Yes as a black one who vital signs are always normal but hav lupus it’s bananas how they treat us the opioid crisis make almost 99 percent of doctors think we are looking for a high
So sad to hear about her passing! This clip breaks my heart.. her symptoms being ignored by the physicians is problematic. It’s an ongoing issue, particularly with Black women symptom’s being passed off and ignored like it’s normal. Praying for her family 🙏🏽
I remember this episode and I felt the pain and was going through... you're sick going to doctors and hospitals and no one can identify the cause of your sickness 😢
I’m going to let this play out before I jump to conclusions. Praying for her and her loved ones! Hoping she has a strong support system around speaking power and positivity into her!
Im seeing this clip now. She complained of back pain, cant keep anything down, sounds like she may have had an aggressive form of cancer, and the doctors just didn't take her seriously.
Exactly. I’m retired from the healthcare field and I’ve seen this before. Because of her past history with opiate abuse, they probably thought she was just drug seeking and did the bare minimum. RIP Keke. Condolences to the family. ❤
Yup, that's exactly what it is..I have a friend RIGJT NOW sick fighting,it's aggressive and everything she says she's feels is EXACTLY what he says, the pain is in his Back, shoulders amd feet😢💔 and can't keep anything down bit maybe a fruit j
I believe that she's addicted to pills but she's fighting hard to leave them alone her body is going through withdrawals I'm praying for her cuz I really do like her❤
May the ancestors receive this Sister with love. ❤ healing energy to the family. This is their second loss in two weeks, I pray they hold together during this tough time. 😢
These comments from 8 mos ago didn't age well. This is why we must consider all things when it comes to patient care other than what we think is the obvious because of past history. RIP Keke🙏🏾
So, I’m a RN and I used to work in ER and drug seekers always came in with complaints to get more. I don’t know if this is what is happening but it is shameful they got Keke on this show when she is not at optimal level. She got addicted after a surgery and it breaks my heart to know this happened to her. It can happen to any of us without intent; taking prescribed narcotics.
Well Ms. RN your comment didn't age well. Just because someone use to be or is an addict doesn't mean they can't be ill unrelated to drugs. Your comment is the reason black women are dying at alarming rates because of medical malpractice. They are believed by medical professionals. You should feel ashamed with your degreed self
As a physician I agree. Sounds like withdrawal or pain seeking unfortunately. This can happen to any of us and I pray we all think twice before prescribing opiods. RIP keke 😢
@@rantsallegedlyThere are even medications to alleviate pain from withdrawals. Negligent doctors prescribing high dose narcotics without a effective discontinuance plan is the problem. Then dismissing the patient and their problems as pain seeking is the problematic as hell!
Praying for healing for KeKe's health and spirit. I know exactly what's going on but it's not for me to say. She knows too but it's going to be up to her to want to be honest with herself and lay her burdens down at the alter for God to release.
She’s withdrawing. Her body wants the pills she was taking before. She needs to get off this show and check into a treatment facility that will help her go through it.
I thought the same. I have TWO friends that were finally diagnosed with fibromyalgia. One of them was diagnosed 2 years ago. She had surgery in February. Now she is back to be treated after the surgery. Because, still having some minor complications. She just went yesterday day 7/8 to see why the minor complications🤷🏾 My other friend was diagnosed over five years ago..She has been doing OK.for the most part. Attacks her joints real bad and her back😢 I will say this. Based on a few friends and two of my children who have moved to the southern regions TX/GA. They both complain about medical care. Vs. the medical care here in the Midwest👌🏾So, 🤷🏾
Damn, how we let this issue with her health problem go over our headssss, I remember watching this scene but wasn't actually paying attention thinking she just saying that to cover up her addiction. She literally was suffering ...my prayers to the family
I hate to say it😮😢 kee Kee cause I like her but you got this girlie!!!! Pray more Sis 🙏🏿🙏🏿 can't nobody change your situation but you like u got this 💪💪💯 it's hard 😞 but you got this!!!!! REAL TALK!!!!
Kiki needs to check into a treatment facility. She is very possibly going through withdrawals. Why would the doctors give her “something stronger” when she’s a former addict?
