Hey doods. Bit nervous sharing this video cuz I’m putting my heart out there (so be kind to it). There’s nothing more I love than making videos and I feel super duper lucky to call you sweet thangs my TH-cam fam. This is the story of a man who fell for another man over the summer of 2013. And my hot take on what it feels like to fall in love. Yeh we’re getting down and dirty and cheesy baby. And since Ethan has spent so many years on this channel it feels right to honor the adventures, treats, and good times shared. Can’t thank ya’ll enough for being apart of this vlogging voyage, more to come. Only love, Mark.
I think it's clear to see that you wear your heart on your sleeve Mark and that is a beautiful thing. Never change! I'm glad you're expressing yourself and allowing yourself to process and feel your emotions it's very healthy. Never be afraid to be honest about how you feel :) hope you're keeping well and surrounding yourself with the love of those around you.
I’m 24 now which means I was just about 14 when I watched your coming out Mark and have been on a journey with you and Ethan the whole time. Leaving my home town, moving to London, my first relationship, my first breakup, hopeless romances and new jobs. You both making me laugh, cry, inspired, hope and dance alongside my own life. Thanks for a gorgeous video, seems to me that you’re exactly where you’re meant to be right now. Big love x
"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened." There is nothing comparable to first love. People will come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
Русский комментарий. Хочу выразить огромную благодарность за те чувства, которые я испытывала с Марком и Итаном. Ребята, вы показали мне, что такое любовь. У нас в стране все смотрели странно, когда я включала ваши видео, но мне плевать. Вы ребята, подарившие мне супер мега дупер офигенный досуг за просмотром Ютьюба. Безмерная любовь к вам до сих пор! Вообще фраза «every day is a great day» до сих пор со мной, я учусь познавать себя и ража каждому дню!
I think the reason so many of us are here is because you and Ethan caught something on film that was nothing short of electric chemistry between two people deeply in love. Your attraction to each other was palpable and you were kind, loving men. To see two gay men in this way on a regular basis for years was nothing short of groundbreaking. xoxo
An observation: 2013-14 was a great time for love. So many couples on TH-cam fell in love during that period - and not just little love affairs but meaningful ones.
2020 was the opposite. So many couples broke up last year! Especially during the Covid quarantine. Too much time together had a detrimental effect on relationships.
That ending . . . 😭 It completely derailed me, seeing those old pics again. Been with them since 2013 and it felt like watching a timelapse sped-up version of the purest form of love and partnership. Mark is not alone in his struggle. In a way, the fans who know and love him since those days are also trying to move on and process what happened.
Many gays from all over the world followed you, rejoiced with you and believed that it would be so with everyone. I can say with confidence: your love was not in vain, your love filled thousands of hearts with faith in happiness, your love gave everyone the courage to accept themselves as you are, and prompted everyone to look for their boyfriend, their Mark or Eaton. In every video together, you guys said: believe in yourself and be happy! I hid these words very deeply in my heart and follow them. ❤️
I'm 55 years old I've never had a relationship and it wasn't for want of trying. There are some more people like me so just remember you're already ahead of some of us. You've had more than some of us ever will.
When I was young I desired a relationship, but never found one, not for the want of trying. Now that I'm older I feel stronger and independent and wouldn't want one, and no longer desire a relationship. I'm quite content with myself and a few friends, now I wouldn't have it any other way., and looking back I remember those strong desires, feeling lonely for that special someone, but now feel almost relieved no longer needing it and letting it control my life. Being independent and content with your own company can be the best,
I turned 50 this year and also have never had a relationship, I used to get quite depressed about it but I realized that all my life I’ve seen people when never found someone to be with and I just accepted that it doesn’t always happen for some people and I’m one of them and after I accepted it I stopped getting so depressed about it.
A relationship should be considered a success if it brought joy, value, and lessons learned to your life while it lasted -- as long as no emotional or physical abuse was involved. The wider culture and Disney have sold us this idea that a relationship / marriage is a failure if it doesn't end with "happily ever after" or when we die. I no longer believe that is necessarily true.
Although I can totally see how that would be the outcome people see after watching or hearing these stories, I do think it is important to see them as chapters of characters lives. I like that you bring this up because it actually is something that I as a big Disney fan think a lot. And I wonder sometimes where that disconnect in communication is. Am I being close minded? What do you guys think?
@@xanderchrisrodriguez3663 Since you asked, I’ll share my thoughts on this. Yes, I believe that “and they lived happily ever after” is what’s considered ideal in Disney and the culture at large. Real life, though, often shows that many people evolve and what they used to appreciate and enjoy about each other, might change enough to want a different situation, either by oneself or with a new person. Remembering the good times, while acknowledging why the relationship ended, shows maturity, in my opinion.
2014 i take a year off school preparing for the exam of transferring to an art university. i was so lost and frustrated with life, the only thing i can do is keep drawing and painting. that’s when i found you on youtube. whenever i feel bad i jump on youtube watch you and ethan. your relationship makes me so happy and super inspired. 🥺🤍 seeing you getting better and better by every coming project (video, photography, whatsoever) REALLY makes me feel so happy & proud for ya🥰❤️ most of all, giving me the strength to continue. ✨ thank you for everything mark. keep it up. ily Xx
Mark. It has been an absolute privilege to be able to follow you (and Ethan) through your videos for the last 10 years. I can hardly believe it's been that long. I don't think you'll ever realize what 'Methan' has meant to me, as a gay spartan living in Belgium, and to so many others. Your videos really made (make!) every day a great day. I wish you love. Lots of love ❤️
One thing I've learned after leting someone go is that you never really stop thinking about them, in a way you never stop loving that someone, others come and go but you always think of that one special person and after awhile you no longer feel sad when you think of them, you just smile.
