I’m sorry is no one gonna talk about the end where he’s like “you can still rest your head on my chest, like you used to” like BRUH THAT BROKE MY HEART BABE DIDNT WANNA HURT HIM
Also he's self conscious about his scars at the beginning of the vid, so he's being vulnerable like _ik they're gnarly but do u still love me?_ 🥺 and when Babe lays down he says _t h a n k y o u_ 😭😭😭 *(don't look at me im soft)* 🥺😭😭
Whoa! This is a whole new side of Asher--hearing his self-consciousness and anger and hurt just hits so deep. I went into this not knowing how he would be responding. All of the characters thus far have such unique takes on what happened, but they all still felt like themselves. Hearing all this from Asher shows just how deeply impacted he is and that anger and frustration are so raw coming from him. Amazing writing and characterization!
....well, hearing him say he didn't think he was gonna make it out of there even when he was still so positive...Holy cow. I think I have taken Asher's optimism for granted. That is raw and heartbreaking.
The way Ash instantly went from tearing himself down for not being enough to reassuring Babe that they are helping enough just by being there 🥺 Ash did you just hear yourself?? I know it's going to take some time for you to believe it for yourself, but we'll believe it for you til then. I'm always floored by the details Erik uses to bring this world alive. Imagining Ash lying underground, dealing with a mortal wound, only lucid enough to listen to people speak what they believe to be their last words. Chills.
Asher has always been so in touch with his feelings, more so than he gave himself credit for in his first reverse comfort. This hurts, hearing him so vulnerable and so much in pain, but the fact he knows he can and does rely on his mate is beautiful. The softness at the end about saying they could rest their head on his chest the way they used to, that it looked bad but it didn't hurt and then the relief when they did? God I love him and I love this even though I'm crying again
Hearing Asher wrestle with imposter syndrome hit hard. I don’t think he understands what a key role he is to David’s success as pack leader. David seems to get insane tunnel vision sometimes, and I’m glad that Ash was there in the control room to wonder out loud if there was another way. When he said that David had been asking the right questions, I feel like wondering if there was *any* other alternative was absolutely a right question, even if they could only dwell on it for a second. I can’t say wether Ash would have made the right decision or not. I *believe* he would have, because he would have had to, but he might not have, I don’t know. But I don’t think him being aware of the incalculable value of people’s lives and trying to figure out how not to lose them is proof of his incompetence, it’s just… proof he has a heart. And David has as much a heart as Asher, but he’s the alpha. He’s been making the tough calls for years because he’s had to. I feel like David came to the conclusion that there was no other way quicker than Ash because he’s had a lot of practice (though obviously not with anything of this magnitude). But when push came to shove, Asher acted as pack beta in a way that was more than exemplary. He supported his alpha’s decision and followed him into danger. It’s very normal, after experiencing traumatic events, to be so focused on the “what ifs” that we lose sight of “what was”, but I hope in the future Asher’s able to recognize that, when faced with this impossible situation, he *was* what he needed to be and did what he needed to do. He stood by David’s side as his beta and his best friend. I’m beyond proud of him (I’m proud of all our bois!!!!! (except the water bitch, obviously 🙄))
Is that a CloseKnit ad I hear?-"How did they have that ready to go?"- Indeed, how did they, I wonder? -The cracks in the cassette case are reminiscent of the scars the characters have. "I made it. That's the biggest thing...It's proof I'm still here."- Your scars make you beautiful. "When we said goodbye, it felt like goodbye."💔- That hurts to hear. "Can I hold you?"- YES!!! "You can rest your head on my chest if you want, like you used to. I know it looks kinda bad, but it won't hurt me. I promise."😭😭😭
Ash, my sweet boy, nooooo. When he said that the scars were there to stay, I said to myself: "Well, it looks like my devastatingly handsome man is now a rugged, devastatingly handsome man." And when he said he was self conscious I cried. Honestly, his impostor syndrome is understandable. But, Davey is a good judge of character. He picked Ash to be his beta because of his reliability...and no doubt his ability to keep Davey on his toes. I think Ash's questioning of his decision was what Davey needed at the time. Audibly working through the possibilities no doubt helped Davey cement his plan. Redacted. Why you gotta do this to me, man?? I've never been this invested in an audio drama before. This is killing me. (Thank you for sharing your talents).
There’s something special about Asher. When I hear about his fears and anxieties (in his other reverse comfort, too) it resonates in a certain way - like I know I would feel the same way, in his position? Or as if someone was trying to explain me to myself? It just clicks. He’s mesmerizing in a different way from the other characters - not more so or less than them! But in a uniquely relatable and incredibly tangible sense. Gets right in the chest and sits there for a while. I could only dream of being as good of a friend or as emotionally intelligent as he is, but I always get the feeling that I know exactly where he is coming from. Don’t know if that makes sense, but reader's digest version ... He’s amazing. I cried. I hope Baaabe hugs the shit out of him. Yeah. Not to mention: re-listening to the David and Asher Inversion conversation, knowing now how that felt for Asher? That he thought it might be the last one they ever had and yet put on such a brave face for David, supporting him emotionally that way?? Or knowing how hopeless this usually buoyant dude felt underground afterward? I’m gonna fucking bawl. I'm gonna do it.
Erik, you brilliant human being. You know how to tug at our heart strings. I gotta say, Asher may think that he may not be able to make those kind of decisions now, but he's still the right choice for beta. He didn't put in a second thought to run in there with David, his best friend. He may doubt himself for second guessing what he would have done in that situation, but his heart is in the right place. He did his best, protected those he could for however long he could and he deserves the world, just like everyone else that was there.
