so much and it does everyone good to know it’s normal what they might be going thru. Hope you’ve had better days since this video. We will just take 1 day at a time, eh. X😘
Lisa Wallace ah Lisa! Thank you so much! It’s been a rough old time for you - I’m so sorry about the night away! At least the radiotherapy is starting, closer to life getting back to normal ❤️ x
Hi, I know this was 4 years ago but I just wanted to let you know this has helped me feel less alone. I feel exactly like this. I felt a lump but because I’d breast fed for 2 years 10 months earlier I just thought it was a blocked milk duct. Also I thought breast cancer was meant to feel like a dry hard pea, this was much bigger than that and felt nothing like that 🙈I was seeing my gp in 3 months time to discuss hrt again so I just thought I’ll mention it then, but after a few weeks I realised it was bigger. I left it 2 months before I called my dr, it took another month for chemo to start. I have triple negative breast cancer with several lymph nodes affected. Looking back, as I often do, I’m so regretful I left it, as now I know what I know about how fast growing my cancer is my pathology would have been very different if I’d just called straight away. I have a 3 year old and I’m mad at myself for waiting! I often think about going back in time and redoing things differently! The physical struggle is nothing compared to the mental struggle of cancer 😢
I'm so happy I found your channel..I just finished my 2nd round of chemotherapy +Immunotherapy..In march went the hospital because I thought I had a virus I could not shake..I was told I have a mass on my left lung chest lymph nodes that the cancer left the lung and is on the liver..When I looked all this up after the shock on the internet I have stage 4 cancer..My oncologist will not talk of stages or the end and to me I'm pretty screwed..Depressed on steroids..I had to leave my job..lost my home..it's like my life is ending except I'm still living and breathing in it..On a rollercoaster ride I can not get off of..And no one understands. Or one person asked me why did I go for treatment? It would be better if you went back to work..And be done with it all in 4 to 6 months..And the sad thing of it is..Maybe she was right..Anyways love your channel it helps me a lot..I do hope you are well and beat the cancer..Sorry so long..From America biggest of hugs..
Debbie Martin oh Debbie what a sad message! This is hard. My vet first chemo I said I wouldn’t do it again. Lucky I was in my parents house ...they rationalized it all for me, I was doing it for my family... for my friends ... for my children. I regret nothing, I barely remember chemo now. Can’t even fathom what a chemo patient feels x
@@DeeDoherty Thanks for your response..I should not write when having chemo leaves you not in a good mood..Even tho it's true what I wrote..I'm trying to hang on to the most positive moments I can..Maybe I will beat my cancer like you..MAYBE not.. But your videos give hope and answers that Doctors delay in answering..I use your videos as strength and a way to fight cancer..You will never know how much help you are to those on this journey..Hope this finds you well and cancer free..Much love from America HUGS
Thank you for sharing! I dont have any advice because i have never been in your position. It get frustrating to me because every treatment i want to hear the doctor tell me my daughter is doing well and nothing has changed for the worst or i just want the doctor to do a body scan every week. I guess it the fear of not knowing how the treatment is working or is it working. We are doing our 2nd treatment now.
Hi my sweet beautiful lady! I wish so badly that I could just grab u and give u a hug. I know there is nothing I can say to make things any easier or better but even miles and miles away you have someone that cares for you so dearly! You are always in my thoughts and prayers! I am always, always here if u need or want to talk or even just vent. I'm just a message away!
i feel like you tired and want to stay in bed i have emphesema caused it mtself causr i used to smoke i think ilness just causes low moods in most people
Dee, i have been following you all along. I have breast cancer too. Im in taxol 7 motr to go. I dont want to tell you this to make you feel bad, but in july 2017 i lost everything i had. I ended up in an adult family home. No where else i have no one here. But im in a good one. Then. I found i had breast ca.cer. i have been so alone. I watched you today. I cried for you and my heart goes out to you. You have children to care for. Dont feel doubtfull. Gitl we both have made it this far! I cling ro. God. He has carried me. But. I still get scared and anxious. Its like your life is on hold, sureal or somethingg. I wonder if. Ive accepted it yet. I too and seeing a therapist. My oncologist recommended it. You are so youg and sweet. Im 68 myself. Honey take care you are in my thoughts and prayers. Dyan
I to had 2 kinds of breast cancer. Except mine was invasive lobular carcinoma and lobular carcinoma in situ. And I had a double mastectomy and over the muscle reconstruction. And I know how you are feeling about the doubts and fatigue and anxiety and etc etc. It's exhausting not feeling normal and WANTING TO FEEL NORMAL! Sending you soooooooo much love!!!
I feel the SAME! My oncologist constantly reschedules my appt's and I am a single mom with a full time job. I can't just change on a whim! My oncologist is an hour and a half away as well so I have to take an afternoon off work to go. Also, when I was at my appt a couple weeks ago my Dr was very short with me and seemed annoyed that I had questions about my treatment plan. My daughter was with me and couldn't believe how cold the Dr was towards me. I'm looking for a new oncologist as this is MY LIFE! My questions are valid and deserve to be answered! I'm soooooooo frustrated and anxious about my cancer coming back. I'm 8 months post double mastectomy and reconstruction and on hormone therapy. I'm so alone in this, and I'm so sad. Sending you prayers and love. In the words of TH-camr Coopdizzle (who has passed from metastatic breast cancer), "this too shall pass"
yup drs dont have time or patience anymore it seems there always in a rush if you just have a minoe issue its ok but of coarse you want to be treated like a human being not a number
Dee, I don't have cancer, but I do suffer from another debilitating illness. Depression. More specifically "situational depression". The way you described your thoughts and feelings, it sounds very much like what I go through. I've had it all my life, but was only truly diagnosed last year. I won't go into detail, but it is real, and there is some great articles online that should help you if you need it. Sending love from Canada ❤
I am also dealing with those same feelings and symptoms , well I was unti about a week ago. A week may not seem long to Sum but for Me it's HUGE bcuz I've had a break frm feeling so sad, confused, and physically ill. I literally Culdnt even walk to my bathroom without feeling faint and my heart pounding out my chest. It was/is the scariest thing ever to me. I wasn't able to go to the grocery store or do normal routine activities. And as a mother to feel so helpless made me feel even worse.... That is until I started researching how to get rid of anxiety NATURALLY! I say naturally bcuz 2 weeks ago my dr diagnosed me with post traumatic extreme anxiety. I was in and out the ER and EVERYTHING behind it. So he prescribed Zoloft.😡 I'm more of a naturalist and dislike pills. And I researched Zoloft and didn't like Wht I read. So I hvnt takin ONE pill but instead found really good insite nd information on how to naturally overcome anxiety. 🤗And it WRKS! As I previously stated its only been a week but I feel very confident Tht I will continue to overcome this. U hve to shift ur thoughts and retrain ur way of thinking. It's not easy but it's not impossible! Please search for ways to naturally overcome it dear....☺️it WRKS and its worth it! We are stronger than we THINK! God doesn't put more on us than we can handle I promise... U jus hve to really believe🙏🏾. U are in my prayers🌸❤️
I can empathize with you completely. I am a breast cancer survivor, as well. I had a bi-lateral mastectomy, chemotherapy, and reconstruction. Still waiting on my nipple reconstruction. For me, I felt scared, but strong and positive during the surgeries and chemo. It was after treated ended. It was gradual, but I found myself in a fairly deep depression. Where I wouldn't even feel sad about cancer anymore, necessarily, just sad. I am on tamoxifen and that, along with chemotherapy, put me into a medically induced menopause. I am about one year post-chemo. I have been seeing a therapist for a little under a year and was starting to feel a little better. Three weeks ago, however, my Mother died and I found myself taking several steps backwards. So yesterday, I finally decided to start an anti-depressant. I avoided it for a long time because I wanted to feel like I could "fix it" on my own with yoga, meditation, exercise, etc. But I just couldn't find the motivation to take care of myself. I am struggling with feeling like a failure, even though my family and friends and doctors don't want me to see it that way. This has been the longest, most difficult and painful journey, that is not quite over. I feel your pain and struggle.
