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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 21 ก.พ. 2024
- "I'll take a final breath so they can all pretend they loved me yesterday"
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this is what happens when u give a kairiki bear addict fl studio and a shit ton of caffeine.
NO BUT IN ALL SERIOUSNESS this is EASILY my favorite song I've ever written. The instrumental, lyrics, mix, all of it is so next level and I'm so unbelievably proud of myself. This one was HEAVILY inspired by Kairiki Bear, but I also took influence from DECO*27, Tsumiki, and MARETU. Dizzy took 2 years to finish and I almost scrapped it back when I was 17, but I'm so glad I persevered and finished it, because it came out sooooooo fucking awesome y'all. I hope you guys like it as much as I do.
ALSO THIS IS MY FIRST RELEASE AFTER HITTING 10K!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! here's to an eventual 20k ❤️❤️❤️
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Vocal- Kasane Teto SV
Music/Lyrics/Mix- KAT ( / vocalokat )
Tuning- ryu ( / ryutsuinthereal )
Art- MushieBLUSH ( / mushieblush )
Video- Januar Gelar ( / gelarjanuar )
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Lyrics, Untuned SVP, Unmastered Inst - drive.google.com/drive/folder... - เพลง
Well done, KAT 💚 I know how hard you worked on this and I know how important this song is to you. All of your hard work was definitely worth it. This song means so much to me and will mean a lot to anyone who relates too. This song is really a comfort for when you feel like nothing is going properly, BUT IT'S A FREAKING BOP TOO! Everyone who worked on it did great. I'm so proud of you 💚💚💚
Hello Menace!
NO WAY IT'S U
ITS SO GOOD
The Gacha kids gonna go crazy over this one
No they're flooding over the walls
good for them!!
Well now I wanna make something with gacha and this
NÖÖÒŌÓ @@Lady_ETHNE
Tbh they get taste cuz this slaps
where my burnt out former gifted kids at
RIGHT HERE BABYYYYY
@@VocaloKAT YEAHHHHHHHHHH 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣
REPORTING FOR DUTY
@@kuza314 TROOPS ASSEMBLE 🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡
@@kuza314TROOPS ASSEMBLE ‼️‼️‼️‼️
this song is such quintessential 'vocaloid music' that it's actually insane. The most vocaloid song to ever exist
the highest compliment i've ever received
i love vocaloid song subgenre 'deeply personal and emotional but also absolutely slaps'
Fav subgenre fr
That and “heavily story driven but still vague enough you can imagine a music video of it with a character you are totally sane about”
This would taste like sour apple gummys and nuclear waste (compliment)
So it would taste like a green toxic waste (if you don't know what that is it's a candy google it)
@@TheDougoutyt that's what I was referring to kinda
Sounds tasty
@@EsteralBurtal yes
WE'RE MAKING IT OUT OF THE PARANOIA WITH THIS ONE GIRLS
REAL
LETS GOOOO
What about the guys do i have to stay paranoid
Understood I shall remain paranoid
yeah sorry forgot to tell you girls transfer their paranoia to boys... classic lesson learned in biology
This song is pretty much how it feels how it’s like to have ADHD and lack of motivation to do assignments but because I’m homeschooled I just say it’s done to please others
Having known Teto since 2011, I'm fecking CRYING how wonderful she sounds now 😭
She deserved this voice bank update years ago, I'm so happy
Same.
I am a passing Japanese. I found your song by chance. I like the tune and rhythm too much and I am very happy to have found this wonderful piece. I will recommend it to my other friends. Your work should be known to many more people. Thank you for creating and finding this wonderful piece. I am only very sorry that I do not understand the lyrics...
*These words are conveyed through a translation site. I apologize if it did not come across well or if it made you feel uncomfortable.
someone translate it for this man!
I saw this on tiktok at first, and oh my god I think this is my new favorite vocaloid song. I love the style and beat of this song, it's super catchy. It's like you took the lyricism you usually see with Japanese producers and combined it with the instrumental and production style of Western producers!!! The music video was borderline hypnotic with how the lyrics were done, and the art was so cute😭 Amazing song, jaw dropped
Yesss, exactly what I was thinking! I really love how the creator incorporated traits normally seen in songs by Japanese producers into their creations. So cool!
