I am really trying to feel on purpose. Thank you Judge Lynn. Just know you are helping others through your grief and pain. It is being used to help others. We love you 🩷💐🩷
My God, I didn't even recognize my own grief....I found my daddy on the NYC Medical Examiner website. My father suffered with mental illness and I was trying to reach him for a few weeks. Something said go to the DOJ and look up the missing person or unclaimed persons list. Typed my daddy's name and boom his picture taken in the morgue was there. Lord God I never realized how traumatic an experience that was until Judge Lynn talked about her experience hearing her husband was gone. God is able and I am holding on the hope that Life will and does get better and finally grief my daddy the way that is healing for me. Thank you Judge/Mama Lynn, you are help us while healing yourself
Thank God for your revelation and God reminding you of your purpose. Judge, I thank God you are doing better. This word is better with you in it. Take care of yourself and may God be there for you when you need him the most.
Well Judge Tolbert you have did it again please keep these discussions going because every issue or subject matter has something to offer, I now understand how our pain and experiences could help could be a blessing to others I never thought my journey could until now, before I thought yeah sounds good, but I feel , I m hurting I'm mad,I'm tired etc. and your short podcast, whispers, throughout all the noise and words become more than just words, the bell bell rings and you aha never thought about it like that
All because of your wisdom and your knowledge my next relationship is going to be perfect not just because I wanted to be it's because I'm learning how to understand the opposite❤❤❤😊
Hi Judge Lynn, I agree with everything you are saying. I went through the same thing as you loosing my husband November 15th 2022. It was so sudden and I had just retired June 1st 2021. We had so many plans. He retired 2011. I miss him so very much. We were married for 40 years.
Oh my, this video was ….. I pray that you continue to find peace and comfort in this chapter of your book because you have so much life ahead and more wisdom to share. Thanks for sharing ❤
I remember when your beloved husband passed. Because my only child, my son died on 10/9/22. And my heart was broken, I remember coming across your FB page and saw you in as much pain as I was.. I had already buried my husband in 2005, and then had to bury my son 2022.. And when I heard about your loss, in my mind, and heart I had someone to sit with me in silence, grief and flowing tears and, even though we didn't know one another, I felt connected to you. Glad you're doing well - Your Soul Sister.😇
Judge Lynn, thank you for your transparency, it has healing properties for all of us. We love you and we are praying for you and your family. The love you share with your hubby is infinite and continues to inspire us.
Judge, I identify with sooooo many of your stories. My husband transitioned 4 years ago October 7th 2020 at 50 years old…..I too have narratives that I tell myself to help ease the pain. I even imagine him at work or the grocery store when he is not home and I feel sad. You help normalize some of my antics. I used several coping mechanisms as well, alcohol, weed, food, Xanax etc etc , but I have that under control thank you Jesus❗️I even got in full panic mode the first time I had car trouble 🤦🏾♀️. I will continue to pray for you, because I TRULY have an understanding. Thanks for doing what you’re doing. I am inspired. I love you ❤
You are such a woman of wisdom as well as the gift of sharing it with others. I hang on to everything you say. I’m going thru as well. Experiencing most of what you are. Getting thru it with God holding my hand. Learning to trust Him more each day. Thank you again; please keep on helping us as you are helping yourself. Praying for you!🙏❤️
Oh yeah, about FEAR, I read a book years ago called FEEL THE FEAR-BUT DO IT ANYWAY. Helped me through a speech presentation in front of a room full of people. Many attendees stopped me later to say, "What a wonderful job," I did. I smiled but didn't let them know that I was terrified INSIDE. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME! 😁
I’m going through a tough divorce. I am so forever thankful I have your channel to be reminded to feel on purpose. I will get there, but now I feel like I'm going crazy. Thank you for your continuous Words of Wisdom.🙏🏾✌️🏾💞
Thank you so much. I needed and saved this video. Wow you spoke everything of myself it’s 14 months lost of my husband 39 years of life together. I’m still in process of finding my purpose without him. Going to share this video with my therapist since it’s me verbatim. Have a wonderful day.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us, Judge Toler. I appreciate you sharing your learnings from such a major loss. Your message is powerful. Thank you so much.
