As much as I love listening to you read these stories, I fall asleep within minutes. I’ve now put you on repeat so I can hear a few stories before visiting the land of nod … 😂😂 a cheaper alternative to “sleep by wine”
I can’t tell anyone at home how I’m feeling because they rely on me. I must say it somewhere tho. I feel like I’m drowning. I’ve had therapy and medication but it’s not helping anymore. I don’t want to be here. I will tho because my loved ones need me and I never want to hurt them by doing something stupid and transferring my pain to them. I know how it feels as my big brother took his life in 2023 and our family hadn’t been the same. I just needed to say it and get it out of my head. My heart hurts. My soul hurts and I’m tired. Thank you. Even if no one reads this. I’m glad I said it. I don’t have any friends.
Hey I’m a full time caregiver to my mother and I have to balance being a mother (kids are grown but at home ) a wife and a good daughter who won’t abandon my mother to some cold “skilled” nursing home. I have rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia as well as PTSD from DV and I still have to live with my abusers and my mother was neglectful and I was a victim of munchousens by proxy by being barraged as a small child to teens because of my mothers mental health issues that were undiagnosed- I am on meds and in therapy too and I hear you and I know your pain and suffering and anguish. I don’t know your situation but there is help out there for caregivers, through social services or idk but my mother is also a veteran so I got help from the VA I just started telling her nurses and doctors that come to the house that I can’t do it anymore and there is such a thing as caregivers fatigue and you can sometimes get a respite where they come in and take over for you before you end up in a hospital yourself. I care a lot about you we are in same boat and I wish we could talk more because even just saying the crazy stuff in your head to a total stranger who isn’t going to judge you for saying it because they have been where you are - helps- and don’t I know about just downloading into a TH-cam comment section because it’s somewhere “safe” to say things. And when I say the buttersock cult is a loving place it is I have not encountered any trolls here for truth. I want you to be okay friend because that little evil voice that tells you to just end it and be at peace gets louder and louder until it’s thundering inside your head making it hard to sleep ( I can’t sleep unless Joel or Mr Ballen is in my ear I sleep with ear buds because even with the “dark” content it’s better than what my head does left on its own to wander ) I want you to know that beyond your family - I love you. You are enough just as you are. You are worth it. The work in therapy is worth it because you have value immeasurable friend. Your life is meant to touch other lives. On December 16, just over a month ago I lost a dear dear friend who was a medic who was on the beach on DDay and the battle for Okinawa and if I learned anything from him , Jack, is that every single human life has value. He suffered from ptsd and at one time he was asked to do an interview and he was feeling tired and wanted to go home but he said no I guess I’ll do the interview and later he was told that 5 veterans were thinking of ending their lives but Jack changed their minds and to Jack it meant the world because from an 18yr old kid to a 98yr old man all he wanted to do was heal and after the war he wanted everyone to know they are loved and needed and I feel like I looked back at comments because Jack somehow told me to so that I could tell you - I love you and if you need anything please respond to this and if I can help you I will I promise with all my heart friend. You are not alone. ❤
@@TribbleClef-ii6lfthank you. I understand the care giver thing. I have a disabled child who’ll be with me til I’m too old to care for him or die. I also understand the abuse part but in a different context. I appreciate your kind words.
The actual name of the religion is Roman Catholicism so that means that the Pope should come on here and give a story about how he became the greatest leader of the largest cult in the world
The first story is interesting because I live 24/7 in a dom/sub relationship by choice. How do I know it's my choice? Because I came to understand that I truly wanted that life so I sought out a man who identifies as a dom (dominant). He is my owner, he calls the shots but he earned my submission by earning my trust.
Is it choice when our entire society conspires for women to seek this arrangement, and has seemingly since the dawn of time. Lambs convincing ourselves we enjoy being in the jaws of lions.
I listen to these with the headphones in every night to fall asleep to, they give me the best nightmares 💯
My dads in prison in England UK, he’s serving a minimum 33 years lol
Same here
Literally same. Every night. 💤
@Peter19920 good for you man!
Did y’all know that Peters dad in England is serving 33 years?
Ahhh, Joel's voice in my ear is like heaven. He could talk about rocks and I would listen.
Having been raised in a cult, this is one of my favorite topics 🍿 thank you
Wait are you for real?
As much as I love listening to you read these stories, I fall asleep within minutes. I’ve now put you on repeat so I can hear a few stories before visiting the land of nod … 😂😂 a cheaper alternative to “sleep by wine”
Been listening for over 8 years now, you’re still the best Joel!
I hope everyone is having an amazing day, much love from Colorado ❤
hey i’m also from colorado
You too! Peace from Nebraska
Love cult stories
Thanks Joel for another banger❤
I can’t tell anyone at home how I’m feeling because they rely on me. I must say it somewhere tho. I feel like I’m drowning. I’ve had therapy and medication but it’s not helping anymore. I don’t want to be here. I will tho because my loved ones need me and I never want to hurt them by doing something stupid and transferring my pain to them. I know how it feels as my big brother took his life in 2023 and our family hadn’t been the same. I just needed to say it and get it out of my head. My heart hurts. My soul hurts and I’m tired. Thank you. Even if no one reads this. I’m glad I said it. I don’t have any friends.
