I really needed to hear this. It made me a bit emotional. I always asked myself "why?" when my dad took his own life, but it isn't his overall depression that caused it, but the fact he kept fighting against it, instead of accepting it. Mental illness is very prevalent in my family on a genetic scale, and I think we've all tried so hard to not feel sad, when we should be using those moments to learn why we feel that way and how to change.
Seperate note here is that sometimes this book verges on the side of toxic positivity which is also a problem because it makes certain things seem a lot easier than they actually are - i should have said this in the video. Constantly growing and changing isn't going to be the case all the time - so even accepting that is listening to your feelings and figuring out what they're trying to say. I'm sorry to hear about your loss Jade, I imagine that would be so difficult to process and so painful. The hardest thing I think when I was depressive for an extended period a couple of years ago is the trying to escape it brings so much shame which you eluded to. When you feel like you're having the "wrong" feelings or reactions it's an added pressure and shame that we put onto ourselves. Everyone does what they can to do their best - it's weird when you read or hear something and be like "hmm maybe I thought this thing that was helping me is hurting me in the longterm" - that's me when I read books like this! Thank you for sharing
i do love the approach of 'what are your painful feelings trying to tell you' rather than 'don't let them control you'. yesterday a friend told me that their therapist told them to use jealousy as an indicator of what they want out of life and their endeavours, and something clicked in me when they did. they told me they were jealous of the degree i was studying and how i moved interstate to do it and the things i got to do because of it, and because of that jealousy they decided to move their focus of their own degree to something similar - because being jealous of what i had experienced told them that *they* really wanted those experiences too. and i started thinking of my own university and studying journey and where i am right now and what i am jealous of my other loved ones in their lives (and honestly its not much which is nice, to know i am happy in my own life - but i was jealous of my best friend and how she has finished her degree and doesn't have to juggle studying and working anymore, which has informed some decisions about what i want to do with my own study going forward).
I love these "Sha'an's thoughts" videos! And for some reason, the timing of them has been impeccable. I've found that this year has been the year of uncomfy feelings and bigger decisions. Your video on routine actually helped me when I was really overwhelmed and felt like I was just drowning in my feelings and thinking I didn't know what to do (I'm working on listening to my gut more because more often than not, it usually knows what's up). Finding routine helped me self-regulate enough to process what was going through my head. Thanks for taking the time to share these personal thoughts with us. 💕
there must be something in the air!!! when i share these I just hope someone needs to hear it like I did and I'm so so so glad it found you at the right time! we must be similar honestly! Thank you so much for sharing with me
I always get so excited when you upload a new video, you are such a wonderful and inspiring person, big hug to you from Germany ♥️ I am a psychologist and we say that no feeling is negative, feelings can be comfortable or uncomfortable but not negative because every emotion has a function, for example to protect us (fear) or to set boundaries for ourself (anger). If you listen to your emotion and realize that it is not functional (maybe because you learned that you should react with sadness rather than anger (we love those socialization don’t we), you can take this as a signal as well and try to find your emotion that is lying underneath. Just some rambling about emotions cuz it is such an interesting topic! Hope it makes sense in any way.
