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CONFIDENCE | in my 30s ft. Peniel

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  • Covering "Confidence" with the most confident guy I know, Peniel! You guys all probably know him from ‪@officialbtob‬, Get Real, and maybe from the ‪@joanday‬ vlogs. Peniel is a rapper, singer, model, you name it! In this episode, Peniel takes us back to his audition / trainee days to now - which definitely requires CONFIDENCE!
    Check out Peniel's latest track, 'MIoBI (Make It or Break It)': • 프니엘 (PENIEL) 'MIoBI (M...
    Time Stamp:
    00:40 Intro
    02:02 Peniel's "Make It Or Break It"
    04:19 Today's Topic: Confidence
    04:37 Mic Check
    07:28 Confidence in 20s vs 30s
    07:53 How Peniel Got into K-Pop
    12:37 Modeling
    15:50 JYP to Cube
    19:16 Confidence Roller Coaster
    21:22 Reading what Confidence means to you
    25:32 Listen to Peniel's New Song!
    27:29 Be Confident, guys! (and girls)
    29:20 Outro
    ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤ ⏤
    PRODUCTION INFORMATION
    Video Edits by Joan Kim @joanday
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ความคิดเห็น • 145

  • @Herashae
    @Herashae หลายเดือนก่อน +304

    Everyone say "thank you" to Joan for making Peniel ask BTOB Company to fix the Spotify thing. Thank you, Joan.

    • @juanitakirkland
      @juanitakirkland หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      thank you, Joan,

    • @jimbojimbo6873
      @jimbojimbo6873 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      How dare you act like my teacher

    • @Herashae
      @Herashae หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@jimbojimbo6873 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

    • @luuuser9803
      @luuuser9803 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      wait what spotify thing?

    • @Herashae
      @Herashae หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@luuuser9803 nothing serious, just that Peniel's digital single was not in his main Spotify profile, so when we searched Peniel, the song MIoBI and Come Home couldn't be found because it was on another name Peniel (BTOB). So Joan realized it, and asked Peniel to merge that accounts. It is now fixed.

  • @roxannemarieguerin5747
    @roxannemarieguerin5747 หลายเดือนก่อน +270

    Peniel is literally the best person to talk about confidence with hahhahaha

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +20

      So trueeee

  • @ddzgdt
    @ddzgdt หลายเดือนก่อน +111

    peniel enjoying free apple music because his sister pays for it is classic younger sibling privilege LOOL

  • @emcandi
    @emcandi หลายเดือนก่อน +117

    I need to channel more of Peniel’s calm and confident energy 😂

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +14

      Calm and confident 🐈‍⬛

  • @trifinyallen7755
    @trifinyallen7755 หลายเดือนก่อน +74

    Peniel learnt 4 new things (singing, dancing, rapping and speaking Korean) all together in a completely new place by himself.
    And 12 years later he is an ace at them all.
    That's why he is my idol.
    Mr. confident guy Peniel congratulations on your new bop songs!

    • @ChocoParfaitFra
      @ChocoParfaitFra หลายเดือนก่อน

      I don’t understand, did he audition in Korea and then went back to USA and then moved to Korea when they took him?

    • @trifinyallen7755
      @trifinyallen7755 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@ChocoParfaitFra No, they did the audition in US
      JYP does audition outside of Korea and bring them to Korea after selection. (I don't know about other agencies, I know this bc Peniel told this story before)

    • @ChocoParfaitFra
      @ChocoParfaitFra หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@trifinyallen7755 oooh so they’re based in the USA too

    • @trifinyallen7755
      @trifinyallen7755 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@ChocoParfaitFra maybe yes...
      I'm not a hundred percent sure

  • @mello_bear
    @mello_bear หลายเดือนก่อน +17

    I absolutely love Peniel. I just like how his brain works and he has such a calm energy to him and I like how honest he is.

