I’ve been struggling with bipolar depression for over 5 years now. I’ve always had a back for piano, but never had enough motivation to actually play anything. But, when I heard this price, something grew in me, in my heart, telling me I had to learn it. And just after playing the first notes my heart sank. I start bawling. This song brings so many emotions to me. The contrast between the high and low notes, slowly more high notes than low notes, the repetive motion between the end and the begging. Everything about this song is just, beautiful. This song kept me alive. 🫃
Day 844: I kinda miss lockdown. Don’t ask me why. But when I think about it I feel a bit nostalgic. Even if lockdown made me feel bad at the end (anxiety, fear of growing up, have trouble to speak, phone addiction ect ect) I kinda miss it. Everything and everyone was weird. And it felt great, really great. I don’t know how to describe it but just, everything felt different back then. It was wonderful. Anyway, today was great :) I played with my teacher and even after 2 months without seeing her, she still super sweet.
Pixar-bait. No but seriously, your composition is remarkable! It's as if Satie and Debussy decided you should carry the torch into the 21st century. A hidden gem; people like you are the reason the genre will never perish. I wish you great fortune in your music career
I’m learning this song so I can play it for my future cat. He’s been a stray and I’m preparing everything so I can bring him to his “New Home” next week. Welcome home, my little man.
Satie, Debussy, C418, and Austin Farwell all have the magic ability to make music that sounds happy and sad at the same time. I can only dream of doing the same.
This reminds me of being a child again. Being completely carefree, making friends with everyone you meet, even if it’s just for a little while. It reminds me of playing with your best friend, battling a giant dragon to protect the people in your kingdom, and ruling them fairly forever after. And finally, it reminds me that growing up is just a part of life. There’s no escaping it, no skipping past it. You have to live through the hurt and pain to see the beautiful sky beyond the clouds. Thank you for this amazing song. Be safe everyone ❤️
That’s one of the sweetest comments I’ve ever read on the internet, and I’m into my fifth decade in this beautiful existence. If you’ve not seen The Tree of Life by Terrence Malick then please do so! You’d love it. God bless you.
This song makes me think about a couple who just bought their new house (a tiny pretty house) and they are starting a life together, a peaceful and romantic life. 💞
For me this captures the moment that you realize you’ve learned too much and ignorance has been lost. It seems like life is so much easier when you don’t know everything that’s wrong with it. This song is like looking back on the happiness you felt in not knowing something, but you know there wasn’t a choice in knowing. Eventually it has to show itself for better or for worse. It was nice when you didn’t know though. Thanks as always for capturing emotions Austin.. amazing composition
Exactly my friend, and you're trying to hold on to those past moments however eventually you fail because you want to look to the future but it scares you and you go back to cherish those past moments in some sort of loop ( but you know it's not endless)
It’s always nice to see people discovering romanticism all for themselves. You’re really missing out! Kinderszenen is an entire song cycle by Schumann about just that: scenes from childhood that are gone but not forgotten, with a sense of nostalgia and a yearning for the deep sense of mystery the world harbors in the eyes of a child.
Just listened to the slow version of this song and didn’t expect to cry as hard as I did before playing the video. All of a sudden after listening to this a couple of times my mind just started showing me everything I’ve done in life from my childhood, to past friends and family that have passed, and memories etc. Wow.
I just found out I’m pregnant and this song just makes me think of my new home with my baby and my husband ❤️ it calms me down when I’m sick, it creates such peace in me, thank you so much for this song! 🙏🏽 god bless
Heard this on tiktok, searched the whole comment section to find the name o the piano piece and here I am 🥺 Been waiting to find the most breathtaking piece to give me more motivation to play again and I believe I just found it 👐 Prettiest melodies I have ever heard in my life.
Day 1095: 3 years passed. And wow life does move fast. You don’t know how grateful I am. Grateful to be alive, to be able to remember all the sad and happy moments thanks to this diary, to read all the answers I get from time to times and how grateful I am, again, to be alive, to not give up on anything and just keep fighting and fighting for all the coming days. Right now, I’m writing while listening ‘where’d all the time go?’ And woooowwww the more I write, the more I feel like I was freshman just yesterday. But now I’m a senior and my final exam is in literally 2 weeks. It’s unbelievable, everything feels like a fever dream. So how did Nyx evolved throughout the years ? Well, I grew up a lot mentally (not physically sadly) I learned to accept myself as be to try to o see positivity everywhere I could, not in a toxic way but a healthy way. Like, if I’m sad, I’m sad and that’s fine everyone can have ups and downs. And I think that doing this made me feel so much better. Anyway, just like every time, how was today ? Today was fun :) I went to a birthday party I got a bit tipsy and then my dad came to pick me up at around 3am
Our home is the place or state of mind where we feel most at ease with ourselves. I lost my home, and I want to find a new one. A new home, where I am at ease with myself as a person, feeling that I am doing the best I can to help myself and those I care about. Time inevitably moves on, and the people who know come and go. Change has always been difficult for me, but I understand that new homes both in the physical sense and the psychological state of mind, can bring about new happy memories. I want to make new memories that replace the ones I know of the old home, the one that I wish was still around. This music is the most reflective piece of music to me because it allows me to see myself in a better future that I can reach if I put the effort in. It to me feels brighter believing in a new home to reach. And in time, this new home will put my fears to rest.
