The best part of my week so far has been seeing your videos and realizing more things about myself and realizing that I might have certain issues and talking to my therapist about them who helped me get treatment for what ales me. ^^
I thought I was the only one that had this for forty years I really don't know what the answer is and anxiety medicines work but doctors are hesitant to give them and I'm getting scared that my doctor will take me off of it talk therapy does not work🙏
Honestly i always thought it was just me because when i told my doctor about this at a young age, all she did was tell me “but you can’t believe symptoms that google gives you” its so hard to be taken seriously when even professionals dont care enough to help you
I remember going through my derealization episode. I went to my best friend and kept telling her "I know I'm talking to you but it doesn't feel real, nothing feels real." When I looked at myself in the mirror it was like someone else was looking back at me instead. It really does feel like a long never-ending dream coupled with panic attacks and constant anxiety. Had to get prescribed a high dosage of antidepressants after locking myself away for almost 2 months. It gets better but it's a real hard journey.
when I talk with my friend on discord to work on our thesis, it doesn't feel real at all, it feels like I'm observing myself from the 'outside', it feels like watching a film of myself
it’s so hard to try and explain it to other people. i’ve tried to tell my mom about it but it just never makes sense. she just thinks i have anxiety or depression or something and i probably do but it’s all because of this
Hi Kirsten. I had a dpdr episode yesterday and Im just about recovering now. Can I ask if its a constant thing or does it sometimes just happen to you. Mine was cannabis enduced and i feel mostly back to normal now
i feel like i’m so deep in my head all the time that , at times, i realize i’m in first person mode and i get freaked out and then i wonder : how the fuck does being in 1st person freak me out if that’s all i’ve ever experienced in life
@@arionas26 I don't have the disorder, But I have had several episodes. and if that's you all the time, or almost all the time I would see about trying to get help if you can bc it's hell and you totally deserve all the love and support
TheDauntlessGirlonFire I sometimes go through a mixture of both. It’s hard to explain. I just feel like I lose control of what I’m doing, and my body is moving itself. As if my brain is disconnected from my body.
Sometimes it feels like i'm the only real thing in the whole world. That everything around me is fake, empty somehow. It's a terrifying, lonely feeling.
omg i never knew someone else felt this way. for me sometimes when i haven’t seen my friends in awhile the feeling is even stronger. i feel like i’m the only person on this planet and it’s mind boggling that other ppl exist and they have an entire life.
Soooo glad im not the only one, its been 5 or 6 month since it started. It just sometimes comes randomly. I feel like everything is fake im the only one real. Soo scary
This feels so complicated to describe. It’s like a scary feeling of feeling though everything is fake even your self. Not only that you start to think about what happens after death and if there is any thing after this life. It is probably the scariest I’ve ever felt
th-cam.com/play/PLLJYuBgviqU_BQ9j2IhfjA7ADknro3_f6.html I made this playlist when I was recovering to help other people who are experiencing it since there's not a whole lot of info about it. I hope you're doing okay, stay strong friend! ♥️
What the hell, this is the exact same thought I had where I used to think after life after death and wheather this world is real Or am I living in a simulation
I've had derealization since sixth grade... It feels like I'm in a simulation with "characters" and there's no exit button. Things as simple as fruits can look so strange to me at this time as well.
I know this just looks like a comment on video to you, but i assure you i am a real person with real thoughts and experiences. You aren't alone in the world.
Worst thing about dpdr disorder is that you can't feel beautiful things. Like , if you're trekking to some beautiful natural place or an exceptionally beautiful fountain in some skyscraper city , You can't feel shit. It just seems like you're watching some TH-cam video in high quality and shit. This is what I fucking hate fucking most about this shit. Even if I'd bought a luxury , car , it doesn't feels much amazing than simply feeling like you're in a moving box. And it's constant. Since years it's been fucking constant. I've now started to feel it as normal and think that's how my life's gonna be. My emotions are numb. Yeah but i can feel and understand people's feelings but not their emotions. It's literally made my brain numb.
It’s very nice to know that other people feel the same way as I do. Sometimes I look at my hands and I realize that my life is actually on, and I’m actually living and functioning and that’s my only purpose. Like I’m only here to breathe, and eat and sleep.
Agreed. I don’t talk much about my diagnosis of DID because of how often people misunderstand... But DID sufferers experience both depersonalization and derealization so it’s a step in the right direction.
HERE’S THE FINAL CURE!! I had it for 5 years. Tried all sorts of pills and etc. , I tried this and I'm finally curing depersonalization/derealization. methodderealization.blogspot.com
This is different from dissociative identity disorder, which is when one has multiple identities ( or alters ), but is still part of the three dissociative disorders.
@@tekmerus2714 how u doing now ? I just started having this tonight. But I’m over thinking I just need to relax. Hope ur doing better! Scary huh? Just came outta know where
I sometimes feel like I’m trapped in my life.. I’m very aware of the world around me but I feel like I’m stuck on this planet in a situation that will never be solved and it’s depressing I mostly feel this way when I’m alone
I've struggled with derealization since I was in early grade school. I use to keep my favorite stuffed animal in my backpack so it was on hand to keep me grounded. Touch always helped me and being able to snuggle with my stuffed loin help better then a trip to the school counselor. I hope this helps anyone who is currently struggling or knows a child who is. You are not alone
honestly i don’t even know wtf i have anymore, i just don’t feel real. i know i’m real, i know i exist, but it feels like nothing around me is real. none of my actions feel like they have consequence, nobody i talk to feels real. it’s like it’s just a movie, or a dream, and at any moment i can just wake up. everything just looks like a pop-up-book. not to mention, i really need help figuring out something that’s genuinely driving me crazy; i always feel watched. non-stop, every day, all day. it gets so bad that i have to hide under blankets or towels to avoid it, it’s like i’m constantly on a stage in front of hundreds of people. please give me a reason that this could be happening, and no, i cant seek out any help. i just need a reason so i can live normally for once.
Every time you think someone’s watching you, you add your own observation to the list. Then the person under the sheets who is thinking about all the staring eyes is really just looking at themselves. The crowd will get stronger and bigger unless you can take hold of who you are. I don’t understand why help isn’t available to you but saying it’s not there’s a few things that can help calm people down: Just have a drink of water - hydrate and breathe, become your most natural shell. Don’t try to assess the rationality because clearly you know it’s not rational and that fear of being irrational probably exacerbates the original fear. It’s like the fact you can’t sleep if you think of sleeping. Instead, try to imagine the thoughts your having as a river, a moving image that started without true cause. Being in the moment and just letting these thoughts be in your head without giving them weight, but just acknowledging it’s existence it will eventually subsidise. Sometimes it won’t and you’ll have to outlast the episode. I’m not sure what grounds you. For me, I used to become completely disillusioned and I would just tell myself it’s a time game - wait it out, I know who I am, this is just something that has attached itself to me but isn’t me. If none of these things help just know that there other people in the world in your shoes who got through it. We know it’s possible. I know it’s possible. Good luck, I hope you can reattach because I can tell you want to.
@@catfanciermonthly @Wilko This exchange between strangers was admired. Thank you both for your honesty and openness to acknowledge and reach out as well as listen and extend a hand to one seeking bit of peace. That was real :)
Im not good helping but if you didnt know, the 'feeling of being watched constantly' is called Truman's syndrome. People with this usually feel like their whole life is fake and are being watched by people behind a tv screen or stage. Btw its based off a movie
I don’t feel like everything is a dream, it’s that nothing feels real. Like I know everything around me is real, but it feels fake. I don’t really know how to explain it. Nothing’s distorted and objects are “normal” sized (?) idk
@@FaultyTwo sorry for hijacking your joke, but to people that dissociate, like in the video, saying stuff like this can be really harmful? Even if it's just a joke to you, I know that if someone said that to me, I would genuinely question my reality and panic. I'm not trying to pick a fight, just to inform you
I'm 14 and once Corona lockdowns started, I was coping by having full conversations and scenarios in my head because that was the only thing keeping me feeling like I was living a normal life. I felt so out of control of the whole pandemic and the reality in my head made me feel in control and helped my anxiety not get worse than it already was and get less depressed but I think I've created an overidealized world in my head where it feels like I constantly live in my head and the outside world is just an inconvenience. I hate this feeling so much because now that I've been interacting with the real world since things are opening up again, and I've just been so irritable and it doesn't feel like I'm living in the world, it feels like I'm just watching it. I hate it so much because it's made me so numb and instead of being able to enjoy the moments I'm in, I feel like I'm just wasting time in my head. I've been zoning out constantly and I don't know what to do. I really hope that once I'm fully back in school in person I kinda just get used to being in reality again but I'm typing all of this to ask if anyone's been through anything similar, what are some things that can help because I'm desperate at this point.
I'm 43 and bipolar. I have made up scenarios in my head and had conversations with myself for years. I used to think I was completely insane and I needed to be observed by a health professional or something. I was about your age when I was abused by my mom. Later in life, I was abused my partners but I'm now safe. What always helped me was writing. Since I made up so many scenes in my head, I started writing them down and creating plots and characters. In my spare time, I write short stories. Another idea would be to journal and get some feelings out. Write down your conversations or anything you like. Sometimes you can go back and re-read what you wrote later and it makes sense and you can sort of untangle the feelings you felt at the time. I have also learned to do yoga for grounding. This helps me breathe and relax when I'm feeling overwhelming anxiety. I am personally struggling with some severe anxiety at the moment so I have been doing some quiet poses and even some meditation. A lot of information and ideas can be found for free here on TH-cam as far as yoga and meditation are concerned. I also like Calm which is an app that helps me. I know how hard it is to be a teen and feel overwhelmed and confused. I wish you the best and hope I could be of some help. 🖤
This sounds a lot like Maladaptive Daydreaming(I could be thinking of something else, forgive me if the term is incorrect), if you have an adult you can trust I suggest talk to them about finding therapy if you think it would help. (I'm the same age as you, btw) Also I have a very similar experience - I knew I was always a daydreamer and always loved playing with dolls and action figures and stuff as a kid, but the way I did it felt a little different from everyone else, and I've always been in my head. Never once in my life have I had just a moment of clarity - and I think that's due to my ADHD, which I'm working on getting a diagnosis for, but it got so significant and noticeable when the pandemic hit and everything shut down My mom says she watched me and my sibling kind of close in on ourselves, hiding in a sort of shell, like a turtle🐢 My daydreaming is a bit different than the way you describe yours, for me I create multiple 'bubbles' of like different worlds, or alternate universes of the worlds of shows and movies I like - like a self-insert, but It's all in my head and I don't talk about it much.(there's no romance or anything though, I'm aro-ace) The one I've been 'building' and interacting with the most is ROTTMNT(Rise Of The TMNT), because it's my current hyperfixation - although it feels a lot more significant than a hyperfixation, so maybe special-interest is a better way of putting it. I kind of act out some of the scenes, and they repeat over and over again in my head as like a stim, and I often find myself pacing around the same room for extended periods of time, mostly at night, especially when I think of an idea to add or an interesting arch for one of the characters that I can intertwine in with the rest of the story.(so far I've never found any ending, and I don't really want it to end because I find comfort and joy in it, despite the anxiety that comes with the derealization that causes and/or amps up the feeling of the world not being real.) I could go on about this for a while about how these 'world bubbles' work and the way I view them, but unless you want to hear more, I think I've said enough. TL;DR: I can relate heavily. also I'm sorry for the giant wall of text /gen
I am going through the exact same thing as 16 year old. I want to stop pretending I live in an ideal made up world. Because I don’t experience the present happy moments of real life. It is torture…
Anyone ever ask themselves sometimes “How am I able to see everything from my point of view?” It sounds like a silly question, but for me, sometimes it’s weird to think about.