The ending literally brought tears to my eyes. Wasn't expecting this upload. Thank you for uploading it. This little group of people, who have held Methan in their hearts for so long, needed this. My mouth fell open the moment I saw the post on Instagram and then many times during the video because you were saying the words which we weren't sure you ever would on the channel because it's so personal. But thank you for sharing. This group of people is your personal space after all. I love both of you equally and would love to see you guys remain as friends if possible. PS: I wish you said more.
Marke Miller, Its impossible to ever replace someone after you loosing them, they always going to be part of your heart, life, and memory. You Will always love them no matter what. Even if you just with them for view months, and you with him for years. As your old subscriber, i am so glad you Made this video, it shows me how respectfull you are toward him after what happen. Ily Mark,
I know this takes a lot to share, but it’s amazing that you have gotten to a point where you felt you could sit down and share this and thats amazing growth. People who try to belittle what you had aren’t trying to be mean I don’t think thats just what they say to try to make you feel better. Some things just feel so right and its impossible to believe that it could be “wrong”. I had a somewhat similar situation where I fell for someone and I’m also still processing. Im hoping at some point down the road something in my life really will belittle or at least match the feeling I had. Anyways.. keep your head up and keep letting time do it’s thing :)
Good for you, Mark! My husband and I are 25 years strong together. Everyday for all these years we touch, laugh, talk, eat, sleep, walk, garden, cook and clean together. You better believe we know our relationship is special; straight or gay. Not bragging or gloating, just incredibly grateful and wishing the same for everyone.
@@beastscooter I was married for 25 years it was very special to me but not so much for her Her money was way more special to her and still true to this day. I left and never looked back My partner was the first man I was ever with actually the only man. My heart flutters when I think of him He is a very special man and I’m so very lucky to find someone like him when I came out.
CS Lewis once wrote “Those who are enjoying something, or suffering something, together, are companions. Those who enjoy or suffer one another, are not.” Seeing the love you had for eachother move so actively throughout the world inspired me to seek meaningful relationships. Even if I'm not there yet, some 7 years later, I know that happiness is more than just enjoying a person - I know this thanks to you.
You are loved dearly by your TH-cam family ❤️. Thank you for being you and encouraging others to be kind, love others, and enjoy life. Your videos are little reminders for me and I’m truly grateful!
It's 2 a.m. and i'm crying in my room, been following you guys since that 1st summer.. still here. I love you both so much, wish you nothing but the best.. thank u for being in my life for the past 8 years.
You are amazing...you both are. Thank you so much sharing your life with me and the world. You've always made me smile even when life sucks...nothing but love for you guys and everything that you've put out there. Thanks Mark Edward Miller.
I started watching this channel my senior year of highschool (2013), through college and up until now and you guys are like gay dad's to so many people my age. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. ❤️
Thanks for the closure Mark. You and Ethan were the envy of many and the magic you shared will always be with you!!!! I have been with my now husband since junior high school first as friends and then as a couple. There have been challenges along our 42 years together. But I know how blessed we are to have each other. You are still an inspiration to many…never forget how talented, loving and caring you are. I have no doubt I will be watching another video of yours with your new love some day. All the Best my friend 👍
It takes time. My first real love hit me like a brick to the face when i met him and even today i think back and cant help but smile just like you were saying. You will always have that between the two of you no one can take those memories. You genuinely seem like such a loving dude x
I have been watching you from the beginning, I have been there threw all of it with you. Although I’m older than you, you have taught me alot !! Thanks for being here !!
Im so happy that you posted this video. Funny thing my and my ex used to watch your videos together. Now I’m watching them alone. I thought that he was the love of my life but slowly through time I’m learning not everyone is meant to be forever. Some people are there to prepare us for the love of another and to help us grow into who we are meant to be. It’s hard I’m 29 too and this year I’ve seen all my friends get married. But I’m accepting that it’s a different journey for the homo-sexual. I appreciate your videos. Much love!
Hi Mark - thank you for this video. I went back to your first video and watched it again. Over the last ten years many brave people have come out and shared their experiences on TH-cam. I am certain that as a result of the millions of views these videos have received, lives have been saved. Also over the ten years, we have seen your own development as a balanced and fair individual. My favourite videos are always of the family gatherings at the lake in the summer. All the best.
I so appreciate your validation of eathan.....i still follow both of you and there is and was something missing as each of you process the breakup on your separate channels but going out of the way to use words as ex.........instead of your names. Only respect for both of you.....and it was magic and amazing to witness. That magic will happen again....
woah i've 'known' you for 10 years 14 -> 24 soon. this will always be my favourite channel and my favourite person on youtube, thank you for sharing your life and art with us. i was a sad and lost teen and now a happier and prouder adult (partly thanks to you) and so i truly believe in 'it gets better' and it will continue getting better for both/all of us. i know so many others feel the same way as me in the comments but it proves how many countless lives you've positively impacted. still waiting for my ticket for the train to love town but i cant wait to feel all that you described here. I remember back when you guys had a P.O box ah I really wanted to send a letter back then but hey at least i can leave this comment. ill keep supporting you with a like and a view :) you're a total sweetheart and everyone's first virtual boyfriend haha keep following your heart, written with Love
Happy to be a part of this top secret underground channel! And the last part of the video felt like a little great homage to the relationship. Thank you for sharing.