I know you posted this almost a year ago, but this so spoke to me and what I am going through right now. Thought my surgery is not until next week. So hard to explain this to people who are not going through it. You explain it well. Sometimes when people ask me how I'l feeling I honestly can't explain it or understand it.
You have been through a lot and I think any one would feel like you do very scary what you have faced. Could also be your hormones your like in menopause and this brings all these things. Take care x
First of all, thank you for making these videos - I find it so reassuring to be going through this process, and to see and hear that I'm not alone in the way that I feel. I have struggled too with low energy - just had my port surgery last week, starting chemo next week, and I'm realizing low energy is an important part of the healing process. I do my best to just give myself whatever time I have to just relax. If something doesn't absolutely have to get done, I leave it undone, and focus on something small that brings me joy. And I also understand about second-guessing your choices - to me, it's also a part of what you've been through - so much, in such a short amount of time. Let me tell you how I feel, about 2 months out from my mastectomy without reconstruction, if that helps. It is just as strange, getting used to your body looking so different - my breasts were so small, I joked that I would barely notice it, but I was wrong. Dressing is a challenge - I've had to rethink my wardrobe, as form-fitting clothes reveal the difference between my mastectomy side (even if I add padding) and my unaffected side. It's taken me about this long to finally be able to look in the mirror but, it's hard to see what I see. I still can't touch that part of my body - it feels so strange to me. I think it's just hard no matter what. Just give yourself time to heal and allow yourself to feel what you feel! I've focused on setting very small goals that are reachable, and filling my time with books I love, and small craft projects with no deadlines. To force myself to be able to sit and relax, I made a tiny garden on my balcony and put bird feeders above it. Maybe creating a small space in which you feel relaxed and able to focus on something outside of all this, might help you as it has helped me. Thank you again, for sharing your honest thoughts!
I will start to receive my chemo sometimes this month , but I did have my surgery first . "I feel so drained" barely can fuction from the surgery alone .I was told that, when you have breast cancer surgery , that your estrogen level drops drastically with no energy as a woman ., And it may take 11 or so days to get some energy back , It's been weeks . I still have no energy .GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE'S SUCESS, OF FINISHING THIS UNBELIEVABLE PROCESS, THAT'S CALLED LIFE.
this is the first video i looked up and clicked on praying someone would say something that would make me feel even slightly understood but i found myself literally shaking my head in understanding. i love you, thank you
Hi Dee, your an inspiration to me only just found your diaries. So pleased I have from Jo in UK. I am having a mastectomy tomorrow I am 65 and live alone. I have a beautiful family and partner and lots of support from work colleagues I am a nurse working on an oncology clinic. I am scared but listening to you for the past 24 hours has helped me so much. I first had breast cancer in 2015, and it is now in my left breast not recurrence but secondary primary with chemo and radio to follow surgery with delayed reconstruction I I remember last time the emotional aftermath was horrible. We have been through the physical stuff but emotional overload hits you and unexpectedly is hard to deal with but we have no choice as you say. Thankyou beautiful lady for all your bravery and courage but most of all sharing it with us. It is like a cattle market in clinic I agree but I love talking to patients and will take someone in a private room to chat if I see anyone in tears time to spend chatting is important. Love and big hugs to you the help you have given me I will be forever grateful for lessoning my fears...😊❤❤xxxxx
u can beat it dont quite i beat stage 4 lung cancer my u tube is loves greater than cancer baby !!! i did weed hemp oil with my chome u will be ok try to be happy u are a live
At this point of your treatment, all your feelings are perfectly normal. You are not alone, we are millions around the world dealing with post treatment fatigue and sadness. Cancer is a such huge change in a life... hugs.
KNOWwhat you mean..Am on second go round with cancer recurrence...have had to accept that this is normal...and looking back serves nothing but being upset etc...and brings me down that I can no longer do all I used to be able to do....BUT I am still here and having fun (and lotsa rest)...and would suggest a Poem called Dust if you Must...Good luck with all...you are not alone
I am going g through the same moods too. I am usually a very cheerful person but lately I have tears, dread and scatter brained thoughts. I pray that you will have good news and that your cancer is gone. God bless
Can you go to London The Royal Marsden is a great hospital, maybe they could examine you and answer the questions you have. Have or do you talk with other that have cancer as they are the ones that will truly know how you are feeling. Your in my prays xx
I’ve recently been diagnosed with a rare blood cancer primary myleofibrosis. And I feel you. Like it all sucks and i can’t wait till I feel normal again. I’m gonna be starting chemo soon to get a bone marrow transplant. This has changed my life
My heart breaks/aches for you as I watched this video! I’m from California and I know our healthcare systems are different so please forgive my ignorance in advance! Do you have an oncology nurse/patient advocate/navigator to walk this journey with you (and beside you) that is an expert in both cancer and your healthcare system)?? At least then you’d have a human to reach out to when you get “letters” changing your plan of care...who could be a liaison between you and the healthcare system. You are an amazing, beautiful, strong and loving woman! You and your family are in my thoughts! Hugs!!
