This song is special to me, and I'm sure to many others that understand the grief that comes with cancer. I lost my brother August 3rd at 6pm on the dot to leukemia. He was only 20 he lived with it for 3 years, he found out the day he collapsed in the hallway fresh off a nights sleep his legs stopped working he was fucking scared. 3 years after alot of up and downs we watched him pass in the hospital losing breath and having seizures we were there for 10 hours praying and hoping. I will never forget the whole experience from start to finish the toil and trouble the complexity of every detail to keep a cancer victim safe from the outside world during recovery. As a brother I watched from the side being ready at a moments notice to help but it ruined my parents life and it put their whole live's to a full stop whilst the watched his health decline relying on false promises that experimental treatment could cure him. Rest in peace luke Thank you for this song it brought me emotions I thought I didnt have iv been cold for so damn long.
Coming from someone who recently lost a child it's a pain no one could ever describe but this song helps keep me from doing anything stupid because I would literally do anything to hold her one more time
This song is amazing. I've listened to this song hundreds of times and it never fails to make chills run down my spine and my eyes tear up. La Dispute is my favourite band.
This song made me cry, it reminded me of my little 11 year old cousin who is currently battling cancer. Everyone in the family is praying to god (although I personally am not a believer) and she just keeps smiling and making joy out of everything in life even though all the rough chemo treatments that make her sick and spending her time in a hospital miles away from her family and friends.
This is a story about a religious woman loosing her child to cancer, whether you believe in a god or subscribe to idea of an religion, or not, is completely irrelevant.
Innalillah to my first daughter died from liver failure. She was 12 days old. We had her 2days at home after birth then when hospital is our home for the rest of her life.
It warms my heart to see so many people who are either struggling with cancer or know someone who is being able to completely relate to this song. I've been listening to it for months know and only today did my entire soul get numb from a realization. My grandmother passed away from lung cancer (she didn't even smoke) this year. As I was listening to the song, I listened carefully to when he screamed "January 19" and realized my grandmother passed away on January 19th as well. God, I miss her so much. Let's just say the floodgate of repressed feels has been forced open. Thank you La Dispute, thank you for making such powerful music.
I've heard this song 100 times but everytime the music kicks back in loud after "January 19" it's like a wave of emotion. This band is incredible at invoking emotions just with the sound of the music and the timing of the lyrics. I love when the music is calm and his demeanor is calm like he's thinking clearly, but when the music is loud and chaotic you can hear the anger, sadness, and confusion in his voice.
I never experienced a love one die of cancer but the way the he sings the lyrics are so beautiful and you can hear the emotion. The whole album is a masterpiece in my eyes. Another good song like this is La dispute king park
A few days before my birthday in October They found out my cousin had leukemia and then a few days after my birthday they found out my brother had a cancerous tumor they removed it thankfully he didn’t need chemo or radiology but he still needs check-up every month or so my mum is always on edge always... she goes to church every weekend to pray for all of us for him to stay okay. I don’t really believe in god like that but I respect her so much for being so dedicated and strong through this. This week they did a cat scan for him and they called him back to do another scan cause they found something that was unclear. My mum is with him right now at the doctors she has been crying and not sleeping. I believe her faith is strong enough to protect him. This song has a lot of meaning to me now and I can’t help but cry now when I hear it.
chills everywhere probably because it resonates deep within me. A year ago I lost my uncle to rare 4th stage cancer, he was only 52. If only we could have known. I'll miss you forever.
my dad's 52 with stage 4 lung cancer right now. it's not something that's going to get better but he's still mobile now and hopefully has at least a few more years.
This song always puts me close to tears, yet it means so much to me. The child that he talking about is/was older then me when i went through that. I find this song so beautiful and it makes me thankful to say that i'm a survivor.
I love the way that he writes his lyrics. All of his songs tell a story to follow yet are poetic. All the songs have a chaotic structure kind that reminds me of the time signatures of bands like the Blood Brothers. Wow La Dispute, keep up the gold.