Asher being so hard on himself with understandable reasons... {I just wanna hug him and stay there for him} 🎇 _"You can rest your head on my chest, if you want, like you used to, i know it looks kinda bad but it won't hurt me, I promise. Thank you"_ 🎇 That touched my heart💫
3:16 "How do they already have that shit ready to go?!" RED FLAG ALERT RED FLAG ALERT Edit: Aaaash 🥺 I had literally no clue how Asher was gonna handle all this, this broke me 😢 So far in every video I've pictured the listeners pulling their boys in close and saying "I've got you" at least once. Practically all of them have said it to us at one point or another, it's time to give it back to them 🥺
Poor Ash...when he said the line about how some families were already starting to say goodbye, something in me just broke. I'm not entirely sure why, out of all of this inversion stuff so far, that one little part is what got me, but all I could think about after that is what I would have felt like if I was in that scenario. I don't necessarily have the best relationship with my family, but I'm close enough with them that the thought of losing them or my best friends to something like that absolutely tears me apart. I was practically sobbing throughout most of this audio thinking about it...If there's one thing I've taken from this arc so far, it's to treasure every. single. minute. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go tell the people in my life just how much I appreciate them :') Amazing job as always. Keep up the fantastic work.
WE WERE RIGHT IT WAS CLOSE-KNIT! THERE'S NO WAY THAT THEY WOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE A WHOLE ADD SO JUST A COUPLE OF DAYS AFTER THE EVENTS OF INVERSION! Like Asher said, they had been for some days at most they started playing 1-2 days after the Depression Games.
The pure raw emotion is Ash’s voice is heartbreaking, I think that the optimism of the other videos with Asher may have been taken for granted by myself. The writing and display of these videos is amazing Erik, thank you so much.
"And i don't know if David believed it..but i didn't" the gasp i gasped bro im crying and the end??? this is so much and Asher thinking he wanst good enough broke me :(
To hear Asher struggle with so much emotional pain like this is heart-wrenching, to say the least. With the entire scope of the Inversion aftermath, Asher's doubt, guilt, and insecurity as Pack Beta, as well as hearing his experience during the event... It's just downright heartbreaking 💔 There's no other way to explain it. And don't even get me started on the moment recalling he and David, saying their goodbyes, or just the last few minutes of this audio in general... 😭 The tagline for this series of Aftershock uploads with spot-on: Grief DOES take many shapes. And as always, this was another masterpiece of that storytelling and emotional expression. Beautiful work! Plus, the return of that CloseKnit ad... It sent a shiver of anxiety and mistrust down my spine. Something is up, clearly.
There's this saying my mom tells me when I keep overthinking about 'what ifs' "El hubiera no existe" basically it means "what could've happened doesn't exist". There's no sense in torturing yourself with what you could've done.
This notification popped up and I knew I was in for it man David’s hit like a damn truck, I’m ready for this one Edit: hi again besties so I was *NOT* ready for this-
Oh Ash... I hate hearing how he blames himself, even if I know it's human nature to do that. We see a tragedy like that and if we're that closely involved we cant help but fixate on our own deficiencies. But at the end of the day we're only people, and there's only so much we CAN do. Ash trying to find a way to save everyone wasn't an invalid idea even if David's call to put the ward up ALSO wasn't wrong. Wanting to save everyone even when you can't doesn't mean you're wrong, it just means its an impossible choice.
For that reason, among so many others, I'm dying for him to talk to Sunshine. She knows how it feels to keep having flashbacks to a traumatic experience, always with the "if only's" going on in her head. If only I hit the breaks faster, turned the wheel harder, etc., maybe I wouldn't have crashed the car and died.
I'm having imperium flashbacks helpppp. I would like to consider it a victory that I made it 2 videos into this week without crying but hearing Asher wrestle over his place in the pack to an extent that we haven't heard before is just wow. Not to mention all the listener characters feeling utterly helpless, knowing they can't relate or make anything stop is just a new kind of pain especially cause they all had different experiences with the Inversion... Beautiful work as always! Edit: smth about that last part, "You can rest your head on my chest ...if you want...like you used to..." like ouch. implication in that Babe trying not to hurt him, they may have hurt him by avoiding it
Asher has amazing character development. And how much he feels, how they’re brought up. It’s easy to relate to him. Maybe that’s why Asher is so loved by us all, because he’s so relatable and he lets himself be weak. He’s so strong, he lets himself feel what he feels and doesn’t isolate himself with them. He knows he doesn’t have to. Babe has his back. Always
I wanted to write something clever, but I can't. Just can't. Asher has a special place in my heart and this video has hit me harder than any other of the aftershock series so far. I'm in tears, excellent job 💔
when ash said “How am I supposed to be a leader in this pack if i cant even..” Its ok to make mistakes. he still has a lot to learn, but thats why it wasnt his turn to choose. and then he said “i heard every burst of magic and i could just sit there.” He did what he could until he couldnt anymore, its not his fault
man this is like actual art, seriously, wow, such raw grief and emotion. you gotta have some serious brains and experience to write a piece like this, wow. im just thoroughly impressed.
Becoming? (I started with the Brachium series, then the Elliott series, then switched to The Balance series when I figured out the two are connected. So for me, Close-knit was always sus. I just don't know what to think of Blake right now. Is he a desperate soul doing bad things to save someone he loves, or does he know full-well that the person he loves would prefer he let fate take her life, rather than taint his soul and destroy the world to protect her. And if he knows, but doesn't care, how do I feel about that? Conflicted. People do crazy things when they're in love, after all. Especially when Blake's info tag is "yandere," not "dream-walker."
Ash is so sweet and has a good heart. I can't even really put to words how I felt listening to this video. in certain ways can I relate to Ashs insecurities on his role as beta since I know that I would definitely doubt my capabilities if put into a role with so much responsibility but David chose Asher because Asher was who he trusted most and he believed Asher could do it. If I was in charge of a group of people it only makes sense that I'd hand over the care of those people to someone I trust the most. I think Ash is a great Beta it's shown by how supportive he is of David, how milo went to him to talk about the CloseKits Ads, and so much more.