This Puts an image of a little child walking through a busy street carelessly having the time of his life while everyone else is getting on with there day. If you understand that vibe you’ll get what I mean lol
This song reminds me of young love. Something that is just starting. You have no idea how it's going to go but you go into it hopeful. Slowly, you both fall into an organic love. Something that can only come with time. And as the years go by you fall deeper in love
I finally found it after months, If this never gets used in a movie I will become an animator and rise through the ranks to feature this song in an up style montage of life
On those deep nights, when you believe the inner me has fallen. The life seems stagnant and moving rapidly at the same time. When you've no control over the losses you're going to face in the future. But you've forgotten everything; not because you're irresponsible- but not to bow down by the cruelty you face. On those deep nights, you close you eyes and play this song. Soon you realise some wet lines dropping down from the corner of your eyes, you open your eyes only to find out you've been crying the whole time. Please don't stop your tears, you are healing from inside. Don't stop the process. You'll wake up smiling and free of guilt or shame. You've been through a lot, you are no weak; you only need rest. Cheers to this melancholy/ nostalgic song.
Hope Austin sees this. I first listened to this song on TikTok. The mouse eating m&m's, and I fell in love with it. I fall asleep to the slower version everytime. It's so beautiful. It just reminds me of my childhood. My family when I was younger. Especially my grandmother's house. I printed out the sheet music for this song and I love playing it on the piano. Pianists, I'd really recommend playing this song. It's one of my favorite.
Day 515: today was i think the best day of my life. I think I’ve never been so happy in my life. Today I went to the ABBA concert ! And I loved it ! I screamed, I sang my heart out, I danced and I also almost cried. Honestly, ABBA is I think one of the reasons why I’m still here somehow haha Just like this song and Steven universe, ABBA helped me go through a lot of thing. I can’t say that thanks to them I’m still here, because a band can’t “save” you but can help you and push you up when you need it. And before today I’ve never noticed how ABBA had a big impact and place in my heart and in my life. When “Dancing queen” appeared I sang so loudly that I almost cried out of happiness and make me realize how this song had a big place in one year of my life. I know it’s not clear and everything, but it’s hard to explain. Like, during one year I used to listen to Dancing queen at least once a week. And when I listen to this song every sad and happy moments that I lived during this year just come back and make me think how much I’ve been through Then, there’s Knowing me knowing you. THIS song almost made me cried. Like, I’ve never realized since that day how much the lyrics were this sad haha And I think that I somehow related to the lyrics… :,) And I think the other songs that touched me the most is: The winner takes it all. Honestly at this concert I finally felt like the winner. I always felt like the loser (Btw don’t worry I know what this song talk about) and finally I noticed that now I feel so much better. Like, if we read all my comments we can literally see that 200 days ago I wasn’t really alright lmao. But I noticed that now I feel a lot better. Sometimes it happen to me to feel down during random moments but a bit less than before :) And ngl but I’m really proud of myself for this ! :) Anyway, when I went to this concert I felt like being born a second time, I’m maybe exagerating a bit but, I felt so good during this moment. But ngl I felt a bit down at the hotel. To do simple here a conversation I had with Ag on instagram: « Ag: YEAAAAAH !!! HOW WAS IT ???? Me: BEST CONCERT EVER I almost cried btw 🤙 Ag:yeah it’s obvious haha ! Me: Ah btw you see, I told you. They went to the amusement park together Ag: yes a saw it… It’s really not cool But enjoy London Nyx, don’t think about them TAKE PROFIT AND ENJOY THE MOMENT YOU SPENT WITH ABBA GIRL ! I love you sooooooooooo much ! ENJOYYYYYYYYYYY » Honestly I felt a bit hurt because of L and R but that’s alright :) Just like Ag said, I need to think and enjoy the moment I just lived :)
Thank you for this song Austin, it reminds me of my childhood, my happiness, my anger and my sadness. Most importantly it makes me happy and reminds me of days to yet go by
Day 943: even though I don’t update much (being lazy ngl) let’s do a tiny recap for the last day of 2023 ! (Really tiny bcs I’m still soooo lazy hahaha) So this year a lot of things happened with a load of up and down and this year might not went as smoothly as possible, it’s still was year where I discovered a lot of thing about me and the world around me. And learned so much thing that I can’t make a list but it was such a wonderful year where I was most of the time really happy to just be alive, which has really change compared last year and 2 years ago. I’m grateful to all the people I meet even the bad ones :) So everyone, I wish you all a beautiful new year. I don’t know if it’s gonna be last time I’m gonna wish a happy new year to everyone, so I really wish the best for all of you guys And you too Austin, thank again for composing this beautiful music, and im looking forward for all the next one’s :) Thanks for reading my comments, see you in 2024 :)
Day 712: today was great ! My uncle is here ! I’m really happy to see him, you don’t know how much I love him. He’s the sweetest man I know. And btw I’m still sick but that’s fine :)
this song reminds me of that time when my mom told me that when we move to america and me and my brother are old enough to survive, her and my dad will go back to the philippines (my home for 7 years) and just have a simple life. she said that all she wanted was to have no problems and just sit outside. now shes in her 40’s and struggling to pay rent. i love you mom ❤️
Man, you've got a beautiful soul. I know it when I encounter it. Beauty like this comes out rarely and is often hard to hold on in the midst of all temptations one lives in. You have to be pure at some level to be tuned to this state of being. The music *had* to come out. It's not cliché, it ain't melodramatic, it's not forced, it's not pretentious, it's harmonic and proportional as nature, it evokes a tunnel... It's art. I rarely see art in living people. You have it man.
