The Tempest

The Tempest
I have been experiencing a tempest of spiritual / demonic attacks this week, which began on Tuesday when my wife broke some news that went against my grain.
This tempest was very severe. Overwhelming. Unbearable. It was to the point where I was ready to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Regardless of the effects it would have on my family. I simply could not handle the utter loneliness anymore and wanted it to end. Like Jonah / Elijah I actually pleaded with God to take my life. I despise this world. I despise money. I despise greed. I despise the system which has been put in place which forces people to be servant to an employer and the employer their master. Our employer has been given power over every aspect of our lives. Income, days off (if any) , healthcare, everything. Because their motivation is the insatiable drive to make money that yours should be also.
“Get out there and get to work slaves and make me money”
As usual, right as I reached the brink, and just as suddenly as it began, Jesus appeared and quelled the tempest.
With one word. He reminded me, he was there all along. One word
“Independent”. He spoke.
I said: I don’t understand Lord, please explain.
I will need to explain the situation first for you to understand.
So. My wife had dropped a huge emotional “bomb” on me.
(I am trying to decide whether I should state what was said to prevent readers from jumping to wrong conclusion.)
She said “I am thinking about getting the vaccine. The reports of the Delta variant are disturbing.”
This felt like a huge betrayal. The Lord has previously told me that the virus, the mask mandates, the vaccine, are all parts to a well planned multi-phase plan to circumvent the individual constitutional rights of U.S. citizens in order to make way for a systematic communist take-over of America. Their agenda is to kill as many people as possible to promote fear. Fear-Fear-Fear. So that “we the people” will willingly accept who-ever can put an end to the suffering. That person. Who will emerge will usher in the rule of the anti-Christ (already revealed to many prophets as Barack Obama) .
I went to Jesus with this plea:
“Lord, I am confused. You promised me that my family would be safely in your arms when my time for persecution comes. I will admit that I am uncertain whether your way would be to take them by death or by rapture. Or maybe even bring them through the fires as part of the surviving remnant having never bowed a knee to Baal. I am trying my best to trust in you. My knowledge or understanding of your ways is missing some pieces.
How could this be? I have pledged my career, job, wealth, body, my freedom, and my very life to your cause of exposing the secret plans of the enemy. To set the captives free. How could she even consider this? This feels like a betrayal. I feel as if I can not go home after this. I feel as if I am living with the enemy. What have I missed?
I was deeply troubled and anguished for three days. I then asked some brothers and sisters in Christ to pray and I set to a fast and prayed for guidance. The demonic attacks were quite severe and relentless. Doubt, fear, confusion. Feelings of rejection set in. Then on the morning of the third day I was pumping gas into my vehicle when just as suddenly as they came the demons fled. That’s how/when I knew Jesus was about to answer. Like I said above. He first answered with one word.
“Independent”
I said. “Lord. I don’t understand. Please explain.”
Jesus began to speak and show me things. As I got back in the car to drive. We had a conversation.
First he said:
“I keep my promises.”
I said
“Yes. I believe that Lord. But, the way your words come can be mistaken for my own thoughts. When something happens that seems quite contrary to what you have spoken to me I begin to question :
Did I hear right?
Did I Misunderstand? , Etc. Not to mention my problems with memory.”
Jesus Said:
“Trust in me unconditionally. Never doubt. Doubt opens the door to spiritual attack. Reveals a crack in your armor. Then other demons pile on. Fear, Rejection, Pride, Bitterness.”
(Then I pictured a cochroach waving to his buddies “Over here guys, I found a way in”).
“I will keep every promise made to you.”
Jesus continued:
“Everyone has free will. What good is accomplished to be an advocate for the rights of individuals if spouses and children are denied the right to make their own choices? Every person must choose me through their own free will. Without coercion. Would you want a bride who did not choose you? “
(The rest Cut off due to length)