@@furrylittlepeach honestly yeah I can see that! Also I definitely got the rumination gene from my mom, we both can't stop thinking about things hahahahaha
I'm really loving and enjoying the amount of vlogs you're doing right now, it's getting cold here so it's like cozy vlog watching season for me and these are so good for my soul while also being aesthetic which is ideal for me
This video felt like exactly what my heart and head needed to hear in this moment - I've already ordered the book, but also just hearing your personal thoughts on parts of it that stood out to you, I resonated with so much of it. I was honestly tearing up listening to you talk because, and maybe this is a me thing, I feel like sometimes we get so in our own heads that we feel like we're the only ones that feel that way and when you talked about feeling like you weren't a 'real artist' or allowed to take up space with other artists in the past, it just stopped me in my mental tracks because this is something I've told myself SO many times to talk myself out of new opportunities or trying new things or even working on my own craft and practice. The part about how our minds try to convince us our life is falling apart when we're actually in a good place - I can't tell you how times in the past year my anxiety has tried to convince me something bad is going to happen and deep down at the core of it I've realised it's a self-worth thing, where the work I've put in has finally started to pay off but my self-worth issues try to convince me it won't last. Honestly, I just want to reach through the screen and give you a big hug because this video really genuinely has made me snap out of an unhelpful mindset this week and realise that sometimes I'm choosing to make myself unhappy in a way. Thank you for sharing this book and also your own thoughts on it all 🫶
I felt this as some sort of warm giant hug, the timing of this as I literally had this conversation with my new therapist yesterday about anxiety and avoidance of negative feelings, it almost feels like the universe is like "you're not alone, many ppl feel like you" bc really, everything you describe is how my brain works too it made me really emotional YwY but also hearing you talking about the feelings you're struggling with makes me feel like wanting to hold your hand and also tell you that you're doing so well in working on yourself and that I genuinely feel like you've done the biggest steps bc realizing everything you realized is really the hardest. I know anxiety really stripped me from the person I am bc it kinda stopped me from living my life so such a long time or I used to be but it also gave me much more empathy for others and for myself, it is weird to think about it but weirdly enough I came to accept that my anxiety also made me a better human in some ways, but i also have a long road ahead to not let those "bad" feelings turn me into an angry gremlin.. It's really a long process. I just want to say to anyone who's reading that you are strong!! But it's also okay to have bad days
i love these kinds of videos! makes me feel like we’re all on this lil journey together. i love being reminded that as humans we’re all fundamentally the same, all scared of the same things, and no one is uniquely broken or messed up. i also love the idea that different parts of this chapter would resonate with us at different points throughout our lives - right now it’s the lost and directionless bit for me, cause i just finished my masters degree and i’d never planned this far ahead really, and all my actual goals and dreams as an artist feel a million miles away with no map on how to get there. and i’m so eager to get rid of that feeling that i never thought of exploring it and listening to it? what a laid back and reassuring video to start my morning! also that salad looked SO good 🩷
these reflective videos have been so lovely. 💖 i find it so interesting how we can hear the same messaging a million times but your circumstances and experience need to be in the exact right alignment for the messaging to absorb. and even then theres more to learn. the amount of aha moments ive had only to realize two years later that theres a deeper understanding to be had from that exact same messaging. inception of aha moments. lol im a graphic designer/illustrator who went back to school for early childhood education. GD/Illo. taught me such valuable lessons about understanding other peoples persepctives and being able to anticipate needs but i do think it also fed into my natural people pleasing tendencies. going through ECE i learned so much about how we are shaped cognitively, emotionally, and physically. i had so many aha moments in school about myself, my family, friends, strangers..but its also interesting how the more you learn the more you realize you know nothing, hahah. i really love the concept of emotions being little notifications from our brain. our behaviour is always linked to satisfying some type of need and its so hard to sweep away the protective layers to see that need sometimes. i always think about my life in cycles of observing → learning → doing. we cant do any of them without the other and i often shame myself when im in one part of the cycle and want to jump to the next. if i am struggling to move through an emotion or behaviour i try to remind myself its okay not to understand yet. maybe im just stuck in one of those stages. its so easy to just wallow becuase its not turning out right so im trying very very hard to shift my mindset to "maybe i cant move forward right now. i might need a break to feel a bit shit but i trust myself to keep trying. whether thats today, tomorrow or next week." always so rambly in your comment section lol p.s. regarding your final comments about people leaving long form comments and you reading/replying. ive always been so so impressed with how you engage with your community. i dont think any of us expect a reply but even when i see you replying thoughtfully to someone else im always filled with such appreciation for how genuinely you engage with others. you can tell that youve fostered a community where everyone is on the same level sharing thoughts without judgement. that takes skill as a creator navigating parasocial relationships. kuddos. 😊
5 minutes into this video and I’m already thinking “hang on, let me go back and take some notes!”. I loved your last video and thoughts on the other chapter and have gone back a couple of times to rewatch it. No doubt I’ll be doing exactly the same with this video :)
Omg the popping of the balloons with a knife with the calming background of you having such great insights from this book slayed me lol. The exact content I love! Hope you're having a great holiday season!