It can be difficult to process a past long-term relationship, but I’m glad you’re able to look back on it positively and can appreciate all the adventures you had together.
Awww Marky Mark. This video made me cry, laugh, smile. I saw the notification weeks ago but was waiting to watch it because I knew I would be emotional with you. I’m so happy you took your time to talk about this. It’s perfectly ok to go through it and take your time. ❤️. I have to say olive chillin (usually napping) in the back in these videos is everything.
Bro, Increible video. Muestra del excelente ser humano que eres y que es Ethan. Quiero agradecerles por permitirme crecer junto a ustedes, reir, bailar, soñar. Gracias siempre!
@@3506Dodge Y porqué no lo colocas TÚ? si es tanto lo que quieres saber que escribí. Deja la holgazanería y pierde menos tiempo criticando y más instruyendote. El Inglés no es el único idioma que existe.
Creo que muchas personas, incluyendo a algunos heteros, fantasean con una relación como la que tenía Mark y Ethan. Yo he buscado algo así toda la vida, pero se que tal vez no sea posible, es algo que realmente se da en 1/1000000, entonces pues mientras tanto disfrutaré de mi soltería
I don't know if you'll read this Mark, but I really must say that over the years you and this channel have been the source of so much joy, comfort, and strength for so many people, including myself. I have followed your adventures ever since your coming out video. Watching your relationship with Ethan blossom gave me the encouragement I needed to come out and be proud of my sexuality. So I am very grateful for you & Ethan, and I am sure many others share a similar story to mine. We have watched your life and your relationship with Ethan from a very distant, carefully curated perspective, so I know that we have only seen a small sliver of everything you experienced with him. But even those small glimpses into your story have been a true pleasure to witness, so I thank you Mark for sharing your journey with us. Wishing you the best.
I watched your videos from way back and I can't believe it's been years. I'm at a loss for words, but know that us fans will always support you. Love you Mark!
God Mark, this is so special, so intimate, so "heart on your sleeve" and so honest. You are so truly AMAZING, truly special and such a beautiful person!! Much love to you! 💛💖
Oh and you guys made me feel not alone. I grew up looking at you and understanding that its possible to be happy and loved. Reading these comments makes me believe im not the only one. Hi from italy
Love at first sight 100% exists. i.e when I first went to a Dunkin' Doughnuts. Jokes aside, I feel that one of the biggest reasons myself and probably many others were attracted to both yours and Ethan's channels is because of the relationship you both shared. Many people fantasize and long for that sort of love for their entire lives. It's rare.
I am 23, but I do know that love can be wild, not cruel but a bunch of endless possibilities leading to the next. You will find another love, that will beat the past but those experiences are with you forever. You were my first TH-camr that I could watch and help me confront my friends and family about me being gay. Your are amazing so let your light shine man ✨
I have to say, I respect you even more making this video. I'm not as familiar with the 2 of you as some people are in the comments section, but I know sincerity when I see and hear it. Makes me wonder why the 2 of you aren't together, but that's your business. If you do get any negative comments, and you will, their are negative Nellies everywhere, and NO YT channel is without them. All I'd ask is, don't be the one who gets 99 compliment and 1 negative, and focuses on that 1 and not the others. Some people just have unhappy lives, otherwise, they wouldn't write those things, Happy people don't write negative things. I wish you well, and much happiness.
Ethan explains everything on his channel. Go watch his videos "Getting Over A Break Up" and "Learning To Let Go". He was a teenager and had just turned 19 when he got into this relationship. He grew and changed a lot. So did Mark. And they are no longer compatible. Ethan is much happier now as a single man. He's currently in California working as a Youth Counselor at a summer camp for LGBTQ+ kids.
@@alterlove359 I'll watch that, thanks. It's good to hear they are still friends and have moved on. I always feel so sad for the one who feels left behind.
Thanks for that, it was like the elephant in the room not being addressed ever. Older guy here and have learned u can only do your part in a relationship and it doesnt matter how much u do or give the other person has to meet u at least half way or it never last. So many couples one loves the other more and its hard to find that 50/50 love!! I think u are so talented & the best yutuber on here.REAL LOVE is like winning the lottery & u know how hard that is. Have followed u from the beginning. Hang in there my friend.
I, too, have been thinking about Love in my life lately and this video is exactly what I needed to see and hear today. Thank you for sharing, Mark. 🙏🏻💛🌈
It's so toutching that the love and respect for each other still remains inspite of the breakup. It's hard and it will be so for quite a while...those of us who have been here since the very beginning know that. I randomly wonder if Ethan saw this video.
I have been following you since the beginning. I am many years older and lost my life love to AIDS in 1991. He suffered for over a year. So life is short, but love is forever! Love u Mark
This has only been out one day and already there are too many comments for me to read them all! I'm glad you've now reached the stage where you can talk about this in front of 5.7k strangers - I assume that's a good sign. And for all that you and Ethan shared of your life together, I want to say thank you: it was truly special and it meant a lot.
Dude you didn't lose anything. You gained a life experience that many wish for everyday. You got to share your time with someone you love and care about.
I found your TH-cam channel through a TH-cam advert and instantly felt the love between Ethan and yourself. It's heartbreaking to know that you've broken up but I'm glad you're doing ok Mark. Take all of the time you need and don't be too hard on yourself.
