Someone just took one of my favorite bands and put it over an amv of one of my favorite shows I think my doppelgänger is living my ideal life somewhere rn and it’s you that made this aha soul sisters 😭
I already feel like I can relate to the protagonist's struggles. Being born with Autism, even though I am high functioning, I was often ostracized, pigeonholed from the rest of my age group by peers and adults alike merely due to my diagnosis. I was expected to work harder and behave more strictly than the others simply because of my label, while the rest of them got off scot-free. Many of my social skills camps and special education classes were disorderly and dysfunctional, as many of the teachers there were unqualified, unskilled, and neglectful, as they expected us Autists (and other Neurodivergents) to figure things out on our own though we were still kids, rather than taking responsibility themselves for our development. I was conditioned to be self-conscious of my mental disorder, and overly caring about what others think of me in the name of self-improvement. I was taught that if I was disliked or mistreated, that I was doing something socially unacceptable. In a manner of speaking, I was set up to fail in my youth. In 10th grade, I was bullied for my Autism relentlessly. They called me a retard day in and day out. They used my Autism as a scapegoat to blame me for their problems, as an excuse for them to to target me, saying that it was my Autism that started it, and gaslighted me that my Autism was making me hallucinate their abuse. Whenever I went to the adults for help, the bullies would usually say, "He doesn't know what he's talking about, he's a retard." Whenever I did something kind, they'd punish me for it. Whenever I did something self-destructive, they'd commend me for it. Whenever I did something acceptable, they'd try to persuade me that it was socially unacceptable and so forth. Up was down, black was white, good was bad, day was night. I was questioning my sanity, my moral compass, my judgement, my mentality, and my memory. Even when they sexually assaulted me in the showers, the adults took no measure to bring them to justice. In fact, the adults did NOTHING, no matter how much I begged and cried to them for help. Rather than taking responsibility and addressing the situation head on, they'd only ask me what I could do to improve the situation without their help. In my case, it was nothing; I could only avoid them. But since I was at a boarding school in the middle of the woods, I had nowhere else to go. These kids were unhinged, if anything the adults were afraid of them. One of them threatened to kill me and another nearly broke my door down to steal my guitar. They even took advantage of the adults own mental illness, like when the art teacher was back from maternity leave, they use her mood swings to get her to side with them and blame me for their own problems. But the worst thing they did, but blackmail my only friend there to betray me, just like Kaworu. I was very suicidal that year, and wished I was never born. To this day, I still suffer PTSD from being psychologically abused by my peers and staff alike. Even as an adult, I was still mistreated by fellow adults. I can't help but feel paranoid that some people are out to get me, as I've been stalked, doxed, and threatened to be hunted down and killed by people online who wished me grievous harm since Lockdown. I want to watch this anime, but I am afraid of being triggered and spiraling into a relapse. Can anyone help?
Thank you for sharing your experiences, it sounds like you've been through a lot. I feel terrible that your peers and teachers bullied you so extremely and traumatically. I hope you have the support you need to recover. If there's a risk of being re-traumatized by this show, I wouldn't take the chance. There's mention of several heavy topics including suicide, depression, social anxiety, bullying, childhood trauma, and paranoia. While these topics are mostly explored with comedy, the overall feeling of the show is quite depressing and this might affect your experience. However, I find the characters relatable and I've seen myself reflected in all of them at some point, and in that sense it was worth watching. That's just me though,
@@takarayt And that’s what doesn’t make sense. So many people including yourself claim to find comfort in shows like these because you relate to them. In my instance I suffer (or have suffered) from childhood trauma, depression, social anxiety, bullying, suicide, and paranoia. I qualify for each and every one of these traits which makes it all the easier for me to relate to them. But in my case, shows like these tend to give me PTSD attacks. And I’m at a loss for words of how that can be so, how the same methods which make others feel better make me feel worse about myself instead.
I think it's just a difference in how we process difficult emotions. I happen find comfort in consuming art which reminds me that other people have felt the same way I have. Maybe it's because my issues are comparitively less severe, or that I use the communities surrounding these shows to meet likeminded people. It's not binary though, if a show were created which depicts exactly my personal issues then I would be hurt if I watched it. There's a sweet spot somewhere where I can relate to the characters but not so much that it hurts. It's totally valid if your mind is configured such that you don't feel any comfort in shows which depict your issues, in fact I'd say it's quite common.
@@takarayt Funny you should say that, because that's exactly what happened to me, I could relate to them so much, it hurt, and didn't do me any good. Furthermore, whenever I tried to find likeminded people in the anime community, some of the fandoms would usually just downplay my depression and cyberbully me for my PTSD, saying that they HAVE NOT felt the same way, that I am the only one in existence who would be traumatized by an anime, which made me feel all the more insecure, questioning if I was clinically insane. For instance, I wish to watch anime that promotes mental health awareness, like Fruits Basket, Serial Experiments Lain, March Comes in Like a Lion, and A Silent Voice. But I'm afraid, afraid that there are NOT other people who have felt the same way, because of how some people in the anime community cyberbullied me for my trauma. I'm afraid of the people I'll interact with if I try to seek likeminded people, out of fear they'll gang up on me and single me out for my mental illness. I just don't want to be afraid anymore.
