When I searched inner engineering on TH-cam you were the only genuine guy . You are my inspiration anna . We love you anna . ❤❤ I wish things just become normal so you can start your life afresh.
If you’re going through tough times and challenges in life that other people are not, remember what Sadhguru says - you’re just on the spiritual fast track and living life more intensely than others. What would have happened to others in lifetimes, you’re going through it right now. So this is also an opportunity for growth. And with His Grace, you’ll come out of it stronger, more evolved and better than ever! 😇💪🔥
May devi give you strength. I think you have embraced one aspect of yoga - truth - completely right from the outset, which itself will help you along the journey.
You are not alone, this year specifically Highs are higher and Lows are lower, we will get through it. Sadhguru mentioned in one of the videos, see the change in cosmic events, Solar flares etc. It’s all having impact.
I have once heard that right before you have a big positive breakthrough in your life you may experience such upsurge of emotions. More like an emotional purge. So whatever emotions that's coming up is actually leaving your system forever. Its gone for good!!✨ And I strongly feel that the sudden emotional upsurge you are experiencing is for this reason.
Ups and downs are part of life and I handle mine by trying to maintain awareness and connection to the Creator. Reminding myself that "I'm not my body and I'm not my mind". External situations will not have control over you without your consent🙏
From my experience, I can say that you're already doing the right things: sadhana, energy support, and keep on doing whatever you're doing. This are the only things that have always worked for me as well. Just keep at it
As sadhguru says ..a bad experience is actually a good experience in some way ..Hope you will make use of it and learn something out of it ..Namaskaram ❤❤
There is no running away from pain, you jave to go through it. The pain is of conditioning Anna, also the way we judge ourselves according to the society. By visiting Dhyanlingi we are asking for dissoulution of whatever we think we are. Please have this perspective in mind Anna
I have heard of some people completely giving up refined sugar and caffeine and it has helped them with their mental health issues... If you consume processed sugar and caffeine then try not to for a month and see if it works🙏🏻
When you are going through a divorce, know that you have the right to feel uncomfortable, different, strange. This is a huge life change and the stress associated with it is real. Above all, it is coming to terms with reality, that not everything can be controlled and that even if we have the best intentions, it may still go wrong. After all, we are getting married for forever and here they are... papers from a lawyer and all that remains of the old emotions is anger. This is normal and you need to go through it in order to strengthen yourself and not damage yourself. As Sadhguru says: you can't control what life throws at you, but you can control how you respond to it. Good luck 🍀 Greetings from Europe 🌍
Anna, your video is honest & soulful. I can relate to how you're feeling 🙏If it helps, I wish to share how I'm dealing with those feelings. Whatever life events happen, they are manifestations of our karma and interactions with Prakrithi. Trying to understand why they happened, what caused them to happen, etc. is an endless process, which will generate more karma So, if you can, try to be with your feelings, whatever they may be. Don't give them "good"/"bad" labels. Even if the feeling is anger, just be with it and it will pass, because that which is of the mind and body are transient. I have tried applying IE tools/principles to my feelings. I accept, surrender, take responsibility & hold those feelings with love. I wish what you are looking for, finds you. Namaskaram 🙏
Anna there are things that is beyond logic , this is perfect time to become wiser and build yourself into much powerful possibilities which are beyond logic ... Because there are many factors and forces that working on our life. I am facing same problem anna.
some days low some more days lows ome days high some more days high its a circle , observe and move on,you might not even be low by the time u read this so keep moving
What breaks us can make us also. There is no character of a force, it just has the potential and a direction maybe already set. Potential can only be enhanced and directions can be changed. You have got it vaishu anna. I saw you during Yogeshwara Linga Consecration in Sadhguru Sannidhi, without even knowing me you had responded so beautifully with your smile. I love you 🌺 (I am a male :)
Pls don't be low anna, u r a beautiful human being dont let anything, anyone or even yourself to throw it all away, i m sure u must good friend pls be in touch with them, don't ever feel loniliness do self development, meditation, hiking, long drive whatever u like when u get that feeling. Right your problems are exaggerated by the mind and over time if u don't pay attention to it, u will see it has no power over u, 😊😊
Vaisu I think you have got many beautiful advices already, so just wanted to say that you are lovely and has always been. seeing you In this state, feels bad, too bad here, like to just sit next to you, Only love can displace love vaisu, be with your loved ones. they need you as much you need them. keep posting im hoping to see that smile again :) tc
I am seeing your Vlog after quite sometime..dint know you are going through a low phase for the reasons you mentioned...for the first time I am seeing you so quite and dull...missing your high energy..but no worries please take your time to come back the way you were or may just be mellow how ever you want to be ,,,God bless ,Sadhguru bless and my best wishes Anna 🙏🙏🙏
We need to ignore the compulsive thought, that is coming in, no one can answer, take some time to sit, whenever I feel down, I sit down, whenever I feel get angry, which are very rare, but if it happens, I need to sit down and find the root, we need to dig deeper into our identity and find where i am getting hurt, different level of fear, does exist, I wish you get the bliss and ecstasy and organs of life, because that is how we are made.