When I was a kid I used to think all the time that life shouldn't be experienced in first-person, something about being the protagonist or the POV of a story made me feel very uneasy
I can’t stop thinking about how my eyes work and some reason I feel like I see out of my forehead or that my brain is making all the decisions… idk what it is but everything starts to feel like a cartoon or something man it’s rlly hard to explain
I've been through a very bad period because of anxiety and what I believe was depersonalization because of anxiety, I went to the Psychologist, they were very terrible thoughts that I believe that if God hadn't acted, I wouldn't be here today. I know it's hard when it feels like you're not you, or that you're like inside yourself. Or until nothing is real. (symptoms of such mental illnesses; Derealization, depersonalization…), I can only say that my salvation for this, was to know God. He is the only one who can heal us, only Jesus. I know it's a very common topic "Jesus heals" "Jesus knows everything", etc... but when I met Jesus (because I already knew, but I didn't really know who he was and stuff... I knew he was God and that he could forgive me..things that almost everyone knows), with 1 prayer people 1 simple prayer, he freed me from this intense suffering, I realized when I met him, that yes, Jesus heals, yes Jesus knows everything, and he also saves. I've met God, and I just know that he loved me, that he cares for me, and I know that after I got to know him a little bit more, He saved me. I am still not a bishop, nor a missionary, I am nothing, simply someone whom Jesus healed, HE show me my purpose in this life, and show me the meaning of life. As he has saved me I want him to save you because I know how difficult it is to go through mental issues. I ask to you: Please , pray, pray even today, it can be hidden in your room, it can be in the kitchen, on the couch, at school, just pray: tell him what you feel, what you need, your dreams, and deliver everything in his hands, including yourself, please ask him for help you and ask him to get this problem out of your mind, and if you have more, you can ask too (anxiety, stress…etc) Go to some church, and don't get carried away by the prejudice, for there may be your cure, and salvation. I hope this message can reach you, and give you hope, just as God once gave me. God bless you, and reminder: Jesus loves you, and so do I. (If you want to ask me any questions, or just need to talk to someone, it can be here, or on Instagram @jesuslovesyou7799)
Having depersonalization is a TERRIBLE experience! I'm constantly having it since I was 13 (I'm 19 now). Once I had it all day every day for more than a week. I can't remember any of the things I did, said and learned because I can't assimilate anything, even though I'm watching myself doing things.
i’m 19 too, and have had this 24/7 (mostly derealization) for about a month now. i often think i’m going crazy or am going to have a mental meltdown and/or black out and like ruin mine and other peoples lives or somwthing
same but when I was 10 and I'm 15 now although it's about identity for me I dissociated from reality and time too but then idk if it's depersonalization. I can't even know which dissociate disorder I have and it is annoying 😞
I look at my own life like through a window and think, this is the only life I have ever had? I hate it, all the things I've been through, the place I live, my childhood, none of this feels mine. I want to be reborn as someone else
I experienced temporary derealization and depersonalization after suffering several life traumas and then had a major a triggering moment caused by an intense cannabis high. I smoked, had a huge panic attack and woke up in what I describe as a dream like state where my environment seemed fake. You almost feel like a spirit. I initially thought I was dead. My reflection in the mirror was distorted and i didn't recognize myself in pictures or passing reflections. This lasted about 3 months. Certain environments such as malls, grocery stores, parties, places where stimuli was extreme, set my symptoms off so badly that id basically become incapacitated. If you are going through it and have never experienced anything like it before, you will feel so frightened and alone. How do you express your feelings to family or friends? Its a helpless feeling... But know you are not alone. Many have had it and many after you will as well. The more primitive parts of our brain express themselves in these situations. Our ancestors must have needed to disconnect from traumas in order to survive. I found out that the symptoms were caused by anxiety. Once I addressed my anxiety, the derealization went away slowly. For those who are looking for a cure, Id say be patient, go to the doctor to get help with anxiety, even try an anxiety calming medication for awhile. It will get better. You just need to keep yourself grounded in the moment.
I had a similar experience when I had an intense cannabis high as well. @Psych2go if you see this, do you have any info on drug induced depersonalization? Also Wisc, have you quit cannabis because of it? It was a useful stress relief before the depersonalization occured, but I'd rather not feel like a robot again.
Henry I smoked a few times after and it usually triggered anxiety because I was afraid that I would trigger the DP/DR again. So I decided it was best to quit. So, its up to you.
Right now I’m going through one of these derealization episodes, and now I just feel so lonely. It’s like everyone around isn’t real, or like npc’s of some sort. But I really want to feel loved by them again. I even have a hard time being around my parents sometimes because it just feels like sometimes they might not be real. I’m going to a psychologist/psychiatrist next week and I hope I can get this problem fixed.
I have very high anxiety and trauma. I can be completely for one day, next thing you know, the thought suddenly hits me: "Is any of this real?" I'm just now recovering from daily depersonlizating after 2 months of going through that hell. My hands actually felt numb, because I just couldn't get myself to grasp onto reality. I could hear the cars, but they sound so..off. I could hear people, but I didn't understand the language anymore, despite how I ALSO knew what they were saying. I would stare at people, wondering if this person is just some figment of my imagination. This isn't the first time this happened, and this definitely isn't the last.
when i'm standing in a room with other people i feel like i am just observing and not actually in that room and i lose all my thoughts, my emotions go negative and i just can't grasp my mind
it is currently 5:02 AM, I am in the East Coast (NJ), currently laying in bed and have finally found the name for this. I woke up and had a panic attack and decided to actually start acknowledging and looking more into this feeling/sentiment that I have been going through. It is not often I read “symptoms” online and then I start to wonder maybe I have this. But this, this is so spot on. I am glad to have finally attach a name and proper way to describe to what I have been in the last few years.. it is time for me to seek help. Also, I second that to the spacing out and sipping back into reality while driving comments.
I have been heavily affected by derealization for 12 years now, I’m currently 23. I’ve done a great job managing it all these years but it’s still always there and it bums me out. I have depression that comes and goes and the combination of depression and derealization is a recipe for no motivation. It’s just so hard to care about/do things in a world that I feel so disconnected from. I’ve come to terms with my derealization and didn’t let it bother me too much and even embraced it and accepted it as a unique ablility in a way for many years, but lately I just feel like I’ve missed out on my own life. I’ve been living in this desaturated version of what my own life is supposed to be/feel like. Also my memory of my life is very spotty. I don’t remember too well what the world felt like before dr, but I do remember I felt present in the world and reality felt stable. I just want that againnnnnnn ugh, coping every day is tiring
I understand you, I'm 15. You feel like you're just being suffocated and unable to see clear. I can't remember a lot either, I miss being able to look up at the sky and think clearly and love it. I know this is not living, I'm so sorry you had to live like that. It's a horrible feeling and I hate it. I haven't been diagnosed, because I don't talk about it. I don't treat it like it's a big deal.. but maybe it is.
i completely understand you. i’m so sorry you feel like that. i’ve had it for a few months and i really hope and pray it goes away. it’s genuinely depressing because i feel like i cant even enjoy life anymore. when i do anything fun that i would normally enjoy doing, i cant even enjoy it because i am constantly thinking about it. i have never been so depressed it’s terrible. i hope we can all get over this shit, it sucks.
You have a book on derealisation where the cardinals from Vatican have hired few writers to make a fictional writer to reveal third secret of Fatima and suppressed realities from the diary of St. Faustina. There you can actually learn about true sources of derealization, and how to destroy it completely - there is a prayer you can learn to pray that destroys derealization if you pray every day. If the prayer destroys this, then its diabolical in nature, as is schizophrenia. It is prayer of divine mercy, or rosary of divine mercy. You can find that prayer on internet, and in that book also in the first chapter. SPREAD THE CHAIN OF INFORMATION ON THIS TO DESTROY DEREALIZATION AND SET THE CAPTIVES FREE.... if it helped you then spread the chain of this book....rosary made me free from derealization completely... thats what makes a difference - when you have a derealization you just know that you can never break free from it, and when this prayer frees you once, and you get that opposite feelling that you just dont have it anymore, then you can see how wrong you were, and that something was done to you......................................
That feeling is present in my brain for 7 years no pauses, I feel no longer like myself. What's the most frustrating is people saying stuffs like : oh, you seem to be normal, or it's only in your head. And what's more frustrating is doctors looking you very strangely when you try to describe that you feel like dreaming. I really lost hope ever recovering !
CaptainKillua, damn i’m very sorry to hear. I had it for around 2 week this past summer and it was hell. I couldn’t possibly fathom what it’d be like for that long. Maybe it’s just taking a very long time for you, not really sure. Anyways, hope you can find happiness in your current state.
That’s EXACTLY how I feel and I really don’t know how you could explain it so well. It’s so hard to put this into words. Thank you for sharing and greetings from Spain❤️
I’m an alcoholic… after my brother died, it’s been rough, because my family is strict. My sister struggles the same. I feel liked I’ve died many times throughout my life, just to continue. In my current relationship I think I’m the toxic one, and my gf wants me, but I’m detached. I was sober before, just this time is weird, and I can’t seem to find the middle ground. I go everyday feeling like I’m fake…. Nobody exists, and ultimately out of billions of people, why care. I’ve been scared since I was a kid from a dream I had, and here we are at 35 years old… I do not feel like I have this life. Feels like the Truman show. I know it’s not, but it feels like it’s all fake
I experienced this when I was in grade school, I feel like I'm not in control of my body but I'm aware of what I'm doing. It occurred more than 3 times as I remember because it always brothers me until now for what was that. This type of event often happen to me when there's a lot of people around with a loud sound, sometimes when there's an On and Off blinking of light arround me.
With the realisation of what I was doing, I've been able to forcibly calm myself down and actually feel things. It was awesome, but now I'm nearly in tears because I know that this won't last forever, and that I'll be back to depersonalising by tomorrow. It's really scary.
This makes sense, I can remember when I was younger in my teens and I felt like an actual person, part of the world around me, after being abused 15-18 I’ve changed very much. I think yeah I’m getting better at this but then the whole “I feel different from everyone else” in an inferior way, I’m more skittish when i used to have massive confidence and I’m just this insecure shell, even writing this comment makes me feel insecure and over think. When I try to sleep it feels like time isn’t there and I feel restless and like there’s something more I need to do and I’m not sure what. Idk there’s a lot more but yeah.
uhh... Me too, I feel like I have no future. Since I was little I've never have any aspirations, never was a happy kid, always afraid of social interactions, no friends, etc. And because of that, now I feel like I'm struggling in finding myself a future and reasons to stay, relying on virtual friends... I'm also transgender and since I live in a country where I am not accepted by society I often believe I have no future, in the workplace, my family, society, neither myself. I feel really useless knowing I have no future. and constantly feel depressed by that, I can't even sleep. Sorry for sharing this to you but I only want to express what I feel and see if anybody can relate to me in a way, maybe...
Psych2Go I have a predictable life even though it earns me a lot, it’s not what I want It is the shortest path for success but it isn’t the path I want to be taking I’ll cut to the chase, I don’t want to live and study in my country even though it’ll be easier to get into medicine ( The course I wish to have ) I don’t want to do it here. My parents want me to do it here because of the cost and stuff And that’s what I mean by a predictable future being depressing because it’s driven by skills, talents and mostly money
@@guesswhoami4723 i dont think you have a predictable life, i feel like you are very anxious about uncertanties that are not in your control, i understand your frustration with the way your life is going, but your attitude is very fatalistic, youre not gonna be unhappy if you stay in your country and if you make the right desitions, you will get were you want to be. Believe me when i say that the chances are gonna present themselves, you just have to concentrate in the little succeses that will make these chances easier to come.
I'm not someone that's ever worried about their health. Physical OR mental. I've only recently, as in the past year or two, realized I have some serious issues going on with my head. Anxiety and panic attacks, bad depression, and trouble sleeping. I'm actually going to the doctor tomorrow to see what I can do. But in the mean time, I kinda lost my shit about an hour ago when I realized it was late, I had to go to bed soon, and tomorrow I'm gonna wake up, rush to get a shower and ready, then go talk to a doc. AND last time I talked to them they sent me to the hospital for a week, so...kinda lost it. Now. The thing to keep in mind. I've never considered my mental health before like a year or two ago. I never discussed it with anyone either. Not even just generally talking about it. So. Here I am, about midnight, can't sleep, realizing the doc's tomorrow. I suddenly have a hard time breathing, heart's racing, I'm lightheaded, and whoops now I'm flat out crying. 15 minutes later, anxiety's still up but I've calmed down enough that I started googling a bit before I talk to someone. Turns out, I've probably been getting full blown panic attacks, fairly often, for a while. And I never realized. Like, hell, I woke up this morning and had like 5 of the main panic attack symptoms just because I saw it was the 18th. Just yesterday I sat here on my bed, someone next to me, TV on, and I felt like I was in a dream or something and everything felt weirdly grey, like it was about to rain, but it was sunny out. I didn't have a clue what that was, I was gonna bring it up at the doc and hope they knew. But my googling lead to learning about panic attacks more, and that apparently derealization is a symptom of them. Long winded comment I doubt anyone will bother reading. But if you do, thanks. If not, well, you won't read this anyone, but it's cool. It's 12:39am, I can't sleep, my anxiety is through the roof, and I'm killing time while I freak out.
I am about to burst into literal tears. The feeling that this all might be a trick to make me think I'm real or everything around me is real is killing me. I can't understand why I'm like this. Sometimes I will write something wrong or prepare myself to talk to someone about how I feel, but I am completely shut down by myself insisting that this is all probably fake anyway. Sometimes it does feel real, like 'Wow I am actually a breathing sentient being' or 'Wait everyone around me isn't fake?' because sometimes I am convinced no one exists. Thank you for this.
I have Depersonalization, Depression, ADD, Anxiety and Paranoia... I can not think of anything better than suicide. That's the only way to escape from my own head. I don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling like this. I have never achieved anything and never will. I feel sorry for anyone who feels like I do.
DarkSamuraiHD wow yo reading your comment actually made me wanna cry, I feel your pain. I have depression, ADD, I get anxiety very rarely but I just experienced depersonalization or derealization (idk, their both the same to me) for the first time today and it was scary af and I’m still currently going through but it was worse earlier. Don’t do suicide dude, do whatever you can to help your problem, google treatments, that’s the first thing I did today and it helped a little so far, go to therapy, talk to family, anything to help it. Best of luck
DarkSamuraiHD. Hey there, I totally understand how you feel. It seems unbearable, I know. I'd really like you to check something out. Look up Robert Smith Faster EFT on TH-cam. Go back to his older videos and follow along with him doing sessions with people. Watch a lot. I know it might sound weird, but I'm telling you, it helps! A lot! He understands NLP (neurolinguistic programming) and how the mind, brain and subconscious all work, and how we are affected by memories. Please check it out, my friend. I want you to feel relief and have hope again. There are many things out there to try, but I know this works! Praying for you in Jesus' name, my friend.
I used to be depressed and thought the same thing. It got better for me and I love life now, you WILL, I promise. It just takes time and care. Always ask for help, its the best thing that you can do.
