Don’t apologize for crying - it shows the extent of your love for your little man. We are all on the sidelines cheering you on as you fill in ‘that’ form. Sign it at the bottom, take a deep breath and carry on. We can all tell you are the best family Bill can have. Xx
He's your boy and you know what a wonder he is. We'd wonder about you if you didn't cry. We cry too, for you and for him. But tears of joy because you are such a terrific Mum and he's a great kid. . You care so deeply, so when that stupid form is done... go back to knowing all that you've done, together, to get him this far. Don't ever apologise for your feelings, cuckoo. Never. Big virtual hugs sweet girl... give yourself a break... 💖
Totally get the tears, we had to fill in one of those forms for my amazing husband. He has spent his whole life trying not to be defined by his disabilities but the system is set up to focus on what you can't do, and indeed it penalises you for trying hard to maximise your abilities. Keep going Gayna you are an amazing, amazing Mum. You just have to jump through this hoop and hopefully won't have to do it too often. We did have to go to an interview but eventually he got what he deserves.
I keep trying to fathom out a better way for the system to gather the info they need but I can’t come up with one. It does make me sad though, having to document all the things Bill can’t do. Must have been so hard for you as by the sounds of it your husband hasn’t always needed this kind of help.
Sending a big hug to you💕. I’ve so enjoyed your cosytober vlogs and appreciate how honest and open you are. You are a wonderful mom and kind human. No apologies necessary. Also, the opening shot of Bunny all tucked in was just the sweetest!
Oh my! I am in tears with you. I know sometimes we need to state the things our kids can’t/don’t do but I am like you in being so grateful and happy about all the things they can do! You are such a lovely family and all support each other with such love! Thanks for the yarn shop -haven’t been in too long but it was a treat to shop with you and granny🥰
Never ever apologise for crying and loving Bill as much as you do. You’re right he will have an amazing life, he has the support and love of an adoring family. Sending love and hugs xx
Oh Gayna, sending you hugs. Of course you encourage all the positives for Bill because you are a wonderful and very special mother. These forms are horrible. Don't apologise for being you! ❤️
Focusing on the positives and all of the things that Bill CAN do is exactly why Bill can do so many things. He’s very very fortunate that you are his Mom. We all need a good cry once in a while. No shame in that. 💕
Never be sorry for caring about your children , Bill is needing you to be his advocate and you are the best mum he could have. Stay safe love and hugs xx
Oh Gayna! Don't be sorry, we all need a weep and especially when we are frustrated at silly forms that are not highlighting all the amazing things Bill can do and achieve. Without having met him or yourself I have no doubt that your love and support as a family and his amazingness have had a huge impact on him and will continue to do so xx
When you fill in the horrid form, do a list of all things that Bill has achieved so far and can and will do in the future. Remember he is an individual and the stupid form is just another piece of red tape rules that someone has sat and written and they have probably never met,worked or lived with anybody as precious as your son. What he did last week with his money, shows how caring and lovely he is. Don't be so hard on yourself. Hugs x
He is a thoroughly lovely young man, ok so he can’t do a heap of things but I’d rather he was like he is than a mean spirited human. Thank you for such a lovely comment Xxx
You are the best mom for your kids! You are doing a wonderful job, don't doubt yourself! And it is difficult, and it is okay to show it. Sharing helps! Much love to you! Xx
Oh Gaynor, I really feel for you. My job as a Health Visitor (retired now 10 years) took me to that place many many times. I would sit with families - often just mum - going through those horrendous forms and as you say, we would spend ages focusing on all the negatives. Such a terrible thing to ask of people when they spend their lives looking for the positives in their child. It’s heart breaking. And also, it’s a word game. You have to know the rules of this game and that’s where all this focusing on the negatives comes in, isn’t it? Because you know if you don’t emphasise just how great your child’s needs are, you won’t stand a chance. I’m not in the least sir-raised you have been putting this off and finding it difficult. Don’t be hard on yourself. Perfect;y natural to feel the way you do. Love and hugs.xxxx
I hope you know how much you would have helped those people you sat with. It can be a very lonely place to be; you and a bleak form. So having a caring person sat with you offering help, giving alternative word options, nudging you in the right direction is priceless. If I get this form wrong please send me someone like you to help me 🙏
Bill is so lucky to have you as his mom. Have a good cry, parenting is hard at times but also the best job in the world. You never need to apologize for real life, all we can do is support you and lift you up with words of encouragement. 🤗
The bloomin' hoops that they make you jump through on those forms...grrrr.. it makes me so cross ! .. Bill will be fine because he has such a lovely family to support him ❤. Sending huge hugs xxxx
Aw Gayna my heart goes out to you . Gayna you’re an incredible Mum your tears are of flowing full of love & care for Bill as he steps into adulthood. Let the tears flow tomorrow is a new day . In my prayers tonight 💕
You are sharing with friends here Gayna, people who love you and yours. We are walking this road with you, supporting all you do for your sweet Bill. Of course you can be teary with us.