She’s really sick and goes to the hospital. The doctors are helping her giving her meds according to her symptoms and their medical expertise. She doesn’t want what they administered and doesn’t like that they aren’t moving quick enough to give her the meds she demands. Tests prove she’s not having a medical emergency, but she’s REALLY SICK. So sick, she requests to be discharged even though husband wants her to stay until doctors can figure out what’s going on. This is a bad situation.
Cancer is picked up quickly with simple blood work….and first sign is lost weight……my husband was diagnosed with it after his annual blood work. It’s important to have that done. He had pancreatic cancer.
Wonder if she was getting some type of autoimmune disorder. There’s so many things that affect women and so much that isn’t well known about or common knowledge. I always liked Keke and her loss makes me really really sad. :((((((
I know a functioning drug addict when I see one. Her husband is enabling because he knows his wife has a problem but the show is cutting them a check so🤷🏾♀️
Girl find you a black doctor! Also her husband need to stay on her head cause something isn’t right. Whether it’s her lying or something is really wrong. They write black women off all the time!
very sweet of you to say... I had a car accident and I been in the med field 30 years it was super easy to get body and mind dependant on those pills that killed the pain but made you have a happy aura ...you can become nasty nasty I'll tryna cold turkey get off....when I started asking others for a pill or two here and there I knew I was in trouble...I went to a psychiatrist and told my story,,,they weened me off with other meds and then I got put on a mild anxiety med to keep me calm for some time...that's been 10 years I promise I'll never go near any kind of opioid again...and the streets are selling everything strong much of what is highly laced and potent...she was not my favorite of the show at all but I am super happy God has her now and she will REST!!!! pain Free! so so Sorry Ke! BLessings to Husband and Children!!!
They could have given her an MRI etc. So sad. You are at peace now Keke. Nell, can be happy with her decision to let you join the group at the retreat despite the opp. Praying for your family.
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She may have anxiety and a build up of stress hormones that may be causing overall inflammation in her body. I wonder if she is hiccuping as well. Also, if she drinks or smokes weed, it can be adding to it.
Sounds like withdrawal or detox to me and her husband even thought something was up. Overindulging on food or a step back to the past. It was reasonable for him to assume despite her feelings but she was telling him what she needed to go thru as if he hasn't been around while she was seeking treatment.
Her husband was very caring and concerned. He just didn't know how to help her. Especially when the doctors gave her medication. No ones thinking death... Especially when its sudden. There was no warning, hospital stays or anything. My condolences. 😔
And they probably didn't even run the proper tests. She obviously was sick but just happened to pass away in her car. She could have been in her bed and the same thing happened. 😢
She’s the worst kind of patient to have. You clearly have a horrible diet based off what your husband is saying and u expect the professionals to fix it? Then u have a past of addiction so the hospital can’t give u just anything but I need something stronger?? This is making my brain hurt
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PLEASE LISTEN TO YOUR FAMILY..WHEN THEY TELL YOU THEY'RE SICK..😢😢😢💔
bc he wasnt listening at all.
I'm terribly sorry you go through that, with your own child of all people. I hope he learns to better listen to you one day.
R.I.H. KeKe, she was really telling us she was sick and something wasn’t right. She said this is the sickest she ever been. Who believed her????
usually it;s like that.. ppl think youre acting irrational but theyre not in your body to feel the chronic pain that's unexplainable. humans aint s***
I believed her. Others may have thought she wanted meds for drug use. Poor KeKe. I really liked her.
Yes as a black one who vital signs are always normal but hav lupus it’s bananas how they treat us the opioid crisis make almost 99 percent of doctors think we are looking for a high
So sad… I really hate that she passed. Condolences to her family.
Nobody that’s how people treat black woman
So sad to hear about her passing! This clip breaks my heart.. her symptoms being ignored by the physicians is problematic. It’s an ongoing issue, particularly with Black women symptom’s being passed off and ignored like it’s normal. Praying for her family 🙏🏽
you are 100 percent correct.....esp black women....childbirth deaths are rising for us drastically as well
Doctors are famous for dismissing and or playing down how black women feel. Start asking for a differential diagnosis.
