okay i think i understand this song now. "A damaged Dream of Arcadia The words fall to the earth" Arcadia is greek for "Utopia" and saying its a damaged dream is basically saying that the dream is breaking apart and isn't coming true and (The words fall to the earth) everyone around the world is realizing this. "A dusk that seems to burn the sun Shines on my dirtied self" Dusk is right before night time when you could say that night is the world shrouded in darkness with no light, or no hope. And that the last bit of light (or hope) which is still there before complete darkness is shining on his dirtied self. In other songs by Powapowa like " At Mercy of a Dream", Powapowa compares purity and cleanliness to the innocence of someone, so by saying he's dirty is saying that hes unpure and that hes not innocent. "Seen as a meaningless walking pace It’s so unsettling, what should I do?" In songs like "Strobe Light" Powapowa uses "walking" as a metaphor for "living" and his pace being the way he lives it. He is saying that the way he lives and him living at all is meaningless to him and (It’s so unsettling, what should I do?) he's not comfortable with the way he lives but doesn't know how to change that. "Even something so normal as aging isn’t something that my way of living will allow" This links back with my previous point, but here he is showing that aging is normal for everyone and we celebrate our birthdays each year, but for him he doesn't want that. He wrote in his last tweet that he doesn't want to grow up, so something as normal as growing up isnt something that he wants, and he wants to stay in this moment forever and that his way of living (or his life and the things around him) won't allow, perhaps the doesnt want to be like everyone else and is determined to think differently about it. "It’s just so ugly, and unsightly, Spinning a nonexistent heart" Here was a bit tricky and hard to put into words, but I believe he is saying that he feels that doesn't have a heart and he's cold and cynical to everything, and he feels its unsightly and ugly to try give what warmth and love that he doesn't think he has. "Unable to walk normally, I try to lean on your shoulder" Since he's not able to live normally (Unable to walk normally) he tries to depend on the people around him (lean on your shoulder). "It hurts, and aches Suffering from an answerless answer; that’s all" In his other songs (like at Mercy of a Dream) he is looking for an "answer" which is believed to be really deep and cynical realizations about the world and the people living around us; he is saying that it hurts to live with these realizations or these "answers" but he finds out that these aren't the answers to the questions he was asking, and all the do is hurt him. "The same dream that I walked yesterday Brought up quiet jeers" In "at Mercy of a Dream" the "dream" he talks about is the huge lie that people live under and believe. And so the same lie that he lived under yesterday, mocked him. "A dream of seemingly linked questions Shines on my dirtied self" He keeps asking himself about the lie we live under and they all somehow link together like a puzzle, and that just makes him more unpure and less innocent (Shines on my dirtied self). "To the radiant, shooting stars I cast my wish with a cowardly face" He feels like a coward to live under this lie pretending not to notice and to keep quiet about it. The stars represent a tiny bit of light (or hope) in the endless darkness of light. And so he is wishing on that tiny slither of hope that he still has. "The yesterday that is walking on now Shakes and cries out at the me of today" The yesterday that is walking on now is his past self. He is saying that his past self would be angry with his present self if it was still living today and its actually pretty sad if you think about how little that he thinks of himself and that he has ruined the life that his past self could've lived. "This ego of mine, this ego of mine, Would you forgive me as I sing?" It's obvious that he thinks that he's not important at all. I think "sing" also means "live" as mentioned in a theory about his other song (A Person Who Sings Songs - or in other words - A Person Who Lives Life) and he is asking himself to forgive himself as he lives on. "If you’ll sing that these shredded words are our “hopes of tomorrow” Then where to today, where to today, Where should I walk to today?" Throughout this song