I so feel your tears and upset Gaynor. The love for all your family really shines through Our eldest grandson had several mental health issues, and dealing with forms etc is never easy. Bill is in good and safe hands with you and Toby Take heart that we understand your heartache and I am sending a massive hug xxx
Gayna, as a mom of a 14 year old who has a slight learning disability and have seen struggles, battles and epic triumphs , I would sit down next to you right now and take your hand and let you cry on my shoulder . You go ahead and cry and never ever call yourself weak or mean because you are far more the opposite of those words ! You are a beautiful person inside and out but what I’m really talking about is the inside ! You have a heart filled with love and your family reflects that love ! You are a great Mom and you are doing a FANTASTIC job….words cannot describe what I’m trying to say! Please know that you are always in my prayers as I sit so far away but I admire your beautiful strength ! Please know how much we love you and support you ! God bless you dear ! Lots of love from me in America ! ❤️🏠❤️🇺🇸🥰
Your are such a good mom! I have been watching your podcast and the main thing that comes across is the love your have for your family. We all need to have our teary moments. I have heard that "tears are the highest form of prayer". Hang in there and know that we are all here wanting to support you.
It shows what a fantastic mum you are by always focusing on the positives for Bill. I’m sorry you’re having to fill out such a silly form. And no need to apologise, it’s okay to cry. Sending you a big hug 🤗
You and Toby have the most amazing loving caring family life…. YOU ROCK SWEETIE !!!! Spill over …. It’s OK … don’t feel bad about that … sunshine 🌞 follows rain 🌧 … ❤️
Oh hun I know exactly how you feel filling in those dreaded forms, I used to have to fill those in for my son, like you I concentrated on his abilities not disabilities, hits you like a brick. I too didn't think he was going to have a 'normal' life, however, someone asked him to work with him as a labourer, he was a carpet fitter. He trained my son to fit carpets and now he is able to do his work alone, earns his own money, this person took him to his accountant so he never has to worry about paying his own taxes. I'm telling you this because there is always hope, I hope this gives you some lovely. X
I am so very very glad you shared your sons triumph with me. I love that and hope Bill will find a way to access the workforce. He really wants a job. X
Aww lovely, dont ever apologise for loving your wonderful Bill and wanting him to live his best life. We always think the skies the limit for our children and when we have a child and we know how wonderful they are but they have limitations we do get super upset for them that is normal Gaynor and dont ever apologise for that xxx extending a big covid free hug from here in derbyshire xx ❤
Thank you for the hug and support. Usually I’m pretty good at being positive and reframing things but that form crushed me for a while. It’s done now 🙏😄
Wish I could give you a big 'ol hug. I realized a few years ago as I was mourning the dreams I had for both of my daughters for different reasons and in different ways, that it is something we probably all go through at some point, sometimes sooner (a friend with a special needs child) or later as in my case and the passing of those dreams is more dramatic for some than for others. There is a grieving that has to happen, I think. You are such a wonderful, loving mum Gayna. Your family is so fortunate to have you.
Those forms are horrible. I felt the same filling them in for my youngest. It’s devastating to intensely have to focus on any negatives and they leave you feeling upset. We shouldn’t have to fight so hard to get our children what they so rightly deserve. Sending love xxx
Your tears are honest and real, the sign of a loving, caring mother. No need to apologise for them. You are doing an amazing job and are a role model for many parents. Sending you hugs.
Hugs and love 💕 💗. He will find his place and he will become something even more special because he has loving parents who support him and a wonderful home life.
Oh Gayna! I wish I could give you a big hug! You are such a lush mom! Bill is so lucky to have you and you him. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable humanness. I wish you all the best getting through that bloody form. xo
Oh Gayna I just want to give you a big hug. Bill has the best family ever and you are the best Mum. Your vlogs bring so much brightness into our lives so for loving Bill and cheering us all up ask Toby to give you the biggest hug. ❤️
I just wanted to jump right into that video and give you a big hug. Bill has a fantastic mum who will always be there for him, and that's what counts. xx
We are foster parents. It's a hard, great privilege. I'm sending you a virtual hug, because sometimes being forced to actually say all your child's diagnosis really does suck, & you just have to let yourself cry. I always tell my self "acknowledge it, cry over it, but don't live in it! Pick yourself up & make your and you child's life great, because your the only ones who truly can."
You are a wonderful person to foster. I think foster carers are angels on this earth, especially to willingly take on children who have complex difficulties and needs. X
Oh Gaynor! You have every right to get upset, we spend all of our time praising our children and celebrating all the little things they do right from when they are born. To have to list everything they can’t do must be awful. I think writing a positive list, like someone else suggested, would be a good idea. You are such a good mum and you are doing this to get the best for Bill and his future.x
I got the form done and have spent the last few days revelling in all that I see bill doing. He even remembered his birthday when the doctor asked yesterday. That’s epic!
Oh Gayna, I was desperately trying to leap through the screen and give you a cuddle. You are amazing and perfectly entitled to have a blub every now and then. Bill is lovely and with a family like his will continue on to have a wonderful life. Big hugs...x
💜💜😢 I feel for you, rotten forms having to always justify. Bill is a beautiful young man and deserves all the support he can get, along with the rest of you. We are all sending our love to you xx
Oh Gayna, you have every right to feel how you do. Sometimes I've been put in a position to come to a realization of certain aspects my life, past and present, somethings that will never ever change and I too have had a darn good cry and then continue to focus on all the wonderful things. The sooner you complete the necessary forms to help Bill, the faster you can get back to doing the wonderful and loving part of life. Bill is your wonderful son and he's beautiful inside and out. Hugs!
