Its gonna take time because the greatest work of Christianity will not be prayers or outward expressions but instead, it will be the Human Heart. You are a Great Obstacle from yourself. You aren't necessarily your own enemy but there's an aspect to your human nature that is at war with the rest of you. Something inside is also acting out of fear deep inside within and you must save it (with professional guidance and help. It will be a bumpy ride.) Christ & wisdom give you a fighting chance against it. You won't know until you begin to dig and learn that all the efforts you try to cope with pain in this world. You have tried everything to cope and its seemingly not enough. The core of you, they call it the "inner child" part of you is hidden, buried within your psyche. You have to be gentle and find it and figure out why it is there and not with you. Once you heal from that reality and do some internal work to heal, some confessions, and eventually some replacements, you can come to rhe next stages. The ground is tough and some can't till the ground of their hearts because theyre too afraid, they cant trust not even themselves to venture back there because its terrifying (understandably so). Some just can't come to the reality of their nightmare of a childhood. I do not know the depths of the hell you've had to endure because your caregivers failed you when you really needed them. All i know is today and today, you can get the help but you must (carefully) with trust, go back into those dark woods (with careful help) and retrieve that little boy, that little girl and rescue them... ...because they are still trapped in the past. You know because you are both there with them and here in the present & you MUST be integrated for some true change to start.
Its gonna take time because the greatest work of Christianity will not be prayers or outward expressions but instead, it will be the Human Heart. You are a Great Obstacle from yourself.
You aren't necessarily your own enemy but there's an aspect to your human nature that is at war with the rest of you. Something inside is also acting out of fear deep inside within and you must save it (with professional guidance and help. It will be a bumpy ride.)
Christ & wisdom give you a fighting chance against it.
You won't know until you begin to dig and learn that all the efforts you try to cope with pain in this world.
You have tried everything to cope and its seemingly not enough.
The core of you, they call it the "inner child" part of you is hidden, buried within your psyche. You have to be gentle and find it and figure out why it is there and not with you. Once you heal from that reality and do some internal work to heal, some confessions, and eventually some replacements, you can come to rhe next stages.
The ground is tough and some can't till the ground of their hearts because theyre too afraid, they cant trust not even themselves to venture back there because its terrifying (understandably so). Some just can't come to the reality of their nightmare of a childhood.
I do not know the depths of the hell you've had to endure because your caregivers failed you when you really needed them.
All i know is today and today, you can get the help but you must (carefully) with trust, go back into those dark woods (with careful help) and retrieve that little boy, that little girl and rescue them...
...because they are still trapped in the past.
You know because you are both there with them and here in the present & you MUST be integrated for some true change to start.