I feel like I've been in such a rutt and avoiding everything, especially my emotions, so hearing sha'an explain her thoughts and her highlights of the book makes me want to get better, instead of avoiding
also, avoidance can be it's own message - maybe you're not ready to face something yet. I know that can be true for me too - I guess the key is to just listen and see what all these things might be saying. feeling them is okay (i have to get used to this idea too haha). thanks for watching and for sharing!
I was about to put the book you recommended on my wishlist as I already spent my book allowance this month, when I discovered the audiobook is included for free in my audible subscription! What luck!😁 So, guys, check your subscriptions! Maybe you can start enjoying this books wisdom for free this very moment, too. ❤
Thank you for always sharing such open thoughts and being such a cozy and safe space for creatives 🥹💖 I haven’t finished the video yet but I’m enjoying hearing your thoughts on this topic a lot! Love the charming handwritten titles and doodles too! 💖
I just finished Brianna's The Mountain is You. 101 Essays that will change how you think is my next read! I love how it's such a coincidence that you're reading her too ❤🎉
This was emotional. I went through something last year and until this day I rarely have happy days. And I feel I am in a loop that I can’t get out of. Feeling good or content seem a bit foreign to me since it’s been so long that I felt it and when I do it is only a matter of a very very short time like an hour or so. I am hoping that after I finish my internship and go back home and be with my family that I feels bit more relaxed. Anyways, I sometimes lose confidence that these emotions would fade and good ones will come as much. This sometimes makes me wonder how to accept those feelings and just let them be. Too much to say I am not in the best state haha
This video was a warm herbal tea for my soul. Thankyou for sharing these with passages with us! I am still thinking about them (I don't normally write comments, but I just had to come back here!) I especially like the idea that every single feeling is neutral. wow. Like every feeling has something to tell you, each feeling is a different warning light behind the steering wheel. And I guess our bodies are the car? ahaha. A big hearty thanks for the pearls~ 💚🍵
@@furrylittlepeach thank you. Trying to be productive today 😅 Thank you for what you shared, especially your vulnerability. It’s not easy moving through complex layers of emotion and not “villainising” emotions is so important, thank you for the reminder. This was also timely for me and I’m navigating some things myself at the moment and I think it takes a great deal of courage and bravery to not let the “voices” in our own head make us think everyone has bad intentions (some do for sure!!) but especially when people we trust usually have our best interests at heart. Thanks again for sharing! ❤
Bahahah! We have screens that he cant get out of so dont u worry about that! What i would love him to stop is jumping up and down on his auto feeder to get freebies between his 3 feeding times lmao!
I'm on new medication that has changed my nervous system, and it's making me experience anger from minor things for the first time... It's like these spikes that pop up when I'm at the top of overwhelmed, when I would probably usually crash out. It's happening at what feel like silly things - my partner talking too much about different map projection types when I'm hangry was most recent. And I've been trying to notice it and voice it and hear about how my partner reacts (I feel so freaking lucky cause they just see my overwhelm and aren't getting hurt - probably because I tone down my outer self so much that the worst they get is a withering look or "I'm angry now!" haha... Do I need to work on that?) But idk I don't have much experience with anger and I don't know how to practise feeling it! It's so strange!! Even talking about it here feels useful though. I hadn't conceptualised it as a peak to my overwhelm like that.
Thank you so much for this, I loved your take on the essay. th-cam.com/video/dcUAIpZrwog/w-d-xo.htmlsi=6s6BJpKZce3vQf5V This little video always reminds me to thing of discomfort as my physiology signalling that there is a time of change and growth ahead. I hope you enjoy it.
