Aparently it's a sign of Borderline Personality Disorder, but imo small talk is over rated and the actual real personal stories are what are really interesting imo.
Very true. Be aware of people and their reactioms to things. What could be a meaninglessbjoke can trully hurt their feelings. It happens more often than not.
I have no idea who you are, but i'm very proud of you for being here. Thank you. You are important. You mean so much to me. I truly mean that. Thank you. I love you
This line hit me like a truck I go through day to day hearing nothing but criticism and your not good enough like damm someone just be proud I’m trying
@@tyhannis9817 man life sucks but you gotta steady push to be the best you you can be. Put yourself above everyone. You are the best and never let someone tell you different.
"I'm drinking coffee at 3am playing battlegrounds and overwatch, volume up to 50 cuz it get too trippy if it's not. I can hear the fridge buzz, I can hear my thoughts clear, I can hear the room ring, I can hear who not here." You articulate what it's like to be manic so well.
He will and im still sitting here like wtf how has Ryan not become a known name yet?!?!?! Its okay though cuz we know he will of course n I already play his music for sooooo many different people and everyone totally vibes with it no joke!
It's comforting to read over the comments of others. The specific lyrics that hit. The things that sang to them. I love this song just for the connection it gives me to all of you. Listened to it on repeat for hours. Still perfect.
This song literally describes every aspect of my anxiety and how i feel daily and I’m really glad that there is a song I can 100% relate to in every way possible so thank you Ryan for this song I never knew I needed ❤️
being bi polar means you have depression, they are one in the same bi polar is an extreme version of depression, its why is previous name is bi polars old clinical name was manic depression
@@imwithyou38 can still be seperate diagnoses :) bipolar isn't due to a lack of serotonin depression is. Low moods and depression although presenting identically the same, they are not treated the same way :) hope that helps! :)
@@stephaniesibson5578 u really have no idea what u are talking about.....i cioudl type a huge wall of text. im 35 and idiabgnosisted with bi polar 1, ive been duggested that i shouldnt live alone for the rest of my life to to the rare my very extreme mania. manic depression is part of being bi palar whichn is clinical depression that acts a lil bity differently but it is that. ive spend 23 years studying psychology due to m y familysd bloodline from my moms side as my grandma had 3 sisters with schsizophernia(2 commited suicide other died in her 50's. my mom have schizophernia and used heavy drugs while pregnmant with me which she was caught by my aunt(her sister) 3 cousins with downs. GAD was passed down to nearly every family member i have met from my moms side which is jucied up by hypothyroidism which everypme ive has it also which cause your body to speed up if not controlled and makes mental health problems worse. the thing about seratonin because the cause for clinical dperession was actually foujnd out to be false and while low seratponin causes being depressed those are 2 different things. this iinfo came from a yuonger psychologist who graduted from harvard. which is why ssri's and snri's for clinical depression only have around a 20% improvement for most people. you saying someone can be disgnosised with both means the person is either self diagnosising or is going to a p;sych who just throws pills at their patient and actually could careless. this also tells me you have no idea what actual bi polar is and you have heard it from, conversation with people who also have no idea what they are talking about.
“Nothin means more to me then when i hear that you’re proud of me” Damn that hit hard im at a point in my life where I don’t know if i want to live or die anymore because it’s so hard to get through the pain im going through and im trying I’m 3 months clear now and i am slowly starting to be myself again
"Nothing means more to me then when I hear that you're proud of me" This line hits me especially hard because I lost my grandma last November and she was always so supportive of anything I pursued, and I wish I could just hear her tell me she's proud one more time.
He deserves more recognition.his lyrics are so creative and make sense.he pours out his feelings and cuts all that fake bs.he makes the music he wants,not what society would tell him to.he’s original and unique,that’s why he needs to be heard more.
I can hear the fridge buzz I can hear my thoughts clear *I can hear the room ring* I can hear who’s not here... such a chill, this guy gives you a feeling that is rare
I love the lessons about materialism in this song, like "I been thinking about you and I wanna go do something nice, I can't take rejection and that's why I play the crazy price" and "I let my little bro talk me into buying designer clothes, he tell me I'm flexing but I don't even feel kinda close." it really shows how money driven we are in the end and really feels like there's almost nothing genuine anymore, and how money can't buy happiness. God I love this song.
Its so beautiful when a song can brings thousands together, please know although we feel alone we all clearly aren't 🙂 keep up the good fight everyone.