For some strange reason. This particular little song, makes that quote: "Everything will be ok, and if its not, is not the end of the world" gain a completely new and happy meaning. I enjoy it, so thank you very much for uploading it. Lovely! 😉
Day 726: today was quite lovely ! I went to classical music concert in my village (it was a tiny concert) and I watched The dead poets society ! It was a really beautiful movie. I didn’t cried but I really appreciate it
@@hemlockwaterdropwortchanne3896 mmh there’s a lot reason of why I’m doing, why here ect ect ect But I think the principal reason is: i want to leave something behind me, even if it’s kinda pointless since nobody reads it. And plus, it reminds me that’s everyday count, each of them are beautiful and are “useful” in their own way
My boyfriend was caught going out with another girl when I listen to this beautiful piece, the song brings comfort and sadness at the same time. ' It's gonna be allright, I can walk slowly , forgiving but doesn't want to continue, it's gonna be ok'
This reminds me of someone having a moment of creativity and inspiration while relaxing on the grass while there are sheeps around him/her in a day of spring and the smell of the flowers is in the air 😊
I haven't been feeling very well lately and the only person there for me is drifting away, despite this your music has inspired me to pursue a different me, thank you so much for this masterpiece Austin Much love❤
I just have to add once more, this is such a beautiful song. My TH-cam Music plays it every now and then, and each time I hear it I stop and think "Man, this is truly a lovely song." It is a rare find to find a song released so recently, that is so profoundly beautiful. Thank you!
Day 944: I just read the most beautiful thing on tik tok, it’s such a good thing to say for the beginning of the year and it was: « 12 new chapters, 366 new chances ». When you say say it like it give such a wonderful meaning to the new year. And I love it so much it’s… I don’t know how to describe it but it bring so much confort and warmth. Just like today, I spent a beautiful day. Me and my friend L (O was here but she left around 10pm), we drank together to celebrate the coming new year, played games, did a karaoke and watched some stuff on the tv. Then we went to sleep at 4am. We wanted to go watch the first sunrise of the year, but both of us didn’t put a alarm for 7am, we are dumbass, but even though we didn’t watched the sunrise we had a lot of fun afterwards. Oh and my Japanese grandparents are fine, they had the earthquake of a magnitude of 4 since they live in Osaka, it’s still violent but they’re fine ! :) And that was all for today ! Happy new year guys, wish all the best for you all
Cuando me siento solo, me acuesto miro hacia el cielo y el sol que pega en mi ventana, pongo está grandiosa pieza y me cuestionó, ya que mi pensamiento es mi peor enemigo y la soledad no es que aporte mucho... gracias por estos momentos tan hermosos que brinda la vida y ese hermoso arte que haces
Hi Austin, is this song available to purchase to use for my youtube channel? I would like to add it in my upcoming video. THE Most beautiful song I have ever heard!!!!!! Please let me know thank youuuuuuu
My family and I recently have to finally move out from our home this year. A house I grew up in, my childhood home... Fortunately I've already secured my own place before we moved, a new apartment and they're staying with me together. Listening to this makes me miss my old home even more. So many memories there and I can still imagine how it's like very vividly when I close my eyes. The new place is really swell and I don't think much of my old home really, but when I do it really makes me miss it a lot
I am not able to comment on the video where the piece is slowed so i am commenting it here: This was the first time ever in my 15 years that a song/music piece has made me cry. This was so beautiful to listen to and really blessed my ears. Have a wonderful life, Austin Farwell
I listen to this sweet song while holding my 14 month old son in my arms. The thought flies to when, as a child, I found comfort and shelter in my father's arms, arms as strong as marble, as tender as marshmallows, as savvy as an old forest, arms that knew how to protect me from everything and everyone. I miss you, I really miss you so much, wherever you are ...
Found your music in IG. I am in love with it. Wish we can slow down this video so I can follow and play it. I’m not much of a note reader but I’m starting to take up piano again.
Idk how to explain it but...this song describes exactly who I am... this song can depict me as whether I'm a calm person or a person who is trying to get by in life...and honestly, you can decide who I am :)
Day 796: today I had « a long » afternoon. I went to the funeral of my greatgrandma :,) The. We went to her house. Everything stayed still. Nothing moved. It’s as if she was still here yesterday. Even the smell was still the same. On this day I cried a bit but it was fine. After visiting the house after a long time I slept on the floor just like I did 8 years ago while listening as always, my mom’s cousin playing marimba. After waking up, my grandparents told me it was time to go home. We took the Shinkansen and when we arrived at Shin-Osaka we saw a beautiful firework.
This song makes me imagine a scene where you're looking back into your past while looking at the sunset as the wind and sun hits you in the face and suddenly there's tears coming out but you start laughing at the same time.
One of the top comments mentions Pixar, and I can see that. But I would love this as a finale to a very emoitional series, either as a remix of a motief or a new track just for that scene. Great work!
Trust me when I say, in 300 years or so someone will hear this and be like "damn, that artist must've been pretty underrated.." and so you will be called: the Beethoven of the 21st century. And this song will be the most loved one.
@@dreamy_63 there really isn't that much stopping you from making a one hit wonder. Go out and make one then... If you're trying to expand as an artist. You'd much rather have less people listening to your albums than many more only listening to one of your songs.