I was thinking the exact same-thing, I just didn’t know how to phrase it. Cancer is hell enough never mind appointments being cancelled and being told different things. Hopefully there is something or someone that can help.
Not really, I mean I actually mentioned that letter today... and my oncologist made phone calls herself! She’s very good and I have a nurse who is great too... it’s just not a great system as a whole here!
Dee Doherty hang in there my friend. Sounds like you have some amazing advocates in your oncologist and nurse. The system forgets there is a human being that opens the letters! You have a devoted family and your TH-cam family standing with you too!
I wish that I could reach through my phone and hug you. You are strong and brave. I am going through chemotherapy for metastatic breast cancer and have been following along. Thank you for being so open and honest as you have helped me more than you know. I am praying for you.
"I just wish I was normal again" - totally empathise with you there :) After 27 months of almost constant treatment, I want my life back. The desire to once again have energy, motivation & simply be social. Thank you for this video.
I'm due to have chemo next week as I've been diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer , I've a long journey to go , I'm petrified for the chemo and herceptin, I've watched your videos and they have been brilliant alot of information and advise, I can understand why you feel so low, I'm the same, but remember one thing the only way is up. Thankyou and good luck xx
It is so annoying treatment you really need and put back because NHS is under strain, its scary. Hope you all get sorted quickly. Obv if you live in USA its different.
Hi, it sounds like some of it is limboland. But also yes fatigue. I dont have cancer but i do have some chronic illnesses. Even though my chronic illnesses have caused me a lot of pain, disability and problems, the hardest issues are mental. The fatigue/anxiety/depression/mental fog rollercoaster is the worst. The feelings of dread and anxiety because I simply can't do what i want to do (housework, activities, things that require motivation, energy and concentration) suck. It took me so many years to unpack my feelings and begin to understand how my feelings and mental health were connected to my physical and mental capacity to "do things" (or lack there-of). Its a complex relationship, your lack of control over your situation and the limbo youre in, feed into your lack of ability to plan and therefore ability to want to do things, feeds into your anxiety about things getting on top of you, and the factual fatigue of treatment and everything your body has been through is compounded. Your body is healing from so much. Plus the meds you've been on (and come off) have probably triggered fatigue too. Its just, a lot for a body and mind to deal with. I know its hard especially w anxiety, but if you could just slap your hand when you feel guilt, worry about housework, etc... and remind yourself that right now your job is to help your body and mind fight to survive! I hope that helps you let go of some of the anxiety at least. Two things about your treatment with your health care system (which sounds similar to australia). One, have you considered contacting either your cancer council or breast cancer association for some support, guidance, counselling (sorry if i missed a vid where you say you have). I mean more than pamphlets. Human support. Also two, in australia when my relatives have not been getting the treatment they deserve, i have contacted local members of parliament and also the member who has the health portfolio. If they say something, hospitals tend to pull their finger out. All the best from perth w.a xox
The feelings of the unknown are scary. Now that surgery is over and radiation is coming up, we are not sure about our cancer because we were used to having it in us. Now we have to think...is it gone? Hang in there. You have tons of support.
I've been watching a while now and I just want to say that what you are feeling is completely and entirely normal! I dont have experience with cancer, but i do have a lot of experience with mental health and ive learnt a lot over time through my own experience with Anxiety, Panic attacks and Depression for 7 long years. Try to understand and accept how you're feeling, dont fight it off, its normal, you feel like it for a reason and it will pass when its right for you, i found the more i focused on trying to fix the bad ways i was feeling the worse i felt because i was feeding it all of my attention and giving it so much importance. instead, try and switch to whats REALLY important to you such as your beautiful children and partner, however it is still completely okay and important to allow time for you everyday whenever you need to let out some tears and videos like this, venting is so important to get it out of your mind and onto paper or any other type of media you feel at the time! refuse to engage with the crappy thoughts when you can and get more into the habit of switching your focus to a passion of yours :) maybe there is something you love that doesnt require a lot of energy such as drawing, reading, writing, editing, photoshop, creative things, beauty things such as, nail designing and make up!? get real stuck in and lose yourself in a hobby! of course it goes without saying but sometimes we forget to switch our focus to the positive things that are all around as when we feel sad, may they be big or the tiniest things that we take for granted. its corny but search for inspirational quotes or videos if you want, the ones that are important for you will stand out and stay with you! :) another thing is meditation, it sounds SOOO typical! BUT i done it anyway because i would try ANYTHING! and it does give you a bit of a boost and change your focus, its better than not doing it, theres all different kinds, find one that suits you! Positive Affirmations work a treat! i would just listen to these in my headphones when im not even paying attention to what is being said on the video but this still soaks into your brain into your subconscious mind and help A LOT to change your thought patterns. Alternatively you can just forget everything i just said because im a stranger throwing loads of information at you haha! I just know i needed someone to tell me these things a few years ago and i had to find it all myself. I hope any of the above helps you even in the slightest tiny bit! you're a lovely lovely girl and very pretty too! you deserve all the best! Sending positive vibes your way! big hugs! Melissa x
I am thinking about you and I am proud of your strength! My fiance had cancer last year and you just need to take time to heal. Take things one step at a time. Don't worry about chemo fog, it will get better. Keep on fighting with the doctors, if they fail you, find someone else. If you need a friend to talk to, I know I am just a random person, but I can be an ear if you need it. Hugs to you!
Im sorry you have to go through this...life is hard and very unfair. Give yourself a break because you have achieved so much. This feeling will pass and you will come through it a stronger person!
Sending love! I haven’t been through cancer but I can absolutely relate to what anxiety feels like and it’s just horrible at times. I think the most important thing here is to be kind to yourself, you’ve been through so much, and I think perhaps during the active treatment phase you are in total fight mode, that is exhausting and it’s only natural to have a crash from that so to speak. Let yourself feel what you need to feel, be gentle with yourself and just take one day at a time. I hope the next phase of your treatment goes well. Keep talking about this mental health, trust me it really helps.