She passed away from carbon monoxide poisoning according to a family friend.
The doctors probably knew she was a addict & thought she was trying to get prescription meds. 😢😢
@@kiraw.8864 EXACTLY what I thought happened
No one believed her. Now she's dead.
Exactly
Unfortunately she passed due to Carbon monoxide poisoning.
@@twins4life274are we sure this is true… had to have been high or drunk to fall asleep in the car.
@@lwilliams9548 a family friend said she fell asleep in the garage in her car, her husband found her the next morning
@@twins4life274 That sounds like she....... 😢
I’m over here in tears 😢 She was literally begging for help and nothing was done. R.I.P Keke ❤
I feel real sad watching this to. She was begging. The hospitals in Huntsville must be horrible.
RIP Keke 🕊️🙏🏾
She told everyone she was sick and now she’s dead … I pray her family gets answers. I thought it was her gallbladder or something. Rip Keke
How she describing it I had the exact same problem and it was gallstones and gallbladder
Sources from a friend of hers said she passed away from Carbon Monoxide poisoning.
Watching this makes me sad knowing she just passed. RIP KeKe 🙏🏾
Wow when this episode was filmed she only had a year to live. ... You have to take care of yourself because most of the Drs don't care. RIH Sweet Keke
Damn, here after hearing about her passing! God Bless her family, husband and children.
They need to stop broadcasting this lady’s misfortunes and get her some help.
💯
She gotta want help
She needed to. Thankfully, she is no longer on the show. It's not the show exposing. Keke was exposing. Smh
She passed away
She died yesterday… I kept saying the same thing. It’s sad that nobody listened to her
I remember this episode and I felt the pain and was going through... you're sick going to doctors and hospitals and no one can identify the cause of your sickness 😢
Cause they don’t care. I know too well being very sick when black
I’m going to let this play out before I jump to conclusions. Praying for her and her loved ones! Hoping she has a strong support system around speaking power and positivity into her!
I like your comment. I’m curious to know what you were thinking when you posted it?
Im seeing this clip now. She complained of back pain, cant keep anything down, sounds like she may have had an aggressive form of cancer, and the doctors just didn't take her seriously.
My thoughts exactly
Exactly. I’m retired from the healthcare field and I’ve seen this before. Because of her past history with opiate abuse, they probably thought she was just drug seeking and did the bare minimum. RIP Keke. Condolences to the family. ❤
Agreed.
Yup, that's exactly what it is..I have a friend RIGJT NOW sick fighting,it's aggressive and everything she says she's feels is EXACTLY what he says, the pain is in his Back, shoulders amd feet😢💔 and can't keep anything down bit maybe a fruit j
Wow.
Rest in Peace Keke! Praying for her family 🙏🏾🙏🏾
Keke always fanning herself. Early menopause maybe or anxiety ? Not sure.
It’s the pills.
Hot flashes
@@Niahmama I think that’s why she’s checking herself into hospitals though for pain meds. But the sweats has to be something else too but idk
I know they feel bad now,this is sad she was crying out for help.
Praying for her husband.
I believe that she's addicted to pills but she's fighting hard to leave them alone her body is going through withdrawals I'm praying for her cuz I really do like her❤
Yeb I hope she get the help she needs
I do too
Keke is gone and I'm going to miss her beautiful face....Rest well my love 💜💜💜💜
Prayers for Keke. It’s nice to see another supportive husband on the show.
It definitely is
May the ancestors receive this Sister with love. ❤ healing energy to the family. This is their second loss in two weeks, I pray they hold together during this tough time. 😢
These comments from 8 mos ago didn't age well. This is why we must consider all things when it comes to patient care other than what we think is the obvious because of past history. RIP Keke🙏🏾
So, I’m a RN and I used to work in ER and drug seekers always came in with complaints to get more. I don’t know if this is what is happening but it is shameful they got Keke on this show when she is not at optimal level. She got addicted after a surgery and it breaks my heart to know this happened to her. It can happen to any of us without intent; taking prescribed narcotics.