Day 30: today was pretty good. I did good in my history, biology and science exam. Im proud of me (a little bit haha). Anyway, I definitely finished school like, four years. I spend four flippin years in this school. And it’s not nothing. So… and after that my school did a party and it was cool and now I’m sleeping in my friend house ! (I’m late again sorry I had some problems with my phone)
Day 1031: I had my literature mock exam back !!! So I had 50/100 !!!! I’m so happy I was to have something like maybe 25 or something like that and no !!! Yayyyyy ! Oh i cried today 🤭 Like, I kept being put aside in every conversation (L and Am). And I needed support from someone, so I called my sister and she answered without hesitation and asked me what was wrong and told her that they kept putting me aside, if I wasn’t the one talking no one would even look at me or talk to and that I was tired of this bullshit. So she talked with and comforted me and everything and it was cool. And then I left them and went to see Mu and it was I really good idea. Then I talked about with Ma bcs she asked how it was with L and Am since last week was weird. And while telling her I just cried again 😭💀 Anyway, I still have two things left to say: 1- I was really pretty today and I don’t over say it. I WAS SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL and a wasted a beautiful outfit on shtty day 🙄 2- am is definitely a btch :D Like you know the person that had 10/100 ? Well it was guys next to Am in I.T room (we went the computer room to prepare an assignment) and when this guy had his score back, she turned to us (V,Mu and me) and screamed (yes she screamed. Well, she didn’t scream but everyone heard her bcs she spoke in a loud voice): “omgggggggg Charlie is the that had 10 !! It’s not us let’s gooooooooooooo” (his name is Charlie obvs) and wtf. Like girl. Like, the guy just got roasted by our teacher plus his is close to cry and you’re saying this even though he’s 10cm from you ? Wtf is wrong with you. Like when I asked him if he was ok his voice was SHAKING and I’m gonna say it again: WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ?? Like girl you’re just being straight up disrespectful and enjoying yourself on someone unhappiness what is wrong with you ?
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@@caden7683 Well I have to cover the costs of hiring the sheet music team to make it 🤷🏻♂️
@@austinfarwell It’s so strange how people think artists should work for free. Lovely piece.
@@austinfarwell thank you. It's a nice wedding song. Keep up with the good work.
Thank you so much! 🙏🤍✨
Makes me feel like everything will turn out fine
Calming
Trust it will. Just a matter of time
This is exactly how I feel
Yesss
It will....just trust the lord. He really loves you :)
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So true!!
True
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Truuuuuuu
facts
You know you've done well as an artist when the most replayed part is 0:00
Bravo.
I was thinking about this the other day
how do you know that?
i just love this comment, no other words. just fucking love it
I think because ppl want to learn the song
@@CodeineBarbarian lol, well you aint wrong
I’ve been struggling with bipolar depression for over 5 years now. I’ve always had a back for piano, but never had enough motivation to actually play anything. But, when I heard this price, something grew in me, in my heart, telling me I had to learn it. And just after playing the first notes my heart sank. I start bawling. This song brings so many emotions to me. The contrast between the high and low notes, slowly more high notes than low notes, the repetive motion between the end and the begging. Everything about this song is just, beautiful. This song kept me alive. 🫃
Beautiful description of this music…
I’m happy to know that you feel better btw ! (I’m talking like I write this piece but I didn’t lmaooo😭)
Love this comment but the emoji 😭
Day 844: I kinda miss lockdown. Don’t ask me why. But when I think about it I feel a bit nostalgic. Even if lockdown made me feel bad at the end (anxiety, fear of growing up, have trouble to speak, phone addiction ect ect) I kinda miss it. Everything and everyone was weird. And it felt great, really great.
I don’t know how to describe it but just, everything felt different back then. It was wonderful.
Anyway, today was great :)
I played with my teacher and even after 2 months without seeing her, she still super sweet.
This song has no right being so happy, vulnerable and just heartbreakingly sad all at once.
No I feel loved when I listen to this music..I get a aesthetic vibe..even when you're sad listen to this once it will heal😌
i came here because i saw a rat eat a m&m
Yessir
@@jawawalando wish you caught it on camera
Pixar-bait.
No but seriously, your composition is remarkable! It's as if Satie and Debussy decided you should carry the torch into the 21st century. A hidden gem; people like you are the reason the genre will never perish. I wish you great fortune in your music career
Best comment ive ever gotten thank you sir
This should be the top comment
Dewho?
@@poundlandspeedwagonrequiem debussy
@@tomgonk 😱😱😱
I’m learning this song so I can play it for my future cat. He’s been a stray and I’m preparing everything so I can bring him to his “New Home” next week. Welcome home, my little man.
We need a cat update lol...currently working with this on repeat while my orange girl is sleeping on my lap
@@derek6460 It died
@@derek6460 it was unfortunately diagnosed with testicular cancer and later passed away at the age of 5
@@erikdagamer5478 fr?
he actually died because he had aids he was diagnosed with cat gay
Satie, Debussy, C418, and Austin Farwell all have the magic ability to make music that sounds happy and sad at the same time.
I can only dream of doing the same.
I love the songs by Erik Satie ❤
Yes, they are always like "Yeah, it's really bad rn, but everything will turn out fine."
This reminds me of being a child again. Being completely carefree, making friends with everyone you meet, even if it’s just for a little while. It reminds me of playing with your best friend, battling a giant dragon to protect the people in your kingdom, and ruling them fairly forever after. And finally, it reminds me that growing up is just a part of life. There’s no escaping it, no skipping past it. You have to live through the hurt and pain to see the beautiful sky beyond the clouds. Thank you for this amazing song. Be safe everyone ❤️
That’s one of the sweetest comments I’ve ever read on the internet, and I’m into my fifth decade in this beautiful existence. If you’ve not seen The Tree of Life by Terrence Malick then please do so! You’d love it. God bless you.
