I have moon (personality) in gate 54, and I have indeed struggled with the duality of being in the mode of either competing with others all the time or falling into passivity and depression when I feel it is impossible to reach the goal. The dilemma of being materialistic and spiritual has also been a constant part of my life. The guilt of charging money for services that are seen as "spiritual" or "humanitarian" like teaching use to drag me down too. Sometimes, I feel like giving up on the materialistic world and renouncing into monkhood since it is so emotionally painful for me to deal with these constant recurring thoughts and emotions and internal pressures. You said it all! I related with it so much. And the last words on being paid for the work you do, was relieving to hear. I love your videos and your presence! It calms me down. Thank you 💛🌻
@@Mystic_hermit thank you so much for this beautiful feedback! I truly appreciate your presence here! And I love seeing the epiphanies you have through the acceptance of the shadow.
I have moon (personality) in gate 54, and I have indeed struggled with the duality of being in the mode of either competing with others all the time or falling into passivity and depression when I feel it is impossible to reach the goal. The dilemma of being materialistic and spiritual has also been a constant part of my life. The guilt of charging money for services that are seen as "spiritual" or "humanitarian" like teaching use to drag me down too. Sometimes, I feel like giving up on the materialistic world and renouncing into monkhood since it is so emotionally painful for me to deal with these constant recurring thoughts and emotions and internal pressures. You said it all! I related with it so much. And the last words on being paid for the work you do, was relieving to hear. I love your videos and your presence! It calms me down. Thank you 💛🌻
@@Mystic_hermit thank you so much for this beautiful feedback! I truly appreciate your presence here! And I love seeing the epiphanies you have through the acceptance of the shadow.