you will hear that yesterday represents the past, today represents the present, and tomorrow represents the future. Here he is saying that people often tell him things, things that he doesn't believe so they are to him "shredded words"; and that if they are what he has to hope for in the future, then he is wondering and asking "Where should i walk today" or rather "How do i live in the present?" "Revolving, we cast away the gears And walk; what do we intend to do?" Gears are what make machines go. He compares humanity to machines and mentioned that sometimes we have to "cast away the gears" or "leave bits of themselves behind" and live on; and then he wonders what he have to do after we throw away pieces of ourselves, and what the end goal is. "We, who see “the empty days” as “extraordinary” are so ugly, and unsightly Kicking at our cowering backs" We = humanity. He is saying that the rest of humanity who thinks that "empty days" or "pointless days" as this amazing thing; are so "ugly and unsightly" (not nice to look at) and kick at the backs of those who are fearful. "Right now, even something so normal as aging isn’t something that my way of living will allow It’s just so ugly, and unsightly, Simply spinning a nonexistent heart; hey…" He then repeats this line to emphasise how out of place he feels from the rest of humanity and how different he is to everyone else that he sees. This took me bloody ages to do goddam
Nah i think the same as you. I think this song is the most sad and full of himself (shiinamota) rather than his other works. He doesn't want to aged up yet everyone have to, and he doesnt know what to do about that and i think this song represent what he truly feel about that. Too bad not much people listen to it :c
When he made songs about growing up, you could always feel the pain in his lyrics. It’s so tragic that he passed away, and I miss him, too. And I pray for him, that he’s in heaven, where he cannot feel pain or suffering ever again, only happiness and peace But, no matter how sad it is, or how much it hurts, it’s important that we celebrate his life, too. He left so much beauty for the world. One of his songs even made it into Project Diva Arcade. So, don’t cry. Be happy. Be happy that he got as far as he did at such a young age, because, in my personal opinion, his music is loads better than 99% of what I hear older people sing on the radio. So, let’s try to listen to his music with a smile. You never know, maybe we’ll see him again. 😇🖤
Knowing PowaPowa-P is gone, listening to his songs always puts my stomach in knots. It’s just so sad. This song was always one of my favorites, and it’s a shame I only got into his music right before he died. RIP.
I suddenly remembered the melody of this song yesterday, and that I translated it years ago--the one song I translated by him as soon as it came out. 5 years later, I still miss Powapowa-P. I hope he's somewhere where he can be at ease now.
"We, who see “the empty days” as “extraordinary” are so ugly, and unsightly .." well as a fellow seeker of meaning, who has experienced intense depression in the past, I have to disagree with this statement. . the awful thing is seeing these extraordinary days as ordinary or empty, and giving up on many things of importance.. but unfortunately that is a part of being an adult
Yeah surprised no one's done it before but it's not like I noticed/found the translation the day it was posted lol :'D And it even has an off Vocal, can't wait to hear more covers/choruses of this~
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教室でいつも一人で座っていた。何もされてないのに耐えられなくなって早退をした。話しかけて貰えないと会話もろくに出来ない。そんなふうに生きてきたのに社会人になった途端に普通の人と同じように生きなくてはいけなくなった。
厳しいなーと思いつつも周りの人の優しさで何とかやれてるけど、たまに自分が何をしてるのかわからなくなる。
ふと思った、私のような会話も人並みに出来なかった人のことは認知もされてなかった。なんだか、この歳まで歳をとってはいけなかったんじゃないかって思ってしまった。そもそも社会に入れて貰えない、入れる予定じゃない人間だったんじゃないかって。
もたさん、お元気ですか？
歳をとるほど不幸になるような気がして苦しい
Slip sliding awayという英語の曲もあって、同じような気持ちを表すので、聴いてみてください
I'm sorry we can't save you....
人並みのことができない私には当たり前の日常なんてなかった。
毎日呼吸をするのすら辛くて普通や当たり前が何一つない非日常だった。
こんな気持ちをそのまま歌という形にしてくれたのはもたさん以外にいません。
ずっとそう思っていたのに遅くなってごめんなさい。
あなたにずっと救われていました。
あなたがどこにいても、ずっと大好きです。
okay i think i understand this song now.
"A damaged Dream of Arcadia
The words fall to the earth"
Arcadia is greek for "Utopia" and saying its a damaged dream is basically saying that the dream is breaking apart and isn't coming true and (The words fall to the earth) everyone around the world is realizing this.