Well Ms. RN your comment didn't age well. Just because someone use to be or is an addict doesn't mean they can't be ill unrelated to drugs. Your comment is the reason black women are dying at alarming rates because of medical malpractice. They are believed by medical professionals. You should feel ashamed with your degreed self
Your comment was on point.
As a physician I agree. Sounds like withdrawal or pain seeking unfortunately. This can happen to any of us and I pray we all think twice before prescribing opiods. RIP keke 😢
Apparently everyone got wrong. She knew how she felt and now she's gone.
@@rantsallegedlyThere are even medications to alleviate pain from withdrawals. Negligent doctors prescribing high dose narcotics without a effective discontinuance plan is the problem. Then dismissing the patient and their problems as pain seeking is the problematic as hell!
This is not entertaining. Keke needs to get off the show. Its sad.
Right...she may need treatment
She is dead
@@ms.win_she is dead
@@ms.win_She passed away yesterday but it was announce today RIP keekee🎈🎈🙏🏿
If we could only turn back the hands of time. RIP Keke.
Praying for healing for KeKe's health and spirit. I know exactly what's going on but it's not for me to say. She knows too but it's going to be up to her to want to be honest with herself and lay her burdens down at the alter for God to release.
You Took The Words Right Out of My Mouth And The Gentleman Was On Her For It
Keke is in a battle, and right now, things ain't looking to good. This is clearly drug seeking behavior. Baby ain't fooling nobody!
She’s withdrawing. Her body wants the pills she was taking before. She needs to get off this show and check into a treatment facility that will help her go through it.
Please let her know that we are thinking of her & we hope she is OK! God bless her
Hiv?
That’s menopause or fibromyalgia, or something. That’s not a relapse
I thought fibromyalgia too.
I thought the same. I have TWO friends that were finally diagnosed with fibromyalgia. One of them was diagnosed 2 years ago. She had surgery in February. Now she is back to be treated after the surgery. Because, still having some minor complications. She just went yesterday day 7/8 to see why the minor complications🤷🏾 My other friend was diagnosed over five years ago..She has been doing OK.for the most part. Attacks her joints real bad and her back😢
I will say this. Based on a few friends and two of my children who have moved to the southern regions TX/GA. They both complain about medical care. Vs. the medical care here in the Midwest👌🏾So, 🤷🏾
Damn, how we let this issue with her health problem go over our headssss, I remember watching this scene but wasn't actually paying attention thinking she just saying that to cover up her addiction. She literally was suffering ...my prayers to the family
Addiction to what?
I thought she was just exaggerating and maybe detoxing.
@@telease4647 she struggled with an addiction to pain medication...opioids?
@@eclecticsunriseshe could have been withdrawing or pain seeking. Unfortunately addiction to opiods suck and this is what it can look like
@@rantsallegedly that's a better word...withdrawals
I hate to say it😮😢 kee Kee cause I like her but you got this girlie!!!! Pray more Sis 🙏🏿🙏🏿 can't nobody change your situation but you like u got this 💪💪💯 it's hard 😞 but you got this!!!!! REAL TALK!!!!
She may need to go to a Obgyn. Could be endometriosis, fibroids. I felt awful when i had endometriosis
I thought the same thing methadone might effecting hormones 😢
@@Fitdiva1979 Yes it could be that. I read some medicines can make it worse
Something is wrong with Keke for real it might be Mental
This didn’t age well
@Sunshine134chick you should be ashamed. The woman was sick and you were making a joke
Sounds like detox to me
She's giving drug addict agitated behavior.
Different Drugs Give U Different Problems. I Know. Still Recovering Been 8 years for Me. R.I.P Keke🙏💙💯🔥😘
I hope they run an ANA test on Keke. She could have an autoimmune disorder, and they might not be running the right tests to screen for it.
I was thinking autoimmune
That too!!
Kiki needs to check into a treatment facility. She is very possibly going through withdrawals.
Why would the doctors give her “something stronger” when she’s a former addict?
Exactly
the downfall of trying to get your life together.. withdrawals are going to affect everyone differently. her body couldnt take it anymore.
I wonder why the show never mentioned that she use to be a college professor. So sad what happened to her.