🗣 Typo in one of my hand drawn titles! *suppress - let knowing it kills me be enough 💕
When you said "i want to become a safe space for myself" i paused the video and put that quote in my journal. Thays such a good way to put it 😊
I love Tonka just sitting on the bed the whole video. He’s such a sweetie. Lovely video as usual! I love hearing your thoughts and experiences. 💕💕
He is the definition of a VELCRO CAT 🤣
I really needed to hear this. It made me a bit emotional. I always asked myself "why?" when my dad took his own life, but it isn't his overall depression that caused it, but the fact he kept fighting against it, instead of accepting it. Mental illness is very prevalent in my family on a genetic scale, and I think we've all tried so hard to not feel sad, when we should be using those moments to learn why we feel that way and how to change.
Seperate note here is that sometimes this book verges on the side of toxic positivity which is also a problem because it makes certain things seem a lot easier than they actually are - i should have said this in the video. Constantly growing and changing isn't going to be the case all the time - so even accepting that is listening to your feelings and figuring out what they're trying to say.
I'm sorry to hear about your loss Jade, I imagine that would be so difficult to process and so painful. The hardest thing I think when I was depressive for an extended period a couple of years ago is the trying to escape it brings so much shame which you eluded to. When you feel like you're having the "wrong" feelings or reactions it's an added pressure and shame that we put onto ourselves. Everyone does what they can to do their best - it's weird when you read or hear something and be like "hmm maybe I thought this thing that was helping me is hurting me in the longterm" - that's me when I read books like this!
Thank you for sharing
@@furrylittlepeach I love hearing your feedback.
i do love the approach of 'what are your painful feelings trying to tell you' rather than 'don't let them control you'. yesterday a friend told me that their therapist told them to use jealousy as an indicator of what they want out of life and their endeavours, and something clicked in me when they did. they told me they were jealous of the degree i was studying and how i moved interstate to do it and the things i got to do because of it, and because of that jealousy they decided to move their focus of their own degree to something similar - because being jealous of what i had experienced told them that *they* really wanted those experiences too.
and i started thinking of my own university and studying journey and where i am right now and what i am jealous of my other loved ones in their lives (and honestly its not much which is nice, to know i am happy in my own life - but i was jealous of my best friend and how she has finished her degree and doesn't have to juggle studying and working anymore, which has informed some decisions about what i want to do with my own study going forward).
I love these "Sha'an's thoughts" videos! And for some reason, the timing of them has been impeccable. I've found that this year has been the year of uncomfy feelings and bigger decisions. Your video on routine actually helped me when I was really overwhelmed and felt like I was just drowning in my feelings and thinking I didn't know what to do (I'm working on listening to my gut more because more often than not, it usually knows what's up). Finding routine helped me self-regulate enough to process what was going through my head. Thanks for taking the time to share these personal thoughts with us. 💕
there must be something in the air!!! when i share these I just hope someone needs to hear it like I did and I'm so so so glad it found you at the right time! we must be similar honestly! Thank you so much for sharing with me
@ If your next video like this hits me the same way at the right time, THEEEN I’ll be scared. 😂
Sha’an these videos are so therapeutic, thank you for this content!
i'm so glad to hear that! It's my pleasure
I ABSOLUTELY loved this. It grounded me and brought some deep emotions up to the surface. Thank you❤
I always get so excited when you upload a new video, you are such a wonderful and inspiring person, big hug to you from Germany ♥️ I am a psychologist and we say that no feeling is negative, feelings can be comfortable or uncomfortable but not negative because every emotion has a function, for example to protect us (fear) or to set boundaries for ourself (anger). If you listen to your emotion and realize that it is not functional (maybe because you learned that you should react with sadness rather than anger (we love those socialization don’t we), you can take this as a signal as well and try to find your emotion that is lying underneath. Just some rambling about emotions cuz it is such an interesting topic! Hope it makes sense in any way.