Judge, Queen...you are a heart sent angel to so many of us, Thank you for your honesty, your volunaralbilty shows you are human...much respect..... we listen to you❤❤❤❤ sorry for your loss🙏🙏🙏
Something you said just resonated with my grief. I grew up thinking my mother gave up to soon on relationships so I did the polar opposite. Know that I’m trying to learn how to leave a more Regulated, not balanced, life I can learn when to give up or when to stay. Thank you for sharing you journey with me.
Hmm SEEMS like the wise And Allways Beautiful judgelynn has Self healed By sharing inner thoughts of how Important it is to Have Sit Down Conversation with Honesty About Self flaws SALUTE the Queen 🧡
The emotional maze of grief, and Grief and Resilience My granddaughter's life was taken by Gun Violence on December 28, 2023 I was on an emotional roller coaster. Asked myself how I intend to recover from my trauma? Trauma alters our ability to think. Therefore I started telling my story and started my own support group to help others. The healing of trauma. Thank You for sharing your story. Grief & Resilience ...Thank You
OMG.. I’m so glad to See you in your zone.. bc I have been following you for years!! You helped me through some difficult times.. and then watching you during your difficult times was heartbreaking But to see you now flourish in peace and rediscovering who you are.. is remarkable bc lord knows how i prayed for you. Just know that I’ll always love you and your a mega star in my eyes 😊😊🫶🏾🫶🏾🙏🏽
I believe there's healing in giving.. And your healing, dear Judge Lynn, is inevitable. 💜💪🏾💜 I learned:1. the staticy mind creates unnecessary chaos. 2. Process + Progress then Reassess. 😊
Hi , Judge Lynn Tolver, I want to wish you many more Happy Birthdays . We both have the same birth month of October. We also ,share the same thing losing our husband's. Keep going my sister peace and blessings always to you and your family. Thank you for making the time in your schedule to share, I need to hear that it was a validation for me.
I lost my brother this year on January 2nd, 16 days before his bday. Right now I'm still struggling with the fact that he was here and well and the next day gone.
Thanks for sharing and being transparent! ❤ Grief is complex. My father died over three years ago and I’m just now getting to the other side. One day at a time.
You look great, I am glad you are doing ok, I relate to you in many ways, I am different from most people, I have always felt the way you felt about the world, I was soothing myself with alcohol, not to the point of drunk, but it became a habit, found out from a psychiatrist that alcohol is a depressant, I used to be fearing life, so I reacted out of anger, I lived that way for years and years, I have since learned how to compartmentalize my thoughts, I don't drink anymore, and eat to live, not living to eat. I exercise every day during the week. I keep myself away from negative situations as much as I can. Not only that, but I read the Bible every day.
Your son's were upset over Dad's passing too 😢so nobody could think. My sister passed unexpectedly in 2013, so I understand how disorientating it is. Thanks for sharing.