"A dusk that seems to burn the sun
Shines on my dirtied self"
Dusk is right before night time when you could say that night is the world shrouded in darkness with no light, or no hope. And that the last bit of light (or hope) which is still there before complete darkness is shining on his dirtied self. In other songs by Powapowa like " At Mercy of a Dream", Powapowa compares purity and cleanliness to the innocence of someone, so by saying he's dirty is saying that hes unpure and that hes not innocent.
"Seen as a meaningless walking pace
It’s so unsettling, what should I do?"
In songs like "Strobe Light" Powapowa uses "walking" as a metaphor for "living" and his pace being the way he lives it. He is saying that the way he lives and him living at all is meaningless to him and (It’s so unsettling, what should I do?) he's not comfortable with the way he lives but doesn't know how to change that.
"Even something so normal as aging
isn’t something that my way of living will allow"
This links back with my previous point, but here he is showing that aging is normal for everyone and we celebrate our birthdays each year, but for him he doesn't want that. He wrote in his last tweet that he doesn't want to grow up, so something as normal as growing up isnt something that he wants, and he wants to stay in this moment forever and that his way of living (or his life and the things around him) won't allow, perhaps the doesnt want to be like everyone else and is determined to think differently about it.
"It’s just so ugly, and unsightly,
Spinning a nonexistent heart"
Here was a bit tricky and hard to put into words, but I believe he is saying that he feels that doesn't have a heart and he's cold and cynical to everything, and he feels its unsightly and ugly to try give what warmth and love that he doesn't think he has.
"Unable to walk normally,
I try to lean on your shoulder"
Since he's not able to live normally (Unable to walk normally) he tries to depend on the people around him (lean on your shoulder).
"It hurts, and aches
Suffering from an answerless answer; that’s all"
In his other songs (like at Mercy of a Dream) he is looking for an "answer" which is believed to be really deep and cynical realizations about the world and the people living around us; he is saying that it hurts to live with these realizations or these "answers" but he finds out that these aren't the answers to the questions he was asking, and all the do is hurt him.
"The same dream that I walked yesterday
Brought up quiet jeers"
In "at Mercy of a Dream" the "dream" he talks about is the huge lie that people live under and believe. And so the same lie that he lived under yesterday, mocked him.
"A dream of seemingly linked questions
Shines on my dirtied self"
He keeps asking himself about the lie we live under and they all somehow link together like a puzzle, and that just makes him more unpure and less innocent (Shines on my dirtied self).
"To the radiant, shooting stars
I cast my wish with a cowardly face"
He feels like a coward to live under this lie pretending not to notice and to keep quiet about it. The stars represent a tiny bit of light (or hope) in the endless darkness of light. And so he is wishing on that tiny slither of hope that he still has.
"The yesterday that is walking on now
Shakes and cries out at the me of today"
The yesterday that is walking on now is his past self. He is saying that his past self would be angry with his present self if it was still living today and its actually pretty sad if you think about how little that he thinks of himself and that he has ruined the life that his past self could've lived.
"This ego of mine, this ego of mine,
Would you forgive me as I sing?"
It's obvious that he thinks that he's not important at all. I think "sing" also means "live" as mentioned in a theory about his other song (A Person Who Sings Songs - or in other words - A Person Who Lives Life) and he is asking himself to forgive himself as he lives on.
"If you’ll sing that these shredded words
are our “hopes of tomorrow”
Then where to today, where to today,
Where should I walk to today?"
Throughout this song you will hear that yesterday represents the past, today represents the present, and tomorrow represents the future.
Here he is saying that people often tell him things, things that he doesn't believe so they are to him "shredded words"; and that if they are what he has to hope for in the future, then he is wondering and asking "Where should i walk today" or rather "How do i live in the present?"
"Revolving, we cast away the gears
And walk; what do we intend to do?"
Gears are what make machines go. He compares humanity to machines and mentioned that sometimes we have to "cast away the gears" or "leave bits of themselves behind" and live on; and then he wonders what he have to do after we throw away pieces of ourselves, and what the end goal is.