I’ve got derealization over we€d yesterday it was a horrible experience, I smoked literally on an empty stomach and I was already tired I think that’s why I’ve got it, I went out with my brother to buy something to eat and he noticed me that Im not alright and the restaurant where I’ve ate everyone was staring at me because my eyes were flying it felt like Im not connected to this world and every imagination I make in my head I feel it like it was true and can’t feel my self like Im in a video and heartbeating for sure was the most scariest thing but thankfully It didn’t stuck with me like just one day but For sure it was about to stay more if I didn’t did this things : 1- don’t panic, if it happened normally to you or with we€d don’t panic and know that it’s just about the time and it’ll goes away 2- take a shower, a warm shower will help to get your heart beats down and keep you calm a little bit 3- accept it and go with the flow, this’s the most important thing just accept this thing and that for the moment it will not go but also it will not stay so just live with the flow play video games or series, and trust me you can get rid of it like just in one as I did or maybe 3 days max 4- if the things were not well see a doctor, if you were scared to tell that u smoked then it’s fine just tell that you have a bad headache or stomach and wanna see a doctor so bad. Hope you guys get rid of it and it’s something normal and fine ❤
I came here because my friend has this. He is Ukrainian and the combination of his father dying the war starting And being close to losing his job and his only income, Made him talk to me about the fact that sometimes it feels like somebody else is in control of his body and he is dreaming
I had my first experiences with this on my first 2 days of VR. I do not want to drive anywhere as I'm afraid I won't process reality and get into an accident.
Well i felt derealization my whole life I just didn't know the scientific/psychological name . I thought that everyone could experience it... it makes me more anxious damn
Lunaticharlie same, I assumed everyone felt like that. Until I actually spoke to people about it. Like nope, but apparently meditation and therapy can do wonders so there is definitely hope.
Just had a vivid dream that I was walking through my room and walked to the bathroom, then I just woke up in my bed, it felt so real so now I don't know if I'm dreaming or actually awake
I’d be randomly walking in school and out of nowhere I felt like none of it was real like outside of my school was nothing it’s weird it just felt like I wasn’t real like this isn’t real
I didn’t discover derealization until today, what I’ve experienced sounds a lot like it. I’ll just be randomly in the car and be like, “oh that’s right I’m in the car and the radio is playing” and then be like “but I already knew that so why am I thinking it”.
i’ve had derealisation for years when i went to highschool, everyday. i never thought i would ever get out of this state of being cut off from everything and honestly i don’t remember how i managed to live like that for years. i remember crying a lot because of it because when you have depression you question your whole existence anyways and with something like this it’s even easier to get lost in these thoughts. then i decided i had to change something about my mental health and went to therapy. i might have a derealisation state 5 times a YEAR now. and the good thing is now i can tell when i’m in that state and try to do something about it like testing your senses. when i had this everyday i couldn’t even tell what was normal and what was an abnormal state. (maybe i was in that weird state all the time idk) it’s never too late to change!
I haven’t felt real in so long that I don’t really remember what reality is supposed to feel like anymore. I feel like I’m just some thought sitting deep in my own head watching out through a tunnel of my eyes, like I am not my body, I am only in my head, my body is just this thing connected to me. All of my memories are oddly in third person though, and blurry and distorted, I can hardly even remember anything. I feel really numb most of the time, and the really strong emotions that do come through like fear or anger are distant, like I’m looking at someone else’s emotions that I don’t really understand. Even physical sensations can become like that when it’s at its worst. My days go by in a blur and everything just feels like it’s separate from me, like there is a veil covering my eyes and fog wrapped around my chest, and everything is kind of dull and flat. I hate to even see my reflection because it makes me feel so strange, like “that’s me, that’s who I am, I am never going to be anyone else and no one is ever going to be me” which sounds stupid but it’s a really weird intense discomfort. But honestly I’ve gotten used to it, and I’ve come to prefer this over reality, because even if I’m unable to feel happy or alive, at least I don’t have crushing anxiety and despair holding over me all the time as well. What tends to indicate to me that I still feel unreal and that this is not just normal is when suddenly reality will become way too immediate. Like the best way to put it is that reality punches me in the face. Suddenly, for a few moments, everything is way too sharp and clear and immediate, and it’s really overwhelming, but it doesn’t last long at all before everything kinda... fades out again, I guess. Those will usually come when I suddenly am too aware of my own voice or body. I’ve been like this since I was like 12 and I’m about to turn 18. It used to cause me significant distress but now I’ve kinda just given in. Doesn’t stop me from obsessively thinking about it a lot though. Earlier in my experiences, it would vary more, coming in and out, but it’s been more consistently there the last couple of years. All I’m left with is an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and meaninglessness. I really can’t find any purpose in living, and reason to live, but the though of dying is just as terrifying, because I can’t imagine anything better on the other side. So I’m just stuck like this. Sometimes I think I’ve already died long ago and gone to some personal hell, cursed to live over the worst torments over and over again, any shreds of hope or happiness given to me only to make it worse when they’re inevitably torn away, doomed to end I’m my committing suicide, restarting the cycle again with fresh torture.
The only way I can describe the feeling if derealization is imagining to have a glass that separates your mind from your body and the world around it. Sometimes I actually feel it under my forehead, phisically, and even if I know that it's an illusion it is straight up terrifying.
I experience derealization + depression since the end of 2019 but the symptoms weren't that intensive back then and it slowly started to get worse till it became constant 24/7 around March-April 2020. I even got a corn addiction that was a contrast because I usually get a lot of dopamine when I watch it + not feeling real makes it very weird
You have a book on derealisation where the cardinals from Vatican have hired few writers to make a fictional writer to reveal third secret of Fatima and suppressed realities from the diary of St. Faustina. There you can actually learn about true sources of derealization, and how to destroy it completely - there is a prayer you can learn to pray that destroys derealization if you pray every day. If the prayer destroys this, then its diabolical in nature, as is schizophrenia. It is prayer of divine mercy, or rosary of divine mercy. You can find that prayer on internet, and in that book also in the first chapter. SPREAD THE CHAIN OF INFORMATION ON THIS TO DESTROY DEREALIZATION AND SET THE CAPTIVES FREE.... if it helped you then spread the chain of this book....rosary made me free from derealization completely... thats what makes a difference - when you have a derealization you just know that you can never break free from it, and when this prayer frees you once, and you get that opposite feelling that you just dont have it anymore, then you can see how wrong you were, and that something was done to you......................................
I was just making a Tik tok then I couldn't recognize myself. Then I just felt out of my body. "Was that me talking today?" "This isn't me" "did I really do that" I was freaking out. I feel a lot better now that I know there are other people who feel the same. I
I have struggled with these things. When I was little my mom used to hold "unsaid" rules and by the time I got to figuring them out and fallowing them she would change them again. I was never allowed to use my mental disability as "an excuse" for not being able to do something. Along with always even as a young child not feeling like I belonged in this world. The ways that the world or society functioned was wrong and extremely confusing. I could later learn to understand or comprehend these factors like racism, but I still could not FEEL like this is how things were supposed to be. Thus, my mom used to say that even with my mind "wired" differently, that my "reality was not this reality". So, that got me thinking about relativity of reality vrs perspective. I still to this day have more vivid memories of other worlds or life times that to me are more real than the ones I have had from this one. This factor has made growing up, interacting, functioning to this worlds structured resignation of existence extremely difficult. Recently I have discovered in my medical records that I am classified as having MPD. I grew up around skitsophrenic(sp?), bipolar, cracked out, and strung up people from many cultures and backgrounds like military. So, I am very aware about the treatment from society and government to such people. I know that I choose to dis like the majority of human society, because I choose not to associate with such a horrible destructive parasitic race. Every individual has the capacity to do better, but constantly resolve themselves to fallowing the rest of society, due to feeling constrained into that life style willingly or not. Does this make those individuals stepping outside of the constraints something to be shunned, classified as some ambiguous term just to segregate them out and remove them from the status quo? Or to even have society treat them any less valuable/wanted? Why is it accepted that people with conflicting mindsets are to be removed or treated like they are a plague? These accepted behaviors and reactions are the exact reason why I flipped out when I found out they classified me as having MPD. These are the same reasons WHY I personally feel that I do not belong to this "HIGHER RACE". Am I the only one? Is it right to reprogram my thinking to that of accepted standards? Is it not one of the first things we are conditioned to reject? Why has no one ever explained just how harmful it is when society does these things and is not held accountable for it? Why is it so acceptable for people to claim such radical identity differences and yet still treat those struggling to amalgamate into societal existence as though they will always be a substance abuser? Why do they not put more emphasis on mental health in school systems as children? When will this "ADVANCED SPECIES" evolve past this horrendice(sp?) act??? What age of yet another world reform will it take to eliminate this discrimination? All the red tape, paperwork, trials, political rulings, chosen information provided continue this practice beyond the capable applications provided in this current day and age, only to further this abuse of one another. These videos are critical and should be integrated into common day society for the betterment of all HUMAN kind. Thank you for your time, and I hope that others which read this will understand I am not trying to start a debate war in this chat. However, I would like to know others opinion on these matters if possible please. Thank you! Be safe! & if you can enjoy a few simple things in life each day.
I've had a lot of derealization experiences in my life, though it's been a while since I've had it. It happens less frequently compared to when I was younger, but I thought it was cool! Like... the whole perspective in the room just morphs and the room feels/looks smaller than it actually is, my hands look smaller when it's right in my face! I didn't think of it as a disorder or didn't even know it was for that matter. Just wanted to share my thought!
Considering it comes from an area of coping I am not too surprised. I used to feel so relieved for the first few minutes or so while it started and then feel kinda stuck there, uncomfortably after the novelty wore off and I realized the world is still turning for everyone but me.
when i was younger (8-10) i used to call it my 'philosophical' state since it made me question myself (I AM ALSO REALLY HAPPY TO KNOW WHAT IT IS KNOW!)
i hate living with the thought that everything only exists because my mind is making it exist. if my concioussness/mind is not thinking about it; then its just nothing. it makes me feel an extreme amount of loneliness
What helped me get out of derealization was telling myself that how I currently view/see the world isn’t real. The dream like feeling wasn’t real. Keep telling yourself it’s not real.
I witnessed both of these when changing my antidepressants and it was a trip, a weird and scary one ngl. I'm glad I can emphasize with people who go through this...
I feel like a gaming laptop. Im getting the fullest of myself when Im plugged in but my performance is very decreased when Im disconnected (on battery power) but I can still function. I feel only 10% of life when I run on battery power and I seem to forget the feeling of full performance when Im running on battery power for a long time.
it’s been almost 4 years with these two sticking around with me and ruining my life & relationships with my friends. i miss my friends. so badly. I can’t say this to theirs face but im so sorry for not being a good friend and always disappear for no reason. It’s hard to be around me but i miss y'all
I often doze off and will look at my parents thinking who the heck are them and why am I in that place ( our house ). I will get panic attack afterwards, and it was awful.
I remember having this when I was really young like 6, I thought I was in a dream and I didn't feel real, I didn't know I was existing and I felt lost. I still have it sometimes
I don't wanna self-diagnose or anything of the sort, but it's hard to ignore the fact that more than half of the things that were mentioned in the video have been happening to me. I thought it was supposed to be normal to feel disconnected from your body and your surroundings, but everyone thinks I'm crazy. I would stare at myself for hours because I was sure that the person in the mirror wasn't me. Yeah, she would move her arm whenever I moved mine but still felt weird. Also remembering things in 3rd person is so weird. I feel numb and nothing around me makes sense. What are people? And still, this doesn't happen all the time just a few episodes every now and then, so that's why I don't want to jump into any conclusions.
I'm pretty sure I've had a derealization experience where everything was moving super fast. Literally. It looked like everything was slightly sped up. Laster for probably 10 minutes (Idk it was a long time ago) Most terrifying thing I've ever experienced. Not sure if it was derealization or something else though.