This song makes me sad, mostly because, i dont know where im going or what im doing and i dont have anyone to talk to when im overwhelmed. Everyone ignores me and just leaves me on read or just stops talking completely, i wish i could have someone to help me balance out all the stress and decisions but i dont and i hate it. Thanks for coming to my all over the place TED talk, i hope you have a good day and a good night cause i certainly wont
Hey, I hope you're ok. i'm here. If you ever need to rant, and dont want it to get out or anything like that, you can trust me. I dont know you or any of your friends. If you need it, dm me on insta or message back on here. I could try my best to give you advice of you need it, or I could just listen. i'm here
I'm here bro, please feel free to talk to me, my Instagram is @ritzymusic just dm me with anything I'm here for you. You're loved and wanted don't forget it
Man, being stuck in that dark place is so addictive, this song made me shed tears I've been holding in. I talk to myself, comfort myself and tell myself everything's gonna be alright.
Sam Quist it took me years to get that shit in check. And it always comes back if I slack on going to my therapy sessions. I hate the phrase "how are you?". Ppl saying it so passively with no intent on actually listening or caring. Then, I look like the weirdo for actually describing how I been doing.
@@bennyblanco4696 "How are you" kills me, man. And I think a lot of the time they expect you to ask "how are you" back and I never do cause I forget lol
I grew up on peanut butter waffles and when I was 20 I went through a financially bad time. An ex of mine and I ate peanut butter pancakes all the time because that's what we could afford. I'm doing pretty good right now so this song gives them bittersweet feels.
LYRICS: I’m always singing 'bout my fickle feelings 'cause there ain’t no antidote Laying here in silence 'cause I cannot find the damn remote Even if I found it, I would probably just flip, flip, and flip In the midst of August getting started on my Christmas list I been thinking 'bout you and I wanna go do something nice I can’t take rejection and that’s why I pay the crazy price If you ain’t ecstatic, I feel like I blew it big time I’m a little manic, I just wanna see your big smile Nothing means more to me than when I hear that you’re proud of me Acting like a kid because I never quite learned how to be Peanut butter waffles when it’s dinner time and I’m alone Hiding in my castle, but the walls are made of styrofoam [Chorus] I know There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low You know how to balance, but I don’t I wish I could finally just find home I know There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low You know how to balance, but I don’t I wish I could finally just find home [Verse 2] I’m drinking coffee at 3am, playing Battlegrounds and Overwatch Volume up to 50 'cause it get too trippy if it’s not I can hear the fridge buzz, I can hear my thoughts clear I can hear the room ring, I can hear who’s not here I let my lil' bro talk me into buying designer clothes He tell me I’m flexing but I don’t even feel kinda close Them bitches were brand new, but they look like old shoes Could’ve bought a puppy or 220 cold brews When somebody ask me how I been, I get too personal Catching up and small talk are 2 things I never learned to do I make life decisions in the time it take to brush my teeth Can’t remember where I been, don’t know where I’m gonna be [Chorus] I know There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low You know how to balance, but I don’t I wish I could finally just find home I know There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low You know how to balance, but I don’t I wish I could finally just find home [Outro] Na, na, na, na Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na Na, na Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na Na, na I wish I could finally just find home Na, na, na, na Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na Na, na Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na Na, na I wish I could finally just find home
I love how anxiety is represented in this video. The camera just going on circles like his thoughts. Unable to see all the beautiful things life gives us because depression just keeps us locked in a room.
This made me so happy and so sad at the same time. It’s truly an amazing song and an amazing visual, SO HAPPY THAT YOURE RELEASING MUSIC AGAIN I’m so excited
"When somebody ask me how I been I get too personal, catching up and small talk are two things I never learned to do" I feel ya man, I dont know how to find the balance that comes with talking to people cause I always either close myself off too much or become too open to the point that it's weird
This song helps me so much for some reason. Whenever I get too overwhelmed or anxious or suicidal or any extreme emotion, I put this song o and it grounds me. I play it on repeat and relate to the song's meaning so much. It might just be me, but I love this song
@TreeDude 421 hey, thank you. I wrote that when I was in a really really bad place, and that song was sort of my only relief in my life. Thank you so much for caring. i'm doing much better now. i'm back in school, i'm getting my eating disorder under control and overall am sobering up. I really appreciate you. I didn't end up telling anyone out of fear, but others came to me and I relized that I needed help. Thank you so much
I've loved this song forever, but heard it today after my newly diagnosed bipolarism and I cried for like ever. Thanks for painting such a great picture of the world of mental illness. Also, I had peanut butter waffles for breakfast which prompted the song!
It's so reassuring to hear, such depressing, anxious feelings be expressed in such a beautiful way This is one of those tracks i never fail to miss a single word and never fail to relate with them.