I am so sorry you have to go through this. I am thinking of you and you are such a strong person. You will find your way. Please consider antidepressants
Do you have an oncologist that you can call for answers or a social worker that works with the team that can help you through? My heart breaks for you--that has to be agony waiting for answers.💔😥
that is so wrong that hospital cancels a oncology appointment ..just had to say it Dee maybe if you got an ultrasound back then u "wouldn't" be here i also have to say one more thing You have to take charge your own health and DEMAND help when they cancel tell them its unacceptable ask them if it was them would they want an important medical oncology appt. cancelled and let time lapse on their recovery sorry Dee its absolutely asinine sorry had to rant because here in the u.s. they never cancel important oncology appointments they squeeze you in!. i know because i went through it with my MOM . DEMAND it DEE this is your life and your loved by 3 important men therefore your very important come to usa for care dana faber cancer hospital is awesome here start a go fund me page u can stay with me
i should of been more specific but they are all important your team of drs. maybe like u said health care is very different in Ireland. does your oncologist and oncology radiologist work together as a team like the do here in the states? im glad you have a good oncology Dr your happy with. God Bless enough of my rambling on bye
I had mental health issues first; cancer came later, at one point I don't know if it's the cancer that gives me anxiety of the if I am going to pull through. Just like you I feel that my daughter is the one that I am still enduring the chemo and at its to come. She is an adult with special needs who still needs me to survive and navigate the rest of her life. You are not along.
you've been through alot. body and mind. i finished a year of chemo in march of '17. 6 wks of radiation, a lung that collapsed twice within a month. and i still have chemo fog. spelling has always just come natural to me. now, i catch myself having to google simple words cause they just don't look right. i can't think of everyday words. have been known to sleep 12 to 14 hrs straight. i have to second guess myself on things...counting money or paying bills...i worked convenience stores for 40 yrs. counting money back was always just natural for me. i'm really worrying lately about dementia. i also have an anxiety disorder and have since my late 20's. i was blessed with an awesome team of drs. oncologist, surgeon, pulmonologist...when i get upset, they tell me what i just told you. your body and mind have taken a beating. it's gonna take time for both to recuperate. i'll be 62 in 2 wks and i been feeling my age. but i've decided to do what i'm able to and thank the Good Lord for getting me through this. i think things happen for a reason. i've learned to appreciate everything in my life so much more. i'm thankful for every lil' thing i have. family. a home. food to eat...hang in there, lady. it'll get better. concentrate on how lucky you are to still be alive. enjoy your husband and kids. and wishing you were back in high school might just be an age thing. i went through that stage around 35-40...dang, i typed more than i intended. lol. pray and stay thankful and you'll be fine
Wow, I suffer from anxiety and depression. I have been feeling the exact same way as you. I love cleaning but as of late I cannot find the motivation to do so. I can’t concentrate. I think of going backwards in time especially childhood, when life was simple. Thanks for sharing.
I feel your pain, i'm going through this myself right now. Um in anti depressants for anxiety and panic attacks from everything I've been through and still going through because of cancer. Hang in there
I'm 2 years out and now realise I will never be the same person. As I said to.you before, I had the dflap reconstruction and it was the worst thing I did....didn't work and on holidsys now and hoping nobody notices. Sill waiting for my implant. My body is sooo scared and numb so i think u did the right thing. My only positive was the care I got in st James....cannot say enough about the care i got there. What you are going through is completely natural/normal and it WILL pass I promise. You are still smack in the middle if it. Much love and I think u should.consider counselling ❤
Im visiting your page again, glad to see your still going.... I am frustrated thinking about how you do not live in a 3 rd world country and you just have struggled having access to what you needed and that you had the information and support you need. I know you have so much to be concerned about your family yourself , have you considered starting a group or going to a group in person ?
Thank you Dee , beautiful honesty . If its any consolation my sister had same as you, had breast removed chemo & radio that was over 14 years ago she has lived a normal life since. Sending love from the northwest UK 💜
Sending good wishes to you Dee. Thanks for sharing. I have had similar thoughts about travelling back to another time in my life. I go for my surgery on Tuesday. Your videos have really helped me. Hope you feel good again soon :)
Sweet Dee, Don't be pushed around by the fear in you're mind. Be led by dreams in you're heart❤ Be strong we're all standing shoulder to shoulder with YOU! Keep strong 🤗❤💖
I'm just starting on this journey. Two surgeries down; 8 lymph nodes gone. Chemo/radiation are next. Your videos have given me so much courage and SOOO much information. I had no idea about anything until watching these. (Over and over). This one; though sad...tells it like it is. Exactly how it is. I can't get over this tired feeling no matter if I do a lot...or nothing. It really weighs on me. Also, the guilt, the wondering if it's going to come back, the pain, the physical changes. All of it...bless you; and thank you so much for sharing your journey through this. (I know it's been awhile since you posted, but I only found you a few days ago).
shar scott thank you so much! I hope you are coping ok x
I have breast cancer Thank you so much for this video I thought I was alone about my feelings everything you said in this video I feel the same way I just couldn't put into words myself.
I’m currently going through treatment and I just need to say your videos have helped me be more of an advocate regarding my treatment. I’m from Alberta Canada and here they offer free meditation classes for cancer victims. These classes have allowed me reduce my anxieties over cancer and to be ok when I have bad days. The class has given me tools on how to handle pain while undergoing chemo. The class also allowed me to accept how the world keeps moving on while I am battling cancer. I still get angry about being sick but that intense feeling no longer ruins my entire day.
yaya14ever y so glad to hear this x
Thank you so much for honestly sharing. I am about 5 months behind you. I just started chemo. Your videos have helped me immensely and I’m sure they are helping others as well. Praying you will get answers soon and will continue to heal physically and mentally. Thank you for allowing us to go on this journey with you.
Thank you for keeping it real. My husband is going for his 2nd round of chemo this afternoon and your videos help me to understand how he might be feeling. Hope you are doing well!
Dee YOU are normal....i pray for you always...Dont ever second guess your self, you know you better than anyone else..keep positivity " your first class" you'll get through this phase I know u will....my mom went through the same feelings as you .and it all worked out ...much love to you Dee
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Robin Obrien thanks robin! I said rate 😂 but yes I meant class x you got it though ;) and thank you!