OK, I just finished listening to your story and that makes a lot of sense so I am going to do that because I do so brothers gonna be a bad day so now but then I do say it’s gonna be a good day but I am going to say it’s going to be a great day today even if somebody tailgates me and like you said the stuff happens I’m going to just consciously say it’s a great day. I’ll get through this and it’s a great day, OK let me stop
Just think being poor, your mother just died and you have to keep pushing or you’ll be on the streets that’s what I went through and I’m trying not to go into a deepness I get up by when it happens. I hated Mother’s Day even though I was a mother so till this day When it’s Mother’s Day, I just don’t watch TV because I hate the Mother’s Day commercials. I just I get what you’re saying. I haven’t been able to get out my my chaotic Ness. I’m a Tupperware hoarder. I have animals that I take care of, but I get sad sometimes, but I read, your mother will never have peace because she loved me so much and it’s nothing she can do to help me and I didn’t want her to worry about me so I just I don’t say anything anymore to her. I let my mother rest and I just taught to God, and it helps me a lot, but I do understand that chaotic and the sad part is I never was able to fully because at the time I had just got married I didn’t want any children, but my mother wanted me to have a child before she passed away and I did And that put me in to marry my best friend who turned out to be not a good person towards me so I love that situation with my second child. He waited right to my mother died act the fool my ex-husband now old my body’s not acting right because at the time I couldn’t function, and I didn’t have anyone to help me but myself and God but basically God help those will help themselves so it’s three it’s always 430. It’s 4:36 AM right now and I seen your post which I followed you and prayed for you cause I know how it is the love someone so much and I’m just one paycheck from being homeless myself, but I keep it pushing so it’s not easier if you’re rich it’s not easier when you’re poor. It’s not easier when you’re middle-class. You just have to take the for me the crazy out my brain so I could try to function when it’s not easy to do, but I have no choice because even though, my body is breaking down because I’m old I guess and I didn’t take care of. It didn’t drink didn’t smoke but didn’t get high. I’m just a greedy pig drowned my sorrows eating and you go. I’m not typing any of this. I’m just venting so I don’t even know if this voice thing is working properly, but I just understand the pain and the confusion may be that you might be going through because I was totally opposite. I like to have fun and I was happy. I still try to be happy now because I know that’s how my mother will want me to live, but is a little harder and the ridiculous part is even though I’m much better my mother has been dead over 30 years and I go up and down. I don’t think I have a mental illness but I might no one would ever know because I just get quiet and I don’t answer my phone when I’m having a manic attack. I just lay in the bed and cry because I know I only have me if I don’t get up and work, I will be homeless and that scares me so I’m smart enough to get these kids out. I’m foster parent and thank God for them because with the stuff they do stops me from having a pity party with them myself. I know that I’m rambling because just thinking and talking about it is just, bringing me sadness and I wanna be happy and my room I just I don’t know how to get out of this but I get up every day and do what I’m supposed to do. I’m doing a lot better but you would think after 30+ years let me back up my mother died, I’m in horrible marriage. I got one kid at the time with my ex-husband. My mother died her mother my grandmother who I loved died that my mother died on Friday. My grandmother died the following Friday when they got older I used to take care of them because I didn’t believe I did not want to go to home so let me just sum it up, but that was close to older people so within two years I lost my whole family that I grew up and loved my dad is still living, but he loves his girlfriend. He loves me too, but you know he’s 80 and he loves his girlfriend and she’s just she is, so I don’t see him, but I talk to him on the phone when she allows it so if I didn’t have God, I don’t know how I would’ve survived so I lean on God Jesus to help me and right now like I have to do some classes. I’m opposite of you like I’ll do it, but I’ll wait till the last minute which drives me crazy, I’ll buy something instead of putting it up. I’ll leave it in a bag because I think probably depressed but I’m not sure. I think I’m doing really good but I might be a little depressed so it’s up and down but so funny my friends think they knew I was a little sad, but they don’t know the extent of the pain that I go through sometimes but not that much anymore Because I just don’t share those things and I can share these things with you because we don’t know each other but it was wonderful to hear you talk. I’ve always like to know people grieved differently when you were going through your I prayed for you and that you had, that was a little funny to me because I get to see your discussed with that dog, I remember looking at him his eyes look a little something wrong with his eyes or maybe maybe I just looked at him and