Namaskaram anna,. I have seen your house front yard in video, might be 4 years at beginning of your IE,i guess,. now look at your garden very living colourful just like u.👍🏻 Really , anna u should pat your shoulders ,should be proud, how sensibly handling hard situation, doing sadhana regularly, accept things, allow greiving, not blamming as well, Iam seeing here a transition of young man to living yogi, u became a living example, how to be when life through difficult situations i remember Dear some body 😊 once told seeing problem as possibity, i bow down our sadhguru and his grace 🙏🙏🙏
May Devi shower all her blessings upon you ..Jai Bhairavi Devi Bhaktha Rakshini Namah Shri...this coming Thursday it's Buddha pournima...if you will stay there ...be in her presence
I heard a saying once... "If something was NOT meant to be, nothing in heaven or hell could keep it together. If something WAS meant to be, nothing in heaven or hell could break it apart." 🤔
@@vaisu90 ahh I don't think that's a coincidence Anna. It's good you're doing more sadhana then, but probably work on these aspects before you hit the 42 mark. I'm just getting this information from Sadhguru's video regarding age 33. Maybe go for Samyama sadhana again if you can
Namaskaram anna, What was the hotel name were you stayed ? Price and stuff can you please share, next time when i will visit i will consider staying there anna💕💕
Never give up on your sadhana anna Like Sadhguru says It's all the more important to do your sadhana when you are not feeling well Try to find some closure though Maybe intensify your physical activity to take your mind off things
Vaisu if you are reading this then I just want you to know that it's just the matter of time stick to all right things that you are doing you will see you will come out better and stronger out of this. Just be...
Do your sadhna Join gym every soul deserve to be in a fit body and gymming will help you be to be fit and to gain strength and when you will make progress you will have respect for yourself in your eyes And also i think you should find a purpose do something something of your own dont work on someother dream work on your own dream It dosent matter what people think but a person must have respect for themself and accept the fact that high and low are eternal part of life we cant be happy all the time happiness comes in moment. .
I can understand ur pain been through it who claimed to be a meditator...not ur fault...its just that you are an innocent soul like me...girls thess days are toxic.. filled with ego... so stop being doormat for them. try to be in reality as much as possible..aashram might take u away from reality avoiding u to become street smart.. focus or earning more ...hitting the gym... instead of aashram do hiking
Advice, advice, advice. We all walk the path we desire to walk in life, but life will push us towards the reality no matter what we choose to do. Suffering is only a sign that something is little wrong. A bee follows the scent of the flower, always. Sometimes it will hit a wall, pointing it in the right direction-- until the moment it finally finds the nectar of the flower. The same must be true for a human following the scent of our Ultimate desire. I can assure you, the nectar does not reside in a gym, street smart, or earning more. These are only the petals. Attractive, but not fulfillment.
@@organizedmicrowave4414 its easy to preach with wonderful examples of lotus petals.. then face real time experiences ... Pravachan se toh hir koi khud ko intellectual samajta hai
@@vishalhegde4704 I've had many. It's not preaching, It's a fact of life; if you don't get this now, hopefully one day you will. This is what's called as Maya. You know this? Money, a nice body, or sharp intellect will not matter when we leave this planet. You claim to have real time experiences, or implying to be rich with experience yourself; so you must know- everything we can do is futile in the face of death, especially when we are reminded of it's existence through those around us, then we naturally realize this fact. I know through my own experiences, that there is more than gathering resources, enhancing mentality, good looks, or intellect. I am not saying it is wrong. It is just the foothills. Don't be confused by my analogies. It means you will die, as will I, and reaching the core of life is all that matters. I am not claiming to be there either. I am often sloppy with my sadhana. But I have felt the drops. Energies for example are very deep in my experience, perception and attention offer a different dimension of intelligence to me as well. I can live homeless and be fine, I can live on this planet alone and be fine. Day by day, closer I come to being in hell, and will be fine. The flower was not a lotus, by the way. But since you have chosen that, I know the turmoil you must come from as well. I see why you think these things will make you fulfilled. I am only saying they will not.