I feel like Asher is downplaying his role in what happened during the Inversion, He absolutely made the "right decision", he made the choice to support David. He could have fought him on it, he has authority as Pack Beta, but he agreed with David and supported him. That's also making a decision.
First of all this is entirely devastating to hear Asher this way but the hesitant offer for babe to put their head on his chest at the end and him saying it wouldn't hurt him tore me apart. Then the soft 'thank you'. Poor Asher is breaking my heart but their relationship with each other is amazing and this portrayal of everyone coping with everything is just so amazing.
Every time I listen to one of these I feel so many different emotions. My brain starts thinking of ways to comfort each character; things I would say, things I would do... If that's not proof of how good Redacted is at this, I don't know what is
Jumping around audios and coming back to this one..I was sobbing nonstop 😭 right when Ash said he thought he wasn’t going to make it made me just imagining loosing him completely was when I completely broke down.😭😭 …and when he said “you can rest your head on my chest like you used to” even though he was injured really bad there broke my heart 😭
This hurts…this hurts so badly. To hear his pain and anguish. For him to think he’s anything less than capable is hard to hear. Listening to our sweet werewolf talk like is just rips me apart. Like I wanna go back and listen to his earlier audios but it doesn’t even feel right. Almost like I want to be in the present moment with them…I’m a wreck I’m sorry
It's so strange seeing this side of Asher we've never really gotten a chance to see these emotions from him and it makes me really curious about how he's coping and I'm interested to see this side of him maybe under more tame circumstances with the reverse comfort
Wow It sounds like not only puppy is feeling guilty, but babe is too Genuinely not knowing how to comfort the guy they love after something so terrible 😔
..where is the sweet boy I've been messing around with? I wish I could take your pain away but the only thing I can do is to hear you crying.. THAT HURTS AND I'M SORRY ASH
Oh my Gosh! The CloseKnit AD? 😱 And Milo found it? What about David? 🤷♀️ I hope he didn't watch this bullshit yet, but I have a bad feeling that soon the whole pack will have to find out and prepare for against CK. 🥺 I'm seeing more and more similarities between Asher's and my behavior. His character development is impressive as he slowly grows up to his role as a beta. Even if he doesn’t see or feel it that way, he did it day by day with small baby steps. And I'm so proud of him because I know how hard and scary could it be this for him. The change is never easy, especially when bad things happened to you. Honestly, I really appreciate and like him more and more as a character by now. ❤😊 It was a masterpiece again, thank you Erik. 🥰 It was maybe sad but better in some ways then the previous videos. It was sad too of course (and I want to hug him tightly to myself), but it eased my heart a little in its own way too. I don't know why but after this I feel relieved. 🤔🤷♀️😅 I look forward to the next video excitedly and terrified.
while he was talking about how he "choked" when the time came, i thought about it. asher hadn't "choked" about it, he'd been trying to think of another way, and if they had had more time, i'm sure they would've found one. david took quick action, which, in that specific scenario, was perfect. but there isn't always situations where it needs swift action. ashers personality is more of a thinker type, which means that in a situation where they have time to think and both of the obvious actions are horrible, ashers the right guy.
I feel so bad for being a bit mad At the fact that no one has even Thanked Sam for Saving Asher’s life that night.. I know David and Asher have a million other things to think about and I know Sam didn’t save Ash expecting anything in return, and to Ash’s defense, based on this video he doesn’t remember those couple of minutes when he woke up and was surrounded my David and Sam in the arena and honestly I’m mad at myself for being mad 😭😭😭
When he started to cry.. I was like this🥺 And after he just said everything about his feelings I had a lot to tell him to make him feel better and I did He deserves best ❤
This was one of my more interested ones if this recovering part. So far the reactions I’ve predicted from the characters we’ve gotten have been pretty spot on but Asher’s was one I was a bit stumped on. So hearing this was very interesting along with heartbreaking. He is such a gentle would and though he focuses on his short coming David saw those shortcomings and chose him I spit of them not be wise he’s his best friend. But because his positive qualities are stronger than those. Asher may not (right now) be alpha material. And sure in that situation he might have choked a bit. But once it was all laid out his hesitation was gone and ran. He was what David needed. And I feel like he looses sight of that. He didn’t need to be like david. He needs to be the best version of him he can. But something that was touched in a bit in the audio and what I’ve been curious on is the feeling of the listeners of our beloved characters because as spoken on in lasko and Damien’s audio just because they were there or in that side of the ward doesn’t mean they weren’t effected. So I’m very curious on how they are taking this situation and how that is going to affect things. Amazing work Erik I haven’t been this invested in a TH-cam series in a very long time well done on pulling my heart string banana fish style :,) keep up the good work.
I Just Gotta Say This, I Fumkin Love Scars As Someone Who Has Some I Love Them I Like To Trace Over Them Idk Why But Scars Make Me Happy (I Fell Like Its Weird)
They orchestrated the whole thing, and from what I can gather, the inversion series was only one step toward a larger goal. Bad crap is about to go down. Or, to put it another way... The solid fecal matter is about to collide with the circular oxygen-moving rotational device. (Sh*t is about to hit the fan.)
The shatter marks behind the symbol break my heart. It’s like a mirror has been broken. And it’s on David’s too. Angel and Baabe can help this or fix this, right?