I haven’t been able to sleep recently because when I close my eyes and drift off to sleep I feel like I’m skipping away from reality, as if I can feel the universe sleeping with me. It almost feels like I’m gonna sink into a bottomless ocean and it’s really scary. My senses go away like I feel completely and utterly numb and empty
I used to smoke weed alot and I felt this way for like a month after getting way to high, i couldnt get back in myself if that makes sense, its like i was on auto pilot and that i was watching my movement but not doing them, almost like my brain slotted off my consciousness from the rest of my self. i havent smoked since because it was the most dreadful time ive ever had, to anyone who has this i applaud your resillience
Same I did edibles once took way too much first time really bad trip I feel like it all the time now without the hallucinations just panic attacks that stop a few minutes after I calm myself down and third person veiws world all spinny waiting for the trip to end but it doesn't I just want to be able to feel my dogs love and familys love again
@@ritz_.cracker6546 hey man, i read a couple of your comments and completely understand what you’re living. I had a drug-induced state of depersonalization/derealization that lasted for months. It’s a horrible feeling. Constant anxiety, panic attacks, feeling « third person » , hallucinations are legitimate symptoms that come with it. I thought i fucked my brain up because of the drugs and that i would never be normal again. I would look at my mother and be scared because i felt like i was just looking at a person, and didn’t feel connected to her. I have good news for you: you haven’t fucked up your brain. You will be back to normal. I know it sounds impossible to get out of this constant loop, but it will happen. What i did : first, talk to your family about it, people you trust. Tell them you need professionnel help. Go talk to a therapist, or mental-health professionnel. Tell them everything. The fact that you know that you are dealing with DPRP is very good, because i had no idea and it took a while to find out. If you can, try and get prescribed anti-depressants. I know it sounds big, but this will be what will help you the most. You’re not gonna be « addicted » or « feel different ». The only thing they do is help get rid of the anxiety, which is the worst symptom of dprp. This will take some time after you start taking them, but this will get rid of your anxiety and finally break the loop of hell you’ve been dealing with. It will also get rid of the « third person » feeling. I have to point out, sometimes it does come back very briefly, in which it really doesn’t affect you and leaves right away. It doesn’t get serious, because you have been through it and understand it. Wish you all the best bro!!! If you need to talk more let me know
If you’re losing touch with reality read this: I’ve gone through disturbing and confusing experiences as well. Episodes have come and gone since July 31st, 2019 after a VERY traumatic event where my ex almost strangled me to death while I was on LSD. Journaling every single thing that went through my head while looking out the window, while dreaming, and while listening to songs that trigger memories/emotions & watching their music videos helped me process a lot. Sometimes there’s so many complex thoughts it’s almost impossible to get a grip on where to start so just writing all of those thoughts no matter how bizarre or poorly worded gave me a great start. I did it for about a year straight & now any time I have those episodes, I know I can journal & I can remember that I’ve gone through this before and I’ll get back to feeling well again eventually. You just have to face your fears sometimes. It’s terrifying and might not be suitable for you to do alone. You may need professional or social support to ground you. I realized we really need each other to understand life and survive, so finding a support system (even if it’s just you and one other person) often helps improve your life immensely. If you’re isolated like I was, journal. Be there for yourself. Look at your thoughts and respond to them as if they were a child you love who’s scared and wants to understand. If you have any demonic shit happen to you, imagine a bubble surrounding you. Feel it. Create it. Own it. Then tell them either verbally or through your conscious thoughts that they are no longer welcome to communicate with you or come within your energetic orb and then wish them well. You can also pray for/put out good intent for the demons to be made into something beneficial and for you to be protected. You can also look up cleansing rituals. I did all of these and the demonic shit never came back. Occasionally I can feel the presence in people, but I know that if I do not give them the energy of my attention/fear and I trust that they are created with good intent for me in their own unique way then I can regain control and feel safe. I stop responding/engaging and every single time they’ve ended up apologizing to me thru people who facilitate that demonic presence. Just know that you were given this life either by yourself, nature, or a higher consciousness/power. It gave you this experience for a reason. It’s not here to destroy you, it’s here to put provide you with the conditions you need for this human experience. You can learn to appreciate being able to experience it. Even the worst parts of your experience can result in very purposeful and beneficial outcomes. You’d be surprised how many messed up events actually saved your life without you realizing it. Just trust the process as it carries you. You’re gonna be okay. You could have been endlessly fallen through nothingness for eternity, but here we are with reality here to catch us with a net full of experiences. Maybe reality gave us a whole range of experiences because it didn’t know what we’d like most and it wanted to give us the opportunity to experience everything. Isn’t that beautiful? ❤️ Just know I’m a peaceful & separate consciousness that’s awake in this experience with you. ❤️ We’re in this together. You’re not alone. There’s love here.❤️
When you want someone to talk to regarding traumatic events youve been through and the struggling woth suicidal thpughts, but then you remember the famous quote: - "Dont tell the world your problems. Half of them dont care and the other half is glad that you've got them". The sooner this wasted existence is over the better.
*Sooo i have this thing that, i cant go to high places because whenever im at the high point and egde (like a hill, clif, balcony, roof) i have the sudden urge to jump off...because i wanna see what would happen. I dont know why. Im not ever sad or depressed or anything...i just feel like doing it*
Kittio101 I believe that’s called “L’appel du Vide,” or Call of the Void. I think it’s a fairly common phenomenon that many people experience, and it’s associated most with the inexplicable urge to jump from high places, or do other self-destructive actions. These thoughts appear randomly and without warning, and do not indicate suicidal tendencies or harm to oneself.
It feels good that i'm not the only one feeling like this... I've had this before and i overcame it, but i don't seem to remember how, i think i just sort of forgot it, i know its just an product of stress or anxiety but it just feels weird, sometimes i just look around and nothing feels real, i just tell to myself "how do i know this is real, why do i feel like i don't exist" and i just go through a panic attack, it keeps happening almost every day, but i sort of get used to it, but sometimes it just get scary, i really hope i get around it, because sometimes it causes physical pain.
Hey dude, I hope you're doing okay!! I had this suuuuuper bad in 2021 and as I was recovering I made a little TH-cam playlist of all the videos that helped me recover (as of today I haven't experienced it for probably over a year now!) sending love and hope! Here's the playlist if you want it! :) th-cam.com/play/PLLJYuBgviqU_BQ9j2IhfjA7ADknro3_f6.html
If your environment sucks, you want out, if you can't physically leave, maybe one "checks out" mentally, if the situation is so bad it makes sense to want to escape.
Who wants to be "in touch" with reality if reality is so upsetting? I think this is the main reason people do drugs, to escape reality. Unfortunately we can't live in the intoxicated state all of the time, somehow we must find away to accept our reality, cope with it or we are done for.
I remember getting home from school. I was 15. I began feeling very tired & went to bed for about 3 hours. I woke up & felt like I was in a dream. Nothing felt real. That was 21 years ago & it has never gone away😟😔
Yung Cris yes! And when I close my eyes everything feels so distorted! Like I can imagine certain objects and they’re just a liquid or something it’s so weird
Idk if this contributed to maybe why I feel this way, but when I was younger I saw a trailer about a demonic presence attacking people through mirrors with exact copies of themselves. It scared me shitless so I hardly looked in the mirror and I’ve never been a vain person anyways, so I hardly did it before watching that trailer. I hardly took pictures of myself or allowed others to take pictures of me. Sometimes I look back through photos or I catch a glimpse of a child in a picture frame, but have zero clue how she came to look like me. There’s days where I’m petrified of looking at myself in the mirror, bc I don’t feel like I look like myself. So, like a crazy person I start talking to my reflection, threatening to break the glass if it pulls some creepy shit... It never does. Then there’s days when I’m not bothered because I recognize myself in the mirror. Then there’s days where I feel like she’s watching me with knowing eyes. Like if it were possible to step through the glass and see what’s on the other side it’d be an alternate universe where she lives a different life than me or at least she’s living at a different time of our life. Ik I sound crazy, but I’m certain that I can’t be the only one who’s ever felt this way. Idk if it’s this derealization or depersonalization stuff, I try not to self-diagnose.
I have this memory as a child. I would stare at myself in the mirror while saying my name over and over. Just normally. Maybe after the first ten times I said it, I started to not feel like me. Like I was... blank and looking at a sad little kid. To this day, I don’t know why I started that. No one ever told me to do that or nothing on tv ever said to do that. I just did it. It would scare me. I couldn’t do it now.
I have cured my depersonalization and derealization the day I took 2 tabs or Lsd and In the madness of the most intense trip of my life I found the reasons why I felt like I did. It takes looking into your head to get past this. The lsd trip helped me realize a lot about myself and really has helped me with self esteem. I’m not suggesting you do lsd but just sharing my expierence with this and how I fixed it for the better. Looking back on how I might’ve caused it i know that it was the weed
I do this to snap back into reality. I know I’ve had both for the longest time and got diagnosed. I live in my head I feel like I’m not here ever it’s hard to live in the moment
Does anybody keep 'waking up' to reality over and over and over again? Like I'll be driving and all of a sudden every second that goes by I 'realize' that I'm driving. Time goes INCREDIBLY slow and the moment your in seemingly keeps restarting. And you realize again "Oh Im driving". "Omg Im STILL driving". "STILL driving". And this happens atleast 50 times in a row and you cant get out of it. Anyone experience this?
Yes!!!!! literally exactly what i’m experiencing in my depersonalization! i’ll be walking to the kitchen to get food and as soon as i arrive at the kitchen i’m like did i really just walk here? did that even happen? it’s been a month now from suffering from depersonalization from weed
I used to have this often and in those moments I needed some seconds to recognize my surroundings again. Once I stood in the kitchen holding a flipper and forgot the movements I needed to do to use it. Or I was in the bathroom and suddenly expected the exit to be on the wrong side and got disoriented. I needed a few moments to actually get out and my bathroom is really small. My boyfriend sat in the living room and was confused that I was so confused and sometimes you cannot even describe these strange twists to others. After lots of therapy I don’t get these “fall out” moments often anymore and the distortions in my vision have decreased. I guess it does get better somehow but still nothing is real and I don’t exist. Although I do feel like I am somehow getting closer to that non-existent something. Because it has to exist behind this fog. You know?
Who else constantly feels like they are on the verge of losing their shit sometimes and familiar areas look like you are seeing them for the first time??
Yea i remember to have this for the first time, at that point i was on that direct place and instantly forgot where i am. like 3 or 4 seconds later i realized where i was again. That shit freaked me out
Two more days until the weekend! What has been the best part of your week so far? :)
The best part of my week so far has been seeing your videos and realizing more things about myself and realizing that I might have certain issues and talking to my therapist about them who helped me get treatment for what ales me. ^^
Psych2Go What if you went thru both?
Going home
That is so heartwarming! Thank you for your kind words, and I am really happy that you sought professional help :) Have a great rest of the week.
Watching this video
I’ve been repeatedly telling my friends “I feel like I’m sitting in a movie theater watching my life in front of me.”
That's kinda cuz most people are. Go on the stage and get involved in the performance :)
Ignacio Rodríguez I wish it was that easy .
@@deqaa100 that's a mental barrier you building there but I get you :)
exactly...
THATS EXACTLY HOW IT FEELS
The worst is when people don’t know that they are not alone...
That's cuz our education system programmed us to think we're all different...
I thought I was the only one that had this for forty years I really don't know what the answer is and anxiety medicines work but doctors are hesitant to give them and I'm getting scared that my doctor will take me off of it talk therapy does not work🙏
That’s what I feel like
@@galemiller7422 sadly I agree :/ I've started taking prozac 3 months ago bc therapy did not work for me
Honestly i always thought it was just me because when i told my doctor about this at a young age, all she did was tell me “but you can’t believe symptoms that google gives you” its so hard to be taken seriously when even professionals dont care enough to help you
I remember going through my derealization episode. I went to my best friend and kept telling her "I know I'm talking to you but it doesn't feel real, nothing feels real." When I looked at myself in the mirror it was like someone else was looking back at me instead. It really does feel like a long never-ending dream coupled with panic attacks and constant anxiety. Had to get prescribed a high dosage of antidepressants after locking myself away for almost 2 months. It gets better but it's a real hard journey.
when I talk with my friend on discord to work on our thesis, it doesn't feel real at all, it feels like I'm observing myself from the 'outside', it feels like watching a film of myself
it’s so hard to try and explain it to other people. i’ve tried to tell my mom about it but it just never makes sense. she just thinks i have anxiety or depression or something and i probably do but it’s all because of this
Completely true
Hi Kirsten. I had a dpdr episode yesterday and Im just about recovering now. Can I ask if its a constant thing or does it sometimes just happen to you. Mine was cannabis enduced and i feel mostly back to normal now
Shit i feel the same
This channel helps me feel not so alone.
We are always here for you!
@@Psych2go Thank you so much :)!
Aww. That's wonderful you guys feel this way. We feel close to you guys too :)
these comments are making my heart smile
You're not alone my friend. You aren't.
depersonalization: I don't feel real
derealization: the world doesn't feel real
i feel like i’m so deep in my head all the time that , at times, i realize i’m in first person mode and i get freaked out and then i wonder : how the fuck does being in 1st person freak me out if that’s all i’ve ever experienced in life
@@arionas26 I don't have the disorder, But I have had several episodes. and if that's you all the time, or almost all the time I would see about trying to get help if you can bc it's hell and you totally deserve all the love and support
TheDauntlessGirlonFire I sometimes go through a mixture of both. It’s hard to explain. I just feel like I lose control of what I’m doing, and my body is moving itself. As if my brain is disconnected from my body.
@@mashalogvin6300 the more episodes I've had, I can definitely agree with you that it's a mix of both
@@arionas26 SAME I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE like I'm scared of being in 1st person even tho I've always been In it
Sometimes it feels like i'm the only real thing in the whole world. That everything around me is fake, empty somehow. It's a terrifying, lonely feeling.
omg i never knew someone else felt this way. for me sometimes when i haven’t seen my friends in awhile the feeling is even stronger. i feel like i’m the only person on this planet and it’s mind boggling that other ppl exist and they have an entire life.
Same thing here, I thought I was the only one
Or like everything is a dream , and that you need to wake up , nothing is real and the only thing that is mildly real is you .
Omg saaaame it freaks me out
Soooo glad im not the only one, its been 5 or 6 month since it started. It just sometimes comes randomly. I feel like everything is fake im the only one real. Soo scary
This feels so complicated to describe. It’s like a scary feeling of feeling though everything is fake even your self. Not only that you start to think about what happens after death and if there is any thing after this life. It is probably the scariest I’ve ever felt
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I made this playlist when I was recovering to help other people who are experiencing it since there's not a whole lot of info about it. I hope you're doing okay, stay strong friend! ♥️
I have the same feelings. The world feels fake and how it works feels fake! I also think about what happens after death and death in general
What the hell, this is the exact same thought I had where I used to think after life after death and wheather this world is real Or am I living in a simulation
@@ShiiimasonFinnaly some people understand me! I even got panic attacks from that😭😭 it’s the scariest thing ever
@@skye3830 thanks for sharing your playlist, and I hope you're doing better!
I've had derealization since sixth grade...