@@vishalhegde4704 I've had many. It's not preaching, It's a fact of life; if you don't get this now, hopefully one day you will. This is what's called as Maya. You know this? Money, a nice body, or sharp intellect will matter when we leave this planet. You claim to have real time experiences, or implying to be rich with experience yourself; so you must know- everything we can do is futile in the face of death, especially when we are reminded of it's existence through those around us, then we naturally realize this fact. I know through my own experiences, that there is more than gathering resources, enhancing mentality, good looks, or intellect. I am not saying it is wrong. It is just the foothills. Don't be confused by my analogies. It means you will perish one day, as will I, and reaching the core of life is all that matters. I am not claiming to be there either. I am often sloppy with my sadhana. But I have felt the drops. Energies for example are very deep in my experience, perception and attention offer a different dimension of intelligence to me as well. I can live homeless and be fine, I can live on this planet alone and be fine. Day by day, closer I come to being in hell, and will be fine. The flower was not a lotus, by the way. But since you have chosen that, I know the turmoil you must come from as well. I see why you think these things will make you fulfilled. I am only saying they will not.
@@vishalhegde4704 I've had many. It's not preaching, It's a fact of life; if you don't get this now, hopefully one day you will. This is what's called as Maya. You know this? Money, a nice body, or sharp intellect will matter when we leave this planet. You claim to have real time experiences, or implying to be rich with experience yourself; so you must know- everything we can do is futile in the face of death, especially when we are reminded of it's existence through those around us, then we naturally realize this fact. I know through my own experiences, that there is more than gathering resources, enhancing mentality, good looks, or intellect. I am not saying it is wrong. It is just the foothills. Don't be confused by my analogies. It means you will leave this planet one day, as will I, and reaching the core of life is all that matters. I am not claiming to be there either. I am often sloppy with my sadhana. But I have felt the drops. Energies for example are very deep in my experience, perception and attention offer a different dimension of intelligence to me as well. I can live homeless and be fine, I can live on this planet alone and be fine. Day by day, closer I come to being in hell, and will be fine. The flower was not a lotus, by the way. But since you have chosen that, I know the turmoil you must come from as well. I see why you think these things will make you fulfilled. I am only saying they will not.
You need to cure your mental issues.I have seen your videos ( on and off) for 4 years or more- and you have always come out as a very disturbed and Unsettled mind. I have also done - Inner Engineering ( 5 years back offline) and bhutta suddhi and surya kriya. A friendly advice- these tools are helpful ( but first ) you need to reduce Friction within yourself. Namaskaram
When I searched inner engineering on TH-cam you were the only genuine guy . You are my inspiration anna . We love you anna . ❤❤
I wish things just become normal so you can start your life afresh.
Appreciate this love so much ❤️
If you’re going through tough times and challenges in life that other people are not, remember what Sadhguru says - you’re just on the spiritual fast track and living life more intensely than others. What would have happened to others in lifetimes, you’re going through it right now. So this is also an opportunity for growth. And with His Grace, you’ll come out of it stronger, more evolved and better than ever! 😇💪🔥
May devi give you strength. I think you have embraced one aspect of yoga - truth - completely right from the outset, which itself will help you along the journey.
time for sadhanapada?
Keep positing Vaisakh. It is fun watching you. We want to witness your growth.
I hope u get ur life back and become stronger after hardship 🙏🏼🙏🏼❤
You are not alone, this year specifically Highs are higher and Lows are lower, we will get through it. Sadhguru mentioned in one of the videos, see the change in cosmic events, Solar flares etc. It’s all having impact.
I have once heard that right before you have a big positive breakthrough in your life you may experience such upsurge of emotions. More like an emotional purge. So whatever emotions that's coming up is actually leaving your system forever. Its gone for good!!✨ And I strongly feel that the sudden emotional upsurge you are experiencing is for this reason.