This is so interesting, thanks for sharing! 🥰
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I resonate so much with all of this :') I love these types of videos from you, it feels like listening to an older sister
@@furrylittlepeach honestly yeah I can see that! Also I definitely got the rumination gene from my mom, we both can't stop thinking about things hahahahaha
bahaha! yes let's not discount genes!!! it's even harder to manage things differently that are like... BUILT IN!
these home videos always have such cosy vibes 🥰
Eee! Goals 💗💗💗
Thank you for sharing this. I needed this and will be buying this book for myself because I am the same way with feelings as you ❤
This video was like sitting down and having a heart to heart together with a friend ❤️
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I'm really loving and enjoying the amount of vlogs you're doing right now, it's getting cold here so it's like cozy vlog watching season for me and these are so good for my soul while also being aesthetic which is ideal for me
This video felt like exactly what my heart and head needed to hear in this moment - I've already ordered the book, but also just hearing your personal thoughts on parts of it that stood out to you, I resonated with so much of it. I was honestly tearing up listening to you talk because, and maybe this is a me thing, I feel like sometimes we get so in our own heads that we feel like we're the only ones that feel that way and when you talked about feeling like you weren't a 'real artist' or allowed to take up space with other artists in the past, it just stopped me in my mental tracks because this is something I've told myself SO many times to talk myself out of new opportunities or trying new things or even working on my own craft and practice.
The part about how our minds try to convince us our life is falling apart when we're actually in a good place - I can't tell you how times in the past year my anxiety has tried to convince me something bad is going to happen and deep down at the core of it I've realised it's a self-worth thing, where the work I've put in has finally started to pay off but my self-worth issues try to convince me it won't last.
Honestly, I just want to reach through the screen and give you a big hug because this video really genuinely has made me snap out of an unhelpful mindset this week and realise that sometimes I'm choosing to make myself unhappy in a way. Thank you for sharing this book and also your own thoughts on it all 🫶
I felt this as some sort of warm giant hug, the timing of this as I literally had this conversation with my new therapist yesterday about anxiety and avoidance of negative feelings, it almost feels like the universe is like "you're not alone, many ppl feel like you" bc really, everything you describe is how my brain works too it made me really emotional YwY but also hearing you talking about the feelings you're struggling with makes me feel like wanting to hold your hand and also tell you that you're doing so well in working on yourself and that I genuinely feel like you've done the biggest steps bc realizing everything you realized is really the hardest. I know anxiety really stripped me from the person I am bc it kinda stopped me from living my life so such a long time or I used to be but it also gave me much more empathy for others and for myself, it is weird to think about it but weirdly enough I came to accept that my anxiety also made me a better human in some ways, but i also have a long road ahead to not let those "bad" feelings turn me into an angry gremlin.. It's really a long process. I just want to say to anyone who's reading that you are strong!! But it's also okay to have bad days
Your salad looked so good... 😍 really nice to talk about these topics from time to time!
So funny because i literally just used our scraps to make something because we hadnt gone grocery shopping after we got back! And it was yummy!!!