Hi ! Do not feel bad about getting upset. You are not being pathetic. You are a wonderful caring Mom. I love your vlogs and thank you for sharing your family life with us. I am still catching up on the vlogs from 2019 and 2020. Really enjoy them. 🌈🦋💕
Oh Gayna. I wish I could give you a hug. ❤️ We are always our worse critic but I have finally found in my 52 years in this earth that it’s okay not to be okay with some things and that it is extremely okay to be gentle with ourselves. My husband and I have 11 second hugs and when one of us is feeling crap or is being a bit judgemental of ourselves, we ask the other for an 11 second hug. It is such a comforting thing to do and it makes you feel that things can only get better and releases endorphins that I think pull you out of that headspace where you are your own “mean girl”. ❤️ On a less serious note, I bought that wool Nanny was looking at in those colours too! It is exquisite! 😁
Bless you Gayna. And Bless Bill and your family. I understand, it is so hard to think of all of the "normal" things that they won't get to do but yes focus on the positive and RAH RAH RASS - KICK THOSE FORM BULLIES IN THE ASS!!! We love Bill and love you. Like in Turner and Hootch, life has different opportunities in places you would never think and most likely will not follow the plan you have in mind but a better one intended just for you. Hugs to you and all your boys!
❤️❤️❤️ You are allowed to cry and you don’t need to apologize to us for that. We are here for you, for the ups and the downs. We always want what’s best for our kids and as mums we have a different ways we react. I cry as well 😅❤️ Xxx Maria
You are a mom first and foremost and are only as happy as your unhappiest child. Bill hurts…..you hurt more when you cannot make everything right for them. We fear for the future of our vulnerable however look how far he has come and he will continue to grow. Listing what he cannot do may be painful however YOU will find the right school for him. Bill’s attitude reflects what you have taught him….he can do it. I understand……we have similar challenges in our family. Cry….you need to. Wish I was one of your nickers friends as I would be there with wine and ice cream. Virtual hugs beautiful woman.
Sending big hugs. Those forms are always awful to fill in. I found doing it gradually, one question at a time, helps to keep it from being so overwhelming. xxx
@@talesfromcuckooland oh Gaynor … I am so sorry that you feel that way. Bill could not be more loved (nor Ted or Wilf) you are a beautiful loving person 🌱
Please don't apologize for anything ❗❗❗😘. You're Bill's champion, and most loving Mum, who wants the best for him. I absolutely adore the boy you've raised ❣️❣️❣️ I can't imagine how absolutely difficult it is to complete these forms and not be a wreck❗😢
Oh Gayna. I felt as though I was watching a mirror image of myself as you described your feelings about that form. All I do know is at 27 my amazing daughter is doing so many things she couldn’t ten years ago and if someone had told me what she would be doing I would never have believed them. That being said, she is a world away from her peers, but most definitely living her best life. Sending sincere virtual hugs 💜
This is heartening to hear. I’ll never give up on Bill, he always manages in the end after repetition and encouragement. It’s good to hear your daughter is doing well and more than you’d have expected.
With you, giving you a hug. We're on that journey with my six year old grandson. It's crap but I can't imagine a more wonderful family to be born into.
Sending lots of love ❤ we can see how much you love your boys & the pain you feel for bill. I imagine those forms stir up all sorts of emotions. Take care 🙂
Gaynor, you are not wet in the slightest, you are a dedicated mum that wants only the best for your boys, you are incredibly strong so I doesn’t hurt to cry at times it helps to relieve your inner pressure. I reckons you got hugs coming from all around the world.x
Big hugs. Bill is a brilliant young man and I can only imagine the love, care and sacrifices you have given to give him the very best life, education and head start in life. You know the very best of him and I know it’s hard to write the worst. There is no shame in being upset with having to do the not so great part of the paperwork. Just know that for everything he can’t do, there is something amazing that he can do. ❤️
Honestly sharing the hard bits makes it that much easier to relate to you. In our own way, each different from one another, we all suffer through hardships with our children. What our children go through, we go through. 💗 Having those tears, it just means you’re a fabulous mother! You love with all you are and all you have. Have a lovely day!!
Loved the eye roll when Toby was having a nap, Bless you, it's hard when you have to be negative about a child who you are usually so positive about (hope that makes sense),❤️
Don't ever be embarrassed for sharing your feelings. 💞HUGS💞 We care about you just like we know you care about us! I hope the form is done & out of the way before you know it. 💖 I'm praying for you. Ask God to help you thru the process. He loves you all so much & wants to help. 💞
I don't really do comments, but this one called me out. Showing mercy to yourself is important - also as a mother. Because you're a role model to your children, and we want them to be mercyful and understanding towards others as well as themselves. I can't appreciate enough the courage it takes to show the world -and the loved ones - your vulnerability. But thank you. I have learnt a very important lesson this past year (it works great in Danish - I hope it gets by in English too) Put on mercy. Oh, and share with a friend to not stand alone in hard times.