Hopefully ❤️
Ups and downs are part of life and I handle mine by trying to maintain awareness and connection to the Creator. Reminding myself that "I'm not my body and I'm not my mind". External situations will not have control over you without your consent🙏
From my experience, I can say that you're already doing the right things: sadhana, energy support, and keep on doing whatever you're doing. This are the only things that have always worked for me as well. Just keep at it
Also just wanted to say that your content has been improved much much better than before🧡
Also Devi will take care anna, we are with you❣
Love Love🫂
Thankyou Manish anna ❤️
Thank you for posting honest content always❤
As sadhguru says ..a bad experience is actually a good experience in some way ..Hope you will make use of it and learn something out of it ..Namaskaram ❤❤
There is no running away from pain, you jave to go through it. The pain is of conditioning Anna, also the way we judge ourselves according to the society. By visiting Dhyanlingi we are asking for dissoulution of whatever we think we are. Please have this perspective in mind Anna
This too shall pass ..You have always been Inspiration for many of us...We are with you..Keep going..More Power to you anna 🙏🙏
I have heard of some people completely giving up refined sugar and caffeine and it has helped them with their mental health issues...
If you consume processed sugar and caffeine then try not to for a month and see if it works🙏🏻
When you are going through a divorce, know that you have the right to feel uncomfortable, different, strange. This is a huge life change and the stress associated with it is real. Above all, it is coming to terms with reality, that not everything can be controlled and that even if we have the best intentions, it may still go wrong. After all, we are getting married for forever and here they are... papers from a lawyer and all that remains of the old emotions is anger. This is normal and you need to go through it in order to strengthen yourself and not damage yourself. As Sadhguru says: you can't control what life throws at you, but you can control how you respond to it. Good luck 🍀
Greetings from Europe 🌍
Truee 🥲
Lots of love, happiness and blessings to you anna.. Take it easy ❤️🌸🙏🏼
Anna, your video is honest & soulful. I can relate to how you're feeling 🙏If it helps, I wish to share how I'm dealing with those feelings.
Whatever life events happen, they are manifestations of our karma and interactions with Prakrithi. Trying to understand why they happened, what caused them to happen, etc. is an endless process, which will generate more karma
So, if you can, try to be with your feelings, whatever they may be. Don't give them "good"/"bad" labels. Even if the feeling is anger, just be with it and it will pass, because that which is of the mind and body are transient. I have tried applying IE tools/principles to my feelings. I accept, surrender, take responsibility & hold those feelings with love.
I wish what you are looking for, finds you.
Namaskaram 🙏
Yes anna will do this with more awareness ❤️
You’re not alone. Please hold on, everything will soon change and you will be fine❤
Keep Going
Smile
🙏😊📿
I have stayed at NKP residency once earlier. It's quite nice. Very clean.
❤
Once visit Pyramid Meditation Centre..u will feel much better..This meditation centre is every where..
I reeeally can not express how grateful I am to you for sharing. You are very motivating and inspiring. 😌🙏💕
Thankyou akka just thought would slowly do what i can and document on the way ❤️
Namaskaram Anna, do you chant bhrahmananda swaroopa at Sadhguru’s presence time?
Was eagerly waiting for the Daily V's... Thanks anna 🙏
🤗🤗🤗
Nice
Time will heal everything Anna
Anna there are things that is beyond logic , this is perfect time to become wiser and build yourself into much powerful possibilities which are beyond logic ... Because there are many factors and forces that working on our life. I am facing same problem anna.
Love u Anna❤
Love you 3000 krish
@@vaisu90 😊🙏
Anna ur such a cool person ❤
and be strong as u always and just give a big smile 😅 while reading This
Smiling ❤️
Anna super vedio this show your dedication how we become always strong in every condition that is inner engineering
🥺Thankyou
🙏🏽
I see myself in you.. Tell me the changes I should make
some days low some more days lows ome days high some more days high its a circle , observe and move on,you might not even be low by the time u read this so keep moving
What breaks us can make us also. There is no character of a force, it just has the potential and a direction maybe already set. Potential can only be enhanced and directions can be changed.
You have got it vaishu anna.
I saw you during Yogeshwara Linga Consecration in Sadhguru Sannidhi, without even knowing me you had responded so beautifully with your smile.
I love you 🌺 (I am a male :)
Namaskaram Parth anna 👶🏽
Pls don't be low anna, u r a beautiful human being dont let anything, anyone or even yourself to throw it all away, i m sure u must good friend pls be in touch with them, don't ever feel loniliness do self development, meditation, hiking, long drive whatever u like when u get that feeling. Right your problems are exaggerated by the mind and over time if u don't pay attention to it, u will see it has no power over u, 😊😊
Thankyou tiken ❤️
Vaisu I think you have got many beautiful advices already, so just wanted to say that you are lovely and has always been. seeing you In this state, feels bad, too bad here, like to just sit next to you, Only love can displace love vaisu, be with your loved ones. they need you as much you need them. keep posting im hoping to see that smile again :) tc
Thankyou 🥹🥹. I am surrounded by loved ones
I am seeing your Vlog after quite sometime..dint know you are going through a low phase for the reasons you mentioned...for the first time I am seeing you so quite and dull...missing your high energy..but no worries please take your time to come back the way you were or may just be mellow how ever you want to be ,,,God bless ,Sadhguru bless and my best wishes Anna 🙏🙏🙏
Thankyou Deepti 🙏🏽
We need to ignore the compulsive thought, that is coming in, no one can answer, take some time to sit, whenever I feel down, I sit down, whenever I feel get angry, which are very rare, but if it happens, I need to sit down and find the root, we need to dig deeper into our identity and find where i am getting hurt, different level of fear, does exist, I wish you get the bliss and ecstasy and organs of life, because that is how we are made.