i love these kinds of videos! makes me feel like we’re all on this lil journey together. i love being reminded that as humans we’re all fundamentally the same, all scared of the same things, and no one is uniquely broken or messed up. i also love the idea that different parts of this chapter would resonate with us at different points throughout our lives - right now it’s the lost and directionless bit for me, cause i just finished my masters degree and i’d never planned this far ahead really, and all my actual goals and dreams as an artist feel a million miles away with no map on how to get there. and i’m so eager to get rid of that feeling that i never thought of exploring it and listening to it? what a laid back and reassuring video to start my morning! also that salad looked SO good 🩷
these reflective videos have been so lovely. 💖 i find it so interesting how we can hear the same messaging a million times but your circumstances and experience need to be in the exact right alignment for the messaging to absorb. and even then theres more to learn. the amount of aha moments ive had only to realize two years later that theres a deeper understanding to be had from that exact same messaging. inception of aha moments. lol
im a graphic designer/illustrator who went back to school for early childhood education. GD/Illo. taught me such valuable lessons about understanding other peoples persepctives and being able to anticipate needs but i do think it also fed into my natural people pleasing tendencies. going through ECE i learned so much about how we are shaped cognitively, emotionally, and physically. i had so many aha moments in school about myself, my family, friends, strangers..but its also interesting how the more you learn the more you realize you know nothing, hahah. i really love the concept of emotions being little notifications from our brain. our behaviour is always linked to satisfying some type of need and its so hard to sweep away the protective layers to see that need sometimes. i always think about my life in cycles of observing → learning → doing. we cant do any of them without the other and i often shame myself when im in one part of the cycle and want to jump to the next. if i am struggling to move through an emotion or behaviour i try to remind myself its okay not to understand yet. maybe im just stuck in one of those stages. its so easy to just wallow becuase its not turning out right so im trying very very hard to shift my mindset to "maybe i cant move forward right now. i might need a break to feel a bit shit but i trust myself to keep trying. whether thats today, tomorrow or next week."
always so rambly in your comment section lol
p.s. regarding your final comments about people leaving long form comments and you reading/replying. ive always been so so impressed with how you engage with your community. i dont think any of us expect a reply but even when i see you replying thoughtfully to someone else im always filled with such appreciation for how genuinely you engage with others. you can tell that youve fostered a community where everyone is on the same level sharing thoughts without judgement. that takes skill as a creator navigating parasocial relationships. kuddos. 😊
5 minutes into this video and I’m already thinking “hang on, let me go back and take some notes!”. I loved your last video and thoughts on the other chapter and have gone back a couple of times to rewatch it. No doubt I’ll be doing exactly the same with this video :)
Omg the popping of the balloons with a knife with the calming background of you having such great insights from this book slayed me lol. The exact content I love! Hope you're having a great holiday season!
I loved your reflections ❤ would LOVE LOVE LOVE to see a book on this with your lovely illustrations if you ever feel like doing it.
I feel like I've been in such a rutt and avoiding everything, especially my emotions, so hearing sha'an explain her thoughts and her highlights of the book makes me want to get better, instead of avoiding
also, avoidance can be it's own message - maybe you're not ready to face something yet. I know that can be true for me too - I guess the key is to just listen and see what all these things might be saying. feeling them is okay (i have to get used to this idea too haha). thanks for watching and for sharing!
I was about to put the book you recommended on my wishlist as I already spent my book allowance this month, when I discovered the audiobook is included for free in my audible subscription! What luck!😁 So, guys, check your subscriptions! Maybe you can start enjoying this books wisdom for free this very moment, too. ❤
SUCH A HOT TIP!!!
Your videos are a joy ❤
I’ve had this book for a while and you’ve inspired me to pick it back up 🫶
Thank you for always sharing such open thoughts and being such a cozy and safe space for creatives 🥹💖 I haven’t finished the video yet but I’m enjoying hearing your thoughts on this topic a lot!
Love the charming handwritten titles and doodles too! 💖
Hello sweet thing! Would love to hear any thoughts or insights you have after you finish! I'm loving sharing as I learn stuff!
This video was so helpful and insightful. Thank you 💕
lovinngggg these recent life vlogs, will be looking for this book in the library immediately:-)
Yay! Support your libraries - love that! Hope they have it! 💗
Love love love this style of video from you! ❤😮
aw thanks! they're so fun to make! And it's actually so fun to share what I'm reading too
I just finished Brianna's The Mountain is You. 101 Essays that will change how you think is my next read! I love how it's such a coincidence that you're reading her too ❤🎉
I love your cat sitting calmly with you. Your salad has tempted 😋 me. Nice video! 👌🏻
This was emotional. I went through something last year and until this day I rarely have happy days. And I feel I am in a loop that I can’t get out of. Feeling good or content seem a bit foreign to me since it’s been so long that I felt it and when I do it is only a matter of a very very short time like an hour or so. I am hoping that after I finish my internship and go back home and be with my family that I feels bit more relaxed. Anyways, I sometimes lose confidence that these emotions would fade and good ones will come as much. This sometimes makes me wonder how to accept those feelings and just let them be. Too much to say I am not in the best state haha
Hello angel! I went through something similar about a year and a half ago. Do you have anyone to talk to about this? Family or friends?