said oh that dog needs some some sad around his eyes or something. I’m going now just bringing all this up and I’m all over the place as usual is going to make me depressed and was feeling happy so now I have to listen to Pastor Stephen Darby and try to pray and try to get a little more sleep or something because I have a foster daughter that I have to take to school in the morning I have to get her up at seven so Thanks for allowing me to share and as I look at this mess that I’ve been trying to put stuff in its proper place. I bought a clothes rack because I wear moo because I’m kind of fat when I’m not fat like the doctor said you passed fat or obese 230 pounds obese so I bought a clothes rack because I have a really small closet so I bought a rack to put all these dresses on and I have to put that up, but I haven’t had the energy to do anything really too much because I really think maybe I am depressed, but I’m not sure I have a brother who got to my father and took a loan out on our home and can’t pay it back so I have to work to pay that back. Just imagine going through whatever I’m going through whatever you’re going through but it’s just you and I don’t know I’m just grateful that, I have God and he just keeps me going to Jesus cause they said you gotta go through Jesus for God to hear you so that’s what I do and it helps me tremendously because it just do these nest. Is these coffee pouches things because I keep bottled water, which I think is not good for you, but I do so I have bottled water and I take the coffee package and if I didn’t put that in the water, I would not be able to get out the bed morning so I have the coffee in the morning. I take the BC powder just so I can get up and do something early in the morning instead of in the middle of the day works for me but what it does is I take a shower around 6 AM and then I’ll lay back down go get my daughter up my foster daughter up at seven so she can get ready for school Then I come back and I’m looking at all the stuff from the dollar tree nine cent store before they went out of business and big lots and Walmart you could tell I think I’m sounding ungrateful and I’m very grateful that I do have a roof over my head I’m paying a mortgage that my brother Weasel his way for my father to take money out of his home and he can’t pay it back so I’m paying that back. I’m paying higher rent and I’m still going strong with a fake now. I think about it. I’m just fake because I don’t let anyone know how much pain I’m really in when people, say how are you doing? I am good. How are you sometimes because you’re not sharing it because sometimes my brain I listen to people do they really care like do they really care? I was always that friend who cared but I don’t know I just I’m gonna be quiet and I wantI’mma be quiet and if anybody read this pray for me yeah I’m a try to get some sleep because I have a busy day today. Blessings to all and goodbye.❤
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❤ sending you love! I am watching this video. I am rediscovering and thank you for holding my hand virtually emotionally ❤
You are a strong woman judge Lynn.Big E is proud of you and is cheering you on.Glad you are healing day by day
I thought that I was ready to watch this...but now I'm crying #grieving mom I'll try to watch this another day. Sending you love.
I am really trying to feel on purpose. Thank you Judge Lynn. Just know you are helping others through your grief and pain. It is being used to help others. We love you 🩷💐🩷
I concur we love you Judge Lynn
My God, I didn't even recognize my own grief....I found my daddy on the NYC Medical Examiner website. My father suffered with mental illness and I was trying to reach him for a few weeks. Something said go to the DOJ and look up the missing person or unclaimed persons list. Typed my daddy's name and boom his picture taken in the morgue was there. Lord God I never realized how traumatic an experience that was until Judge Lynn talked about her experience hearing her husband was gone. God is able and I am holding on the hope that Life will and does get better and finally grief my daddy the way that is healing for me. Thank you Judge/Mama Lynn, you are help us while healing yourself
Thank God for your revelation and God reminding you of your purpose. Judge, I thank God you are doing better. This word is better with you in it. Take care of yourself and may God be there for you when you need him the most.
PRAYERS UP 🙏🏼🥰
Well Judge Tolbert you have did it again please keep these discussions going because every issue or subject matter has something to offer, I now understand how our pain and experiences could help could be a blessing to others I never thought my journey could until now, before I thought yeah sounds good, but I feel , I m hurting I'm mad,I'm tired etc. and your short podcast, whispers, throughout all the noise and words become more than just words, the bell bell rings and you aha never thought about it like that
All because of your wisdom and your knowledge my next relationship is going to be perfect not just because I wanted to be it's because I'm learning how to understand the opposite❤❤❤😊
Hi Judge Lynn, I agree with everything you are saying. I went through the same thing as you loosing my husband November 15th 2022. It was so sudden and I had just retired June 1st 2021. We had so many plans. He retired 2011. I miss him so very much. We were married for 40 years.