That's really terrible that people online tried to downplay your experiences like that. I know several people who also prefer not to expose themselves to this type of media due to the fear of re-traumatization or just that they don't like to be reminded of the difficulties in their lives. I believe there are good people in these communities but I imagine that your trauma interferes with finding them. That's to be expected given how severe it is, I just hope you maintain faith that it's worth connecting with people at all. Hang in there, you seem like you're one of the good guys.
Also read the description, very nice translation of your thoughts of the song to your editing and clip selection. You’re excellent at portraying anxiety and loneliness in a way that’s fun to watch
perfectly encapsulates the whole series. i loved hearing your thoughts in the description, gives more layers to the video for me to appreciate. i loved your choice to use the live action bit at the end which felt connected to you, it adds even more personality to the video.
I hate everyone and everything, the NHK is real and my misaki is never coming. Of course I cannot afford to just give up and go full hikikomori, so I'll keep living as a living reminder of how I've failed myself and everyone around me, I'm so angry all the time and I isolate myself from others as I prefer to be alone because I honestly can't even fathom how would anyone like me to be their friend or whatever. In the end I'm just gonna be another nobody with a shitty career, shitty job and boring life. I hate myself and all of you.
Watching this is therapy
I'm glad it helps
Why is this still not popular
Welcome to the NHK is nowhere near as popular as it was back in the late 2000s/early 2010s
This one really captures the heart of the show
The song fits perfectly
Someone just took one of my favorite bands and put it over an amv of one of my favorite shows I think my doppelgänger is living my ideal life somewhere rn and it’s you that made this aha soul sisters 😭
Glad to meet a fellow person with good taste!
AMV goes so hard it became a sanctuary
I already feel like I can relate to the protagonist's struggles.
Being born with Autism, even though I am high functioning, I was often ostracized, pigeonholed from the rest of my age group by peers and adults alike merely due to my diagnosis. I was expected to work harder and behave more strictly than the others simply because of my label, while the rest of them got off scot-free.
Many of my social skills camps and special education classes were disorderly and dysfunctional, as many of the teachers there were unqualified, unskilled, and neglectful, as they expected us Autists (and other Neurodivergents) to figure things out on our own though we were still kids, rather than taking responsibility themselves for our development. I was conditioned to be self-conscious of my mental disorder, and overly caring about what others think of me in the name of self-improvement. I was taught that if I was disliked or mistreated, that I was doing something socially unacceptable. In a manner of speaking, I was set up to fail in my youth.
In 10th grade, I was bullied for my Autism relentlessly. They called me a retard day in and day out. They used my Autism as a scapegoat to blame me for their problems, as an excuse for them to to target me, saying that it was my Autism that started it, and gaslighted me that my Autism was making me hallucinate their abuse. Whenever I went to the adults for help, the bullies would usually say, "He doesn't know what he's talking about, he's a retard."
Whenever I did something kind, they'd punish me for it. Whenever I did something self-destructive, they'd commend me for it. Whenever I did something acceptable, they'd try to persuade me that it was socially unacceptable and so forth. Up was down, black was white, good was bad, day was night. I was questioning my sanity, my moral compass, my judgement, my mentality, and my memory.
Even when they sexually assaulted me in the showers, the adults took no measure to bring them to justice. In fact, the adults did NOTHING, no matter how much I begged and cried to them for help. Rather than taking responsibility and addressing the situation head on, they'd only ask me what I could do to improve the situation without their help. In my case, it was nothing; I could only avoid them. But since I was at a boarding school in the middle of the woods, I had nowhere else to go.
These kids were unhinged, if anything the adults were afraid of them. One of them threatened to kill me and another nearly broke my door down to steal my guitar. They even took advantage of the adults own mental illness, like when the art teacher was back from maternity leave, they use her mood swings to get her to side with them and blame me for their own problems.
But the worst thing they did, but blackmail my only friend there to betray me, just like Kaworu.
I was very suicidal that year, and wished I was never born.
To this day, I still suffer PTSD from being psychologically abused by my peers and staff alike. Even as an adult, I was still mistreated by fellow adults. I can't help but feel paranoid that some people are out to get me, as I've been stalked, doxed, and threatened to be hunted down and killed by people online who wished me grievous harm since Lockdown.
I want to watch this anime, but I am afraid of being triggered and spiraling into a relapse. Can anyone help?
Thank you for sharing your experiences, it sounds like you've been through a lot. I feel terrible that your peers and teachers bullied you so extremely and traumatically. I hope you have the support you need to recover.