Finally a comment that relates to everyone
Your comment make my cry for happyness, i feel it too! So nice, be safe and thanks for sharing your feelings
This song makes me think about a couple who just bought their new house (a tiny pretty house) and they are starting a life together, a peaceful and romantic life. 💞
kinda feels like that scene in the movie Up while they were decorating painting their house and getting the baby room ready 🥺
UP??? Lol
@@jaxonlyrics3430 no more like cars
Same!!!!! Read my mind
:((
this piece is what comes to mind when i hear the word bittersweet. really hits you in all the feels :) beautiful music! keep up the great work!
I will! Thank youu and ya totally bittersweet is a good description
La La Land
@@lemonroi Exactly what I thought. Sounds like it’d fit right into the soundtrack
"The saddest thought is the thought of the things that will never be"
Imagine just being like “I’m gonna write a song” and then making this literal masterpiece
Novi dom,lagani,tihi zvuci klavira,jedan veoma usporen nježan ritam,kao let leptira,život od jednoga dana,sjeta,hvala Vam Maestro piana , Austin
For me this captures the moment that you realize you’ve learned too much and ignorance has been lost. It seems like life is so much easier when you don’t know everything that’s wrong with it. This song is like looking back on the happiness you felt in not knowing something, but you know there wasn’t a choice in knowing. Eventually it has to show itself for better or for worse. It was nice when you didn’t know though. Thanks as always for capturing emotions Austin.. amazing composition
This comment is beautiful…so true. My thoughts exactly
Agree 💯
Exactly my friend, and you're trying to hold on to those past moments however eventually you fail because you want to look to the future but it scares you and you go back to cherish those past moments in some sort of loop ( but you know it's not endless)
It’s always nice to see people discovering romanticism all for themselves. You’re really missing out! Kinderszenen is an entire song cycle by Schumann about just that: scenes from childhood that are gone but not forgotten, with a sense of nostalgia and a yearning for the deep sense of mystery the world harbors in the eyes of a child.
Just listened to the slow version of this song and didn’t expect to cry as hard as I did before playing the video. All of a sudden after listening to this a couple of times my mind just started showing me everything I’ve done in life from my childhood, to past friends and family that have passed, and memories etc. Wow.
Same..
Somehow the song makes me feeling calm and sad too.
I just found out I’m pregnant and this song just makes me think of my new home with my baby and my husband ❤️ it calms me down when I’m sick, it creates such peace in me, thank you so much for this song! 🙏🏽 god bless
Ooh soo happy for you! God Bless you and your future family!❤️
I'm so happy for you. ❤
9 months ago, hope your baby is healthy and well😊
Moving in to our new condo and thinking of this song every step of the way. Thank you Austin
I've listened to this piece probably over a 100 times now and it still doesn't bore me. Wonderful piece!
It's calming and peaceful
Very lovely
Thank you! :)
Heard this on tiktok, searched the whole comment section to find the name o the piano piece and here I am 🥺 Been waiting to find the most breathtaking piece to give me more motivation to play again and I believe I just found it 👐 Prettiest melodies I have ever heard in my life.
Don't wait for motivation man, if you want to be a great pianist, go ahead make it happen push yourself
I've been in love with this song since I heard it on tiktok☺❤
Piece*
Same
Sameeee
@@johncapodilupo6876 what'ss the difference?
@@ThePaikMan songs have lyrics pieces don’t
Day 1095: 3 years passed. And wow life does move fast. You don’t know how grateful I am. Grateful to be alive, to be able to remember all the sad and happy moments thanks to this diary, to read all the answers I get from time to times and how grateful I am, again, to be alive, to not give up on anything and just keep fighting and fighting for all the coming days.
Right now, I’m writing while listening ‘where’d all the time go?’ And woooowwww the more I write, the more I feel like I was freshman just yesterday. But now I’m a senior and my final exam is in literally 2 weeks. It’s unbelievable, everything feels like a fever dream.
So how did Nyx evolved throughout the years ? Well, I grew up a lot mentally (not physically sadly) I learned to accept myself as be to try to o see positivity everywhere I could, not in a toxic way but a healthy way. Like, if I’m sad, I’m sad and that’s fine everyone can have ups and downs. And I think that doing this made me feel so much better.
Anyway, just like every time, how was today ? Today was fun :) I went to a birthday party I got a bit tipsy and then my dad came to pick me up at around 3am
Our home is the place or state of mind where we feel most at ease with ourselves. I lost my home, and I want to find a new one. A new home, where I am at ease with myself as a person, feeling that I am doing the best I can to help myself and those I care about. Time inevitably moves on, and the people who know come and go. Change has always been difficult for me, but I understand that new homes both in the physical sense and the psychological state of mind, can bring about new happy memories. I want to make new memories that replace the ones I know of the old home, the one that I wish was still around. This music is the most reflective piece of music to me because it allows me to see myself in a better future that I can reach if I put the effort in. It to me feels brighter believing in a new home to reach. And in time, this new home will put my fears to rest.
I hope you find a new home
This Puts an image of a little child walking through a busy street carelessly having the time of his life while everyone else is getting on with there day. If you understand that vibe you’ll get what I mean lol
Day 855: today was such a good vibe, really relaxing and fun ! I think it the first time in a while that I felt THAT great.
This very much reminds me of those short clips after old Pixar movies, like that one where the old man is playing chess with himself.