I agree, this song is incredible.
Feeling burnt out and mentally ill before this released, but now I am JAMMING AND MENTALLY ILL 🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶
Relatable, very relatable.
realest statement here
THIS SOUNDS SO GOOD??? the chorus is so catchy shes spitting fr and i looove the green design, everyone did a great job!!
macne nanaaaaaaa
Started this song thinking "Oh! I definitely relate because of my autism" ended it with "ah, I can relate because of abusive relationship trauma as well." It's one of the only songs that perfectly encapsulates the feeling like you're going insane while being gaslit and told to smile the entire time. That last line hit the hardest dude. Absolutely stunning job on this song Kat!
man this is so good aaa!!!
ahhhh thank you so much 😭❤️
THIS IS SO GOOD WSKSKDMMWEK
can we expect a Rachie cover of it anytime soon
@@fluffehjuju seconded!
~ LYRICS ~
Expectations high from the start - I'll just mess it up
Congratulations, you fell apart - f××k, I messed it up
They tell me I just need to grow up, but I know that they think that I'm not enough
Pirouette your view, and you'll see
There's no cure for burnt out and naive
(It's killing me)
Spinning all around, I think I spun out - my fault by default
Thoughts racing up and down, oh, what to do now? - follow protocol
But I hate this, I don't wanna play ball, I just wanna end this once and for all
Panic all around but never make a sound
Emotional free fall
Stab me with an IV - tell me that it's to protect me
Tell me I should be ignoring everything that makes me bleed
Cynicism inbound - common sense nowhere to be found
I'll bottle up the thought that I'd be better off left underground
It's not my decision if I make it through the night
And I keep crashing through collisions like a dying parasite
Love is an incision that cuts deeper than a knife
But I'll still see it in my vision 'til the afterlife
Ha ha ha ha - laugh through every day
No matter what I do, nobody has a clue
Life's always been this way
I hate, hate, hate this arbitrary game
No matter what you heard, you'll never hear the words
Nobody dares to say
Say you'll be my friend to the very end
but I'm in my head, in my head and I'm seeing red
In a superficial ecosystem recognise the repetition otherwise you'll end up dead
I'll underestimate (overcompensate)
Circumstantiate (hyperventilate)
Rehabilitate (decontaminate)
Losing at the games I told you I don't wanna play
Expectations hitting the ground - my fault by default
No-one left to catch me when I fall down - no more protocol
Feel it in my cells, my final farewell, an antidote, my stairway to Hell
Panic all around, but now I'm yelling out
The one thing I recall
Stab me with an IV - but I know you won't protect me
And I can't keep on ignoring when you make me wanna bleed
Cynicism inbound - common sense nowhere to be found
I'll bottle up the thought that I'd be better off left underground
It's not my decision if I make it through the night
And I keep crashing through collisions like a dying parasite
Love is an incision that cuts deeper than a knife
But I'll still see it in my vision 'til the afterlife
Ha ha ha ha - laugh through every day
No matter what I do, nobody has a clue
Life's always been this way
I hate, hate, hate this arbitrary game
No matter what you heard, you'll never hear the words
Nobody dares to say
{Instrumental break}
Think I'm at the end of a road traveled far too long
And I keep screaming out the lyrics of this idiotic song
Hate me just because I never wanna play along
But I don't wanna live a life where I live in the wrong
Ha ha ha ha - laugh through every day
No matter what I do, nobody has a clue
Life's always been this way
I hate, hate, hate this arbitrary game
No matter what you heard, you'll never hear the words
Nobody dares to say
I'll take a final breath so they can all pretend
They loved me yesterday
:)
THANK YOU NOW I CAN STORYBOARD MY ANIMATION TO THIS
Thank you for writing out the lyrics
THANK YOU i always have to have lyrics in front of me for the first few times i listen to a new song bc audio processing issues but if the lyrics in the video are all flashy and fast paced like in this one and a lot of other vocaloid MVs i have trouble following along
life saver
Thanks so much!
CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE BRIDGE INTO THE REFRAIN AT 1:26!? NOT ONLY DID RYU DEVOUR THE TUNING LIKE USUAL, BUT IT JUST SOUNDS SO GOOD...TETO SOUNDS SO REALISTIC HERE...I LOVE EVERYTHING YOU DO KAT I LOVE YOUR MUSIC NOMNOMNOMNOMNONMOMNOM
“hmm.. green and cool art” one of the actually decent decisions in my life
I can just tell I’m gonna be listening to this non stop, it’s literally becoming a “parasite” in my mind✨
Another note: I read the desperation box, and omg as a Kairiki Bear fan I totally hear it, especially with “Ha Ha Ha Ha” and “I hate hate hate hate” parts! Incredible job!
It already is for me.
whenever kat drops a new song and i'm just shook. like how tf are they MY AGE yet have some of the most professional production in the entire vocal synth sphere. KAT, YOU ARE A REVOLUTONARY
This song is soooo good and reading the description that it was inspired by Kairiki Bear songs?!? Kairiki Bear made one of my favorite songs both of vocaloid and in general (Bug). This song is amazing, it and Self Proclaimed Angel are some my favorite english vocaloid/synth v songs
YEAAAA the title Dizzy Paranoia Girl was directly inspired by the lyrics of Bug, and a bunch of other things like the bitcrush/descending vibrato on the "burnt out and naive", the sparkly windchimes the the drop of the chorus, and the Reverse Glass SFX during the final fakeout chorus were all inspired by Bug. Overall a really big inspiration for the song :))
i got to hear the demo for this a few months ago and i was absolutely amazed by how much of a BANGER this is!! i'm so excited that i get to share this with people now, it was hard to keep it a secret hehe :3 can't wait for this to do crazy numbers and make one katrillion dollars!!!
I really like the tuning!! This is the first time I've heard Teto SynthV actually sound like Teto.. may this raise the Teto Tuning Standard 🙏
Why be mentally ill when you can dance and rap your problems away? 🔥💃🕺🔥
I loved everything about this! The song, the art, the video… I can tell why this is your favorite! It hits me in so, so hard in so, so many places. I feel this song so hard. Every line.
I’m still suicidal but my positivity demands I dance it all away. I feel like I’ll be better off dead but my sunshine personality makes sure that stays down. I know if I die they’ll all say they cared from the start. Which they did. But not like that.
Thank you for producing this. I legit felt so much and if I weren’t in school I might’ve cried. The hidden messages all cry out to me and tell me I’m not alone. I’m not. You’re not. Thank you for this masterpiece. 💚
This is incredible! From the video to the lyrics. The chorus really sounds like something deco 27 would come up with, while also using those HA! HA! HA! (Idk how to call them) that sound so Kairiki Bear to me.
It really feels like Otome Dissection and Bug adopted an english baby.
THIS SONG DID NOT DISAPPOINT!!!! so exciting to see the final product after so much time put into it!!! the lyrics are so good and the art and music video are SO IMPRESSIVE this was so fun omg omg
watching again. GOD THE LYRICS ARE SO FUCKING RELATABLE kat you’re literally in my head. but yeah no it’s a really well done song with hard hitting lyrics and a banger mv, can’t wait to see how people react to it :3
You weren't kidding when you said it was your new favourite song you've made, this absolutely rocks!
The vocal rhythms and rhymes combined here are just so methodically satisfying to my ears, certainly another one for the everyday playlist!
Hoping this one blows up like Self-Proclaimed Angel did because it's undeniably deserved!