If there's a risk of being re-traumatized by this show, I wouldn't take the chance. There's mention of several heavy topics including suicide, depression, social anxiety, bullying, childhood trauma, and paranoia. While these topics are mostly explored with comedy, the overall feeling of the show is quite depressing and this might affect your experience. However, I find the characters relatable and I've seen myself reflected in all of them at some point, and in that sense it was worth watching. That's just me though,
@@takarayt And that’s what doesn’t make sense. So many people including yourself claim to find comfort in shows like these because you relate to them. In my instance I suffer (or have suffered) from childhood trauma, depression, social anxiety, bullying, suicide, and paranoia. I qualify for each and every one of these traits which makes it all the easier for me to relate to them. But in my case, shows like these tend to give me PTSD attacks. And I’m at a loss for words of how that can be so, how the same methods which make others feel better make me feel worse about myself instead.
I think it's just a difference in how we process difficult emotions. I happen find comfort in consuming art which reminds me that other people have felt the same way I have. Maybe it's because my issues are comparitively less severe, or that I use the communities surrounding these shows to meet likeminded people. It's not binary though, if a show were created which depicts exactly my personal issues then I would be hurt if I watched it. There's a sweet spot somewhere where I can relate to the characters but not so much that it hurts. It's totally valid if your mind is configured such that you don't feel any comfort in shows which depict your issues, in fact I'd say it's quite common.
@@takarayt Funny you should say that, because that's exactly what happened to me, I could relate to them so much, it hurt, and didn't do me any good. Furthermore, whenever I tried to find likeminded people in the anime community, some of the fandoms would usually just downplay my depression and cyberbully me for my PTSD, saying that they HAVE NOT felt the same way, that I am the only one in existence who would be traumatized by an anime, which made me feel all the more insecure, questioning if I was clinically insane.
For instance, I wish to watch anime that promotes mental health awareness, like Fruits Basket, Serial Experiments Lain, March Comes in Like a Lion, and A Silent Voice. But I'm afraid, afraid that there are NOT other people who have felt the same way, because of how some people in the anime community cyberbullied me for my trauma. I'm afraid of the people I'll interact with if I try to seek likeminded people, out of fear they'll gang up on me and single me out for my mental illness.
I just don't want to be afraid anymore.
That's really terrible that people online tried to downplay your experiences like that. I know several people who also prefer not to expose themselves to this type of media due to the fear of re-traumatization or just that they don't like to be reminded of the difficulties in their lives.
I believe there are good people in these communities but I imagine that your trauma interferes with finding them. That's to be expected given how severe it is, I just hope you maintain faith that it's worth connecting with people at all. Hang in there, you seem like you're one of the good guys.
I watch this edit every day. I love it
Perfect AMV bro. I always thought that this song went well with anime, I'm happy to have found this edit, congratulations and greetings from Brazil. 💀
Thanks, glad I could pair this song with NHK for you
Most AMVs are not my taste, especially the over edited ones that have millions of views.
This one is absolute gold to me.
Not gonna lie, I can see “The New Abnormal” album fitting the anime’s tone lmao. This AMV should be more well-known
Thanks!
Been watching this once per day for about a month now. Thank you
Thank you for the lovely comment!
One of the best NHK edits out there
100th time watching, still hits like the first time
Really nice to experience NHK again without rewatching the whole show. Great work as always, you’re an under appreciated artist ✨
Also read the description, very nice translation of your thoughts of the song to your editing and clip selection. You’re excellent at portraying anxiety and loneliness in a way that’s fun to watch
Thanks Carti! I wanted to make sure I wasn't being overly indulgent in the depressive aspects of this show, so I'm glad you found it fun to watch
This amv made me feel things.... it's really hard to say in words. Great job with amv btw.
Glad you enjoyed
OMG what a work of art
perfectly encapsulates the whole series. i loved hearing your thoughts in the description, gives more layers to the video for me to appreciate. i loved your choice to use the live action bit at the end which felt connected to you, it adds even more personality to the video.
Great video. I can't stop watching it.
Glad you enjoy it!
Peak edit
Welcome to the NHK:The veil is dismantled:It does not disappear
This is so good
Queda perfecto!!!!
jus watched this show and i love ur edit
very fitting song love ur amvs
Thank you, appreciate it!
Very good
Thank you!
awsome man
Endless adolescence.
I love this song, and I love Sato. This is really nice
great amv
i love it, ty
satou is a real one
I hate everyone and everything, the NHK is real and my misaki is never coming.
Of course I cannot afford to just give up and go full hikikomori, so I'll keep living as a living reminder of how I've failed myself and everyone around me, I'm so angry all the time and I isolate myself from others as I prefer to be alone because I honestly can't even fathom how would anyone like me to be their friend or whatever.
In the end I'm just gonna be another nobody with a shitty career, shitty job and boring life.
I hate myself and all of you.
so real
Simplesmente o melhor anime.
AMV 10/10
i feel
love it
спасибо
i don't want to be that guy, man. Suffering is necessary in order to improve.
Not really
peak video
he is so me
fun fact.... welcome to the nhk places exist irl specially satou house
That's cool...
Can someone please tell me where is the last scene is from?
In the description
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