  • @sunset_girl5400
    @sunset_girl5400 หลายเดือนก่อน +66

    Peniel having his phone in dnd mode made my heart flutter and im not even joan hahahaahahha ㅠ

  • @Juanmiscloset
    @Juanmiscloset หลายเดือนก่อน +44

    Peniel personality is so unique...I admire him a lot! Everyone need a friend like him...who makes you be aware of the reality! Thank you for videooooo

  • @olvolvn
    @olvolvn หลายเดือนก่อน +22

    Peniel has been through a lot as a kpop idol. If he didnt have that confident level, then I guess he would have given up his career back then. But, he's still here with us, as a member of btob until now. That's why I really adore his way of thinking, he's my bias in btob and I'm a proud melody💙 thank you joan for inviting him❤

  • @christina4465
    @christina4465 หลายเดือนก่อน +82

    It’s great to see Peniel on your channel again, Joan! I also think he is the right person to discuss about confidence. His new song “Make it or Break it” is a bop! This was another fun and insightful conversation. Thank you, thank you for sharing, Joan and Peniel! 😄🤩💝🩷💕🎤🎶

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +7

      Hehe thanks for watching this episode 🖤

  • @dreamlikeken30
    @dreamlikeken30 หลายเดือนก่อน +24

    I agree with Joan that Peniel is an well rounder for sure. He is slaying it like a boss.

  • @dreamlikeken30
    @dreamlikeken30 หลายเดือนก่อน +18

    Peniel's advice and wisdom got me taking mental notes 🖋🗒

  • @_asqrldrm
    @_asqrldrm หลายเดือนก่อน +23

    super agree with peniel that confidence comes from experience. and also from being prepared! back when i was in my twenties and was always anxious about every little thing, i always told myself, “the fear of failure is greater than failure itself”. putting myself in that mindset gave me the confidence to make it or break it hahaha
    and lol, just checked, spotify issue was fixed 😂 nice going btob company! 🎉

  • @stream5outsider411
    @stream5outsider411 หลายเดือนก่อน +22

    His confidence is a GOOAALLL. He honest person

  • @RusherAndLovatic
    @RusherAndLovatic หลายเดือนก่อน +16

    I remember the first time I saw Peniel in one of your vlogs back in the day because BTOB was my fave group and Peniel was my favorite member 😅 so fun to see this episode of in my 30s

  • @JonasBrotherLuver122
    @JonasBrotherLuver122 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

    Peniel always amazes me with how well he speaks and how easy going he is! An awesome episode for sure!
    Well done, Joan and Peniel!! Much love to y'all from Michigan!

  • @NurulAini-eu4rk
    @NurulAini-eu4rk หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    I always like when i watch Peniel doing podcast...i need more Peniel podcast

  • @queenpam95
    @queenpam95 หลายเดือนก่อน +23

    Been watching the episodes in preparation for my 30s next year 😂😂😂 Hi Joan!

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Woohoo!! 🖤

  • @dementedchris
    @dementedchris หลายเดือนก่อน +16

    In this house, we stan Peniel Shin.

  • @hhmn2051
    @hhmn2051 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I KNOW HE WON'T SAY I LOVE YOU back too, but I will still say I LOVE YOU PENIEL ❤💙

  • @Fantastic418
    @Fantastic418 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    "you can make it simple" so true

  • @briddy
    @briddy หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    Just wanted to say I’m loving this series 🤭

  • @sunset33533
    @sunset33533 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    I had a bad habit of saying sorry a lot...probably as a why to ensure I didn't upset people, trauma response. I liked that meditation book called 30 Days to Stop Apologizing by Harper Daniels.

  • @TPWK95
    @TPWK95 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    what i love about Peniel is that he is so real. Thankiee Joan for this 😍

  • @dianaosazenaye1313
    @dianaosazenaye1313 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

    Honestly, he is the best person for this

  • @joodi8888
    @joodi8888 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    i’ve loved every episode of this series so far tysm joan theyre really so comforting and i love you and peniel so much 🫶🏼

  • @Aye--.--
    @Aye--.-- หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    If only I had one tenth of Paniel's confidence and self-assurance, I'd be happier in life.

  • @luna6245
    @luna6245 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Yey more peniel pleaseee!!!
    Love seeing him everywhere with his btob bros. All booked and busy!
    Fighting BTOB!

  • @user-mh6zl4oq8x
    @user-mh6zl4oq8x หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    역시 프니엘의 매력은 솔직함!

  • @user-du2dw9mh7p
    @user-du2dw9mh7p หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    yayy I love this type of sit-down video, giving me big energy and confidence🩷 thanks for sharing ur thoughts!