This song reminds me of young love. Something that is just starting. You have no idea how it's going to go but you go into it hopeful. Slowly, you both fall into an organic love. Something that can only come with time. And as the years go by you fall deeper in love
My son plays this song very well. Proud of him He is the most amazing person in the world
I can’t explain how much I love this
I finally found it after months, If this never gets used in a movie I will become an animator and rise through the ranks to feature this song in an up style montage of life
this guy makes masterpieces that make me cry
Day 1175: today I went back home, watched Juno and I really liked it ! I especially loved the songs !
On those deep nights, when you believe the inner me has fallen. The life seems stagnant and moving rapidly at the same time.
When you've no control over the losses you're going to face in the future.
But you've forgotten everything; not because you're irresponsible- but not to bow down by the cruelty you face.
On those deep nights, you close you eyes and play this song. Soon you realise some wet lines dropping down from the corner of your eyes, you open your eyes only to find out you've been crying the whole time.
Please don't stop your tears, you are healing from inside. Don't stop the process. You'll wake up smiling and free of guilt or shame. You've been through a lot, you are no weak; you only need rest.
Cheers to this melancholy/ nostalgic song.
Hope Austin sees this.
I first listened to this song on TikTok. The mouse eating m&m's, and I fell in love with it. I fall asleep to the slower version everytime. It's so beautiful. It just reminds me of my childhood. My family when I was younger. Especially my grandmother's house. I printed out the sheet music for this song and I love playing it on the piano. Pianists, I'd really recommend playing this song. It's one of my favorite.
this is a good song to go silent and cry to, but also a song that makes me feel safe and loved. wow, like actually. that's an amazing accomplishment.
This is so soft, tender and touching.
I feel this song gently and playfully caressing my soul!!! That is awesome!!!!
Best song ever!!!
Day 515: today was i think the best day of my life. I think I’ve never been so happy in my life. Today I went to the ABBA concert ! And I loved it ! I screamed, I sang my heart out, I danced and I also almost cried.
Honestly, ABBA is I think one of the reasons why I’m still here somehow haha
Just like this song and Steven universe, ABBA helped me go through a lot of thing.
I can’t say that thanks to them I’m still here, because a band can’t “save” you but can help you and push you up when you need it. And before today I’ve never noticed how ABBA had a big impact and place in my heart and in my life.
When “Dancing queen” appeared I sang so loudly that I almost cried out of happiness and make me realize how this song had a big place in one year of my life. I know it’s not clear and everything, but it’s hard to explain. Like, during one year I used to listen to Dancing queen at least once a week. And when I listen to this song every sad and happy moments that I lived during this year just come back and make me think how much I’ve been through
Then, there’s Knowing me knowing you. THIS song almost made me cried. Like, I’ve never realized since that day how much the lyrics were this sad haha
And I think that I somehow related to the lyrics… :,)
And I think the other songs that touched me the most is: The winner takes it all.
Honestly at this concert I finally felt like the winner. I always felt like the loser (Btw don’t worry I know what this song talk about) and finally I noticed that now I feel so much better. Like, if we read all my comments we can literally see that 200 days ago I wasn’t really alright lmao. But I noticed that now I feel a lot better. Sometimes it happen to me to feel down during random moments but a bit less than before :)
And ngl but I’m really proud of myself for this ! :)
Anyway, when I went to this concert I felt like being born a second time, I’m maybe exagerating a bit but, I felt so good during this moment.
But ngl I felt a bit down at the hotel. To do simple here a conversation I had with Ag on instagram:
« Ag: YEAAAAAH !!! HOW WAS IT ????
Me: BEST CONCERT EVER
I almost cried btw 🤙
Ag:yeah it’s obvious haha !
Me: Ah btw you see, I told you. They went to the amusement park together
Ag: yes a saw it…
It’s really not cool
But enjoy London Nyx, don’t think about them
TAKE PROFIT AND ENJOY THE MOMENT YOU SPENT WITH ABBA GIRL !
I love you sooooooooooo much ! ENJOYYYYYYYYYYY »
Honestly I felt a bit hurt because of L and R but that’s alright :)
Just like Ag said, I need to think and enjoy the moment I just lived :)
Thank you for this song Austin, it reminds me of my childhood, my happiness, my anger and my sadness. Most importantly it makes me happy and reminds me of days to yet go by
Day 943: even though I don’t update much (being lazy ngl) let’s do a tiny recap for the last day of 2023 ! (Really tiny bcs I’m still soooo lazy hahaha)
So this year a lot of things happened with a load of up and down and this year might not went as smoothly as possible, it’s still was year where I discovered a lot of thing about me and the world around me.
And learned so much thing that I can’t make a list but it was such a wonderful year where I was most of the time really happy to just be alive, which has really change compared last year and 2 years ago.
I’m grateful to all the people I meet even the bad ones :)
So everyone, I wish you all a beautiful new year.
I don’t know if it’s gonna be last time I’m gonna wish a happy new year to everyone, so I really wish the best for all of you guys
And you too Austin, thank again for composing this beautiful music, and im looking forward for all the next one’s :)
Thanks for reading my comments, see you in 2024 :)
Beautiful song man, can’t wait to have it on Spotify.
Siked! thank you
"Everything will be fine i promise so stop crying and go out there please.."
-The only voice in my head that listens to me.