I can be too hard on myself so I have to remind myself that I wouldn’t speak to a friend the way a speak to myself. I have started to speak as a friend and, as you say, show mercy. I am the better for it. It makes me a better person too. X
I've just found your video through a customer email, thank you so much for coming by Alterknit Universe during my trunk show and featuring my yarn. It's been lovely watching your video xx
Sending you a massive virtual hug Gayna xx I hate to see you upset when all you’re trying to do is be the best Mum you can possibly be! I want to go with you to that wool shop too! Lots of love WW xxx
It is a struggle this form!! every few years you have to go through that, it is exactly what you said!, no one can put it in better way. My son's form in next year, I am drading it already. Lots of love and ❤🤗
Hello beautiful Gaynor - I haven’t watched much on TH-cam for months but I’ve just been catching up with your cosytober vlogs whilst on the school run - this one 💔 got some funny ol’ looks in the car park as I was sat sobbing - sending you all much love. Victoria 😘 xx
Oh Gayna you are not wet far from it. It’s so hard as a. mum as we care so much and can’t do it for them but be there for them. Forms are so impersonal and stark but agree with other comments it’s about what Bill can do. Big hugs 🤗
Sending the biggest, most squishy hugs your way. Being disabled myself I know how much these forms can get to you. And you are right, we spend our time concentrating on the things we can do, not the things we can't do. And often the normal way for many of us is our own way and not how others do things and it's important to point these things out too. We are all different in our own special ways.It's hard! Be kind to yourself . Xx
What a lovely vlog thank you Gayna. How lovely for you to be surrounded not only by the love of your family and friends but also by the love of many many unknown friends on here. We are all cheering you on, Bill will have his own lovely life especially with you for a Mum. He chose you to be his Mum because you are so special and you chose this life experience with Bill because you need his presence at this time in your life. Keep your marvellously mobile chin up! 😍
Bill is so blessed to have you for his mom and you are doing a brilliant job. It’s okay to keep it real and share the ups and downs of daily life. It’s so refreshing and why we all feel you are one of our friends (at least I do)! Thank you for doing vlogtober.
Your emotion just shows what a wonderful, caring mum you are who adores her son and just wants the best for him. I've only just started watching your vlogs but I can see already that family means more than anything to you. You're doing an amazing job, you got this! ♡
Don’t apologize for crying - it shows the extent of your love for your little man. We are all on the sidelines cheering you on as you fill in ‘that’ form. Sign it at the bottom, take a deep breath and carry on. We can all tell you are the best family Bill can have. Xx
You should never apologize for loving your child. You’re doing and wanting what’s best for Bill, that’s what a loving mom does. 💐
Never ever say sorry for loving Bill and wanting the best for him.
He's your boy and you know what a wonder he is. We'd wonder about you if you didn't cry. We cry too, for you and for him. But tears of joy because you are such a terrific Mum and he's a great kid. . You care so deeply, so when that stupid form is done... go back to knowing all that you've done, together, to get him this far. Don't ever apologise for your feelings, cuckoo. Never. Big virtual hugs sweet girl... give yourself a break... 💖
I needed that cry and I really needed the comfort you guys have all given me. X
Totally get the tears, we had to fill in one of those forms for my amazing husband. He has spent his whole life trying not to be defined by his disabilities but the system is set up to focus on what you can't do, and indeed it penalises you for trying hard to maximise your abilities. Keep going Gayna you are an amazing, amazing Mum. You just have to jump through this hoop and hopefully won't have to do it too often. We did have to go to an interview but eventually he got what he deserves.
I keep trying to fathom out a better way for the system to gather the info they need but I can’t come up with one. It does make me sad though, having to document all the things Bill can’t do. Must have been so hard for you as by the sounds of it your husband hasn’t always needed this kind of help.
Sending a big hug to you💕. I’ve so enjoyed your cosytober vlogs and appreciate how honest and open you are. You are a wonderful mom and kind human. No apologies necessary. Also, the opening shot of Bunny all tucked in was just the sweetest!
She lives to be snuggled up in the duvet…I have to deal with a lot of hair!
Lovely!
Never ever apologize,,Gayna!!!
Bill♡♡
Elaine 🏡🏡
Loved that yarn shop,,,,
Love UR sweater,,,!!!
Oh my! I am in tears with you. I know sometimes we need to state the things our kids can’t/don’t do but I am like you in being so grateful and happy about all the things they can do! You are such a lovely family and all support each other with such love! Thanks for the yarn shop -haven’t been in too long but it was a treat to shop with you and granny🥰
Aww, Gayna! Don't apologize for crying! You love Bill and we all know that! Sending you lots of love.
Never ever apologise for crying and loving Bill as much as you do. You’re right he will have an amazing life, he has the support and love of an adoring family. Sending love and hugs xx
Oh Gayna, sending you hugs. Of course you encourage all the positives for Bill because you are a wonderful and very special mother. These forms are horrible. Don't apologise for being you! ❤️
Please don’t ever apologize for loving your son to the moon and back and wanting the world for him❤️
Focusing on the positives and all of the things that Bill CAN do is exactly why Bill can do so many things. He’s very very fortunate that you are his Mom. We all need a good cry once in a while. No shame in that. 💕
No need to apologies. Of course you what the best for all your children.
Wishing Bill a beautiful and enjoyable life.