It feels like I'm in a simulation with "characters" and there's no exit button. Things as simple as fruits can look so strange to me at this time as well.
Were you under stress?
Me too, these past couple years have been going too slow. Time feels so stretched out and distorted
@Hugh Jones its a very different feeling, u know everything is real but dont feel like everything is real
I know this just looks like a comment on video to you, but i assure you i am a real person with real thoughts and experiences. You aren't alone in the world.
Worst thing about dpdr disorder is that you can't feel beautiful things. Like , if you're trekking to some beautiful natural place or an exceptionally beautiful fountain in some skyscraper city ,
You can't feel shit.
It just seems like you're watching some TH-cam video in high quality and shit.
This is what I fucking hate fucking most about this shit.
Even if I'd bought a luxury , car , it doesn't feels much amazing than simply feeling like you're in a moving box.
And it's constant. Since years it's been fucking constant.
I've now started to feel it as normal and think that's how my life's gonna be.
My emotions are numb.
Yeah but i can feel and understand people's feelings but not their emotions.
It's literally made my brain numb.
It’s very nice to know that other people feel the same way as I do. Sometimes I look at my hands and I realize that my life is actually on, and I’m actually living and functioning and that’s my only purpose. Like I’m only here to breathe, and eat and sleep.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
Same
Please do more about dissociative identity disorder. The illness needs more awareness
It does.
People also need more awareness of abuses of patients by the psychiatric profession.
Agreed. I don’t talk much about my diagnosis of DID because of how often people misunderstand... But DID sufferers experience both depersonalization and derealization so it’s a step in the right direction.
HERE’S THE FINAL CURE!!
I had it for 5 years. Tried all sorts of pills and etc. , I tried this and I'm finally curing depersonalization/derealization. methodderealization.blogspot.com
This is different from dissociative identity disorder, which is when one has multiple identities ( or alters ), but is still part of the three dissociative disorders.
I feel like I’m in the world but not entirely apart of it. It’s terrifying.
Do you still feel these feelings? or is it gone, now i have drealization i'm just scared dude
@@tekmerus2714 All journeys lead to development and growth. Don’t fear this state but accept it. That is when freedom and peace will emerge.
@@tekmerus2714 how u doing now ? I just started having this tonight. But I’m over thinking I just need to relax. Hope ur doing better! Scary huh? Just came outta know where
Me too and i hate feeling like this.
Recently been going through this because of my depression, glad I found this to explain to people how I feel. It was so hard to explain.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony or I tried phycadelics as a Christian and what I saw shocked meb
I sometimes feel like I’m trapped in my life.. I’m very aware of the world around me but I feel like I’m stuck on this planet in a situation that will never be solved and it’s depressing I mostly feel this way when I’m alone
I've struggled with derealization since I was in early grade school. I use to keep my favorite stuffed animal in my backpack so it was on hand to keep me grounded. Touch always helped me and being able to snuggle with my stuffed loin help better then a trip to the school counselor. I hope this helps anyone who is currently struggling or knows a child who is. You are not alone
honestly i don’t even know wtf i have anymore, i just don’t feel real. i know i’m real, i know i exist, but it feels like nothing around me is real. none of my actions feel like they have consequence, nobody i talk to feels real. it’s like it’s just a movie, or a dream, and at any moment i can just wake up. everything just looks like a pop-up-book.
not to mention, i really need help figuring out something that’s genuinely driving me crazy; i always feel watched. non-stop, every day, all day. it gets so bad that i have to hide under blankets or towels to avoid it, it’s like i’m constantly on a stage in front of hundreds of people. please give me a reason that this could be happening, and no, i cant seek out any help. i just need a reason so i can live normally for once.
Every time you think someone’s watching you, you add your own observation to the list. Then the person under the sheets who is thinking about all the staring eyes is really just looking at themselves.
The crowd will get stronger and bigger unless you can take hold of who you are. I don’t understand why help isn’t available to you but saying it’s not there’s a few things that can help calm people down:
Just have a drink of water - hydrate and breathe, become your most natural shell.
Don’t try to assess the rationality because clearly you know it’s not rational and that fear of being irrational probably exacerbates the original fear. It’s like the fact you can’t sleep if you think of sleeping. Instead, try to imagine the thoughts your having as a river, a moving image that started without true cause. Being in the moment and just letting these thoughts be in your head without giving them weight, but just acknowledging it’s existence it will eventually subsidise.
Sometimes it won’t and you’ll have to outlast the episode. I’m not sure what grounds you. For me, I used to become completely disillusioned and I would just tell myself it’s a time game - wait it out, I know who I am, this is just something that has attached itself to me but isn’t me.
If none of these things help just know that there other people in the world in your shoes who got through it. We know it’s possible. I know it’s possible.
Good luck, I hope you can reattach because I can tell you want to.
@@wilko9346 i seriously can’t thank you enough. you’re the only person who’s tried to help, and you definitely did. thank you so much
@@catfanciermonthly @Wilko
This exchange between strangers was admired.
Thank you both for your honesty and openness to acknowledge and reach out as well as listen and extend a hand to one seeking bit of peace.
That was real :)
try cbd oil it worked for me first try ive had this for 20 years plus
Im not good helping but if you didnt know, the 'feeling of being watched constantly' is called Truman's syndrome. People with this usually feel like their whole life is fake and are being watched by people behind a tv screen or stage. Btw its based off a movie
I don’t feel like everything is a dream, it’s that nothing feels real.
Like I know everything around me is real, but it feels fake. I don’t really know how to explain it.
Nothing’s distorted and objects are “normal” sized (?) idk
Yeah, yeah. This is just like that for me, too. I feel you. But lucky me, it sometimes happens not always. How are you doing by the way?
nothing did it go away for you?
Exactly
Same I look at something and it is real but it doesn't feel real
@Tyler Salas I get that
I feel like I’m watching through my eyes and not controlling myself
Sugar Blossom same
same
Same, but i willingly wrote this comment. Guys we gotta keep this in mind: we still wrote the comments. Hold onto your sanity.
I just found out what depersonalization is, and when you described it, you basically described my life. 😭😭
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
Once I told my friends that it felt like I was dreaming and the world was kinda weird, they just punched me and asked me if I felt it lol
They don't know we can feel pain in dreams
Top tier
@@FaultyTwo sorry for hijacking your joke, but to people that dissociate, like in the video, saying stuff like this can be really harmful? Even if it's just a joke to you, I know that if someone said that to me, I would genuinely question my reality and panic. I'm not trying to pick a fight, just to inform you
@@dryingpaint what was their comment
@@Ikinsyntheticpeople they said 'this is a dream. We're all trying to get you from the coma. Wake up. We're waiting for you' or something like that.
I'm 14 and once Corona lockdowns started, I was coping by having full conversations and scenarios in my head because that was the only thing keeping me feeling like I was living a normal life. I felt so out of control of the whole pandemic and the reality in my head made me feel in control and helped my anxiety not get worse than it already was and get less depressed but I think I've created an overidealized world in my head where it feels like I constantly live in my head and the outside world is just an inconvenience. I hate this feeling so much because now that I've been interacting with the real world since things are opening up again, and I've just been so irritable and it doesn't feel like I'm living in the world, it feels like I'm just watching it. I hate it so much because it's made me so numb and instead of being able to enjoy the moments I'm in, I feel like I'm just wasting time in my head. I've been zoning out constantly and I don't know what to do. I really hope that once I'm fully back in school in person I kinda just get used to being in reality again but I'm typing all of this to ask if anyone's been through anything similar, what are some things that can help because I'm desperate at this point.
I'm 43 and bipolar. I have made up scenarios in my head and had conversations with myself for years. I used to think I was completely insane and I needed to be observed by a health professional or something. I was about your age when I was abused by my mom. Later in life, I was abused my partners but I'm now safe. What always helped me was writing. Since I made up so many scenes in my head, I started writing them down and creating plots and characters. In my spare time, I write short stories. Another idea would be to journal and get some feelings out. Write down your conversations or anything you like. Sometimes you can go back and re-read what you wrote later and it makes sense and you can sort of untangle the feelings you felt at the time. I have also learned to do yoga for grounding. This helps me breathe and relax when I'm feeling overwhelming anxiety. I am personally struggling with some severe anxiety at the moment so I have been doing some quiet poses and even some meditation. A lot of information and ideas can be found for free here on TH-cam as far as yoga and meditation are concerned. I also like Calm which is an app that helps me. I know how hard it is to be a teen and feel overwhelmed and confused. I wish you the best and hope I could be of some help. 🖤
I am exactly like you...
This sounds a lot like Maladaptive Daydreaming(I could be thinking of something else, forgive me if the term is incorrect), if you have an adult you can trust I suggest talk to them about finding therapy if you think it would help. (I'm the same age as you, btw)
Also I have a very similar experience - I knew I was always a daydreamer and always loved playing with dolls and action figures and stuff as a kid, but the way I did it felt a little different from everyone else, and I've always been in my head.
Never once in my life have I had just a moment of clarity - and I think that's due to my ADHD, which I'm working on getting a diagnosis for, but it got so significant and noticeable when the pandemic hit and everything shut down
My mom says she watched me and my sibling kind of close in on ourselves, hiding in a sort of shell, like a turtle🐢
My daydreaming is a bit different than the way you describe yours, for me I create multiple 'bubbles' of like different worlds, or alternate universes of the worlds of shows and movies I like - like a self-insert, but It's all in my head and I don't talk about it much.(there's no romance or anything though, I'm aro-ace)
The one I've been 'building' and interacting with the most is ROTTMNT(Rise Of The TMNT), because it's my current hyperfixation - although it feels a lot more significant than a hyperfixation, so maybe special-interest is a better way of putting it.
I kind of act out some of the scenes, and they repeat over and over again in my head as like a stim, and I often find myself pacing around the same room for extended periods of time, mostly at night, especially when I think of an idea to add or an interesting arch for one of the characters that I can intertwine in with the rest of the story.(so far I've never found any ending, and I don't really want it to end because I find comfort and joy in it, despite the anxiety that comes with the derealization that causes and/or amps up the feeling of the world not being real.)
I could go on about this for a while about how these 'world bubbles' work and the way I view them, but unless you want to hear more, I think I've said enough.
TL;DR: I can relate heavily.
also I'm sorry for the giant wall of text /gen
So real
I am going through the exact same thing as 16 year old. I want to stop pretending I live in an ideal made up world. Because I don’t experience the present happy moments of real life. It is torture…
I’ve been trapped for over a year and it feels like it’s just a part of me and it will never change
I have this and it's a really difficult disorder to live with, especially on top of my maladaptive daydreaming. I'm basically constantly disconnected.
Yeah same
Ouch
same yes
How you now ?
Same.
Anyone ever ask themselves sometimes “How am I able to see everything from my point of view?”
It sounds like a silly question, but for me, sometimes it’s weird to think about.
I felt that.
@@minutemasti8389 I say this all the time
it feels like an fps drop but in real life
When I was a kid I used to think all the time that life shouldn't be experienced in first-person, something about being the protagonist or the POV of a story made me feel very uneasy
I can’t stop thinking about how my eyes work and some reason I feel like I see out of my forehead or that my brain is making all the decisions… idk what it is but everything starts to feel like a cartoon or something man it’s rlly hard to explain
I've been through a very bad period because of anxiety and what I believe was depersonalization because of anxiety, I went to the Psychologist, they were very terrible thoughts that I believe that if God hadn't acted, I wouldn't be here today. I know it's hard when it feels like you're not you, or that you're like inside yourself. Or until nothing is real. (symptoms of such mental illnesses; Derealization, depersonalization…), I can only say that my salvation for this, was to know God. He is the only one who can heal us, only Jesus. I know it's a very common topic "Jesus heals" "Jesus knows everything", etc... but when I met Jesus (because I already knew, but I didn't really know who he was and stuff... I knew he was God and that he could forgive me..things that almost everyone knows), with 1 prayer people 1 simple prayer, he freed me from this intense suffering, I realized when I met him, that yes, Jesus heals, yes Jesus knows everything, and he also saves.
I've met God, and I just know that he loved me, that he cares for me, and I know that after I got to know him a little bit more, He saved me. I am still not a bishop, nor a missionary, I am nothing, simply someone whom Jesus healed, HE show me my purpose in this life, and show me the meaning of life. As he has saved me I want him to save you because I know how difficult it is to go through mental issues. I ask to you: Please , pray, pray even today, it can be hidden in your room, it can be in the kitchen, on the couch, at school, just pray: tell him what you feel, what you need, your dreams, and deliver everything in his hands, including yourself, please ask him for help you and ask him to get this problem out of your mind, and if you have more, you can ask too (anxiety, stress…etc) Go to some church, and don't get carried away by the prejudice, for there may be your cure, and salvation. I hope this message can reach you, and give you hope, just as God once gave me.
God bless you, and reminder: Jesus loves you, and so do I. (If you want to ask me any questions, or just need to talk to someone, it can be here, or on Instagram @jesuslovesyou7799)
This happens to me when I look in the mirror for too long
Omg, yes!!! It is so trippy and scary!
Yes like your brainwashed
Nah, thats not it, everyone feels like that looking into a mirror for too long
Omg same I felt like I was the only one who felt this.