HOLY SHIT, this is maybe one of my new favorite songs ever, you really outdid yourself, guess I was right about this being the magnum opus of vocaloid. The fast lyrics really tickled my ADHD brain. All in all amazing song definitely going on my playlist💚
This sounds AMAZING? The lyrics, the instrumental, the tuning, the melody, rhythms, all sound AAA!!!!! this song tickles my brain in just the right why I love it so much. Amazing work!!
oh my gosh iced toast!! i love your videos so so much! still remember your chair series… rest in peace
Kat just refused to NOT stop improving every new song they released 🛐🛐 Thank you for Dizzy Paranoia!!!! Now we feast 🍽
This song goes so HARD. 2:46 specifically? It sounds like Undertale music. As if it couldn't get any bloody better?? The mixing and the lyrics have me in TATTERS, HER TUNING??? FUUUCKKKK MANNNN KAT YOU WON I THINK
This is my first song of yours and goddamn. Will absolutely not be turning it off anytime soon. I can see why it would be your favorite you've made!
Same!
I haven’t been so hype for a vocaloid/synth v song in AGES. Ive been listening near nonstop.
GREEN GIRL IS AMAZING 💚
My god, you've done it again! Absolute CHILLS during the chorus. I was pretty shocked when I first read the lyrics- it's a very relatable, painfully honest song. Gives off the vibe of a character who feels too much and has too much energy and talks too loud, but never with the right things, well aware of the fact that they're not quiet and perfect and that at best, they are something to be settled for. Someone no one would pick first. Incredible banger- I swear your stuff gets better with every upload. I hope the algorithm delivers this song to everyone, thank you for this lovely piece of music
omg is this the vocacolle entry.... IT ALREADY DESERVES TO WIN!!!
been waiting for this EXACT moment (this song finally being released to the public) ever since you first showed me an older draft of it. i say this every single time @ this point, but the sheer improvement you go through with each new piece of art you create astounds me. this song is already creating ripples & garnering massive support… trust me when i say that every single thing you make has an insane impact on this entire community 😵💫💫💚
THIS IS INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!! Listening to this on loop, I love the chorus so much its so catchy and fun to listen to and the LYRICS !! "my fault by default" !?!?!?!!?!?!?!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAA the LYRICSM the RHYMING the MEANING !! this is the type of song you turn up ridiculously loud on headphones and squeeze your eyes shut and headbang aggressively to and I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!
I.....
Genuinely thought this was a human covering a voca song because I hadnt heard much of Synth V yet--- But your tuning most DEFINITELY has to have something to do with that!!!! You managed to capture voice quivers with a digital voice in the coolest way possible!!!!! Im so impressed my dude and AYO THIS ALSO SLAPS, RIGHT IN THE BURNOUT TRAUMA BABYYYY ✌️✌️✌️💙💙✨✨✨✨
I think this is some of the best tuning I've ever heard for Teto AI! She sounds so reminiscent of her UTAU self but she enunciates everything so clearly, and I can feel the emotion in the chorus especially
I was here during the premire. I'M SO. IMPRESSED. I already know damn well I'm listening to this on loop for 5+ days straight
HOLY SHIT KAT. You've outdone yourself AGAIN. I'm absolutely FLOORED by this one, it's such a banger!!!! You never fail to suprise me, and I'm just DYING to find out what direction you're gonna go in next!! 💚
THIS IS SUCH A BANGER?! This is your best song so far oh my god
I've been bopping to this song for the last two weeks, went to check who actually made it, only to find out it was KAT!? Explains everything. Absolute banger just like Self-Proclaimed Angel, your abilities with Eng vocaloids/synths is incredible. Very eagerly looking forward to more songs
this song is such a banger all the way through but i honestly think my favorite part is the little scream at the beginning. theres something about it. what an opening. its so good
I have no clue how the actual heck I missed this but this is beyond phenomenal! The music is incredibly catchy and well-produced and I think this is the clearest I’ve heard Teto’s English. This whole song is just a vibe great job again Kat!
This really ticks all the boxes!
The lyrics are also incredibly hard hitting, Thank you for putting feelings like this into words
I love how Teto sounds here and the instrumental break is fireee 💚💚💚
wow such an addictive song. I'll listen to it 3 times in a row then listen to something else, but then come back here again bc i want more lol. fantastic
1:28 is absolutely incredible!! i've never heard kasane teto sound like this before!