Never be sorry for caring about your children , Bill is needing you to be his advocate and you are the best mum he could have. Stay safe love and hugs xx
Good job he has a gobby mother! X
Oh Gayna! Don't be sorry, we all need a weep and especially when we are frustrated at silly forms that are not highlighting all the amazing things Bill can do and achieve. Without having met him or yourself I have no doubt that your love and support as a family and his amazingness have had a huge impact on him and will continue to do so xx
When you fill in the horrid form, do a list of all things that Bill has achieved so far and can and will do in the future. Remember he is an individual and the stupid form is just another piece of red tape rules that someone has sat and written and they have probably never met,worked or lived with anybody as precious as your son. What he did last week with his money, shows how caring and lovely he is. Don't be so hard on yourself. Hugs x
He is a thoroughly lovely young man, ok so he can’t do a heap of things but I’d rather he was like he is than a mean spirited human. Thank you for such a lovely comment Xxx
Beautiful Bill sending hugs. You do amazing. He is so lucky to have you and his family to care for him 🤗xx
Bill has lots of love and support, thanks to you!
Please don’t ever apologise. You are a fantastic Mother and show so much care and love to your family. Hope you have a better day tomorrow. Take care.
You are the best mom for your kids! You are doing a wonderful job, don't doubt yourself! And it is difficult, and it is okay to show it. Sharing helps! Much love to you! Xx
Oh Gaynor, I really feel for you. My job as a Health Visitor (retired now 10 years) took me to that place many many times. I would sit with families - often just mum - going through those horrendous forms and as you say, we would spend ages focusing on all the negatives. Such a terrible thing to ask of people when they spend their lives looking for the positives in their child. It’s heart breaking. And also, it’s a word game. You have to know the rules of this game and that’s where all this focusing on the negatives comes in, isn’t it? Because you know if you don’t emphasise just how great your child’s needs are, you won’t stand a chance. I’m not in the least sir-raised you have been putting this off and finding it difficult. Don’t be hard on yourself. Perfect;y natural to feel the way you do. Love and hugs.xxxx
I hope you know how much you would have helped those people you sat with. It can be a very lonely place to be; you and a bleak form. So having a caring person sat with you offering help, giving alternative word options, nudging you in the right direction is priceless. If I get this form wrong please send me someone like you to help me 🙏
Bill is so lucky to have you as his mom. Have a good cry, parenting is hard at times but also the best job in the world. You never need to apologize for real life, all we can do is support you and lift you up with words of encouragement. 🤗
This community is filled with people who wish they could give you a quick hug and some reassurance - you are loved because you love your family.
The bloomin' hoops that they make you jump through on those forms...grrrr.. it makes me so cross ! .. Bill will be fine because he has such a lovely family to support him ❤. Sending huge hugs xxxx
It’s hard but I don’t know there’s a better way, not one that is as quick. This does rely on the person being articulate and that’s not always easy 🤣
I understand Gayna, love and a big hug. Suze.xxxx🙂
Big 🤗. Never blame yourself for crying because you 💗 your boy. And if it makes you sad so what it’s allowed, you’re a great mam doing a good job 👏 🥰🌸🥰
Aw Gayna my heart goes out to you . Gayna you’re an incredible Mum your tears are of flowing full of love & care for Bill as he steps into adulthood. Let the tears flow tomorrow is a new day . In my prayers tonight 💕
The prayers helped. The form got done and sent off ahead of the deadline. Phew!!
You are sharing with friends here Gayna, people who love you and yours. We are walking this road with you, supporting all you do for your sweet Bill. Of course you can be teary with us.
Thank you. It has been lovely having the kind of support you lovely lot give me x
You have so much for Bill , don’t be hard on yourself . Hugs .
I so feel your tears and upset Gaynor. The love for all your family really shines through Our eldest grandson had several mental health issues, and dealing with forms etc is never easy. Bill is in good and safe hands with you and Toby Take heart that we understand your heartache and I am sending a massive hug xxx
Hugging you back. Hard.
Gayna, just echoing the love back to you. You are an amazing Mom who takes such good care of her family! Sending that caring back to you!
Gayna, as a mom of a 14 year old who has a slight learning disability and have seen struggles, battles and epic triumphs , I would sit down next to you right now and take your hand and let you cry on my shoulder . You go ahead and cry and never ever call yourself weak or mean because you are far more the opposite of those words ! You are a beautiful person inside and out but what I’m really talking about is the inside ! You have a heart filled with love and your family reflects that love ! You are a great Mom and you are doing a FANTASTIC job….words cannot describe what I’m trying to say! Please know that you are always in my prayers as I sit so far away but I admire your beautiful strength ! Please know how much we love you and support you ! God bless you dear ! Lots of love from me in America ! ❤️🏠❤️🇺🇸🥰
Thank you so much. I feel a wobbly mess and far from strong sometimes but I will always put on my game face and fight for my boy.
Your are such a good mom! I have been watching your podcast and the main thing that comes across is the love your have for your family. We all need to have our teary moments. I have heard that "tears are the highest form of prayer". Hang in there and know that we are all here wanting to support you.
I was certainly praying!