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank youu for watching 🖤

  • @dee6140
    @dee6140 หลายเดือนก่อน +21

    me watching every single video on this topic while being 18:

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      🙈🙈🙈

    • @karladani1998
      @karladani1998 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Gotta be prepared ❤

  • @PadeeTinaKong
    @PadeeTinaKong หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    The episode I didn’t know I needed ❤😍

  • @letter131
    @letter131 หลายเดือนก่อน +25

    Guys just in case- there are English and korean subtitles! 한국멜로디들! 한국어 자막 있어요!! 조안님 간간히 프니오빠 인터뷰 이렇게 해주는거도 감사하고, 네일아트 이쁘게 해주시는거 감사해용!!!! 오빠가 너무 편하고 즐겁게 한거같아요! 2:08 오빠 뻥치지 마여 ㅋㅋㅋ 얼마전에 대만팬콘에서 라이브한거 봤어 ㅋㅋ13:34 바로 내 마음

  • @user-ti9nw4oq3k
    @user-ti9nw4oq3k หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    프니엘 진짜 솔직하다ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
    근데 그게 또 프니엘의 매력임!

  • @marccolomayt82094
    @marccolomayt82094 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    Enjoying this nice confidence content, Joan & Peniel! ❤

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน

      🫶🏻🖤

  • @Jason-oe5gu
    @Jason-oe5gu หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    I'm always rooting for you Joan❤❤

  • @KelliRacineBarnes
    @KelliRacineBarnes หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Love Peniel! Thanks for having this chat with him.

  • @btobyejiapsa31
    @btobyejiapsa31 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    우아ㅏㅏ 우리 동근 💙 같이 해줘서 감사합니다 💙💙

  • @Lawrencedimayuga
    @Lawrencedimayuga หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    Yay Peniel! Ready for another fire pod

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Hope you enjoyed watching 🖤

  • @royaphoenix
    @royaphoenix หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Such a wise words. I really enjoyed this video. Peniel is so chill and confident. So laid-back and giving good vibes to viewers ✨

  • @geebluerified6759
    @geebluerified6759 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I hope Peniel will make a Stationhead account and will host a listening party. For Spotify and Apple Music streams...

  • @AM_elody
    @AM_elody 29 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    프니💙

  • @glenn6791
    @glenn6791 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    This is really nice..a good conversation between friends about confidence and other stuff that matters. And Peniel..BTOB's best boy and cool guy is just the right one to talk about it. Lots of words of wisdom and things that are learned from experience and they all make sense. Be confident, don't overthink and stress yourself..don't complicate things..thank you for this great episode. Thank you for having Peniel.😊

  • @ppuniya321
    @ppuniya321 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    프니엘은 비투비의 자신감💙
    프니가 편해 보여서 너무너무 좋은 영상이었습니다!!

  • @amys5951
    @amys5951 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I love Peniel!! He's my ult.
    He's the complete opposite to me, I'm an over-thinker and he's an under-thinker as he said. I need to think less and he needs to think more. I love and respect his authentic self and find it inspiring especially in a society where everyone is so affected by external validation. 💙
    Thanks Joan we love you ❤️

  • @user-nw2gh1ml2v
    @user-nw2gh1ml2v หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    편해보여서 넘 좋당

  • @neharizwan9203
    @neharizwan9203 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Listening to peniel be peniel is always the best! 🤩🤩 Perfect topic too !

  • @aprilrosesevilla5259
    @aprilrosesevilla5259 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I'm happy to watch you together again😊
    More contents with Peniel next time🙏

  • @2jieun1011
    @2jieun1011 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    프니엘 목소리는 비투비의 보물이야! 유니크한 목소리는 대체할 수 없을 만큼 소중한걸💙 미오삐도 무대에서 보여줘🫶

  • @helenma1771
    @helenma1771 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Loving the series and topics Joan. Keep up the great work 🙂

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thanks for watching 🖤

  • @Lolom99
    @Lolom99 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I've been loving all the guests you bring on these episodes! Would love to see Stefanie on an episode. Miss yall on Beauty Bar 🥺💖

  • @Eyesofnika
    @Eyesofnika หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    such a chill and relaxing episode. thank you to so much 💓

  • @Kath6197
    @Kath6197 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    get real listeners whereeee

  • @todayis_Rachaa
    @todayis_Rachaa หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    What i really love about Peniel is that he isba very good listener as well

  • @hchung155
    @hchung155 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Perfect guest for this topic hahaha. Please have Christian or Soobin next!