Reason why Ash is the best choice for being beta? I feel like David had an idea of what kinda alpha he would be and he, being asher’s best friend, knew Ash would be the best choice to balance him out and make up for his, sometimes, lack of empathy or patience to deal with the little, seemingly insignificant stuff. He also took his relationship with Ash into account, knowing if he ever made a decision, his closest friend wouldn’t second guess following him into fire unless he thought his plan could be improved. This means David trusts Asher to make the decisions he can’t make and KNOWS his style is the most compatible with Davey’s. David is probably the closest one to knowing how much Ash can do, stuff no one else can see. He believes in ash enough to know he’ll try to improve himself and knows everything works the same with someone he’s so familiar with. He trusts Ash to never become corrupt and to keep him in check like how he does for him. In summary of this love rant: Davey really was thinking about the good of the pack, and he knows Ash the is the best candidate because he knows ash the best. Ash is also the only person we know from the pack so far who we are sure would 100% try to overthrow Davey if he knew he had to. He is also the least likely to do it for any personal issues. They put equal trust in each other, and that is the best you can expect of great leaders
I swear to god I thought this was going to be the one that broke me. The ep where Asher was feeling self conscious about himself and he just seemed to shut down, that’s what I thought was going to happen and I was terrified for it. But instead we got Asher breaking down which is heart breaking to hear but thankfully not what I was fearing I would be hearing. Now I’m just scared for tomorrow because I have a feeling Huxley is gonna go into his hole of “I’m a calming energy, I need to be that for everyone around me and I can’t let them know how much I’m hurting”. So I hope I wrong again because then freelancer and Huxley will be chilling in that same whole together, trying to console the other and that will hurt to watch.
I really waited half an hour for this but who cares :D Reminder! I should be sleeping rn😃👍 What Asher said abt the add, is literally true. When I first listened to the add, the first thing that came on my mind was that it was disgusting :/ - In my opinion if Milo didn’t get help to take the ward down. More than 1500 people would’ve died. It’s so sad hearing Asher talking bad/negative abt himself. And him stressing abt the future to is just something I also can relate stressing abt.. 15:45 …:( 17:55 Omg no!!? The way he changes from talking negative abt himself to helping us!😭☹️ I really love Asher so much from the bottom of my heart. I hope the future gets better for all!! (Expect the water a$$h0le😒)
Oh no… my heart, I’m scared… The scar made me sad… I 100% believe that Milo has suspicions about closeknit, especially with how fast that ad was ready. Oh…. Oh I think I’m scared of Asher when he’s angry… I was 100% right. I wasn’t ready nor do I think I’ll ever be to hear Asher this upset ever again 🥲 I’m increasingly finding it harder to be optimistic about these boys, and it’s breaking my heart, because i was screaming during inversion about how Davey and Asher were gonna be ok. And how they were all gonna make it out, but like… they’re in so much pain…
I cried. My Asher boy… my poor Asher boy… I just wanted to tell him that he is still so handsome and that I love him so much. God i need to stop becoming overly attached to people that don’t exist. Right now it’s a coping thing so I don’t have to worry about it right now
I felt Ash was being way too hard on himself. He can’t act like he would make the wrong choice when he wasn’t even there. It’s almost like he's comparing himself to his best friend because he thinks David is so amazing and he isn’t…
does anyone know if there’s a place i could find transcripts/summaries for each of these videos? i really would like to catch up, but i don’t think i have the emotional capacity to actually LISTEN to these right now
*me knowing damn well what i would have done in that situation* (for context if i was the commisionor, i would have accepted outside help and get the ward down sooner)
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I’m sorry is no one gonna talk about the end where he’s like “you can still rest your head on my chest, like you used to” like BRUH THAT BROKE MY HEART BABE DIDNT WANNA HURT HIM
Also he's self conscious about his scars at the beginning of the vid, so he's being vulnerable like _ik they're gnarly but do u still love me?_ 🥺 and when Babe lays down he says _t h a n k y o u_ 😭😭😭
*(don't look at me im soft)* 🥺😭😭
Whoa! This is a whole new side of Asher--hearing his self-consciousness and anger and hurt just hits so deep. I went into this not knowing how he would be responding. All of the characters thus far have such unique takes on what happened, but they all still felt like themselves. Hearing all this from Asher shows just how deeply impacted he is and that anger and frustration are so raw coming from him. Amazing writing and characterization!
....well, hearing him say he didn't think he was gonna make it out of there even when he was still so positive...Holy cow. I think I have taken Asher's optimism for granted. That is raw and heartbreaking.
The way Ash instantly went from tearing himself down for not being enough to reassuring Babe that they are helping enough just by being there 🥺 Ash did you just hear yourself?? I know it's going to take some time for you to believe it for yourself, but we'll believe it for you til then.
I'm always floored by the details Erik uses to bring this world alive. Imagining Ash lying underground, dealing with a mortal wound, only lucid enough to listen to people speak what they believe to be their last words. Chills.
Asher has always been so in touch with his feelings, more so than he gave himself credit for in his first reverse comfort. This hurts, hearing him so vulnerable and so much in pain, but the fact he knows he can and does rely on his mate is beautiful. The softness at the end about saying they could rest their head on his chest the way they used to, that it looked bad but it didn't hurt and then the relief when they did? God I love him and I love this even though I'm crying again
Ashey.... I want him to be ok.....
Hearing Asher wrestle with imposter syndrome hit hard. I don’t think he understands what a key role he is to David’s success as pack leader. David seems to get insane tunnel vision sometimes, and I’m glad that Ash was there in the control room to wonder out loud if there was another way. When he said that David had been asking the right questions, I feel like wondering if there was *any* other alternative was absolutely a right question, even if they could only dwell on it for a second.
