My birthday: to drink or not to drink? Pt. 1

Talking about drinking and how it has changed for me over the years.
Drinking does nothing for me these days. I used to drink because I was shy and insecure. I would drink so I could talk to girls. I was drinking to lose my inhibition. Now drinking seems to do the opposite of good for me. It makes me tired, makes me self-conscious. When I drink I don't seem to lose my inhibition than I will drink more and more to try and make the inhibition wear off but it only turns into me getting sloppy drunk and not having fun at all.
**Video cut off and cont'd on Pt. II