Day 712: today was great ! My uncle is here ! I’m really happy to see him, you don’t know how much I love him. He’s the sweetest man I know. And btw I’m still sick but that’s fine :)
this song reminds me of that time when my mom told me that when we move to america and me and my brother are old enough to survive, her and my dad will go back to the philippines (my home for 7 years) and just have a simple life. she said that all she wanted was to have no problems and just sit outside. now shes in her 40’s and struggling to pay rent. i love you mom ❤️
Man, you've got a beautiful soul.
I know it when I encounter it. Beauty like this comes out rarely and is often hard to hold on in the midst of all temptations one lives in. You have to be pure at some level to be tuned to this state of being.
The music *had* to come out. It's not cliché, it ain't melodramatic, it's not forced, it's not pretentious, it's harmonic and proportional as nature, it evokes a tunnel... It's art.
I rarely see art in living people. You have it man.
For some strange reason. This particular little song, makes that quote: "Everything will be ok, and if its not, is not the end of the world" gain a completely new and happy meaning.
I enjoy it, so thank you very much for uploading it. Lovely! 😉
Day 726: today was quite lovely ! I went to classical music concert in my village (it was a tiny concert) and I watched The dead poets society ! It was a really beautiful movie. I didn’t cried but I really appreciate it
what? why are you jouneling in the comments?
@@hemlockwaterdropwortchanne3896 mmh there’s a lot reason of why I’m doing, why here ect ect ect
But I think the principal reason is: i want to leave something behind me, even if it’s kinda pointless since nobody reads it. And plus, it reminds me that’s everyday count, each of them are beautiful and are “useful” in their own way
@@Nyx._._ ok, that's cool :)
My boyfriend was caught going out with another girl when I listen to this beautiful piece, the song brings comfort and sadness at the same time. ' It's gonna be allright, I can walk slowly , forgiving but doesn't want to continue, it's gonna be ok'
I need 1 hour of this
This reminds me of someone having a moment of creativity and inspiration while relaxing on the grass while there are sheeps around him/her in a day of spring and the smell of the flowers is in the air 😊
“Yo jerry!” - The words of a man, dying not of physical pain, but the trauma of the cold world that is Earth.
JERRAYY
Warning: This piece could make you cry!
Lovely piece of art work. Thanks for putting this out there. Love from Nigeria.
1 word to describe this music : masterpiece
I haven't been feeling very well lately and the only person there for me is drifting away, despite this your music has inspired me to pursue a different me, thank you so much for this masterpiece Austin
Much love❤
I hope you feel better soon. You are worth it!
I just have to add once more, this is such a beautiful song. My TH-cam Music plays it every now and then, and each time I hear it I stop and think "Man, this is truly a lovely song." It is a rare find to find a song released so recently, that is so profoundly beautiful. Thank you!
Day 944: I just read the most beautiful thing on tik tok, it’s such a good thing to say for the beginning of the year and it was: « 12 new chapters, 366 new chances ». When you say say it like it give such a wonderful meaning to the new year. And I love it so much it’s… I don’t know how to describe it but it bring so much confort and warmth.
Just like today, I spent a beautiful day. Me and my friend L (O was here but she left around 10pm), we drank together to celebrate the coming new year, played games, did a karaoke and watched some stuff on the tv. Then we went to sleep at 4am. We wanted to go watch the first sunrise of the year, but both of us didn’t put a alarm for 7am, we are dumbass, but even though we didn’t watched the sunrise we had a lot of fun afterwards.
Oh and my Japanese grandparents are fine, they had the earthquake of a magnitude of 4 since they live in Osaka, it’s still violent but they’re fine ! :)
And that was all for today ! Happy new year guys, wish all the best for you all
Justo la busqué hace tres días y me di cuenta de que no existía en ninguna plataforma. Al fin ya puedo escucharla entera 😍😍😍
A new era of piano is upon us …. Well done , I feel perfection…. Waiting for more & more
I am writing a novel, hoping to end it by August. This piece suits my plot very well 💯📖
Good luck
@I want cheesecake thank u :>
@@esme9395 thank uu
What’s it about?
What!! Same😃
Cuando me siento solo, me acuesto miro hacia el cielo y el sol que pega en mi ventana, pongo está grandiosa pieza y me cuestionó, ya que mi pensamiento es mi peor enemigo y la soledad no es que aporte mucho... gracias por estos momentos tan hermosos que brinda la vida y ese hermoso arte que haces
simply chord progression, but beautiful melody....whutta lovely tune, really enjoy this.
We need the sheet music asap😭
Sheet music in description!
Hi Austin, is this song available to purchase to use for my youtube channel? I would like to add it in my upcoming video. THE Most beautiful song I have ever heard!!!!!! Please let me know thank youuuuuuu
It’s on Spotify
I just want things to go back to the way they were, when we called all the time and told eachother how we felt. I miss it
My family and I recently have to finally move out from our home this year. A house I grew up in, my childhood home... Fortunately I've already secured my own place before we moved, a new apartment and they're staying with me together. Listening to this makes me miss my old home even more. So many memories there and I can still imagine how it's like very vividly when I close my eyes. The new place is really swell and I don't think much of my old home really, but when I do it really makes me miss it a lot
i love how it can be happy or sad depending on the context and even speed its played at
you’re stuff is so incredibly beautiful, it gives me a sense of slowing down time. you’re seriously under rated
I am not able to comment on the video where the piece is slowed so i am commenting it here:
This was the first time ever in my 15 years that a song/music piece has made me cry.
This was so beautiful to listen to and really blessed my ears.
Have a wonderful life, Austin Farwell
This piece deserves to go viral, or at least more views
i love listening to this when im baking or praying ♡ how lovely!!