I can’t say wether Ash would have made the right decision or not. I *believe* he would have, because he would have had to, but he might not have, I don’t know. But I don’t think him being aware of the incalculable value of people’s lives and trying to figure out how not to lose them is proof of his incompetence, it’s just… proof he has a heart. And David has as much a heart as Asher, but he’s the alpha. He’s been making the tough calls for years because he’s had to. I feel like David came to the conclusion that there was no other way quicker than Ash because he’s had a lot of practice (though obviously not with anything of this magnitude).
But when push came to shove, Asher acted as pack beta in a way that was more than exemplary. He supported his alpha’s decision and followed him into danger. It’s very normal, after experiencing traumatic events, to be so focused on the “what ifs” that we lose sight of “what was”, but I hope in the future Asher’s able to recognize that, when faced with this impossible situation, he *was* what he needed to be and did what he needed to do. He stood by David’s side as his beta and his best friend.
I’m beyond proud of him (I’m proud of all our bois!!!!! (except the water bitch, obviously 🙄))
The fact you broke my heart then made me cackle with “except the water bitch” is amazing and painful thank you.
you giving such a detailed explanation about asher and the boys then calling kody water bitch sent me
Asher callin out CloseKnit for the cult they are 👏👏👏
Is that a CloseKnit ad I hear?-"How did they have that ready to go?"- Indeed, how did they, I wonder?
-The cracks in the cassette case are reminiscent of the scars the characters have.
"I made it. That's the biggest thing...It's proof I'm still here."- Your scars make you beautiful.
"When we said goodbye, it felt like goodbye."💔- That hurts to hear.
"Can I hold you?"- YES!!!
"You can rest your head on my chest if you want, like you used to. I know it looks kinda bad, but it won't hurt me. I promise."😭😭😭
Ash, my sweet boy, nooooo.
When he said that the scars were there to stay, I said to myself: "Well, it looks like my devastatingly handsome man is now a rugged, devastatingly handsome man." And when he said he was self conscious I cried.
Honestly, his impostor syndrome is understandable. But, Davey is a good judge of character. He picked Ash to be his beta because of his reliability...and no doubt his ability to keep Davey on his toes. I think Ash's questioning of his decision was what Davey needed at the time. Audibly working through the possibilities no doubt helped Davey cement his plan.
Redacted. Why you gotta do this to me, man?? I've never been this invested in an audio drama before. This is killing me. (Thank you for sharing your talents).
Poor Darlin, it must be so difficult to watch all their pack members go through this much pain when they couldn’t help 🥺
The wolf pack just needs to get in the same room with each other and talk all of this out. What a gripping audio. Thanks for sharing!
I saw “Goodbye” and I thought. Thank gods it wasn’t that but still. Asher, honey. I’m just balling my eyes out now.
THATS WHAT I THOUGHT!!!!!
AHHHHHHH
There’s something special about Asher. When I hear about his fears and anxieties (in his other reverse comfort, too) it resonates in a certain way - like I know I would feel the same way, in his position? Or as if someone was trying to explain me to myself? It just clicks. He’s mesmerizing in a different way from the other characters - not more so or less than them! But in a uniquely relatable and incredibly tangible sense. Gets right in the chest and sits there for a while. I could only dream of being as good of a friend or as emotionally intelligent as he is, but I always get the feeling that I know exactly where he is coming from. Don’t know if that makes sense, but reader's digest version ... He’s amazing. I cried. I hope Baaabe hugs the shit out of him. Yeah.
Not to mention: re-listening to the David and Asher Inversion conversation, knowing now how that felt for Asher? That he thought it might be the last one they ever had and yet put on such a brave face for David, supporting him emotionally that way?? Or knowing how hopeless this usually buoyant dude felt underground afterward? I’m gonna fucking bawl. I'm gonna do it.
"How did they already have that stuff ready to go?" YES ASH THAT IS SUSPICIOUS LET'S FOLLOW THAT LINE OF QUESTIONING
Erik, you brilliant human being. You know how to tug at our heart strings.
I gotta say, Asher may think that he may not be able to make those kind of decisions now, but he's still the right choice for beta. He didn't put in a second thought to run in there with David, his best friend. He may doubt himself for second guessing what he would have done in that situation, but his heart is in the right place. He did his best, protected those he could for however long he could and he deserves the world, just like everyone else that was there.
Asher being so hard on himself with understandable reasons... {I just wanna hug him and stay there for him}
🎇 _"You can rest your head on my chest, if you want, like you used to, i know it looks kinda bad but it won't hurt me, I promise. Thank you"_ 🎇 That touched my heart💫
Same here.
I’m gonna cry
3:16 "How do they already have that shit ready to go?!"
RED FLAG ALERT RED FLAG ALERT
Edit: Aaaash 🥺 I had literally no clue how Asher was gonna handle all this, this broke me 😢
So far in every video I've pictured the listeners pulling their boys in close and saying "I've got you" at least once. Practically all of them have said it to us at one point or another, it's time to give it back to them 🥺
Poor Ash...when he said the line about how some families were already starting to say goodbye, something in me just broke. I'm not entirely sure why, out of all of this inversion stuff so far, that one little part is what got me, but all I could think about after that is what I would have felt like if I was in that scenario. I don't necessarily have the best relationship with my family, but I'm close enough with them that the thought of losing them or my best friends to something like that absolutely tears me apart. I was practically sobbing throughout most of this audio thinking about it...If there's one thing I've taken from this arc so far, it's to treasure every. single. minute.
Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go tell the people in my life just how much I appreciate them :')
Amazing job as always. Keep up the fantastic work.
WE WERE RIGHT IT WAS CLOSE-KNIT! THERE'S NO WAY THAT THEY WOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE A WHOLE ADD SO JUST A COUPLE OF DAYS AFTER THE EVENTS OF INVERSION!
Like Asher said, they had been for some days at most they started playing 1-2 days after the Depression Games.