I don't know why, but the "I wish I could finally just find home" nearly brought me to tears. I think it's because about a year ago now, I had a relationship end and although I know it was a good thing that it ended, that relationship really felt like this safe space that could feel like home in many ways. I've searched and searched for something that can recreate that feeling but nothing's come close. I hope I can find that home one day again. Thank you for your beautiful music, Ryan
Every word in this song is by somehow describing me. "I'm drinking coffee at 3 AM and playing Overwatch." That's me, I usually drink my coffee and play Overwatch at late night. "I make life decisions in the time It take to brush my teeth." Woah! I take big decisions so easily. Ryan is one of the best songwriter of our time!
your words in all your songs!!!! jus wow!!! i cant even begin to explain how much same there is!!! your music has helped me thro so much .. thank you for what you do !! like timeesss a million!!! THANK YOU!!!!
I don't know if you're going to see this Ryan but I just want to let you know that your music touches my soul I'm just a simple man going through life like anybody else and when I listen to your music it helps you understand me in a way I don't understand myself and what I mean by that is your song speak when I don't know how to speak I feel all your music there's not a song I don't like I know that sounds cheesy but it's true keep doing you man and understand the people that you touch with your music care about you
Ryan always know how to speak to the people with loud minds and deep feelings, I see you as my big bro even though I will never ever meet you you’ve been the best father/bro/friend figure Thank you Ryan.
NF - If you want love Dreams Mansions Pretty much all of his songs B-Mike- Damaged Anxiety Lund- Broken Badflower- Ghost Finneas? Maybe. I like him Oliver Tree- Hurt Jacob Lee- Demons Isak Danielson- Power KAAN- Feels LTN Mary Jane Doobie- Broken Phora- Numb Mack Harrison- Alone Sadder day I like crywank sorta but they just need better equipment or something I think. These are just some off the top of my head that touched me at some point, but it's all about how I feel at that moment. Sorry if you hate them :)
This song is me in every single line. I have bipolar disorder, ADHD, and PTSD and every word hits me and all my struggles so hard. Thank you for making this
I listen to you every single day, Every song is better then the last. Never stop making music bro! Not a song by You I don’t like! Every song has a meaning and it’s helped me thru a lot. Can’t wait for the next album!
This song describes everything I’ve been feeling. It starts low and feels hopeless, but at the end all of a sudden, you feel a sense of hope, and that’s what carries me forward.
I was soo confused when TH-cam suggested this & I played it. I was like "weird someone has the same name as Ryan Caraveo, the rapper." & then I listened to the lyrics & it seemed like his writing because I've always related so much to his words. So I clicked his page & sure as shit, same dude. Mind blown. I loveee both styles of his music. I loved his rap but cool & brave af when an artist goes for it & changes up if that's what they want.
"I wish i could find home" I remember telling my mom that our house didnt feel like home when i was about 15. I didnt feel like i had a home since my mom got with her husband. They destroyed our family. I met my wife a few years ago when i was 25. I found my home. But i remember that feeling all to well it cuts deep
I’ve always found this song so beautiful because it hits very close to home. I haven’t listened to it for id say nearly 3 years now but I’m glad I came back to experience it again.
He is not a sellout..most sellouts get more push from record labels and more attention..he has morals..and its why you like his music..if he was sooo big his music would start to blend with other artist just bc of the record label
Dear Ryan, You are a very under appreciate artist! Please never stop making music and being who you are. Your words in your songs explain so much in me no other artist brings out. I love your honesty most of all.. thank you I’ve been here since the beginning and have enjoyed your style and your uniqueness! Thank you for touching my life! I don’t know if you read the comments but I just felt I need to anyways in hopes you would see it! ♥️ you’ve gotten me through the hard times and make the good times even better!!
Ryan I wanted to let you understand and empathize that you are not alone. Correct me if I'm wrong to me this song is a musical poetic expression of MY battle I have with manic depression which all I do is try to see people and make people smile yet when I express myself it gets too personal and when I don't take rejection people do calI me crazy, and I empathizs and understand the highs and lows of manic depression, thanks for helping me feel less lonely I resonate with this song empathetically thank you so much bro ONE LOVE BRO!
I gotta say Ryan Caraveo, thank you so much. I’ve lived with bipolar, depression and anxiety and it’s hard to focus. I use music to show emotion and this is the best interpretation of how I think...thank you
I been listening to this since it came out on TH-cam. Sorry, I don’t really comment much on videos cuz honestly I had a brick wall I’ve been working I breaking down, but this song...please keep being you. I relate. Manic phases are something else. Good and bad. One more than the other
I'm so happy Shane Dawson used your song in his first episode of his series!! You're gonna make it even farther loved your songs since your first album Swings ❤
“I, know there’s no in between it’s either high, low you know how to balance but I, don’t” I felt that🥺❤️
Yeah that so heat.