My mother lost her first born, my oldest brother, to leukemia after fighting for 12 years and fighting since he was 14. I showed this song to her, and being a sister it’s hard but I can never imagine what she went through
This song tears me apart every time I hear it.. It's a little different in my situation, since it's my mom who is dying of brain cancer, but I relate so much and I feel like im choking whenever I listen to it but I cant stop
I relate to this song because my little brother's best friend was diagnosed with stage 3 bone cancer last year and missed his whole 5th grade year. He finally chased it into remission three weeks ago, though. He's a touch kid, I'll tell you that.
my bestfriend named andrew died last summer, and this is the first time i could handle listening to this song without breaking down since then. i love and miss you andrew. youve slept in too long, please wakeup already?
this song makes me want to cry. i don't hold any faith in a god. but this song touches my heart. it brings forth emotions that i havent felt in a long time. it is an amazing and great song. im surprised that la dispute is not more famous than what they are :/ not many bands can make a song that literally moves their fans. this is what music is. it spurs emotions. i am even in a band and all that and i hope to accomplish what they have in the act of creating a true piece of artwork. thank you
I heard this song a while ago, made me cry. Now I'm watching my grandfather waste away much like the child in the song. Feels I don't like feeling. Epic music
first time listening to la dispute today so don't know the other song you refer to but my interpretation was andrew was the son of the vocalists old teacher.......stunning song
the story in this scares me, it wakes me up to reality with my mom having cancer, cause usually im in denial, so i know exactly how the process goes...my mom has been fighting since i was 8 years old but i know she's getting weaker. So when he said January 19, i got chills all the way down my arms...i dunno how'll it'll be when she goes too...especially when the thought of God brings me no comfort anymore...
This hits. I lost my fiance this August, 23 2:17pm, and it's still hard especially this being the first Christmas without her, having to have had to explain it to her two children, which I took custody of. Having, and also getting to do all the things with them, and and things we wanted to do, but her not getting to. I'm hurt and angry for myself, but I'm more angry for her. We battles it two years already, just for it to come back and worse and to take her at 26 10 days after her birthday. She was a better part of me and the unfairness to her is just so upsetting. I'd like to say it's getting better over time but it's not it's just a pain that you grow accustomed to. Songs like this even though they sometimes, most the time, brake me and make me cry, do help and help to be an external outlet or expression, of how I feel when I can't explain it myself.
rip erin griffin, a 13 year old girl from south australia who died of brain cancer a week ago. one of my good friends best friend. fight on nanna who is about to start chemo for stage 2 breast cancer.
I think that song is All Our Bruised Bodies and the Whole Heart Shrinks, and that line on the song was referring to the boy here. The people and stories mentioned on that song are actually referring to characters in the different tracks in the album. Edward Benz, 27 times, I See Everything etc.
I listened to this first when I was anti religion/anti god, I don’t recall behind triggered by the use of God here, but I have sense found the cosmic loving energy that others have, and listening to this song again has new meaning, still sad, but in a way that is hopeful 🙏 Generation, organization, destruction, and so on.
right when he said January 19 and the music stopped i got goosebumps because i knew what was comming next :/ sad song. i lost my mom to cancer on february 18th of this year to cancer, very sad to see people go through that.
Edit: i have two boys now, 2yo and newborn, this song breaks my heart even more, made me cry and fear even more, my children are my life, hurts hearing this song but its beautiful at the same time
It's the singer telling a story about a teacher reading a timeline about her seven year son Andrew fighting cancer & she wrote how strong he was through out the treatment & the teacher never says it's her son you just figure it out & the singer says how he couldn't imagine the pain she felt but at 3:11 I'm thinking its the teacher speaking.:)
This reminds me of Johnny's death in the outsiders. He didn't have cancer, but the feeling that Poneyboy had for his death and Johnny's view is described perfectly in this song.