The pure raw emotion is Ash’s voice is heartbreaking, I think that the optimism of the other videos with Asher may have been taken for granted by myself.
The writing and display of these videos is amazing Erik, thank you so much.
'When we said goodbye, it felt like goodbye.' 🥺 That line smacked me right in the face.
"And i don't know if David believed it..but i didn't" the gasp i gasped bro im crying and the end??? this is so much and Asher thinking he wanst good enough broke me :(
To hear Asher struggle with so much emotional pain like this is heart-wrenching, to say the least. With the entire scope of the Inversion aftermath, Asher's doubt, guilt, and insecurity as Pack Beta, as well as hearing his experience during the event... It's just downright heartbreaking 💔 There's no other way to explain it. And don't even get me started on the moment recalling he and David, saying their goodbyes, or just the last few minutes of this audio in general... 😭 The tagline for this series of Aftershock uploads with spot-on: Grief DOES take many shapes. And as always, this was another masterpiece of that storytelling and emotional expression. Beautiful work!
Plus, the return of that CloseKnit ad... It sent a shiver of anxiety and mistrust down my spine. Something is up, clearly.
There's this saying my mom tells me when I keep overthinking about 'what ifs' "El hubiera no existe" basically it means "what could've happened doesn't exist". There's no sense in torturing yourself with what you could've done.
Your mom is wise then, very good words to live by ❤️
This notification popped up and I knew I was in for it man
David’s hit like a damn truck, I’m ready for this one
Edit: hi again besties so I was *NOT* ready for this-
listening to him try and crack jokes, and quickly gather himself after he started crying broke my heart. it’s okay not to be okay. poor asher.
Oh Ash...
I hate hearing how he blames himself, even if I know it's human nature to do that. We see a tragedy like that and if we're that closely involved we cant help but fixate on our own deficiencies. But at the end of the day we're only people, and there's only so much we CAN do. Ash trying to find a way to save everyone wasn't an invalid idea even if David's call to put the ward up ALSO wasn't wrong. Wanting to save everyone even when you can't doesn't mean you're wrong, it just means its an impossible choice.
For that reason, among so many others, I'm dying for him to talk to Sunshine. She knows how it feels to keep having flashbacks to a traumatic experience, always with the "if only's" going on in her head. If only I hit the breaks faster, turned the wheel harder, etc., maybe I wouldn't have crashed the car and died.
I just wanna hold Asher and never let go
Me too, he’s been through a lot :( especially pressure too, one can’t help but feel bad
I'm having imperium flashbacks helpppp. I would like to consider it a victory that I made it 2 videos into this week without crying but hearing Asher wrestle over his place in the pack to an extent that we haven't heard before is just wow. Not to mention all the listener characters feeling utterly helpless, knowing they can't relate or make anything stop is just a new kind of pain especially cause they all had different experiences with the Inversion... Beautiful work as always!
Edit: smth about that last part, "You can rest your head on my chest ...if you want...like you used to..." like ouch. implication in that Babe trying not to hurt him, they may have hurt him by avoiding it
Asher has amazing character development. And how much he feels, how they’re brought up. It’s easy to relate to him. Maybe that’s why Asher is so loved by us all, because he’s so relatable and he lets himself be weak. He’s so strong, he lets himself feel what he feels and doesn’t isolate himself with them. He knows he doesn’t have to. Babe has his back. Always
There needs to be an Oscar-like award for Audio Dramas like this.
I wanted to write something clever, but I can't. Just can't. Asher has a special place in my heart and this video has hit me harder than any other of the aftershock series so far. I'm in tears, excellent job 💔
when ash said
“How am I supposed to be a leader in this pack if i cant even..”
Its ok to make mistakes. he still has a lot to learn, but thats why it wasnt his turn to choose.
and then he said “i heard every burst of magic and i could just sit there.” He did what he could until he couldnt anymore, its not his fault
man this is like actual art, seriously, wow, such raw grief and emotion. you gotta have some serious brains and experience to write a piece like this, wow. im just thoroughly impressed.
The wanting to do more hit hard. A lot of memories... One in particular came up. The hurt is always there even if you're not thinking about it.
during gavins love confession video i was sobbing into my salad, now im sobbing into my hot coca
asher 😭😭 you poor soul
I've never though id feel this much pain from a character it sucks to hear asher sound so sad just really hits hard
Ok, so CloseKnit is becoming the bigger villain… interesting… interesting…
Becoming? (I started with the Brachium series, then the Elliott series, then switched to The Balance series when I figured out the two are connected. So for me, Close-knit was always sus. I just don't know what to think of Blake right now. Is he a desperate soul doing bad things to save someone he loves, or does he know full-well that the person he loves would prefer he let fate take her life, rather than taint his soul and destroy the world to protect her. And if he knows, but doesn't care, how do I feel about that? Conflicted. People do crazy things when they're in love, after all. Especially when Blake's info tag is "yandere," not "dream-walker."
Ash is so sweet and has a good heart. I can't even really put to words how I felt listening to this video.
in certain ways can I relate to Ashs insecurities on his role as beta since I know that I would definitely doubt my capabilities if put into a role with so much responsibility but David chose Asher because Asher was who he trusted most and he believed Asher could do it. If I was in charge of a group of people it only makes sense that I'd hand over the care of those people to someone I trust the most. I think Ash is a great Beta it's shown by how supportive he is of David, how milo went to him to talk about the CloseKits Ads, and so much more.
he fr just blamed himself & then tried to comfort us?? the world does not DESERVE ash
I feel like Asher is downplaying his role in what happened during the Inversion, He absolutely made the "right decision", he made the choice to support David. He could have fought him on it, he has authority as Pack Beta, but he agreed with David and supported him. That's also making a decision.