Heartbreaking, I feel your pain. So sorry. You are always so positive & a brilliant Mum to Bill. Tomorrow is another day.💕
It shows what a fantastic mum you are by always focusing on the positives for Bill. I’m sorry you’re having to fill out such a silly form. And no need to apologise, it’s okay to cry. Sending you a big hug 🤗
You are a mum who loves her son so very much ❤️ I cry over my kids as well, it’s what mums do ❤️ xxx
Don't be so hard on yourself. You are such a wonderful mother to the boys and you always have Bills best interest at heart.
You and Toby have the most amazing loving caring family life…. YOU ROCK SWEETIE !!!! Spill over …. It’s OK … don’t feel bad about that … sunshine 🌞 follows rain 🌧 … ❤️
Yep, no rainbows with out the rain. Xxx
Don't apologise, you love your boy. Sending you a big hug XX
Oh hun I know exactly how you feel filling in those dreaded forms, I used to have to fill those in for my son, like you I concentrated on his abilities not disabilities, hits you like a brick. I too didn't think he was going to have a 'normal' life, however, someone asked him to work with him as a labourer, he was a carpet fitter. He trained my son to fit carpets and now he is able to do his work alone, earns his own money, this person took him to his accountant so he never has to worry about paying his own taxes.
I'm telling you this because there is always hope, I hope this gives you some lovely. X
I am so very very glad you shared your sons triumph with me. I love that and hope Bill will find a way to access the workforce. He really wants a job. X
Aww lovely, dont ever apologise for loving your wonderful Bill and wanting him to live his best life. We always think the skies the limit for our children and when we have a child and we know how wonderful they are but they have limitations we do get super upset for them that is normal Gaynor and dont ever apologise for that xxx extending a big covid free hug from here in derbyshire xx ❤
Thank you for the hug and support. Usually I’m pretty good at being positive and reframing things but that form crushed me for a while. It’s done now 🙏😄
Wish I could give you a big 'ol hug. I realized a few years ago as I was mourning the dreams I had for both of my daughters for different reasons and in different ways, that it is something we probably all go through at some point, sometimes sooner (a friend with a special needs child) or later as in my case and the passing of those dreams is more dramatic for some than for others. There is a grieving that has to happen, I think. You are such a wonderful, loving mum Gayna. Your family is so fortunate to have you.
Grieving is right. And the uncomfortable adjustment to the reality of how things are going. X
Hugs🥰🥰you are such a good mother to Bill!
I hope so.
Those forms are horrible. I felt the same filling them in for my youngest. It’s devastating to intensely have to focus on any negatives and they leave you feeling upset. We shouldn’t have to fight so hard to get our children what they so rightly deserve. Sending love xxx
The worry that I’ll get it wrong and let Bill down is horrible. X
Your tears are honest and real, the sign of a loving, caring mother. No need to apologise for them. You are doing an amazing job and are a role model for many parents. Sending you hugs.
Thank you, Jane xxx
Hugs and love 💕 💗. He will find his place and he will become something even more special because he has loving parents who support him and a wonderful home life.
Oh, my dear. Holding you in my heart.
Oh Gayna! I wish I could give you a big hug! You are such a lush mom! Bill is so lucky to have you and you him. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable humanness. I wish you all the best getting through that bloody form. xo
You comment was like a warm hug x
You're a star and a champion for your kids!!! Big hugs 😙💞
your the best and so are your kids. Who doesn't want the best for there kids. no matter how old they are, it never stops. big hugs
Oh Gayna I just want to give you a big hug. Bill has the best family ever and you are the best Mum. Your vlogs bring so much brightness into our lives so for loving Bill and cheering us all up ask Toby to give you the biggest hug. ❤️
Thank you, Carolyn, having you guys in my iPhone is such a tonic x
Sending hugs 🤗🤗🤗
Sending you a big hugs 🤗 it good to cry 😭 it makes you stronger love ❤️ you xx 😘
I just wanted to jump right into that video and give you a big hug. Bill has a fantastic mum who will always be there for him, and that's what counts. xx
Thank you 😊
We are foster parents. It's a hard, great privilege. I'm sending you a virtual hug, because sometimes being forced to actually say all your child's diagnosis really does suck, & you just have to let yourself cry. I always tell my self "acknowledge it, cry over it, but don't live in it! Pick yourself up & make your and you child's life great, because your the only ones who truly can."
You are a wonderful person to foster. I think foster carers are angels on this earth, especially to willingly take on children who have complex difficulties and needs. X
Oh Gaynor! You have every right to get upset, we spend all of our time praising our children and celebrating all the little things they do right from when they are born. To have to list everything they can’t do must be awful. I think writing a positive list, like someone else suggested, would be a good idea. You are such a good mum and you are doing this to get the best for Bill and his future.x
I got the form done and have spent the last few days revelling in all that I see bill doing. He even remembered his birthday when the doctor asked yesterday. That’s epic!
Oh Gayna, I was desperately trying to leap through the screen and give you a cuddle. You are amazing and perfectly entitled to have a blub every now and then. Bill is lovely and with a family like his will continue on to have a wonderful life. Big hugs...x
I can almost picture you walloping your head on the screen 😁
@@talesfromcuckooland 😂🤕
Virtual hugs to you. A beautiful person just being herself...wonderful.
Sending hugs to you Gayna💖Your boys are so lucky to have you as their mum.