+Savannah Glenn i'm reading this book for school and i actually really like it, and i wasn't expecting at all that someone in the comments on a random music video on youtube would spoil me
This song made me tear a bit.. well my eyes got watery.. i have a fairly cold heart in a not cold way but i didnt almost cry because of the sadness of cancer nor for the death of this Andrew but this song means something to me but im not quite sure...
la dispute isn't healthy for me when i listen to it heaps i go all quiet for days on end, not many people can do this to me let alone music..for a time i would block out all emotions because everything was going bad but i owe who i am today to music, la dispute
here's a story: i was born on january 19th, premature and on the brink of death. when i was in the NICU, they put me between two baby boys. my mom always tells me that she's so happy that i made it - because both of those boys died. the transition from january 19th to we buried our son today, hits me SO HARD. I really do feel like i take my life for granted (especially considering the reason I came to listen to this is because i'm pretty depressed right now) and to think about what those parents had to go through... i feel so selfish.
bry marie please don't feel selfish, because taking what we have granted is completely natural. This is how our brain is made to get used to what we have. I don't know the name of this phenomenon, but it exists so we do not have to register everything again and again. You realizing how special your life is what counts, because you realized how special this is. Just cherish it. Don't feel bad for not doing it up til now. I don't want to sound preachy... I just want to ease this "guilt" a lot of us has and try to show how we can be a bit more loving towards any situation. Thanks for reading, hope you have a good day.
well actually in the ending it says he's devoit of faith it's the mother in the diary that has faith in god, but hey it dosen't really matter it's not a big deal
the way jordan says "we buried our son today" ALWAYS triggers an onslaught of tears from me
It always happens during Christmas and New Year.
It's not the same afterwards
+Emily Terry It gave me chills
Immediate tears well up
This song is special to me, and I'm sure to many others that understand the grief that comes with cancer.
I lost my brother August 3rd at 6pm on the dot to leukemia.
He was only 20 he lived with it for 3 years, he found out the day he collapsed in the hallway fresh off a nights sleep his legs stopped working he was fucking scared.
3 years after alot of up and downs we watched him pass in the hospital losing breath and having seizures we were there for 10 hours praying and hoping.
I will never forget the whole experience from start to finish the toil and trouble the complexity of every detail to keep a cancer victim safe from the outside world during recovery.
As a brother I watched from the side being ready at a moments notice to help but it ruined my parents life and it put their whole live's to a full stop whilst the watched his health decline relying on false promises that experimental treatment could cure him.
Rest in peace luke
Thank you for this song it brought me emotions I thought I didnt have iv been cold for so damn long.
Coming from someone who recently lost a child it's a pain no one could ever describe but this song helps keep me from doing anything stupid because I would literally do anything to hold her one more time
Stay up. Almost happened to me. My best bro lost his lil girl
Damn, first time hearing this. I went through chemo and radiation in 07 to 08 at 17, don't often think about what others went through with me.
every time my mom looks at me and says "I'm so lucky your healthy" it never meant much till I heard this song.
Hey,
I hear that. My daughter kicked cancers fucking ass. I always remind her how strong she is.
@@donalddlugos6688 that's something to be proud of. hope you guys are doing well
Please don't tell me I'm the only one crying my freaking heart out at this song after reading the lyrics whilst listening.
You aren't/:
Don't see much because of the tears.
That January 19th gets me every time
wooooow. we're all crying
Every time. At work listening now and tearing up
This song is amazing. I've listened to this song hundreds of times and it never fails to make chills run down my spine and my eyes tear up. La Dispute is my favourite band.
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This song made me cry, it reminded me of my little 11 year old cousin who is currently battling cancer. Everyone in the family is praying to god (although I personally am not a believer) and she just keeps smiling and making joy out of everything in life even though all the rough chemo treatments that make her sick and spending her time in a hospital miles away from her family and friends.
This reminds me of when my 3 year old brother had lymphoma cancer for 6 months and had to go through some horrible treatments.
I've never not cried to this song. Sometimes I come here to feel something.
You can’t say this isn’t the most touching song you’ve ever heard..
I get the biggest shivers listening to this song. Well, really any of their songs because Jordan sings them with such passion. I love La Dispute.
This is a story about a religious woman loosing her child to cancer, whether you believe in a god or subscribe to idea of an religion, or not, is completely irrelevant.