They didn't want to give her any stronger drugs
She was ready to go because she couldn't get a fix...
Poor husband just in the mix
That's exactly what it is
Yep
Right. And her husband seems like a good guy too.
I know right...bless him and the kids lord
@@MariamRenneBeautyIndeed
RIH Keke ❤ She truly was not well.
That “gimme something stronger “ said it all 😅😂
Yep - I caught that too ....
Omm 🤣🤣🤣🤣😭😭
Exactly 🤣
smh, and dam now shes dead. and your comment said it all....no one believed her!
It sounds like she wanted pain medication. She goes back and forth to the hospital for drugs. Sis go to rehab.
She died so I guess it's another case of not taking a black women seriously
@@ItsTifahTifahshe died of cabin monoxide poisoning so what are you talking about
She’s really sick and goes to the hospital. The doctors are helping her giving her meds according to her symptoms and their medical expertise. She doesn’t want what they administered and doesn’t like that they aren’t moving quick enough to give her the meds she demands. Tests prove she’s not having a medical emergency, but she’s REALLY SICK. So sick, she requests to be discharged even though husband wants her to stay until doctors can figure out what’s going on. This is a bad situation.
😔😖😞
Either she’s going thru menopause or she relapsed. And if she relapsed I’m not surprised.
Menopause mimics alot of ailments and will have you out of sorts at times. Hopefully, that's what's going on.
Sounds like Cancer that was caught to late😭
Cancer is picked up quickly with simple blood work….and first sign is lost weight……my husband was diagnosed with it after his annual blood work. It’s important to have that done. He had pancreatic cancer.
My exact thought. Took a year to discover it in a family member of mine.
Wonder if she was getting some type of autoimmune disorder. There’s so many things that affect women and so much that isn’t well known about or common knowledge. I always liked Keke and her loss makes me really really sad. :((((((
I feel the same. Doctors always brush off women's complaints. Nobody took her serious. 42 is young to pass away.
Keke's death is NOT Own's, LAMH, or the cast's opportunity. Stop it
God bless her, but she’s still on something… And doesn’t need to be on tv
Hmmm 🤔 Maybe it’s early menopause. Wishing her well 🙏🏾 Some doctors really do ignore the cries of black people.
Absolutely
She is dead now
R.I.P Keke 🙏
Pleas help this lady, please 🙏
I know a functioning drug addict when I see one. Her husband is enabling because he knows his wife has a problem but the show is cutting them a check so🤷🏾♀️
God, please deliver Keke from whatever sickness she has in your name!!! You are the ultimate deliverer & healer. 😢😢
Amen 🙏🏽💜
She just passed away today. 😢
Girl find you a black doctor! Also her husband need to stay on her head cause something isn’t right. Whether it’s her lying or something is really wrong. They write black women off all the time!
Keke thinks she has all the answers. She needs to listen to her husband, he’s a good guy.
I was thinking the same thing
Rip Beautiful 🌺🌸🌹✨ so sorry this happened to you to you . I’ll be more mindful of those who suffer around me 🙏🏾❤
very sweet of you to say... I had a car accident and I been in the med field 30 years it was super easy to get body and mind dependant on those pills that killed the pain but made you have a happy aura ...you can become nasty nasty I'll tryna cold turkey get off....when I started asking others for a pill or two here and there I knew I was in trouble...I went to a psychiatrist and told my story,,,they weened me off with other meds and then I got put on a mild anxiety med to keep me calm for some time...that's been 10 years I promise I'll never go near any kind of opioid again...and the streets are selling everything strong much of what is highly laced and potent...she was not my favorite of the show at all but I am super happy God has her now and she will REST!!!! pain Free! so so Sorry Ke! BLessings to Husband and Children!!!
They could have given her an MRI etc. So sad. You are at peace now Keke. Nell, can be happy with her decision to let you join the group at the retreat despite the opp. Praying for your family.
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what black media?
I think she just wants drugs
Wow... what do you think now?
Keke may be going through the change…menopause.
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Sounds like she is chasing pain killers. That is a classic sign of addiction. Due to hippa laws they can't tell him what they really think!