I started watching you guys back then, at the same time I also had my “summer” with a wonderful guy. I still have a lot of love for him. His name was Ben, and I kinda miss him every now and then. It’s crazy how time goes by and we all change. I’m happy to be able to keep up with your content. Cheers to all of us and our growth. I hope we can get a few more of those beautiful summers. 🖤
When you start a relationship so young, it's full of fun and life.But then you grow up and you may not grow in the same direction. But it was love and l know there is still love between you both. But it is love of friendship and you should take it for what it is.Some friendships last forever. I have had my best friend for 40yrs.
I started watching you and your journey when I was in 8th grade. I remember watching your videos in the back of my class at my private catholic school wishing one day to be like you. It was those videos that then gave me the courage to come out to my school and the world. I’m writing this now going into my junior year of college and I can not express how thankful I am for every video and every post you had because without them I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Thank you for being so open and always having that safe space on your platforms.
Thank you so much for sharing this! We don't talk enough about these things, but reading the comments I realize that we're all far from alone in this. Thanks for making this a space of vulnerability and honesty, Mark. Sending you love!
Who else wanted to hug Mark at the beginning of the video? It's totally understandable Mark, I know I've had my share of heartache. You are an incredible person, always appreciate the content you share and your openness. I still have and wear your "Everyday is a Great Day" shirt. All the best to you.
ngl i cried watching this. i got heartbroken about 2 months ago, he was my first love. we were only together 2 years but when you make so many memories with someone it’s extremely hard to let go. each day gets better and better. time heals for sure. but man is it a difficult process. its nice being able to find closure within yourself and its a really good feeling knowing you put all the love you could give into someone else. i loved so hard and im so thankful my last relationship taught me just how much i can love. im excited to find my true soulmate because if i felt the most extreme love for my ex, i cant even imagine how it’ll feel with my soulmate. thanks for this video mark
Been following you since you're still in college, I guess. I saw many things you done with Ethan, it saddened me when both of you announced that you're breaking up. Now I'm going to med school still following both you separately, I am hoping that both of you will find happiness. Still, I'm hoping that both of you will come back on each other's arms. Love both of you
You have no business making me cry like this. I followed you both since the beginning.. both of your coming out videos helped me. And just watching you two on my little phone screen gave my teenage self hope, that it can get better.. and guess what it did! So now I hope you have the same realization that even a broken heart can get better! I wish you both all the light , happiness and love ❤️
I want to see the three of you, a happy family again. If you can’t go a day without missing someone, go get them back. Your videos were the therapy I needed growing up ❤️
Hey doods. Bit nervous sharing this video cuz I’m putting my heart out there (so be kind to it). There’s nothing more I love than making videos and I feel super duper lucky to call you sweet thangs my TH-cam fam. This is the story of a man who fell for another man over the summer of 2013. And my hot take on what it feels like to fall in love. Yeh we’re getting down and dirty and cheesy baby. And since Ethan has spent so many years on this channel it feels right to honor the adventures, treats, and good times shared. Can’t thank ya’ll enough for being apart of this vlogging voyage, more to come. Only love, Mark.
Moved ne to tears and I'm sending you compassionate vibes
1 min in already cryin 💞
Literally crying too😭love Mark❤️he’s such a good, kind, sweet person and his time with Ethan was so beautiful
I think it's clear to see that you wear your heart on your sleeve Mark and that is a beautiful thing. Never change! I'm glad you're expressing yourself and allowing yourself to process and feel your emotions it's very healthy. Never be afraid to be honest about how you feel :) hope you're keeping well and surrounding yourself with the love of those around you.
Realmente emotivo. Con tanto respeto. Gracias.
I’m 24 now which means I was just about 14 when I watched your coming out Mark and have been on a journey with you and Ethan the whole time. Leaving my home town, moving to London, my first relationship, my first breakup, hopeless romances and new jobs. You both making me laugh, cry, inspired, hope and dance alongside my own life. Thanks for a gorgeous video, seems to me that you’re exactly where you’re meant to be right now. Big love x
I've been the same!! It's so cool
I'm 24 now too hahaha
Haha me too ! 10 years oh my god !
I FEEL SEEN!! I’m 24 too
We’ve been the same haha
"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened." There is nothing comparable to first love. People will come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
So true! From where is that quote? Ive heard that before
Thanks for your vulnerability. That was beautiful.
People that have been here since first vid (me included) when he said it’s almost 10 years since that🤯 tons of love Mark🤍
Yup he actually helped me come out
Русский комментарий. Хочу выразить огромную благодарность за те чувства, которые я испытывала с Марком и Итаном. Ребята, вы показали мне, что такое любовь. У нас в стране все смотрели странно, когда я включала ваши видео, но мне плевать. Вы ребята, подарившие мне супер мега дупер офигенный досуг за просмотром Ютьюба. Безмерная любовь к вам до сих пор! Вообще фраза «every day is a great day» до сих пор со мной, я учусь познавать себя и ража каждому дню!
I love the doggg. He’s like. Oh god, Papa crying for bois again.
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@@Guvb235 Her name is OLIVE.
She, her, he...how presumptuous. I don't recall Olive telling us what their pronouns are lol 😭
I think the reason so many of us are here is because you and Ethan caught something on film that was nothing short of electric chemistry between two people deeply in love. Your attraction to each other was palpable and you were kind, loving men. To see two gay men in this way on a regular basis for years was nothing short of groundbreaking. xoxo
An observation: 2013-14 was a great time for love. So many couples on TH-cam fell in love during that period - and not just little love affairs but meaningful ones.