Innalillah to my first daughter died from liver failure. She was 12 days old. We had her 2days at home after birth then when hospital is our home for the rest of her life.
It warms my heart to see so many people who are either struggling with cancer or know someone who is being able to completely relate to this song. I've been listening to it for months know and only today did my entire soul get numb from a realization. My grandmother passed away from lung cancer (she didn't even smoke) this year. As I was listening to the song, I listened carefully to when he screamed "January 19" and realized my grandmother passed away on January 19th as well. God, I miss her so much.
Let's just say the floodgate of repressed feels has been forced open. Thank you La Dispute, thank you for making such powerful music.
I've heard this song 100 times but everytime the music kicks back in loud after "January 19" it's like a wave of emotion. This band is incredible at invoking emotions just with the sound of the music and the timing of the lyrics. I love when the music is calm and his demeanor is calm like he's thinking clearly, but when the music is loud and chaotic you can hear the anger, sadness, and confusion in his voice.
I never experienced a love one die of cancer but the way the he sings the lyrics are so beautiful and you can hear the emotion. The whole album is a masterpiece in my eyes. Another good song like this is La dispute king park
Still here. My daughter had cancer. It was such a rough time. Lucky shes ok as of now. Keep the faith. God can be real if u believe.
A few days before my birthday in October
They found out my cousin had leukemia and then a few days after my birthday they found out my brother had a cancerous tumor they removed it thankfully he didn’t need chemo or radiology but he still needs check-up every month or so my mum is always on edge always... she goes to church every weekend to pray for all of us for him to stay okay. I don’t really believe in god like that but I respect her so much for being so dedicated and strong through this. This week they did a cat scan for him and they called him back to do another scan cause they found something that was unclear. My mum is with him right now at the doctors she has been crying and not sleeping. I believe her faith is strong enough to protect him. This song has a lot of meaning to me now and I can’t help but cry now when I hear it.
after all these years this song's still giving me goosebumps. i'm not really - what you could call an empathetic man - but this gives me a dry throat
La dispute always make amazing music. Like listening to the lyrics is just emotional. It's like he's basically screaming poetry
chills everywhere probably because it resonates deep within me. A year ago I lost my uncle to rare 4th stage cancer, he was only 52. If only we could have known. I'll miss you forever.
my dad's 52 with stage 4 lung cancer right now. it's not something that's going to get better but he's still mobile now and hopefully has at least a few more years.
I was diagnosed with brain cancer when I was 7. I had a tumor in my pitituary. I was in remission up until now. So this is hitting me hard.
+Ivy-Ariana Curl I wish you well!
RIP
how are you?
@@ReductioadVeritas He's not dead bro
@@ReductioadVeritas 🤭
This song always puts me close to tears, yet it means so much to me. The child that he talking about is/was older then me when i went through that. I find this song so beautiful and it makes me thankful to say that i'm a survivor.
Turtle Chicky You're a survival of what type of cancer? Sorry, super late comment.
Holy shit, I'm crying. This album just leaves me raw.
Though i felt nowhere what he did, my eyes are closed....
I love the way that he writes his lyrics. All of his songs tell a story to follow yet are poetic. All the songs have a chaotic structure kind that reminds me of the time signatures of bands like the Blood Brothers. Wow La Dispute, keep up the gold.
Dude... the blood brothers fucking rock. Their lyrics are crazy as hell too
My mother lost her first born, my oldest brother, to leukemia after fighting for 12 years and fighting since he was 14. I showed this song to her, and being a sister it’s hard but I can never imagine what she went through
This song tears me apart every time I hear it.. It's a little different in my situation, since it's my mom who is dying of brain cancer, but I relate so much and I feel like im choking whenever I listen to it but I cant stop
Life is so cruel.