First of all this is entirely devastating to hear Asher this way but the hesitant offer for babe to put their head on his chest at the end and him saying it wouldn't hurt him tore me apart. Then the soft 'thank you'. Poor Asher is breaking my heart but their relationship with each other is amazing and this portrayal of everyone coping with everything is just so amazing.
Every time I listen to one of these I feel so many different emotions. My brain starts thinking of ways to comfort each character; things I would say, things I would do... If that's not proof of how good Redacted is at this, I don't know what is
Jumping around audios and coming back to this one..I was sobbing nonstop 😭 right when Ash said he thought he wasn’t going to make it made me just imagining loosing him completely was when I completely broke down.😭😭 …and when he said “you can rest your head on my chest like you used to” even though he was injured really bad there broke my heart 😭
This hurts…this hurts so badly. To hear his pain and anguish. For him to think he’s anything less than capable is hard to hear. Listening to our sweet werewolf talk like is just rips me apart. Like I wanna go back and listen to his earlier audios but it doesn’t even feel right. Almost like I want to be in the present moment with them…I’m a wreck I’m sorry
it hurts so much to see him like this😭💔
It's so strange seeing this side of Asher we've never really gotten a chance to see these emotions from him and it makes me really curious about how he's coping and I'm interested to see this side of him maybe under more tame circumstances with the reverse comfort
Love seeing this more serious side of Ash, I love him🥺🥺🥺
OKAY i read the title and read it as controlling your werewolf boyfriend and i was like hUh?
I knew this one was gonna hurt but Holy Hell... Ouch. 😭😭
Fantastic job as always.
Wow
It sounds like not only puppy is feeling guilty, but babe is too
Genuinely not knowing how to comfort the guy they love after something so terrible 😔
20:20 my heart😭😭😭😭
ow ow ow ow ow the last line about the scar??? OWWWWWWW THAT HURT
Me casually writing a huge project due in line *four days*
TH-cam: . . "R-"
Me: SHUT UP AND GIMME MY HEADPHONES :D
School can wait
My lil baby😭😭😭😭😭 this had me in tears, I love asher so much and I would give anything to hear him and Davey laugh and joke again🥺
I’m finally listening to the audios and cried in every single one so far and I have one felt that is David’s and Asher’s is… wow
The “Bebe how can I be a leader in the pack”broke me 😢
Okay...My heart hurts for Asher! TAT The poor, sweet wolfie! I didn't really wanna cry, but...I need tissues!
..where is the sweet boy I've been messing around with? I wish I could take your pain away but the only thing I can do is to hear you crying.. THAT HURTS AND I'M SORRY ASH
Oh my Gosh! The CloseKnit AD? 😱 And Milo found it? What about David? 🤷♀️ I hope he didn't watch this bullshit yet, but I have a bad feeling that soon the whole pack will have to find out and prepare for against CK. 🥺
I'm seeing more and more similarities between Asher's and my behavior.
His character development is impressive as he slowly grows up to his role as a beta. Even if he doesn’t see or feel it that way, he did it day by day with small baby steps. And I'm so proud of him because I know how hard and scary could it be this for him. The change is never easy, especially when bad things happened to you. Honestly, I really appreciate and like him more and more as a character by now. ❤😊
It was a masterpiece again, thank you Erik. 🥰 It was maybe sad but better in some ways then the previous videos. It was sad too of course (and I want to hug him tightly to myself), but it eased my heart a little in its own way too. I don't know why but after this I feel relieved. 🤔🤷♀️😅
I look forward to the next video excitedly and terrified.
Legit started crying and hugging my pillow.
My heart is hurting for Asher our poor sweet baby 😭
For some reason I dunno why but ash broke me the most so far out of the audios 😭💔
while he was talking about how he "choked" when the time came, i thought about it.
asher hadn't "choked" about it, he'd been trying to think of another way, and if they had had more time, i'm sure they would've found one.
david took quick action, which, in that specific scenario, was perfect. but there isn't always situations where it needs swift action.
ashers personality is more of a thinker type, which means that in a situation where they have time to think and both of the obvious actions are horrible, ashers the right guy.
Awwww! Asheeeeer! I love him! Love it!
Ah yes, I appear to be in tears again :((
I feel so bad for being a bit mad At the fact that no one has even Thanked Sam for Saving Asher’s life that night.. I know David and Asher have a million other things to think about and I know Sam didn’t save Ash expecting anything in return, and to Ash’s defense, based on this video he doesn’t remember those couple of minutes when he woke up and was surrounded my David and Sam in the arena and honestly I’m mad at myself for being mad 😭😭😭
Sam was a haler befor he was turn in to a vampire by aexlis
@@kyliesawyer9330 I know-
Okay i teared up almost cried...shit i want to hug asher so bad 🥺
When he started to cry.. I was like this🥺
And after he just said everything about his feelings I had a lot to tell him to make him feel better and I did
He deserves best ❤
Poor Asher...This killed me
so very sweet and heartfelt. ❤
So beautifully written and so beautifully acted I'm floored
This was one of my more interested ones if this recovering part. So far the reactions I’ve predicted from the characters we’ve gotten have been pretty spot on but Asher’s was one I was a bit stumped on. So hearing this was very interesting along with heartbreaking. He is such a gentle would and though he focuses on his short coming David saw those shortcomings and chose him I spit of them not be wise he’s his best friend. But because his positive qualities are stronger than those. Asher may not (right now) be alpha material. And sure in that situation he might have choked a bit. But once it was all laid out his hesitation was gone and ran. He was what David needed. And I feel like he looses sight of that. He didn’t need to be like david. He needs to be the best version of him he can. But something that was touched in a bit in the audio and what I’ve been curious on is the feeling of the listeners of our beloved characters because as spoken on in lasko and Damien’s audio just because they were there or in that side of the ward doesn’t mean they weren’t effected. So I’m very curious on how they are taking this situation and how that is going to affect things. Amazing work Erik I haven’t been this invested in a TH-cam series in a very long time well done on pulling my heart string banana fish style :,) keep up the good work.