  • @frhyh0321
    @frhyh0321 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    We need 1 hour..30min is too short 🙂‍↔️Thanks Joan for telling Peniel about his Spotify profile. Finally they fixed it 😗

  • @superlyobsessed
    @superlyobsessed หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    OMGOSH IT'S PENIEL!!!!!!!! ❤

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Woooo!

  • @lesliesaudan8890
    @lesliesaudan8890 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I like his mindsetttt

  • @rosemariereyes7322
    @rosemariereyes7322 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I aspire to have Peniel's confidence once day

  • @robenetteannleido3014
    @robenetteannleido3014 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Watching from Philippines 🇵🇭!! I love you joan esp. when you speak korean. 🫶 music to my ears. 💓 miss your vlogs.

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Hehe thanks for watching this episode 🖤

  • @that_sam_94
    @that_sam_94 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Loved this convo! I wish I had Peniel's confidence ❤❤❤

  • @nopie1112
    @nopie1112 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Agree with Joan. Keeping myself busy so won’t have time to overthink so much 😆

  • @jainerz23
    @jainerz23 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I love these series Joan! Out of curiosity where are you filming this? Your apt? Its just so clean and bare!:) Maybe you mentioned it already. Anyways love your videos. Thank you!

  • @MaroftheSea_
    @MaroftheSea_ หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Every time he says “in the beginning” during this episode, I just remember him mocking BM in that one Get Real episode saying “in da beningin” 😂
    It’s all his fault that I can’t hear or use this phrase as it is anymore.

  • @evaevaaa
    @evaevaaa หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Peniel is looking extra cute in this vlog

  • @chinz1lla
    @chinz1lla หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    yay! 2 of my favs

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน

      🫶🏻🖤

  • @ascene76
    @ascene76 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    It feels so short. But so good 👌

  • @chains1436
    @chains1436 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    omg omg peniel on the channel 🔥🔥🔥

  • @got7_crackheads-800
    @got7_crackheads-800 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I aspire to be as confident and chill as Peniel 😎 Totally agree that self love comes first and confidence is attractive

  • @MyTaylordCloset
    @MyTaylordCloset หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Yes Peniel!!!!! ❤❤❤❤

  • @monitaliu
    @monitaliu หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    Just what I exactly need it! Thank you for this session Joan & Peniel! 🫶. Entering te 30s where I lost all of my confidence and self-esteem.. now its time to get back together, starts from 0, placing the puzzles again to where it should be.. I love that u guys portrayed it very well and those replies are WORDS to live for! Yeah, I'm sure we can all develop our confidence and self-esteem! Baby steps goes a long the way..

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Ahh I’m on the same roller coaster! Hwaeeting🖤

    • @monitaliu
      @monitaliu หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@joan_kim thought u always have that high confidence since day 1 🥹 hwaeetingg too Joan 🥰💪🏻

  • @aubreydayap157
    @aubreydayap157 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Me wanting Rosie to be in here and then realizing... My girl is still in her 20's

  • @sunset_girl5400
    @sunset_girl5400 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thanks for this ❤
    Peniel, if you are reading this pls come back to the Philippines with the other members hahaha philippine melodies still have pcd until now ㅠ

  • @Kath6197
    @Kath6197 หลายเดือนก่อน

    just turned 18 & about to go to college, a bit far from being 'in my 30s', love watching this series so much!!

  • @deandrasaraswati3262
    @deandrasaraswati3262 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    SEE YOU SOOON IN JAKARTAA PENIEL 🎉🎉🎉🎉

  • @ferbs54
    @ferbs54 หลายเดือนก่อน

    There's no reason why Joan and Peniel shouldn't be bursting with confidence; they're both young, healthy, attractive and have accomplished SO much for their age. For all us other folks, I think the more you do in life, the more you travel, the more you experience, the more confident you will inevitably become. And as you get older, the caring about what others think of you decreases more and more with every decade, and that helps a LOT. Anyway, thanks for another interesting episode, Joan! And P.S. to Peniel: You should start dating Joan up now! You're never going to find a better woman out there!