Gosh the raw feeelings and emotion you can hear with the way Teto's tuned,,, such a banger and dare I say relatable, absolutely love it, can't wait to have it on repeat❤
Jesus christ the lyrics are currently rearranging my brain chemistry
This is awesome! Catchy and cool, as can be expected from KAT. With Teto's popularity, I've heard so much of her lately that it's started to get a bit boring, but this song is perfect for her style, and she sounds amazing! She was a great choice for it.
KAAAT THIS IS SUCH A BANGER!!!! i found you via Self Proclaimed Angel and i've had notifs turned on since because every single release of yours is INCREDIBLE!! you have an incredible talent and i cant wait to see how far it'll take you!!
This is gonna be the magnum opus of vocaloid I can feel it
why is this only at 22k views wtf youtube PUT THIS ON RECOMMENDATIONS
IT'S NOT MY DECISION THAT I MAKE IT THROUGH THE NIGHT AND I KEEP CRASHING THROUGH COLLISIONS LIKE A DYING PARASITE, LOVING IS AN INCISION THAT CUTS DEEPER THAN A KNIVE BUT I'LL STILL SEE IN MY VISION TILL THE AFTERLIFE🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣
i want to thank youtube putting this at the top of my recommended completely randomly because i think i'm gonna loop this all week now oh it's so good
Heard the song on spotify and it's absolutely amazing I can't wait for the mv
aaah this has to be my favorite song from you! it's so catchy, and the rhythm of the lyrics?? so incredible
If i make it through this night, i will cosplay this Version of Teto
holy shit I had shuffle on and the scream at the start scared the shit outta me. good song overall
I really love this song for just how amazing the structure is and the gorgeous MV but the more I listen to it the more I can relate to the lyrics and deeply feel everything that’s going on, and especially since I’m going through a hard time right now but am trying to hide it this really feels comforting to me and the exact way I feel
ahh i love your works so much and this song is no exception!! the fast beat and very meaningful lyrics combined with the tuning, video, and art are all so amazing!!!! awesome job to Kat and everyone who worked on this!!! 💚💚💚
Edit: forgot to say, but that video-sounding scream in the beginning is SO GOOD and makes the beginning already really hook you in the song!!
this song is oozing with style, great work on both the arrangement and vocals!!
LEGENDARY YOU ARE, TRULY
Your songs genuinely never fail to impress, Kat ;;
YOU CAME SO FAR AND IM PROUD OF YOU!!❤
This song blasted me back to the early Vocaloid days and its such a catchy bop that i know will get stuck in my head. Thank you for another divine meal Kat
This is going straight into the "Replay and Draw" playlist holy SHIT 💚💚💚💚💚
I CAN'T WHAIT 7 DAY'S!!!
OMG THIS GONNA BE SO EPIC!!!
Just a few hours left!!! The wait’s gonna be so worth it!! 💚
I was like... little bit bored from my play list and than boom new song from you so I am mega happy now!
Where was this song when I was 15. It would have been my anthem. Instant favorite.
I need this song injected into my bloodstream it's so good i am going all ham for this
been on loop for three days even if im a little epileptic
HELP WHY IS THIS SO GOOD?!😭😭 Teto sounds so GOOD?! A new favorite for sure!😍
I love this song sm its criminally relatable omg its straight FIRE🔥🔥🔥
Love the EDM combined with high speed Voca, so fuckin solid, and the lyrics. Can't stop listening, such a banger.
This might be the most lyrically accurate song to my life
Holy crap, the instrumental, the video, the vocals, the lyrics... it's all so great! So glad I stumbled across this!
THIS IS SO COOOOOL
been listening to this religiously every week and it just gets every bettee with every repeat
no regrets being here when you still used to make covers!
supporting your career for as long as it lasts, Kat!