Same
Same
Someone needs to annotate this on genius :
Same 😐
'When somebody ask me how I've been I get personal ' I felt that.
"Catchin up and small talk are two things I never learned to do"
Maaaaaaaan do I ever.
Aparently it's a sign of Borderline Personality Disorder, but imo small talk is over rated and the actual real personal stories are what are really interesting imo.
@@HerbaMachina I think that's all he was saying
@@NateMac1990 I felt thaaat.
*_Respect other people's feelings. It might mean nothing to you, but it could mean everything to them_*
Better advice - Obey Jesus Christ or burn in Hell.
@@levicross6431 ahaha
Levi Cross maybe hell is pleasant and Jesus is just a good manipulator because he is jealous of how awesome hell is. There is no way to know 🤷🏼♂️😄
Levi Cross Even better advice - A book shouldn’t determine how you treat people. Just be a decent fucking person.
Very true. Be aware of people and their reactioms to things. What could be a meaninglessbjoke can trully hurt their feelings. It happens more often than not.
How relatable do you want this song to be?
Ryan: yes
Brooo truth
Hahaha. Yes!
the saying is:
Ryan: How relatable do you want this song to be?
Me: yes
But nothing is more relatable than having your living room on a sandy beach lol
@@siriusblack2143 Exactly, 'cause he writes his own music thank you
*nothin means more to me then when i hear that you're proud of me*
that hit me, nobody is ever proud of us
That hit me harder that i thought it would
I'm proud of you.
I have no idea who you are, but i'm very proud of you for being here. Thank you. You are important. You mean so much to me. I truly mean that. Thank you. I love you
This line hit me like a truck I go through day to day hearing nothing but criticism and your not good enough like damm someone just be proud I’m trying
@@tyhannis9817 man life sucks but you gotta steady push to be the best you you can be. Put yourself above everyone. You are the best and never let someone tell you different.
"I'm drinking coffee at 3am playing battlegrounds and overwatch,
volume up to 50 cuz it get too trippy if it's not.
I can hear the fridge buzz, I can hear my thoughts clear,
I can hear the room ring, I can hear who not here."
You articulate what it's like to be manic so well.
Bryton Asapace I write all my music when I’m manic
Yes articulate but also SO MUCH MORE... much love.
Bryton Asapace he describes my bipolar disorder perfectly. I actually was shocked. Because no other artist has.
Wait is that how it feels to be manic? Cause stuff like that happens to me a couple times every few weeks I thought it was normal
Pretty sure he's talking about being off acid
The vibes I get from Ryan Caraveo is indescribable. He’s gonna explode 💥🔥
Really
He will and im still sitting here like wtf how has Ryan not become a known name yet?!?!?! Its okay though cuz we know he will of course n I already play his music for sooooo many different people and everyone totally vibes with it no joke!
Dude I hope so 👌🔥
He will for sure and if he doesn't this world kind of dumb
Very true! First thought over a year ago too
It's comforting to read over the comments of others. The specific lyrics that hit. The things that sang to them.
I love this song just for the connection it gives me to all of you.
Listened to it on repeat for hours. Still perfect.
I completely agree with everything you said. 🫶
I comment scroll too just for the vibe check ....lol....see who the haters are and those who arent npc's that actually have ❤'s
This song literally describes every aspect of my anxiety and how i feel daily and I’m really glad that there is a song I can 100% relate to in every way possible so thank you Ryan for this song I never knew I needed ❤️
I know what you mean 100% check out the song manic by coleman hell thank me later.. th-cam.com/video/UD1TgRPHlGk/w-d-xo.html&start_radio=1
Victoria Miller I couldn’t of said it better
I agree . you might want to hear Cal Scruby -Anxiety. you love that one too. that if you like this one. he made one last year that hits hard.
I know exactly how that feels
It's not your anxiety it's the devil trying to keep you in the state of fear.