My love goes out to you and your family 🙌 my angel 😇
Oh my, this video was ….. I pray that you continue to find peace and comfort in this chapter of your book because you have so much life ahead and more wisdom to share. Thanks for sharing ❤
I remember when your beloved husband passed. Because my only child, my son died on 10/9/22. And my heart was broken, I remember coming across your FB page and saw you in as much pain as I was.. I had already buried my husband in 2005, and then had to bury my son 2022.. And when I heard about your loss, in my mind, and heart I had someone to sit with me in silence, grief and flowing tears and, even though we didn't know one another, I felt connected to you. Glad you're doing well - Your Soul Sister.😇
Thank you and God bless you love the podcast. Can’t wait to see another video. Thanks again. God bless you and your family in Jesus name amen.❤❤❤❤
Judge Lynn, thank you for your transparency, it has healing properties for all of us. We love you and we are praying for you and your family. The love you share with your hubby is infinite and continues to inspire us.
I ditto what you are saying!
Judge, I identify with sooooo many of your stories. My husband transitioned 4 years ago October 7th 2020 at 50 years old…..I too have narratives that I tell myself to help ease the pain. I even imagine him at work or the grocery store when he is not home and I feel sad. You help normalize some of my antics. I used several coping mechanisms as well, alcohol, weed, food, Xanax etc etc , but I have that under control thank you Jesus❗️I even got in full panic mode the first time I had car trouble 🤦🏾♀️. I will continue to pray for you, because I TRULY have an understanding. Thanks for doing what you’re doing. I am inspired. I love you ❤
You made me cry. God bless you sista. I am praying for you
You are such a woman of wisdom as well as the gift of sharing it with others. I hang on to everything you say. I’m going thru as well. Experiencing most of what you are. Getting thru it with God holding my hand. Learning to trust Him more each day. Thank you again; please keep on helping us as you are helping yourself. Praying for you!🙏❤️
My sons and I also blame their dad for things happening or even when things go well we say "He's in heaven looking out for us" We believe it
Oh yeah, about FEAR, I read a book years ago called FEEL THE FEAR-BUT DO IT ANYWAY. Helped me through a speech presentation in front of a room full of people. Many attendees stopped me later to say, "What a wonderful job," I did. I smiled but didn't let them know that I was terrified INSIDE. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME! 😁
I’m going through a tough divorce. I am so forever thankful I have your channel to be reminded to feel on purpose. I will get there, but now I feel like I'm going crazy. Thank you for your continuous Words of Wisdom.🙏🏾✌️🏾💞
Sending Hugs and PRAYERS 🤗🙏🏼🥰
18:44 Awwe 😩😩 I just wanted to hug her, no pity, just want to love on her like family. I couldn’t fathom. May God continue to comfort her.
Thank you again youve touch some of my issues ❤❤
Thank you so much. I needed and saved this video. Wow you spoke everything of myself it’s 14 months lost of my husband 39 years of life together. I’m still in process of finding my purpose without him. Going to share this video with my therapist since it’s me verbatim. Have a wonderful day.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us, Judge Toler. I appreciate you sharing your learnings from such a major loss. Your message is powerful. Thank you so much.
Judge, Queen...you are a heart sent angel to so many of us, Thank you for your honesty, your volunaralbilty shows you are human...much respect..... we listen to you❤❤❤❤ sorry for your loss🙏🙏🙏
Something you said just resonated with my grief. I grew up thinking my mother gave up to soon on relationships so I did the polar opposite. Know that I’m trying to learn how to leave a more Regulated, not balanced, life I can learn when to give up or when to stay.
Thank you for sharing you journey with me.
Oh Lynn God bless you God keep you we are standing in the pain with you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💔💔💔😭😭 You truly are helping just as you are ❤❤❤ Please continue 🙏🙌
" I love it, just watch the narrative ". I'm trying to feel on purpose! I love you and we all are blessed to have you, as part of our heart space!