Oh Dee, I’m feeling EXACTLY the same way right now as you are...totally fed up of living my life around appointments, and injections and not being able to make plans because you don’t know where your going to be at. People keep saying to me ‘ah, but your at the end of it now’ and I know that and appreciate that, but it’s been a long long few months with so many changes within our family life. We have had to cancel our family holiday, I can’t go to my future sister in laws hen wknd, missed family days out, get together, and to top it off, we had 1 night away(1 night was all I wanted!) booked on the day of my birthday next week, (I’ll be 40!! 😱)I had to cancel that yesterday as my radiation is starting the following morning at 11 and I’m having it in Waterford city so need to drive for 2 hrs. So what I’m saying is, I’m ready for it to be over too. Sick of cancer getting in the way of my and my family’s life. I can relate to the lack of concentration, and I’m forgetting words...simple words that just won’t come when I need them to! I just feel old these days...that’s it...just old. But I firmly believe I’m looking at 2019 being a fresh start, and I’m going to put 2018 behind me. Keep making these videos Dee pease, people relate to them so much and it does everyone good to know it’s normal what they might be going thru. Hope you’ve had better days since this video. We will just take 1 day at a time, eh. X😘
Lisa Wallace ah Lisa! Thank you so much! It’s been a rough old time for you - I’m so sorry about the night away! At least the radiotherapy is starting, closer to life getting back to normal ❤️ x
Hi, I know this was 4 years ago but I just wanted to let you know this has helped me feel less alone. I feel exactly like this. I felt a lump but because I’d breast fed for 2 years 10 months earlier I just thought it was a blocked milk duct. Also I thought breast cancer was meant to feel like a dry hard pea, this was much bigger than that and felt nothing like that 🙈I was seeing my gp in 3 months time to discuss hrt again so I just thought I’ll mention it then, but after a few weeks I realised it was bigger. I left it 2 months before I called my dr, it took another month for chemo to start. I have triple negative breast cancer with several lymph nodes affected. Looking back, as I often do, I’m so regretful I left it, as now I know what I know about how fast growing my cancer is my pathology would have been very different if I’d just called straight away. I have a 3 year old and I’m mad at myself for waiting! I often think about going back in time and redoing things differently! The physical struggle is nothing compared to the mental struggle of cancer 😢
I'm so happy I found your channel..I just finished my 2nd round of chemotherapy +Immunotherapy..In march went the hospital because I thought I had a virus I could not shake..I was told I have a mass on my left lung chest lymph nodes that the cancer left the lung and is on the liver..When I looked all this up after the shock on the internet I have stage 4 cancer..My oncologist will not talk of stages or the end and to me I'm pretty screwed..Depressed on steroids..I had to leave my job..lost my home..it's like my life is ending except I'm still living and breathing in it..On a rollercoaster ride I can not get off of..And no one understands. Or one person asked me why did I go for treatment? It would be better if you went back to work..And be done with it all in 4 to 6 months..And the sad thing of it is..Maybe she was right..Anyways love your channel it helps me a lot..I do hope you are well and beat the cancer..Sorry so long..From America biggest of hugs..
Debbie Martin oh Debbie what a sad message! This is hard. My vet first chemo I said I wouldn’t do it again. Lucky I was in my parents house ...they rationalized it all for me, I was doing it for my family... for my friends ... for my children. I regret nothing, I barely remember chemo now. Can’t even fathom what a chemo patient feels x
@@DeeDoherty Thanks for your response..I should not write when having chemo leaves you not in a good mood..Even tho it's true what I wrote..I'm trying to hang on to the most positive moments I can..Maybe I will beat my cancer like you..MAYBE not..
But your videos give hope and answers that Doctors delay in answering..I use your videos as strength and a way to fight cancer..You will never know how much help you are to those on this journey..Hope this finds you well and cancer free..Much love from America HUGS
Debbie Martin thank you! Stay as positive as you can ❤️
Thank you for sharing! I dont have any advice because i have never been in your position. It get frustrating to me because every treatment i want to hear the doctor tell me my daughter is doing well and nothing has changed for the worst or i just want the doctor to do a body scan every week. I guess it the fear of not knowing how the treatment is working or is it working. We are doing our 2nd treatment now.
Hi my sweet beautiful lady! I wish so badly that I could just grab u and give u a hug. I know there is nothing I can say to make things any easier or better but even miles and miles away you have someone that cares for you so dearly! You are always in my thoughts and prayers! I am always, always here if u need or want to talk or even just vent. I'm just a message away!
Did you have anxiety before cancer? Did chemo trigger it? Does it get better?
Sunny Dayz I was always an anxious person. I had no anxiety during chemo really, I was too sick to think about anything!
I wonder if you have PTSD from all you have been through....love you ❤️
Vicky Rogers you aren’t the first to suggest x we will see soon!
i feel like you tired and want to stay in bed i have emphesema caused it mtself causr i used to smoke i think ilness just causes low moods in most people
Dee, i have been following you all along. I have breast cancer too. Im in taxol 7 motr to go.
I dont want to tell you this to make you feel bad, but in july 2017 i lost everything i had. I ended up in an adult family home. No where else i have no one here. But im in a good one.
Then. I found i had breast ca.cer. i have been so alone.
I watched you today. I cried for you and my heart goes out to you. You have children to care for.
Dont feel doubtfull. Gitl we both have made it this far!
I cling ro. God. He has carried me. But. I still get scared and anxious. Its like your life is on hold, sureal or somethingg. I wonder if. Ive accepted it yet.
I too and seeing a therapist. My oncologist recommended it.
You are so youg and sweet. Im 68 myself.
Honey take care you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Dyan
I to had 2 kinds of breast cancer. Except mine was invasive lobular carcinoma and lobular carcinoma in situ. And I had a double mastectomy and over the muscle reconstruction. And I know how you are feeling about the doubts and fatigue and anxiety and etc etc. It's exhausting not feeling normal and WANTING TO FEEL NORMAL! Sending you soooooooo much love!!!
I feel the SAME! My oncologist constantly reschedules my appt's and I am a single mom with a full time job. I can't just change on a whim! My oncologist is an hour and a half away as well so I have to take an afternoon off work to go. Also, when I was at my appt a couple weeks ago my Dr was very short with me and seemed annoyed that I had questions about my treatment plan. My daughter was with me and couldn't believe how cold the Dr was towards me. I'm looking for a new oncologist as this is MY LIFE! My questions are valid and deserve to be answered! I'm soooooooo frustrated and anxious about my cancer coming back. I'm 8 months post double mastectomy and reconstruction and on hormone therapy. I'm so alone in this, and I'm so sad. Sending you prayers and love. In the words of TH-camr Coopdizzle (who has passed from metastatic breast cancer), "this too shall pass"
yup drs dont have time or patience anymore it seems there always in a rush if you just have a minoe issue its ok but of coarse you want to be treated like a human being not a number
God speed. You be in charge of your healthcare Don’t let snotty dr add to your already tough situation you deserve RESPECT
If your insurance allows it, get a second opinion. God bless!
Dee, I don't have cancer, but I do suffer from another debilitating illness. Depression. More specifically "situational depression". The way you described your thoughts and feelings, it sounds very much like what I go through. I've had it all my life, but was only truly diagnosed last year. I won't go into detail, but it is real, and there is some great articles online that should help you if you need it.