That's when I had my first experience
Having depersonalization is a TERRIBLE experience! I'm constantly having it since I was 13 (I'm 19 now). Once I had it all day every day for more than a week. I can't remember any of the things I did, said and learned because I can't assimilate anything, even though I'm watching myself doing things.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
We are literally same i feel you so much
i’m 19 too, and have had this 24/7 (mostly derealization) for about a month now. i often think i’m going crazy or am going to have a mental meltdown and/or black out and like ruin mine and other peoples lives or somwthing
same but when I was 10 and I'm 15 now although it's about identity for me I dissociated from reality and time too but then idk if it's depersonalization. I can't even know which dissociate disorder I have and it is annoying 😞
I look at my own life like through a window and think, this is the only life I have ever had? I hate it, all the things I've been through, the place I live, my childhood, none of this feels mine. I want to be reborn as someone else
I sometimes think "Wait hold the fuck up did i switch universes?" And i become Super Anxious for an while and try to find out
I experienced temporary derealization and depersonalization after suffering several life traumas and then had a major a triggering moment caused by an intense cannabis high. I smoked, had a huge panic attack and woke up in what I describe as a dream like state where my environment seemed fake. You almost feel like a spirit. I initially thought I was dead. My reflection in the mirror was distorted and i didn't recognize myself in pictures or passing reflections. This lasted about 3 months. Certain environments such as malls, grocery stores, parties, places where stimuli was extreme, set my symptoms off so badly that id basically become incapacitated. If you are going through it and have never experienced anything like it before, you will feel so frightened and alone. How do you express your feelings to family or friends? Its a helpless feeling... But know you are not alone. Many have had it and many after you will as well. The more primitive parts of our brain express themselves in these situations. Our ancestors must have needed to disconnect from traumas in order to survive.
I found out that the symptoms were caused by anxiety. Once I addressed my anxiety, the derealization went away slowly. For those who are looking for a cure, Id say be patient, go to the doctor to get help with anxiety, even try an anxiety calming medication for awhile. It will get better. You just need to keep yourself grounded in the moment.
I had a similar experience when I had an intense cannabis high as well. @Psych2go if you see this, do you have any info on drug induced depersonalization? Also Wisc, have you quit cannabis because of it? It was a useful stress relief before the depersonalization occured, but I'd rather not feel like a robot again.
Wow nice description!! But that’s weird cause I experience calmer but prolonged symptoms and never regarded them as a disorder...
Henry I smoked a few times after and it usually triggered anxiety because I was afraid that I would trigger the DP/DR again. So I decided it was best to quit. So, its up to you.
Wiscmax34 Yeah that's what I'm anxious about, thanks for the info.
For God's sake just stay away from drugs. Not everybody should smoke weed
Right now I’m going through one of these derealization episodes, and now I just feel so lonely. It’s like everyone around isn’t real, or like npc’s of some sort. But I really want to feel loved by them again. I even have a hard time being around my parents sometimes because it just feels like sometimes they might not be real. I’m going to a psychologist/psychiatrist next week and I hope I can get this problem fixed.
I have very high anxiety and trauma. I can be completely for one day, next thing you know, the thought suddenly hits me: "Is any of this real?"
I'm just now recovering from daily depersonlizating after 2 months of going through that hell. My hands actually felt numb, because I just couldn't get myself to grasp onto reality. I could hear the cars, but they sound so..off. I could hear people, but I didn't understand the language anymore, despite how I ALSO knew what they were saying. I would stare at people, wondering if this person is just some figment of my imagination. This isn't the first time this happened, and this definitely isn't the last.
D. Thompson I can relate. You should look up solipsism syndrome
That was very good described. I have felt that for 5 year lol
when i'm standing in a room with other people i feel like i am just observing and not actually in that room and i lose all my thoughts, my emotions go negative and i just can't grasp my mind
Same as me.
^
Relatable 😓
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony or I tried phycadelics as a Christian and what I saw shocked me
it is currently 5:02 AM, I am in the East Coast (NJ), currently laying in bed and have finally found the name for this. I woke up and had a panic attack and decided to actually start acknowledging and looking more into this feeling/sentiment that I have been going through. It is not often I read “symptoms” online and then I start to wonder maybe I have this. But this, this is so spot on. I am glad to have finally attach a name and proper way to describe to what I have been in the last few years.. it is time for me to seek help.
Also, I second that to the spacing out and sipping back into reality while driving comments.
I have been heavily affected by derealization for 12 years now, I’m currently 23. I’ve done a great job managing it all these years but it’s still always there and it bums me out. I have depression that comes and goes and the combination of depression and derealization is a recipe for no motivation. It’s just so hard to care about/do things in a world that I feel so disconnected from. I’ve come to terms with my derealization and didn’t let it bother me too much and even embraced it and accepted it as a unique ablility in a way for many years, but lately I just feel like I’ve missed out on my own life. I’ve been living in this desaturated version of what my own life is supposed to be/feel like. Also my memory of my life is very spotty. I don’t remember too well what the world felt like before dr, but I do remember I felt present in the world and reality felt stable. I just want that againnnnnnn ugh, coping every day is tiring
I understand you, I'm 15. You feel like you're just being suffocated and unable to see clear. I can't remember a lot either, I miss being able to look up at the sky and think clearly and love it. I know this is not living, I'm so sorry you had to live like that. It's a horrible feeling and I hate it. I haven't been diagnosed, because I don't talk about it. I don't treat it like it's a big deal.. but maybe it is.
i completely understand you. i’m so sorry you feel like that. i’ve had it for a few months and i really hope and pray it goes away. it’s genuinely depressing because i feel like i cant even enjoy life anymore. when i do anything fun that i would normally enjoy doing, i cant even enjoy it because i am constantly thinking about it. i have never been so depressed it’s terrible. i hope we can all get over this shit, it sucks.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
I'm living with this for 10 years, we are strong, don't give up!
You have a book on derealisation where the cardinals from Vatican have hired few writers to make a fictional writer to reveal third secret of Fatima and suppressed realities from the diary of St. Faustina. There you can actually learn about true sources of derealization, and how to destroy it completely - there is a prayer you can learn to pray that destroys derealization if you pray every day. If the prayer destroys this, then its diabolical in nature, as is schizophrenia. It is prayer of divine mercy, or rosary of divine mercy. You can find that prayer on internet, and in that book also in the first chapter. SPREAD THE CHAIN OF INFORMATION ON THIS TO DESTROY DEREALIZATION AND SET THE CAPTIVES FREE.... if it helped you then spread the chain of this book....rosary made me free from derealization completely... thats what makes a difference - when you have a derealization you just know that you can never break free from it, and when this prayer frees you once, and you get that opposite feelling that you just dont have it anymore, then you can see how wrong you were, and that something was done to you......................................
That feeling is present in my brain for 7 years no pauses, I feel no longer like myself. What's the most frustrating is people saying stuffs like : oh, you seem to be normal, or it's only in your head. And what's more frustrating is doctors looking you very strangely when you try to describe that you feel like dreaming. I really lost hope ever recovering !
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
it feels like there’s no cure for this
edit: it’s been 6 months, but i’m doing 10x better now than i was !
edit 2: well. it’s back 😅
You reckon?
There is, it’s time. As time passes your conscious will come back
@@StrangeHills Well, I've had DR for 6 years now...
CaptainKillua, damn i’m very sorry to hear. I had it for around 2 week this past summer and it was hell. I couldn’t possibly fathom what it’d be like for that long. Maybe it’s just taking a very long time for you, not really sure. Anyways, hope you can find happiness in your current state.
@@sherrim1988 maybe that's depression
That’s EXACTLY how I feel and I really don’t know how you could explain it so well. It’s so hard to put this into words. Thank you for sharing and greetings from Spain❤️
I’m an alcoholic… after my brother died, it’s been rough, because my family is strict. My sister struggles the same. I feel liked I’ve died many times throughout my life, just to continue. In my current relationship I think I’m the toxic one, and my gf wants me, but I’m detached. I was sober before, just this time is weird, and I can’t seem to find the middle ground. I go everyday feeling like I’m fake…. Nobody exists, and ultimately out of billions of people, why care. I’ve been scared since I was a kid from a dream I had, and here we are at 35 years old… I do not feel like I have this life. Feels like the Truman show. I know it’s not, but it feels like it’s all fake
"I'm sorry sir, I don't quite understand."
"How did you feel?"
I didn't feel anything
I experienced this when I was in grade school, I feel like I'm not in control of my body but I'm aware of what I'm doing. It occurred more than 3 times as I remember because it always brothers me until now for what was that.
This type of event often happen to me when there's a lot of people around with a loud sound, sometimes when there's an On and Off blinking of light arround me.
With the realisation of what I was doing, I've been able to forcibly calm myself down and actually feel things. It was awesome, but now I'm nearly in tears because I know that this won't last forever, and that I'll be back to depersonalising by tomorrow.
It's really scary.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony trust me
It's so tiring. I just want to be real
Yeah :/
You are real! Your brain can trick to protect us but we will always be ourself inside. And it can get better it WILL one day just keep swimming
This makes sense, I can remember when I was younger in my teens and I felt like an actual person, part of the world around me, after being abused 15-18 I’ve changed very much. I think yeah I’m getting better at this but then the whole “I feel different from everyone else” in an inferior way, I’m more skittish when i used to have massive confidence and I’m just this insecure shell, even writing this comment makes me feel insecure and over think. When I try to sleep it feels like time isn’t there and I feel restless and like there’s something more I need to do and I’m not sure what. Idk there’s a lot more but yeah.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
How can I not get depressed about my future?
What is it about the future that depresses you?
uhh... Me too, I feel like I have no future. Since I was little I've never have any aspirations, never was a happy kid, always afraid of social interactions, no friends, etc. And because of that, now I feel like I'm struggling in finding myself a future and reasons to stay, relying on virtual friends...
I'm also transgender and since I live in a country where I am not accepted by society I often believe I have no future, in the workplace, my family, society, neither myself. I feel really useless knowing I have no future.
and constantly feel depressed by that, I can't even sleep.
Sorry for sharing this to you but I only want to express what I feel and see if anybody can relate to me in a way, maybe...
Psych2Go I have a predictable life even though it earns me a lot, it’s not what I want
It is the shortest path for success but it isn’t the path I want to be taking
I’ll cut to the chase, I don’t want to live and study in my country even though it’ll be easier to get into medicine ( The course I wish to have ) I don’t want to do it here. My parents want me to do it here because of the cost and stuff
And that’s what I mean by a predictable future being depressing because it’s driven by skills, talents and mostly money
@@guesswhoami4723 i dont think you have a predictable life, i feel like you are very anxious about uncertanties that are not in your control, i understand your frustration with the way your life is going, but your attitude is very fatalistic, youre not gonna be unhappy if you stay in your country and if you make the right desitions, you will get were you want to be. Believe me when i say that the chances are gonna present themselves, you just have to concentrate in the little succeses that will make these chances easier to come.
@@guesswhoami4723 commenting to follow this thread cuz I literally have the same concerns as you are.
I'm not someone that's ever worried about their health. Physical OR mental. I've only recently, as in the past year or two, realized I have some serious issues going on with my head. Anxiety and panic attacks, bad depression, and trouble sleeping.
I'm actually going to the doctor tomorrow to see what I can do. But in the mean time, I kinda lost my shit about an hour ago when I realized it was late, I had to go to bed soon, and tomorrow I'm gonna wake up, rush to get a shower and ready, then go talk to a doc. AND last time I talked to them they sent me to the hospital for a week, so...kinda lost it.
Now. The thing to keep in mind. I've never considered my mental health before like a year or two ago. I never discussed it with anyone either. Not even just generally talking about it. So. Here I am, about midnight, can't sleep, realizing the doc's tomorrow. I suddenly have a hard time breathing, heart's racing, I'm lightheaded, and whoops now I'm flat out crying. 15 minutes later, anxiety's still up but I've calmed down enough that I started googling a bit before I talk to someone.
Turns out, I've probably been getting full blown panic attacks, fairly often, for a while. And I never realized. Like, hell, I woke up this morning and had like 5 of the main panic attack symptoms just because I saw it was the 18th. Just yesterday I sat here on my bed, someone next to me, TV on, and I felt like I was in a dream or something and everything felt weirdly grey, like it was about to rain, but it was sunny out. I didn't have a clue what that was, I was gonna bring it up at the doc and hope they knew. But my googling lead to learning about panic attacks more, and that apparently derealization is a symptom of them.
Long winded comment I doubt anyone will bother reading. But if you do, thanks. If not, well, you won't read this anyone, but it's cool. It's 12:39am, I can't sleep, my anxiety is through the roof, and I'm killing time while I freak out.
I find myself asking the same question in my head almost every day. “Is this real life?” Because most of the time I don’t feel like I’m actually here
I am about to burst into literal tears. The feeling that this all might be a trick to make me think I'm real or everything around me is real is killing me. I can't understand why I'm like this. Sometimes I will write something wrong or prepare myself to talk to someone about how I feel, but I am completely shut down by myself insisting that this is all probably fake anyway. Sometimes it does feel real, like 'Wow I am actually a breathing sentient being' or 'Wait everyone around me isn't fake?' because sometimes I am convinced no one exists. Thank you for this.
I have Depersonalization, Depression, ADD, Anxiety and Paranoia... I can not think of anything better than suicide. That's the only way to escape from my own head. I don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling like this. I have never achieved anything and never will. I feel sorry for anyone who feels like I do.
