And In my universe this I achieved, but it gave me no satisfaction, in succeeding I lost all purpose This poem written line came from a cartoon show for kids yet it hits so hard when you can apply it to yourself in your own real world. Not that you need to read it and tell yourself the bad part of it but it makes you think of the things you go through to succeed or feel the living feeling of life yet for some reason we are yet still alive and full of void in a world full of possibilities.
Why is this happening to me? After all I've said, promised to not do, and all the hope and belief I had in my own words, I still did it. And, of course, I couldn't lie to her. It has already been 2 months. She's not a part of my life anymore. After all of this, I still fucked up. In all of these 2 months, I kept thinking, I kept telling God "I am going to truly worship you if you give her back to me, I swear on the blood in my veins, and my beating heart". Every damn day, no matter who was there for me, no matter what I did, no single day passed without me thinking about her, even though it did not seem like it... But, as time passed, this dark pit finally lighted up before my eyes. I realized how meek of a human, and how weak of a mind I had. Basing my happiness on another person, but damn, did it feel nice... To be loved, yknow? She never said it. I did though. But I rushed it all too much. She wouldn't hold my hand, because she would be embarrassed in front of her friends... She was really shy too. But only shy with me. But that might have been due to feeling different towards me, compared to a friend, or something. Tough times came to her, and I was there for her. Every. Damn. Moment. No matter of who did what to her, or what happened to which of her friends, or what friend she considered a "sister" talked behind her back. I was there. Giving her advice, a shoulder to cry on. But she wouldn't do it. I know, I still did many wrong things, which lead to this moment, where I'm just craving for her presence and sweet voice, like any other day. And where she is finally happy, with somebody else. This is what I wanted, didn't I? I know that, I was an annoying human being, childish, and yes, not much time has passed. But in two months, I did nothing. But think, about everything. I thinked about nothing too, so that my mind could get a break from all the thoughts. But I still have a long road till this life ends. The much waited reason. For what? I don't know yet. Maybe a reason to live, or a reason to fight the urge to not get up, after waking up, or after falling down, on my knees, with tears coming down my face, from this cruel world and lack of sweet people. For a moment, she was all of that to me. That girl meant a lot to me. But my actions do not prove this fact. I don't know how to cope with this, but: "I'm a clever man. I am capable, I know I will find a way." That's what I would say, if I would have been there for myself, when nobody else was. In the dark nights, when the light in my soul dimmed down, from all these uncontrollable thoughts. Sometimes, giving myself hope, to keep going, to be resilient, strong, and capable of fighting and working for my loved ones. And in some other nights, when my hope falls in a deep sleep, I just think of ending it all. Because it just is too much. I could handle it, but this isn't the end though. Much yet is there to come. And I just cannot hold that in. Sometimes, I'm just done. "Pick it up, end it. You wouldn't dare." Is what I would want to tell myself, if was that voice in my head. Anyways, please Excuse me for my behaviour, and for this long vent. All of you have a nice bright day tomorrow, and, please, promise me that you will value the people around you. No matter what they do to you or anybody else, be the kind one, and forgive. Learn, and then teach, so that they can, once, teach too. Maybe, this way, at least a small part of the world will better themselves. Goodbye, and take care.
man that's deep, i hope things get better for you man, i wish you the best, as you said, better things are yet to come, and so i hope that this hard time im going through finally ends, thanks for sharing your story, somehow it has enlightened me, thank you, take care 🫂
Damn..I really read all that,im sorry man I hope you get better and life gets better.keep your head up man ik she meant a lot to you but it's time to move I know it's hard but it's time to move on you have life to live enjoy your self go out more workout get shredded forget her man be happy enjoy and appreciate the good things in life I wish you the best man.
cara eu amo uma menina e amanha faz dois meses que ela é 'minha namorada' ela mudou o meu jeito de ver o mundo e so de pensar que daqui a dois anos ela vai mudar de escola eu choro daqui a dois anos eu iria pedir a mao dela em namoro aos pais dela mais isso nao sera mais possivel,tenho medo de me iludir novamente e quero que ela seja a minha esposa,mae dos meus filhos...
meu amigo, a vida é realmente imprevisível, tem coisas que fogem do nosso controle, e isso que acontecerá com você é uma delas, infelizmente imprevistos ocorrem, faz parte da vida, aproveite cada instante que você tem com ela, faça valer a pena, nós somos muito jovens ainda, não vivemos nem 20% do que vamos viver, então nao se preucupe, vai ficar tudo bem, talvez nesses 80% que faltam vocês voltem a se reencontrar, tudo é possível, se cuida 🫂
fica tranquilo parceiro, a vida é assim, confia em Deus mano e entrega sua vida a Ele, sua namorada deve te amar muito e mesmo longe vocês podem combinar de sair e se divertirem juntos, eu tbm namoro e tem 2 meses que não vejo ela, sinto a falta dela, mas eu confio em Deus e vai ficar tudo bem, saúde e paz pra você irmão! ✝️❤️🔥
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Throughout heaven and earth i alone am the honered one
And In my universe this I achieved, but it gave me no satisfaction, in succeeding I lost all purpose
This poem written line came from a cartoon show for kids yet it hits so hard when you can apply it to yourself in your own real world. Not that you need to read it and tell yourself the bad part of it but it makes you think of the things you go through to succeed or feel the living feeling of life yet for some reason we are yet still alive and full of void in a world full of possibilities.
For ages untold I’ve studied your ways devoting my existence to you.