Sending love from Canada ❤
I am also dealing with those same feelings and symptoms , well I was unti about a week ago. A week may not seem long to Sum but for Me it's HUGE bcuz I've had a break frm feeling so sad, confused, and physically ill. I literally Culdnt even walk to my bathroom without feeling faint and my heart pounding out my chest. It was/is the scariest thing ever to me. I wasn't able to go to the grocery store or do normal routine activities. And as a mother to feel so helpless made me feel even worse.... That is until I started researching how to get rid of anxiety NATURALLY! I say naturally bcuz 2 weeks ago my dr diagnosed me with post traumatic extreme anxiety. I was in and out the ER and EVERYTHING behind it. So he prescribed Zoloft.😡 I'm more of a naturalist and dislike pills. And I researched Zoloft and didn't like Wht I read. So I hvnt takin ONE pill but instead found really good insite nd information on how to naturally overcome anxiety. 🤗And it WRKS! As I previously stated its only been a week but I feel very confident Tht I will continue to overcome this. U hve to shift ur thoughts and retrain ur way of thinking. It's not easy but it's not impossible! Please search for ways to naturally overcome it dear....☺️it WRKS and its worth it! We are stronger than we THINK! God doesn't put more on us than we can handle I promise... U jus hve to really believe🙏🏾. U are in my prayers🌸❤️
smccray1980 good for you!!
I can empathize with you completely. I am a breast cancer survivor, as well. I had a bi-lateral mastectomy, chemotherapy, and reconstruction. Still waiting on my nipple reconstruction. For me, I felt scared, but strong and positive during the surgeries and chemo. It was after treated ended. It was gradual, but I found myself in a fairly deep depression. Where I wouldn't even feel sad about cancer anymore, necessarily, just sad. I am on tamoxifen and that, along with chemotherapy, put me into a medically induced menopause. I am about one year post-chemo. I have been seeing a therapist for a little under a year and was starting to feel a little better. Three weeks ago, however, my Mother died and I found myself taking several steps backwards. So yesterday, I finally decided to start an anti-depressant. I avoided it for a long time because I wanted to feel like I could "fix it" on my own with yoga, meditation, exercise, etc. But I just couldn't find the motivation to take care of myself. I am struggling with feeling like a failure, even though my family and friends and doctors don't want me to see it that way. This has been the longest, most difficult and painful journey, that is not quite over. I feel your pain and struggle.
Thank you for being so real! Hugs and much love from Canada 🇨🇦
I know you posted this almost a year ago, but this so spoke to me and what I am going through right now. Thought my surgery is not until next week. So hard to explain this to people who are not going through it. You explain it well. Sometimes when people ask me how I'l feeling I honestly can't explain it or understand it.
Good to hear from you, you are on my prayer list, God has the final say not this cancer amen, Laurie from California
You have been through a lot and I think any one would feel like you do very scary what you have faced. Could also be your hormones your like in menopause and this brings all these things. Take care x
First of all, thank you for making these videos - I find it so reassuring to be going through this process, and to see and hear that I'm not alone in the way that I feel. I have struggled too with low energy - just had my port surgery last week, starting chemo next week, and I'm realizing low energy is an important part of the healing process. I do my best to just give myself whatever time I have to just relax. If something doesn't absolutely have to get done, I leave it undone, and focus on something small that brings me joy.
And I also understand about second-guessing your choices - to me, it's also a part of what you've been through - so much, in such a short amount of time. Let me tell you how I feel, about 2 months out from my mastectomy without reconstruction, if that helps. It is just as strange, getting used to your body looking so different - my breasts were so small, I joked that I would barely notice it, but I was wrong. Dressing is a challenge - I've had to rethink my wardrobe, as form-fitting clothes reveal the difference between my mastectomy side (even if I add padding) and my unaffected side. It's taken me about this long to finally be able to look in the mirror but, it's hard to see what I see. I still can't touch that part of my body - it feels so strange to me. I think it's just hard no matter what. Just give yourself time to heal and allow yourself to feel what you feel!
I've focused on setting very small goals that are reachable, and filling my time with books I love, and small craft projects with no deadlines. To force myself to be able to sit and relax, I made a tiny garden on my balcony and put bird feeders above it. Maybe creating a small space in which you feel relaxed and able to focus on something outside of all this, might help you as it has helped me. Thank you again, for sharing your honest thoughts!
I will start to receive my chemo sometimes this month , but I did have my surgery first . "I feel so drained" barely can fuction from the surgery alone .I was told that, when you have breast cancer surgery , that your estrogen level drops drastically with no energy as a woman ., And it may take 11 or so days to get some energy back , It's been weeks . I still have no energy .GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE'S SUCESS, OF FINISHING THIS UNBELIEVABLE PROCESS, THAT'S CALLED LIFE.
this is the first video i looked up and clicked on praying someone would say something that would make me feel even slightly understood but i found myself literally shaking my head in understanding. i love you, thank you
Hi Dee, your an inspiration to me only just found your diaries. So pleased I have from Jo in UK. I am having a mastectomy tomorrow I am 65 and live alone. I have a beautiful family and partner and lots of support from work colleagues I am a nurse working on an oncology clinic. I am scared but listening to you for the past 24 hours has helped me so much. I first had breast cancer in 2015, and it is now in my left breast not recurrence but secondary primary with chemo and radio to follow surgery with delayed reconstruction I I remember last time the emotional aftermath was horrible. We have been through the physical stuff but emotional overload hits you and unexpectedly is hard to deal with but we have no choice as you say. Thankyou beautiful lady for all your bravery and courage but most of all sharing it with us. It is like a cattle market in clinic I agree but I love talking to patients and will take someone in a private room to chat if I see anyone in tears time to spend chatting is important. Love and big hugs to you the help you have given me I will be forever grateful for lessoning my fears...😊❤❤xxxxx
I wish I could give you a hug and tell you everything will be ok. ❤ from Canada DD
Aim for the moon and even if you miss you will land among the stars .. hugs Dee xx
u can beat it dont quite i beat stage 4 lung cancer my u tube is loves greater than cancer baby !!! i did weed hemp oil with my chome u will be ok try to be happy u are a live
At this point of your treatment, all your feelings are perfectly normal. You are not alone, we are millions around the world dealing with post treatment fatigue and sadness. Cancer is a such huge change in a life... hugs.
And by the way, hooray for your haïr growing so fast! You look beautiful.
KNOWwhat you mean..Am on second go round with cancer recurrence...have had to accept that this is normal...and looking back serves nothing but being upset etc...and brings me down that I can no longer do all I used to be able to do....BUT I am still here and having fun (and lotsa rest)...and would suggest a Poem called Dust if you Must...Good luck with all...you are not alone
Darling stay strong.. you have gone through so much already you can finish this battle!!