I listen to this sweet song while holding my 14 month old son in my arms. The thought flies to when, as a child, I found comfort and shelter in my father's arms, arms as strong as marble, as tender as marshmallows, as savvy as an old forest, arms that knew how to protect me from everything and everyone. I miss you, I really miss you so much, wherever you are ...
Can’t wait to play this to the people I love . Thank you for this masterpiece
I am trying to learn this now on the piano. Its truly beautiful, thank you.
No other medium can quite capture emotion like music can. And this one of the best examples of that.
Found your music in IG. I am in love with it. Wish we can slow down this video so I can follow and play it. I’m not much of a note reader but I’m starting to take up piano again.
No puedo parar de escuchar esta hermosa pieza musical 🎵 🎶😌😌😌😌😌
Me encanta demasiado, me transmite mucha nostalgia:((
Cuando escucho lo que tocas, siento que sanas mí alma... 💗 Me das paz..
Idk how to explain it but...this song describes exactly who I am... this song can depict me as whether I'm a calm person or a person who is trying to get by in life...and honestly, you can decide who I am :)
Day 796: today I had « a long » afternoon. I went to the funeral of my greatgrandma :,)
The. We went to her house. Everything stayed still. Nothing moved. It’s as if she was still here yesterday. Even the smell was still the same. On this day I cried a bit but it was fine. After visiting the house after a long time I slept on the floor just like I did 8 years ago while listening as always, my mom’s cousin playing marimba.
After waking up, my grandparents told me it was time to go home. We took the Shinkansen and when we arrived at Shin-Osaka we saw a beautiful firework.
This song makes me imagine a scene where you're looking back into your past while looking at the sunset as the wind and sun hits you in the face and suddenly there's tears coming out but you start laughing at the same time.
Nice description
Sums up my last 4 years
Hope you’ll be putting out sheets for this! would love to purchase
Sheet music in description!
Sheet music in description!
This sounds like it can be in the movie La La Land
I actually thought it was when I first came in touch with it on tt
It sounds like it’s from UP to me
@@lmaoeli Same I have that vibe
Bro yes!
Me lembro de tê-la escutado no filme "em busca da felicidade"
I love profound music like this one. It really inspires my passion for life.
One of the top comments mentions Pixar, and I can see that. But I would love this as a finale to a very emoitional series, either as a remix of a motief or a new track just for that scene.
Great work!
Trust me when I say, in 300 years or so someone will hear this and be like "damn, that artist must've been pretty underrated.." and so you will be called: the Beethoven of the 21st century. And this song will be the most loved one.
The only good thing tiktok has ever done, made this music famous
Making people into one hit wonders isn't good.
@@hagaras82030 even if this song was a one hit wonder, if I made this I'd be happy if I got hundreds of thousands of views on my vid
@@dreamy_63 there really isn't that much stopping you from making a one hit wonder. Go out and make one then... If you're trying to expand as an artist. You'd much rather have less people listening to your albums than many more only listening to one of your songs.
This is incredible. You are so talented.
This makes me feel so much better 🥲
This is just...ethereal!
Man did you composed this awesome piece?? Incredible, reminds me of Chopin so much, very beautiful. Cheers.
This makes me feel like I'm reliving the good times I didn't have..
Day 30: today was pretty good. I did good in my history, biology and science exam. Im proud of me (a little bit haha).
Anyway, I definitely finished school like, four years. I spend four flippin years in this school. And it’s not nothing.
So… and after that my school did a party and it was cool and now I’m sleeping in my friend house !
(I’m late again sorry I had some problems with my phone)
I came here cause a meme had this piece playing in the background, but then i stayed for the rest of the piece because this is wonderful :)
Hauntingly beautiful Austin. Hope to hear a lot more from you. With love from South Africa xxx
Day 1031: I had my literature mock exam back !!! So I had 50/100 !!!! I’m so happy I was to have something like maybe 25 or something like that and no !!! Yayyyyy ! Oh i cried today 🤭
Like, I kept being put aside in every conversation (L and Am). And I needed support from someone, so I called my sister and she answered without hesitation and asked me what was wrong and told her that they kept putting me aside, if I wasn’t the one talking no one would even look at me or talk to and that I was tired of this bullshit. So she talked with and comforted me and everything and it was cool. And then I left them and went to see Mu and it was I really good idea. Then I talked about with Ma bcs she asked how it was with L and Am since last week was weird. And while telling her I just cried again 😭💀
Anyway, I still have two things left to say:
1- I was really pretty today and I don’t over say it. I WAS SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL and a wasted a beautiful outfit on shtty day 🙄
2- am is definitely a btch :D
Like you know the person that had 10/100 ? Well it was guys next to Am in I.T room (we went the computer room to prepare an assignment) and when this guy had his score back, she turned to us (V,Mu and me) and screamed (yes she screamed. Well, she didn’t scream but everyone heard her bcs she spoke in a loud voice): “omgggggggg Charlie is the that had 10 !! It’s not us let’s gooooooooooooo” (his name is Charlie obvs) and wtf. Like girl. Like, the guy just got roasted by our teacher plus his is close to cry and you’re saying this even though he’s 10cm from you ? Wtf is wrong with you. Like when I asked him if he was ok his voice was SHAKING and I’m gonna say it again: WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ?? Like girl you’re just being straight up disrespectful and enjoying yourself on someone unhappiness what is wrong with you ?
I always listen to this when im drunk and about to fall asleep. It is so calming!