This guy is actually so good the words the tone everything thing is beautiful
I suffer from bipolar and severe depression and when i hear his music it speaks comforting words to me love you ryan
being bi polar means you have depression, they are one in the same bi polar is an extreme version of depression, its why is previous name is bi polars old clinical name was manic depression
God bless you on your journey ! We all going through it 😊
@@imwithyou38 can still be seperate diagnoses :) bipolar isn't due to a lack of serotonin depression is. Low moods and depression although presenting identically the same, they are not treated the same way :) hope that helps! :)
@@stephaniesibson5578 u really have no idea what u are talking about.....i cioudl type a huge wall of text. im 35 and idiabgnosisted with bi polar 1, ive been duggested that i shouldnt live alone for the rest of my life to to the rare my very extreme mania. manic depression is part of being bi palar whichn is clinical depression that acts a lil bity differently but it is that.
ive spend 23 years studying psychology due to m y familysd bloodline from my moms side as my grandma had 3 sisters with schsizophernia(2 commited suicide other died in her 50's. my mom have schizophernia and used heavy drugs while pregnmant with me which she was caught by my aunt(her sister) 3 cousins with downs. GAD was passed down to nearly every family member i have met from my moms side which is jucied up by hypothyroidism which everypme ive has it also which cause your body to speed up if not controlled and makes mental health problems worse.
the thing about seratonin because the cause for clinical dperession was actually foujnd out to be false and while low seratponin causes being depressed those are 2 different things. this iinfo came from a yuonger psychologist who graduted from harvard. which is why ssri's and snri's for clinical depression only have around a 20% improvement for most people.
you saying someone can be disgnosised with both means the person is either self diagnosising or is going to a p;sych who just throws pills at their patient and actually could careless. this also tells me you have no idea what actual bi polar is and you have heard it from, conversation with people who also have no idea what they are talking about.
As a fellow polar bear. I agree❤
“Acting like a kid because I never quite learned how to be” that hits me the most
Same here
@@seanofthedead1514 yep
Never thought a song called pb waffles would actually be good
SAME i clicked on it by accident lol.
Indiana Outlaw usually songs named like this are wack and just plain weird. This one tho..
it's good
“Nothin means more to me then when i hear that you’re proud of me”
Damn that hit hard im at a point in my life where I don’t know if i want to live or die anymore because it’s so hard to get through the pain im going through and im trying
I’m 3 months clear now and i am slowly starting to be myself again
nobody has ever said "im proud of you" to me
@@flatearthkillz8767 I'm proud of you. I don't know you, but I'm proud of you for getting this far. You're doing amazing.
The entire song is amazing but that first verse especially hits home..
"Nothing means more to me then when I hear that you're proud of me" This line hits me especially hard because I lost my grandma last November and she was always so supportive of anything I pursued, and I wish I could just hear her tell me she's proud one more time.
May she rest in peace. I'm sure she's proud of you
I dont think I've ever related to a song this much before.. THANK YOU RYAN! I along with all of your fans, LOVE YOU AND WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!
This song has gotten me through so many bad days… thank you Ryan for always being here for us ♉️
You made me cry Ryan! I love it so much. Thank you for existing the way you are♥️♥️♥️♥️
He deserves more recognition.his lyrics are so creative and make sense.he pours out his feelings and cuts all that fake bs.he makes the music he wants,not what society would tell him to.he’s original and unique,that’s why he needs to be heard more.
Captured designer hype perfectly. Great music as always Caraveo
Will Gehman right? You could get way more hyped off 220 cold brews anyway 🤣
Agreed
about 3/4 years ago some random guy dmed me and told me he thought i’d like this song.. i still listen to this when i’m feeling down
I can hear the fridge buzz I can hear my thoughts clear *I can hear the room ring* I can hear who’s not here... such a chill, this guy gives you a feeling that is rare
Love this
Most random thing I've seen In a While
Love you
@@kervyngangadeen7156 qdd!,!'31x
I just want to hug him
I love the lessons about materialism in this song, like "I been thinking about you and I wanna go do something nice, I can't take rejection and that's why I play the crazy price" and "I let my little bro talk me into buying designer clothes, he tell me I'm flexing but I don't even feel kinda close." it really shows how money driven we are in the end and really feels like there's almost nothing genuine anymore, and how money can't buy happiness. God I love this song.
Its so beautiful when a song can brings thousands together, please know although we feel alone we all clearly aren't 🙂 keep up the good fight everyone.
This song makes me sad, mostly because, i dont know where im going or what im doing and i dont have anyone to talk to when im overwhelmed. Everyone ignores me and just leaves me on read or just stops talking completely, i wish i could have someone to help me balance out all the stress and decisions but i dont and i hate it. Thanks for coming to my all over the place TED talk, i hope you have a good day and a good night cause i certainly wont
Hey, I hope you're ok. i'm here. If you ever need to rant, and dont want it to get out or anything like that, you can trust me. I dont know you or any of your friends. If you need it, dm me on insta or message back on here. I could try my best to give you advice of you need it, or I could just listen. i'm here
I'm here bro, please feel free to talk to me, my Instagram is @ritzymusic just dm me with anything I'm here for you. You're loved and wanted don't forget it
I know how it feels bro. I feel your pain.