Thank you for sharing your experiences and wisdom with us Judge Lynn I truly appreciate you 💐💐💐 I crowned you my virtual God Mom 😊
Hmm SEEMS like the wise And Allways Beautiful judgelynn has Self healed By sharing inner thoughts of how Important it is to Have Sit Down Conversation with Honesty About Self flaws SALUTE the Queen 🧡
You are such a strong woman and inspirational.
I love you Judge ❤
'The narrative we tell ourselves' is such an eye-opening thought
The emotional maze of grief, and Grief and Resilience My granddaughter's life was taken by Gun Violence on December 28, 2023 I was on an emotional roller coaster. Asked myself how I intend to recover from my trauma? Trauma alters our ability to think. Therefore I started telling my story and started my own support group to help others. The healing of trauma. Thank You for sharing your story. Grief & Resilience ...Thank You
Love you Hard Judge Lynn……
Saw this live, but watching again today. I needed this. Thanks Judge❤
❤ you are in my prayers 🙏🏿
Nobody warns you that handling the affairs of ppl that pass is the roughest part.
I love your stories Judge Toler and your self awareness is so inspiring. Ty 🫶🏾🙏🏽☺️
OMG.. I’m so glad to See you in your zone.. bc I have been following you for years!! You helped me through some difficult times.. and then watching you during your difficult times was heartbreaking But to see you now flourish in peace and rediscovering who you are.. is remarkable bc lord knows how i prayed for you. Just know that I’ll always love you and your a mega star in my eyes 😊😊🫶🏾🫶🏾🙏🏽
Thank you for this lost youngest 2021 .My mom was worse past 4 years she transitioned this year 6 months ago.This has blessed me❤🎉🙏🏽🙏🏽
I believe there's healing in giving.. And your healing, dear Judge Lynn, is inevitable. 💜💪🏾💜
I learned:1. the staticy mind creates unnecessary chaos. 2. Process + Progress then Reassess. 😊
Watch till the end. This was a very great message I needed
Finally. Glad you're better Beloved. Peace!
Hi , Judge Lynn Tolver, I want to wish you many more Happy Birthdays . We both have the same birth month of October. We also ,share the same thing losing our husband's. Keep going my sister peace and blessings always to you and your family. Thank you for making the time in your schedule to share, I need to hear that it was a validation for me.
I lost my brother this year on January 2nd, 16 days before his bday. Right now I'm still struggling with the fact that he was here and well and the next day gone.
Happy healing. Jesus got me through my grief. 🧘🏾♀️
I love you so much Mrs. Toler
I watch your show everyday. Wish you was my mom. 🌹
Very true about the narrative you tell yourself
Thank you for sharing your journey, it has help me with my own grieving process with losing my Momz. I pray for you ,and I appreciate you ✨
Thank you for sharing Judge.
GOD bless and keep you beautiful Judge. 🌟
Your courage reminds us HOW to EAT a big ELEPHANT - one bite at a time.
❤ you lady.
Judge thank you for this video. I know it's part of your healing process. You're going in the right direction.😊❤️
Thank you for this Mama Lynn 🥰
❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏🙏Been there Judge. After 55 years of marriage. Same month same year as you. Met him at 15 married him at 17. He was 20. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks for sharing and being transparent! ❤ Grief is complex. My father died over three years ago and I’m just now getting to the other side. One day at a time.
Ok, Fav is up with a lippie on lol! We love youuuu! ❤
thanks judge lynn.i needed alittle motovation.lost my brother this year&my fincail situation&my family is getting to me.
Thank you for this video judge Lynn ❤you certainly make my days better 😊
You look great, I am glad you are doing ok, I relate to you in many ways, I am different from most people, I have always felt the way you felt about the world, I was soothing myself with alcohol, not to the point of drunk, but it became a habit, found out from a psychiatrist that alcohol is a depressant, I used to be fearing life, so I reacted out of anger, I lived that way for years and years, I have since learned how to compartmentalize my thoughts, I don't drink anymore, and eat to live, not living to eat. I exercise every day during the week. I keep myself away from negative situations as much as I can. Not only that, but I read the Bible every day.