Respect. I'm in exaclt the same situation except for my mama it's lung cancer.
ive been in the situation too, i cant stop listening to this either, it hurts to hear this but i cant stop listening
I relate to this song because my little brother's best friend was diagnosed with stage 3 bone cancer last year and missed his whole 5th grade year. He finally chased it into remission three weeks ago, though. He's a touch kid, I'll tell you that.
i feel u girl, whats your number?
my bestfriend named andrew died last summer, and this is the first time i could handle listening to this song without breaking down since then. i love and miss you andrew. youve slept in too long, please wakeup already?
this song makes me want to cry. i don't hold any faith in a god. but this song touches my heart. it brings forth emotions that i havent felt in a long time. it is an amazing and great song. im surprised that la dispute is not more famous than what they are :/ not many bands can make a song that literally moves their fans. this is what music is. it spurs emotions. i am even in a band and all that and i hope to accomplish what they have in the act of creating a true piece of artwork. thank you
I don't think anything but this has a guarantee to make me cry.
One of my friends is currently dying from cancer in the hospital, and this song definitely hits home.
"She lost her kid, only seven, to cancer.
She answered with faith in her god and carried on"
Danu Miron I love the way All Our Brusied... have references to I see everything and 27 Times
I think of this song a lot, thanks for the upload
2022
I heard this song a while ago, made me cry. Now I'm watching my grandfather waste away much like the child in the song.
Feels I don't like feeling.
Epic music
first time listening to la dispute today so don't know the other song you refer to but my interpretation was andrew was the son of the vocalists old teacher.......stunning song
the story in this scares me, it wakes me up to reality with my mom having cancer, cause usually im in denial, so i know exactly how the process goes...my mom has been fighting since i was 8 years old but i know she's getting weaker. So when he said January 19, i got chills all the way down my arms...i dunno how'll it'll be when she goes too...especially when the thought of God brings me no comfort anymore...
This hits. I lost my fiance this August, 23 2:17pm, and it's still hard especially this being the first Christmas without her, having to have had to explain it to her two children, which I took custody of. Having, and also getting to do all the things with them, and and things we wanted to do, but her not getting to. I'm hurt and angry for myself, but I'm more angry for her. We battles it two years already, just for it to come back and worse and to take her at 26 10 days after her birthday. She was a better part of me and the unfairness to her is just so upsetting. I'd like to say it's getting better over time but it's not it's just a pain that you grow accustomed to. Songs like this even though they sometimes, most the time, brake me and make me cry, do help and help to be an external outlet or expression, of how I feel when I can't explain it myself.
feeling so down every time I listen to the whole album! amazing, I've never felt that way after listening to any record before!
Seeing these guys live - the "JANUARY 19" was harder than the entirety of King Park. Not a dry eye in the crowd. Holy shit can this dude write.
rip erin griffin, a 13 year old girl from south australia who died of brain cancer a week ago. one of my good friends best friend.
fight on nanna who is about to start chemo for stage 2 breast cancer.
I know this was years ago but I'm all emotional after listening to this song again, I hope everything went well and nana is hanging on.
+Aaron Saunders nanna is all good! :)
I think that song is All Our Bruised Bodies and the Whole Heart Shrinks, and that line on the song was referring to the boy here. The people and stories mentioned on that song are actually referring to characters in the different tracks in the album. Edward Benz, 27 times, I See Everything etc.
Fantastic, thank you for posting. This, and King Park cut me up.
I don't get teary eyed when watching this on youtube, but if you listen to it while trying to fall asleep or driving, riding on a bus,etc you will.
Only song that consistently makes me cry
Every La Dispute song is so vividly beautiful
I listened to this first when I was anti religion/anti god, I don’t recall behind triggered by the use of God here, but I have sense found the cosmic loving energy that others have, and listening to this song again has new meaning, still sad, but in a way that is hopeful 🙏 Generation, organization, destruction, and so on.
1:58 chills everytime
right when he said January 19 and the music stopped i got goosebumps because i knew what was comming next :/ sad song. i lost my mom to cancer on february 18th of this year to cancer, very sad to see people go through that.
Usually not my style of music but I get chills from this too, strange.
Amazing song. Absolutely flawless in every way. "I See Everything."
that feeling, that makes you wanna cry. it's God tugging at you to believe.
This song is so heartbreaking, I just... ugh.... I'm just gonna go cry now....