After the storm there is always a rainbow 🌈
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Thank you for sharing your story, your stronger then you know..
I feel the same. It’s a lonely and scary feeling.❤️
I am going g through the same moods too. I am usually a very cheerful person but lately I have tears, dread and scatter brained thoughts. I pray that you will have good news and that your cancer is gone. God bless
Can you go to London The Royal Marsden is a great hospital, maybe they could examine you and answer the questions you have. Have or do you talk with other that have cancer as they are the ones that will truly know how you are feeling. Your in my prays xx
I’ve recently been diagnosed with a rare blood cancer primary myleofibrosis. And I feel you. Like it all sucks and i can’t wait till I feel normal again. I’m gonna be starting chemo soon to get a bone marrow transplant. This has changed my life
joey Vazquez this is going to work!! Stay positive...your cancer buddies are with you! Crazy times right now x I’m backing you!!!
My heart breaks/aches for you as I watched this video! I’m from California and I know our healthcare systems are different so please forgive my ignorance in advance!
Do you have an oncology nurse/patient advocate/navigator to walk this journey with you (and beside you) that is an expert in both cancer and your healthcare system)??
At least then you’d have a human to reach out to when you get “letters” changing your plan of care...who could be a liaison between you and the healthcare system.
You are an amazing, beautiful, strong and loving woman! You and your family are in my thoughts! Hugs!!
I was thinking the exact same-thing, I just didn’t know how to phrase it. Cancer is hell enough never mind appointments being cancelled and being told different things. Hopefully there is something or someone that can help.
Not really, I mean I actually mentioned that letter today... and my oncologist made phone calls herself! She’s very good and I have a nurse who is great too... it’s just not a great system as a whole here!
Dee Doherty hang in there my friend. Sounds like you have some amazing advocates in your oncologist and nurse. The system forgets there is a human being that opens the letters!
You have a devoted family and your TH-cam family standing with you too!
I wish that I could reach through my phone and hug you. You are strong and brave. I am going through chemotherapy for metastatic breast cancer and have been following along. Thank you for being so open and honest as you have helped me more than you know. I am praying for you.
makeupbyRosalia thank you Rosalia! And a big hug back!!
"I just wish I was normal again" - totally empathise with you there :)
After 27 months of almost constant treatment, I want my life back. The desire to once again have energy, motivation & simply be social. Thank you for this video.
Ashleen Pearce thank you!
Im feeling that now, i still have 11 weeks of chemo left but Iove you so much, you are an amazing soul! thankyou
Awww thank you x I’d give you the biggest hug if I could x
I'm due to have chemo next week as I've been diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer , I've a long journey to go , I'm petrified for the chemo and herceptin, I've watched your videos and they have been brilliant alot of information and advise, I can understand why you feel so low, I'm the same, but remember one thing the only way is up. Thankyou and good luck xx
It is so annoying treatment you really need and put back because NHS is under strain, its scary. Hope you all get sorted quickly. Obv if you live in USA its different.
Hi, it sounds like some of it is limboland. But also yes fatigue. I dont have cancer but i do have some chronic illnesses. Even though my chronic illnesses have caused me a lot of pain, disability and problems, the hardest issues are mental. The fatigue/anxiety/depression/mental fog rollercoaster is the worst. The feelings of dread and anxiety because I simply can't do what i want to do (housework, activities, things that require motivation, energy and concentration) suck. It took me so many years to unpack my feelings and begin to understand how my feelings and mental health were connected to my physical and mental capacity to "do things" (or lack there-of). Its a complex relationship, your lack of control over your situation and the limbo youre in, feed into your lack of ability to plan and therefore ability to want to do things, feeds into your anxiety about things getting on top of you, and the factual fatigue of treatment and everything your body has been through is compounded. Your body is healing from so much. Plus the meds you've been on (and come off) have probably triggered fatigue too. Its just, a lot for a body and mind to deal with. I know its hard especially w anxiety, but if you could just slap your hand when you feel guilt, worry about housework, etc... and remind yourself that right now your job is to help your body and mind fight to survive! I hope that helps you let go of some of the anxiety at least. Two things about your treatment with your health care system (which sounds similar to australia). One, have you considered contacting either your cancer council or breast cancer association for some support, guidance, counselling (sorry if i missed a vid where you say you have). I mean more than pamphlets. Human support. Also two, in australia when my relatives have not been getting the treatment they deserve, i have contacted local members of parliament and also the member who has the health portfolio. If they say something, hospitals tend to pull their finger out. All the best from perth w.a xox
The feelings of the unknown are scary. Now that surgery is over and radiation is coming up, we are not sure about our cancer because we were used to having it in us. Now we have to think...is it gone? Hang in there. You have tons of support.
I've been watching a while now and I just want to say that what you are feeling is completely and entirely normal!
I dont have experience with cancer, but i do have a lot of experience with mental health and ive learnt a lot over time through my own experience with Anxiety, Panic attacks and Depression for 7 long years.
Try to understand and accept how you're feeling, dont fight it off, its normal, you feel like it for a reason and it will pass when its right for you,
i found the more i focused on trying to fix the bad ways i was feeling
the worse i felt because i was feeding it all of my attention and giving it so much importance.
instead, try and switch to whats REALLY important to you such as your beautiful children and partner, however it is still completely okay and important to allow time for you everyday whenever you need to let out some tears and videos like this, venting is so important to get it out of your mind and onto paper or any other type of media you feel at the time!
refuse to engage with the crappy thoughts when you can and get more into the habit of switching your focus to a passion of yours :) maybe there is something you love that doesnt require a lot of energy such as drawing, reading, writing, editing, photoshop, creative things, beauty things such as, nail designing and make up!? get real stuck in and lose yourself in a hobby!
of course it goes without saying but sometimes we forget to switch our focus to the positive things that are all around as when we feel sad, may they be big or the tiniest things that we take for granted.
its corny but search for inspirational quotes or videos if you want, the ones that are important for you will stand out and stay with you! :)
another thing is meditation, it sounds SOOO typical! BUT i done it anyway because i would try ANYTHING! and it does give you a bit of a boost and change your focus, its better than not doing it, theres all different kinds, find one that suits you!
Positive Affirmations work a treat! i would just listen to these in my headphones when im not even paying attention to what is being said on the video but this still soaks into your brain into your subconscious mind and help A LOT to change your thought patterns.
Alternatively you can just forget everything i just said because im a stranger throwing loads of information at you haha!