Hey I’m a full time caregiver to my mother and I have to balance being a mother (kids are grown but at home ) a wife and a good daughter who won’t abandon my mother to some cold “skilled” nursing home. I have rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia as well as PTSD from DV and I still have to live with my abusers and my mother was neglectful and I was a victim of munchousens by proxy by being barraged as a small child to teens because of my mothers mental health issues that were undiagnosed- I am on meds and in therapy too and I hear you and I know your pain and suffering and anguish. I don’t know your situation but there is help out there for caregivers, through social services or idk but my mother is also a veteran so I got help from the VA I just started telling her nurses and doctors that come to the house that I can’t do it anymore and there is such a thing as caregivers fatigue and you can sometimes get a respite where they come in and take over for you before you end up in a hospital yourself. I care a lot about you we are in same boat and I wish we could talk more because even just saying the crazy stuff in your head to a total stranger who isn’t going to judge you for saying it because they have been where you are - helps- and don’t I know about just downloading into a TH-cam comment section because it’s somewhere “safe” to say things. And when I say the buttersock cult is a loving place it is I have not encountered any trolls here for truth. I want you to be okay friend because that little evil voice that tells you to just end it and be at peace gets louder and louder until it’s thundering inside your head making it hard to sleep ( I can’t sleep unless Joel or Mr Ballen is in my ear I sleep with ear buds because even with the “dark” content it’s better than what my head does left on its own to wander ) I want you to know that beyond your family - I love you. You are enough just as you are. You are worth it. The work in therapy is worth it because you have value immeasurable friend. Your life is meant to touch other lives.
On December 16, just over a month ago I lost a dear dear friend who was a medic who was on the beach on DDay and the battle for Okinawa and if I learned anything from him , Jack, is that every single human life has value. He suffered from ptsd and at one time he was asked to do an interview and he was feeling tired and wanted to go home but he said no I guess I’ll do the interview and later he was told that 5 veterans were thinking of ending their lives but Jack changed their minds and to Jack it meant the world because from an 18yr old kid to a 98yr old man all he wanted to do was heal and after the war he wanted everyone to know they are loved and needed and I feel like I looked back at comments because Jack somehow told me to so that I could tell you - I love you and if you need anything please respond to this and if I can help you I will I promise with all my heart friend. You are not alone. ❤
@@TribbleClef-ii6lfthank you. I understand the care giver thing. I have a disabled child who’ll be with me til I’m too old to care for him or die. I also understand the abuse part but in a different context. I appreciate your kind words.
Please find things that help, you deserve it, don't give up! You're not alone - things can be better.💖
I just listened to the entire video in the first minute💪🏿
Right before bed❤ Perfect!
Another banger
Weird 🤣🤣 I’m at work listening to some lovecraft type story then boom this pops up 😂😂 sounds like time to join a cult 😂😂
The buttersock cult ? welcome aboard!
Been munching on some super strong brownies earlier... this is exactly what i need 🎉❤😂😅
BRO Springville utah is literally my hometown... that was a hella big shock to hear
joel never disappoints with the content.
Ay, let's go. just watched one of your vids then saw this, keep up the good work
yesss just as i was about to go to bed
Omg Let’s read and cult stories ❤ what a combo!
Hey friends enjoy & have a good night/ day wherever u are. Cult stories are my favorite 👌🏽👌🏽😱😱
What could be better than him uploading the video?
Nice! Thank you 😊❤
Buttersock cult rules !! Hi Joel hope your night is going well. 🌹❤
❤😊 Thank you!
Perfect timing 👌
That first story sounds like Sarah Edmondson’s….
Thank you Lets Read !
Always one of the first 1000 seems like we're on similar schedules
Once again right on time 💕💯
I always love cult stories
This is cool :3
OMG Joel, I live super close to the Dabell stories, it's wild!
Cult Stories! 👍
23 mins? never been this early
Joel thanks for the Night snacks wink.
Lets Listen
Yay ❤😊
Completely random but i LOVEEE nate Eaton from east Idaho news lol
Interesting stories disgusting disturbing and sad ❤😢
Hit the like button!!!!!
Now I can sleep.
5 minutes alone with that Nexium Keith dbag? Yes please.
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Yo If you drink sheep’s blood and eat mushrooms the only spiritual journey you take is mowing your neighbors lawn with your teeth. Just saying …..
😅
Hey Joel. LDS not Mormon.
♡
me numba one fan! make you fish bowl 🥣
Last?
People are so goddamn stupid, it's honestly shocking
OP#2 Might've been caught up in the cult of astroturf.
The actual name of the religion is Roman Catholicism so that means that the Pope should come on here and give a story about how he became the greatest leader of the largest cult in the world
No comment. I haven't finished watching it yet...
😮😮😮😊
The first story is interesting because I live 24/7 in a dom/sub relationship by choice. How do I know it's my choice? Because I came to understand that I truly wanted that life so I sought out a man who identifies as a dom (dominant). He is my owner, he calls the shots but he earned my submission by earning my trust.
Is it choice when our entire society conspires for women to seek this arrangement, and has seemingly since the dawn of time. Lambs convincing ourselves we enjoy being in the jaws of lions.
First?!
tis I, herself!
@ ‘Tis!
Who else is watching this while eating a large chocolate cake?
No one Fatty.
I wish! Enjoy!
I wish I had some chocolate cake but I don't 😭
Having some cookies so close enough?
@maevependragon yes
I thought I had seen everything, but this video proved me wrong🍒