"A man can choose to be good, bad, or free"
"because this is the moment you realize, something inside you is broken"
Why is this happening to me? After all I've said, promised to not do, and all the hope and belief I had in my own words, I still did it. And, of course, I couldn't lie to her. It has already been 2 months. She's not a part of my life anymore. After all of this, I still fucked up. In all of these 2 months, I kept thinking, I kept telling God "I am going to truly worship you if you give her back to me, I swear on the blood in my veins, and my beating heart". Every damn day, no matter who was there for me, no matter what I did, no single day passed without me thinking about her, even though it did not seem like it... But, as time passed, this dark pit finally lighted up before my eyes. I realized how meek of a human, and how weak of a mind I had. Basing my happiness on another person, but damn, did it feel nice... To be loved, yknow? She never said it. I did though. But I rushed it all too much. She wouldn't hold my hand, because she would be embarrassed in front of her friends... She was really shy too. But only shy with me. But that might have been due to feeling different towards me, compared to a friend, or something. Tough times came to her, and I was there for her. Every. Damn. Moment. No matter of who did what to her, or what happened to which of her friends, or what friend she considered a "sister" talked behind her back. I was there. Giving her advice, a shoulder to cry on. But she wouldn't do it. I know, I still did many wrong things, which lead to this moment, where I'm just craving for her presence and sweet voice, like any other day. And where she is finally happy, with somebody else. This is what I wanted, didn't I? I know that, I was an annoying human being, childish, and yes, not much time has passed. But in two months, I did nothing. But think, about everything. I thinked about nothing too, so that my mind could get a break from all the thoughts. But I still have a long road till this life ends. The much waited reason. For what? I don't know yet. Maybe a reason to live, or a reason to fight the urge to not get up, after waking up, or after falling down, on my knees, with tears coming down my face, from this cruel world and lack of sweet people. For a moment, she was all of that to me. That girl meant a lot to me. But my actions do not prove this fact. I don't know how to cope with this, but: "I'm a clever man. I am capable, I know I will find a way." That's what I would say, if I would have been there for myself, when nobody else was. In the dark nights, when the light in my soul dimmed down, from all these uncontrollable thoughts. Sometimes, giving myself hope, to keep going, to be resilient, strong, and capable of fighting and working for my loved ones. And in some other nights, when my hope falls in a deep sleep, I just think of ending it all. Because it just is too much. I could handle it, but this isn't the end though. Much yet is there to come. And I just cannot hold that in. Sometimes, I'm just done. "Pick it up, end it. You wouldn't dare." Is what I would want to tell myself, if was that voice in my head. Anyways, please Excuse me for my behaviour, and for this long vent. All of you have a nice bright day tomorrow, and, please, promise me that you will value the people around you. No matter what they do to you or anybody else, be the kind one, and forgive. Learn, and then teach, so that they can, once, teach too. Maybe, this way, at least a small part of the world will better themselves. Goodbye, and take care.
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wake the fuck up your not using your brain your using your heart she's probably with someone else right now
man that's deep, i hope things get better for you man, i wish you the best, as you said, better things are yet to come, and so i hope that this hard time im going through finally ends, thanks for sharing your story, somehow it has enlightened me, thank you, take care 🫂
Damn..I really read all that,im sorry man I hope you get better and life gets better.keep your head up man ik she meant a lot to you but it's time to move I know it's hard but it's time to move on you have life to live enjoy your self go out more workout get shredded forget her man be happy enjoy and appreciate the good things in life I wish you the best man.
I related to this way too much. Just know that you’re not alone in this.
Legend fr
Life Is hard sometimes... But it Will be harder of you dont try to do something about It.
everyone is in the same time, but no one is in the same weather.
Fall...youre alone child
''Los ojos chico...Nunca mienten''
los ojos.. nuncan mienten
prove them wrong.
can you add rain + 1hour version pls🙏🙏🙏🙏
Loop the video
Well since i want to sample this and make a old school underground beat, i could do that and send it to ya
Repent to God
It’s raining outside as I’m listening to this… and it’s amazing
@@ilytaygoif u ended up making that, can you bless your fellow brother❤️
Sometimes the easy way out is the best way out. God Bless
(Not saying kys but sometimes living is harder than dying)
Do not say that. That is actually not funny. God bless
Repent to God
@@olliebagley no
Mr Tacitus...?
I love you for that
I worked for a whole year. I wanted to make the team so bad. All my effort was in vain. Ill never make it.
Does anyone have the type beat version?
cara eu amo uma menina e amanha faz dois meses que ela é 'minha namorada' ela mudou o meu jeito de ver o mundo e so de pensar que daqui a dois anos ela vai mudar de escola eu choro
daqui a dois anos eu iria pedir a mao dela em namoro aos pais dela mais isso nao sera mais possivel,tenho medo de me iludir novamente e quero que ela seja a minha esposa,mae dos meus filhos...
meu amigo, a vida é realmente imprevisível, tem coisas que fogem do nosso controle, e isso que acontecerá com você é uma delas, infelizmente imprevistos ocorrem, faz parte da vida, aproveite cada instante que você tem com ela, faça valer a pena, nós somos muito jovens ainda, não vivemos nem 20% do que vamos viver, então nao se preucupe, vai ficar tudo bem, talvez nesses 80% que faltam vocês voltem a se reencontrar, tudo é possível, se cuida 🫂
fica tranquilo parceiro, a vida é assim, confia em Deus mano e entrega sua vida a Ele, sua namorada deve te amar muito e mesmo longe vocês podem combinar de sair e se divertirem juntos, eu tbm namoro e tem 2 meses que não vejo ela, sinto a falta dela, mas eu confio em Deus e vai ficar tudo bem, saúde e paz pra você irmão! ✝️❤️🔥