Second comment on this, but this song is genuinely relatable and amazing. I dont wanna go into much detail about why i relate to it but what i will say is that life has been genuinely rough and I'm constantly bottling up my own feelings, so this song is basically how i feel a lot of the time
Still absolute FIRE tho
It’s safe to say I’ve now memorized this song.
amazing song as always! this song definitely hit me harder than i thought it would XD as someone who struggles with this kinda thing, this song is definitely cathartic to me, never thought anyone could put feelings like this into words. great job, I always look forward to all your work!
KAT, this is AMAZING!!! 💚💚💚 This means a ton and I’m sure it does to everyone else who relates. The lyrics and rhythm and tuning and PV are just all SOOOOO GOOD!! It’s hypnotic, I know I’ll be looping this forever. I can’t wait to see where you go next!! 💚
absolutely BLOWN AWAY ONCE AGAIN your lyrics are SO PERFECT everything just flows and is so clever !! and don’t even get me started on the production you ate it tf up. SO GOOD.
Every KAT song is so good and profesional. So many emotions, another BANGER of a song worth the wait 💚
love it when youtube gives me a gem. Been years since I was really into vocaloid. Fantastic song :)
TH-cam stopped recommending me new vocaloid (even though I still listen to vocaloid still) then it randomly recommends me this and now I can't stop listening to it!
I cannot get over the fact about how much I love this song !!! The melody, the rhythm, the fast pace, the lyrics, the video and the tuning are all so well done ! You made an absolute BANGER KAT, you and others that have worked on this did an awesome job !!! 💚
This song stabs directly into my insecurities…. I love it
The way this is tuned makes them sound very stressed which obviously is partly what the song's about but still it is really well done and a neat touch
Perhaps this is my bias towards fast paced music showing, but this seems to be your best work by far- which says a lot as your other work is fantastic! Easy 10/10.
The mv for some reason gives me Pokémon vibes, might be the girl but honestly you’re music is absolutely amazing like it so catchy and i really enjoy it.
i want this song in project sekai its fast paced and would be good tbh and the song is good to slae
i really like your song, thank you for your great work on this!!! i found it really interesting and wanted analyze it, but i just got time for it. if there any grammatical mistakes, sorry cuz eng isn't my native.
so, what's going here? though it's obvious from name of the song, the girl suffers with depression and thoughts of unaliving. or her anxiety is THAT severe that she can't bear with it, it's being pointed in phrase "It's not my decision if i make it through the night."
so what exactly is worsening her life: a-grade student syndrome (expectations high from the start), toxic shame (my fault by default), alertness and anxiety about interacting with people since she worries about being betrayed.
about her behavior pattern in state of anxiety: hyperventilation, fear, dizziness. "laugh through every day" could point at coping mechanism of reducing everything to jokes and giggling/smiling. because you know, i have just the same pattern and this happens cuz you're really worried to the point your brain tries to comfort and cheer you up by bringing up funny moments.
suicidal throughts being pointed at phrases "It's not my decision if i make it through the night", though it MAY refer to severety of her anxiety to the point she can't sleep, and "i'll take a final so they can pretend they loved me yesterday".
i could write more but my pills already make me eepy so thats it. hehe
alright just after i posted it i already feel shame for pointing at obvious things when everything is handed straight in the song😭uhh. sorry
PARANOIA.
PA-PA-PARA-PARANOIA.
THE _HA HA HA HA_ ITCHES MY BRAIN IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE
i think i found the song I'll be looping this month tqvm
And just like that, my day went from a 2 to a 1000. Thank you for that! ^_^ 💖
OMG 🥹🥹 this song in particular has come so far.. your production is so refined!!!!
WE MAKING IT OUT OF THE DIZZY SPELL WITH THIS ONE GIRLS
Im going through the most vicious self loathing cycle rn and this song helps so luch PLUS its catchy as fuck and bops
The way that you tune Teto is by far my favorite that I've heard with her new Synthv voice! It sounds close enough to the original Teto to recognize her which not a lot of people can really do with her new voice! Also this song is just *chefs kiss* it's perfect, I'm looking forward to what else you come out with!