2020 was the opposite. So many couples broke up last year! Especially during the Covid quarantine. Too much time together had a detrimental effect on relationships.
Agreed!
That ending . . . 😭 It completely derailed me, seeing those old pics again. Been with them since 2013 and it felt like watching a timelapse sped-up version of the purest form of love and partnership. Mark is not alone in his struggle. In a way, the fans who know and love him since those days are also trying to move on and process what happened.
Did they give a reasoning why they broke up? I remember them since the beginning but was off for a few years until this video!
@@Iceyfire12 No they didn't explain anything; nothing specific at least.
@@Iceyfire12 Ethan explained it on his channel. Go watch his video "Getting Over A Break Up".
This is so true. Thank you.
Many gays from all over the world followed you, rejoiced with you and believed that it would be so with everyone. I can say with confidence: your love was not in vain, your love filled thousands of hearts with faith in happiness, your love gave everyone the courage to accept themselves as you are, and prompted everyone to look for their boyfriend, their Mark or Eaton. In every video together, you guys said: believe in yourself and be happy! I hid these words very deeply in my heart and follow them. ❤️
I'm 55 years old I've never had a relationship and it wasn't for want of trying. There are some more people like me so just remember you're already ahead of some of us. You've had more than some of us ever will.
Same situation and in 21 years younger than you. Although I haven't really been trying. I'll get there and so will you.
34 here. Never had a relationship as well.
When I was young I desired a relationship, but never found one, not for the want of trying. Now that I'm older I feel stronger and independent and wouldn't want one, and no longer desire a relationship. I'm quite content with myself and a few friends, now I wouldn't have it any other way., and looking back I remember those strong desires, feeling lonely for that special someone, but now feel almost relieved no longer needing it and letting it control my life. Being independent and content with your own company can be the best,
Same, only 20.
I turned 50 this year and also have never had a relationship, I used to get quite depressed about it but I realized that all my life I’ve seen people when never found someone to be with and I just accepted that it doesn’t always happen for some people and I’m one of them and after I accepted it I stopped getting so depressed about it.
A relationship should be considered a success if it brought joy, value, and lessons learned to your life while it lasted -- as long as no emotional or physical abuse was involved.
The wider culture and Disney have sold us this idea that a relationship / marriage is a failure if it doesn't end with "happily ever after" or when we die. I no longer believe that is necessarily true.
but lets be honest we all want that "happily ever after" or "hope to die together" kinda relationship
Although I can totally see how that would be the outcome people see after watching or hearing these stories, I do think it is important to see them as chapters of characters lives. I like that you bring this up because it actually is something that I as a big Disney fan think a lot. And I wonder sometimes where that disconnect in communication is. Am I being close minded? What do you guys think?
@@xanderchrisrodriguez3663 Since you asked, I’ll share my thoughts on this. Yes, I believe that “and they lived happily ever after” is what’s considered ideal in Disney and the culture at large. Real life, though, often shows that many people evolve and what they used to appreciate and enjoy about each other, might change enough to want a different situation, either by oneself or with a new person. Remembering the good times, while acknowledging why the relationship ended, shows maturity, in my opinion.
"are you ready to love someone that hard?"........... so very true - thanks Mark.
Mark, Ethan and you are something special. You two are the magic, as a couple or as individuals the same.
"It is better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all". By: Alfred Lord Tennyson.
2014 i take a year off school preparing for the exam of transferring to an art university. i was so lost and frustrated with life, the only thing i can do is keep drawing and painting. that’s when i found you on youtube. whenever i feel bad i jump on youtube watch you and ethan. your relationship makes me so happy and super inspired. 🥺🤍
seeing you getting better and better by every coming project (video, photography, whatsoever) REALLY makes me feel so happy & proud for ya🥰❤️ most of all, giving me the strength to continue. ✨
thank you for everything mark. keep it up. ily Xx
This video just proved to me that I truly can’t feel love in the way that others do
Mark. It has been an absolute privilege to be able to follow you (and Ethan) through your videos for the last 10 years. I can hardly believe it's been that long. I don't think you'll ever realize what 'Methan' has meant to me, as a gay spartan living in Belgium, and to so many others. Your videos really made (make!) every day a great day. I wish you love. Lots of love ❤️
ok i love you
Now This is a beautiful video. It makes me feel melancholic. I’m 65. I só hope that he will find love again. ❤
Oh man. Being at the beginning stages of releasing someone I’ve loved for over a decade, boy did I need this video today. Love you loads, Mark! ❤️
One thing I've learned after leting someone go is that you never really stop thinking about them, in a way you never stop loving that someone, others come and go but you always think of that one special person and after awhile you no longer feel sad when you think of them, you just smile.
wish you the best jonelle! a decade is a very long time! 🌈☀️
Who else has watched this video multiple times and found that it improves with every view ? All the feels ❤️😷
The ending literally brought tears to my eyes. Wasn't expecting this upload. Thank you for uploading it. This little group of people, who have held Methan in their hearts for so long, needed this. My mouth fell open the moment I saw the post on Instagram and then many times during the video because you were saying the words which we weren't sure you ever would on the channel because it's so personal. But thank you for sharing. This group of people is your personal space after all. I love both of you equally and would love to see you guys remain as friends if possible.