Don't apologize for crying, big hugs 😘
💜💜😢 I feel for you, rotten forms having to always justify. Bill is a beautiful young man and deserves all the support he can get, along with the rest of you. We are all sending our love to you xx
I did it! Hopefully we’ll enough.
Your love for all your children shines bright…..your crying is understandable and I feel your pain….hugs. ❤️
Oh Gayna, you have every right to feel how you do. Sometimes I've been put in a position to come to a realization of certain aspects my life, past and present, somethings that will never ever change and I too have had a darn good cry and then continue to focus on all the wonderful things. The sooner you complete the necessary forms to help Bill, the faster you can get back to doing the wonderful and loving part of life. Bill is your wonderful son and he's beautiful inside and out. Hugs!
I’m happy to report I finished the form on Thursday. Hurrah!
@@talesfromcuckooland YES!!!!! hope you had a drink or two....so happy for you!
Hi ! Do not feel bad about getting upset. You are not being pathetic.
You are a wonderful caring Mom. I love your vlogs and thank you for sharing your family life
with us. I am still catching up on the vlogs from 2019 and 2020. Really enjoy them.
🌈🦋💕
Don’t watch too many all at once. I don’t want you getting sick of me. X
Oh Gayna. I wish I could give you a hug. ❤️ We are always our worse critic but I have finally found in my 52 years in this earth that it’s okay not to be okay with some things and that it is extremely okay to be gentle with ourselves. My husband and I have 11 second hugs and when one of us is feeling crap or is being a bit judgemental of ourselves, we ask the other for an 11 second hug. It is such a comforting thing to do and it makes you feel that things can only get better and releases endorphins that I think pull you out of that headspace where you are your own “mean girl”. ❤️ On a less serious note, I bought that wool Nanny was looking at in those colours too! It is exquisite! 😁
Long big hugs are the best!!!
Bless you Gayna. And Bless Bill and your family. I understand, it is so hard to think of all of the "normal" things that they won't get to do but yes focus on the positive and RAH RAH RASS - KICK THOSE FORM BULLIES IN THE ASS!!! We love Bill and love you. Like in Turner and Hootch, life has different opportunities in places you would never think and most likely will not follow the plan you have in mind but a better one intended just for you. Hugs to you and all your boys!
Everything tends to work out ok in the end, just as you say x
❤️❤️❤️ You are allowed to cry and you don’t need to apologize to us for that. We are here for you, for the ups and the downs. We always want what’s best for our kids and as mums we have a different ways we react. I cry as well 😅❤️
Xxx Maria
You are a mom first and foremost and are only as happy as your unhappiest child. Bill hurts…..you hurt more when you cannot make everything right for them. We fear for the future of our vulnerable however look how far he has come and he will continue to grow. Listing what he cannot do may be painful however YOU will find the right school for him. Bill’s attitude reflects what you have taught him….he can do it. I understand……we have similar challenges in our family. Cry….you need to. Wish I was one of your nickers friends as I would be there with wine and ice cream. Virtual hugs beautiful woman.
Oh you would be such a great friend too, laden with wine and ice cream! And probably tea too, knowing you!
Sending big hugs. Those forms are always awful to fill in. I found doing it gradually, one question at a time, helps to keep it from being so overwhelming. xxx
I think what must be difficult is painting the worst picture in order to get the best outcome…. ❤️
I did it. It’s done. Now to see if they mess us around like they did you x
It’s horrible dragging up events I have buried. It makes me feel I have failed Bill over and over again.
@@talesfromcuckooland oh Gaynor … I am so sorry that you feel that way. Bill could not be more loved (nor Ted or Wilf) you are a beautiful loving person 🌱
Please don't apologize for anything ❗❗❗😘. You're Bill's champion, and most loving Mum, who wants the best for him. I absolutely adore the boy you've raised ❣️❣️❣️ I can't imagine how absolutely difficult it is to complete these forms and not be a wreck❗😢
They dig up a lot of emotions and events I have buried and fears I don’t look at. It’s done now though… till the next time. X
@@talesfromcuckooland A good time to celebrate Bill💙❣️😘🥰
Oh Gayna. I felt as though I was watching a mirror image of myself as you described your feelings about that form. All I do know is at 27 my amazing daughter is doing so many things she couldn’t ten years ago and if someone had told me what she would be doing I would never have believed them. That being said, she is a world away from her peers, but most definitely living her best life. Sending sincere virtual hugs 💜
This is heartening to hear. I’ll never give up on Bill, he always manages in the end after repetition and encouragement. It’s good to hear your daughter is doing well and more than you’d have expected.
Oh Gaynor l think you are amazing sending you love and a hug 😊♥️x
With you, giving you a hug. We're on that journey with my six year old grandson. It's crap but I can't imagine a more wonderful family to be born into.
You’ve been a huge help to me so if you ever need my help please shout cxx
Sending lots of love ❤ we can see how much you love your boys & the pain you feel for bill. I imagine those forms stir up all sorts of emotions. Take care 🙂
Gaynor, you are not wet in the slightest, you are a dedicated mum that wants only the best for your boys, you are incredibly strong so I doesn’t hurt to cry at times it helps to relieve your inner pressure. I reckons you got hugs coming from all around the world.x
I’ve definitely relieved that inner pressure 😂
You are the best. Sending hugs.