Please don't
DarkSamuraiHD wow yo reading your comment actually made me wanna cry, I feel your pain. I have depression, ADD, I get anxiety very rarely but I just experienced depersonalization or derealization (idk, their both the same to me) for the first time today and it was scary af and I’m still currently going through but it was worse earlier. Don’t do suicide dude, do whatever you can to help your problem, google treatments, that’s the first thing I did today and it helped a little so far, go to therapy, talk to family, anything to help it. Best of luck
DarkSamuraiHD. Hey there, I totally understand how you feel. It seems unbearable, I know. I'd really like you to check something out. Look up Robert Smith Faster EFT on TH-cam. Go back to his older videos and follow along with him doing sessions with people. Watch a lot. I know it might sound weird, but I'm telling you, it helps! A lot! He understands NLP (neurolinguistic programming) and how the mind, brain and subconscious all work, and how we are affected by memories. Please check it out, my friend. I want you to feel relief and have hope again. There are many things out there to try, but I know this works! Praying for you in Jesus' name, my friend.
I used to be depressed and thought the same thing. It got better for me and I love life now, you WILL, I promise. It just takes time and care. Always ask for help, its the best thing that you can do.
Please don’t, I do as well try working out consistently and looking at your self in the mirror and that is the best way to cope
I’ve got derealization over we€d yesterday it was a horrible experience, I smoked literally on an empty stomach and I was already tired I think that’s why I’ve got it, I went out with my brother to buy something to eat and he noticed me that Im not alright and the restaurant where I’ve ate everyone was staring at me because my eyes were flying it felt like Im not connected to this world and every imagination I make in my head I feel it like it was true and can’t feel my self like Im in a video and heartbeating for sure was the most scariest thing but thankfully It didn’t stuck with me like just one day but For sure it was about to stay more if I didn’t did this things :
1- don’t panic, if it happened normally to you or with we€d don’t panic and know that it’s just about the time and it’ll goes away
2- take a shower, a warm shower will help to get your heart beats down and keep you calm a little bit
3- accept it and go with the flow, this’s the most important thing just accept this thing and that for the moment it will not go but also it will not stay so just live with the flow play video games or series, and trust me you can get rid of it like just in one as I did or maybe 3 days max
4- if the things were not well see a doctor, if you were scared to tell that u smoked then it’s fine just tell that you have a bad headache or stomach and wanna see a doctor so bad.
Hope you guys get rid of it and it’s something normal and fine ❤
It's feel so weird to be alive.
Had panic attack mixed with DP/DR when I smoked weed.
ExploitCode not alone bro
Yeah thats one of the worst feelings
I am cured do you want some advice ? :)
mercure sentinel yes
mercure sentinel i want some advice plz
I came here because my friend has this. He is Ukrainian and the combination of his father dying the war starting And being close to losing his job and his only income, Made him talk to me about the fact that sometimes it feels like somebody else is in control of his body and he is dreaming
I had my first experiences with this on my first 2 days of VR. I do not want to drive anywhere as I'm afraid I won't process reality and get into an accident.
Well i felt derealization my whole life I just didn't know the scientific/psychological name . I thought that everyone could experience it... it makes me more anxious damn
Lunaticharlie same, I assumed everyone felt like that. Until I actually spoke to people about it. Like nope, but apparently meditation and therapy can do wonders so there is definitely hope.
i feel like im in a dream... sometimes everything goes blurry and my hearing kinda fades away... its scary
I feel like life is fake
@@xx_furby_lover_xx5812 same
@@xx_furby_lover_xx5812 it probably is.
Just had a vivid dream that I was walking through my room and walked to the bathroom, then I just woke up in my bed, it felt so real so now I don't know if I'm dreaming or actually awake
I’d be randomly walking in school and out of nowhere I felt like none of it was real like outside of my school was nothing it’s weird it just felt like I wasn’t real like this isn’t real
I didn’t discover derealization until today, what I’ve experienced sounds a lot like it. I’ll just be randomly in the car and be like, “oh that’s right I’m in the car and the radio is playing” and then be like “but I already knew that so why am I thinking it”.
This happens to me when I’m around a bunch of ppl it feels really weird
opposite for me
i’ve had derealisation for years when i went to highschool, everyday. i never thought i would ever get out of this state of being cut off from everything and honestly i don’t remember how i managed to live like that for years. i remember crying a lot because of it because when you have depression you question your whole existence anyways and with something like this it’s even easier to get lost in these thoughts.
then i decided i had to change something about my mental health and went to therapy. i might have a derealisation state 5 times a YEAR now. and the good thing is now i can tell when i’m in that state and try to do something about it like testing your senses. when i had this everyday i couldn’t even tell what was normal and what was an abnormal state. (maybe i was in that weird state all the time idk) it’s never too late to change!
I haven’t felt real in so long that I don’t really remember what reality is supposed to feel like anymore. I feel like I’m just some thought sitting deep in my own head watching out through a tunnel of my eyes, like I am not my body, I am only in my head, my body is just this thing connected to me. All of my memories are oddly in third person though, and blurry and distorted, I can hardly even remember anything. I feel really numb most of the time, and the really strong emotions that do come through like fear or anger are distant, like I’m looking at someone else’s emotions that I don’t really understand. Even physical sensations can become like that when it’s at its worst. My days go by in a blur and everything just feels like it’s separate from me, like there is a veil covering my eyes and fog wrapped around my chest, and everything is kind of dull and flat. I hate to even see my reflection because it makes me feel so strange, like “that’s me, that’s who I am, I am never going to be anyone else and no one is ever going to be me” which sounds stupid but it’s a really weird intense discomfort. But honestly I’ve gotten used to it, and I’ve come to prefer this over reality, because even if I’m unable to feel happy or alive, at least I don’t have crushing anxiety and despair holding over me all the time as well. What tends to indicate to me that I still feel unreal and that this is not just normal is when suddenly reality will become way too immediate. Like the best way to put it is that reality punches me in the face. Suddenly, for a few moments, everything is way too sharp and clear and immediate, and it’s really overwhelming, but it doesn’t last long at all before everything kinda... fades out again, I guess. Those will usually come when I suddenly am too aware of my own voice or body. I’ve been like this since I was like 12 and I’m about to turn 18. It used to cause me significant distress but now I’ve kinda just given in. Doesn’t stop me from obsessively thinking about it a lot though. Earlier in my experiences, it would vary more, coming in and out, but it’s been more consistently there the last couple of years.
All I’m left with is an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and meaninglessness. I really can’t find any purpose in living, and reason to live, but the though of dying is just as terrifying, because I can’t imagine anything better on the other side. So I’m just stuck like this. Sometimes I think I’ve already died long ago and gone to some personal hell, cursed to live over the worst torments over and over again, any shreds of hope or happiness given to me only to make it worse when they’re inevitably torn away, doomed to end I’m my committing suicide, restarting the cycle again with fresh torture.
Wow I REALLY know how you feel
Azazel 606 Is me and her she name her name and
The only way I can describe the feeling if derealization is imagining to have a glass that separates your mind from your body and the world around it. Sometimes I actually feel it under my forehead, phisically, and even if I know that it's an illusion it is straight up terrifying.
This.. is a very interesting disorder to say the least
Have you found anything that helps?
I experience derealization + depression since the end of 2019 but the symptoms weren't that intensive back then and it slowly started to get worse till it became constant 24/7 around March-April 2020. I even got a corn addiction that was a contrast because I usually get a lot of dopamine when I watch it + not feeling real makes it very weird
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
You have a book on derealisation where the cardinals from Vatican have hired few writers to make a fictional writer to reveal third secret of Fatima and suppressed realities from the diary of St. Faustina. There you can actually learn about true sources of derealization, and how to destroy it completely - there is a prayer you can learn to pray that destroys derealization if you pray every day. If the prayer destroys this, then its diabolical in nature, as is schizophrenia. It is prayer of divine mercy, or rosary of divine mercy. You can find that prayer on internet, and in that book also in the first chapter. SPREAD THE CHAIN OF INFORMATION ON THIS TO DESTROY DEREALIZATION AND SET THE CAPTIVES FREE.... if it helped you then spread the chain of this book....rosary made me free from derealization completely... thats what makes a difference - when you have a derealization you just know that you can never break free from it, and when this prayer frees you once, and you get that opposite feelling that you just dont have it anymore, then you can see how wrong you were, and that something was done to you......................................
I was just making a Tik tok then I couldn't recognize myself. Then I just felt out of my body. "Was that me talking today?" "This isn't me" "did I really do that" I was freaking out. I feel a lot better now that I know there are other people who feel the same. I
same its scary i had an episode that lasted the whole day
I have struggled with these things. When I was little my mom used to hold "unsaid" rules and by the time I got to figuring them out and fallowing them she would change them again. I was never allowed to use my mental disability as "an excuse" for not being able to do something.
Along with always even as a young child not feeling like I belonged in this world. The ways that the world or society functioned was wrong and extremely confusing. I could later learn to understand or comprehend these factors like racism, but I still could not FEEL like this is how things were supposed to be. Thus, my mom used to say that even with my mind "wired" differently, that my "reality was not this reality". So, that got me thinking about relativity of reality vrs perspective. I still to this day have more vivid memories of other worlds or life times that to me are more real than the ones I have had from this one.
This factor has made growing up, interacting, functioning to this worlds structured resignation of existence extremely difficult.
Recently I have discovered in my medical records that I am classified as having MPD.
I grew up around skitsophrenic(sp?), bipolar, cracked out, and strung up people from many cultures and backgrounds like military. So, I am very aware about the treatment from society and government to such people.
I know that I choose to dis like the majority of human society, because I choose not to associate with such a horrible destructive parasitic race.
Every individual has the capacity to do better, but constantly resolve themselves to fallowing the rest of society, due to feeling constrained into that life style willingly or not.
Does this make those individuals stepping outside of the constraints something to be shunned, classified as some ambiguous term just to segregate them out and remove them from the status quo? Or to even have society treat them any less valuable/wanted?
Why is it accepted that people with conflicting mindsets are to be removed or treated like they are a plague?
These accepted behaviors and reactions are the exact reason why I flipped out when I found out they classified me as having MPD. These are the same reasons WHY I personally feel that I do not belong to this "HIGHER RACE".
Am I the only one?
Is it right to reprogram my thinking to that of accepted standards?
Is it not one of the first things we are conditioned to reject?
Why has no one ever explained just how harmful it is when society does these things and is not held accountable for it?
Why is it so acceptable for people to claim such radical identity differences and yet still treat those struggling to amalgamate into societal existence as though they will always be a substance abuser?
Why do they not put more emphasis on mental health in school systems as children?
When will this "ADVANCED SPECIES" evolve past this horrendice(sp?) act???
What age of yet another world reform will it take to eliminate this discrimination?
All the red tape, paperwork, trials, political rulings, chosen information provided continue this practice beyond the capable applications provided in this current day and age, only to further this abuse of one another.
These videos are critical and should be integrated into common day society for the betterment of all HUMAN kind.
Thank you for your time, and I hope that others which read this will understand I am not trying to start a debate war in this chat. However, I would like to know others opinion on these matters if possible please. Thank you! Be safe! & if you can enjoy a few simple things in life each day.
I've had a lot of derealization experiences in my life, though it's been a while since I've had it. It happens less frequently compared to when I was younger, but I thought it was cool! Like... the whole perspective in the room just morphs and the room feels/looks smaller than it actually is, my hands look smaller when it's right in my face! I didn't think of it as a disorder or didn't even know it was for that matter. Just wanted to share my thought!
exactly the same for me! It's so weird and I thought I was the only one..
Eel Kram Ive had the same thing but for depersonalization.
Me too but then. I got depressed and was like wait a second
Considering it comes from an area of coping I am not too surprised. I used to feel so relieved for the first few minutes or so while it started and then feel kinda stuck there, uncomfortably after the novelty wore off and I realized the world is still turning for everyone but me.
@@ryanbecryin6201 "wait a second" KSKSK me
when i was younger (8-10) i used to call it my 'philosophical' state since it made me question myself (I AM ALSO REALLY HAPPY TO KNOW WHAT IT IS KNOW!)
the amount of DP that school causes is insane. all my friends and I experience it and its scary how common it is
i hate living with the thought that everything only exists because my mind is making it exist. if my concioussness/mind is not thinking about it; then its just nothing. it makes me feel an extreme amount of loneliness
Loved it!
What helped me get out of derealization was telling myself that how I currently view/see the world isn’t real. The dream like feeling wasn’t real. Keep telling yourself it’s not real.
I witnessed both of these when changing my antidepressants and it was a trip, a weird and scary one ngl. I'm glad I can emphasize with people who go through this...
I feel like a gaming laptop. Im getting the fullest of myself when Im plugged in but my performance is very decreased when Im disconnected (on battery power) but I can still function. I feel only 10% of life when I run on battery power and I seem to forget the feeling of full performance when Im running on battery power for a long time.
it’s been almost 4 years with these two sticking around with me and ruining my life & relationships with my friends. i miss my friends. so badly. I can’t say this to theirs face but im so sorry for not being a good friend and always disappear for no reason. It’s hard to be around me but i miss y'all
I often doze off and will look at my parents thinking who the heck are them and why am I in that place ( our house ). I will get panic attack afterwards, and it was awful.
I remember having this when I was really young like 6, I thought I was in a dream and I didn't feel real, I didn't know I was existing and I felt lost. I still have it sometimes
I have it everyday for some reason lol
Me too
I don't wanna self-diagnose or anything of the sort, but it's hard to ignore the fact that more than half of the things that were mentioned in the video have been happening to me. I thought it was supposed to be normal to feel disconnected from your body and your surroundings, but everyone thinks I'm crazy. I would stare at myself for hours because I was sure that the person in the mirror wasn't me. Yeah, she would move her arm whenever I moved mine but still felt weird. Also remembering things in 3rd person is so weird. I feel numb and nothing around me makes sense. What are people? And still, this doesn't happen all the time just a few episodes every now and then, so that's why I don't want to jump into any conclusions.