PS: I wish you said more.
Markkkkkkkk, you make me cry:( I watch y’all’s old videos all the time 😭
The way Mark still talks about Ethan makes my heart pitter patter ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
That ending brought me to tears. What you two had and did took courage and LOVE and if anything it started a revolution. ❤
“The crazy train to love town” sounds cheesy and corny but I felt the genuineness and the love you have/had for Ethan. ❤️
Beautiful
It sounds like a 90's-00's Kenny Chesney song...lol.
Marke Miller, Its impossible to ever replace someone after you loosing them, they always going to be part of your heart, life, and memory. You Will always love them no matter what. Even if you just with them for view months, and you with him for years. As your old subscriber, i am so glad you Made this video, it shows me how respectfull you are toward him after what happen. Ily Mark,
I know this takes a lot to share, but it’s amazing that you have gotten to a point where you felt you could sit down and share this and thats amazing growth. People who try to belittle what you had aren’t trying to be mean I don’t think thats just what they say to try to make you feel better. Some things just feel so right and its impossible to believe that it could be “wrong”. I had a somewhat similar situation where I fell for someone and I’m also still processing. Im hoping at some point down the road something in my life really will belittle or at least match the feeling I had.
Anyways.. keep your head up and keep letting time do it’s thing :)
Such beautiful words about the craziness of love.
I fell in love head over heals just like you did. That was 19 years ago and I still feel that way with him. Going stronger than ever
Good for you, Mark! My husband and I are 25 years strong together. Everyday for all these years we touch, laugh, talk, eat, sleep, walk, garden, cook and clean together. You better believe we know our relationship is special; straight or gay. Not bragging or gloating, just incredibly grateful and wishing the same for everyone.
@@beastscooter I was married for 25 years it was very special to me but not so much for her
Her money was way more special to her and still true to this day.
I left and never looked back
My partner was the first man I was ever with actually the only man. My heart flutters when I think of him
He is a very special man and I’m so very lucky to find someone like him when I came out.
CS Lewis once wrote “Those who are enjoying something, or suffering something, together, are companions. Those who enjoy or suffer one another, are not.” Seeing the love you had for eachother move so actively throughout the world inspired me to seek meaningful relationships. Even if I'm not there yet, some 7 years later, I know that happiness is more than just enjoying a person - I know this thanks to you.
What’s beautiful is that you both agreed to go your separate ways, peacefully. That’s very mature.
You are loved dearly by your TH-cam family ❤️. Thank you for being you and encouraging others to be kind, love others, and enjoy life. Your videos are little reminders for me and I’m truly grateful!
Imagine how different the world would be if we all wore our heart on our sleeves like Mark does.
It's 2 a.m. and i'm crying in my room, been following you guys since that 1st summer.. still here. I love you both so much, wish you nothing but the best.. thank u for being in my life for the past 8 years.
“Are you ready to love someone that hard.” Such a brief comment you made and yet it stuck so incredibly hard.
You are amazing...you both are. Thank you so much sharing your life with me and the world. You've always made me smile even when life sucks...nothing but love for you guys and everything that you've put out there. Thanks Mark Edward Miller.
Mark Cherish the moments and learn the lessons. You will NEVER forget your first love.
Mark, you are amazing. Thank you for putting your life out there for the world to see.
I started watching this channel my senior year of highschool (2013), through college and up until now and you guys are like gay dad's to so many people my age. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. ❤️
This is one of the most truthful videos I have watched in a long time.
I'm sure this was a difficult video to make. But this was so special and you are loved for making it. Thanks sir! 😊
Thanks for the closure Mark. You and Ethan were the envy of many and the magic you shared will always be with you!!!! I have been with my now husband since junior high school first as friends and then as a couple. There have been challenges along our 42 years together. But I know how blessed we are to have each other. You are still an inspiration to many…never forget how talented, loving and caring you are. I have no doubt I will be watching another video of yours with your new love some day. All the Best my friend 👍
It takes time. My first real love hit me like a brick to the face when i met him and even today i think back and cant help but smile just like you were saying. You will always have that between the two of you no one can take those memories. You genuinely seem like such a loving dude x
I have been watching you from the beginning, I have been there threw all of it with you. Although I’m older than you, you have taught me alot !! Thanks for being here !!
Im so happy that you posted this video. Funny thing my and my ex used to watch your videos together. Now I’m watching them alone. I thought that he was the love of my life but slowly through time I’m learning not everyone is meant to be forever. Some people are there to prepare us for the love of another and to help us grow into who we are meant to be. It’s hard I’m 29 too and this year I’ve seen all my friends get married. But I’m accepting that it’s a different journey for the homo-sexual. I appreciate your videos. Much love!
It's funny how many similar stories I read about. I'm 29 and can say I have a very similar story. Amazing that TH-cam can bring us all together.
Hi Mark - thank you for this video. I went back to your first video and watched it again. Over the last ten years many brave people have come out and shared their experiences on TH-cam. I am certain that as a result of the millions of views these videos have received, lives have been saved.
Also over the ten years, we have seen your own development as a balanced and fair individual. My favourite videos are always of the family gatherings at the lake in the summer.
All the best.