Namaskaram anna,.
I have seen your house front yard in video, might be 4 years at beginning of your IE,i guess,.
now look at your garden very living colourful just like u.👍🏻
Really , anna u should pat your shoulders ,should be proud, how sensibly handling hard situation, doing sadhana regularly, accept things, allow greiving, not blamming as well,
Iam seeing here a transition of young man to living yogi, u became a living example, how to be when life through difficult situations
i remember Dear some body 😊 once told seeing problem as possibity, i bow down our sadhguru and his grace 🙏🙏🙏
THANKYOU Balaaaa 🔥
Anna y not try for Sadhanapada ?
May Devi shower all her blessings upon you ..Jai Bhairavi Devi Bhaktha Rakshini Namah Shri...this coming Thursday it's Buddha pournima...if you will stay there ...be in her presence
I understand Anna
Accept everything... I wish Devi take of your inner wellbeing
Why don’t you get Sannidhi home.. It might help in a big way. ❤
I heard a saying once... "If something was NOT meant to be, nothing in heaven or hell could keep it together. If something WAS meant to be, nothing in heaven or hell could break it apart." 🤔
Anna, how old are you now? Did all this happen after you hit the 32/33 year mark as Sadhguru says?
Yes I am 33 and it happened during that time
@@vaisu90 ahh I don't think that's a coincidence Anna. It's good you're doing more sadhana then, but probably work on these aspects before you hit the 42 mark. I'm just getting this information from Sadhguru's video regarding age 33.
Maybe go for Samyama sadhana again if you can
And why are you both staying in the Ashram Anna ?
Namaskaram anna,
What was the hotel name were you stayed ?
Price and stuff can you please share, next time when i will visit i will consider staying there anna💕💕
NKP residency❤️
anna i'm also mentally at a low place....what do i do at ashram to get help...can u guide ?i'm planning to go for a couple of days...
You can either volunteer or get a room and do your sadhana or apply for silence anna
Anna can you share link of telegram group?
t.me/+6fhxrtv_fDY4OGU9
t.me/+6fhxrtv_fDY4OGU9
All It's your karma .
Arey arey 😅 panditji
What is the first noble truth Vaisu?
Never give up on your sadhana anna
Like Sadhguru says It's all the more important to do your sadhana when you are not feeling well
Try to find some closure though
Maybe intensify your physical activity to take your mind off things
anna, hope you are doing well :)
How much is the cost of one night stay room at nkp residency?
800₹ for single occupancy non ac room
Anna does a bus go to the Centre from that hotel? If i dont have a car?🙏
Anna
Please try to go to pranavakshetra if you are ok to go
I think nishanth Anna will help you out in this regard
Planning to go and take darshan of Hanuman❤️
Vaisu if you are reading this then I just want you to know that it's just the matter of time stick to all right things that you are doing you will see you will come out better and stronger out of this. Just be...
Thankyou Yudhistir anna
Anna, can we connect for sometime please?
malayali ano chetta?
Malayali thanneeeeee 😘
Sir you should try others ways like gym ,herbs , running , listing to others like j.k and ekchart 🙇🏻♂️🙇🏻♂️
Anna look into L Reuteri cultures
Do your sadhna
Join gym every soul deserve to be in a fit body and gymming will help you be to be fit and to gain strength and when you will make progress you will have respect for yourself in your eyes
And also i think you should find a purpose do something something of your own dont work on someother dream work on your own dream
It dosent matter what people think but a person must have respect for themself and accept the fact that high and low are eternal part of life we cant be happy all the time happiness comes in moment. .