Dont you sometimes feel like you’re the only one here but you arent even there at the same time
@@Kid_A_ yeah!!! Like the things around you are just made up or nonexistent
@@shaellyzfuentes6904 right and it sometime goes so far as too make yourself feel non-existant
i feel the exact same and even worse
How u feeling so far
I'm pretty sure I've had a derealization experience where everything was moving super fast. Literally. It looked like everything was slightly sped up. Laster for probably 10 minutes (Idk it was a long time ago) Most terrifying thing I've ever experienced. Not sure if it was derealization or something else though.
Look up pastor Eddie turners testimony
When I started to derealisation I thought I was tripping or some scary shit or like I was dead or in a dream and my vision was blurry and I was numb
Does anyone remember what real life felt like? I forgot tbh
i say who cares. its all real. There aint no real unless it aint happenin
@@КристиянТрънбашев-м9о :(
I feel like somone wayching my own life through a lense, its so disturbing...
I get that when Im traveling or hanging out with my friends its not always a bad experience its good to feel like ur floating in the universe
I haven’t been able to sleep recently because when I close my eyes and drift off to sleep I feel like I’m skipping away from reality, as if I can feel the universe sleeping with me. It almost feels like I’m gonna sink into a bottomless ocean and it’s really scary. My senses go away like I feel completely and utterly numb and empty
I feel like I have both, due to some personal things that happens at home...
Guess I'll need to ask for a test from my therapist.
I used to smoke weed alot and I felt this way for like a month after getting way to high, i couldnt get back in myself if that makes sense, its like i was on auto pilot and that i was watching my movement but not doing them, almost like my brain slotted off my consciousness from the rest of my self. i havent smoked since because it was the most dreadful time ive ever had, to anyone who has this i applaud your resillience
Look uppastor Eddie turners testimony or I tried phycadelics as a Christian and what I saw shocked me
Same I did edibles once took way too much first time really bad trip I feel like it all the time now without the hallucinations just panic attacks that stop a few minutes after I calm myself down and third person veiws world all spinny waiting for the trip to end but it doesn't I just want to be able to feel my dogs love and familys love again
Took them once well twice stopped that same week I tried them and I'm getting worse yay
I'm happy to know I'm not the only one that feels like this because of weed, I wish I could just stop smoking too, this is really hard to deal with
@@ritz_.cracker6546 hey man, i read a couple of your comments and completely understand what you’re living. I had a drug-induced state of depersonalization/derealization that lasted for months. It’s a horrible feeling. Constant anxiety, panic attacks, feeling « third person » , hallucinations are legitimate symptoms that come with it. I thought i fucked my brain up because of the drugs and that i would never be normal again. I would look at my mother and be scared because i felt like i was just looking at a person, and didn’t feel connected to her. I have good news for you: you haven’t fucked up your brain. You will be back to normal. I know it sounds impossible to get out of this constant loop, but it will happen. What i did : first, talk to your family about it, people you trust. Tell them you need professionnel help. Go talk to a therapist, or mental-health professionnel. Tell them everything. The fact that you know that you are dealing with DPRP is very good, because i had no idea and it took a while to find out. If you can, try and get prescribed anti-depressants. I know it sounds big, but this will be what will help you the most. You’re not gonna be « addicted » or « feel different ». The only thing they do is help get rid of the anxiety, which is the worst symptom of dprp. This will take some time after you start taking them, but this will get rid of your anxiety and finally break the loop of hell you’ve been dealing with. It will also get rid of the « third person » feeling. I have to point out, sometimes it does come back very briefly, in which it really doesn’t affect you and leaves right away. It doesn’t get serious, because you have been through it and understand it. Wish you all the best bro!!! If you need to talk more let me know
I know it's not derealization or depersonalization but it's still unsettling
If you’re losing touch with reality read this:
I’ve gone through disturbing and confusing experiences as well.
Episodes have come and gone since July 31st, 2019 after a VERY traumatic event where my ex almost strangled me to death while I was on LSD.
Journaling every single thing that went through my head while looking out the window, while dreaming, and while listening to songs that trigger memories/emotions & watching their music videos helped me process a lot.
Sometimes there’s so many complex thoughts it’s almost impossible to get a grip on where to start so just writing all of those thoughts no matter how bizarre or poorly worded gave me a great start. I did it for about a year straight & now any time I have those episodes, I know I can journal & I can remember that I’ve gone through this before and I’ll get back to feeling well again eventually.
You just have to face your fears sometimes. It’s terrifying and might not be suitable for you to do alone. You may need professional or social support to ground you.
I realized we really need each other to understand life and survive, so finding a support system (even if it’s just you and one other person) often helps improve your life immensely. If you’re isolated like I was, journal. Be there for yourself. Look at your thoughts and respond to them as if they were a child you love who’s scared and wants to understand.
If you have any demonic shit happen to you, imagine a bubble surrounding you. Feel it. Create it. Own it. Then tell them either verbally or through your conscious thoughts that they are no longer welcome to communicate with you or come within your energetic orb and then wish them well.
You can also pray for/put out good intent for the demons to be made into something beneficial and for you to be protected. You can also look up cleansing rituals.
I did all of these and the demonic shit never came back. Occasionally I can feel the presence in people, but I know that if I do not give them the energy of my attention/fear and I trust that they are created with good intent for me in their own unique way then I can regain control and feel safe. I stop responding/engaging and every single time they’ve ended up apologizing to me thru people who facilitate that demonic presence.
Just know that you were given this life either by yourself, nature, or a higher consciousness/power. It gave you this experience for a reason. It’s not here to destroy you, it’s here to put provide you with the conditions you need for this human experience. You can learn to appreciate being able to experience it. Even the worst parts of your experience can result in very purposeful and beneficial outcomes. You’d be surprised how many messed up events actually saved your life without you realizing it.
Just trust the process as it carries you. You’re gonna be okay. You could have been endlessly fallen through nothingness for eternity, but here we are with reality here to catch us with a net full of experiences. Maybe reality gave us a whole range of experiences because it didn’t know what we’d like most and it wanted to give us the opportunity to experience everything. Isn’t that beautiful? ❤️
Just know I’m a peaceful & separate consciousness that’s awake in this experience with you. ❤️ We’re in this together. You’re not alone. There’s love here.❤️
All is one, one is all. Entering the void is the only path to ascension.
When you want someone to talk to regarding traumatic events youve been through and the struggling woth suicidal thpughts, but then you remember the famous quote: -
"Dont tell the world your problems. Half of them dont care and the other half is glad that you've got them".
The sooner this wasted existence is over the better.
*Sooo i have this thing that, i cant go to high places because whenever im at the high point and egde (like a hill, clif, balcony, roof) i have the sudden urge to jump off...because i wanna see what would happen. I dont know why. Im not ever sad or depressed or anything...i just feel like doing it*
Kittio101 I believe that’s called “L’appel du Vide,” or Call of the Void.
I think it’s a fairly common phenomenon that many people experience, and it’s associated most with the inexplicable urge to jump from high places, or do other self-destructive actions.
These thoughts appear randomly and without warning, and do not indicate suicidal tendencies or harm to oneself.
Atel Segree oml thanks for letting me know. So even if im not looking for death (cuz im a really happy person) its just an act of Curiousness
Kittio101 No problem! I understand the curiosity, lol
CryBow same omg. I’m not sure why but when i’m near an edge or something, i everything feels strange and my body just starts to aproach it on its own.
CryBow It’s a feeling everyone gets
The feelings are getting worse tbh
Had it for 4years now and i don’t even care nomore
me too daniel me too
I remember when derealization kicked in, me going up the stairs and realizing I was going up the stairs snapped me back
Does anyone else get really disoriented in crowds
It feels good that i'm not the only one feeling like this... I've had this before and i overcame it, but i don't seem to remember how, i think i just sort of forgot it, i know its just an product of stress or anxiety but it just feels weird, sometimes i just look around and nothing feels real, i just tell to myself "how do i know this is real, why do i feel like i don't exist" and i just go through a panic attack, it keeps happening almost every day, but i sort of get used to it, but sometimes it just get scary, i really hope i get around it, because sometimes it causes physical pain.
I can relate to this so much, I have been having this for more than a year....
Hey dude, I hope you're doing okay!! I had this suuuuuper bad in 2021 and as I was recovering I made a little TH-cam playlist of all the videos that helped me recover (as of today I haven't experienced it for probably over a year now!) sending love and hope! Here's the playlist if you want it! :)
th-cam.com/play/PLLJYuBgviqU_BQ9j2IhfjA7ADknro3_f6.html
@@skye3830 that's so nice. Thank You so much for your playlist!
Ok now this makes sense because people said that if I ain't diagnosed then I don't have it but I feel all these depersonalization feeling and acts
Poggers I just got recommended after twomads interview with Katerino
F O R T H E S E V E N T H T I M E
If your environment sucks, you want out, if you can't physically leave, maybe one "checks out" mentally, if the situation is so bad it makes sense to want to escape.
Who wants to be "in touch" with reality if reality is so upsetting? I think this is the main reason people do drugs, to escape reality. Unfortunately we can't live in the intoxicated state all of the time, somehow we must find away to accept our reality, cope with it or we are done for.
I remember getting home from school. I was 15. I began feeling very tired & went to bed for about 3 hours. I woke up & felt like I was in a dream. Nothing felt real. That was 21 years ago & it has never gone away😟😔
I would stare at myself in the mirror and think this person is not me it’s scary shit
Yung Cris yes! And when I close my eyes everything feels so distorted! Like I can imagine certain objects and they’re just a liquid or something it’s so weird
Idk if this contributed to maybe why I feel this way, but when I was younger I saw a trailer about a demonic presence attacking people through mirrors with exact copies of themselves. It scared me shitless so I hardly looked in the mirror and I’ve never been a vain person anyways, so I hardly did it before watching that trailer. I hardly took pictures of myself or allowed others to take pictures of me. Sometimes I look back through photos or I catch a glimpse of a child in a picture frame, but have zero clue how she came to look like me. There’s days where I’m petrified of looking at myself in the mirror, bc I don’t feel like I look like myself. So, like a crazy person I start talking to my reflection, threatening to break the glass if it pulls some creepy shit... It never does. Then there’s days when I’m not bothered because I recognize myself in the mirror. Then there’s days where I feel like she’s watching me with knowing eyes. Like if it were possible to step through the glass and see what’s on the other side it’d be an alternate universe where she lives a different life than me or at least she’s living at a different time of our life. Ik I sound crazy, but I’m certain that I can’t be the only one who’s ever felt this way. Idk if it’s this derealization or depersonalization stuff, I try not to self-diagnose.
I have this memory as a child. I would stare at myself in the mirror while saying my name over and over. Just normally. Maybe after the first ten times I said it, I started to not feel like me. Like I was... blank and looking at a sad little kid. To this day, I don’t know why I started that. No one ever told me to do that or nothing on tv ever said to do that. I just did it. It would scare me. I couldn’t do it now.
I have cured my depersonalization and derealization the day I took 2 tabs or Lsd and In the madness of the most intense trip of my life I found the reasons why I felt like I did. It takes looking into your head to get past this. The lsd trip helped me realize a lot about myself and really has helped me with self esteem. I’m not suggesting you do lsd but just sharing my expierence with this and how I fixed it for the better. Looking back on how I might’ve caused it i know that it was the weed
I do this to snap back into reality. I know I’ve had both for the longest time and got diagnosed. I live in my head I feel like I’m not here ever it’s hard to live in the moment
Does anybody keep 'waking up' to reality over and over and over again?
Like I'll be driving and all of a sudden every second that goes by I 'realize' that I'm driving. Time goes INCREDIBLY slow and the moment your in seemingly keeps restarting. And you realize again "Oh Im driving". "Omg Im STILL driving". "STILL driving". And this happens atleast 50 times in a row and you cant get out of it. Anyone experience this?
Yes!!!!! literally exactly what i’m experiencing in my depersonalization! i’ll be walking to the kitchen to get food and as soon as i arrive at the kitchen i’m like did i really just walk here? did that even happen? it’s been a month now from suffering from depersonalization from weed
literally me
I feel that way when i get stoned hahaha
I used to have this often and in those moments I needed some seconds to recognize my surroundings again. Once I stood in the kitchen holding a flipper and forgot the movements I needed to do to use it. Or I was in the bathroom and suddenly expected the exit to be on the wrong side and got disoriented. I needed a few moments to actually get out and my bathroom is really small. My boyfriend sat in the living room and was confused that I was so confused and sometimes you cannot even describe these strange twists to others.
After lots of therapy I don’t get these “fall out” moments often anymore and the distortions in my vision have decreased. I guess it does get better somehow but still nothing is real and I don’t exist. Although I do feel like I am somehow getting closer to that non-existent something. Because it has to exist behind this fog. You know?
Perhaps you are a boltzman brain, sorry not sorry for giving you existential crisises if you look up what that actually is
Who else constantly feels like they are on the verge of losing their shit sometimes and familiar areas look like you are seeing them for the first time??
Yea
Yeah everything looks different
I had those symptoms 2 years ago.
Yea i remember to have this for the first time, at that point i was on that direct place and instantly forgot where i am. like 3 or 4 seconds later i realized where i was again. That shit freaked me out
Yes and it seems to get more intense over time.