@@mayabrodchanel450it never ends does it?
For me it’s I’ve been high I’ve been low I’m stuck. Parts of my life are up parts are down this song helps me realize I’m still figuring shit out
His lyrics are always so real it’s crazy. Not another artist like this
Man, being stuck in that dark place is so addictive, this song made me shed tears I've been holding in. I talk to myself, comfort myself and tell myself everything's gonna be alright.
"When somebody asks me how I been I get too personal" loool that's me right there
Sam Quist it took me years to get that shit in check. And it always comes back if I slack on going to my therapy sessions. I hate the phrase "how are you?". Ppl saying it so passively with no intent on actually listening or caring. Then, I look like the weirdo for actually describing how I been doing.
@@bennyblanco4696 "How are you" kills me, man. And I think a lot of the time they expect you to ask "how are you" back and I never do cause I forget lol
I keep seeing this in my reccomends, and skipped it everytime till I got curious enough, and its amazing.
I'm glad I listened to this.
Ryan is such a blessing to the music industry. ♥️
I am really enjoying Ryan's material .. weather I'm sad .. high .. pumped or just tired .. I get something from so many of his songs!
I grew up on peanut butter waffles and when I was 20 I went through a financially bad time. An ex of mine and I ate peanut butter pancakes all the time because that's what we could afford. I'm doing pretty good right now so this song gives them bittersweet feels.
Somebody give this man a hug
LYRICS:
I’m always singing 'bout my fickle feelings 'cause there ain’t no antidote
Laying here in silence 'cause I cannot find the damn remote
Even if I found it, I would probably just flip, flip, and flip
In the midst of August getting started on my Christmas list
I been thinking 'bout you and I wanna go do something nice
I can’t take rejection and that’s why I pay the crazy price
If you ain’t ecstatic, I feel like I blew it big time
I’m a little manic, I just wanna see your big smile
Nothing means more to me than when I hear that you’re proud of me
Acting like a kid because I never quite learned how to be
Peanut butter waffles when it’s dinner time and I’m alone
Hiding in my castle, but the walls are made of styrofoam
[Chorus]
I know
There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low
You know how to balance, but I don’t
I wish I could finally just find home
I know
There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low
You know how to balance, but I don’t
I wish I could finally just find home
[Verse 2]
I’m drinking coffee at 3am, playing Battlegrounds and Overwatch
Volume up to 50 'cause it get too trippy if it’s not
I can hear the fridge buzz, I can hear my thoughts clear
I can hear the room ring, I can hear who’s not here
I let my lil' bro talk me into buying designer clothes
He tell me I’m flexing but I don’t even feel kinda close
Them bitches were brand new, but they look like old shoes
Could’ve bought a puppy or 220 cold brews
When somebody ask me how I been, I get too personal
Catching up and small talk are 2 things I never learned to do
I make life decisions in the time it take to brush my teeth
Can’t remember where I been, don’t know where I’m gonna be
[Chorus]
I know
There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low
You know how to balance, but I don’t
I wish I could finally just find home
I know
There’s no in-between, it’s either: high, low
You know how to balance, but I don’t
I wish I could finally just find home
[Outro]
Na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na
I wish I could finally just find home
Na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na
I wish I could finally just find home
Peyton Maxwell thank you
You’re as useful as Hellen Keller in a maze 👍🏻
grubby You’re as insightful as a pair of tinted reading glasses
It's... a lyric video...
I actually needed this comment. I like to read the lyrics before they change. Thank you for making this comment
I love how anxiety is represented in this video. The camera just going on circles like his thoughts. Unable to see all the beautiful things life gives us because depression just keeps us locked in a room.
He needs to swim in the ocean to get rid of negative vibes.
This made me so happy and so sad at the same time. It’s truly an amazing song and an amazing visual, SO HAPPY THAT YOURE RELEASING MUSIC AGAIN I’m so excited
"When somebody ask me how I been I get too personal, catching up and small talk are two things I never learned to do" I feel ya man, I dont know how to find the balance that comes with talking to people cause I always either close myself off too much or become too open to the point that it's weird
This song helps me so much for some reason.
Whenever I get too overwhelmed or anxious or suicidal or any extreme emotion, I put this song o and it grounds me. I play it on repeat and relate to the song's meaning so much.
It might just be me, but I love this song
@TreeDude 421 hey, thank you.