I just know i needed someone to tell me these things a few years ago and i had to find it all myself.
I hope any of the above helps you even in the slightest tiny bit!
you're a lovely lovely girl and very pretty too! you deserve all the best!
Sending positive vibes your way!
big hugs!
Melissa x
I am thinking about you and I am proud of your strength! My fiance had cancer last year and you just need to take time to heal. Take things one step at a time. Don't worry about chemo fog, it will get better. Keep on fighting with the doctors, if they fail you, find someone else. If you need a friend to talk to, I know I am just a random person, but I can be an ear if you need it. Hugs to you!
Im sorry you have to go through this...life is hard and very unfair. Give yourself a break because you have achieved so much. This feeling will pass and you will come through it a stronger person!
Sending love! I haven’t been through cancer but I can absolutely relate to what anxiety feels like and it’s just horrible at times. I think the most important thing here is to be kind to yourself, you’ve been through so much, and I think perhaps during the active treatment phase you are in total fight mode, that is exhausting and it’s only natural to have a crash from that so to speak. Let yourself feel what you need to feel, be gentle with yourself and just take one day at a time. I hope the next phase of your treatment goes well. Keep talking about this mental health, trust me it really helps.
I am so sorry you have to go through this. I am thinking of you and you are such a strong person. You will find your way. Please consider antidepressants
Do you have an oncologist that you can call for answers or a social worker that works with the team that can help you through? My heart breaks for you--that has to be agony waiting for answers.💔😥
that is so wrong that hospital cancels a oncology appointment ..just had to say it Dee maybe if you got an ultrasound back then u "wouldn't" be here i also have to say one more thing You have to take charge your own health and DEMAND help when they cancel tell them its unacceptable ask them if it was them would they want an important medical oncology appt. cancelled and let time lapse on their recovery sorry Dee its absolutely asinine sorry had to rant because here in the u.s. they never cancel important oncology appointments they squeeze you in!. i know because i went through it with my MOM . DEMAND it DEE this is your life and your loved by 3 important men therefore your very important come to usa for care dana faber cancer hospital is awesome here start a go fund me page u can stay with me
Robin Obrien haha! Thanks Robin!!
Robin Obrien also ... oncology radiologist! My oncologist is great :)
i should of been more specific but they are all important your team of drs. maybe like u said health care is very different in Ireland. does your oncologist and oncology radiologist work together as a team like the do here in the states? im glad you have a good oncology Dr your happy with. God Bless enough of my rambling on bye
Robin Obrien they don’t actually work as a team :( it’s all over the place. But thanks Robin, appreciate it! :)
I had mental health issues first; cancer came later, at one point I don't know if it's the cancer that gives me anxiety of the if I am going to pull through. Just like you I feel that my daughter is the one that I am still enduring the chemo and at its to come. She is an adult with special needs who still needs me to survive and navigate the rest of her life. You are not along.
I feel exactly the same way. Your video's are helping me prepare for chemo.
Hope your feeling better, miss you, praying for you, that all goes good.
It normal to feel that way. You just doing the right thing✌ it hard but you will get there 💪👍👏
your very strong of course a yung women would want reconstruction otherwize youd have a reminder every day even after remission
you've been through alot. body and mind. i finished a year of chemo in march of '17. 6 wks of radiation, a lung that collapsed twice within a month. and i still have chemo fog. spelling has always just come natural to me. now, i catch myself having to google simple words cause they just don't look right. i can't think of everyday words. have been known to sleep 12 to 14 hrs straight. i have to second guess myself on things...counting money or paying bills...i worked convenience stores for 40 yrs. counting money back was always just natural for me. i'm really worrying lately about dementia. i also have an anxiety disorder and have since my late 20's. i was blessed with an awesome team of drs. oncologist, surgeon, pulmonologist...when i get upset, they tell me what i just told you. your body and mind have taken a beating. it's gonna take time for both to recuperate. i'll be 62 in 2 wks and i been feeling my age. but i've decided to do what i'm able to and thank the Good Lord for getting me through this. i think things happen for a reason. i've learned to appreciate everything in my life so much more. i'm thankful for every lil' thing i have. family. a home. food to eat...hang in there, lady. it'll get better. concentrate on how lucky you are to still be alive. enjoy your husband and kids. and wishing you were back in high school might just be an age thing. i went through that stage around 35-40...dang, i typed more than i intended. lol. pray and stay thankful and you'll be fine
teresa holt thank you so much ❤️
Sending you prayers from Israel
Giving you a huge hug from Newfoundland 💟
Wow, I suffer from anxiety and depression. I have been feeling the exact same way as you. I love cleaning but as of late I cannot find the motivation to do so. I can’t concentrate. I think of going backwards in time especially childhood, when life was simple. Thanks for sharing.
I feel your pain, i'm going through this myself right now. Um in anti depressants for anxiety and panic attacks from everything I've been through and still going through because of cancer. Hang in there
Sandi Smith you too love x
I'm 2 years out and now realise I will never be the same person. As I said to.you before, I had the dflap reconstruction and it was the worst thing I did....didn't work and on holidsys now and hoping nobody notices. Sill waiting for my implant. My body is sooo scared and numb so i think u did the right thing. My only positive was the care I got in st James....cannot say enough about the care i got there. What you are going through is completely natural/normal and it WILL pass I promise. You are still smack in the middle if it. Much love and I think u should.consider counselling ❤
74mackg Mac thank you darling xx hope you enjoy your holiday 😘
Im visiting your page again, glad to see your still going.... I am frustrated thinking about how you do not live in a 3 rd world country and you just have struggled having access to what you needed and that you had the information and support you need. I know you have so much to be concerned about your family yourself , have you considered starting a group or going to a group in person ?
Amber U I attend a group ☺️
Thank you Dee , beautiful honesty . If its any consolation my sister had same as you, had breast removed chemo & radio that was over 14 years ago she has lived a normal life since. Sending love from the northwest UK 💜
Leah Tame thank you Leah! ❤️
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Sending good wishes to you Dee. Thanks for sharing. I have had similar thoughts about travelling back to another time in my life. I go for my surgery on Tuesday. Your videos have really helped me. Hope you feel good again soon :)
Marilinaa best of luck with the surgery x
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so strong of you to share how you are feeling Dee, you are stronger than you know xx
Adelle Kenny thank you Adele xx
Sweet Dee, Don't be pushed around by the fear in you're mind. Be led by dreams in you're heart❤ Be strong we're all standing shoulder to shoulder with YOU! Keep strong 🤗❤💖
kamaldeep singh thank you ❤️❤️