This video was a warm herbal tea for my soul.
Thankyou for sharing these with passages with us! I am still thinking about them (I don't normally write comments, but I just had to come back here!) I especially like the idea that every single feeling is neutral. wow. Like every feeling has something to tell you, each feeling is a different warning light behind the steering wheel. And I guess our bodies are the car? ahaha.
A big hearty thanks for the pearls~ 💚🍵
It's like they're roadsigns and some roads seem more scary or less friendly than others because we haven't travelled them with confidence as much!
@@furrylittlepeach Yes yes absolutely!! Giving us guides on how to navigate in unknown territory. ☺
Heeeeey Shaan and Rocket!! We missed you guys 😊
Mwa ❤❤❤❤
Omg! Let me know what your thoughts are on Intermezzo! I just got it for my book club and can't wait to read it!
Thank you! Watching now! Hope you're having a good day! x
Aw hope you like it angel! Would love to hear your thoughts when you finish :-) hope you're having a good one too!
@@furrylittlepeach thank you. Trying to be productive today 😅 Thank you for what you shared, especially your vulnerability. It’s not easy moving through complex layers of emotion and not “villainising” emotions is so important, thank you for the reminder. This was also timely for me and I’m navigating some things myself at the moment and I think it takes a great deal of courage and bravery to not let the “voices” in our own head make us think everyone has bad intentions (some do for sure!!) but especially when people we trust usually have our best interests at heart. Thanks again for sharing! ❤
@@theworshipfullife I so so so relate to what you're describing!
@@furrylittlepeach no problems! 💕
9:34 i audibly said “tonka😧” like a chiding parent when he jumped on the window
Bahahah! We have screens that he cant get out of so dont u worry about that! What i would love him to stop is jumping up and down on his auto feeder to get freebies between his 3 feeding times lmao!
Missed youuuuu 💕 thank you for sharing
i have another video coming in the next 24 hours to make up for ny absence 👼🏻✨️
hi sha'an! hugs from venezuela!
Mwa! Lots of love from here in Sydney :-)
@@furrylittlepeach yay! thank you!
I'm on new medication that has changed my nervous system, and it's making me experience anger from minor things for the first time... It's like these spikes that pop up when I'm at the top of overwhelmed, when I would probably usually crash out. It's happening at what feel like silly things - my partner talking too much about different map projection types when I'm hangry was most recent. And I've been trying to notice it and voice it and hear about how my partner reacts (I feel so freaking lucky cause they just see my overwhelm and aren't getting hurt - probably because I tone down my outer self so much that the worst they get is a withering look or "I'm angry now!" haha... Do I need to work on that?) But idk I don't have much experience with anger and I don't know how to practise feeling it! It's so strange!! Even talking about it here feels useful though. I hadn't conceptualised it as a peak to my overwhelm like that.
This is me a week before my period. I've teared up before ebcause rocket was speaking slowly bahhaha
Thank you so much for this, I loved your take on the essay. th-cam.com/video/dcUAIpZrwog/w-d-xo.htmlsi=6s6BJpKZce3vQf5V This little video always reminds me to thing of discomfort as my physiology signalling that there is a time of change and growth ahead. I hope you enjoy it.
such a great sentiment - can't wait to watch! ty for sharing it with me!
please please please sha'an i love you but please tell what the intro song is ***1m panic crying emojis***