I never thought Asher was someone who's concerned about scars😮 or is it more like he'll remember the Inversion every time he looks in the mirror?
I Just Gotta Say This, I Fumkin Love Scars As Someone Who Has Some I Love Them I Like To Trace Over Them Idk Why But Scars Make Me Happy (I Fell Like Its Weird)
my sweet sweet boy 😭
edit: also did close-knit plan this? Erik omg what have we gotten ourselves into
They orchestrated the whole thing, and from what I can gather, the inversion series was only one step toward a larger goal. Bad crap is about to go down.
Or, to put it another way...
The solid fecal matter is about to collide with the circular oxygen-moving rotational device.
(Sh*t is about to hit the fan.)
The shatter marks behind the symbol break my heart. It’s like a mirror has been broken. And it’s on David’s too. Angel and Baabe can help this or fix this, right?
I could just hear Babe whispering "you're my hero" as they cuddle in bed, and it tore my already flimsy heart to pieces 😢
Reason why Ash is the best choice for being beta? I feel like David had an idea of what kinda alpha he would be and he, being asher’s best friend, knew Ash would be the best choice to balance him out and make up for his, sometimes, lack of empathy or patience to deal with the little, seemingly insignificant stuff. He also took his relationship with Ash into account, knowing if he ever made a decision, his closest friend wouldn’t second guess following him into fire unless he thought his plan could be improved. This means David trusts Asher to make the decisions he can’t make and KNOWS his style is the most compatible with Davey’s. David is probably the closest one to knowing how much Ash can do, stuff no one else can see. He believes in ash enough to know he’ll try to improve himself and knows everything works the same with someone he’s so familiar with. He trusts Ash to never become corrupt and to keep him in check like how he does for him.
In summary of this love rant: Davey really was thinking about the good of the pack, and he knows Ash the is the best candidate because he knows ash the best. Ash is also the only person we know from the pack so far who we are sure would 100% try to overthrow Davey if he knew he had to. He is also the least likely to do it for any personal issues. They put equal trust in each other, and that is the best you can expect of great leaders
I swear to god I thought this was going to be the one that broke me. The ep where Asher was feeling self conscious about himself and he just seemed to shut down, that’s what I thought was going to happen and I was terrified for it. But instead we got Asher breaking down which is heart breaking to hear but thankfully not what I was fearing I would be hearing. Now I’m just scared for tomorrow because I have a feeling Huxley is gonna go into his hole of “I’m a calming energy, I need to be that for everyone around me and I can’t let them know how much I’m hurting”. So I hope I wrong again because then freelancer and Huxley will be chilling in that same whole together, trying to console the other and that will hurt to watch.
I really waited half an hour for this but who cares :D
Reminder! I should be sleeping rn😃👍
What Asher said abt the add, is literally true. When I first listened to the add, the first thing that came on my mind was that it was disgusting :/
- In my opinion if Milo didn’t get help to take the ward down. More than 1500 people would’ve died.
It’s so sad hearing Asher talking bad/negative abt himself. And him stressing abt the future to is just something I also can relate stressing abt..
15:45 …:(
17:55 Omg no!!? The way he changes from talking negative abt himself to helping us!😭☹️
I really love Asher so much from the bottom of my heart. I hope the future gets better for all!!
(Expect the water a$$h0le😒)
Oh no… my heart, I’m scared…
The scar made me sad…
I 100% believe that Milo has suspicions about closeknit, especially with how fast that ad was ready.
Oh…. Oh I think I’m scared of Asher when he’s angry…
I was 100% right. I wasn’t ready nor do I think I’ll ever be to hear Asher this upset ever again 🥲
I’m increasingly finding it harder to be optimistic about these boys, and it’s breaking my heart, because i was screaming during inversion about how Davey and Asher were gonna be ok. And how they were all gonna make it out, but like… they’re in so much pain…
i'm not gonna keep up the trend of me writing huge long paragraphs bc i don't wanna, but as always, it was hella good :)
Alright my heart is definitely broken 💔😭
Hopefully, this will move on to happy things bc I'm crying a lot and now my parents think I'm so sensitive
ASHER MY BABY :((((((((((( erik ur so evil yet so talented i lov everything u do
I cried. My Asher boy… my poor Asher boy… I just wanted to tell him that he is still so handsome and that I love him so much. God i need to stop becoming overly attached to people that don’t exist. Right now it’s a coping thing so I don’t have to worry about it right now
If only there was a way to just take everyone’s pain away 😔
The video is 21:29
It's been out for 6 minutes
How the hiking hek are there already 311 likes and 48 comments?
Some lucky people have early access!
Cucumber Approved 🥒
I see you everywhere
I feel bad for milos mate
Sameeee
The cassette cracks hurt
Noooo Asher sweetie :((
Asher my fav man
Bro made me ball my eyes out then put me to sleep wtf lol
i put off listening to this and now i want to scream and cry and throw up
I felt Ash was being way too hard on himself. He can’t act like he would make the wrong choice when he wasn’t even there. It’s almost like he's comparing himself to his best friend because he thinks David is so amazing and he isn’t…
These are breaking my heart bro 😐
does anyone know if there’s a place i could find transcripts/summaries for each of these videos? i really would like to catch up, but i don’t think i have the emotional capacity to actually LISTEN to these right now
I second this! I can’t listen but I need to know what is happening
*me knowing damn well what i would have done in that situation* (for context if i was the commisionor, i would have accepted outside help and get the ward down sooner)
…this hurts this really hurts tomorrow is going to kill me