Mrs Toler...love you bunches❤ Te amo...that means " I love you in Spanish🥰🥰
Thank You so much!
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Thank you.
Your son's were upset over Dad's passing too 😢so nobody could think. My sister passed unexpectedly in 2013, so I understand how disorientating it is. Thanks for sharing.
Ty judge.
I haven't seen this yet, but your thumbnail photo is 🔥🤩fire🤩🔥!!!
I feel your pain. Your strength is remarkable. After 3yr my children still don’t celebrate mother’s day.
Living An Emergency I Understand 🙏🏾
with your purty self🖤🖤🖤
Wow!!!😮
U stand up great job 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅
OK, I just finished listening to your story and that makes a lot of sense so I am going to do that because I do so brothers gonna be a bad day so now but then I do say it’s gonna be a good day but I am going to say it’s going to be a great day today even if somebody tailgates me and like you said the stuff happens I’m going to just consciously say it’s a great day. I’ll get through this and it’s a great day, OK let me stop
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Can We Get A Shirt With That Intro On It & Feeling On Purpose…Im Inspired
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Just think being poor, your mother just died and you have to keep pushing or you’ll be on the streets that’s what I went through and I’m trying not to go into a deepness I get up by when it happens. I hated Mother’s Day even though I was a mother so till this day When it’s Mother’s Day, I just don’t watch TV because I hate the Mother’s Day commercials. I just I get what you’re saying. I haven’t been able to get out my my chaotic Ness. I’m a Tupperware hoarder. I have animals that I take care of, but I get sad sometimes, but I read, your mother will never have peace because she loved me so much and it’s nothing she can do to help me and I didn’t want her to worry about me so I just I don’t say anything anymore to her. I let my mother rest and I just taught to God, and it helps me a lot, but I do understand that chaotic and the sad part is I never was able to fully because at the time I had just got married I didn’t want any children, but my mother wanted me to have a child before she passed away and I did And that put me in to marry my best friend who turned out to be not a good person towards me so I love that situation with my second child. He waited right to my mother died act the fool my ex-husband now old my body’s not acting right because at the time I couldn’t function, and I didn’t have anyone to help me but myself and God but basically God help those will help themselves so it’s three it’s always 430. It’s 4:36 AM right now and I seen your post which I followed you and prayed for you cause I know how it is the love someone so much and I’m just one paycheck from being homeless myself, but I keep it pushing so it’s not easier if you’re rich it’s not easier when you’re poor. It’s not easier when you’re middle-class. You just have to take the for me the crazy out my brain so I could try to function when it’s not easy to do, but I have no choice because even though, my body is breaking down because I’m old I guess and I didn’t take care of. It didn’t drink didn’t smoke but didn’t get high. I’m just a greedy pig drowned my sorrows eating and you go. I’m not typing any of this. I’m just venting so I don’t even know if this voice thing is working properly, but I just understand the pain and the confusion may be that you might be going through because I was totally opposite. I like to have fun and I was happy. I still try to be happy now because I know that’s how my mother will want me to live, but is a little harder and the ridiculous part is even though I’m much better my mother has been dead over 30 years and I go up and down. I don’t think I have a mental illness but I might no one would ever know because I just get quiet and I don’t answer my phone when I’m having a manic attack. I just lay in the bed and cry because I know I only have me if I don’t get up and work, I will be homeless and that scares me so I’m smart enough to get these kids out. I’m foster parent and thank God for them because with the stuff they do stops me from having a pity party with them myself. I know that I’m rambling because just thinking and talking about it is just, bringing me sadness and I wanna be happy and my room I just I don’t know how to get out of this but I get up every day and do what I’m supposed to do. I’m doing a lot better but you would think after 30+ years let me back up my mother died, I’m in horrible marriage. I got one kid at the time with my ex-husband. My mother died her mother my grandmother who I loved died that my mother died on Friday. My grandmother died the following Friday when they got older I used to take care of them because I didn’t believe I did not want to go to home so let me just sum it up, but that was close to older people so within two years I lost my whole family that I grew up and loved my dad is still