"We, who see “the empty days”
as “extraordinary”
are so ugly, and unsightly
Kicking at our cowering backs"
We = humanity. He is saying that the rest of humanity who thinks that "empty days" or "pointless days" as this amazing thing; are so "ugly and unsightly" (not nice to look at) and kick at the backs of those who are fearful.
"Right now, even something so normal as aging
isn’t something that my way of living will allow
It’s just so ugly, and unsightly,
Simply spinning a nonexistent heart; hey…"
He then repeats this line to emphasise how out of place he feels from the rest of humanity and how different he is to everyone else that he sees.
This took me bloody ages to do goddam
Nah i think the same as you. I think this song is the most sad and full of himself (shiinamota) rather than his other works. He doesn't want to aged up yet everyone have to, and he doesnt know what to do about that and i think this song represent what he truly feel about that. Too bad not much people listen to it :c
Kuromez 何となく分かる！凄いね
間違えて２倍速にしてしまってたけど雰囲気変わってまたよかった
好きなボカロPは？って聞かれたら、ぽわぽわPが1番最初に浮かぶくらい好きだった。今も好きです。正直もっと沢山ぽわぽわPの曲を聴きたかった。わがままかな…
@胚芽まめ ありがとうございます。そう言っていただけて嬉しいです。自分語り大歓迎ですよ！☺️ それは悲しいですよね…私達は彼の残してくれた曲を愛して、天国で自由に暮らしていてほしいと願うばかりですね…。
@胚芽まめ
20歳(大人)になってしまったから、って説ですよね。もしかしたら周りに「もう大人なんだからしっかりしなさい」とか強いられたりしたんですかね…(個人の勝手な想像です)
私も成人してますが全然大人じゃないし人に迷惑かけてるけど、ぽわぽわPはこんなに愛されてる立派な人なのに…
そうですね、私もそう思います！
長々と駄文失礼しました🙇
@胚芽まめ
うわ…そうだったんですね…それは初めて知りました、無知で申し訳ないです。私は歌詞からしかぽわぽわpの性格を判断出来ませんが、凄く素直で純粋な面が仇となってしまったのでしょうか…何にせよ悲しい話ですね…。
なんか本当、一年おきくらいに無性に聴きたくなるんだよな。
わかる
傷ついた華胥の夢
言の葉は地に落ちて
陽を焚いたような暮れ
汚れたボクを差した
意味の無い歩みに見えて
とても不安だ どうしようか
普通に歳をとるコトすら
許されないボクの生き様は
ただ醜くて ただ醜くて
有りもしない心を紡ぐんだ
ただ普通に歩けないボクは
君に肩を借りようとしたんだ
ただ痛んで ただ痛んで
答えのない正解こじらせた それだけ
昨日も歩いたこの夢
小さく罵声を吐いた
疑問繋げたような夢
汚れたボクを差した
燦然と溢れだす星に
願い事を 腑抜けた顔で
今歩き出した昨日が
今日のボクを震わせて鳴くんだ
この慢心を この慢心を
歌うボクを許してくれないか
この千切れた言葉をボクら
「明日の希望」と歌っているなら
今日はどこに 今日はどこに
向かって歩きだせばいいんだろう
ねえ
回るボクらは歯車を
抜いては足して どうしたいんだろ
「なんでもない毎日」を
「非日常」と表したボクらは
ただ醜くて ただ醜くて
丸まった背中を蹴飛ばした
今、普通に歳をとるコトすら
許されないボクの生き様は
ただ醜くて ただ醜くて
有りもしない心を紡ぐのさ ねえ
When he made songs about growing up, you could always feel the pain in his lyrics. It’s so tragic that he passed away, and I miss him, too. And I pray for him, that he’s in heaven, where he cannot feel pain or suffering ever again, only happiness and peace
But, no matter how sad it is, or how much it hurts, it’s important that we celebrate his life, too. He left so much beauty for the world. One of his songs even made it into Project Diva Arcade. So, don’t cry. Be happy. Be happy that he got as far as he did at such a young age, because, in my personal opinion, his music is loads better than 99% of what I hear older people sing on the radio. So, let’s try to listen to his music with a smile. You never know, maybe we’ll see him again. 😇🖤
What happened to him?