Emotions so beautifully explained, its only obvious this video has 0 dislikes
This is LOVE! Thanks for sharing Mark! Sending love back your way…
The ending 😭 It’s 12AM here and I can’t sleep cos i’m emotional
I so appreciate your validation of eathan.....i still follow both of you and there is and was something missing as each of you process the breakup on your separate channels but going out of the way to use words as ex.........instead of your names. Only respect for both of you.....and it was magic and amazing to witness. That magic will happen again....
woah i've 'known' you for 10 years 14 -> 24 soon. this will always be my favourite channel and my favourite person on youtube, thank you for sharing your life and art with us. i was a sad and lost teen and now a happier and prouder adult (partly thanks to you) and so i truly believe in 'it gets better' and it will continue getting better for both/all of us. i know so many others feel the same way as me in the comments but it proves how many countless lives you've positively impacted. still waiting for my ticket for the train to love town but i cant wait to feel all that you described here. I remember back when you guys had a P.O box ah I really wanted to send a letter back then but hey at least i can leave this comment. ill keep supporting you with a like and a view :)
you're a total sweetheart and everyone's first virtual boyfriend haha
keep following your heart,
written with Love
I'm 27 now, and I've watched you since day one. Always will. 😌🙏
Oh god! This was unexpected. It felt so honest and real and raw. I think this was a huge step forward for Mark.
Happy to be a part of this top secret underground channel! And the last part of the video felt like a little great homage to the relationship. Thank you for sharing.
It can be difficult to process a past long-term relationship, but I’m glad you’re able to look back on it positively and can appreciate all the adventures you had together.
Awww Marky Mark. This video made me cry, laugh, smile. I saw the notification weeks ago but was waiting to watch it because I knew I would be emotional with you. I’m so happy you took your time to talk about this. It’s perfectly ok to go through it and take your time. ❤️.
I have to say olive chillin (usually napping) in the back in these videos is everything.
Bro, Increible video. Muestra del excelente ser humano que eres y que es Ethan. Quiero agradecerles por permitirme crecer junto a ustedes, reir, bailar, soñar. Gracias siempre!
100% representado
You can use google translate to easily put these comments in English.
@@3506Dodge Y porqué no lo colocas TÚ? si es tanto lo que quieres saber que escribí. Deja la holgazanería y pierde menos tiempo criticando y más instruyendote. El Inglés no es el único idioma que existe.
@@MrYamirking 他们不知道语言，他们不知道。你对交流不感兴趣，你不是在免费发帖吗？
Creo que muchas personas, incluyendo a algunos heteros, fantasean con una relación como la que tenía Mark y Ethan. Yo he buscado algo así toda la vida, pero se que tal vez no sea posible, es algo que realmente se da en 1/1000000, entonces pues mientras tanto disfrutaré de mi soltería
Thank you for opening up, Mark! We love you. And thank you for still sharing the journey after all these years as well.
I don't know if you'll read this Mark, but I really must say that over the years you and this channel have been the source of so much joy, comfort, and strength for so many people, including myself. I have followed your adventures ever since your coming out video. Watching your relationship with Ethan blossom gave me the encouragement I needed to come out and be proud of my sexuality. So I am very grateful for you & Ethan, and I am sure many others share a similar story to mine. We have watched your life and your relationship with Ethan from a very distant, carefully curated perspective, so I know that we have only seen a small sliver of everything you experienced with him. But even those small glimpses into your story have been a true pleasure to witness, so I thank you Mark for sharing your journey with us. Wishing you the best.
I watched your videos from way back and I can't believe it's been years. I'm at a loss for words, but know that us fans will always support you. Love you Mark!
God Mark, this is so special, so intimate, so "heart on your sleeve" and so honest. You are so truly AMAZING, truly special and such a beautiful person!! Much love to you! 💛💖
Oh and you guys made me feel not alone. I grew up looking at you and understanding that its possible to be happy and loved. Reading these comments makes me believe im not the only one. Hi from italy
Love at first sight 100% exists. i.e when I first went to a Dunkin' Doughnuts.
Jokes aside, I feel that one of the biggest reasons myself and probably many others were attracted to both yours and Ethan's channels is because of the relationship you both shared. Many people fantasize and long for that sort of love for their entire lives. It's rare.
I am 23, but I do know that love can be wild, not cruel but a bunch of endless possibilities leading to the next. You will find another love, that will beat the past but those experiences are with you forever. You were my first TH-camr that I could watch and help me confront my friends and family about me being gay. Your are amazing so let your light shine man ✨
I have to say, I respect you even more making this video. I'm not as familiar with the 2 of you as some people are in the comments section, but I know sincerity when I see and hear it. Makes me wonder why the 2 of you aren't together, but that's your business.
If you do get any negative comments, and you will, their are negative Nellies everywhere, and NO YT channel is without them. All I'd ask is, don't be the one who gets 99 compliment and 1 negative, and focuses on that 1 and not the others. Some people just have unhappy lives, otherwise, they wouldn't write those things, Happy people don't write negative things. I wish you well, and much happiness.
@@2004cyrus Thanks for the update , and with your good explanation I realize being separated and remaining friends is the wisest decision. Thanks
@@2004cyrus 👍 Have a good weekend.
Ethan explains everything on his channel. Go watch his videos "Getting Over A Break Up" and "Learning To Let Go". He was a teenager and had just turned 19 when he got into this relationship. He grew and changed a lot. So did Mark. And they are no longer compatible. Ethan is much happier now as a single man. He's currently in California working as a Youth Counselor at a summer camp for LGBTQ+ kids.
@@alterlove359 I'll watch that, thanks. It's good to hear they are still friends and have moved on. I always feel so sad for the one who feels left behind.