Thankyou buddy ☺️
I can understand ur pain been through it who claimed to be a meditator...not ur fault...its just that you are an innocent soul like me...girls thess days are toxic.. filled with ego... so stop being doormat for them. try to be in reality as much as possible..aashram might take u away from reality avoiding u to become street smart.. focus or earning more ...hitting the gym... instead of aashram do hiking
Advice, advice, advice. We all walk the path we desire to walk in life, but life will push us towards the reality no matter what we choose to do. Suffering is only a sign that something is little wrong.
A bee follows the scent of the flower, always. Sometimes it will hit a wall, pointing it in the right direction-- until the moment it finally finds the nectar of the flower. The same must be true for a human following the scent of our Ultimate desire.
I can assure you, the nectar does not reside in a gym, street smart, or earning more. These are only the petals. Attractive, but not fulfillment.
@@organizedmicrowave4414 its easy to preach with wonderful examples of lotus petals.. then face real time experiences ... Pravachan se toh hir koi khud ko intellectual samajta hai
@@vishalhegde4704 I've had many. It's not preaching, It's a fact of life; if you don't get this now, hopefully one day you will. This is what's called as Maya. You know this? Money, a nice body, or sharp intellect will not matter when we leave this planet. You claim to have real time experiences, or implying to be rich with experience yourself; so you must know- everything we can do is futile in the face of death, especially when we are reminded of it's existence through those around us, then we naturally realize this fact.
I know through my own experiences, that there is more than gathering resources, enhancing mentality, good looks, or intellect. I am not saying it is wrong. It is just the foothills. Don't be confused by my analogies. It means you will die, as will I, and reaching the core of life is all that matters. I am not claiming to be there either. I am often sloppy with my sadhana. But I have felt the drops. Energies for example are very deep in my experience, perception and attention offer a different dimension of intelligence to me as well.
I can live homeless and be fine, I can live on this planet alone and be fine. Day by day, closer I come to being in hell, and will be fine.
The flower was not a lotus, by the way. But since you have chosen that, I know the turmoil you must come from as well. I see why you think these things will make you fulfilled. I am only saying they will not.
@@vishalhegde4704 I've had many. It's not preaching, It's a fact of life; if you don't get this now, hopefully one day you will. This is what's called as Maya. You know this? Money, a nice body, or sharp intellect will matter when we leave this planet. You claim to have real time experiences, or implying to be rich with experience yourself; so you must know- everything we can do is futile in the face of death, especially when we are reminded of it's existence through those around us, then we naturally realize this fact.
I know through my own experiences, that there is more than gathering resources, enhancing mentality, good looks, or intellect. I am not saying it is wrong. It is just the foothills. Don't be confused by my analogies. It means you will perish one day, as will I, and reaching the core of life is all that matters. I am not claiming to be there either. I am often sloppy with my sadhana. But I have felt the drops. Energies for example are very deep in my experience, perception and attention offer a different dimension of intelligence to me as well.
I can live homeless and be fine, I can live on this planet alone and be fine. Day by day, closer I come to being in hell, and will be fine.
The flower was not a lotus, by the way. But since you have chosen that, I know the turmoil you must come from as well. I see why you think these things will make you fulfilled. I am only saying they will not.
@@vishalhegde4704 I've had many. It's not preaching, It's a fact of life; if you don't get this now, hopefully one day you will. This is what's called as Maya. You know this? Money, a nice body, or sharp intellect will matter when we leave this planet. You claim to have real time experiences, or implying to be rich with experience yourself; so you must know- everything we can do is futile in the face of death, especially when we are reminded of it's existence through those around us, then we naturally realize this fact.
I know through my own experiences, that there is more than gathering resources, enhancing mentality, good looks, or intellect. I am not saying it is wrong. It is just the foothills. Don't be confused by my analogies. It means you will leave this planet one day, as will I, and reaching the core of life is all that matters. I am not claiming to be there either. I am often sloppy with my sadhana. But I have felt the drops. Energies for example are very deep in my experience, perception and attention offer a different dimension of intelligence to me as well.
I can live homeless and be fine, I can live on this planet alone and be fine. Day by day, closer I come to being in hell, and will be fine.
The flower was not a lotus, by the way. But since you have chosen that, I know the turmoil you must come from as well. I see why you think these things will make you fulfilled. I am only saying they will not.
You need to cure your mental issues.I have seen your videos ( on and off) for 4 years or more- and you have always come out as a very disturbed and Unsettled mind.
I have also done - Inner Engineering ( 5 years back offline) and bhutta suddhi and surya kriya.
A friendly advice- these tools are helpful ( but first ) you need to reduce Friction within yourself.
Namaskaram
Namaskaram . On the journey to that 😊🙏🏽
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