One of the only bands that can give me chills
Beautifully deep
Can't listen to this song without crying
This kind of lyrics feels like it's own kind of depression incarnated. I felt something like this while listening to The Katering by the Antlers.
I don't have a kid yet, but imagining anything like this happening to my child breaks my heart
Edit: i have two boys now, 2yo and newborn, this song breaks my heart even more, made me cry and fear even more, my children are my life, hurts hearing this song but its beautiful at the same time
This. This is Beauty.
It's the singer telling a story about a teacher reading a timeline about her seven year son Andrew fighting cancer & she wrote how strong he was through out the treatment & the teacher never says it's her son you just figure it out & the singer says how he couldn't imagine the pain she felt but at 3:11 I'm thinking its the teacher speaking.:)
This is my favourite song ever oh dear god someone stop my tears.
Oh lord .... Such a tremendous song
This reminds me of Johnny's death in the outsiders. He didn't have cancer, but the feeling that Poneyboy had for his death and Johnny's view is described perfectly in this song.
+Savannah Glenn i'm reading this book for school and i actually really like it, and i wasn't expecting at all that someone in the comments on a random music video on youtube would spoil me
+TzT BadStudentQc I am sorry.
This song made me tear a bit.. well my eyes got watery.. i have a fairly cold heart in a not cold way but i didnt almost cry because of the sadness of cancer nor for the death of this Andrew but this song means something to me but im not quite sure...
this song always remind me of my little brother who lost his battle to cancer.
chills. everywhere.
|-/ yassss
Powerful.
Wow. Just..wow
this shit gets to me
la dispute isn't healthy for me
when i listen to it heaps i go all quiet for days on end, not many people can do this to me let alone music..for a time i would block out all emotions because everything was going bad but i owe who i am today to music, la dispute
I love this song!
I cried first time I heard this, and definitely a few times after.
People who can keep faith through things like that are really amazing. I know I wasn't strong enough to.
This song reminds me of my friend I lost last year April 30th.... She fought cancer for years.... :'(
so much passion
here's a story:
i was born on january 19th, premature and on the brink of death. when i was in the NICU, they put me between two baby boys. my mom always tells me that she's so happy that i made it - because both of those boys died. the transition from january 19th to we buried our son today, hits me SO HARD. I really do feel like i take my life for granted (especially considering the reason I came to listen to this is because i'm pretty depressed right now) and to think about what those parents had to go through... i feel so selfish.
bry marie please don't feel selfish, because taking what we have granted is completely natural. This is how our brain is made to get used to what we have. I don't know the name of this phenomenon, but it exists so we do not have to register everything again and again. You realizing how special your life is what counts, because you realized how special this is. Just cherish it. Don't feel bad for not doing it up til now.
I don't want to sound preachy... I just want to ease this "guilt" a lot of us has and try to show how we can be a bit more loving towards any situation.
Thanks for reading, hope you have a good day.
This song is incredible :')
in tears.
The tears keep coming...
the chills i get during this song tho...
Its so sad, this story. It's very true, they're little entries a mother wrote.
Love this.
After December Eighth, I can't help but feel goosebumps rise on my skin and the tears begin to flow. Every time.
Second song that i listen from them gave me the chills again
That guitar at 1:35 sets it off on September 20
me, too
p.s. love the shirt man, MCR is my favorite band along side La Dispute
Amazing
I don't think I've ever cried like that before..
My father have cancer life is getting worse the only hope left is God
The character who started the narrative. He is essentially saying that although I haven't been through as much as you did, I hold no faith in God.
I was shivering. That's sad :'(
I'm trying to hold the tears back x'c, so fucking beautiful!!!
I have never really felt so many sivers from just one 3 and a half minuet song
Does anyone know where I can find a La Dispute tank top? They don't have one on their website.
This song gives me strenght.
Such emotion. That's all I can say.
They've mentioned the boy of Seven who die of cancer in this song and in our bruised bodies and the heart shrinks. Does anyone know why?
Here on January 19!!!
well actually in the ending it says he's devoit of faith it's the mother in the diary that has faith in god, but hey it dosen't really matter it's not a big deal