I wrote that when I was in a really really bad place, and that song was sort of my only relief in my life. Thank you so much for caring.
i'm doing much better now. i'm back in school, i'm getting my eating disorder under control and overall am sobering up.
I really appreciate you.
I didn't end up telling anyone out of fear, but others came to me and I relized that I needed help.
Thank you so much
One of my favorite artists right now. Everything he makes is solid as can be. Quality + Quantity = Ryan Caraveo
like the drugs i use
*THE PEOPLE WHO DISLIKED THIS VIDEO ARE ALLERGIC TO PEANUT BUTTER*
I'm allergic to peanut butter, but I'll still eat it while blasting this song (and swelling up) Ryan Caraveo is vibes. 😜😂
THIS GOT ME.
I really like your Batman logo on your chest 💲🦇🦇🦇💲
Right lol
oh my gosh that is why
Ryan, I love you bro, your music speaks to my soul...keep that drive!
This is such a different approach for you but you absolutely killed it. Amazing work, Ryan.
I've loved this song forever, but heard it today after my newly diagnosed bipolarism and I cried for like ever. Thanks for painting such a great picture of the world of mental illness.
Also, I had peanut butter waffles for breakfast which prompted the song!
It's so reassuring to hear, such depressing, anxious feelings be expressed in such a beautiful way
This is one of those tracks i never fail to miss a single word and never fail to relate with them.
I don't know why, but the "I wish I could finally just find home" nearly brought me to tears. I think it's because about a year ago now, I had a relationship end and although I know it was a good thing that it ended, that relationship really felt like this safe space that could feel like home in many ways. I've searched and searched for something that can recreate that feeling but nothing's come close. I hope I can find that home one day again.
Thank you for your beautiful music, Ryan
Every word in this song is by somehow describing me. "I'm drinking coffee at 3 AM and playing Overwatch." That's me, I usually drink my coffee and play Overwatch at late night. "I make life decisions in the time
It take to brush my teeth." Woah! I take big decisions so easily. Ryan is one of the best songwriter of our time!
Anyone from 2024 still feeling this song
Keeps me going when its hard ❤
You are THE most relatable artist for me. Thank you for all of your hard work and for making such amazing music. ❤
Man his music better than *any* artist I dont care what anyone says.
This song is exactly what I needed right now. You never know what's going on in someone's head.
His lyrics are so deep! Love all his songs
I've never felt so understood. Thanks for sharing. 💕
WHY IS THIS BEAUTIFUL 😭😭
your words in all your songs!!!! jus wow!!! i cant even begin to explain how much same there is!!! your music has helped me thro so much .. thank you for what you do !! like timeesss a million!!! THANK YOU!!!!
I don't know if you're going to see this Ryan but I just want to let you know that your music touches my soul I'm just a simple man going through life like anybody else and when I listen to your music it helps you understand me in a way I don't understand myself and what I mean by that is your song speak when I don't know how to speak I feel all your music there's not a song I don't like I know that sounds cheesy but it's true keep doing you man and understand the people that you touch with your music care about you
Ryan always know how to speak to the people with loud minds and deep feelings,
I see you as my big bro even though I will never ever meet you you’ve been the best father/bro/friend figure
Thank you Ryan.
He feels like my bro
And bipolar and borderline ppl. . Which are two ppl who have very intense emotions and super deep
Share a song that can relate! I would like to hear new artist
NF - If you want love
Dreams
Mansions
Pretty much all of his songs
B-Mike- Damaged
Anxiety
Lund- Broken
Badflower- Ghost
Finneas? Maybe. I like him
Oliver Tree- Hurt
Jacob Lee- Demons
Isak Danielson- Power
KAAN- Feels
LTN
Mary Jane
Doobie- Broken
Phora- Numb
Mack Harrison- Alone
Sadder day
I like crywank sorta but they just need better equipment or something I think.
These are just some off the top of my head that touched me at some point, but it's all about how I feel at that moment. Sorry if you hate them :)
God. This whole song hits home. Glad know I ain't the only one though.
This song is me in every single line. I have bipolar disorder, ADHD, and PTSD and every word hits me and all my struggles so hard. Thank you for making this
This is straight feels right here! Ryan Caraveo = LIFE. 🙌🙏. So many songs hit home bro! Keep this up!100%
hi. i haven’t listened to this in a little while, but listening now, it hits harder with me than it used to.
This is my new favorite song by you Ryan! These words speak to me on another level and i can relate personally. Keep up the good work!
The way this song is still stuck in my head. Amazing work .