living, but he loves his girlfriend. He loves me too, but you know he’s 80 and he loves his girlfriend and she’s just she is, so I don’t see him, but I talk to him on the phone when she allows it so if I didn’t have God, I don’t know how I would’ve survived so I lean on God Jesus to help me and right now like I have to do some classes. I’m opposite of you like I’ll do it, but I’ll wait till the last minute which drives me crazy, I’ll buy something instead of putting it up. I’ll leave it in a bag because I think probably depressed but I’m not sure. I think I’m doing really good but I might be a little depressed so it’s up and down but so funny my friends think they knew I was a little sad, but they don’t know the extent of the pain that I go through sometimes but not that much anymore Because I just don’t share those things and I can share these things with you because we don’t know each other but it was wonderful to hear you talk. I’ve always like to know people grieved differently when you were going through your I prayed for you and that you had, that was a little funny to me because I get to see your discussed with that dog, I remember looking at him his eyes look a little something wrong with his eyes or maybe maybe I just looked at him and said oh that dog needs some some sad around his eyes or something. I’m going now just bringing all this up and I’m all over the place as usual is going to make me depressed and was feeling happy so now I have to listen to Pastor Stephen Darby and try to pray and try to get a little more sleep or something because I have a foster daughter that I have to take to school in the morning I have to get her up at seven so Thanks for allowing me to share and as I look at this mess that I’ve been trying to put stuff in its proper place. I bought a clothes rack because I wear moo because I’m kind of fat when I’m not fat like the doctor said you passed fat or obese 230 pounds obese so I bought a clothes rack because I have a really small closet so I bought a rack to put all these dresses on and I have to put that up, but I haven’t had the energy to do anything really too much because I really think maybe I am depressed, but I’m not sure I have a brother who got to my father and took a loan out on our home and can’t pay it back so I have to work to pay that back. Just imagine going through whatever I’m going through whatever you’re going through but it’s just you and I don’t know I’m just grateful that, I have God and he just keeps me going to Jesus cause they said you gotta go through Jesus for God to hear you so that’s what I do and it helps me tremendously because it just do these nest. Is these coffee pouches things because I keep bottled water, which I think is not good for you, but I do so I have bottled water and I take the coffee package and if I didn’t put that in the water, I would not be able to get out the bed morning so I have the coffee in the morning. I take the BC powder just so I can get up and do something early in the morning instead of in the middle of the day works for me but what it does is I take a shower around 6 AM and then I’ll lay back down go get my daughter up my foster daughter up at seven so she can get ready for school Then I come back and I’m looking at all the stuff from the dollar tree nine cent store before they went out of business and big lots and Walmart you could tell I think I’m sounding ungrateful and I’m very grateful that I do have a roof over my head I’m paying a mortgage that my brother Weasel his way for my father to take money out of his home and he can’t pay it back so I’m paying that back. I’m paying higher rent and I’m still going strong with a fake now. I think about it. I’m just fake because I don’t let anyone know how much pain I’m really in when people, say how are you doing? I am good. How are you sometimes because you’re not sharing it because sometimes my brain I listen to people do they really care like do they really care? I was always that friend who cared but I don’t know I just I’m gonna be quiet and I wantI’mma be quiet and if anybody read this pray for me yeah I’m a try to get some sleep because I have a busy day today. Blessings to all and goodbye.❤
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You Went Through The Stages Of Major Depression.. Currently You're At Stage (5)... Yeah I Know It Hurts Emotionally.. However? You'll Get Through It...Here's what the five stages of grief are, and how you can consider and process them in whichever order you experience them.
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Acceptance. You're Here... 😏😏😎😎😎😎 (5)... Yep...
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Them dogs, lmaooooo
Why cant judge toler be the candidate running for president now shes smart and philosophical
The devil is in the details
Lynn how are you doing today well I hope,
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Good Morning Judge Toler. Hope today is doing you well 🫶🏼
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