Thanks for that, it was like the elephant in the room not being addressed ever. Older guy here and have learned u can only do your part in a relationship and it doesnt matter how much u do or give the other person has to meet u at least half way or it never last. So many couples one loves the other more and its hard to find that 50/50 love!! I think u are so talented & the best yutuber on here.REAL LOVE is like winning the lottery & u know how hard that is. Have followed u from the beginning. Hang in there my friend.
You’ll find each other again, be it lovers or friends.
I, too, have been thinking about Love in my life lately and this video is exactly what I needed to see and hear today. Thank you for sharing, Mark. 🙏🏻💛🌈
It's so toutching that the love and respect for each other still remains inspite of the breakup. It's hard and it will be so for quite a while...those of us who have been here since the very beginning know that. I randomly wonder if Ethan saw this video.
What a beautiful, sweet, heart felt video. Thank you for sharing your life and feelings with us.
I followed Mark & Ethan from Sydney Australia. I do miss seeing them together. This video made me think of the song Waves by Robin Shultz.
I have been following you since the beginning. I am many years older and lost my life love to AIDS in 1991. He suffered for over a year. So life is short, but love is forever! Love u Mark
I haven’t even watched yet and I know I’ll love this
This has only been out one day and already there are too many comments for me to read them all! I'm glad you've now reached the stage where you can talk about this in front of 5.7k strangers - I assume that's a good sign. And for all that you and Ethan shared of your life together, I want to say thank you: it was truly special and it meant a lot.
Dude you didn't lose anything. You gained a life experience that many wish for everyday. You got to share your time with someone you love and care about.
I found your TH-cam channel through a TH-cam advert and instantly felt the love between Ethan and yourself. It's heartbreaking to know that you've broken up but I'm glad you're doing ok Mark. Take all of the time you need and don't be too hard on yourself.
Your story is one that is so relatable and hearing your experience and how you see it now definitely makes me feel seen for my own experiences. 🤗
I started watching you guys back then, at the same time I also had my “summer” with a wonderful guy. I still have a lot of love for him. His name was Ben, and I kinda miss him every now and then. It’s crazy how time goes by and we all change. I’m happy to be able to keep up with your content. Cheers to all of us and our growth. I hope we can get a few more of those beautiful summers. 🖤
When you start a relationship so young, it's full of fun and life.But then you grow up and you may not grow in the same direction. But it was love and l know there is still love between you both. But it is love of friendship and you should take it for what it is.Some friendships last forever. I have had my best friend for 40yrs.
I started watching you and your journey when I was in 8th grade. I remember watching your videos in the back of my class at my private catholic school wishing one day to be like you. It was those videos that then gave me the courage to come out to my school and the world. I’m writing this now going into my junior year of college and I can not express how thankful I am for every video and every post you had because without them I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Thank you for being so open and always having that safe space on your platforms.
I still believe that you guys are made for each other in this lonely planet so I pray for you guys either together or individual.
Thanks for sharing with us Mark,I truly appreciate your beautiful story of your relationship.❤❤
Daing I wasn’t ready for that last bit……
Thank you so much for sharing this! We don't talk enough about these things, but reading the comments I realize that we're all far from alone in this. Thanks for making this a space of vulnerability and honesty, Mark. Sending you love!
You can take all of those wonderful memories to your grave with you. Nothing like a deep love.
I love how this video has a rawness to it. Mark shows alot of emotions in this and shows alot of his heart. Mark is such a beautiful person.
The art you make even in such a small sit down and talk video is gorgeous
Who else wanted to hug Mark at the beginning of the video? It's totally understandable Mark, I know I've had my share of heartache. You are an incredible person, always appreciate the content you share and your openness. I still have and wear your "Everyday is a Great Day" shirt. All the best to you.
I won't lie this is heartbreaking 💔 to watch. 😢
As I was coming out late as an adult, this is one of the first channels of this type that I subscribed to. I love both these guys immensely.
It’s very hard to lose someone who love but remember we here for you hope ur be ok stay safe xx
Simply beautiful and truthful.
I grew up with you and ethan and always admire both you and your journey love you guys
ngl i cried watching this. i got heartbroken about 2 months ago, he was my first love. we were only together 2 years but when you make so many memories with someone it’s extremely hard to let go. each day gets better and better. time heals for sure. but man is it a difficult process. its nice being able to find closure within yourself and its a really good feeling knowing you put all the love you could give into someone else. i loved so hard and im so thankful my last relationship taught me just how much i can love. im excited to find my true soulmate because if i felt the most extreme love for my ex, i cant even imagine how it’ll feel with my soulmate. thanks for this video mark
Been following you since you're still in college, I guess. I saw many things you done with Ethan, it saddened me when both of you announced that you're breaking up. Now I'm going to med school still following both you separately, I am hoping that both of you will find happiness. Still, I'm hoping that both of you will come back on each other's arms. Love both of you
You have no business making me cry like this.
I followed you both since the beginning.. both of your coming out videos helped me. And just watching you two on my little phone screen gave my teenage self hope, that it can get better.. and guess what it did! So now I hope you have the same realization that even a broken heart can get better!
I wish you both all the light , happiness and love ❤️
I want to see the three of you, a happy family again. If you can’t go a day without missing someone, go get them back. Your videos were the therapy I needed growing up ❤️
Some of us were there since the beginning. It was a beautiful journey. You are a great young man! 💚