@@osamahaz926 he commited suicide
この曲よく聴くし、好き 昔の自分と重ねてしまうから毎回泣いてしまう
本当にもたさんの曲好きやし死んで欲しくなかった…好きになった時にはもう死んでたんだよね
この曲聴くたびに、もたさんどれだけ辛かったんかなって考える
ほんとさ、いじめってなんのためにするのかな 誰も幸せにならないのに それで死ぬ人もいるのに
不安を抱きながら夜空を歩いて広げてるような感じ
この曲を初めて聞いたとき、椎名さんの想いがここに凝縮されているような、そんな衝撃を受けた。
数あるボカロ曲の中でもこの曲は特別。
椎名もたさんの曲は夏に聞くといい
センチメンタルな感じが夏の日の終わりに合うよね。
楽しい時がふっと終わって1人考える…
Knowing PowaPowa-P is gone, listening to his songs always puts my stomach in knots. It’s just so sad. This song was always one of my favorites, and it’s a shame I only got into his music right before he died. RIP.
この曲とともに、成長してきた。
RIP you beautiful thing
もたさんの曲は定期的に聴きたくなる
最初聴いた時はあまり何も思わないんだけど聴けば聴くほど好きになるし、久々に聴いたら好きになるってことが多い(自分は)
これもそうです…
こういう事があったからかもたさんが亡くなる前に好きになれなかった
でも今はめっちゃ好きです
I suddenly remembered the melody of this song yesterday, and that I translated it years ago--the one song I translated by him as soon as it came out. 5 years later, I still miss Powapowa-P. I hope he's somewhere where he can be at ease now.
ぽわぽわP
椎名もたさん
大好きでした
これからも大好きです
i couldn't stop crying
I don't usually like slow songs, but I actually liked this one.
もたさんの曲で歌詞が一番好き
ありがとう
生きてこれたよ、、、
OH FINALLY FOUND THIS MASTERPIECE
THANKS A LOT
Congrats; be sure to browse other new vids, you might find some hidden gems :)
Just lovely.
"We, who see “the empty days” as “extraordinary” are so ugly, and unsightly
.."
well as a fellow seeker of meaning, who has experienced intense depression in the past, I have to disagree with this statement. . the awful thing is seeing these extraordinary days as ordinary or empty, and giving up on many things of importance.. but unfortunately that is a part of being an adult
Darn, this song needs more views and appreciations! This is totally gold!
well, it has 100k views on the nico upload so that's something :'D
Oh finally someone has subbed this ; A ;
Thank you! I've always wanted to know the meaning of this song xD
Yeah surprised no one's done it before but it's not like I noticed/found the translation the day it was posted lol :'D And it even has an off Vocal, can't wait to hear more covers/choruses of this~
I hope I can cover this one day xD
I love this song so much!!!
Conflict→（sm25435058）Loneliness→（this）Transformation→（sm22061366）Now→（not yet）Tomorrow→（sm25557863）Life→（sm25705512）
This is so sad ... shit... :C
powapowaP is my idol such a great composer i admire him a lot ;n;
This song becomes more potent as I age. The lyrics sink in deeper.
omg i love this one! and now i finally know what they're singing about. lol
Yeah, PowaPowaP makes great lyrics~
涙
愛してる
glad you enjoyed the upload, be sure to check out the newer vids on this channel too!
❤️🩹
いつの間にか椎名もたより年上になってしまった
遺された曲を大事に聞き続けること以外に何か力になりたいのに何もできないのが辛い
それまでの人生、結局何もあなたのような素晴らしいものは残せなかった
自分のような何も作り出せずに無力のまま生き続けるしかない人間が、
あなたよりも長く生きてしまったことがただただ悔しいよ
その思いは訃報を聞いたあの瞬間から不変だよ
苦しむこともなくただ穏やかに普通に歳をとってほしかった
wish~
👏👏🥰🥰
やっぱ無理かも
what album?
I don't think it's part of an album? But I do know PowaPowaP has released album/CD(s) before.
hm...ok..thankyou
This song is inserted in the album titled "Live."