“I’m drinking coffee at 3am playing battlegrounds and overwatch” I felt that
i met this man, and i cried. hes such an inspiration, i cant wait till he tours again, i NEED RYAN
"I can here who's not here" I felt that.
This is the most beautiful song I’ve possibly ever heard.
I doubt you'll ever see this man but I truly love your music, Your song ghost made me feel like I wasn't alone. Please never stop making music
I listen to you every single day, Every song is better then the last. Never stop making music bro! Not a song by You I don’t like! Every song has a meaning and it’s helped me thru a lot. Can’t wait for the next album!
I can't keep my emotions away I'm in love with your lovely voice man and this is so amazingly 💙💙 badly I felt you like u r hurting in pain
This song describes everything I’ve been feeling. It starts low and feels hopeless, but at the end all of a sudden, you feel a sense of hope, and that’s what carries me forward.
Good music is just so fxcking attractive.
I haven't had a song hit me like this in a while. I can relate to so much of it.
You're speaking from my heart and I'm seeing more and more butterflys x) ty for beeing you Ryan
Chill
@@ZiggyGood I try...
I struggle with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and it strangely feels nice to have a song that I can relate to that fits what I go through
Same
I was soo confused when TH-cam suggested this & I played it. I was like "weird someone has the same name as Ryan Caraveo, the rapper." & then I listened to the lyrics & it seemed like his writing because I've always related so much to his words. So I clicked his page & sure as shit, same dude. Mind blown. I loveee both styles of his music. I loved his rap but cool & brave af when an artist goes for it & changes up if that's what they want.
Thank you for making this song you have no idea the impact a simple song can make
Never clicked a notification so fast 🔥🔥
This is one of the very few songs I know I will come back to like 30 years from now...if im alive loll
On repeat
"I wish i could find home"
I remember telling my mom that our house didnt feel like home when i was about 15. I didnt feel like i had a home since my mom got with her husband. They destroyed our family. I met my wife a few years ago when i was 25. I found my home. But i remember that feeling all to well it cuts deep
2019...it's been a while and without hesitation I can say that it's my favorite song, I love your music ryan.🖤
I’ve always found this song so beautiful because it hits very close to home. I haven’t listened to it for id say nearly 3 years now but I’m glad I came back to experience it again.
Once your song comes out I listen to it 1,000 times over
Damn I felt every line of this song so hard.
You deserves more recognition. How aren’t more people seeing his talent!?
He is not a sellout..most sellouts get more push from record labels and more attention..he has morals..and its why you like his music..if he was sooo big his music would start to blend with other artist just bc of the record label
I am listening to this over and over. This is so me. I love this.
Damn, this is pure, bro
This song is my happy place
Describes how I feel with my borderline personality disorder...just now found this song. Amazing!!
Dear Ryan,
You are a very under appreciate artist! Please never stop making music and being who you are. Your words in your songs explain so much in me no other artist brings out. I love your honesty most of all.. thank you I’ve been here since the beginning and have enjoyed your style and your uniqueness! Thank you for touching my life! I don’t know if you read the comments but I just felt I need to anyways in hopes you would see it! ♥️ you’ve gotten me through the hard times and make the good times even better!!
Just know I’ve been here since the beginning of your career✌🏼
#Same hes so brilliant best artist in forever!
Same, it's amazing to see him evolving into his own amazing musical vibe. Hes so unique I swear.
I wish I was
*and always will be*
Yup...still Godmode
Ryan I wanted to let you understand and empathize that you are not alone. Correct me if I'm wrong to me this song is a musical poetic expression of MY battle I have with manic depression which all I do is try to see people and make people smile yet when I express myself it gets too personal and when I don't take rejection people do calI me crazy, and I empathizs and understand the highs and lows of manic depression, thanks for helping me feel less lonely I resonate with this song empathetically thank you so much bro ONE LOVE BRO!
NF and Ryan are so underrated especially Ryan
I gotta say Ryan Caraveo, thank you so much. I’ve lived with bipolar, depression and anxiety and it’s hard to focus. I use music to show emotion and this is the best interpretation of how I think...thank you
I been listening to this since it came out on TH-cam. Sorry, I don’t really comment much on videos cuz honestly I had a brick wall I’ve been working I breaking down, but this song...please keep being you. I relate. Manic phases are something else. Good and bad. One more than the other
"I wish I could finally just find home" me too.....me too....
"When somebody ask me how I feel I get too personal" ...I relate to that
I'm so happy Shane Dawson used your song in his first episode of his series!! You're gonna make it even farther loved your songs since your first album Swings ❤
Perfect song