Unfortunately that's why she may have been neglected from quality care
I’m praying for Keke. I think she’s caught in the middle of her mom and dad’s family drama. Their drama is causing her setback.
Keke has a pain medication addiction. Keke need addiction therapy. Hopefully when she see herself on Tv things will change 😔
I wonder if she had Lupus. I have Lupus and I have felt like that before.
I have SLE Lupus, and I have the same symptoms & I was diagnosed after I had my daughter
RIP KEKE JABAR HEARTBREAKING ONLY 42 GOD BLESS HER FAMILY ESP HER CHILDREN.
They didn’t believe her … rip beautiful KeKe and prayers up to the family
She was awesome I loved her lively personality!!
It may be some form of cancer. Stay long enough to get the answer you need
I think you were on to something.
I'm so sorry KeKe 😢 RIP gorgeous ❤
I get treated bad in hospitals and I have sickle cell. I wish shs had gone back.
Her husband said he asked the doctors to keep her overnight, but she kept leaving
It sound like she wanted some stronger pills and to be let go
Maybe she was being slowly poisoned?
Rest in Peace, Keke🙏🏽
Rest in peace Ke Ke, wow 😢
I am still in shock. I really liked her. So saddening!
RIP Sweetie 😢💜💜💜 probably was going through severe withdrawals. Condolences to the family
I heard she died from carbon monoxide poisoning from her car and her husband found her in the car the following morning
R.I.P KEKE
Methodon does effect ur bones u will be in pain ur bones are getting soft it's a good thing u can walk up straight!!
R.I.P lady Keke ! I wish she would have stayed in the hospital .
Might be fibromyalgia. I have it. When test don't show anything it's usually fibromyalgia
They don't put on methadone for fibromyalga
Great point. People keep shading this woman when she could have an underlying health condition.
Lord help smh... this 1 hurts 😢💜💜💜
No more pain baby girl rest in love ❤❤❤❤❤❤
AMEN
Yea she relapsed
Ask, About Fybromyalgia 😮
This show is simply not good anymore. Not even the added drama can save it. Just another soap opera.
She may have anxiety and a build up of stress hormones that may be causing overall inflammation in her body. I wonder if she is hiccuping as well. Also, if she drinks or smokes weed, it can be adding to it.
R.I.H Beautiful Angel God Definitely As Him A Very Very Special Angel In Heaven With Him She Will Be Missed 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
They had her on different medications like she was a science project 😭 without finding out the source of her sickness 😕
Now we know it was the Toxic fumes from her Car that was making her feel unwell, so, so sad R.I.P Keke..🙏
I dont take prescription medicines. Also get a second opinion.
Sounds like withdrawal or detox to me and her husband even thought something was up. Overindulging on food or a step back to the past. It was reasonable for him to assume despite her feelings but she was telling him what she needed to go thru as if he hasn't been around while she was seeking treatment.
Very awkward scene
She need them Percs 😂
Fool
You see they didn't want to say what they gave her the first or second time. I hope dhe gets the help she needs.
Her husband was very caring and concerned. He just didn't know how to help her. Especially when the doctors gave her medication. No ones thinking death... Especially when its sudden. There was no warning, hospital stays or anything. My condolences. 😔
RIP Keke! She passed away today. 😢
Rest in peace ❤
If YOUR EVER IN DOUBT GO TO ANOTHER HOSPITAL. TRY A DIFFERENT COUNTY. Rest in heavenly peace ❤
And they probably didn't even run the proper tests. She obviously was sick but just happened to pass away in her car. She could have been in her bed and the same thing happened. 😢
Why wouldn't he believe her
Keke look crazy & she sound crazy too
😔
This is the problem with the healthcare field, they think just like you. Hardly take black women seriously
I agree..she seemed to be in a frenzy and with all the accusations, it seemed to point in the direction of attention seeking.
She died from carbon minoxidil poison after falling asleep in her car parked in her garage. Nothing more!
She’s the worst kind of patient to have. You clearly have a horrible diet based off what your husband is saying and u expect the professionals to fix it? Then u have a past of addiction so the hospital can’t give u just anything but I need something stronger?? This is making my brain hurt