  • @diyozamelody6560
    @diyozamelody6560 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Peniel is a confident guy that I know and he is 🤗🤗🤗

  • @got7_crackheads-800
    @got7_crackheads-800 หลายเดือนก่อน

    such good takeaways from this podcast!

  • @melodyborn2577
    @melodyborn2577 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    💙 miobi 🐱

  • @WorldInHazel
    @WorldInHazel หลายเดือนก่อน

    I honestly do think going to concerts alone takes a lot of things, confidence being one of them. Especially for people who are afraid of what others might say if they go out to eat alone, to the movies, to events, etc. I've heard people say they are too self-conscious for that. As a person who goes to the movies, concerts, conventions, trips and more alone, I definitely feel like people would be more open to doing things alone if they were more confident in themselves. Anyway, agree to disagree. :)
    ps: I love going to concerts alone because it's all about going to see my faves perform live. Can't afford to miss my chance to see them since groups are here today, gone the next year. :(

  • @Dearest_y
    @Dearest_y หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    자막 감사해요🤍🤍

  • @Menkila
    @Menkila หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Love the series🖤🩶

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thanks for watching 🖤

  • @rosec4429
    @rosec4429 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This ❤❤❤❤ my two fave

  • @IssaK.
    @IssaK. หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I’m curious who introduced Peniel to tbs efm. Was it Joan? Because she worked there before.

  • @Kath6197
    @Kath6197 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    peniellllll

  • @aeri_.
    @aeri_. หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hey Joan! I would like to suggest having Soobeanie on the series sometime 🤷🏻‍♀️

  • @meredhitcarbajal8827
    @meredhitcarbajal8827 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Fan de su relación 👍
    ✨️

  • @Kath6197
    @Kath6197 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    are we getting christian yu at some point?

  • @ryu-x7ctsuki
    @ryu-x7ctsuki หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    actually Peniel's right. every time i listen to your podcast I don't know if i should put the volume down or not. it was better to talk from a distance !

    • @RM-gp6yo
      @RM-gp6yo หลายเดือนก่อน

      yes, the audio hurts my ears. I also keep adjusting the volume.

  • @mae_1004
    @mae_1004 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Am I the only one experiencing low quality in the videos it can only go up to 720p it’s soo grainy been experiencing this for the last three uploads. Is it suppose to be like this?

  • @ysabel1989
    @ysabel1989 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    💙💙💙

  • @kamuigrey4597
    @kamuigrey4597 หลายเดือนก่อน

    All the sudden I want to know who's his vocal coach

  • @hanahime5734
    @hanahime5734 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    💙

  • @Kath6197
    @Kath6197 หลายเดือนก่อน

    3:40 lolllllll 太好笑了谁懂啊MIoBI

  • @fdoctor79
    @fdoctor79 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Are you in a studio?! It's so empty?! It's all auto tune. 😅 That's our boy, Peniel. 😅 Tfs

    • @aeri_.
      @aeri_. หลายเดือนก่อน

      that’s not what auto tune means….

  • @ChocoParfaitFra
    @ChocoParfaitFra หลายเดือนก่อน

    Well yeah he’s confident now but what about his hair loss. He said it was because he felt too much pressure and wasn’t sure he was helping his members
    So I think at when he debuted he wasn’t confident, but that probably changed with time

  • @jblvxk
    @jblvxk หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    are yall dating yet?

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      NO lol

    • @jblvxk
      @jblvxk หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@joan_kim hard launch pls haha

  • @QardhawiGhifari
    @QardhawiGhifari หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Firstt🥳

    • @joan_kim
      @joan_kim  หลายเดือนก่อน

      Hiiii🖤

  • @choongaikiro1812
    @choongaikiro1812 หลายเดือนก่อน

    💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪

  • @moirangthemmenakadevi9880
    @moirangthemmenakadevi9880 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    It's crazyyy cause just yesterday i was watching get real latest episode, and i suddenly thought, oh an episode with joan will be nice after so long, and i get this today, woah it's 1:34 am and i'm listening it rn🫡