Big hugs. Bill is a brilliant young man and I can only imagine the love, care and sacrifices you have given to give him the very best life, education and head start in life. You know the very best of him and I know it’s hard to write the worst. There is no shame in being upset with having to do the not so great part of the paperwork. Just know that for everything he can’t do, there is something amazing that he can do. ❤️
I’m glad it’s done and I don’t need to think about it for a while now. X
Sending you a big hug and all the strength I can spare 💕
It was the title that truly tempted me…. Kindred spirit? Xx. So I watched to the end and I want to send you a squeeze, a kind understanding squeeze
Honestly sharing the hard bits makes it that much easier to relate to you. In our own way, each different from one another, we all suffer through hardships with our children. What our children go through, we go through. 💗 Having those tears, it just means you’re a fabulous mother! You love with all you are and all you have. Have a lovely day!!
We are all the same once you scratch the surface really. At least you guys don’t mind my warts and all videos 😆
Loved the eye roll when Toby was having a nap, Bless you, it's hard when you have to be negative about a child who you are usually so positive about (hope that makes sense),❤️
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Don't ever be embarrassed for sharing your feelings. 💞HUGS💞 We care about you just like we know you care about us! I hope the form is done & out of the way before you know it. 💖 I'm praying for you. Ask God to help you thru the process. He loves you all so much & wants to help. 💞
Oh Debbie, you are lush. Thank you. I must say I am glad to have my faith when I feel this heavy weight. X
I don't really do comments, but this one called me out. Showing mercy to yourself is important - also as a mother. Because you're a role model to your children, and we want them to be mercyful and understanding towards others as well as themselves.
I can't appreciate enough the courage it takes to show the world -and the loved ones - your vulnerability. But thank you.
I have learnt a very important lesson this past year (it works great in Danish - I hope it gets by in English too)
Put on mercy.
Oh, and share with a friend to not stand alone in hard times.
I can be too hard on myself so I have to remind myself that I wouldn’t speak to a friend the way a speak to myself. I have started to speak as a friend and, as you say, show mercy. I am the better for it. It makes me a better person too. X
… just sending you a big (virtual) hug & warm wishes🤗♥🍂 Alison x
Thank you, lover x
Don't be sorry for showing your feelings. Your son is part of your heart and you want the best for him. That's what good mothers do. Hang in there.
I've just found your video through a customer email, thank you so much for coming by Alterknit Universe during my trunk show and featuring my yarn. It's been lovely watching your video xx
Hi Steph! I love my wee gauge dodahs. They are in my tin and ever so useful. I’m thrilled to hear someone saw my video and came to your shop. X
Sending you a massive virtual hug Gayna xx I hate to see you upset when all you’re trying to do is be the best Mum you can possibly be! I want to go with you to that wool shop too! Lots of love WW xxx
I feel splint having two gorgeous yarn shops near me.
Sending you big hugs 💜
It is a struggle this form!! every few years you have to go through that, it is exactly what you said!, no one can put it in better way. My son's form in next year, I am drading it already. Lots of love and ❤🤗
Hello beautiful Gaynor - I haven’t watched much on TH-cam for months but I’ve just been catching up with your cosytober vlogs whilst on the school run - this one 💔 got some funny ol’ looks in the car park as I was sat sobbing - sending you all much love. Victoria 😘 xx
Oh no! You’ll have looked like a crazy person 😝 just kidding. Lovely to see your name pop up. X
I’m sending you a huge hug , you are a wonderful mom.
I hope I’m good enough x
Oh Gayna you are not wet far from it. It’s so hard as a. mum as we care so much and can’t do it for them but be there for them. Forms are so impersonal and stark but agree with other comments it’s about what Bill can do. Big hugs 🤗
Sending hugs and warm thoughts to you from a fellow knitter and mom. ❤️
Hugs from America...
Sending the biggest, most squishy hugs your way. Being disabled myself I know how much these forms can get to you. And you are right, we spend our time concentrating on the things we can do, not the things we can't do. And often the normal way for many of us is our own way and not how others do things and it's important to point these things out too. We are all different in our own special ways.It's hard! Be kind to yourself . Xx
Thank you for the hugs! You lovely lady x
What a lovely vlog thank you Gayna.
How lovely for you to be surrounded not only by the love of your family and friends but also by the love of many many unknown friends on here. We are all cheering you on, Bill will have his own lovely life especially with you for a Mum. He chose you to be his Mum because you are so special and you chose this life experience with Bill because you need his presence at this time in your life. Keep your marvellously mobile chin up! 😍
Bill will be grand, won’t he?! Shame he didn’t inherit my marvellous chin 😆😆
Bill is so blessed to have you for his mom and you are doing a brilliant job. It’s okay to keep it real and share the ups and downs of daily life. It’s so refreshing and why we all feel you are one of our friends (at least I do)! Thank you for doing vlogtober.
We are all friends who haven’t yet met x
Oh darling don’t you dare apologise xxx big hugs my lovely
Your emotion just shows what a wonderful, caring mum you are who adores her son and just wants the best for him. I've only just started watching your vlogs but I can see already that family means more than anything to you. You're doing an amazing job, you got this! ♡
They are my world. Take away my family and everything else is worthless. X